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Yksntnvc, Durnkus, lom Dkbm N`lacs]n`ktey Glbblo

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Ldhokwbcmac`cots

N wkubm bnhc tk teloh Lml` Huhubhl fkr ecbp prkkfrclmnoa tens

gkkh.


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Mnsdbln`cr

N rcfusc tk usc quktltnko `lrhs no sude l wly telt covcbkpcs loy dk``ls

kr pcrnkms okt suaacstcm gy tec quktcm `ltcrnlb. Fkr cxl`pbc, quktnoa ldenbm slynoa tec wkrms "N mko't wlot tk ak okw", N mnm okt put tec dk``lwnteno tec quktltnko `lrhs, ls tec dk``l ns okt suaacstcm gy tec denbm'swkrms. Ko tec ktecr elom, N wnbb com tens ocxt scotcodc no l mnffcrcot wly.Ls sk`ckoc kodc slnm, "Ssc ykur eclm, okt ykur rubc gkkh."

Qnte l sn`nblr c`pelsns ko dblrnty kvcr dkovcotnko, N lbsk fkbbkwmlsecs wnte dk``ls lt tn`cs. Cvco nf prcdcmcm gy l mlsels N wnbb okwmc`kostrltc, N rctlno dk``ls telt rctlno uscfubocss. Gcykom just

puodtultnko, tekuae, N'm ekpc lguomlot dblrnty pcrvlmcs `y wrntnoa, frk`

wkrm krmcr, tk scotcodc strudturc, tk kvcrlbb prcscotltnko kf nmcls.


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Wcpbldcm @k`cots

L gkmnbcss cotnty bcnsurcby swkkps terkuae kutcr spldc, drkssnoa

n``cosc mnstlodcs no cffkrtbcss bclps lom swnoanoa bkkps, gut nt sccsok pblocts, stlrs, kr alblxncs telt wkubm gc fl`nbnlr tk noelgntlots kf

Clrte. Lftcr l fcw `noutcs, kvcr l pcrnkm koby twk scdkoms bkoa,

lom wnte tec bkum sdrltdenocss kf l vnmck tlpc summcoby rcwkuom,

tec cotnty vncws nts cotnrc jkurocy gldhwlrm, l jkurocy telt sploocm

oclr-dkuotbcss yclrs cvco wenbc trlvcbnoa lt `lrvcbkus spccms.

]ecsc twk scdkoms com wnte lo lgrupt tlhc tk l gbldhocss telt

bnoacrs fkr scvcrlb scdkoms gcfkrc wc pccr terkuae tec cycs kf tenscotnty lt welt wls tec kosct kf nts jkurocy.

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Qc lrc no tec wlr` hntdeco kf l `nmmbc-dblss L`crndlo ekuscekbm.

L bnttbc gky, wek lppclrs notcoscby skgcrcm lom rcbudtlot tk spclh,

wnte cycs kftco fnxcm mkwowlrm, snts cltnoa dcrclb wenbc ens `ktecr

mnstrldtcmby kralonzcs ntc`s ko tec hntdeco dkuotcr wenbc fldnoa

lwly frk` tec gky. ]ecrc ns sk`c prcmndtlgbc tlbh gctwcco lhnomcralrtcocr ko ens wly tk sdekkb lom ens `ktecr. Ekwcvcr, lftcr

l flnrby bkoa plusc, tec denbm slys, "N'` l vcry glm gky, @k``y".

"Qey ekocy; ku'rc okt l glm gky," skuomnoa mnstrldtcm.

Lftcr loktecr flnrby bkoa plusc, ec slys, "@k``y". Ens `ktecr

turos ecr eclm tkwlrm en`. Dkotnounoa, ec slys, "N'` skrry," mccpbyscrnkusby lom mcbngcrltcby, rlnsnoa ens cycs.

Okw oktndnoa ecr sko's arlvc scrnkusocss, ens `ktecr stkps ecr

eloms frk` kralonznoa mnsecs gy tec snoh lom dupgklrms (wende fldc

tkwlrm tec flnrby gusy strcct no frkot kf tecnr ekusc). Yuttnoa tec

mnsecs mkwo, sec slys, "Ekocy, ke, ekocywelt `lhcs yku sly

telt;", ls sec eurrncs tk snt gy en`.

]ec denbm scc`s notcoscby lsel`cm lom ecsntlotby stltcs, "Blst


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onaet."

"Qelt lgkut blst onaet;" Wcdcnvnoa ok loswcr, "Blst onaet yku

sbcpt no kur rkk`, rc`c`gcr; ku mnmo't mk loytenoa glm..."Oktnoa ok deloac no ecr sko's dkotrntc pksntnkonoa, "]n``y, yku

sbcpt bnhc lo loacb. ku mnmo't mk loytenoa, ekocy. Nt `ust'vc gcco l

glm mrcl`." Lftcr l wenbc, "Mnm yku elvc l glm mrcl`, ]n``y;"

"Ok." Lftcr l bnttbc plusc, "Nt wlso't l mrcl`."

"Ekocy. Qelt mk yku tenoh elppcocm;"

"...N'` skrry, @k``y," kodc lalno mccpby snodcrc lom mcbngcrltc,

rlnsnoa ens cycs ls gcfkrc.

"Qelt ns nt, ekocy;"

]lhnoa l bkoa tn`c tk gcano, "@k``yN ent yku! N mnmo't cvco`clo tk. Nt wls `y elom`y elom ent yku lom N fcbt loary bnhc N

`clot tk gut N mnmo't `clo tk! N mko't hokw welt elppcocm! N'`

drlzy, @k``y! N'` drlzy!" Ec coms up gurncm no ens `ktecr's

senrt, euaanoa ecr lom drynoa.

Notcoscby dkodcrocm, "]n``y]n``y, ]n``yyku mnmo't ent `c!

Nt's khly. Nt wls just l glm, glm mrcl`. Nt's khly, ekocy. ku'rc okt

drlzy, yku'rc okt drlzy"

]n``y jkbtnoaby gldhs lwly frk` ens `ktecr gut teco sbkwby wlbhs

tkwlrm tec mkkr, tk tec bcft kf tec snoh lom dupgklrms. Ttnbb fldnoa

ecr, bkkhnoa tcrrnfncm, "Okok, okok... N'` drlzy, @k``y,

gcdlusc nt wlso't l mrcl`..."

Ens `ktecr sbkwby lpprkldecs en` lom, kodc oclr cokuae tk en`,`kvcs tk c`grldc en`, gut ec n``cmnltcby gkbts tk puse plst tec

uobltdecm stkr` mkkr. ]ec cotnty's pcrspcdtnvc fkbbkws ]n``y ko


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ens wly kut kotk tec strcct ls, lftcr l `k`cot stuoocm, ens `ktecr

sdrcl`s kut tk en`, ekrrnfncm, "]n``y!... ]n``y! ku mnmo't ent

`c!"

Dkotnounoa lt l plondhcm lom mctcr`nocm spccm, ]n``y ns okw

oclrnoa tec `nmmbc kf tec strcct, wecrc wc skko eclr tec sdrccdenoa

kf tnrcs ls tec pcrspcdtnvc tlhcs tk ]n``y's sekdhcm pksc. Lt tec

skuom kf l sdrcl`noa denbm, tec pcrspcdtnvc tlhcs tk ens `ktecr

snttnoa up fkrdcfubby no gcm lom wnte l selrp alsp. ]ec pcrspcdtnvc

wnmcos tk sekw ecr eusglom lwlhconoa, gut `ude `krc pcldcfubby.

"Qelt ns nt ekocy;", ec slys, elbf-mlzcmby.

Ttnbb dltdenoa ecr grclte, ens wnfc qundhby senfts ecr gkmy kvcr tk

fldc tec wnomkw ko ecr snmc, tec rnaet snmc kf tec gcm, skuomnoa lom

bkkhnoa rcbncvcm weco sec sccs lo c`pty rklm gcbkw. Ekrrkr kodc

lalno kvcrdk`cs ecr fclturcs, tekuae, ls sec gkbts fkr tec gcmrkk`

mkkr, tekuae sec ns ecbm gldh gy ecr eusglom wek ns `krc lwlhc gyokw.

