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VISHNU SAKHARAM
KHANDEKAR (1898-1976) is
acknowledged as one of the all time
greats of Marathi literature. In his
literary career spanning nearly half a century he published eleven
novels, thirty one collections of
short stories, six collections of
allegorical stories and fifteen
volumes of critical literary essays.
In 1941 he became the President of
the Marathi Sahitya Sammelan andwas later nominated a Fellow of
India’s National Academy of
Letters, the Sahitya Akademi in
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1975. His works have been
translated into several languages,
including English, Hindi,
Malayalam, Bengali and Gujarati,amongst others.
Yayati remains his best known and
perhaps his most criticallyacclaimed work. It won him the
prestigious Sahitya Akademi Award
(1960) and the Jnanpith Award,
India’s highest literary award, in
1974. He was conferred the Padma
Bhushan in 1968 for his landmark
contribution to Indian literature.
‘Artistic maturity and a high
seriousness of purpose make this
work a significant contribution to
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Marathi literature.’
Sahitya Akademi Award Citation
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YAYATIA Classic Tale of Lust
TRANSLATED AND ABRIDGED FROM
MARATHI BY
Y P KULKARNI
V S KHANDEKAR
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Sharmishtha or even after the birth o
five sons from these two, says, ‘My lus
for pleasure is still unsatisfied,’ I jus
did not understand. On the contrary was angry with Yayati for robbing hi
son of youth. I had by then read the stor
of Babar praying to Allah by his son’deathbed, to bestow the remainder of hi
ife to his son Humayun. I had melted a
such parental love. If at that tender age
publisher had asked me for a novel, iwould certainly have been Babar an
not Yayati!
The story of Yayati did not reallynterest me as a tale until I rea
Shakuntala. There, when Shakuntal
eaves for her husband’s house Rish
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Kanva blesses her thus: ‘May you be a
dear to your husband as Sharmishth
was to Yayati.’ These words stuck in my
mind but I did not agree that Sharmishthwas dearer to Yayati than Devayani
When Shukra curses him with old age, i
asking for his youth back, thmythological Yayati said, ‘I am not ye
fulfilled in my marital life wit
Devayani. I am yet unsatisfied. So hav
mercy and give me back my youth.’
The explanation that was offered di
not carry conviction. I felt that th
words, ‘May you be as dear to youhusband’ conveyed much more. In lif
all of us get married, but it does no
follow that we love each other ardently.
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Kalidas agreed that Sharmishtha wa
very dear to Yayati. Only a wife who
successively treads the path of love b
charming her husband through physicapleasure, by inspiring confidence
showing respect and through devotio
makes him feel thus. But in the tale oYayati as given in Mahabharata, ther
was no such indication.
I was on the side of Kalidas. I wa
unable to reconcile myself to the pictur
as drawn in mythology. Sharmishtha had
made a great sacrifice for he
community. A woman, who could gohrough the ordeal of being maid t
Devayani who hated her, mus
undoubtedly be uncommon. It wa
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mpossible that such a person would tr
o entice Yayati for gratification of sex
or that she would endear herself or ear
his respect by a clandestine love affair.
I got thinking. Devayani was marrie
o Yayati in the presence of the
sacrificial fire and before Brahmins. Budid their marriage connote a union o
hearts? It follows that Sharmishtha mus
have brought Yayati something which
Devayani was unable to give. He mus
have found happiness beyond sex an
ust from Sharmishtha. The tale o
Sharmishtha being very dear to Yayatmust have stemmed from this an
Kalidas had put it to good use
Following the trail of Kalidas’s words
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started constructing Sharmishtha’s lif
on my own.
From the original story of Kacha an
Devayani, with due regard to the essenc
of it, I pieced together the reasons wh
he married life of Devayani and Yayat
was unhappy. Devayani was really iove with Kacha. He was her first an
ardent love. She married Yayati from
ambition. She made Sharmishtha he
maid to avenge herself. I hav
accordingly portrayed Devayani in thi
novel on the pattern of behaviour of
woman who is egoistic, ambitiousspiteful and disappointed in love.
This, in brief, is how the seed of th
character sketch of the two heroines
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she appeared to me and have attempte
o paint her in my words.
So it is with Kacha. Thus it is tha
Yayati the novel is different from Yayat
he character in Mahabharata. Th
Kacha of Mahabharata who returns t
heaven after taking away the power oSanjeevani is never seen again in th
original. But here I have drawn a
maginary picture of his later life. He i
inked with Yayati, Devayani and
Sharmishtha in different ways. Althoug
one may think of Yayati to be the hero
his story really has two heroes like twheroines.
Sharmishtha, Devayani and Kach
engaged my mind for a long time fo
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different reasons, but when I set out t
write Yayati, it was not because of them
The final inspiration came from th
character sketch of Yayati himself. I donot know if I would have written thi
novel, if in the decade 1942-51 I had no
been witness to the happenings in thworld and in our country — the strang
spectacle of physical advancement an
moral degeneration going hand in hand
f I had written it before 1942 it woulhave been a very different story. I would
hen have confined myself t
Sharmishtha’s love affair.The original portrait of Yayati in the
ahabharata is very representative
Yayati is symbolic of the common man
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n the times gone by. Inspite of much
varied happiness, he is alway
dissatisfied and is blindly running i
pursuit of new pleasures. He does noknow the difference between happines
and enjoyment. Pleasure, momentar
animal pleasure, is mistaken for eternahappiness and he is pondering over how
o get it all the time. In his world o
emotion there is no other principle. Th
common man of today is groping likYayati in the twilight of a world in
which the old spiritual values have bee
swept away and new spiritual ones havet to be discovered. Blind pursuit o
pleasure is tending to be his religion.
In the case of the mythological Yayat
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he idea of pleasure was limited to tha
with a woman. Not so today. The whol
world, made more beautiful an
prosperous by science, machine anculture is spread before us. The variou
nstruments of pleasure tempt us at ever
step, all the time. Every momenpassions are being moved and roused
This is leading to a degeneration o
social values and corruption of th
human mind. The loss is society’s whic feel very keenly about.
In this novel each character i
complex. Devayani is not simply wifand mother; she has a lust for powe
which guides her thoughts and actions
Sharmishtha is more than a romanti
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nterest of the King. She is alway
guided by devotion and symbolise
sacrifice. Kacha is the spiritual guid
whose actions more than his speecserve to set the philosophical tone of th
novel, that personal relationships have a
imes to be subordinate to duty. Yayati ishe scholarly, valorous king whose lus
for pleasure overpowers all else.
would like the readers to keep this i
mind.
A good work of art can at anytime ris
o different heights ranging from artisti
entertainment, the play of emotionssocial education to exposition of lif
whether subtle or palpable. Only reader
can judge whether or not I have done so
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V S Khandeka
195
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YAYATIA Classic Tale of Lust
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YayatiKing of Hastinapur, married
Devayani, the daughter of Maharish
Shukra, and her maid Sharmishtha.
ahusha
King of Hastinapur, father of Yati and
Yayati.
YatiElder brother of Yayati who became
an ascetic.
acha
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Friend of Yayati, Devayani’s love and
brother (by affection) of Sharmishtha.
aharishi Angiras
Yati and Yayati were born by the
blessings of the sage.
evayani
Daughter of Maharishi Shukra, wife o
Yayati and mother of Yadu.
aharishi Shukra
Preceptor of the Asuras[1] and father oDevayani.
Sharmishtha
Daughter of Vrishaparva, the King othe Asuras, mother of Puroo.
Vrishaparva
King of the Asuras and father o
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Sharmishtha.
1] In Indian mythology ‘asuras’ were the ‘non
gods’ or ‘anti-gods’ and feared as enemies o
the gods. Sometimes they are referred to a
demons, as in this story.
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I
YAYAT
do not really know why I want to recounhe events of my life. Is it perhap
because I am a king? Am I really a king
o, I was a king.
The stories of kings and queens have wide appeal, in particular the fantasie
woven around their loves.
My life is also a story of love but, on
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wonders about the content of the story.
realise that it is not great enough t
attract a poet to it. At the back of thi
history there is no pride, no ego and nexhibitionism. These are the tatters of
rich brocade. What is there left in it t
display?As the son of King Nahusha o
Hastinapur, I became a king after hi
death. That is neither to my credit nor t
my discredit. People will stare wit
curiosity at even the crow sitting ato
he palace dome!
How would life have moulded itself instead of a prince, I had been born i
he house of an ascetic? Would it hav
been as glorious as the starry night o
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autumn or like a dark cold night of lat
winter? Who knows?
Would I have been happier if I had
been born in a hermitage? Much as
have tried, I cannot find the answer. I
would not have had the overtones of th
brightly coloured magnificent brocade ffor a king. Even with its rich overtones
not all the shades in that fabric of lif
please me.
Maybe I am obsessed with the story.
keep thinking of it. A passing pleasan
hought says, my story may serve t
show up to some the pitfalls of life anwarn them in time. Who does not know
he legend of the moon which, for the si
of being enamoured of the wife of hi
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utor, was branded with spots for al
ime? Does not the world know tha
ndra — the King of the Gods — wa
punished with a thousand sores for hinfatuation for Ahalya’s beauty? Th
world errs, even realises the errors, bu
seldom learns from them.We are all a little wiser towards the
end of our lives and the wisdom ofte
comes from the pain suffered by oneself
A creeper has many flowers; some ar
offered to God in worship and so arous
devotion. Some adorn the lovely ringlet
of maidens and are silent witnesses the hours of love and pleasures indulge
n. The same is true of humans born i
his world. Some live to be old an
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some rise to honour and fame and som
are crushed by poverty. But in the end
all these flowers fall to the ground an
are lost in the earth. That is theicommon lot.
In my life’s sojourn, a few thing
happened which are worth recallingMaybe I am mistaken in believing so bu
honestly do think so. The infant Yayati
he adolescent Yayati, Yayati the youth
and later Yayati the man were all of a
piece. But the Yayati as I see him today
s a little different. The physical identit
s the same but he now perceives whahe earlier Yayatis had failed to see. He
cannot resist the temptation to dwell o
his life, so that the world may come t
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see, however faintly, through his eye
what he himself had failed to see.
* * *
have always been passionately fond o
flowers, even from early childhood. I aold that for hours on end, I used to b
window gazing on the blossoms in th
palace garden. My mother was amuse
at my childish ways and fondly told m
father that I had the makings of a grea
poet.
Father pooh-poohed the idea, sayingWhat ... a poet! And what would youn
Yayu get from being a poet? Poets can
only draw pretty word-pictures of th
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beauties of the world. On the other hand
t is only the born soldier who drink
deep of the beautiful things of the world
Yayu must make a great soldier. Of ouancestors, King Pururava won the hear
of the most beautiful Apsara, Urvashi, b
his valour. I have defeated in battle evehe gods and have had the honour o
mounting the throne of Indra, the King o
he Gods. Yayu must uphold tha
radition.’
This was much later in life. There is on
unforgettable incident of that time whichaunts me. It is like the scar from an ol
wound. I did not understand it
significance till recently — but now,
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am convinced that what in the earlie
stages of life are meaningless, come t
have real significance and deep meanin
owards the end of life.
Mother had among her maids
favourite, Kalika by name. I too wa
fond of her and sometimes dreamt of her never understood why. I was the
barely six. Once in play, she caught m
and took me in her arms. I struggled t
escape, when she pressed my head to he
bosom and said, ‘My little prince, yo
are getting naughtier everyday. I fed yo
as a baby. You were then a sweet docilekid, who returned my loving care, bu
now ...’
Clinging to her I said, ‘From now on,
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am going to call you mother.’
She put her hand on my mouth an
said, ‘My little prince, the queen is you
mother. I am nobody. I am only a maid.’
I protested in petulance, ‘Why then di
Mother not feed me?’
For the first time that day I was angrwith my mother. I did not speak to he
all that day. At night she came to my bed
and gently called to me. She stroked mhead with the tenderness of a flower.
relented a little but did not speak.
would not open my eyes. In my agitatio
kept thinking that if I had the powers oa great ascetic to pronounce a curse,
would instantly turn my mother into
piece of stone.
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The feel of a touch is more expressiv
han the spoken word, but it cannot sti
he heart as tears alone can do. I felt ho
ears on my cheek and broke down. opened my eyes. I had never before see
Mother crying and I was touched. I crep
up to her and with my arms round hersobbed, ‘Mother, what is the matter?’
She did not speak. She drew me t
herself and shed silent tears, stroking m
head for a long time.
I pressed her to tell me what wa
hurting her. In my innocence, I asked he
f her favourite bird had flown away twhich she said, ‘No,’ and added, ‘I am
worried about my other pet flying away.
‘Which is the other pet, Mother?’
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In reply, she drew me closer until i
almost hurt and said, ‘Who else, m
son?’
She was holding me so tight that it hur
but it was also thrilling. I wiped he
ears with my little fingers and prattled
No, Mother, I shall never, never leavou.’
She echoed, ‘Never, never leave me?
Childhood is conscious only of thpresent and I repeated, ‘I am sure I shal
never, never leave you.’ I did not know
why the thought should even have com
o her and pressed her to tell me.In the end she said, ‘You have been
cross with me all day. You have no
spoken to me. Even now, though yo
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were not asleep, there was no respons
o my calling. Why are you so cross wit
me? Yayu, my son, children canno
understand the grief of their parents. Bu beg of you that you will not follow i
his footsteps.’
‘Whose footsteps, Mother?’Mother and I were alone together an
Father was some distance away. Outsid
he door, a maid slept and even the low
flame in the golden lampstand wa
dimming. And yet, Mother looked a littl
scared and shaken. She got up an
closed the door. Then she took me in heap and said in a tremulous voice
Yayu, my son, I was not going to tel
ou till you were really grown up. Bu
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brave to have gone away all by himself.
I again asked Mother, ‘When did h
go?’
‘At dead of night and into the forest,
she said. ‘I was awake till quite late i
he night, trying to dissuade him. I wa
ired and must have dozed off. When awoke again towards the morning, Yat
was not in his bed. The guards looke
for him everywhere but he was not to b
found.’
I said to myself, ‘What a worth
brother!’ Then the mystery of th
occurrence struck me again and I said tMother, ‘Where had you taken Yati?’
‘I had taken him to see a great rishi. I
was by his blessing that Yati was born
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o me and I used to take him to seek th
rishi’s blessings every anniversary o
his birth. Once, when I was returnin
from the hermitage, Yati went away. Hewanted to stay at the hermitage and I wa
angry about it and spoke very harshly t
him.‘I brought him away by force. I did no
heed him or pause to think of what h
wanted ...’
In curiosity I said, ‘What did h
want?’
Amid tears she said, ‘I still do no
know what he wanted. He was deeplreligious and was at home with rishis
hermits and yogis. He immediately mad
friends with them. We have looked fo
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him everywhere but like the meteorit
falling from the sky, my Yati is not to be
found anywhere.’
My mother was calmly narrating he
grievous loss but towards the end sh
broke down. In recalling the inciden
she seemed to be experiencing oveagain that cruel morning in the dens
frightening forest. Suddenly sh
stuttered, the words ceased and she wa
rembling. It was like the plaintive not
of a violin suddenly ceasing on a strin
snapping. I was frightened by her blan
ook. Then she heaved a sigh, drew mo her and wept bitterly. I could find no
words to console her.
‘I was frightened that like Yati, you
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might leave us one day. Yayu, my son, a
child is the apple of his mother’s eye.’
I sobbed, ‘No, Mother, I shall no
eave you as Yati did. I shall do nothing
o hurt you.’
‘Sure, promise you will not,’ said
Mother.I clasped her hand and swore to her
Mother, I shall never, never turn a
hermit.’
still remember that night. I canno
recall today the effect this conversatio
had on my mind nor the thoughts tha
came to me. But one thing is certain. I
hat one single night I had matured. I
was an awakening from a world o
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fantasy to one of fact. I had my firs
acquaintance with grief. I saw the floo
of tears in the eyes of my mother whos
mere caress was heavenly to meSubconsciously I grew to hate what ha
caused her pain.
I did not sleep well. I still remember pleasant dream in which as king of th
whole world, I stalked with a whip i
hand through every town and village
Every rishi, hermit and beggar that
came across I lashed with the whip.
Yes, I did grow up that night. I saw
clearly the form and content of life ihose few hours of pitch darkness. I ha
been kept in ignorance of the fact that m
elder brother had run away to turn
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hermit — why this concealment?
Until this revelation came to me, I ha
ived in a fantasy world of bloomin
flowers, gentle rivulets and coo
breezes. I used to wake up in th
morning fresh like the new blooms in th
garden. I had no fear of an occasionastorm. It seemed to me that like the othe
elements, the wind sometimes turne
fierce. The ripples on the gently flowin
rivulet I imagined hummed a tune as
sometimes did. My world contained
neat array of dreams and butterflies
flowers and stars, peacocks dancing ahe sight of clouds and the clouds in tur
purring at that gorgeous sight, the brigh
smiling mornings with fresh blooms an
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he eventides like the fading flowers, th
fresh greenery of the spring and th
rainbows of the monsoon, the resoundin
of the hooves of horses and the tinkle ohe temple bells, the soft sand of th
riverbank and the soft cushions on th
divan. Until that night, nature and mahad been one in my eyes.
Such had been my world till that night
t was a beautiful dream. If I was upse
at anything, all that was necessary wa
o go up a tree and think of God. Suc
was the faith that He would answer th
call and instantly come down in persoo punish the guilty.
No matter how sweet or mysterious i
was, it was still the tiny world of a bu
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et to blossom. That world had not ye
awakened to the humming of the bees
The soft caress of the golden warm ray
of the sun was foreign to it. The bud hanot opened to look on the vast expans
of the sky. It had not yet known even in
dream the entrancing grace of the carvemage of the Goddess or the lure o
black tresses, the crowning glory of
beautiful maiden. A bud cannot foreve
remain a bud. Blossom it must intmaturity.
Yes, I did grow up that night. I said to
myself, someday I must find Yati andbring him to Mother and say to him, ‘A
he elder brother, this throne is yours b
right. Take it. At least now let us have
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he satisfaction of sharing what is ours
ike children sharing sweets.’
* * *
was now six and as a prince it wa
necessary for me to acquire the Letterand the Arts. Father arranged for m
uition. At first I did not take kindly to
my tutors. My gymnastics tutor appeare
o me an ungainly giant. His size an
physique alone seemed sufficient t
ustify his selection. He would make m
exercise hard from the crack of dawn. Afirst, the body ached all over. I appealed
o my mother against all this. Sh
consoled me with the words, ‘The futur
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king must bear with all this.’ In th
beginning, I invariably came off th
worse in wrestling and I despaired o
ever becoming proficient at it, but mutor reassured me. He said, ‘When
was your age, I was soft like butter. Bu
ook at me now. I am hard as steel.’
At the age of fourteen, I was onc
standing before a mirror. I was deeplabsorbed in admiring the grace an
beauty of my form. Impulsively, I fel
ike shaking that strong well knit arm an
even resting my head on it.I was suddenly reminded of th
picture portraying Indra restin
peacefully on the arm of his wif
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ndrani, after he returned from battl
with Vritra.
Such thoughts are intoxicating lik
wine and I do not know how long I stoo
before the mirror in admiration
Someone was talking and I looked roun
n surprise. It was Mother saying, ‘Mealso love to look at themselves for hour
.. do they? I had thought it was onl
women who were vain about their form.
She had apparently mistaken me fo
Father and added, ‘Yayu has grown up
now. What would he think, if he saw
his?’On seeing me, she said, ‘Yayu, my
son, how you have grown overnight!
pray that I myself do not cast the evi
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eye! You were standing with your back
o me and for a moment I thought it wa
our father before the mirror ...’ Sh
said, ‘I am now relieved of one anxiety.
Mother stopped suddenly. Tears came
o her eyes and I said, ‘You are the
Queen of Hastinapur. You are not thewife of a poor hermit or a wretche
menial. What cares can you have?’
‘You forget my son ... that I am a
mother.’
‘True, but you are my mother.’ I said
my’ with pride and glanced at th
reflection. Mother also saw it ansmiled. In an instant she turned grav
and said, ‘That maybe, but for me
whose cup of nectar was once turne
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nto poison, it is but natural that I shoul
be nervous about the other.’ Mother wa
obviously referring to Yati. I said
Mother, you get me the permission and shall ransack the earth in search of Yat
and bring him to you.’
She said, ‘Child, how can you finYati? If he suddenly returned and stood
n person before me, even I may no
recognise him. Then how will you wh
have never seen him. I wonder where h
s, how he is, what name he bears, and
ndeed, if he is there at all ...’
She could say no more — Yati’sdeparture had left behind a deep scar
That scar she carried secretly and woul
not bare even to Father. That I had a
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elder brother who had left in th
aspiration of becoming a great rishi,
had almost forgotten.
She looked gravely at me and said
Yayu, my son, you have grown before
our time into a man and acquire
proficiency in the Letters and the ArtsWe must now find you a bride. It wil
make me very happy ... I shall speak t
Father today.’
Except with regard to Yati, Fathe
always gave in to Mother. She wa
never denied anything. Once, one of m
utors suggested to Father that I shoulreside in a hermitage for a few days
Father agreed saying, ‘You are right ...
ree needs both rain and sunshine for it
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proper growth.’ This happened in m
presence and I was stunned. My distast
for the hermit’s life has grown everyda
since understanding came to me. I wanever able to fathom why God Shiv
was so impressed with the long years o
penance of a hermit as to bestow on hihe divine power to bless or curse. M
education was mostly directed to th
worship of beauty and strength. Thes
have no place in a hermit’s life. Therecorporal suffering is an article of faith
Wild herbs and roots are to them
delicacy and the chanting of hymns iheir only war cry. Peeling fruit and
cutting vegetables is to them wha
hunting is to others and the lowly hu
serves for a palace. The maids of th
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palace were apsaras[1] by compariso
with their womenfolk. All these thought
crowded in on me and I was uneasy a
he prospect of going to a hermitage.
When Father and the tutor talked abou
t again the next day, I listened in from
behind a closed door. My heart wabeating wildly. In the end Father only
said, ‘I also think it would be better i
Yayu went into a hermitage but hi
mother does not agree.’ My mothe
saved me that day but was now puttin
me into new difficulties by planning m
marriage.I was unable to sleep in peace even o
my soft bed, tired though I used to be i
body and mind. I would wake up with
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start. Dreams of valour in fierce battle
between the gods and the demon
disturbed my sleep. My great grandfathe
Pururava was a mighty unconquerehero. He had made Urvashi his quee
after fighting the demon who ha
kidnapped her. I had in my childhoodearnt by heart the epic in which hi
prowess was sung. My father Kin
ahusha was no less brave. Early in lif
he vanquished the tribals known aDasyus and gave protection to the rishis
Later, it is said, he even defeated th
gods and acquired Indra’s kingdom. was obsessed with a desire to emulat
hem by unique and unparallele
heroism, while there was mothe
hinking of marrying me off, lest
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emulate Yati.
‘At your birth, a great astrologe
forecast your life.’
‘What then did the quack forecast fo
me?’
I could see from her face that she di
not relish this remark. She was silent foa while and said, ‘Yayu, my son, the
astrologer said this child is destined t
great good fortune. He will be King anwill come by all kinds of pleasures. Bu
he will never be happy.’
I laughed at this nonsense of th
astrologer. In the end I said to Mother
Mother, later, if you wish, I shall marry
a hundred times but today, I am not afte
ove. I wish to show my prowess. I d
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not want to loll in a boudoir. I want to
engage in battle. They say the gods an
he demons are spoiling for a fight. Le
me join it. If Father so wishes, let hiurn loose the victory horse. I wil
accompany it right round Aryavarta
When I return victorious after destroyinhe enemy I can think of marriage.’
I did not realise how much I ha
changed during my student days. Like
stream adapting itself to the contours o
ts surroundings, my mind had rapidl
changed a great deal. In learnin
archery, I, for the first time, experiencedhe unique satisfaction of intense co
ordination of the eye and the mind. I
childhood, the sight of the rich variety o
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colour in the garden used to thrill me
But the experience of sighting the targe
n archery was quite the opposite
Everything except the target ceased texist. The purple of the hills, the gree
of the trees and the blue of the sky in th
perspective were forgotten. There waonly the black spot there. The smal
black spot, the target of my arrow wa
all that existed for me in that instant.
This new experience was als
hrilling. I was soon an adept at hitting
without fail, inanimate objects. It wa
naturally followed by live targets. Thawas so many years ago but the joy of tha
first shot, which unerringly found its liv
arget, still vibrates in the mind. It was
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bird quietly perched on the tall branch o
a tree. It made a beautiful picture frame
against the deep blue of the sky. Ever
moment one felt that in the next instanhe picture would come to life and tak
o its wings. The sun was setting in th
west. Somewhere in a nest her littlfledglings, perhaps without their wings
must be waiting for her. But my tutor and
were hardly concerned with her broo
or their fate. I wanted to be proficient iarchery and the tutor’s livelihood hun
by his teaching. I suffered intense agon
shooting at that innocent little bird anhat shot snapped my intimat
association with nature. Till then, at th
bottom of my heart, I was a poet. Tha
nstant the poet in me was dead.
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Mother herself cooked that meat an
served the delicacy to Father and me
Father certainly relished every morse
and was all admiration. But I had t
make an effort to bring myself to eat i
At night I woke up three or four time
and once, I imagined I heard the shrilcry of the bird in mortal agony. Once
woke up with the chirping of her littl
ones. Mother was still brooding over th
oss of her offspring many years ago bu
he same mother could cheerfully loo
upon the death of a mother bird. She ha
admiration for her son who had killehat innocent bird. She could partake o
he dead mother’s meat with relish.
was baffled by this contradiction in life.
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The next evening the elderly Prim
Minister called and I put my puzzle t
him. He pointed out that life is no
sustained by mercy but by power. Hold me many tales from mythology an
nteresting stories of beasts and birds
The central theme of all was this: Thworld is sustained by the struggle fo
power, lives on rivalry and conflict and
strives for sensual pleasure.
From that day I turned a devotee o
power. To my mind cruelty and bravery
were twins.
My bravery was soon to be put to th
est. Tales of the conflict between god
and demons often came to Father
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sometimes from Devarishi Narad an
sometimes from others. The desire t
fight on the side of the gods and to defea
and crush the demons, so as tdemonstrate to my people the prowess o
heir future king was strongly borne i
upon me quite frequently. But Fathedisliked the idea of siding with the god
or the demons.
I often tried to investigate the cause o
father’s aversion to both from the ol
Prime Minister but his stock answe
was, ‘Everyone gets to know things i
heir own good time. After all, trees donot grow leaf, flower and fruit al
ogether.’ I then thought I should satisfy
my craving for the battlefield in othe
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catch it where he could and mount it. H
hen had to go round the course fiv
rounds and dismount without stoppin
he steed. For every contestant a freshorse was brought in.
I liked the sport but it was meant fo
he common soldier. Nobody wouldhave liked the prince to participate. Wit
a pang of disappointment at heart, I wa
sitting by my parents eagerly watchin
he sport. Four times the horse ha
hrown the rider before he coul
complete the course. I looked at the fift
one cantering in. He had the appearancof a great and graceful giant. You could
see in every eye fear, wonder and
admiration. He was being led to th
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course by six attendants but he wa
defiant and neighed loudly. He wa
pawing the earth with his powerfu
hooves. He would throw up his heascattering and ruffling the mane, whic
hen looked fearful like the white unrul
hair of an angry rishi, poised fopronouncing a curse. Looking at him,
wild desire welled in me and my hand
began to itch. Excited, I was stampin
he ground. Every atom in my body wahrilled into action like the dancing jet
of a fountain.
I looked at Mother and saw deepfright in her eyes. She whispered t
Father, ‘Ask them to take this hors
away. He is frightening. There will b
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an accident, spoiling the last day of th
celebrations.’
Father smiled and said, ‘The life o
man is dedicated to prowess.’ I closed
my eyes to understand the implication o
what my father had said. There was
errifying scream from the spectatorsWhen I opened my eyes, I saw that th
contestant had failed. He had bee
hrown and the horse was gallopin
away. Two or three others tried but th
horse was intractable. The entire aren
was held in fright. There was a dee
roaring in my ears urging me to arise anreminding me that the life of man i
dedicated to prowess. It said, ‘Arise
Yayati. You are the future King of
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Hastinapur. A king may have no fear
Otherwise, it will be the talk of th
own, that Hastinapur has been subdue
by a horse. The gossip will reach thgods and the demons. You are the son o
he brave King Nahusha.’
That shook me. I stood up and wamoving forward when I was held firml
by two tender arms. I turned round. I
was Mother.
I roughly thrust her hands away an
umped into the arena. A sea of men
surrounded me but they seemed fixe
ike stone carvings and were soon out omy mind.
All I could see was the wild horse. H
ooked defiantly at me. He appeared t
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challenge the might of the Nahusha kings
Gradually I was getting nearer to him
The feeling arose in me that he was n
horse but a mere rabbit, and his manooked like a rabbit’s fur.
While I was thus entranced a shril
voice seemed to warn me. ‘You foolwhere are you going? It is the Valley o
Death.’
I shouted back, ‘No, it is not. It is no
he Valley of Death but the Peak o
Fame. It is a high peak but I am going t
climb to the top. See, here I am alread
at the top.’I have no recollection of the sequenc
of events and the next thing I distinctl
remember is that I was firmly in th
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outh had come true.
These were the nuances of my wil
houghts. I did not even realise that th
horse was foaming at the mouth and tha
his speed had slackened. My min
warned me to be cautious. The fifth wa
o end a little beyond where Father anMother were sitting. I moved near t
heir seats, I wanted to see the glow o
my mother’s face. The temptation wa
great and I looked back just as I wa
passing them.
That one instant of temptation wa
near fatal. My grip on the saddle mushave slackened and before I knew wha
was happening, I had been thrown fro
he saddle. The bitter revenge of tha
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dumb animal was concentrated in tha
one act. For an instant, while I was i
he air, I could hear shrill but plaintiv
cries from the crowd. The next moment was deep in the abyss o
unconsciousness.
When I came out of that frightful abyss
all I saw was a mild solitary ray of light
did not know where I was.I was suddenly jogged int
remembrance. Then followed pai
coursing through the head and limbs
Like a dried leaf in high wind, I had thaday been flung into the air. Was
perhaps maimed from the accident? Wh
otherwise can I not get up? I put my righ
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hand to the forehead. There was a col
pack there. I must have been in fever
With all my strength I shouted, ‘Mother!
I heard the jingling of bangles. It mus
be Mother coming to me. I strained m
eyes to see, but it was not Mother. It wa
someone else. Was I mortally hurt in thaaccident? Am I in my bed or at the doo
of death? I could not make out. I looke
steadily at the figure standing by my bed
Has death such a beautiful form? Wh
hen is man afraid of death? I heard
voice calling, ‘Prince?’ It was Alaka.
Her voice was shaky. For eight dayhe sun had risen every morning and se
every evening, but I was not consciou
of it. Where was I those days? What di
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do then? I was baffled. I thought I wa
a different person but with the sam
form. But ‘I’ could not recall a singl
moment of those eight days.
I asked of my mother and Alaka said
Her Majesty is in her room. She ha
given up eating since that day. Yesterdaywith great misgiving she came to see yo
and fainted at the sight. The physicia
has ordered her rest in bed.’
She added, ‘The physician has bee
watching over you night and day. A little
while ago, he danced with joy on feelin
our pulse and said, “Alaka, I feared thamy skill was going to fail me an
disgrace my grey hair. But now th
prince is out of danger. He wil
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probably regain consciousness abou
midnight or early morning at the latest
You must keep awake till he does so
See that the pack on his forehead is kepcold.” ’
Suddenly, she remembered something
She quickly moved away and returned the bed. By now, I could see a littl
better. Was it Alaka standing by my bed
— Perhaps not. It was a fairy standin
by me.
I smiled at the thought. Is beauty als
subject to tides like the sea? Wh
knows? But Alaka was every momenooking more and more beautiful. I wa
gazing at her. She was flustered and
murmured, ‘What is the matter with me
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brought medicine to put it on the pac
and forgot about it. Please close you
eyes.’
‘Why?’
‘This medicine is very strong. Th
physician has strictly warned me that no
a drop must go into the eyes.’‘But my eyes will not shut.’
‘Why?’
How could I tell her that I wanted tkeep looking at her? She might not lik
t. Her mother had fed me at her breas
She had brought me up in her lap. Eve
Father respected Kalika and as fo
Mother, she looked on her as a nea
relation. Mother used to say Kalika too
greater care of me than she herself had
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With Kalika’s daughter —
Alaka said, ‘If you do not close you
eyes now, I shall stop even talking to
ou.’ Those childish words brought m
childhood back to me. It was as if th
waters of the river which had flown int
he sea had receded again.I quickly closed my eyes. Alaka wa
wetting the pack drop by drop. Ther
passed before my eyes the gradua
ransformation in many forms, from th
childish Alaka refusing to talk to me to
he Alaka now in attendance on me, nea
my bed. The bud was the same but iblossoming everyday it assumed mor
attractive and pleasing forms. Ever
form of Alaka that I saw was attractiv
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n a different way.
Alaka had grown up in the palace wit
her mother. But till today, she had no
attracted me so much. Why should it be
reminisced we were playmates till
was six. Then we parted. As prince,
strutted about the palace, the town, thcourt and the festive celebrations. Sh
was a maid’s daughter and hung back
She ran little errands in the palace. I wa
destined to be a king and a worl
renowned warrior. She was destined to
be a maid in eternal service o
somebody. That is why our ways partedA heavenly fragrance intoxicated me
My eyes were still closed. I slowl
ifted my right hand. Alaka was bendin
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over and carefully pouring the drops o
medicine. One of her tresses wa
rubbing against my cheek. I felt that loc
of hair with my hand and that soft toucsent a thrill through my whole body.
knew that Alaka would suddenly mov
away from embarrassment if I openemy eyes. Eyes closed, I said, ‘Alaka
where is this delicious fragrance comin
from?’
‘It comes from the jasmine flowers i
my braid.’
‘Let me smell them where they are,’
said. Alaka did not reply. I added, ‘Iou do not let me smell them in you
hair, I shall scream. Then, they will al
wake up and ...’
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‘If you scream, they will all rush i
panic and Mother will take me to tas
saying, “You wretch, can’t you even
make a good attendant?” She will hanme for it.’
‘Don’t you think,’ I said, ‘it would b
better to let me smell the flowers in youhair than be hanged? They say a goo
deed should be done on time.’
All the flowers in the garden of Ede
must have contributed their share o
fragrance to those jasmine flowers.
was intoxicated by the fragrance o
Alaka’s hair. Apart from the flowers, thefeel of her hair on my nose and cheek
was the height of pleasure.
I forgot myself when I realised tha
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Alaka was withdrawing. I opened m
eyes. She was moving away. I said, ‘
have not had enough. I must have more .
much more still.’
Before I realised what I was doing
my arms were round her and our lip
met. Delicious is not the word — heips were full of nectar. Like th
raveller in the desert, my lips were dry
was dying with thirst. I drank deep o
hat nectar. I kept demanding for mor
and more of it. I was only conscious o
one fact. I was swimming in happines
but its waters were not deep enough.The nectar of which I had drunk dee
was burning me like poison. 1 had t
have more nectar to quench it.
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I was struggling to my feet. There wa
a shooting pain in my right leg and like
bird shot down, I screamed in agony an
fell back on my bed.
t took me three or four months to ge
over my accident. But my piercinscream of that night brought joy to th
palace. Everyone was heartened that
had regained consciousness and hapractically come to life from dead. Th
old physician, in fact, rushed into m
room and wept with emotion like
child.
I was soon rid of my fever. But, th
njury to the bone was more intractable
The physician had, however, imported
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from East Aryavarta a tribal known fo
his skill in bone setting. He set it wel
and there was no defect left, but thos
hree or four months were very difficufor me. I was irritated with my disabilit
when I saw birds flitting outside th
window. I felt like going out of thwindow in the manner of a bird withou
caring for the consequences. My hand
tched at the sound of a horse and th
highs strained for a mount. I did noknow where to wreak my irritation at th
disability. In annoyance, I would gaze a
my limbs. I had spent every day of teong years to cultivate a strong an
beautiful body but it had failed me
There is no limit to a man’s love of hi
body but the body does not reciprocate
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ndeed, on occasion, it lets him down.
Lying in bed, I tried to discover wha
was it that the body was antagonistic to
but never succeeded. I often though
here was a Yayati in me, different and
distinct from the body. But how was on
o understand the nature of that otheYayati? I knew that mind, heart and
ntellect were not parts of the body bu
had their separate identity. In the eigh
days of my unconsciousness, when wit
he rare drugs given to me, I would hav
quietly swallowed even poison, wher
was my mind? And the intellect? And thheart? There was no answer. I wa
completely in the dark.
When, in exasperation, I gazed at m
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imbs, something whispered into my ear
You are wrong. Has your body alway
been your enemy? What about th
pleasure of that night, when you kisseAlaka? Was it not made possible by
our body alone?’
That night was a sweet immortadream. The thought of it made me forge
all pain in my life. Even the bright su
outside was obscured in the memory o
hat night and it all came vividly back t
me, like the indelible impression of
oung maiden, setting out for worshi
with an oil lamp. That maddeninfragrance of the jasmine flowers, th
softness of Alaka’s tresses, the
sweetness of her lips — the memory o
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t all was thrilling.
Together with this sweet memory o
Alaka, there was another which serve
o bring me happiness. The tribal wh
set the bone had travelled widely i
Aryavarta. He recounted enchantin
ales of the caves, forests and cities, thsea and the hills, the old temples and th
men he had come across. From thos
ales I conjured up a beautiful dream.
In my dream I was escorting th
sacrificial horse let loose in challenge o
supreme sovereignty. In the end
returned as the victorious heroconquering the world and at the head o
he maidens waiting to worship me wa
Alaka with the oil lamp.
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I was well again. I mentioned m
dreams to the Prime Minister and m
utors. They all liked the idea and inspit
of Mother’s protests Father announcehe sending forth of the victory horse.
I still remember those days!
* * *
was away for nearly eighteen month
escorting the horse. Everywhere I saw
he grandeur of this ancient sacred land
was enriching my mind with th
countless folk songs sung to her glory the tune of the elements. I stored in m
eyes the ever new folk dances. We firs
headed north, then west, south and east
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How exquisitely pretty was th
countryside everywhere. With th
changing seasons the land wore a new
attractive garb and was bedecked witvarious ornaments. Sometimes I though
he motherland was standing before m
n person. The rivers and streams likets of milk, flowing from her breasts
he mountains. The thought that it wa
his milk which sustained her childre
was thrilling.
We were challenged in only a few
kingdoms. Father had in his time put aw
nto the whole of Aryavarta by hibravery. It was the victory horse of tha
very King Nahusha who had defeate
ndra. Who dared challenge it? Thos
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who thoughtlessly threw a challeng
soon learnt that Yayati was the worthy
son of a worthy father.
I was extremely happy in all suc
minor conflicts. I was an adept hunte
and bagged with ease most kinds o
animals. But the joy of vanquishing aarmy which is as well armoured as you
own, is quite different. It is on suc
occasions that a warrior is reall
nspired. Victory in war is more head
han hunting. It was that kind of head
victory that I was aspiring to. When
had risked my life during the festivitiest was because I had realised th
ntoxication of victory, but after all, tha
was only a victory over an animal.
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I was often unable to sleep during th
campaign. Not that I was restles
hinking of Mother or somethin
mportant. It was an undefined worrhat dispelled sleep. I was weary. Just a
one lively horse of a chariot takes t
gallop unmindful of his slow mate, sdid my mind ignore the weary body an
ndulge in wild fantasies. It used t
dwell on things like death, love, religio
and God. It was difficult to free myselfrom the web of that maze. Every ato
of my body wanted above all, ‘to live.
At this, the mind would intervene withe question, ‘Why then are yo
escorting the victory horse? You maybe
challenged, when there will be a fierc
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battle and you may fall on the battlefield
Why should you, who wants to live, g
where death is disporting wildly?’
It was impossible to settle thi
paradox and then even a couch o
flowers pricked like a bed of thorns.
would stroll out, gaze at the stars and bsoothed by the cool fresh breeze. Th
mango trees in the adjacent grove woul
rustle in a whisper and the charwa
birds in the pond nearby could be hear
wailing for each other. The mind wa
enchanted with such touching music.
Gradually peace and quiet wouldescend on me. The birds would have b
hen been stilled into silence and ther
was no sound of movement or flutter
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The peace of the surrounding woul
nspire me to utter words of prayer.
would say them softly. In the end with
folded hands, refreshed in mind ancontented, I would look around at th
expanse of heaven and earth in front an
fervently say, ‘Peace and goodwill oEarth.’ Then sleep would enfold me i
her fine silken garb and sing a lullaby.
I valued this peace at night, just a
much as the pleasure derived from th
rough and tumble of the day. I could not
however, reconcile the two. While I wa
escorting the horse, time was movinapace. In this roving life I experience
n many different forms both peace an
ntoxication.
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I cannot describe the many varie
forms in which peace and exhilaratio
came to me during these wanderings
There was the luscious green graswhich looked like fur standing up, as i
n ecstasy, and the tall stout deodar tree
proudly poised as if to uphold the skyThere was the gentle drizzle of rain lik
Ganges water sprinkled by the priest i
blessing and there was the downpour
ike jets of water thrown up by aelephant. There was the tiny lovel
butterfly which, descending on th
finger, looked like a ring set in precioustones. The lofty minarets of temples an
he inviting houses of dancing girls. Th
all twenty foot statues of the warrior
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and the delicately carved figures o
oung maidens on the walls of caves.
I went to see one such figure of
ovely woman. My escorts were al
outside. The figure was exquisitel
beautiful. It was the figure of Rati, th
Goddess of Love in mourning, wheLord Shiva had destroyed Madan, th
God of Love. I gazed at it for a lon
ime. Her sari had strayed a little. He
resses were hanging loose. I forgot tha
t was a lifeless figure. And before
knew what I was doing I kissed tha
beautiful figure passionately on thmouth. If it were not for the cold feel o
he stone which brought me to my senses
would have gone on doing
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t and gradually I lost consciousness o
all other sounds. Every moment was lik
an hour.
A vague sound came to my ears.
hought it was a bubbling sound and wa
electrified. You could see nothing and
had to aim by sound. When hit, thanimal would squeal. I had decided t
shoot quickly in succession in the sam
direction on hearing the squeal.
I shot an arrow. The sound of it
mpact on the target and a harsh huma
voice came to my ears together.
‘Who shot the arrow? You sinnercome forward. Otherwise ...’
Even a squirrel could not have go
down as quickly as I did. I walked in th
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direction of the sound. The forest wa
hinner by the side of the pond and I saw
n the faint moonlight, a human being. H
seemed like a ghost. I hastened to fall ahis feet without looking up. Suddenly th
figure fell back with the words, ‘I mus
not be touched by a sinner.’‘I am no sinner, Sire, I came for th
ove of hunting, thought I heard a
elephant drinking and shot the arrow.
am a Kshatriya. Hunting is enjoined o
me by my religion.’
‘You dare talk of religion to me, an
ascetic under vow. I am a BrahmachariTell me the truth. Have not your lip
been sullied by contact with those of
woman. You can touch my feet only i
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ou are pure in that respect.’
I dared not tell a lie. The memory o
my passionately kissing Alaka that nigh
was vivid before my eyes. This asceti
must be omniscient and he would at onc
know whether I was telling the truth. H
would blast me with a curse. I hundown my head. The yogi harshly name
me a profligate.
The yogi said, ‘I have no time t
waste on a degenerate person like you
n the early hours after midnight, I finis
my morning ritual and sit in prayer.’
knelt before him, folded my hands ansaid, ‘Sire, I crave your blessing.’
‘I am not simple like Lord Shiva t
bless anyone and everyone. How can
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bless you without knowing who yo
are?’
‘I am a Prince.’
‘Then you are unworthy of a blessing.
‘Why?’ I asked in trepidation.
‘Because you are a slave to you
body. The greater the status, the greatehe degradation of the soul. Ever
moment he succumbs to the anima
pleasures. He enjoys to his fill thfragrance of flowers and the perfume o
scents. He rules over his subjects but i
ruled by his senses. A woman is the
epitome of all pleasures, that is why wascetics look upon her as utterl
forbidden. Prince, go your way. If yo
wish to be blessed by me, renounce al
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worldly things and come to me. Then ...’
‘But, Sire, I have promised that I shal
never turn an ascetic.’
‘Why?’ asked the ascetic in curiosity.
‘My elder brother ran away as a chil
o renounce the world. Mother has stil
not forgotten her grief.’‘You are ...’ ‘Yayati of Hastinapur.’
Your brother?’ ‘Yati.’
‘Follow me,’ said the ascetic andstarted off. A little later when he looked
back, I had not moved. He said a littl
softly, ‘Yayati, your elder brother i
asking you to follow him.’
Fear, like hope, prompts all kinds o
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deas. I had met Yati for the first time.
should have been glad at the unexpecte
meeting. But I was chilled by his words
did not know what to say to him in hicave.
We soon arrived there. It was a
straggling cave with its opening covereby thorns. It was when Yati pushed them
aside that I realised it was a cave. A
iger growled. I instinctively put m
hand to the bow and arrow. Yati turned
back and smiled. He said, ‘No, that ha
no use here. He growled because h
smelt your presence. Otherwise he liehere like a rabbit. I make friends of wil
beasts wherever I go. They are pure
han human beings.’
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Yati patted the tiger’s head and i
started playing with him like a kitten.
We were now well in the interior o
he cave. There was an unusual glow o
ight there. I looked round and saw
masses of fireflies. There was a cobr
quietly curled up in every corner, withe jewel in its hood sparkling. To th
right, Yati pointed to his bed.
I looked down. A small stone served
for pillow and the thorny creepers at th
entrance served for a mattress.
shuddered that Yati slept in such a bed
He was my elder brother. Why had hrenounced all the royal pleasures for thi
kind of life? What pleasure was there i
t? What was Yati going to gain in the
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end? What was he in search of?
Yati picked up a deerskin lying nea
he bed and spread it on the uneve
ground for me to sit on. He himself sa
on his thorny bed.
