DIVINE ANUBHAVS

JAIPUR DARSHAN-I DARSHANHari Om As I checked out, everyone on this group is doing his bit of seva, so by the grace of Pujya GuruDev one thought crossed my mind that I should post some anubhavs of GuruDevJi's holy darshan which I have witnessed and believe me, each of these darshans are like GuruDev in poorna mauj and my tongue can't describe it but I know you all can understand it, as rightly said, it's like Goonge kaa Gud (a dumb man's jaggery) like a dumb can't explain what is sweetness of jaggery, only you have to taste it to feel it, the same way I'm doing my bit but Pujya GuruDev ki us masti ko shabdon me bayan karna sambhav hi nahin hain. Om Gam Gam Ganpataye Namah Om Shri Sadguru Parmatmane Namah OM OM OM

JAIPUR DARSHAN-I DARSHANWe all went to Jaipur when GuruDev was in ekant in Jaipur ashram in the month of Aug05 for getting satsang for Gurgaon. We all waited till evening and at 5.35PM in the evening GuruDev came, but not towards us, HE went directly towards the cow that was tied in one corner of ashram. BapuJi fed the cow with grass aur apne hathon se gau kee peeth ko sehlane lage. Itne mein ashramwasi ek aur gau aur uske bachde ko bhi le aaye, GuruDev ne apni karuna kripa un teenon gau par barsai, hadd to tab hui jab GuruDev apni chadar se gau ko ragad ragad kar saaf kar rahe the. Us samay to aisa prateet ho raha tha jaise sakshat Bhagwan Krishan gau k sath khel rahein ho. Mere GuruDev aisi leela karte hain ki unka andaj ....... lajawab hain, I'm not finding words to explain that, neither am I in a postion to explain that. After that GuruDev went back to his kutia and asked ashram sadhaks to get the cows in. Everyone was turned out of kutia. Only the cows and GuruDev were in the kutia and Govind bhai (BapuJi's security person) was sitting at the gate. One thing I forgot to mention that while returning to kutia the calf started running behind Bapu like the calfs used to do with Lord Krishna and at that moment GuruDevs paduka got stuck in wet mud, HE left HIS paduka over there and started walking bare foot, Dinesh bhai came running with GuruDev's other pair of slippers.

JAIPUR DARSHAN-I DARSHANAfter spending around half hour with cows GuruDev came out in the pandal, sat on the chair and in his mauj talked to us. I'll tell about that in another mail. One more thing, the night before, GuruDev did chowki of ashram as everyone was asleep in ashram, GuruDev remained awake till wee hours of the morning and did chowki of ashram, I'll tell about that later, how GuruDev Himself told all this to us. Hey Pyare GuruDev agar kuch trutiyan reh gayi ho to shama karnaa. I had to edit some portions of this as those were my feelings and I couldnt dare write all that as that's some secret between me and GuruDev. Manish Kalra

JAIPUR DARSHAN-II DARSHANHari Om Param Pujya GuruDev k charnon mein koti koti vandan. Jaipur darshan contd: When GuruDev came to pandal, the ladies started making noise. GuruDev had come after doing evening sandhya, so he was in his OwnSelf and seeing all the ladies making noise, went back. After 10 minutes BapuJi came back (baahar se kathor dikhte hue bhi Guru kaa hriday ander se phool k tarah komal hota hee hain), sat on a chair. On the table in front of HIM was a rose garland, some flowers, a small silver box with chandan in it (some sadhak had kept that for GuruDev) GuruDev said, Main samiti se milne ke liye aaya hoon, badi door se aaye hain ye log. Kaun kaun si samiti hain. Samitis of a few cities stood up. GuruDev said Ek ek karke batao, kaun kya karta hain while pointing towards Gurgaon samiti. Our pradhan started speaking with GuruDev 's aagya and the rest of members also told about themselves. I was hesitating a bit as I was not able to gain courage to open my mouth in front of Poorna Brahma. I was spell bound. GuruDev looked at me and said "Ab bache hue log bhi apne baare mein jaldi bata do, and the Gurukripa, I was the only one left, GuruDev was looking at me only. I told about myself, GuruDev talked to me for 1 more minute about something and then started asking about other samitis, we became selfish and as GuruDev once had said that Gurgaon will get poonam satsang so we requested GuruDev for four day satsang and give rakshabandhan poonam in Gurgaon. GuruDev said nothing and started talking to other samitis.

JAIPUR DARSHAN-II DARSHANA person from Dadri samiti stood up and prayed to GuruDev for GuruDevs satsang in Dadri, GuruDev said laughingly, satsang thoda muskil hain hum ho ke nikal jayenge. At which the saem person who used to work in UAE and stayed in Dadri, prayed again. BapuJi listened to other samitis also. And then GuruDev started kirtan and took all of us in dhyan on bansi, on the Omkar kirtan. After around 15-20 minutes, everyone was in a deep silence and GuruDev breaking the silence started talking to ladies and enquired how much did they spent coming to ashram, some said Rs.100, some said Rs.150. at which GuruDev said not to spend that much and asked them not to come the next day. GuruDev at one point also said that ladies should come to ashram on Thursdays and Sundays, as it's not possible for them to come everyday. GuruDev further said even when he is in ekant, they should come only on Thursdays and Sundays and then said launghingly that koee na koee Guruvaar ya Ravivar to pad hi jayega, aur aapko darhsan bhi ho jayenge. During all this mobile of a person from Gurgaon rang and GuruDev said Mobile jabt kar lo, 6 mahine baad de dena par savdhan, koi mobile ka istemal na karen, agar kisi ne is dauran ek call bhi ki to 100 rupye ka jurmana and later after 10 minutes said ek call ka 10 rupye aur usse jyada ka 100 rupya. Fir bole ki sim ise de do aur handset rakho. Satsang mein vighn ki saja hain. I was just looking at GuruDevs lilaas and smiling in my heart, seeing all this, what happened after is more intersting and shows how GuruDev plans for his sadhakas.

JAIPUR DARSHAN-II DARSHANGuudev then started giving dates to samitis and gave half day satsang to Dadri, at which one person from Dadri spoke up, GuruDev Sunday ko satsang de dijiye, bahut public aa payegi at which GuruDev showed a bit of narajgi and said Sunday ko satsang chahiye, to yeh satsang cancel aur 10 saal baad aana. At which all of us started praying to GuruDev not to say this but only HE knows what he has in his mind. GuruDev didnt cancel the satsang but HE wanted to tell us a important thing, I apologise i dont remember exact wording but GuruDev meant, Guru ke samne maryada ka ullanghan nahin karna chahiye aur Guru jo kripa kar k de dein usme hi santosh karna chahiye. The person who said all this was scared but GuruDev to kripa ke sindhu hain. Unhone us vyakti se poocha, kya karta hain, he had some business of grains in Anaj mandi somewhere, at which GuruDev said, that's why you talked like this. And then GuruDev started asking him rates of various grains like jau, bajra etc for cows in gaushala. After that GuruDev asked people from Jaipur " Abhi hum ekant mein hain, phir bhi itni bhid ho gayi hain, kisi ne kisi ko nahin bataya ki Bapu yahan hai" BapuJi further said jokingly Kal itwar hai, kal itwar ka satsang hoga, kisi ko mat batana phir bhi sabko pata lag jata hain, sab doosro ko kehte hain - Bapu ekant mein hain, kisi ko mat batana, aur aise hi sabko pata lag jata hai lekin koi kisi ko nahin batata.

JAIPUR DARSHAN-II DARSHAN(I dont exactly remember at which point GuruDev said this in start or in the end so I apologise) GuruDev said to Gurgaon samiti pradhan Abhi barish hain, Janmasthmi ke baad satsang de to, at which Gurgaon pradhan said - GuruDev apke satsang mein to Indra dev to aate hi hain, sabko pata hain, vyavastha ho jayegi. Gurudev karne wale to aap hain, hum to nimit matra hain. And GuruDev started laughing and later said - Bhagwan Krishna ne bhi Arjun ko nimit banaya tha aur Arjun ne kaurvan ko mara tha, ab dekhte hain aap kisko marte hain. And then said "Dekhenge, aapko bata denge, and GuruDev further said - Jis chiz ke beech aa jaye raat wo poori nahin hoti baat" GuruDev said aap abhi nikloge, pahunchne se pehle aapko pata lag jayega. GuruDev was in pandal till about 9 PM and at around 12 midnight, when were on the way back to Gurgaon we got a call from Dinesh bhai that GuruDev had given us 4 day satsang and poonam, for 4 day programme. And you wont believe when GuruDev came to Gurgaon, HE gave mantra for rains and it rained so heavily that we had to get firetenders and JCB's in service to drain out all the water that filled the satsang pandal and ground and all the Gurgaon people accepted that rains had come only after GuruDev came and that was printed in local newspapers the very next day also.

JAIPUR DARSHAN-II DARSHANAround the end when GuruDev was about to go , the person from Gurgaon whose mobile was taken away prayed to GuruDev that his business was dependent on his mobile at which GuruDev said thik hain lekin vighna ke paap se aise to nahin chootoge and after thinking a bit said, Teen Din yahan par Gau charayo aur gau ki seva karo at which the person said, GuruDev mein Gurgaon se hoon aur aapka wahan bhi program hai to wahan bhi meri seva hai, aap agya karein, mein kya karoon, he said clearing everything before GuruDev. Hearing this GuruDev said - Gurgaon se ho and started laughing for 2-3 minutes and asked him to setup a pyau for 3 days during satsang. (GuruDev kaise kaise tarikon se karam bandhan se chudwa dete hain, pyao ki seva karwake GuruDev ne jane un bhai ki kin karmon ko kat diya) Gurukripa jo hoye to, shooli kanta ho jaye. GuruDev kee bate karne mein ya unki bare mein likne mein samarth na hote hue bhi vani rukti nahin aur type karte hue hath thakte nahin par it's been a long message so I'll stop. The third part of Jaipur darshan and other darshans in next mail. GuruDev aapki vani yaa lilaon ka bayan karne mein agar mujhse koi truti hui ho to aapka putra aapse kshama prarthi hain. Kabira mange mangna, prabhu dijo mohe doy Sant samagam , harikrupa, mo ghar nish din hoye. HARI OM Manish

JAIPUR DARSHAN-III DARSHANThis was not witnessed by me but it was told by GuruDev in morning darshan when we were not present there, from what I heard from one of the gurubehan. In the morning darshan, GuruDev said - Hum raat mein uthe to kutia ki light jalai, Govind utha aur poocha kaun- humne kahan Main hoon Govind, tu so ja aur Govind phir so gaya. Humne light band ki aur torch lekar bahar aaye. Ashram kaa chakkar lagaya to dekha ki koi chowki pe nahin tha. Humne hi choki shuru kar di. Hum pandal mein gaye to pankha chal raha tha. Humne socha dekhe kaun so raha hai, wahan pahunce to pankha aise hi chal raha tha. Humne pankha band kiya.(Kitni kar kasar se rehtan hain GuruDev aur jaisa ki GuruDev ke shishya Swami NarsinghanandJi last Sunday Rajokari ashram mein keh rahe the ki GuruDev apne sevkon ki bhi seva karte hain (that's another Calcutta incident told by him which I'll write later) phir 33.30 baje tak GuruDev chowki karte rahe. All the people sitting there were felling sorry as GuruDev had to leave his dhyan, samadhi for doing chowki of ashram just because we had been a little careless about our sevas.) As Jaipur ashram is new , construction work was going on, GuruDev pointed towards his kutia's gate that was rusted and not painted. GuruDev said, dekho Sant ka dwar aisa hota hai kya? (what I understood from all this incident was that we should always be tatpar in our sevas and seva mein keval bhavukta hi nahin buddhi ka bhi prayog karna chahiye.

