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Telling Tales: Negotiating Religious Identity in Classrooms

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Acknowledgements

My sincerest thanks are due to the management and administration ofthe AMU Girls High School, who, despite their reservations, let me inthrough their formidable gates. Once convinced that I was not bent on‘making trouble’, the faculty allowed me unfettered access to theirclassrooms, their schedules and most importantly, their students. Manyof them watched bemused as we drew, played and sang on the verandahor under the trees. For their patience with our songs and our dramas,the noise and the bursts of temper and laughter, I am truly grateful.

My thanks to Shalini, then a student at the Journalism Department atAMU, for being the extra pair of arms I was wishing I could grow.Thanks also to my cousin Sameen Adeeb, my assistant through theproject, for keeping a large group of volatile girls perpetually occupiedand excited. I suspect she did this by simply rolling up her sleeves andplunging into the activities with as much excitement as any of theparticipants. Asad Hussain, for his help with the photographs, forbeing the sounding board for many of the ideas that run through thisdocument and most importantly, for always turning up by the morningtrain whenever I needed him. My cousin Ambreena Jabbar, who tooktime out between her exams to help me with the sessions. My motherand the entire support crew at Samanzaar, who hosted several sessionsof feasting and talk, for their amused tolerance and for clapping at theright places.

Thanks to the team at WISCOMP, for their support at each stage ofthe project and for having faith in the idea that young women in asmall town can have something important to say.

My deepest thanks go out to each of the girls who spoke to me overthe months I spent hanging around their corridors. They opened theirhearts and let me into their lives, their stories, their fears and includedme in their smiles. For this, I can never be sufficiently grateful. Thismonograph is for all of them.

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In this context, Taran’s study attempts to communicate the differentways in which the relationship between Hindus and Muslims living inAligarh influences the everyday existence of schoolgirls growing upin an increasingly polarized context. The manifestation of this fissuredinter-community relationship in low-intensity crises and prejudices indaily classroom interactions is a key focus of the study. Viewing thegrievances and aspirations of a community as valuable resources forpeacebuilding, it uses the lens of gender to study the perpetuation ofcommunal stereotypes and how these are replicated and transferredacross generations.

In the backdrop of a range of events that have increased communaltensions – such as the Babri Masjid demolition, the Gujarat genocide,India-Pakistan cricket matches, to name a few – the students sharewith each other their experiences of living through riots, and views onquestions such as, “What does religion mean to you? What do othersthink of your religion? How do you want others to think of yourreligion? What are the visual images that come to your mind whenyou hear the words “Muslim women” and “Hindu women”?

These questions generated strong emotions – anger, suspicion, fear,tears and insecurity – among the students. Yet, at the end of the heateddebates, the personal friendships enabled the girls to rise above thecommunal hostility that surrounded them and to empathize with thedifferent perspectives that each articulated. As Taran concludes, it wasthe thread of “familiarity” that wove together the diverse experiencesof the girls and that facilitated an atmosphere of respect andcoexistence, even as an environment of communal hostility prevailedin Aligarh.

In order to retain the essence and spirit of the views shared by theparticipants of this project, the dialogues, which were carried out inHindi and Urdu, have been presented here in their original form,accompanied by a translation in English. For this reason, the researcherand the editor have not tampered with the text in any significantmanner; thereby enabling the reader to have unmediated access to theperspectives of the students.

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reopened. It was winter, and I was twelve. In the grey half light ofsunless days, furious whispers did the rounds between students.Invariably, we found ourselves repeating the stories we had heard inour homes through those bitter months of acrimony. We listened tofirst hand accounts of the violence from Girls Who Knew, and therewas no doubt whose fault it was. How could They! The Other hadtaken a face, and it was that of our “non-Muslim” friends who now satacross the aisle from us. Between us lay an angry chasm of silence.We never spoke about it, then or later, but I suspect that for most of us,the difference between Us and Them became clear in that brutal silence.It was to probe this silence – to find if it still roamed these corridors –and to crack its steely surface, to bring forth the things that are leftunsaid, that I had returned to school.

This, then, was the central objective of the project – to startconversations and to listen into schoolgirls talking about their lives.The attempt was to use these dialogues to map the experience ofgrowing up at a time of post-liberalisation flux in a small town innorth India. Simultaneously, the focus was on foregrounding themanner in which communal tensions and issues are manifested andnegotiated in the classroom. Aligarh, one of the eight most communallyvolatile cities in India, is an interesting place to locate this. Peculiarlypoised between various fault lines of identity and conflict, part mofussiltown and part overlarge industrial centre, it has a sizeable andelectorally significant Muslim minority of 38 percent. While the lastmajor cycle of riots was in 1990 during the Rath Yatra, the fragility ofethnic-communal relations in the city has become frighteningly clearon several occasions, through intermittent and localized incidents ofcommunal violence. More recently, the Gujarat genocide led to a spateof murders and minor clashes. Less dramatically, this fissuredcommunal relationship is manifested in the topography of communitymohallas, networks of trust and association and the conflicts ofeveryday life. It is such low-intensity crises that form the area of mystudy, in their manifestations within the classroom.

The idea was thus to tap into discussions amongst students growingup in a context that tends towards extreme communal postures, theperpetual presence of religious tensions and the constant possibility of

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workers, lock factory labourers to the service class who are posted insmall towns with no ‘good’ schools.

This project worked with a similarly mixed group of students, agedbetween 13–15 years. During the initial stages we worked with largergroups of 30-35 students in a broad workshop format, taking updifferent themes at every meeting and exploring them through roleplay, collage making, puppetry, group discussions and dummynewspapers. Over time, a core group of fifteen girls emerged, almostequally divided between Hindus and Muslims, who were engaged indepth interviews in smaller groups and individually. I also intervieweda few protagonists at their homes, and several times we had longerdiscussions at my house. The idea was to try and achieve a holisticunderstanding of the worlds each of my protagonists occupied – worldswhich were often sharply different though co-existent, and whichoccasionally clashed. These different stages of the project weredocumented through audio recordings and still photographs; theparticipants also kept journals that recorded their own versions ofactivities and outcomes. These elements form the layers that I willjuxtapose in this report.

The principle behind the structure of this report is to allow for arelatively unmediated expression of ideas and arguments by theparticipants of this project. It sounds simple but it is a rare quality in atext that it does no more and no less than offer access to the ideas ofthe constituency it claims to “study”. This report tries to achieveprecisely this. My intention is not to speak on behalf of the participants,give “voice to the voiceless” or to explain their articulations, or locatethem in theoretical boxes or even use them to push my own petarguments or agendas. The report essentially reproduces the ebb andflow of our conversations and arguments across diverse media, withexplanations being added only where needed for the purpose of clarity.As a researcher, however, I do not claim to be an invisible, objectiveentity. Rather, I have attempted to use my presence reflexively, to addan additional layer of meaning to the report, always consciouslyseparating my voice from those of the other participants. I cannot claimto have been entirely successful in this regard-after all, my own identitycan be argued to have influenced the answers I got. My attempt here is

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A Note on the Translation

The original language of conversations with the participants wasHindustani, scattered with English. In the original text as well as thetranslation, my attempt has been to tamper as little as possible withtheir language. Punctuation and grammar have been sacrificed toaccommodate the rhythm and flow of their talk. I have also leftunchanged the unique words that have become common usage withinthe school, like ‘boundations’ (boundaries+limitations) and my favoritefrom my own school days, ‘proudy’. These defy translation and I havelet them stand in the text, hoping for latitude from the readers for such‘errors’ that may be technically incorrect but communicate a lot aboutthe world where they come from if read with empathy and a little bitof humour.

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Mk;jh

'kkfyuh vkSj vQ'kku

esjs Ldwy dk uke vCnqyk xYlZ gkbZ Ldwy gS] ;g ;wfuoflZVh dk ikVZ gS vkSj ;g dbZlkjh fcfYMaxl ds chp esa gSA ;g ekjhl jksM+ ij gS] tks fd vyhx<+ dk lcls i<+kfy[kk ,fj;k ekuk tkrk gS] vkSj bl esa lcls vPNh ckr ;g gS fd xzhujh cgqr gSAbruh xzhujh rks izR;sd ;wfuoflZVh ds fMikVZesaV esa Hkh ugha fn[krh] ftruh gekjs Ldwyesa gS] ;g lcls vPNh ckr yxrh gS eq>dksA jksM ij ,d cM+k lk] Iysu lk xsV gS] FkksM+kvkxs pyus ij ,d rjQ rks xzhujh gS] nwljh rjQ ,d vksj jksM+ gS fdUrq geusa lh/kspyuk gSA b/kj dh lkbM Iyl Vw dk lsD'ku gS] vkSj fQj oweul dkWyst gSA fQj gekjkLdwy gS] mldk ,d cgqr cM+k xzkmaM gSA tc eSa ubZ&ubZ vkbZ Fkh mlesa [kks Hkh xbZ FkhAigys rks mlesa >wyk Hkh Fkk ij vc >wyk ugha gS] 'kk;n vc cPps LekVZ gks x, gSa]blfy;sA Ldwy FkksM+k ^iqjkuk ekWMy* gS] dqN fcfYMaxl [kaMj dh rjg gSa ysfdu dqN ubZfcfYMaxl Hkh gSaA Ldwy esa [ksyus dh lc lqfo/kk,a gSa ckLdsVcky] [kks&[kks bR;kfnA cl,d ¼ckr ij½ xqLlk vkrk gS] IysxzkmaM esa ,d cM+k lk uhe dk isM+ Fkk] mlds uhps nksiRFkj Fks] ogha cSB dj ge yap djrs FksA mldks dVok fn;k fcfYMax cuus ds fy;s] rkscgqr xqLlk vk;kA

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gekjk ;wfuQkeZ cgqr csdkj gS] mldk dyj cgqr xank gS] vxj psd ¼iSVuZ½ esa gksrk rcHkh FkksM+k LekVZ yxrkA Åij ls 'kq: ls gh lyokj deht gS ;g Hkh ugha vPNk yxrk]de ls de NBh rd yksx Ýksd oxSjg igu gh ldrs gSaA vkSj Ldwy dh lcls cM+hLis'kyhVh gS ;gk¡ dh Lis'ky fVDdh] tks lLrh dgha ugha feyrh] ,d :i;s esa ,d nsrsgSa HkkbZA dsUVhu Hkh gS vkSj ,d lkbfdy LVSUM ftl esa ge jkst HkkbZ dks mYyw cukrsgSa ;g dg dj ds Vksdu gS gekjs ikl ysfdu vkt rd dHkh cuok;k gh ughaA ,dykbczsjh gS ftlesa ge vkBoha Dykl rd rks vykmM ugha Fks] 'kk;n ukSoha esa tk ldsaA

oSls rks vPNk gh gS gekjk Ldwy] isaV Hkh gks gh tkrk gS gj lky] ysfdu bruhlqfo/kk,a ugha gSaA lcls cM+h ckr dEI;wVj ugha gS] oSls ftu Ldwyksa esa gksrk Hkh gS ogk¡Hkh ugha i<+rs rks eq>s T;knk QdZ ugha iM+rkA vkSj gk¡] Ldwy esa VkW;ysV cgqr de gSavkSj cgqr xanh jgrh gS] tkus dk eu ugha djrk gSA vxj vkidks yx jgk gS rks vkidaVªksy dhft,] tc rd vki ?kj ugha igqapsA

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dfudk

eaSa D;k gw¡ eSa tkurh gw¡] ij eSa igyh ckj blds ckjs esa ckr dj jgh gw¡ rHkh ujol gw¡AeSa ,d vPNh yM+dh g¡ws ysfdu ,slk ugha gS fd eSa >wB ugha cksyrhA eSa cgqr cksyrh gw¡]eq>s xqLlk cgqr tYnh vkrk gS] eSa uolZ Hkh cgqr tYnh gks tkrh gw¡] eq>s bZ";k Hkh cgqrtYnh gks tkrh gS] eSa n;kyq gw¡ ij cgqr ughaA fdlh dh Hkh ckrksa ls cgqr tYnh beks'kuygks tkrh gw¡A eSa cgqr eLr gw¡A esjs vanj FkksM+k lk ?ke.M Hkh gS] bldk rks ugha irk nwljsyksx esjs ckjs esa D;k lksprs gSa ij mEehn djrh g¡w oks vPNk gh lksprs gkasxsA ,d ckreSa cgqr ckj uksfVl dh gS yksx lksprs gS dh eSa cgqr brjkrh gw¡] vius vki dks T;knkLekVZ lksprh gw¡ ysfdu ,slk fcYdqy Hkh ugha gSA eSa ;gh pkgrh gw¡ fd yksx esjs ckjs esavPNk lkspsa ysfdu vxj cqjk lkspas rks igys eq>s crk nsa eSa vxyh ckj mUgsa cqjk lkspusdk ekSdk u nw¡A

'kkfyuh

eSa ,d lk/kkj.k yM+dh ugha gw¡ D;ksafd eSa le>rh gw¡ eq>s cgqr lh yM+fd;ksa ls T;knkfeyk gS ij eSa eglwl djrh gw¡ eq>esa dqN DokfyVh gS tSls yhMjf'ki dh DokfyVh gS]FkksM+h lh cksYM Hkh gw¡ beks'kuy Hkh gw¡ ysfdu cgqr T;knk bulsUlfVo Hkh gw¡A eSa vanjls ftruh lkSE; gw¡ mruh ckgj ls ugha yxrh] ckgj ls FkksM+h T;knk cksYM yxrh gw¡ysfdu dks&vkWijsfVo Hkh cgqr gw¡ vkSj dE;wfuVh ds osyQs;j ds fy;s lsØhQkbl Hkhdjuk tkurh gw¡A

eq>s yxrk gS yksx eq>s ,d IjkÅMh yM+dh le>rs gSaA ;g igyk beIjs'ku gksrk gS]udp<+h yM+dh] ij eSa ,slh ugha gw¡A mUgsa ;g Hkh yxrk gS fd eSa viuh pht+ksa dks'kks&vkSQ dj jgh gw¡A tc eSa NBh Dykl esa Fkh] izh;k vkSj dqN yM+fd;ksa us eq>s ,slkcrk;k FkkA rHkh eq>s ;g ckr irk gSA vkSj yM+fd;ksa dks Hkh yxrk gS eSa IjkÅMh g¡w]ij eSa ugha gw¡A

eSa pkgrh g¡w fd yksx eq>s buVjsfLVªax le>saA yksx lksprs gSa eSa etkfd;k T;knk gw¡ ysfdufLFkfr dks dks&vkWijsV djus ds fy;s ;g t:jh gksrk gSA eSa lsyfQ'kul ls gsV djrhgw¡ ysfdu yksx ;g lksprs gSa fd eSa lsyfQ'k gw¡ ysfdu ;g eSa fcYdqy ugha pkgrh Iyhtesjs ckjs esa ,slk ugha lkspasA eSa lsyfQ'k ugha cgqr dkbUM vkSj vkWYVªLVhd xyZ ga¡wA

xqzi fØ;k% [kqn dh Nfo

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vQ'kku

eSa vkBoha Dykl esa i<+rh gw¡A eSa rsjg lky dh gw¡ vkSj pkSng dh gksus okyh gw¡A eSa cgqrckrwuh gw¡A oSls eSa ,slk ugha lksprh ij esjs nksLr vkSj fj'rsnkj crkrs gSaA eq>s i<+kbZ dkcgqr 'kkSd gS ij eSa esgur ugha djuk pkgrhA eq>s cgqr 'keZ vkrh gS tc yksx eq>sVksdrs gSa tc eSa dqN 'kCn Bhd ls cksy ugha ikrh] D;kasfd esjh t+qcku esa dqN rdyhQgSA eSa ,d MkDVj vkSj vPNh balku cuuk pkgrh gw¡A eSa viuh cgu dh dkQh ckrsaekurh gw¡A eq>s yxrk gS eSa vius nknk dks lcls T+;knk I;kj djrh g¡wA eSa vius ikikls lcls T;knk I;kj ugha djrh D;ksafd oks cgqr tYnh ukjkt gks tkrs gSaaA eq>s viusHkkbZ ls uQjr gS D;ksafd oks eq>s ekjrk gSA eSa cgqr 'kehZyh yM+dh gw¡A eSa cgqr Hkkoqdg¡w vkSj esjs nksLr dgrs gSa fd eSa yM+dh ugha yM+dk fn[krh gw¡A

QkSft+;k

eq>s yxrk gS fd eSa egku gw¡] t+kfgj gS gj dksbZ vius ckjs esa ,slk gh lksprk gSA 'kk;nfØ,VhfoVh gS ysfdu mls ,Dlizsl ugha dj ldrhA esjs cky cgqr gh >cjs okys gaSysfdu esjh ut+j esa ;s cgqr vPNs gaSA nwljs yksx ykbVyh ysrs gS fpj&fpjh gw¡ ysfdupwycwyh gw¡A

(vQ'kku) eke buds ckjs esa dqN dguk gSA eke ;s pwfg;k yxrh gS ns[kus es NksVh gSij cgqr ekjrh gSA

lkbZnk

lkbZnk % crkÅ¡\ rqe lc yksxks fd cqjkbZ djus okyh gw¡A esjk uke lkbZnk gSA eSa viusckjs esa cgqr vPNk lksprh gw¡A ysfdu nwljs esjs ckjs es cgqr cqjk lksprs gaSA

¼Dykl esa xk;d eaMyh½ % og Bhd gS! og Bhd gS!

lkbZnk % eSa etkd ugh dj jghA eq>s viuh Dykl ds cPps cgqr&cgqr cqjs yxrs gaSAvkSj esjs ?kj esa esjh eEeh ls iVrh ugha gSA nwljs esjs ckjs esa vPNk lksprs gSa ysfdu iVrhugha gSA ikik esjs ckjs esa vPNk lksprs Fks ij vc cqjk lkspus yxs gSaA vktdy esjh eEehirk ugha dqN dg nsrh gaS muls vkSj eSa ges'kk jksrh jgrh gw¡A tc rd jkr eSa jksÅ¡ ueq>s uhan ugha vkrhA eq>s dksbZ ugha vPNk yxrkA

vkokt+% ekWe oks jks jgh gSA

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Dykl ppkZ

fjfytu vkids fy;s D;k eryc j[krk gS\ vkids fjfytu ds ckjs esa vkSj yksx D;klksprs gSa\ vki D;k pkgrs gks vkids fjfytu ds ckjs esa yksx D;k lkspsa\

Hkkouk

esjs fy;s fjfytu dk eryc gS fny ls iwtk djukA nwljs yksx gekjs fjfytu ds ckjsesa lksprs gSa fd cgqr bZt+h gS] gekjs QkLV cgqr bZt+h gksrs gSa] ysfdu ,slk dqN ugha gSAoks rks ge cPps yksx gh dqN bZt+h lk j[krs gS ij cM+s yksx cgqr gkMZ j[krs gSaAeSa pkgw¡xh ds gekjs fjfytu dks Hkh yksx FkksM+k gkMZ le>asA lcdks yxrk gS ge dêj gksrsgSa] ij vktdy fd U;w fgUnw tsujs'ku bruh iwtk oxSjg ugha djrh ftruh igys djrhFkhaA

vouh

t:jh ugha gS fd eSa Hkxoku dh iwtk vk/kk&vk/kk ?k.Vk cSB dj d:¡A bl dke dks eSai<+kbZ esa fny yxk ds ;k xjhcksa dh enn djds Hkh dj ldrh gw¡A esjs fy;s fgUnw gksusdk eryc ;g fcYdqy ugha gS fd eSa lqcg tYnh mB dj iwtk d:¡ ;k fQj tks fgUnwgSa mUgha ls nksLrh d:¡A esjs fy;s rks ;g eryc gS fd lcls nksLrh d:¡ vkSj clA

Qjghu

fjfytu yksxksa dks tksM+rk gSA eSa ,d eqfLye gw¡A eqfLye gksus dk eryc ;g ugha fdge flQZ cqdkZ igus ;k uekt i<a+sA buds lkFk&lkFk gesa nwljksa dh enn vkSj cM+ksa dkvknj Hkh djuk gksrk gSA nwljs yksx lksprs gSa fd eqfLye yksx xjhc gksrs gSa ;k fQj cqdkZigurs gSaA oks ;g Hkh lksprs gSa fd eqfLye yksxksa dks fcuk fdlh vkKk ckgj tkus ughafn;k tkrkA eSa pkgrh gw¡ fd oks ;g lksps dh gekjk fjfytu muds fjfytu tSlk gSA

cq'kjk

eqfLye gksus dk eryc gS fd ,d [kqnk esa fo'okl gksA tc ge nqfu;k esa vk, Fks] gesa;g ugha irk Fkk fd fjfytu D;k gksrk gSA fQj gekjs ekrk&firk us gesa crk;k fd geascuk;k x;k gS] gesa lkjh lqfo/kk,a feyrh gSa rks mUgha ¼[kqnk½ ls feyrh gSaA fjfytu dkeryc gS ml [kqnk dks 'kqfØ;k djuk ftlus gesa cuk;k gSA

nwljs fjfytu ds yksxksa dks yxrk gS fd eqfLye dks gj oDr insZ esa jguk iM+rk gS vkSjoks yksx gj oDr uekt i<+rs jgrs gSaA fjfytu ds pDdj esa cgqr O;Lr jguk iM+rk