"Qkle, wkle, wkle, ekocywelt's tec `lttcr;"

Notcoscby prckddupncm gut sbkwby grkuaet tk l dbclr `nom, "Ns

]n``y... khly;..."

" cs... Ec's rnaet... tecrc." ]ec eusglom turos ecr lrkuom tk sekw

]n``y sbccpnoa skuomby ko l dkt tk tec bcft kf tec mkkr, kppksntc

tecnr gcm. ]ec eusglom bclms ens wnfc tk snt ko tec gcm no krmcr tk

dltde ecr grclte.

Gcanoonoa tk bluae, "]elt wls rclbby snbby kf `c... N just elm tec

`kst ekrrngbc mrcl`," gut comnoa wnte ok bluae lom lppclrnoa

rcsnstlot tk furtecr mnsdussnoa tec mrcl`.

"Qcbb...", `ktnkonoa fkr ecr tk tcbb lgkut tec mrcl`.


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tercc acocrltnkos rcprcscotcm lt tec tlgbc. ]ecy elvc l bkoa gut

snodcrcby pbclslot lom bkvnoa dkovcrsltnko. No Gloablmcsen lddcots,

tecy mnsduss sugjcdts sude ls ekw tec "tu`s lrc gcanoonoa tk gum"

lom ekw gclutnfub sprnoa ns. Lftcr l wenbc, tecy sly ekw tnrcm `kstkf tec` lrc frk` sude l "bkoa mly".

Ls tecy lbb gcano tk mnspcrsc, tec pcrspcdtnvc tlhcs tk tec snxty-

sk`ctenoa arlomfltecr rclmnoa no gcm wnte ens wnfc. ]ec `lrkko

lom akbmco gcmrkk` ns lrrloacm wnte scvcrlb tlbb lom notrndltcby-

mcdkrltcm secbvcs ekusnoa tekusloms kf trnohcts lom `c`cotks kf

pkssngby enae `koctlry vlbuc. ]ecy tlbh lgkut ekw "telt wls l ondc`clb" lom spclh ktecr pbclslotrncs. ]ec wnfc slys, "N dlo't wlnt tk

scc ekw `loy `krc gums wnbb gc ko tec tu`s tk`krrkw."

Hnmmnoaby, "N'` surc tecy'rc lbb pbloonoa ko anvnoa yku l pbclslot

surprnsc. N'` surc tecy'rc lbb gusy pbloonoa tec ou`gcr kf ocw gums

rnaet okw, mlrbnoa."

"Ke, stkp nt! ...@lygc tecy rclbby lrc. Ekw wkubm yku hokw;

@lygc tu`s rclbby mk elvc fccbnoas..."

"]elt's rnaet... Ekw wkubm N hokw fkr surc; Qcbb, tecy mko't

sdrcl` weco N lxc lt tec`, fkr koc... gut `lygc tecy'rc `utc..."

]ecy bluae lom dkotnouc tecnr akkm-olturcm glotcrnoa gcfkrc hnssnoa

"akkmonaet" lftcr tec wnfc acts no gcm lom tec bnaets lrc turocm kff.

]ecy bluae lom snae l bnttbc ls tecy souaabc no gut skko flbb notk tec

snbcodc kf sbccp. Lftcr l wenbc, tecrc ns l tlhc tk gbldh, n``cmnltcby

flmnoa up tk tec sl`c rkk` tec ocxt `kronoa. ]ecy lrc stnbb lsbccp

tekuae gkte scc` tk gc s`nbnoa. ]ecy bkkh mccpby dk`fkrtlgbc.

Frk` tec bnaet senonoa terkuae tec trccs kutsnmc tecnr grklm wnomkw,

wc scc l rcfbcdtnko kf uo`nstlhlgby lutu`o-dkbkrcm `kstby rcmbclvcs terkuaekut tec rkk`, gut `lnoby ko tecnr gcm. Qc dlookt scc

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sl`c wlbb ls tecnr gcm's eclmgklrm telt tec trccs' bclvcs lrc oclr tec

pclh kf tecnr deloac kf dkbkr.

Ttnbb s`nbnoa, tec eusglom wlhcs up fnrst ls wc scc en` ablodc kuttec wnomkw lom teco dk`fkrtlgby "rc-souaabc" no lom eua ens wnfc.

Ec wenspcrs, "]ec tu`s lrc cvco `krc gclutnfub telo ycstcrmly,

Mclry." ]ec wnfc, lbsk stnbb s`nbnoa, lwlhcs, turonoa ecr cycs tk tec

wnomkw, gut teco sbkwby frcczcs, rclbnznoa l stltc kf ekrrnfncm sekdh.

Tec stlrcs kut tec wnomkw fkr oclrby elbf l `noutc, teco bkkhs kff

fkr loktecr bkoa wenbc, lpplrcotby tenohnoa plondhcmby. Tec bkkhs

gldh kutsnmc lom, lftcr l bnttbc `krc tn`c kf tenohnoa, slys, scrnkusbylom grcltenoa eclvnby, "Clrbtlhc `c tk tec ekspntlb."

Lftcr elvnoa sbkwby zkk`cm no frk` sekwnoa ecr wekbc fldc, tec

pcrspcdtnvc coms up fkdusnoa ko koc kf ecr cycs, wende ns okt

bkkhnoa mnrcdtby leclm. Lftcr l fcw scdkoms, tecrc ns l tlhc tk l

sn`nblrby notcosc bkkhnoa cyc, pksntnkocm lom bkkhnoa ls nf nt dkubm

gc tec sl`c cyc ls tec wk`lo's. ]ec tlhc ns oclrby uooktndclgbc.*

Lftcr l fcw scdkoms, tec cxtrc`cby lantltcm-bkkhnoa cyc turos tk

fldc fkrwlrm, rctlnonoa nts notcosnty. Lftcr l bnttbc wenbc, tec kwocr

kf tec cyc gcanos tk spclh. ]erkuaekut ens spccde, tec pcrspcdtnvc

vcry sbkwby zkk`s kut frk` ens cyc tk rcvclb wecrc ec ns. Ec ns l

rltecr ykuoa `lo, prkglgby no ens twcotncs, flnrby lttrldtnvc. Ec

mkcs okt bkkh kr scc` kvcrby "nosloc", just nodrcmngby dkofuscm lom

snodcrcby gktecrcm lom `kvcm, gut okt rusecmby kr `lonldlbby8 ec

scc`s tk gc no l `kkm kf rcsnmulb gut qunctnoa fclr frk` sk`c

mnsturgnoa nodnmcot.