JAIPUR DARSHAN-III DARSHANA few more things that I remember when GuruDev was sitting in pandla in front of us. GuruDev said- Yahan ka paani bahut meetha hain, log kehte hain, Rajasthan mein paani ki kami hai. Aas pas to kahin bhi itna meetha pani nahin hain, yahan ashram mein thoda hi khodne par paani nikalaa aur bahut meetha paani nikla. Hum waise to gangajal hi peete hain par humne to apne sevak ko bol diya ki thode Gangajal mein yahan ka paani bhi mila de. Calcutta incident as told by Swami NarsinghanandJi

GuruDev had His satsang in Calcutta, where HE was staying was a 2 storied building, GuruDev's room was on second floor and BapuJi's rasoi was on first floor. Rohit bhai was doing GuruDev's rasoi seva that day. In the evening GuruDev sat in dhyan in his room and Rohit bhai prepared rasoi for GuruDev and was sitting there waiting for GuruDev to come downstairs. GuruDev to dhyan mein aise kho gaye ki bahut der baad hi neeche aaye. Niche aaye to GuruDev ne dikha ki Rohit bhai Bapu ka intejaar karte karte hi wahin rasoi me jamin par so gaye aur unhe machhar (mosquitoes) kat rahe the. GuruDev ne pehle to apni chadar se Rohit bhai ke uppar bethe macchar hatae aur phir apni chadar unpar dal di ki unhe machhar na kate. Phir GuruDev ne apne driver se kaha ki "Meri machhardani (mosquito net) is par laga do, par is tarah lagana ki iski neend na toote aur ise machhar bhi na kate.

JAIPUR DARSHAN-III DARSHANKaise hain hamare GuruDev, aise Poorna Brahma, Sakshat Parmatma ko koi abhiman nahin apne bade hone ka, apne shishyon ki , apne bhakton ki seva karne mein bhi wo sankoch nahin karte, sahi hai Bhagwan Krishna ne kaha hai ananyash chintyanto maam, ya jana paryupastae tesham nityabhiyuktam yogshem wahamyam. jo ananya bhav se mera chintan karta hai usa yogshem mein khud wahan karta hoon. Dhanya hain GuruDev jo muje aisi seva di ki main un swarnim kshano ko likte hue phir se unme kho jata hoon ki GuruDev ki smriti phir phir ho aati hai. bus tera sahara kafi hai mere sai. Hari OM Manish

GURGAON DARSHANHari Om GuruDev ke pawan pawan charnon mein koti koti pranam. GuruDev ki aisi aseem anukampa hai ki likne se pehle sochna pad raha hai ki kaunsi lila pehle likhon aur kaunsi badmein. aur agar aapko sach batao to is uljhan ko suljhane mein GuruDev ne hi madad ki aur bataya ki kaunsa anubhav aaj ki seva mein shamil karoon. It was 30 September or 1 October 2002( I have a slight confusion about date but most probably 30 September. GuruDev had His satsang in Gurgaon after Ghaziabad and Chandigarh, it was first day of satsang in Gurgaon. I had jal seva. GuruDev was staying near pandal during noon and at night at an ekant agyat kutia.

GURGAON DARSHANJust before GuruDev was to end His evening stasang I was called by one of our samiti persons and they asked me to go to BapuJi's daytime utara (place where GuruDev's daytime stay was arranged). Firstly I said that I can't go because satsang was about to leave and I have to take care of water tankers and ice as I had jal seva and crowd was very large during evening. But they forcibly sent me there, I looked for my scooter but someone had taken my scooter for seva, so I took another guubhai and his scooter to the utara. Our seva was to prevent people from crowding that place but I knew that GuruDev was not going to come there and same happened. Not even Bapu neither public came there. But we still decided to wait for 10-15 more minutes as I didnt feel it right to leave this seva. After around 5-7 minutes 2 balenos (if I correctly remeber) came there and stopped right in front of us. One aunty came out of the car and said that they had come from Mumbai and GuruDev had asked them to meet him in Gurgaon. I informed them to go to GuruDev's ekantvas as it was evening and GuruDev was going to spend night over there. I told them the way but they said that their drivers were also not local so they wanted us to accompany them, we hesitated but on their request we sat in the front car and the other car followed. Even after all this happened I still hadn't understood, what GuruDev had in his mind for me that night. In the way I requested that lady as GuruDev had called her so she would definitely be meeting Bapu, so we requested her to take us along with her while meeting GuruDev (look at my selfishness- unka sahara chhod kar doosro ka sahara dhond raha tha wo bhi unhi ke darshanon ke liye) when we reached there, around 100-150 people were already sitting outside.

GURGAON DARSHANLet me first describe that ekantvas. It was like a farmhouse with GuruDev's kutia and a few maun-mandirs there. It's in an isolated area so no one comes there. So everyone was sitting outside on the small road. One ashramwasi came out and arranged a chair and a small table for GuruDev, after a while GuruDev came out with "badminton player Phulela Gopichand". Gopichand had become a bit popular those days as he had won some title and also came in news when he refused to do an endorsement for cola giant coca cola by saying that as he himself doesnt drink any such colas, how can he endorse them and he also said that he was not intersted in the heavy endorsement money for publishing a product that's not good for public and this was the thing in him that pleased GuruDev and that's why GuruDev had called him to meet him. GuruDev gave him Yuvadhan and Mahaan Naari. When he opened up Maahan Naari, BapuJi said- tumhare liye nahin hain ye, tumhari lady ke liye hain. Aage ki baat to yaad karte hi mera rom rom pulkit ho jata hai. What I witnessed that night was........... amazing, even this is not the right word. Lets leave it.

GURGAON DARSHANGuruDev jab apne safed chadar ode hue bahar aaye to unki nigahon mein ek noor tha, sab mohit ho gaye, bilkul shanti, GuruDev baith gaye aur aage ke kuch pal to mujhe yaad hi nahi, phir jahan se yaad aa raha hai , batata hoon. One person stood up and pointed towards a girl that was his sister and said, GuruDev meri behan ki shadi nahin ho rahi, Bapu boleKya karoge iski shadi karke, iski shadi to mujhse hogi." That girl was sitting in 2/3 row. She asked Bapu - Bapu mein aage aa jaon. GuruDev said - Aa ja. She stood up and started coming towards front looking towards earth and when she looked up she saw, GuruDev stood up from his chair and sat on ground and asked that girl - Haan aa ja , yahan baith ja, pointing towards his chair. That girl stood like a statue and tears rolled down her eyes. GuruDev kept sitting on the road and there was nothing spread over the area where GuruDev was sitting and there were a lot of pebbles also . Bapu pointed that girl to sit and that girl sat next to Bapu. BapuJi further said""""" AAJ TAK KISI MAI KE LAL NE MERI DHADI PAR HATH NAHIN PHERA, TU HATH LAGAYEGI MERI DHADI KO"""""""""""" That behan was still crying and with trembling hands. She kept her hand on GuruDev's beautiful beard (mere Baba ji ki dhadi ka to har koi diwana hai, ek to unki chadar, unki dhadi, unki aankhen aur unki muskan kya kar deti hai pata nahin......... ) Bapu was also patting on her cheek with so much love as sometime people do to infants, koi shabd nahin bus aankhon mein hi har koi wo nazara samet lena chaahata thaa. Sabki aankhon mein is Gurukrupaa ke adbhud najare ko dekh kar aansoon the. Brahmagyani Sant jameen par baithe apne ek ek bhakt ke liye aur kya kya lila kar rahe the.

GURGAON DARSHANAfter sometime that behan said - Bapu mere papa bahut gussa karte hain to which BapuJi took out the chain he was wearing and gave it to that behan's father and said, bhojan chaba-chaba ke karna. Ab gussa nahin karenge, bus......Then there was another lady who had her 7-8 yr old son with her. She said Bapu mera beta coma mein hain and told some more details. GuruDev said- kaun kehta hai coma mein hai (now just see the miracle) Beta Bol OM.............. Bol OM................... Beta Bol OM........... and that kid said OM. ( I can challenge people who say miracles dont happen, I have seen them.) GuruDev ki aisi mauj ki har koi apne dil ki baat kahe aur wo Aulia apne akhoot khajane se lutae ja rahe. One very small girl said- BapuJi mujhe na doctor banna hain. BapuJi replied-- Tu to allopathic doctor banegi aur allopathic to Hum nahin....(couldn't recall the exact wordings)........, ayurvedic doctor banegi. Girl BapuJi, aap jo bana do, wahi ban jaoongi. BapuJi said patting on her head- Ja ban gayi doctor. A lot happned that night which I witnessed aur ab meri bhi to bari aani thi, sabko bante hue mere data mujhe diye bina kaise chale jaate.

GURGAON DARSHANIt happened for around 45 to 60 mintes and then GuruDev went back in his kutia aur GuruDev ka andar jana tha ki mera rona shuru. I cried like a kid and a lot of sadhak bhai and behan tried to calm me. I started a fight with Bapu- sabse baat ki, mujhse bhi kar lete to unka kuch bigad jata . I ran away from there. I went to a sadhak and asked him - BapuJi ki to apse kai bar bat hui hain, meri bhi karwa do. He said- kya baat karni hain I said- kuch nahin. He said - phir.... and after a silence said...... apne papa se baat karne ke liye tu mujhe bulata hain kya? Tere Baap hain, baat kar le. I said- ab to andar chale gaye, bahar ho to baat karoon na. And as if BapuJi was just waiting for me to say this, He opened a small window that was near guard's room and stood there. By the time I could reach there people had gathered around that window and I dont know how I reached right in front of the window and as that window was a bit high, I took support of that window to look at GuruDev and I kept both my hands on the window. And that was the moment................. Bapu kept his hand on my right hand, he held my hands for 10 minutes and all this while he kept pressing my thumb. I dont know where I was and I could feel a lot of energy flowing through me. It was like a soothing electric current. I was just staring at GuruDev and GuruDev was just looking at me. There was no light except for the torch which BapuJi held on his face with his other hand. Others behind me were pinching me - say something, say something but I could only dare speak-----GuruDev.......GuruDev...........GuruDev......and that was it. Now everyone else was talking to him but GuruDev was looking at me and I at GuruDev and then GuruDev closed that window.

GURGAON DARSHANAage ke shanon mein kya hua mujhe yaad nahin bus itna yaad hai ki I kept crying like a kid for more than 2 hrs. and was holding my right hand like a precious property and you know I didnt use my right hand for the next 2 days. All sevas completed using just my left hand. I had gone mad. We came back on another scooter four people on a single scooter, all of us mast in GuruDev's masti.

Hari om... age mein likhne ki stithi mein nahin hoon.

RAJOKRI NIGHT DARSHANHari Om BabaJi ko pranaam Yeh kaisa hai jaado samajh mein na aaya,tere pyar ne humko jeena sikhaya. Bapu tum kyon mile humein, tum na the to hum kisi kam ke the, tum jo mile hum nikamme ho gaye,mere baba,mere sai,tum yaad na aaya karo. Likhna to kuch chahte hain, likhte kuch jate hain. So, now let me start, Bapu to kuch likhne hi nahin denge. Just recently before Baroda shivir BapuJi had his satsang in Ghaziabad and after finishing Ghaziabad satsang on the same evening Bapu reached Karolbagh ashram in Delhi and after staying there for around 1.5-2 hrs, went to Rajokari ashram. Some things are not to be told, about what we did so it's better I wont tell them. Next morning I reached Rajokari after lying to my ma that I was going to office and I called up office that I had gone to doctor and I'll be back to office by noon. (during Ghaziabad satsang I took leave for 3 days by saying that I had got a disc slip and doctor advised me bed rest) I thoght that BapuJi will leave Delhi by noon so I could go to office but Bapu the ki dilli se jaane ka naam hi nahin le rahe the. Subah se dopahar hui aur dopahar se sham, na to Bapu gaye aur na hi aaye darshan dene. Bapu ne mujhe fasa diya tha. My ma called me up in evening and I thought it's better I tell the truth and then a volcano burst out. Jo dant padi, upar se subah se kuch khaya bhi nahin tha, sankalp kar rakha tha, ki darshan ke bad hi kuch khaonga. isi tarah mummy ko samjhaya.