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gSA ftl [kqnk dh izkFkZuk djrs gSa mudks [kqn Hkh ugha irk oks dSls gSaA eSa pkgw¡xh fd oks;g u le>sa ds gekjs Hkxoku dh 'kDy ugha gS] oks ;g le> ldsa dh ftl Hkxoku dksgeus dHkh ns[kk ugha gS mldh ge rLohj dSls cuk ldrs gSaA

lfork

nwljs lksprs gSa fd lkjs fgUnw dh Hkk"kk ,d lh gksrh gS] eryc cqjh gksrh gSA nwljs yksx;g lksprs gSa fd fgUnw yksx Vhdk yxkrs gSaA eSa ;g pkgw¡xh dh nwljs yksx esjs fjfytuds ckjs esa lksps dh lHkh fgUnw yksxksa dh Hkk"kk ,d lh ugha gksrhA

Djkrh

fjfytu esjs fy;s ,d ,slh pht gS tks balku dks vyx&vyx yksxksa esa ckaV nsrh gSAflQZ fjfytu dh otg ls gh yksxksa ds iwtk] uke vkSj dke Hkh cny tkrs gSaA yksxviuh fjfytu dks dqN T+;knk gh ekurs gSaA tc muls dgrs gSa viuh fjfytu dh[kkfrj djks oks dj ysrs gSa dh fjfytu ds uke ij gks jgk gS blfy, dqN vPNk ghgksxkA

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Mk;jh

gqek

bl oDr nl ct jgs gSaA eSa blfy;s Mk;jh ,aVªh fy[k jgh gw¡ D;ksafd vkt esjs lkFk dqNu;k gqvk FkkA vkt lqcg xhys ckyksa dh pksVh djus dh otg ls lj esa nnZ gks jgk FkkALdwy igq¡prs&igq¡prs nnZ dkQh c<+ x;k Fkk] 'kk;n bl dkj.k dh otg ls Hkh dh eSausgkse odZ iwjk ugha fd;k FkkA vlsEcyh esa vkt izksQsV eksgEen (PBUH) ij ukr'kjhQ Hkh i<+h x;h Fkh ftlesa esjk eu ugha yxk Fkk] gkykafd esa bu lc phtksa esa cgqr:fp ysrh gw¡] ij ml le; rks esjs Åij flQZ uhan dk ?kjck gks jgk FkkA tc LVst ijD;wfn'kk ekWe dqN c;ku djus ds fy;s vk;ha rks eq>s mu ij cgqr xqLlk vk;k D;kasfdtks tEij oks igus gqbZa Fkha oks cgqr Å¡pk FkkA eq>s mu ij blfy, xqLlk vk;k D;ksafddqN le; igys fo|kfFkZ;ksa dks mUgksaus euk fd;k Fkk fd oks gkQ Lyho u igusaA [kSjoks gkQ Lyho rks ugha igus gqbZa Fkha] ij mudh tEij dkQh Å¡ph Fkh] tksfd muds Åijcqjh yx jgh FkhA

;g ckr dksbZ [kkl ugha gS fy[kus ds fy;s] fQj Hkh eu pkgk rks fy[k fy;kA

tc ge yksx d{kk esa vk jgs Fks rks ogk¡ izkWDVj vkSj ekWfuVj dh mifLFkfr esa dksbZfu;eksa dk ikyu ugha dj jgk FkkA ml xSyjh esa cgqr HkhM+ gks xbZ Fkh vkSj HkhM+ esa eq>s/kDdk yxk ftlls esjk ewM vkSj Hkh [kjkc gks x;kA tc ge Dykl ds njokts ij igqapsrks dksbZ Hkh ekWfuVj uk[kwuksa dh tkap ugha dj jgk Fkk ftlls eq>s vkSj Hkh xqLlk vk;kD;kasfd tc eSa dy uk[kwu dkV dj ugha vk;h Fkh rks mUgksaus tkap dh Fkh vkSj tc eSavkt dkVdj vk;h rc fdlh us psd ugha fd;kA

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xqzi I% eqfLye oweu ij

xqzi fjiksVZj & lqcwj] vouh caly

vouh % gekjk VkWfid Fkk eqfLye oweu D;k gS] mudh izkWCyel fn[kk,a vkSj mudhykbQ fn[kk,aA geus ;g Mk;kxzke cuk;k gS vkSj mls yscy fd;k gSA

igys Hkkx esa] ;g eqfLye efgyk gS] lqcg ds le; nqvk i<+ jgh gSaA uekt i<+rs le;oks vius Hkxoku ls ek¡x jgh gSa fd ßÑik vYykg] esjh bruh iqvj QSfeyh gS mldksFkksM+k lk eSuVSu djus ds fy;s dqN nhft, fd ge [kq'k jgs ldsaAÞ

lqcwj % ß....gekjh enn dhft,Þ

vouh % vkSj dgrs&dgrs mldks jksuk vk tkrk gSA nwljs esa yscy fd;k gS fd tks gkaMhgksrh gS ml esa [kkyh dadM+ vkSj ikuh Mky ds idk jgh gSA mlds cPps jks jgs gSa fdgedks [kkuk nks ysfdu oks ns ugha ik jgh gSaA pkgrh gS fd fdlh Hkh rjg cPps lks tk,aclA

rhljs esa yscy fd;k gS fd mlds cPps dg jgs gSa fd esjs dks ;g ugha [ksyuk gS esjs dksu;s f[kykSus ykdj nhft, ysfdu ;g dg jgh gS fd ßgekjs ikl brus iSls ugha gSa fdge rqEgsa nwljs f[kykSus yk dj ns ldsa] blfy, Ñik rqe blh ls [ksy yksÞA ;g ,dpVkbZ ij cSBh gqbZa gSaA

lqcwj % pVkbZ ij ugha tkuekt+ ij cSBh gqbZ gSa

vouh % ....vkSj dqjku Hkh i<+ jgh gSa vkSj fQj nwljs esa [kkuk idk jgh gaS vkSj cPpsns[k jgs gSs dqN [kkus dks fey tk, ysfdu crZu [kkyh gSaA

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gekjk VkWfid Fkk ukWu&eqfLye efgyk dks fn[kkuk mudh ykbQ dSlh gksrh gS oks dSlsfn[krh gSa bR;kfnA geus tks pkVZ cuk;k gS mlesa ;g ukWu&eqfYye efgyk gSA ;glkM+h igus gq, gS] ;g flUnwj yxkrh gS] fcUnh yxkrh gS vkSj eaxy lw=k igurh gSvius ifr ds fy;s vkSj D;kasfd ;g 'kknh'kqnk gS] vius flj ij iYyw j[krh gSaD;ksafd vius cM+ksa dk vknj djrh gSaA vkSj fcPNq,a blfy;s igurh gSa D;ksafd og'kknh'kqnk gSa] vkSj ik;y QkWj n lse fjtuA

;g budk ?kj gS] bUgksaus ;gk¡ ij iVksu dks yxk;k gqvk gS] lR;k yxk;k gqvk gS ;gvPNk lkbu ekuk tkrk gSA vius ?kj dks nh, ls MsdksjsV dj j[kk gS] >wej yxkj[kk gSA

;g lqcg tYnh mBrh gSa] vius cM+ksa ds iSj Nwrh gSa] ugkrh gSaA vkSj ;g rqylh dkikS/kk gS] blds pkjksa rjQ ikuh Mkyrh gSa vkSj bldh iwtk djrh gSaA ?kj dk dke>kMw ikSaNk] fQj [kkuk cukrh gSa & pikrh] nky vkSj jk;rkA jkr dks lkjk dkedjds lcls ysV lksrh gSa vkSj lcls tYnh mB tkrh gSa vkSj jkr dks lksrs oDr viuscM+ksa ds iSj nckrh gSaA ;g tc cM+ksa ds iSj Nwrh gS rks budks vk'khokZn feyrk gSftldh otg ls cgqr lh izkWCye rc lksYo gks tkrh gSaA mUgsa viuh QSfeyh dkI;kj feyrk gSA

ekWe bUgsa ?kj dh y{eh Hkh dgk tkrk gSA vuiw.kZuk Hkh dgk tkrk gSA bUgsa cgqrdqN dgk tkrk gSA

xqzi II% fgUnw oweu ij

xqzi fjiksVZj & vouh flag

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fp=kksa ij Dykl ppkZ

vQjhu% ,slk ugha djuk pkfg, Fkk fd iwjk xjhc gh fn[kk fn;k] dqN eqfLye vehjHkh gksrs gSa vkSj lc vf'kf{kr ugha gksrsA

lqcwj ¼fMQsUMhax½% geus izkWCyel fn[kkbZ gSa] blfy, mudks T;knk bEikWVZUlnh gSA

vQjhu% ij mUgsa vPNh ckrsa Hkh fn[kkuh pkfg;s FkhA eqfLye gS rks D;k gqvk] t:jhugha gS fd xjhc gksaA

lqcwj: xjhcksa dks dksbZ /;ku ugha nsrk] mudks T;knk izkWCyel gksrh gSa] blfy, geusaxjhc dks fn[kk;k Fkk---

lfcdk% eSaus ns[kk gS tgk¡ Hkh eqfLye vkSjr dk uke vkrk gS lcls igys mlds uke dslkFk xjhch gh tksM+h tkrh gS vkSj ukWu&eqfLye oweu dks ,slk fn[kk;k x;k gS fd okslqcg tYnh mBrh gS ugkrh gS vkSj iwtk djrh gS] tSls fd fgUnw vkSjr dks dksbZ ijs'kkuhugha gS] tksfd dgha ugha gSA tks ijs'kkuh eqfLye vkSjrksa dks gksrh gS oSlh gh dqNfeyrh&tqyrh fgUnw vkSjrksa dks Hkh gksrh gSA

lkbZnk% dg gh ugha ldrhs dh eqfLye efgyk,a dSlh gksrh gSa vkSj ukWu&eqfLye dSlhAysMh rks ysMh gh gksrh gS] tks oks djrh gS oks gh nwljh ysMh djrh gSA ;g dqNugha fd fgUnw vkSj eqfLye] vkSjr tkr esa D;ksa QdZ djsa\ vkSj fgUnw vkSj eqfLyevkSjrksa esa ,d ckr feyrh gS fd nksuksa dks inkZ djuk iM+rk gSA tSls esjs ?kj dslkeus tks QSfeyh jgrh gS] muds ;gk¡ nqYgu dks dHkh esgeku ds lkeus iyax ij ughacSBkrsA uhps tehu ij cSBkrs gSa] bruk yEck&yEck ?kaw?kV djrs gSa vthc lkA oks Hkh rksvkSjr gS mls uhps D;ksa cSBkrs gSa\ csfV;ksa dks ugha cSBkrs gSaA vius vki rks Åij cSBsgkssrs gSaA

lkbZnk dh ckr dk tcko nsrh vkoktsa% exj oks rks jhfr&fjokt gksrs gSa] ekuukiM+rk gSA

viwokZ% dqN&dqN lgh gksrk gSA ?kwa?kV fudkyuk pkfg,A bls vki vius cM+ksa dks lEekunsrs gSaA

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'kkfyuh% ekWe ;g tks dg jgs gSa fd efgyk,a inkZ djrh gSa] efgyk,a lkM+h igurh gSa]rks ;g efgyk,a rks ugha djrh] ;g rks VWªfM'ku djokrs gSa] ;g oks ugha pkgrs fd oksbruk yEck&yEck inkZ djsa] ;k muds esgeku tks vk,a oks lksQs ij cSBs vkSj oks uhpscSBs] ;k dksbZ ?kj ij vk;s vkSj vxj mudh rfc;r Hkh [kjkc gS rc Hkh oks gh pk;cukdj yk;sA vkSj ;g lc djus ds ckn mUgsa Cyse fd;k x;kA

vQ'kku% eqfLye efgyk dks [kqn gh irk gS exauh ds ckn D;k gksus okyk gS rks oks[kqn gh dgrh gS ge inkZ djsaxs ;g dqN ugha gksrk gS fd fjfytu dgrk gS rks ghdjuk gSA

jk[kh% ?kwa?kV djuk] tehu ij cSBuk] ;g lc fjP;qvy gSA ysfdu ,sls fjP;qvyl tksgekjs fdlh dke ds ugha gSa] ftuls flQZ bafM;u lkslkbVh dh cqjkbZ;k¡ ghirk pyrh gSa fgikWfØfl gS flQZ] esYl dh fgikWfØflA rks mu fjP;qvyl ls D;kQk;nk\

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Dykl fØ;k

jSfiMQk;j jh,sD'ku

rj.k% ^eqfLye oweu* lqurs gh vkids fnekx esa D;k vkrk gS\

gkmlokbQ @ lyokj lqV nqiV~Vk @ cqdkZ @ uekt+ @ dqjku @ reht+ @ muds ygt+sesa lyhdk gksrk gS @ inkZ djrh gSa @ lc rks ugha djrh @ lj ij nqiV~Vk jgrk gS@ oks>wB ugha cksyrh T+;knk @ vPNs ls jgrh gSa @ yM+dksa ds lkeus ugha vkrh gSa @cgqr vPNh gksrh gSa @ lc ugha gksrh gSa @ pwfM+;k¡ igurh gSa @ itsc igurh gSa @oks rks rqe yksx Hkh igurs gSas @ vkbZ ykbZd eqfLye @ cgqr lqanj&lqanj gksrh gSa] I;kjhgksrh gSa @ ukWeZy gkbZV @ eksLVyh xksjh&xksjh gksrh gSa @ vius ?kjksa dks lkQ&lqFkjk j[krh gSaA

rj.k% ^fgUnq oweu* lqurs gh vkids fnekx esa D;k vkrk gS\

vPnh vkSj [kwclwjr @ vknj.kh; @ lkM+h igurh gSa @ vius vki dks cgqr esuVsudjds j[krh gSa] tSls flUnwj yxk ds lkM+h Bhd ls j[krh gSa] pqfM+;k¡ igus ds j[krh gSa@ vius firk ls ?kwa?kV djds j[krh gSa @ vius ifr] lkl&llqj dk vknj @ lqcg mBdj ?kj dk lkjk dke djrh gSa @ igys ugkrh gSa fQj iwtk djrh gSa @ vius ?kj esa cgqrlQkbZ j[krh gSa @ vius ifr ds fy;s ozr j[krh gSa vkSj muds fy;s dqN Hkh dj ldrhgSa @ oks cqdkZ ugha igurh gSa @ iwtk&ikB ij cgqr /;ku nsrh gSa @ esgeku vkrs gSa rksmudks vPNs ls fjliksUM djrh gSa @ dqN cqjh Hkh gksrh gSa cqjh&cqjh cksyrh gSa @ gkMZofdZax gksrh gSa @ vPNk ifr ikus ds fy;s lkseokj dk ozr j[krh gSa @ t:jh ugha gS fdlkM+h igurh gSa lwV Hkh igurh gSaA

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Qjghu] vouh caly] Qkjg] lfcdk] Hkkouk

bl pkVZ esa varj crk;k x;k vPNh vkSj cqjh yM+dh ds chp esaA

;g vPNh yM+dh gS] blus lyokj lwV igu j[kk gS nqiV~s ds lkFk] vkSj ;g ges'kkviuh i<+kbZ ij /;ku nsrh jgrh gSaA ;g fQft+Dl dh fdrkc gS blds gkFk esaA

;g jkst lqcg mBrh gS vkSj izkFkZuk djrh gS Hkxoku dh] vkSj ek¡&cki dk vknjdjrh gSaA muds fcuk vkKk ds dgha ugha tkrhA vkSj ges'kk vius le; ls ?kj ijigqaprh gSa vkSj ges'kk ?kj dk [kkuk [kkrh gSaA vkSj ;g cqjh yM+dh gS blus feuhLdVZ igu j[kk gS vkSj blds ges'kk cky [kqys jgrs gSa] vkSj ;g yM+dksa ds lkFk cgqrT+;knk jgrh gSaA ;g esdvi cgqr djrh gSa ;g Dyc tkrh gSa fMLdks tkrh gSa] Leksddjrh gS nsf[k, flxjsV Hkh gS blds gkFk esa] de ls de X;kjg cts rks mBrh gSa]cgqr ysV] vkSj fcuk vkKk ds ckgj pyh tkrh gSa vkSj cgqr ysV vkrh gSa ?kj ijvkSj ges'kk yM+dksa ds lkFk ?kwerh jgrh gSA vkSj ;g vPNh yM+dh ges'kk rsy Mkyds pksVh cak/k ds jgrh gSa] ;g dksbZ Hkh esdvi ugha djrhA

cqjh yM+dh cgqr bZy&eSuMZ gSA cqjh yM+dh igpkuh lh yx jgh gSA vPNh yM+dhtSlh rks ugha fn[kh] ysfdu lc ?kj esa mldh cgqr rkjhQ djrs gSaA

vPNh yM+dh cM+h gksdj baftfu;j] fQft,u] fQftDl dh Vhpj cusxhA

lkfcdk % esjh ukuh] rkbZ] ?kj ds cqtqxZ yksx eq>ls ges'kk ;g dgrs gSa fd fdlh cqjhyM+dh ls nksLrh er djuk ges'kk vPNh yM+dh ls nksLrh djukA ysfdu cgqr lhcqjh yM+fd;k¡ Hkh vPNh cuuk pkgrh gSaA eSa ,slh ¼cqjh½ yM+dh ls nksLrh d:¡xh rks]ysfdu mls dgw¡xh dh rqe ,sls er cuks] VkbV diM+s er iguksA

xqzi fØ;k

vPNh yM+fd;k¡ vkSj cqjh yM+fd;k¡

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[kqn dh Nfo% lkfe;k

eSa vius ckjs esa lksprh gw¡ eSa cM+h gksdj dqN cuw¡ vkSj yksx esjs ckjs esa vPNk lkspasAdHkh&dHkh eq>s ,slk yxrk gS fd esjs ckjs esa dqN cqjk lksp jgs gSa] rks cgqr cqjk yxrkgS] vxj ,slk gS rks eq>s crk nsa eSa viuh xyrh lq/kkj ywaA esjs ek¡&cki tks pkgrs gSa eSaogh pkgrh gw¡A eq>s dHkh&dHkh Mj yxrk gS fd dksbZ eq>s ilan ugha djrkA

vxj eq>s [kqn dks fMLØkbZc djuk gks & eSa pkgqaxh dh eSa dgwa – eSa eksVh gw¡A yksx esjsckjs esa tSlk lksprs gSa] ysfdu eq>s vius vkidks iryk djuk gS viuh i<+kbZ vPNhdjuh gS vkSj cM+s gksdj dqN djuk gSA

,d nksLr gS tks esjs lkFk okys ?kj esa jgrh gSA mldk uke lck gSA oks esjh cgqrvPNh nksLr Fkh ij vc oks dgha vkSj jgrh gSA ,d vkSj nksLr us crk;k fd lckeq>s ilan ugha djrhA eSaus igys mldk fo'okl ugha fd;k Fkk ij lck dk cjrkons[k dj le> vk;k fd oks Bhd dg jgh FkhA eq>s ,slh nksLr pkfg, tks eq>s fnyls I;kj djs vkSj cqjs oDr esa esjh enn djsA

eSa viuh V~;w'ku Vhpj ls I;kj djrh gw¡ D;kasfd oks eq>s /;ku ls i<+krh gSaA 'kqfØ;krj.k ckthA

;g uksV eq>s fy[kus ds ckn lkfe;k us Dykl esa cksyuk can dj fn;kA tc eSaus mlslkeus ykus dh dksf'k'k dh rks mls vPNk ugha yxk] rks eSa nwj ls mldk bart+kjfd;kA eSa mls le>kuk pkgrh Fkh] ckr djuk pkgrh Fkh] mls lquuk pkgrh FkhA ijoks nksckjk fdlh ls'ku ds fy;s ugha vk;h] ij eSa tkurh gw¡] nwj ls gesa ns[krh Fkh]galrs gq,] dke djrs gq,] Dykl ds lkeus okys ojkaMs lsA ,d ,slh t+kfye nqfu;kesa Qal xbZ Fkh oks tgk¡ fdlh ij Hkjkslk ugha dj ldrh Fkh] [kkl dj viuh Nohij] vkSj bu dqN yEgksa ls T+;knk ugha le> ikbZA

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xqzi fØ;k

,d uD'kk ikfdLrkuh 'kgj dk

xqzi% geus igys tks cuk;k Fkk mlesa eafnj cuk;k Fkk] efLtn Fkk vkSj ,d ppZ fn[kk;kFkk] vc ysfdu cl efLtn gS vkSj gkml oxSjg vkSj ikdZ oxSjgA

rj.k% lc cPps dg jgs Fks fd ogka ,slk ugha gksrk eafnj vkSj ppZ ugha gksrk] ikfdLrkuesa ,slk dgha ugha gksrkA

xqzi% lc cPps x;s gSa D;k ikfdLrku\

xqzi% ugha] ysfdu dg jgs Fks ,slk rks ugha gksrkA geusa mudh ckr lquuh iM+h D;ksafdog eSpksfjVh esa gSaA

ekWe vkidks D;k yxrk gS---\ fQj\ vc D;k fn[kk,a\ gSa D;k ppZ ikfdLrku esa\ irkugha] ysfdu gqek tk pqdh gS ogka vkSj oks dj jgh Fkh fd ykgkSj esa eafnj gSa---

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isM+ ds uhps Hkwr dh dgkfu;k¡

jk[kh] ifj ikbZdj] f'kokuh

vufdrk % eSaus QLV Dykl ls Tokbu djk gS bl Ldwy esaA QLV esa vkbZ Fkh rks lcusdgk ßbl ckFk:e esa er tkuk bleas Hkwr gSÞA gels Hkh fQj iwNk Fkk geusa Hkh ;gh dgkfd bl esa Hkwr gSA rks ;g :ej ,sls QSy x;k dh vkt rd dksbZ ugha x;k ml VkW;ysVesaA

ijh ikbZdj% ,d ckj Vhpj dks dg fn;k dh Å"kkZ ekWe dks Hkwr fn[krs gSa] t+sck ekWeds lj ij cSBs jgrs gSaA ckr bruh c<+ x;h dh Vhpj rd igqap x;h fQj mUgksaus,ukmlesaV fd;k ßvki yksx brus :ejl QSyk jgs gSa!Þ

,d ckj lcus ;g QSyk fn;k dh vatqe ekWe dks Hkwr fn[kkbZ nsrs gSaA ,d fnu oks ,dDykl esa i<+k jgh Fkh rks ,dne ls mB dj tYnh ls dgha pyh xbZa] 'kk;n ckbZ&okbZ dkscqykusA rks cPps dgus yxs] ßvjs&vjs ekWe dh Vscy ij pqMSy ukpus yxh Fkh bl fy;soks mB dj pyh xbZaAÞ vkSj lc cPps Hkh Hkkx x,A

jk[kh % ;g Hkh gksrk gS fd ß¼ckFk:e½ ds 'kh'ks esa ugha ns[krs D;ksafd 'kh'ks esa [khap ysxsavkSj vxj rqe ckFk:e dk uy [kksyksxs rks lQsn&lQsn ikuh vk;sxk tSls vkVk gSukWeZy] vkSj FkkM+h nsj ckn rqe 'kh'ks esa ns[kus yxksxs rks iwjs gkFk rqEgkjs yky gks tk,axsns[kks ogka tkuk er] cgqr Mjkrs gSa!Þ

rj.k % rqe dHkh x;ha ml ckFk:e esa\

jk[kh % ugha!!! ¼lc galrs gSa½ oSls Hkh brus xans gksrs gSa fd tkus esa Mj yxrk gS!

