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Frank M. Wanderer

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The Biggest Obstacle to Enlightenment

How to Escape from the Prison of Mind Games?

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Publisher / Editor: Ervin K. Kery

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Author: Frank M. Wanderer

(c) Frank M. Wanderer (dr. Ferenc Margitics),

Ervin Kery ( Ervin Keresztes-Kato), 2014

The Ego

The Ego accompanies the Seeker along the first segment of

the Journey. In the following we intend to discuss this, as

being familiar with the functions and games of the mind

with an Ego is indispensable for identifying whether we are

on the right track.

What is an Ego?

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That is the first and foremost question. Ego is we ourselves,

the person we see, think and feel ourself to be. Ego is the

central figure of our personal history, based upon the past

and looking into the future. Ego is the deepest dream of the

Consciousness. A sign of awakening is when we realize that

the state when we identify with our Ego is of very low

order, very poor, and there are more significant mysteries

behind our existence.

How Did the Ego Emerge?

At birth, we are all innocent; we do not have an Ego. Our

Ego emerges as a conditioning from our parents, culture and

the society we live in. Ego is the result of a cultural

hypnosis, the result of a common entrancement when, as a

result of our upbringing, we believe that we are what our

parents, teachers, priests said we had to be.

The truth is that we are the embodiment of Life, we are born

into this world as a result of a miracle, and later we are lost

amidst the multitude of teachings and dogmas. After

identifying with our beliefs and convinctions we forget who

we really are, who the person born in us into the world in

order to experience existence and get acquainted with all the

teachings.

It is necessary that an Ego emerges in us, otherwise we

would not be able to separate ourselves from our

environment, our individuality would not develop, though

these are important for the Consciousness in its process to

wake up to itself.

Ego is therefore a social product, a cultural hypnosis,

programmed into us by those living around us, by telling us

in our childhood who we are, what our name is, how to

behave well, how to meet the expectations of others. As a

result of an unconscious process, we start to identify with

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this artificially created center, our mind with an Ego, that is,

our Ego.

The Ego is a Small Part of the Personality

If we wish to understand how the Ego works, we must not

disregard the fact that Ego is only a small part of our

personality. Ego is a part of the personality, and its content

comes from our sensory perceptions and memories (our life

history and knowledge and experience gathered throughout

our life). Ego is the thinking, feeling and sensing part. The

part of our Ego we show the external world is termed by

Carl G. Jung as Persona, the acting personality. That part of

the Ego is foregrounded when we are in the company of

other people. That is, in fact, the collection of our masks.

A large part of the personality is constituted by the

unconscious Ego, termed by Freud as the instinctive Ego.

That is where out most basic instincts (eating, sexuality

etc.) are found, and also the part of the personality

described by Carl Gustav Jung as the Shadow. The

”Shadow” is shaped and developed by society, almost

simultaneously with our role playing personality. Children,

when they wish to meet their parents’–and through them,

society’s–expectations, begin to develop these masks. These

masks are like what environment shapes them to be.

Rejecting certain stimuli offered by the environment

triggers the disapproval of our teachers, so the intention to

reject stimuli is suppressed. That is how our ”shadow-

personality” develops. It does exists within our personality,

but our education relegates it into our subconscious.

Freud believes that the third important component of our

personality is the Superego. It comprises the social values

that the culture in which we grow up finds important. In the

course of a long and complicated process these values are

incorporated into our personality and manifests as the ideal

self (the person we would like to be). These values become

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integral, inner parts of the personality, and surface as

opinion and convinction.

The findings of psychological research suggest that more

than 90% of the functions of the personality are

unconscious. Large parts of the Instinct-Ego, the Persona

and the Superego are unconscious. The functions of the Ego

are also largely unconscious.

The Ego is responsible for the integrity of the personality,

for our inner well-being. This is no small task for the Ego,

as it is constantly bombarded by unconscious expectations

from the Instinct Ego and the Shadow, attempting to

influence its behaviour. It generates anguish in the Ego (that

is, in ourselves), manifested as discomfort (we do not feel

all right). The Ego wishes to escape from the anguish, so it

uses also subconscious mechanisms. Such a mechanism is,

for instance, projection. The Ego projects the unacceptable

desires and features coming from the Shadow and Instinct

Ego onto others (e. g. I am not aggressive, you are

aggressive). These subconscious, protective and anguish

eliminating projections are the foundations of several of the

mind games to be discussed later.