"Elvc yku cvcr akoc ko l pndond wnte l arkup kf pckpbc, lom teco

yku ak kff ko l wlbh wnte ykur twk gcst frncomstecy'vc gcco gcst

frncoms wnte yku lbb ykur bnfclom yku dbksc ykur cycs ls yku lbb

rcst ko l enbb, bncm mkwo, rcblxcm, lom teco yku kpco ykur cycs, lomtecy ocvcr cxnstcm. ']ecy wcrco't tecrc' cvcrykoc slysgut tecy'm

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oclr tec mkkr terkuae wende wc pccr, l rkuom-fclturcm kbmcr blmy

weksc lppclrlodc stlrhby dkotrlsts tecnrs, mrcsscm no onoctccote

dcotury prkpcr lttnrc, snts lbsk flbbco lsbccp, gut no l rkdhnoa delnr

wnte drkdectnoa occmbcs lom ylro ko ecr blp. Tummcoby, koc kf tecanrbstec s`lbbcst, wnte sekrt gbldh elnrkpcos ecr cycs wnmc

cokuae fkr us tk lssu`c sec elm just eclrm tec sdrccde kf sk`ctenoa

bnhc l aekst. Tec snts up wnte l jcrh, sdrcl`noa wnte l vkndc

pktcotnlbby cntecr uomcr-uscm kr ocvcr gcfkrc uscm. Tec stclmnby

cycs lom pknots tkwlrm tec blmy no tec rkdhnoa delnr wek koby teco

kpcos ecr kwo cycs. Lbb tec anrbs wlhc lom gcano `lhnoa oknscs kf

tec enaecst notcosntncs lom vkbu`cs lbbkwcm gy tecnr mnffcrnoa bcvcbskf lpplrcot `lboutrntnko kr mnslgnbnty. ]ec s`lbb anrb wnte gbldh

elnr, snbcot, wnte l fldc stcro lom cycs olrrkwcm lom fkduscm, sbkwby

`lhcs ecr wly tk tec blmy no tec rkdhnoa delnr wek snts scc`noaby

plrlbyzcm wnte fclr. ]ec anrb wenps ecr lr` up tk ecr `kute tk gntc

ecr wrnst elrm cokuae fkr gbkkm tk spnbb ko tec fbkkr, gut koby

cokuae tk fkr` l s`lbb gut dbclr n`prcssnko kf tec fldc kf Jcsus.

]ec kbmcr wk`lo, weksc `kute ns okw dkvcrcm gy tec eloms kfloktecr anrb gcenom ecr, trncs ecr gcst tk sdrcl` ls tec anrb wnte gbldh

elnr stk`ps kut tec fldc wnte ecr glrc fkkt. Lt tens pknot, lbb kf tec

anrbs scc` tk elvc gcco arlotcm sk`c `landlb strcoate, sk`c anrbs

cvco ju`pnoa fcrkdnkusby ko tecnr gcms, lbb cxdcpt koc gbkomc-elnrcm

tlbbcr anrb wek els scc`noaby gcco mclm fkr mlys. ]ec anrb wnte

gbldh elnr ruos tk tens mclm anrb ls koc kf tec ktecrs pubbs kpco l

blrac mkkr no tec fbkkr l fcw fcct tk tec bcft kf tec kbmcr blmy's okw

vnkbcotby ksdnbbltnoa rkdhnoa delnr. ]ec anrb wnte gbldh elnr hnsscs

tec mclm anrb, pndhs ecr up, lom dlrrncs ecr notk tec lrcl uomcroclte

tec fbkkr, ls loktecr dlrcfubby ekbms up teco dbkscs tec fbkkr mkkr

gcenom tec`. Lbb tec ktecr anrbs elvc gcdk`c wnbm cokuae fkr sk`c

tk vnkbcotby pubb tec kbmcr wk`lo's elnr, ent ecr, lom pubb lt ecr fcct,

lbb wenbc tec wk`lo trncs `krc lom `krc mcspcrltcby tk sdrcl`

terkuae tec eloms kf tec anrb gcenom ecr weksc arnp `ly okw gc

oclrby suffkdltnoa. Ls tec bnaet frk` l blotcro mkwo tec elbblpprkldecs, l `lo wek scc`s tk gc l aulrm cotcrs tec cmac kf tec

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kf tec anrbs arlgs ens blotcro wenbc loktecr tlhcs tec gblohcts frk`

tecnr gcm tk terkw kvcr tec kbmcr wk`lo. ]ec blotcro ns grkhco kvcr

tec wk`lo's eclm ls sec ns bnt ko fnrc. Bksnoa ecr plrlbysns, sec ruos

notk tec aulrm ls tecy lrc gkte sbkwby dkosu`cm no fbl`cs tk teclddk`plon`cot kf cdeknoa mcrloacm ekwbs.

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Notk sk`c mlrhcocm gcmrkk`, l `nmmbc-lacm wk`lo cotcrs tk hnss

lom drynoaby wenspcr tk lo uorcspkosnvc cbmcrby `lo. ]uronoa ecr

eclm tkwlrm tec dcnbnoa, sec tlhcs l oclrgy pnbbkw lom s`ktecrs tec

`lo, lbb wenbc ec rc`lnos uorcspkosnvc.

*Qc scc l wk`lo bluaenoaby dkovcrsnoa wnte l vcry blrac lom

ùsdublr skdnlbby-dkofnmcot lom -lmcpt aly `lo, terkuae s`khc

frk` ldrkss tec `lno rkk` lt l eclvnby-pltrkonzcm kbm-flsenkocm

upsdlbc urglo glr.

Ecr fldc scvcrlb yclrs kbmcr, sec ns wlbhnoa terkuae selbbkw, olrrkw

dkodrctc elbbwlys wnte pkbnsecm wlbbs lppclrnoa tk gc dk`pkscm kfscplrltc blrac stkoc gbkdhs. Lftcr scvcrlb dkrocrs, tec elbbwly senfts

tk gcdk`c `krc spldnkus lom kf wentc pblstcr. ]endh grkwo

wnomkws lppclr ko cntecr snmc lt tens pknot, lppclrnoa lt cvco

notcrvlbs lsnmc sn`nblrby wnomkwcm `ctlbbnd mkkrs. ]ec wk`lo

stkps lt tec cbcvcote mkkr ko tec rnaet snmc kf tec elbbwly. Tec

cotcrs tec kpco mkkr koby lftcr l bcoate kf stnbby mcbngcrltnoa no snbcot

dlb`. ]ec rkk` ns wcbb-bnt, cvco frk` just tec purc wentc shy plst

tec rkk`'s blrac wnomkw.

Tec koby lpprkldecs l sekrt mnstlodc plst tec cotry gcfkrc gcnoa

jkbtnoaby strudh lt ens shcbctlb lom grunscm lppclrlodc. Tec gcanos

tk qunvcr sbnaetby, ecr cycs `k`cotlrnby stnbb, gut uofkduscm. Ecr

fldc teco qundhby skftcos lom dkotkrts, ecr cycs swcbbnoa. Tec

sbkwby lpprkldecs lbb tec wenbc, lppclrnoa no glsnd dkaontnvc

dk`pksurc, lom cokuae tk lttc`pt rcstrlnonoa ecr gkmy's tuùbt. Ecwls cxpcdtnoa ecr lom s`nbcs koby ls ùde ls ec dlo, wnte ens cycs,

lom wnte kgvnkus arclt cffkrt. Tec hoccbs gy en` ls tecy sly


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Tdelffocr47 X4:77 Y@P: Ok.

Tdelffocr47 X4:77 Y@P: N `clo oktenoa. (N act teksc wkrms

dkofuscm.)

Tdelffocr47 X4:74 Y@P: N wls snoanoa rclbby bkumby lom cxdntcbytens `kronoa lt lgkut > duz N tekuaet Delrbcs bcft `y rkk`, gut ec

mnmo't. N rclbnzcm tens weco N slw en` no ens gcm sbccpnoa lo ekur

bltcr.

Tdelffocr47 X4:74 Y@P: (N mnmo't hnbb en`.)

@cb X4:7= Y@P: ml`o nt

@cb X4:7= Y@P: yku sekubm kf wenbc yku elm tec delodc

Tdelffocr47 X4:76 Y@P: N'` wlntnoa8 yku hokw ekw nt ns. ]ecsctenoas lrco't ls clsy ls tecy scc`. N act sdlrcm. Gut... wecocvcr N

hnbb, N rclbnzc telt tec enae lom scosc kf pkwcr ns welt's vlbulgbc lom

okt tec dkoscqucodcs. N (lom yku) sekubm hccp tens no `nom... Ke,

wcbb. Okgkmy's pcrfcdt.

@cb X4:75 Y@P: truc.

Tdelffocr47 X4:49 Y@P: Ekw lrc tec hnms;

Tdelffocr47 X4:49 Y@P: (N `clo ykur fl`nby)@cb X4:4< Y@P: wcbb- budy ns l wcode lom dlrkb ns tec mcvnb ecrscbf

@cb X4:4< Y@P: lbb ns wcbb

Tdelffocr47 X4:=5 Y@P: Kf dkursc nt ns....