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Dykl ppkZ

vQ'kku] ifj ikbZdj] QkSft+;k vkSj lqcqgh naxksa eas jgrs gq,

;g ckr xqtjkr dh ?kVuk ds ckn vyhx<+ eas gksus okys ds ckjs esa Fkh vkSj jksjkoj 1 dh?kVuk ftlds ckn 'kgj fd rjQ naxs vkSj fgalk gqbZ Fkh] ftl bykds esa ifj ikbZdjjgrh gSA

1 jksjkoj ?kVuk rc gqbZ Fkh tc 2004 ds 'kq: ds vyhx<+ esa naxs gq, FksA ;g rc gqvk Fkk tc ,d fgUnwxqzi ,d 'ko dks eqfLye dfczLrku ds chp esa ls ys tk jgs FksA bl ?kVuk ds ckjs esa dgk tkrk gS fd;g dqN ogha ds usrkvksa ds HkM+dkus ls gqbZ FkhA

vQ'kku% vyhx<+ esa dqN Hkh ugha gksrk rc Hkh yM+kbZ gksrh gSA dbZ ckj rks vyhx<+esa blfy, naxk gks tkrk gS fd dgha vkSj naxk gksrk gSA dksbZ fgUnw ;k eqfLye dkspkaVk&ckaVk ekj ns] dqN Hkh FkksM+k lk & iwjk naxk QSy tkrk gS] mlds nksLr dgrs gaS fdmls ekjuk pkfg,] ge D;ksa cnkZ'r djsa] pyks Bksd vk;sa--- ,sls QSy tkrk gS] d¶;Zw yxtkrk gS] ;g lc gksrk gSA

ifj ikbZdj% xqtjkr ds le; rks jhtu Fkk ehfM;k] gj pht fcYdqy vksiu fn[kk jgsFks & dkj esa tyk fn;k--- vc ,sls fn[kk;saxs rks ;gka yksxksa esa dqN gksxk ughagksxk--- bl dkj.k vyhx<+ esa Hkh yM+kbZ;k¡ 'kq: gks xbZa FkhA geus ;g lquk fd fgUnq vkSjeqfLye ,d nwljs dks ekj jgs FksA

vQ'kku% 'kgj esa gksrs gSa T;knkrj naxsA ogka dqN Hkh gks tk, naxs gks tkrs gSa] de lsde ,d lky esa rks gksrk gh gSA xqaMs Vkbi ds yksx gh djrs gSa i<+s fy[ks rks ugha dqNdjrs ,slkA vkSj ogka feDl ikWiqys'ku cgqr gSa] tSls bl lkbM rks lc eqfLye gh eqfLyegS ;k ekjhl jksM lkbM lc fgUnq gSaA gekjs ;gka esfMdy dkWyksuh esa lHkh eqfLye gSacgqr ihlQqy gSaA

QkSft;k% 'kgj rks fn[krs gh vthc lk yxrk gS] nqdku gh nqdku] cgqr HkhM+&HkkM+]yxrk gS ogk¡ ij dqN gksus gh okyk gSA vxj nqdkunkjksa ds chp esa >xM+k gksrk gS rksHkh rhljk vkdj iwNsxk D;k dj jgs gks\ D;k ckr gks x;h\ D;ks yM+ jgs gks\ gekjhdkSe dks xkyh nsrk gS\

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ifj ikbZdj% eq[; dkj.k ;g gS fd ;gka ds yksx fdlh Hkh ckr ij yM+ ysrs gSaA ckrnks yksxksa dh chp dh gksrh gS c<+rh gh pyh tkrh gSA felvuMjLVSfUMx cgqr gks tkrhgSA dksbZ nwljs dh ckr dks le>us dh dksf'k'k ugha djrk] ge tks dg jgs jgsa lgh gSa]nwljk csodwQ gSA

(vijdksV esa) ;g Hkh Mj yxrk gS fd ?kj ls fudys rks ysu esa dksbZ pqids u [kM+k gkstk,A vDlj ,slk gksrk gS dh uhps mrj dj yM+ds [kM+s gksrs gSaA VkWpZj djds ekjrs gSavkSj Qsad nsrs gSaA esjs HkkbZ ds lkFk djk Fkk] mldks dgk ßÅij tkdj v'kQkd dks HkstnsukÞ pkgs dksbZ v'kQkd gks ;k ughaA ;g nwljksa dks flaxuy nsrs gS fd ;geqfLye gSA

QkSft;k% vQokg QSyk nsrs FksA

ifj ikbZdj% vxj foifÙk ls Hkh dksbZ ekSr gks xbZ Fkh rks] ßugha] mldks [kkus esa dqNfeyk ds ns fn;k Fkk!Þ ekgkSy fcYdqy psat gks x;k Fkk] ;dhu ugha vk jgk Fkk fd D;k;g ogh yksx gS tks FkksM+s fnuksa igys gekjs lkFk brus vPNs ls jgrs FksA lcdqN cnyx;k] Mj yxrk Fkk ?kj ls fudyus esaA

lqcqgh% gekjs ,fj;k esa T;knkrj eqfLye jgrs gSa] dqN gh fgUnw gSaA ,d rks fgUnw ysMhcgqr T;knk Mjh gqbZ FkhaA geus mudks cgqr le>k;k cq>k;k rks mudks fQj vPNk yxkAnks/kiqj esa eqfLyeksa dk ,fj;k gS rks vxj dksbZ nqdku [kqy tkrh Fkh rks oks Hkh vius fy;slkeku eaxok ysrh FkhA ,slk dqN ugha Fkk yM+kbZ djdsA

vxj ge fgUnq ,fj;k esa jgrs] eq>s rks dkQh Mj yxrk D;kasfd vxj vkl&ikl lcfgUnw gSa rks gekjk lkFk dkSu nsxkA

QkSft;k% eq>s ugha Mj yxrk & brus lkjs fj'rs gksxsa ,dne ls dSls VwV tk;saxsA

ifj ikbZdj% esjh eEeh ds lkFk tks gqvk] mlls eq>s cgqr lnek gqvkA oks fgUnw ,fj;kesa dke djrh Fkh ,d uflZax gkse esa] rks ogk¡ tc naxs 'kq: gq, ¼1999 esa½ eEeh Qalx;h] vkSj eEeh dks ekjus ds fy;s gtkj yksx ogk¡ tek FksA fQj muds gkWLihVy dsyksxksa us mUgsa cpk;k] mudks lkjh iguk ds Hkxk;k] lc fcanh&foUnh yxk dj dh dksbZu igpkusA fQj tc oks eqfLye ,fj;k esa igq¡ps rks ogk¡ mUgsa fgUnw le>dj ekjus yxs!muds ilZ esa cqdkZ ges'kk jgrk Fkk] mUgksaus cqdkZ iguk vkSj fQj ?kj vk;haA rks erycmudh enn djh] ukWu&eqfLye us gh djh] exj rhu yksxks ds lkeus gtkjksa yM+ds vkSjefgyk,a mudks ekjus ds fy;s [kM+s Fks] rks yxsxk ugha fd ekSr vkids lkeus [kM+h gS\esjs dks le> ugha vk jgk] fd eEeh Hkkxh dSlsA

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QkSft;k% gekjs ,d tkuus okys gS tks fgUnq ,fj;k esa jgrs gSa] gj ckj tc dqN ,slkgksrk gS ge muls dgrs gS vki gekjs ?kj jg tk,a exj vady dgrs gSa fd eq>s [kqnkij fo'okl gSA ysfdu mUgsa ,slk ugha djuk pkfg, u\ ekgkSy [kjkc gksrs nsj ughayxrhA

vQ'kku% esjs eksgYys esa lc dqN ,d nwljs ls feytqy dj jgrs gSa lc ls vPNs lsckrphr djrs gSa ysfdu dHkh naxs oxSjg gksrs gSa rks dHkh&dHkh ckrphr can gks tkrhgSA dHkh&dHkh rks yM+kbZ gks tkrh gS ,slk Hkh gksrk gS tSls fdlh eqfLye vkneh dhnqdku gS vkSj ogk¡ fgUnq lkeku ysus x;k rks eqfLye nqdkunkj us euk dj fn;k rks blhckr ij yM+kbZ 'kq: gks tkrh gSA

lqcqgh% ,d ckr gS ysfdu vxj lkslkbVh esa fgUnq gksa rks et+k vkrk gS ,d nwljs dsR;kSgkjksa esa tkvks et+s djksA

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tc vCck ¼esjs ikik½ dk VªkalQj vyhx<+ gqvk rc eq>s cgqr [kq'kh gqbZ vkSj mldslkFk&lkFk vQlksl gqvkA eq>s [kq'kh blfy, gqbZ fd eSa vius fj'rsnkjksa ¼esjs ukuk] ukuh]nknk] nknh vkSj dbZ lkjs½ ds ikl vk jgh Fkh vkSj vQlksl gqvk D;ksafd eSa vius [kklnksLr dks NksM+dj vk jgh FkhA eSa ;g lksprh Fkh fd tc eSa ;gk¡ ij jg¡qxh rc eq>s cgqret+k vk;sxk] u, Ldqy esa tkÅ¡xh] cgqr lkjs nksLr cusxsa exj ,slk dqN Hkh esjs lkFkugha gqvkA u rks esjs dksbZ vPNs nksLr cu ik;s tks eq>s le>k lds vkSj u gh dksbZfj'rsnkjksa ds lkFk etk vk jgk gSA esjh iwjh QSfeyh esa dksbZ Hkh esjs lkFk dh dftu ughagSA esjh cM+h cgu ds lkFk ds cgqr lh dftu gSa vkSj tc oks yksx ,d lkFk ckrsa djrhgSa rks eq>s fcYdqy vPNk ugha yxrkA eSa fcYdqy cksj gks tkrh gw¡] exj D;k d:¡] esjhetcwjh gS eSa okil ugha tk ldrhA ogk¡ esjh bruh lkjh lgsfy;ka Fkh] bruk et+k vkrkFkkA eq>s mu lcls feyus dk cgqr fny pkgrk gSA irk ugha eSa fdlh dks ;kn Hkh gw¡;k ughaA irk ugha oks eq>ls feydj dSlk O;ogkj djsaxhA

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eSa viuh ukuh ds ?kj esa jgrh gw¡A esjs ikik dk tks ?kj Fkk ml ij fdjk;snkj us dCtkdj fy;kA ;gk¡ ij rhu QSfeyh vkSj jgrh gS] NksVs ekew dh QSfeyh] cM+s ekew vkSjmudh QSfeyh] ,d vkSj ekew gSa ij mudh iRuh dh eR;q gks pqdh gS] muds cPps ;ghajgrs gSaA vkSj esjh ukuh vkSj ge rhuA eEeh MkWDVj gSa] ch;w,e,l ¼;wukuh esfMlu½fcn QLV fMohtuA vCcw ,echch,l MkWDVj gS fiNys 16 lkyksa ls dksbZ izSfDVl ughadh D;ksa 16 lky igys mudks gkVZ&vVSd gqvk FkkA vkSj fQj fiNys eghus gqvkA eEehdh Dyhfud gS exj oks T;knk ugha tkrh gSa vCcw dh otg lsA

?kj gekjk cgqr dutSlVsM jgrk gS] esgeku cgqr vkrs gSA ykbZV cgqr tkrh gSA dksbZLisl ugha tgk¡ i<+kbZ gks ldsA cgqr lkspuk iM+rk gS dgk¡ i<+kbZ djsa] tgka esgeku cSBsgksrs gSa ogha cSBdj i<+k tkrk gS] tSls dkuksa esa dkWVu yxh gqbZ gS bl rjg ls i<+uki<+rk gSA

gekjs ?kj dk /kkfeZd ekgkSy cgqr T;knk gSA lc gh yksx uekt+ ds ikca/k gSaA vfrfjDruekt+ Hkh i<+rs gS] oks D;k dgykrh gSa] rkgtw lqcg pkj cts mBdj i<+rs gSa] fQj dqjkui<+rs gSaA

ysfdu bu /kkfeZd ekgksy esa dHkh lkEiznkf;d naxs gksrs gSa rks ;g ugha crk;k tkrk fdfgUnw ,sls cqjs gksrs gSa oxSjg] D;ksafd eEeh&vCcw ;gh le>krs gaS fd ;gh rks lksp gksrhgSA mu yksxksa dh ek¡&cki mudks i<+krs gS fd eqfLye ,sls gksrs gSa rks vxj ge viuscPpksa dks ;g crk,axs rks muesa vkSj geesa QdZ D;k jgsxkA

fjfLVªD'ku rks gSa eq> ij cgqr T;knk] vCcw&eEeh dsA fjfLVªD'kul D;k] yxrk gS ,drjg ls gSa] isjsUV~l gSa] bl ckjs esa cgqr ikfVZD;wyj gSa – ut+j j[krs gSaA dgha tk jgs gSa]rks fdl ls feyus] fdl fdLe ds yksx gSa] D;k igu ds tk jgs gSA ge yksx lyokj lwVigus gSa] thUl ;k LdVZ ugha vykM gS] ;gka dk ekgkSy ,slk ugha gSA nksLrksa ds lkFk?kweuk ugha gksrk D;ksafd ;gka nksLr ugha gSA T;knkrj nksLr fj'rsnkjksa esa gh fudy vkrsgaS] rks dksbZ ijs'kkuh ugha gksrh muds ?kj tkus dhA ysfdu eEeh ,d&,d feuV dh [kcjj[krh gSa – rqeus ifj ikbZdj dks ;gka ns[kk] ogka ns[kk\ ekdsZV rks vdsys ugha tk ldrs]ysfdu V~;w'ku ds fy;s uks izkWCyeA

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,sDpqvyh esjk tks ?kj gS ,d ,slh yksdyhVh esa gS tks cgqr ikWiqysVsM ,fj;k gS] dkQhxfy;k¡ gSa] fcYdqy flVh dk eSu ,fj;k gS] rks ;gka fudyuk Hkh lsQ ughaA dkj[kkus HkhgaS rks bl dkj.k dkQh 'kksj jgrk gSA ysfdu gekjk LisflfQd ekSgYyk gS] mlesa cM+h'kkafr lh jgrh gS] D;kasfd ogka flQZ ?kj gSA esjs ?kj ds lkeus tSls gh baVj gksaxs [kkyhLisl gS mlesa ,d pesyh dk isM+ yxk gqvk gS vkSj uhe vkSj csj Hkh yxs gq, gaSA ckgjtks ysu gS ogka cgqr HkhM+ jgrh gSA

lc eqfLye gSa] D;ksafd ;g vijdksV gS vkSj vijdksV dks rks vyhx<+ dk ikfdLrkudgrs gSaA ;gka dksbZ fgUnq ugha vk ldrkA ;gka ,d ckr cgqr cqjh gS tc HkhlkEiznkf;d naxs gksrs gS rks gekjh xyh esa ,slk ,d eksM+ gS] blesa ?kqldj yksx nwljh xyhls fudy tkrs gSa vkSj iqfyl dHkh idM+ gh ugha ikrhA rks gekjh xyh dk uke vkrkgS fd ;gh djrs gSa lcA vHkh ;gka ,d iqfyl vQlj dks ekj fn;k Fkk gekjh xyh esaAcgqr creht Fks] mls lM+d ls ekj dj xyh esa Mky fn;k ?kj ds lkeus] tSls geus ekjkgksA fQj iwjk eksgYyk f?kj x;k] ,d usrk ls enn yh] muls dgk ;gka ls ysdj tk;as]fQj mUgksaus tkdj nw/kokys dh nqdku ds lkeus Mky fn;kA

;gka ij dkQh naxs gksrs gSa D;ksafd vijdksV eqfLye bykdk gS] fQj b/kj Hkh fgUnw gSa m/kj Hkh fgUnw gSA vyhx<+ dk gj vkneh tkurk gS dh t+jk lh ckr dk eqn~nk cuk ysrsgSa ;g yksxA bZou cPpksas dh yM+kbZ izkWcYe cu tkrh gSA

naxksa ds le; ij ,slh gkyr gks tkrh gS dh tks fgUnq&eqfLye vkil esa feyrs jgrs gSanq'eu cu tkrs gSa] dksbZ ckr ugha djrk ijokg ugha djrk gS] tks eu esa vkrk gS dgrsjgrs gSaA

dêj fgUnq fy[k dj Vkax nsrs gS] [kqn gh fgUnq dh cqjkbZA lgh okys fgUnq lksprs gaSeqfLye us fy[kk gSA vkSj ;gh pht dêj eqfLye ,fj;k esa gksrh gSA ?kj esa Hkh ,slh ckrsagksrh gSa ßfgUnq cqjs gSaAÞ fQj tc [kRe gks tkrk gS rks lc dgrs gaS ßugha&ugha vPNs gSaAÞlekt esa vkrk ,dne ls okbVokW'k D;ksa vkSj ,dne ls m[kM+ D;ksa tkrs gSaA

vius iM+ksfl;ksa ls rks gekjs laca/k vPNs gSa] gekjh dE;wfuVh eqfLye dh gS] lky esa dHkhu feyrs gks ysfdu ml le; fcYdqy tqnk ugha gksrs gSaA oSls yxrk gS bl xyh dhpkSdhnkjh dk Bsdk gesa ns j[kk gSA jkr esa pksj vkdj nwljksa ds flysaMj ys tkrs gSaA 'kksjls ge mB tkrs gSa vkSj fpYykrs gSa nsf[k, nsf[k,*] exj oks lksrs jgrs gSa! lqcg dks viuscPpksa dk uk'rk cukus tkrs gaS rks irk pyrk gSA

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esjk Ldqy vyhx<+ eqfLye ;wfuoflZVh dk ikVZ gS] vkSj ;gka lc dqN nqvk ls 'kq: gksrkgS] ysfdu gedks ;gh fl[kkrs gSa fd gesa lHkh /keksaZ dk vknj djuk pkfg,A gekjs ;gkaukr i<+h tkrh gS] ysfdu vxj dksbZ fgUnq cPpk tk;s vkSj dgs eq>s ;g i<+uk gS rkseuk ugha fd;k tk;sxkA R;kSgkjksa ij fofHkUu ifo=k fdrkcsa i<+h tkrh gSa & ckbfcy]dqjku] xhrk] xq: xzaFk lkfgc dh okD;ka'k ysdj le>k;k tkrk gSA gkykafd ;g eqfLyedk Ldqy gSA ysfdu ,slk ugha gksrk dh eqfLye dks izkFkfedrk nh tk;s] ;g ,dyksdrkaf=kd ns'k dk yksdrkaf=kd Ldwy gSA dqN Vhpj tuleqnk; ds usrk gksrs gSaA dqNgksrh gS tSls ,d gSa ftUgksaus ,d cPph ij fpYyk;k Fkk D;ksafd oks oans ekrje~ esa ikVZys jgh FkhA crk,a] tc jk"Vªh; xhr gS rks mUgsa D;k izkWCye gS\ ysfdu vkSj Hkh lc ,dgSa ysfdu bl rjg dh Vhpjl ;g lc esgur ,d gh >Vds esa feVk nsrh gSaA mUgsa yxrkgS eqfLye cPps muds lkFk gks tk;saxs] ysfdu ,slk gksrk ugha gS] oks muds vxsUlV gkstkrs gSaA

esjh Dykl eas ugha] ij Ldwy esa] tc Hkh naxs gksrs gSa rks cPps lksprs gSa fd ;g LdwyeqfLye ds fy, gSA ij tc gkykr lq/kj tkrs gSa] rc ;g [;ky muds fnekx ls fudytkrk gSA

