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ik aus ƒ kI ho igAw, TIk dupihr dy bwrW vjy sn, jd aus ny dovyN bwhWAsmwn v`l KVIAW krky Aqy dovyN h`Q PYlwA ky AYlwn kr id`qw ik b`sA`j qoN bwAd s`B kuJ ̂ qm, izMdgI bIq cùkI hY qy mYN hux ieQoN qurn lìgAwhW[ bhuq kuJ vyK ilAw hY ienHW A`KW ny, bhuq kuJ hMfw ilAw hY ienHWAMgW ny Aqy hux mYƒ AwpxI Aw^rI iqAwrI krnI hI cwhIdI hY[ iesAw^rI iqAwrI smyN mYN iks iks cIz ƒ pihl dy AwDwr qy krW ik swrwkuJ TIk Twk ho jwvy, myry mn iv`c koeI s`Dr vI bwkI nw rih jwvy ikAjy mYN hor bhuq kuJ krnw sI, bhuq kuJ Bogxw sI, hor vI bhuq mwArkymwrny sn Aqy izMdgI dIAW hor keI bulMdIAW ƒ Cuhxw sI [

aus ƒ Xwd AwieAw nIlkMq ny ikhw sI, ‘jwx vwly hor bhuq swrylok ieho hI socdy hn ik aunHW ny ies izMdgI ƒ hor bhuq kuJ dy skxwsI, Swied auh ies ƒ Ajy vI hor suhxI bxw skdy pr auh ies g`l ƒBu`l jWdy hn ik aunHW ny izMdgI ivc ikMnw koJH BirAw hY[ aunHW dI hoNdny ikMny lokW ƒ Avwzwr kIqw hY[ ikMnw plIq kIqw hY, aunHW ny ies ̂ UbsUrqizMdgI ƒ, ikMny irSiqAW ƒ, gMDly kIqw hY ? ies g`l dw aunHW ƒ AwpxyAwp koeI iehsws hI nhIN huMdw ik auh dUijAW dI ih`k iv`c ikvyN swrIaumr syh dy q`kly vWg g`fy rhy sn[ pr auh ieh g`l vI Bu`l jWdy hnik auh vI iksy dy mn dy bWdr bx ky aus dI su`K SWqI ƒ BMg krdy rhyAqy lokW dI mwniskqw iv`c ^whm^wh tpUsxIAW mwrdy rhy hn[’ aus ƒlìgAw, Swied nIlkMq dw ieh kQn aus au~pr vI TIk hI Fu`kdw hovy[

aus ny soicAw, BwvyN lok swrI aumr ieho pCoqwvw krdy hn ik aunHWny izMdgI iv`c kuJ vI nhIN KìtAw Aqy bwkI swry lok bhuq swrIAW bwzIAWmwr gey hn, pr myry mn iv`c ieho ijhI koeI ^wihS nhI, koeI qmMnw nhIN,ijs ƒ mYN ADUrI kih skW, BwvyN sMpUrn kuJ vI nhIN huMdw[ mYN ijMnw kuJies izMdgI iv`coN hwisl kr cu`kw hW, Swied Enw hI myry ih`sy AwauNdwsI jW ieh vI ho skdw hY ik mYN Awpxy ih`sy nwloN hor bhuq izAwdw lYilAw hovy[ BwvyN lok swrI aumr Bog ky vI pCqwauNdy rihMdy hn ik aunHWizMdgI iv`c kuJ vI nhIN KìtAw[ pr mYƒ koeI vI pCqwvw nhIN, iesy leIhI hux mYN ies dunIAw qoN jw irhw hW, ivdwA lY irhw hW[

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aus ƒ AYNqonIau porSIAw dy hIirAW vrgy vwk Xwd Awey, ijhVy kdIaus ny im`tI dy BWfy bxwauNidAW koLy nwl TIkrIAW au~pr ilKy sn[ ijhVyauh ie`k im`tI dy GVy iv`c pw ky r`KI jWdw sI, ijnHW dI igxqI kyvlkuJ hzwr hI sI pr porSIAw dy hIry vrgy ienHW i^AwlW krky hI auh A`jq`k jwixAw jWdw hY, aus ny vI ieh kQn AwpxI fwierI iv`c sWBy hoeysn, ieh kQn aus ƒ swrI hXwqI moNhdy rhy sn[ ikauNik jd auh iksykwmy dI ikrq ƒ vyKdw qy auh aunHW dy ikrqI h`QW ƒ inhwrdw rihMdw sI[eydW aus ƒ pqw l`gw ik auh qW ikrq ƒ hI moh krdw hY[ l`kVI dI GwVqGVdy bMdy, aus ƒ ipAwry l`gdy sn[ K`fI ’qy bYTw bMdw irSmW dI qwxIqxdw l`gdw, luhwr dI sMnHI iv`c mGdw lohw, aus ƒ sUrj dI kwqrl`gdI, ikswn dw vgdw KUh, aus ƒ smyN dw gyV l`gdw...izMdgI ikMnIipAwrI hY, ikMnI mnmohxI pr auh ies qoN eynI jldI aukqwA ikvyNigAw ? Swied auhdy pwsoN ikrq K`us geI sI, auhdy kol kuJ vI krn jogwbwkI nhIN sI rih igAw[ aus ƒ Xwd AwieAw ik iksy ny ikhw sI, ikrqhI mnu`K hY, ikrq mnu`K ƒ bxwauNdI hY[ ieh swry ipAwry lok ikrq ny hIisrjy hn[ v`K v`K DMidAW ƒ krn vwly hunrvMd lok swry ikrq dI hIisrjnw sn, pr hux swfI pIVHI koloN ikrq ru`s geI hY, hux ieh lok,swfy lok nhIN rhy, hux ieh jnqw bx gey hn[ jnqw lok nhIN huMdy[jnqw iek BIV huMdI hY[ BIV kol kwrj nhIN, ivhl hMudI hY, aus kolkMm nhIN kyvl nwAry huMdy hn[

aus dy vyKidAW vyKidAW hI ikMnw kuJ bdl igAw sI[ lok pihlWjnqw bxy, iPr vot Aqy bwAd ivc kyvl kwZz dIAW prcIAW[ iesyleI hI Swied auh hor audws ho igAw sI, porSIAw dw kQn ik ies izMdgIkoloN mYN hor bhuq kuJ mMgdw jy iehdy kol dyx leI kuJ huMdw[ auh socdwik izMdgI kol qW hor vI dyx leI bhuq kuJ hY, pr auh igAw ikDr sBkuJ ? Swied swfIAW JolIAW iv`c hI Cyk ho gey hn[ izMdgI qW BrpUrhY jo s`B kuJ dyx leI KVI hY[ pr swƒ koeI v`l hI nhIN jW aus bwryswfw koeI h`k hI nhIN, Swied ieho kuJ soc ky auh izMdgI iv`coN jwx leIiqAwr ho igAw sI, aus ny soicAw ik jwx qoN pihlW aus ƒ kMmW dI coxkrnI cwhIdI hY[ sB qoN pihlW qW sMswrk irSiqAW ƒ Aqy ivhwrkvsqUAW dy moh ƒ C`fxw pvygw[ jd hux qur hI jwxw hY qW ies moh dwkI ArQ, jd qur hI jwxw hY qW irSqy iksy dy kI l`gdy hn ! irSqy qWloV Aqy moh dI sryS huMdy hn[ aus ƒ Xwd AwieAw ik ijhVy irSiqAWnwl auh swrI aumr moh v`s juiVAw irhw sI[ aunHW irSiqAW ny aus ƒ

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kI id`qw? aus ƒ l`igAw ijvyN auh swrI aumr irSiqAW dy Brm jwl iv`chI PisAw irhw hovy Aqy hux ijvyN auh ies swry kuJ qoN mukq ho jwxw cwhuMdwhovy[ sB qoN pihlW ienHW ƒ qoVnw cwhIdw hY, ies leI ienHW irSiqAWau~pr lkIr mwrnI zrUrI hY[ nhIN qW ho skdw hY ieho irSqy hI iksy mohv`s isMmxy SurU ho jwx Aqy mOq qoN bwAd vI auh ienHW irSiqAW dy mohiv`c DuKdw rhy[ auh auiTAw qy Awpxy pVHn vwly myz au~proN iek kwZzcu`k ilAwieAw, ijs au~pr aus ny bVw suAwr ky iliKAw, ‘AY myrI Aw^rImuh`bq ! hux mYƒ iejwzq dy, qW ik mYN ies izMdgI qoN ivdwA lY skW,ikauNik mYN izMdgI dw ‘issI&`s’ nhIN bxnw cwhuMdw ik mOq qoN durkwirAwmYN swrI aumr &rzW dy p`Qr hI FoNdw rhW[’

aus ny soicAw kwS myry pYrW hyT kyvl Ajyhy irSiqAW dI ryq hIhuMdI, ijs au~pr jd vI mYN pYr r`Kdw, myry pYr cu`kx qoN bwAd iCxW iv`chI imt jWdI, pr myrIAW mjbUrIAW ny mYƒ hmyS hI ig`ly &rS au~pr qurnleI mjbUr kIqw hY, jd vI irSiqAW dy ig`ly &rS qy quirAw hW, myrIpYV sdw sdw leI aus au~pr aukrI geI Aqy smyN dy bIq jwx dy nwlhI, auh pYV ielzwmW dw ru`K bx ky KVI ho jWdI rhI[ ieMJ hr irSqwhI DuAWiKAw igAw[

hW ! jwx leI mYƒ AwpxI iqAwrI Awpxy FMg nwl hI krnI cwhIdIhY, pihlW mYN ieh soc lvW ik iks qrqIb iv`c swrIAW GtnwvW ƒ r`KWik jwx iv`c sOK vI rhy Aqy sky-sMbMDIAW ƒ bhuqI qklI& vI nw hovy,jykr jnm myry v`s iv`c nhIN sI qW mOq qW myry v`s iv`c hY[ bwkI ijhVIg`l sky-sMbMDIAw dI hY, auh hux hYx vI ikhVy? ieh qW Swied moh dIAWqMdW hI hn, ijnHW ƒ AsIN Gu`t Gu`t ky PVn dw jqn krdy rihMdy hW[SwsqrW iv`c iliKAw hY ik jnm vI bMdy dy Awpxy v`s iv`c huMdw hY, XwnIbMdw Awpxy mW bwp, Awp cux ky hI ies sMswr iv`c AwauNdw hY[ aunHW iv`cqW ieh vI iliKAw hY ik au~prly jgq iv`c AwqmwvW dy vI Awpxy gru`phuMdy hn[ auh swrIAW AwqmwvW Awpxy Awpxy suBwA, AwdqW Aqy rucIAWAnuswr Awpxy Awpxy gru`p bxw ky iek`TIAW hI ivcrdIAW hn, ijhVIAWAwqmwvW aunHW qoN in`KV ky DrqI au~pr jnm lYNdIAW hn, auh aunHW dIAgvweI Aqy AOKy smyN aunHW dI shwieqw vI krdIAW hn, jnm lYx qoNpihlW hr Awqmw ƒ pqw huMdw hY ik aus ny aus jnm iv`c kI bxnw jWkrnw hY[ ausy Anuswr hI auh dyKdIAW hn ik ikhVy pirvwr jW ikhVymW bwp dy Gr jnm ilAW auh Awpxy AwSy dI prwpqI kr skdIAW hn[ausy hI ihswb nwl auh mW bwp dI cox krdIAW hn[

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gurUAW pIrW dy jIvn v`l JwqI mwrI jwvy qW ieh g`l TIk vI l`gdIhY[ jykr mYN Awpxy bwry vI socW qW ieh g`l iksy h`d q`k mYƒ Awpxy bwryvI s`c l`gdI hY[ mYN vI Swied ieho kuJ hI bxnw cwhMudw sI jo kuJ mYNhux q`k bx sikAw hW[ BwrqI drSn ieh vI kihMdw hY ik jnm qoN pihlWqy jnm qoN kuJ dyr bwAd q`k vI bMdy ƒ swrw kuJ Xwd rihMdw hY ik auhiks AwSy leI ies j`gq iv`c AwieAw hY, jnm qoN bwAd hOlI hOlI swrwkuJ Bul jWdw hY[ ^Yr mYN qW mrn dI g`l kr irhw sI ! mOq qW myry v`siv`c hY, mYN Awpxy FMg nwl hI, ies dyhI ƒ ^qm kr skdw hW[ b`s coxkrnI hI bwkI hY ik ieh s`B kuJ kIqw ikvyN jwvy? ieho cox krnI hIs`B qoN muSkl g`l l`gdI hY[ ieh cox vI nvyklI qy AjIbo-ZrIb hoxIcwhIdI hY[ zihr dw ipAwlw vI nhIN, sukrwq vWg zihr dw ipAwlw hoTWƒ lgwvW qy iPr kuJ dyr tihldw rhW qy lyt jwvW qy swrw kuJ ^qm[pr sukrwq ƒ zihr dw ipAwlw pIx leI mjbUr ikauN kIqw igAw sI?Swied ies leI ik aus ƒ ijaUx dI jwc Aw geI sI Aqy auh lokW ƒvI ijaUx dw mwrg d`sdw sI, izMdgI bwry suAwl pu`C p`uC ky auh mnu`Kƒ AjyhI QW jw KVw krdw sI, ij~QoN Agly ƒ izMdgI dw cwnx ho jWdwsI...

eynIAW sdIAW qoN bwAd vI jy mnu`K auho prMprk mOq mry qW kI g`lbxI? prMqU, ieh vI AjIb g`l hY ik dunIAw auqy AnykW bMdy Awey hn,ijhVy keI qrIikAW nwl mr gey hn[ aunHW ny koeI nvIN mOq rihx hInhIN id`qI[ ieMJ l`gdw hY, ijvyN mOq kol vI mnu`K ƒ mwrn dy bVy hI sImqswDn rih gey hn[ mnu`K Aqy mOq dw ÙdImI irSqw hY, dovyN hI ie`k dUjydy ByqI hn[ hux mOq kol vI bMdy ƒ mwrn dw koeI nvW qrIkw nhIN rihigAw[ iesy leI auh vI hux bwr bwr purwxy qrIky hI Apnw rhI hY[ idldI DVkx bMd ho jwxI, srIr iv`coN hrkq bMd ho jwxI, swh bMd ho jwxw,ieh qW aus dy swry purwxy hI FMg-qrIky hn[

aus ny soicAw ik mrn qoN bwAd mYN mukqI pw lvWgw jW myrw kuJnw kuJ ies dunIAw nwl vI sMbMD bixAw rhygw? ies bwry kdI aus nysoicAw hI nhIN sI ik Aw^r mrn qoN bwAd mnu`K nwl kI vwprdw hY?ies bwry ivcwr krnw vI bVw zrUrI hY, pr myrw igAwn kdI vI ies p`Drq`k nhIN sI phuMc sikAw, aus ny piVHAw sI ik iq`bqI BwSw iv`c 'bwfI'jW dyhI leI 'lU' Sbd vriqAw jWdw hY, ijs dw ArQ kuJ ip`Cy C`f jwxwhY[ ies dw mqlb ieh hoieAw jo kuJ vI dyhI ƒ ip`Cy C`f jWdw hY, auhkuJ hor hY[ ijs dI mYƒ smJ nhIN Aw rhI ikauNik ies jgq iv`c smyN,