RAJOKRI NIGHT DARSHANBapu subah se kutia mein hi dhyan me bethe the aur yahan hum unka intejar karte bahar baithe the, kahan to din bhar intejar kar rahe the ki sham ko Bapu aayenge to yeh hoga, wo hoga aur sham ko jab sandhya ke baad aaye to ek dum serious hokar, vyaspith par maun baithe Bapu dhyan kara rahe the, phir Aum Aum ka dhyan karvaya and then went back in, thodi nirasha thi kyunki subah Bapu ke liye badi mehnat se pehli baar maine aur ek bhai ne Bapu ke liye kismish, tulsidal aur toffee ki mala banai thi. ( behnon ka kaam bhai log kar rahe the- hum dono bhai log sui-dhaga lekar chhotichhoti kismish ki mala bana rahe the) Lekin maja bahut aaya dhyan ke baad. Phir to hum seedha bhage rasode mein. Peth bhar ke bhojan kiya aur ashram ke kaka ne to laddoo bhi de diye- bole beta khao aur lete jao. Hamara pet bharne ke bad ab masti chadne lagi. Bapu bhi nahin gaye so it was sure that next day hi jayenge. Bapu bhi jaisi dhyam ki mauj me the to lag raha tha ki shayad dubara darshan nahin denge. All of us were asked to leave ashram as it was around 9PM. Auron ko jane ke liye kaha par na jane khudh jane ka mann hi nahin kar raha tha. At around 10.55 my papa called me up and then started another volcano burst, I thought it's better I should return home if I wanted to enter home that night.

RAJOKRI NIGHT DARSHANI took my bike and another bhai who had to go to vadodara next morning and I told him that I would drop him at station next morning and left ashram. One gurubehan tried to stop me by saying that Bapu might come but I said, it's urgent and I have to go. Mushkil se 1 km gaya tha ki call aayi - Bapu bahar aa gaye, bhaiya jaldi aayo and I know how I drove my bike back and when I reached ashram, everyone was standing outside the barbed wire and BapuJi inside the fence, and this time with a smile----:):):):):), ab to main bahut khush ho gaya. I went quitely and stood behind the bhai with whom I had made kishmish mala. Bapu ne aate hi sabse pehle poocha- bhojan kiya? Then said- ratri ko der se bhojan nahin karna chahiye. 8-9 baje tak to bhojan pakka kar hi lena chahiye. Uske baad agar karna pade to halka karein. Then asked a small girl- Kya karti/padti(i'm confused) hain? To which she said- BapuJi sixth mein padti hoon. BapuJi saidsixth mein mat pada kar............. sixth mein mat pada kar.............kismen padegi? Chhati mein.... samjhi - BabaJi said with a smile. Then BapuJi said- Ek mahine mein do grahan manav jati ke kiye sankat ka samay hain, lekin ghabrane ki jarorat nahin hai, Bhagwan ke jap se sab kaston k nivaran hota hain, isliye jyada se jyada jap karna. Surya grahan 3 October 2005 ko tha aur chandra grahan Sharad poornima ke din aane wali 17 October 2005 ko hain, isliye jitna ho sake jap karna.

RAJOKRI NIGHT DARSHANGrahan ka prabhav to dikhna bhi shuru ho gaya hai. Pakistan aur Jammu Kashmir mein jo bhukamp aaya wo usi ka parbhav tha. Ishwar ke srishti me kabhi anyay nahin hota. After this GuruDev said some more things, and then GuruDev said, America ne bhukamp pidhiton ke liye 1 lakh dollar diye, kitne hote hain 1 dollar 48 rupye ka, 48 lakh hi diye, 50 lakh to humne Rajasthan ke Rajyapal ko diye the. 48 lakh mein to ek gaon bhi nahi bas sakta. Pakistan ko paise dekar America apna fayda utha raha hai. Wo doosra kaun hain, Blair and some completed from behind...Tony Blair. BapuJi further said--- Vishwa ke do bade desh kul mila k 4.25 crore rupye hi de rahe hain. Aapki Delhi mein hi ek farmhouse karib 6-7 crore ka ya usse jyada ka aata hai. Vishwa ke do bade desh ek farmhouse bhi arpan nahin kar paye. Then GuruDev said to South Delhi samiti- Rajokari ashram Surat se to bada hai, kisi ashram mein apni itni jamin nahin hain. Yahan to dhyanyog shivir ho sakta hai, Ab to yahan ke aadhyaatmik vibration bhi kafi achhe ho gaye hain. Suratwaale, Amdavad wale saal mein 2-3 shivir le lete hain. Aap log vyavastha kar lo aapko bhi shivir mil sakta hain.

RAJOKRI NIGHT DARSHANDiwali Amdavad mein hoti hain, abhi se log booking kara lete hain,us time to flight ki bhi booking nahin milti. Aap dekho to aapko diwali mil sakti hai. Diwali ke 5 din baad labh panchmi hoti hai. Tab dekhte hain. At that time I was standing just behind the person with whom GuruDev was talking, Bapu baat to unse kar rahe the aur dekh mujhe rahe the, aisi unki nigah padi ke ab jab wo Delhi se chale gaye to us nigah se hui barsat ka anubhav hota hai, nikamma kar gaye mujhe, na office mein man lagta hain, na ghar mein aur to aur na mala karne mein, bus man karta hai ki kisi na kisi sadhak se baat hoti rahe jo GuruDev ke anubhav sunata rahe. Phir GuruDev went to Baddada aur ek pheri phiri. Ab wahi jane, ke kya karne gaye the wahan. And then with his divine grace Bapu turned the torch off and went back to his kutia. We all kept watching till the time we could see BapuJi entering his kutia. And next morning at 6.30 AM Bapu had his flight, you wont believe BapuJi took the kismish mala from another bhai to whom I had given as my coming in morning seemed quite difficult. And after that I started counting days till poonam, so that I could go to vadodara. Hari Om

GHAZIABAD DARSHANHari om Aap sabhi gurubhaion aur behaon mein virajman mere Bapu ko pranaam. BapuJi jab Ghaziabad aaye the abhi kuch dino pehle, tabhi ke darshan bata raha hoon. BapuJi came to Ghaziabad through train and his train was at 9 PM. As people had come to know about that, a lot of people thronged the station and then something happened for which we all apologise to GuruDev, though I was not there but people surrounded GuruDev and the sevadars could not understand how to take GuruDev to his car and then BapuJi instead of using the footoverbridge, jumped over the tracks and reached other platform, over there someone held BapuJi's hand to support him climb the platform from where he went towards his car. Sometimes we do a lot of wrong things for which our GuruDev has to bear. BapuJi hame shama kar dena. I reached there next morning, BaapJi announced that Bapu was about to come but Bapu didnt come in morning satra. It was around 12 noon. I had a sankalp that I wont take water until darshan so I went to the farmhouse where GuruDev was staying. GuruDev hadn't come out since morning. I kept waiting. At around 4 PM BapuJi went to satsang and I had darshans from car.

GHAZIABAD DARSHANWe reached pandal hoping that GuruDev would say something great today as GuruDev had once said in satsang " Main satsang mein isliye nahin aata ki mujhe satsang karna hain, time diya hai to jana hai, main tab jata hoon jab mere man mein tumhe kuch dene ka vichar aata hain" and that day GuruDev to subah se nahi aaye the to jane kya-kya dene ka vichar tha unka, but I got a seva and I had to go as some of the satsang hoardings on BapuJi's route had got loose and those were not looking good -- and only I and BapuJi knows what was going through my heart when I climbed 25 feet on a metal frame to fix that hoarding. Bas Bapu ne pakad rakha tha nahin to sidha niche tha main to. When we reached pandal back, satsang was over, I couldn't have darshan so I thought I'll go to the framhouse after having something to eat as I was hungry since morning and as I reached bhandara I got a call, bhaiya jaldi pahuncho, Bapu 10-15 minute darshanon ki liye aane wale. I looked for the person who was with me and he drove as if he was a formula 1 driver. I asked him to slow down as even BapuJi wouldn't have liked us to drive so fast (that's another incident when I experienced GuruDev kripa and I'll tell later) so we reached the farmhouse and when we reached there BapuJi was already out giving darshans, we quietly reached there and sat there. Around 300 people were sitting, bhai in one row and behan in opposite row and BapuJi was walking in between. Apart from moonlight and some jugnus the only light was GuruDev's torch which he used to aim at our faces.

GHAZIABAD DARSHANBapuJi was coming towards us and was talking to almost everyone, prasad lutate hue jab aaye to mere samne wali aunty ko bole- Tu bhajan nahin gati she said- gati hoon BapuJi. BapuJi said- phir ga and phir they started singing a beautiful bhajan which I still sometimes sing. GuruJi ehsaan tumhare, jitne aakash mein taare. mein badla kaise chukaon........ Sadguru pyaare.......... They sang a few more bhajans and all this while GuruDev sometimes used to talk to someone and sometimes used to laugh and sometimes used to sing himself. On one bhajan where those aunty was singing about beauty of my GuruDev. mere guran ki chal nirali... Bapu ... ab kya bataon.... BapuJi started walking abnormally and started singing ----chal nirali..... ho chal nirali.......... and everyone was just looking at his lila. Then at someother part of the bhajan said- haan..........., mein 65 saal ka jawan aur tum 40 sal ke budhe aur budiyaaa. After a while GuruJi said --In logon (refering to those aunties who sang bhajan) k man mein bhav tha ki kisi din Bapu ke samne gaye, lo aaj wo bhi poora ho gaya.

GHAZIABAD DARSHANItna kam tha kya, aage to ek gopi aur bethi thi mere Krishna ki, Bapu reached to a girl and talked to her, and aunty sitting next to her said- Bapu yeh do din pehle hi humse lad rahi thi ki Bapu mujhse naaraj hain, mujhse baat nahin karte Bapu said-- Humhe pata hai, meri photo ke samne dum mar rahi thi, kaise Bapu ho, mujhse baat bhi nahi karte, yeh mujhse lad rahi thi, mujhe dum marti hai---saying this Bapu patted on the cheek on that behan and then on her head. Us behan ke to aansu kahan control hone the, hum sabhi ki aankhon se aansun behne lage- kaise wo sadguru samay samay par apna vastavik swarup hamare samne praktate rahte hain (wo har jagah hai, sabki sunte hain, sab dekhte hain par hum unhe sharir manne ki galti karte hain) lekin karein bhi kyon ka -- ab ma Mehengiba na aise sundar lal ko jo janam diya hain, Bhagwan tak mohit hai unpar to hamara kyan kusur. I would like to share one sms which I received a few days back, that was said by Sant Morari Bapu in his satsang and someone sent me. It's beautiful. Humne socha shayad humhi chahte hein aapko, par apko chahne walon ka kafila nikla. Dil ne kaha shikayat kar khuda se, par wo khuda hi aapko chahne wala nikla. And that night again a lot happened, kya bayan karon aur kitna bayan karoon. Labayan ka bhi koi bayan hai.