'kkfyuh dks lkrksa dYesa ¼dqjkfud Nan½ ;kn Fkh lsdsaM Dykl esaA mls FkMZ Dykl dscPpksa us cgdk fn;k fd rqe eqfLye gks x;hA oks jksus yxh vkSj mlus lkrksa Hkqyk fn,Age yksx cgqr NksVs Fks rcA

gekjh Dykl esa fgUnw&eqfLye ds chp esa cgqr vPNs fjys'kul gSaA izR;sd fgUnw yM+dh;gh pkgrh gSa fd yM+kbZ vokbM gks] rks ge dHkh bu b';wl ij duÝaV ugha djrsAlc ;gh dgrs gSa fd naxs rks yksx djokrs gS] ikWfyfVf'k;ul dh pky gksrh gSA T+;knkrjeSVjl esa vklkuh ls ckr dj ysrs gSa] ysfdu ,d vk/k eSVjl ,slh Hkh gSa ftu esa izkWCyevk tkrh gSA tSls dh Lis'kyh fjfytu dh ckr gksrh gS rks ugha dj ikrs gSaA tcdkWe;wuy jkbVl gksrs gSa rks ,d dkmafly Vkbi cu tkrh gS] dksbZ viuh O;wl ns jgkgS] ysfdu tSls gh yxrk gS yM+kbZ gksus okyh gS rks jksd nsrs gSa] galh&et+kd dj ysrs gSaALisflfQd fjfytu ds ckjs esa ugha ckr djrs gSa] vxj FkS;ksykWth dk dksbZ tksd gS rksge muls ugha 'ks;j djsaxs D;ksafd muls D;k eryc gSA

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ikfdLrkuh vkSj bafM;k nksuksa dh fØdsV Vhe vPNh gSaA dqN yksx bls fjfytu esa ys tkrsgSaA gekjs vady ds cPps dgrs gSa dh ge yksx bafM;k esa jgrs gaS rks D;k] gekjh etcwjhgSA ge eqfLye gSaA oks le>rs gSa fd ge eqfLye gSa vkSj ikfdLrku eqfLye gS blfy,mudks liksVZ djrs gSaA ysfdu oks ;g ugha lksprs gS fd vxj ikfdLrkuh gekjs HkkbZ gS]rks D;k ;g gekjs HkkbZ ugha gS ftuds lkFk ge brus lky ls jg jgs gSa\ vkSj tc dksbZVsªftMh gksrh gS rks D;k ikfdLrku gekjh gsYi djrk gS\ bafM;k gsYi djrk gSA vkSjbafM;u Vhe esa Hkh rks eqfLye gSa] vkSj ;g rks [ksy gS blesa fgUnw&eqfLye djuk! eqfLyeHkh dksbZ de ugha gksrs cgqr cnreht gksrs gSaA

tgka fgUnw dk ,fj;k gksrk gS ogka tkdj iVk[ks NqM+krs gSa] rks vkWfCovlyh yM+kbZ 'kq:gks tkrh gSA rks tc Hkh bafM;k&ikfdLrku dk eSp gksrk gS nqvk ekaxuh gksrh gS fd IyhtdqN gks uA

ikfdLrku dSlh txg gksxh\ cqdkZ vks<+h gqbZ ysfMt ?kwerh gkasxh] vkSj lM+dsa vPNh gksaxh]cSy MsoSysiM flVh gksxh] gekjh daVªh ls vPNhA ogka ds yksx oSls gh gksaxs tSls ge yksxgSa] ysfdu ogka Hkh bDlSi'kul gksaxs eryc ogka Hkh fgUnw gksaxs tks bafM;k dks liksVZ djrsgkasxsA

eSa ikfdLrku tkuk ugha ilan d:axh] D;kasfd vHkh rd ikfdLrku ds ckjs esa dqNbaVsªlfVax ugha lquk gS] bafM;k tSlk gh rks gS] cl eqfLye eStksfjVh vkSj dksbZ [kklfMQjsUl ugha gSA ekSdk feys rks eSa ;wjksi tkÅaxhA

esjs [;ky ls bafM;k esa eqfLye dh gkykr yxHkx Bhd gSA naxksa ds le; ij xyr gksrkgS] lc tkurs gSaA iqfyl lkFk ugha nsrh gS] csxqukg ekjs tkrs gSaA ysfdu tkWc ugha feyrhgS bR;kfn viuh xyrh gS] ,twds'ku esa fMlØhbehus'ku ugha gksrkA ckgj okyksa dksvxj ,slk yxrk gS fd ;gka ij eqfLye ls butfLVl gksrk gS ;k ;g fgUnwoknh eqYdgS rks xyr gSA ge bafM;k esa Bhd gSaA

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vkt Ldwy ls vkus ds ckn eSa ugk ds Ýs'k gks x;hA eSa viuh ckydkWuh esa tkdj [kM+hgks xbZ] ckgj gok py jgh Fkh vkSj lwjt ped jgk FkkA eSa Åij ls uhps dk ut+kjkns[k jgh Fkh] lM+d] xkfM+;ksa vkSj yksxksa dks ns[k jgh FkhA 'kke dks eSa viuh QSfeyh dsfy;s pk; cuk jgh FkhA eSaus lkspk eSa u;h rjg fd pk; cukÅ¡ tks iwjh lQsn FkhA eSausviuh eEeh dks crk;k rks mUgksaus fQj ls Bhd ls pk; cukus dks dgkA fQj pk; cuxbZA pk; cukus esa esjh maxfy;k¡ ty Hkh x;ha] vc eSa ft+Unxh esa dHkh pk; ughcukÅ¡xhA

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gksyh ij

ckr 'kq: gqbZ tc eSaus yM+fd;ksa ls iwNk mUgksaus gksyh ij D;k fd;k tks ,d fnu igyseukbZ xbZ FkhA Dykl eas dqN yksxksa us viuk gkFk [kM+k ugha fd;kA rks eSaus muls iwNkvki dqN dg D;ksa ugha jgsA rc ,d us [kM+s gksdj dgk ßge eqfLye gSaÞA vkSj ckrrc 'kq: gqbZ tc eSaus Dykl ls iwNk ßD;k eqfLye gksyh ugha [ksyrs\Þ

gqek% dyjl ls dqN vQSDV gks ldrk gS] vka[kksa dks Hkh izkWCyel gks ldrh gSA rHkhge yksx dyjl ls ugha [ksyrsA dHkh dHkkj tc [kq'kh dk ekSdk gksrk gS rks ikuh lst:j [ksyrs gSaA gksyh QsLVhoy rks eq>s ukWu&eqfLyel dk cgqr vPNk yxrk gSA erycvkil esa I;kj rks c<+rk gSA

lbZnk% D;ksa ugha [ksyrs crkÅa\ ge yksx ds ;gka euk blfy;s gS dh ge yksxksa dks ;gdgrs gSa fd ftl Hkh txg dyjl iM+ tkrk gS] d;ker ds fnu oks tyrk gSA

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lbZnk% dqjku 'kjhQ esa fy[kk gSA

vQ'kku% geusa viuh eEeh ls Hkh iwNk Fkk bUtkW;esaV ds fy;s [ksyuk pkgrs gSa rks [ksyldrs gSaA

lbZnk% ugha ,slk dqN ugha gSA

Dykl esa gaxkek gks x;k vkSj lc dqN dguk pkg jgs FksA

vQlku% eSa Hkh eqfLye gaw vkSj ,slh dksbZ ckr ugha gSA

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lbZnk% ;g dqN ugha gSA

gqek% vDlj eqfLye fjfytu esa ,slk ns[kk tkrk gS dkQh dqN ckmaMs'kul gSaA ftldkstSls vklkuh gksrh gS oks ogh :y vMkSIV djrk gSA blfy, bu yksxksa us dgk oks tysxkeSa bl ckr ij ;dhu ugha djrh D;kasfd eSaus ;g [kqn ugha i<+kA vxj eSa [kqn i<awxhrks ;dhu j[kwaxhA

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lbZnk% ysfdu ;g xqukg gSA

vkokt+% ;g vkidh uh;r ds Åij gSA

rj.k% blds ckjs esa D;k fgUnq yM+fd;k¡ dqN lksprh gSa\

'kkfyuh% ;l ekWe MfQusVyh lksprh gSaA ,slh D;k cqjkbZ gS] ;g rks ,d QsfLVoy gSAgekjk fjfytu dHkh Hkh ge ij bruh ckmaMs'ku ugha yxkrkA gesa ugha yxrk fd ;gxyr gS] tc gekjs Hkxoku ;k [kqnk us bTtr nh gS dh tks lgh yxs djks] rks tc gebZn eukrs gSa gekjs ?kj esa bZn eurh gS vkSj ge vius nksLrksa ds ?kj bZnh ysus tkrs gSa] vkSjgekjs nksLr Hkh gksyh ij ?kj vkrs gSa] eq>s ugha yxrk geesa dqN xyrh gSA

vQ'kku% eSa ekurh gw¡A

QkSft;k% ,slk dqN ugha gksrkA dy U;wtisij esa vk;k Fkk fd jktcCcj ds lkFkikfdLrkuh vkSjrsa gksyh [ksy jgh FkhaA ikfdLrku Hkh rks eqfLye gS] mudks rks vkSj irkgS bLyke ds ckjs esa] oks vxj gksyh [ksy ldrs gSa rks ge D;ksa ugha [ksys ldrs\

lbZnk% eSa ;g ugha dg jgh cl ,d gnhFk dh ckr crk jgh gw¡ vkidksA

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vkt gksyh dh otg ls Nqêh gSA ge yksx esjh eEeh dh ÝSaM ds ?kj feyus x,A geusogka mudh csVh ds lkFk gksyh [ksyh vkSj [kwc bUtkW; fd;kA fQj tc ?kj ykSVs rks cksjgksuk 'kq: gks x;sA tc eEeh dks ckj&ckj ;gh dgk rks oks esjs Åij fpYykus yxha vkSjdgk tkvks tkdj pqipki cSBks vkSj i<+kbZ djksA lcls cksfjax dke! eq>s dHkh Hkh i<+ukugha vPNk yxrkA

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Dykl ppkZbafM;k&ikfdLrku [ksy] gekjs QsojsV f[kykM+h vkSj iVk[ks

bafM;k fiNyk eSp gkj x;h FkhA tc lcus ckr djh bafM;u Vhe dh dkcfy;krvkSj fdLer ds ckjs esa vkSj D;ksa mUgsa ÝsaMf'ki di thruk pkfg,] eSaus ,d lokyfd;k%

rks D;k lc nq[kh gSa fd dy bafM;k gkj xbZ\

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,slk ugha gS] ;kj] tc bafM;k QLVZ thrk Fkk eq>s cgqr [kq'kh gqbZ FkhA

vkokt+sa% vkSj vc rqe [kq'k gks fd gkj x;kA ges'kk [kq'k!

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f'kokuh% vPNk gqvk ge gkj x;s ojuk Qkbuy esa dksbZ bUVsªLV ugha vkrkA vkSj fQj;g rks bafM;k dk fVfidy gksxk fd vksojdkWufQMsUl gks tkrhA

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vkoktsa% dksu ns[kus esa T;nk vPNs yXkrs gaS\

vkoktsa% 'ksk;kc! vQjhnh!

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jgs Fks ;kgw&;kgwA

vkoktsa% ikfdLrkuh liksVZjl gkassxsaA

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vkoktsa% ysfdu dqN yksx blfy, djrs gSa fd cSafVx vPNh gSA

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jksfguh% ,slk oks yksx djrs gSa ftuesa us'kfyTe vkSj isVªhvksfVTe dh fQfyax ughagksrh!

rj.k% rqe yksxksa dks dSlk yxrk gS mudks ns[k dj\

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ij dkQh Nk=k ikfdLrku dks Hkh liksVZ djrs gSa D;ksafd ogk¡ muds fj'rsnkj jgrs gSa vkSjtc ikfdLrku thr tkrk gS] rks og ?kjksa esa feBkbZ ckaVrs gSaA tc geus muls ikfdLrkudks liksVZ djus dh otg iwNh] rks NV~h ch us crk;k fd mUgsa viuh Hkkouk izdV djusdk vf/kdkj gSA

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bl ckj gesa dqN ,sls Hkh feys tks fØdsV ls uQjr djrs gSaA rks vUr esa gekjh eqykdkrls ;g le> vk;k dh ipkl izfr'kr bafM;u ikfdLrku dks thrrs ns[kuk pkgrs gSa vkSjipkl izfr'kr bafM;k dksA

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esjh cM+h cgu nloha Dykl esa gSA ge cgqr djhc gSaA oks eq>s vius lkjs jkt+ crkrh gS vkSjeSa HkhA oks ges'kk eq>s MkaVrh gSa fd eSa mls vih ugha dgrhA

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esjk ,d HkkbZ ik¡poha Dykl esa gSA oks cgqr 'kjkjrh gSA oks esgur ugha djuk pkgrk ij eEehmls i<+us ds fy;s dgrh rHkh mls gj lky Ldwy ls bZuke feyrk gSA oks flQZ yM+ukpkgrk gSA

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jet+ku esa esjs nknk&nknh th ;gk¡ vkrs gSaA

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esjh nknh lkB lky gh gSaA mudk LoHkko cgqr vPNk gSA oks T;knk ckr ugha djrh] eSa djrhgw¡ uk rHkh oks dgrh gSa ßftruk luk ,d fnu esa ckr djrh gS eSa pkj eghus esa cksyw¡xhÞA

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gekjk ?kj esfMdy dkWyksuh esa gS] ;qfuoflZVh ds Vhpj ds DokVZj gS ;gk¡A dkWyksuh gS],d lkbM pkj ¶ySV cus gq, gSaA lc gekjs iM+kslh eqfLye gaS] lc ds ?kj [kwc tkrs gSaR;ksgkjksa ijA ,d yM+dksa dk xzqi gS ,d yM+fd;kas dkA nksukas ds chp cSMfeaVu dk eSpHkh gksus okyk Fkk ysfdu ugh gqvk] D;ksfd ,d vkaVh dgus yxh] ßbruh cM+h&cM+hyM+fd;k¡ [ksyrh gS] vPNk ugha yxrk!Þ mudh D;k izkWCye gS] gekjs ekrk&firk dks dksbZfnDdr ugha gSA dgrh gSa] ß;g dwn&dwn dj [ksyrh gSaAÞ bruh vthc gSa oksA oSlsdkWyksuh cgqr Ýh gS lc ds lkFk] dksbZ lhfj;lyh ugha ysrk mudh ckrkas dksA ekrk&firk oSls l[r ugh gSa] cl i<+us ds ckjs esa gSaA vkjke ls thus nsrs gSa] dkWyksuh ds ckgj;k vkih dh nksLr dh ikVhZ esa] ;k izksDVj vWkfQl dke ls] ysfdu lkFk esa tkrs gaS] rksoSls Hkh vdsys tkus esa D;k et+k gSA

eq>s rks dqN Hkh iguus dh btktr gS] thUl] LdVZA vkih Hkh igu ldrh gS tks pkgsAfuHkZj djrk gS dgk¡ tk jgs gaS ml ij] vxj ikVhZ esa tk jgs gaS rks thUl] 'kknh es tkjgs rks lyokj lwVA

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dgrs gSa dh eqfLye dks T;knk nkf[kyk nsrs gaSA ysfdu uoha eas tc u;kfo/kkFkhZ vkrk gS oks eksLVyh ukWu&eqfLye gksrs gSaA gekjk Ldwy eqfLye dk Ldwy gS]eryc Mªsl Hkh eqfLye] nqvk gksrh gS] lj ij nqiV~Vk Mkyuk gksrk gS] jet+ku esa dqjkudh fnykor gksrh gSA ;g lc gksrk gS dh eqfLye yM+fd;k¡ lh[k tk;asA bZLykfedlkslkbVh Hkh cuk;h x;h gS] ftl es ukr bR;kfn i<+krs gaSA eSa rks dHkh x;h ugha D;kasfdeq>s ukr ;kn ugh gksrh vkSj eq>ls i<+h Hkh ugh tkrhA ;g lc gksuk vPNk gS D;kasfdbZlkbZ Ldwy esa fo|kfFkZ;ksa dks ppZ ys tkrs gaS vkSj ogk¡ dh phtsa fl[kykrs gaSA ysfdu esjsukWu&eqfLye nksLrksa dks cqjk yxrk gS dh mUgsa eqfLye fjokt+ ekuus iM+rs gSaA esjh ,dnhnh gS usgk] oks dgrh gSa ßeq>s cgqr cqjk yxrk gS ;s Ldwy! Mkal&okal dqN gksrk ughagS tc ns[kks nqvk i<+ yks lj is nqiV~Vk Mky yks eqfLye dk fl[kkrs jgrs gSa!Þ gks ldrkgS ukWu&eqfLye dks cqjk yxrk gks D;ksafd dqN T+;knk gh djokrs gaS & 'kqØokj dks nqvk]jet+ku esa jkst ikB] nqvk eakxks gkFk ,sls djksA gks ldrk gS mu yksxksa dks cqjk yxrkgks dh mudk /keZ dqN gS gh ughaA ysfdu geus dHkh blds ckjs esa ckr ugha djhA

Ldwy esa oSls rks dqN ugha gS fd eqfLye dk gS] cl dqN bLykfed okyh Vhpj ,sls djrhgaSA tSlk tks fFk;ksykWth i<k+rh gaS] [kqn dks doj djrh gSa] oks cgqr liksVZ djrh gSaeqfLye dksA ,d yM+dh gS mldks MkaVk fd rqe ukr esas ikfVZflisV fd;k djks] ;g oansekrje~ esa D;ksa tkrh gks\ ,d Vhpj us gesa MkaVk vehj fu'kk cktkj esa esganh yxokusij ß,slh osgSjr gksrh gSa yM+fd;k¡] yM+dkas ds gkFkksa esa gkFk nsdj cSBh yxok jgh gksrhgSaÞA esjh ÝsaM dgrh gSa ;kj fdruh jslfVªD'ku gSa rqe yksxksa ds fjfytu esa] eSa eqfLyegksrh rks dHkh ugha dj ikrhA oks yksx ¼fgUnw½ dgrh gSa gkFk <dks lj <dks Mkal er djksekbZ xkWM! gels rks ugha gks ikrkA eq>s ugha yxrk dksbZ jksd gS] vki dk fny pkgrkgS rks djrs gSaA

,d fo"k; ds rkSj ij fFk;ksykWth gksuk cgqr t+:jh gS] D;ksafd eq>s viuh fjfytu dsckjs esa dqN ugha irk Fkk] esjh mnZw burh ohd gSA ysfdu gedks fj;yh bLyke ds ckjsesa dqN i<+k;k ugha tkrk fFk;ksykWth esaA cl Vhpj fjfMax djkrh gSa vkSj ,d ,Dt+kegks tkrk gSA geus lkspk Fkk [kqc iz'u djsaxs] 'kadk,a iwNsaxs ysfdu oks vkrh gh ugha FkhDykl ysusA esjh ,d ÝsaM gS lksue] dgrh gSa & ;kj esa i<+uk pkgrh gw¡ rsjs fjfytu dsckjs esa] D;k gksrk gS] vkSj rqe yksxksa ds vkWulj Hkh fdrus NksVs gksrs gSa] ,Dt+ke esa HkhT;knk Ldksfjax gksrk gSA

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esjs ?kj esa eEeh&ikik esjh cgu lc uekt+ i<+rs gSa] eq>s Hkh i<+uk t:jh gSA tc,Dt+ke gksrs gS rks fny ls i<+rs gSa] rc cgqr fxYV Qhfyax gksrh gS! eEeh cgqr LVªhVgSa uekt+ ds ckjs esa( uekt+ i<+uk gS! vxj eEeh dgrh gSa rks i<+rs gSa] ojuk ugha!jet+ku esa rks vius vki gh fny djrk gS] dqjku Hkh i<+rh gw¡] ysfdu eq>ls dHkh iwjhugha gks ikrhA jet+ku esa esjs nknk&nknh Hkh vk tkrs gSaA nknh rks fnuHkj uekt+ i<+rhgSa! eSaus Hkh jkst+s j[kuk 'kq: dj fn;k gS ysfdu cgqr VQ gSA esa rksM+ nsrh gw¡!

ge yksx dkQh Ýh gSa] cl ;g jsLVsªD'ku gS dh ?kj ij dscy ugha gS] T;knk ewoh ughavykmM gS] D;ksafd oks LVMh ls fMlVsªDV djsxkA ek¡&cki pkgrs gSa fd ge yksx vPNkvpho djsa] blfy, ;g lc gSA ikik xqLlk gks tkrs gSa tc esa vkVZ dEiihV'ku esaikfVZflisV djrh gw¡A oks dgrs gSa] ßD;k gj oDr ;g Mªkbax\Þ rks tc esa jaxksyh esaikfVflisV djuk pkg jgh Fkh eSaus vius dft+u HkkbZ ls fjDosLV djk dh vki eq>dksdyj yk nhft,A pqids ls njokts ls nsdj pys x;sA ikik us ns[kk rks ukjkt gks x;s]ysfdu eq>s ges'kk izkbt+ feyrk gS vkSj fQj oks [kq'k gksrs gSaA

vxj eSa dksbZ fey x;k ns[kuk pkgrh gw¡] rks oks eq>s MkaVsxsa] ysfdu fQj vxys fnufn[kkus t+:j ys tk;saxsA