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sQwn Aqy vsqU qoN bZYr vI hor bhuq kuJ hY, jo swfy igAwn, AnuBv,soc-smJ Aqy ieMdirAW dI pkV iv`c nhIN Aw irhw[

aus ƒ hIbrU BwSw dI ie`k pusqk Xwd AweI ijs iv`c iqMn iksmdIAW AwqmwvW dw izkr sI; bwby Awdm dIAW DIAW, &irSiqAW dIAWDIAW Aqy pwp dIAW DIAW[ aus ƒ ies kQn au~pr vI hwsw AwieAw,ijs iv`c ikhw igAw sI, piv`qr AwqmwvW &irSiqAW dy cuMmxW dIAWDIAW huMdIAW hn[ auh rUhW dIAW iksmW a~upr soc ky vI hYrwn hoieAw,ijs iv`c ikhw igAw sI, rUhW vI iqMn iksm dIAW huMdIAW hn : ÙYdI,iPrqU Aqy Awzwd[

aus ƒ ies suAwl au~pr ivcwr krnw kuJ cMgw cMgw l`gw: aus nysoicAw ieh ikMnI cMgI g`l hovygI, jykr jwx qoN pihlW aus Av`sQw bwryivcwr kr ilAw jwvy, ij`Qy aus ny jwxw hY [ hoNdvwd vwly kihMdy hn ikienswn bVI guMJldwr cIz hY, ikauNik nw qW ieh mwdw vsqU vWg AYtmWdI iv`DI nwl smiJAw jw skdw hY Aqy nw hI jIv-ivigAwn jW bnspqI-ivigAwn idAW sY~lW jW AxUAW, pRmwxUAW dI iv`DI nwl[ ies dw kwrnSwied ieh hovy ik ies iv`c koeI hor qIjw q`q vI mOjUd hY[ ijs dw koeIhor gux hovy, ijs ƒ mnùK duAwrw isrijq XMqr pkV hI nw skdy hox[

aus ƒ l`gw ik auh kuJ izAwdw hI fuMiGAweIAW iv`c phuMc igAwhY ! pqw nhIN ikauN auh hr Swm PYl jwxw chuMdw sI, srb-ivAwpk ho jwxwcwhuMdw sI, pUrI DrqI dw ivsqwr bx jwxw cwhuMdw sI[ auh cwhuMdw sI,ienHW ÛbsUrq vwdIAW, phwVW, Pu`l-bUitAW Aqy swrI kwienwq ƒ Awpxyklwvy iv`c lY lYxw, pr auh byb`s sI, mjbUr sI[

aus ƒ l`gdw ik auh kdI AMdrvwr Ku`lHdw hY Aqy kdI bwhrvwr,aus ƒ Awpxy AMdr vI auho hI, bRihmMf nzr AwauNdw sI Aqy bwhr vIauho hI[ auh iks ƒ PVy Aqy iks ƒ C`fy, ieho hI aus ƒ smJ nhIN sIl`g rhI[ hux qW aus ƒ ieh smJx dI vI loV nhIN sI rih geI[ ikauNikaus ny qW hux ieQoN qur hI jwxw sI, ies leI aus ƒ pihlW qur gey bMdycMgy cMgy l`gx l`g pey sn[

AiDAwie 2AiDAwie 2AiDAwie 2AiDAwie 2AiDAwie 2auh sihj Bwv nwl auiTAw, Awpxy aus kmry iv`c igAw, ijs iv`c

aus ny bhuq swrIAW ikqwbW r`KIAW hoeIAW sn[ aus ny ijhVI vI ikqwbh`Q AweI auho hI cùk leI[ Asl iv`c ikqwbW nwl aus ƒ moh sI, CotyhuMidAW qoN hI aus dw swQ ikqwbW nwl ho igAw sI, Swied ieho kwrn

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sI ik hux vI lokW nwloN auh ikqwbW dI dunIAw iv`c izAwdw rihMdw sI[ijs ƒ auh keI vwr BWjvwd vI kihMdw[ jdoN vI auh iksy g`loN hwrdw,auh ikqwbW ivc jw vVdw sI[ auh hìsAw, hwirAw qW auh hr g`loN hIsI[ ies leI aus dIAW swQI, ikqwbW hI bx geIAW sn[

auh Ajy ienHW socW iv`c hI fu`bw hoieAw sI ik bwhrlw drvwzw Kohlky ksqUrI lwl Awx hwzr hoieAw[ ieh ksqUrI pqw nhIN ikvyN aus dIizMdgI iv`c Awx dw^l hoieAw sI[

ksqUrI ny aus ƒ hor bhuqw socx dw mOkw hI nhIN sI id`qw, AwauNidAWhI aus ny iSAr ikhw:

‘ikSqI Aw jwqI hY, qU&wn cly jwqy hYN[XwdyN rih jwqI hYN, ienswn cly jwqy hYN[’

‘ikauN Bw jI ?’‘ikSqI ky fUb jwny kI, swihl ko ikAw ^br[iks pr CurI Xy c`l geI, Ùwql ko ikAw ^br ?’

aus ny ksqUrI v`l bhuqw iDAwn nhIN sI id`qw Aqy aus ƒ cu`p rihxdw Aqy ikAwrIAW iv`c gofI krn dw ieSwrw hI kIqw Aqy Awp iPrpurwxIAW socW iv`c vih quirAw[

aus ƒ Xwd AwieAw, Coty huMidAW vI auh hr vyly socW iv`c hI auliJAwrihMdw sI[ rwq ƒ sùiqAW vI auh supny iv`c aunHW QwvW qy phuMc jWdw ij~QyikqwbW hI ikqwbW huMdIAW[ supny iv`c hI auh koeI nw koeI ikqwb cùkdwqy aus ƒ pVHnw SurU kr dyNdw[ auh hYrwn huMdw ik jwgx qoN bwAd vI ausƒ supny iv`c pVHI hoeI iksy ikqwb dy Sbd hU-b-hU Xwd huMdy, ‘jb mnu`SiksI bwq ko jwn lyqw hY, vih s`c bolqw hY, s`c hI ivigAwn hY, AOrivigAwn hI ijigAwsw-Xog hY, AOr mqI BI ijigAwsw Xog hY, mqI AQvwmnn SrDw ky bZYr nhIN hoqI, SrDw inSTw ky bZYr dMB hY, ibnw krmky inSTw byPl hY, iesI lIey ikrq hI ijigAwsw ky Xog hY, ikrq ky bwAdhI suK kI prwpqI hoqI hY, iesI lIey suK hI ijigAwsw Xog hY’[ QoVHI dyrbwAd jd auh Awpxy Awp ivc AwauNdw, auh hYrwn huMdw ik auh kI duhrwAirhw sI[

jd auh sùqw auTdw hY qW aus ƒ l`gdw ijvyN auh iksy smwDI iv`coNauiTAw hovy ikauNik auh vI Awpxy Awp bwr bwr ieho ijhy Sbd hI duhrwAirhw huMdw :

‘aunmo audyS gurU jI ko, gur swgr gurDIn, jMgl jwey audwsI..AwTygr gr rhIey, drohI hƒmwn kI, drohI rwjy vw`sk kI, lMkw sY kos smuMdr

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sI KweI, iqs ky au~pr rwjy rwm cMdr kI duhweI, Awvy qW Awvy, nhIN qWbIr byqwl kI lwq Kwvy[’

keI vwr auh au~cI au~cI bol irhw huMdw, ‘nwm qoN v`fI vwxI, vwxIqoN v`fw mn, mn qoN v`fw sMklp, sMklp qoN v`fw ic`q, ic`q qoN v`fw iDAwn,iDAwn qoN v`fw igAwn, igAwn qoN v`fw ivigAwn, ivigAwn qoN v`fw bl,bl qoN v`fw AMn, AMn qoN v`fw jl, jl qoN v`fw qyj, qyj qoN v`fw AkwS,AkwS qoN v`fw ismrx, ismrx qoN v`fI AwSw Aqy AwSw qoN v`fw pRwx[Aqy pRwx qoN v`fw? pRwx qoN v`fw mYN’[ auh socx l`gdw ik pRwx qoN v`fwmYN ikvyN hoieAw? aus ƒ ies bwry bVy hI swDwrn bMdy dI g`l Xwd AweI,AKy Awp mry j`g prlo, ies leI jy mYN hW qW hI s`B kuJ hY, nwm AwSw,ismrx, AwkwS s`B kuJ myry nwl hI hn[

ieh socW socdw auh muV fUMGI nINd ivc phuMc jWdw[ sùiqAW suìqAWaus ƒ l`gdw ijvyN aus dI CwqI au~pr iksy ny bhuq hI v`fw p~Qr Drid`qw hovy, ijvyN aus ƒ d`bwA pY igAw hovy[ jd aus ƒ hoS AwauNdI qWauh Awpxy Awp ƒ pu`Cdw, auh ieh kI bolI jw irhw sI ? iPr jykr swryigAwn, iDAwn, ivigAwn, AMn, jl Aqy AwSw qoN v`fw pRwx hY qW mYNienHW ƒ Awpxy Awp lYx bwry ikauN soc irhw hW? kI pRwx swfy Awpxy hn?jW ieh iksy hor ny id~qy hn? swfy Swsqr AwKdy hn ik swƒ igxqI dyhI pRwx imly hn[ jo hr idn Gtdy jw rhy hn iPr mYƒ kwhlI krn dIkI loV pY rhI hY? pr mYN qW hux iqAwrI kr hI leI hY[ hux mYN ies iv`ciksy vI ivcwr dI rukwvt nhIN pw skdw[ ivigAwn vwly kihMdy hn ikpRwx mnu`K ny AwpxI shUlq leI Awp isrjy hn[ mnu`K ny AwpxI shUlqleI qW hor vI bhuq kuJ isrijAw hY jo hux aus dw ip`Cw nhIN C`f irhw,iesy leI hI Swied mnu`K hux aus qoN ip`Cw Cfwaux leI kdI jMglW ƒB`j irhw hY, kdI smwDIAW lgw irhw hY, kdI nSy kr irhw hY, kdIAwqmGwq kr irhw hY[

AsIN izMdgI nwl eynw moh pw lYNdy hW ik AsIN kdI vI mrnw nhINcwhuMdy, ieh ienswn jW iek`ly mnùK-mwqr dI hI g`l nhIN, sgoN hr jIauNdIcIz dI hI ieho Bwvnw huMdI hY ik auh kdy vI nw mry[ ie`k Coty qoN CotyjIv ƒ vI jdoN mOq dw ^qrw mihsUs huMdw hY qW auh vI Awpxy bcwA dykeI swDn Bwldw hY[ hr jIv socdw hY ik ijvyN swrw Asmwn aus ny hIQMimHAw hovy[ jd ik iksy dy jwx nwl kuJ vI &rk nhIN pYx l`gw, AsINmwieAw dy mgr dOVn dI Awdq pw leI hY[ AsIN mwieAw ƒ bMnH bMnH kykol r`Kxw cwhuMdy hW[ pr mwieAw swfy suAwsW vWg hI hY[ jd pihly bwhr

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Awauxgy qW hI Agly AMdr jwxgy, AsIN irSiqAW ƒ vI Gùt ky PVlYxw cwhMdy hW[ AsIN hr irSqy ƒ jkV lYx dw Xqn krdy hW[ irSiqAWƒ Aqy vsqUAW ƒ Bogx dw moh Kwry pwxI nwl qRyh buJwaux vWg hY, BogAqy iqRSnw auh pwxI hY, ijs dy pIx nwl ipAws hor vI BVkdI hY[ ijMnwvI iksy irSqy ƒ AsIN Gu`t ky PiVAw hovygw, aus dy Cu`tx qy Enw hI swƒizAwdw dùK hovygw[

mOq qoN bymu`K ho ky mnùK swrI aumr hor iqAwrIAW iv`c hI l`gw rihMdwhY[ nvyN Gr dI iqAwrI, nvyN kpiVAW dI iqAwrI, nvIAW KyfW dI iqAwrI,kdI kdI kuJ nvW ilKx dI iqAwrI, kdI nvyN irSqy bnwaux dI iqAwrIpr mnuK kdI aus cIz dI iqAwrI dw iÂwl nhIN krdw, ijs dI ikaus ƒ s`B qoN vD iqAwrI dI loV hY Aqy ieh hY auh iqAwrI XwnI ikmOq dI iqAwrI, pr mYƒ smJ nhIN Aw rhI ik auh iks qrIky nwl kIqIjwvy[

nIlkMq ny ikhw sI, swƒ mOq v`l jwx leI sihj-Bwv nwliqAwrIAW krnIAW cwhIdIAW hn[ ikauNik izMdgI dy ArQ mOq dy snmu`Khox iv`c hI inih`q hn[ mOq dy swhmxy hox leI mwnisk SWqI bVI zrUrIhY, izMdgI Aqy mOq ƒ kyvl ie`k juVvyN ju`t iv`c hI smiJAw jw skdwhY, ie`k dw AMq dUjy dI SurUAwq hI huMdI hY, isAwixAW ny ikhw hY, izMdgImOq iv`coN pYdw huMdI hY, ijvyN jwgxw nINd iv`coN, idn rwq iv`coN Aqy su`Kdu`K iv`coN jnm lYNdy hn[ ies g`l dw koeI pqw nhIN ik mOq swƒ iksmoV au~pr aufIk rhI hY, aus dI aufIk hI swfy qRws dw kwrn hY[ jykrAsIN aus dy BY qoN mukq hoxw cwhuMdy hW qW A`j qoN hI mOq ƒ aufIkxw SurUkr dyeIey qw ik aus qRws qoN mukq ho skIey, ijhVw mOq dI aufIk iv`coNNpYdw huMdw hY[ nIlkMq ny ieh vI ikhw sI, mnu`K ƒ s`B qoN v`fw BY qW mOqdw hI hY, pr ayus ƒ aus qoN vI v`fw BY qW mOq qoN pihlW vwly s&r dwhY, swfI rUh Aqy ijsm dy iv`CVn dy pl dw, Swied keI ijsm jW keIrUhW judw nhIN hoxIAW cwhuMdIAW, ieho hI klyS dw kwrn hY[ ivdvwn purSWdw ivcwr hY ik mOq qoN pihlW dI ieh Av`sQw, jrw Av`sQw hY, ijhVIik bVI iBAwnk huMdI hY, rogW BrI dyh pIVW dI JMBI, h`fIAW ƒ kVkwauxvwlI Aqy inmwxI ijMd ƒ qV&waux vwlI huMdI hY, ieh BYdwiek, frwauxI,KrHvI Aqy qRwsidk huMdI hY[ ieho hI Av`sQw hY, jd dyhI dy swry swQI swQC`fxw SurU kr dyNdy hn[ ienHW swQIAW dI mu`F kdImI sWJ dy tu`tx dwiBAwnk Ô& mnu`K ƒ BY dI Av`sQw iv`c lY jWdw hY Aqy aus ƒ gihrIiek`lqw dI frwauxI siQ`qI ivc prvyS krvwauNdw hY[