Yati’s philosophy of life and the cave
had deadened my feelings. Otherwiseon my meeting him for the first time,
would have embraced him, wept on hi
shoulder and insisted on taking him t
Hastinapur to meet Mother. But as i
aware that this was not possible, I sa
here like a dumb animal.
Then for something to say, I saidMother will be very happy to see you.’
‘There is only one abiding happines
n life ... eternal happiness. Worldly
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pleasures end in unhappiness ... be it th
pleasure of touch or sight. The body i
man’s greatest enemy. It is the prim
duty of man to strive persistently fomastery over the body. Look at the fruit
eat.’
I took the fruit he offered and broke small piece and ate it as a sacramenta
offering. It was bitter and the bitternes
must have been reflected in my face. H
said, ‘Man loves sweet fruit. Indulgenc
n them leads to a craving. It is thi
ndulgence which makes man the slav
of his body. Man’s love of the bodydeadens his soul. It is only continenc
hat awakens the soul. I eat these bitte
fruit with relish to attain tha
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continence.’
He picked up one and ate
nonchalantly. The small piece in m
mouth remained there. If I could hav
gone out of the cave, I would have spat
out.
Yati and I were brothers. But therwas a deep chasm between us. I coul
see it clearly now. I was emboldened to
ask, ‘How did you turn to asceticism s
oung?’
‘Renunciation dawned on me in th
hermitage of the same ascetic by whos
blessing I was born. Mother had takeme to him. She was fast asleep but I ha
dreams. I came out of the hut an
stealthily stepped across to another on
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nearby. The disciples were talking and
heard them saying, “The children o
King Nahusha will never be happy.” ’
I was startled by these words. I wa
also King Nahusha’s son. ‘Why should i
be so?’ I asked.
‘There is a curse on him cast by great rishi. I was warned by the word
of those disciples and I decided to be
happy hermit rather than an unhapp
prince. I wandered into the Himalaya
and found a guru. Now, you had bette
go. It is past time for meditation. I shal
show you the way out and ...’I tried to persuade him to let me brin
Mother to see him, to no avail. We came
out brushing aside the thorny creepers a
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he mouth of the cave. I had now to tak
eave of him. I said in a broken voice
Farewell Yati ... remember me.’
He had not even touched me since
went into the cave. My words must hav
ouched him. With his hand on m
shoulder, he said, ‘Yayati, one day youwill be king. You will be a sovereign
You will celebrate a hundred sacrifices
But never forget that it is easier t
conquer the world than to master th
mind ...’
returned victorious to Hastinapur withe horse. The capital gave me a rousin
welcome. The whole town wa
bedecked like a bride, immersed i
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dance and song like a dancing girl an
showered me with flowers as if the
were the glances of young maidens.
But my mind was not roused even b
such a grand welcome. It was like
beautiful garland of fragrant flowers, i
which one’s favourite flower wamissing! Alaka was not to be see
among the maids who welcomed m
with the sacred lamp.
The joy of my mother was evident i
every move she made. She appeared t
have grown younger. But even though
was bathed in the love overflowing froher eyes, one corner of my hear
remained dry. In the end I pretended to
have casually remembered her an
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asked, ‘Alaka does not seem to b
here?’
‘She has gone to her aunt.’
‘Where is her aunt’s house?’
‘It is very far way, at the foot of th
Himalayas. It borders on the Kingdom o
he Demons.’All that night, I thought of Yati and
Alaka. Gradually, in the celebration o
shwamedha, I forgot all this. Almosbefore the end of the celebrations, th
disciples of the ascetic who had blesse
Father with a son, brought a messag
from him.
It was the rule in our house not t
mention the name of that ascetic
Whether it was from awe or ange
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nobody knows. But in recounting th
story of my life, I keep repeating t
myself nothing is to be kept back. Hi
name is Angiras.
It appeared that a fierce war wa
ikely to break out between the gods an
he demons. In order to prevent itMaharishi Angiras had taken the vow o
a sacrifice for peace. Kacha, hi
favourite disciple was the leading pries
t was feared that the demons woul
raise obstacles in it. As protectio
against any obstacles to the sacrific
Angiras had begged of the king for hison, the renowned warrior, to be there.
This was an honour even greater tha
he Horse sacrifice. Indra himself woul
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send for me, as the young hero wh
defeated with ease the demons. I shal
ravel to Heaven and assure Indra thus
Oh, King of Gods, I shall ever be oour side in any battle with the demons
But there is one thing you must do. M
father carries a curse that his childrewill never be happy. I wish to b
blessed with a counter-blessing t
nullify it.’
* * *
My bodyguard was following leisurelyMy horse grew tired of jogging along a
a slow pace. He galloped like th
whirlwind and I was near the cottage i
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for his lovely plume as a keepsake.
mounted the arrow when, in a hars
voice, someone said, ‘Hold back.’
It was not a request. It was an order.
was absorbed in the beauty of th
colours and had not noticed m
surroundings. To the left, on the brancof a tree, was perched a young ascetic
admiring the beauty of the twilight. Th
next instant he jumped down from th
ree, came near and said, ‘This is th
sacred hermitage of Maharishi Angiras.
‘I am aware of that,’ I retorted.
‘Did you intend to kill a bird in thprecincts of this hermitage? That woul
have been a sin.’
‘I am a Kshatriya ... hunting i
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enjoined on me by my religion.’
‘There is religious sanction to killin
n self-defence or to subdue evil. How
did this innocent dumb bird hurt you
What harm has it done?’
‘I admired his plume.’
‘You seem to be an epicure. Buremember, He who gave you that qualit
also endowed that bird with life.’
I was annoyed and said, ‘Such drsermons sound very well in a temple.’
The boy smiled and said, ‘You are in
a temple itself. Look, there in the west
he lamp of this temple is getting low
ittle. Higher up, you will see oil lamp
being lit one after another.’
In appearance he was a commo
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oung ascetic. But his talk would hav
become a poet more than an ascetic. I
disparagement I said, ‘My venerabl
poet, can you ride?’
‘No.’
‘Then you will never experience th
pleasure of hunting.’‘But I also go hunting.’
‘And pray, what do you hunt ... th
sacred grass?’He calmly said, ‘My enemies.’
‘Is it possible that an ascetic wearin
a tree bark and living in a cottage ha
enemies?’
‘Not one but many of them.’
‘And, pray, what do you fight with?’
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‘A spirited steed faster than Lord
ndra’s and of the Sun ...’
‘But you said you cannot ride!’
‘Not your kind of horse ... no. But m
own, yes. It is beautiful and fast. How
can I describe its lightning speed? In a
nstant he can travel from earth theaven. He can fathom fastnesses wher
ight does not penetrate. Horses for th
victory sacrifice pale before it. He ha
he power to make man a God and a Go
.. a greater God.’
In irritation I spurred my horse, sayin
o the insolent boy, ‘Show me youhorse.’
‘I cannot show him to you. But he i
with me all the time, eternally at m
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me the need to be humble at th
hermitage. I had removed my royal attir
and must have seemed an ordinar
soldier to him. Just that evening we hahad a clash of views in the forest.
‘One must be truthful but in adherin
o the truth, one must put it in agreeablwords. This teaching of my tutor I hav
not yet imbibed. Please do not tak
offence. It is uncertain how and whe
one’s mind gets out of control like th
horse. Please forgive me,’ he said.
We two were given separate huts a
one end of the settlement. ‘Prince, ware neighbours now,’ said Kach
smilingly. ‘Kachadeva, have you heard
of the proverb ... there is no wors
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enemy than the neighbour,’ I replied in
est.
‘There is a half truth in ever
proverb,’ he said with a smile.
Maybe because of my duty in regard t
he sacrifice for peace or maybe becaus
Maharishi Angiras kept flattering mwith the words: ‘The demons know tha
ou are here and dare not interfere wit
he sacrifice.’ Maybe the friendship o
he learned philosopher Kacha did it, bu
he ache in my body was dissolved i
some other happiness, like the drone o
he insects of the forest in the chanting ohymns.
As the leading priest of the sacrific
Kacha lived on water alone for the day
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As the principal guardian of th
sacrifice, I should have done the same
But Maharishi Angiras chose six of m
bodyguards and between the seven of uwe had to live on water only one da
each. That one day in the week was ver
difficult for me. Hunger gnawed at mnsides and made me restless. It was no
hat, when out hunting or escorting th
victory horse, I kept regular mealtimes
but then the mind was absorbed isomething else. Hunger was not noticed
was all admiration for Kacha on fastin
days: I wondered how he had acquirehe power to fast cheerfully all seve
days of the week, when I found it s
difficult to go through it only one day.
never found an answer. I would consol
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myself thus:
I lead the life of a warrior. The bod
s my mainstay. I was taught to cultivat
t, to make it strong and well nurtured
That is why I cannot prevail ove
hunger. Kacha is different. An ascetic
may have thin limbs like dry brushwoodBut the limbs of a warrior must be lik
steel. There is no derogation then, eve
f I cannot prevail over hunger lik
Kacha. Would Kacha be able to escor
he victory horse through Aryavarta? Hi
body is lustrous by virtue of his penanc
and beautiful because of his youth. Butfor his life he would not have been abl
o sling a bow and arrow.
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en e pr nc pa par o e sacr c
was over without a hitch there was
hree day celebration. Kach
participated actively like a child. He haan ear for music and could swim as if h
had been a fish in an earlier birth. Onc
while a lyric was being sung, a chil
started to cry. Even his mother wa
unable to soothe him. Kacha picked hi
up and went outside to pick some berrie
strewn on the ground. He ate a couple ohem and put his tongue, now tinged
rich purple from the berries, out to th
child. The child was amused and smiled
t was as well that I knew that thi
childish Kacha and that other wh
chanted the religious hymns wit
sonorous clarity were the same
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Otherwise I would probably never hav
believed in two such divergen
personalities. Did I say tw
personalities? No. Kacha was a manysided personality. I was baffled by ever
new appearance of it. Once a lovel
sweet fruit had a worm in it. He turneo me and said, ‘Prince, life is such. It i
sweet and beautiful but no one know
how and when it will be infected.’ H
paused in deep thought and recited verse which said, ‘In life, it is the swee
fruit that is most likely to be infested.’
That night, I saw Kacha as a poetow and again when anything struc
him, he used to compose lines like this.
should have jotted them down as the
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came. But it is only when a thing is los
hat we value it. We were together for a
ong time. But I cannot recall a singl
ine of any of his compositions — only few words of one line — ‘Oh, leaf of th
ree of life.’
The occasion for that verse idistinctly before my eyes. It was
moonlit night. Suddenly there was a gus
and a leaf dropped in Kacha’s hair. He
was anxious that it should not fall of
and get trampled over, but he could no
catch it. He picked it up from the groun
and gazing at it in a trance came ouwith, ‘Oh, leaf of the tree of life.’ I do
not recall the other lines of that verse bu
hey were to this effect; ‘Oh little leaf
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why should you grieve over this sudde
death? You have in your own way
contributed to the beauty of this tree
You have done your part in giving youittle shade to us. Your life is fulfilled
and your place in Heaven is secure.’
Once a tiny little affectionate gir
dragged us to her house. She wanted t
show us the first bloom on a tree she haplanted. But she seemed steeped in dee
hought. There were two guests and onl
one flower. She was puzzled whom to
give it to. She gazed at the flower ideep thought. Kacha saw her dilemm
and said, ‘Child, you should give tha
flower to the Prince.’ I said, ‘No, yo
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heir fragrance ... for making garland
and braids, for beautifying the hair an
for spreading them on the bed.’ Kach
smiled with the words, ‘There is joy it. But it is transient and derived fro
ndulgence.’
‘Is indulgence a sin?’‘No, not if it does not violate ethics
But life has other joys to offer, whic
are greater than those from indulgence.’
‘For instance?’
‘The joy of selfless sacrifice.’
I asked again, ‘Is renunciation the onl
way to happiness?’
Kacha was grave and emphaticall
said, ‘No, not at all. Your duty is to look
after your subjects justly and to striv
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for their happiness. Kingly duty is a
great as asceticism.’
I asked, ‘Is it possible to live like a
ascetic while yet a king?’
He said with deliberation, ‘Prince
man’s most natural instinct is for famil
ife. It follows that in doing so hndulges his senses in different ways. I
God had meant that man should not s
ndulge, he would certainly not hav
endowed him with a body. But mer
ndulgence is not the object of life. Wit
he body God has also given man a sou
all bodily desire must be regimented bhe soul. It is, therefore, necessary tha
he soul should at all times be alert. A
driver under the influence of drink, lose
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Maharishi Angiras was performing th
sacrifice for peace. While Indra and th
gods were preparing for war, this son o
h e Preceptor of Gods was hercontributing to the sacrifice for peace
He often said, ‘Gods are addicted to th
pleasures and the demons are blindlworshipping power. Neither can brin
happiness to the world. Nothing ca
come out of a war between them.’
He had a curious mind. I was so nea
him but yet unable to fathom his mind.
Yet one fact remains. I was restless a
he thought of the imminent separatiofrom him. The time for it however cam
unexpectedly. Father was very ill
almost on his deathbed, and I had t
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return immediately. I did not know wha
o do and went to Maharishi Angiras fo
advice. Like a father he stroked my bac
and said, ‘Prince, you must return aonce. You need not worry about the
sacrifice, the principal part of which ha
been possible owing to your presenceYou owe a duty to your father as much
as to religion.’
I bowed to Maharishi Angiras i
devotion. With paternal solicitude h
said, ‘Prince, I will not bless you to b
happy. I am not yet clear, even after my
ong penance, whether happiness is thshadow of misery or misery follow
happiness like a shadow. Do not wast
our time thinking of it. You have a
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kingdom to look after. Religion, wealt
and desire are the three principal prong
of your duty on earth. Of these, wealt
and desire are very sharp weapons. Ahe beauty of a woman is enhanced wit
modesty, so are wealth and desire whe
allied to dharma. The conviction that onmust do unto others as one expect
others to do unto one is to my mind, th
essence of religion. Let such religion b
our guiding star.’
I was distressed by the news o
Father’s illness. What was the curse o
Father? Is Father’s illness due to thacurse? If so, what was the remedy?
I could not contain myself and said t
Maharishi Angiras, ‘I want to ask yo
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something. Does Father carry a curse?’
He was sad and silent. Then he said i
a heavy voice, ‘Yes, but every man i
born with a curse.’
‘Every man?’ I asked. The tremor i
my voice frightened me.
He smiled and said, ‘I, Kacha, youfather, we all in one way carry a curse
Our lives are circumscribed by chains o
circumstances. Some are limited bactions of previous lives, some by th
actions of our parents.’
‘Is life then by itself a curse?’
‘No ... no, life is a glorious blessin
bestowed by God in His mercy. Only th
blessing is tainted with some curses.’
‘What then is the purpose of huma
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ife?’
‘Man must strive to free himself of th
curse. The perception of the rest of th
animate world does not extend beyon
bodily pleasure and pain. Suc
perception is given only to huma
beings. It is by virtue of such perceptiohat man has risen above the anima
kingdom and is mounting the steep ascen
of civilised culture. He will one da
reach the peak, and he will be free fro
his curse. Never forget that bodil
pleasure is not the principal aim of life
ts principal aim is the satisfaction of thsoul.’
He stopped there and said, ‘May yo
have a good journey and God bless you.
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Upto the time I entered Hastinapur, my
mind was lulled by the philosoph
propounded by Kacha and Angiras. Bu
he lull vanished as soon as I entered thown. I was constantly troubled by th
hought that I might not have the goo
fortune to see my father alive.I sat by Father’s bed. I called to him
He murmured something, but did no
respond to my call as if he was not o
his world.
The Prime Minister came to me and
placing his thin hand affectionately o
my shoulder, led me out. With a lump inhis throat he said, ‘My Prince, you ar
oung and unfamiliar with the ways o
he world. This world is mortal. You
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will not be able to bear the agonies o
our father. A couple of miles from here
s Ashokavan ... a beautiful haven o
comfort. It is quiet and restful like cave in the Himalayas and there is a
underground passage from here t
Ashokavan. It is very near that way. Youshould live there for sometime and vis
our father twice a day.’
The Prime Minister had provided wel
for my comfort in the Ashokavan, but
was bored. There was very little I coul
ask them to do. Among the maids waone Mukulika, evidently new. She wa
very clever and pretty. She was abou
wenty-five. To ensure quiet and peac
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for me, she used to send the othe
servants away as much as she could an
remain in silent attendance on me.
I was striving night and day to kee
he shadow of death off my mind but m
effort came to nought everytime I went t
see Father. Death is supreme andsovereign in this world; the mind wa
distressed and helpless at the though
hat none can defy it. I realised all th
ime that I would also be lying on th
deathbed some day like Father. Th
childish thought kept recurring that
should run away and hide myself in cave, where the cold hands of Deat
could not reach me.
Death must be even more horrible a
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was evident from Father’s condition i
hat illness.
Occasionally, the delirium would
abate. Once when Father did not know
hat I was also there, he beckoned t
Mother. She leaned forward. With
difficulty he lifted his right hand ancaressed her. In a low voice he said, ‘
must go leaving all this splendour an
beauty behind.’
Mother was confused. She did no
know how to bring my presence there t
his notice. Father was sobbing like
ittle child. ‘I have not had my fill of thihoney but ...’
Mother sent me away but that pitifu
crying of Father’s kept ringing in m
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getting dim and gloomy outside. Whe
Father once opened his eyes he mus
have recognised me. Grasping my hand
he screeched like a terrified lambYayati, hold me fast! I want to live! No
will not go. Yayu, look, there are the
messengers of death. You are so mighty.. then how did they get here? How di
ou let them come here?’
His hand was trembling. He screame
again. ‘You are all ungrateful. Even i
ou give me one day each of your life .
Yayu, Yayu, hold me fast!’
He relapsed into coma. His hand tolme what he could not put into words
How tightly that hand was clasping! Tha
clasp contained all the fear of a sta
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of a dancer. She said softly, ‘Are you no
feeling well, Prince?’
‘I am baffled, Mukulika, seein
Father’s condition ...’
‘They say, now there is no cause fo
anxiety. Only today, the royal astrologe
was saying that all evil stars of the Kinwill soon ...’
‘Bring me some wine. Stars, illness
death ... I want to forget everything.’She did not move. I shouted i
annoyance, ‘I must have some wine.’
She hung her head and said, ‘Prince
he Queen has directed that wine may no
be kept here.’
Is woman naturally intuitive? Or is
hat she is very conscious of the powe
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own. All the visiting rishis and ascetic
are lodged here. There should not be o
he premises things which are impure t
hem.’
Those piteous cries of Father wer
humming in my ears again. I wa
rembling all over. I was frightened obeing alone. I wanted support. I turne
on my side and held Mukulika’s hand.
That night!
Again and again I say to myself —
should be reticent about that night
othing at all should be said.
But I am going to bare my heart. Iwould be wrong if some parts of
remained in darkness when laying
bare. Coyness is the ornament of beauty
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not of truth. Truth is naked like a new
born babe. It must always be so.
That night I lay in Mukulika’s arms —
o!
Mukulika lay in mine. No!
Even the God of Love himself woul
not be able to tell who was in whosarms that night.
I had only to take her hand in mine
That was enough to snap the bonds of thworld! I was no longer prince nor she
maid. We were just two lovers. Two
birds, two stars —
As soon as I put my lips to Mukulika’
my fear of death vanished.
That night, how often must we hav
kissed each other! Can one count th
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number of stars in the sky?
I had read poems of the beauty o
women and I had been vaguely attracte
by it for some years. The mad excitemen
of union with a beautiful young maide
and the spray of heavenly bliss whic
emanated from every part of her being, experienced for the first time that night.
was wildly intoxicated with it.
was woken up from the reverie by th
wittering of birds. I looked out of th
window. The chariot of the Sun was fas
rolling up the Eastern Gateway. Thgolden dust raised by its wheels wa
very enchanting.
I sat up in bed. In utter dejection had
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come to this bed last night. It was th
same room, the same walls, the sam
bed and the same trees outside th
window — but in that one night they haapparently been reborn. Now everythin
added to the happy mood gushing out o
my limbs. The trees looked more greenhe song of the birds sounded sweeter
even the walls of the room seemed to b
winking at each other pleased that the
had been witness to the greatest mysteron earth.
Mukulika came in to see if I had go
up. She came near and said, ‘Did yosleep well?’
What a superb actress Mukulika was
Last night she had played the role of
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over to perfection. And now she wa
acting a maid just as well.
Unconsciously, I called Mukulika. Sh
stopped and looked back. Then sh
quickly came to the bed saying, ‘Did yo
call for me, Prince?’
I had called to her, but why? I myseldo not know. I kept quiet.
On this, she folded her hands and sai
softly. ‘Have I done anything wrong?’‘You have done nothing wrong ...
have.’ I wanted to say some such thin
but that was only in my mind. In fact,
said nothing. Just then one of heassistants entered in a hurry. The maid
handed a letter sent by the Prim
Minister and went out.
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t was a letter from Kacha. It said:
Prince, I am also having to leave
here after you. We saw the sacrifice
for peace through. War between the
gods and demons has flared up. You
may recall that we had already
heard of Maharishi Shukra havingattained the power of Sanjeevani[2].
On the strength of that power, he is
bringing back to life all their men
killed in action.
War ... whether between two
individuals, two communities or
two powers, has to my mind always been something to be deprecated
and outlawed. How vast and rich in
resources is this beautiful world
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brought into being by the Creator!
Cannot all of us live happily in it? I
do not know if this foolish dream of
mine will ever come true! At leasttoday such a thought is more than
indulging in moonshine!
It is evident that the gods will bedefeated in this war. But it is hard
to witness with open eyes the defeat
of one’s community. I feel it my duty
to do something to avoid it. I
restlessly paced about all night in
the courtyard before the hut. The
stars were out in the sky. But mydisturbed mind was in darkness.
How much did I think of you! In the
end, towards the morning I thought
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of ... no, an inspiration came to me.
I became aware of how a poem
comes to a poet!
It is only if the gods acquire the
power of Sanjeevani that their
defeat can be avoided. And that
secret is known only to MaharishiShukra, the Lord Preceptor of the
Demons. Someone must therefore go
to him as a disciple and acquire that
power. It seems unlikely that anyone
from among the gods will venture
forth, so I have decided to go to
Vrishaparva’s (the Demon King’s)kingdom and become a disciple of
Maharishi Shukra for acquiring that
power. The future is uncertain.
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Maybe I shall succeed in my object.
Maybe I will have to lay down my
life.
Maharishi Angiras ... did I tell you
before that he comes from our
family? ... has blessed the venture.
He casually said in his blessing,‘You are a Brahmin by birth. It is
true you are going to acquire a kind
of knowledge, but the venture is
more appropriately that of a
Kshatriya than a Brahmin.’ I
replied, ‘If Prince Yayati had been
here, I would have ventured into theKingdom of Demons only with him;
the daring part of the venture would
have been his and only the
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acquisition of knowledge mine.’
What harm can there be in every
class imbibing the qualities of
another? In our worship, do we not
mix the waters of many rivers for
bathing the image?
Prince, we came together during thesacrifice for peace. I shall always
remember you with affection. If I
return safely with the power of
Sanjeevani, we shall certainly meet
sometime.
Some stars get together at short
intervals ... some at long intervals.It is difficult to say when we shall
meet but it is certain that we will.
And that time, I fondly imagine, I
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shall meet my friend in a deep
embrace as the meritorious King,
the upholder of religion and of all
that is holy in this world.
There is little else to write about.
E v e n Vedas, the essence of
learning, fall short in the expressionof feelings! Maharishi Angiras
sends you his blessing and we pray
to Lord Shiva for the speedy
recovery of King Nahusha.
Oh, I forgot one thing ... that sweet
little girl next door is crying her
heart out because I am leaving thehermitage. Her creeper is laden
with flowers. She is worried as to
who will admire them. So I have
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told her that the Prince will soon
visit her cottage to admire not only
their beauty but their fragrance also.
This letter of Kacha’s was ver
disturbing. Kacha had set out to lay hi
ife for his side. And I? I even forgot las
night that my father was on his deathbed
was scouring round for happiness.
Did I sin? Last night was I guilty o
sin? The thought of sin agitated me. Thahe beehive should come alive while on
s tasting honey and bees should stin
spitefully all over the body —
There was no improvement at all i
Father’s condition. Mother was sittin
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before the golden awning of a miniatur
emple set up in the room. I sat near he
and she stroked my back. The touch o
her hand was like love incarnate.
My dejection grew at the sight of m
grief-stricken mother and the idol
before her. I could not dare to look aher.
Seeing that I was reluctant to look a
her, she said, ‘You must have been
restless all night, even in the Ashokava
anxiously thinking of your father and me
f the little ones are to waste themselve
n anxiety, what are the elders for? Sef you cannot find entertainment in song
dance, music and drama?’
Just then the Prime Minister came i
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and Mother said to him, ‘It looks as i
he arrangements in Ashokavan ...’
The Prime Minister intervened, ‘Ther
s a girl Mukulika by name ... She is new
but she is very clever. She has bee
enjoined to cater to all the comforts o
he Prince.’Mother said, ‘Your arrangements ther
maybe very good, but Yayu must find
pleasure and entertain himself wit
hem.’
‘Madhav, the second son of our Poe
Laureate, is a great connoisseur of th
Arts and a good conversationalist. shall ask him to keep the Princ
company.’
I tried to smile and said, ‘You mus
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ask him to first take me to a philosopher
At the moment, I am baffled by abstrus
questions concerning life and death.’
Madhav took me to the house of a grea
scholar. On the way he related a numbe
of tales commonly in circulation abouhim.
The scholar attended court only for th
more important ceremonies. If a song odance were in progress, he would lowe
his eyes and mutter verses to himself
You could never be certain what he
would ask of a visitor. Once a hairascetic came to him for a discussion o
he character of the God Almighty. The
discussion was getting deeply interestin
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Madhav was gifted with a fluen
ongue. He related these stories s
delectably that it was impossible to sto
aughing. The learned are queer in manways. As their intelligence i
uncommon, so is their behaviour out o
he ordinary. It is because of this that wvie with each other in relating suc
coloured stories about them.
I was amused by Madhav’s colourfu
narration of them. The schola
welcomed us in the library itself. Hi
first few sentences convinced me that th
scholar’s whole world was centred ihis room. He was in ecstasy whe
reading to me from a rare archai
volume. His learning naturally evoke
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respect. Even in meeting one of m
simple questions, he quoted profusel
from memory and took out numerou
references in support of his view.
But he did not have enough eruditio
o answer to my satisfaction th
questions which were worrying me. Msaying that I was greatly troubled by th
hought of death, he countered with th
words: ‘Who has escaped death, Prince
We discard our clothes when they ge
old. In the same way the soul discard
he body.
‘Prince, remember one thing, that lifs essentially an illusion. There is onl
one eternal truth in this world, Brahma
he all pervading power at the root of al
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The intense experiences of pleasure an
pain may fade with time but they canno
be untrue. Hunger is not unreal an
neither are its pangs. Tasty food cannobe unreal nor the pleasure it gives.
Madhav requested me to spend thafternoon at his house. His elder brothe
was a poet. Madhav said that on hi
wife’s death, his brother had tired of lifand had gone on a pilgrimage. That th
philosophy of our erudite scholar was a
material variance with the facts of lif
was no longer in doubt.On our way to his house, Madha
recalled the story of how his brothe
came to be a renowned poet. Once in th
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capital, there was a poetic competition
Poets from far and near had assemble
o participate in it. The composition wa
o be extempore and the subject for thcompetition was The Spots on th
oon. His brother did not at first joi
n. A bee in the lotus, the black of a rockon the Himalayas, and many such simile
were used in the poems composed. In th
end, a poet from the Land of the Fiv
Rivers spoke of the moon as the whitbreast of a beautiful young maiden an
he spot as its nipple. That wayward an
sensuous flight of imagination haenraptured and carried away th
audience. Everyone felt that the priz
must go to its poet. It was the triumph o
he theme of Love.
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quietly on a flower. On seeing Madhav’
chariot, the butterfly rose and ran to him
She put her arms round Madhav, looked
gravely at me and asked, ‘Who is thisuncle?’
‘Taraka, you must first bow to him.’
‘He is no God that I should bow thim,’ she said.
‘He is the Prince.’
‘What is a prince?’Madhav had to find words o
explanation which would be intelligibl
o her. He explained. ‘This chariot, th
horses and all this belongs to him. Tha
s why he is called Prince.’ Lookin
steadily at me, she folded her hands an
said, ‘Namaste, Prince.’
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If I was a painter, I would have drawn
her with that graceful figure of hers an
he sweet innocent childish expressio
on her face.
‘Namaste,’ I said.
She said, ‘Prince, will you give m
one of your horses? A marriage is to becelebrated.’
‘Whose? Yours?’
‘Oh no, my doll is to be married!’‘When?’
‘Day after tomorrow.’
‘Who is the bridegroom?’‘Bridegroom!’ she exclaimed and wit
her hands made it clear that she did no
know. That waving of her hands i
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uncertainty was very fascinating. It wa
ike a sweet little fledgling moving it
iny wings to shake off a drop of water.
Taraka’s doll was to be married day
after tomorrow but a bridegroom had ye
o be found. I teased her with the words
I shall give you my horse for thwedding but where would you find
bridegroom?’
‘Yes, indeed, where to find a
bridegroom?’ said she and wa
engrossed in deep thought with her smal
chin cupped in her palm.
Madhav was inside. Taraka talkedfreely, smiling and playful. How
enchanting was that little form absorbe
n deep thought! I wanted to pick her up
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But I was reluctant to interrupt he
reverie.
In a little while she looked up gravel
and said, ‘Prince, will you be th
bridegroom?’
Just then Madhav returned. He ha
overheard that strange question. Anotheime he would have chastised th
nnocent little child for it. But in m
presence he could do nothing and wa
fretting. How unrestrained is a child’
magination! I pictured to myself th
ceremony in progress. On one side,
iny doll and on the other a tall heftYayati, with one of Madhav’s old
overclothes for a wedding screen!
After lunch, I proposed to rest ther
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was headed for the palace and I stoppe
he driver. It was then that I remembered
my resolve of that afternoon. The poo
fellow was not to blame and I saigently, ‘Take me to Ashokavan. I am no
feeling well.’
When I stepped inside the room found that it shone with flowers an
decoration just like yesterday. Mukulik
followed me into the room with
beautiful jar of wine. She poured som
n a glass and gave it to me. I sipped i
and asked her, ‘I had told you that
would not return and yet ...’‘To tell the truth, Prince,’ she said
biting her finger mischievously, ‘w
women do not heed a man’s word bu
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rather his eyes.’
* * *
was leading a life of sheer sel
deception. The first moment o
emptation is the first step down thravine of sin. I have taken that first step
However beautiful it maybe, it is th
first step in decadence and fall. Where i
t going to take me? Into a frightfu
chasm or ravine? Or maybe to Hell
Sometimes the clash in my min
assumed terrible proportions, though was rare.
One evening Madhav and I wer
returning from a dance, when I got
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message from the Prime Minister sayin
hat Father was now conscious and wa
asking for me. I quickly went to him. H
was very pale, like the sun at eclipse. was taken aback.
Father tried to lift his right hand t
draw me beside him. It cost him a greaeffort doing so and tears came to m
eyes. It was that hand that had given m
courage in my first illness. That han
was my shield — and now, that hand —
By his bedside, there was also a smal
ar of wine. He pointed to it wit
difficulty and asked for a little.I poured a little. He stared at it an
asked for the cup to be filled up.
‘I have a lot to say to you and I mus
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have the strength. Give me plenty, no
ust a few drops.’
I filled the cup and put it to his lips
He sipped it and closed his eyes for
while. When he opened them again h
was looking refreshed.
He took my hand and said, ‘Yayu, myson, I long to live yet. If anyone coul
give me more life, I would be prepare
o give him even my kingdom. But ...’
He had the reputation of being a lio
of a man. But his eyes — now they wer
he eyes of a mortally wounded stag. H
said in slow measured words, ‘Yayu, mson, I am leaving behind for you a ver
prosperous kingdom.’
‘Father, I am well aware of you
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competence and prowess. To be born to
a father like you is a matter of great goo
fortune. Of that
...’
Father intervened with the words
And misfortune too.’
I was shaken and did not know what tsay. The curse Father was smartin
under! Does he perhaps mean that?
Father spun out each word slowlyYayu, my son, your father once defeated
God Indra. He was then the King of th
Heavens, but as to why I had to leav
hat throne ...’‘I was never told about it.’
‘Umm ... what was I saying? Oh yes .
changed at the prospect of takin
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ndra’s throne. Yayu ... never forget one
hing. Pride of one’s prowess and
arrogance are two different things. In m
arrogance I thought I could take Indra’wife as a concubine. She accepted me o
one condition ... that I should go to her i
a unique conveyance. My palanquinbedecked with heavenly jewels wa
carried by some of the great rishis. I wa
mpatient and in order that the bearer
might go a little faster, I kicked one ohem on the head. That happened to b
Rishi Agastya and he pronounced
curse.’ With the last words, Father wagasping. Those words were indistinc
and blurred.
He could speak no more. He pointe
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o the jar of wine and as I could not bea
he agony in his face, I poured a littl
more wine in the cup and put it to hi
mouth.
The wine cheered him up. His lip
moved in an effort to speak when I said
Father, you should rest now. We canalk tomorrow.’
‘Tomorrow?’ he said, with all the
pathos in the world.
He was introspective for a minute. H
hen said quietly, ‘Yayu, I, Nahusha and
my children will never be happy! Tha
was the curse! Both the good and thsins of the parents are visited on th
children. That is a universal maxim
Yayu, your father is in the wrong
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forgive him! Remember always, neve
ransgress the decencies of life. I did an
..’
Father closed his eyes and his fac
was haggard. He was muttering t
himself. I bent low to hear him —
heard the words — curse — Yati, death could not contain myself and said
Father, Yati is alive.’
His hoarse voice said, ‘Where?’
‘I met him when I was escorting th
victory horse.’ He was trembling al
over. He said, ‘And you kept it from m
so long? You feared he would succeedo the throne after me and you ...’
He could not speak anymore and h
ooked so queer that I screamed
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Mother!’
Mother rushed in, followed by th
physician, the minister and the maids
The physician put a few drops of syrup
nto his mouth, which seemed to reviv
him. He whispered to the minister, ‘M
ife is now uncertain. Show me once thsignet of my victory over Indra. Let m
die looking at it. One should die in th
halo of victory!’
Mother was upset at his words an
was wiping her eyes. I did not know
how to console her. The Prime Ministe
brought the signet.Father said, ‘Give it to me.’ He turned
t over and round and round and asked
Where is the symbol of my prowess o
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his ... the bow and the arrow ... my bow
.. my arrow ...?’
Father stared at it, and called to me
He asked, ‘Yayu, is there any engraving
on it?’
‘Yes.’
‘What does it say?’‘Victory, Victory be to King
ahusha!’
‘Why can’t I alone see the engravingHas it also conspired against me?’
Tears were streaming down his eye
and he sobbed, ‘No, I cannot see
Victory to Nahusha! No, all that is no
rue. He has been defeated today. Deat
has vanquished him. Death? I cannot se
anything ... I ... I!’
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He fell back lifeless. Mother wa
rying to control herself, but she brok
down! The physician with the help of
maid was putting drops of syrup into himouth.
Stealthily death had entered. Non
saw it but its oppressive shadow waevident in all faces.
I could stand it no longer and cam
out, covering the face with my hands.
wanted to cry but could not.
A little later, the physician and the
Prince Minister came out. The physicia
put his hand on my shoulder and saidPrince, at the moment he is feeling
ittle better and there is no cause fo
anxiety. But there is no certainty now
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and we must depend on God. You shoul
go and rest in Ashokavan for a littl
while. If there is a change for the worse
he Prime Minister will immediatelsend word.’
I was going down the main road
Crowds were gathered everywhere —some cheerful, others humming tunes t
hemselves and yet others sauntering a
on a picnic in cool moonlight. Thei
gaiety only added to my misery.
Mukulika was standing at the door al
dressed up when I returned t
Ashokavan. I went in without a word ther. She came forward to help me to
change. I stopped her with a sign. Sh
was afraid and looked away.
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Mukulika asked with hesitation, whe
would like dinner. She had go
something made specially for me. I sai
brusquely, ‘Not now. Tomorrowmorning please go away to the palace
Remember, you may not come here
unless I ask for you.’I was annoyed. I was angry wit
myself, the world, death and Mukulika.
did not realise what I was saying.
I lay on the bed without taking m
clothes off. Suddenly, I was reminded o
Father. The signet and his longing to se
he inscription on it. A little while agohe had lost his sight — now perhaps hi
other movements have also stopped
Father had a worldwide reputation fo
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having brought Indra to his knees. Now
he could not even move his hand withou
an effort. In a while his body will b
ifeless like a piece of wood.
The uncanny fear of death wa
haunting me again. I lay still with m
eyes closed like a frightened child. Band by, I fell asleep. I do not know how
ong I slept. But I woke up with
frightening dream. In it, Yayati was lying
on his deathbed instead of his father.
I had heard for a long time that bod
and soul are two distinct entities, bu
without the body, what worldlpleasures can the soul enjoy?
I was sorry that I had been cross wit
Mukulika earlier and called to her.
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wonder if she was listening in at th
door. She opened it, closed it behind he
and slowly came forward. When sh
was near the bed, she stood with hehead hung low.
I said, ‘Why are you standing lik
his? Is it because as I said earlier that did not want to see you again?’
She looked up and gave me
delightful smile. She must have bee
crying outside. That is why like the eart
after a shower she looked even mor
beautiful.
I was about to get up and put my hanon her shoulder, when I heard someon
calling, ‘Prince.’
I asked her if she had called me bu
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she said no. Yet she must have also
heard it. She quickly moved away fro
he bed and was looking at the door
frightened.
Again the same call: ‘Prince ...’
Someone was calling across the wal
was reminded of the tunnel leadinfrom the palace to the Ashokavan.
scanned the wall carefully. It sounded
hollow in the middle and nearby, barel
perceptible, was a catch. On pressing i
a doorway slid open. At the top of th
stairs of the tunnel, Mandar, the trusted
servant of the Prime Minister wastanding. He said in a broken voice
Prince, please hurry. We do not know i
he King ...’
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Without even turning to Mukulika,
descended into the underground passage
closed the secret door and followe
Mandar like a puppet.
n the eyes of the world Yayati was now
King, the lord of a great kingdom. But ifact Yayati had become an orphan, with
no one to look up to.
Sometimes the memory of Father useo make me sad. The royal precepto
would then console me with the words
Your Majesty, the soul of King Nahusha
s now free from bondage.’
Poor preceptor! I would listen to hi
verses from the Rigveda and would i
rritation say to myself, where does thi
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soul of man reside? What does it loo
ike? What does it do? What is tha
something different that a body has not
The preceptor says, Father’s soul wilnow merge in the happiness of self.
When the funeral pyre was lit for the las
rites, the priests chanted:
Oh, God of fire! Bring back to life
for the service of the forefathers the
dead who has been offered to you insacrifice. Let him again take a body
and come to life. May he get a body!
What is the significance of that prayer? oyed with this central theme of th
prayer. It became an obsession with me
What body will Father take in the nex
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birth?
Would he be glad to be born a
Yayati’s son? Is it possible? Perhap
rebirth is only a poetic fantasy! Why di
grow up into a youth? Why did
become King? Where is the Yayati who
was equally attracted to the bloominflowers in the garden and the spark
flying from the sacrificial fire? Where i
hat confident, fearless, innocent child?
I shall not today go near a fire to catc
he sparks. I now know that fire burns.
shall not confide my secret to any bud.
am conscious that it will open and perishe day after!
Is knowledge a curse or a blessin
bestowed on man? Is youth which come
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o all living beings a blessing or
curse? Youth is the first step towards
old age. And death is the last step. How
can it be youth if it lures old age? It is errible curse!
When the word ‘curse’ thus somehow
came to mind, I remembered Father’ast words, ‘Nahusha and his childre
will never be happy.’ I felt that someone
was ever writing these words in th
nterstellar space in burning letters.
That curse had partly come true
Father was not happy. There was his las
struggle, he was unable to even see thmemento of his unique victory.
Father had in his arrogance kicke
Rishi Agastya. He in turn had quit
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rightly pronounced a curse. But what ha
we children done to offend him? I wa
not even born then. And even so, is th
curse going to haunt me like a ghost almy life?
What has destiny in store for me? Is
possible that I will not be happy eveafter my enthronement?
I had come to a strangely inert state o
mind. I was not inclined to talk t
anyone, eat or drink but just lay dow
quietly. Mother had noticed it and on
day asked if I was ailing. She said
Your maid Mukulika came fromAshokavan yesterday. She is very swee
and clever. I would like to bring her to
he palace. She was saying, “The Princ
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s very uncommunicative. He will no
openly ask for anything that he wants.
Shall I send for her today to attend o
ou?’
‘Mukulika is silly and perhaps you ar
even more so. Truly, Mother, I have los
nterest in everything. I feel likrenouncing all this grandeur and ...’
Mother looked petrified. She held m
by the hand and said, ‘Yayu, do you
remember your promise to me?’
To humour her I said, ‘As a child
made promises to you everyday. So
many of them are now crowding mmind that I do not clearly remember an
of them.’
‘You have all along been wily. When
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ou are cornered ...’
For a moment, I wished to tell her o
Yati and press her to go to him and
prevail upon him with her love to com
back, adding, ‘He is the elder brother
Let him be king. I am dejected. I do no
want the throne ... in fact nothing.’Even if she went in search of him h
was unlikely to return, inspite of he
ears. It is easy to tame a lion or a tige
but not an obstinate ascetic like Yati —
wonder how his life is going to end
Will his path lead him to the pinnacle —
realisation of God in person? If he geto his goal, the whole world will be al
admiration for him. He will b
acclaimed as a great ascetic. But what i
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his foot slips while on that difficu
ascent up the snowbound hills o
renunciation. If the snow suddenly thaw
he will be drowned in the avalanche.
Mother said, ‘You are very obstinate
You can hardly help it. It runs in you
family. Now of course, added to youobstinacy as a child, is the obstinacy of
King. I can also exercise my rights as th
King’s mother. Yayu, shall I tell you
why you are dejected?’
After all, a mother’s heart bleeds eve
at the simple prick of a thorn in he
child’s foot and it brings tears to heeyes. It was no wonder then, that m
mother was concerned about my strang
behaviour.
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In order to change the topic, I said
Mother, I know you are loving but you
penetrating vision ...’
‘This is knowledge which comes wit
experience and age, son! I was also you
age once and haven’t forgotten what
felt like then.’ She obviously felt needed to marry a princess of my choic
o regain my good cheer.
Mother left to fix a date for th
coronation. She was smiling. Her las
words should have struck a happy not
n my mind. I was King of Hastinapur
but I kept thinking of Mother. I had oftebeen greatly troubled by the thought tha
Father’s death would be too much of
shock to her and that she would soo
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follow him.
What in fact happened was quit
different. She grieved for a few days bu
very soon thereafter took her place a
he Queen Mother and was looking afte
he household and the affairs of the state
She was active and seemed to taknterest in her new life. That he
happiness hung solely by my father wa
a mistaken idea.
In this world everybody obviousl
ives for himself. As the roots of th
rees and creepers turn to moistur
nearby, so do men and women look fosupport to near relations for thei
happiness. This is what the world call
ove, affection or friendship. In fact, it i
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only the love of self. If the moisture o
one side dries up, the trees and th
creepers do not dry up, but their root
ook for it elsewhere, be it far or nearThey find it, draw it in and so remai
fresh.
Mother’s fresh zest for life must havcome thus. She paraded as the Quee
upto a few days ago, but did not he
greatness depend on keeping the King i
hand on the strength of her beauty?
The reason why she did not nurse m
as a child must have been the difficu
role of being the wife of a great manShe had greater need to preserve he
beauty than be a mother. For her th
husband was all in all. And yet she had
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no authority over him, but she also ha
nothing else to turn to.
She was now the Queen Mother. He
nfluence as a mother over her son wa
evident in every act of hers.
When Madhav come to see me today hwas not alone, Taraka, his niece
accompanied him. I was pleased to se
hat naughty girl. I called her to me anasked, ‘Well, lady Taraka, did you in the
end find a husband for your doll?’
Taraka nodded.
I asked her, ‘Is the husband good?
She shook her head.
‘Why do you say he is not a goo
husband?’ She sniffed and said, ‘He ha
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a snub nose and lisps,’ she said. Madhav
said, ‘She says she heard him lisp in he
dream.’
I laughed heartily. Madhav pointed
out, ‘She has specially come to the Kin
oday.’
‘What do you want then?’She looked up at me shyly with he
head hung and said, ‘You are now King
and are going to mount the lion? Is not?’
I said with a laugh, ‘A king has to
mount the throne ... a seat made of lion
or else who would call him King?’
‘Do the lions bite?’
I said gravely, ‘No.’
‘Then will you make me your Queen?
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So, Taraka had come to be my Queen
This was rather an unusual kind o
swayamvara[3], which amused me.
I said, ‘You are very small yet. I shal
make you Queen when you are grow
up.’ I sent her away loaded with sweets
That evening two disciples of Angirabrought his letter. Reading it, I wa
shaken out of Taraka’s innocent world
nto a very different one.
The sage had written:
I am writing to you sometime after
the demise of King Nahusha.Soon after you left, Kacha went to
Vrishaparva’s kingdom to acquire
the power of Sanjeevani. Our
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prayers had fallen short of being
able to prevent a war between gods
and demons. It is not part of a man’s
duty to sit back with folded hands inthe presence of evil occurrences! I
therefore left the hermitage resolved
to go to the Shivtirth and do penancein solitude. I heard about the demise
of King Nahusha, on my way back
after the penance. I returned today
and am writing to you now.