Dykl esa rks gj oDr fØdsV dh ckr gksrh gSA eSp ds le; rks Dykl esa tkrs gSa]ßbafM;k thr xbZÞ ;k fQj ßikfdLrku thr xbZ ;kj lks lSMÞ gekjh Dykl esa dqNikfdLrku liksVZl Hkh gSa rks dgrh gSa ßvQlku ikfdLrku thr x;h dqN tyus dh cwvk jgh gSÞA D;k ;kj tks Vhe gS mldks liksVZ djks blfy, FkksM+h dh fgUnw ;k eqfLyegS] eq>s bafM;k dh Vhe vPNh yxrh gS blfy, esSa liksVZ djrh ga¡wA ysfdu gqek dgrhgS ßbafM;k okys dSls gSa eqfLye dks ekjrs gSa] blfy, esSa ikfdLrku dks liksVZ djrh gw¡AeqfLye daVªh tSlh Hkh gks eq>s vPNs yxrs gSaÞA eq>s cgqr xqLlk vkrk gS] eu djrk gSpV~Vd ls ,d pkaVk ekj nwa¡A

esjs nknk Hkh iDds ikfdLrku liksVZj gSa] eSa mUgsa ijs'kku djrh gw¡] fd ikfdLrku t+:jgkj tk,xkA eq>s yxrk gS oks blfy, liksVZ djrs gSa fd ikfdLrku eqfLye daVªh gS]nknk dks fgUnw ilan ugha] mudks ikfdLrku T+;knk ilan gSA eq>s bafM;k cgqr vPNkyxrk gS] vkSj eq>s ugha yxrk fd vkidks blfy, liksVZ djuk pkfg, fd fgUnw gS ;keqfLye gSaA

eSa bafM;k esa jgh gw¡] eq>s yxrk gS vxj eSa dgha xbZ rks eSa bafM;k dks fel d:¡xhA

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eq>s ugha yxrk eqfLye ;gk¡ ij cSMyh VªhV gksrs gSa] ij ;g gS fd ;g fgUnqLrku gS]'kk;n blfy, fgUnqvksa dks T+;knk Qsoj djrs gSaA vkSj FkksM+k cgqr rks Bhd gS] bV~l vksdsD;ksafd ;g fgUnqLrku gS] fgUnq&LrkuA vkWQdkslZ mudks Qsoj djsaxsA vxj vkidks brukoks gS rks vki tkdj ikfdLrku esa jfg,A

?kj ij ikik&eEeh dHkh ;g lc ckrsa ugha djrsA nknk crkrs gSaA oks ckcjh efLtn dsckjs esa crkrs gSa ,slk dqN Fkk fd gj dksbZ] xjhc bafM;k ls] gj dksbZ ,d&,d bZaV ysdjx;k Fkk eafnj cukusA ge yksxksa ds xkt+hiqj ls Hkh dksbZ x;kA esjs ?kj esa lc dgrs gSaefLtn cuuh pkfg,A tc mUgksaus >xM+k 'kq: fd;k gS rks mUgsa cukuk pkfg,A Lis'kyhnknk rks cgqr gh ckr djrs gSa] dgrs gSa ogka efLtn gh gksuh pkfg,A

ml fnu esjk cl dh fVªi ij fMlD'ku pyk Fkk vuqHkk ds lkFk rks ;gh gqvk FkkA eSausdgk efLtn rksM+h rks efLtn cuuh pkfg,A mlus dgk ugha oks eafnj Fkk] vPNk rksBhd gS gkWLihVy cuk ysa] ij eSaus dgka D;kas\ D;ksa djsa\

esjs nknk chtsih ds ,aVh gSa] oks dgrs gSa fd oks yksx gj pqukoksa esa v;ks/;k dk eqík [kM+kdj nsrs gSaA vkWfcvlfy fgUnqvksa ds oksV T;knk vkrs gSaA pqukoksa ¼tujy bysD'ku2004½ dk fjt+YV mlh fnu vk;k ftl fnu esjs ,Dt+ke dk fjt+YV vk;kA eSaus ,dvkneh dks nqdku ij dgrs lquk fd fdruk vPNk gks x;k dkaxzsl thr xbZ] chtsih dhotg ls fdrus eqfLye dh tku x;h gS] xqtjkr esa D;k gqvkA fQj eq>s yxk fd chtsihlp esa [kjkc ikVhZ gSA ge lc us cgqr nqvk djh Fkh fd dkaxzsl thr tk,A

gekjs ?kj esa lc us oksV fn;kA ikik us rks iM+ksfl;ksa ls ?kj ij ukWd djk vkSj dgkßvkius oksV ugha Mkyk\ tkdj Mkfy,] dkaxzsl dks Mkfy,ÞA esjh ,d vkaVh gS mUgksausefLtn esa cw<+s xjhcksa dks [kkuk f[kyk;k tc dkaxzsl thrhA chtsih cgqr T+;knk fgUnqvksadks liksVZ djrh gSA eq>s yxrk gS dkaxzls T;knk eqfLyeksa dks Qsoj djrh gSA

;g lc ckrsa ysfdu cgqr de gksrh gSa ?kj esaA Vhoh ij ns[kk vxj v;ks/;k ds ckjs esarks ;g rks gks gh tkrk gS fd Qkyrw esa fgUnw dks liksVZ dj jgs gSa---- mlij gh dqN FkksM+hlh ckr gksrh gS eq>esa vkSj vkih esa] ojuk dqN ughaA Vhoh ij ns[kk] vk/ks ?kaVs ckr djhfQj ukWeZy ykbQ fct+h gks tkrs gSa gkseodZ djks bR;kfn rks lkprs gh ugha gSA

gqek eq>s crkrh gS dh 'kgj esa D;k gqvk] ysfdu ge yksx blds ckjs esa T+;knk ckr ughadjrs] [kqy ds rks ugha gh ckr djrsA gekjh Dykl dkQh Ýsad gSa] ysfdu bu lc ckrksaij dHkh fMldl ugha djrsA

QdZ rks vk gh tkrk gS bu ckrksa lsA oSls ge dqN T+;knk gh eqfLye gks tkrs gSa

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ßrqe 'kkfyuh ls dSls ckr dj ysrh gks ;kj\Þ 'kk;n 'kgj dk ekgkSy gS] blfy,] ;kmlds eka&cki mls ,sls gh bu¶yq,sal djrs gSaA esjs eka&cki dHkh ;gh lc ckrsa ughadgrs] oks budjst djrs gSa ÝsaMf'ki ukWu&eqfLye xYlZ lsA

tc vkih dh nksLr bZn ds fy;s vk;h Fkha] rks eEeh us Vscy ij ls dcko dh IysV gVknh Fkh rkfd mUgsa cqjk ugha yxsA bl rjg ds yksx eq>s fcYdqy ilan ugha gS tks fjfytudh otg ls nksLrh djrs gSaA vki [kqn ,sls gSa rks nwljksa dks D;ksa Cyse djrs gSa dh jk;Vdjrs gSa] vi [kqn gksrs rks Hkh ,sls djrsaA oSls eq>s yxrk gS gekjk fj'rk lcls vyxgS] eqfLye Hkh vk';pZpfdr gksrs gSa fd dSls eSa bruh ÝSadyh viuh ukWu&eqfLye nksLrksals ckr dj ysrh ga¡wA 'kkfyuh Hkh dgrh gS vQ'kku rqe rks eqfLye ugha yxrh gksA

rj.k% vxj eSa dgwa fgUnw yM+fd;k¡ T;knk [kqy ds jgrh gSa eqfLye ls] vki esjh ckrekuksxs\

;l vkbZ oqM] vki Bhd dgksxhA tc ge vkids ?kj vk;s Fks rks ;wljk dh eEeh mldksysdj vk;h Fkh] vkSj jk[kh vdsyh lkbdy ls vk;h FkhA eqfLye esa vc Hkh gSa] yM+fd;ksadks vdsys ugha NksM+rsA fgUnw yM+fd;k¡ dgha Hkh tk ldrh gSa eqfLye bruh Ýhugha gSaA

irk ugha D;kas ij ;g fMisUM djrk gS] dqN eqfLye Hkh Ýh gksrs gSaA ge yksxksa ij cgqrdkWesaVl gksrs gSaA xkthiqj esa gekjs iM+ksfl;ksa us geij brus dkWessaVl ekjs dh ;gyM+dksa ds lkFk fdruh Ýh gSa] gekjs ?kj ds yksx dqN ugha dgsaxs ysfdu nwljst:j dgrs gSaA eSaus thal iguh rks mUgksaus eEeh ls dgk ßvkidh csVh us nqiV~Vk ughaigukAÞ

eq>s yxrk gS lc fgUnw uQjr djrs gSa ikfdLrku ls] D;ksafd gqek ikfdLrku x;h FkhvkSj ogka ls QksVks ysdj vk;h rks 'kkfyuh vkSj jk[kh ns[k jgs FksA rks jk[kh us dgk NksM+ns ikfdLrku dk ge ugha ns[k jgsA eq>s ;g dkQh Qhy gqvk Fkk] D;ksa mUgsafcfYMax ns[kus esa D;k izkWCye Fkh\ mls mudh fjfytu FkksM+h gh psat gks tk,xhAfQj 'kkfyuh us dgk] ßikfdLrku QksVks esa gh ns[kus dks fey jgk gS] ns[k ysÞAeq>s ;g ckr cgqr cqjh yxh FkhA eq>s yxrk gS ikfdLrku yksx Hkh gekjh rjg gksaxs]exj eq>s yxrk gS oks bafM;k ls cgqr uQjr djrs gksaxsA MhMh ij ,d flfj;y vkrkgS & d'ehj fjiksZVj] ml esa ikfdLrku dh cqjkbZ djrs jgrs gSaA rks eq>s yxrkgS ikfdLrku uQjr djrs gksxh gels ;g lc ds cnys esaA ysfdu dHkh vPNhphtsa Hkh fn[kkrs gSa] tSls tc eueksgu flag ih,e cus Fks rks muds xkao dks fn[kk;k lc[kq'kh eukrs gq,A ge yksx lksprs gSa fd ikfdLrku cgqr dkauljoSfVo gS] ysfdu eSaus

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Mksuk xkaxqyh ¼fØdsVj lkSjo xkaxqyh dh iRuh½ dk ,d vkfVZdy i<+k Fkk ftlesa mlusdgk Fkk fd dksbZ QdZ ugha gS] rks 'kk;n eq>s Hkh ,slk yxsA

eq>s yxrk gS yksxksa dks bLyke ,d fjfytu ds rkSj ij cgqr ilan vkrk gSA eSaus i<+kFkk fd fjfrd jks'ku dk bLyke cgqr vPNk yxrk gS] oks rks pkgrk gS dh duoVZ djysysfdu mldh lkslkbVh ;g vykm ugha djsxh] blfy, mlus eqfLye ls 'kknh dj yhA

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esjk ?kj lsaVj IokabV ds ikl gS] tks vyhx<+ dk ,d pkSjkg gS tks dkQh e'kgwj gSA ?kjcgqr iqjkus yxsaxs] ,slk ugha yxsxk dh vki dksbZ cgqr vPNs ,fj;k esa gksA vkxs pydsxyh esa ,d lkbu gSa ^lk/kuk ekWuVsljh Ldwy*] ogha esjk ?kj gS] dkQh iqjkuk lk gS isaVHkh ugh a g qvk g S dkQh le; lsA ,aV ª h e s a Mk;j sDV vk W fQl gS] fQjcjk.Mk&vkaxu&dhpu&dejsA

;gka eSa] eka] ikik] nknkth vkSj nks cM+h cgusa vkSj ,d NksVk HkkbZ jgrs gSaA pkpk vkSjcqvk Hkh ;gha jgrs gSaA esjs ikik fyad ykWDl ds fy;s dke djrs gSaA

esjh QSfeyh fcYdqy ehfM;ksØ Vkbi dh gS & u gh T;knk VsªfM'kuy gS u fcYdqygkbZ&QkbZ gSA ikik dh rjQ ls dkQh VsªfM'kuy gSA fcYdqy vyhx<+ Vkbi QSfeyh gSAfjfytu cgqr bEiksVZsUV gSa] eka gj 'kke dks iwtk djrh gSa] 'kfuokj dks eafnj tkrh gSa]lksus ls igys izkFkZuk djrs gSa vkSj lqcg mBrs le; tehu Nwrs gS] rks ;g lc gekjhMsyh ykbQ dk ikVZ gSA eEeh blds ckjs esa fLVªDV ugha gS] viuh bPNk gksrh gS rks djrsgSa] eka QkslZ fcYdqy ugha djrh gSaA

ekgkSy cgqr vPNk gS] diM+ksa dh dksbZ izkWCye ugha gS] ikik FkksM+k vkWctsDV djrs gSaAij euk ysrs gS mudks] dgrs gSa vPNk <hyh thal iguks] eryc ,Dlikst er djks clAcgusa Hkh gj Vkbi ds diM+s igurh gSaA nksLrksa ds lkFk ckgj tk ldrs gSaA esjh rkseqf'dy c<+rh pyrh gSa] oks dksus okyh nqdku ds rks esjs fnu esa lkS pDdj yxrs gSa] esjhlkbfdy ges'kk rS;kj jgrh gS lsaVj IokbaV ds fy;sA

ikik dh lkbM VsªfM'kuy gSA eryc cFkZMs gksxh rks iwjs dlcs dks cqyk;k tk,xk]ekfe;k lkl] QwfQ;k llqj] bl Vkbi ls! lc ds iSj Nw,asxsA vxj cM+s vkrs gS rks NksVsmB tkrs gSa] inkZ djuk iM+rk gSA ,sls dksbZ inkZ ugha gS cl lEeku ds rkSj ij] cl ?kaw?kVvks<+ ysrh gSa esjh cqvkthA vkSj eEeh nknk ls djrh gS ges'kkA Bhd gS vPNk yxrk gSij 'kk;n eSa u dj ikÅaxhA

esjs Ldwy ds ckjs esa yksx dgrs gaS fd vPNk Ldwy ugha gS] nwljs Ldwy vkSj vPNs gSa exj;g vius ij fMisUM djrk gSA lcls c<+h otg vanj dh gS vkSj Qhl Hkh cgqr de

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gSA yksx cgqr g;wfefy;sfVax lk Qhy djkrs gSa] oks Hkh vius cPpksa dks ogka Hkstuk pkgasxsysfdu tc gels feysaxs rks gesa uhpk fn[kk,axs] bl Vkbi ls dh ßvksg vCcnqYyk esa gks\ogka rks dksbZ i<+kbZ ugha gksrh gS u] cPps cgqr xans&xans ls vkrs gSa u\Þ eq>s cgqr xqLlkvkrk gS] yM+us ds fy;s rS;kj gks tkrh gwaA

eq>s ugha yxrk dh ;g eqfLye Ldqy gS] gkykafd eqfLye ;wfuoflZVh dk ikVZ gS exj ;grks cl uke gS] ;gka fgUnw Hkh i<+rs gSa] ekDlZ esa dksbZ fMlfØfeus'ku ugha gksrhA eq>s rks,slk dHkh ugha yxrk] eSa rks 'kq: ls i<+h gwaA cgqr yksx dgrs gSa] ßrqe jg ysrh gks mudslkFk\ yap Hkh 'k s;j dj ysrh gk s\ mudh jk sfV;k a rk s iryh gk srh gS a ]isV esa nnZ ugha gksrk\ esa dgrh gwa ßugha] VsLVh yxrh gSAÞ

cl ;g lc ckrsa gS fd nwljh lkslkbVh bruh ,fDVo ugha gSA fFk;ksykWth lkslkbVh okyscPps ,d dyek i<+ nsaxs vkds LVst ij rks mUgsa vyx ls izkbt+ dk ,ukmalesaV gkstk;sxkA vthc lk yxrk gSA fQj tSls eSp dk] D;ksafd dqN xYlZ ikfdLrkuh liksVZjlgSa] rks cqjkbZ djuh gksrh gS ikfdLrku dh rks t+jk /khjs djrs gSaA

gekjh Dykl esa ijh ikbZdj laLÑr i<+ jgh gS] rks VhplZ dks fcyho ugha gksrkA mluseq>s crk;k fd mlds ikik us osn oxSjg i<+ j[kh gS] vPNk yxrk gS lqudjA tc eSaiqjkus Ldqy esa Fkh rks ogka rks [kkus ls igys nqvk gksrh Fkh] vlsEcyh esa ekSykuk vkrsFks] rks lkjs dyes ;kn gks x;s FksA ;gka ij eEeh dh ÝsaMl vkrh Fkh rks mUgsa lquokrhFkh] ßxqfM+;k dyes lqukukÞ!

eq>s yxrk gS eqfLye xYlZ dks de ÝhMe gksrh gS gelsA mudks iwjk djuk iM+rk gS]xehZ esa LdkZQ iguuk iM+rk gSA D;ksa t+:jh gS\ 'kk;n mUgsa vPNk yxrk gks\ mudksjkst+s j[kuk t+:jh gksrk gS] gekjs ;gka ozr ugha t+:jh gksrs gSaA thal ugha igurs gSa]gkyakfd mUgsa ilan gksrh gSA dqN xYlZ dks Vhoh ns[kuk ;k fQYe ns[kuk euk gksrk gSAeqfLye lkFk esa pyrs gSa] cM+k lk xzqi gksrk gS] ge yksx vdsys fudy ysrs gSa ekdsZV esaHkh] ysfdu oks yksx eEeh ds lkFk cqdkZ igus] fcYdqy vyx ls vkbZMsUVhQkbZ gks tkrkgS fd ;g eksEeMu QSfeyh gSA vc rks eSa muds ckjs esa bruk tkurh gwa fd dqN vthcugha yxrk gS] T+;knkrj rks gekjs tSlk gh gSA cl rykd vthc yxrh gS] vkSj tksflLVe gksrk gS esgj nsus dk xYlZ dks] vthc yxrk gSA irk ugha] vHkh fMlkbM ughafd;k vPNk gS ;k cqjk gSA

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gekjk iwjk eksgYyk fgUnq gS] vxj fdlh dks mnwZ i<+uh gksrh gS baVjsUl ¼VsLV½ ds fy;srks gekjs ikl vkrs gSaA tc ge yksx NksVs Fks rks lc lkFk QslfVoy eukrs Fks] eksgYysesa [kwc [ksyrs Fks ysfdu vc bruk et+k ugha vkrkA irk ugha D;ksa lc vius ls eukysrs gSaA

jk;Vl ds le; ij ;gka pkSiky Vkbi dk yx tkrk gS dksus ij] iapk;r Vkbi dkAikik tkrs gSa] fMlD'ku gksrk gS dh D;k gks jgk gS] D;ksa] vkSj fQj ogha csgwndh lh ckrsagksrh gSaA vyhx<+ esa rks gj ckr ij jk;V gks tkrs gSaA ,d ckj nks lkaM yM+ jgs Fks]mldh otg ls yEck VSªfQd tke yx x;kA rks fdlh us dg fn;k fgUnw&eqfLye yM+kbZgks x;h gS vkSj mldh otg ls jlyxat esa >xM+k gks x;k!!!

Ldwy esa Hkh jk;V ds ckn xzqi fMokbM gks tkrs gSa fgUnw vkSj eqfLye ds chp esaA dqNyM+fd;ksa ls ckr djuk de gks tkrk gSA FkksM+k rks gks gh tkrk gSA eSa mlls ckr djukHkh pkgwa rks Hkh ;g yxrk gS fd eaqg ls dqN fudy x;k rks mls cqjk yx tk;sxk] blpDdj esaA lc vius vyx fgUnw&eqfLye xzqi esa gh jgrs gSaA ckrsa Hkys gh ge dqN udjrs gksa] jk;V dh u djrs gksa] ysfdu fnekx esa ,slh Qhfyax vk tkrh gS] dqN cutkrk gS] fd vius vki gh m/kj dh lkbM pyrs gSa] fgUnw ds xzqi esa ;k eqfLye ds xzqiesaA ge fLVªDVyh vokbM djrs gSa cgl vxj dksbZ 'kq: gks tkrh gS rks jksd nsrs gSa] vf/kd ls vf/kd vokbM djsaA D;kasfd dqN yksx cqjk eku tkrs gSaA dqN ls rks vki ckrdj ldrs gks] exj ckn esa gks ldrk gS mUgsa cqjk yxs] blfy, vki [kqy ds ugha djldrs ckrA fQj ckrsa gksrh gS] FkksM+s fnu esa Vsa'ku vksoj gks tkrk gS] fQj oSls gh ykbQ'kq: gks tkrh gSA

dqN yksx djrs gSa ikfdLrku dks liksVZ gekjh Dykl esaA oks dgrs gSa ;g rks gekjh et+hZdh ckr gS] lbZnk blfy, djrh gSa fd ?kj ij lc djrs gSA 'kk;n mUgsa yxrk gS dhikfdLrku bafM;k ls csgrj gS] mUgsa viuh lh fQfyax vkrh gksxh ikfdLrku ds fy;s dheksEeMu daVªh gSA dbZ yksx vijdksV esa Hkh djrs gSa] gekjs Ldwy esa Hkh cgqr gSa] 'kk;nvyhx<+ ds ckgj de gSa ikfdLrkuh liksVZjlA

mUgsa izkWCye D;k gS bafM;k esa dksbZ dqN dg jgk D;k\ mUgsa bafM;k esa T+;knk ÝhMe gSftruh ikfdLrku esa yksxksa dks gSA ogka ij dksbZ Hkh ,slk gksxk tks bafM;k dk liksVZdjrk gksxk\

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mUgsa fcuk ckr ds dkSeIyDl gSA muds ikl lc jkbZVl gS dkWUlfVV~;w'ku esa] 1947 ls]bruk iqjkukA mudks ns[kuk pkfg, ikfdLrku ds fdrus cqjs gky gSa] mudh bdksukWehbruh [kjkc gS] ogka ij yksxksa dk bruh vktknh ugha gS] mudks bafM;k T+;knk vPNkyxuk pkfg,A gka bafM;k dh Hkh izkWCye gS exj mUgsa ;g D;ksa ugha fn[krk fd fQjyksvj Dykl esa rks fgUnw Hkh gSa] flQZ eqfLye ughaA dafM'ku rks nksuksa dh cjkcj gh gSuA

ikfdLrku esa dHkh tkuk ugha pkgqaxhA fQj lksprh gaw igys rks bafM;k gh Fkk dHkh] rksD;wfjvkSflVh gksrh gS fd ogka ij ns[kwa] ysfdu bafM;k ls cSVj ugha gksxh oks txg] vkSjogka ij yksx dkQh cafn'kksa esa gksaxs] tslk eSaus fQYeksa esa ns[kk gS vkSj lquk gSA vxj dksbZfgUnw tkrk gS ogka rks mldks vk'p;Z ls ns[krs gSaA ;g lc lquus ds ckn ugha yxrk fdikfdLrku dksbZ vPNh txg gS--- vkSj mlls T;knk gkSfjcy vQxkfuLrku!