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Awid-kwl qoN lYky A`j q`k mnu`K ny eyny qrIky mrn dy Apnwey hnik hux l`gdw hY, ijvyN koeI hor nvW qrIkw hI nhIN rih igAw[ aus nypiVHAw sI, p`CmI smwj iv`c qW hux mOq ƒ vI nvIAW qknIkW dy pRBwvnwl hor qrHW ilAw jWdw hY, aunHW ƒ ieh smJ nhIN Aw rhI ik mOq jWmOq iv`c jW mOq qoN bwAd kI vwprdw hY ? ieMJ A`j dw mnu`K mOq v`lnkwrAwqmk ru^ Apnw irhw hY jW aus dy qRws iv`c jIaU irhw hY[ jdik pUrb ivclI mOq iv`c AwSw hY, aus iv`c nvInqw hY, ie`k izMdgI qoNdUjI izMdgI iv`c pRvyS hY, auh ivkws dy pihly qoN au~prly pVw dI SurUAwqhY, aus qoN bwAd vkq AwauNdw hY, qusIN s`B kuJ qoN mukq ho jWdy ho, Awzwdho jWdy ho[ aus ƒ mOq bwry pUrbI ivcwr cMgy l`gy, aus ƒ ienHW ivcwrWny bVI qs`lI id`qI[

aus ny soicAw ik isDWqk qOr qy BwrqI icMqn iv`c qy ^ws krky bu`Dm`q iv`c punr jnm dy isDWq ƒ mMnx dw AwDwr cyqnw dI lgwqwrqwiv`c hI hY, ies mwdw jgq dI hI audwhrx lE, swfy ies bRihmMf iv`c,sUKm qoN sUKm q`q dy p`Dr q`k muV BwilAw jw skdw hY[ cwrvwk-pMQIeykihMdy hn, mnuK dw audyS mokS hI hY, mokS jnm mrn qoN Cutkwrw hY,ieh Cutkwrw qW hI sMBv hY, jykr AsIN hr iksm dw Bog C`fIey. Bog pRqIie`Cw hI pwp hY, hr ^UbsUrq vsqU gunwh hY, hryk su`K, du`K dw kwrn hY[dUjy kihMdy hn, eISvr, nrk, sv`rg, puMn pwp s`B JUTy hn[ jdoN AwdmImr jWdw hY qW kuJ vI bwÙI nhIN bcdw, ies leI jdoN q`k ijaUNdy hW,sMswr iv`c hr prkwr dy Bog dw AwnMd mwxIey, Awpxy Awp ƒ iq`Rpq krIey,ikauNik pMun pwp dy BY qoN frnw gunwh hY, &zUl hY, bwkI s`B moK mwK nwmdI koeI cIz nhIN[

jYnIeyN mokS dIAW s`q pOVIAW mMndy hn[ jIv, AjIv, Awsrv, bMD,sMvr, inrjrw Aqy mokS q`q[ jIv Awqmw hY, AjIv Tos dR`v q`q hY XwnIik mnu`KI srIr[ ijs iv`c Awqmw invws krdI hY, ieMJ jIv Aqy AjIvdy sumyl qoN hI srIr bxdw hY[ ies leI mokS dw swDn jIv ƒ AjIvqoN vK krnw hY[ ies pRikRAw iv`c mnu`K ƒ igAwn hoxw cwhIdw hY ik jIv,AjIv qoN iblkul iBMn hY[ prMqU, suAwl ieh hY ik jIv qy AjIv dw AwpsIsMbMD juiVAw ikvyN ?

ies dw au~qr Awsrv hY, ik krmW nwl ijhVy sMskwr hoNd iv`c AwauNdyhn, aus dy kwrx hI jIv AjIv nwl b`J jWdw hY[ jdoN swDk ienHW krmsMskwrW qoN inrlyp rihMdw hY qW sv`rg dI pOVI cVHdw hY[

prMqU, krm qW pUrv jnm dy vI huMdy hn, aunHW pUrv jnm dy krmW

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dw kI krogy? iPr ienHW pUrv Arij`q sMskwrW qoN Cutkwrw pwauxw hI‘inrjrw’ hY?

ies srIr dy buFwpy nwl ihrdy dy AwkwS iv`c rihx vwlw bR`hm kdIvI bu`Fw nhIN huMdw Aqy nw hI ieh kdI mwirAW mirAw hY[ ieho hI AwqmwhY jo pwp qoN rihq hY[ aus ny soicAw ik jykr Awqmw pwp qoN rihq hYqW auh Agy iks ƒ szw dyx dIAW g`lW krdy rihMdy hn? pwp qW dyhIhI krdI hY jo ieQy hI rih jWdI hY, aus ƒ qW szw iml hI jWdI hY, jdaus ƒ swV ky suAwh kr id`qw jWdw hY jW im`tI hyT n`p idqw jWdw hYsdIAW qk szw Bogx leI[

auh ienHW pOVIAW iv`coN ikhVI pOVI dy iks fMfy au~pr KVw hY ? iesyg`l dI aus ƒ smJ nhIN Aw rhI[ kdI auh socdw hY ik myrI izMdgI eynIjldI ikvyN bIq geI ? ijvyN ieh lMG geI hY, ies qrIky nwl jIauxbwry qW aus ny kdI vI nhIN sI soicAw[ swrI aumr aus ƒ irSiqAW dIgrwmr hI nhIN smJ AweI, ho skdw hY mrn qoN pihlW mYƒ izMdgI dy keIswl, mhIny jW kuJ hMfwey hoey pl Xwd Awaux[

pwEl koloH dI ilKI ikqwb aus ny pVHI sI aus iv`c ikvyN ie`k muMfwiksy isAwxy ivdvwn ƒ ûSI dw Byd pu`Cx igAw ik KuSI dw Byd kI hYqy ies dunIAw iv`c ikvyN ivcrnw cwhIdw hY ? aus isAwxy dw ie`k bhuqhI v`fw mihl sI[ jIhdy iv`c bhuq hI ÛbsUrq rMg brMgy bUitAW dImInwkwrI kIqI hoeI sI, mihl dy cwr cu&yry bVy sohxy bUitAW dw bwZvI sI Aqy aus dy AMdr hor vI vyKx Xog QwvW sn[ jd muMfy ny aus ƒizMdgI dw Byq pùiCAw qW isAwxy ny ikhw, ‘qUµ iek cmcy iv`c QoVHw ijhwqyl pw lY Aqy myry mihl dw iek c`kr lgw ky Aw[ iPr mYN qYƒ izMdgIdw Byd d`sWgw pr iÂwl rhy ik ikqy cmcy vwlw qyl fu`lH nw jwvy[’ muMfyny auNj hI kIqw, cmcy iv`c qyl pwky qy cmcw h`Q iv`c PV ky auh mihlWv`l ƒ qur ipAw[ auh eynw sucyq sI ik aus dw swrw iDAwn ies g`l ivchI irhw, ikDry cmcy vwlw qyl fu`lH nw jwvy[

jd auh bVI swvDwnI nwl cmcy vwlw qyl shI slwmq vwips lYAwieAw qW isAwxy ƒ kihx lìgAw, ‘mhwrwj ! hux mYƒ izMdgI Aqy ûSIdw Byq d`so[’

isAwxw aus ƒ pu`Cx lìgAw, ‘pihlW qMU mYƒ ieh g`l d`s ik myrymihl iv`c qUM kI kuJ vyiKAw ? kI qMU prSIAw dy byl bUty vyKy ? kI qMU auhbwZ vyiKAw, ijs ƒ bxwaux iv`c myry keI swl l`gy sn[ kI qMU myrIlwiebRyrI vyKI, jIhdy iv`c dunIAw Br dIAW nhwieq AjIbo-ZrIb Aqy

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igAwn dy ^zwny vwlIAW ikqwbW peIAW hn [’muMfy ny ikhw, ‘nhIN, mYN qW auQy kuJ vI nhIN vyiKAw, myrw iDAwn qW

hr vyly qyl iv`c hI sI ik ikDry ieh c`mcy vwlw qyl hI nw fu`lH jwvy[iesy leI mYN ieh qyl bcwA ky quhwfy pws priqAw hW, mYN qy ikDry kuJvyiKAw hI nhIN[’

ivdvwn ny ikhw ik hux ieho c`mc cu`k qy auh swry nzwry muV ky vyKky Aw[ muMfy ny iPr auh qyl vwlw c`mcw cuìkAw qy qur ipAw, ies vwraus ny mihl iv`c kIqI mInwkwrI vyKI, &ùldwr kMDW qy C`qW vyKIAW, bwZvyiKAw, ijs dy cwr cu&yry phwVIAW sn[ aus ny ieh swrI ÛbsUrqI vyKIqy vwps prq AwieAw[ vwps Aw ky aus ny jo kuJ vyiKAw sI, swrw kuJaus ivdvwn purS ƒ dìsAw[

‘pr auh c`mcy vwlw qyl ik`Qy eI ?’ ivdvwn purS ny muMfy ƒ puìCAw[jd muMfy ny c`mcy vl iDAwn mwirAw qW aus ny vyiKAw ik swrw qyl

fu`lH cùkw sI[isAwxy ny muMfy ƒ ikhw, ‘mYN qYƒ ie`ko hI nsIhq kr skdw hW ik izMdZI

dw Aqy ûSI dw rwz ies g`l iv`c hY ik dunIAw dy swry nzwry vI vyKo,pr ieh g`l nw Bu`lo ik quhwfy kol iDAwn r`Kx qy sWBx leI vI kuJhY[’

aus ƒ hux ies g`l dI smJ nhIN l`gdI ik auh aus isAwxy dymuqwibk ikMnw ku TIk jW ikMnw ku Zlq jIivAw, pr hux kI kIqw jwskdw hY? jdoN ik izMdgI kdI vI rIpIt nhIN huMdI[ hux qW ieho hI bwkIrih igAw hY, auh koeI cMgI ijhI mOq l`By Aqy ies dunIAw ƒ Alivdwkhy, ijs nwl aus ƒ nw koeI iglw-iSkvw hY qy nw hI koeI moh muh`bq[izMdgI mYƒ irSiqAW dy kuJ tukiVAW dy rUp iv`c hI imlI sI, hux aunHWirSiqAW dw myry isr krzw hY, ies krzy ƒU mYN iks rUp iv`c auqwrW ? iesyhI suAwl dw au~qr nhIN smJ Aw irhw[ ies leI hux mYN izMdgI ƒ keIsuAwl pu`Cxw cwhuMdw hW, ijs dy juAwb nw izMdgI kol hn Aqy nw hIiksy hor kol[ isr& nIlkMq ny mYƒ ikhw sI, mYN qYƒ izMdgI dw Byq d`sWgw[

jd aus ny nIlkMq ƒ imlx dw smW Aqy sQwn puiCAw qW aus nyikhw sI, nIly phwV dI ip`T ip~Cy, ijQy bhuq swry dyvdwr dy dr`Kq golgol kqwrW iv`c fUMGI cwr cSm JIl duAwly cu`pcwp KVy hoxgy, ij~Qy hryhry Gwh dIAW FwlvIAW crWdW dUr dUr q`k PYlIAW hoxgIAW, aus nIlypwxI dI JIl kol mYN Gusmusy iv`c cùpcwp KVw hovWgw, aus smyN nw idnhovygw, nw hI rwq, nw cwnx hovygw Aqy nw hI hnyHrw, mYN qYƒ auQy imlWgw[

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‘Aqy idn ?’ aus dy mUMhoN A`BVvwhy hI inkilAw sI[‘idn? idn qUM Awp insicq kryNgw[ idn dI qW bwAd dI g`l hY,

pihlI g`l qW nIly phwV ƒ Kojx dI hY[’‘phwV nIly qW nhIN huMdy ? iPr ieh nIlw phwV ikQy hovygw ?’‘rMg vsqUAW iv`c nhIN huMdy quhwfI idRStI iv`c huMdy hn[’ nIlkMq

dw juAwb sI[‘iPr qusIN phwV ƒ nIlw ikauN ikhw ?’‘kyvl qyrI idRStI bdlx leI jd vsqUAW ƒ vyKx dI qyrI idRStI

bdl geI qW qYƒ izMdgI dy ArQW bwry kuJ nw kuJ igAwn hoxw SurU hojwvygw[ ijvyN ijvyN qYƒ smJ AwvygI, qyry swhmxy pey jgq Aqy vsqUAWdy rMg hor dy hor ho jwxgy[ iPr qyry leI ieh sMswr pwrdrSI ho jwvygwAqy ies pwrdrSqw iv`coN hI qYƒ izMdgI dy ArQ nzr Awauxgy, Aqy qUMizMdgI iv`c Awpxy rMg Brn Xog ho jwvyNgw[ ies leI myry pws aus smyNAwvIN jd qUM irSiqAW qoN mukq ho jwvyNgw Aqy qyry AMdr pwrdrSqw AwjwvygI[’

‘pr auh kdoN ?’‘aus smNy jdoN auh idn Awvygw jd mYN qYƒ nIly phwV au~pr Awaux

dw s`dw dyvWgw[’‘ieh s`dw qusIN kdoN dyvogy ?’ aus ny sihj Bwv nwl hI pu`iCAw sI[

‘ies dw Byq mYN kdI iksy ƒ nhIN id`qw, ies dw pqw aus smyN hI l`gdwhY jd ieh s`dw Aw hI jWdw hY ?’

‘quhwfw Bwv ^lIl ijbrwn dy pYZMbr qoN hY ? ijs ny lokW ƒ ikhwhoieAw sI ik myrw jhwz Awaux vwlw hY, jd auh Aw igAw qW mYN ausysmyN hI aus au~pr suAwr ho ky clw jwvWgw Aqy s`cmuc hI jd auh ie`kidn Awpxy KyqW iv`c hL vwh irhw sI qW aus ny AYlwn kr id`qw ikmyrw jhwz Aw igAw hY Aqy mYN jw irhw hW[’

smJx vwly smJ jWdy hn ik aus jhwz dw mqlb kI sI ? auh mOqdw hI jhwz sI[

Alim`qrw aus ƒ izMdgI dw Byd pu`CdI hY Aqy hor lok aus ƒ smwijkirSiqAW bwry pu`Cdy hn[ ie`k CotI ijhI phwVI au~pr KVy ho ky aus nylokW ƒ izMdgI dw Byd d`sxw SurU kIqw sI[

‘qUM kuJ kuJ TIk smiJAw hYN,’ kih ky nIlkMq plW iCxW iv`c hI Alopho igAw sI[

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AiDAwie 3AiDAwie 3AiDAwie 3AiDAwie 3AiDAwie 3aus ny soicAw ik keI vwr qW ieMJ vI l`gdw irhw hY ik mYN swrI aumr

&okI ie`zq bcwaux dI ^wqr hI dMB krdw irhw hW[ pr hux jd Aw^rIsmW mYN lY hI AWdw hY qW Gto Gt hux mYƒ iksy iksm dy dMB krn dIloV nhIN[ ieh swrw kuJ soc ky aus ny ic`ty kwZzW dw ie`k dsqw ilAwAqy Gr dy ivhVy iv`c KVy AMb dy ru`K hyT aus ny ie`k q`pV ijhw ivCwieAwqy A`gy munImW vrgI ie`k cONkI ijhI r`K ky bYT igAw[ auh kuJ ilKxwcwhuMdw sI[ ilKdw auh bVw G`t sI[ auh qW swrI aumr icqRkwrI hI krdwirhw sI[ keI keI idn auh GMitAW b`DI icqRkwrI krdw irhw sI pr iPrvI icqRkwrI iv`c auh Awpxw eynw nwm nhIN sI bxw sikAw ijMnI ikaus ƒ Aws sI, aus pws ivSy qW bhuq sn, imhnq vI aus ny bhuq kIqIsI, icqRkwrI bwry aus ny piVHAw vI bhuq sI pr iPr vI g`l nhIN sI bxskI[ swrI aumr aus dy mn AMdr ie`k i^lwA ijhw hI irhw sI, ijs ƒauh kdI vI Br nw sikAw, ieho i^lwA hI sI Swied, ijs ny aus dy AMdriksy BrpUrqw ƒ nhIN sI Awaux id`qw[ swrI aumr aus ƒ pqw nhIN iksdI aufIk rhI sI[

hux eyny swlW dI aumr hox qy aus ƒ Acwnk i^Awl AwieAw ikhux cly hI jwxw cwhIdw hY, hux hor bhuqIAW t`krW mwrn dI loV nhINsI jwpdI, jy vyiKAw jwvy qW aus ny swrI aumr isvwey kwZz rMgx Aqykwly krn dy hor kIqw vI kIh sI ?