GHAZIABAD DARSHANAfter staying out for around 1.5hr BapuJi went back in to have his dinner. A lot of people left by that time and we were just lazing around I had no conveyance to go back to pandal so just kept waiting there around 30 people were also there with me. After another 45 minutes BapuJi came out for a walk after dinner. Some ashram sadhaks had also come for darshan. This time BapuJi again talked to other few people and went back and then one of my acquaintances took me to his home and said, subah mein aayenge darshan karne. ( for those people who feel that we dont have any conveyance, hum darshan karne kaise jayen, remember bulate wo hain to intejam bhi wohi karte hain, if you remember in my previous mail... mere jiwan ka vilakshan anubhav......... BapuJi wanted to call me so he sent a baleno for me) paida unhone kiya hai to palenge bhi wahi, apna kya jaata hai, sehanshah ke shisya hain to darna kis baat ka. Rest darshans of Ghaziabad in my next mail. Just pray for me that tomorrow or day after I send you some latest darshans. I need all your sankalps. Got the hint........ this is all I can disclose right now. Hari Om

GHAZIABAD DARSHAN-II DARSHANHari om Om Shri Sadguru Parmatmane Namah Sabse pehle aap sab se shamaprarthi hoon ki apni seva niyamit roop se nahin kar paya, diwali hone ke karan samay nahin mil paya iske liye, GuruDev se aur aap sab gurubhai, behanon se kshamaa mangta hoon. As before diwali I was telling you all, darshans of Ghaziabad, so here are lilas of GuruDev on second day in Ghaziabad. Next morning GuruDev came out of the farmhouse with Suresh BaapJi driving the car, when Suresh BaapJi drives the car, it's a lot easier to get darshans because BaapJi drives very slow and with care when BapuJi is sitting in car. We were instructed not to move. The car didnt stop and we kept sitting there only, someone said-aaj shanivar hain, Bapu malish karwane gaye hain, tabhi BaapJi sath gaye hain, but BapuJi had already got the malish done that morning, BapuJi had gone for a walk some place away from farmhouse. After half an hour BapuJi returned and at that time Bapu stopped the car and came out of the car, all of us kept sitting silently. Someone offered badam prasad to BapuJi, BapuJi started distributing prasad, BapuJi saidYeh badam dikhne ke mote hain, ander to choti-choti giri hi niklegi, BapuJi gave me 2 badams and to my surprise mere dono badamom mein 3-3 giri nikli.

GHAZIABAD DARSHAN-II DARSHANAfter distributing half the packet BapuJi said- Ab bas, baki hum andar majdooron ko baatenge. (kitna khayal rakhte hain wo sabka) Then moved the car in, the car stopped again, there were some poor women and children, BapuJi stopped the car and started distributing prasad to all of them and then the car went in the farmhouse. After that when it was about time for BapuJi to go to satsang, we stood in the way on a turn, when the car arrived on the turn, BapuJi threw out a toffee for me and another bhai standing next to me. After that BapuJi gave morning satra and during noon went to Ghaziabad Nandgram ashram, In Ghaziabad there is a school run by ashram, students of the school had prepared some programmes for BapuJi. When BapuJi's car arrived children played band welcoming GuruDev. After around 1 hr BapuJi came into pandal, aate hi prasad bantna shuru, bahut prasad lutaya,toffees, kaju, kismish aur apples, bahut banta aur itni mauj me the ki toffee ka packet khali hote hi, blowed into it and burst it like a small kid. All sadhaks were just going mad, sabko diwana bana ke BapuJi vyaspeeth par ja viraje. In order to get close darshans of GuruDev all people sat so close that there was no place to stand or even ease oneself and believe me more than half of the pandal was empty behind as everyone tried to come forward. Bapu bhi mast the, beththe hi satsang shuru kar diya, then pointed towards a man and said to another person--Yeh itne bimmaar the, itne rog the lekin gojharan se inke sabhi rog door ho gaye and then told some more details about him. Then GuruDev started Om Om Prabhu Ji Om kirtan and after that GuruDev apni masti mein started speaking in bihari accent--- ""Hum jab Bihar gaye to hamein Laluji ne humse kaha, BapuJi.. dekhiye na... apne hi bihar mein hum jail me bethe hain....

GHAZIABAD DARSHAN-II DARSHANUs samay wo jail me the aur hamare paas message aaya ki ek baar BapuJi hamein jail mein aake darshan de de to hum apna sara criminal chhod denge, humne socha kisi ka bhala ho to hum bhi mil lete hain, Hum gaye to Bole BapuJi.. dekhiye na... apne hi bihar mein hum jail me baithe hain...., to humne kaha--phir kya hua, aisa aur kahan ho raha hai ki 3 padi Rabdi sarkar chala rahi hai aur Rabda jail mein baithe baithe remote control se use chala raha hai, is par Laluji khoob hase aur bole, BapuJi hum jab bahar aayenge to aapke charam chooyenge, to humne kaha- bhiaya, charan to hum chhuyate hi nahin hain.......aur ab dekho Bihari bhai poore desh ke rail sambhal rahe hai."""" Uske baad BapuJi ne swasthya ke liye mantra bataya aur uska jap karwaya-""NASE ROG HARE SAB PIRA"" ""JAPAT NIRANTAR HANUMAT BIRA"" ALSO GAVE MANTRA FOR FALSE COURT CASES AGAINST ANYONE """PAWAN TANAY BAL PAWAN SAMANA"" """BUDDHI VIVEK VIGYAN NIDHANA"" """KAUN SO KAAJ KATHIN JAG MAHI" """JO NAHIN HOT TAT TUM PAHIN""

GHAZIABAD DARSHAN-II DARSHANAnother mantra for behans who are facing difficulty for marriage "" jai jai giriwar raj kishori" ""jai mahesh mukh chandra chakori"" Firstly I had a confusion whether I should write these mantras given by GuruDev here but later on my confusion got washed away as I thought that these mantras were given duirng jahir satsang and for all, that's why. After that BapuJi said-- Kaun chahta hai hum baithe rahein? All people raised there hand. BapuJi said-- Hum nahin baithte, aap log swarthi ho khudh darshan chahte ho aur jo log wahan pandal mein baithe hain... then said-- Achha kaun chahta hai ki humein to darshan ho gaye ab doosro ko bhi labh mile, Bapu ko jana chahiye? Now some people again raised their hands to which BapuJi said - Humein baithana nahin chahate isliye jane ko keh rahe hain, chalo bhai, hamri gaadi nikalo, yeh log hamein nahin bithana chahte, chinta na karo, hum tumhein badnaam nahin karenge ke Ghaziabad walo ne humein nahin bithaya. Aur phir khilkhila ke hasne lage. Aisi to unki mauj thi aur aisi krupa. As we had already had many such previous experiences were just sitting and enjoying the lilas with a thought--- Sai tumhari mauj.. betho to betho, jaao to jaao, sab tumhara hain........After some more time BapuJi left for satsang. Evening darshans in the next darshan mail. Hari Om Manish

GHAZIABAD DARSHAN-III DARSHANHari Om, OM SADGURU PARMATMANE NAMAH Ghaziabad second day evening darshans. In the evening satra BapuJi got some couples married and that was such a divya scene, BapuJi and dulha dulhan and thier relatives all on stage, BapuJi in front and all following him. BapuJi ne stage par hi phere kiye aur sab piche piche chal rahe the, Yeh pehli baar, aisi leela ki thi GuruDev ne, I would suggest if you could find vcd of that day, 8 October 2005, do get it. After the evening satra BapuJi went to the ekant farmhouse and after sometime cameout for the darshans. Again it was like the previous night, aisi mauj me the mere GuruJi ki poocho mat, phir kinhi aunty ne bhajan gana shuru kiya aur mere kanha ka hasna aur nachna shuru, BapuJi bhi mauj me kabhi to haste, kabhi gaate aur thoda-thoda nachte. Prasad lutane mein to had kar di. That day some thoughts had come into my mind for which I was feeling sorry and didnt dare look at GuruDev. I was just apologising and praying to GuruDev ki GuruDev, mujhse bhool ho gayi hain, main kshamaa chaahata hoon, main bhi yahin hoon, Aap bhi yahin ho, jo Aapki marzi but even then I couldn't stop my selfish interest so I further prayed, GuruDev agar aapne mujhe kshamaa kar diya hain to bus ek baar drishti daal dena and so on. Andha kya chahe do aankhe aur jab dene wala dene par aaye to lene wala bhi thak jata hain, meri to murad poori ho gayi, BapuJi came distributing prasad, I was just sitting folding hands looking at BapuJi.

GHAZIABAD DARSHAN-III DARSHANI couldn't dare spreading my hands for parsad, GuruDev stood in front of me and threw a pack of chanas towards me but someone else behind caught it. BapuJi took out another packet and pointed towards me, I spread out my hands and Bapu kept prasad in my hands and moved forward.Ek hi raat mein 5 baar prasad mila GuruDev ka, 2 baar swayam BapuJi ke haathon. Baki 3 baar to GuruDev ne kaha tha ki sabko bant do to mila, doosri bar kishmish mili. BapuJi came again distributing prasad and this time mera lalach to bad hi gaya tha, ab mere sai khila rahe hain to main kyon bhookha rahoon. I again spread my hands hoping to get prasad, BapuJi came to me and started giving me kishmish one by one, I thought, Bapu, kya aap bhi? Gin gin kar dete ho and just then BapuJi emptied his hand full of kishmish in my hands. After a while BapuJi sat in his car and moved, all people were surrounding the car, BapuJi stopped the car looking at one behan and pointed to that behan to come and that behna couldn't control her excitement and was overjoyed---" hato, piche hato mujhe Bapu ne bulaya hain" when she came next to BapuJi's window BapuJi asked her what she was doing and when she told that she was doing come course in Biotech or Life Sciences in Bangalore BapuJi said --- ......... Apne ko jaanne ke vidya jaanle, phir kuch janana baki nahi rehta, yeh kya padti hain tu, tu anushthan kar, lag jaye to ek saal me aatamsakshatkar..... phir kuch baten kehne k baad gadi aage badi lekin us behan ka pyaar koi kam tha, Bapu ko gadi phir rokni padi when she said to Bapu--- "Bapu, aur sunao na kuch."

GHAZIABAD DARSHAN-III DARSHANAll of us including BapuJi started laughing listening to this. Aisaa bholapan, aisaa pyaar to kya mere BabaJi nahin rukte, gadi roki aur phir thodi der tak karte rahe baatein, Gadi phir aage badi to Bapu ek behan se, jise GuruDev ne ek din pehle hi panchkarme center shuru karne ki agya di thi unhe apna hath dekar acupressure ke points poochne lage, (exam chal raha tha us behan ka) wo behan Bapu ka haath pakde hath ke acupressure points daba rahi thi aur Bapu points poochthe ja rahe the, hamein to itni madhur irshya ho rahi thi ki poocho mat, ek baar to thoda jor se dabne par Bapu ne hath hata liya aur bole- hat dard karti hai-- lekin phir hath de diya aur thodi der baad andar chale gaye. Next day was last day of satsang in Ghaziabad, in the morning I had to go for seva to New Delhi railway station so I missed morning darshan and satra. In the afternoon I reached at Nandgram ashram, BapuJi was in his kutia at that time so I had reached on time. After around an hour BapuJi pandal me aaye, is baar phir prasad bantana chalu.