'kk;n ogka ds yksx ;g lse lksprs gksa fgUnq ds ckjsa esaA esjh DyklesVl ds fj'rsnkj jgrsgSa ikfdLrku esa vkSj vjsfc;k esa] rks ,slk ugha yxrk dqN---- 'kk;n oks Hkh Bhd ls gksaAeSp esa Hkh fn[kk;k Fkk djkph fcYdqy bafM;k tSlk yx jgk FkkA dqN T+;knk fMQjsUlugha gS cl yksxksa us cuk j[kk gS fnekx esaA

eSa ysfdu flQZ rHkh tkÅaxh vxj dksbZ etcwjh gS] vxj eSa izsl fjiksVZj cu xbZ vkSjih,e ds lkFk&lkFk tkuk iM+k] ;k vxj ih,e cu xbZ vkSj lqyg ds fy;s tkuk iM+sA

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c;ku djus okyk@f'kokuh % gekjk Vksfid ;g Fkk fd lkEiznkf;d naxksa dk Nk=kksa ijD;k vlj gksrk gSA rks ;g igyk lhu gS] ftlesa vkidks fn[ksaxh 'kkfyuhA vkSj mudheEeh ds :i esa f'kokuh] tksfd gksyh dh xqft;k rS;kj dj jgh gSa] vkSj mudh ,d vkaVhtks gSa vQ'kkuA

vkaVh % gk; 'kkyw] blckj fdruh xqft;k,a cuk jgh gksAeEeh % ykWVl'kkfyuh % eEeh lqfu, ftruh Hkh xqft;k cuk jgh gSa FkksM+h T;knk cuk nhftxk D;ksafdeq>s vius nksLrksa dks Hkh f[kykuh gksrh gSAvkaVh % gk; eqLyekuksa ds lkFk [kk;sxh rw\ eqLkyeku ds lkFk jgsxh cSBsxh rw\ ertkukA cgqr cnreht gksrs gSa] ugkrs ugha gSaA [kkuk er] oks xank cukrh gSaA rq>s rks eSausigys gh dgk Fkk eqLkyeku ds Ldwy er Hkstks eqLkyeku gks tk;sxh ;gA

'kkfyuh % cl vkaVh cgqr gks pqdkA ,slh dksbZ ckr ugha esjh vkSj esjs nksLrksa dhfjys'kuf'ki cgqr vPNh gSAeEeh % 'kkfyuh reht+ esa jgks] oks rqels cM+h gSaA'kkfyuh % lkWjh eEeh] ysfdu oks tks Hkh dg jgh gSa lc xyr gSAeEeh % 'kkfyuh vius dejs esa tkvksA'kkfyuh % gwa¡

c;ku djus okyk % lsds.M lhu esa vkidks fn[ksaxh vQ'kku] 'kkfyuh] f'kokuh] jk[khvkSj QStkA

vQ'kku % gkW; 'kkfyuh] gSih gksyh] vkSj D;k bUtkW; fd;k\ vPNk rks ;g rks crk esjhxqft;k dgka gS\'kkfyuh % vks-ds-] vodk'k esavQ'kku % vks-ds-] ckW;

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'kkfyuh % gSyks f'kokuh

f'kokuh % gk; ;kj] gksyh dSlh jgh rsjh\

'kkfyuh % cgqr et+s vk;k

f'kokuh % xqft;k ykbZ gS\

'kkfyuh % gk¡ gk¡ ys u ;kj

vQ'kku % vjs ;g rks crk esjk fgLlk dgka gSa\

'kkfyuh % jk[kh vk [kk ys

vQ'kku % ,Dpwyh vQlku fdlh vkSj fnuA esjs ?kj ij ,Dpwyh blckj FkksM+h de

cuh rks eSa vkSj yk ugha ik;h---- usdLV VkbZe

vQ'kku % vksds usLV VkbZe

jk[kh % gS 'kkfyuh xqft;k f[kyk

'kkfyuh % ys ;kj [kkA

jk[kh % irk gS D;k gqvk blckj\ tks jkW;V dh Nqfê;ka gqbZa Fkh u mlesa geyksx x;s Fks

vkxjkA esjs ikik us euk fd;k Fkk fd jkW;V gks jgs gSa] ysfdu vady us dgk fd jkW;V

vyhx<+ esa gks rks jgs gSa] vkxjk esa rks ugha gks jgsA ykSVrs gq, geus lkspk fd eFkqjk gksrs

gq, vk,axh] rks tSls gh ge eFkqjk esa ekdsZV esa igqaps] ogka ,dne ls HkxnM+ ep x;hA

,d vady Fks] mUgksaus viuh eksVj lkbfdy QSadh vkSj Hkkx x,A irk pyk jkW;V gks

x;s gSa ogka ijA ,d vkSj vady Fks] mUgksaus vius dks cpkus ds pDdj esa ,d cPPks ds

Åij eksVj lkbfdy p<+k fn;kA

'kkfyuh % cPps ds Åij\ oks t+:j dksbZ eqlyeku gksxkA

jk[kh % ;kj ;g rw dSls dg ldrh gS\

f'kokuh % 'kkfyuh ;g rw D;k dg jgh gS! gks'k esa rks gS\

'kkfyuh % vPNk rqe ,d ckr crkvksA ;g ekurs gks fd ugha dh gekjs cM+ks esa

gels T+;knk vdy gS\

f'kokuh % gka ;g rks gSA

'kkfyuh % vc eSa ,d ckr ckÅaxh\ dy esjh vkaVh vk;h FkhaA mUgksaus gesa le>k;k fd

;g ftrus Hkh jkW;V gksrs gSa lkjs ds lkjs eqlyekuksa dh otg ls gksrs gSaA ;g yksx gksrs

gh ,sls gSaA NksVh&NksVh ckrsa gksrh gSa mudks ysdj jkW;V dj nsrs gSaA

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jk[kh % ;g D;k dg jgh gS rw\ ekywe gS] tc geyksx jkW;V esa Qal x;s Fks] rc ,d

egewn vady Fks] dkWUlVscy] mUgksaus gh gesa vyhx<+ rd lsQyh igqapk;kA

'kkfyuh % vjs rks D;k ,glku dj fn;k] M;wVh gh rks Fkh mldh dkSu lk fny FkkA

f'kokuh % 'kkfyuh] rw ,sls dSls dg ldrh gS\

'kkfyuh % gka gka vc T+;knk er c<+ksA eq>s vc tkuk gSA

vQ'kku % gk; QStkA ;kj ,d ckr crkš\ ;kj ;g 'kkfyuh

QStk % ;kj irk gS D;kA eSaus 'kkfyuh vkSj mlds nksLrksa dks ckrsa djrs lquk FkkA

vQ'kku % D;k dg jgh Fkh oks\

QStk % oks dg jgh Fkh fd ftrus Hkh jkW;V gksrs gSa oks lc eqlyeku djrs gSaA vkSj oks

rsjs ckjs esa Hkh dqN dgh jgh FkhA

vQ'kku % esjs ckjs esa D;k dgk\

QStk % oks dg jgh Fkh fd rqe nl&nl fnu rd ugha ugkrh gksA cgqr xans rjhds ls

jgrh gksA

vQ'kku % vkSj\

QStk % vkSj oks gekjs fjfytu dks cqjk&Hkyk dgs tk jgh FkhA

vQ'kku % oks yksx [kqn dkSu ls brus vPNs gSA vkSjrksa dks tykrs gSaA muds ;gka [kqn

curs gS vius vkidksA gw¡A eq>s lc irk gSA vPNk ck;!

QStk % lqu fdlh dks dqN er dgukA

vQ'kku % Bhd gS Bhd gSA

c;ku djus okyk % vc FkMZ lhu gS ftlesa 'kkfyuh vkSj vQ'kku ds chp esa

laca/k gksxkA

'kkfyuh % va/kh gS D;k ns[k ds pyk djA

vQ'kku % T;knk cd&cd er djA

'kkfyuh % vxj ,d p'ek de iM+ x;k gS rks nwljk cuok ysA iSls de iM+ x, gSa rks

eq>ls ys ysA

vQ'kku % vjs [kqn dks ns[kA ge eqlyekuksa dks D;k cksyrh jgrh gS\

'kkfyuh % vjs py de ls de rw rks eq>ls ckr ej djA

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vQ'kku % rw Hkh eq>ls ckr er djA

'kkfyuh % vjs rsjh otg ls] rsjs tSls eqlyekuksa dh otg ls lkjs ds lkjs jkW;V gksrs gSaA

vQ'kku % vPNkA vkSj rqeyksx tks vkSjrksa dks tykrs gks oks D;k FkkA

'kkfyuh % vjs rqe rks ,sls gh NksVh&NksVh phtksa dks ysdj jkbZ dk igkM+ cuk nsrs gksA

vQ'kku % NksVh&NksVh phtksa dks ysdj rks rqe yM+rs gksA vjs ,d xqft;k dks ysdj rqeus

gekjs ÝsaMf'ki ds chp bruh cM+h nhokj [kM+h dj nhA

jk[kh % vjs vjs--- ;g D;k gks jgk gS\

vQ'kku % rqe er cksyks rqe Hkh mUgh dh tkr dh gksA

jk[kh % vQ'kku! eSaus dHkh rqEgkjs lkFk dHkh bl rjg O;ogkj fd;k\

vQ'kku % ysfdu oks rks dj jgh FkhA

jk[kh % vPNk ,d ckr crkvksA igys rqe bruh vPNh nksLr Fkha] ,d nwljs dk yap

[kkrh FkhaA rc rqeus ugha lkspk dh rqEgkjk yap xank gS ;k mldk yap xank gS\

vQ'kku % ;g ckr rks Bhd gS] ysfdu mlus gh igys >xM+k fd;k FkkA

jk[kh % rks Bhd gS rqe fjlikWuflcy gks rqe mldks le>k ldrh FkhaA vc pyks mls

lkWjh cksykA

vQ'kku % ughaA eSa lkspwxhaA

'kkfyuh % vjs tk tk lc rssjs gh tSls gksrs gSaA

jk[kh % 'kkfyuh rw ;g dSlh ckrsa dj jgh gS!

'kkfyuh % gka gka eSa gh gwa u ,slhA

jk[kh % rwus gh igys ,slk O;ogkj fd;k FkkA rq>s vius Åij 'keZ vkuh pkfg,A

'kkfyuh % ughaA vQ'kku gh lkjh xyfr;ka djrh gSA vkSj esjh vkaVh--- esjh eEeh---

jk[kh % oks xyrh gks ldrh gS 'kkfyuhA

'kkfyuh % vPNk! cM+h gS rks Hkh xyr gks ldrh gS\

jk[kh % cM+h gS rks D;k ;g ugha gks ldrk dh mudh esaVkfyVh cgqr uSjks gks] cgqr

yks gks\

QSt+k % gekjs Hkkjr ns'k esa tc lkjs et+gcksa dks ,d leku ntkZ fn;k gS rks rqe dSls

mls uhpk fn[kk ldrh gks\ dy gks ldrk gS oks gh rqEgsa uhpk fn[kk nsaA ,slh xyr

Qsgeh rks gesa iuius gh ugha nsrh gSA

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'kkfyuh % ekuk jk[kh dh ge i<+s fy[ks gSa] gesa ,slk ugha djuk pkfg,] ysfdu vQ'kku

us tks eq>ls bruh cnrehth ls O;ogkj fd;k eq>s cgqr cqjk yxkA

jk[kh % 'kkfyuh igys rqeus Hkh rks fd;k gksxk dqNA rqeus Hkh dqN dgk gksxk mllsA

'kkfyuh % dg fn;k rks--- eqag gS esjs iklA dgus ds fy;s gksrk gSA dg fn;kA

QSt+k % mlds ikl Hkh rks gSA

jk[kh % xyrh nksuksa dh Fkh] vc rqe nksuksa ,d nwljs ls lkWjh ekaxks vkSj viuh ÝSaMf'ki

dks---

'kkfyuh % ij jk[kh] vc rks esjk bZxks vk x;k esjs lkeus vc eSa mlls lkWjh dSls ekaxw\

QSt+k % eSa Hkh mls cqykdj ykrh gawA nksuksa lkWjh ekax ysukA

QSt+k tkdj vQ'kku dks ysdj vkrh gSA

vQ'kku % ;kj 'kkfyuh lkWjh ;kjA ;g cgqr gks x;k ;kjA

'kkfyuh % vQ'kkuA lkWjh ;kjA de ls de eq>s lkWjh Qhy djuk pkfg,A

vQ'kku % eSa rq>s dqN T;knk gh dg fn;k FkkA

'kkfyuh % eSaus Hkh rks ;kj viuh vkaVh dh ckr ij dqN T;knk gh fo'okl dj fy;k

FkkA

vQ'kku % lgh esa ;kjA lkWjh ;kjA

lc : lkjs tgka ls vPNk fgUnqLrku gekjk--- fgUnh gSa ge oru gSa fgUnksLrka gekjk---

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rhu fgUnq yM+fd;ksa us ukVd ds ckn dgk

yM+dh 1% ge yksx rks [kqn gh ,sls VkWfidl vokbM djrs gSa fMldl djuk tks fjfytu

ij ;k fdlh HkM+dkÅ ckr ij pys tk,aA vkil esa dj ysrs gSa vxj t+:jh gks rks ij

tsujyh vokbM djrs gSaA

yM+dh 2% ;gka estksfjVh eqfLye dh gS] vxj ckr fjfytu ij vk tkrh gS rks lc ,d

lkFk gks tkrs gSa] fQj ugha ns[krs lgh xyr] fQj cykbaM QsFk gks tkrk gSA ml le;

Vhpjl Hkh ughsa liksVZ djrh gSaA esjs vuqHko esa Vhpjl Hkh eqfLye LVwMsaVl dks ysdj

T+;knk ikWlsflo gksrh gSaA rks ml le; yxrk gS ge yksxksa ds fy;s 'kkar jgus esa T;knk

vPNk gS & ,d fnu oks le> tk,axs ge lgh gSaA

yM+dh 3% oks T;knk la[;k esa gSa ge dqN cksy ugha ldrs estksfjVh okys [kqn gesa idM+

ds ekjsxas rqe ,sls D;ksa cksy jgs gks ¼galh½A

yM+dh 2% gekjh eqfLye nksLr gSa rks naxs gksrs gSa rks vthc lk yxus yxrk gSA gekjh

eqfLye nksLr ds lkFk da¶;wflax gksrk gS fd ge ;g ckr dgsa ;k u dgasA vc tks jksjkoj

dkaM gqvk Fkk] ge ugha tkurs lgh D;k Fkk] ge cl viuh fjfytu dk lkFk nsaxs dh

tks ge yksx dg jgs gSa lgh gS nwljh lkbM xyr dg jgh gSA

yM+dh 1% esjs ikik ds eqfLye nksLr gSa] cgqr vPNs gSa ge mUgsa eqfLye vady gh dgrs

gSa] cgqr gh vPNs nksLr gSaA tc eSa muds cPpksa ls ckr djrh gaw rks dksbZ ckmaMs'ku ugha

gksrk] exj ckn esa tSls ge vc ckr dj jgs gSa] rks yxrk gS dh oks rks vyx gSaA

yM+dh 3% eSa muls ¼eqfLye nksLrksa ls½ ;g ugha dg ldrh dh irk gS tks xsV Fkk oks

eqfLyeksa us rksM+k FkkA oks dgasxs eq>s fdlh us crk;k dh fgUnq us rksM+kA

yM+dh 1% ckn esa Hkh ge yksx pqi gks tk,axs dh Qkyrw ds >xM+s esa D;ksa iM+sA

vkil esa ckrsa dj ysxsa ysfdu dksbZ ,slk ugh gksxk tks [kM+s gksdj dg nsxk fd

xyr gSA

rj.k% yksx D;k dgrs gSa tc vki mUgsa crkrs gks vki dgk¡ i<+rs gks\

yM+dh 1% oks VhplZ ds ckjs esa iwNrs gSa D;ksafd lc dks yxrk gS ;gk¡ i<+kbZ [kjkc

gksrh gSA

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yM+dh 3% ugha ,slk ugha gS] dgha Hkh tkrs gSa ikik ls iwNrs gSa dgka i<+k jgs gSaA crkrs

gSa rks dgrs gSa vjs cgqr vPNh txg gS lgh fudy x;sa] budh rks ftanxh cu x;hA

yM+dh 1% flQZ D;kasfd vyhx<+ eqfLye ;wfuoflZVh esa baVjuyf'ki gSa blls gesa Qk;nk

gksxk ysfdu vxj baVjuyf'ki Hkh [kRe gks x;h rks ;gka dksbZ ugha vk;sxkA

yM+dh 2% igyh izfrfØ;k ;g gksrh gS fd ßcgqr cf<+;k vki le>nkj gks tks VsLV

Dyh;j dj fy;kA nwljk ;g gksrk gS fd ßogka i<+kbZ dSlh gksrh gS lquk gS VhplZ i<+krh

ugha gSa cad ekj nsrh gSaÞA yksxka dks yxrk gS fd ;gka dk LVSaMZM cgqr fxjk gqvk gSA

yksvj dkWLV ds yksx ;gka ij vkrs gSaA

yM+dh 1% yksxksa dks yxrk gS fd ;gka ij eksLVyh eqfLyeksa dks ysrs gSa] fgUnqvksa dks cgqr

de ysaxs ;g fj,D'ku gksrk gSA fiNyh ckj NBoha ds bUVsjsal eas Hkh T;knkj eqfLyeksa dks

fy;k Fkk fgUnqvksa dks ughaA ekywe ugha ,slk D;ksa djrs gSaA

rj.k % Rkks D;k ;g eqfLyeksa dk Ldqy gS\

yM+dh 3% ,d ckj eSa ikik ds lkFk LdwVj ij tk jgh Fkh vkSj ns[kk dViqys ds uhps

dkQh ikuh tek gks x;k FkkA rks esjs eqag ls fudy x;k ßgk; vYykg fdruk lkjk

ikuh!Þ ikik dg jgs gSa ;g D;k cksyus yxh gks! gj ,d ckr ij ,slh gh cksyrh gwa!

gk; vYykg--- vjs vYykgA vxj dksbZ iqjkuh Vhpj fn[krh gSa rks xqM ekWfuZax ugha

fudyrk gS lh/ks ßlyke okysdqe eSeÞ fudyrk gSA

yM+dh 2% i{kikr iqjkus t+ekus ls pys vk jgs gSaA ,d ckj esjs vady&vkaVh vk;s gq,

Fks rks mUgksaus euk fd;k fd ;wfuoflZVh esa er i<+ksA ikik us iwNk D;ksa rks oks cksys ogka

bLykfed ckrsa djrs gSa] ;g dkWuosaV esa csgrj gSA ikik us lkspk Hkh ysfdu fQj Hkh ;gha

Hkst fn;kA

yM+dh 1% exj ;g rks xyr gS dh vlsEcyh esa oans ekrje~] ugha xkrs uks ekWfuZax iks,e]

flQZ nqvkA ;g Ldwy ds fy;s dkQh ugha gSA fgUnqvksa ds rks le> gh ugha vkrk nqvk

esa gks D;k jgk gS] ge yksx D;k le>xsa vjkfcd esa\

yM+dh 3% exj ;g rks le> vkrk gS fd dqN vPNk cksys jgs gSaA

yM+dh 2% dksbZ us'kuy ,UFkSe rd ugha gksrkA gj Ldwy esa gksrk gS bykok vCnqYyk ds]

vthc lk yxrk gSA feykn rks [kwc ekurs gSa] rks fQj fnokyh ij dksbZ izksxzke D;ksa ugha

gksrk\ ;k fØlel ;k ukud Ms ij\

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yM+dh 1% ge enjls esa ugha vk;s gSaA ;g ugha gksuk pkfg, fd ,d ikfVZdqyj fjfytu

dk liksVZ djs jgs gSaA ;gh rks fMQjsUl iSnk dj nsrk gSA

rj.k% D;k fVplZ Hkh ck;LM gSa\

yM+dh 3% ugha] eSa ugha ekurh] eq>s ,slk dHkh ugha yxkA

yM+dh 1% baxfy'k] lkabl] lks'ky lkabl dh VhplZ de utj vkrh gSa ;g lc djrh

gqbZ] ysfdu vjkfcd ;k fFk;ksykWth dh--- 'kk;n---

yM+dh 3% dqN VhplZ ,sls djrh gSa] cqjh okyh] viuh fjfytu dks vkxs ns[krh gSaA

ysfdu nwljh VhplZ Hkh gS rks QsfLVoy esa ikVhZflisV djrh gSa] gksyh ij jax yxok;k

mUgksausA

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Saida

Jagged edges and quick repartee, bubbling with controversialpronouncements and unpopular opinions. But under the bluster,there is real courage. If this project owes a debt of gratitude to anyone person, it is Saida, with her head-on approach to life and herunflinching readiness to state her honest views on the most touchytopics, who moved situations out of polite impasses to heatedarguments. It is ironic that if anyone of the participants had reasonto be hesitant and confused it was Saida, who inhabits spaces andparadigms that violently, directly and routinely, clash.