hux auh cwhuMdw sI ik kuJ nw kuJ qW ieho ijhw hoxw cwhIdw hY, ijsƒ Alokwr ikhw jw sky !

iesy leI auh kwZzW dw d`Qw lY ky bYT igAw qy aus au~pr ilKxwSurU kIqw, ‘jo ilKWgw s`c ilKWgw pr myrw ieh s`c ieiqhwsk pRsMg nwloNt`uitAw hovygw qW ik hornW dy irSiqAW iv`c qRyVW nw pY jwx[ iPr ausny iliKAw: AsIN auh nhIN jo AsIN ijaU rhy hW ikauNik swƒ ieMJ jIauxleI mjbUr kIqw igAw hY, AsIN auh hW jo AsIN ijaUxw cwhuMdy hW qy auhswƒ ijaUx nhIN idqw igAw[ aus ƒ Xwd AwieAw ik aus ny ikDry piVHAwsI ijhVy AigAwnI ies sMswr qoN AwpxI Awqmw ƒ jwxy bgYr hI ieQoNcly jWdy hn, aunHW dI ies sMswr iv`coN gqI nhIN huMdI[ iesy qrHW ijhVyivAkqI ijs lok dI ie`Cw krdy hn, aus ƒ ausy lok dI hI prwpqI huMdIhY, ijs pdwrQ dI koeI ie`Cw krdw hY, aus ƒ ausy pdwrQ dI prwpqIhuMdI hY jo ijs ivAwkqI dI pRwpqI cwhuMdw hY, aus ƒ ausy ivAkqI dIpRwpqI huMdI hY[

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ies kQn au~pr Awx ky auh ruk igAw aus ny AwpxI bIqI izMdgIbwry soicAw aus ny iks iks ƒ pRwpq krn bwry soicAw sI Aqy kOx kOxpRwpq hoieAw?

jd ip`Cy vl iDAwn mwrdw qW l`gdw hY ik ijvyN Ajy vI auh kuJnhIN kr sikAw jo kuJ aus dy izMmy lìgAw sI[ vkq hI nhIN sI imlsikAw mnu`K dI izMdgI iv`c eyny ku swl Awi^r huMdy vI ikMny hn? jdbIq cu`kI izMdgI v`l iDAwn mwrdw hW qW swl Aqy mhIny Coty Coty l`gxl`g jWdy hn[ aus Ajy hor vI ikMny kMm krny sn, icqRkwrI iv`c AwpxwSwhkwr bnwauxw sI, hOlI hOlI bMdw ikMnw ru`J jWdw hY, hux jd mrn dw&Yslw hI kr ilAw hY qW ieMJ l`gdw hY ijvyN ikMny hI kMm krn vwly rihgey hn[ bhuq kuJ sI ijs ƒ aus ny Ajy inbyVnw sI[

aus ny soicAw ik bMdy ƒ Awpxy kMm dI vMf ies ihswb nwl krnIcwhIdI hY ik auh izMdgI dy v`D qoN v`D pl ijaU sky, pr ieQy suAwlieh pYdw huMdw hY ik Awi^r ijaUx dy kI ArQ hn ? rotI pwxI leI B`jyiPrnw hI ijaUxw hY? jW rotI pwxI Kwxw hI izMdgI hY? ivAwh SwdIAWdy smwgm inBwauxw izMdgI hY jW mirAW hoieAW dy BogW iv`c Swiml hoxwhI izMdgI hY? mih&lW sjwauxw jW kyvl pVHnw ilKxw hI izMdgI hY?jW kyvl lok nwiekW vWg ieSk iv`c hI sB kuJ lutw dyxw hI izMdgIhY? ijMnI dyr ies g`l dI smJ nhIN AwaNudI, EnI dyr izMdgI ƒ jIivAwikvyN jw skdw hY? izMdgI dy ArQ eynI jldI smJ Awaux vwly nhIN[pr nIlkMq ny ikhw sI ik izMdgI auho ijhI hI hY ijho ijhI qusIN iesƒ vyKdy ho, iblkul auvyN hI ijvyN AYtm dI nwBI iv`cly inaUtrwn ƒ jdoNivigAwnI Tos mwdw kx dy rUp iv`c vyKdw hY qW auh Tos mwdw kx idsdwhY pr jd auh aus ƒ qrMg vWg vyKdw hY qW auh ausy vyly qrMg vWg hojWdI hY[ ies dw ArQ ieh hoieAw ik vsqU dI hoNd quhwfI idRStI au~prhI inrBr krdI hY, ieho hwl du`K qy su`K dw hY[ sMswr ƒ vyKx dI idRStIhI du`K ƒ su`K iv`c qy sùK ƒ du`K iv`c bdl rhI hY[ ies leI AwpxI idRStIƒ syD iv`c r`Ko, pr kdI ieh nw Bùlo ik qusIN kdI nw kdI AwpxI auspIVHI dy snmu`K vI hoxw hY, ijnHW quhwfIAW kwrguzwrIAW bwry vI quhwnUMpu`Cxw ig`Cxw hY[

aus ny iliKAw, ieh vI Xwd r`Ko ik kdI iksy ƒ sMpUrn ho jwx dwiehsws nw krwau[ quhwfy kol Aw ky jy auh sMpUrn ho igAw qW iPr auhkdI vI muV ky quhwfy pws nhIN Awvygw[ quhwfI aufIk hI quhwfI hoxIbx jwvygI[ swrI aumr qusIN izMdgI dy hwx dy hox dI koiSS krdy rihMdy

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ho pr auh keI vwr qW quhwfy au~proN dI h`Q Pyr ky lMG jWdI hY jW iksyÛbsUrq muitAwr vWg pqw nhIN kdoN quhwƒ Bog ky ikDry hor clI jWdI hY[

jd auh Awpxy Awp iv`c AwieAw qW aus ny soicAw, myry leI mW bwp,BYYx, Brw jW iksy hor irSqy dw koeI vI ArQ nhIN[ jd qoN hoS sMBwlIhY prwey qy ibgwny irSiqAW dI aulJx iv`c hI auliJAw irhw hW[

auh idn pqw nhIN ikho ijhw mnhUs sI[ jd iksy ny pqw nhIN mKOlvjoN jW s`c mu`c hI aus ƒ ikhw sI ik ijs ƒ qMU bwp smJ irhw hYN, auhqyrw bwp nhIN, Asl iv`c auh qyrw cwcw hY[ qyrw ipau auh hY ijs ƒ qMUqwieAw kihMdw hYN[ aus ƒ ies g`l dI bVI hYrwnI hoeI, auh ny vI soicAwik g`l TIk vI ho skdI hY ikauNik qwieAw aus ƒ Awpxy ipau nwloN vIizAwdw ipAwr krdw sI[ aus dy vI do hor pu`qr sn[ auh Awpxy dohW pu`qrWnwloN vI aus ƒ izAwdw ipAwr krdw sI, aus ny kdI Awpxy dohW pu`qrWiv`coN iksy ƒ ku`CV nhIN sI cuìkAw[ aus ƒ auh hr vyly ku`CV cu`k kymyrIey f`fIey ! f`fIey !! kihMdw rihMdw sI qy kMDwVy cùk ky hr vyly hUty dyNdwrihMdw sI[

jd auh mOq bwry socdw hY qW aus dy iDAwn iv`c AwauNdw hY ik iehqW bcpn qoN hI aus dy ip`Cy l`gI hoeI hY[ jd auh in`kw ijhw hI sI qWiksy cIz qoN ru`s ky dwixAW vwly AMdr CVIAW mwrdw izd kr irhw sIqy ausy rwq aus dy ig`ty au~pr nIly rMg dw Cwlw auBr AwieAw sI, ijhVwpIV dIAW cskW nwl ausdIAW cIkW k`FI jw irhw sI, kihMdy sn ik iesƒ k`K l`g igAw hY qW aus dy qwey, jo ik aus dw AslI ipau sI, ny ausƒ moiFAW ’qy cùikAw qy qIjy ipMf ielwj leI jw irhw sI[ ipau dy l`Kkihx qy ik pu`q qUM hux myry kol Aw jwh qyrw qwieAw Q`k igAw hY qWvI auh qwey ku`CVoN nhIN sI au~qirAw[ ieh Swied Ûn dI iK`c sI[ iPrisAwxy ny aus dy ipau ƒ inMm dIAW twhxIAW qoV ky ilAwaux leI ikhwsI[ auhdw ipau pqw nhIN rwq dy hnyry iv`c ik`QoN inMm dIAW twhxIAWl`B ky lY AwieAw sI[ nwl dI nwl isAwxw inMm dI twhxI nwl JwVwkrI jWdw sI qy nwl nwl koeI mMqr pVHI jWdw sI, pIV aus dI l`q qoNhtdI htdI nIly Cwly dy kol iek`TI huMdI jWdI sI Aqy inMm dIAWtwhxIAW dy p`qy su`kdy jWdy sn[ jdoN k`K dw swrw zihr ie`k QW iek`Twho igAw qW isAwxy ny aus dy ipau ƒ bwhroN A`k dI twhxI ilAwaux leIikhw, rwq dy hnyry iv`c vI auh pqw nhIN A`k dI twhxI ik`QoN l`B kyilAwieAw[ twhxI lYky isAwxy ny aus dy tukVy krky aus iv`coN iC`lqWbxw leIAW, jd swrw kuJ iqAwr ho igAw qW hkIm ny aus ƒ ikhw ik

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AOh Asmwn iv`coN pqw nhIN kI if`gdw AwauNdw hY? jd aus ny Asmwnvl JwqI mwrI qW hkIm ny auh iC`lqW vwlI twhxI aus dy Cwly iv`cKBo id`qI sI ie`k vwr qW aus dIAW cIkW inkl geIAW sn, Cwlw iP`sxdI dyr sI ik aus ƒ pIV vloN TMf pY geI[ vwps muVidAW auh qwey dymoFy l`gidAW hI sON igAw sI[

QoVHw v`fw ho ky aus ƒ swrI g`l dw pqw l`g hI igAw ik ijs ƒauh qwieAw kihMdw sI auh hI aus dw AslI bwp hY Aqy aus ƒ Coty huMidAWhI cwcy cwcI dw pu`q bxw id`qw sI ikauNik aunHW dy Gr koeI AOlwd nhINsI hoeI, cwcI ny aus ƒ skI mW vWg hI ipAwr id`qw sI pr cwcI jldIhI r`b ƒ ipAwrI ho geI qy auh ie`k vwr iPr mW-mih`tr ho igAw sI, kuJswlW bwAd cwcy XwnI aus dy dUjy ipau ny aus leI ie`k hor mW lY AWdIsI[ nvIN mW ny AwauNidAW hI pqw nhIN aus dy ipau ƒ kI suMGw id`qw sIik auh iblkul fuMn-v`tw ho igAw sI[ GMitAW b`DI auh ijQy KloNdw KloqwhI rihMdw, mUMh iv`c Awpxy Awp nwl hI g`lW kr kr ky h`sdw rihMdw,hYrwnI nwl AYNvy hI hvw iv`c h`Q mwrdw rihMdw, vHWFy jwky keI keI idnmuVdw hI nw, jykr bwhr kMm ƒ jWdw qW pYlIAW dIAW v`tW au~pr GMitAWb`DI bYTw rihMdw, jy p`Ty v`Fx l`gdw qW ieh iKAwl hI nw rihMdw ikikMny ku v`Fxy hn, keI vwr qW pUrI dI pUrI pYLI hI v`F dyNdw qy keIvwr swrI swrI idhwVI pYlI dy bMny hI bYTw rihMdw, qwey ny keI hkImWƒ ivKwieAw, keI jVI bUtIAW kIqIAW pr koeI &rk nw hoieAw, ipMfvwly AwKdy ik swDU suBw ho igAw hY, m`Kx isMG dw[ auh keI keI idnnhwauNdw hI nw, jy nhwaux l`gdw qW ikMnI ikMnI dyr nhwauxoN hI nw h`tdw[keI vwr A`DI A`DI rwq ƒ kysI ieSnwn krky gutkw lY ky pwT krn l`gdwqy pihr dy qVky q`k pwT hI krdw rihMdw[ keIAW dw ivcwr sI ik auhdyau~pr swieAw ho igAw hY iksy dw, pr iks dw? Ajy ipCly idnW iv`cqW cMgw Blw sI[ kuJ lok kihMdy sn ik pihlI Gr vwlI dw swieAw hYkeI kihMdy sn ik nvIN Gr vwlI dy kql hoey Gr vwly dw pRyq cMbVigAw hY[ aus dw Gr vwlw mwirAw vI qW bVI burI qrHW igAw sI[ d`sxvwly d`sdy hn ik jdoN aus ƒ mwirAw igAw sI qW ieh dovyN jIA koTyau~pr mMjIAW fwh ky su`qy pey sn[ auh pMj jxy Awey, koTy dy au~pr ausdy Gr vwly ƒ aunHW ny su`qy pey ƒ hI n`p ilAw, isr ausdw pYNd iv`c dyilAw qy au~proN dI fWg Psw ky dohW hIAW dy hyToN dI lMGw id`qI sI[ iPrpotw potw krky v`iFAw sI[ ieh aus ƒ v`FINdy ƒ vyKdI rhI qy su`qI hoxdw bhwnw lw ky Gys mwr ky peI rhI, ikho ijhI znwnI hovygI ? ijhVI

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kql hMudy pqI ƒ vyK ky ieMJ peI rhI !socW iv`coN vwips muiVAw qW auh hYrwn hoieAw ik ikDr dw ikDr GuMm

AwieAw sI auh[ hux nw mW hY, nw qwieAw hY, Aqy nw cwcw hY, nw hIcwcI, hW ! keI icr pihlW jd mW Ajy ijaUNdI sI qW aus ny bVI s`Drnwl AwiKAw sI :