The Womb From Which the Ego is Born: Identification

The Ego develops in the course and process of

identification, by our identification with our thoughts,

emotions, body etc. As a result of the indetification process

we believe that here we are this Ego, this mind. In the

previous chapters we saw that the mind, the Ego within it,

and the things we identify with, are shaped by the society in

which we live. Consequently, entirely different types of Ego

have developed in various cultures in various parts of the

world.

In most people, the term “consciousness” identifies with

that socially conditioned Ego. At a number of people this

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identification is so powerful that they are unaware that their

life is governed by a socially conditioned mind.

Those who are able to go beyond that identification with the

mind recognize this state of being socially conditioned, and

are also able to leave the social conditioning behind. Such a

person will not identify with the mind but, increasingly,

with the Consciousness (the Witnessing Presence). The

Presence shall, therefore, control the mind to an increasing

extent and will be manifested through the tranquilized

mind.

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The Games Rooted in the Deepest Levels of the Mind

The Ego-dominated mind plays its games in daily life, and

creates the characters and scenarios necessary for the

games. The content of such a scenario is determined by the

individual’s environment and upbringing, that is, the culture

in which we grow up. As a result, entirely different

scenarios are created in the various cultures of our Earth.

At the beginning of our journey, as we have seen

previously, we identify with these scenarios. The scenarios

provide us with the sense of a solid identity. The patterns of

thoughts fixed in the scenarios are manifested in various

mind games during our daily life.

In the course of our journey leading to Consciousness, our

objective should not be creating a positive character, and

thus a pleasant scenario, but finding the Existence behind

every scenario. The first step is examining the scenarios,

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these conditioned thought-patterns, in the light of

Consciousness.

Let us first examine some of our most extensive mind

games that are rooted deepest:

Ambition

Ambition is perhaps the comprehensive mind game,

providing one of the deepest roots of Ego.

An elementary endeavour of every Ego is growing: to be

“more”, larger and powerful. They strive to be higher and

higher in the hyerarchic structure of the world, conquering

more and more territory. The individual’s ambitions grow

and grow, reaching larger and larger areas.

Ambitions are planted in a child by parents and teachers.

Parents tend to think of an even yet unborn child as

someone who is going to achieve the parents’ own’s

unfulfilled ambitions.

With the educational means of reward and punishment,

children are conditioned to excel among their peers, to be

the best, strongest, most beautiful, etc. When the children

meet the parental–and thus the social–expectations, they are

rewarded, when not, they are punished. They therefore soon

learn to be ambitious.

These ambitions, though based upon the past, always aim at

the future. All through our lives we pursue illusionary

objectives, spurred by various ambitions. Naturally, it is not

impossible to satisfy an ambition, but it is immnediately

replaced by a thousand others, as there are so many areas of

life where we have not yet reached our ambitions.

That is how we chase senseless goals all through our lives

until we die, when we realize that everybody leaves this

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world empty-handed, even those who lived their whole

lives chasing mirages of past and future. Look into yourself

to see what is in you now! See what ambitions are driving

you along on the sea of life and in what direction?

The Seeker in every moment spent awake faces two

alternatives: a choice is to be made between the ambitions

stretching between past and future, or the quiet, simplicity,

purity and emptiness, full of vibrating life, of the present. It

is, however, only the latter that brings to the life of the

Seeker the Witnessing Presence!

The Mind Game of Becoming Something

This mind game is closely associated with the life-long

pursue of ambitions, and reveals the mechanisms of

ambitions.

The Ego at all times strives to achieve something. The mind

creates a mental image, an ideal about it. An ideal means

that you are still not what you are supposed to be.

The Ego projects that idealized image into the future, and

reveals the way leading to the goal. That image generates a

permanent stress, tension and anxiety in the life of the

Seeker. If the Seeker achieves the desired goal, or abandons

it as unattainable, immediately finds a new one, an even

more ambitious, or one that is easier to achieve, and another

one, and so it goes until death, or the moment when the

Seeker realizes the futility of the whole process.