Saida is an outsider in her class. Her penchant for outspokenessand quick temper have made her unpopular. I suspect this rejectionhurts more than she shows, and she has learnt early what it is to bejudged by a mass, to be matched against an imposed consensus of“acceptable views” and be held outside the pale. Her classmatesfind her difficult to get along with, tough to fathom, possiblybecause they cannot experience the fragmentation of meaning shelives with, each day of her life. Saida, as I saw her, inhabited aworld with contantly shifting poles of meaning and values. Thingsher classmates talked about, ideas she learnt in school, would becontradicted by her domestic world, often actively discouraged byparents, peers and authority figures. She travelled each day froma world where it was the done thing to glorify Pakistan, wheresomeone talking the language of ‘Others’ would be mocked, whereparents certified the reality of this world over the other. Herclassmates, especially those with the luxury of smoother overlapsbetween domestic ethos and the dominant value system, alienatedher further with their smug certitudes. They just couldn’t ‘be’ there,in her alternative reality, or even admit to its possibility in theirimagination.

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ikfdLrku dk lkFk nsus dk eryc ;g ugha gS fd vki fjfytu dk lkFk ns jgs gSaA

bafM;k eas fgUnqvksa dks T+;knk jkbVl gSa] gj ysoy ij eqfLykeksa dks nck fn;k tkrk gSA

;gh otg gS dh gj ysoy ij bafM;k ds eqfLye ikfdLrku dks liksVZ djrs gSa] pkgsa oks

fØdsV gks ;k dqN vksjA

tc bafM;k thrk] 'kgj esa esjs ikik us eq>s crk;k dh cqdkZ okyh vkSjrksa dks feBkbZ ckaV

jgs Fks fd ßyks&yks feBkbZ [kkvks vc rks rqEgkjk ikfdLrku gkj x;kAÞ bruh cnreht+h

dj jgs FksA dqN {ks=k gSa tgka eqfLye yM+fd;ka vdsyh ugha fudy ldrha] mudks bruk

ijs'kku djk tkrk gSA ;gh otg gS fd ikfdLrku dks liksVZ djrs gSa vkSj blh otg

ls ijost eq'kjZQ pkgrs gSa fd eSa bafM;k ds eqfLyeksa dh ykW;yVh thrwaA

'kgj dh lkbM tgka gekjk ?kj gS] cgqr gksrk gSA cgqr lksp dj dke djuk iM+rk gSA

tSls 6 fnlEcj ds dqN fnu igys lc dke gks tkuk gS] lc leku ykdj j[k ysuk

pkfg,] [kkuk] vkVk] pkoy lc] D;ksafd fQj ?kj ls ugha fudy ldrsA fgUnq gYyk

djrs gSa] iVk[ks NksM+rs gSa] iqfyl mUgsa dqN ugha djrhA ysfdu eqfLye ,slk djsa rks jk;V

gks tkrk gSA

d'ehj esa ns[k fyft,] eqfLyeksa ds f[kykQ fdruk fMlfØbfeus'ku gqvk gSA fVjksfjLV

esa rks ukWu&eqfLye dk uke gksrk gh ugha gS] ges'kk ;gh fn[kk;k tkrk gS fd eqfLye gh

gSa] tcfd oks rks fjfytu ds f[kykQ tk jgs gSa fVjksfjTe dj ds] rks oks rks fjvy

eqfLye jgs gh ughaA exj fn[kk;k ;gh tkrk gS dh lc eqfLye fVjksfjLV gSaA ÝhMe

QkbVj esa dHkh eqfLyeksa ds uke ugha ns[ksaxsA eSa vkidks ;g lc blfy, dg jgh gwa fd

vkius eq>s vdsys esa iwNkA lcds lekus rks ugha gks ldrk D;kasfd esjh vk/kh Dykl

ukWu&eqfLye gS vkSj Hkh dksbZ ;g ckr lqusxk rks dgsxk ;g yM+dh eqfLye fgUnw esa

fMlfØfeusV djrh gSA

esjh rks ÝsaMf'ki gS ukWu&eqfLyeksa ls] ge yksxksa dks QdZ ugha iM+rk ysfdu eq>s yxrk gS

oks yksx QdZ djrs gSaA dqN yM+fd;ka Dykl ,VekSfLQ;j dks vugsYFkh dj nsrh gSa] oks

eqfLyeksa dks vkradoknh dgrh gSA dkQh ckj eqfLyeksa dks nck;k tkrk gSA uSuk ml fnu

cksy jgh Fkh jksjkoj ?kVuk ds ckjs esa ßdfczLrku eas ls ys tkus nsrs D;k gks tkrk!Þ dSls

ys tkus nsrs\! gekjh ikd txg ls\ eSa rks fcYdqy f[kykQ gwaA vxj eSa gksrh rks eSa Hkh

euk djrhA

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ge ;g VkWfiDl vokbM djrs gSa rkfd yM+kbZ u gks] FkksM+s le; ds fy;s rks rqe yksx

lkFk gS Ldwy vkoj esa] rks dqN fjLiksaM ugha djrsA eq>s Qhy gqvk Fkk vHkh cdjk&bZn

Fkh fdlh us gesa fo'k ugha fd;k] ge yksx ysfdu fnokyh vkSj gksyh ij fdruk djrs

gSa] fo'k djrs gSa vkSj lcA exj ogh ckr gS] dksbZ QdZ iM+rk gS rks ge yksx nck nsrs

gSa] D;kssafd gekjh vdsyh Dykl gS ftlesa fgUnw xYlZ gSaA

rj.k% ysfdu rqEgkjs Ldwy esa rks eqfLyeksa dh eStksfjVh gSA

fQj Hkh! ,d otg ;g Hkh gS fd fgUnw xYlZ i<+us esa vPNh gSa] VhplZ dh ut+jksa esa vPNk

izHkko gSA rks vxj eSa lgh gksÅaxh vkSj oks xyr rc Hkh VhplZ mUgsa gh Qsoj djsaxhA

oSls ,slk gksrk ugha gS] VhplZ rks bEik'kZy gh gSaA

;gka ,sls dksbZ ckÅ.Ms'ku ugha gSA ;gka fgUnqvksa dk Hkh ,Mfe'ku feyrk gS] muds

f[kykQ dksbZ :Yl ugha gSA ysfdu dHkh&dHkh] vki bls uSP;qjy dg ldrh gSa] vk tkrk

gS QdZA ,d ckj geus viuh VhplZ dks lyke ds cnys xqM ekWfuZax dg fn;k] rks

mUgksaus dgk fd ßrqe viuh laLÑfr Hkwy xbZ gks D;kÞ\ 'kk;n bUgha ckrksa ls fgUnw xYlZ

dks yxrk gks muds f[kykQ fMlØkbfeus'ku gksrk gS] eq>s ugha yxrk mUgas ,slk Qhy

gksuk pkfg,A dkQh VhplZ xqM ekWfuZax Hkh dgrh gSaA ysfdu mUgksaus MkaV fn;k rks dqN

xyr ugha dgkA ,slk dqN ugha gS ;g ,,e;w xYlZ gkbZ Ldwy gS rks ;gka :y gS lyke

djus dk] cfYd :y ugha VsªfM'ku gSA

eq>s esjh Dykl T+;knk ugha ilan gSA dqN rks ÝSaMl gSa] ;g yksx Dykst+ rks gSa exj eq>s

dHkh&dHkh ;g yxrk gS fd eq>ls Dykst+ ugha gSa ;g yksxA dksbZ ckr gks u gks ysfdu

eSa vius fny esa tYnh ys ysrh gwa] irk ugha D;ksaA eSa vius iqjkus Ldwy esa cgqr [kq'k Fkh]

;gka ugha [kq'k gaw dksbZ vPNh nksLr ugha gSA exj vkidks ;dhu ugha gksxk ;gka Hkh lc

yksx] QLVZ ls VSaFk Dykl rd lc yM+fd;k¡ eq>s tkurh gSa] bruh ßgk;&gSyksÞ j[krh gwa

eSaA ysfdu ogh gS fd ;g csLV ÝsaMl ugha gS] pyrh&fQjrh ÝsaMf'ki rks cgqr gSA ,sls

esa ÝsaMf'ki pkgrh gwa tSlh 'kkfyuh vkSj jk[kh] oks nksuksa cgqr vPNh nksLr gSaA

bafM;k esa lc cksyrs gSa fd ge ,d gSa] ;wfuVh gS] ysfdu esjs fglkc ls ugha gSA vk, fnu

d¶;Zw vkSj naxs&Qlkn gksrs jgrs gSa] eq>s ugha yxrk gS dksbZ ;wfuVh gSA ckcjh efLtn dks

ns[k fyft,] Bhd gS pyks ekurs gSa fd ogka eafnj Fkk] vkius efLtn dks 'kghn dj fn;k]

rks vc vki dSls ogka ,d vkSj eafnj ekax jgs gSaA eSa rks dgrh gwaw pyks efLtn u lgh]

gkWLihVy cuk nks] ;k Ldwy] ;k [kkyh gh NksM+ nksA

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bUgha lc jhtu ls ns[kus eas rks ;gh vkrk gS dh T;knkrj eqfLye VsjksfjLVl gksrs tk

jgs gSaA T;knk ek=kk esa rks eqfLye gh VsjksfjLV~l gS] ;g rks gSA eqfLye QSfeyht esa vPNk

dypj ugha fn;k tkrk gS vPNh ,twds'ku ugha blfy, VsjkfjLVl cu tkrs gSaA mudh

dksbZ etcwjh gksrh gksxh] tSls v{kj/kke ij tks gqvk oks fjysVsM gS cnys ls xqtjkr esa

tks gqvk mldsA ,sls c<+rh tkrh gS ckrA Vhoh ,d cM+h otg gS] igys yM+ds yM+fd;ksa

dks ugha pkgrs Fks tc ls Vhoh 'kq: gqvk gS pkgrs gSaA

eSa baftfu;j cuuk pkgrh gwa] vkbZvkbZVh lsA D;skafd esjh cM+h vkih ,d MkWDVj cuuk

pkgrh gSa vkSj eq>s MkWDVj ugha ilan gSa] cksj yxrs gSaA eSa 'kq: ls ik;yV cuuk pkgrh

Fkh] ikik us Hkh dgk gka] ysfdu ckn esa mUgksaus ekbaM pSat dj fy;kA eEeh ugha pkgasxh

dh cuwa] dgrh gSa ik;yV dk dqN ugha gS] vius ?kj ij rks jgrs ugha gSaA

vkids izkstsDV ds ckjs esa eSa lksprh gwa dh ges'kk vki fjfytu ds ckjs esa D;ksa ckr

djrh gSa\ eryc vkidks ns[k ds rks yxrk gS fd rqe eqfLye gks fdUrq vkidh ckrksa

ls yxrk gS & vthc ls yxrk gS gj phat fjfytu ij gh D;ksa gS vkids izkstsDV esa\

ysfdu gka ;g Hkh gS fd vki Dykl esa vk;sa vkSj viuk ifjp; fn;k rks geus vkidks

ljuSe iwNkA irk ugha D;ksa iwNkA gj phat eas fjfytu vk gh tkrk gSA ysfdu Ldwy

vkdj ;g lc phsats Hkwy tkrs gSaA

esjh eEeh dks vkidks izkstsDV ds ckjs esa irk pyk rks dgrh gSa ßrqe [kqn er cksyuk]

eqfLyeksa ij ;k ukWu&eqfYleksa ij] VhplZ ij vkSj DykleSVl ij cqjk bEizS'ku iM+sxkÞA

rj.k% rks fQj D;ksa ckr dj jgh gks\

fny pkg jgk gS!

dg rks Mkyk tks gekjs fny esa Fkk] lPpkbZ] ysfdu vc Mj yx jgk gS vxj nwljs yksx

lqusaxs] geus viuk uke] Dykkl lc rks ns fn;k] Mj lk yxrk gS nwljs yksx lqusaxs rks

D;k lkspsaxs gekjs ckjs esaA vxj mu yksxksa dh lksp ,slh ugha gS rks D;k lkspsaxsA gekjs

isjsUV~l D;k dgasxs dh vHkh rqe yksx cMs+ rks gq, ugha gks] fdlh phat dh le> rks gS

ugha vkSj bruh cM+h&cM+h ckrsa djus py fn;s gksaA

eSa rks ,slh gw¡ lh/ks&lh/ks dg nsrh gw¡] mu esa ls ugha gw¡ tks cukdj dgsaA eSa ,dne ls cksy

nsrh g¡w & QVk[k ls & fQj ckn esa Qal tkrh gw¡ ges'kkA

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esjh QSfeyh esa ikap esEcj gSaA eEeh] ikik] nks cgusa vkSj eSaA ikik ,d xouZesaV

vkWjxsukbts'ku ds fy;s dke djrs gSa] vkSj eEeh Vhpj gSaA ge yksx 'kkafr ljksoj3 esa

jgrs gSa] tksfd ubZ dkWyksuh gSA gekjh QSfeyh T;knk gkbZ&QkbZ ugha gS] ge rhukas

HkkbZ&cgusa ,d :e 'ks;j djrs gSaA gekjs iM+kSlh vkSj VsusUVl cgqr vPNs gSa] tLV ykbd

QSfeyhA dksbZ eSp gks rks ikVhZ gks tkrh gSA ?kj ds Bhd lkeus dksfpax pyrh gS ftldk

'kksj gj oDr vkrk gSA

yksdsyVh [kqyh gqbZ gS] lc yksx i<+rs&fy[krs gSa] lc viuh ykbQ th jgs gSa] ,d nwljs

ls eryc ugha gSA dkQh ekWMZu yksdsyVh gS ;g ugha dh yM+fd;ka ugha fudysxhaA gksyh

ij vady vkaVh jksM+ ij fudydj [ksyrs gSaA ,d&nwljs dh gsYi rks djrs gh gSa ysfdu

;g ugha dh jkst yM+kbZ gks jgh gSA

fjfytu ds ekeys esa rks tc QSfLVoy gksrs gSa rHkh dqN irk yxrk gS fjfytu dkA

ukWeZyh gesa dksbZ ns[k dj ugha dg ldrk ge fØf'pu gS ;k fgUnwA iwtk rks Msyh gksrh

gS] ysfdu ,slk ugha fd dksbZ cgqr HkfDr gks jgh gSA ¼/khjs ls½ eSa ,d ckj ukWu&ost [kk;k

Fkk] vius HkkbZ ls 'krZ yxk dj! cl cM+s&cM+s ozr j[krs gSaA dksbZ gekjs lkFk nks fnu

jgsxk rks mls yxsxk ugha fd ge fgUnw gSaA

DyksFkl ds fy;s rks isjsaVl fcYdqy Ýh gSA ,d rks ge vxj dUktSlVsM ,fj;k esa jgrs

rks lc Vksdrs dh rqe Hkh oSls gh igus tSls nwljs igurs gSaA gekjs ;gka rks lc thal&VkWi

esa gh fn[krh gSa] dksbZ lyokj&lwV ugha igurk rks rqe gh D;ksa ,dne ls\ ikik rks

buQSDV eq>s cky ugha cka/krs nsrs] dgrs gSa NksVs vPNs yxrs gSa rqe ijA

3 vyhx<+ ds ckgjh nk;js ij fodflr gksrs bykdksa esa ls 'kkafr ljksoj ,d gSA D;kasfd ;gk¡ jgus okysvR;kf/kd yksx ukSdjh&is'kk gSa] ;s bykds /kuh gSaA ;gk¡ lkoZtfud lqfo/kk;sa csgrj gksus ds lkFk&lkFk]ljdkj }kjk iwjh u dh tkus okyh t+:jrksa dks iwjk djus ds fy;s eksVj iEi vkSj tsujsVj tSlhlqfo/kkvksa dk Hkh izca/k gSA

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bu lc ekeyksa esa dqN ugha gS ikik dks] cl i<+kbZ esa jgksA eSa rks 'kkWVZ Hkh igu ysrh

gwa jkr esa] fnu esaA lwV rks esjs ikl ,d Hkh ugha gS] cl Ldwy Msªl lwV dk gSA esjh dft+u

lc lwV igurh gSa ysfdu dgrh gSa rqe er iguk vHkh ls] vPNh ugh yxksxhA gekjs

;gka diM+s ls dksbZ QdZ ugha iM+rk] i<+kbZ dks bEiksZVsUl nh tkrh gSA tks ukWesZy ,d

ykbQ gksrh gS fefMy Dykl ihiqYl dh ogh gSA

vc ckgj ugha [ksyus nsrs ikik] blfy, dh jksM+ pyrh gS] vkSj esjh xyh esa dksbZ xYlZ

ugha gS] yM+ds gh yM+ds gSa] rks muds lkFk D;k [ksyukA blfy, ckgj rks eSa [kqn gh ugha

[ksyrhA nksLrksa ds ?kj tkus ls euk ugha djrs] ysfdu jkst+&jkst+ ugha] dksbZ dke gks rks]

ugha rks bEiksZVsUl de gks tk,xhA eSa vius dft+u ds lkFk [ksyrh gwa] ;k czknlZ] usclZA

Vhoh csLV gS] cksj gks jgh gksaxh rks Vhoh [kksy yawxhA

vHkh rd rks esjk eu dkWflVsª'ku ,echch,l ij gh gSA vxj Hkxoku us flysD'ku

djok fn;k rks vkSj dqN ugha pkfg,A mlds ckn vktrd bR;kfn eSa fjiksZfVax dk VªkbZ

d:axhA blds fy;s fnYyh esa gSa dkslZA HkbZ;k tkurs gSa dgrs ge rqEgkjk ml esa djok

nsaxsA ikik pkgrs gSa lc dqN vyhx<+ esa jg dj gks tk;s] ysfdu Hkstuk iM+k rks ckgj

HkstsaxsA

vxj esjk ,echch,l esa flysD'ku ugha gqvk vkSj fjiksfVZax vPNs ls ugha dj ldh rks

eSa ohts cuwaxhA ,e Vhoh eq>s rks cgqr ilan gS] eq>s mldks ohts gksuk cgqr vPNk

yxsxk] vPNh lh] ukWV cqjh lh mu tSlh] cV LekVZ lhA LekVZ ehUl gka thal&VkWi iguks

ysfdu muds tSls ugha---- MhlsUVA

,d rks eq>s vius Ldwy dh Msªl csdkj yxrh gSA ukSoha ds ckn rks bV~l vksds ysfdu

mlds igys LdVZ ;k ÝkWd gksuh pkfg,--- cuk nsrk gS oks mls enzlk VkbiA eSa lksprh

gwa jkst+ ekWfuZx esa tu&x.k&eu D;ksa ugha gksrk] jkst nqvk D;ksa gksrh gS\ tu&x.k&eu rks

,slh phat gS tks lc txg gksrh gS] ;wfuVh dk lkbu gSA nqvk rks] ysfdu tu&x.k&eu

D;ksa ugha gks\ rks ;g FkksM+k vkDoMZ yxrk gS] yxrk gS gka rqe yksxksa ds lkFk FkksM+h

ukbalkQh gks jgh gSA eqfLye ds fy;s rks pyks lgh gS] ysfdu ge yksxksa dks rks dqN le>

ugha vkrkA ge D;k djsa mls lqu ds\ vc dqN fgUnh esa gks ;k dqN ,slh Hkk"kk gks tks

le> esa vkrhA

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nwljs ds ckjs esa ugha dg ldrh] gks ldrk gS oks dgrs gksa ;gka bEiksZVsal eqfLye dks nsrs

gSa] ysfdu vius fy;s eq>s irk gS esjs Ldwy esa esjh vPNh [kklh baiksZVsUl gSA VhplZ eq>s

tkurh gaS rks ,slk ugha dh eSa eqfLyeksa ds ihNs nc tkrh gwa] cfYd cgqr ls eqfLye ds

lkeus eq>s flysDV dj fy;k tkrk gSA 'kq: ls ge us cgqr ikfVZflisV fd;k] dqN NksM+k

gh ugha & 15 vxLr QaD'ku] flaxfuax--- ikik dgrs gSa ogka eqfLyeksa dks Qsoj fn;k tkrk

gS] ij eSa mUgsa dgrh gwa ,slk dqN ugha gS ikik] tks i<+rk gS tks ogka jgrk gS mls irk

gS ogka dSls ljdeLVSal gSa] ,slk dqN ugha gSa] eqfLye dks dqN T;knk Qsoj ugha fd;k

tkrk gSA

gka] ,d lkslkbVh ds ckjs esa yxrk gS] mnZw lkslkbVh] ftldh ,d eksVh lh Vhpj gSa &