Yayati, death is as inevitable as it is
distasteful to all living beings. That
is a part of the routine of allcreation, as dramatic and
mysterious as birth. As the delicate
reddish foliage just appearing on the
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trees in spring is the play of the
power of creation, equally so, is it
seen in the faded yellow leaves
falling off in autumn. That is justhow one must view Death. Sunrise
and sunset, summer and winter, light
and shade, day and night, womanand man, pleasure and pain, body
and soul and life and death are all
inseparable pairs. Life manifests
itself in such quality. It is with suchweb and woof, that the Prime
Power weaves the fabric of the life
and growth of creation.King Nahusha was a great warrior.
May his prowess inspire you. A
king is blessed with his subjects
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which are like the Kamdhenu to
him. May you serve them well! I
shall ever pray to the Prime Power
to this end.
I was going to stop but that bad
news never comes singly is
unfortunately true.A young ascetic returning from the
borderland of the demons’ kingdom
says, Kacha entered their land and
preceptor Shukra accepted him as a
disciple. Kacha had hoped to be
able to please his preceptor with his
devotion and service and acquirethe Sanjeevani. The demons
naturally turned inimical to Kacha.
They mercilessly murdered him
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while he was out as usual tending
his preceptor’s cattle, and fed his
meat to the wolves.
That is all the ascetic knows. A
number of brave young ascetics
living on the border are engaged in
getting information, at the peril of their life.
There is, however, no purpose in it.
Now that Kacha has thus been put
an end to ... Yayati, some words in
the last four lines have got dimmed.
Unconsciously, tears came to my
eyes and dropped on the writing. Itried my utmost to control my tears
but even an ascetic who has
renounced everything is only a man.
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I am distressed by the memory of
Kacha. His positive tendencies
were so pronounced ... I had hoped
that he would succeed in the greattask of stopping the war but ...
It is given to man to hope, whether it
succeeds ...I understand your mother’s grief. I
pray to God that He may give her
the strength to bear it.
You are now King and maybe I
should have addressed your more
formally, but that would not have
shown my affection for you.
Only one part of Angiras’ letter wa
ruly touching. That was the tears whic
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came to his eyes while writing abou
Kacha’s death and words that wer
disfigured thereby. Tears and the
disfigured words! All the rest wapreaching, just dry philosophy. But doe
man live by philosophy? No, he lives i
hope, dreams, affection, glory anheroism. But merely by philosophy
How is it possible? These bearde
ascetics are always very fond o
sermonising. Kacha’s heroism, evidenfrom that letter, went to my heart. How
brave he was, though unarmed. His fac
must have held the glow of lightninwhen he was killed. Playing with hi
rudrakshamala[4], he must have said t
he demons, ‘You can cut my body to
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pieces, but what about my soul? You
cannot even touch it. It is immortal.’
I was spending idle days in the palac
nstead of undertaking a venture lik
him.
Even after Father’s death, there wa
no rising anytime, anywhere. The affairof the state were running smoothly and
was like a bird in a gilded cage. Kach
was soaring high in the blue sky like a
eagle. I wished to be similarly engage
n some unique venture somewhere
With this thought I spent a restless nigh
and in the morning I had a dream. Yatwas saying in the dream: ‘You selfish
wicked wretch, what right have you t
he throne? Get up and vacate the thron
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or I will destroy you with a curse.’
I got up and called to Mother and tol
her of my meeting with Yati and my
dream. At first she was confused. The
she looked deep into my eyes and asked
Yayu, I trust you are telling the truth?’
‘I swear by Father ...’She said disparagingly, ‘Swear b
anything else. Your father was a
warrior, but he never kept any of thpromises he made to me.’ Mother put he
hand on my shoulder and said, ‘My son
he alone that is hurt suffers. I was not th
great Queen, I was the great maid. danced to his tune all my life. I refuse t
do so any longer.’
She had spoken the harsh truth. Tha
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was why I could not bear to hear it. To
console her, I said, ‘Mother, I shal
never do anything to hurt you.’ In th
excitement of the moment I got up anouched her feet. She calmed down then
She reluctantly consented to my goin
o East Aryavarta in search of Yati. Sheagreed that it should be kept quiet an
hat my retinue should be as small a
possible. She insisted, however, that if
failed to meet Yati or his whereabout
could not be ascertained, I must retur
straight to Hastinapur. I agreed.
She was now preparing for thourney instead of the coronation wit
equal zest. Mandar was the Prim
Minister’s most trusted servant and wa
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o go as my bodyguard. So that ther
maybe no inconvenience, she detaile
servants and even one or two maids fo
odd jobs. I asked for Kalika but was tolhat she had gone to visit Alaka, who
was now married.
Mother decided to select twprincesses by my return — one for m
and one for Yati. I do not know if Tarak
who wished to be my queen or Mothe
who was contemplating marriage fo
Yati was more childish. Is a mother’
heart no different from that of a child?
ooked at Mother and wondered ianyone ever understood another perso
fully. She was my mother but as to
knowing her! It would be easier t
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fathom the sky than to peep in a heart!
* * *
Although the hermitage of Angiras was
ittle off the way but I paid him a visit
He greeted me from the bottom of hiheart.
I was very glad to see him but before
could say a word, a young asceti
entered. In great misery he announced
The demons are celebrating, with grea
eclat, the “Wine-day”. They rejoic
because wine has helped their cause .hey killed and cremated Kacha an
mixed his ashes in the Maharishi’s wine
As you know, Maharishi Shukra has
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great weakness for wine and the demon
have succeeded in making it impossibl
for Kacha to come to life again.’
The hermitage was plunged in gloom.
It was with a heavy heart that I lef
Angiras. On the way, I was attracted b
he high mountains, deep ravinesmagnificent rainbows, tiny butterflies
he tall swaying palms and the watersid
willows and reeds. All the way I wa
witness to towns and villages, the stron
well-knit bodies of men and women
heir varied costumes and variou
ewellery and the rich variety of theisongs, dances and festivals. Th
cavalcade was a balm to my misery
What does a Kacha, Yati or Yayati
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matter in this vast expanse of life o
earth? How insignificant man is in th
vast background of this world? Why tal
of his pleasure or pain? Is anyonbothered about the feelings of a blade o
grass floating on the waves of the sea?
We were hurrying to get to EasAryavarta quickly, yet the entire retinu
was equally concerned about m
comfort.
Yati had left his cave. I made carefu
enquiries in the surrounding villages an
alked at length to many people youn
and old. All that came out was that Yatwas now a little more tolerant o
society, unlike his earlier aversion to
anyone staying near his cave. Societ
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was now an experimental laboratory fo
him. He could work miracles. To tha
end he had undergone terrible penance
t was in this unbalanced state of minhat he had heard of Maharishi Shukra’
Sanjeevani which could revive the dead
He was convinced that only a preceptoike Shukra could show him the one wa
o his objective — the power to conver
all women into men — and had therefor
gone to the kingdom of the demons.
All this was merely hearsay collecte
from the rustics inhabiting the smal
villages in the sparsely populated areabout the cave. It is difficult to say how
much of it was true and how much wa
coloured. But one thing was clear. Yat
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had abandoned the cave for good an
had probably gone to Shukracharya.
We set out to return. We made for shor
cuts and travelled fast for three or fou
days at a stretch. On the fourth or fift
day we reached a nice little place, ittle off the highway.
Hill, dale, river and forest togethe
contributed to the beauty of the spotEach added to its charm. The hill wa
not high and but for the deep pool in th
middle, the river flowed placidly
Except for the central part the forest waike a neatly laid out garden. The firs
sight of it brought the thought to my min
hat God must have made this pleasur
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garden for the play of Creation in he
childhood. There was no habitation for
mile but one did not experience at all th
strange lurking fear usual in sucregions. The twittering birds appeared t
be talking to one another. The ripplin
stream, humming a tune to itself like oung maiden in a reverie. The dale wa
ike an inviting bed and the hill like
sacrificial place. The oppressive effec
of great grandeur or the frightening effecof the grotesque — none of these marre
he spectacle. It was sheer beauty, jus
sheer unbounded feast for the eyes.I was conscious that I must return t
Hastinapur as early as possible. M
mother would be waiting. But I wa
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enchanted with that beautiful spot.
enjoyed it for hours on end and was stil
not satisfied. It was difficult to tea
myself away from it and I lingered therdespite the journey ahead. Suddenly
would be reminded of Yati. He mus
have come across many such spots. Whdid he not feel like spending his tim
delighting in such beauty? Why had h
set out on the trying path of meditatio
and mystic achievement? He had gone tMaharishi Shukra to serve him and t
attain the power to make the worl
exclusively male; why had he turned woman-hater? If he had seen this beaut
spot, he would probably have set out t
urn it into a desert. Is it the purpose o
man’s life to love the natural and th
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one. In the end, towards the evening,
set out with a heavy heart to take leav
of the place. I was like a man in misery
faced with long separation from his deaone. The long shadows of the evenin
gradually spread to the hill crest, th
ops of tree and bush and rolled leisurelon the placid water of the pool.
watched all this, perched on the tree.
was uneasy that I would have to leave i
a few hours, when suddenly on thopposite bank, I saw a deer gracefull
poised. She must have come for a drin
but stood there without bending to thwater as if some sculptor was modellin
her figure. Instinctively my right han
searched for the bow and arrow on m
shoulder. The hunter in me was roused
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Looking on that graceful figure, my han
was stayed. Unlike my earlier convictio
hat killing was part of my Kshatriy
dharma, now I felt a sense of guilt a
wanting to hunt that beautiful creature.
The deer stood its ground. Casually
urned to the near bank. I was surprisedThere also a deer — No — it was
oung maiden! Her back was turned t
me. Why had she come to thi
wilderness?
She looked at the sky, folded he
hands and the next moment, flung hersel
nto the pool.When I dived in to save her it wa
purely from compassion. I pulled her ou
of the pool and put her head in my lap t
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revive her. My compassion gave plac
o fear, then surprise and finally joy fo
she was Alaka!
She had not taken in much water an
soon opened her eyes. And on seein
me, with a faint smile, she closed the
again. In a low voice she said, ‘Motherwhen did Prince come?’
She was obviously not conscious o
her surroundings yet.
‘I am no longer prince, Alaka! I am
now king,’ I said smiling.
She opened her eyes, and fixing the
on me said, ‘I beg your pardon, YouMajesty! I erred,’ with such a
enchanting smile that the charming Alak
of many years ago, reappeared befor
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my eyes. The sweetness of that first kis
hat night seared through my veins. Sh
still doubted whether what she saw wa
reality or a dream! I was tempted to kisher and bent to put my lips gently o
hers. She realised this, shivered a littl
and said, ‘No!’Her voice was a little hoarse but it
firmness did not escape me. I drew
away. Slowly she said, ‘Your Majesty,
am now someone else’s!’
Her hand was trembling and anxiet
showed in her face. Inspite of m
protests to the contrary, stammering andpausing at intervals she started tellin
me of the intervening years. She was no
conscious even of her wet clothe
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clinging to the body or of her wet hair!
Her aunt had arranged her marriag
with a young, handsome and well-to-d
farmer, but he was given to gambling
Once he took Alaka out on the plea o
going to a fair. His dear friend who
practised black magic was with themThere her husband gambled heavily an
ost and all three had to run away. H
ived on in the hope that with the help o
his friend’s magic he would one day win
back his money and be rich again. Hi
friend was all absorbed in his evi
pursuits, hoping that one day he woulbe able to turn a man into a donkey! H
also boasted that he could turn a ma
nto a dog or sheep. They wandere
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ogether far away from their home. Sh
was helpless. Her husband would grow
at her if she dared attempt to admonis
him and he would ask his friend tchange her into a bitch or sheep. Th
friend would proceed to light a fire, pu
some salt and condiment in it and recita few hymns. Alaka was terrified to
death at the prospect and would beg o
hem to stop.
She had not, however, come to the end
of her misfortune. A few days earlier
he husband had staked his wife and lost
The winner smirked at her with greedanticipation. Somehow, she bolted from
here. In darkness, for days on end sh
sneaked from place to place, eatin
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when she could and drinking when wate
was to be found. Life becam
unbearable and she decided to comm
suicide.
She was distressed to relate all this
Listening to her, I could not help feelin
hat destiny was cruel and took delight iplaying with man’s life.
The sun was going down in the west
But it was necessary to say something t
kindle a ray of hope in her. I tenderly
stroked her hair and said, ‘There is n
need to worry, Alaka. You are my ...’
She jerked herself away from my laand protested vehemently, ‘I, I am no
ours, I belong to someone else.’
I patted her head with the words
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Alaka, you are my sister! I have fed a
our mother’s breast, you remember?’
How powerful is a word of comfor
and a touch of loving tenderness! Alak
smiled in gratitude. It was as if a dyin
flame had been revived with fresh oil!
Evening was fast descending on eartht was undesirable to continue any longe
n that wilderness. I helped Alaka to si
up and we walked back.
The setting sun streaked on her hai
while she was bent over the water. A
few hair sparkled. I had not notice
earlier the lovely golden brown tinge iher hair. It was clearly visible now and
said, ‘You have golden hair.’
‘Yes, a little.’
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n the middle of the night I felt tha
somebody was touching my feet. Th
amp was low but I recognised that th
figure standing near my bed waAlaka’s. I got up and asked her, ‘What i
he matter?’
She could not speak but warembling. I took her hand in mine. It wa
wet with perspiration. I made her sit o
my bed and for courage, I stroked he
back gently. I suddenly seemed to see
shadow flitting across my tent. I looke
around but there was nobody.
Alaka had been unable to sleep wink. She was terrified by dreams of he
husband pushing her off a mountain top
n the end, she had taken courage t
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come to me.
Just then an insect put out the light an
here was a footstep outside. It mus
have been the sentry.
I sent her away reassured but it wa
clear that she was scared of he
gambling husband and his friend, thblack magician. No amount o
reassurance could dispel her fea
completely.
I had thought she would not come t
me during our halt the next night. But a
on the previous night she did, tremblin
all over. All her subconscious fearwere tormenting her like ghosts in th
darkness.
That night, Alaka complained o
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something else; she had seen a ghos
which looked like Mandar. Thinking tha
she was asleep, the ghost tried to kis
her but disappeared as soon as shmoved.
On the third night, I asked for her be
o be made in my tent. The front flap waalways left open and the sentry did hi
rounds in front. I could therefore se
nothing wrong with the arrangement
Who could doubt anything in th
circumstances?
Maybe because of implicit confidenc
n me or because her fears graduallessened with the passage of time, Alak
now slept well. She was thus disturbe
only four or five times during th
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ourney! If she was trembling with frigh
would seat her on my bed and pat he
on the back and reassured she woul
return to her bed.
I am carefully recalling all thos
ncidents but at no time, not even whe
she was sitting on my bed in the dead onight, did I ever entertain any sinfu
hought in respect of her. More than he
beauty, I valued her implicit confidenc
n me. The thought that she could li
down without a care, with her head i
my lap, gave me pleasure of a differen
kind than the pleasure of kissing her.Those days of travelling, how quickl
hey went by! But their lingering memor
s still with me. I have no idea of wha
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he Creator put together in creatin
women, but in Alaka’s presence I often
felt as if a poem dripping with feelin
and set to a harmonious tune was movinabout in me. That poem was not a lov
heme but it was a beautiful blend o
smiles, affection and pathos.Those days filled with innocen
happiness, selfless love passed in n
ime. When Hastinapur was only twent
miles away, Mandar asked fo
permission to go ahead so as to prepar
for my welcome.
I gave him the permission but felt thaa welcome other than love in Mother’
eyes and the burning lamps of affectio
n Alaka’s eyes was quite unnecessary.
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We reached Hastinapur late in the night
explained to Mother how I had me
Alaka.
I retired to bed after dinner. I though
Mother would bring up the subject o
Yati in the morning but she said nothing
She must have been very sorry that I hareturned alone. In life there is no pai
greater than disappointment.
The whole of the next day was busy
The Prime Minister and others calle
and talked about the coronation. Madha
called with his niece Taraka. I rang fo
Alaka to give her sweets but she did nocome. I was busy all day yet called fo
Alaka three or four times.
At dinner I asked Mother, ‘How is i
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Alaka is nowhere to be seen?’
Mother almost ignored the questio
and said, ‘Yayu, you are now King o
Hastinapur. Kings think of princesse
and not of maids!’
Mother spoke without a trace o
feeling. I kept quiet but all the tastdishes in front of me turned sour and
got up from the table.
Mother beckoned me to her room and quickly followed her. She said, ‘Alak
s counting the last few moments of he
ife.’
I did not know if I was awake odreaming and said with a heavy heart
What?’
‘There is only one way to be born int
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his world but death comes in man
different ways. There is no knowing how
t comes.’
‘But the royal physician ...’
‘In this there is no need for th
physician. It is a question of the prestig
of the royal household. That yomisbehaved on your travels ...’ Mothe
urned fiercely on me, adding, ‘To cur
ou of your dangerous illness I turne
Mukulika out of the Ashokavan and
warned her that she stood in danger o
her life if she returned to the town. If sh
were here today, all the symptoms oour illness ...’
I hung my head in shame. I did realis
hat I had behaved wantonly wit
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reiterate the truth, it was unlikely that i
her present mood, Mother would believ
t.
As ruthlessly as one cuts through dr
wood, she tore at me with reprehensiv
words, ‘You are not at fault. It is my fate
which is to blame. It is in your blood. Aa wife I suffered a lot. I was hoping tha
suffering would not be my lot at least a
a mother. But ...’
Her words suddenly stopped. Sh
beckoned to me and I followed. I though
here was another underground passag
here. I descended behind her but I dinot dare to ask where we were going. I
was not far to go. At the far end, ther
was a cellar. There was a tall, fierce
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ooking sentry at the door who salute
us.
Mother turned to me. ‘Go in but yo
can stay there for only ten minutes. It i
said that one should fulfil the last wis
of a dying person. Therefore I hav
shown Alaka this mercy ...’ She stoppedfor a while and said, ‘Listen, Prince
You will be king soon. If he so wills a
king can command a new beaut
everyday ...’
She turned away. The sentry opened
he door. I stepped inside dumbfounded
There was a low light in that smalnarrow room and I could not discer
anything there for a few moments. I the
saw Alaka squatting on the floor wit
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her head between her knees. I went nea
with a heavy heart. She could not hav
heard me coming! I was very close t
her and put my hand on her shoulder. Iwas only then that she slowly looked up
She simply stared at me with water
eyes. Her face had gone black. Shpeered at me again and again and asked
Who is it?’
She could neither hear nor see. Terro
struck at my heart. I shook her violentl
by the shoulders and screamed, ‘Alaka!
She recognised my voice, a smil
slowly spread over her face and with heavy but caressing voice, she said
Who? Prince?’
I sat close to her and putting her hea
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on my shoulder, said, ‘What is th
matter, Alaka?’
Nearby was an empty wine glass
With great difficulty she pointed to it an
said, ‘Ask that cup. That ... that ... cup
contained love, I ... I ... drank it.’
She could speak no more. Once shsaid with a heartache ‘... That ... that .
Mandar ... him ... him ... I ...’
She was getting convulsions. Suddenln a low voice from somewhere deep
down: ‘D ... d ... do ... do not forget me
M ... m ... my one ... golden hair ... kee
.. Oh! Oh!’I gently plucked a golden hair. Sh
was now in her last few moments and al
because of me! Should I not have give
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her as a memento, somethin
mperishable to keep up her courage o
hat journey?
But in the presence of death, even
king turns a beggar. There was nothing
could give her.
Unconsciously I bent down and put mips to her. She was probably a littl
conscious and struggled to turn her hea
away. She muttered, ‘N ... no ... p .
poison!’
But she had not the strength to draw
away. I was madly kissing her.
That first kiss and this last kisonight! What a tragic episode life is! I
rying to draw away from me, sh
oppled to the ground. I tried to shak
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her into wakefulness. The bird ha
flown away.
Her lifeless body was in front of me
Her soul — I wondered where her sou
was —
Mother shouted for me and I returne
o my room. The Prime Minister wawaiting for me. He explained that he ha
come at that hour of the night with goo
idings.
He said, ‘The war between the god
and demons has ceased. Kacha acquire
he power of Sanjeevani and coul
revive the dead on the side of the godsSo the demons ceased fire. It is a grea
relief, because if the demons had won
hey would have transgressed into ou
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erritory.’
Kacha had acquired Sanjeevani! Th
war had stopped! To me all this wa
utterly insignificant. I was crying ou
desperately to myself, ‘My Alaka, wher
s she? Where is the only sister of th
brother hankering for affection?’1]The nymphs in Indra’s heaven.
2]Sanjeevani was a hymn which, when recited
had the power to bring the dead back to life.3]A festival at which a lady, normally
princess, chooses a husband from th
assembled suitors.
4]Rosary made of the seeds of the (L
Elaeocarpus Ganitrus tree, having specia
religious significance for the Hindus.
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O
DEVAYAN
utside, it is spring. There is a gentlbreeze scented with fragrance, but I a
perspiring in my bed. Outside, the moo
of the fourteenth night looks like a hug
white lotus in full bloom. But my heart iblighted like the withered delicat
arijat flower. Outside, the cuckoo i
singing in sweet wild notes. But in m
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heart, I can only hear the stifled notes o
he broken reed.
Can it be true that what lingers in th
mind comes back in dreams? Perhaps
perhaps not.
What a terrible dream it was! I wa
rembling all over when I woke up witfright.
Maybe I am angry with Kacha. Wh
he doubt? I am angry. I am very angryWhen he rejected my love and sought t
go away I pronounced the curse: ‘Th
power which you have acquired yo
will never be able to use.’ But is thaany reason why in the dream I should —
For many days after Kacha had left,
was still greatly distressed and ofte
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Kacha was standing shackled in the
court. His eyes flashed like
lightning. King Vrishaparva, the
demon king, said to me, ‘The LordPreceptor Maharishi Shukra, your
father, is undergoing penance for
our uplift. Before he started on it, heordered me to see that you are
always happy. We all know that
Kacha has hurt you deeply.
Therefore, we have brought himhere from the kingdom of the gods.
He is your prisoner. You pronounce
the punishment and it will beinstantly carried out.’
What punishment can a true lover
award her love, even if he has
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deceived her? At most, to make him
captive in her arms for all time. I
did not even order that. I pleaded
with the heartless one, ‘Kiss meonce ... only once!’ and added, ‘You
will be free from bondage if you
kiss me.’Even in the face of death, he was
arrogant. He said, ‘Devayani, they
cremated me and put my powdered
bones into Maharishi Shukra’s
wine. He drank it and I thereby got
access to his heart. It was there that
I learnt the Sanjeevani hymn whichnone else knows. But it was also
because of that I am now your
brother. You and I are the same
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flesh and blood.’
I lost my temper. I said, ‘You seem
to think that Devayani is a silly
woman. It needs no great
intelligence to know that children
grow on the flesh and blood of the
mother, not of the father. I am nosister to you and you are no brother
to me. I am your lover. I beg nothing
more of you. Kiss me only once and
I shall issue orders to release you
thereon.’
King Vrishaparva said, ‘Devayani,
what shall be the punishment?’Kacha whose ashes Father had
swallowed with his wine and for
whose revival, even at the price of
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losing Sanjeevani, I had begged
Father with folded hands — such a
Kacha to be punished! But how
could I —?
I said to King Vrishaparva, ‘Behead
Kacha and bring his head on a
salver to the court. I am going toshow you all what an adept
danseuse I am!’
Kacha was led out of the court and
beheaded. The guard brought his
bloody head in. I put the salver
down and danced the love theme
round it. Love smiles like a blooming flower and sometimes
flares like a fire. Sometimes it
twinkles like a star or it strikes like
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lightning. It may take the form of a
tame deer or a vicious cobra! It may
rejuvenate or slay. I depicted all
this in my dance.
I do not know how long I danced
thus. I was intoxicated and could
see nothing except Kacha’s head.Blood was oozing from it and I
imagined it to be my lover’s head
anointed with the auspicious red
tilak [1]. I forgot that the head was
lifeless. I danced up to it, knelt
down and kissed it with the words:
‘Kacha dear, you did not want tokiss me, but there you are, I have
you in the end.’
am still in love with Kacha. How the
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could I be so cruel? Where do dream
come from? Do they not stem from th
mind? Ah! I know now. A dream is like
an intricate weave. How did this dreacome to my mind —
Kacha used to say that a disciple mus
observe the vow of purity. He wouldgather wild flowers for me wit
unfailing regard but he never put them i
my hair. My slightest touch was to him
heavenly bliss and he used to come aliv
for an instant, even with a passing one
But he was constantly on the alert t
avoid it.Or is it that my foolish heart is still i
ove with him? And the conscious mind
hates him? Love and hate. Fire an
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water.
When will this conflict of th
conscious and subconscious end? How
foolish, soft and blind is a woman’
heart! Kacha has never even enquired o
me since he left. He had achieve
Sanjeevani on the plea of my love fohim and returned to the realm of th
gods. He was hailed there as a grea
ascetic and hero! The mortal danger t
he gods had receded because of him.
Now he can claim any celestial beaut
of his choice. Why then should h
remember Devayani? Men are sungrateful! Wily, hard and heartless
Like the birds in a fable, they fly awa
with the net with ease. As for th
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know. When she sees Devayani clad i
hat beautiful red sari ...
But that was given to me by Kacha. I
was a present he brought when he cam
o stay with us. Then he was in love wit
me! I had also fallen in love with him. I
would have been becoming if I had worhe red sari then. But to wear it now
when we are no longer in love? No, if
wear it now, the dying embers of tha
ove will flare up again in my mind. H
would climb impossible hill slopes i
order to collect the flowers which
fancied; he would sway like a cobra the tune of my autumn dance; he woul
recite his hymns in a low voice in
bower in the far corner of the garden les
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t might wake me up in the earl
morning. Very rarely but in such swee
words he would say, ‘You are prettie
han the most beautiful damsel iheaven.’ If I countered with, ‘You are a
flatterer,’ he would retort with a smile
The world only worships the beautiful.Enough of those memories.
I am resolved to forget my love fo
Kacha. The sari that he presented mayb
t is very pretty. But why should I wea
t now? However beautiful, it should b
orn to shreds. It should be used for
mop. That would be an appropriatpunishment for the ungrateful wretch!
I fetched it from the pile of clothes se
apart for the spring festivities. I wishe
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o tear it up. But my hands would no
move. Perhaps a man could have torn it
Almost certainly Kacha would have cu
t up to bits, but I am a woman. Thworship of the beautiful is our creed
Women can never destroy anything
beautiful.When I wear this tomorrow after th
spring festivities, I shall look s
enchanting. Sharmishtha is puffed wit
pride that her father is a king. Every now
and then she boasts about it. I must pu
her to shame at the festivities tomorrow
— I shall not tear this beautiful sari. Bu
he other things which remind me of him
turned to the bower in the garden. Thi
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was his favourite spot. The bower mus
be ripped up.
It is fancied by Father also. What if h
asked me in the morning about it? It wil
be possible to explain it away. Th
oung calf in the cow shelter runs amuc
hese days. She must have broken loosat night and trampled on and ruined th
bower! Some much explanation —
I headed towards the bower when
heard someone calling me, ‘Devi.’
I was pleased with the word. It wa
good Father had mended his habits. Upt
esterday, always even before strangershe would without a thought call me
Deva.’ As if I was a boy! When he
called me thus before Kacha, I used t
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blush red. All great men have som
queer trait. I insisted that he must neve
again call me Deva. He said, ‘Callin
ou Deva does not make you one ... yoare only a Devi.’ What could you do
with him? That a young maiden’s heart i
ike a sensitive plant and that, even littlhings caused embarrassment, wa
something which ascetics cannot realise
These men live in a world of their ow
all the time.
On hearing Father’s call I turne
round. He slowly came forward, raise
my chin, looked deep into my eyes ansaid, ‘You are still awake, my girl?’
‘I could not sleep, Father, so I thought
a turn in the garden ...’
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He caressed my back and said, ‘
know you girl. There is nothing wors
han a broken heart ...’
It was distasteful to me to dwell o
Kacha anymore. In an effort to chang
he subject, I said, ‘Father, did m
movements wake you up?’He said no and with a gulp added
My defeat is a thorn in my side, my gir
am all the time thinking that I shoul
again undertake long penance an
acquire another unique power whic
will dazzle the world.’
‘Why don’t you begin then? I wasmall during your penance fo
Sanjeevani and hardly realised what
great man my father was. Now, I shal
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attend on you and your penance, see tha
he
hardship ...’
He smiled derisively. ‘That is no
possible.’ I had lost Mother in m
childhood and Father brought me up lik
a delicate plant. Even so, why should hform such an unkind opinion of me? Wh
should he think that I am pleasure-lovin
and therefore cannot be of any servic
during a penance?
I was worried that Father might notic
he sari but he was absorbed in his ow
houghts.He seemed to look at the glowin
moonlight spread all over and said
Deva ...’
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‘No, Devi ...’
‘Oh yes, I forget,’ he smiled back. ‘
could renounce wine instantly, but th
ongue has got used to your childhoo
name ...’ Later in great agony, he added
When I had the Sanjeevani, the entir
world trembled before me. But today, am only one of the thousands of ascetic
roaming the world. No, I cannot bear th
hought. My girl why should the lion liv
after he has lost his teeth and claws?’
What a terrible blow Kacha had struc
at my father by carrying away the powe
of Sanjeevani. Even after so long, thwound was bleeding. I consoled him
You could acquire another equally
potent power by penance, Father.’
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‘I will, undoubtedly! Not one but man
but it will need grave penance. Las
ime, you were small. Now you hav
come of age and must be married. I dnot know for how many years th
penance will last considering that Lor
Shiva is a difficult, moody deity.’‘But, Father ...’
‘You were too small even to craw
about. Since then I have been both Fathe
and Mother to you. I found th
satisfaction of both knowledge and win
n your childish behaviour and I know o
no pleasure greater than these threeWhile I had the power of Sanjeevan
with me, any rishi, king or god woul
have made a bid for your hand. In m
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zeal to see the demons win, I neglecte
all this. Today, my girl, the lord of the
rishis, your father is a penniless beggar
may have to fall at their feet begginhat one of them accept your hand i
marriage!’
I was furious with Father. It is true thpower of Sanjeevani was lost. Tha
maybe! But Devayani still had he
beauty. On the strength of that alone sh
—
* * *
All of us girls arrived at the huge lake i
he forest. The blue sky itself seemed t
have descended into the lake for us t
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sport in the water. The trees wer
fanning it a little. Further away the girl
were squirting water at each other. Bu
none of them dared into deeper waters. said to Sharmishtha with a smile, ‘Wate
sport is not wetting oneself from a wate
vessel. Let us swim out so that thesgirls, frightened of water, will fee
reassured. Look there. Those two swan
playing with the lotus. They look lik
wo white clouds floating in the sky. Wewill swim out as far as there and com
back. Let us see who wins.’
Sharmishtha only smiled back and wwo set out. I was rapidly gainin
distance and swam like a fish. When
ooked back, there she was crawling lik
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a tortoise. I was elated that today sh
would be put to shame. She was boun
o lose in this competition. When with
small face she returns to the bank beateo it, she will be even more furious t
see me in the red sari.
I reached the lotus, leaving her wabehind. But I was feeling tired. I reste
for a while but when I looked back
Sharmishtha had closed in on me.
urned back quickly and made for th
bank with all speed. I was swimmin
well but the speed had slackene
considerably. I was tired. There was gale blowing. The trees and creeper
were being violently tossed about an
dust filled the air, making it murky.
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I was frightened and shouted t
Sharmishtha as she overtook me and wa
swimming away. She did not respond.
She was on the bank before me. Sh
was surrounded by half a dozen friends
With them, she went to the maid and
suddenly disappeared behind a tree.On getting to the bank I walked wit
my head hung low to the maid, who gav
me my clothes. I lost my temper. Thos
clothes were not mine. She had given t
Sharmishtha the beautiful sari presente
o me by Kacha, which I had intended t
put on. She had put on my beautiful sarihe one I had carefully put away for th
spring festivities! I was beside mysel
with fury and tugged at the sari she wa
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wearing. Sharmishtha was afraid the sar
might come off.
Sharmishtha flared at me, ‘What d
ou mean, Devayani? Why are yo
annoyed with me for having lost th
race? If one is lame ...’
I retorted fiercely, ‘Whether I am lamor crippled, we will think of later. You
should first remedy your blindness
Whose clothes are you wearing?’
‘My own, of course.’
‘Have you lost your sight? This sari i
mine.’
‘No, it is mine. Mother told me las
night that she would give me the sar
which was presented to her by Indran
on the cessation of war.’
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‘You had better return my sari.’
‘I will not. What can you do?’
I tugged at it and said, ‘What am
going to do? Do you know who I am?’
‘Oh, yes. I know very well that you
father is dependant on Kin
Vrishaparva!’I was dumb with fury.
With my silence, she was even mor
aggressive. She said, ‘You wretch! Afteall I am a princess and you are only th
daughter of a dependant of my father
ever again forget the difference.’
I was trembling with anger. I thought
was going to faint —
Our friends came on the scene. The
must have noticed that I was tremblin
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and burst into laughter. The humiliatio
stung me. I wanted to return to the town
relate everything that had happened t
Father and say that I was not prepared tstay in that place a minute longer —
In fact I started running. I hear
Sharmishtha calling after me, ‘Devayanplease stop, Devayani stop for
second.’
I did not even look back.
Sharmishtha ran after me. Evidentl
her friends were also following. In
ittle while, I slowed down. I realise
hat she would now catch up on me.I looked back. She was very near m
and it was no use running. I looke
around. A little further there was a large
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open well covered over with shrub an
grass. There was no knowing how muc
water it had! I stood by its mouth
Sharmishtha came near me.
‘Devayani ... I ... I ...’
The tigress in me showed up in plac
of the gentle deer. ‘Take off the sariGive it back to me ...’
She was muttering something like
But ... dear.’I tugged at it the harder screaming
Take it off. Will you not take it off?’
I have no recollection of wha
happened in the next few moments, o
what I or Sharmishtha said or did. Wha
remember is a sudden shriek, ‘Help
help.’ Was it Sharmishtha’s? Had
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pushed her into the well? No — I wa
shrieking. She had wickedly pushed m
nto the well. I do not remember how
much later it was. I had fallen into thwell —
I shouted out aloud, ‘Help ... help m
out of the well.’ I shouted once, twicehrice! I shouted again after a while
Devayani had fallen into a wel
Devayani, daughter of Maharishi Shukr
had fallen into the well.
I was burning inside but the water wa
cold and I shivered. On the one hand
was burning for revenge and on the othestark fear had come over me. I could se
myself shivering, then dropping in a fain
and getting drowned. And I started
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sobbing like a child.
Someone standing at the mouth of th
well was clearing the growth and ben
over, asking who it was.
It was a man’s voice. I could not mak
out whose and asked, ‘Who is it?’
‘Yayati.’Was I in a trance? I eagerly asked
You mean King Yayati of Hastinapur?’
‘Yes, I am King Yayati of HastinapurAbsorbed in hunting, we came deep int
his forest. We were very thirsty and
were looking for water. My chariotee
has gone another way and I thought I saw
a well here and came this way. But le
hat be. Who may you be fair lady?’
‘Please don’t be so formal.’
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‘What do you mean?’
‘I shall tell you later. But first would
Your Majesty take me out? I am
shivering! But ... how will you get in?’
I first heard laughter and then swee
came the words, ‘Yayati has learn
archery in his younger days and some ots tricks too.’
I heard something like a hymn bein
chanted. This was a feat of archersomething like the power of Sanjeevan
noticed that the arrows had bee
arranged like a lotus to make a cradle o
which I was being lifted up.The lotus of arrows rose to the mout
of the well and stopped. Apart from
Kacha, I had never seen so handsome
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man. I blushed under the gaze of th
King. I hung my head. My wet clothe
clung to my body.
I was still looking down. The Kin
smiled at me and said, ‘May I have th
favour of knowing the name of thi
angel?’‘I am not an angel.’
‘Is it possible that there is so muc
beauty on earth?’My beauty had captivated the King
but I had to load that beauty with a littl
more. I looked up with a coy glance an
ooking down again, said, ‘I aDevayani, daughter of Maharish
Shukra.’
‘Maharishi Shukra, the Lord Precepto
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of the Demons?’
‘Yes. I would prefer you to be les
formal.’
The King smiled and said. ‘If I hav
been of some service to Maharish
Shukra today all the weariness of th
hunt will have vanished from me.’I put out my right hand. He took it i
his right and helped me out. He tried t
disengage his hand when I said, ‘No, yocan’t. You have taken my hand in
marriage.’
He was taken aback. ‘How is
possible? You are a Brahmin and I am aKshatriya king! Such a marriage ...’
‘There have been many suc
marriages in the past, Your Majesty
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There is the precedent of Lopamudra ...’
‘No, no.’
With a smile I said, ‘Fate apparentl
wills Your Majesty, that I should be
our queen. Why otherwise would yo
have come to this forest today? It coul
only happen from something done in ouearlier birth.’
‘But fair one ...’
‘There can be no hesitation, YouMajesty. I gave you my heart the momen
saw you. You are free to accept it or
refuse me. If you do not make me yours,
shall retire to a cave in the Himalayaand tell the rosary in your name for th
rest of my life. A virgin like me, who
has never even thought of a man before
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would not otherwise hold someone’
hand even for a moment.’
‘But Devayani, your father is revere
as a rishi in all the three worlds! If h
does not approve of this alliance ...’
‘You need have no care ... Oh, bu
how foolish of me to forget that you arhirsty.’
‘At the mere sight of you, I hav
forgotten hunger and thirst. I had set ouo capture a comely deer. I myself hav
been captured by her.’
I smiled and hung my head blushing.
said to myself, ‘Rishis like Father aronly fit for penance. Only last nigh
Father was so worried about getting m
married. Now, when I bow to him for
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blessing not as Devayani but as th
Queen of Hastinapur how surprised h
will be!’
I wished that wily Kacha had als
been here to witness the revenge I hav
aken. Truly, how pleasing even revenge
can be.
The King suggested that we should go t
he town in the chariot and apprisFather of all this, but I did not want to g
anywhere where Sharmishtha stil
paraded as a princess.
That was not necessary. Just then
chariot arrived post haste raising a clou
of dust and stopped short of us.
King Vrishaparva and Father go
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down. Father took me into his arms.
was overcome with pride and joy an
closed my eyes. Tears were streamin
down Father’s eyes. The great asceticMaharishi Shukra was shedding tears o
oy.
He suppressed a sob with greadifficulty and said. ‘Dev ...’
I said, ‘Father, Devi is no longe
ours.’
He was surprised. I glanced bashfull
and meaningfully at King Yayati and
owered my eyes.
King Yayati came forward and bowedo Father. With his help I related
everything. Father was delighted an
gave us a hearty blessing, then turned t
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King Vrishaparva with the words
Good fortune sometimes comes by wa
of calamity. King, make arrangements to
celebrate her nuptials. Bedeck the wholown. This is a day of great rejoicing fo
he demon world. Once I have sai
farewell to her and sent her on the wao her new house, I shall be free t
undertake another penance. Fate, whic
had turned perverse, seems to b
changing. Come King Yayati ... Let us goo the town in this chariot. Devi ... yo
go ahead ...’
I did not move or open my mouthKing Vrishaparva came forward and
said, ‘Forget the past ...’
I was up in arms and said, ‘It is eas
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for the aggressor to forget. But the nast
hings which she said about Father .
words which pierced the heart ...’
Father’s tone had hardened, ‘What di
Sharmishtha say?’
I said, ‘How can I tell you, Father
She derided me with the words, “I am princess and you are but the daughter o
a dependant”.’
Vrishaparva said with humility, ‘Mygirl, Sharmishtha also is young like you
She told me just now that you ha
quarrelled over a sari. The young ar
mmature and lose their balance. Onword provokes another ...’
‘Is she not to blame even for pushin
me into the well?’
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‘Who would say that? But rage i
blind. I beg of you to forgive her.’
‘Begging is the creed of dependant
ike Father ... not of kings like you! I
Father wishes to, he can go into th
own. But I do not wish even to g
where Father and I have been grosslnsulted. My father who is famed as a
ascetic in the three worlds has bee
denigrated as a beggar.’
Father had kept silent so long. H
oined in, ‘And, King, neither will I
That I should be insulted and an attemp
should be made on my daughter’s life ...Vrishaparva intervened, ‘Lord
Preceptor, Devayani has somehow
misunderstood ...’
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Father thundered, ‘I am leaving. I hav
no time to waste on the right and wron
of it.’
Vrishaparva fell at father’s feet. ‘If th
Lord Preceptor himself thus turned hi
back on us, what will be our fate excep
being annihilated? I shall immediatelsend for Sharmishtha and direct her t
fall in obeisance at your feet an
Devayani’s a hundred times and beg fo
our forgiveness. If you think this to
mild, I shall banish her from the kingdo
his instant.’
‘She has deeply offended Devayani, shall return to the town only if she i
willing to suffer, without demur, the
punishment given by Devayani.’
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‘Maid ... ?’ Interjected Kin
Vrishaparva in agony, with a wry
expression, suddenly aged.
I had won. I said in a shrill voice
Yes, Sharmishtha must be maid to the
Queen of Hastinapur. She must go wit
me to Hastinapur, to wait on me all heife.’
1]Sacred mark of sandal or kumkum, etc., o
the forehead.
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T
SHARMISHTHA
he hour has struck. One out of the twhours has gone by! In the hour — in tha
short time — I must make a life’
decision. To be Devayani’s maid or ...
Father’s note is lying there. His firsand only letter to his dear daughter! Hi
Shama had so far never gone away fro
him! Where, then, was the occasion t
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write a letter? It is here today — a
unpredictable occurrence, an enem
from an earlier life come for revenge.
Today — on the first day of the sprin
festivities — the sun rose as o
everyday in my childhood, sprinkling hi
red glow through the window all oveme. All of a sudden I blushed. Th
reddish dawn seemed like the sacrificia
fire at a wedding. Then I remembere
Mother’s words while sending me t
bed. Caressing me she had said, ‘Shama
t is very well that the war has ceased
ow we can look for one of the gookings ... I believe the King of Hastinapu
s very brave and good. While yet
outh he went out with the victory hors
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o conquer the world. They say he i
very handsome too. He would be just th
right man for this delicate flower o
mine.’ It is true that on hearing this feigned to be angry and pulled th
coverlet over my face. But the whol
night I did float on sweet dreams. One ohose dreams had taken me to Hastinapu
where I had been made the Queen o
King Yayati!
Even when I woke up at dawn, th
sweet dreams were still with me. Bu
how terrible life is. How full o
contradictions! How bitter in contrast ta dream! Before the morning sun ha
urned westward, fate has called me t
Hastinapur! Not as queen but as th
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queen’s maid.
* * *
During spring festivities in the morning
said many things to hurt Devayan
which I should not have done. But howcould I help it? I had lost control ove
myself, my tongue and in fact everything
Was it my fault that she was born to a
sage and not a king? But time and again
at every step she has obstinately strive
o establish that I am no match for her.
We may have been three or four yearold. The nurses had taken us out boating
Devayani bent over the side and clappe
with joy, saying, ‘Shama, see this prett
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girl calling me to play with her.’ I ben
over the side and saw another gir
resembling me, also calling me with
smile. I said, ‘Look a pretty girl icalling me also!’ She sniffed and
squealed, ‘No. Your girl is ugly, mine is
pretty.’We were eight or ten years when in
one of the plays at the spring festivities
he school teacher gave us both a part
She was to be the queen of flowers and
he forest queen. Devayani was prett
and good at dancing; so she was chose
o be the queen of flowers. She had beegiven three dances; first portraying th
bud, then the half blown flower and the
he flower in full bloom. The fores
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Sharmishtha is a princess that the judge
have unjustly rated her poem higher.
The judges had to divide the priz
between us. That time my only first prizwas in sketching. And that becaus
Devayani just could not draw.
Her father had secured the power oSanjeevani. The demons were to score
victory over the gods from that power
Father accordingly aimed at no
offending Devayani and I had to follow
suit.
Many instances of her vanity lingere
deep in my mind. That morning when shried to snatch the sari which I wa
wearing, it all exploded. How can
explain it?
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Some nasty offensive words escape
from my mouth. But they are about t
ruin my whole life. For that one mistake
a princess is to be reduced to be a maid
Sharmishtha — a maid? I, to be mai
o that heartless stone image in love wit
herself? No, that cannot be!
o, I was not merely guilty of offendin
words. Mother has told me that the sars Devayani’s. That Kacha had presente
t to her. I should not have worn it. Why
did Mother not show me the clothe
properly last night? How was I to know
hat the sari was not mine? No, it wa
altogether a mistake that I was born
princess. It is because of that, that I hav
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grown to depend on the maids fo
everything. To what end? Devayani’
nsistence that Sharmishtha must be he
maid all her life.
She maintains I pushed her into th
well. I ran after her to hold her back
She was there already. In the scuffle, shost her balance and fell in. I still thin
so.
There are only two witnesses in thi
world to good and bad, to truth an
falsehood and to right and wrong, Kach
used to say. One is conscience and th
other is omniscient God.If I thought He might come, I woul
have asked God for an answer to th
errible dilemma before me. Devayan
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has imposed slavery on me for life
Shall I or shall I not accept it?
Father’s letter says:My dear daughter, if you ask me as
your father whether you should
agree to be a maid, I shall never
consent.
But man has several roles to play at
the same time. We have been utterly
defeated with Kacha’s acquisitionof Sanjeevani.
It is in such adverse circumstances
that the demons must again rise. The patronage of Maharishi Shukra is
vital to us. He has unbounded love
for Devayani. If the conditions set
by her are not met, he will never
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again set foot in our town and in his
absence, our kingdom will be razed
to the ground. We who aspire to
conquer the inter-stellar space will
be reduced to crawling on earth.
Shama, I shall not be angry if you
refuse. I could not make up my mindwhat to do. That is why I wrote this
letter.
Shama. My beloved Shama! May
Lord Shiva guide you to choose
what will ever after make you
happy.
From childhood at weddings I had ofte
heard the words, ‘The moment ha
come.’ Recently I had come to realise it
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a mate, the joy of motherhood?