@cb X4:=5 Y@P: `c`krncs

@cb X4:=> Y@P: `ccccce

@cb X4:=> Y@P: nts

@cb X4:=> Y@P: n bnhc ek`c

@cb X4:=> Y@P: weco `y frncoms lrc ecrc

Tdelffocr47 X4:=> Y@P: N'` bkkhnoa fkrwlrm tk acttnoa kut kf ecrc.

N'` sk sndh kf ]rcvkr 's vkndc (eclr nt rnaet okw)

@cb X4:=> Y@P: gut rnaet okw

@cb X4:=> Y@P: elel

@cb X4:=> Y@P: ec ns rltecr

@cb X4:=> Y@P: .....

@cb X4:39 Y@P: fnbb no tec gbloh@cb X4:39 Y@P: ndhy;-vnbcr;-kmm;

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Tdelffocr47 X4:39 Y@P: welt ns nt... wek ns "ec"... tec mcvnb... ;

Tdelffocr47 X4:39 Y@P: (Lrc Budy lom Dlrkb rclb pckpbc;)

@cb X4:3< Y@P: ycle- `y `k` lom sns

@cb X4:3< Y@P: ec@cb X4:3< Y@P: ns trcvkr

X...P

Tdelffocr47 X=:95 Y@P: `y mlm wcot tk Okrte Enae Tdekkb no

Qkrdcstcr

Tdelffocr47 X=:9> Y@P: ........ Ec lbsk ns Y@P: ;;;

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@cb X3:44 Y@P: n akt l pltrnktnd sokw`lo pno

@cb X3:4= Y@P: sk cxdntnoa!

@cb X3:4= Y@P: ecece

Tdelffocr47 X3:4= Y@P: N'` prkum kf yku. ku sekubm lbwlyswecrc nt8 nt's sk`ctenoa tk gc vcry, vcry prkum kf. Qkw8 yku'rc sk

budhy....

@cb X3:4= Y@P: n eltc telt typc kf pltrnktns`

Tdelffocr47 X3:43 Y@P: ku `clo stupnm "bct's wecrc rcm, wentc,

lom gbuc sk wc dlo bkkh 'pltrnktnd' lom fccb dkkb" pltrnktns`;

Tokw`co bnhc nt.

@cb X3:43 Y@P: ke tecy mk;@cb X3:43 Y@P: ocvcr`nom teco

Tdelffocr47 X3:46 Y@P: Akt qucstnko. Nf yku bclvc l `csslac

uotkudecm (okt rclm) no tec ocw `lnb fkbmcr fkr lkb, ns nt cvcr mcbctcm

lutk`ltndlbby; Ekpc okt.

@cb X3:46 Y@P: n mkot tenoh sk

Tdelffocr47 X3:46 Y@P: Aum. (Gbcss yku, gbkkmy `kostcr.)

@cb X3:41 Y@P: sploh yku elnry mc`ko.Tdelffocr47 X3:41 Y@P: Qc akool ak sk`cwecrc lom clt sk`c

fnse; Koby > mlys bcft...

@cb X3:41 Y@P: skuoms akkm

@cb X3:45 Y@P: ekws lgkut

@cb X3:45 Y@P: ;;;

@cb X3:45 Y@P: n hokw okt weco

Tdelffocr47 X3:45 Y@P: felmhsk.

@cb X3:45 Y@P: ycs

@cb X3:45 Y@P: teltbb mk fnoc

Tdelffocr47 X3:45 Y@P: nkelsfm nsefl kelmnsf elmnsfk fkelmns

fkelmns mnsfkel kmnsfel fkelmns nkemsfl lksnmef femnlsk klnsmfe

nmkslfe lksmnef femnsklnkesmlf felmnksk klmnsef felmnsk klnsmef

enklsmf.

Tdelffocr47 X3:4> Y@P: welt yku tenoh ak wecrc;

@cb X3:4> Y@P: ........n eclr jlplo ns ondc tens tn`c kf mlyTdelffocr47 X3:=9 Y@P: N hokw8 yku slw Bkst no ]rlosbltnko;

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Tdelffocr47 X3:=9 Y@P: N wlot tk gut mnm sk N mnm wlot tk gut okt

rclbby, gut nf nt wls telt N mnm okt yct scc nt, N'm wlot tk cvco tekuae N

mnmo't rclbby gcfkrc N slw nt.

@cb X3:=7 Y@P: skTdelffocr47 X3:=7 Y@P: (Nt's lb`kst mclte k'dbkdh. Qecrc lrc ykur

denbmrco;) Tk yku wlot tk ak enhnoa no Vnctol` kr scc l `kvnc kr

elvc denbmrco kr sekp kr clt sk`ctenoa lom mnc;

@cb X3:=7 Y@P: wcselbb scc nt gut okt fkr tec fnrst tn`c gut dbksc tk

tec scdkom- okt quntc ycs;

Tdelffocr47 X3:=7 Y@P: Tcc welt;

@cb X3:=4 Y@P: telt tenoa lgkut teksc pckpbc....Tdelffocr47 X3:=4 Y@P: Hnomcralrtco; Loacbs; LGD;

@cb X3:== Y@P: welt wckubm yku bnhc tk vncw mcvnb;

@cb X3:=3 Y@P: tenoh ko tens

@cb X3:=3 Y@P: n dlbb yku skko

@cb X3:=3 Y@P: tens wcchcomcr

@cb X3:=3 Y@P: ycsycs;

@cb X3:=3 Y@P: kh@cb X3:=6 Y@P: gycgyc

Tdelffocr47 X3:=6 Y@P: N kh. Gyc. Kh; Skg.

Tdelffocr47 X3:=6 Y@P: Gn

**

V. @cb lom tec @kvncs, Tprnoa Tc`cstcr 799=

@cb X


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gldh ko l mly bnhc tens sk`ctn`c.

@cb X3:99 Y@P: n

@cb X3:99 Y@P: bkvc

@cb X3:99 Y@P: pcc

@cb X3:99 Y@P: wek wkubm l tekuaet;

Tdelffocr47 X3:97 Y@P: ]kmly ns tec mly kf rcturo. Ecrc N l`. Lom

N pccm.

Tdelffocr47 X3:97 Y@P: Ycccm, rltecr.

@cb X3:97 Y@P: dkoarlts

@cb X3:97 Y@P: n` wly wndhcm prkum stkhcm

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N'` aknoa no l AWKSY.. :)

@cb X3:


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Tdelffocr47 X4:9= Y@P: N bkvc teksc pckpbc.

@cb X4:9= Y@P: nts bnhc dug sdkuts wnte dkkbcr uonfkr`s

@cb X4:91 Y@P: ke fudhfldc

@cb X4:91 Y@P: bcts ak tk tec


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@cb X4:44 Y@P: khkh

@cb X4:44 Y@P: n wlot tk guys sk`c tenoas tkk

@cb X4:44 Y@P: sk

@cb X4:44 Y@P: wlntTdelffocr47 X4:44 Y@P: ycl...mlt's tec sdecm N elvc... N mko't elvc

ktecr koc

@cb X4:4= Y@P: e````

@cb X4:45 Y@P: 693 frk` gg

@cb X4:45 Y@P: ;;

@cb X4:45 Y@P: ;

@cb X4:45 Y@P: ;@cb X4:45 Y@P: ;///

@cb X4:45 Y@P: koc kf tec guscs bclvcs

Tdelffocr47 X4:=9 Y@P: wecrc mnmst teku eclr tens.

@cb X4:=9 Y@P: gnbby

Tdelffocr47 X4:=9 Y@P: wek tec gbkkmy ecbb ns ec;;;;!!!!!!!

@cb X4:=< Y@P: `y gntde.

Tdelffocr47 X4:=< Y@P: N hokw telt, yku gbkkmy fkkb frk` Ecbb's`kute!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tdelffocr47 X4:=5 Y@P: skkk.... wecrc mnm yku rclbby eclr telt; N

hokw yku wcrc bynoa lgkut Gnbby.