‘pu`q hux ivAwh krvw lY’’qW aus dw juAwb sI, ‘mW iek vwr ikDry cVHweI hoeI cIz ikDry hor

nhIN cVHweI jWdI[’’‘qy iPr qYƒ smJ Aw hI geI swrI g`l dI, AsIN AYvyN hI swrI aumr

qyry koloN swrw kuJ lukwauNdy rhy[’’hMJUAW nwl aus dIAW g`lHW Awp-muhwrIAW hI ig`lIAW ho geIAW sn[

cuMnI dI kMnI nwl hMJU pUMJidAW mW boldI rhI, ‘pu`q ! pRwl`Bq bVI fwhFIhuMdI hY[ jo iksmq iv`c huMdw hY[ auho hI imldw hY[ qyrI cwcI dI GwtmYQoN J`lI nhIN sI jWdI, qyry qoN pihlW qW myry qyry qoN v`fy do sn[ qyry cwcycwcI ƒ bVI qyrI loV sI[ mYN soicAw aunHW dw idl vI TMfw rhygw[ auNjvI qyrw cwcw mYƒ koeI G`t moh nhIN sI krdw[ mYN jdoN nvIN nvIN muklwvyAweI sI qW iehdy qoN cwA hI nw sWiBAw jwvy[ mYN jdoN Awpxy sUt lwhky ik`lI qy tMgxy qW iehny aunHW ƒ hI j`Py mwrdy rihxw qy kihxw BwbIikMnI mihk AwauNdI hY, qyry lIiVAW iv`coN qy iPr swrI idhwVI myry A`gyip`Cy pUx slweI vWg GuMmdy rihxw[ in`kw huMdw ikMnw Bolw qy ikMnw cMgwhuMdw sI iPr mYN AwpxI h`QIN ivAwihAw sI[ Awh dUjy ivAwh qoN pihlWqW cMgw Blw irhw iPr pqw nhIN kI ho igAw, auNj hI dIn dunIAW dIkoeI surq loA nhIN sI rih geI[ vyK pu`q mYN ikMnI iek`lI rih geI hW ?qyry qoN v`fy vI dovyN DoKw dy gey, ipau qyrw vI plW iv`c hI mUMh Pyr igAw[hux AwpW iqMny hI rih gey hW, mYN qyrw cwcw qy qMU, cwcy qyry ƒ auNj koeIsurq loA hI nhIN[ ies Gr dw swrw Bwr hux qyry isr qy hI hY, AsIN qWlMGw leI swrI aumr iesy qrHW hI BMn G`t kridAW[’

‘ieho qW du`K ey mwqw ik bMdw swrI aumr Bwn Bunw Bunw ky hI socdwrihMdw hY ik ausdy pYsy vD gey hn, jd ik Asl vwDw kdI vI nhIN huMdwAqy ij`QoN q`k myrw, qyrw jW cwcy dw sMbMD hY, auhdy bwry g`l ieh hY ikiekl`ivAw ny iek vwr mYqyReI ƒ ikhw sI, hy mYqRyeI ! pqI dy pRXojn leIpqI ipAwrw nhIN huMdw, Awpxy hI pRXojn dy leI pqI ipAwrw huMdw hY,lokW dy pRXojn dy leI lok ipAwry nhIN huMdy, Awpxy hI pRXojn dy leIlok ipAwry huMdy hn[’

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‘qyrIAW g`lW dI mYƒ smJ nhIN AwauNdI pu`qr! Sihr jwky qMU bhuq bdligAw hYN, qyrI bol bwxI hux swfI smJ qoN bwhr ho geI ey, qyrI ie`k ie`kg`l dy keI keI ArQ inkldy ny, swƒ ienHW dI smJ ikvyN Awvy ?’

‘is`DI g`l ey mW AwpW cwcy ƒ Gr lY AweIey, auh myrw, quhwfw bxwieAwhoieAw ipau ey, qy qMU myrI mW eyN, hux ies irSqy qoN B`jdy ikauN ho? kI myrImW qy myry ipau dw Awps iv`c koeI irSqw nhIN? koeI sMbMD nhIN? bwkImYN qW hux ieQy kdI rihxw nhIN, qyrw vI hux hor koeI Awsrw nhIN[ qMUAwp jw ky cwcy dI bWh PVky Gr lY Aw, auh is`DI swdI Awqmw hY[ ausny qyry hI ^Un ƒ Awpxw smJ ky swrI aumr pwilAw hY ? Aqy pMun pwpvI qW AsIN Awp hI bxwey hn[ AsIN kihMdy hW ik ieh jIvn kuJ nhIN,ieh swrw sMswr mwieAw hY, ieh jgq kUV hY...su`K auh kuJ nhIN jo iesjIvn iv`c imldw hY, sgoN su`K qW auh hY jo mrn qoN bwAd imldw hY[iesy krky hI AsIN swrI aumr kuVHdy rihMdy hW, srIr ƒ du`K dy dy ky mwniskXwqnwvW Bogdy hW, nw ieh izMdgI hI swfy h`Q AwauNdI hY Aqy nw hIAglI, jIhdy bwry swƒ kuJ vI pqw nhIN[’

pqw nhIN ik auh ikMnI dyr AwpxI mW ƒ ieho ijhw dwrSink BwSndyNdw irhw Aqy ie`k auh sI ik jo t`s qoN m`s nhIN sI hoeI[ auh irSiqAWdIAW qxwvW ƒ Gu`t ky PVI swho swh hoeI, auhdy vl iBAMkr A`KW nwlvyKI jw rhI sI, ijvyN kih rhI hovy, myry pytoN jMm ky myrI hI im`tI pu`tdyƒ qYƒ Srm nhIN AwauNdI ?

auh qur AwieAw sI, sdw sdw leI, s`B kuJ C`f ky irSiqAW dIAWhr iksm dIAW qMdW ƒ C`f Cufw ky, nw aus ƒ mW dw moh hI rok sikAw,nw ipau cwcy dw ipAwr Aqy nw hI aus dI qrs Xog hwlq hI aus ƒrok skI[

jdoN qoN auh ipMf C`f ky AwieAw sI, hux q`k aus ny ip`Cy BON ky nhINsI vyiKAw, mW pRqI auh Awpxw iksy iksm dw &rz hI nhIN sI smJdw,aus ny qW aus ƒ jMmidAW hI iksy hor ƒ dy id`qw sI[ aus dy ivcwr ivchux aus ƒ Awpxw h`k jmwaux dw AiDkwr hI nhIN sI[ cwcw aus dwauNj kuJ nhIN l`gdw[ iPr auhny kIhdy leI vwips prqxw sI?

ieh swrw kuJ ilKdy ilKdy auh Q`k igAw sI, aus ny l`k is`Dw krnleI AMgVweI leI, cwr c&yry vyiKAw hr pwsy ^UbsUrq Pu`l iKVy hoey sn,auT ky auh tihlx l`g ipAw qy cwr cuPyry ƒ nIJ lw ky vyKx l`gw, swhmxyl`gy AwVU dy Pu`l vI twhxIAW iv`coN Jwkx l`g pey sn[

vwps Aw ky auh iPr AwpxI q`pVI au~pr bYT igAw qy AYNvyN hI ic`ty

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kwZzW au~pr ilKx l`g ipAw, jo PùlW ƒ ipAwr krdw hY, Pu`lW nUM A`givc nhIN pwauNdw, jo pwlqU Pu`lW ƒ ipAwr krdw hY, ies dw ArQ hY ikauhdy kol pwxI dI bhuqwq hY Aqy jd pwxI dI ik`lq ho jWdI hY qW pwlqUPu`lW ƒ vI koeI pwxI nhIN dyNdw[’

PùlW Aqy pwxI dI Xwd AwauNidAW hI aus ƒ iPr ie`k vwr aus ichrydI Xwd AweI, jIhny aus ƒ pu~iCAw sI ik jy mYN mr geI qW qMU kI kryNgw?aus dw juAwb sI ik mYN qyry Gr vwilAW ƒ khWgw ik ies dI lwS mYƒdy idau[

‘pr qUM mYƒ ijaUNdI nUM hI ikauN nhIN mMg lYdw ?’‘mYN dwrSink hW, AwdrSvwdI hW[’‘nhIN! qUM buzidl hYN, BwvnwvW ƒ nw smJx vwlw’, auh pqw nhIN

kI kI bolI jw rhI sI[hwr ky aus ny kyvl eynw hI ikhw ik mYN iksy irSqy dy bMDn b`Jxw

nhIN cwhuMdw[ mYN Awzwd rihxw cwhuMdw hW hvw dy vWg !‘ies kwienwq iv`c koeI Awzwd vI hY ? ieh qyrw BulyKw hI hY[ qYƒ

pqw hoxw cwhIdw hY ik hvw vI Awzwd nhIN[ hvw sUrj Aqy AwkwS dIZulwm hY, jykr hvw Awzwd huMdI qW ieh smyN smyN idSwvW nw bdldI[ieh kdI J`KV nw bxdI, hnyrIAW nw bxdI, pOx bxky rumkdI vI nw,iesy leI bwbw jI ny ikhw hY, s`B kuJ hukm iv`c hY, hor sux ieh hukmiksy hukmrwn jW iksy hwkm dw hukm nhIN, hukm qoN bwby dw Bwv: isstm,inXm, isDWq Aqy mirAwdw hI hY[’ auh bolI jw rhI sI Aqy auh kyvlkdI aus v`l vyKdw Aqy kdI au~cIAW phwVIAW dIAW tIsIAW v`l,ijhVIAW Afol KVIAW sn[ aus ny soicAw ik auh vI kdI ieMJ hI AfolKVy hox dw Xqn krygw[ ijs ƒ irSiqAW dy moh dIAW hnyrIAW kdI vIJukwA nw skx[

BUq iv`c guAwicAw auh pqw nhIN kI kuJ socdw irhw, aus ƒ pqwhI nw lgw ik kd ksqUrI lwl aus dy kol cwh dw k`p r`K igAw sI[

socW iv`coN vwips prq ky aus ny ksqUrI lwl bwry socxw SurU kr id`qw[aus ƒ ksqUrI bVw AjIb iksm dw jIv lìgAw, ijs dw ies sMswr iv`ckoeI vI nhIN sI, ksqUrI auhdy kol kdoN AwieAw Aqy ikvyN Aw igAw,iesdw aus ƒ vI koeI pqw nhIN sI[ A`jk`l auh ksqUrI dI hoNd qoN vIkqrwaux l`g ipAw sI[ ieh soc ky auh muskrwieAw qy buVbuVwieAw, ikMnWpwxI lMG cùkw hY ienHW pulW hyToN[

aus ny ilKxw bMd kIqw cwh pIx dw aus ƒ iÂwl hI nw irhw, auh

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peI peI hI TMfI ho geI sI[ Awpxw swmwn sWiBAw Aqy sUrj v`l vyiKAwijhVw hOlI hOlI hyTW jw irhw sI[ aus ƒ ieMJ l`gw ijvyN ilKdy ilKdydyr ho geI hovy, aus ny aus pYNfy dw AMdwzw lgwieAw, ijs ƒ aus ny Ajyqih krnw sI Aqy Awpxy ilKy hoey nUM dirAw-burd krnw sI[

AMdr jw ky aus ny &kIrW vwlw auh coLw pwieAw, ijhVw kdI ausny BUry rMg dy kMbl iv`c glmw k`F ky bxwieAw sI, Awpxy ilKy hoey kwZzWƒ aus ny ieMJ sMBwilAw, ijvyN koeI bhuq hI piv`qr dsqwvyz hovy, iPrauh Fldy sUrj v`l ƒ ho quirAw, cwr cu&yry bIAwbwn sI, d`B Aqy srkVyiv`c ie`k CotI ijhI fMfI bxI hoeI sI, jIhdy iv`c qwzw mINh pYx krkyd`B dy sUey inkly hoey sn, ieho sUey, aus ƒ Xwd AwieAw ik ikvyN in`kyhuMidAw, aus dy pYrW iv`c Grc krky lMG jwieAw krdy sn, pr A`j pYrWiv`c ju`qI huMidAW vI, auh aus ƒ aunHW sUieAW qoN fr l`g irhw sI, ijvyNAjy vI auh sUey jùqI dw qlw pwV ky auhdy pYrW ƒ ivMnHx dy smr`Q hox,rohI qy ibAwbwn lMG ky aus ipMf dy nyVy phuMicAw, ijhVw ik bVI AjIbiksm dw sI, ijhdy iv`c ie`k vI Gr sbUqw nhIN sI, keI dyr qoN iehivrwn Qyh hoieAw ipAw sI[ ikDr cly gey hoxgy ies ipMf dy lok? ikMnwkuJ vkq dy nwl nwl byloVw ho jWdw hY qy hux aus ƒ Awpxw Awp vIbyloVw jwipAw ! aus ny keI vwr Awpxy bwry qy AwpxI ies izMdgI bwrysoicAw sI[ ipMf dI Fwb nyVy ipMf dw au~cw Qyh...kI ieh au~cw Qyh ikDrynIlI phwVI qW nhIN ? Aqy pwxI dI ieh fUMGI Fwb ikDry auh nIlI JILhI nw hovy ijs dw izkr nIlkWq ny kIqw sI[ jd aus ny aus ƒ izMdgIdy ArQ pu`Cy sn izMdgI hor kIh hY ieho Qyh kdI hsdw v`sdw ipMf hovygw,ij`Qy kdI lok ijaUNdy Aqy h`sdy Kyfdy rhy hoxgy, ieh ivrwn Qyh mYƒ izMdgIdy kI ArQ d`s skdw hY? ieho g`l hI mYN nIlkMq ƒ pu`Cxw cwhuMdw hW[

ipMf qoN A`gy lMG ky auh CoilAW dy v`F iv`c dI ho igAw, fWfy-mINfyqurdw auh muVHko muVHkI ho igAw[ aus ny vyiKAw ik A`gy bwby nON-gzIeypIr dI kbr sI[ ijsdy isrhwxy bhuq hI sMGxw qy JWtlw hirAw BirAwip`pl KVw sI, grmI qoN bcx leI auh do GVIAW ip`pl hyT Klo ky swhlYxw cwhuMdw sI[ auh ip`pl dI sMGxI CW hyT KVw vI hoieAw[ QoVHI dyrau~Qy KVy KVy ƒ iÂwl AwieAw ik auhdy pws qW vkq hI bVw G`t rihigAw hY[ hux swh lYx dw jW srIr ƒ sùK Awrwm dyx dw kI ArQ rihigAw? Awpxy ilKy hoey kwZzW au~pr aus ny iPr ingwh mwrI, aus ƒlìgAw ijvyN Ajy bhuq kuJ ilKx vwlw bwkI rih igAw hovy[ bhuq swrIAWGtnwvW ijhVIAW aus dI pkV iv`c hI nhIN sI AweIAW, ijvyN auh aunHW