GHAZIABAD DARSHAN-III DARSHANEk sevadar ko nirdesh diya ki prasad bante lekin itna lutane wale aulia khudh kahan baithne wale the, sevadar ko kaha- Tujhe bantna nahin aata, idhar laa aur uske baad khudh hi Prasad bantne lage. After a while BapuJi went for satsang. In the evening BapuJi went to Karolbagh ashram in Delhi. After finishing satsang, when we reached there BapuJi had gone for a walk in Ravindra Rangshala, the ridge area in front of ashram and after sometime came back and went into ashram . We were not allowed in ashram. Let me describe you about Karolbagh ashram, those who haven't been there. Entry to ashram is through a pathway covered with fence as on both sides it's the ridge. All the people stood on side of the fence and BapuJi came to give darshans, I dont know what happened there because I didnt go for darshans as I had a fight with Bapu. After staying for 2 hours at Karolbagh BapuJi went to Rajokari ashram. As Rajokari was on way back home so I decided to try my luck again but GuruDev had gone in his kutia and we returned home at around 12.30 AM. The next day we reached ashram in the morning but BapuJi came out in the evening only. Those darshans, I have already posted in prev post. Hari Om Manish

PATEL CHOWK DHARNA ANUBHAVHari Om Om Shri Sadguru Parmatmane Namah The darshans I'm posting in today are the one which I never expected and never had wanted such darshans. It was during last Diwali when Shankaracharya Shri Jayendra SaraswatiJi was arrested and BapuJi decided to sit on a dharna, we came to know that BapuJi had come to Delhi and we reached BapuJi's ekantwas and there we came to know that GuruDev had come for ShankaracharyaJi. at around 10 AM BapuJi sent a message for all of us that GuruDev wanted more people to reach there, GuruDev was himslef sitting on fast and all sadhaks also sat on fast. We informed as many no of sadhaks as we could to reach patel chowk where BJP had organised a dharna in protest of ShankaracharyaJi's arrest. At around 10 AM BapuJi went for the dharna, we also reched there and when we reached there BapuJi was sitting on ground along with Advani, Suresh BaapJi was also sitting behind GuruDev. There were only handful of people as sadhaks had not reached there and BJP could not gather any crowd.

PATEL CHOWK DHARNA ANUBHAVWe could feel the pain GuruDev was going through, along with that there was another pain and anger in our hearts as our GuruDev had to sit on road, these politicians take undue advantage of our BapuJi's karuna. Bapu to bhole hain, maan bhi jate hain. Warna GuruDev ka ek sankalp kafi tha ShankaracharyaJi ko chudwane ke liye. BapuJi sat there till evening with media doing live telecast on all news channels. More crowd gathered there seeing BapuJi on TV. Bapu kept sitting there till evening without saying a single word. In the evening all politicians started their damn speeches and after them GuruDev stood up and started speaking- Bapu ne itne jor ki Garjana ki sab seham gaye, GuruDev ne agah kiya ki Santon par atyachar hoga to desh par vipatti aayegi, phir un dayalu ke hriday ke vytha unki aankhon se aanshu ban kar bahne lagi. GuruDev ne jo wahan kaha wo bayan karne ki shamta nahin hai, GuruDev ne apna sankalp vyapak aakash mein chhoda aur sabhi sadhakon ne Aum-Aum ki Garjana ki, wo vilakshan drishya tha.

PATEL CHOWK DHARNA ANUBHAVYou can get the VCD Rashtrajagruti 1-2 to listen to GuruDev's message in 3 days of dharna. The first day when all this happened was not shot as ashram's camera were not there only the video clipping that could be got by starnews is included in CD. Lekin wo drishya jab bhi yaad aata hain, dil mein gussa aur peedha hoti hai ki GuruDev ko kya kya karna padta hain desh, samaj ke liye. Ratri mein GuruDev ne kaha ki unka aur sadhakon ka upwas vyarth nahin jayega, vyapak aakash mein chhoda gaya sankalp apna asar dikhayega. GuruDev ne bhavishyavani kiSupreme Court mein case jate hi ShankaracharyaJi riha honge aur bad mein nishkalank sabit bhi honge aur hua bhi yahi, after failed attempts of bail in lower court and high court when ShankaracharyaJi's lawyers appealed in Supreme Court for his bail he was granted bail. Brahmavani satya hoti hi hain aur mera saubhagya tha ki mujhe wah dekhne aur sunne ka mauka mila. Next day all saints had organised a dharna at Gauri Krishna mandir near red fort, BapuJi went there, I couldn't go as I had my exam that day, after the exam I reached Patel Chowk directly where GuruDev was expected to arrive after Sant dharna at Lal Quila.

PATEL CHOWK DHARNA ANUBHAVBapuJi came there at around 4 or 5 pm. Today there were some arrangements, a vyasgaddhi was in place and BapuJi came there and gave satsang, that satsang and morning dharna is there in Rastrajagruti CD. That night was luckiest night of my life. Although I did something foolish and because of that foolishness aisa prasad mila ki poocho mat. Yeh bhi waisi hi raat thi jaisi jab GuruDev ne mera hath pakda tha (I have already posted that anubhav previously). BapuJi was going back to ekantwas and one behan asked me to follow GuruDev, firstly I didnt agree but later they somehow made me agree. at that time I had a bajaj chetak which was not in good shape and never used to run above 50 kmph, but that night I drove it so fast with 2 behans sitting behind me that it reached 90 kmph in the evening traffic of Delhi, from CP to ekant was (in outskirts of Delhi near Gurgaon) there were a few more bhai and behans on bikes and scooter. All the way I was reciting GuruDev's name and behan's behind me were reciting Mahamrityunjaya mantra. Ab jab chala itne khatarnak tarike se rahe the to darshan kahan hone the raste mein, bus sara dhyan to scooter pe tha, in a haste what I did, I didnt realise that GuruDev was stuck in a jam and I sped so fast that I took a wrong turn and went in a wrong way. When I reached there I came to know that GuruDev had gone in his kutia, as we hadn't had anythng since morning we got something to eat.

PATEL CHOWK DHARNA ANUBHAVJust after that GuruDev came out, and asked who were the people following him and we all came forward with our heads down with shame, BapuJi pointed to my scooter and said- Kiska scooter hain"" mein hath jod kar khada tha GuruDev ke samne aur kaha -- GuruDev mera, Bapu bole --- Govind sua (pointed object used to break ice) la aur tyre phadh de, itne gandi tarah ye log chalate hain, hume dar lagta hain, hum nahin beth pate, then one bhai from ashram said to GuruDev-- GuruDev inhe itni raat ko repair karwane ko kuch nahin milega aur inhe rukne ka bahana mil jayega" phir GuruDev ne kaha -rehne de Govind, lekin in sabka naam, pita ka naam aur gadi ka number note kar le. Agli baar follow me aayen to bina pooche hi tyre phadh dena, Hamari agya hai."" Ab Guru agya thi aur galti bhi hui thi, mujhe bahut hi glani mehsoos ho rahi thi, mein mann hi mann prarthna kar raha tha shamaprapti ke liye. Phir BapuJi ka krodh shant ho gaya (krodh karte hi kahan hain, karuna karte hain. Dikhte hain gussa karte hue lekin andar hamare liye kitna pyaar hota hai) Uske baad jo hua mere to bhagya hi khul gaye" BapuJi asked all behans to stand behind and also other bhais to move behind, only we 5 bhais followed who were standing and GuruDev with us.

PATEL CHOWK DHARNA ANUBHAVGuruDev said in a very silent voice with poitning torch at each one of us for more than half hour. BapuJi said---" BETA, (yeh sunte hi, mere hriday mein itna anand hua ki poocho mat) mere GuruDev me mujhe itne intejar ke baad beta kaha tha, tumhe mein beta keh raha hoon, tumhari chinta hai mujhe, bete, tum achhe gharon se ho, aisa dubara mat karna"""" aur uske baad GuruDev hum 5 logon ko 1/2 ghante tak samjhate rahe, andar itna anand tha ki chhupate nahin chhup raha tha. Galti ki sharam to thi lekin khushi itni ke mere GuruDev ne mujhe beta kaha, Bapu jaise hi torch hatate mere chehre se ki khushi bahar aa jaati, Bapu ne bhi wo khushi bhamp li thi isliye aur mauj kara di, GuruDev humein samjhate rahe aur hum unke agya ko sweekar karne ka sankalp le liye, BapuJi ne kuch baatein bhi kahi jo sirf hamare liye thi isliye yahan nahin likh raha hoon. Uske baad GuruDev ne sabse baat ki, darshandiye aur Shankaracharya ji ke baare mein kuch aur bhi kaha and then went inside. That was the first time I had followed and BapuJi ne pehli hi galti par sudharne ka mauka de diya, mujhe paap se bacha liya. Next morning we went to kutia for darshan and this we decided we wont follow so we didnt go for dharna . We kept waiting all day for GuruDev's return. At around 7 or 8 pm GuruDev came back from dharna, I was standing with 2 more bhais. BapuJi ne mere paas pahunch kar car rukwai aur bole-- kal wala hai na?"" maine kaha -ji GuruDev"" BapuJi further said-- Aaj mauj hai na" maine kaha-- ji GuruDev"" phir GuruDev ne mujhe prasad diya aur gadi aage badai, main bhi aage gaya, BapuJi ne doosre logon ko darshan diya aur kutia mein chale gaye.

PATEL CHOWK DHARNA ANUBHAVIske alava bhi GuruDev ne bich - bich mein darshan diye the aur ShankaracharyaJi k bare mein kaha tha- which i dont remember as it is so I'm not writing here. Bhaiyon mera stock khatam hone wala hai kuch dino mein, meri prarthana hai ki apne-apne hridyon mein aap jo khajane mere Sai k darshanon ka chhupa ke baithe ho wo mujhe bhi dikha do. Please please please please please please please please please please .

Hari Om Manish

KAROL BAGH ASHRAM ANUBHAVHari Om Yesterday I went to karol bagh ashram and met a behan I had known for long but never had I come to know the anubhav that she told me yesterday, as we were talking about our GuruDev's last visit to Delhi she told me about her anubhav in the year 2000. I couldn't listen to the complete anubhav as I had to go for a seva but most of the part has been covered in this post. Her father was ticketing manager at the Delhi airport but some one had done some black magic or some kind of toona-totka on her father and condition of her father had deteriorated a lot. He used to shout, had stopped eating and even drinking water, always kept lying on his bed and this continued for 8 long years. Her father's weight had come down to 10 (kg or gram unsure coz after repeatedly asking her she said it was gram not kg). She was working as a teacher at that time and as she had started earning at a very young age even when she was studying.

KAROL BAGH ASHRAM ANUBHAVOn 14 April 2000 GuruDev had come to Delhi and she got an opportunity to talk to GuruDev. She told GuruDev about her father's condition and GuruDev looked at her and said- Main samajhtha hoon, then GuruDev took her in his kutia and there GuruDev asked her a few things and GuruDev asked her Kamata kaun hai ghar mein? To which she replied GuruDev main hi kamati hoon. BapuJi asked - Tu kya karti hain? She said GuruDev padati hoon school mein, GuruDev said- Achha adyapika hain. BapuJi then looked at the sky and two tears rolled down GuruDev's eyes, then after sometime GuruDev said- Tujhe tere pitaji milenge. Tu ab ja, then GuruDev at the same time called for mani kaka - sanchalak of Delhi ashram and asked him to call someone (I dont know why while writing here I felt I should not write all the details so I'll edit some of the portions. Please forgive me for this) from Amdavad ashram and after two days that bhai from Amdavad reached that behan's place and checked her father. He tried all he could for 3 days and told her that " Yeh case bahut mushkil hain, mere bus ka nahin hain, GuruDev se baat karni hogi is bare mein". Hearing this she was about to faint but after 2 days on 21 April 2000 GuruDev was again in Delhi (it was happening in such a way that GuruDev had his programs in nearby areas so BapuJi was in Delhi after 7 days.)