We are therefore constantly on the road, straying from one

mental image to the next, and identify with these images,

and derive our identity from the images.

When we start dealing with spirituality, our mind creates an

image that we need to implement if we are determined to be

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successful. The image means that we need to find Presence,

through the way the mind imagines it. The essence of this

ideal is to be permanently conscious, to be Present all the

time, in all details of our life.

The Ego, is however, aware that for most people it is an

impossible venture, so the Seeker often has a sense of self-

accusation and self-depreciation, as the ideal image is

impossible to achieve (the Seeker is not spiritual enough).

This state of mind is, eventually, a good foundation for the

mind game of guilt.

In the course of our Journey we need to realize that we do

not need to become anything, because we are already in

possession of the characteristics that we have been looking

for so far, pursuing an image projected into the future. All

we need to do is shift our focus of alert and conscious

attention from the edge (Ego) to our center (witnessing

Presence). The mind games impede us in that process!

The “I Want Even More” – Mind Game

From all this it is easy to see that the Ego-dominated mind

will never be satisfied, as it longs to achieve more and more

in life. The individual wants to be rich, when they are rich,

they want power, when they have power, they want fame.

When material wealth no longer satisfies them, they begin

to seek “spiritual wealth” and so forth. Once an objective

has been achieved, a sense of relative satisfaction may

follow, but sooner or later anxiety returns and the chase for

more and more starts again.

This mind game takes the Seeker into a psychological time

frame, as the goal to be achieved is projected into the future.

In this way Now, the Present moment is reduced to a

moment necessary for achieving the goal, and the vividness

and beauty of it is lost.

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The Seeker is, however, able to suppress the voice of the

Ego: "I no longer listen to this nonsense, your pretension! It

is not an illusory Self that I want to reach. I want to find my

real Self!"

As a witnessing Presence one is able to observe these games

of the mind and is also able to overcome and laugh at it!

What more does one need than what is offered by the

present moment? Once you have learnt how to dissolve in

the present moment, and you are able to enjoy it, you will

have no problem in disregarding the empty chit-chat of the

Ego, the mind!

The “I am Important” – Mind Game

The Ego-dominated mind, way of thinking is, in the

majority of the cases, able to make us believe that we are

important, even if only as a small part of the great universal

consciousness of mankind. Our soul shall live forever, and

the death is only a necessary station in the process of a new

birth. Our soul develops eternally, every bit of new

experience is another brick in the wall of the church of

eternity etc.

Why is the Ego-dominated Mind Able to Make Us Believe

That?

It is partly because the contents of the Ego consists of the

knowledge gathered in our life (read, heard). The individual

who has never read esoteric books or attended esoteric

lectures has an Ego with an entirely different content and

uses different ideas as a comforting source (e. g. let us eat,

drink, make love, as we only live once, so Carpe Diem).

Another reason is that the “primeval memory” lives in

everybody. The “primeval memory” is from our own, long

forgotten internal center, and in most cases it is just a

subconscious desire, a constant anxiety in the soul of the

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Seeker. Ego provides a form to that unconscious desire by

directing it to a false objective. The false goal is the idea of

becoming perfect together with the Ego. The Ego, naturally,

intends to achieve it in the future, since we need to develop

so much before achieving the goal.

This is a sincere endeavour of the Ego, but it is impossible

to achieve it on the level of forms and shapes; it is not

possible to make the forms and shapes eternal.

We therefore must not allow this mind game to deceive us.

From the aspect of Existence we are really important (in

that we are not mistaken) in our individuality, as we provide

space for the Consciousness to wake up to its own existence

and flourish through us, through our own form.

Perfection is, however, not to be sought in the future, as we

are fully capable of experiencing it here and now, if we

abandon ourselves into the present moment and allow the

pleasure of Existence take us with it.

The “I am Special” – Mind Game

Every human being is convinced deep inside that he/she is

special. In the course of the Journey the Ego keeps

whispering into the ears of the Seeker: "You are special,

you are great, better than the other people!”