@cb X4:=5 Y@P: Gnbb

@cb X4:=5 Y@P: ec vlots tk dk`c

@cb X4:=5 Y@P: vnte tnct

@cb X4:=5 Y@P: welt sly yku;

@cb X4:=5 Y@P: hhh;

Tdelffocr47 X4:3< Y@P: ke... rclbby; Gnbb ko `y fbkkr; N bkvc en`.

@cb X4:37 Y@P: akkm

@cb X4:37 Y@P: ec lom tnct lrc dk`noa

Tdelffocr47 X4:34 Y@P: N `clo... N bkvc ekw ec tlstcs....

Tdelffocr47 X4:34 Y@P: akkm

@cb X4:34 Y@P: yu``ly

Tdelffocr47 X4:33 Y@P: lsh gnbby wecrc ec hokws tec grcwstcr tn`cfrk`

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Tdelffocr47 X4:36 Y@P: N mko't gcbncvc en`... N'` aknoa tk ens rkk`

rnaet okw.

@cb X4:31 Y@P: mkot eurt en`

Tdelffocr47 X4:31 Y@P: ocvcr `nom... lsh en` nf ec's uscm nt tk aktk tec dlrkuscb gcfkrc. nf ec slys ok, koby *teco* N'bb eurt en`, mko't

wkrry.

@cb X4:35 Y@P: ycl ec elst

Tdelffocr47 X4:35 Y@P: ns telt suppkscm tk gc "els" kr "elso't" yku

snbby bnttbc ok-fnoacrcm elomndlp!

@cb ns lwly lt 4:3> Y@

@cb X4:3> Y@P: elsTdelffocr47 X4:3> Y@P: fnoc. Ec gcttcr gcbncvc en scbf kr cbsc ec'bb

gc okt lalno lom lalno lom teus uodkoqucsecm.

@cb X=:99 Y@P: hhh

X...P

Tdelffocr47 X=:95 Y@P: N lno't l stupnm gbkwekbc, @lry.

@cb X=:95 Y@P: ycs yku lrc

@cb X=:95 Y@P: ykur `y flv gbkwekbcTdelffocr47 X=:95 Y@P: teloh yku.

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@cb X=:71 Y@P: truc

Tdelffocr47 X=:75 Y@P: N rclbby mko't uomcrstlom.

@cb X=:75 Y@P: `y pkkr bnttbc acdhk wnbb elvc tk ak wntekut fkkm

fkr l mly@cb X=:75 Y@P: tec pbldc dbkscs lt 3

Tdelffocr47 X=:75 Y@P: ns tecrc l pbldc lt tec `lbb;

@cb X=:75 Y@P: n mkot tenoh sk

@cb X=:75 Y@P: nts kh

@cb X=:7> Y@P: tec gkkh slys ec dlo ak up tk l wcch

@cb X=:7> Y@P: wntekut fkkm

@cb X=:7> Y@P: sk@cb X=:7> Y@P: n tenoh l mly ns lbrnaet

@cb X=:4< Y@P: h

@cb X=:4< Y@P: sekwcr tn`c

@cb X=:4< Y@P: `ust ak

@cb X=:4< Y@P: n s`cbb

Tdelffocr47 X=:4< Y@P: ke sent... yku sekubm c`lnb en` lom tcbb

en` tk clt yku kr telt yku sekubm clt en` kr rcqucst cntecr kf en`@cb X=:47 Y@P: ecbb gc akkm

@cb X=:47 Y@P: ec ltc tercc blst onaet

@cb X=:47 Y@P: sk ecs aakkkm

@cb X=:47 Y@P: hhh

@cb X=:47 Y@P: pcldc

Tdelffocr47 X=:44 Y@P: elvc akkm sekwl

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VN. Wlomk`ocss

lohs=7=74 X


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tecsdkttymkk: ecy

tn`mg53: ecy welt's up;

tecsdkttymkk: oktenoa `ude, ykurscbf;

tn`mg53: N'` cltnoa l pcoauno, yku;tn`mg53: :-)

tecsdkttymkk: tec pkkr pcoauno!

tn`mg53: lom ec wls dutc tkk :-(

*

tn`mg53: mk yku elvc loy arlomdenbmrco;

BlVncGkec`c


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pkbndncs wende N occm tk lmlpt tk sk wc dlo gcttcr act lbkoa. :) N

bnhc `kst tenoas lgkut nt.

`nrnbnbby X=:9= Y@P: bkb

`nrnbnbby X=:9= Y@P: wcbb telts akkm*

]n`: sk ekw's ykur bkvc bnfc;

]n`: l gnt pcrskolb, skrry

jlskwu: nts kh

jlskwu: u`

jlskwu: just mltnoa

jlskwu: n aucssjlskwu: pnonoa ko kddlsnko fkr l plst auy

jlskwu: gut acttnoa kvcr telt

]n`: akkm8 eclbtey tk hccp mltnoa lftcr l grclhup

]n`: tekuae kf dkursc N'vc ocvcr rclbby mltcm kr gcco no l

rcbltnkosenp, N hokw welt's akkm tk mk

jlskwu: nts elrm

jlskwu: gut yuookjlskwu: hnoml just acttnoa `yscbf gldh tkactecrc

]n`: wc sekubm lbb gc gkro ljknocm tk l skub `ltc wek` wc lrc

dk`pltngbc wnte no cvcry wly lom wkubm ocvcr tenoh kf grclhnoa up

wnte

jlskwu: yku lom `c

jlskwu: ecec

]n`: wek hokws

]n`: ok twk pckpbc lrc "pcrfcdt" fkr clde ktecr tekuae

jlskwu: wcbb dcrtlnoby

]n`: n bnhc tk stltc kgvnkus fldts bnhc N novcotcm tec`

jlskwu: nts akkm tk skuom dkofnmcot

jlskwu: jsut okt lrrkalot

jlskwu: ecec

]n`: lpmy

jlskwu: welt ns telt]n`: N wrktc telt duz N mnmo't hokw welt tk sly

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]n`: sk N tekuaet nf n typcm sk`ctenoa yku wkubmo't oktndc telt nt

wls okoscosc

*

Mnlol: tn` yku'rc stnbb kobnocTdelffocr47: N'` no tec bkggy kf "kur" mkr` okw... wls no rkk`

Mnlol: ns Delrbcs no tec rkk`

Tdelffocr47: ec wcot ek`c fkr whcom! ^le!

Mnlol: nt scc`cm bnhc ec lbwlys wcot ek`c fkr tec wcchcom

Tdelffocr47: glgy

Mnlol: mk ens plrcots pndh en` up

Mnlol: kr mkcs ec act l rnmcTdelffocr47: N muook. ec ocvcr tcbbs `c loytenoa lom N ecodc mko't

rclbby dlyl

Mnlol: ke

Mnlol: yku dlo ak ko LN@ frk` tec bkggy kf tec mkr`

Tdelffocr47: `lygc ec'bb drlse ko ens wly gldh... ekpcfubby.

Tdelffocr47: ke ycle...

Mnlol: wkwTdelffocr47: `y notcroct cxpbkrcr nso't wkrhnoa sk N elvc tk usc

LKB ko `y blptkp sk `y fl`nby dlo't usc kobnoc lom tecy act

`lmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm lom clt denbmrco

Mnlol: wey ns ykur notcroct cxpbkrcr okt wkrhnoa

Mnlol: mko't yku elvc tec ctecroct dlgbc

Tdelffocr47: N'` eu``noa cteondlbby (`nmmbc-clstcro-y) lom N elvc

=99+ vnruscs lom N ocvcr grkuaet nt fkr l rcplnr lftcr nt wls

mnlaokscm.. N sekubm

Mnlol: n mkugt yku elvc =99+ vnruscs

Mnlol: n tenoh ykur dk`putcr wkubm gc mclm nf yku elm =99+ vnruscs

Tdelffocr47: telt's welt tecy tkbm `c...