KAROL BAGH ASHRAM ANUBHAVWhen she went for darshans GuruDev saw her and called her and asked her - " Wo aaya tha na? kya kehta hai wo" she replied- GuruDev wo to kehte hain ki bhaut mushkil hain aur uske bus ke bahar hain". BapuJi called for that bhai and that bhai explained the complete case to GuruDev in Gujarati. BapuJi said to that behan - Tu unhe (her father) le aa. She said- Bapu wo nahin aayenge. Kuch aisa asar hai ki kisi bhi pavitra cheej ke nikat jaate hi wo chillana shuru kar dete hain. Bapu said- Tu ja to sahi. And on 28 April 2000 BapuJi was again back in Delhi and she asked her father - papa BapuJi ke pass chaloge and to her surprise her father replied- tere kehna par chalta hoon. When she reached ashram everyone was turned out as people were saying that as it's late night GuruDev wont come out for darshans and everyone was asked to go home . Gates were closed but somehow it happened that she and her family remained behind and couldnt go out. And then GuruDev came out with a torch in his hand. There was darkness all around as all lights were switched off. BapuJi saw her and she said- BapuJi papa bhi aaye hain. GuruDev looked at her father with the torch aimed at him. She said to GuruDev - Bapu aaj to aapne dekh liya, aaj kuch nahi hua to dubara aap ke paas pahunchna mushkil ho jayega. ( I couldn't stop smiling to that, GuruDev was talking to her almost every week and she was thinking like that) GuruDev looked at her and said "Hum sun rahe hain", phir GuruDev ne apne hathon se unke pitaji ko pani ka ek bada gilas pilaya aur apne hathon se kuch unke chehra par phenka. Didi ne mujhe bataya us samay sab log piche khade hue the aur unhone kuch bhayanka shabd sune. (after this I had to go so could not listen to complete anubhav) but now her father is healthy and comes to ashram regularly and gives his sevas. She also gives her seva in Delhi ashram dawakhana and her name is Geeta.

KAROL BAGH ASHRAM ANUBHAVGuruDev ki kripa k kaise kaise anubhav sunne dekhne ko milte hain, maine kudh apni aankhon ke samne dekha tha Surat mein GuruDev ne vyaspith par bethe hue, kisi dushtatma ko kisi ke sharir se nikala tha. Ab vigyan isko mane ya na mane par lakhon log sakshi hain aisi ghatnaon ke. Yeh un vigyaniyon ki moodh mati hogi jo wo ise nahin mante ya iski sachhayi main shak karte hain. Let me tell you my anubhav yesterday. How GuruDev saved my life. I was driving my bike and going to Delhi. I was driving but my mind was thinking of one of previous darshans where BapuJi got up from vyaspith and went into his kutia and said- hum niyam karne ja rahe hain, ab tum bhajan gavo- darshan do.. darshan do.. (aa daras dikha de GuruDev, tujhe tere lal bulate hain), tabhi hum aayenge. And I was just singing that bhajan while driving. As it was an open road I was driving at around 70 kmph, the car in front of me, I could not understand why applied the brakes and I suddenly realised that. I applied both my brakes and my bike got raised in air. It moved around 15 metres only on the front tyre and there were around 3 bikes and a car behind me coming at a very high speed. GuruDev ki aisi kripa hui ki na to meri bike ka balance bigda, na hi speed itni kum hui ki piche wali gadiyan mujhse takrate. After 3 or 4 seconds it became normal and then I realised what had happened and what could have happened had GuruDev not saved me. mujhe garv na aur saharon ka, bus tera sahara kafi hai. Hari Om-Manish

DELHI S ANUBHAVHari OM Yesterday GuruDev came to Delhi, it was just a stopover. Earlier we thought GuruDev might stay here atleast for a night but then program in Amritsar was announced and it was just a 4 hour programme. Gussa to bahut aaya lekin kya karen, ab akele hum thode hi baithe hain unke liye. Hum sam unko bahut hain, un sam humko nahi. sabke liye ek hi din mein tin tin jagah jane, apne sharir ko itna kast dena,ab koi unhe kya samjhaye. I reached ashram early in the morning as I was in jal seva. I didnt have any plan to go to airport but one of my friends had got a new car and he wanted to get atleast BaapJis charan in his car, so we went to airport. He waited outside the arrival lounge with the car and I was in there waiting for GuruDeva and BaapJi to arrive, lekin Bapu se bada koi golibaaj bhi to nahin hain. Hum sab andar khade the Bapu k intejar mein lekin Bapu aur BaapJi to vip gate se hi nikal gaye and we didnt come to know. We came to know when I asked one trollyman to keep all trolleys aside as BapuJi was about to arrive, he told me- BabaJi to gaye. We rushed outside and saw that the red light car which had come for GuruDev was still there and BapuJi had left in another car.

DELHI S ANUBHAVSo I went to parking, took out my bike and left for ashram. On the way back on a red light I saw the red light car and people had sorrounded that car. I thought they might have mistaken that car as GuruDev's car as I myself had seen that car going empty. As the light turned green I moved and overtook that car and to my surprise BapuJi was in the car ahead of that red light car. I applied brakes so I dont overtake GuruDev's car even by mistake and kept driving behind that car. BaapJi was sitting behind GuruDev on the right side. As a lot of people were going to ashram, on the way BapuJi stopped his car and talked to a lot of people. I also wanted to try my luck so I took a shortcut and parked my bike at some way ahead. Lekin Bapu bhi kam maje thoda hi lete hain. When the car arrived near me Bapu didnt even look at me and started talking to BaapJi behind. Maine bhi socha thik hai Bapu-dekh lenge aapko, kab tak najre phiraoge and came back to ashram. In ashram I went back to my seva, so didnt listen to any satsang. Only what I heard was that BapuJi was telling SandipaniJi's katha of his Gurubhakti and how he got the ashirwad ki Bhagwan unka chela banega. and mantrajap ke 15 siddhiyan and after BapuJi got a few couples engaged and married BapuJi told the katha of Raja Janak, it was a new katha but I'm sorry I couldn't listen to it. BapuJi said that next poonam might be in Delhi, be it half day darshan. BaapJi was earlier saying that sadhaks from other part of country have a madhur irshya with Delhi people as almost every month or say twice a month BapuJi is coming to Delhi. BapuJi even said that Mumbai sadhaks told him that they feel like shifting to Delhi.

DELHI S ANUBHAVBapuJi went in his kutia and people started leaving. I also thought of trying again so I went and stood on the way in a hope that is baar to Bapu dekh hi len. Everyone said that BapuJi will come from another route as there was jam on this route, everyone else went further even I also went but my heart was accepting that and it was saying tu yahin rah, unhe aana hoga to yahin se aayenge nahin to mat kar darshan. So I returned back to point where I was standing earlier. After about half an hour I saw BaapJi coming in a car. I said Hari Om to BaapJi, BaapJi was doing mala, BaapJi moved a bit forward, said Hari Om to me and started mala again. I was about to wear my sandals when one bhai from ashram said- Manish, Bapu ki gaadi peeche hain. I even forgot to remove my sandals. BapuJi came and went without even looking at me. Mujhe rona aa gaya ki mujhse kya galti ho gayi ki Bapu naraj hain. Jab kabhi bhi mein sonchta hoon ki BapuJi naaraj hain, mere dil me jaise GuruDev swayam keh rahe hoon- Tu Guru ke dil ko kya samjhta hain, Guru aise naaraj nahin hote. I returned back to ashram, finished my sevas and went back home lekin Bapu naaraj nahin hote to kya hum naraj nahin ho sakte unse, hum to rooth sakte hain unse, wo manane to aayenge hi na. Unko bhi pata hain ki unke siwa hamara koi nahin hain, to sambhal karne to aana hi padega, ab dekhte hain agli baar kya karte hain wo. Hari Om Manish

REKHA BEHAN ANUBHAVHari Om Yesterday one anubhav was posted by someone from Haridwar where GuruDev gave prandan to a behan. Reading that I was reminded of an anubhav that was told to me by one of sadhaks. Her name is Rekha Sharma and she lives in maruti kunj, Gurgaon. I call her didi although her daughter is around my age. Sso didi told me this anubhav about her mother in Haridwar some years back, I dont remember exact year. Sadhaks from maruti kunj had come to Haridwar on a bus. It was Poonam that day, they arrived early in the morning. At some place in Haridwar they took bath in Ganga maiya at some ghat. Bhai log at ghat for gents and maiyan at ghat for ladies. After Rekha didi's mother took a dip she came out and was drying her hair standing in a corner. Just a fraction of second had passed that she fell down going unconscious. All people rushed towards her and they noticed that she was standing on a recently burnt pyre that had cooled down but ashes were still there. When checked out and came to know that the place they were taking bath was the place where unidentified dead bodies were cremated. In the meanwhile Rekha didi's mother had expired. Her body went cool and her heartbeats stopped. All of them started praying to GuruDev. Rekha didi told me that he was praying to GuruDev that Bapu meri ma aapke darshanon ke liye aaayi thi par bina darshan kiye hi aisa ho gaya... A few seconds had passed when Rekha didi's mother's body started shivering and with a sudden jerk in her body she opened her eyes. Later she told everyone that when she was drying her hair she felt some sort of energy in her body and what she remembers after that was she was standing in a queue where a lot of people were standing. That queue was so long that it's end could not be seen and BapuJi came and pulled her out of that queue holding her hand and that was the time when she opened her eyes.

REKHA BEHAN ANUBHAVGuruDev ki bhi kaisi kaisi lilayen hoti hain. Shri Aasaramayan mein aata hai mrit gai diya jeevandana, tab se logo ne pehchana Ek gai ko nahi mere Sai ne na jane kitne lakhon logon ko jiwan diya hain. Kaisi kaisi musibtaon se Sai bachate hain, mujhe khudh Sai ne kitni baar accident hote hote bachaya hai. Ek baar to mere scooter ka aisa accident hua ki metal body poori kat gayi par na jane main kaise ek second pehle hi scooter se uchal ke door ja gira. When I took the scooter to mechanic for repair - he said " Bhai sahab itna buri tarah scooter ki body kati hain, jo betha hoga uski to tang katni hi thi" When I told him that I was driving and I just got one bruise in my leg when I fell down he was surprised and said" aapki kismat hain warna to aap gaye the Ab wo kya jane. Jiske sir par Shahenshahon ke Shahenshah ka hath ho, jiska baap Bhagwan ka bhi baap ho, uska koi kya bigad sakta hai. Mere sai ki aisi krupa hain...............kuch kaha bhi na jaye, chup raha bhi na jaye........

REKHA BEHAN ANUBHAVWhile writing this anubhav I just remembered a bhajan which some child created when we went to Ghaziabad ashram some years back for a saraswatya mantra anushthan during navratras, aroud 150 children were there and in the night all of us used to dance a lot on that bhajan. Bhajan kya tah, bhaav the hum sab ke main to nachoon baja ke dhol, Bapu mere hai main to gaun baja ke dhol ke Bapu mere hai. mere hain bhai mere hain, mere hain bhai mere hain And then all of us used to dance for hours fighting with each other ke BAPU MERE HAIN. Ab jab Bapu ne us pal ki yaad dilai hain to aap sab ko bhi us anushtan ke anubhav likhonga. Aisi krupa hui thi GuruDev kee ki hum 150 bacchon par ki kya bataon . If anyone wants to talk to Rekha didi to verify that anubhav I can provide you her contact info. you can mail me for that. Hari Om Manish

KAISI GURU SEWA- KAISI GURU SEWABHAKTIHari Om I was just listening to one of BaapJi's satsang. There BaapJi told this incident-Baapji was talking about poonam vratdhari sadhaks told this incident from the writings of Sant Shri AkhandanandJi Maharaj. AkhandanandJi and Oriya Baba were mitra saints, once while going through a road AkhandanandJi saw a man under the hot sun breaking stones, he was working on a road building project. Sant Shri stopped his car and called that man and said, Maine tumhe pehchan liya, tum Oriya Baba ke ashram mein rehte ho, lekin tumhe yeh kaam karne ki kya jaroorat hai, kya tumhe paise chahiye? To which that man replied- Ji Maharaj, mujhe paise chahiye Sant Shri said- Lekin tum paison ka karoge kya? Man replied- Mere GuruDev ke darshan karne bahut log aate hain, lekin un logo ke liye peena ke pani ke liye koi bartan nahin hai, mere GuruDev ke darshan ke liye jo log aate hain wo bhagwatswarop hain, wo pyaase rahein, mujhe kast hota hai, mere GuruDev ke darshanon ke liye aaye hue un bhagwatswaroop mahapurushon ki kuch seva kar paon to meri mere Gurucharnon mein kuch seva ho jayegi.