Often the Ego does not declare it so openly, but the desire

to become special is there in every Seeker. It is well

observable in the behavior and actions of the Seeker; all

these are aimed at making the individual better and different

from the rest, to emerge from the average.

When you believe that “I am special, more special than that

man over there,” be aware that it is only the game of the

mind. That feeling reinforces the Ego to a very large extent.

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The reality is that every single person is individual and

special. There has never been and will never be another

person on the Earth like you!

You must not forget that when you think of yourself as

special–you really are–you should think of the other people

in a similar way. Everybody is special you meet during your

life, everyone who has lived and lives on Earth.

This recognition reduces and eliminates this mind game.

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The Tricks of the Mind Reinforcing the Ego

The mind has dominated our life for such a long time that

we have forgotten that it is only one of the means of

Consciousness that has started an independent life as a

consequence of our identifying with it.

The Consciousness erroneously identifies itself with the

mind, which has in turn acquired a great power and intends

to preserve its independence and dominance. To that end, it

uses Ego-reinforcing psychological strategies in order to

sustain the separate Consciousness. In the following, some

of these strategies are discussed.

The Mind Game Generating Guilt

During your Journey you would like to bring the Presence

into your daily routine, so you are trying to spend as much

time in the state of the witnessing Presence as possible.

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That is a noble effort, but alas, it is soon experienced that it

fails day by day. The question arises, ”What is the reason

for the failure? Why can I not spend a longer period in the

state of Witnessing Presence, when I want to? It is surely

because I am not good enough, and I am unable to make the

required effort. I am unsuited for such a noble task!”

Such thoughts inevitably generate guilt and remorse. The

guilt may, after a time, become so overwhelming that the

individual gives up the desire to live in the Presence in

order to avoid the negative emotions that come with the

guilt.

This is an extremely dangerous mind game! Why?

It is to be recognized that the negative emotions and the

guilt that comes with it is not a part of the Consciousness,

it only belongs to the mind!

The Ego –and so guilt as well–is a social product, created

by the expectations of the parents and teachers as a part of

the mind. How? A small child’s adaptation to the external

world is supported and sustained by the parental

expectations. Whenever a child meets the parental (and so

the social) expectations, the child is accepted, rewarded and

loved. Otherwise some sort of a punishment or rejection

follows. In order to avoid retaliation, the child will

unconsciously meet the expectations.

As long as the child is small, the expectations appear as

external stimuli for the child. The child behaves well,

because mum (or dad) should not be angry, should love

him/her. As the child grows up, these external expectations

undergo a complicated psychological process and become

internal ones, and create the foundations of Ego.

At that time children no longer behave the way it is

expected by the society because they direct environment so

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desires, but because it generates an inner good feeling in

them. When they do not behave in accordance with these

social expectations, they experience guilt. That is how

external social effects become parts of the Ego. This

mechanism follows us all through our lives.

At one point of our Journey we meet the teachings of an

awakened teacher, and internally we feel that this is what

we have long been looking for, we want it to be a part of

our daily routine. We are thus able to create some internal

expectations regarding how we are able to do it, what the

fastest way to incorporating Presence into our life may be.

We are, however, unable to meet the expectations, so guilt

appears automatically. Be aware that this is the work of the

Ego, a game of the mind!

What can we do with that guilt?

Several things are to be taken into consideration. One is that

we have been living identified with the Ego (on the edge) so

long that we have drifted too far from the center

(Consciousness, Self, Presence). It is therefore not possible

to get back to the center overnight (the possibility is there,

naturally, as the center is within us, but we do have to make

the effort to reach it). The progress on our Journey towards

the Witnessing Presence initially requires efforts from us.

There is an important maxim that applies to that effort:

every step in the right direction takes us closer to our own

center. It means that moments add up and reinforce each

other.

There are inevitable occasions when one temporarily drops

back into the Ego-dominated state, and these cases are also

followed by a sense of guilt. Once we have understood the

mechanism of the emergence of guilt, and bear in mind

what has been discussed above, we need to realize that in

such instances guilt is not justified!