HkbZ;k! fdlh lkslkbVh dks izkbt feys u feys mnwZ lkslkbVh ds izkbt lcls igys

fMLVªhC;wV gks tkrs gSaA bl ysoy ij gksrk gS mudk izksxzke dqN dgus ugha! tjk lk

izkbt feysxk vkSj mlds fy;s ohlh vk;sxsa izkbt nsus] eSustj lj vk;saxsA vkSj geusa]

gekjh fgUnh ekWe ls izkbt fnyk fn;k tkrk gS fgUnh lkslkbVh dkA ml lkslkbVh esa irk

ugha ;g ukr&okr gksrh jgrh gS] gedks rks dqN ukWfyt ugha gS blds ckjs esa] ge

ikfVZflisV ugha djrsA tks yM+fd;ka djrh gS ,d rks 2000&5000 :i;s dk izkbt! eq>s

;g yxrk gS mnwZ lkslkbVh dks cgqr ikWoj nh gqbZ gSA lc Mjrs gSa mnwZ lkslkbVh ls] dgrs

gSa lcls ikWojQqy lkslkbVh mnZw lkslkbVh gSA rks dHkh yxrk gS ,slk D;ksa gSA\ ,slk rks

ugha yxrk eqfLyeksa dh otg ls gS ysfdu fgUnh ;k baxfy'k lkslkbVh D;ksa ugha gSa\

eSa yksxksa dks eqfLye ;k ukWu eqfLye dh rjg ugha ns[krhA esjh ,d nhnh gSa] ;wljk nhnh]

Hkwy gh tkrh gwaw fd oks eqfLye gSa] 'kk;n oks esjs ckjs esa ,slk lksprh gksaxhA vc vxj

oks vks<+ ysa LdkWQ rks mu esa yqd vk;sxk] ukWeZy fyfoax esa rks ugha vkrh gS ckrA

ijh ikbZdj eq>s ,d fnu crk jgh Fkh viuh QSfeyh ds ckjs esaA mlus eq>ls iwNk eSa

D;k igurh gwa] eSaus dgk thalA mlus dgk] ßvPNk] eSa rks lyokj&lwV gh igurh gSaAÞ

D;ksa\ ß;kj gekjh yksdsyVh vPNh ugha gS ugha rks---Þ eSaus dgk gka ;g izkWCye gks

ldrh gSA eSaus mls dgk rqe ;g LdkWQ D;ksa igurh gks\ ßugha ;kj gekjs mlesa fy[kk

gqvk gSÞA ,sls gh dqN fgUnq cPps dgrs gaS] ßgekjh xhrk esa fy[kk gqvk gS Mkal ugha

djukÞA eSaus dgk HkbZ;k dgka fy[kk gqvk gS\ eSaus rks ugha i<+k] u esjs eEeh us euk fd;k

dHkhA

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vius isjsaV~l ij fMisUM djrk gS cPps dks dsls cuk,aA vc fnO;k ds ikik MkWDVj gSaA

oks fQj Hkh bruh fMLVZc jgrh gSaA mlds ?kj ij lc mls lyokj&lwV igukrs gSa] i<+kbZ

dks cgqr izs'kj gS] ukuh dgrh gSa ?kj ls er fudyksA eSaus dgk ;kj rsjs QkWnj MkWDVj

gS! fQj Hkh----

rks eqfLye esa gh ugha gS dh lwV iguks] fgUnq esa Hkh gS] bZou lcls T;knk fgUnq esa gSA

rks eq>s ugha yxrk ;g fgUnq&eqfLye dk QdZ gSA vxj ,d ekWMZu fgUnq] fVfidy

eqfLye ds ckjs esa lkspsxk ß;g yksx lwV igurs gSa thal ugha iguk djrsÞ] rks ,d ekWMZu

eqfLye Hkh ;gh lkspsxk fVfidy fgUnw ds fy;s & ;gh dh lwV igurs gSa vkSj dqN ughaA

eq>s yxrk gS yM+fd;ksa dks de le>k tkrk gS] flQZ eqfLyeksa esa ugha fgUnq esa HkhA cgqr

xqLlk vkrk gSA ikik dgrs gS eq>s esjs csVksa ij fo'okl ugha gS csVh ij gSA oks dgrs

gSa dh ?kj dk iksZ'ku esjs gh uke djsaxsA eSaus dgk gka oks rks nsaxs gh esjk viuk gd gSA

esjs ukukth dk ?kj gS] eSaus eEeh ls iwNk vki D;ksa ugha ysrh gSa gd & mUgksaus dgk ikxy

gS] oks dgsaxs fd geus csVh dh 'kknh Hkh dh vkSj csVh gels gd ekaxs! esaus dgk vjs!

;g D;k ckr gS! 'kknh dh rks D;k gS\ ikik dgrs gSa rqe viuh csVh dks nsaxsA

ugha rks T+;knkrj rks ;g gksrk gS fd csVh dks rks nwljs ?kj esa tkuk gS] esjs pkpk gSa] mudh

csVh FkksM+h gsYFkh gS] brus lkyksa dh gks x;h dh eSfjt gks tk;s] rks lc Vksdrs jgrs gSa

dh rsjh ,st gks x;h gS rqEgsa nwljs ?kj tkuk gSA Hkb;k dks dkQh izhQjsal nh tkrh gSA

mudks [kpkZ fn;k tkrk gS tkus dk dksbZ izkWCye ugha gSA nhnh us ,e, fd;k gS] nhnh

eksVh gSa] rks dgrs gS fd iryh ugha gks rqeA dHkh rks eq>s cgqr xqLlk vkrk gSA cM+s

vady dh FkksM+h ,slh lksp gSA

,d gS u & QwQkth--- esa ,d ckj dsfizl vkSj 'kVZ igu dj x;h Fkh rks eq>ls dg jgs

gS ßcsVk diM+k de jg x;k Fkk tks NksVh isaV igu yhÞ eSaus dgk ugha QwQkth ;g ,slh

gh gksrh gSA mUgksaus dgk ugha lwV iguk djks vPNk yxrk gSA eSaus tkuk gh NksM+ fn;k

muds ;gka] tkrh gwa ij vokbM djrh gawA viuh rjg ls thuk gS nwljksa dh rjg ls FkksM+s

gh thuk gSA ukuh Hkh FkksM+k bl Vkbi ls gSaA eka us VkWi flyk ukuh ds lkeus rks dg

jgh Fkha FkksM+k uhpk flyrh] FkksM+k uhpk! ¼g¡l ds½

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jk;V~l ds le; ij vthc lk ekgkSy gks tkrk gSA ge yksx rks ugha fudyrs] HkbZ;k

tkrk gS V~;w'ku ds fy;s] oks U;wt ysdj vkrk Fkk fd vkt LVs'ku ij fgUnq dks ekj

fn;k] vijdksV ij fgUnq dks ekj fn;k bR;kfnA ge Hkh rks lqurs gSa fo'okl djrs gSaA

lqurs gSa dh tc ,d fgUnq dk ekj fn;k yxkrk gS] dSls ekj fn;k cspkjs dks] vkSj dksbZ

eqfLye dks dgsxk ß;kj dSlk balku gksxk ekj fn;kÞA lse fjfytu okyh Hkkouk vk

tkrh gS fd esjs /keZ okys dks ekj fn;k] vkSj ;g ugha lkspsaxs ds m/kj ds /keZ okys Hkh

ej x;sA ugha rks bafM;k esa rks bZest gS gh fd eqfLye fVjsfLVªl gSa] tks uke ge Vhoh

ij fn[krs gSa vkradoknh ds eqfLye gksrs gSaA

,slh ckrsa Ldwy esa ugha djuh pkfg,] ogka rks ,drk dks c<+kok nsuk pkfg,A ,slh ckrsa

mBrh gSa ysfdu ,slh ckrksa dks [kRe djus ds fy;s IokbaV nsus pkfg,A tSls uSfrd foKku

dk lCtSDV j[k dj] fFk;kSykWth ds cnysA ftls ,slh Vhpj i<+k,a tks fgUnw ;k eqfLye

ugha gSa] cfYd oks gesa balku dh rjg i<+k,aA ,d fFk;kSykWth dh Vhpj gSa]

mUgksaus ,d yM+dh dks MkaV fn;k fd ßrqeus oans ekrje~ esa ikfVZflisV fd;k gS\ eSa ugha

lksprh Fkh rqe ,slh cPph gksÞA ,slh VhplZ ugha gksuh pkfg, gekjs Ldwy esaA fdlh Hkh

Ldwy esaA

;g ckr 'kkfyuh ls gh dgh Fkh] fd ns[k ys ;gh djrh gSa eqfLye VhplZA

eq>s cqjk yxrk gS rks oks eq>s dksUlksy djrh gSa] fd ugha ;kj vkSj Hkh rks

VhplZ gSa] vkSj mldks fQj eas le>krh gawA gka] dHkh&dHkh ge gh cqjk dg nsrs gSa u ß;kj

;g yksx dqrkZ D;ksa igurs gS vc rd] thUl D;kas ugh igurs\Þ 'kkfyfu rks

lh/ks cksy nsrh gS ßeq>ls rks ugha iguk tkrk lqV&owVÞ eaSus dgk] ßpqi dj ;kj

fdlh dh Qhfyxal dks gVZ gks ,slh ckr D;kas dgksA mudks Hkh eu djrk gS thUl iguus

dk ysfdu bldk eryc ;g rks gS ugha dh ge mudks gVZ Qhy djok;sa dh gekjs ?kj

es s a bruh vkt+knh gS vkids ?kj esa fcYdqy vkt+knh ugha gS vkidks ugha

iguus fn;k tkrk--- rw /khjs cksy---Þ bl rjg dh ckras ftls nwljs gVZ gks ge ,okbM

djras gSaA

rj.k% rqEgkjh eqfLye nksLr Hkh ,slk djrh gkasxh\

gk¡ tc ge djrs gSa rks oks Hkh djrh gksaxhA oks ;gh lksprs gksxsa fd budh QkWnj us dSlsfcxkM+ j[kk gS ;s oksA ysfdu iwjk fo'okl gS fd ftls ge mu yksxkas ds ckjs esa le>rsgSa oks Hkh gekjs ckjs eas djrh gksxhaA

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vc vki eq>ls ;s iwNsaxh] fd Hkkjr&ikfdLrku eSp eas yksx dSls fj,DV djrs gSa] gS uAesjs ifjokj esa rks ;gh gksrk gS dh ikfdLrku t+:j gkjsxk] ysfdu cgqr Mj yxrk gS dhHkkjr dgha gkj u tk;s tSls vDlj gksrk gSA [kwc eLrh gksrh gSA

Ldwy esa cPPkkas ls iwNk Fkk ¼izkstsDV esa½ rks eqf'dy ls nl izfr'kr cPpksa us dgk gksxkikfdLrku dks liksVZ djrs gaS] ojuk lc gh Hkkjr ds lkbM FksA dqN us dgk Fkk fd geikfdLrku dks liksVZ djrs gaS D;ksfd gekjs ?kj esa lc djrs gSaA eSaus iwNk D;ksa rks dgrsFks fd ogka gekjs fjysVho gSa] ikfdLrku esaA vjs! rqe rks ;gka jgrs gks og dqN ugha\ßikik djrs gS eEeh djrh gSaAÞ blfy, fd vki eqfLye gks\ ßgkaÞ] mUgksaus dgk] ß,slkHkh dqN gSAÞ dqN yksxks us dgk ge rks ugha djrs exj gekjs vkl&ikl yksx djrs gaS]vxj ikfdLrku gkjrk gS rks rksM+&QksM+ gksrh gS vkSj ikfdLrku thrrk gS rks iVk[ksNwVrs gSaA eSaus dgk okg ftl Fkkyh esa [kkrs gks mlh Fkkyh esa Nsn!

T+;knkrj eqfLyeksa us gh dgk ge ikfdLrku dks liksVZ djrs gaS & gks ldrk gS D;ksafd;g eqfLye ns'k gSA ysfdu ikfdLrku ls T+;knk eqfLye rks Hkkjr esa gaS] irk ugha D;kas,slh lksp gSA ,slk rks ugha gS mu yksxksa dks jkbVl ugha fn;k gqvk gS] cfYd ikfdLrkuls vPNk bafM;k esa gSA bafM;k esa ÝhMe gS dksbZ jksd&Vksd ugha gS] fQj Hkh bu yksxksa dh,slh lksp gSA esjs fglkc ls rks fnDdr ;gh gS dh oks eqfLye ns'k gS] lksprs gksaxs geHkh eqfLye gSa rks eqfLye ns'k esa jgrs rks gekjk vkSj Qk;nk gksrk] ctk; ;g fd fgUnqns'k eas jgrs gSaA

rju% rqEgsa yxrk gS ;g lgh gS\

ugha] esjs dks rks fcYdqy Hkh ugha yxrk&Bhd gS ;gk¡ ij T+;knk fgUnq gSa] ysfdu ,slk dqNugha gSA vxj jke eafnj okyh ckr Fkh rks vHkh rd u rks eafnj cuh u efLtn] rks nksukscjkcj gq, uA bleas ljdkj dqN ,D'ku ugha ys ldrh D;kasfd lsD;qyj gS rks fdlh dksQsoj ugha dj ldrhA gk¡ rksM+s Hkh x;s Fks ;g ckr Hkh gSA ij oks dkuwu ls vkxs c<+dj fd;k FkkA oks rks fVfidy jke eafnj okys FksA ge yksx ;s ugha lksprs] bruh cM+htxg gS nksuksa cuk yksA

eaS ,d fgUnq gw¡A ij tc Hkkjr&ikfdLrku dh ckr vkrh gS eSa Hkkjr dks liksVZ djrhgwa D;ksfd eas ,d Hkkjrh; gwaA eSa ;g lksprh gwa oks ¼ikfdLrkuh liksVZjl½ D;ksa ughadjrha\ ;kfu oks vius vki dks Hkkjr dk fgLlk ugha le>rsa\ xqLlk rks vkrk gSvksfo,lyh] viuh daVªh ds fy, fMoksVsM gksuk pkfg,A yxrk gS ge fgUnq gSa ge ghvius ns'k ds fy, djsaxsA dHkh&dHkh rks xqLls esa cksy nsrs gSa fd gekjs ns'k dk ued

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[kkrs gks vkSj nwljs dks liksVZ djrs gks] ogha D;ksa ugha pys tkrs rqe lkeku ys ds] ykrekj ds Hkxk nsaxs] ;s lc Hkh cksy nsrs gSa ge yksx! xqLlk rks vkrk gS--- geus dc dgkfd vki fgUnq dks liksVZ djks] geus rks dgk vki Hkkjr dks liksVZ djksA eu djrk gS;gka ls pys gh tk;sa ;s yksxA tc gekjs ns'k dks ugha liksVZ djrs rks pys gh tk;saA

ysfdu ;s ckrsa esjs fnekx esa T+;knk nsj rd jgrh ugha gSA FkksM+h nsj rks jgrh gS tc rdVsa'ku gS bl ckr dh] fQj eaS Hkwy tkrh gwa eq>ss D;k djuk Fkk D;k cksyuk FkkA

eSaus ihVhoh ns[kk gS] mleas bruk >wB cksys tk jgs Fks fd Hkkjrh; lSfudkas us Hkkjrh; dksgh ekj fn;k] ,slk gh! vkSj MhMh U;wt+ ij ns[krs gaS ‘ihVhoh dk >wB* fn[kk;k dh ,sls>wB cksykA rks dHkh&dHkh rks yxrk gS dh fdruk >wB cksyrs gSa ;s yksx] fdrus cqjs gksaxs--- cgqr gh cqjs gkasxs] pkgrs D;k gSa ;s yksx\

ysfdu fQj ;g yxrk gS fd dgha lp esa Hkkjrh; lSfud rks ugha ekjrs gSa\ oks yksx Hkhdgka ls ckr fudky ds yk jgk gksaxs\ dHkh yxrk ljdkj Bhd ugha gS ogka dh] ij geogka ds yksxksa dks ugha tkurs gSa rks dgka ls feyus\ fcuk fn[ks dSls fo'okl dj ysa dhoks [kjkc gSa\

eSa rks pkgrh gwa fd tSls eSa lksprh gwa oSlk lc lksaps Iyht! gj ckr ds nks igyw j[ksaAigys rks xqLlk vkrk gS] vjs ;g fgUnq gS esjs lkeus gksrh rks crkrh] ij mlds ckn lkspsa]igyk tokc vkf[kjh tokc ugha gksrkA esjh rjg gks tk;sa gj dksbZ! FkksM+k lksp dstcko nsa vksj vPNs nksLr cusa tks vkidks crk,a fd ,slk xyr gS] vkSj gka ftl ns'kesa jgrs gks mldh gh liksVZ djks cl!

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Taran

Towards Closure

At the beginning of this project, when I approached the schoolauthorities for permission to work in AMU GHS, there wereapprehensions thatI may create a negative impact on the girls. “What if it ends up creatingbad feelings between them”, they asked. The concern is entirely totheir credit, since there had already been a bad experience with atelevision crew which had engineered a pointless slanging match onpurdah. They were wary of letting in another experiment along thesame lines.

There were moments during the early days of the project whenI wondered if they were right. At that crucial moment, when the gloveshad come off, correctness had gone out the window and I could glimpsehuge reservoirs of emotions and ideas about to spring forth, in thatsplit second of infinite possibility and incredible change, I wouldwonder –which way will it go? The possibility that existing divideswould be deepened by the discussions I initiated was a real andfrightening one. But it was a scenario that counted without the singlemindedness of my friends, the schoolgirls.

Had I wanted to, I could not have curbed the pace or direction ofthe discussions. As one of the participants wrote to me in her diary,“For the first time, someone is asking our opinions. It feels nice to beso important.” So nice, apparently, that there was no stopping the streamof conversations, discussions and confidences once they had started.The girls chased me up corridors, caught up in classrooms, ready toshare their lives with me anytime I wanted to, sometimes with thecaveat of “Don’t tell a soul”, but often with complete trust.

At some point during these discussions, a pattern emerged. I realizedthat even in the middle of the worst arguments, the most ferociousdebates, the most resentful allegations of outrage against people orcommunities, they always, through constant references and disclaimers,reminded me and themselves that they were talking about people theyknew. Their friends, flesh and blood entities with a face and a name,which they knew, rather than an indistinct Other, a demonizedcommunity removed from their lives. This, to my mind, is the crucial

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Mk;jh

esjh Ldwy ykbZQ dk ,d fnuviwoZ] dfudk] fo'kk[kk] eqDrk] js[kk] fiz;k] izsj.kk

tc eas lqcg&lqcg Ldwy esa vk;h rks cPpksa dh ßph&phÞ dh vkokt ls esjs Ldwy ykbZQ

'kq: gqbZA HkkbZ vkjh pyk jgs Fks ßdh&dhÞ dh vkokt xawt jgh Fkh] yM+fd;ka dg jgh

Fkh ßvykg cgu tYnh pyks csj [kk,axsÞA bZaV mBkvks vkSj ekjks csj Vidsaxs ßVid&VidÞ

ßcVksjks&cVksjksÞ yM+fd;ka >xM+ jgh Fkha ßvykg cgu gekjs csj nksÞA ,d yM+dh ds lj

esa baZV yx x;h rks oks fpYykbZ ßvkgÞ rHkh cSy ct x;h ^Vu&Vu*A Qjgr eSe vkbZa

vkSj DYkkl esa ?kqlrs gh mUgksaus ,d yM+dh dks pkaVk ekjk ßQVkdÞ D;ksafd mlus csj

rksM+s FksA

vkSj Dykl esa MLVj dh vkokt gks jgh Fkh ßVd&VdÞA ,d yM+dh ckFk:e ds ckgj

[kM+h gks dj dg jgh Fkh ßtYnh vkvks cgqr tksj ls vk jgh gSAÞ cPps czsd esa bZyh&Mksyh

[ksyrs gq, dg jgs Fks ßcsbZekuh er djks rqe vkmV gks x;haÞA ,d yM+dh dk f[kiiqj

¼LVksu½ ikys ¼LD;w,sj½ esa fxj tkus ls oks ß;kg&;kgwÞ dj jgh FkhA yM+fd;ka Hkkx jgh

Fkha ßgkaa&gka bruk i<+ ds D;k d:axh ikl rks gks gh tkÅaxhÞA eSe ,d yM+dh dk mldh

bZekunkjh dh 'kkck'kh ns jgh Fkha ^Fki&Fki* dh vkokt vk jgh FkhA

Ldwy esa ,d rjQ tsujsVj dh QV&QV* dh vkokt vk jgh Fkh rks nwljh rjQ lkS lky

iqjkuk okWVj dwyj igyh ckj Bhd gksus ij ^dVj&dVj* dh vkokt dj jgk FkkA

cM+s&cM+s isM+ksa dh ubZ mith gjh&gjh ifÙk;ka lj&lj* dh vkokt djds fgy jgh Fkha vkSj

uhps iM+h lw[kh ifÙk;ka ^phj&phj* dh vkokt dj jgh FkhaA ,d Dykl esa ls 'kkafr Hkax

djrs gq, DySfiax* dh vkokt vk jgh Fkh] 'kk;n ogka fdlh dk cFkZMs FkkA ykWu esa ?kwers

eksM+ ij dh ^I;aw&I;wa* dh vkokt eu eksg jgh FkhA vpkud ^Vu&Vu* dh vkokt ds

lkFk Ldwy dh Nqêh gks x;h ij ge rju nhnh dh Dykl vVSUM djus ds fy;s :dsA

Ldwy vpkud bruk 'kkar gks x;k fd irk gh ugha py jgk Fkk fd ;gka dHkh bruk 'kksj

jgk gksxkA