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Transcript of VARNISH
Varnish
(4th ED., 2011)
Poems
By
Elaine cosgrove
With
Photographs
By
Colin h. smith
PLUTO,
ASSORTED TREATS,
IMPERIAL HEART,
USED TO BE COOL,
THE PIN THAT SHOOK THE RULES LOOSE,
AND
SHOWER SCENE.
PLUTO
Sleep shut, I am trying to get back to Pluto.
It is a world climbed to through a tree house that is
sat in one grand tree planted, found at a junction
of dirty, grey, littered primary roads.
I’ve forgotten the sentence that gets me back;
I don’t know what to do or who to ask for help.
I’m left to try to remember in an ugly flat down the road.
You stay inside because the people who walk outside are violent,
you are frightened by their bad intent.
So you sit in an armchair and wait,
turning your teeth for the memory to resurface.
It’s so beautiful there, in Pluto,
it’s a garden of golden, soughing lines;
glorious charm that makes you smile
all the time.
You wait for the code - that jigsaw trick -
you wait for the magic of remembering it.
ASSORTED TREATS
One day in July,
my hand whirled like helicopter leaves
to grill a crayon painted house.
In the corner of the page,
a giant sun with a wide, toothy grin
smelled like a banana sweet.
At twelve, I connected the rope to the tyre;
swung, coin spun, felt queasy
and decided to go into the second field.
Daisy flowers squashed into my knees,
Kitten and I played hide & seek
ambushing shrews in the tall, green grass.
I cycled my Raleigh to the fun fair,
my carousel shoes went plink-plonk
working together at the bumping cars.
Bodies around were possessed
by funtime gargoyles throwing candy floss laughs
over backs, flung over steering wheels.
When I got home,
my sister and I built up a playhouse of
white plastic scaffold with pink papered walls.
Barbie will not forgive Ken
for scoffing all the Scot’s Clan
and drives her car to the shop.
IMPERIAL HEART
‘Tepid souls shall become fervent
Fervent souls shall rise speedily to great perfection’
- The 7th & 8th promises of the sacred heart
I am entreating for mercy, imperial sadness,
to take the bed away as a dead weight magnet.
This is not always circumstantial;
it just comes and goes ad hoc and violent.
Let the promises work helix with my chemical
and I’ll allow those rules to play hypocrite,
even though I don’t believe to pray.
Dear, with your quiet, caring humour
stitch elastic your love to mine
and we can be heartfold.
I can learn the devotion towards perfection
through real visions of us dancing
together on Thursday nights,
drinking pints, reading books,
watching films with cups of tea.
I witness refuge when the speakers
radiate licks of soothing sound.
You can make my body spark tenderness
with a kiss on the hand,
on the curve of the cheek,
reminding me of that devotion
to the quotidian grace
of a settled head.
You refuse the bad days
when I compute your language
feeling glassbuilt, tenebrous, guillotine.
USED TO BE COOL
I remember when you used to be cool
you wore vintage that was really second hand,
best foot out in charity shop glamour
but this fad became last season,
too copied, too common, too old.
I remember when you used to be cool
you could skull six pints, four shots
shove prescribed pills
down your throat and
speed up your nose,
party with the band
and stay up until 7
stay up until 7
and get up for your dole at 5
You used to be so cool.
Wayfarers were in
Music heads were in
overdraft was in
Now, you are the dreaded word: sensible,
with good sleep
a neutral gut,
and a plus bank balance.
THE PIN THAT SHOOK THE RULES LOOSE
In our minds, that bedsitter breathed expanse.
Distance shortened and I loved the freedom of my feet
to take me anywhere.
I got closer to the City; I trained my ear to grow easy
to the sounds of the night,
waking side-by-side with the people outside, the traffic,
the whine of the bin lorry clanging on Monday Mornings.
On Munster Avenue
the clean face of a different life lay before us,
so we pinned old pictures onto the corked wall:
club flyers from London, (blow-up and Frog)
postcards from Prague,
photos from our schooldays.
Wreaths of smoke clamoured in the kitchen-living room;
we christened it the perfect little hotbox, a smoker’s delight.
Cardinal measures were executed, weighed,
built into lesson-makers,
nights were spent lushing out of bottles of Martini,
gathering resolve with the fridge at our feet.
I used this place as a seat to model myself as an individual;
a new existence free from the comparisons of 18 years siamesed.
For me, the sweet illusion of future success was weaved.
It came out lurching with an evil laugh from English books,
theories of Sociology and Political Science back in my
‘You got to spend money to make money’ college days
(The reward of which I am still waiting)
In that first flat,
In that ebullient flat,
five years ago.
SHOWER SCENE
Attempting a faint version
of celluloid romance is not as easy as it seems
but we will try anyways; I think about the
hand on hand foaming up the soap deluxe
for a joint bubble bath standing up;
how the shower was too tight, the tiles were too slippy,
they squeaked at the most inappropriate times.
The fragrance stung in our eyes; the pressure was too high;
our heads were under a pins & needles
power shower block-siege.
And you complained, let me under the warmth, I’m getting cold,
I feel like I’m drowning, at the crucial points
when Oscar winning moments could be melted down
for a lasting substance. I delivered to you again and again
the shower scene speech: It’s not like this in the movies, is it?
Varnish, 4th edition (2011) ////////////////
‘Imperial Heart’ and ‘Shower Scene’ have been changed a bit since 1st edition.
All poems by Elaine Cosgrove, 2010/2011.
All photographs by Colin H. Smith, 2010, except for the dead ice cream cone.
Elaine can be contacted at elainecosgrove1[at]gmail[dot]com
Colin can be contacted at smithyy70[at]yahoo[dot]com
‘Assorted Treats’ and ‘Imperial Heart’ were shortlisted in the Over the Edge New
Writer of the Year Competition 2010
Please contact us if you would like to use any of the poems or photographs
anywhere, thanks!
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