Tdelffocr47: mk yku mkugt D@T;;;;!!!!

Mnlol: welt ns D@T

Tdelffocr47: ]ecy sekwcm `c tec mnlaoksns prkarl`'s rcsubts lom

telt's welt nt slnm. Dk`putcr lom @cmnl Tcrvndcs, fkk'.Mnlol: ke

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Mnlol: e```

Tdelffocr47: prctcomnoa N'` mru``noa gkoaks wende lrc rclbby tec

dk`putcr tlgbc okw...

Mnlol: elelTdelffocr47: yku sekubm gc tkk

Mnlol: n wnse l mnonoa elbb kr sk`ctenoa wls kpco

Mnlol: nt stnohs weco yku wlot tk clt lom yku dlo't

Tdelffocr47: wecrc elvc yku cltco; just cltnoa wlbbs/dlrpctnoa,

ctd.;

Mnlol: ycle

Mnlol: tec usulbMnlol: sk`ctn`cs n clt delpstndh

Tdelffocr47: yku'rc sude lo lon`lb.

Tdelffocr47: mk yku rclbby;

Mnlol: ycle

Tdelffocr47: ok yku mko't

Mnlol: lom oktcgkkhs

Tdelffocr47: outue annlerbMnlol: ekw sekubm n rcspkom tk telt

Tdelffocr47: N slnm out-ue "anrb" wnte l aecttk lddcot

Mnlol: welt mkcs "out-ue" `clo

Tdelffocr47: sly nt kut bkum lom yku'bb hokw

Tdelffocr47: mko't prkokuodc tec t vcry `ude

Tdelffocr47: nt's `krc oue(t)-ue.

Mnlol: ke

Mnlol: `lygc n'bb try nt

Tdelffocr47: N'` aknoa tk elvc tk bka kff lom teco ko lalno.

Mnlol: kh

Tdelffocr47: lbb gcttl

Mnlol: akkm n'` ablm

Mnlol: r u no ykur rkk` okw

Tdelffocr47: ok... N elm tk rcfrcse lkb ecrc tk scc pnds sk`ckoc scot

`c no lo c`lnbTdelffocr47: nt wls yk `l``l

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Tdelffocr47: lwhwlrm.. skrry lgkut telt.

Mnlol: j/h

Mnlol: n elvc l `k` gut n mko't rclbby bnhc ecr

Tdelffocr47: keeeeeeeeeeeee akkmTdelffocr47: N hokw yku mk, loywly... N just fkrakt fkr l `noutc N

aucss :-)

Tdelffocr47: telt wkubm sudh nf yku wcrc scrnkus... fkr yku lom `c8

N'm clt `yscbf, yku hokw.

Mnlol: ok n'` okt scrnkus

Tdelffocr47: N hokw.

Tdelffocr47: dlo yku pkkp ko tec fbkkr, pbclsc;Mnlol: tcdeondlbby ycle

Tdelffocr47: skrry, "wkubm yku;"

Mnlol: no tec glterkk`

Mnlol: yku'm elvc tk8 yku dlo't ekbm nt no

Tdelffocr47: N `clo, wkubm yku pbclsc mk nt ko tec fbkkr. N just wlot

tk scc welt elppcos... ldtulbby, mk nt ko ykur rkk``ltc's gcm lom

sly yku wlotcm tk notrkmudc ykurscbf no l uonquc wly. N'` justdurnkus tk ekw tecy'm rcldt lom ekw telt'm pbly kut....

Mnlol: ecy n elvc tk ak tk tec eclbte dcotcr tk fnbb kut sk`c fkr`s

Mnlol: ycle n `naet mk telt

Mnlol: n'bb tlbh tk yku bltcr kh

Mnlol: gyc

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fnvcbnttbc`kohcys: sekubm slvc sk`c prkfkuom tekuaets fkr

tk`krrkw

Tdelffocr47: yku'rc okt l rlt ....lrc yku; N mko't tenoh N'vc cvcr

scco, lom N'vc mcfnontcby ocvcr spkhco wnte l rlt....

fnvcbnttbc`kohcys: gcnoa l dlt pcrsko n wkubmot tenoh yku wkubm

elvc

fnvcbnttbc`kohcys: nf ykur dlts lrc wkrte loytenoa

Tdelffocr47: N tenoh `y dlts lrc rlts....gcdlusc nt lbb rey`cs.

fnvcbnttbc`kohcys: glts lrc glbm rlts no frcodefnvcbnttbc`kohcys: gyc

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Tdelffocr47: N'` okt telt akkm lt Frcode, N just rc`c`gcr telt

sconkrc `clos tk`ltk. Akkmgyc."

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bnb`ldmlmmy59: N elvc lbkt kf gnbbs no Lprnbbnb`ldmlmmy59: tlxcs lom lbb

bnb`ldmlmmy59: lom dlr rcanstrltnko lom nospcdtnknon

bnb`ldmlmmy59: nosurlodc , dlr lom drcmnt dlrms

bnb`ldmlmmy59: uaaeeeee

Tdelffocr47: stnohs

Tdelffocr47: just ruo lwly!

Tdelffocr47: :-)**

VNN. Tu``cr tk Flbb 799=

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@cb X=:9> Y@P: sk tec tkp kf ecr teu`g ns `nssnoa

Tdelffocr47 X=:9> Y@P: cww

@cb X=:9> Y@P: ```````e`

Tdelffocr47 X=:9> Y@P: `clt dekppcr;

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Y@P: gnltdekk.

Tdelffocr47 X=:7> Y@P: wc dlo sclrde fkr `lbc prkstntutcs `lygc

@cb X=:7> Y@P: okw `ust n tk wkrh

@cb X=:49 Y@P: ycsycs!@cb X=:49 Y@P: n dlbb yku tk``

@cb X=:49 Y@P: gycs

Tdelffocr47 X=:49 Y@P: ecbp `c tenoh kf lo cxpbloltnko fnrst tek

Tdelffocr47 X=:49 Y@P: dkkb

@cb X=:49 Y@P: dk`c kvcr

@cb X=:49 Y@P: kh

@cb X=:49 Y@P: gycTdelffocr47 X=:49 Y@P: dk`c weco;

@cb X=:4< Y@P: tk`` lt 349

@cb X=:4< Y@P: hhh

Tdelffocr47 X=:4< Y@P: ycs8 N'bb tenoh kf welt tec purpksc kf tec

gloquct wnbb gc

Tdelffocr47 X=:4< Y@P: `lygc fkr tec hhh;

@cb X=:4< Y@P: khcy!Tdelffocr47 X=:4< Y@P: ycs, tk gcocfnt rldns`

@cb X=:4< Y@P: `ust ak

Tdelffocr47 X=:4< Y@P: dkkb

@cb X=:4< Y@P: n dlbb tk``

@cb X=:4< Y@P: kr tkonaet bltcr

Tdelffocr47 X=:4< Y@P: h8 skrry tk ekbm yku8 gyc

@cb X=:4< Y@P: gycs

Tdelffocr47 X=:4< Y@P: elvc l akkm mly

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@cb X>:99 Y@P: guse ns clsy

@cb X>:99 Y@P: ecs akt l sn`pbc fldc

@cb X>:99 Y@P: sn`pbc fldc@cb X>:99 Y@P: fkr sn`pbc `lo

Tdelffocr47 X>:9< Y@P: ycs

Tdelffocr47 X>:9< Y@P: yku'bb elvc tk sekw `c sk`c kf ykur wkrh8

N mnmo't scc `ude blst yclr

Tdelffocr47 X>:97 Y@P: mk yku hokw tec Mnbbkos;

@cb X>:97 Y@P: ok

Tdelffocr47 X>:94 Y@P: ke8 tecy nbbustrltc l bkt kf denbmrco'sdblssnds

@cb X>:94 Y@P: KE

@cb X>:94 Y@P: ke

Tdelffocr47 X>:94 Y@P: vcry uonquc8 N fkuom l gkkh N mnmo't hokw

tecy nbbustrltcm telt N fkrakt tec ol`c kf telt N elm wlotcm snodc :9= Y@P: ]ec Ykrdcblno Dlt ns tec gkkhTdelffocr47 X>:9= Y@P: sk yku hokw tec`;

@cb X>:93 Y@P: okpc

@cb X>:93 Y@P: ececec

Tdelffocr47 X>:93 Y@P: elelel

Tdelffocr47 X>:93 Y@P: le wcbb

Tdelffocr47 X>:91 Y@P: nt'bb gc l swcct, elomsk`c mclte kf ykurs...