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On our Journey, we should not dwell on the guilt emerging

because of dropping back to Ego-dominated state; instead,

we should celebrate that we are in the state of the

Presence!!

When one is able to rejoice about these moments, instead of

worrying about the next possible dropback, then the

positive periods will be more and more frequent in our

lives. We therefore need to be patient with ourselves, and

look upon our sense of guilt as Witnesses!

The “You Are Worthless”– Mind Game

When our environment does not confirm that we are

special, and in our childhood we often heard from adults

that “You can’t even do such a simple thing!” or “That kid

is so clumsy!” or”This kid must have two left hands!,” then

our Ego begins to whisper into our ears things like "You are

average, you are below the average" and even "You are

worthless!".

This mind game also serves to reinforce the Ego, but here

complaining is the Ego-reinforcing strategy. Complaining,

blaming others or the circumstances or ourselves lead to

negative thoughts that arises and reinforces pain. The result

is guilt or anger against other people, which in turn boosts

the Ego.

If we are able to bear in mind that nobody is average, and

no such thing as the average person exists, we can prevent

this mind game from taking over. That it is not true, and

you know at least ten average people is something that is

only suggested by your Ego. In fact everybody is special,

and everybody should be approached that way. In this way

it is possible to destroy this mind game!

The “It’s Not My Fault!” – Mind Game

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The Ego likes blaming responsibility on other people. The

Ego judges life by the specific situation. It is always

somebody else who is at fault: a wife or husband, parents,

children, colleagues, the boss, the economic situation, life

itself etc.

When such a person intends to reach the Presence, he or she

will believe that at the moment change is not possible.

Maybe later, in the future, when circumstances are more

advantageous. Then they may try to live more consciously.

These are, however, only excuses, so that the person does

not have to face the truth: "I am responsible for myself, and

nobody else is!"

From the very moment of accepting the truth that "I am

responsible for my own suffering, and nobody else is!," the

person will be able to put an end to the sufferings and leave

the spell of this mind game behind.

The Comforting Mind Game

The contents of the Ego is the knowledge put together

during the individual’s earlier personal history, what he/she

learnt from parents, teachers, schools, from the books read

and movies saw. This knowledge is, however, mechanical,

as it is not derived from direct experience but from the

thoughts and ideas of other people.

The mind, when playing its games, relies on that knowledge

in order to comfort and lull the individual. The mind is

pleased to answer the great questions of life for you: "Yes,

your body will die, but your soul is immortal!! Do not

worry, you will come to no harm, you will surely get to

heaven after your death."

Depending on the religious upbringing one receives

(Christian, Muslim, Buddhist etc.), this mind game

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alleviates the person’s fear of death with tales about the

afterlife or, if the person is spiritual, with those of the

immortality of the soul.

The mind is pleased to supply advice and comfort in every

situation. But these are dead, empty words, as they are

based upon other people’s knowledge, writings, which

those other people inherited from yet other people.

When you really want to find the answers to the great

questions of your life, you need to look for them deep in

yourself. Do not answer from memory, as all such answers

will come from your mind, from your dead memories!

First you must face your own reality in the present, here and

now! If you fail to do that, if you do not obtain first-hand

experience from it, there will be no deep, far-reaching

changes in you.

You must make the Journey along the road, nobody is able

to do it for you!

The Ego-dominated mind always aspires for something

special, and rejects ordinary things. When the mind is

interested in spirituality, then it will long for secrecy and

mystic experience. On its Journey, in the Present and in

meditation the mind is looking for such experience.

This very desire prevents us from getting anywhere, so on

our Journey we are getting farther and farther from our

center, or go in circles around and around at best. There is

nothing special in the Present and in the meditation. The

person simply submits to the present moment. The

individual is present, without any desire for something

special and mystic.

This is the ordinariness of the Present, without anything

special, mystic or mysterious, it simply exists!! One should

live through one’s life from moment to moment, and allow

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things happen the way they want to happen. Abandon

yourself into the Present! Be consciously present in every

moment!

“The Future Will Be Different”– Mind Game

In our Journey we have all experienced some pleasure and

joy, and we would like to experience them again and again

in the future. Similarly, everyone has experience suffering,

and we tend to project these sufferings into the future, as we

wish to avoid such situations. In this way, we all have a

vision of future.