No, I shall tell Father that rather tha
be a maid to Devayani, I shall turn
mendicant! If she wishes to aveng
herself, send for her and in her presence
behead me yourself. But remember
please, even the lifeless head must nofall at her feet. I shall not on my lif
accept being a maid. Not even in
dream. Shall I consent to be Devayani’
maid?
I was deep in thought. Think, think
hink. My head was ready to split.
And all because of what? I had bmistake worn this sari. This sari whic
was Kacha’s present to Devayani. Thi
sari — I swear by my father — I onl
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wore it by mistake.
Does destiny have a hand in thi
abnormal occurrence? Kacha came her
for Sanjeevani. He was our enemy. Bu
at heart I worshipped him for hi
earning, his devotion and sacrifice an
his manner. I often wished I had him fomy elder brother.
Devayani never let me talk to hi
freely or be natural with him. She wa
ealous. But even his presence cheere
me up. I was happy with even a smil
from him. I recalled for days together a
occasional word uttered by him.The demons mercilessly tortured hi
o death three times. But everytime h
said, ‘Some things, which are terrifyin
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from a distance, are not in fact quite s
frightful. Death is the same. Princess
hese are words drawn from m
experience.’ And with that he wouldsmile genially.
What do those words mean? Coul
Kacha foresee the future? Being a maidwhat else is it but death? The death o
one’s individuality.
And do individual qualities an
defects hang by a caste? Both Kacha an
Devayani are Brahmins. But does sh
share even one of his qualities? No. I
ife nothing whatever follows birth ocaste.
For a Brahmin, what great courage di
Kacha show in coming to our kingdo
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for Sanjeevani. He put all Kshatriyas t
shame. He stayed his ground fearlessl
until he had acquired Sanjeevani.
This sari — it is an unwitting gift fro
Kacha to me! I must keep it all my life.
remembered him only because of th
difficulty before me — Who has escaped danger an
difficulty? On the contrary, difficultie
are more to the lot of the good ones o
earth. Kacha was so good, so selfless
so affectionate and so learned. Even so
did he have any less of misery? The pai
of shattered love and the curse of thbeloved. But there was not a flicker o
unhappiness on his face.
I said, ‘I would have been happy t
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bid you goodbye if you were returning t
heaven with your bride. But ...’
He calmly replied, ‘Princess, life i
ever incomplete, all its beauty lies in it
being so.’
This is a good philosophy. But I had
read in the epics how enormous is thpain of shattered love. I had crie
profusely reading of it. I said, ‘Would i
not have been better if one did not fall i
ove in the first instance?’
He said, ‘No. Love bestows th
quality of being able to look beyon
oneself. When it is altruisticdispassionate and humble it becomes th
first step to progress.’
That day Kacha was in a hurry to g
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away but he nonetheless came to see m
and said, ‘Sharmishtha, do not b
distressed that our love has come t
nought. Even if I have failed in love, experienced love. That memory wil
ever be with me. Your friend Devayan
s short tempered and an egoist. I aconscious of these faults! True love ha
he power to accept the beloved despit
he faults. Such was my love fo
Devayani. But I had to disappoint her fohe good of my fellow beings.
‘What could I do? Love is a loft
sentiment in life but duty is even higherDuty is very exacting but it is the basi
of all religion. If Devayani ever open
her heart to you, tell her only this
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“Kacha’s heart is wedded to duty. But
corner of that heart is forever hers.” ’
I failed to see how for so long I ha
overlooked that last meeting of Kach
and his words. I was groping in the dark
could not see a ray of light, but Kach
had shown it. I ran to the door as thhour tolled. Mother opened the door as
was about to. I ran into her arms, smile
and said, ‘Tell Father to mak
arrangements for my going t
Hastinapur. Sharmishtha is ready to b
Devayani’s maid.’
* * *
was a little shaken while entering th
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palace at Hastinapur, I will not deny it
But I soon recovered and took my plac
as a maid.
Devayani called on the Queen Mothe
and I followed her. The Queen Mothe
said, ‘Devayani, my daughter, you
friend is as pretty as you are.’Devayani was arrogant. ‘Mother, sh
s Princess Sharmishtha. But I did no
bring her as my companion. She is n
onger a princess. She is a maid ... m
maid.’
‘What do you mean?’
‘His Majesty will tell you what great sage my father is ...’
‘Your father-in-law King Nahusha
was also a great warrior. That
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Kshatriya princess should be a maid i
his his palace is not what I conside
proper.’
‘That is for me to decide!’ retorted
Devayani and she walked out. I had bee
he cause of this first clash betwee
mother-in-law and daughter-in-law. Buclashes would continue.
Devayani had been a spoilt child. Th
Queen Mother also was perhaps cast i
he same mould. It was like two streak
of lightning crashing in the sky. Fate had
similarly brought these two together.
The clashes sometimes brought munexpected happiness! Occasionally
was reminded of my mother’s lovin
hand. The memory made me very uneasy
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But after a clash between the two, th
Queen Mother would draw me near her
maybe to taunt Devayani or because
was a Kshatriya princess and pat me ohe back. That relieved the agonisin
memory of Mother. It may have been
only a show but even such illusions helpmake life bearable.
Once the Queen Mother’s lov
showed up in a strange way. A
renowned palmist had come to the town
Devayani sent for him and showed hi
her hand. He predicted that a son woul
be born to her in a year’s time. We werall happy. I happened to be there. Th
Queen Mother took my hand, made m
sit down and asked him to read my hand
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Devayani scowled at this! But I wa
helpless before the Queen Mother.
He looked at my hand for a long tim
and said, ‘This girl is unfortunate.’
Devayani said, ‘ Panditji, she is only
maid, not a princess!’
He was surprised and looked up. Hscanned the hand again and said, ‘Sh
has much to go through but her son ...
Devayani laughed and pointed out thasince I was her maid, who was going t
marry me and from where would a so
come?
The palmist was annoyed that hiknowledge of the science was bein
scoffed at. He turned to Devayan
Forgive me, Your Majesty. I know my
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science. I know nothing else. I am tellin
ou of what I can read in this palm! He
son will be heir to a throne.’
Devayani was grave when she said
By throne do you mean the skin of
dead lion? Will you look at her hand
again?’My heart bled with the taunt! I quickl
withdrew my hand and rushed out of th
room lest tears should come to my eyes.
That night I cried into a wet pillow
Which young maiden does not dream o
a husband and their children? Where i
he girl who does not toss restless in he
bed, contemplating the shape and form i
which those dreams would come true i
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her case?
I was just such a one. But I had com
o Hastinapur with all such dream
urned to ashes. I was a maid t
Devayani. She had full authority ove
me. Perhaps she will never let me marr
anybody anytime. Where the prospect omarriage was doubtful the hope of a so
and his being heir to a throne — how
could a maid like me entertain it? But th
palmist today —
As the delicate red shoot of a lea
sticks out from a grave covered wit
black stone, the prediction stood out imy mind! Sharmishtha, who had not she
a single tear even at parting from he
parents, was now shedding copious tear
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n the frightening solitude of the palace.
With the memory of Father, my mind
woke up. I remembered clearly ever
moment of bidding farewell to him.
I was about to leave the palace wher
had grown up from birth. Father stoo
still and erect like a mountain. Therwas not even a flutter in my eyes. I wen
up to him and bent before him with
bow, saying, ‘Goodbye, Father.’
waited an instant for his blessing. H
said nothing but put his head on my feet
was confused, drew back an
somehow, quickly raised him up. As hwas getting up, he said, ‘My girl, I a
not fit to receive your obeisance. You
are not a daughter but a mother. Mother
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we your children crave your blessing.’
I melted and asked, ‘Father, how
would you have felt if I was your so
and you had to send me to war?’
‘I would have been proud!’
‘You should feel the same pride at thi
moment. Father, your Shama is goinnto battle and seeks your blessing.’
had nothing to do unless Devayani gavme some work. Every vacant hour was
bore. In the end, I found an excellen
means to occupy myself. I was earlie
fond of drawing. Thereafter I spen
every spare moment in painting.
Having some hobby is an unfailin
palliative for misery. I do not know how
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good my paintings were! But in paintin
hem, my mind had an occupation. How
many sketches I made of a wee littl
rabbit alone!
And it is not only the wee little rabbit
The deer, the peacock, the swan and fo
hat matter, all animal life.What a variety of flowers there is o
earth with their variegated colour an
odour. What numerous genii of trees and
creepers. The sunrise and the sunset ar
different everyday. Moonlight in th
spring, a river in the rainy season, th
green crops of autumn and the leaflesrees of winter — everything is a f
subject for painting.
I thought of life in this vein. Variety i
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He would retort, ‘You are Devayani’
maid, not mine.’
His Majesty was very fond of chewin
betel leaf. Devayani used to make it fo
him. One day he was apparently no
satisfied with the one she had given him
Devayani was lying on a bed. I wafanning her. She asked me to mak
another one for His Majesty which h
iked. He then stood before the mirro
and called out to Devayani, ‘Look at m
mouth.’
‘What kind of a jest is this? I do no
ike such levity.’‘This is no joke.’ He opened hi
mouth. Just like a child he was. It wa
flaming red. The betel leaf had coloure
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t really well. He said, ‘It is believe
hat the betel leaf made by the perso
who loves more colours the better ...’
‘I see. So Sharmishtha loves yo
more. Then you should have marrie
her.’
His Majesty should not have indulgen such a joke. Devayani raised Cain i
he palace that day. The news soo
spread and the maids were whispering!
was dying of shame. Never again did
make any betel leaf for him! But i
Devayani was not around, he would as
me if I had any! I had to say no a dozeimes. Thereafter I always secretl
carried one on my person and I woul
give it to him quietly when no one wa
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near. Sometimes he would say to
Devayani, significantly meaning me
Your betel leaf coloured very wel
ndeed.’
* * *
What do memories resemble? Th
straying butterfly? Girls playing hide an
seek? The colour gradually merging int
he background and heightening th
beauty of the picture? The lightnin
flitting unrestrained in the monsoon sky
Who knows!The one memory which should hav
been related first, still lingers in th
mind.
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Majesty will need betel leaf now an
again. I shall send you away when Hi
Majesty is fast asleep. I do not want an
other maid here today.’
Could not Devayani have taken th
salver into the apartment? But —
Devayani went in. I got the beteeaves ready quickly and stood far awa
with the salver. In a little while Hi
Majesty came along and I offered hi
one. He did not touch it. He did not hee
me. All he may have been conscious o
was that there was a maid standing there
That was natural! One whom even aApsara would have envied for he
beauty was waiting for him inside. H
had no eyes for anyone except her.
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The door was closed and I stood ther
solitary like a ghost with the salver i
my hand. The mind was now strayin
wildly. I had pangs of regret that if only had not quarrelled with Devayani tha
day, I would not have been subjected to
his degradation; but it was not regrealone. It was tinged with curiosity abou
ove and the fulfilment of love.
Suddenly, angry words vaguely cam
o my ears. It was Devayani.
The first night of the honeymoon? I
should have been steeped in love. The
why such words of anger?I had heard of the heavenly bliss tha
crowns the union of lovers. An empt
pot reverberates while being filled; bu
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he sound ceases when it is full to th
brim. The hearts of lovers are the same
recalled one poet describing thi
blessed state with the words — whehe hearts are filled with love, there i
no room for words.
But angry words could be heard fronside the royal bedroom. It wa
Devayani talking — by comparison, Hi
Majesty’s tone was lower.
Suddenly, out came Devayani flingin
open the door. She was rushing to he
apartment. I stepped forward a little
holding out the salver. She blazed at meflung the salver away from my hand an
went away trampling on some of th
betel leaves.
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T
YAYAT
he first night of our honeymoon. In thife of a husband and wife, the first nigh
s so intoxicating, so poetic and so ful
of mysterious intimacy, that it i
something they have never experiencebefore. The confluence of two rivers, th
kiss of the sky and earth — no. Even
great poet could not adequately portra
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far. Visions of her, many and varied
haunted me; like her wet figure when sh
stepped out of the well blushing
Devayani bedecked with jewels ansitting next to me by the sacrificial fire.
Even after drinking in her beauty a
will, my eyes were still thirsty. I desiredfor the Devayani hidden behind the man
visible forms.
I went into the apartment. I closed th
door and looked round. There wa
Devayani on the bed, half sitting up, he
eyes full of meaning. I impatiently wen
forward and sat on the bed. She wastanding now. I smiled and said, ‘On
has to offer one’s hand to help a lady ou
of the well but is it necessary to offer
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for sitting down?’
I thought she would blush and sa
something lively. But she stood silent
There was a crease on her forehead —
could not make out whether her ange
was real or feigned.
To propitiate her I said, ‘My fatheonce defeated Indra. I am going to do
again.’
I thought she would quickly comforward and blushingly say, ‘We have
more pleasant and intimate things to tal
about than war just now.’ Or perhaps, ‘
shall be your charioteer in thcampaign.’ So I thought.
‘I shall conquer Indra with your help,
shall ask him if there is a beauty t
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match you in heaven,’ was somethin
ike what I was going to say. But sh
never gave me the opportunity. I though
she maybe ruffled due to somdisagreement with Mother. However,
decided to stay out of it.
An angry woman makes a prettpicture. Looking at her, I forgot mysel
and pulled her to me on the bed. I lifte
up her face and was bending over to kis
her.
She pushed me away and like a
nfuriated cobra turned on me and stoo
n a far corner. I was unable tounderstand her strange behaviour. He
obstinate and short tempered manner ha
been apparent in her insistence o
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making Sharmishtha her maid. I had see
t myself. But that to me — her husban
— she should behave like this.
I controlled my rising temper and said
Devayani I do not understand ...’
‘There is nothing to understand. It i
errible. Today, here on this auspiciouoccasion ... at the happiest moment of m
ife, that you should be drunk ... th
smell of your mouth ...’
I said, ‘I have not been drinkin
iquor. Only a little wine.’ I added
sarcastically, ‘I am fortunate that I am
not a Brahmin and am permitted liquor. was furious with her that she shoul
have ruined the exquisite joy of a happ
occasion on a slight pretext.
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She retorted, ‘You may not be a
Brahmin but I am the daughter o
Maharishi Shukra. I cannot bear th
smell of liquor even at a distance.’
‘As you are a daughter, you are also
wife. I am a Kshatriya and drink is no
prohibited to a Kshatriya.’‘But Father has given it up. And “he
abhors liquor.’ He? Who was this he
Angry that I was, I was now suspicious.
I shouted, ‘Who is he?’
She was biting her lips i
exasperation when she replied, ‘I am no
afraid of anyone to name him. Kachalso was averse to liquor.’
A tinge of jealousy sparked in me.
said harshly, ‘This is the palace o
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Hastinapur. This is neither the hermitag
of Maharishi Shukra nor the cottage o
Kacha. I am nobody’s slave. I am th
King of Hastinapur ... Yayati. I am Lordand Master here. Kacha has no plac
here. And Maharishi Shukra has no
business to interfere here. You are mywife and it is your duty to tend to m
happiness ...’
‘You can tend to your happines
ourself ...’ said Devayani fiercely, he
eyes sparking with barbs of fire. Sh
banged the door open and walked out.
I collapsed on the bed. That terriblcurse on Father. ‘The children of Kin
ahusha will never be happy.’
This was to have been the night of th
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consummation of our love. I did not eve
dream that the curse would prove itsel
n this strange way on this our first nigh
of love. The craving body and thagitated mind tore at me all night.
I had come to the apartment with grea
expectation. I desired Devayani. desired all of her. I was now very eage
o experience a love much nobler an
more intense than the vulgar momentar
pleasure such as that which I had share
with Mukulika. But —
This brought back to my mind Alaka’death, which was soon followed by th
coronation. Mother gave me her heart
blessings. She had her fill of Yayati’s
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appearance in regal clothes and roya
splendour. But at the same time, Kalik
was wiping her tears away in a corner a
he memory of her daughter.
Mother saw those tears and sh
chastised her with harsh words! ‘Leav
he palace this instant and go to yousister’s. Don’t cry here in ill omen.’ My
hair stood on end at Mother’s words.
I was very angry with Mother.
resolved in the instant that somehow o
other Alaka’s death must be avenged.
As a first step in that revenge
stopped talking to Mother. I indulgedmyself at will in wine and hunting
Deliberately, I rejected individuall
everyone of the pretty princesse
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enthusiastically chosen by Mother. Thi
satisfied my thirst for revenge a little, i
respect of Alaka, but I was dissatisfied
with life and thirsty for somethinundefined.
It was in this state of mind that
reached the foot of the Himalayas whilhunting. While in chase of deer I entere
he demon kingdom and returned wit
Devayani as my bride to Hastinapur.
That day I accepted Devayan
nstantly. What a strangely mysteriou
occurrence! I looked upon it as ver
romantic.That I was taken with her because o
her sheer beauty is true. But I als
hought I would wreak sweet vengeanc
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on Mother by marrying her. Mother wa
keen on a Kshatriya princess for
daughter-in-law! My marrying th
daughter of a Brahmin sage would be permanent thorn in her side. She woul
earn that fate avenges the murder of a
nnocent girl.That I accepted Devayani’s hand i
marriage was not for these two reason
only. The shadow of a deadly curse from
a great sage hung on our family. It would
need the blessing of an equally grea
sage to ward off that curse. He woul
undertake grave penance to counter thcurse.
Without a thought for the past or futur
and without consulting anyone, Devayan
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was eager to be my bride; I was equall
eager to take her hand in marriage.
However, my personal experience o
Devayani’s father, Maharishi Shukra
proved quite different. He was very fon
of his daughter. But he did not seem to
value much the fact that she was the wifof a great king. Maharishi Shukra had n
hought for the fact that it was necessar
o identify himself with my well bein
and to earn my goodwill.
Sharmishtha readily agreed to b
Devayani’s maid! She had willingl
sacrificed herself to the burning anger oDevayani, so that Maharishi Shukr
might not leave them in a huff, so that sh
might not imperil the safety of he
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people. That was great of her; but as a
ascetic, an elderly wise man or at leas
as the friend and preceptor of Kin
Vrishaparva, should he not havconsoled Sharmishtha?
I was in the demon kingdom for only
short while. But even in that space oime, it was borne in on me that fathe
and daughter lived in a world of thei
own.
When sending the daughter away t
her new house, tears rise in ever
father’s eyes. Maharishi Shukra was n
exception. But he immediately took maside and said, ‘King, Devayani is m
only daughter. Remember, her happines
s my happiness. Remember always, tha
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my blessing is in itself a great power o
earth. You have yourself witnessed how
King Vrishaparva has had to give in
how Sharmishtha has had to humiliatherself by having to be Devayani’s maid
So beware, never do anything at anytim
o hurt Devayani. Do not forget that heunhappiness is my unhappiness.’
I had thought that he would als
address a few words of advice t
Devayani. I had heard that on such a
occasion, it was usual to counsel
oung bride married to a king, how sh
should tend to the comfort of thhousehold, how it is her duty as a wif
o conduct herself to contribute to he
husband’s happiness, how she should
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ive in amity even with her co-wives
But after all Shukra is a great sage. I
never occurred to him to offer any suc
advice on mundane matters! In the end, ook my leave thinking that the great ar
n a world apart.
t was well past midnight. I had hear
he hour toll a long time ago. All thes
memories were crowding my mind and was tossing in bed and turning over fro
side to side. I could not sleep.
One moment I thought the whol
palace must be astir with the scenwhich Devayani had created today. No
one could have seen elsewhere,
maiden arrogantly running out of th
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bedroom on the marriage night. Th
stringency of social obligation
ncreases with the status. But wha
should never happen even in a hovel haoday taken place in the palace.
How much better it would have bee
f man did not have imagination enougo build castles in the air.
Devayani will come now sometim
and with her coming we shall forge
everything. I shall say, ‘You have been
brought up in very differen
surroundings. I should have known that
Forgive me for this once. You will nosee Yayati with a drink inside him in
our bedroom. If that is not enough,
swear by you, never to touch a drop
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again. Never again will my lips touc
any liquor anywhere.’ She will put he
hands round me and say, ‘Like me you
have also grown up in a very differenenvironment. You are a Kshatriya
warrior king, you have to rule and g
nto battle. The stimulus of liquor inecessary to you. It is not right for me t
stand in the way of such trivia
ndulgences. But what can I do? I jus
cannot bear the smell of alcohol. All beg of you is that, hereafter you shoul
not take a drink before coming to me.’
Another hour tolled. I was still tossinabout in bed! Without rhyme or reason
was listening for Devayani’s footstep
But none came.
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I got up from bed with a tormente
mind. The pricking of disgrace and
craving body are indeed strange. Lik
he poison of a snake, outwardlnsignificant but mortally effectiv
within.
I was looking out into the darknesfrom the window. I had take
Devayani’s hand in marriage to gain
ove nobler and greater than wha
Mukulika or Alaka had given me. But th
bed of roses which I had chosen for th
bridal night was infested with the youn
of reptiles.The man in me woke up! The king i
me was roused. I kept repeating t
myself that I could find the pleasure
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was seeking anywhere at anytime o
earth. I am an uncommon man, a warrio
and a great king, and if I so will, I ca
have a new beauty in my bed everyday.
Next morning also, I was still ver
angry. I thought of going hunting to a fa
off place, when Sharmishtha came ihurriedly and with folded hands said
Her Majesty is not well since last night
The royal physician was called a littl
while ago. There is no cause for anxiety
But if Your Majesty would be pleased to
call on her, Her Majesty is likely to
benefit more than by any medicine.’While talking, Sharmishtha had
fascinating smile on her face. It seeme
ike the golden streak of lightning in
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cloudless sky. I suddenly remembered
— last night there was a maid standin
outside with something in a salver.
ried to recall. I did not remembeclearly. I asked her, ‘You ... were you
standing outside yesterday?’
She hung her head as much as to saes! How was it I did not notic
Sharmishtha last night? Had I bee
pressed into drinking too much wine?
Seeing that I was thoughtful she said
Your Majesty, I have been He
Majesty’s friend from childhood. Sh
has always been a bit short temperedYour Majesty must not take it to heart.’
She paused a little and then said, ‘A
maid may not indulge in poetry, it is true
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but all poets agree that love is tam
without strife.’ My heart unconsciousl
melted looking at her. She was pleadin
for Devayani who had last night madher stand outside the bedroom and thu
rampled on and tried to crush all he
ender feelings.I said in jest, ‘Sharmishtha, who taugh
ou such love?’
Idly looking at her nails, she queried
Must one have a teacher fo
everything?’
‘Who has attained knowledge in thi
world except through the words of preceptor? And love is the greates
knowledge of all. Even greater tha
Sanjeevani.’
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‘In that case, I will give you the nam
of my tutor!’ She said ‘It is Kacha!’
‘Kacha?’ I interjected in surprise.
Sharmishtha urged, ‘Is not You
Majesty coming to the Queen’
apartment?’
I went to Devayani’s rooms witSharmishtha following me. My agitate
mind had calmed down talking to her
Anger had given place to forgiveness.Was Devayani really ill? I do no
know. But I thought her wan fac
resembled the gloomy paleness of th
moon, showing behind grey clouds. ook her hand in mine. Our hand
conveyed what we could not say i
words or express in our eyes.
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I bent down to kiss the tears away
Suddenly she clasped my hands and sai
n an endearing tone — not unlike th
drawl of a person half awake — ‘Youwill not take it again?’
I realised she was talking abou
iquor. My pride was hurt. But Devayanwas ill. My Devayani was ill! It wa
necessary that nothing should be done t
upset her.
She rubbed her palm — delicate as
flower — on mine and said, ‘You won’
ake it? For my sake ...’
‘Promise me,’ she said, smiling.Outwardly smiling I said, ‘To retai
his tender hand in mine for all time,
could make a hundred promises!’
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‘Oh no. It is not that easy. You have to
swear by the feet of my father.’
It was very difficult for me to hol
myself in this time. But I did somehow
and took the oath.
Devayani was smiling now. It was no
he smile of a lover only, it waobviously tinged with pride. It was th
smile of a pretty woman, who in he
arrogance thought she could reduce
man to utter subjection.
I had suffered sheer defeat in this firs
battle of love. I religiously kept m
word about liquor. Our life was nownormal.
I still recall those days. The day
hardly count. I mention them as day
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because the sun used to rise in betwee
and separate us for twelve hours or so
Otherwise, if it were night, Yayat
would be swimming in an ocean opleasure, all the time.
At dawn, I would be annoyed at th
wittering of birds in the garden. To mhey appeared unromantic. Hearing thei
witter, Devayani used to get impatien
o return to her apartment. Then I woul
say, ‘The night is still young. You need
not go away yet!’
She hardly ever believed me and
would protest: ‘No, I just cannot beahis long separation. How can I pass th
ime? Leave me something for a token.’
Then I would start kissing her all ove
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— once, twice, thrice — but I was stil
hungry.
She would gently disengage hersel
and say in a tantalising tone, ‘Enough
Too much is bad for one.’
I would not stop and ask for only on
more — ‘But your one becomes a hundred ...’
‘You have grown up in a hermitage
You will not understand the arithmetic oove. In this arithmetic, one may eve
mean a hundred, a thousand or a million
t depends on the occasion.’
She would smile and turn away.
would be left looking avidly at he
retreating figure.
Other memories fade with time, bu
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he colourful memory of love seems t
shine brightly forever. I do not know
why it should be but it is so.
For the first few months each nigh
danced into my rooms, with tinklin
bells made of stars, bringing with i
nnumerable jugs of honey. I drank themdown and was yet thirsty. Those light
were beautiful lakes. Multi-coloure
with the lotuses of love blossoming —
But what is the use of narrating al
his? It is not considered decent to tal
freely of bodily pleasures. But if one ca
alk of the soul which brings eternahappiness why should it be taboo to tal
openly of love which brings to men an
women as great a pleasure? What i
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here in it that one need conceal or b
ashamed of?
The fragrance of those swee
memories of love has evaporated and it
petals have fallen; all that remain are th
horns! That is why —
I strove for sometime to build aunusually beautiful world of our ow
round Devayani and myself. A world in
which I was not the son of King Nahush
with the curse and she was not th
daughter of Maharishi Shukra; a worl
n which if death called Yayati
Devayani would answer the call and ieternal Time asked for Devayani, Yayat
would meet the challenge; a world i
which Devayani would turn her back o
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I cannot tell you how far my thought
were tinged with desire. But ther
certainly was at least a particle o
sentiment — plain, straightforwardclean love.
She had beauty in full measure. Sh
was a devotee to beauty, she was aadept at make-up, but none of it was fo
me. Devayani lived for herself and onl
for herself.
Sharmishtha once mentioned that sh
was a great danseuse. I was eager to se
her dance. But she put me off with
There are many dancing girls at court.When she was the daughter of a sage
she delighted in dancing — now, sh
was queen. If she danced even for he
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She wanted to throw the hair away.
alone know what considerable difficult
had retrieving it.
am unable to state coherently what
want to say — this thought persists. I
man incapable of laying bare his hearfully? How many outlets are there to th
heart? Shame, decorum — setting al
considerations aside, our first yeaogether is narrated here.
No. It is very difficult. But one thing i
certain. My imperfection was hurtin
and tormenting me. I wanted fullness o
ife. The hankering had reference both t
he body and the mind.
Devayani did give me some bodil
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pleasure. But even in its giving, sh
never overflowed with life. Quite ofte
she pretended to be asleep in bed.
would tip-toe up to her and place mips on hers. But the kiss chilled me
During my sojourn with the victor
horse, I had kissed the stone image of thgoddess of love. I was unconsciousl
reminded of it. The kiss did not make m
blood surge like lightning. M
oneliness, my imperfection, mncompleteness remained to torment me
f we were near each other in body, w
were poles apart in mind.I had learnt from Mukulika that lov
was a natural escape from all fear an
unhappiness. The love she gave me wa
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ike a forest path, and strewn with thorn
untrodden. But Devayani’s love wa
quite unlike it. It was not stolen, it wa
not sinful in the least. It was pure, it wablessed and authorised by divine canons
t was the royal road laid over wit
carpets of flowers and ornamented witdesigns in coloured pigment. And eve
so, I was the solitary traveller on it.
I wanted love fragrant as a flower
mperceptible but gently pervading al
round. I never had such love fro
Devayani.
Were we even at least of one mindo. If she had given me a place in he
heart — then perhaps Yayati’s life
would have taken a very different turn.
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If and then — all such speculation
are mere flowers of fancy. That I wa
unsatisfied even with a beautiful wif
ike Devayani is the truth — nothing buhe truth.
Hunger of love — what else is it bu
hunger? Hunger at midday, deep sleep amidnight and thirst in summer are all
strange phenomenon. It is as subtle as
s irresistible!
The physical part of the hunger of lov
s easily described. Every yout
experiences it. But the menta
counterpart of love is different. I alscannot clearly define it. But even whe
Devayani was in my bed, th
consciousness of being lonely was ofte
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unbearable.
I had to spend my days in suc
oneliness. I was hankering for a mat
all the time. I was looking for one to tal
o, to joke with, to confide in, to shar
my unhappiness. I was looking for
companion, who would not move even istung by a scorpion, lest I, who wa
sleeping peacefully in her lap, b
disturbed. I was looking for a friend t
whom I could relate my golden dream
and confess to my lapses. I was lookin
for partner who could create confidenc
n me that even if we did not get anythino eat on this uninhabited island, w
would live on the honey and nectar i
our lips — and if death came to tak
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away one, insist that he take the othe
one also.
Devayani was never able to satisf
his hunger of mine.
Once I casually said to Devayan
There is something I very much wis
for; but I do not think it will be granten this life.’
She said smiling, ‘What is there in thi
world that the King of Hastinapur cannoget?’
I replied, ‘Poverty.’
‘You want to be poor?’
‘Sometimes I wish that a powerfu
enemy would invade our kingdom, that
should be defeated, that then we tw
would sneak away into a forest i
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he royal splendour, she loved to b
Queen! She did not love Yayati. Yayati
was only an instrument of fulfilling he
wishes.
This realisation often made m
restless. And yet, I did everythin
possible to make her happy. I was noprepared to forego the pleasure, which
could take. Unbeknown she had ensnare
me with the wile of her beauty. But
could never openly share m
unhappiness with her.
One whose only thought is for himselfone who is absorbed in oneself, one wh
ooks at the world through one’s eye
alone, indeed one who does not see th
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world as anything beyond oneself i
never able to realise the sensibilities o
another; but engaged in self worship
unconsciously turns blind in his/her minand deaf in his/her heart.
Devayani would always find i
everything only that which suited heown inclination.
This is what happened at the first tow
celebrations after our marriage. It wa
celebrated with great eclat. Everyon
was all admiration for the new Queen
Every night there were staged varie
tems of entertainment. We were bothpresent to see them.
On the first day, a play based on th
ife of my great grandfather Pururav
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was staged.
Urvashi was staying with Pururava o
certain conditions. Unknowingly, h
breaks the conditions. She, therefore
eaves him. The king is distraught at he
separation and roves the world in searc
of her. In the end he comes to a lakeThere he finds his beloved. The kin
entreats her with all he can to return wit
him. But she will not give in. In the end
he is bent on suicide. Urvashi replie
hus, ‘Do not throw yourself down th
precipice. King, remember one thing, i
s not possible to remain friends witwomen for all time, because their heart
are like those of wolves.’ With thes
words she vanishes into the air. The kin
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embraces the stone where she wa
standing and faints away.
At this last scene, the audience sighe
and were touched. Devayani was th
only one in the audience who clapped i
applause. Devayani was smiling at me
victoriously, perhaps implying that shwas the Urvashi and I the Pururava o
his generation. That stung — but no —
et me forget it.
Next day was scheduled a scene base
on the dialogues of Agastya an
Lopamudra from the Rigveda. Agasty
was a Brahmin sage and Lopamudra Kshatriya princess. When I helpe
Devayani out of the well, she ha
mentioned Lopamudra. So, I said in jest
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In this scene, I should have acte
Agastya and you Lopamudra.’
Even after marriage, Agastya was
celibate for a long time. He was sayin
o her, ‘Every dawn rises to bring a new
day on earth. But everyday is slowl
aking us nearer old age. In old age, thimbs of men and women weaken int
senility. Their beauty fades. Dea
Lopamudra, with this bitter truth openl
staring us in the face, why should w
stay away from each other any longer?
Lopamudra doubts what he says. To
resolve her doubts, he says, ‘There inothing improper in a husband and wif
coming together. If the pleasure of thei
union was undesirable as to b
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prohibited why should the Prime Creato
have indulged in making man and woma
wo different beings?’
Even then Lopamudra does not go t
him. In the end Lopamudra puts her hea
on his shoulder and only says, ‘Men tal
about it; women don’t. But they are botonging for the same pleasure.’
This scene was appreciated by th
audience with great understanding —
even gaiety. But Devayani wa
displeased. She said, ‘Lopamudra is
great fool. She should have replied t
his bearded sage in some such vein aUrvashi’s yesterday.’
She was however deeply interested i
he show on the third day. The stor
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depicted a king posing as a danseuse
The part was acted by a dancing gir
herself. But Devayani said, ‘How wel
he king acts the part. I am wondering fosometime now what part would suit yo
most.’ After a little thought, she said
You will make a perfect sage. With abeard and long hair, a rudrakshamala
wooden sandals, a water carafe in th
hand and a deerskin under the arm woul
do it. Even I could be deceived.’ Andshe burst out laughing.
Retorting in jest I said, ‘I have take
an oath before Mother in my childhood.’‘All right. We shall see ...’
* * *
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It was dawn. I bowed before Mothe
and took her blessing. It only remaine
for Devayani to bid farewell in th
raditional way. Sharmishtha brought thsalver containing the lamp and othe
articles of worship. Devayani was abou
o take it in hand, when a maid came ihurriedly and announced the arrival of
messenger outside.
Devayani started out. The priest
muttered something like, ‘Your Majesty
.. the auspicious time!’
The priests were troubled lest th
auspicious time might pass by. In thend, Sharmishtha was asked by Mothe
o perform the traditional ritual. She pu
he red tilak on my forehead.
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Devayani pranced back with he
father’s letter like a child. She suddenl
urned to Mother and said, ‘Mother, Hi
Majesty will certainly return victoriousFather has sent him his blessings just i
ime.’
She gave me the letter to read. It said:
I am very lonely in the hermitage
since you left. There is nothing
wanting, yet I have the persistentfeeling that something is lacking! I
do not know if every father, sending
his daughter away, has the same
experience.
Things being thus, I think it would
be better to undertake the penance. I
was unable to keep Sanjeevani as I
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should have. And Lord Shiva must
be angry with me for it. I shall
probably have to undertake an even
more difficult penance. But have nocare, my girl. Your father will not
rest until he has acquired some
unique power like Sanjeevani.You might feel that I need not
subject my body to such hardships,
but Devayani this is a world of
power politics. I had acquired a
unique power. I lost it from being an
addict to wine. But it is one thing to
live honourably as the Lord andMaster of the world, with such
power in one’s armoury and quite
another to exist as a weakling who
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is helpless and therefore reduced to
an insignificant life. The first can be
called life, the second living death!
You will now understand why I am
anxious to sit in penance. If you start
immediately after getting this letter,
you will still be in time to see me before I enter the cave.
I am eagerly looking forward to
your visit. If your husband can spare
the time from his royal obligations,
bring him along. God bless him.
looked up from the letter. Sharmishthhad perhaps hoped that Maharish
Shukra might have mentioned her in th
etter or at least remembered her enoug
o send his blessings. She was sure tha
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f there was a reference, I would tell her
With some such thoughts I heaved
sigh at which Devayani said, ‘You
Majesty need not take it to heart. I shal
return soon after seeing Father. I shal
certainly not stay long! We women leave
our hearts behind us in our homes, eveon our visits to our parental home.’
The priests were grumbling becaus
he auspicious time for leaving th
palace had lapsed. She ignored them an
said, ‘I have in mind to perform
sacrifice to wish Father well on m
return. By then, Your Majesty will alsohave returned.’
‘I may not return in time.’
‘That will not do. You must specially
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return for the sacrifice and then g
back.’
I was about to oppose her whe
Mother came to her rescue. She wa
glad that great sages and ascetics woul
be among us for the sacrifice. I quietl
agreed to Devayani’s proposal. Shsaid, ‘I shall not leave until after th
arrangements for the sacrifice are on th
way. At least fifty ascetics should b
here. Kacha should also be called ...’
‘Kacha?’ I said in confusion. Why ha
she so much regard for Kacha? H
stayed a long time in Maharishi Shukra’hermitage. Is it possible that they fell i
ove? Or were their relations an
different?
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Devayani had once talked in her slee
somewhat incoherently. It was quit
clear in a moment. While in th
hermitage, Kacha probably gathereflowers for her; she desired that h
should braid them in hair —
That plainly points to love. It was nomere friendship.
No, there would be no point in callin
Kacha for the sacrifice.
I looked at Sharmishtha. Her gloo
had disappeared at the mention o
Kacha. She had told me, ‘Kacha taugh
me to love.’ What did that meanWhatever it be! If he came and me
Sharmishtha, the unfortunate girl, leadin
he life of a slave, will get some respite
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I said, ‘Consult the Prime Minister i
ssuing invitations to the principal sages
But do include Maharishi Angiras i
hem.’
It maybe this sudden remembrance o
Maharishi Angiras or the sight of th
glorious Himalayan peak visible frohe northern border ... one could not tak
one’s eyes off that trident shaped pea
among them. In this campaign I wa
reminded of Yati over and over again.
had practically forgotten about him in th
ast year. I had omitted to make eve
casual enquiry if Yati, in search of hiobjective had come to Maharishi Shukr
and if so, what had happened to him
One unconsciously centres on oneself. I
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t were otherwise, I should at sometim
have given a thought to Yati. The
remembrance came now, and I eve
hought for a moment that I should go afar as the foothills of the Himalayas
Learning that King Yayati was himsel
eading the army, the guerilla Dasyuscattered into the forest and there was n
cause for actual battle.
In a way, I was free to search for Yati
But I was restless with thoughts o
Devayani. I knew that my love for he
was largely physical. But the body ache
for her. I renewed the arrangements foprotection against the Dasyus an
returned to the capital.
Devayani had returned from her vis
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o Maharishi Shukra before me
Arrangements for the sacrifice were i
full swing in the capital. But althoug
everything was going according to heplans, she did not seem pleased t
welcome me back.
The cause was the letter from Maharish
Angiras. He wrote:
I cannot come. Unless I am satisfied
that the penance of MaharishiShukra stems from benign motives
and that the power achieved will be
used only towards the good of the
world, I am unable to participate in
a sacrifice directed to wish him
well.
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When, on purpose, I told her tha
Angiras had been preceptor to Kacha
she was stunned for a moment. Knowin
hat Sharmishtha would be disappointef Kacha did not come, I said, ‘I wis
Kacha could come. He is a friend of m
childhood.’ I had not seen Sharmishthsince my return. I asked Devayani abou
her when she said, ‘I have sent her t
Ashokavan.’
She added, ‘What was her right t
perform the ritual for you and put the re
mark on your forehead on the day you se
out for the campaign?’‘But Mother asked her to do ...’
‘As a Kshatriya princess, she is ver
near to her ... almost a blood relation
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She must be planning to make her you
queen!’
I laughed, ‘Mother may have he
plans, but you are hardly likely to let he
succeed.’
‘Umm. What is so difficult about it
Do you know that your worthy Mothepoisoned one of the maids of the palace
can tell you all about everything tha
goes on.’
The conversation had taken o
unpleasant turn. I kept quiet so as to ste
t.
But a night equally filled with happdreams had rarely come my way. Tha
night Devayani told me of her secret
The very intimate sweet secret. Th
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mystery of woman’s life. She wa
expecting.
I was thrilled. Devayani — to have
baby. I was going to be a father. Will i
be a boy or girl? If a boy, what would h
ook like? They say that children wit
he face of their mothers are happyWhether a boy or girl, we must both pra
everyday that it has the mother’
features.
Devayani was to be a mother. He
ittle one was going to prattle ma-ma
That night every moment was enlivene
with a sweet dream. I was floating like swan on the waves of dreams.
The sacrifice was performed with du
eclat. Some prominent sages lik
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Agastya and Angiras were unable to
come. Barring that blemish, th
ceremony went well. Devayani kep
hoping that some day Kacha woulcome.
Court was held in honour of th
assembled guests. Even Mother wapresent behind a curtain in rear of th
hrone.
A pregnant woman carries a peculia
glow, not unlike the earth with the bloom
of crops. I realised this when I saw th
eyes of the ladies in the gathering glue
o Devayani in admiration. I was greatlflattered.
I was filled with joyful pride whe
doing obeisance with her, before th
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saints and sages, and later mounting th
hrone with her.
Devayani had particularly sent fo
Sharmishtha from the Ashokavan. He
ntentions became apparent at court. Sh
wanted Sharmishtha to be near to fa
her.The sages took grains of rice in thei
hands to bestow their blessing. Just the
he Prime Minister whispered in my ea
and said, ‘Kacha is outside.’
Devayani overheard and said, ‘Escor
him in with deference and take him to hi
place of honour among the gathering.’‘He does not seem to want to com
n.’
Devayani was angry. ‘Why? Lik
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Angiras ... has he also gone queer? Doe
he wish to insult us after coming to th
capital? In that case ...’
The Prime Minister folded his hands
No. Your Majesty there is no such
hing. He is accompanied by an asceti
who appears to be beside his mind. SKachadeva prefers ...’
Devayani said, ‘No matter ... brin
him in with the mendicant. And look,
am a sister to him. Bring him straight t
he throne. I shall bow and take hi
blessing and then you can lead him to hi
place.’The Prime Minister hastened out. In
ittle while Kacha and his companio
came in. The whole gathering turned t
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hem. A faint murmur from the sages
welcoming Kacha, rolled up.
I scanned the mendicant accompanyin
him, when Kacha came forward. I coul
not believe my eyes. I did not know if
was dreaming or had gone off my mind.
He was Yati.The three of them stood before th
hrone. Devayani got up to bow t
Kacha. It would have been contrary tdecorum if I had continued sitting. I als
got up smiling.
Just as Devayani was about to bow, h
noticed Sharmishtha standing there wita fan. He was astounded. He suddenl
exclaimed, ‘Princess? You ... here?’
Devayani quickly raised herself up
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ittle and said, ‘Sage Kacha, she is n
onger a princess.’
So far Yati was casting wild glance
around. Pointing to Sharmishtha, he sai
o Devayani ‘Will you give me this maid
of yours?’
She asked Yati, ‘Why do you want hersire? For a wife?’
Kacha was warning Yati off with hi
eyes. But Yati’s eyes were fixed onSharmishtha.
On seeing Yati in this condition I was
reminded of the curse ‘The children o
King Nahusha will never be happy.’
Yati laughed grotesquely, ‘Wife? No
am going to change her into a man.’
The gathering burst into laughter
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which immediately subsided and wa
followed by a pall of fright.
From behind the curtain Mothe
shouted, ‘Prime Minister, take th
unatic away. If he talks such nonsens
again, have him flogged!’
The Prime Minister made a sign. Thguards came forward to take Yati away.
I did not take in what was happenin
before me. My mind was whirling withe curse. I could not bear to see Yati’s
humiliation. I ordered, ‘Don’t touch him
He is the rightful heir to this throne.’
Devayani wondered wide-eyed if had lost my senses. I calmly said to th
court in words which were distinctl
audible: ‘He is my elder brother. Hi
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name is Yati.’
From behind the curtain came th
wail, ‘Yati’ and immediately Mothe
rushed out, in defiance of all decorum
She had only to look at Yati. She could
not bear to see that terrible apparition
She closed her eyes and collapsed to thground, with her arms outstretche
saying: ‘Yati? My Yati?’
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I
DEVAYAN
s
Kacha an enemy from my earlier birthThe whole ceremony had gone off wel
Kacha had parted from me pronouncin
a curse. On the pretext of the sacrifice,
sent him an invitation to make hirealise that I was not the least bit wors
off for his curse. Now Devayani was
ruling queen.
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I felt that he might not relish facing hi
beloved as queen but I also knew how
deeply he had loved Devayani at on
ime. Man may spurn love but can hever forget it? Kacha was not there at th
start and he had not come till the finish
The queen in me was pleased. But thDevayani in me grieved.
The Prime Minister brought the new
of his arrival in the court. My joy knew
no bounds. I sat on the throne, thousand
of eyes centred on me in admiration o
my beauty with Princess Sharmishth
fanning me as a maid. The great sagechanted auspicious hymns, in blessin
us. Kacha would see and realise how
grievously he had erred in rejecting me.
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Kacha denied me fulfilment of m
ove. I thought I would have the pleasur
of wreaking vengeance, but my weapo
boomeranged. The satisfaction orevenge was there, but for Kacha.
* * *
Mother is invariably taciturn. Her min
s deep as a well. Nobody can fatho
from her appearance what is going o
nside. But throwing decorum to th
winds, forgetting her place as Quee
Mother, she had come forwardscreaming, ‘Yati! My Yati!’ and
collapsed on the ground before th
gathering. What a shame! How
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derogatory to a Queen Mother’s dignity!
There was chaos in the courtroom
The wretch had brought great ill omen t
Father’s penance! After all, Yati was of
his head. But why could His Majesty no
keep his? Nobody at court except h
knew that Yati was his brother. EvenKacha who brought him in was unawar
of his identity.
Somewhere along the way, villager
were stoning the looney! Kacha saw
and his compassion was roused. H
brought him along.
Or is it that this house is cursed witnsanity? What a figure that Yati is. Hi
Majesty’s behaviour also — I canno
foresee what calamity might not befall u
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f the wretch continues to stay here
Mother might even insist that a regenc
should rule in his name. Her filial lov
has awakened, and in passing, she coulhumiliate me. After all, he is the elde
brother. His Majesty had himself said in
open court, ‘He is the rightful heir to thhrone.’
Oh no. His Majesty had acte
rrationally at the court.
This house is not cursed with insanit
only. There is weakness for women also
Truly hereditary. They say my father-in
aw defeated Lord Indra! He may havbut he was also smitten by Indrani’
beauty. Mother had hidden it from m
but the old maid told me everything.
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Yati, with a beard and long hair
wearing his saffron coloured gown o
renunciation had only to look a
Sharmishtha and he asked for her in thpresence of the whole gathering.