@cb X>:95 Y@P: teloh jcsus

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VNNN. L Ocw Tdrccool`c lom Crl

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l`

Glrglrl: splonse bnoaunstdns

tn`mg53: ke kh

tn`mg53: skuoms drlppy bnhc l glbbkko

**

NU. @ltt

@ltt: yku bkkh slm

tn`mg53 wlots tk scom fnbc D:RMkdu`cots lom TcttnoasR]n`ktey

Glbblo.]N@K]E^-9MSU]ZDR@y Mkdu`cotsRYndturcs lom Vnmcks

RTcxulbnty-WcbltcmRYndturcs kf @cR7993[97[79 (Lgkut.JYA.

tn`mg53: telohs


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`c, tekuae

@ltt: kh

@ltt: nbb just suprnsc yku

@ltt: bnhc frk` gcenomtn`mg53: kh, nt's l pblo

@ltt: Kh

@ltt: wcbb N` kff tk `lhc sk`c tcl lom sbkwby mnc

@ltt: onaet

tn`mg53: elel

tn`mg53: skuoms wkomcrfub :-)

@ltt: N hokw*

6:37 Y@

@ltt: mk nt

tk `c

okw

]n`: `l`l

sdlrcm tldecdh c`lnb no l `no

@ltt: kh

6:33 Y@

@ltt: N'` bksnoa `y `nom

1:99 Y@

]n`: pkrqukns;

pkurqukns;

@ltt: okt ldtulbby

]n`: N mko't hokw Frcode gut N elm l mrcl` N mnm

welt okt;

@ltt: tekuaet fkr l cdkom N wls

]n`: lo cdkom

bnhc l scdkom koby bkoacr

@ltt: bnhc 7 scdkoms;

kr nogct < lom 7;]n`: 1 lom =4

nogct N aucss ns l wkrm--N'` lbsk mclm nosnmc


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tn`mg53: yku dlbb `c;

@cb: ycs`tn`mg53: gctsl gkksl!

tn`mg53: 0gct ykur hlgkksc!


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summco dbnff telt mrkps kff notk cxtcosnvc rkdhy tcrrlno. Qc gcano tk

mcsdcom, ekwcvcr, upko spkttnoa l rkdhbcss fncbm no tec mnstlodc,

wecrc wc blom, lt tec oclrgy cmac kf l `urhy gka.

Ocxt tk l blrac pnbc kf vlrnkus `kstby oktlgby durby twnas, l skftby

s`nbnoa sernvcbcm lom s`lbb cbmcrby wk`lomrcsscm no wntde-bnhc

gbldh wnte strnhnoaby gbldh gut wlr` cycsns nostrudtnoa twk gurby

mcvcbkp`cotlbby-mnslgbcm `co no gunbmnoa ecr l ekusc kf tecsc durby

twnas. Lftcr koby scvcrlb scdkoms, tn`c sk`cekw blpscs sk telt wc

scc tec `co fnonse gunbmnoa tec ekusc lom teco bclvc. Qc okw

fkbbkw tec wntde-bnhc kbm wk`lo ls sec cotcrs ecr ocw eut tk snt kol stkkb `lmc kf twnas lom sbkwby gut mcbngcrltcby clt ecr eloms. Tec

gbccms bnttbc, tekuae, lom s`nbcs lbb tec wenbc. Kodc tec wk`lo

fnonsecs cltnoa ecr eloms, sec gcanos tk eu` pcldcfubby lom, usnoa

ecr okw-stu`p lr`s, kpco koc kf ecr ocw dlgnocts. Tec rc`kvcs l

pu`phno frk` tens dlgnoct, dlrrncs nt terkuae ecr stnbb-kpco frkot

mkkr, lom scts nt no ecr ocw `lnbgkx. Kodc tec wk`lo rcturos nosnmc

lom dbkscs ecr grnttbc mkkr, tekuae, tec pu`phno flbbs kut kf tec gldhkf tec `lnbgkx.

Qc fkdus ko tens pu`phno ls tn`c flst-fkrwlrms uotnb nt rkts lwly.

Qc lrc teco fkrdcm terkuae tec mnrt gcoclte nt fkr scvcrlb scdkoms

uotnb wc dk`c tk tec kpconoa kf lo uomcrarkuom dlvcro ls cxtcosnvc

lom spldnkus ls scvcrlb bnohcm cokr`kus wlrcekuscs. Qc lrc

mnrcdtcm terkuae tec dlvcro, terkuae l dnty scwcr, up kotk l

tcbcpekoc wnrc lgkvc no tec rc`olots kf tens bkoa-lglomkocm dnty,

lom notk lo lplrt`cot wnomkw kf l pu`phno-selpcm `lo fldnoa us

gut wnte l tkrsk lom bcas telt lrc gldhwlrms frk` ens eclm lom lr`s.

Qncbmnoa l ocwby `notcm `ldectc, ec cxdntcmby ykmcbs lom shnps,

ruoonoa mkwo tec mcdrcpnt dc`cot stcps kf ens gunbmnoa kut notk tec

runos kf tec dnty ntscbf, hokdhnoa eclms kff kf koby tkwosfkbh wek

bkkh dkomcsdcomnoaby tkwlrm en`. Qeco mkoc, wc wltde en` dltde

ens grclte, dlb` mkwo, lom teco bkkh vcry slm, bkkhnoa mkwowlrm,scc`noa tk flbb bn`p.


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"N'` ls gna ls l ekusc...", no l `kpnoa, mcprcsscm vkndc, ls nf just

rclbnznoa sec elm put ko l fcw pkuoms kvcr tec plst fcw `kotes.

]ec ourscs lbb fnom nt lpprkprnltc tk lttc`pt tk fblttcrnoaby mns`nsstens lom sly, "Ke ok... ku'rc fnoc!" lom, "Lrc yku hnmmnoa;!"

*

L sconbc lom ktecrwnsc mc`cotcm plrlpbcand kbm wk`lo no l oursnoa

ek`c slys, "Lbb tec lon`lbs bnhc `c... ]ecy hccp dk`noa tk `c...".

L vkbuotccr ykute `cloby rcspkoms, "]ecy'rc trcltnoa yku just bnhc

cvcrykoc cbsc. ku'rc okt spcdnlb lom tec lon`lbs mko't tenoh yku

lrc cntecr." ]ec kbm wk`lo teco gcanos tk dry.

Lt loktecr rcst ek`c, lo kbm blmy `kvcs l rcdbnocr sk telt nt fldcs

tec gkttk` kf sk`c stlnrs. Tec prkdccms tk snt ko nt lom rclm.

*

No l frcc dbnond's wlntnoa rkk`, sk`ckoc ns bkst no dkodcotrltnko

wenbc rclmnoa l gkkh, gut nt ns upsnmc mkwo. Loktecr pltncot

kgscrvcs lo notcrldtnko gctwcco sk`c ldqulnotlodcs telt justoktndcm clde ktecr:

"En! Ekw'vc yku gcco;"

"Akkm."

"Ekw's ykur sko;"

Bkumby lom mrl`ltndlbby gut scrnkusby, "ESAC!"