KAISI GURU SEWA- KAISI GURU SEWABHAKTIMein in paison se ek bartan khareedonga aur usme pani bharkar un bhakton ke liye rakhong taki darshanon ke liye aaye un bhakton ko pyaasa na rehna pade. Is katha ko kehte kehte BaapJi ki aankhon se aanson behne lage, Baapji GuruDev ki yaad mein pawan hone lage aur sabhi bhakton ko bhi mere Sai ki yaad mein pawan kar diya. Baapji further said-AkhandanandJi aage likhte hain apne pustak mein- Wo aadmi to mujhe pranam kar raha tha lekin mein mann hi mann use pranaam kar raha tha ki apne GuruDev ke darshanon ke liye aaye hue bhakton mein bhi bhagwatbhav karne wale bhakt, tujhe pranaam hain, tu dhanya hai, teri gurubhakti dhanya hai. Sabhi mere Sai ki yaad mein pawan ho rahe the, Sai Amdavad mein the, unhe Kota aana tha lekin mausam kharab hone ki wajah se unki flight takeoff nahin kar pa rahi thi. Aur Kota mein sabhi bhakt GuruDev ko yaad kar tap kar rahe the. Baap ji further sang tumhi mere raam ho, tumhi mere shyam ho tumhi meri jindagi, tum hi viram ho and Sadhkon ko mile aise sai, jeevan mein khushi aa gayi hai DO try to get that cd kota poonam 2 part Suresh BaapJi, Hari Om Manish

GURU KINHI KRIPA AUR BADAL DALI MERI JEEVAN DISHAHari Om This is one anubhav which I admire the most. Jo sachhai is bhai ne GuruDev ke samne rakhi hain vo vandniya hain, uski Gurucharnon mein nishtaa, useke prem, uski Gurubhakti aur uski sachhai ko naman hain. This was published in Lok Kalyan Setu around 1 year back edition: 67 Bhai's name: Kuldeep Kumar Yadav, Village Maghol Jabardastpur, Janpad, Saharanpur (U.P) In the words of that bhai himself. Guru kinhi krupa aur badal dali meri jiwan disha Main Indian Airforce main Airman hoon. Meri aayu 26 varsh hain, main aapko batata hoon ki kasie Pujya BapuJi ne mujh jaise pat ka bhi udhar kar diya. Bachpan se mujhe bahut ladpyaar mila. Main sidha sadha aur padne mein tej ladka tha, phir mujhe chai peena ka shouk laga. Main rojana kam se kam 3 litre chai peeta raha aur ye silsila kai varsh paryant chala.

GURU KINHI KRIPA AUR BADAL DALI MERI JEEVAN DISHAUske baad main TV dekhne ka vyasni hua aur is ek aadat ne mere jiwan mein dheere dheere sari buraiyan la di. Main khana khai bagair to reh late tha par TV dekhe bina nahin, is bare mein meri kai baar jam ke pitai bhi hui magar koi asar nahin hua, parinamswarup kaam aur krodh ye do vikar mere jiwan mein poornarupen parilakshit hue. Baat baat mein chid jana avam naraj hona mera swabhav ho gaya. Maine bidi, cigarete pan aur daru ka bhi kafi sevan kia Main 16-17 saal ki umar main ek dedh botal sharab pe leta tha. Meat bhi kha leta tha, ande to khoob khata tha. Ek baar to ek sath 2.5 botal pe the aur mera bura haal ho gaya tha. 15 varsh ki umar mein hi main kami ho gaya tha aur dheere dheere yeh vikar itna bad gaya ki maine 30 ladkiyon ko girlfriend banaya, jinme se kaiyon ke sath kam vikar bhoga, hastmaithun aur 35 ladko ke sath bhi kamvikar bhoga, yeh silsila 1991 se 1998 tak chala. Isi beech main inter main fail ho gaya aur apne ghar padai ke liye aa gaya. Ghar par mujhe kaid jaisa lagne lagag kyunki meri aadte bigad chuki thi, ab mera mann padai main bilkul nahin lagta tha, phaltah mere jivan mein gussa aur bechani bad gayi. Gharwalon se aaye din mera jhagda hota hi tha. Baat yahan tak badi ki maine faisla kiya ki main atmahatya kar loon. Aisa kai baar mann mein pakka kiya lekin phir socha ki main to marunga hi magar gharwalon ko markar hi maronga aur bhi koi kuch kahega to use bhi maronga. Ladkiyon ke chakkar mein ladai jhagde hote hi rehte the, gharwale aur sabhi rishtedaar mujhe samjha samjha kar thak gaye the.

GURU KINHI KRIPA AUR BADAL DALI MERI JEEVAN DISHAKai rishtedaaron ke sath bhi ghagda hua, mera jivan narak ban gaya tha aur ek chita ki nai main andar hi andar sulag raha tha aur mritpray ho gaya tha. Isi beech 1997 main mera selection Airforce main ho gaya lekin abhi call lettre nahin aaya tha. Main Santon me bilkul vishwas nahin karta tha aur pakka nastik ban gaya tha, Sadhu Santon aur Bhagwan ko gali deta tha. Isi beech mere ek-do rishtedaron ne Pujya BapuJi se dikha le li thi. Main ek ladki ke chakkar main tha aur hum mil nahin pa rahe the. Tabhi mujhe pata chala ki Saharanpur mein BapuJi ka Satsang hain aur waha ladki wahan jayegi. Mere mann mein keeda rengne laga aur wahin us ladki se mulakat ho sakti hain. Meri satsang main koi ruchi nahin thi magar us ladki se milne ke liye main 20-23 March 1998 roj ja raha tha phir bhi kisi karanvash mil nahin paya, vahaan par Pujya Narayan Sai (BapuJi k Suputra) aur SureshanandJi (BapuIi k krupaa paatra shisya) ka Satsang tha. 23 March ko achanak ek policewale ne meri gaal par jor se thapad mara to main ne poocha ki kyon mara hain to wah bola ki tum aisi jagah aakar bhi aise galat kam karte ho, tumhe sharam nahin aati? Tabhi GuruJi bhi poornahuti hetu padhare. Darshan karte hi laga ki mujhe sab kuch mil gaya hai aur mujhe inse diksha leni chaahiye. Inke dware hi meri jeevan naiya paar lagegi aisi prerna hui. Main 9 April 98 ko Haridwar Shivir mein diksha hetu gaya magar wahan bhi dikha nahin mili lekin wahan par GuruDev ne kaha ki jo mujhe Guru mante hain ya manna chahte hain ve dakshina de, hath uthakar vachan de. Mera bhi hath achanak uth gaya.

GURU KINHI KRIPA AUR BADAL DALI MERI JEEVAN DISHAPujya BapuJi ne kaha ki aaj ke baad aap log bidi, cigarrete, daru, meat aadi k sevan nahi karoge aur maha aascharya dekhiye ki us din se meri sharab, bidi, maans, ande, cigarrete sab apne aap chut gaye aur mujhe koi bhi prayas nahin karna pada. Tabhi 20 April 98 ko Ghaziabad mein Mantradiksha mil gayi aur is prakar hua mera (naya)adhyatmik janam. Dikhsa milte hi sab buri aadte chut gayi aur jeevan mein ek naya anand aur ullas cha gaya. Yauvan Suraksha aur Yogyatra 3 and 4 na ghajab ka asar kiya. Jo jeevan mere liye maut se bhi badtar ho gaya tha wah ab amrit sadrsah ho gaya, kaam krodh shadvikar bhi gayab ho gaye. Charo aur anand, madurya aur prempoorna dristi nazar aane lagi. Phir main 19 June 98 ko training me aa gaya. Kaiyon ko is sharir dware prerna milne lagi aur kai yuvan yuvatiyon ka charitra sudhar gaya, gharwalon sahit 30-3 aadmiyon ko dikhsa dilwa di. Yuva bhaiyon behnon! aapse karbadh namratapoorvak vinti hain ki aap sab bhi Pujya BapuJi k Satsang amrit ka pan kare-karaye. Ghar ghar mein ujala laye jisse Gurukrupaa swarup Bharat phir se Vishvaguru ki padvi par pahunch jaye. TV cinema novel ganda sahitya fashion vyasan aadi se sada mukta rahen, auro ko bhi mukt kare, asha hai ki aap sab log in anubvhavon se awashye hi labhanvit honge. Hai GuruDev, aapko itna karib pata hoon, yaad karna bhi bhool jata hoon. Aap hi aap ashru behte hain, aap hi aap muskurata hoon. Is anibhav se mujhe to Gurucharnon mein sacchai se apne hridya ko rakhne ki jo prerna mili hain ki anupan fayde ka anubhav hua hain. Hari Om Manish

GURU BHAKTIYesterday one bhai wrote anubav about BapuJi's meeting with PathikJi Maharaj and his disciple AcharyaJi. I was reminded of one Bhagwat kathakar whose name I dont remember. He had his katha in Gurgaon district and I reached there somehow because that was organized by one of BapuJi's sadhak and I was trying to catch one of our sadhaks who was trying to avoid me because she was not submitting her Bal Sanskar reports since long. That kathakar has a intersting story behind him. He is in his late 20's now. When he was infant his parents died. Their neighbour brought him up and when he was 4-5 yr old she sent him to an ashram of a Saint where he was brought up and he started doing Bhagwat katha when he was quite young and that was his 100th Bhagwat katha. At first the ahankar in me stopped me from going for his darshan as I thought he is not a Self realized Saint, he is just a kathakar lekin Bapu ne to mera ahankar galana hi tha to mujhe kisi tarah pahuncha hi diya. Although I bowed to him and he greeted me with a smile but inside I was still like a palm tree, standing straight refusing to bow, mujhme ahankar tha Bapu ka sadhak hone ka, namrata to us samay pata nahi kahan thi mujhme. Lekin uske baad mujhe jo sunne ko mila mera sir sharam se ghuk gaya. Mujhe unki Gurubhakti ke bare mein jab Rekha didi ne bataya.

GURU BHAKTIOnce his GuruDev said "Aajkal Eklavya jaise shishya nahin milte unhone jaise hi yeh baat suni apne GuruDev se bole "GuruDev agar sachhe Sadguru hain to unki kripa se Eklavya jaise shishya bhi ban jate hain. itna kehkar unhone chaku(knife) se apni 3 fingers kat kar apne GuruDev ke charno mein rakh di. Yeh ghatna sunkar mera sara bhoot utar gaya. Main apne ko sadhak manne ka jo ahankar kar raha tha wo ek pal mein hi tirohit ho gaya. Main unki Gurubhakti ko naman kar raha tha aur apne karmon par glani mehsoos kar raha tha. Maine socha abhi to aisi koi kausauti hamari hui hi nahi hain, hum aise hi phool kar apne ko kuch manne ki bhool karte hain. Aage to mujhe Rekha didi ne bataya jo un Sant ne katha ke baad BapuJi ka jikra chidne par bataya. Wo bole ki hum bachhe the tab BapuJi hamein khoob laad karte the. Humhe to BapuJi apni gaud me bithate the. BapuJi jab GuruDev se milte to humhe bhi darshan hote the aur wo hume bahut pyaar karte the. Abhi bhi BapuJi se phone par baat hoti rehti hain aur Narayan Sai se mulakat bhi hoti rehti hain.

