Please God Let Me Wear High-Heeled Shoes!
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“Please God; Let me wear high-heeled shoes!”
Last year I suffered a very serious accident involving my back, and
yet the most upsetting part of that, was that all I wanted was to wear
my favourite shoes!
Written By: Kerry-Louise Barnaby
The two most covetable items in any
woman’s life: chocolates and stiletto
shoes. A very wise Forest Gump once
said: “Life is like a box of chocolates,
you never know what you’re gonna
get”. Well let me just say that last
October I was devastated when I had to
swallow the worst chocolate I have
ever tasted. And that chocolate
changed my life forever.
I have been an actress for as long as I
can remember. My mum always said I
could dance before I could walk, I
could sing before I could talk and I
never needed an excuse to be dramatic.
So it seemed only natural that, at the
age of 16, full of dreams, I left the
warm, comfortable shelter of home and
migrated to the big city that is London.
My dream had come true and I was
setting off to spend the next two years
studying Musical Theatre at the BRIT
School of Performing Arts. My life
couldn’t be better.
For the next two years I spent my days
singing, dancing and acting and spent
my evenings doing pretty much the
same. Those two years flew by and
before you could say “Action” I was
playing the lead in a professional
production! Needless to say, I had the
nicest box of chocolates I could have
hoped for; and I never wanted the
chocolates to run out.
However, a box of chocolates can
never last forever - especially when
they’re your favourites. You’re lucky
if they last a week!
Then, about a year ago, while doing
some further training, in Physical
Theatre at East15 Acting School in
Essex, I suffered an injury to my back.
Even now, I don’t really know how it
happened; all I know is that it changed
the course of my life as I know it.
Suddenly I was bed-ridden and facing
the very high possibility of never being
able to move fully again. No more
dancing, no more performing, no more
living! After all, what is the point in
living if you can’t be happy and live
the life you want to live?
As a petit girl of just 4’11”, I am a
heel-a-holic! I can’t get enough!
Super high, platforms, kitten, stilettos,
you name a type of heel and
guaranteed, I will be wearing them!
So you can imagine my despair when I
realised that I could barely walk let
alone walk in heels! And, on top of
that, I didn’t even own any pairs of
flats, well, unless you count my jazz
shoes, ballet shoes or trainers. I was
devastated. What shoes was a going to
wear? What outfits did I even own
that would look right without heels?!
Though, I suppose initially this
question just didn’t matter…
I spent two months, gradually
strengthening my back, attending
physiotherapy and going on 10 minute
walks before I would have to lie down
again. The rest of the time, I spent
with my new best friends. Friends by
the names of: Vogue, Elle,
Cosmopolitan and Glamour.
As days turned into weeks, and weeks
turned into months, and magazines
began merging into one, I happened to
flick past an advert in Glamour. “Ever
wanted to work in Fashion, well we
have the perfect course for you!”
That was it! I could feel the heat from
the light bulb flashing above my head:
“Idea Idea,” it was saying. Why not?!
Why not work in Fashion? Why not
use my experiences to write about how
fashion is more than just choosing the
clothes that you are going to wear in
any given season; they are an
expression of yourself. You are a book
and they are your cover. They help
give the outside world a glimpse into
who you are, what you stand for, and
how you approach life.
Isn’t that what I had learned? That
without my clothes I didn’t feel like I
could be myself? I had just lost
everything. My chocolates had gone; I
was a shoe whose heel had broken and
been unceremoniously dumped. At
that moment I felt like my life was
over, I was finished- until I saw that
article.
Suddenly fashion seemed a very real
possibility. And as the walks
progressed from 10 minutes, to 20
minutes, to one hour, and I began to
gradually heighten again, my heart
began to beat harder than it had in so
long. Colour returned to my cheeks
and fashion took over my
consciousness. I was a woman
possessed. I understood that my
physicality had been damaged
indefinitely and I knew that that
chapter of my life, that box of
chocolates was finished and the line
had been discontinued.
It was time for me to find a new
favourite. It was time for me to start
living again.
With that, I applied to study a BA
(Hons) degree in Writing Fashion and
Culture. I decided that writing about
fashion was my new way to express
myself. I decided that fashion was the
thing that had brought me back to life
and I owed it. It deserved for me to
thank it properly and to repay it by
realising and understanding my
passion for shoes and clothes and
identity and to make other people
realise how important it is in their
lives.
We all go through
times when we feel
low, so low that we
don’t know how we
are ever going to
make it. Carrie
Bradshaw once
said: “Will I ever
laugh again?” My answer to this
question is yes, you will. When?
When you realise that if life hands you
a chocolate that you don’t like, it is
some greater chocolatier telling you
that it is time to taste it, swallow it and
re-awaken your taste-buds. Because
that chocolate doesn’t taste bad, it
tastes different and that chocolate
could satisfy you in ways the old one
never could.