Why laugh at him? He, poor wretch
ran away as a child and took to thungle. But look at King Yayat
renowned for his heroism. He wo
aurels when out with the victory horse
ow anointed king, did he also not me
at the sight of a beautiful maide
stepping out of a well? How readily
woman sees through a man. She can reahis good and bad points clearly in hi
eyes. When I stepped out of the wel
how avidly His Majesty was looking a
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me.
A woman can instinctively read
passion in the eyes of a man. She i
certain from his avid eyes that he woul
be an easy prey.
If it was Kacha, I would not hav
dared even to say, ‘Give me your hand!Even if I had, he would not have give
t.
I was attracted to Kacha by such traitn his character. I would not have give
him a second thought, if from the momen
he came into the hermitage he ha
hovered round me, seeming eager to bnear me, or if I found him looking avidl
at me. But I never saw desire in his eyes
There was no passion in his bearing
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Women like just such men. They turn
heir backs on men who chase them an
hey chase men who turn their backs o
hem. How strange but true!
Kacha used to gather my favourit
wild flowers at some risk to his life
Those flowers often told me how deeplhe was in love with me. In the dead o
night they would whisper into my ear
But Kacha never mentioned it.
Once, a thorn pricked me in th
garden. In jest, I told him that I had bee
bitten by a snake. The tears that came t
his eyes then plainly reflected hifeelings.
He used to say his prayers to th
Almighty in a bower in the corner of th
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realisation that the man standing on th
edge of the well was the King o
Hastinapur .... In that instant I wa
determined to be his favourite queen. Toforget the pangs of unrequited love,
needed the intoxication of splendour, th
arrogance of power and a husband whwould dance to my tune ... A lusting
husband would stay in my control.
All this I gained in a moment. But tha
wretch of an ascetic accompanyin
Kacha —
t does not matter whether this mad mastays here or goes away. I am the quee
and propose to stay queen.
I insisted that he should not be kept i
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he palace so that his influence an
following might not grow. It is just a
well that they have all gone to th
Ashokavan. Who knows what foolishings that idiot would have done here?
So that I maybe kept informed of wha
goes on at Ashokavan I have deputed thold maid, among others, ostensibly t
wait on the Queen Mother. She narrate
funny stories. He has not yet recognise
his mother.
In his pilgrimage, God bestowed
good gift on Kacha. What a jewel he ha
found! And with great regard he broughhim here.
Evil seems to follow Yat
everywhere. On that day of the farewel
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ceremony, we drove to court in a chario
n perfect sunshine. There was not
speck of cloud anywhere in the sky. I
ooked more like spring than the rainseason. But Yati had only to enter the
courtroom and there was chaos here
here and everywhere.When we returned that evening, th
sky was overcast with thick blac
clouds. It was dark like an undergroun
passage. Soon lightning flashed
Lightning? It looked like snakes in a
underground passage.
Then came pouring rain. For four dayt simply rained! River Yamuna was in
flood. Life in the capital had becom
disorganised. The Prime Minister wa
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roubled that the Yamuna would rise
further, devastating villages on its banks
It was the midnight of the fourth day! I
was still raining, now a downpour an
hen a drizzle. When the rain stopped
ou could hear big drops of wate
dripping from the higher branches to thones below. After a while, it poured
again. His Majesty was asleep, but I wa
awake. My thoughts toyed with the ide
of the coming baby, wondering what i
would look like. Seeing it, will it remin
people of me? Whose eyes and nose wil
t have? Would it have thick hair? Will have a small, tiny mouth? Will it run to
me stumbling on the way calling me ma
before turning to His Majesty saying da
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da?
Suddenly I heard the sound of hoove
on the cobblestones outside. Was
dreaming?
I opened the door and hastened out.
had indeed heard horse’s hooves
Mother had sent a messenger.Agitated, the messenger asked me
Has the ascetic come here?’
I knew that Kacha was in the habit owandering far away into a quiet place t
sit in meditation there. As it was pas
midnight, Mother must have sent th
messenger to find out if he had comhere.
I replied, ‘No. Kacha has not bee
here.’
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He stuttered, ‘Kacha is there, but tha
other ascetic ... revered Yati.’
‘What has happened to him?’ ‘Who
knows where he has run away?
When?’
‘He was in Ashokavan till three hour
after nightfall. The Queen Mother awoka little later and found that Prince Yat
was not in his bed.’
I awoke His Majesty, who promptlrode to Ashokavan. Despite a diligen
search, Yati was not to be found.
Next day, there was a strange rumou
n the capital. They said, someone haseen Yati walking across the flooded
Yamuna!
Where Yati had hidden himself in the
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darkness, how he got away inspite of th
vigil for him, where he went to i
pouring rain, whether he walked on th
waters of the Yamuna or was drownedn it, no one knew for certain.
I said to myself, ‘It is good riddance.’
went to Ashokavan to enquire abou
Mother. I pressed her to return to th
palace. She preferred to stay where shwas.
I met Kacha there. We talked for a
while, but it was very casual. He neve
visited the palace. His Majesty used t
visit Ashokavan everyday to see hi
mother. Everytime on coming back h
said, ‘It was very nice to meet an ol
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friend like Kacha. Time flies in hi
company.’ Kacha had time to talk to
everybody and to undertake insignifican
ittle tasks for all and sundry but not tsee Devayani.
I had asked him once when I wa
here: ‘When will you visit the palace?He only said, ‘We shall see.’ Hi
egoism remained. Even now he does no
understand Devayani!
Something within me assured me
however, that one day he would come to
see me. Every morning the cheerfu
dawn would whisper, ‘Kacha will comoday. He wishes to surprise you b
coming without warning.’ I would the
merrily set about preparing for hi
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welcome. A seat which from a distance
appeared like a throne, delicious fru
artfully laid out in a golden salver, smal
delicately made garlands of his favouritflowers, everything was kept ready i
my apartment. After all, he was an
eccentric sage. Who could tell when hwould appear?
One, two, three, full seven day
passed by. Kacha had time to sit chattin
with His Majesty for hours. But he ha
no time to come and see me. I was s
angry with him. He came to Hastinapu
on an invitation. And that from me. Buhe did not have the ordinary courtesy t
call at the palace.
Nonetheless, I did want all the tim
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hat he should come to see me, that w
should talk together freely, that he shoul
enquire about me, that we should recal
he happy days we had spent togetherhat their memory should distress me an
ears come to my eyes, for no particula
reason, and with them wash away thDevayani who was Queen.
When Kacha had left me with a curse
had resolved never again to shed tears
At parting from Father I bowed and bi
him farewell. He put his hand on m
head with a blessing. How he wa
rembling. I was greatly moved but not ear came to my eyes. Devayani wa
never, never again, going to cry.
I did feel, however, that when Kach
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came, sweet old memories should com
up and I should give way to tears so tha
would feel easier in mind. Is ther
comfort in tears? No, tears are the sigof a weak mind. Queen Devayani cry
And that for some musty old memories
o, that is not possible.
was now almost certain Kacha wa
going to leave without seeing me. On theighth day, I did not prepare for hi
welcome.
And by chance on that very day h
came. What a time I had looking aftehim. The servants brought in a statel
chair but he squatted on his deerskin.
I urged, ‘Kacha, you must sit here.’
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He looked at the chair and said, ‘No
hat this beautiful chair will hurt me. Bu
have made a rule. Why needlessl
break it?’
‘And what is the rule?’
‘It is really nothing much. If one ca
sleep on a deerskin, why take the troublof making a feather bed? If one must ea
wild roots and herbs, why should on
occasionally indulge in a banquet an
pamper the tongue? Devayani, man’
ongue is his worst enemy. I do not mea
hat only in the sense that it indulges i
words which hurt. But if it tastes a crispdelicacy one day, it prompts one to tast
t again.’
Tauntingly I retorted, ‘I suppose it i
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wrong for me, even as a queen, to wea
hese expensive clothes!’
He smiled and said, ‘Oh no, your cas
s different. You are a householder
Family life is your creed. I am a
ascetic. Renunciation is my creed
ndulgence of various kinds has aacknowledged place in your life. I
renunciation, it is unforgivable.’
Looking lingeringly at some flowers i
a golden vase on a table nearby, he said
So you still remember what I like. Tha
ou have time for such small things
nspite of your great responsibilities as queen, is ...’
‘It was because I thought of you, that
particularly sent you an invitation.’
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‘You remembered me inspite of my
curse and sent me an invitation. It i
great good fortune to have such
generous sister. It was unworthy of oung ascetic and even more so of
brother.’
With these words, he folded his handsHow grave he looked. He asked, ‘Am
forgiven?’
I hung my head saying, yes. Nex
moment I wondered if it was not al
playacting! If Devayani was so dear t
him and he wanted to beg he
forgiveness, why had he kept away foso long?
I said with a smile, ‘It is many day
since you came to Hastinapur. You neve
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came to see me. So I wondered if th
brother had forgotten his sister?’
‘A rich brother might neglect a poo
sister but how can a poor brother forge
his rich sister?’
He added, ‘I was looking for the wa
o the heart of the mistress of thpalace.’ I was unable to understand him
He calmly said, ‘I am going to as
something of you!’
I stammered, ‘What is it?’
‘You should release Sharmishtha from
bondage!’
Angry, I asked him, ‘What shall I do
with her on releasing her? Exchang
places with her? Make her the Queen o
my rival?’
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He kept calm and said, ‘I ca
understand that in a fit of anger yo
nsisted on her being your maid. Bu
man’s greatness lies in mastering thpassions with the help of thought.
Seeing that I was quiet, he added
Devayani, imagine yourself for moment in her place. If you had to spen
our life as her maid ...’
I said disparagingly, ‘I? A maid?
Calmly he said, ‘Devayani, destiny ca
be very wayward and heartless. When i
will beggar the queen into a maid an
make a queen of a maid ...’I said deprecatingly, ‘I understand
hese subtle words, Kacha!’
‘Forgive me if I have said anything t
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offend you. There is only one way t
understand the unhappy plight of another
hat is to imagine oneself in his place. S
far Kacha has not had to ask Devayanfor anything. He thought maybe she wil
give these alms to her brother.’
I realised it was no use getting into aargument with him. I turned blind, dea
and mute. His eyes were neither hard no
pathetic. They were blank. But th
essence of all mystic power and magi
was concentrated in them. Kacha’s look
were no different.
I was gathering my strength to fighhim.
By bringing Yati to court he had
brought ill omen to Father’s penance
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Father was his preceptor. Father had
brought him back to life. But he had n
word of respect for or devotion to him
He has seen my dazzling palace but hano praise for me. And yet, he had th
audacity to offer me gratuitous advice t
release Sharmishtha from bondage. Hdid not hesitate a second when breakin
my heart! I will not give him any alms!
I got up to leave without looking a
him.
Kacha also got up. He said calmly
Your Majesty, I am leaving for Bhrigu
Mountain tomorrow. I propose to engagmyself in prayer and meditation i
solitude.’
I bowed to him while he was stil
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alking. Blessing me, he said, ‘When an
n what circumstances we shall mee
again, the Almighty alone knows. I onl
pray that He may give the Queeguidance and you, Devayani, happines
forever.’
ext morning, Mother sent word that sh
had decided to accompany Kacha int
he mountains. His Majesty was upset at. The thought that Mother wa
renouncing life and going into the jungl
made a child of him. I also presse
Mother to stay, so that people should nosay that she left because of me. But sh
was determined.
She left directly from Ashokavan
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Before leaving she drew me aside an
said, ‘My girl, there is nothing that I now
wish for. But for no reason, I am anxiou
about Yayu. He is like a childRemember a word of wisdom from m
experience. It is not enough for a youn
woman to be her husband’s wife. Shhas to be companion, sister, daughte
and indeed, on occasion, even a mothe
o him.’
I was convinced, from what the ol
maid told me about a conversatio
between mother and son, that her advic
was mere pretension, in fact, sheeplayacting.
Mother had advised His Majesty t
ook after himself and added, ‘Do let m
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know when my grandson arrives. I shal
be flattered if you give him your father’
name. Do you mind coming into th
garden with me? I would like to showou a herb.’
‘What is it a specific for?’
‘The ailment is ... it has no specifiname. But sometimes man is tired of lif
.. his own or someone else’s. I hope you
will have no occasion for it. But Yayu i
ou had a wife like Sharmishtha, I woul
have gone away without a care.’
Kacha was of a piece with Mother. A
fraud, an actor and treacherous. Aparting he had left a note wit
Sharmishtha for His Majesty.
In the end I plucked courage to ask Hi
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Majesty, ‘Anything special in tha
etter?’
He handed me the letter, adding, ‘No
really! But I keep thinking it would hav
been far better if, like Kacha, I had bee
born an ascetic.’
Kacha’s letter ran:
We have met after a long time.
Meeting a dear friend or
acquaintance and talking freelytogether is not a mere formality. It
has an element of communion of
souls. On such occasions, thecaptive soul, even if momentarily,
experiences the joy of being free.
Sages and ascetics undergo arduous
penance to perpetuate that joy. I had
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it in a measure in your company. I
shall always remember those happy
moments.
I pray that both of you will forgive
me with generosity for one thing.
Until coming here, I did not know of
Yati’s existence. I took pity on himas an unknown ascetic who had lost
his wits. I should not have brought
him to court in these circumstances.
But the Prime Minister conveyed to
me the urgent bidding of the Queen.
I thought Yati would be interested in
the company of the other sages hereand keep quiet.
But what transpired was quite
different. And strange. The
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anticlimax to the celebrations was
my doing. I have heard that
friendship forgives. I beg for
forgiveness.
I heard about Yati from you for the
first time. His condition today is
very pitiable.I have tried to reason why such a lot
has befallen him. His loss of reason
must be attributed to an extremely
one-sided and faulty line of thought.
Body and soul, man and woman are
the dual entities on which life is
based. Yati revolted against this basic fundamental conception. How
could it succeed?
Life is full of numerous conflicting
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duals. An ascetic does achieve and
experience eternal happiness in a
condition where duals cease to
exist. To realise it he adopts a rigidcode of conduct. But this code rests
essentially on his acceptance of the
fact that conflicting duals do exist. Itis only when the soul reveals its
existence through the body that it
can see the world. If the woman
does not bear the child for ninemonths, how can man be born? How
elementary these facts are! The
ordinary man accepts them as a partof his life. Being a natural part of
creation, he accepts its suzerainty.
Yati not only did not acknowledge
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the suzerainty of creation but denied
even its existence. Half of man ...
his body ... is regulated by
numerous laws of Nature. It is onlythrough the body that the soul can
soar. And it is only then that man
rises above Nature. He can dictateto Nature. This he can do, not by
turning away from Nature or
spurning it, but by bowing to its
existence.
Man is the supreme link between
Nature and God. God transcends all
conflict and Nature has noconception of conflicting duals.
Man alone has it. The river that
provides water for the thirsty
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person also drowns him when he
ventures into deep water.
Nature does not differentiate
between right and wrong; man alone
can do it. If a mother’s only child is
being drowned the river does not
feel anything in the matter. But if another man is there on the bank ...
provided it is a man who has
progressed from the bare instinct to
live to higher values ... he will do
everything possible to save that life,
even at the risk to his own.
No, even after writing at such lengthI have not succeeded in making
myself clear. My knowledge and
meditation are so little. I am a
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traveller in quest of truth, but I have
a long way to go yet.
In our talks I frequently referred to
the soul. You asked me once or
twice with a smile, ‘Where is this
soul?’ I was unable to offer a
satisfactory explanation. But I praythat you will constantly keep before
you the following allegorical sketch
drawn by an ancient sage. The
allegory runs thus:
In human life, the soul is the
passenger, the body the chariot,
conscience the charioteer and mindthe reins. The different senses are
the horses, all the items of
enjoyment are the roads, and the
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soul with senses and the mind
attached to it has to use them.
If there is no chariot, where will the
soul sit? How will he get to the
battlefield of life quickly? How
will he fight the enemy? Therefore,
one must not underrate theimportance of the chariot i.e., the
body. Yati made that unpardonable
mistake.
The senses are the horses of this
chariot. Because without them, he
cannot move at all. If the horses are
just harnessed to the chariot, there isno knowing when they will run
amuck and the chariot be thrown
into a deep chasm and be smashed
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to smithereens. Therefore, the
horses in the form of senses must be
controlled by the reins, i.e. the
mind. But even these reins mustalways be in the hands of the
charioteer. Otherwise they might as
well not be there. Therefore, themind must be under the control of
the conscience. The mind and the
conscience working together can
regulate the chariot with caution.
The ‘I’, an infinitesimal part of
God, which wakes up in all of us
and which pervades all beings ...which transcends conscience and
mind and can also see beyond life
and death ... the soul itself is the
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passenger in the chariot.
I have written at length. I forgot that
although this puzzle is of absorbing
interest to a man like me, following
the path of asceticism, it can be very
boring and abstruse to others.
I am not being modest when I saythat I often feel that the path of
asceticism is much easier than life
as a householder. This struggle of
the soul for salvation manifests
itself in many forms. The cult of
asceticism is one exacting form of
it.On the other hand, love of man and
woman is another attractive form of
the same struggle. But this love must
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not merely be physical infatuation.
That can only lead to a union of
bodies. True love is a
communication of minds. After sometime, it grows into a
communion of souls. This delightful
path of the union of souls is perhapseven more difficult than the arduous
path of asceticism, for the
attainment of God. Being a
householder is noble and puresacrifice. But if this sacrifice is to
bear fruit, the first thing that the
husband and wife have to offer insacrifice is their ego.
Devayani will soon attain
motherhood. May the Almighty ever
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bless you and the Queen.
was so bored reading the letter. Hi
Majesty asked me for the letter. Hwanted to read it again. I asked him i
est if the letter was more delightful tha
myself?
He looked steadily at me and said
The Creator must be troubled thes
days because he cannot make anythin
more beautiful than you.’‘You are a born flatterer,’ I said
blushing. He lifted my chin and lookin
deep into my eyes said, ‘TrulDevayani, you now look even prettie
hen before.’
‘But do you know why?’
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‘No, I don’t !’
I buried my face in his side and, ‘Me
are so dense. You see, I am going to be a
mother, that is why!’
It was only now that he saw it. H
paused and added, ‘You will now be
craving for things, will you not?’‘Not will be. I am already.’
‘Whatever it is, tell me and see if it i
not fulfilled in the instant.’‘I will tell you. My first wish ... Don
read this letter of your friend again.’
‘But ...’
‘I will not have it. Like that hair of th
girl friend of your childhood which yo
have kept ... in the same box if you like
put this away too. In our dotage, w
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shall read it together over and ove
again. But today? No, not this foolis
dissertation on the soul, at a time whe
my body and mind are blossoming tnew heights of pleasure at the prospec
of motherhood, when all the worldl
pleasures are at our command.’‘As you wish.’
The next month or six weeks were ogreat happiness. I wished to witnes
over again the plays staged during th
own celebrations. During thei
performance, I was reminded of ouearlier conversation. I had then said
You would look well as an ascetic.
While reading Kacha’s letter, he had
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also said himself, ‘It would have bee
much better if I had been an ascetic lik
him.’
The very idea was tantalising. Bu
how to make it come true? I thought of
plan. I said, ‘I feel like spending two o
hree hours quietly by moonlight on thbanks of the Yamuna, in the company o
an ascetic.’
He said laughing, ‘We can go to the
bank of the Yamuna in moonligh
anytime, but your desire to go there i
he company of an ascetic is rather ...?’
‘But where do we find a sage whoou know? It will be enough if you g
with me as an ascetic!’
‘What nonsense ...’
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‘You don’t really love me,’ said
fretting. Thereafter for a couple of days
did not even talk to him. I kept awa
from him.
What a powerful weapon feigne
anger can be in the hands of a woman! I
hesitatingly, His Majesty agreed to posas a sage. In the evening of a moonl
night, the King accompanied the Quee
nto the green room. On the way out, i
was a grand, lustrous sage carrying
stick and a water carafe wh
accompanied her.
I asked the charioteer to drive down the Yamuna. I had already taken him into
my confidence. At the moonlit river ban
told His Majesty, ‘I had once said
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“You would look well as a sage!” to
which you said, “I will never be one!
But today ... who wins?’
We both enjoyed the joke for a long
ime. Ashokavan was not very far from
here. Sharmishtha would neve
recognise His Majesty in this garb. I sawno harm in such a practical joke. We
urned towards Ashokavan.
I said to the servants, ‘I have brought
great sage here so that Sharmishtha ca
also see him. In a little while I shal
come back for him again.’
His Majesty could say or do nothingHe quietly went in. Inwardly, I could no
help laughing at Sharmishtha’s plight. I
all reverence she would attend on th
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sage. How abashed she will be whe
reminded of it. There will be no end t
her embarrassment!
After spending another two hours o
he banks of the Yamuna, I took Hi
Majesty back to the town.
On the way back he looked unusuallcheerful. I could not make out wha
could have caused it. But looking at him
was reminded of the glorious west
which in the evening glows in the sam
colours as the east in the morning.
‘What did you say in your blessing?’
‘The same as to every unmarried gir.. that she may find a worthy husband!’
I burst out laughing at the blessin
pronounced by His Majesty.
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t was three months since Father starte
on his meditation. I wanted to see him
His Majesty felt that I would be unabl
o stand the long journey, but I would nobe reassured unless I saw him with m
own eyes.
I did go there. I was very happy to sehim looking fit, but the journey was s
arduous that I myself was taken ill. I ha
o stay away from His Majesty longe
han I had expected.
In time I was a mother. I had a boy
ot only the capital but the entir
kingdom was festive.The name to be given to the baby wa
debated. His Majesty suggested first hi
father’s name and then his grandfather’s
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But I did not want to borrow a stal
name. I found a new one — Yadu!
Sharmishtha came to the palace for th
naming ceremony. There was now a kind
of halo on her face. I had imagined tha
she would get so bored in the solitude o
Ashokavan that she would abjectly falat my feet and beg of me, ‘Please releas
me from my bondage!’ But what I saw
was quite different. She looked happ
and contented.
Although that was the impression
gathered from her face, I suspecte
something else from her manner anbearing. I asked my old maid to keep a
eye on her for a while. The old mai
soon came back and whispere
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something in my ear. She, a princess
Would she go astray? And that with a
mere servant?
That she has had a love affair wa
quite clear. Such sin can never b
concealed. I sent the other maids awa
and called Sharmishtha in. She came iand hung her head.
I asked harshly, ‘Is it true that you ar
expecting a baby?’ Her lips moved bu
no sound come. In the end, she nodde
assent.
‘This illicit affair ...’
‘This has been nothing illicit; it waby the grace of a great sage ...’
‘By the grace of a sage? Who was th
sage? Who conferred this boon on you
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Was it Kacha?’
She said nothing. She did not smil
nor was she frightened. She just stoo
here like a statue.
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I
SHARMISHTHA
was stunned at Devayani’s questionAre you expecting a baby?’ No, I wa
not only stunned, I was frightened. I wa
both abashed and terrified. I wa
rembling.We were childhood friends. When
such friends meet later in life the
exchange their sweet secrets — wha
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great joy there is in such a situation. Bu
cruel fate had not ordained it for me.
On hearing the word illicit from her
my blood boiled. I could have silence
her with one word — just one. That on
word would have raised hell at th
palace. If I had told her the name of thfather of the child I was bearing, sh
would have been crestfallen.
In doing so, I would have had th
momentary pleasure of revenge; but tha
one word would have ruined the namin
ceremony of her child Yadu. Gloom
would immediately have descended ohe palace. Devayani would hav
mauled His Majesty with bitte
nvective. There would have bee
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permanent estrangement. God knows tha
more would have happened.
I do not know how, in the nick of time
thought of saying, ‘I am not a wanton. I
was by the grace of a sage ...!’ But thos
words gave me great courage. The
enabled me to keep my face. They werboth true and false.
‘Who conferred this boon on you
Was it Kacha?’ How poignant, how
poisonous the words were in castin
such an aspersion on the noble figure o
Kacha.
Will anyone throw mud on the imagwhich I worshipped with white lotu
flowers? But the queen of beaut
Devayani had dared do it.
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I had only said, ‘By the Grace of
sage!’ If she wanted to indulge in crue
est, she could even have named Yati
hat would not have hurt me so much.
In any case, at court that day Devayan
had humiliated me not a little. It is a
well that Yati was mad and the runawaybrother of His Majesty, otherwise
would have had it. He asked for me an
Devayani asked whether he wanted m
for wife. Yati, however, was truly
nsane. I never understood the cause o
his insanity. One night I was fast asleep
woke up with a start. I felt a cold hanat my throat. In fact, someone was tryin
o strangle me with both hands. I wa
choking and terrified.
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Trembling all over, I opened my eyes
Yati was sitting beside me. He wa
smiling to himself. What a grotesqu
smile it was! I screamed for fear of lifeHe quickly got up, bolted for th
window, jumped out and disappeared
God knows where he went to.I would not have minded if Devayan
had said that my coming baby came fro
a madman. That would have bee
nsulting to me only; but the maliciou
words she uttered about Kacha ...
Can one forget yesterday’s love? Yes
t is possible. How otherwise coulDevayani have said such strang
poisonous things about Kacha?
Devayani might have forgotten he
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ove of yesterday, but Sharmishtha is no
hus forgetful. She will not only no
forget her love of yesterday, and
omorrow, for all time, she will nobetray her love.
What would Kacha say if he hear
Devayani’s malicious words? No. Hwill say nothing. He will only smile
When he came to bid farewell at leavin
Ashokavan with the Queen Mother,
asked, ‘Kacha, when shall we mee
again?’
He smiled saying, ‘Who knows? Fat
s very wilful. It may bring me back heromorrow. On the other hand, I may no
come even in the next ten or twent
ears.’
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Kacha stayed so little at Ashokavan
Even in that short time, he was a pilla
of strength. How much heart he put int
me. It was as if my soul was reborn.
I asked him, ‘Where are you going fo
so long?’
‘To the Bhrigu Mountain fomeditation.’
‘What is the penance for?’
‘If by my penance I could influencDevayani’s behaviour, I would
undertake grave penance indefinitely fo
hat alone.’
I had never envied Devayani even i
my dreams, not even when she becam
Queen of Hastinapur. But hearing Kach
thought to myself how fortunat
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Devayani was. What more does on
need in this world if a sage like Kacha i
prepared to stake all his penance fo
one? What is worth more than sucselfless, great love in this world?
Kacha had said all this with a smil
on his lips. But that very smile revealeo me his heartache. He was distresse
at Devayani’s behaviour — at he
maliciousness. But even so, his concer
for her was no whit less. There is n
greater unhappiness than the bleeding o
a lovelorn heart. But who and how ca
anyone else alleviate the pangs of suchidden sorrow?
Seeing me quiet he said, ‘Maharish
Shukra is sitting in grave penance again
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He will thereby achieve som
mysterious power like Sanjeevani. Tha
will again set off a war between god
and demons! Gods, demons, humabeings and Dasyus ... all inhabit th
world. But seeing this beautiful worl
forever torn with strife gives msleepless nights. I wonder if this mus
continue from generation to generation
Does Lord Shiva truly wish that war
misery, strife and conflict should prevain this world? I would like to do lon
penance to please Him, and then fall a
His feet insisting that, “I want no otheboon, but bless me with the power t
establish peace and goodwill on earth!
t is because of this ardent wish that
said I may not return for ten or twent
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ears!’
As soon as the chariot bearing Kach
and the Queen Mother left for the Bhrig
Mountain, Ashokavan became lonely.
How promptly after arrival a
Ashokavan he came from the gues
rooms to my room at the far end of thbuilding to enquire after me. I got up o
seeing him. He insisted again and agai
hat I sit down. In the end I said, ‘Kacha
Sharmishtha is no longer a princess wh
can sit in your presence; she is now
maid.’
He looked at me very affectionateland said, ‘Sharmishtha, the musk dee
does not know that it secretes fragran
musk. You are the same. You maybe
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doing the menial duties of a maid bu
our soul is not slave to anybody o
anything. It is only he whose soul is fre
hat has the power to see God. Thsalvation which great sages fail t
achieve after years of penance ...’
Blushing I hung my head. I saidKacha, I am one of Devayani’s leas
iked maids. Things like the soul ar
foreign to me.’
‘You are not a maid! You are a sister
o me. Kacha has two sisters ... one i
Devayani and the other Sharmishtha.’
Kacha added, ‘You are not only msister but my preceptor. I thought that
had done great sacrifice for my kin
when setting out to acquire Sanjeevan
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but you have a made a much bigge
sacrifice. This humble disciple of your
begs of you not to brood on your being
maid. If in the eyes of the world you ara maid, to me you are a gracious queen
The slave is Devayani. She is slave t
her splendour, dignity and ego. The mawhose soul is prey to selfishness, desir
and enjoyment is forever a slave in thi
world. You spurned self-interest and al
our happiness in coming here. Youadopted the most difficult but shortes
cut available to man to attain God ... th
path of sacrifice. You are truly anascetic not a maid. Sharmishtha, I a
aware that a younger sister would no
ike her elder brother to bow to her; bu
f you are younger in age, you are by fa
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greater in sacrifice. Therefore ...’
While still talking, he folded his hand
n a bow.
I lost all sense of where I was an
what I was doing. I quickly went up t
him and held his hands. The nex
moment, I thought he would resent thntimacy and shake my hands off.
remembered how particular he was i
he cottage to avoid Devayani’s touch.
blushed and was confused. I tried to pul
away my hands from his. He must hav
realised it. Without letting them go, h
smiled and said, ‘Sister, there is difference between one touch an
another. If my mother was here toda
and wanted to stop me from going to th
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Himalayas, would she not have held m
back just thus, with the authority of he
ove?’
Then he let my hands go and calle
me, ‘Sister!’
I kept looking foolishly at him. He ha
called me sister twice. Kacha calling msister. I was Kacha’s sister. What reason
was there to be unhappy?
Kacha added, ‘Sister, you havbecome a mother before being a wife
Mother to the whole demon kingdom
The inner strength which prompted yo
for this sacrifice, may it ever increaseThat is my only blessing to you.’
Every word of his was engraved o
my mind!
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* * *
While Kacha had been in Ashokavan,
kind of spiritual intoxication, brought oby his earnest words had overflown i
me. But as soon as he left I came dow
o earth.I had revived my interest in drawin
when at the palace. Even here in the firs
few days, I sketched every tree, ever
creeper and everything else I saw. But i
a few days, even the variety in Natur
ceased to inspire me.
Memories which I had deliberateldiscarded into the oblivion of th
subconscious stealthily crept out an
ook possession of my conscious mind .
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The red tilak that I had put on Hi
Majesty’s forehead when he was settin
out for the battlefield ... his passin
ouch ... I had also touched Kacha’hands. But what a difference there was
Remembrance of Kacha’s touch was
reminder of some beautiful, serenhermitage of a sage in a forest. Hi
Majesty’s touch reminded me of a
enchanting bower in a lovely garden.
It was not as if that touch alone cam
back to me from the subconscious.
Every night was I reminded of tha
first night. It made me quite restless. could not sleep long into the night
Something like the longing with whic
he river rushes to merge into the se
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seared through my blood. And I was lik
a heady calf. Every part of the body wa
crying out for love.
All through one night, I just could no
sleep a wink! So, I sat down to draw.
naturally remembered the story o
Pururava and Urvashi. I wished to sketcone of the scenes in it. I concentrated o
Pururava. The figure that stood befor
my eyes was that of His Majesty. I found
a good model for Pururava. I the
hought of Urvashi. All at once
Devayani appeared before my eyes.
was glad that I had found an angel obeauty to represent an angel. But then
visualised Devayani talkin
disparagingly to His Majesty, lik
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Urvashi herself, ‘King, remember on
hing. It is not possible to be friendly t
women all the time. Because their heart
are like those of wolves!’ I imaginedDevayani warning His Majesty in
similar tone.
I shrank from making that sketch. But could not put away from my min
Pururava, in the figure of His Majesty. In
he end I decided to sketch His Majest
alone. I spent some very happy day
sketching. At last, the picture wa
finished. I placed it in a corner an
ooked at it from a distance. I was by nmeans a skilled artist, but how lifelike
how much like the original that figure o
His Majesty looked.
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When I was a child, Mother was s
proud of my long jet black hair. No
matter how busy she was, she took tim
off to plait it herself in a new pattereveryday.
When making up my hair, Mothe
always used to say, ‘Shama, how luckou are. It is once in a million that girl
have such long hair reaching to th
knees. They say, such girls suddenl
strike good luck.’
How foolish that belief of Mother’
was!
Hair-do was now a bore and herefore lived like a mendicant wit
unkempt hair. Is there a girl who doe
not like to make herself up in finery an
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good clothes? But then girls mak
hemselves up not for their own sakes!
In sleep when turning over from on
side to another, the hands would
naturally touch the hair. That would
remind me of a poem I had read when
was sixteen.The heroine in that poem was awak
ike me. The hero, however, was fas
asleep. Across the window, the moon
was shining. In order to ward off the evi
eye of the moon from her husband, sh
wished to cover the window. But he
husband could not bear to draw even hin covering. That day she had worn he
hair in an attractive coiffure. Her lov
had admired it. She quickly undid it. He
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ample hair was now loose. She ben
over her husband with the hair loose
aturally, the hair shielded the face fro
he moon. There was then no danger ohe moon casting an evil eye.
After reading that poem, the sixteen
ear old Sharmishtha often said therself, ‘I shall also protect him in th
same way.’ How tickled I used to be a
he thought! Now, however, the memory
of that poem gnawed at my heart. Wher
s a lover? Where is a husband and hi
face?
I tried to recall over and over agaieveryone of Kacha’s words. That would
help occupy the day, but the night ...
In the lonely solitude of the night, th
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picture of His Majesty now kept m
company. I would sit in front of it, in
meditation. With eyes closed, I would
isten to the conversation between hiand me.
One day I placed a garland round th
picture. I felt that His Majesty waannoyed with me and was not speakin
o me. To make up I kissed him on th
ips — only to realise that it was hi
picture! I was ashamed of that kiss. Wha
would Kacha say if he knew about it
Sharmishtha, his sister, his favourit
ittle sister! That she should have no selcontrol. It is difficult but not impossibl
o close one’s mind against al
emptation. I had been particular to d
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so. But from some opening, temptatio
ike moonlight, filtered in stealthily. M
kissing the picture was one such stealth
ray of the moon.
I realised how difficult it must be t
follow in the footsteps of Kacha, but h
s a man. Sharmishtha is a woman. Howdifferent are a woman’s body and
man’s body. Her mind and his! Her life
and his. What a world of differenc
here is between the two. Man naturall
pursues the intangibles, fame, soul
meditation, heroism, God. Such thing
readily attract him. But not so easildoes woman get caught in their lure. To
her love, husband, children, service
household and such concrete things are
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greater attraction. She will observe
rigorous code of conduct, make
sacrifice but only for somethin
concrete. Unlike man, she is not drawo the intangible. To worship with he
whole being or to bathe in her tears, sh
needs an entity. Man is a naturaworshipper of the abstract, woma
prefers things earthly.
I could not make out how this borin
ife was going to end. Is it possible sh
hopes that I would get tired of it an
commit suicide? I shuddered at th
hought.One dark night, I was toying with th
dea. Vaguely, I heard the wheels of a
chariot come to a stop on the grave
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outside. Who could have come in
chariot to me, a poor maid? Devayan
must have sent someone here. How am
concerned? The servants will put uwhoever it is in the guest house.
A servant brought an ascetic to me jus
as I was thinking of all this. It is true thaKacha used to come to these quarters a
he back and sit and chat. But he wa
different! It was not quite right for th
servant to bring this sage, whom I di
not know, here.
I said to him quite harshly, ‘Why did
ou bring this sage here?’‘I was asked to bring him to you b
Her Majesty. She will take him to th
palace a little later. She wished you to
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see him ...’
I looked at the sage. I thought I ha
seen him somewhere before. The sag
was a very imposing figure; he had
presence befitting a king. Th
rudrakshamala round his neck shon
ike jewels. But on the whole, he gavme the impression of being shy an
imid. He had condescended to come s
hat I could pay my respects. But I di
not know how to set about it. If our eye
met, he would look away.
I offered him a seat in the centre of th
room. But he would not take it. He sain a hoarse voice, ‘We are ascetics! We
ive in caves. I shall sit in that corner.’
I put the seat in the corner for him.
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was puzzled. In that very corner was th
picture of His Majesty. I had just placed
a garland on it. If the sage saw all thi
and spoke to Devayani about itconveying the wrong impression ...
I broke into a sweat because he wa
staring at it. But he did not say a worabout the picture. He sat i
contemplation for a while and the
started talking. How hoarse his voic
was. And how weird! But he did loo
greatly pleased.
When I made my obeisance, he sai
with a smile, ‘You have fallen in lovwith someone. He is very near you, bu
ou feel all the time that he is very far
hat he is unattainable. What are yo
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prepared to do for him whom you love?
Involuntarily I blurted out, ‘I woul
give even my life!’ Unconsciously, I bi
my tongue. But what use was it cryin
over an arrow which had been shot?
A little later he said, ‘You still have
no confidence in me. Close this door an will show you how great is the powe
of my penance!’
He got up, seeing me standing there ibewilderment. He came near and puttin
his hand on my head said, ‘Go and clos
he door. The golden moment in your lif
s near. Go.’That touch of his had in it something t
bring me courage, to inspire confidence
o bring peace of mind. I closed th
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door.
He pointed to the picture of Hi
Majesty and asked, ‘Are you in lov
with Yayati?’
I stood there with my head hung. H
again said, ‘You still have no confidenc
n me. We know everything by inneknowledge. Wait. I shall demonstrate i
o you. Is there an underground passag
eading from this room?’
‘No.’
There was a catch in one wall of th
room hardly visible. He put his hand t
t. A central piece nearly six feet inheight moved out, the entrance to a
underground passage. But there wa
none in Ashokavan who knew of it. How
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did this sage have knowledge of it?
He put his hand to the catch again. Th
gap closed, restoring the wall.
‘I know that you are in love wit
Yayati. True love is always blessed by
us. Sometime Yayati will come to you ..
remember. He will come through thaunderground passage. He will call t
ou. He will call to you in th
affectionate singular your parents did.’
‘Shama.’
‘Yes, he will call you “Shama”. Do
not be frightened or scared. Press thi
catch to open the door. Make sure thaonly maids in your confidence slee
outside the room.’
I could hardly believe my ears.
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gazed steadily at the sage. H
mmediately looked away. He got up to
open the door of the room. I thought
recognised the step. I was reminded ohe drama portraying Pururava an
Urvashi. Might not Devayani hav
deputed him to make fun of me and tensnare me?
Then he opened the door of the room
n no time, all the servants had gathere
n my room to see the sage. The asceti
was giving all of them his heart
blessings! Devayani’s chariot also cam
up.She called out to me as in ou
childhood, ‘Well sister Shama, what i
he sage like?’
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It was many years ago that Devayan
had called me ‘Sister Shama.’ I said
He is very nice, I will serve him all m
ife if Your Majesty agrees!’
Devayani just laughed. The laughte
was drowned in the crack of th
charioteer’s whip!All through the night — not only tha
night but every night thereafter, I spent in
he shadow of expectation, fear
curiosity and anxiety.
But I was always particular abou
sleeping alone with the door closed an
wo dependable maids, from those whhad come with me, outside. I would keep
awake till midnight to see if anyon
called. Man lives in hope, howeve
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unfounded it may be.
I was disturbed when I heard tha
Devayani was leaving to see her fathe
n three or four days.
The day she left was very sad for me.
was very restless thinking of Father anMother. I felt better when night came
The restlessness had given place t
expectation. I lay down on the bedooking at His Majesty’s picture in th
corner. I did not know when I dozed off
was half awakened by the words
Shama! Shama!’ For a moment I though was dreaming. I was wide awake now
The voice came from across the wal
My legs were shaky. Somehow I got to
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he wall and pressed the catch; th
opening was revealed. On the step
below His Majesty was standing. I coul
not believe my eyes. My joy knew nbounds. I felt faint. His Majesty cam
forward and supported me as I wa
falling. The next instant his arms werround me.
In a moment, the river had merged int
he sea.
I opened my eyes. Where was I? In th
seventh heaven? On a bed of whit
flowers, brought in on the waves of th
river Mandakini? On the swing of gentle breeze, wafted in cool an
fragrant from the Malayagiri mountain?
I did not know. Realisation came onl
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after a long, long time. The mischievou
moon was peeping at me through th
window and laughing in her sleeve.
blushed. His Majesty lifted my chin uand said, ‘How would it be if at the tim
of the wedding the bride blushed o
seeing the priestess?’ I said, ‘Renownedpoets have in the past imagined the moo
n different forms, but I am not aware o
her having been made a priestess yet !
His Majesty said, ‘For ages now, lovmarriages like yours and mine have bee
celebrated with her alone as witness
She is truly the priestess of lovers!’I gazed at the moon with my head o
His Majesty’s shoulder. The moonligh
seeped through every part of my body
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o, it was not moonlight. It was th
fragrance of the dreams of requited love
experienced by the sleeping world.
was soon absorbed in that fragrance. was just a woman in love.
Many nights after that first one — th
nnumerable hours of those many night— the countless moments in the man
hours were each one of them a fountai
of pleasure.
That pleasure, that joy, that eterna
happiness defies description. A woman
does not split hair over a word. She i
concerned only with the feeling that liebehind it. Mother Parvati underwen
arduous penance in sun and rain, t
demonstrate to womanhood the path o
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ove. Following in her footsteps ...
Yes, I truly followed in her footsteps
loved King Yayati. Knowing that he
was the husband of Devayani,
nonetheless loved him. No one excep
my two trusted maids outside wer
aware of my love. It was a very sweesecret. It was the secret of the night
eternal friend of lovers. It was a secre
known only to the four walls of m
room. It was the secret of th
underground passage which spent it
onely days in eternal darkness.
Even before I had recovered from thntoxication of the happiness of th
previous night, the intoxicating prospec
of the next night was upon me. But eve
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n that trance, somebody was trying t
shake me awake. A sharp voice said
Sharmishtha, awake; even now tak
heed! Where are you going? What arou doing? It is a terrible sin.’
As His Majesty’s touch thrilled m
body, so did the thought of the sin makme shiver with fright. I kept repeating t
myself love is a sacrifice, sacrifice o
one’s all. How can there be sin in it?
I tried to console myself, oppresse
with the thought of sin thus. Bu
sometimes, the prick of the conscienc
remained. Then I would fold my handbefore the image of Mother Parvati an
pray to her: ‘Mother, give me th
strength to love His Majesty as yo
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was distressed at the thought tha
something might crop up to prevent Hi
Majesty’s coming.
I had read many love lyrics. I ha
myself composed some in utte
gnorance of the true nature of love. Bu
he joy of reading and composing thewas but a faint shadow of the genuin
experience. Like the child imagining th
mage of the moon in a mirror to be th
moon itself and playing with it. It wa
he play of imagination of the swee
adolescent.
True love? What is it? To understandt one must be a true lover. One mus
fathom the lover’s mind. The soothin
moon and the glaring sun, life-givin
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nectar and life-taking deadly poison ar
mingled — no — it is impossible t
describe the nature of love.
One day His Majesty was in conferenc
with the Prime Minister till midnight. S
he could not come early. It was pasmidnight. I was frantic. Sharmishtha ha
a place in the heart of His Majesty bu
she cannot go near him! Fate had giveme love; but how miserly it had been.
That night I could not rest. I presse
he catch in the wall and bravel
descended the steps. But I could nomove a step further. I was not afraid o
he dark, I was afraid of something quit
different. If I step into His Majesty’
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room at the end of the passage would no
our secret love be exposed? Fate, at on
moment in one’s favour, may turn agains
one the next moment. I would go to HiMajesty’s room by this secret passag
only to find that Devayani had jus
returned. What would happen iDevayani came to know? I could no
bear the thought. No, never must sh
know this secret.
Quietly I returned from the passage
God had denied me the right to lov
openly. That Sharmishtha, a princess
should be denied the right enjoyed by thmeanest maid in Hastinapur!
When His Majesty came, my pillow
was wet with tears.
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That night I was still awake when h
fell asleep. I was blissfully happy in hi
arms but only for a while. Then al
haunting fears came back. Sheltered bove I thought of death. I wished tha
here might be an earthquake, to engul
Ashokavan and everything else therewhile we were in each other’s arms
Centuries later, some archaeologist wil
dig it all out. But nobody wil
comprehend that it was the one goldemoment snatched by an unfortunat
beloved, who dared not be with he
over openly, from the hands of cruefate without its knowledge.
The next moment I was angry with th
hought! How helpless I was. How
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selfish! Thinking of my own pleasure
His Majesty ...
I shuddered at the idea. Even in hi
sleep he must have felt me shudder
Drawing me even closer, he murmured
You timid!’ Half asleep he pressed hi
ips to mine. As darkness vanishes withe rising of the moon, my fears wer
dissolved in love. They all came back i
even more frightening forms with th
next morning’s sun. On getting up I fel
sick. My two trusted maids wer
knowledgeable. They looke
significantly at each other, while holdinmy head. Without being told, I also
knew. I was going to be a mother. Joy
fear, shame, anxiety, expectation and
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curiosity were all there strangely mixe
up.
Every mother is pleased to know tha
her newly married daughter is expectin
a baby. My mother also would hav
been overjoyed to know of my secret.
Sharmishtha who as an innocenmaiden dreamt of being a queen had t
be a maid. Nature is not cruel like man
so even as a maid she was going to be
mother. But even this kindly blessing o
ature now looked like a cruel curse.
I was both glad and confused. I wa
afraid. If Devayani gets to hear of msecret what will she do? What will m
parents say when they hear of it? Wil
hey hate me as a fallen woman? How
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could I explain to them that I had no
sinned?
My two maids were also baffled
Devayani had not yet returned from he
visit to Maharishi Shukra. But when sh
did ...
I was dazed. I suddenly thought oKacha. He should have been here now
He would have given me courage. If h
hought his sister had sinned, he woul
have staked all his penance to wash tha
sin off her. But in this word I was alon
— all alone and helpless.