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dI ayus ihswb nwl qrqIb hI nw dy sikAw hovy, ijvyN ik auh bhuq swrIAWGtnwvW jo ik Ajy vwprIAW nhIN sn, vwprnIAW cwhIdIAW sn[ ausny soicAw ik bMdy dI izMdgI iv`c ikMnW kuJ AxcwihAw vwpr jWdw hYpr jo bMdw cwhuMdw hY ik vwpry auh kdI vI nhIN vwprdw[

sUrj v`l JwqI mwridAW auh kuJ icMqwqur ho igAw qy iPr kwhlIkwhlI sUrj dy ip`Cy ip`Cy qur ipAw ijvyN dohW iv`c koeI mukwblw SurU hoigAw hovy, in`kIAW motIAW JwVIAW iv`coN auh Awpxy Awp ƒ bcwauNdwsMGxI kwhI dy byly iv`c Gus igAw, iblkul pqlI ijhI fMfI au~prquridAW aus dy idl ƒ DuVkU ijhw l`g igAw[ h`Q ƒ h`Q pswirAW nhINsI ids irhw[ aus ƒ ieh vI pqw nhIN sI l`g irhw ik sUrj hux ikMnwhyTW jw cu`kw hovygw ? Awpxy mn ƒ mzbUq krdw, auh kwhly kdmIN jwirhw sI, AwpxI ie`k k`C iv`c Awpxy kwZzW ƒ sWBidAW Aqy dUjy h`Qnwl kwhI dy bUitAW ƒ Awpxy rsqy iv`coN htwauNidAW, auh vwhodwhI hoquirAw, kuJ mIlW dw Aijhw rsqw lMG ky auh ie`k AjyhI QW qy phuMicAw,ij`Qy iksy ny byly iv`clI kwhI sw& krky kuJ pYlIAW bxweIAW hoeIAW snqy aunHW iv`c moTW dI &sl bIjI hoeI sI[ auh hYrwn hoieAw ik ikMnW qr`ddkrdy ny lok izMdgI jIaux leI[ Awp muhwry hI aus ƒ moTW dI CwvyN bihxvwlw muhwvrw Xwd Aw igAw, swrI aumr lok moTW dI CW hI Bwldy rihMdyny, aus ny jd AwpxI izMdgI v`l iDAwn mwirAw qW aus ƒ lìgAw ikauhny vI in`ky in`ky Awsry BwlidAW qy in`ky in`ky irSqy inBwauNidAW izMdgIdy bhuq swry swl guAw idqy sn[ aus ƒ iÂwl AwieAw ik Awi^r ausƒ ieh izMdgI ieMJ dI nhIN sI ijaUxI cwhIdI, ijvyN ik auh ijaU cu`kwhY, pr jy vyiKAw jwvy qW kI iksy ny aus ƒ auh izMdgI ijaUx dw vÙqid`qw hY, ijhVI ik auh ijaUxw cwhuMdw sI ? hwlwq, irSiqAW Aqy loVWny aus duAwly jmGtw pw rìKAw sI ik aus duAwly irSiqAW dI DuMd sIijs iv`coN auh Awpxy Biv`K ƒ nhIN sI vyK sikAw[ ieh socidAW auhA`gy quirAw igAw[

sw& pYlIAW dy dUjy iknwry ie`k bVw v`fw fùmH sI, ijhVw kdI dirAwdy hVH nwl bx igAw sI jo hux su`kx dw nwm hI nhIN sI lYNdw[ kihMdyhn ik aus dw kV pwt igAw hY qy auh hux hyTly pwxI nwl ie`k-im`kho igAw sI, ijs iv`c nIly rMg dw pwxI hr vyly KVw rihMdw sI[ iehnIly rMg dw pwxI aus ƒ hr vyly iK`c pwauNdw rihMdw ? fu`mH dy kMFy pqwnhIN ikvyN bcy rih gey sn kuJ AMbW dy dr`Kq, ijhnW ny rL ky ie`k JMgIijhI bxweI hoeI sI[ cwr cSm nIlI JIl ikqy ieh qW nhIN ! pr nIlw

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phwV ikQy hY? jdoN auh aunHW AMbW dy hyToN dI lMiGAw qW iksy jwnvr nybVI au~cI qy AjIb ijhI Awvwz k`FI qW aus dy lMU-kMfy KVy ho gey, auhhYrwn vI hoieAw, Awpxy ies fr qoN jd hux mYN mr hI jwxw hY qW iPrfrn dw kI ArQ hoieAw? pqw nhIN ikauN bMdw swrI aumr in`ky in`ky frWiv`c hI iGirAw rihMdw hY? ienHW socW ivcwrW ivc iGirAw auh qurdw qurdwiblkul dirAw dy kMFy au~pr phuMc igAw, sUrj hux dUr dumyl iv`c phuMcigAw sI, aus ny vyiKAw ik dirAw dIAW lihrW ny kMiFAW ƒ Fwh lwky DrqI dy hyToN pYr hI k`F id`qy sn Aqy DrqI iv`c dUr q`k qRyVW pY geIAWsn[ aus dy vyKidAW vyKidAW hI do bhuq v`fIAW iF`gW DVMm DVMm krkydirAw dy ivckwr jw if`gIAW Aqy nwl hI isr prny kuJ ru`K vI aunHWdy nwl hI dirAw iv`c jw if`gy[ hux pwxI aunHW ƒ aultwauNdw pultwauNdwnwl nwl roVHI iljw irhw sI[ kdI ru`KW dIAW jVHW vwlw ih`sw pwxI qoNauqWh huMdw Aqy kdy twhxW vwlw pwsw[ ijvyN auh nw cwhuMdy hoieAW vIaus pwxI dy nwl nwl jw rhy hox, iPr ieMJ lìgAw ijvyN auh ru`K Q`khwr gey hox qy auh ihMmq hwr ky aus pwxI dy vhw dy nwl nwl hI sihjBwv nwl qur pey[ aus ƒ iPr bMdy dI hoxI Xwd AweI, kMDI au~pr rùKVwik`crkH bMnHy DIr, ikvyN h`Q pYr mwrdw Awpxy bcw leI, sO n`s-B`j krdwbMdw, hwr ky mOq dy A`gy l`g qurdw hY[

aus ƒ is`sI&s dI kQw Xwd AweI ijhVw ies sMswr qoN jwxw nhINsI cwhuMdw, aus ny keI vwr mOq ƒ DoKw id`qw sI, kI hSr hoieAw iPr ausdw? r`b ny aus ƒ hr roz ie`k Bwrw p`Qr phwV au~pr cVHwaux dI szwid`qI, ijhVw hr rwq aus phwV qoN hyT Awx ifgdw hY, ijs ƒ iPr ausƒ hr suBHw phwV au~pr cVHwauxw pYNdw sI[ aus ny soicAw ik ijvyN AsINswry hI Coty Coty is`sI&s hoeIey, ijhVy swrI aumr v`K v`K &rzW dy p`QrWƒ FoNdy hI ies dunIAW qoN qur jWdy hW[

dirAw dy pwxI dy pws phuMcx leI auh pwxI dy vhw vwly pwsy ƒdirAw dy nwl nwl qur ipAw, AwpxI mnmrzI dy kMFy ƒ l`BidAW ausƒ ikMnI hI dyr l`g geI[ aus dw qOKlw vI vD igAw ik ikDry sUrjiblkul hI hyTW nw l`Q jwvy, ikauNik aus ny mn iv`c sMklp kIqw hoieAwsI ik auh Awpxy ies ilKy hoey swry kuJ ƒ, aus vyly hI dirAw burd krygw,jdoN sUrj Awp dirAw dy iv`c A`Dw fùibAw hovygw[ hux s`cmu`c hI sUrjiblkul hI pwxI dy A`D iv`ckwr phuMc igAw sI[ auh nw fuibAW iv`coNsI nw hI cVHidAW iv`coN, iesy QW qy hI dirAw sihj Bwv nwl qur irhwsI[ aus ƒ isDwrQ dI khwxI Xwd AweI ijs iv`c ie`k byVI dw mlwh

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Awpxy kMmW dI qrqIb dirAw pwsoN pu`Cdw hY, auh dirAw dI BwSw jwxigAw sI, jd aus ny Awpxy bwry soicAw qW jwixAW ik aus ƒ Ajy q`kpRikrqI dI BwSw nhIN sI AwauNdI, aus ny Ajy dirAw dI vI BwSw is`KxIsI[ pr ieh BwSw hux ies ƒ kdoN AwvygI? ies dw aus ƒ igAwn nhINsI[ hux kI AwauNxI hY[ hux qW aus ny Awp vI iqAwrI kr leI hY[

sUrj dI it`kI dy pwxI nwl Cuhx dI dyr sI[ ieMJ l`gx l`g igAw,ijvyN pwxI ƒ A`g l`g geI hovy[ aus ƒ l`gdw, ijvyN pwxI dw auh kMFwbhuq dUr clw igAw hovy, ijs ƒ auh imlx AwieAw sI[ hux sUrj pwxInwl ie`k-im`k ho igAw sI[ ieh auho hI smW sI, ijs dI auh aufIk krdwAw irhw sI, jdoN dirAw dw pwxI Aqy sUrj ie`k-im`k ho gey qW aus nyAwpxy kwZzW ƒ Awpxy m`Qy nwl CuhwieAw qy kuJ dyr ieMJ KVw irhw,ijvyN koeI Ardws kr irhw hovy[ AY nIlswgr dy q`q ! Aih lY myrI cyqnw,jo kuJ mYN A`j q`k smiJAw, pwieAw Aqy guAwieAw hY, s`B kuJ qyry hvwly !myrI cyqnw ny mYƒ bVy Brm jwl ivKwey hn, mYƒ bVI Btkxw iv`c pwieAwhY, mYƒ n&s dw puqlw bxw ncwieAw hY, ieh swrw aus dw hI lyKw joKwhY, mYN ies s`B kuJ ƒ qyrI Byt krdw hW[ ies ƒ svIkwr kr Aqy mYƒ muVAwpxI AMS iv`c jgwH dyh[ mY qyry qoN v`K ho, bhuq du`K J`ly hn, bhuqpCoqwieAw hW, bhuq QweIN h`Q pYr mwry hn, bVI prdUiSq hvw iv`c suAwsley hn, hux mYƒ AwpxI AMS, Awpxy q`q iv`c imlx dw Avsr pRdwnkr[

swhmxy fubdy jw rhy sUrj ƒ n`q-msqk hoieAw auh Awpxy AwpdirAw dy jl nUM sMboiDq ho bolI jw irhw sI[

jd sUrj pwxI dy iv`ckwr Asq ho igAw qW auh dirAw dy pwxInyVy JuikAw ijvyN crnwimRq lY irhw hovy, aus ny dirAw iv`coN jl dI ie`kcUlI BrI Aqy A`Dw pwxI Awpxy isr au~proN dI vwr ky ipCWh sùitAw AqyA`Dw Awpxy kwZzW au~pr pwieAw, ijvyN aunHW ƒ vI pivqR jl nwl pivqRkr irhw hoey qy iPr aus ny Awpxy ilKy hoey kwZzW ƒ dirAw burd kridqw[ Awpxy kwZzW ƒ dirAw burd krky, auh ikMnI dyr audws hoieAw,aunHW kwZzW ƒ ruVHdy jWdy vyKdw irhw[

vwips muVn lìgAW aus ƒ ieMJ lìgAw ijvyN auh iksy bhuq hIipAwrI cIz ƒ dirAw iv`c roVH AwieAw hovy[ ieh soc ky aus ƒ ligAwijvyN aus dIAW A`KW iv`coN hMJU Awp muhwry hI vgxy SurU ho gey hox, ausny aunHW hMJUAW ƒ pUMJx dI koiSS vI nw kIqI qy cu`p cwp vwps prqAwieAw[ Awpxy ilKy hoey ƒ ieMJ dirAw burd krn dw ieh aus dw pihlw

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idn sI[ aus ny qW soicAw sI ik auh dunIAw ƒ v`Kry FMg nwl smJ kyie`k v`KrI iksm dw auh Swhkwr ilKygw, ijs au~pr aus dI kOm Aqy smwjƒ mwx ho sky[pr vyKidAW hI vyKidAW ieh kI ho igAw sI ? aus ƒ kuJvI smJ nhIN sI l`g rhI, Awpxy hI i^AwlW iv`c KuiBAw auh audws audwspqw nhIN hor kI kuJ socdw, aUNDI pweI vwips quirAw Aw irhw sI[ ausƒ smJ nhIN sI Aw irhw ik aus ny hux A~gy kI kuJ krnw hY? pr ausdy mn AMdr ieh g`l qW ikDry bYTI hoeI sI ik hux jw ky aus ny jwxdI iqAwrI krnI hY[

iqAwrI bwry Xwd AwauNidAw hI, auh kuJ audws ijhw ho igAw[ ausny cwr cu&yry iDAwn nwl vyiKAw, aus dy idmwZ iv`c ie`kdm ibjlI dIJlk vWg bwby dw bcn GuMm igAw, ‘qumrw lKw nw jwey pswrw, iksibD sjw eyh sMswrw[’

auh dirAw ivc kI kI roVH AwieAw sI, aus ƒ hux auh kuJ kuJ XwdAwaux l`gw sI, jo kuJ aus ny Awpxy aunHW kwZzW au~pr iliKAw sI[ ijsƒ auh ies dunIAW dy swhmxy nhIN sI r`Kxw cwhuMdw[ jykr aus ny iehswrw kuJ dunIAW dy swhmxy nhIN sI r`Kxw qW aus ny ieh swrw kuJ kIqwikauN sI? Aqy iPr aus ƒ ienHW kwZzW au~pr ikauN auqwirAw sI ?

Awpxy mn qoN Bwr lwhux leI? pr aus ny ieh swry Bwr cVHwey hIikauN sn ?

kI aus dy nwl nwl koeI hor rihMdw sI? jo aus ƒ ieh swrw kuJ krnleI pRyrdw rihMdw sI? ijs ƒ krn qoN bwAd aus ƒ audwsI Aqy SrimMdgIdw iehsws hox l`g jWdw sI ?

aus ƒ l`gw ik auh izMdgI iv`c hMfweIAW audwsIAW, SrimMdgIAWAqy zlwlqW ƒ A`j dirAw iv`c roVH AwieAw sI[ Swied AwpxIAWcMieAweIAW ƒ vI jo ik bhuq hI ingUxIAW sn[

ijvyN auh ies sB kuJ ƒ ie`k dirAw qoN dUjy dirAw dI Srn iv`cDr AwieAw sI[ ‘id`l dirAw smuMdroN fUMGy’, aus ƒ iksy Swier dIAW lwienWXwd AweIAW[

auh Awpxy Awp dw muÙwblw aus dirAw nwl krn l`gw[ aus ƒ l`gwijvyN auh vI ies dirAw vWg Awpxy Asl q`q qoN iv`CiVAw hovy[ ausƒ Awpxy Awp Aqy dirAw iv`c bhuq swrIAW smwnqwvW nzr AweIAW[

aus ny soicAw ik dirAw qW Awpxy q`q qoN vwSpIkrn rwhIN inKiVAwhY pr aus dw ivCoVw ikvyN hoieAw ? iesy bwry hI aus ny nIlkMq ƒ pu`CxwsI[ ijs ny aus ƒ nIly phwV au~pr phuMcx dw s`dw id`qw sI[

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iesy g`l dI hI aus ƒ bVI dyr qoN Bwl sI[ ies bwry aus ny keI vwrnIlkMq qoN pu~iCAw vI sI[

‘nIly phwV au~pr phuMc !’ aus dw hmyS hI ieho hI juAwb huMdw sI[dirAw dw jnm phwVW au~pr ie`k ie`k bUMd qoN huMdw hY[myrw jnm? ieh soc ky auh ibMd Aqy bUMd dy Byd dy ArQW iv`c guAwc

igAw[iesy soc iv`c guAwcw auh AwpxI Aqy dirAw dI izMdgI bwry socx

l`gw[ dirAw dI izMdgI iv`c vI bhuq swrIAW rukwvtW Aqy aulJxWAwauNdIAW hn[ v`fy v`fy p`Qr Aqy phwV aus dw rwh rok lYNdy hn[ auhaunHW iv`coN, aunHW nwl iGsrdw, aunHW qoN bcdw AwpxI mMzl v`l vDdwjWdw hY[ rsqy iv`c auh bhuq kuJ Awpxy iv`c smytdw Aqy bhuq kuJ bwhrv`l su`tdw, AwpxI cwly quirAw jWdw hY[ AwpxI cwly? nhIN AwpxI cwlyqW auh kdI vI nhIN qur sikAw[ aus dy rwh iv`c vI bhuq swrIAW rukwvtWAwauNdIAW hn, ijMnHW ƒ auh kdI ij`q ky Aqy kdI hwr ky, kdI rwh bdlkyA`gy v`Ddw jWdw hY[

ieho hI nhIN auh keI vwr ÛbsUrq bwgW, Pu`lW dIAW suMdr vwdIAW,Aqy hrIAW BrIAW lih-lhwauNdIAW &slW ƒ brbwd krdw A`gy v`Ddwhovygw[ kysr ikAwrIAW ƒ aujwVn dy ivcwr nwl auh iPr ie`k vwr AwpxyAwp iv`c AwieAw[ aus ƒ ieMJ l`gw ijvyN aus dy mn iv`c vI bhuq swrIAWkysr-ikAwrIAW dIAW sugMDIAW dI ûSbo dI mihk aujwgr ho geI hovy[

iesy ûSbo nwl BirAw, auh Gr prq AwieAw Aqy sOx qoN pihlWauh hor bhuq swrIAW socW iv`c guAwc igAw[