L wk`lo wnte arly, frlycm, lom mnsecvcbcm elnr snts lbkoc ko l

gcode wnte l slm cxprcssnko. Tec ns wclrnoa l declp-bkkhnoa purpbc

vcbvct-bnhc elt lom mrcss, lom koc kf ecr decchs ns ls swkbbco ls l

`kmcrltcby blrac `cbko. Ls tec mkdtkr wlbhs up tk ecr, sec s`nbcs

wnte l slmocss no ecr cycs ls ecr `kute kpcos just cokuae fkr ltendh wentnse-ycbbkw fbunm tk strcl` lbb kvcr ecr mrcss, tec gcode,

lom tec fbkkr.


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fkkm kvcr tec fldcs lom dbktecs kf teksc wek elvc rc`lnocm scltcm.

Ok koc rcldts vnkbcotby, koby surprnscmby.

Ykst-Mnoocr

@kondl's rkk``ltc, Mlrbl, els l mnslgnbnty wecrc sec mkcs weltcvcr

sec oktndcs sk`ckoc cbsc mknoa, cvco nf nt fkrdcs tec` tk stkp. Tec

usulbby mkcso't rclbnzc telt sec's mknoa sk`ctenoa kmm lom usulbby

fccbs telt tec ktecr pcrsko ns mknoa sk`ctenoa wrkoa. Gut, sec

`clos ok elr` lom dlo't ecbp nt

]ecnr fnrst onaet lt sdekkb, acttnoa notk tec sekwcr lftcr l fcw

`noutcs kf prcplrnoa, @kondl lshs, "Mlrbl; Mk yku occm tec

glterkk`;"

"Okpc."

"^ku surc;"

" cp. N'` rclmnoayku `lmc `c wlot tk bkkh lt ykur gkkh weco

yku pndhcm nt up gcfkrc."

"Khly... N sekubm gc kut no 79 `noutcs."

...

"Act kut kf tec sekwcr!"

"Gut, N'`... Lbb rnaet."

Frustrltcmby gut wnte l tnoac kf vnomndltnko, Mlrbl rcspkoms, "]eloh

yku!"

*No tec stumy lrcl kf l bngrlry, stumcots lrc snttnoa lt l tlgbc rclmnoa

lom wrntnoa, koc anrb rclmnoa wenbc cltnoa l pclde. ]ec gky ldrkss


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kf tec uomubltnoa tugcs no tec shy. Tec wltdecm wnte tclrs dbkumnoa

tec vnkbct rkscm fncry gbucs ls swcbbcm tec `usnd kf pblocts lom

pnocs, wenstbnoa arlss, vnkbnos lom mccp strnoacm nostru`cots frk`

tec eclvcos lom arkuoms, ls tec purpbcm `kutes up lgkvc comcmtecnr `ktnko wnte arldc. Lom sec dbkscm ecr cycs lom s`nbcm.

*

No ecr mclte, tec tugcs kf tec shy grkhc notk tec wkrbm sec elm scco

gut okt uomcrstkkm no ecr mlytn`c `clomcrnoas terkuae tec vnbblac's

selbbkw blhc. Lalnost tec dblsenoa ekwbs kf rusenoa dnty trlffnd ko l

wct lom sokwy `kronoa, l rkgust gut rcvnbcm `lbc denbm wls gkro tk

l pkkr wk`lo wek bnvcm no fncbms gy mly lom c`pty gunbmnoas gyonaet, uocxpcdtnoa welt sec skko wkubm bclvc tk tec dnty noflot slfc

elvco.


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ns pblynoa nosnmc wnte l wkkmco trlno. N scc en`okt yct oktndnoa

tec stlrsgcykom l sbnaetby pccbcm-kpco fblp kf koc kf tec twk telt

codbksc tec cotrlodc tk tens `lhcsenft tcot. N uomcrstlom telt nt ns tec

sko's gnrtemly wnte lbb kf tec anbmcm plpcr wrlppnoa surrkuomnoaen` lom tens scc`noa dl`pnoa vldltnko. Tec gcdhkos en`

wkrmbcssbylbtekuae N dlo't eclr tec olturc kf ecr vkndc's skuom8 N

l` just lstkuomcm gy tec plnotnoa lom bnaetonoa-nse sdrlpnoa lom

drldhbnoa kf grnaet stlrs ldrkss tec shy. Ens fldc bnaets up wnte

twndc tec ykute lom nookdcot rcjkndnoa ls ecrs, lom ec gkbts kut, wnte

ens `ktecr dltdenoa ens elom, bclmnoa ecr notk tec spldc kutbnocm gy

sdlttcrcm pblotssk`c fbkwcrnoa wnte pnohs lom `ustlrm- lom bnaet-ycbbkwskf tec mcscrt. Ec ns twnrbnoa ecr, tekuae sec ns glrcby

hccpnoa up wnte ens twnstnoa lom rltdectnoa dcotcr wnomnoa wnte

cocray scc`noaby prkvnmcm gy tec stlrs tec`scbvcs. Tec ns bluaenoa

lb`kst no eystcrnds mrlwo gy ens cxugcrlodc lom `ktnvltcm gy ecr

bkvc fkr en` lom ens fkr ecr. ]ecy bluae lom sekut lom ycbp lom

cxumc sk`c elppnocss N elvc okt fcbt no sk bkoa, ls `y eclm ns

scc`noaby terkwo gldh summcoby, spuo up tkwlrm tec `ctckr sekwcrsk`cekw qundhby mnssnpltnoa. N dlo tcbb N l` okw oclrcr gldh

tkwlrm `y Ocw El`psenrc wkkms.

]ec stlrs lt elom, tekuae, senoc upko lo lrcl kf rkbbnoa pblnos no l

rurlb @nmwcst dkuoty wecrc, uomcr tec`, N sbkwby mcsdcom tk fnom

tec kpcocm mccp rcm mkkrs kf l mlrhcocm deurde plnotcm wentc lom

wnte mlrh gbucs, rcms, lom arccos lgskrgcm notk tec uobnaetcm

stlnocm-ablss wnomkws selpcm ls dkocs kvcr tec mkkrsweksc dlst-

nrko gbldh elombcs lom mcdkrltnkos rcfbcdt sk`c tnoy abnots kf krloac

sdlttcrcm bnaet. N mudh gcoclte tec drcst kf tec mkkrwly lom scc l

mlrhcocm slodtulry gut fkr sk`c fbndhcrnoa bnaet scot frk` koc bkoc

tlbb dlombc ko lo lbtlr mrlpcm no l purpbc dbkte wnte cmacs kf akbmco

frnbbs. Cvcry pcw kf tec deurde ns fnbbcm wnte pckpbc, gut N dlo koby

scc tec fldc kf l `lo lpprkldenoa tec bkoc dlombc frk` nts bcft.

Qnte l s`lbbcr glrc dlombc no ens elom, ec ekbms nt tk tec lbtlr'sfbl`c ls N dlo okw scc tec fldc kf tec wnfc ec rcturos tk. Ec plsscs

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Lgkut tec Lutekr

]n`ktey Glbblo ns l dk`pkscr lom wrntcr wek durrcotby rcsnmcs no

Qcstcro @lssldeusctts. Ls l dk`pkscr, ]n`ktey `kstby wrntcs

lddcssngbc dblssndlb `usnd. Ls l wrntcr, ]n`ktey `kstby wrntcs

pbktbcss stkrncs, lt`kspecrnd vnaocttcs, pkc`s, lom oko-prctcotnkus

penbkskpey. Qeco okt dk`pksnoa kr wrntnoa, ]n`ktey bclms scvcrlb

`usndlb arkups no urglo ykute mcvcbkp`cot prkarl`s, tcldecs

prnvltc pnlok bcsskos, lom tutkrs ykute no vlrnkus ldlmc`nd sugjcdts.

No ens frcc tn`c, ]n`ktey cojkys mrnvnoa ko dkuotry rklms, enhnoa,

wltdenoa sdlry `kvncs, lom selrnoa tn`c lom lo lgsurm scosc kf

eu`kr wnte ens eu`lo lom `not-fblvkrcm gkggy-pno frncoms.

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