No, I was not helpless. How can beloved of the King of Hastinapur b
helpless? How can the favourite wife o
King Yayati be helpless? I laughed at my
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being natural ...’
I wished to be reassured not flattered
Disappointed I said, ‘I shall not remai
hus pretty all my life!’
‘Why not?’
‘I shall soon be a mother. Then ...’
His Majesty’s amorous playfulnesvanished. His face was clouded wit
care. He again drew me close. But th
embrace was not that of an impatienove. It was more like that of
frightened child.
I could not understand his silence an
he uncertain anxiety evident in hi
ouch. In the end, the cause of his fea
was apparent from his broken words. A
n the case of his father, the fear o
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Maharishi Shukra pronouncing a curs
on His Majesty.
I knew well both Devayani — jealou
and vengeful — and Maharishi Shukra
short tempered and impetuous! Hi
Majesty’s fear was not unfounded.
If His Majesty should be prey tMaharishi Shukra’s anger Sharmishth
would have to hang her head in sham
all her life. In future all maidens in lov
will laugh at her and say that she ha
sacrificed her beloved to preserve he
own good name and happiness.
True love is selfless. My hauntindoubt of sin had been stilled by th
hought that I was following in th
footsteps of Mother Parvati. Even now
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was resolved to follow her, I would
bear myself so Devayani will neve
suspect His Majesty! I would face th
situation alone.
Mother Parvati’s path — I reminded
myself over and over again — led as fa
as the sacrificial fire. Remember, I toldmyself that it was only by jumping int
her father’s sacrificial fire that sh
became a goddess.
Two or three days later, Devayan
returned. I realised that His Majest
must be sticking to his room all night sas not to rouse suspicion. But havin
been denied the happiness of his sigh
and touch, my mind felt starved an
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sleep would intervene at intervals.
Night after night passed in lonel
helplessness. Like the eyes, my lips to
were thirsty. One day I could not contain
myself. I got up and showere
nnumerable kisses on His Majesty’
picture. They say love is foolish. Timraced by like an agile, frisky horse
Devayani was in her ninth month. So
she did not come the way of Ashokavan
Once she purposely sent for me. I wen
o the palace. I was relieved that she ha
no inkling of my condition.
That same day, my grief at thseparation from His Majesty got over.
I was standing at the window of th
room, admiring the beautiful evening
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Suddenly, I saw the tiny crescent of th
moon smiling from the sky, behind a tal
ree. I was happy at the thought that
also had a tiny crescent inside me —nvisible today but a very heartenin
crescent. I would fondly talk to the littl
one. While His Majesty used to be witme occasionally and only for a shor
while at night, the tiny life was with m
all the time. I could forget all my sorrow
absorbed in it. The pain of separatiofrom His Majesty, of the body hankerin
for his touch; the pointed arrowheads o
all this pain were blunted in thcompany of that tiny life.
Is it possible that the presence of Go
s revealed to ascetics like Kacha in jus
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his manner? If otherwise, would thei
minds be ever calm and cheerful?
What a great happiness is motherhood
o matter how beautiful the leaves, th
creeper is incomplete in its beaut
without flowers! A head of leaf is the
glory of the creeper. But the flowecreates a new world. There is nothing i
he whole world to compare with the jo
of creation. Was it for nothing tha
Maharishi Shukra was so proud of hi
achievement of Sanjeevani?
I was very happy talking to the tin
ife in our privacy. I would ask himWould you like me for a mother? Your
mother is a maid but she became one fo
her country. Will you make your mothe
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happy? Your father is the King o
Hastinapur! Even so, he cannot keep m
happy. Now you are my only hope. My
ittle prince, my baby moon, there inothing in this world except you that i
mine.’
I spoke to him endlessly like thisOccasionally, I thought he responded
That must have been my imagination. Bu
alking to him dispelled my gloom an
misery. As the sky clears after a shower
my mind would clear up. I starte
craving for things. If I had been with m
mother she would have fondly granteevery wish of mine, and elaborately too
But ...
Also, my hankering was rathe
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unusual. I would want to wander in th
forest, hunt the wild beasts there, clim
he taller trees at night, and gather all th
blue flowers on the creeper at the top ohe trees for a braid for my hair. If I me
a lion, I wanted to open his mouth
holding him by his mane and count hieeth.
Devayani had a boy. I was present at thnaming ceremony. My body looked
different now.
I somehow consoled myself tha
Devayani would be so happilengrossed in the ceremony that sh
would have no time to notice me. I trie
o keep out of her sight. But she calle
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me near to see her Yadu. She stared a
me and said, ‘Ashokavan seems to hav
rather agreed with you, Sharmishtha
Are you not rather lonely there?’
‘I was in the beginning. But two maid
who looked after me in childhood ar
now with me. We spend lots of timealking and reminiscing abou
childhood.’
‘I see! Who else visits you there?’
‘Who can come? Occasionally sage
come there and time flies waiting o
hem.’
When I got away from her, I felrelieved, as if I had escaped from th
cave of a tigress.
I talked to acquaintances among th
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maids. Devayani’s old maid followed
me and I was frightened. I decided t
return to Ashokavan, without delayin
anymore, when Devayani herself sent fome. Trembling I went to her room. Sh
dismissed the other maids, closed th
door and asked me harshly, ‘Are yoexpecting? This illicit affair ...’
‘I am not a wanton. By the grace of
great sage ...’
I spent that whole night tossing in bed
had not sinned in my love. Why did
not summarily say to her, ‘Please do no
nvolve Kacha for nothing. He hanothing to do with this.’
What else was open to me except t
beg in silence for forgiveness of Kacha
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His affectionate figure stood before m
eyes. I knelt before it, folded my hand
and said, ‘Dear brother, forgive thi
helpless sister of yours.’
* * *
was almost dying with labour pains.
was baffled by this strange pairing o
ife and death. I would close my eye
when the pain became unbearable, but
doubted if I would ever open them again
thought I would never see this beautifu
but cruel world again. Will it be a boyGod, if I am destined to die, let me se
my child first — let me at least cuddle i
n my arms.
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I felt everything turn pitch dark and
do not remember what happened. When
opened my eyes again, I felt as if I ha
woken up from eternal sleep. My twmaids were whispering something in m
ear. In no time, those words were lik
he strains of music pervading the earth listened — listened with my heart i
my ears. The maids said, ‘It is a boy. A
boy ... a boy ... fair skinned chubby littl
boy.’
There were only three of us present a
he naming ceremony — my maids an
myself.My boy was the son of a king. But h
had been born to hapless Sharmishtha
Who was going to celebrate the namin
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ceremony? I wished to name hi
Pururava after His Majesty’s grea
grandfather — a renowned warrior. Bu
was afraid that undesirable suspiciowould arise. I named him Puroo. Th
ceremony was held in the garden outsid
he apartment, with my hands for cradle, the moon above for the toys hun
on the cradle and the trees and creeper
around for garlands.
Puroo brought unending happiness int
my life. He had at birth a lovely head o
hair. If Puroo was hungry and tugging a
my sari for my breasts, it was the heighof heavenly bliss. Sometimes he woul
blow the milk away with ‘ Phuh.’ Th
drops would fall on his cheek. I woul
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he first time, I was angry with him
When he persisted, I even got rough wit
him. The next moment, I relented an
bathed him with tears. How pleasurablsuch tears are!
It was well past midnight but the doo
of the passage had not opened.It was more than an hour later th
secret door creaked and slowly move
open. My heart was in my mouth. Th
next moment like lightning in the clouds
was in the arms of His Majesty.
We had come together after a long
parting — how the union overflowewith joy. We had lots to talk about. Bu
ry as we would, the words would no
come and yet we did talk a lot, not wit
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our eyes, with touch and tears.
His Majesty sat for a long time gazin
at Puroo sleeping. Then he took both m
hands in his and said, ‘Shama, you mus
forgive me. Today, I can do nothing fo
our dear Puroo. But tomorrow ...’
stopped him.Devayani had arranged to spy on me
So I was content with seeing him once o
wice a week.
One night Puroo was awake when h
came. He had learnt to pick flowers i
he garden. In a little while the sky wa
glowing with stars. Puroo wafascinated with their splendour. He mus
have imagined, he could pick the stars a
well. He beckoned to the maid to lift hi
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higher and higher. Puroo insisted o
picking them. He cried till his eyes wer
red and swollen. When feeding him,
called all his friends the sparrow, thcrow, the cat and so on. But he would
not eat. I was patting him in my arms til
after midnight but he had obstinately kepawake.
That was the only time His Majest
saw him awake. He stretched out hi
arms to pick Puroo up. He turned hi
back on His Majesty. His Majest
ooked admiringly at the back of tha
slight figure on my shoulder.Puroo wanted to show me somethin
and took my face in his hands. In th
corner was the picture of His Majest
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drawn by me. He was all the tim
pointing to it and to His Majesty.
His Majesty kissed him very lovingl
with the words, ‘You rogue!’ I kissed
Puroo on the spot where His Majest
had done. And a thrill went through me
That one kiss bathed me both in love anaffection.
Devayani’s return put an end to all mhappiness. By now Puroo had broke
nto monosyllabic speech, I starte
sitting before the picture of His Majest
with Puroo every evening. I would makhim fold his hands to it and say ‘da, da’
often wished that he should quickl
earn to say ‘da, da,’ that sometime whe
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His Majesty was here he should so cal
him. Then I wondered if it was good fo
man to fly thus on the wings o
magination.
I was so engrossed in bringing up
Puroo that I had no time to brood.
Once one of my maids started talkinabout my own doings in childhood.
could not help comparing my carefre
childhood with my present slavery.
One after another, the old wound
opened and bled.
When I was thus restless I would thin
of Kacha and his heartening words. Ihat was not enough to bring me calm,
would have a bath and wear the red sar
which had come to me, after I had wor
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t by mistake on the day of the sprin
festivities — that beautiful piece of sil
— the soft red sari.
I did the same one morning
Unexpectedly, Devayani sent for me th
same evening. The message was urgen
and she asked me to bring my boy witme. I was baffled and did not eve
remember to change my clothes.
Had Devayani got scent of our secre
ove?
I was in a flutter when I got there
Devayani saw my red sari. I was gla
she did not raise her brows. She hapurposely sent for Puroo! The ol
palmist had returned to the capital.
This time Devayani had thought of
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way to test his knowledge. She gav
Yadu and Puroo similar clothes as i
hey were real brothers. She gave them
heap of toys and the children werplaying in her room. While the childre
were engrossed in their toys, the palmis
was sent for. He looked at their righhands, carefully over and over again. H
ooked at their left hands also. In th
end, turning to Yadu, he said, ‘This boy
s unlucky!’
He lingered long over Puroo’s hand
and said, ‘This boy will be a great king.
To ridicule the palmist, she said, ‘Yousee they are brothers. They are bot
princes. How can their lives be so vastl
different?’
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The palmist calmly replied, ‘You
Majesty, Fate is a mysterious power!’
Just then His Majesty came in. Seein
His Majesty, Puroo started saying ‘da
da’ and was straining to go to him
Fortunately nobody understood th
monosyllable of Puroo’s!When the palmist was gone, withou
saying a word to His Majesty, Devayan
said, ‘I have something for you. Let u
go to His Majesty’s room and talk i
peace.’
Devayani herself closed the doo
when we got there. I was rattled. Sittinon the sofa, she asked me in a harsh tone
Sharmishtha, I hope you haven
forgotten that you are my maid!’
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‘I have not.’
‘I am the queen. If you defy me, yo
will have to bear whatever punishment
give you. I am going to hold cour
omorrow. There, I am going to charg
ou with having an illicit liaison. Ther
ou will have to establish younnocence and purity.’
I was terrified and my insides turned.
resolved not to listen to another word o
Devayani and leave, come what may.
ran to the door clutching Puroo at m
breast.
‘Where are you going?’ These wordof Devayani had me rooted to the spot
They had the uncanny power of a
unscrupulous hypnotist.
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I wanted to shout to His Majesty, tha
he secret which we had kept with suc
great difficulty would be exposed.
swallowed my pain and fear and stoostill like a stone pillar.
Devayani beckoned to me to follow
her. I followed her. She went to the easwall of the room. There must have bee
a secret door in it, as in Ashokavan
Devayani pressed a catch and a doo
opened. She ordered me to precede he
n.
Like one spellbound, I descended th
steps to the cellar. She herself camdown slowly.
I did not know where she was takin
me along the underground passage an
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what she had in mind for me. But it wa
not far to go. At the end of the passag
was a cellar.
Devayani turned to me and asked m
o go in. She added, ‘There is privacy i
his cellar. You must make up your mind
onight whether you are going to divulghe name of your lover or not
Otherwise, there will be a proclamatio
n the town and a court in the evening a
which your illicit liaison will b
enquired into, and ...’
She paused and smiled. Her smile wa
full of the essence of deadly poison. ‘Budon’t forget one thing. There is ver
ittle time now. Tell me the truth, tell me
how your son came to have the marking
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of a future king on his palm?’
I calmly replied, ‘By the blessing o
he sage.’
‘Then perhaps by another blessing o
he self-same sage you will be able t
disappear from this cellar!’
I retorted, ‘Why not? What is smprobable about it?’
I said what I liked, firmly determine
not to yield to Devayani, come whamay. But all my strength ebbed when sh
ocked the door of the cellar.
felt as if I had been in that cellar fo
ages. Puroo was frightened of th
darkness and was crying. I covered hi
with my sari. Knowing that he was nea
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his mother, the poor mite fell asleep in
my lap, comforted.
Every minute was gnawing at me
Slowly, the darkness in the cella
ightened a little.
Suddenly a bright light flashed acros
he room. It must be the lightning outsideThe flash through the window. The flas
brought me courage. I was reminded o
Kacha. In this encounter with death,
had his red sari on me, to remind me o
him. I thought I was lucky. I calmed
down. I lay down with Puroo by m
side. Gradually I fell asleep.I woke up at the creaking of the door
Somebody had opened the door of th
cellar. I was torn between hope and fear
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Could it be someone come to release m
or ...?
Might it not be Devayani bringing m
a cup of poison?
There was another big flash. In tha
ight, I saw it was His Majesty.
We quickly came up to the room. HiMajesty pressed a catch somewhere i
he south wall. He went ahead and
followed. In all this bustle, Puroo hawoken up. He was calling ‘da, da’ to
His Majesty. I put my hand on his mout
o stop him.
In silence and swiftly we walkehrough the underground passage t
Ashokavan. His Majesty opened th
door leading into the room. He said, ‘D
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not stop here a moment longer. Don’
mention this even to your maids. Get int
he chariot which is waiting outside
Madhav, my friend, will drive you in itGo quickly. Hereafter I do not know
where and how we will meet. But g
quickly.’Tears came to his eyes while talking
He kissed me with wet eyes. A few tear
dropped on my cheek. He patted Puroo’
head and quickly shut the door of th
passage.
My maids were scared. They had bee
ooking for me. Without saying a word, went to the chariot waiting outside
mmediately the chariot was on its way.
Before we were out of the town it wa
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being anointed by rain. Lightning wa
waving tufts of peacock hair before th
future sovereign.
I asked Madhav, ‘Will you take a
message to His Majesty?’
‘What?’
‘Sharmishtha will always worship HiMajesty with all her heart. Even in fac
of death, she will always bow to hi
command and wherever Puroo maybehe blessing of His Majesty shoul
always be with him. By the blessings o
His Majesty ...’
I could not speak anymore. I drewPuroo, who was dripping wet, closer t
me and said, ‘Come, my little prince
come. Rain which brings new life t
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earth is your attendant. Lightning whic
ights up the sky serves for a light i
our mother’s hand. Come, you must b
cooler than rain and more luminous thaightning.’
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D
YAYAT
evayani’s first dance was over. Before idied down, there was a thunderclap
Even on our way from the palace to th
dance hall, the sky had been overcas
with dark clouds. I said to her, ‘Whydidn’t you detain Sharmishtha for you
dance?’ She smiled saying, ‘I did pres
her to stay, but she was not well. So sh
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returned to Ashokavan in the evening.’
But my suspicions were not quelled.
could see a demon-like gleam in he
eyes.
I whispered into Madhav’s ears. H
rushed to Ashokavan with the chario
and made enquiries from Sharmishtha’rusted maids. She had not yet returned.
was convinced that Devayani wa
planning something diabolical an
would do away with Sharmishtha b
reachery. Suddenly, the thought of the
cellar where Alaka had been poisoned
occurred to me. Every queen must, bradition, be told about that cellar. How
o set Sharmishtha free?
Devayani’s spring dance wa
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beginning. Some of the great artiste
present there had performed in th
demon kingdom. King Vrishaparv
himself had said: ‘If Devayani werhere, none of your troupe would hav
dared to take the floor!’ Naturally, al
were very keen to see her dance. At firsshe avoided it, but in the end her prid
was aroused. It was now clear tha
Devayani would be in the dance hall til
ate into the night.
How beautiful, how delicate and how
nnocent Devayani looked, performin
her spring dance.Devayani gave an excellent expositio
of a creeper bursting into leaf with th
first whiff of spring, then blossomin
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nto flower, and in the end, intoxicated
by her own flowers, dancing to the tun
of the spring breeze. In the end, th
creeper twines round a tree nearby, resther head on its shoulder and falls aslee
n the bliss of love. How delicately sh
had delineated this last episode.Devayani was immersed in depictin
he many hues of the sentiment of lov
hrough her spring dance. She was
woman in love. But I had neve
experienced this sweet side of her. I had
rarely experienced in her embraces th
ntensity of Sharmishtha. Even in hekisses, I felt as if she was hidin
something.
As an artist, she made a perfect lover
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but she could never assume that role as
wife. Why should that be?
After the spring dance, she was goin
o do a piece from the life of Uma. In it
beginning with Sati[1] in Daksh
sacrifice, to Parvati posing as a triba
and wooing Lord Shiva who had gonaway in a fit of temper, there were man
scenes. She was going to depict all th
situations in her dance.
I went in and told Devayani how
exquisite her spring dance was. Sh
smiled like an innocent maiden. At tha
ime she was living in the world of art, dedicated artist.
I stole out of the dance hall. Madha
was waiting with the chariot. He left m
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at the palace and went straight t
Ashokavan. I bribed Devayani’s old
maid and she talked. Sharmishtha was i
he cellar. And not alone. Puroo also. shuddered.
There was no time to think. Ever
passing moment skirted the bordebetween life and death. I hastened t
ake Sharmishtha out of the cellar and t
Ashokavan. My heart broke whe
bidding farewell to Sharmishtha fro
op of the stairs.
And that little infant. My son, wha
was your sin in the previous birth that ahe scion of a king your lot should be tha
of an orphan born to a criminal? Onl
earlier this evening the palmist had sai
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hat the lines in your hand pointed t
our being a king. And barely two hour
ater, you have to leave town like th
child of a roving beggar!
I yearned to pick Puroo up once. Bu
hen parting would have been even mor
difficult. I steeled my heart and bifarewell to Sharmishtha, not with word
but with my lips, eyes and tears.
On my way back to the dance hall,
selected a lovely gem encruste
necklace from my bedroom.
To give Devayani some rest, mino
recitals had been interposed. LaterDevayani performed another dance. Th
spring dance had embodied buddin
ove. Intense love had now to be show
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which, Devayani did to perfection. I wa
roubled again with the same question
Where does all this intensity disappea
n privacy with me? Like a live streafreezing, why does she turn cold in m
arms?
Although the audience were carrieaway by the dance, I was unable to enjo
t. I was anxious for Madhav’s return
Why had he not come back? Had h
perhaps been stopped on the way b
somebody? No, that was not possible
He had the royal signet with him. The
why should he be so late?A servant quietly brought back th
royal signet and gave it to me. It wa
clear that Madhav had left Sharmishth
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near the old temple far out of town.
was calm.
The monsoon dance was over. Ther
was a thunder of applause. Devayan
bowed with pride. I got up, put th
necklace round her neck and said to th
audience, ‘This is not a husband’ribute to his wife; this little trinket is
oken of appreciation to a unique artis
on behalf of all of us.’
The dance hall echoed for a long tim
with applause and shouts of joy.
Devayani got up very late the next day
She got ready and came to my room
Standing at the window she said, ‘Wha
a lovely morning. Come and see. I wa
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childish wish, perhaps.’
I knew why she was sending me away
When I returned to the room, Devayan
was not there. She had sent for the ol
maid and was closeted with her.
Later Devayani came to me. Sh
ooked downcast and bitingly asked meDid Your Majesty visit the palace
during the dance last night?’
‘Yes, I thought of the bejewellednecklace after seeing your spring dance.
‘Do you know that Sharmishtha ha
disappeared?’
The tables had been turned o
Devayani. But I was to realise later i
he day how transitory the joy of gettin
he better of her was.
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The sun set and night was on its way
t was not stormy like yesterday. Nigh
had given up the role of a raging fury an
was entering her palace in the sky, like coy maiden blushing with love. On he
way, she was lighting starry lamps on
by one.Last night, I had felt happy in th
belief that I had done something great i
freeing Sharmishtha. That feeling wa
gone. The memory of the same night wa
roubling me over and over again wit
he question: ‘Where is the Sharmishth
n whose arms you found bliss? Youcruel man, lying on a feather bed, have
hought for her. Open your eyes and see
That unfortunate one is sleeping on th
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‘If Kacha was in your place?’
The reference to Kacha set m
hinking of him. I was going to shoot a
hat beautiful bird. But Kacha stoppe
me.
My Puroo. He also is a tiny an
beautiful innocent bird but last night I ...That little girl in the hermitage. Sh
was going to pluck a half open bud t
give it to him. But Kacha stopped her.My Shama. She was also just such
fragrant, half open bud. And last night,
..
I was very restless. I drank some win
hoping to feel better. I did feel a littl
better. After sometime I calmed down
and fell asleep.
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But I had a horrible dream, making m
feel that it would have been better if
had not fallen asleep:
In my dream there was nothing to
see. It was just two voices. The first
was mine. I knew that, but the
second I did not know whose it wastill the end. For a moment I thought
it was Kacha’s. It was very harsh.
The latter was asking the first, ‘Did
you love Sharmishtha? Did you
really love her?’
The first said boastfully, ‘There is
no doubt. If I were not in love withher, I would not have ventured to
free her from the cellar last night.’
‘If you had followed her into the
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jungle, there would have been some
sense in what you say. Love is a
state of mind in which you are
willing to lay your life down for your love. Get up, even now it is not
too late. Leave the palace. Go and
find Sharmishtha, bring her back.Make her stand in front of Devayani
and tell Devayani. “She has given
me the love which every heart
yearns for. She will remain here asmy favourite queen.”
‘With a storm raging in pouring
rain, without the slightest care for the dark future, Sharmishtha had the
courage which ... You profligate.
Selfish coward.’
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They were not simple words. They wer
ike hammer blows. I could not bea
heir impact. I sat up with a start.
If Devayani notices in the morning tha
have been drinking? As it is, she i
annoyed. It would add fuel to the fire
With difficulty, I controlled myself.
Devayani came in the morning with ba
news. Madhav had suddenly been takell last night. He had a high fever now.
‘Don’t you know how your friend go
ll?’
‘No, I don’t. He was with me the da
before at your dance. He went away i
he interval. I myself went looking fo
him, but could not find him.’
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‘How could Your Majesty see him?
They say he returned very late drippin
wet.’
I arranged for the royal physician t
see Madhav at once. Within the hour,
also went to see him. But I felt ver
depressed on the way. Is life just circle of happiness and misery?
We stopped. There was a girl standing
n the doorway. It was Taraka. How she
had grown! She was no longer a mut
bud. She looked like a bud blossomin
nto youth.
She blushed on seeing me and lookedown. No more in the abandon o
childhood, she was now on the threshol
of youth. A moment later, she looked up
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Her attractive eyes were like stars —
pale blue like Venus — so near each
other.
She quickly turned away and went in
Madhav was tossing about in his fever
The physician was sitting by him, feelin
his pulse. He looked despairingly at me was taken aback.
A young woman came in with som
medicine. I could not see her face. Wit
he help of the physician, she gave hi
he medicine. I saw her from the rear
bending and sitting down. I thought
knew her, but there was no younwoman in Madhav’s house. Madhav’
mother was old and Taraka’s mother had
died sometime ago.
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Madhav was delirious. She change
he cold compress on his forehead an
urned to go into the house, when I saw
her clearly. She was Mukulika.
Mukulika! Mother had driven her ou
of the town. But what had come to pas
was not her fault alone.With solicitude, I asked her, ‘How are
ou Mukulika? All is well with you,
hope.’
She came forward and bowing to me
said, ‘By your grace, Your Majesty, I am
well.’
I remembered that night of Father’mpending death. Mukulika showed m
he oasis. When our lips met, my fear o
death just vanished. I was ashamed o
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myself, reminiscing of a love affair by
sick bed. Mukulika enquired after m
and the prince which reminded me o
Puroo.
Where will Puroo be now? What ma
Sharmishtha be doing? Sharmishtha, wh
as a child used pearls for sacred rice aher doll’s wedding, would now b
begging at somebody’s door to feed th
offspring of her flesh and love.
oticing my silence, Mukulika go
worried. She asked softly, ‘Have I said
anything wrong?’
In an effort to hide my distress I said
No, no, you are not in the wrong, I am.
have seen you after such a long time.
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saw you tending a very dear friend. Eve
hen, I did not enquire about you excep
formally. Tell me, how did you come
here?’
She said, ‘I am in the service of
great sage. He was passing through her
during his pilgrimage.’She added, ‘In less than two hour
after contracting a temperature Madha
was in a delirium. His mother lost he
nerve. She beseeched the sage and h
gave her sanctified ashes to put o
Madhav’s head. Knowing that there wa
no one else in the house except Tarakhe sent me here.’
‘I must see your sage sometime. If hi
dissertations bring peace of mind, I a
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greatly in need of it.’
Mukulika did not reply. She jus
smiled.
In bidding farewell I said, ‘Mukulika
Madhav is my second soul. Such a frien
s not to be found anywhere in the world
Look after him as well as you can. shall not forget your obligation.’
That night also I was unable to sleep
First I kept thinking of Mukulika. What great difference there was between th
Mukulika of Ashokavan and the perso
she was now. That infatuated Mukulik
and this one dedicated to service. I mussee the sage for whom she is working
Who knows? He maybe omniscient. If
can find out from him about Sharmishth
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and Puroo ...
I wondered where could Sharmishth
be? What could Puroo be doing? Would
she return to her parents? Where woul
she go? Or would she, in he
disappointment, hurl herself down
precipice clutching Puroo to her breast?I began to see before my eyes th
mangled bodies of Sharmishtha an
Puroo. The kites were tearing at them.
closed my eyes to keep out the ghastl
scene and yet I saw it. From the mangle
bodies seemed to arise flames of fire
dancing weirdly as much as to sayWhere is that treacherous lover? Wher
s that passionate sex-ridden husband
Where is that irresponsible father
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Where is that irresponsible drunkard?’
That picture of flames oppressed m
all day and even at night. I did not get t
sleep till midnight. In the end I took
ittle more wine than yesterday. I wanted
o take even more but I controlled mysel
with great difficulty.But restrained in one direction thus
he mind ran amuck in another. I spent al
hat night thus tormented. I desired to g
o Devayani but dared not.
I went to Madhav everyday to enquir
after him and returned depressed an
dejected.The royal physician did his best
Madhav’s mother kept a sharp vigil to
keep off death hovering round the corne
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ike a snake poised to bite. Mukulik
was ever in attendance on him without
moment’s rest. Poor innocent Taraka
was sitting at his feet, comforting hiand staring at everybody around, like
frightened deer.
On the fifth day, it looked as iMadhav was regaining consciousness
He was groaning. There was a shade o
satisfaction in the royal physician’s face
Mukulika was happy and I wa
heartened. I sat near him at his head. H
muttered groaning, ‘Your Majesty, those
are the King’s orders.’That day for the first time, he ha
spoken a whole sentence. But that seare
hrough my heart like a saw. I knew
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Madhav’s gentle nature. As he wa
physically unable to weather the storm
he was also unable to bear m
abandoning Sharmishtha.
And I felt nothing in giving up tha
guileless emblem of love, Sharmishtha
who found bliss in laying her head on mshoulder, who had boundless faith that i
my arms even death could be defied.
That night I was reminded again of th
wo voices. They were scrapping loudly
woke up with a start and picked up th
ar of wine near my bed. It was not a jar
t was the sea. The fire in my heart coulonly be drowned in that sea.
A week had passed and yet there wa
no sign of Madhav recovering. But n
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one had any inkling, not even the roya
physician, that he would pass away th
next day.
That day, he perspired profusely
There was now hope that the feve
would come down. He regaine
consciousness and asked, ‘Shall recover?’
The physician said, ‘It will take tim
but you will definitely get well.
Madhav asked ‘Where is she?’
realised that he was referring t
Sharmishtha, but his mother thought h
wanted to see his betrothed and sent foMadhavi.
‘Your Majesty, I do not want to die
et. Who will look after Taraka if I do
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f I die now it would mean that I hav
betrayed Madhavi and her love. You
Majesty, shall I live? Promise me tha
ou will save me at any cost.’
What he said was not irrelevant. But
hought he was in delirium. For hi
consolation I gave him my word, ‘I shalsave you at any cost.’ That moment th
physician looked at me with quee
dejection. He took out some medicin
from his bag and asked Mukulika to giv
hem to Madhav.
Madhav, uttering broken words in hi
delirium, was now talking fluently tMadhavi, ‘Have we not agreed that i
our first child is a girl, I shall have th
privilege of choosing the name and if
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boy you will name him. Do you agree
Make up your mind. Otherwise you wil
quarrel later.’
What could the poor thing say? Th
music of that ethereal dream of privac
sounded like a terrible nightmare in th
face of death.Mukulika brought the medicine. But h
refused to take it. The physicia
beckoned to Madhavi to give it to him
She took it to his mouth. He clasped he
hand tightly and said, ‘We are married
are we not?’ He talked in that strain fo
wo or three hours and suddenlstopped. He was gasping. The physicia
kept trying one remedy and another
othing availed. No one even knew
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when life left him.
Madhav who had taken his Madhavi’
hand and said, ‘We are married’ earlie
n the day was now lying on the funera
pyre. I could not bear to see his lifeles
body. Where was that cheering smile o
his?The pyre was lit. Madhav’s bod
slowly burnt to ashes. I was looking
first with tears in my eyes, then I stoo
still like a statue.
Life and death. What a cruel game it is
s man born only to take part in tha
game? What does he live for? Why doe
he die?
Death. What a great mystery it is
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Children build castles in the sand on th
seashore. One sweep of the tide and th
castle disappears. Is life any differen
from such a castle? What is man whowe glorify as the image of God on eart
and whose achievements we worship? A
iny leaf on the huge tree of the world.A tiny leaf which may fall at anytim
with one gust of the wind. And I, Yayat
he King of Hastinapur, who am I? A
mere human, a tiny leaf which may fal
anytime.
I paid my last homage to Madhav an
returned. That night. No, it was not night but a hissing black cobra setting a
me every few minutes. I kept thinking o
death. I could not emerge from th
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whirlpool of thought.
stood looking out into the darknes
with a blank mind for a long time:In that darkness, I suddenly saw a
chariot on the road. The chariot was
headed straight towards me But the
wheels made no sound, neither did
the hooves of the black horses
yoked to it. I could distinctly see the
horses even in the darkness. I gazedintently at them. I could not believe
my eyes. The chariot advanced
straight across and over the trees
and bushes in the garden, trampling
them down and came and stood
directly under my window. The
charioteer softly said, ‘Are you not
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coming, Your Majesty?’
I said, ‘The queen is sleeping and
so is little Yadu. Without taking
their leave ...’
I myself could not hear what I said
after that. Before I knew what was
happening, the charioteer stretchedhis hand, reached the window,
picked me up as one plucks a
flower off a plant and put me in his
chariot.
The chariot was on the way. We
were leaving the marks of
Hastinapur behind. The temple, thedance academy, Madhav’s house,
the sports stadium where in my
youth I had tamed a wild horse.
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The chariot was flying like the
wind. There was Ashokavan going
by.
I could no longer contain myself.
When I asked the charioteer, where
we going and when we would
return, he said he knew naughtexcept only two names. ‘First, Your
Majesty’s. And the second my
own.’
‘What may that be?’
‘Death!’
What a terrible nightmare it was. clutched at the window bars with bot
hands and still felt that I might fall to th
ground, shivering with fright.
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With difficulty I walked to the bed and
sat down. But my heart was palpitatin
and my legs were trembling. I could no
calm myself, even for a moment.
I drank wine, glass after glass. Afte
an hour or so, I felt better. Gradually
dozed off.
But in that disturbed state, I had
errible dream:
In it, a funeral pyre was burning infront of me. In that blazing fire, one
after another, my limbs were being
reduced to ashes. Before my eyes,the ears, the lips, the hands and feet
were burnt to ashes. As I would
never again experience the
fragrance of the green champak [2]
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and the ripe pineapple, I would
never enjoy the fragrance of the
abundant hair of the beloved.
With these visions, I came to. I sat up i
bed. My heart was palpitating as if deat
was hammering away at it and I wa
hearing the echo of those blows.
Like the deer running for life with th
hunter on its trail, my mind ran amuck
Wine was now its only recourse.For many years now, I had not taken
so much wine. Gradually it made m
ntoxicated. I was now being put in minof another kind of intoxication
Mukulika, Alaka, Devayani and
Sharmishtha in their desirable form
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passed before me, rousing my desire.
I stretched my hands to take Alaka i
my arms. But I opened my eyes an
ooked again and again. I was alone
Alaka, Alaka,’ I shouted.
Someone responded but it was no
Alaka. It was Mukulika. I was kissinher. But what is this cold feeling agains
my lips? Was this something cold
against my lips the hand of death?
I opened my eyes again. I was alone
Maybe death was hovering round me —
nvisible. Maybe this is the last night o
my life. Who knows? Let me make thbest of it, let me enjoy it to the full. Thi
draining cup of life — once, only once
et it be filled to the brim with the win
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of a woman’s beauty. The last cup —
his very last cup.
‘Sharmishtha ... Shama ... Shama!’
got up on shaky legs. I was unsteady
et I got up, opened the door and strolle
out.
The maid outside Devayani’s doo
was dozing. She was taken aback o
seeing me and got up with a start.She almost ran in. I thought I woul
wait until she came out. It was onl
proper that I should go in only after th
queen had sent me word. I realised it bu
he body would brook no delay.
Excessive liquor had made me ver
unsteady. Even so, I went in. I do no
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remember what exactly transpired. I wa
walking as if in a deep fog.
One thing I remember though. I wante
Devayani. But she knew at once that
had taken wine. She lost her temper. Sh
was angry, furious. I also was annoyed
angry. One word led to another. Onceby mistake, I mentioned Sharmishtha. I
he end, she made me swear to one thing
by Maharishi Shukra ...
‘I shall never touch you.’
Defeated and unrequited, I came out o
her room. I would never see Devayani’
face again. I would spend my dayhinking of Sharmishtha.
I took a chariot to Ashokavan
Devayani and Sharmishtha wer
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alternately before my eyes. I wante
both but one had discarded me. And th
other? I had sent her away.
Mukulika. Her preceptor, the sage. H
was staying in a serai[3] near the danc
academy, I remembered. I though
nstead of spending a restless night aAshokavan, I would go and see him. Se
f he could bring me peace of mind.
Mukulika was startled at seeing m
here at an odd hour. Blushing, she too
me to the sage.
He looked a great sage. I thought I ha
seen him somewhere before, but only foa moment. I could not remember where.
I told him of my unhappiness. I begge
him to forgive me for having come to hi
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sacred place drunk. He smiled and said
Your Majesty, you have already gone
half the way to achieve peace of mind
Life here is beset with mucunhappiness. There are only tw
remedies to counter it on earth’.
I eagerly asked: ‘Which are they?’‘Wine and women!’
I was stunned. I took courage to ask
Drinking wine is a great sin ...’The sage intervened. ‘Good and evi
are imaginary concepts put out by cleve
men and fools. In this world, onl
happiness and misery are reaEverything else is delusion. Good an
bad are appearances ... the play of th
mind. To my disciples I always giv
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wine as sacrament.’
I wondered if I was dreaming. Th
sage said, ‘Your Majesty, you seek
peace of mind? There are many deitie
at my command who can bring peace o
mind to you. Pray for anyone of you
choice.’He got up and walked away.
followed him like one hypnotised. Bu
all the time I could not help feeling that
was falling off a mountain peak, hurtlin
down an endless dark precipice, whic
ight had never penetrated.
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I
SHARMISHTHA
was returning to Hastinapur afte
eighteen years. The same way I had fled
n a similar troubled state of mind
othing has changed in the last eightee
ears. Am I the same Sharmishtha oeighteen years ago? No, this is
different Sharmishtha.
Sharmishtha then was a wife and
over, even though she was a mother
Today, only the mother in her survive
with only one care, ‘Is my Puroo safe?
She has no thought for anything else.
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Sages like Kacha, Yati and Angiras
are haunted by the fear of the penanc
undertaken by Maharishi Shukra. Bu
such fears do not touch her. She iobsessed only with one fear. Where wil
Puroo be? Will he go to Hastinapur wit
he victorious Yadu? He looks so muchike His Majesty. If Devayani recognise
him ...
There are guards with me and Alak
also is there. That golden-haired girl ha
fallen in love with Puroo though sh
never shows it. But flowers in bloom
even hidden from the eye, givhemselves away by their fragrance. Sh
nsisted on coming with me. But whe
he brave girl loses her nerve at the fal
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of night and wipes her eyes I am moved
Then I cannot sleep till after midnight
All the memories of the last eightee
ears come to life. Right from thaerrible night ...
That night, the night Madhav went away was all alone in the blinding darknes
and pouring rain. Alone? No, my Puroo
was with me. But Puroo was drippinwet. What if he got ill ...? I was angr
with the elements. This biting wind, thi
black sky, the lightning, the thunder —
why should they have mercy on me?When man can be heartless like
stone, why expect a stone to have
heart? Devayani was out for my blood. I
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His Majesty had not dared
Sharmishtha’s life would have ended i
he cellar. It is true His Majesty saved
my life. But how did he reconcilhimself to leaving his belove
Sharmishtha to fend for herself
Sharmishtha, I do not prize this kingdoor its splendour. I want only you.’ If onl
he had said this, I would have bee
greatly heartened.
I would not have permitted him t
come with me. But that life-givin
message of love, couched in swee
words, would have remained with mhrough the thunder of clouds and th
crash of lightning. But such good fortun
could hardly be Sharmishtha’s.
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I do not know how long and how far
walked that night, from where I got th
strength to do so, with Puroo in my arms
But Sharmishtha, a princess, who hagrown up as a spoilt child, who wen
about in a palanquin and was used t
walking on a carpet of flowers all heife, was now footing her way, hour afte
hour, through a forest strewn with thorns
She was running away from Hastinapur
her cellar of death. She was no daughteof King Vrishaparva. She was not th
beloved of King Yayati. She had only
one bond in the world. She was thmother of an infant. That shivering tin
ife clutching at her had inspired her
She meant to live to see his greatnes
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before facing death.
Next morning I stopped by a temple i
a small village. Where to ... wa
question that troubled my mind. Shall
go to Father? He will be happy to se
his grandchild. But all that will eb
away when he gets to know that I aDevayani’s co-wife and that she is afte
my life.
I thought to myself, how lonely man i
n this world. The whole earth stretche
before me, but I had no one on it excep
my child.
Early in the morning, a kindly womacame there. With solicitude she took m
o her house. She treated me like he
ounger sister. I spent four happy day
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here. The fear that Puroo might be take
ll after that dreadful night’s discomfor
had passed.
It was the fifth night. Puroo wa
sleeping by me. I was floating i
pleasant dreams.
I woke up with a start. Did I feesomebody’s arms round me? No, but
did feel a strange rough hand touchin
me. I saw the figure of my host with hi
ustful look. I was startled by the touc
and screamed, ‘Sister.’ The lady
hastened into my room with a light. Sh
patted me and asked, ‘What is the mattersister?’ I said that I had felt somethin
ike a snake crawling over me. Sh
called out to her husband and they bot
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ooked round the room. But how coul
hey so find the snake who was there i
he form of a man?
I learnt a lesson. So far I had bee
sheltered in the palace where my beaut
was safe from molestation. Now in th
open world it was likely to causrouble. I had not only to protect Puro
but myself too.
Next morning, I made many excuse
and reluctantly took leave of my sister.
was sad at leaving and tears came to m
eyes, wondering if I would ever see he
again. Is life nothing more than a mixturof meetings and partings?
passed village after village. I took t
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unfrequented roads avoiding larg
owns, to get as far away fro
Hastinapur as possible, never staying a
one place for more than a day, neveconfiding in anyone and never disclosin
my real name. If somebody wa
persistent, I would say that I had set oun search of my husband who ha
deserted me and my infant and gone t
he Himalayas. This aroused pity i
some and suspicion in others.
I had thought that Puroo would tir
from the discomfort of the journey. Bu
not at all.I was well away from Hastinapur.
was tired of walking and was forced t
camp for a few days in a village. I wa
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aken in by a rich widow. She harried
me with questions about my identity.
had my set answer. She said
sympathetically, ‘Your husband left sucha beautiful wife to turn an ascetic? How
strange destiny can be in some cases!’
All day she kept staring at me. I warestless when I lay down but I could no
sleep for a long time. I went over all th
happy moments I had spent in th
company of His Majesty — the ver
ntimate ones in the hope that I woul
fall asleep. In the end, sleep herself too
mercy on me.I woke from the disturbed sleep with
start, by a light shed on me. Someon
was peering at me. I opened my eyes jus
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a little, to see. The old woman wa
whispering something to a young man.
istened with my eyes closed. Wicked
broken words, Hastinapurproclamation, a fat reward and so on
distressed my ears, like drops of poison
was scared.The young man was saying, ‘No, it i
not possible that this is Sharmishtha.’
They went out arguing. My heart wa
n my mouth. I got up then and left th
house at dead of night.
Like a hunted animal without exposin
myself, avoiding large towns and takinshelter only for the night, in a temple o
serai, I went on. Sometimes, I wa
depressed. I thought it was no us
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continuing with such hide and seek i
which one day I was bound to b
discovered.
Whatever the hardship I must live fo
Puroo. Whatever the odds, I must till h
grows up. I must be prepared to cros
he mountain of unhappiness.A few days later, I came to a village
emple. It was evening, so I decided t
spend the night in the adjoining serai.
washed Puroo at a well nearby and lef
him in the front of the temple to play
Everyone who came into the temple firs
rang the bell. Puroo also wanted to rint himself. He was dragging me to th
bells. I put him off for sometime but
mother has to yield to the wilfulness o
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he child! I lifted his hands to the bel
with glee, when before the temple a
announcement was being mad
promising a big reward to anyone whwould present me and my child t
Devayani.
I shuddered at the first few words of and my legs began to shake. I wa
holding Puroo high and thought I woul
drop him. I was terrified and collapse
o the floor.
How happy is a child’s world. How
blissful his ignorance! Puroo did no
understand a word of the announcemenHe was absorbed in reaching up an
ringing the bell. He was annoye
because he had not been able to do so
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He started crying when I pulled hi
away. The announcement was stil
ringing in my ears. My heart was beatin
fast. A middle-aged man, seeing Puroocrying, walked up to me saying, ‘Th
child is crying. Take him and sooth
him. See what he wants.’ The nexmoment, he was peering at me.
The announcement upset me greatly.
was convinced that I must never again b
seen in public places like a bazaar,
emple or a serai. I must disguis
myself. I knew that it would be easier t
effect a disguise if I left Purosomewhere. But the thought wa
heartbreaking. Separate from Puroo? No
hat was quite impossible. Puroo’s eye
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were like the sun and moon to me. Al
he treasures of Kuber could not equa
he joy of a kiss of his. I had to live fo
his sake alone.
I set out with Puroo inspite of th
darkness. I decided that I must not stop
with anyone. For rest I must look for place somewhere outside the village
maybe even out in the open. That must b
an inflexible rule even at the risk of life
The next four or five days wer
without incident. Kacha’s memory wa
heartening. So far, I had put away the re
sari given by Kacha. For the first timone day I wore it.
That day, I stayed at a deserted templ
away from a village. Outside and abou
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was a dense forest. For a moment I wa
frightened. I was putting Puroo to sleep
on my lap when an ascetic walked in. H
went straight to the idol. Puroo mushave noticed him! He got up and starte
prattling ‘da, da.’
The ascetic turned quickly and walkeaway past me. Puroo was crying, sayin
da-da.’
In the hope, that Puroo might sleep i
he cool breeze, I took him outside. I
was moonlight. The whole world looke
ike a white lotus with a thousand petal
open. The forest in front and around wabathed in moonlight. What wa
otherwise a dense forest, now looke
gently inviting, like the flowering shrub
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n a garden. The world was sleepin
soundly in the lap of mother earth, to th
une of the lullaby sung by the moon.
By now the moonlight was going to m
head. What beautiful patterns it mad
under the trees! I was not in a mood t
hum a tune to myself since leavinHastinapur. But now gladdened at hear
o overflowing, I broke into song. I wa
n a trance. They say, that moon is
friend of the God of Love. Tha
realisation dawned on me now. Th
fascination of the moonlight was akin t
hat of love.I had covered some distance
Suddenly, the forest seemed to end
Before me, a huge black rock wa
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spread out like a tortoise. Beyond it wa
a sheer chasm.
I was drawn to it. I wanted to wal
right up to its end and peep into th
chasm. After all did we not play at th
same game as children?
I said to myself, today the moonlight ireally wonderful. This beautiful view i
unique. I wanted to drink in all tha
beauty. The rock was jutting out a littl
oo far, but what did it matter? What wa
here to be afraid of? Does not man fin
pleasure in living surrounded on al
sides by death? Who has time to reflecon other things, while enjoying silver
moments such as these?
I walked courageously ahead. I wa
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getting near the narrower end of th
rock. Someone shouted, ‘Stop, stop.’
was taken aback.
I saw him heading towards me. H
was coming nearer every moment. H
was probably an ascetic. The though
hat somewhere at hand there must be thhermitage of a sage heartened me.
could see him distinctly in the clea
moonlight. From hope I had again falle
nto despair.