AiDAwie 4AiDAwie 4AiDAwie 4AiDAwie 4AiDAwie 4Agly idn auh kuJ audws audws auiTAw, aus ƒ smJ nhIN sI l`g

rhI ik A`j dw aus dw kI pRogrwm hY? ksqUrI ny aus qoN pùiCAW bZYrhI cwh dw k`p bxw ky aus dy nyVy ilAw rìKAw sI[ cwh pIx qoN bwAdaus ƒ ieh pqw nhIN sI l`g irhw ik auh hux kI kry? A`D-mMny mn nwlauh au~iTAw qy bwhr ikAwrIAW v`l ƒ ho igAw[ aus ny iKVy hoey ÛbsUrqPu`lW ƒ ipAwr kIqw[

auh vwips AwieAw qy AMdr jw ky AwpxI cONkI, q`pV, kwZz qy horswmwn cu`k ilAwieAw qy Awpxy lwAn iv`c Gwh au~pr bYT ky ilKx l`gipAw[

‘sMn qW hux Xwd nhIN iÂwl hY ik Awrt kwlj iv`c dwKlw ilAw

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sI nvW nvW, audoN auh ie`k iblkul hI pyNfU Aqy swDwrx muMfw sI[ SihrIizMdgI bwry aus ƒ audoN iblkul hI kuJ pqw nhIN sI, klws iv`c bhuqhI G`t lVky lVkIAW sn[ do muMfy qW iblkul hI auj`f sn qy hY vI snA`Qry ijhy ! rMgW qy br`S nwl aunHW dI koeI sWJ hI nhIN sI[ auh SwiedmOj mylw krn leI hI dw^l ho gey sn[ klw, swihq jW sMgIq nwlaunHW dw dUr dw vI irSqw nhIN sI[ ie`ko ie`k mMufw rwjn sI, ijhVw ausdy skUl dw hI jmwqI sI[ ausy nwl hI audoN gursu^n pihlW boldI sIhor iksy nwl vI nhIN[ gursu^n klws iv`coN s`B qoN ÛbsUrq sI, pihlyidn jWidAW hI auh moihAw igAw sI[ auh hr roz klws iv`c qIjy bYNcdI nu`kr ’qy bYTdw sI, ikauNik auQoN gursu^n dw ichrw ie`k ^ws AYNglqoN idsdw rihMdw sI[ auh ausy kox qoN hI hr roz aus ƒ klws iv`c bYiTAWdyKdw rihMdw, bZYr iksy nwl boilAW cwilAW, auh klws iv`c Awey tIcrWdy BwSn suxdw rihMdw[ tIcr AwauNdy qy vwrI vwrI, kdI klwsIkl Awrt,kdI sit`l pyNitMgz, kdI portryt, kdI ieMpRYiSinzm, AYkspYRSinzm,surrIAilzm jW ikauibiezm bwry Awpxy Awpxy BwSn kr ky cly jWdy[auh aunHW dy ivcwrW ƒ not krdw, aus ƒ bVI hI hYrwnI hoeI, jd ie`kidn aus dw tIcr kih irhw sI ik ies sMswr dIAW vsqUAW auho ijhIAwnhIN, ijho ijhIAw swƒ idsdIAW hn, vsqUAW ƒ vyKx dI swfI AwpxImjbUrI hY[ bwkI g`lW qW C`fo hux ieh qusIN kdI soicAw hY ik swƒ svyrvyly vsqUAW dy rMg hor qrHW dy l`gdy hn, ijvyN ijvyN sUrj au~pr huMdw jWdwhY, swrIAW vsqUAW dy rMg bdldy jWdy hn[ ies g`l ƒ vI s`B qoN pihlWieMpRYSinzm vwilAW ny hI pCwixAW sI, jd ie`k klwkwr ny qUVI dy Fyrƒ svyry svyr vyiKAw qW aus dw rMg hor sI pr jdoN aus ny ausy Fyr ƒdupihr vyly vyiKAw, aus dw rMg hor sI[

jd auh BwSn sux irhw sI qW iv`c iv`c gursu^n ƒ vyK lYNdw, l,yqp,yhg Bgyi sg e,v ngw hg lg m hpS[ hpS[ hg epilp?V sg ev% RpKfi Wjigijhk bjMsg dHw Zp,f sg wjai bjS yqwg lg_epilp?V sj i>e h'i hgL'? a[ rjÚ lpV{hig h' eH[ lV m gursu^n ny kdI aus v`l iDAwn hI nhINsI id`qw[ auh iek pwsV hI aus ƒ ipAwr krdw irhw[ auh ies g`l iv`cXÙIn r`Kx l`g ipAw sI ik hvw iv`c vI qrMgW rwhIN sunyhy dUjy ƒ phuMcjWdy hn[ iesy ivSvws dI qMd nwl bìJAw, auh bVI qIKxqw nwlgursu^n ƒ muh`bq krdw irhw ik Awi^r iek nw iek idn gursu^n ƒaus dy mn dI Awvwz phuMc hI jwvygI[ aus idn aus dI ûSI dI koeI h`dhI nw rhI, ijs idn gursu^n ny aus v`l muskrw ky qìkAw qW nzrW-

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nzrW ’c hI swrw kuJ vwpr igAw Aqy aus dy qn mn iv`c JrnwtW iCVgeIAW[ ieh swrw kuJ eyny sihjBwv nwl Aqy Acwnk vwpirAw ik iksyƒ BwvyN kuJ vI pqw nw lìgAw prMqU, auhdy leI swrI DrqI ih`lx vWgho geI sI[

aus qoN kuJ idnW bwAd, aus ny bYTy bYTy hI gursu^n dw ie`k pYNislskY~c bxwieAw[ jdoN swrI klws ^wlI sI qW aus ny aus ƒ ivKw ky ikhwik myry qoN irhw nhI igAw[ ieh quhwfy leI hI hY[ gursu^n Awpxw skY`cvyK ky hYrwn hI rih geI[ hYrwn hoeI auh kihx l`gI, ‘kmwl dI klwhY quhwfy h`QW iv`c qW !’

‘ieh myrI klw dw nhIN quhwfy husn dw kmwl hY !’ aus ny sihj Bwvnwl hI aus ƒ kih id`qw sI pr gursu^n iek dm hI Srmw geI sI, ie`kgulwbI ijhI BwA aus dy ichry au~proN dI lMG geI[

pihly bol sWJy huMidAW hI auh g`d g`d ho igAw sI Aqy Awpxy mnAMdr hzwrW ûSIAW dIAW SihnweIAW lY ky auh Awpxy kmry vl muVAwieAw sI, kmry iv`c Aw ky aus ny AwpxI fwierI ilKxI SurU kr id`qIijs dw isrlyK aus ny rìKAw sI ‘qIjw bYNc’ ikauNik auh hr roz klwsiv`c qIjy bYNc au~pr hI bYTdw sI qy jd vI ivhlw huMdw qW auh gursu^ndy vK vK pozW dy ic`qR bxwauNdw rihMdw sI[

jdoN qoN gursu^n ny aus nwl zubwn sWJI kIqI sI aus idn qoN ausny Awpxy bxwey hoey ic`qRW ƒ Awpxy kmry iv`c ilAw ky tMgxw SurU krid`qw sI[ hux ie`k pUrI kMD gursu^n dy v`fy Coty ic`qRW nwl Br geI sI[aus dy kmry iv`c hor vI bhuq swrIAW v`fIAW CotIAW pyNitMgz sn,ijhVIAW aus ny smyN smyN Awpxy SOk nwl bxweIAW sn[ auys dy kmry dIswhmxI kMD au~pr, aus dI bxweI hoeI ie`k bhuq v`fI pyNitMg sI, jIhdyiv`c do ÛbsUrq p`Qr au~proN hyTW vl ifgdy nzr AwauNdy sn[ jdoN vIaus dy dosq im`qr aus ƒ aunHW ifgdy hoey p`QrW bwry puCdy qW auh aunHWƒ d`sdw ik ies dI quhwƒ nhIN smJ Aw skdI, ikauNik ieh swDwrn pyNitMgnhIN, ieh qW do mnW au~pr ipAw smwijk, sìBAwcwrk jW mwnisk BwrhY, ieh p`Qr dyKo AMdroN ikqy ikqy ^wlI hn[ ieh KwlIpn ie`k dUjy leImuh`bq dw Jwaulw hY, ijs ny kuJ h`d q`k aus Bwr ƒ hOlw kIqw hoieAwhY, aus dy dosq h`sdy hoey kihMdy ik ieh qW auh g`l hoeI ik ru`K dI qsvIrbxw ky hyT ilKxw pvy ik ieh rùK hY[

aus dy kmry dI kYnv`s v`K v`K cIzW nwl BrI rihMdI sI, ie`k if`Siv`c ie`k gol irMg hY, ijs iv`c ie`k su`kI twhxI r`KI hY, aus twhxI iv`c

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ie`k zKmI hoieAw kwZz dw kbUqr ipAw hY[ if`S dy nyVy hI tMgI hY gursu^ndI kw&I v`fI qsvIr, jIhdy ip`Cy nIly qy sur^ b`dlW dI bYkgrwauNf iv`coNie`k hor s&Yd kbUqr rUh vWg aufwrI Brdw nzr Aw irhw hY[ ie`k horqsvIr iv`c hrIAW kcUc twhxIAW au~pr do lwlIAW dw joVw bYTw hY,ijhnW iv`coN ie`k gw rhI l`gdI hY[ swry pRBwv iv`coN ieMJ pRqIq huMdw hY,ijvyN gw rhI lwlI dI mDur Awvwz huxy hI quhwfy kMnW iv`c pvygI[

aus ƒ ieMJ l`gdw ijvyN gursu^n hOlI hOlI aus dy nyVy ho rhI hovy[auh AwpxIAW klwsW qoN bwAd AwpxIAW AwpxIAW kYnvsW, rMg AqyeIzlW cuk`dy Aqy phwVW dy pYrW iv`c bxy ^UbsUrq bwZ iv`c jw puhMcdyqy inrml pwxI dIAW CotIAW CotIAW ndIAW kMFy pey p`QrW au~pr bYTswhmxy vwlIAW phwVIAW dy nzwirAW ƒ Awpxy rMgW rwhIN kYnvsW au~prsdw sdw leI auqwr lYxw cwhuMdy[ keI vwr auh ADUry ic`qrW ƒ iv~cy C`fky Awhmo swhmxy bYT, ie`k dUjy nwl lMbIAW g`lW-bwqW krdy, Ajy q`kaunHW dIAW g`lW dy ivSy kdI vI rumWitk nhIN sn hoey Ajy auh rMgW ic`qRWqy ic`qRkwrW bwry hI g`lbwq krdy sn[

ie`k idn gursu^n kihx l`gI A`j ie`k sr ny ikhw ik jd AsINpyNitMgz iv`c ieMpRYSinzm dI g`l krdy hW auh ieMpRYSn koeI sQweI qW huMdwnhIN hux qusIN ienHW phwVW ƒ hI dyK lau, sUrj dy ihswb nwl hI ienHWdy rMg bdldy hn[ subhw svyry ienHW GwtIAW, ru`KW, Pu`lW dy rMg hor huMdyhn, ijauN ijauN sUrj au~pr au~Tdw hY, ienHW dy rMg bdldy jwxgy[

aus ny ikhw : ‘Asl iv`c ieMpRYSinzm dw jnm dwqw klwf mONty ƒhI kihxw cwhIdw hY, ijs ny pihlI vwr smuMdr iv`coN cVHdy sUrj ƒ vyKky sUrj dy pRBwv ƒ pkVn dw Xqn kIqw sI[ aus ny AwpxI ies pyNitMgzdw nwm hI ieMpYRSn r`iKAw sI[ ieh pyNitMg pihlI vwr aunHW nOjuAwnW nyie`k numwieS iv`c idKweI, ijnHW dIAW pyNitMgz ƒ AiDkwrIAW v`loN r`dkr id`qw igAw sI, bwAd iv`c qW ieh lihr swry sMswr iv`c PYl geI[

‘ieh ic`qrkwr bRihmMfI roSnI dIAW qrMgW dy pRBwv ADIn nuhwr dybdldy irdm ƒ pkVx dI koiSS ivc sn, bwAd iv`c ieh pRBwv sMgIqAqy swihq iv`c vI AwieAw[’ #ljdha dry dwr[G bjdHbj ($ epilp?V V[WCg ]ijVg Vjv fp,DdAbj m

#ljdha dry dHl } f+Fjrrjs wdh>Ds[ hV m$#dHl sg w'Hg RpsjhiS ($Rpl V[ qplwij w[ dHw Lijia duhg Vjv epilp?V r,v r[dtbj a[ wdhS

v,ej@ #dur[G dwl[ wrg } Rpl sg qdhWPWj ?a dvtsg ] dw q{G a{} Ljq

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a,w dqvS bj ihg hJ m aJ Rph wrg Rpl sg Rpcgw dry dHh' duhg wdrajdvt[ej dw a[ig bjqs dry ip,tJ s[ f,Da[ ajCgbJ qji ih[ hV m W,svWP.sj~WJsg wiw[ q"lq lphjrSj WSj ih[ hV m bjds@ bjds!!!$

#u[wi Rph dHh dvt s[r[ dw ujh b,u a'G Wjbs q[i[ q,Do[ Vj v,ek aJRph LjdHig wi[ej@ a[i[ drI'e dry W,sv b,oiP rhj ih[ hV m$

#y.egbJ RpsjhiSJ hV@ wdh w[ epilp?V qplwijRpS v,eg m$‘pr SwierI nwloN pNyitMg bVI Av`lI cIz hY, iehdy leI ausqwd dI

bVI BwrI loV hY, hux dyKo pwl gOgW ƒ br`S PVnw, aus dy srpr`sq dIlVkI ny hI isKwieAw sI, aus smy pRBwvvwd dw hI dOr sI[’

‘ic`qrkwrI dy ieiqhws iv`c pwl gOgW hI pihlW ic`qrkwr hY ijsny AOrq ƒ shI ArQW iv`c ic`qrx dI koiSS kIqI sI[’