Our own personal future is therefore is the patched,

improved, modified version of our own past. Those who

decide to live in the Present, must leave their past behind.

Once past has been left behind, future also disappears!

What is left then? The actual moment, the Present! Living

in the here and now means that we are able to get rid of

time and suffering!

The “I Want to Be Like Him (Her)”– Mind Game

On our Journey we carry the desire from our childhood to

imitate others. Learning by imitation is one of the most

elementary methods of integration into society. We utilize

this method from early childhood. That is how we learn to

speak and learn to use various tools etc.

Later, adults guide us consciously: "Be like your father,

brother, the boy/girl next door, your classmate etc." Then

we consciously begin to imitate others. Even later the

process becomes integral, and we start to make efforts to

match images and idols created by our own.

We thus become imitations ourselves, continually staring at

our ideals to be achieved in the future, or our mistakes of

the past that prevented us from achieving our goals. In the

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meanwhile, we simply do not take notice of the present

moment. That is exactly why the mind plays this game with

us.

If we live in the Now, in the Present, we accept ourselves

the way we are, and give up making futile efforts imitate

others, to be imitations. That is the only way of stopping

this mind game!

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The Author

Frank M. Wanderer

(Ph.D, Prof. of Psychology, consciousness researcher,

writer)

The awakening of the Consciousness

leads us from our own personal

history to the pure space of

Consciousness. There we experience

the Miracle, and all personal histories

become insignificant. Despite this, I

would like to present a few pages of

my personal history to the reader, as

every journey on the road starts with

a personal history. That is the only

way it may start, there is no alternative; that is the only way

leading to the awakening of the Consciousness, the

appearance of the Miracle.

Since my early childhood, I have been interested in the

Miracle, the mystery of human existence, the mystery that

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summoned us from the Nothing, and the mystery we are

destined to solve in our life.

I still remember my beloved mother’s astonished face when,

after some of my questions, she turned to the others: “Now,

look at that, what that kid is asking!”

The questions did not stop in the later years but, as I did not

find appropriate partner from whom I could expect answers,

the questions mostly remained within the walls of my room,

and I myself attempted to find the answers.

My motivation became even more powerful after the

following adventure: I was at the elementary school (12

years old), walking home from school and suddenly I

experienced the Miracle, the completeness, the experience

of the unity with the Self. At that time, naturally, I was not

able to describe it that way, but the sense of unity and

happiness was what I experienced.

That experience did not result in my lasting awakening, it

faded away after a while, but it left behind a burning

wound, a real sense of want. At the same time, it showed

me the way where to look for it answers to my questions.

There was a long way to go to the second awakening. The

first awakening made me start dealing with esoterica and

find books on the subject.

Leaving the years of childhood behind, in my adulthood I

became intensively interested in human soul, in the work of

the human mind.

As a teacher and psychologist I have met a lot of people,

and had an opportunity to study the ”normal” operation of

human ego, and also its functions that are considered as not

normal. I turned the pages of innumerable books of personal

histories, trying to find the cornerstones that give the

dramas and ecstasies of these personal histories meaning

and sense.

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I eventually found that cornerstone in the Miracle, in the

awakening of the Consciousness, which demonstrated the

futility of these personal histories and at the same time it

showed the treasure to be found in them.

The personal histories are futile from the aspect of the

awakening because we identify with our mind and we allow

its unconscious functions to control our life and steer the

boat of our life in one, and some time later just the opposite

direction, depending on the actual desire or ambition

dominating our mind. That is how page after page is filled

in the history of our life until the last page arrives, and we

realize the futility of all that happened before.

Our personal history may, however, have a very profound

meaning if we become more wakeful and alert to these

mind games, and recognize the Miracle, the wide open

spaces of the Consciousness that is beyond our personal

history. That pure consciousness was what I experienced as

a child, and that is what I found again as a result of my

regular meditation exercises that I had started a few years

ago.

We must therefore wake up from our identification with our

personal history, so as to be able to find our identity in the

Miracle, the mystery of the Consciousness, instead of the

world of the forms and shapes.

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