The ascetic was Yati!
Yati was peering at me. I was in a
cold sweat remembering his weirbehaviour at court, the terrifyin
experience of Ashokavan and his hatred
for women. I felt helpless. Yati was
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ooking closely at me and at Puro
sleeping on my shoulder. I bravely me
his gaze.
I thought his earlier insane look ha
changed to a softer one. He paused for
few moment and asked, ‘Sharmishtha
how do you happen to be here?’ His tonwas affectionate and kindly. I sobbed.
did not know how or what to tell him.
He was bewildered at my sobbing
But I pulled myself up and, trying t
smile, said, ‘I came away fro
Hastinapur on purpose for Puroo to se
his uncle. I knew you would not come tHastinapur to see him, so I decided t
bring this jewel of your family to show
ou.’
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The words helped to relieve th
mounting tension between us. Yati came
nearer and said, ‘Is he my nephew
Yayati’s son? I was wondering if thenephew would give his uncle a kiss. Bu
Prince is asleep. It will be the first kis
n my life and I must find an auspicioumoment for it.’
I looked at him stunned. Was it Yati or
had Kacha disguised himself as Yati?
How did this miracle happen? How di
a beautiful lake take the place of
barren desert?
followed Yati to the hermitage which
was run by one of the disciples o
Maharishi Angiras.
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Is life a chain of coincidences? A
east at that moment I thought so. I ha
put on the beautiful sari given t
Devayani by Kacha only because of thmistake of a maid. A princess had been
reduced to a maid. Later, the king cam
nto her life by the passing whim oDevayani and brought her a lifetime o
ove. Still again, the maid was turne
nto a refugee. But she soon foun
someone to lean on. And of all thpeople, an ascetic who had been dubbe
by the world a lunatic.
I told him my tale. I mentioned howKacha had given me heart by adoptin
me as his sister, and how he had
earnestly pleaded with Devayani t
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release me from bondage. I broke dow
during the narration. But these wer
ears of joy at the thought of my goo
fortune in having found such selfless annoble love. I paused to wipe my eyes.
Yati must have been prompted to open
his heart after hearing me. He spokquite calmly, as if he was talking abou
someone else’s life. He was almost of
his mind when he left Ashokavan. Kach
had directed the hermitages on the wa
o bring him to Bhrigu Mountain i
anyone should find him. One of th
disciples persuaded him to accompanhim to Kacha’s cottage. Kacha tended
him like his own brother.
Yati had taken a mistaken view of life
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and started to detest everything sweet
ranging from sweet fruit to woman’
ove. He formed a firm idea to which h
stuck that pure bliss and self-knowledgcould be reached only through suc
hatred. He had set out to find God bu
was caught in the snare of black magichypnotism and occult powers. He had n
friend or disciple. He had never com
across selfless love. Yati’s life had
become like that of a leaf which dropfrom a tree and is carried up swirlin
hrough the air in a whirlwind.
I heard of the whirlwind and the leafor the first time when Yati wa
speaking. He talked at length. I canno
recall today all that he said. I wish I ha
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carefully made a note of every word o
his in the diary of my mind. What he sai
was born of bitter experience. Like th
fragrance wafted on the breeze, like thsilver streak of lightning, I have now
only the memory of his words. But eve
he mere memory is inspiring.The Queen Mother was on the Bhrig
Mountain. Under her loving care Yat
recovered his balance a little. Kach
himself strove to guide him. They ha
debates for hours. The outcome of it al
was that Yati found the golden mean o
his life. He told me on that moonlit nighof the philosophical maxims contained i
heir debates. I remember very few o
hem today and those also in odd bits.
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Yati said the body and the soul are no
enemies of each other; they are the tw
wheels of a chariot; if one of the tw
breaks down, the strain has to be takeby the other and it is borne down! To
orture the body for the uplift of the sou
or to deaden the soul for physicapleasures are both wrong. The varie
beauty broadcast by the Almighty in thi
world cannot be impure or tainted. Th
relation of man and woman is just likhat of the body and soul. Not by hatin
each other but rather by intense love fo
each other, love so great that each onforgets self, man and woman attai
heavenly bliss in workaday life. That i
why keeping the household is regarde
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as sacred as making a sacrifice. To th
common man, that alone is religion
Sages like Shukra and Kacha bear th
cares of the world’s well-being; Lordndra, Vrishaparva and Yayati, the grea
kings must tend to the happiness of thei
subjects and the common householdemust carry the burden of property an
well-being of his family, friends and
relations. They must at all times bewar
hat their happiness does not impinge oothers to make them unhappy. Individua
duty, social obligation, royal duty and
he duty of an ascetic are all on parone bound by any of these duties ma
deprecate life or transgress th
fundamental restrictions laid on it. It is
sin to violate one’s religion or duty. Bu
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everyone must determine for himsel
which duty to take upon himself. In it
pursuit, everyone from the ascetic to th
husband must remember that selfles
ove is the king of all religions and th
highest form of duty.
Hearing all this, Kacha rose greatly imy estimation. How unfortunat
Devayani was! She had been loved by
great man who combined in himsel
heavenly and earthly qualities. But in th
end, she had pronounced a curse even o
him. With her own hands, she had felled
he tree with the power to grant all one’wishes.
Yati knew many tribals at the foot o
he Himalayas. He said, ‘They are
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brave and honest people. They will loo
after you and Puroo.’
I wished to build a cottage at the foo
of the Himalayas where the three of u
could stay and I would have th
opportunity of looking after my brother
n-law, who had all his life neglectedhimself. In the end, I took courage to sa
so. Yati smiled and said, ‘Dear Sister
hat just is not possible. Kacha is goin
o undertake grave penance.
‘He is an exemplary man. He has n
race of jealousy in him or desire fo
fame. He does not even wish to be thpreceptor of the gods. But since he los
he power of Sanjeevani, Maharish
Shukra has taken it upon himself t
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acquire an even more potent power an
o make the demons more powerful tha
he gods.’
I timidly asked Yati, ‘What is thi
potent power Maharishi Shukra aspire
o?’
‘By the power of Sanjeevani the deacan be brought back to life. Now
Maharishi Shukra is determined t
acquire power by which the living ca
be killed by merely wishing it.’
‘And, is Kacha too after the same?’
‘Kacha is greatly distressed at that. H
sincerely believes that an ascetic shoulnot go after destructive power. But th
only check to Maharishi Shukra’
destructive power is the possession o
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an even more potent power. Nothing les
will do. So, Kacha is sitting down t
penance. God knows how long it wil
ake. But while he is in penance, it inecessary that his co-disciples an
friends like me should, in our own way
undergo penance for peace on earthTrue asceticism requires it. I propose to
do my duty.’
We reached the foot of the Himalaya
n a few days. Yati arranged for my
comfort and then prepared to set out
Bowing to him, I said, ‘Brother, whe
shall we meet again?’ He smiled andsaid, ‘When? The Omniscient alon
knows!’
I said, ‘May your blessing be the onl
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hope of unfortunate me!’ He turned to m
and said, ‘Sister have no care. Puro
may be in the wilderness today but he i
destined to be the King of Hastinapuomorrow!’
Puroo was growing up. Puroo by nowwas also taking aim with a tiny bow an
arrow. My joy knew no bounds at hi
nfallible aim. Puroo grew a little morand started learning the Vedas at th
hermitage of a sage some distance away
By the time Puroo was ten or eleven,
was proud of his valour but afraid of hiadventurous spirit. It was wonderful tha
hose little fists should clutch a bow an
arrow and kill such big animals. Puroo
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who as a child was frightened of hi
own shadow on the wall, was now
nonchalantly facing the wild animals o
he jungle.
The river is negligibly small at th
source. A thin stream no bigger than a
finger flows down the hillside and enterhe plains. It broadens and meanders. A
other streams join in, it grows i
volume. Puroo also grew up like that
Even in exile, he made many friends
some ascetics, some tribals. Hi
blossoming mind was engrossed in loca
festivities, the merriment, the happinesand misery, and generally the course o
ife there!
I had a strange feeling that one momen
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Puroo was as close to me as he wa
when he was in my womb. The nex
moment I thought that he was goin
further and further away from me. Hicontact with me now was no more tha
hat of the bird, who soars all day in th
sky singing merrily, and returns to thnest only at night. His was a differen
world now. I hoped that the unfortunat
mother would have a space in th
fullness of that world.
Such thoughts were very depressing
Puroo would fondly say, ‘What is th
matter, Mother?’ I could say nothing. It the rule of Creation that fundamentall
man must be lonely at heart?
When I was thus depressed, I woul
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come out of the cottage to look at th
snowclad peaks of the Himalayas. Thes
peaks rising high to the heavens gave m
much forbearance.
And not only the Himalayas
Everything around me heartened me i
ts own way. The ultimate essence of lifwas being revealed to me. I learnt tha
he easiest way to be happy is t
cheerfully live the life given to us, t
find pleasure in it, experience the beaut
and fragrance of it and to share it wit
others.
The meandering stream similarlbrought cheer to my depressed mind
Seeing its swollen raging waters in th
rains and the havoc caused by it, I woul
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feel that after all, youth is not completel
a blessing, it also carries a curse. Ther
s no knowing how much a man migh
ose his head in the flush of youth, wharocks he will crash on in his pursuit o
pleasure and how many pure, innocen
gentle things he will trample on in hiwild chase.
I understood from my exile why sage
and ascetics take to the jungle for thei
penance. Nature and man ar
nseparably linked together from th
beginning to the end. In fact, they ar
wins. That is why life reveals itself its true form only in the presence o
ature. Man then begins to understan
he content and limitations of life. Whe
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he drifts away from Nature, his lif
becomes one-sided. In that artificia
one-sided existence, his thoughts
feelings and desires assume unreal andistorted forms. My misfortune had i
one way turned out to be good luck. Tha
s why I came here. I was able to seclearly the truth underlying life.
It was not as though I was thu
houghtful and balanced all the time
Sometimes I felt lonely from a sense o
separation. At night, on my bed of straw
he body ached and the mind hankere
for His Majesty.I strove hard to stop such fancie
which were heartrending. I woul
remind myself of the renunciation o
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Kacha and Yati. But my mind was like
an unbridled horse. It could not b
checked. It would fly to Hastinapur an
Ashokavan and wait at the door of thunderground passage. No, it is no
possible for man to dissociate himsel
from his body all the time.Such sentiments, repressed with grea
difficulty, would unexpectedly burst out
t happened once when Puroo was seve
or eight. Puroo was sitting with ascetics
A lady sitting by me had a girl of four o
five in her lap. Her eyes were ver
beautiful. But I was attracted more bher hair than her eyes. The abundant hai
with occasional streaks of gold wa
fascinating. They were like fine golde
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hreads drawn through a black mass o
cloud. The girl was not only sweet bu
daring. When I stretched my hands, sh
came to me and sat in my lap withoudemur.
I bid farewell to her, hoping that w
would meet again and returned to thcottage. But I could not sleep thinking o
hat sweet little girl. I longed for Hi
Majesty’s company and the memory o
hat pleasure was disquieting. I wishe
Puroo had a sister like her.
Even in this peaceful life, I wa
roubled by much agony. One day Yatcame and gave me the news of the deat
of the Queen Mother. She had been good
o me. I wished I had been able to serv
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her in some way. But I was sorry th
opportunity had never come my way.
I once met an ascetic who had com
from Hastinapur. According to him Hi
Majesty had ceased to look after th
affairs of the state. Devayani wa
attending to them. Was it possible thahere were differences betwee
Devayani and His Majesty? Even if so,
man cannot neglect his duties. Lik
flowers some persons cannot live excep
with the dewdrops of love. Without it
hey just dry up. If the differences ar
material and lasting, what will happen tHis Majesty?
I was very depressed that day. I fel
ike going to Hastinapur, even at the ris
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of my life, to beg of His Majesty to com
with me to my humble cottage. But Puro
was still small. I wept bitterly. As usual
said in my prayers before going to behe words, ‘Lord, make him happy.’
As a child, Puroo, repeated after m
whatever I said in my prayers. But nowhe had grown up a little. He asked m
out of curiosity, ‘Mother, who is him?
Tell me the name!’
‘I shall tell you when you are sixteen.
But before he was sixteen, Nature wa
beginning to reveal to him who the ‘him
n my prayer was. Until the age owelve, he looked like me. But in th
next one or two years, he shot up an
filled up. He was now looking more an
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more like His Majesty. To add to it, th
occasional visits of the ascetic fro
Hastinapur would bring news whic
worried me. His Majesty hadissociated himself completely from th
administration of the State. For month
on end, he was away from the capitaEven when in town, he did not stir out o
Ashokavan. There was now no limit t
his indulgence in luxury and excesses.
I did not know what to do. That
should be helpless to save fro
degradation a dear one for whom
would cheerfully and without hesitatiohave laid down my life! How frail ma
s.
In an effort to forget this new turn o
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unhappiness I turned to drawing again
One day, I felt like making a sketch o
Puroo. I thought over it a great deal, an
realised that in his adolescence he wagrowing up in His Majesty’s likeness.
Puroo was now sixteen. I told him th
secret that he was no ordinary youth bua prince of Hastinapur. I consoled him
by saying that I had to leave Hastinapu
because of Devayani’s jealousy.
It is very difficult to make childre
understand. The first flush of youth is no
only adventurous but blind. It canno
perceive the problems of everyday lifet is constantly surrounded only by th
fragrance of the flowers it dreams of.
explained to him over and over agai
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hat it would be better to stay where w
were until the time His Majesty sent fo
us. He would not agree. When I mad
him swear that he would not divulge thsecret of his royal birth without m
permission, he impudently said, ‘No
even to His Majesty.’I comforted him by saying, ‘I am no
asking you to do that. You are free to tel
His Majesty that you are his son. Bu
remember never to tell anyone else wh
ou are. I enjoin you upon my life.’
As they grow up, children drift froheir parents. Love and achievement ar
he inspirations of the young mind. Thes
draw young boys and girls from th
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sheltered existence of their childhood
The parents, however, continue to dwel
n their old world, anxious for thei
children’s well-being.
As fear left him by one door, lov
entered by another to find a place
Budding, youthful, blushful, innocenove. Love like the delicate pink tones i
he eastern corner of the sky just befor
dawn!
But he never gave away this secret o
his. That sweet girl Alaka with th
golden hair. Her mother was now a dea
friend of mine. Naturally the childrealso became friends. But when Puro
was sixteen, there was a subtle change i
heir behaviour. The two no longe
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played together with their earlie
abandon. There was an imperceptibl
coyness in their approach. If others wer
not looking, they looked stealthily aeach other. They would blush and loo
away and Alaka would hang her head
and ply the ground with her toenailsWhen she was very small, and asked t
do something for Puroo, she used to say
Why should I do anything for him? H
never does anything for me.’ But nowwhenever she came, she was mor
concerned about his comfort.
All this dawned on me graduallyThere was nothing wrong in it. Bu
sometimes I wondered if it was right, i
hat first incipience of love should b
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allowed to grow.
On second thoughts I would reason
You were once a princess. Were no
ou later reduced to being a maid
Alaka may not have blue blood. But he
ove is genuine. Is the love of a maid an
hat of a princess vastly different?’I was bewildered by the conflict in m
mind. But I did not have the heart t
speak to Puroo or Alaka about th
matter. Like the young, the elders also
feel constrained to say anything in suc
cases.
* * *
Three more years went by. Puroo wa
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nineteen now. One day he returned ver
perturbed from his hunt. He had hear
hat the tribals called Dasyus ha
organised a very big rising in the NorthThey had set out to march on Hastinapur
There were rumours of Prince Yadu
eading a large army to put them down. could not sleep a wink that night.
It constantly occurred to me that i
Yadu was leading the army, where was
His Majesty?
Like me, Puroo also was tossing i
bed from side to side. I asked him onc
or twice, ‘What is the matter? Why canou sleep tonight?’
He said, ‘Nothing at all, Mother.’ He
did not say a word more. I laughed.
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hought he was thinking of Alaka. It is
difficult age. Who knows, he may hav
kissed her for the first time today.
Next afternoon, I knew why Puro
was restless that night. He set out for
hunt in the morning and did not return til
nightfall. I enquired about his friendwho had accompanied him. None o
hem had returned. It was a nightmare.
was stricken with terror that night. Go
forbid such a night falling to the lot of
mother!
Till noon next day I was restless like
fish out of water. Puroo and his friendhad gone out on a campaign against th
Dasyus. They had left their houses on th
pretext of a hunt for fear that the elder
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might not give them permission. On th
way lay Alaka’s village. Puroo had gone
on, entrusting Alaka with a letter to b
delivered to me the next afternoonAlaka gave me the letter with tremblin
hands. I opened it.
t said:
The kingdom of Hastinapur has been
attacked. Need I tell you where my
duty lies in such an event? I amgoing away without your
permission. Forgive me, Mother,
and don’t worry about me. Your
Puroo will soon return to you, after
meeting the challenge to the
Hastinapur kingdom with his
prowess and skill in war.
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Tears came to my eyes while reading th
etter. Who can say that the son of
Kshatriya should not go to war? Bu
mine was the heart of a mother. It couldnot be calmed. It dripped through th
eyes.
Alaka wiped my tears. She embraceme and kept consoling me, ‘Please don
cry.’ The mild sun lit up the gold in he
hair. For a moment, my heart bleedin
for Puroo was gladdened that I wa
going to get her for a daughter-in-law
She who would stand out in a millio
girls.It was now Alaka’s turn to cry. ‘Aunt
will he come back safe?’ she asked. Th
question distressed me. I drew Alak
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near and patted her head. I said, ‘Don
worry dear. Do not others go to war
Fighting is laid on us Kshatriyas as
duty.’
Yet, we both cried together. It wa
only then that we calmed down a bit.
We talked and thought together a greadeal. News of them would necessaril
ake time to reach us. So it would b
better to go to a village eight or te
miles from Hastinapur. We would thu
be able to get news from passin
soldiers and messengers. Alaka’s mothe
reluctantly permitted her to go with mesaying, ‘After all, the daughter belong
o another home. It is a debt which migh
as well be honoured on time.’
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Two brave elderly persons, from
among those detailed by Yati to look
after me, prepared to go with us. We tw
set out on our way, imagining a hundredhings. Sometimes repressing our tear
and sometimes stealthily wiping them
sometimes dreaming of Puroo’s heroismand at other times, waking up with
start, seeing him injured in our dreams.
* * *
was returning to Hastinapur afte
eighteen years, the same way I had leftEqually frightened at heart. I was goin
on dreaming of the future, dream
sometimes golden, sometimes black!
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When I had passed this way eightee
ears ago, I was worried abou
protecting little Puroo from harm. Th
same Puroo had today gone to battleaving his mother in a sea of anxiety.
was all the time, at every step
distressed whether he was safe. Aranxiety and shadow twins? Is it the wil
of God that these should be constan
companions of man?
At last we reached a village some te
miles from Hastinapur. It was a day o
ll-omen. On that very day, bad new
had just come through stunning us bothn a skirmish, Yadu and some of hi
brave soldiers had been captured by th
Dasyus. It was their custom to behea
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he enemy and carry his skull on a spea
n procession.
But our misery went much further tha
hat and was more poignant. Puroo mus
almost certainly have been among th
brave soldiers accompanying Yadu. In
fact, he might well be a prisoner himselfIn what condition then were we likel
o see Puroo? As a victorious hero? O
at the end of a spear?
What had I done in my previous birt
hat God was punishing me thus?
1]
Wife of Shiva. Unable to bear her husban being insulted by her father, Daksha, sh
killed herself at the great sacrifice held b
her father.
2]
A light yellow coloured ornamental flower native t
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India. Scientific name Michelia Champaca.
3]An inn.
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T
DEVAYAN
he pitch darkness of the new moon nighseems poised to pounce on me. Lookin
at the sky through the window, the star
are twinkling as if in derision. There ar
so many retainers in the palace, but theare dumb. I am in a state as if flames ar
ablaze all around and there is no escape
This evening the messenger brough
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he evil tidings. My Yadu is defeated
The Dasyus have taken him. Oh no. I jus
cannot believe it. How did such a fat
overtake him? Queen Devayani’s sovanquished. Maharishi Shukra
acclaimed as the world’s mos
llustrious ascetic, his grandsodefeated? No, the words ring false. The
seem like ghosts.
How enthusiastic he was when settin
out for battle! I put the red tilak on hi
forehead. How eagerly I waited fo
news of his victory. But, like the chata
bird expectantly looking up to the sky foa drop of rain and getting struck b
ightning instead, I am stunned.
Devayani has not had to hang her hea
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down so far. She has not so fa
submitted to anyone. But today? Wha
can I do now? Whom shall I supplicate
t is nearly time for Father to end hipenance. I have not seen him thes
eighteen years. I never told him abou
any of my unhappiness. He is shorempered. I bore my unhappiness
repressed it, lest he should thoughtlessl
give up his penance halfway. He had, a
my insistence on bringing Kacha back tife, lost the invaluable power o
Sanjeevani. Now he is again on the poin
of achieving some such power. In thescircumstances, how can I go to him an
say, ‘Free my Yadu!’ What right have I
o break his penance?
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No, I shall not be so thoughtless. No
even for one of my own flesh and blood
Many bitter unhappy recollections ar
piled up in my mind. I am going to wreavengeance on everyone of those wh
have offended me. That Sharmishtha, he
brat aspiring to be King Emperor anHis Majesty, but not yet. After Fathe
has successfully completed his penanc
and achieved the new power.
I want my Yadu! I want nothing else.
do not want this kingdom nor father’
new power.
No, this is not Devayani talking. This the weakling of a mother. Bu
Devayani is Maharishi Shukra’
daughter and the Queen of Hastinapur
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nflicted by her husband. It was in a
effort to forget her agony that Devayan
had poured all her life into her dance
hat night.
That night the sky was overcast. It wa
ike my heart in agony from deception
But I had agreed to dance for thosartists. I had not forgotten the nuances o
my favourite art. I went on the stage fo
my first dance and in an instant lef
behind the agony of my mind. The worl
of art transcends transient things lik
hought, sensibility and passion. I wa
engrossed in my dance. As engrossed a often was in my beauty before a mirror
Sharmishtha is palpably a liar. Th
ines in Puroo’s hand pointing to hi
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sovereignty were unmistakable evidenc
of their love affair. I was still in a tranc
when His Majesty presented me with th
necklace. I went to bed in that trance.
I woke up the next morning as th
Queen, but I also as a deceived wife an
an affectionate mother dedicated to thwell-being of her son.
I sent His Majesty out and went dow
o the cellar. She was not there. I saw
red. Everyone from the old maid to Hi
Majesty denied all knowledge. But trut
cannot remain unrevealed.
Under the horsewhip, the old maisoon talked. I went to Ashokavan and
came to know of Sharmishtha havin
gone away, in a chariot somewhere.
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could not find out who the chariotee
was, but in a day or two learnt o
Madhav’s illness. As a matter o
formality, I went to see him. Madhav’bride-to-be, Madhavi, was standin
here. The child was bewildered an
ears kept coming to her eyes! I patteher to console her. When she calmed
down, we talked and she soon told m
how Madhav had been taken so il
Madhav had returned home that nightdrenched to the skin a couple of hour
after midnight. I knew how loyal a frien
Madhav was. He had gone on HiMajesty’s errand. He went to leav
Sharmishtha far out of the town. Why
otherwise, should he have got drenche
n the pouring rain? In the town, he coul
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have taken shelter anywhere.
With this thread, I started unravellin
he mystery of Sharmishtha. I purposel
visited Madhav frequently. Madhav wa
n a delirium talking. A lot of it wa
rrelevant. But from one or two of hi
sentences, I was convinced of HiMajesty’s conspiracy. Once he said, ‘On
with it, driver!’ Another time, ‘Your
Majesty must get down here.’ Eventuall
t dawned on me. He must have bee
calling Sharmishtha, ‘Your Majesty!
The whole mystery was revealed to m
by that one word. He was bent omaking her Queen. He had designs on m
ife. He must have intended to kee
Sharmishtha and Puroo safe somewher
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until he could bring them back.
I resolved to nip the poisonous growt
n the bud. I immediately made
proclamation throughout the length an
breadth of the State, announcing a bi
reward to anyone apprehendin
Sharmishtha and her son. I felt thasooner or later someone would presen
himself with them. But it was not to be.
For the first few days, I had a watc
kept on Ashokavan for any surreptitiou
communication between them.
* * *
was wondering why even after news o
Yadu’s capture His Majesty had no
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One night he came to my rooms. The
say that a man excited with liquo
desires a woman. I had only heard of it
But that night I myself had thaexperience. He begged me to giv
myself to him. Worse than a beast. I wa
unable to bear the foul smell of himouth stinking with liquor. I stood fa
away from him. He ran after me an
grappled with me. I asked, ‘Have yo
remembered me today becausSharmishtha is not there?’ He laughed
ghostly smile and said, ‘I am the son o
King Nahusha. I want Sharmishtha. want Devayani. I want every prett
woman on earth. Everyday a fres
woman.’
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I was unable to stand it. He wa
alking like one who had gone out of hi
senses. I was reminded of his elde
brother coming to court. He had gone ofhis head because of his hatred o
women. Was His Majesty going to be
unhinged by his lust for women?He said, ‘My father could not ge
ndrani. But I will. I am going to take al
he pretty women on earth. Pluck on
flower, smell it and throw it away
Again pluck one, taste it and throw
away.’
I closed my ears. He was laughinhysterically and coming nearer.
collected all my strength and shouted
Keep away. Keep away. Don’t you
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know who I am?’
He replied, ‘Yes, you are my wife.
Spiritedly I retorted, ‘I am the daughte
of Maharishi Shukra. You know what a
great ascetic my father is. I am going t
him now to report your behaviour. You
will not come to your senses except aftea terrible curse.’
He stood still on hearing the wor
curse.’ For a moment, I also melted and
felt like pleading with him to mend hi
ways — for my sake and for Yadu’s
sake. After all he was my husband. I
friends and relations do not forgivone’s failings who else will? I was
wife. Even if he failed in his duty as
husband, was it not enjoined on me to d
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my duty as a wife?
Is love something one can buy? Value
for value is the rule of trade. But life i
not trade. If His Majesty was goin
astray, I should have pointed it out to
him. I should have convinced him of it.
should have stood by him if he lost hibalance.
For a moment, maybe only for th
moment, I melted at this thought. I wa
fidgety when His Majesty asked me
Where is Sharmishtha? You devil, you
have taken her life.’
He was coming forward. I was afraihat he might strangle me. Soon Hi
Majesty was very near me. His intentio
o strangle me was quite evident.
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shouted from mortal fear, ‘Keep off
Don’t forget I am the daughter o
Maharishi Shukra. Step back. Go away
Get out of my room ...’
His Majesty began trembling and wen
back a step or two. He mumbled, ‘No,
won’t come any further.’The reference to Sharmishtha ha
enraged me. I said, ‘First swear to m
hat you will never touch me again.’ I do
not want even to be touched by tha
defiled body of his. I warned him
Swear to me that you will never touc
me. Swear in the name of my father.’His Majesty swore and left my room
That day the fine silken cord of ou
relation as husband and wife, the mos
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beautiful tie in life broke. We wer
henceforward to go through life turne
away from each other.
How am I to blame for the unfortunat
ncident that day? The daughter o
Maharishi Shukra, the mother of Yaduand the Queen of Hastinapur ever
single one of them has consistentl
confirmed that what I did was right.But then who is it that occasionall
whispers to me, ‘ You were wrong. You
did not live up to your duty. You failed
o realise your responsibility.’
Who is this creature torturing me wit
her pricks, for the last eighteen years
This woman has no name, n
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complexion and no form. I first though
she was the wife of King Yayati. To stop
her nagging, I said, ‘Why should a wif
ove her husband who has trampled upohe sanctity of their marriage and who i
known to be a deceitful rascal? M
resolve that night was the only right oneKnowing full well, that I would thus b
deprived of marital happiness I came t
hat resolve.’
That foolish woman was neve
convinced. So many years have gone b
but she still protests, ‘You did not truly
ive up to your duty. You failed trealise your responsibility. Does lov
depend on such exterior attributes? Th
day a person becomes a near and dea
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one any arithmetical count of his goo
and bad points ceases. What remains i
ust selfless love. Love which gropes
stumbles, struggles up only to fall againa love which aims to rise to the peak o
devotion, inspite of the many falls. D
we ever sit down to reckon what Gohas given us or denied us when we ben
n worship to him? Love is the worship
of one person by another. You violated
hat worship, you are a blemish owomanhood. You will never, never be
happy.’
Today was the same. I was stunned bhe news of Yadu’s capture. Drawing on
my distraught condition this woman wa
dinning into my ears, ‘You did not liv
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up to the duty of a wife, to th
responsibility of a woman. This is th
fruit of that sin.’
No, it is not true. Yadu’s defeat is the
fruit of the sins committed by Hi
Majesty.
Who has not had to taste the bitter fruof his sins? Poor Madhav, his dea
friend, lost his life in taking Sharmishth
out of town. His bride-to-be was in th
ikeness of Rati, the goddess of love
What beautiful eyes she had. They sa
her body was found floating on th
Yamuna one day.There were only Madhav’s old mothe
and niece left in his house. Taraka soo
grew up and granny was worried abou
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her marriage. A few days later I learn
hat Taraka had gone off her head.
could not bring myself to believe it an
went to Madhav’s house. There waTaraka sitting in the doorway making
braid. She carried the lovely bloom o
outh, but her eyes were vacant. Thewere frightening. She stared at me a lon
ime, but did not recognise me.
Just then her granny came out. Sh
said, ‘Taraka don’t you recognise her
She is the Queen. Bow to her.’ Taraka
said, ‘What queen?’ Granny said, ‘Don’
ou know, you silly? She is the Queen oour King Yayati?’ Suddenly she looked
at the braid in her hand and screamed
Lord, what a big snake! Snake! Snake!’
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Taraka had nothing to do with Hi
Majesty. She was only his friend’
niece. But even she did not escap
misfortune.
Eighteen years ago I had made Hi
Majesty take the oath. Even as Queen,
have lived like an ascetic. For nights oend, I was restless.
Sometimes, my firmness was on th
point of giving way. I would go to
Ashokavan but even after getting there,
never went in.
His Majesty, however, kept his word
He started a life of indulgence in animapleasures. First, when I heard of it,
was stung to the quick. I was disguste
with the love affairs of men and women
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felt the world would have been
happier place if God had not created thi
attraction.
Occasionally, a chord somewhere in
corner of the heart would pulsate. I
would come alive with the words, ‘You
silly woman, forget your pride. Gstraight to His Majesty, wherever h
maybe. He maybe drunk. He maybe i
he arms of another woman. Fall at hi
feet and bathe them with your tears
saying, “What are you doing? Lord of m
heart, where are you going? A blemish
on you is a blemish on me. I fall witou. I am your wife. Must not th
husband protect the good name of hi
wife? You may squirt liquor on me.
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shall not turn a hair. Crush Devayani fo
he sake of your pleasure as you might
flower. But stop this sacrilege of you
duty. Wake up to your duty as a husbandRemember your duty as a father. Do no
forget your duty as King.” ’
I did quite often feel like falling at thfeet of His Majesty and saying all thi
and more. But it was a passing thought
The next moment, I would think o
Kacha. How dearly he loved me. H
gave up love from a sheer sense of duty
He returned to heaven with Sanjeevan
All the beauties of heaven must havaid their beauty at his feet. But he wa
not moved or tempted. He did not stra
from his undertaking.
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Remembering Kacha’s austerity and
renunciation, the indulgence of Hi
Majesty was disgusting. I was ashame
o submit to him. Kacha used to sayWhy do we lay flowers on a stone? Ha
he fragrance of flowers ever permeate
he stone?’ A lover should be in Kacha’smage. A woman should worship such a
man.
Married to Kacha, I would have bee
happy. The happiness which I would
have had in his cottage has not come m
way, even for a day, in this palace.
But, would I in fact have been happy
certainly loved him; but is th
attraction of blind love enough to mak
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one happy? Was my love of him
selfless? No. Even that was a kind o
self-indulgence. If I was truly in lov
with him, I would have hesitated ipronouncing a curse on him. My lip
would have turned black with thos
poisonous words.What is love? What a puzzle it is. I
he disgusting indulgence of His Majest
over the last eighteen years love? Wa
he genuinely in love with Sharmishtha
To flirt with another woman deceivin
one’s wife ...
Sharmishtha! Her mere memory makeme burn. It must have been a
nauspicious moment, when I decided t
make her my maid. Because of her, I wa
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separated from His Majesty. On the on
hand, I am denied even his touch. On th
other, he has fallen to abysmal depths
Today, Prince Yadu has been defeatedWhat a calamity! But His Majesty is no
paying any heed to it.
His Majesty should have rushed to mef he had set out to free Yadu, my eye
would have filled with tears
worshipping him. He would hav
enderly wiped those tears, saying
There is nothing to worry about, yo
silly one. Inside of two weeks, I shal
bring Yadu back to you.’‘You silly one.’ How sweet the words
are. No, that is not to be. Is lonelines
forever going to be my miserabl
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companion?
Memories of the last eighteen year
haunted me. I was disheartened. Th
Prime Minister had not returned. It wa
clear that His Majesty was not prepare
o do anything to free Yadu.
* * *
A maid brought news of the Prim
Minister’s return. He came in, hung hi
head and was quiet. I asked sharply
Why were you so long?’
‘I could not get an audience with thKing for sometime.’
I asked, ‘In the end, did you or did yo
not see him?’
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wedding, will soon open. Let Fathe
finish his penance. Then there will b
ime to show him.
A maid rushed in. Her face was lit up
with pleasure. She breathlessly sai
There is a messenger outside come o
he gallop. Your Majesty, his horsevomited blood and died as the rider go
off.’
I rushed out. He humbly made a
obeisance and said, ‘Your Majesty,
have come with very happy tidings. Th
Prince has been rescued from captivity.
My joy knew no bounds, I was verproud of Yadu’s valour and adventure.
asked impatiently, ‘How did the Princ
free himself? How did he escape? B
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killing off the sentries?’
‘No, Your Majesty. Someone risked
his life to free the Prince.’
‘Who? The army commander?’
‘Not he. He is a youth of about th
same age as the Prince.’
‘His name?’
‘I do not know the hero’s name. He i
not of our army. The army commande
sent me post-haste to give Your Majestyhese glad tidings. The Prince is on hi
way to the capital to present the hero t
Your Majesty. They will reach
Hastinapur in two weeks’ time.’
I was still thinking of a present to b
given to the messenger, when anothe
maid brought news of a secon
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messenger.
I recognised the messenger as he cam
n. He had come from King Vrishaparva
Father had successfully completed hi
penance. The demon kingdom wa
festive. Father was coming to take me t
he festivities. The message said that hwould be here in two weeks.
A happy Devayani was consoling th
unhappy Devayani now. She said
Today your penance has borne fruit
You suffered very badly for eighteen
ears. Now the worst is over. You shal
nform Maharishi Shukra abouSharmishtha, he will immediately set up
Yadu on the throne and punish Hi
Majesty ...’
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was in a trance:
I had visions of Yadu being
crowned as king. The sacred waters
of all the rivers in Aryavarta were
being sprinkled on him; and yet all
the priests and ascetics felt that
there was a flaw somewhere. In theend, Yadu bows to me. My tears of
joy bathe his head. Father smiles
and says, ‘Now the coronation is
sanctified!’
In a moment, His Majesty is on his
knees before me saying, ‘I am in a
hundred ways guilty of neglectingyou. Forgive me.’
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YAYAT
here am I — in heaven or hell? Am really Yayati? The husband o
Devayani? Devayani! What Devayani
Devayani is nothing to me. How can tha
be? She is my sworn enemy from aearlier birth. She has thrown me into thi
hell.
Am I in hell? Oh no, for many year
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now I have been enjoying heavenl
bliss.
How many years? Eighteen? No,
have been in heaven for something lik
eighteen hundred years. I am foreve
drinking nectar from the lips of beautifu
maidens. Under the tree which grantevery wish is my bed. I loll in bed nigh
and day, on a mattress of delicate whit
flowers. Now, I am going to take Indran
n my arms.
Indrani, it was on Indrani’s accoun
hat King Nahusha was cursed. Who i
hat whispering in my ear? ‘The childreof King Nahusha will never be happy.’
But I am the son of King Nahusha.
am happy. My brother Yati ran away to
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he jungle and lost his reason. But I a
sailing in a sea of happiness. All my
sorrows have been drowned in this sea
Except only one, the memory oSharmishtha. No, this agony of mine wil
never get drowned in wine. I canno
wipe out that memory even with bloodrawn in a hunt. No maiden in my bed
ending to my physical pleasure with he
embraces, can crush that poignan
memory.
No, Yayati is not happy. He is
unhappy. Am I unhappy? I really do no
know if I am happy or unhappy. What ihappiness? What is misery? Ther
cannot be two more difficult question
han these. Am I still Yayati or someone
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emerging from the cup? It is not just
one figure. But — one ... two ...
three ... seventeen, eighteen.
Eighteen naked witches emerging
from this cup ...
What a weird dance they are doing.
What are they dancing on? Theylook like the corpses of
inexperienced beautiful young
maidens. This sweet girl baffled by
the first stirring of love; this
budding sweet girl who blushes to
herself with the first imprint of love
in her heart; this bold maiden,thrilled by the sacred experience of
love; this charming young woman
bursting with youth, preparing to
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enter the golden temple, cherished
in her dreams, of love, with a salver
stacked with flowers and other
articles of worship; these uglywitches are dancing on the corpses
of all these.
They join in song with their dance.Their notes are like the furious
hissing of a cobra.
Oh God! The twinkling lamps of
heaven are going out one by one
with every note sung by them. In no
time the sky is dark and inky. These
witches have put out all the lamps inheaven with every breath of their
song.
What song, heralding the end of the
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world, are these witches singing?
One of them danced up to me and
with a grotesque smile said, ‘Do
you recognise me? How foolish.
You still have not recognised us
sisters! We have striven so much for
your pleasure, you ungratefulwretch! You have failed to
recognise us, after all the pleasure
you derived to your heart’s content
in our company?’
Another tall one came very close to
me. She laughed fiendishly. I closed
my eyes, terrified by her intimacy.She put her arms round me and said,
‘Come and play with me.’
I opened my eyes. She took her
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hands off me and closed her fist.
When she opened it, there were
cowries[1] in it.
Cowries? No, they are eyes. These,
these are Madhavi’s! These are
Taraka’s!
They were not cowries. They wereeyes. How much had I kissed them.
They were like little boats out to
exploit love with eyelids for their
oars. In those tiny boats, I have
often been as far as the fringe of
heaven.
The witch said, ‘Come, let us playwith these cowries.’ I shuddered.
For fear of life itself, I pushed her
away with difficulty.
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Was all this fiction? I had neve
ndulged in it in the last eighteen years
Then why should it come to me now
Was it fact or fiction? Before me is onlyan empty glass. An empty glass. A blank
mind. A vacant heart.
The feeling of emptiness burnt insidme. Like a bird caught in a forest fire
flapping its wings and screeching, m
mind was flapping in a void o
oneliness. There was nowhere it coul
rest. In the end, I jumped into the ocea
of wine. I said to every wave in it, ‘Tak
me far, far down. Take me to the bottomof the dark sea of forgetfulness. Hide m
n the chasm of some huge rock. Let m
sleep there in peace. Let me sleep ther
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n peace for all time.’
* * *
One day, I was fast asleep. But I wok
up suddenly. I could see nothing. I could
perceive nothing.‘It is evening.’
Who was talking? What did he say? I
was evening? Did he mean the eveninof my life?
This celestial messenger must hav
been mistaken. You silly, this is the
Ashokavan in Hastinapur. I am KinYayati. How can the evening of my life
come yet? I eagerly look forward t
every night. Go away celestia
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messenger, try and remember the nam
of that senile old King on his deathbe
for whom it was intended and give hi
our message.
‘It is evening, Your Majesty. It is time
o get ready.’
I laughed to myself. It was onlMukulika talking to me. How terrifie
and upset I was, believing her to be
celestial messenger.
‘It is a beautiful evening. Shall I se
our things out?’
‘Pour me some wine and get my thing
ready if you have been able to find nice fresh flower.’
I went to the window. It was indeed
an inviting evening.
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I thought all poets are slaves o
portents. They have set ideas o
beautiful evenings such as this. Thi
ntriguing pink of eventide in the west —s this the hue of eventide? The sun too
a sip of wine and put the same cup to th
ips of the evening. She demurred anwas coy but while protesting mildly, tha
she did not want any, she suddenly pu
her hand out for it. With that the cup fel
down and this is the wine that was spilt.
This gorgeous red of the eventide
This is the joy incarnate of the pleasure
of a hunt. This day, the quarry which hadescaped at dawn from the hands of th
ribal, was now within range. The arrow
has dug deep into its heart. It is th
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blood spurting from that deep gash tha
has coloured the western horizon.
I thought I might cast an evil eye on th
exquisitely beautiful panorama befor
me and closed my eyes.
In life there are only three abidin
realities — wine, women and huntingMan forgets his unhappiness in thei
pursuit.
Wine stimulates the imagination andfrees the inhibiting shackles. All though
of morality, duty and good and evil mel
n the tempting warmth of wine.
In this life, one who does not want tbe a quarry oneself must prey on th
others. There is nothing like hunting t
bring home to one this ultimate truth o
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ife. The truth jars and smacks of cruelty
But that is the most important, al
pervading hymn in the lyric of life
Purity, beauty and innocence are merwords conjured up by the upright an
weak. The holy sacrificial fire is nothin
more than the funeral pyre of thsacrificial goat. A beautiful woman is no
more than a living doll catering to th
ransient impulse of passion. Th
carefree harmless deer is just foodprovided by creation for the hunter.
And in the company of a woman ar
combined the pleasures of wine and thhunt.
I opened my eyes. All the hues o
eventide had vanished. Darkness hel
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sway over the sky, the interstellar space
he earth. It was Time! All-consuming
Time! It was He who had made shor
shrift of the beautiful hues of eventide.
I did not dare to stand there, I turne
away and lay down on the bed. Mukulik
had already laid my things out. She waaimlessly hovering round me. I could no
bring myself to believe that this was th
Mukulika in whose company the myster
of the attraction of man and woman ha
been first revealed to me.
She was now middle-aged an
omorrow she will be old. I also ...Yesterday, today, tomorrow. No, wha
do yesterdays and tomorrows matter
Man has only one concern — the presen
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moment. I have lived for the present fo
he last eighteen years. I tried to drow
he swift wheel of racing time in a cup o
wine and bring it to a standstill. I tried tensnare it in the glances of beautifu
women and hold it in their embraces.
No, I refuse to heed the past or thfuture.
Get rid of Mukulika? Can she easil
be put away? No, her existence and m
pleasures are inevitably linked together
* * *
That terrible night eighteen years ago.
came out of Devayani’s apartment
aking an oath that I would never agai
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go near her. The poisonous darts o
disgrace were gnawing at me.
In the end, I turned to the cottage o
Mukulika’s preceptor. I thought I had
seen him somewhere before. Th
mystery was soon cleared. He wa
Mandar.Mandar posed as a great sage. He ha
made up very well. His speech had
ure about it. His discourses on religio
had the power to bring peace to trouble
minds. There were as many disciples o
Mandar as there are nuances of misery i
he world. On the other hand there wermany among his following who wer
here merely to achieve pleasures, no
easily available otherwise. But ther
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was a handsome sprinkling of beautifu
oung women also. Mandar made skilfu
use of them. He had captivated m
eighteen years ago by just this device.
That night I longed for indulgenc
which would enable me to forge
everything. I wished to forgeDevayani’s insults, I had no time fo
good and evil or morality an
mmorality. It was Mandar who showed
me the way that night. I cannot even bea
o think what would have happened i
hat night Mandar had not shown me thi
easy way of escape, if he had not pilotehe bark of my life, heading for suicide.
Seeing Mandar that night in hi
hermitage, I was reminded of Yati. Yati
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strove with implicit faith toward
attaining God by torturing his body.
Yati and Mandar? — What a contrast
Mandar’s philosophy was very differen
from Yati’s. The ordinary man believed
n it — it was more acceptable to him.
fell a victim to his teachings just becausof that. The essence of Mandar’
philosophy was life is transient; it is lik
a flower which blooms today and fade
omorrow. One must taste as much of it
fragrance as one can; the means ar
mmaterial. There is no sin in it.
Treading this unfamiliar path, inherennhibitions sometimes made me uneasy
As much as to say harshly, ‘Fool, wher
are you going?’
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On such occasions Mandar woul
persuade me, sometimes by quoting fro
he ancient tenets of the sages. At othe
imes he would recount the unbridlendulgence in pleasure of renowned me
and women. Yet again, he would
mpress on me the transience of life froexamples in everyday life.
Once he and I were driving round th
own in a chariot. We turned off the
highway. Alongside was a potter’s shop
Smiling cynically, Mandar said, ‘Th
Almighty also is a potter.’
I asked, ‘In what sense?’‘He also makes similar earthe
vessels ... like you and me. Whe
earthen vessels break, they return t
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after that day he would never again b
able to do so.
Looking at the blazing pyre,
magined myself in the place of th
outh.
Mandar put his hand on my shoulde
and said, ‘Your Majesty, in the runningaccount of life, there is no place fo
deferred consumption. He who does no
draw on pleasure today may not be abl
o get it tomorrow. In life the next golde
day will dawn. The fragrant flower
will bloom. But he may not himself b
here on the morrow to enjoy them.’One day we happened to visit th
house of a man of learning. Madhav ha
aken me to that very house. Now he wa
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senile. He could remember nothing, se
nothing and was barely able to walk. Bu
he pleasures which he had spurned i
his youth, had now turned on him irevenge. His unrequited passions wer
rising to the surface in strangel
distorted forms. He would stand on throad and try to ogle at young girl
passing by. His children would take him
back to the house and lock him up. Eve
here he defaced the walls with obscensketches in black. The women in the
were half naked and in the presence o
his grandchildren, he would kiss them.In Mandar’s cottage, I saw man
oung and middle-aged men and women
t all added up to this — religion
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morality, duty, soul and goodness — al
hese pious words are sacrosanct to man
But it is only a blind.