GURU BHAKTIAnd also around 1 yr back one of GuruDev's mitra Sant Barfani Baba came to Gurgaon not for Satsang but that BabaJi was staying at one his bhakt's place. That Sant lives in higher peaks of Himalayas in some gufa over there and wears nothing but a langot and GuruDev even sent Narayan Sai to Gurgaon for darshans of that Saint aur mera durbhagya tha ki mujhe pata lagne ke bavjood mein nahin pahunch paya aur jab gaya to pata laga ki wo Sant ja chuke hain. Sant Ka Darshan Badbhagi pave. Also I apologies I forgot to mention in previous mail BapuJi's trip to Pakistan about what GuruDev said the reason behind his trip. I dont fully remember what GuruDev said but I do remember and writing in my own words Jo kam rajsatta nahin kar payi wo kam dharmsatta se hi sambhav hain. Hamare jane ka prabhav to jaroor padega, yeh mamla netaon se nahi suljhega, yeh to Santon se hi hoga. BapuJi also said some more things but I exactly dont remember . I apologise for that. Hari Om Manish

PAKISTAN TRIPIt was when BapuJi had to go to Pakistan for Satsang. BapuJi gave darshan in morning. BapuJi had a flight late in the evening. So in the morning BapuJi gave Satsang and highlighted the reason behind going to Pakistan and the effect it will cause. When BapuJi went back into his kutia all people were asked to leave ashram all main sadhak shishyas were there like BaapJi, Shekhar bhai and all people and they had to make preparations for it. Baapji was packing BapuJi's luggage. However some other sevas were also going on, so somehow I got the opputunity to stay in the ashram. Actually stall godown was being shifted so we were doing that only and the old godown which we were cleaning up, BaapJi was sitting in same room packing GuruDev's luggage. So we got a lot of darshans of BaapJi as I went in and out many times. At around 4.30 in the evening, BaapJi was about finished packing and then BaapJi was talking to some people who somehow remained in the ashram. I was just trying to listen all what BaapJi was telling about Bapu to all those people but I couldn't. After those people left Baapji called us and asked "Kaun Kaun seva mein tha." Hum Hath jod kar khade ho gaye aur BaapJi ne mere hath mein ek badi pinni rakh di and said --Mauj hain. I just couldn't believe my luck. Baapji ke darshano ke baad unke hathon se prasad wo bhi unhone swyam aakar diya.

PAKISTAN TRIPIn the evening I had to go to airport with one bhai from ashram as BapuJi's passport was to arrive from Amdavad in a package and we had to collect that. When we returned back to ashram BapuJi was on vyaspith giving darshans. Bapu ne itni mauj karwayi ki poocho mat. When Bapu returned from Pakistan once in Satsang BaapJi was telling his experiences, how much respect, people from Pakistan gave to GuruDev. Baapji even told that he visited Berani village in sindh- Village where GuruDev was born. When BapuJi passed through the streets of that village- as BaapJi told people stood on roof tops and greeted BapuJi. They showered flowers on GuruDev's car. Baapji said, he even applied the mitti of Berani on his forehead. Jahan GuruDev ne apna bachpan bitaya aisi pawan bhoomi ki mitti se to wo pawan ho gaye aur hum yeh anubhav sun sun kar pawan ho rahe the. Baapji said people over there gave so much respect that even they referred to GuruDev's Shreechitra as ""TASWEER SAHIB"" not just photo or chitra. (Sikhs pay respect to all holy bodies like Gurudwaras and Gurus and even Guru Granth Sahib by attaching SAHIB in end of it as respect.) The same way they refered GuruDev Sree Chitra as Tasweersahib. HARI OM MANISH

HISAR DARSHANFirst of all, I apologise for not being able to post any darshans because of several reasons and most important of them all I was waiting for BapuJi to come to Delhi. Although I was planning to go to Hisar but couldn't as I had an exam on Sunday which was the last day of Satsang in Hisar. After BapuJi finished Satsang in Hisar BapuJi said- "Hum Dilli ja rahe hain lekin pata nahin tha ki itna tadpayenge. BapuJi after finishing satsang in Hisar went to Hansi as there BapuJi had given one Satra there also. BapuJi gave one satra in Hansi on Sunday night and left for Rohtak via Bhiwani and Suresh BaapJi had to give satsang in Hansi yesterday. It was clear to no one whether BapuJi will come to Delhi directly or stay in Rohtak overnight. No one, not even people in Delhi or Rohtak ashram were sure about it. I was planning to go to Rohtak but couldn't as I was not sure if BapuJi is coming directly to Delhi or not. Kisi tarah raat bitai. In the morning I was thinking of going to Rohtak as BapuJi spent the night in Rohtak but couldn't. In the morning BapuJi gave darshan in Rohtak and went for maalish back in his kutia. At around 10 or 11 I just happened to call Rohtak and came to know that BapuJi is leaving for Delhi. There was some chance that BapuJi might stopover in Bahadurgarh. As BapuJi left Rohtak, I left Gurgaon .

HISAR DARSHANI was thinking of going to Jhatikra but somehow I decided that I'll go till Bahadurgarh. I stood on Rohtak road for 1/2 hour but BapuJi had reached Bahadurgarh ashram from some other route. I reached Bahadurgarh ashram. BapuJi hadn't come out for darshan as yet. In Bahadurgarh ashram it's like ,just above pandal it's BapuJi's kutia. There are stairs that come down to pandal from kutia. After around 30-45 minutes BapuJi came down. BapuJi kept standing on the stairs along the railing and looked at all the people. BapuJi ne sabhi ko maun rehne ke liye shabasi di aur kaha. Aapko shabash hain maun rakhne ke liye isliye hum upna niyam kar paye. agar shor hota to hum yahan se Jatikra chale jaate. 2 maiyan kahin bethe aur chup reh sake, naa...... par yahan itni sari maiyan aur kaisi shanti. Phir BapuJi ne ek katha sunai do bhaiyon ki, which was about karmo ki gati. ""Ishwar ki shrisiti mein anyaay nahi hota, kya usko pata nahi kya nyaay hain, kya anyaay, humko hi lagta hain ki sachhe log dukh bhogte hain aur papi log sukhi hain."" The summary was "Har koi apne poorva ke karmo ka phal bhogta hai. Pichle kiye punyon ya paap hi use sukh ya dukh dete hain.

HISAR DARSHANWhile telling this katha BapuJi said in the katha "Chota bhai chakra gaya. Kya hua chote bhai ko-and all said---chakra gaya. BapuJi ko mauj aa gayi. BapuJi said-""chakra gaya, chakram, ooo chakram........" and Akhil bhai came running down from BapuJi's kutia. BapuJi said to Akhil bhai Chote bhai ko kya hua, batao ise... chakra gaya.. achha ab ja. """""''Har koi Bapu ki lila ko dekh kar mauj kar raha tha. BapuJi said after some time "Humne Hisar mein bhi ye katha nahin sunai, wahan alag aur yahan alag Satsang huya. Har jageh ke liye alag katha nikal hi aati hain. BapuJi also said after some time after talking about something else "Dakshina dekar jana. Paan masala na khane ka aur maiyan lali lipstick na lagayegi iska vachan dekar jana. BapuJi ne apni chadar se apne honth poonchte hue haste hue kaha -- Ponch do and all maiyan started laughing.-- lali lipstick se kudrati romkup nast ho jate hain aur pardes mein jo maiyan makeup nahi karti hai ve to baad mein bandariya jaise dikhti hain.

HISAR DARSHANPhir Bapu bole- Aapko bhukh lagi hogi, aap jao, aap nahin kahoge to hum kaise kha sakte hain, yeh humse nahin hoga, humne nashta bhi nahin kiya hain subah se, aap khaoge tabhi hum khayenge. Hamare ghar koi aaye aur bhooka rahe ye humein achha nahi lagta humne poocha -taiyar hai to bola ki Bapu dalia taiyar hai lekin humne nahin khaya. Pehle aap khaoge tabhi hum khayenege. Mahila ashram mein humne keh rakha hai-pehle ashram ki bachhiyan khayengi baad mein hamari beti aur bhaiyon ke ashram mein bhi pehle ashram mein samarpit bachhe kheyenege aur baad mein hamara beta Narayan. Apno se nyaay, doosron se udarta ho to dil mein santushti rehti hain aur wahi to chahiye ab aap yahan aaye ho to kisliye dil ki santushti ke liye hi na... Aap jao nahi to hum jate hain, hum gaadi mein kha lenge arre.... Akhil pack kar, gadi taiyar kar........ Hum chale. Ab aap jao aur bhojan karo nahin to yahin par banao. Everyone said - BapuJi hum yahin shanti se kha lenge aap mat jao. BapuJi said achha pulao ban gaya ho to lao hum check kar lein, one sevadar went to rasoi and reported to Bapu, BapuJi said -achha abhi pani dala hai chaval mein. Phir BapuJi kutia mein chale gaye.

HISAR DARSHANWe all also left the ashram as BapuJi was about to leave. After 15 minutes BapuJi's car came and left for Jatikra. I was behind BapuJi. There were some more cars also but all of them got stuck somewhere in traffice and were misled as BapuJi took his car from an unexpected route, even the car in piloting went on the wrong way. Only BapuJi's car and my bike were there, so we decided to stay along as even the piloting car was not there so we might get some seva. BapuJi ne chaar baar seesha khola aur hath bahar nikala but it was not clear whether BapuJi was calling me or not that's why I didn't drive parallelly because mujhe dar tha kahin dant ne pade. Isliye I kept driving safely and at a distance from BapuJi's car. At Najafgarh BapuJi's car got stuck in traffic jam so I overtook BapuJi's car and tried clearing the jam but BapuJi said- Peeche aa, so I went back again and kept driving. BapuJi reached Jatikra and all this while I got darshans from behind. BapuJi went into the kutia and I and another bhai who reached there started doing mala. After around 20 minutes other vehicles came which got confused in the way. Aage kya hua in the next post. Hari Om Manish

DIWALI DARSHANGuruDev ki aisi aseem anukampa hain ki Bapu ne yeh Diwali bhi safal kar di. As I gave you a hint yesterday about latest darshans, to is baar unki mauj dekho. Usually Bapu comes to Delhi this time of the year, even if for a few hours and we were expecting BapuJi to come this year also. As Bapu had given satsang in Bhopal, so today after satsang in Bhopal BapuJi was exected to come to Delhi, although it was not confirmed whether Bapu would stay in Delhi or leave for Amdavad. Whole day went into confusion, whether we'll get darshan or not. but Bapu bhi to sabki sunte hi hai. After a day full of confusion got the news that BapuJi would be coming by 10.00 pm flight in the evening. We reached airport by 8.30 pm and was still confused whether Bapu is coming or not. At 10:15 Bapu reached Delhi and was very happy, purna mauj mein the.

DIWALI DARSHANSabse baat karte jab bahar pahunche to car ke paas khade hokar bole, aaj to aap log Sant k bhakt lag rahe ho, waise to shor karte ho to neta ke bhakt lagte ho. Om Namo Bhagwate Vasudevah........ Vasudevah... Istdevah........ Aananddevah.......... (and then with a shararat on his face) Aaram dene wale devay and then started laughing. All people in arrival lounge of airport were looking at Bapu and were surprised a lot. Then Bapu said, bhagdor k baad ab hum sochte hain chup ho jayen and then smiling sat in his car and went to ashram. And our correspondents from ashram report (bhai log kshamaa karnaa, thoda majak kar liya)---- in ashram some people were waiting for Bapu Bapu sang--- ab hame jaane do........... and went into his kutia at 11.00pm I apologise I tried to post this but couldn't as my net was not working and I didnt have much ti