Life is transient. Death is uncertai
and may come any moment. Therefore
every moment of life is worth its weigh
n gold. Man must accordingly assuaghis desires wringing from life all th
fragrance, sweetness and happiness h
can. Such was the philosophy given t
me by Mandar.
started on this new life like th
whirlwind. For eighteen years, onseason followed another. Spring
summer, autumn and winter seemed to b
chasing each other around. The wheel o
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ime had covered eighteen milestones
ight and day played hide and seek
ight found the day and the day in tur
found the night. Year after year rolledby. But there was no break or change in
he routine of my life.
Beautiful young maidens tended to mpleasure one day and were gone the nex
My one concern was to ensure that th
cup of my happiness was full. Manda
and Mukulika did keep it filled an
filled to overflowing for eighteen years.
There are two nights in this orgy which cannot put out of my mind. They ar
gnawing at me. They are nightmares.
One evening, Mukulika brought to m
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for a companion a beautiful young girl.
ook her to bed. All I knew at the tim
was that she had lovely eyes. The girl i
my arms muttered, ‘Madhav, Madhav.’ was gently trying to put my hands roun
her, when she hugged me closer and
murmured, ‘Am I not yours? DonMadhav, don’t leave me like this!’
I was stunned. I peered at her.
recognised her. She was Madhavi
Mukulika must have doped her or mayb
Mandar had hypnotised her. They alon
knew what they did in replenishing m
cup of happiness.Gradually, Madhavi came to. Sh
ooked steadily at me. Then sh
screamed and ran out of the room
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pushing open the door. Her body wa
found in the Yamuna the next day.
Another night, Mukulika brought to m
a coy young maiden. Only next mornin
did I find out it was Taraka! She wok
up as I was looking at her. She was in
error, as if bitten by a snake. The nexmoment she was screaming, ‘Snake
snake!’ and running out of the room.
I heard later that she had gone off he
head. Some years later, someone told m
hat she mistook the sparks from a fir
for flowers, went near to gather the
and was burnt to death.
The bride-to-be of my dearest friend
His niece! Both lives were laid desolat
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because of me. I had ruined the life o
Madhavi and had been guilty of th
cruelest act towards Taraka whom I had
seen playing with her dolls. ‘Will you bhe husband of my doll?’ Those lispin
words of hers. I brought her living death
On these two occasions, I was upsefor a long time. But I did not know o
any way other than Mandar’s. I thought
was secure and fulfilled under th
nfluence of drink, the excitement of th
hunt, and the heavenly bliss in the arm
of a woman. Away from them, I was
obsessed with being lonely, unhappy andnsecure.
The seasons followed one another an
he wheel of time kept turning. Th
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course of my pleasure wa
uninterrupted.
I heard Mukulika saying, ‘It is almos
midnight, Your Majesty.’ I opened my
eyes.
I smiled at Mukulika. She cam
forward quickly and dressed me in nime.
* * *
stood before the mirror. I was happ
ooking at my full-length reflection.
was handsome enough to be attractive tany young woman. I looked as young a
Yayati bending over young Alaka to kiss
her.
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I had a good look at myself in th
mirror. In a few moments, the imag
dimmed and became hazy. Behind th
vague outline, I could see the forms onnumerable young maidens, grindin
heir teeth at me.
I stepped back a little and the hazinesdisappeared. I looked at my reflectio
again. My hair was tousled. I looke
more carefully. The next moment I wa
stunned as if by a blow. One white hai
was peeping through an otherwise blac
mass. That white hair seemed to me lik
he ashen hand of a sage pronouncing curse.
The banner of old age had bee
planted on Yayati’s head! Old age? The
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most unsavoury part of the drama of life
would soon be old. I am still hungr
and thirsting for pleasure. No, I shall no
get old!
But that white hair? It maybe m
magination, as were those forms o
oung maidens a little while ago. ooked into the mirror again with grea
hope. The white hair was still there. I
was a clear manifestation of what wa
coming.
I closed my eyes. I kept impressing o
myself that the only real Yayati was the
one who had kissed young Alaka. Thwhite hair was the precursor of the crue
nevitable. I did not want to heed it
message. I tried to escape from it int
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he past.
In doing so, I got back as far as Alaka
The Alaka of that glorious evening —
with her golden hair — I had not yet ha
one with golden hair.
Mukulika quietly opened the door o
he bedroom. The girl got up from thcouch. She cast a luring glance at me an
sat down.
The maiden was beautiful like thsculpture of an angel. I spread my arm
..
Just then I heard Mukulika’s tremulou
hoarse words: ‘Your Majesty.’ I askedn irritation, ‘What is the matter?’
‘The Prime Minister is here.’
‘I have no time to see him.’
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‘He has been here sometime and h
will not take no for an answer. He says
he Prince has been captured.’
The Prince — captive — Alaka —
golden hair — white hair — old age —
death.
The Prime Minister talked at lengthHe prattled on and on. But I did not wan
o hear for a moment his idle talk abou
court matters. My mind was hoverin
round the girl near me.
Devayani was crying because Yadu
had been taken captive. Devayani ha
deputed the Prime Minister to remind mof my duty as King and as a father bu
how far had she honoured her duty a
wife? Did she once think of her husban
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n the last eighteen years? Did she eve
feel that she ought to have forgiven him
Did she ever wish to rescue him fro
being carried away and drowned in thstream? Was she afraid of the huge
flood? Sharmishtha would never hav
kept quiet in those circumstances. Thfact is that she never loved me. What i
he use crying now? She feels today tha
should be true to my duty as King an
as father. Only he who honours his duthas the right to expect others to honou
heirs. Where did she leave her duty a
wife for the last eighteen years?The Prime Minister talked away. H
was trying to persuade me to return t
he palace.
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Go on a campaign to free Yadu, take
o the battlefield. What if I am killed
o, my life is yet to be lived. I am ye
unfulfilled. My youth is still unsatisfiedThe golden-haired girl — golden hair —
white hair — old age, death. No —
shall not set out to rescue Yadu. I had byhen lost control over myself and did no
care what I said.
‘Please tell Her Majesty I am gratefu
o her for remembering me after so man
ears.’
The Prime Minister returned to th
attack. By now, I was exasperated andost my temper. I added, ‘Let alon
Yadu, I shall not move my little finge
even if Her Majesty were captured.’
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As soon as I returned to the bedroom
my unknown bedmate stood up. But m
white hair was bothering me. What if sh
sees it? No, the shadow of old agcreeping over Yayati must not be notice
by anyone. Yayati is ever young! Yayati
was going to remain ever young!I stood before the mirror. What grea
hope I had that the white hair woul
have disappeared. But the wicked thin
was impudently jeering at me.
I remembered the golden hair o
Alaka. I was taken aback to find the gir
standing close to me. She had put hehand on my shoulder. Seeing me inactiv
nspite of her intimacy, she put her arm
round me.
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I looked at her hair and shouted, ‘G
away.’
She did not know what she had done
She looked at me a little scared. I calle
angrily to Mukulika.
‘Take this flower of yours and throw
t away. Don’t you know my taste?’She went to the girl and lifted her hea
a little. She was crying. I bent her hea
gently, saying, ‘Look and see. Is there single golden hair in this? I want a gir
with golden hair! When can I get her .
omorrow?’
‘How can I find one by tomorrow?’
Mukulika begged of me with folde
hands, ‘If Your Majesty will kindly give
us fifteen days?’
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‘All right, I will give you the time. Bu
f you do not succeed, the sixteenth da
ou and your preceptor will be publicl
disgraced. What is today?’
‘It is new moon today.’
‘All right. If by full moon day, a gir
with golden hair is not presented ...’Mukulika stood there with folde
hands. I shouted at her, ‘Get out.’
woke up next day well after sunrise
mmediately on rising, I went to th
mirror and looked carefully at myself.
was stunned. Not only was the whit
hair of last night mocking me but by it
side was another white hair.
Distressed, I went and lay in bed.
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ossed about from side to side. Th
umult of thought, enough to split th
head, would not stop. I was again an
again reminded of Sharmishtha. I coulhave told her without reserve my fear o
old age, death and lack of contentmen
with life. Her tears would have assuagehe unnamed fear in my heart. But I wa
alone. In this whole world, I was al
alone.
I began thinking. Why should I not fee
contented even after eighteen years o
icentious pleasure?
What is the content of life? Why iman born? Why does he die? What is th
purpose of life? What is its significance
Are life and death, youth and old age, th
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wo sides of the same coin? Are the
pairs as natural as day and night? Wh
hen is man so afraid of old age an
death?
What does man live on? Love? Bu
what then is love? Are love, kindnes
and affection mere masks? Man liveonly for his own happiness, only for th
satisfaction of his ego.
The love of the parents, the love o
man and wife — all love is pretension
t is mere playacting. At heart, man only
oves himself, his body, his happines
and his ego. Even in that wonderfuender and mysterious attraction betwee
man and woman, this element of sel
does not change. Do a few hours o
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physical pleasure measure up to love
Momentary satisfaction of violen
passion — does it amount to love?
No. Love is apart from desire. In th
ove of man and wife also, desire burn
but that is sacred like the sacrificial fire
t burns within the bounds of the moralof life.
I did not keep the sanctity of it. M
profligate life has been nothing short of
forest conflagration. Many innocen
birds were scorched in that fire. Man
ender fragrant creepers were reduced t
ashes in it.Is this repentance? Is this prematur
renunciation brought about by the sigh
of those two white hairs? To achiev
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pleasure, I spent every moment i
ndulgence. Why then am I stil
unsatisfied? Why am I unhappy? How i
t that the stream of countless momentarpleasures does not produce even a drop
of eternal happiness?
Really — what is happiness?Pleasure is a butterfly. It flits from
flower to flower, tasting honey. But can
he butterfly aspire to be an eagle? If yo
wish to bring a jug of nectar fro
heaven, a butterfly is unequal to the task
Only the eagle can attempt it. Th
butterfly and the eagle. Momentarpleasure and lasting happiness are thing
apart. I pursued pleasure but getting
did not bring me happiness.
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What constitutes happiness? Has it n
relation to any physical pleasure? No
here was nothing wrong with th
ibertine’s life which I had led foeighteen years. I loved myself. I sough
my own pleasure. Was I to blame for it?
Is man’s love confined to the love ohis own self? Alaka’s love, Madhav’s
ove, Kacha’s love, were all these love
selfish? Were they not selfless?
And Sharmishtha — her love for me
There she is in the jungle eating root
and herbs, worshipping me at heart. And
? I am all the time mocking her sacreove steeped in wine. The lips sanctifie
by her kisses are sacrileged with kissin
other tainted lips.
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o do it?
Kacha was not born a recluse. H
oved Devayani with all his heart. H
put duty to his community before self. I
honouring that duty, he renounced love
That sacrifice did not make his lif
futile, miserable, or idle.I had the happiness of a household i
he company of Devayani. I experience
a glorious, noble love with Sharmishtha
But I was not satisfied. I am still no
satisfied. And yet, Kacha, who i
unaware of the nectar of a maiden’
uscious lips, is satisfied. Why should be so? Where did I go wrong?
Kacha wrote to me from this ver
Ashokavan. I very much wish to rea
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hat letter once again, but it is at th
palace. Both the things are there. Th
golden hair of Alaka and that letter o
gold of Kacha.
Shall I get peace of mind by readin
hat letter? But Devayani will not give
o anyone else. What if I go to the palacand fetch it? I shall never go there a
ong as I live.
But am I happy at least in Ashokavan
Why is my mind straining to drown th
fear of death, roused by the white hair
n the infatuation of a golden-haire
maiden?Are desires akin to ghosts? My desir
for Alaka in my youth remained
unsatisfied. How has that desire
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repressed in the subconscious for man
ears, come to the surface now?
Why should I not be able to conque
t? Is it the rule of the universe tha
unless the pursuit of pleasures i
renounced, the ultimate truth of life is no
revealed? Devayani had taken care tkeep Yadu away from me all the time
My instinct of affection was unsatisfied
Would the void in my mind have been
filled in Yadu’s company? If not Yadu,
Puroo? Where is he? How heartless
have been. I have completely forgotte
him in the last eighteen years. Dsensuous pleasures dull the mind? D
hey lead to lack of humanity? How di
Kacha acquire his restraint? Why could
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not have it?
To all appearances, I was lying dow
quietly on the bed. I looked as if I wa
fast asleep. But inside I was shaken b
blow after blow. Things which I wished
o forget were stealthily peeping throug
he subconscious. They were tearing amy heart. I dared not look at my past lif
without trepidation. There was only on
way out of my misery — suicide.
I shuddered. Then I laughed to myself
f I had the courage to take my life woul
not have done so eighteen years ago?
I had another long familiar way oemerging from my queer depression
That was to go over the sweet moment
of past indulgence.
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Many figures who had served to keep
my cup of happiness ever filled to th
brim passed before my eyes. Here i
one. What a beautiful head of hair shhad. Not a head of hair, but a mass o
bees attracted to her lotus face.
Here is that dark but lovely maiden. Iou just touched her lips with yours,
hrill of ecstasy ran though your body
What utter delight her mouth was! Her
s that vivacious maiden. She coul
each a thing or two in the art of makin
ove, even to the god of love.
Innumerable such figures passebefore my eyes, I gathered a rich harves
of happiness in alluring glances, tende
embraces and silken heads of hair. Bu
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even so, a golden-haired girl ...
Is Your Majesty not feeling welonight?’ Mukulika standing by the bed
bent over to ask me.
I opened my eyes. I said angrily
Where were you so long?’
‘I had gone to the palace very early.’
‘What did you find out?’
‘The Prince is free. There is grearejoicing at the palace.’
I asked in surprise, ‘The Prince i
free? How?’‘Some brave youth freed him at risk t
his own life. The Prince is on his wa
here with his friend.’
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My heart should have leapt at Yadu’s
being released from captivity, but what
said was, ‘Yadu has been freed? Good.
Was Yayati living a fuller life day afterday in the last eighteen years or was h
dying by inches? How much of Yayat
was dead? Who, who was thawhispering, ‘Yayati is alive only
physically!’
Mukulika hurriedly told me, ‘Now tha
his penance is over the father of He
Majesty is soon coming here.’
Maharishi Shukra coming here? I
which case should I go out oHastinapur? Mukulika went on, ‘Kach
has also been invited by Her Majesty!’
She was by now very near me an
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whispered, ‘The Queen has decided t
crown the Prince. In order to get th
blessings of both Maharishi Shukra an
Kacha ...’
Whatever happened I would no
relinquish the throne of Hastinapur.
said, ‘Kacha also is sitting in penance.’‘Yes, but they say that also is over.’
I smiled and said, ‘It looks as i
generally the time for penance is up. Sbe it. My penance can also end now.’
‘What does Your Majesty mean?’
‘Fill the cup and I will tell you.’
‘In the morning ...?’
‘A maid has no business to as
questions. Your duty ends with giving
me even a cup of poison, if asked for it.
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I put the cup to my mouth and said
Wake me up when the golden-haired
girl arrives. Till then let me sleep .
sleep.’
During those fifteen days of waitin
for the full moon and the golden-haire
girl another realisation kept recurring. Isaid, ‘Yayati, you fool, where are you
going? This is the way to hell.’ I would
sip a little wine and say, ‘Is it not tru
hat Heaven and Hell are near eac
other?’ It would say, ‘Yes ... they border
one another.’ I would reply with a smile
Then why are you so afraid for meTomorrow, in a moment I shall quit the
way to Hell and go on the way t
Heaven.’
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It would say: ‘You fool, there is
barricade every inch of the borde
between Heaven and Hell. In man’
childhood, it is all taken down. But as hgrows up man himself raises them on
by one. And once closed, none of th
doors can ever again be openedUnfortunate one! Now there is only on
door open to you. Don’t close it wit
our own hands. Listen to me, heed me!
This pricking consciousness I wouldrown in the cup.
But the nightmare I had could not b
drowned:
I would first see an enormous
chariot. It had six horses tethered to
it. All of them appeared to be
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spirited animals. The charioteer of
my dream was staking his life to
rein in the steeds. But they were
beyond his control. They wererunning at will, careering madly
over pits and potholes, shattering
loose the chariot in their mad rush.
Every night I dreamt thus. But on th
fourteenth night:
The chariot went down a difficult bypass. On one side were towering
hills. On the other a deep chasm.
The finest and most spirited of thesix horses took the bit between his
teeth and ran amuck. He headed for
the chasm. The reins broke, the
whip lashed the back of the air and
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in no time the chariot crashed. From
the abyss came a deafening roar as
if the heavens had fallen.
got up screaming ‘Shama, Shama.’ Wh
did I call to Sharmishtha in my dream?
felt the dream was an evil omen
Perhaps Sharmishtha was taking leave o
his cruel world somewhere. I could no
sleep. All night I lay in bed dead drunk
ike a corpse.
The sun was setting. The full moon wa
coming up. The sky appeared to bhrilled with happiness, drinking fro
he cup of the moon. The cup in its han
ilted a little and the wine overflowed a
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moonlight on the earth.
Soon, Mukulika gave me the goo
news. With great difficulty, Mandar had
found a girl with golden hair for me
Shall I find the joy of taking Alaka when
crush her golden hair in my hands?
I told Mukulika, ‘I shall not bdeceived. If her hair is not golden, the
ou two will be beheaded. And wher
did you find this golden doll?’
‘Here itself.’
‘If she was found here, why was sh
not brought to me before? That Manda
s a fraud. You are cunning.’
‘Forgive me Your Majesty, but she is
not from Hastinapur. She only came to
he town today looking for her lover.’
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She continued, ‘Her lover is a yout
who has gone to war. Someone told he
hat he was coming to town today wit
Prince Yadu. She left her escort, anelderly lady, and came to town thi
morning, only to learn that the Princ
was returning tonight. She wadisappointed. She is very naughty. Sh
started screaming, so we had to give he
a little dope. She should come round b
about midnight.’
‘Must I wait so long? Why did yo
give her so much dope?’
‘She was very violent, Your MajestyThere are many visitors today in th
hermitage. What if some of thes
strangers got wise to what is happening
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Also, the courier has brought word tha
Maharishi Shukra will arrive at th
palace at about nine. The Prince is als
arriving about that time. So the preceptohought that your Majesty will b
otherwise engaged till almost midnigh
..’‘You are a fool and your preceptor i
worse. I am not concerned with th
Prince returning to town. Mak
arrangements to bring the golden-haire
girl in a palanquin straightaway, withou
rousing suspicion.’
Looking at the girl lying unconsciouon the bed, I could not make up my min
whether I was dreaming or it was in fac
my Alaka that I was seeing again. Sh
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certainly had golden hair. Th
ntervening twenty years had rolle
away. I had regained my Alaka!
I was getting impatient for her. I wa
angry with Mandar and Mukulika. Wh
had asked them to give her so muc
dope? How can one make love to corpse?
I did not know how late it was. I ha
now no desire to sip wine. I wanted jus
o forget everything. God knows wha
omorrow will bring? Maharishi Shukra
Devayani ...
Today — here — now was thmoment, the golden moment!
I could not wait. I went and stood nea
he girl. I bent down to kiss her golde
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hair. I was back again in my youth
Alaka was going to be my love tonigh
That golden dream hidden in my hear
for years was going to come true today.
But before I could put my lips to th
golden mop of hair, Mukulika screeched
from behind the door, ‘Your Majestyplease come out ... come out quickly!’
I resented the interruption but raise
my head and asked, ‘Why?’
‘The Queen and Maharishi Shukra ar
coming. Maharishi Shukra is in a rag
and is asking everybody where You
Majesty is!’My legs gave way. The tongue wen
dry. Like one lying ill for a long time,
stumbled into the outer room draggin
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my feet.
Seeing me come in, Devayani, wh
was sitting on a couch, turned her hea
n disgust. Maharishi Shukra was pacin
he floor in a rage. The room was goin
round and round. I leaned against th
wall mirror and held myself up witdifficulty.
Maharishi Shukra suddenly stopped
fixed me with his eyes for a few second
and then in great anger said, ‘Yayati,
have not come to you in the role of
sage. Do you recognise me?’
I nodded with trepidation.Jeering at me, he said, ‘You are unde
he influence of drink and not in you
right senses. I am Shukra, the invincibl
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Preceptor of the Demons, who havin
acquired Sanjeevani brought even th
gods to their knees. I have agai
acquired a power as potent aSanjeevani. I have come to inquire abou
my daughter’s well being and have ha
he misfortune to see my daughtesteeped to the neck in misery. You
rresponsible creature, I gave to you fo
safe keeping a matchless jewe
nvaluable as the earth, and you threw away as a piece of flint.’
I was scared by the wrath o
Maharishi Shukra. No words woulcome out. In the end, I gathered all m
courage to say, ‘Sire, I am guilty; I hav
offended against you in a hundred ways
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But Devayani is equally to blame fo
what has unfortunately come to pass.’
On hearing this, Devayani turne
round and seething with rage, said
Father, did you bring me here to see fo
ourself how at every step insults ar
hurled at me? You are tired. Let us goback to the palace. Persons steeped i
vice are worse than the devil.’
My anger knew no bounds and
blurted out, ‘And what about person
steeped in selfish egoism?’
Devayani got angrier. She put her han
on Maharishi Shukra’s shoulder andsaid, ‘Father, Yadu must by now be
entering the town in state while you ar
with a libertine, drowned in wine an
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women.’
Maharishi Shukra brushed her han
away and said in anger, ‘Devayani, you
are my all. But you are a fool. You do
not know the right time to do a thing
Once before you lost me the power o
Sanjeevani by insisting on my bringinKacha back to life. I shall not spar
Yayati as a son-in-law. I must punish
him with something which he wil
remember all his life ...’
Devayani said to him sweetly, ‘Settin
Yadu on the throne will open his eyes.
have now no mind for any othehappiness in life.’
I was burning inside at he
melodrama. But Devayani intended t
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nsult me which hurt me. I said harshly
I am the King. How can Yadu be
crowned without my consent?’
Maharishi Shukra intervened calmly
King, I grant you your rights as th
King. Has Devayani no rights as th
Queen? When you accepted her hand imarriage did you not swear on oath tha
ou will not violate the sanctity o
marriage?’
‘I was unable to keep it. My youth wa
o blame. I fell a prey to temptation.’
‘If you were young, was Devayan
old?’‘I beg to be forgiven, Sire. I am guilt
n a hundred ways.’
‘Forgiveness is only for the firs
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offence. A confirmed criminal will no
mend his ways with light punishment.’
He fell silent and was absorbed i
hought. I was like one chained to a hug
rock, at the mouth of a rumbling volcano
With a disparaging look, Maharish
Shukra said, ‘Your Majesty, is it not truehat you spurned Devayani and took t
ourself Sharmishtha?’
‘I did not love Devayani,’ I wanted tosay.
Sage Shukra raised his voice. Hi
words sounded like the thunder of blac
clouds. He said angrily, ‘Had I nowarned you to be careful o
Sharmishtha? You broke my command ..
he command of Devayani’s father ... th
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command of Maharishi Shukra. You
must take the consequences o
disobeying my command.’
‘But, Sire, youth is blind.’
‘I only wish to cure you of your blin
spot. Youth is blind. It was youth tha
empted you. Was it not? Then I am onlygoing to ordain that you shall from now
on lose your youth. I pray that the sinne
before me, sinful Yayati, immediately
urn into a decrepit old man.’
The curse left me staggered, as if I ha
been struck by lightning. The worl
swam before my eyes. My mind becama blank. When I looked into the mirro
with trepidation, my face was wrinkled
My head was all covered with whit
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hair. Standing before the mirror was
decrepit old man.
I was reminded of the golden-haire
girl in the bedroom. It must already b
past midnight. The girl must have com
o by now. A little while ago, I had no
even kissed her golden hair. Now, now— I can never kiss it again. Tha
glamorous girl with Alaka’s face ...
I was agonised by my thoughts
Devayani was sitting at the feet o
Maharishi Shukra and moaning, ‘Wha
have you done Father?’
A ray of hope arose in my heart. folded my hands and pleaded, ‘Sire
have mercy on me. My mind is stil
oung. I very much want to live happil
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with Devayani. But what pleasure ca
she get in living with a decrepit ol
husband like me?’
Devayani intervened with a pityin
ook, ‘Father, I cannot bear to look a
him. Make him young again.’ Maharish
Shukra said, ‘Your Majesty, the arrowof a warrior and the curse of an asceti
never go in vain. You must suffer my
curse. You wish, even if belatedly, to
ive happily with Devayani again.
shall, therefore, pronounce a counte
curse. If some young man of your ow
flesh and blood comes forward texchange his youth for your old age, a
our wish your old age will pass to him
His youth will come to you. Bu
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remember one thing. This borrowe
outh of yours will only return to him a
our death. And in no other way. You
must think of me and repeat three times“I am returning your youth” when yo
fall dead ...’
Devayani screamed, ‘Father what kinof a counter curse is this? This is eve
more terrible than the curse itself.’
Maharishi Shukra was overcome wit
anger and shot up from the couch. H
ooked angrily at Devayani and said
My girl, I rushed here immediately o
arrival to resolve your domestic affairsThat was a mistake. I have fondled an
spoilt you a great deal since childhood
What did I gain? Insults! Nothing bu
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nsults! So far I have done what I coul
for you. Now I have nothing to do wit
ou and your husband.’ Maharish
Shukra left the apartment with thoswords.
The two of us remained behind,
senile decrepit and a beautiful ladyDevayani was afraid to look at me.
was ashamed to show my face to her
What a queer and unseemly plight. We
were in one room. But we lived i
different worlds.
I heard vague sounds from th
bedroom. The beautiful girl must bcoming to. That golden hair of hers ...
I heard a maid saying from th
doorway, ‘Your Majesty, the Prince is
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coming to see you.’
I saw two youths walking in. I quickl
urned away. If Yadu were to see my old
haggard self ...
But Yadu was my son, Yadu was of my
family. He was my flesh and blood. Hcould take on my old age and give m
his youth.
Yadu was talking to DevayaniHearing that she had suddenly gone t
Ashokavan, he had rushed here. Wit
him was the brave youth who had free
him from captivity.
Every atom of my body wa
contemplating the beautiful girl in m
bed. At that moment, I wanted youth.
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wanted the pleasure I could get in he
company only with youth. Suddenly lik
ightning, a thought struck me.
The two youths were taken aback o
seeing me. I calmly called Yadu to me
and said, ‘Yadu, do you recognise me?
am your father Yayati. Do you love yourfather enough to make a sacrifice?’
Devayani suddenly screamed, ‘Yadu
Yadu!’
Devayani had avenged herself on m
for eighteen years. Now was my golde
opportunity to wreak vengeance i
return. I wished to take over Yadu’south and go into the inner room an
come out arm in arm with that beautifu
girl.
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I said to Yadu, ‘I have no more wish
o continue as King. You could be
crowned but not only because you ar
my son. You see this old age on me? came by it as the result of a curse. I a
ooking for a youth of my flesh an
blood who is prepared to take it ohimself in exchange for a kingdom. O
he day of my death, he will regain hi
outh. Maharishi Shukra has granted m
a counter curse to that effect. If yowant, ask your mother if it is not true.’
Yadu was startled at my words. He
drew back a little and hastened tDevayani. She took him in her arms an
said, ‘Yadu, your father is off his head
Come, let us return to the palace. Leav
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him alone here, to admire his white hai
n the mirror.’
I was furious with Devayani. But
was helpless. His refusal was reflecte
on his face. My hopes had died!
Devayani said looking at Yadu’s
companion, ‘Yadu, you have not yet toldus the name of your companion. Th
skeleton in our cupboard should not hav
been exposed to an outsider!’
The youth said to Devayani in al
humility, ‘Mother, I am no stranger.’
‘You have saved the life of Yadu, my
son. How can I now look upon you as stranger?’
‘Mother, I am willing to do what th
Prince is frightened to undertake.’
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Hope sprang in my heart. I went nea
he youth and said, ‘Are you prepared t
ake over my old age?’
‘Gladly.’
‘But, but how could you? It cannot b
aken over except by one of my flesh an
blood.’‘I owe every drop of my blood to you
Your Majesty. I am your son.’
Devayani trembled like an ashen leaat those words. She looked at the yout
and said, ‘His Majesty has only one son
who alone is heir to the throne.’
‘I am not laying a claim to the throne
Mother, I wish to abide by my duty as
son. I want to grant Father’s wish. I a
His Majesty’s son. None can deny m
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he right to take over his old age.’
‘You, you are the son o
Sharmishtha?’ asked Devayani in agony
He replied, ‘Yes, my name is Puroo.’
Every atom of my burning body said
Remember, such an opportunity fo
revenge will never recur. You aregetting your youth back. Do not forg
his opportunity for vengeance.’
I looked at Puroo. He stood stilThere was not an iota of fear in his face
I was begging Puroo, now on th
hreshold of youth, for his youth. I wa
set on giving him my old age. No, no
can I even bear to see Puroo, whose mop
of hair I had fondly caressed, standin
before me as a haggard old man wit
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white hair? I was shaky in my intentions
Devayani was aflame with the strang
happenings of the last two hours. I
measured steps she walked up to Puro
and said, ‘You are Puroo? Truly Puroo?
The son of Sharmishtha? Why are yo
hesitating then? She is said to have beedeeply in love with him. What is there t
hink of? Give your youth to him! And
and take on his old age.’
All the lurking desires were drummin
n my ears: ‘There is that beautifu
maiden waiting for you in your room
For the last fifteen days, you had set youheart on her. Are you going to throw
away this opportunity without eve
putting your lips to it? Then why did yo
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not turn an ascetic eighteen years ago
What, after all, does Puroo stand to los
by taking over your old age for three o
four years? On the other hand, iexchange, he stands to gain a kingdom
For a few years, enjoy life to you
heart’s content; assuage all desire andhen return to him his youth.’
Whether it was because of Devayani’
nagging, Puroo immediately steppe
forward. He put his head on my feet an
said, ‘Father, I am the son of a Princes
who agreed to be a maid for the sake o
her people. I am willing to take on youold age.’ And all I could say in reply
was, ‘So be it!’ Realising th
mplication of those words,
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mmediately closed my eyes. A few
moments later, I opened them to bles
Puroo. The Puroo standing before m
was decrepit and old.
Devayani was nonplussed at th
miracle. She left the room on the instan
with Yadu.Puroo stood before the mirror an
scanned his appearance. For a momen
he covered his face with his hands. I di
not know whether he was sorry for hi
sacrifice. But soon after he calmly wen
o the couch and sat there. That calme
me a little.When leaving the town, Sharmishth
had sent a message, ‘Let the hand of Hi
Majesty ever bless Puroo!’ But today,
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had crashed a thunderbolt on his head.
wished to go to him, draw him to me an
console him, but that was onl
momentary. I did not have the courageHow timid sin is!
n a couple of hours, the world haurned topsy turvy. Liquor does mak
one subject to hallucinations. Was thi
one? In the whirlpool of thought became numb; I felt choked.
Hard fact stared me in the face in th
haggard form of Puroo. I saw myself i
he mirror. I was looking even youngerMy desire for Alaka — with her golde
hair — the unsatisfied longing of twent
ears was the one and only desire, tha
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fired my mind now like the great fire a
he destruction of the world! I turned t
he bedroom.
I went in. The girl was sitting up. Sh
could not fathom how and when she ha
come into the bedroom. She looked a
me and smiled. I felt that my youth habeen rewarded. I stepped forward. Sh
showed fright on her face. She got up
and retired into a corner. I stepped
forward to take her hand when I hear
someone sobbing in the outer room. M
hand went limp.
First, I thought it might be Purosobbing. He must be repenting hi
houghtless sacrifice. But the sobs wer
hose of a woman.
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The sobbing outside continued. I
grew louder. I did not want suc
distraction at my happiest moment.
came out in anger.
Puroo was sitting on the couch like
statue. Sitting close to him, with he
arms round him, was a woman weepinand sobbing. Her whole body wa
racked with emotion.
That a maid should be so intimate wit
Puroo? I lost my temper. I stepped
forward and said, ‘Puroo, you are now
King. And a King must keep his dignity
Who is this lowly maid, with her arm..’
The remaining words stuck in m
hroat. At the sound of my voice, th
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woman had turned her head. I wishe
hat mother earth would open up an
swallow me.
She was Sharmishtha. She wa
weeping bitterly at Puroo’s condition.
could not bear to look at her. Her sob
were unbearable. I hung my head ishame.
Eighteen years ago, while biddin
Sharmishtha farewell from the top of th
underground stairs, I had said, ‘Go
knows where and in what circumstance
we shall meet again.’ That our meetin
had taken place today. And in such asetting. I was numb. I closed my eyes.
was rooted to the spot.
Sharmishtha, my beloved Shama.
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was dying to draw her near me, wipe he
ears and console her. But how was I to
essen her grief? Can the hunter who ha
killed her young one console the deer?
By ourselves, I had often said to her
hat Sharmishtha and Yayati were no
wo but one. But today I had turned heenemy. He whom she had worshipped
all her life in her heart had toda
consigned her to the flames.
Sharmishtha’s tears were bathing m
feet. But every single tear was brandin
my heart. I was ashamed that an ange
ike her should fall at the feet of a deviike me. But I did not have the courage t
ouch her, even to lift her up.
She looked up once. In her eyes wa
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crowded the pathos of eternal death
With trembling lips she said, ‘You
Majesty, what has happened to us?’
I had wrought it all with my own evi
hands. With all consciousness, I had
exchanged my old age with Puroo’
outh. Deliberately, for the momentarsatisfaction of the desire for sex!
I had trampled underfoot my duty as
father. I had spurned parental sentimen
and forgotten common humanity. Fo
momentary selfish pleasure, I ha
sacrificed the offspring of my flesh an
blood. For eighteen years, I had beeraising a temple to the demon of desire
What a terrible dome I had set on
oday!
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Sharmishtha was mine. She had give
me unflinching love. It was my duty t
ay my life down for a tear of hers. I
was not just a duty; in such death laseas of happiness. I began thinking. To
make Sharmishtha happy, I must return to
Puroo his youth. And that, without moment’s delay. But except with my
death there was no returning to him hi
outh.
Death, from constant fear of which
had succumbed to physical pleasure, th
unknown, unnamed death. Without
hought, was I to embrace it?I turned to Sharmishtha. How
expectantly she was looking at me? Ha
she grumbled when she went into exil
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eighteen years ago? She had gon
hrough that ordeal only to save me fro
Devayani’s wrath.
The love of Sharmishtha, of Madhav
of Kacha. Should I also not love thus? A
corner of my heart, which never in th
past had been revealed to me, was nowcoming into view. There was a gentl
ight in that corner. Slowly it grew
bigger.
The joy of dying for someone else is
hundred times greater than the joy o
iving for oneself. What a great an
noble truth this is! But, for the first timoday, it was revealed to me.
Maharishi Shukra had changed m
exterior, now Sharmishtha was changin
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my heart. A Yayati I had never seen
before was now standing before me. H
placed his hand on the shoulder of deat
and said, ‘There are only two things rean life, Love and Death. Come my friend
have come to keep you company in thi
darkness. Fear not, fear none. Have yoseen this lamp in my hand? What did yo
say? This is the star of Venus? No, my
friend, it is Sharmishtha’s love.’
I raised her up and said, ‘Shama, don
worry. By the grace of God, everythin
will turn out all right.’
She asked pathetically, ‘Will Puroo brestored to his old self?’
I replied smiling, ‘Yes, here and
now.’
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She said with tears in her eyes, ‘No
Your Majesty, you are deceiving me
Puroo will not be his old self.’
Wiping her tears I said, ‘Calm
ourself Shama, calm yourself. You
Puroo will be restored to his old self
Maharishi Shukra did not curse him. Iwas pronounced by the wicked ma
known as Yayati. This licentious
profligate, inhuman Yayati is you
culprit. He has sinned against Puroo.’
She looked blankly at me. She did no
believe my words. I was touched wit
her faith in me. Truly, how good man isHe lives on the strength of confidence
faith, attachment, love, devotion an
service. He has the courage to face deat
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on the strength of those. But all thes
sentiments are not attributes of the body
They are attributes of the soul.
During the last eighteen years I ha
ost my soul. Sharmishtha, on the othe
hand, had preserved hers. With th
strength of her faith, it had blossomed. must embrace death, with the sam
ecstasy as of love, and return Puroo’
outh to him.
Knowing that I must accept death fo
he sake of Puroo, Sharmishtha wa
bewildered, and she lost her nerve an
began sobbing, ‘Your Majesty, as I am amother, I am also a wife. I want both my
eyes ... both of them, Your Majesty.’
She could not say more. I melte
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seeing her devotion. But this was n
ime to take love; it was time to return i
full measure the love received.
I said to Sharmishtha, ‘It is late in th
night now. We can think more clearly
omorrow. In any case, I promise, tha
our Puroo will be restored to his olself. Go and sit with him. You have
given birth to a selfless son. You are
ruly the mother of a hero. Go an
comfort him.’
As soon as Sharmishtha’s back wa
urned I closed my eyes in meditation o
Maharishi Shukra. I kept saying, ‘I wiso return this borrowed youth to it
owner. In doing so, I am willing to
accept death.’ I repeated it twice.
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started saying the words silently t
myself, with Sharmishtha’s back turned
o me. Suddenly I felt the room goin
round like a top. Simultaneously, I heardhe words, ‘Kacha has come.’
At that, I collapsed on the floor.
do not know how many days later
came round. It was probably evening
Someone was chanting in a sweet voiceThe chanting stopped. I could see
vague form approaching me. It put
mark of sacred ashes on my forehead.
peered at the figure and saw that it waKacha.
He did not say a word, just smiled. I
response, a faint smile must hav
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appeared on my face. He smiled again
Truly, how sweetly communicative a
smile can be.
When I woke up again, it wa
morning. You could see the dawn in the
east. I lay quietly with my eyes closed
Someone was chanting hymns. I openemy eyes. Kacha was praying to the bal
of fire in the east.
could hear his prayers distinctly:Oh Sun God. Welcome to you. You
are the epitome of the power of the
soul over the senses. You haveconquered darkness. As much as
you are the soul of the universe; you
are also the soul of the spiritual
entity of man. Although your
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charioteer maybe lame, you never
fail in your duty. Let your sacred
light penetrate our minds as it does
the caves and hollows of the world.There also wild beasts live. Oh you,
of the thousand rays, welcome to
you.
Morning and evening, Kacha woul
chant hymns like this. Even otherwise
when he visited me, it was his habit tchant hymns. But these hymns woul
ransport me to another world. There
flowers had no thorns to them and th
stones oozed fragrance.
Many hymns from Kacha’s recitatio
have come to be engraved on my mind:
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The fragrance of flowers cannot be
seen but is felt by the nose. The
beauty of the soul is something like
that.
All kinds of passion are death. This
death is very different from the
ordinary one because in them thesoul itself perishes.
Oh eagle! Flying in the direction of
the high peaks, you know how deep
the valley on the other side is. Come
and tell man, blindly pursuing
transient pleasure, of that valley.
Bring him this nectar.Conscience, feeling and body: the
triple confluence of these constitutes
life. How can any one of them,
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attain the sanctity of the three
together?
Do you wish to understand the grief
of the deer, which in pursuit runs till
it bleeds from the heart? Then
hunter let the deer be the hunter.
Give it your bow and arrows. Andyou? You be the deer.
Do you wish to know how to love?
Then make the river, the tree and the
mother your tutors.
The senses are never satisfied by
indulgence. As the fire blazes with
an offering, so do the senses getincensed the more by indulgence.
could recall a whole lot of hymns t
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his effect. They were my friends in m
sick bed.
Gradually, the royal physicia
permitted me to talk a little. In thi
ntervening period, not only was I rebor
but apparently Devayani also. She ha
acquired considerable restraint and lovof service.
I tried to piece together the incident
from the time I collapsed to the floor tha
night. In my mind I tried to weave into
fabric the clues provided by Kacha
Sharmishtha, Devayani, Puroo and Yadu
That night with Maharishi Shukra imy mind I had said twice the word
which would return Puroo’s youth to
him. I had started on the third time bu
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did not complete it. It was interrupted b
he words, ‘Kacha has come.’ I the
collapsed to the floor.
Kacha also had acquired by hi
penance a power as potent as that o
Maharishi Shukra. On the strength of
he restored Puroo’s youth to him.Only when talking about ascetics, thei
penance and the powers achieved b
hem would Kacha be very disturbed
Then he would say, ‘Your Majesty, man
s no beast, but at heart, man remain
much like the beast pursuing life by th
blind instinct of self preservationTalking ill of the preceptor is a sin, bu
concealing the truth is an even greate
sin. I must, therefore, talk a little abou
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Maharishi Shukra. Seeing him falling
prey to anger at every step, who ca
guarantee that the superhuman power
achieved by man, after prolongepenance, by a man who has been unabl
o gain mastery over his passions, wil
always be used for the well-being oall? What sense is there to a life i
which, with the two sides equall
matched, strife continues? Is this how th
world is to go on? No, if man desirehappiness he must first conquer hi
passions.’
Kacha would talk thus. I would listen was distressed by his sincerity. I wa
convinced of the truth of his words. But
did not know how to comfort him.
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On my sick bed, we two came eve
nearer. Immediately after his penance
on hearing of my degeneration he had se
out to come here. He had got Devayani’nvitation on the way. As soon as he
entered the town, he heard that I wa
staying at Ashokavan and came straigho me.
How timely his arrival was! My deat
was averted by his coming. Puroo go
back his youth. And I was saved from a
overwhelming sin!
That golden-haired girl ... Is
possible that in her last moments Alakhad prayed to God, saying that her desir
o serve Yayati had been left unfulfilled?
How could it have been ordained tha
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she should return to Hastinapur to be m
daughter-in-law?
Sharmishtha also had come in the nic
of time. She had come to live in
village near Hastinapur, so as to keep i
ouch with news of Puroo on th
battlefield. She was afraid that Puromight also have been taken captive wit
Yadu. Hearing of Yadu’s return to the
capital, she and Alaka decided to com
o Hastinapur early in the morning; but i
he night when Sharmishtha woke up
Alaka was not there! She looked fo
Alaka all night in that village. Heavy aheart, she somehow reached Hastinapu
n the evening. She saw Puroo enterin
he town with Yadu. The crowds were
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hailing Puroo as the saviour of Yadu and
Puroo received more cheers and greate
ovation than Yadu. Her heart was full
She wanted to see him at closer quarterbut did not succeed. Suddenly Puroo an
Yadu went away somewhere. Later an
old man told her, ‘They have both gono Ashokavan for an audience with th
Queen.’ She was terrified. Would
Devayani bless Puroo as the saviour o
her son’s life or would she avengherself on him as the son of a co-wife?
She did not know what to do to ensur
he safety of Puroo. She just ran foAshokavan. But it was only when I saw
Yati again, that I realised, that miracle
greater than the most miraculous d
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happen.
Yati came on purpose to see me
knowing that I was ill in bed. I wanted t
get up to bow to him, but he would no
et me. He drew me in close embrace
The hard-hearted, harsh Yati that I had
met in the forest and this loving Yati —what a contrast it was. I wished Mothe
was here to witness this meeting of he
wo sons.
I said to Yati, ‘You are the elder
brother. This kingdom is yours. You
must take the throne.’
He smiled and said, ‘A deer skin is better place to sit on than a throne. Try i
and see.’ Yati had said it casually, bu
his words sank deep. They germinate
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and grew into a big tree.
In life, I had gone the limit i
sensuality. It was only natural that
should now turn to renunciation.
resolved to renounce the household
Kacha agreed with me and it was n
wonder that Sharmishtha should followme into the jungle. What astounded m
was Devayani. She also resolved to g
with me.
That night I was just coming round
For a few moments, I was full
conscious. It first seemed as if Alak
was sitting by my bed. But I realised thnext moment that she was Devayani. Sh
was fanning me.
I looked down and there wa
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Sharmishtha massaging my feet.
I pondered over this great change i
Devayani for a long time in bed. Kach
must have talked to her at length. But tha
was nothing new to her. In the end,
brought it up before Kacha. I asked hi
n jest the cause of this reformation iDevayani. Seeing that I believed him t
have worked the miracle, he said, ‘You
are wrong, Your Majesty. What I had
been striving for years happened tha
night; but not because of me but becaus
of Puroo.’
I said in astonishment, ‘How?’‘When Puroo took over your old age
ou gave him the kingdom in return. Bu
as soon as he got back his youth, he ra
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o Devayani. He fell at her feet and said
“Mother, Yadu is my elder brother
Father has given me the kingdom. But
will not take it. I shall not take the thronnsulting Yadu. Let Yadu be king. I will
ake his orders. I swear by you mother.
swear by my mother Sharmishtha, I wanou as mother, I want Yadu as brother. I
do not want a kingdom. I want a mothe
and a brother.” ’
Devayani who had never befor
ielded to anyone or anything melted a
his love, affection and sacrifice o
Puroo. She hugged him and bathing hiwith tears said, ‘Puroo, as to who is t
ake the throne, that is for the king an
his subjects to decide. But you hav
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oday given me something which i
beyond all kingdoms. A selfless warrio
ike you has made me his mother. Puroo
who taught you so much love? It woulhave been far better if I had been taugh
hat in my childhood. I am now going t
earn it from you. You gladly took oveour father’s old age. From love for you
brother, you were prepared to relinquis
our kingdom. Puroo, I want nothin
more than the strength to love like you.’
Puroo had relinquished his right to th
hrone, but the subjects to the last ma
wanted him to be king. Yadu’s defeahad lowered him in their estimation. Th
Dasyu rebellion to the north had to b
put down. It could only be done by
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brave king. Devayani also bowed to th
wish of the people.
On the day of Puroo’s coronation w
retired to the jungle. Immediately afte
he ceremony, Kacha asked all three o
us, ‘Does any of you have any residua
wish?’ Devayani and Sharmishthmmediately said, ‘No.’ I however kep
quiet. Kacha said, ‘Your Majesty ...’
I said, ‘Now, I am not to be called
Your Majesty, but Yayati. We are