‘pr kmwl dI g`l hY ik Swied hI koeI ic`qrkwr hovy jIhny cMgIqrHW Awpxw Gr vswieAw hovy, pwl gOgW ny vI jd ic`qrkwrI dy ipAwriv`c nOkrI C`f id`qI sI, aus dI Gr vwlI mYtI vI aus ƒ C`f ky, AwpxImW kol clI geI[ Gr vwlIAW nwl qW ienHW kI rihxw huMdY, vYngwgvI jdoN gOgW nwl rihx igAw sI, aunHW dohW dI nhIN sI bx skI, auhdovyN KihbVdy rihMdy sn, iPr mYtI ikvyN Aijhy bMdy nwl rih skdI sI[gursu^n ny ikhw sI[ ‘Asl iv`c ie`k ic`qrkwr AwpxI klw nwl hIpRnwieAw huMdw hY, aus kol dUijAW leI vkq hI nhIN huMdw, koeI ic`qrkwrjykr iksy AOrq v`l iK~icAw vI jWdw hY qW aus dy kwrn swmwijk nhINhuMdy, sgoN klwqimk huMdy hn[ ikauNik aus AOrq dI aus dI klw ƒ zrUrqhuMdI hY, iesy leI auh jW qW aus dI mwfl bxdI hY jW pRyrnW-sroq[ myryiKAwl iv`c mgroN Awky pwl gOgW dy ic`qrW iv`c, jpwnI pRBwv bhuq v`DigAw sI ijvyN ‘d vyv’, ‘d bot’ ^ws krky ‘ivzn’ Aqy ‘Aw&tr d srmn’,Awid ivc[’

‘vYsy vYngwg vI bVw sMnkI bMdw sI, ie`k vysvw dy ieh kihx qy ikqyrw kMn bVw ^UbsUrq hY auh Awpxw kMn v`F ky aus ƒ dyx igAw, jIhƒvyK ky auh cIkW mwr auTI[’

‘pr auhdy leI auh vysvw nhIN sI[ ieho g`l smJx dI loV hY[’‘aus dIAW cIkW hI aus ƒ vysvw bxwauNdIAW hn pr ic`qrkwr qW

ic`qrkwr hI rihMdw hY[’‘hY BwvyN ieh AlMkwr hI pr lok iesy Gtnw ƒ bwr bwr duhrwauNdy

hn !’‘‘myry iKAwl iv`c AOrqW ƒ icqrW dI pCwx G`t huMdI hY[ ieh lweI

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l`g huMdIAW hn jykr iksy ny kih id`qw ik ieh cMgI hY qW ieh vwh vwhkrn l`g jWdIAW hn[’’

‘‘AYvyN nw inrxy dyeI jwau, ieh AOrq pR`qI mrd dI soc hY[’’‘‘pqw eI ‘lw byly AMjIl’ icqr gOgW jdoN pONt eyvn dI ÛbsUrq lVkI

ƒ dyx igAw qW aus ny aus ƒ B`dI kih ky lYx qoN nWh kr id`qI sI, prjdoN aus ny syl lgweI qW auho pyNitMg hI sB qoN v`D psMd kIqI geI sI[’’

‘‘gOgW ƒ qW qyhUrw vrgI lVkI dI zrUrq sI, jo aus dI rUh ƒ vIsmJ sky Aqy auhdy leI lokgIq vI gw sky Aqy auhdy leI ngn mwflvI bx sky[’’

‘‘ngn ic`qrW dw mwfl bxnw vI iksy ÙurbwnI qoN G`t nhIN[’’‘‘iksy A`gy srIr qoN nMgy ho jwxw koeI mwAny nhIN r`Kdw, g`l qW

mwnisk nMgyj dI hY[ mwnisk nMgyj iksy ivrly A`gy hI pyS kIqw jw skdwhY[ Dur AMdrly gihry irSqy qW hI p`ky huMdy hn, jykr quhwfI ie`k dUjy dImwniskqw q`k phuMc ho jwvy[’’

‘‘ic`qrkwr vI bhuq swry sMktW iv`coN pYdw huMdy hn, ilaunwrdo d ivMsIkuAwrI mW dy pytoN pYdw hoieAw sI[’’

‘A`Cw?’‘myry iÂwl iv`c klwkwr bxn leI bcpn iv`c TokrW Kwxw zrUrI

hY, bcpn dIAW GwtW, QuVW, byAwsrypn, quhwfy AMdrlI klw ƒ aujwgrkrn leI ûrwk dw kMm dyNdy hn[’

‘sMswr pRis`D bùq-qRwS mweIkl eyNjlo ƒ AwpxI mW dw du`D cuMGxw vInsIb nhIN sI hoieAw, BwvyN myrw hwl vI ieho ijhw hI hY pr mYN ienHW vrgwmhwn nhIN bx skdw[’

‘koeI g`l nhIN koiSS jwrI r`Ko !’ gursu^n ny musrkwA ky ikhw, ‘jykrquhwfy kol koeI mwfl nhIN, pRyrnw sroq qW hY hI[’ aus ny aus ƒ it`crkIqI[

g`lW krdy krdy auh dUr phwVIAW v`l inkl gey, ie`k aucI phwVIqoN hyT aunHW ny m`kI dy Coty Coty Kyq vyKy, aus ny bwhvW PYlwA ky hvw ƒklwvy iv`c Brn dI koiSS kIqI qy aucI swrI keI vwr vwh ! vwh ! vwh !AwiKAw[

‘eyny vI rumWitk nw bxo[’‘rumWitk bixAW nhIN jWdw ho jweIdw hY, kwS hux myry iv`c auh smr`Qw

huMdI ik mYN ienHW phwVIAW ƒ, ienHW p`QrW ƒ, ienHW m`kI dy KyqW ƒ, AwpxIkYnv`s au~pr auqwr skdw[’ aus ny AwpxI klw dI Asmr`Qqw bwry

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JUridAW hoieAW ikhw[‘bVw hI ^ubsUrq lYNfskyp hY[’ gursu^n A`gy hoky kihx l`gI[‘iksy lYNf skyp ƒ hU-b-hU AwpxI kYnv`s au~pr siQr kr lYxw vI

ie`k krqwrI gux hY, ieMJ krky qusIN Ùudrq ƒ kYd kr skx dy smr`Qho jWdy ho, ieMJ qusIN r`b vrgy in`ky ijhy isrjk vI bx jWdy ho Aqyloknwiek vI[

‘ieh loknwiek ikvyN bxdy hn?’‘dyK beI loknwiek auho hI nhIN huMdy, ijhVy jMg Xu`D krdy hn, lokW

dy h`kW leI jwnW vwrdy hn, pr jykr vyiKAw jwvy qW kuJ loknwiek auhvI hn, ijhVy izMdgI iv`c kuJ isrj skx dy vI smr`Q huMdy hn[

‘auh ikhVy Aqy ikvyN?’‘ijvyN pRikrqI ƒ sMsikRqI iv`c bdl skx dy smr`Q klwkwr, ijvyN

swfy lok swihq iv`c Awm qOr ’qy ieh AwauNdw hY ik auh nwiekrwjkumwrIAW ƒ ij`qx dy smr`Q huMdy hn ijhVy pRikRqI ƒ ij`q skx dIsmr`Qw r`Kdy hox[ klwkwr vI pRikRqI ƒ hUbhU kYnv`s au~pr auqwr skxdy Xog hox, ^ws qOr qy jdoN koeI klwkwr lYNf skyp jW koeI sit`l bxwirhw hovy, ieh ie`k krqwrI kwrj hI hY[’

‘ieh quhwfI koeI AwpxI soc jW g`l hY !’‘lY AsIN koeI mwVy moty bMdy hW !’‘vwh jI ! vwh ! Awpxy muMhoN mIAW im`TU !’ auh muskrweI[‘eynI ku PUk lYx iv`c kI hrj hY?’ auh h`isAw[‘hrj qW koeI nhIN pr ikDry Pt hI nw jwxw[’ jd aus ny ieh ikhw

qW dovyN kihkhw lgw ky h`sy[‘^qry vwlI koeI g`l nhIN pr qYƒ pqw hY ik lYNfskyp dw AwrMB

prSIAn KriVAW qoN l`Bdw ey, ijhVw iPr muglW vyly Bwrq iv`c AwieAwsI pr cIn vwly br`S qy isAwhI nwl rySmI k`piVAW au~pr bVy vDIAwlYNfskyp bxwauNdy sn[ ie`k g`l dw qYƒ pqw nhIN hoxw ik auh pRikRqInwl iblkul iekimkqw kwiem krky, auhdy iv`c zzb ho ky, bhuq hI sUKmBwvnwvW Aqy AnuBvW ƒ br`S dI Coh nwl lYNfskypW iv`c jwn pw dyNdysn[ ienHW iv`c pihly ic`qrkwrW dw ijvyN lI cyNg, cwE pocU qy mUcI dwkMm bVw hI &weIn iksm dw hY[’

‘peI mYƒ qW pItr brUhl dw ‘d hwrvYstr’ vI bVw cMgw l`gdw hY[’auh aus dIAW fuMiGAweIAW qoN ijvyN aukqw geI sI[

‘ieh v`KrI iksm dy hn[ auNj jOhn kMstybl dw ijhdy iv`c GoVw g`fI

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qy ciVHAw ikswn qy auhdw b`cw jo ik l`kVIAW l`dI jWdy hn, hwey! ikMnyipAwry ny aunHW dy rMg[’

‘b`s kro qy hux vwips c`lIey AOh dUr ikMnIAW GnGor GtwvW AwrhIAW hn, ikDry iB`j hI nw jweIey[’

‘koeI g`l nhIN iB`jx iv`c vI Awpxw hI mzw hY, jykr ies mINh iv`cAwpW iB`j gey qW mYN qyrI iB`jI hoeI dI qsvIr bxwvWgw[’

‘ rihx idE jnwb; Xwd r`Ko ik rMg Aqy br`S myry kol vI hn[’‘clo klw Awpo AwpxI, ho jwey muÙwblw iPr !’ aus ny cYilMj kIqw[‘pihlW mINh qW pY lYx idau[’ g`lW krdy krdy auh vwips muV Awey...auh aus ƒ kihMdw ik gursu^n mYƒ qyrw nwm bVw ipAwrw l`gdw hY,

AKy gursu^n ! XwnI gurW dy bcn[ ieMJ gursu^n Aqy gurbcn ie`ko hI g`lhY[ kIhny rìKAw sI ieh qyrw nwm ?

‘pr mYƒ ieh nwm kdI vI cMgw nhIN lìgAw[’ auh juAwb dyNdI [‘ikauN ?’’ aus pùiCAw[‘ieh nwm loV qoN v`D Dwrimk l`gdw hY[ ieho ijhy nwm vwlw bMdw

hr vyly nwm dy ikMgry Burn qoN frdw rihMdw hY, nwm krky hI keI vwrbMdw irSiqAW dy idl r`Kdw hI swrI izMdgI ibqwA dyNdw hY[’’

‘ieh g`l nhIN, bMdy ƒ Awpxw nwm Awp kmwauxw pYNdw hY[ hW ! mYNqYƒ iek g`l d`sdw hW, ijhVy jgIrdwr kol mYN bcpn iv`c rihMdw irhwsW, auh mYƒ bVIAW kMm dIAW g`lW d`sdw huMdw sI[ BwvyN lok aus ƒ jomrzI kihx pr mYN smJdw hW ik auh swfy swry kuJ dw, XwnI ivrsy dw^zwnw sI[ pihlW pihl auh mYƒ pu`qr kih ky bulwauNdw sI[ iPr auh mYƒbIbw b`cw smJ ky mYƒ bIbw hI kihx l`g ipAw[ aus ny jdoN vI mYƒ AwvwzmwrnI qW kihxw, bIbw pu`qr ! ieDr AwvIN, iPr auhny bIby nwloN pu`qrvI lwh id`qw qy mYƒ bIbw hI kihx l`g ipAw[ mYƒ bVI Srm AwieAwkry[ mYN aunHW ƒ ie`k vwr ikhw ik bwpU jI ! mYƒ bIbw nw ikhw kro[ swfyvMnI qW bIbw kuVIAW ƒ kihMdy hn, qusIN myrw nwm lY ky hI bulwieAw kroqy nwl isMG vI zrUr lgwieAw kro[ ieh Swied myrI hIx Bwvnw hI hoskdI hY[’’

‘iPr aus srdwr ny qYƒ nwm lY ky bulwauxw SurU kIqw ?’‘nhIN ! qYƒ A`gy g`l d`sdw hW, mYƒ kihx lìgAw vifAweI bMdy dy

nwm iv`c nhIN huMdI, krqUqW iv`c huMdI hY[ aus ny dìsAw ik aunHW dy ielwkysWdl bwr iv`c iek muslmwn cODrI hMudw sI[ keI ipMfW dw auh mwilksI, aus dy Gr do jOVy muMfy jMmy[ aus ny ie`k dw nwm ku`qI Aqy dUjy dw nwm

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ib`lI r`K id`qw[ jdoN lokW ƒ pqw lìgAw qW auh cODrI ƒ jw ky kihxl`gy, cODrI swihb koeI ihswb dI g`l kro, qusIN muMifAw dy ieh kI nwmr`K id`qy ny ? auhny lokW ƒ juAwb id`qw, vyKo BrwE ! jykr ienHW dy p`lykoeI krqUq hoeI qW ienHW ny ku`qI qoN kuqbdIn ^W qy ib`lI qoN iblwvl^W bx jwxw eyN[ jy p`ly krqUq nw hoeI qW ijvyN hor lok DrqI qy qury iPrdyny, ieh vI ku`qIAW ib`lIAW vWg qury iPrngy[ aus dI g`l sux ky mYƒ bVwhwsw AwieAw[ iPr nhIN mYN kdI aus dI iksy g`l dI vI prvwh kIqI,ijhƒ myrw ijhVw nwm vI cMgw l`gdw hY, r`KI iPry[

‘ieh vDIAw g`l hY, bMdy dw iek nwm hoxw hI nhIN cwhIdw AwpxyAwpxy irSqy dy ihswb nwl hI, Awpxy Awpxy nwm r`K lYxy cwhIdy ny[’

ieh sux ky gursu^n bhuq hI pRBwivq hoeI[ aus ny kyvl eynw hI ikhw,‘qyry kol pyNfU sìBAwcwr dw bhuq kuJ hY, jykr qUM AwpxI klw iv`c pyNfUsìBAwcwr dI swm`gRI dI vrqoN kryN qW qyry icqr bhuq hI Bwv-pUrn bxn[nwly izMdgI nwl juVy hoey hox[’

aus ny vI gursu^n ƒ ieho hI ikhw sI ik mYN pMjwb dI rUh ƒ icqrnWcwhuMdw hW, pMjwb dI rUh AMdr Jwkxw cwhuMdw hW[

ieh g`lW krdy krwauNdy auh Swm peI vwips prq Awey, aus nysoicAw ik auh idn, gursu^n dw swQ, ÛbsUrq rMg, sMdlIAW hvwvW,phwVI idR`S qy hor bhuq kuJ ikDr igAw ? swfw swrw kuJ[ aus ny hwaukwBirAw...

swrw kuJ ilKidAW ƒ Swm F`l geI, A`j dI Swm aus ƒ bVI hIsuhwvxI l`g rhI sI, pqw nhIN jdoN qoN aus ny swrw kuJ C`f jwx dw &YslwilAw hY, dunIAW dI hr vsqU, aus ƒ cMgI cMgI ikauN l`gx l`g peIhY? hux bUty aus ƒ loV qoN v`D sMvydnSIl qy hry Bry l`gx l`g pey sn,Pu`lW dy rMg hor vI So^ ho gey sn, dunIAW dw hr mnu`K aus ƒ suhxw qyÛbsUrq l`gx l`g ipAw sI[ vwh! vwh! ikMnW bdl igAw hY, izMdgI pRqIaus dw idRStIkox, jd jwx dI iqAwrI ho rhI hY qW ikvyN auh izMdgIdy nwl hor gihrw juVdw jw irhw hY[ aus ƒ Xwd AwieAw ik ikvyN auhdyvdwr dy rùK dy swhmxy jw KVw huMdw sI Aqy aus dy swhmxy bwhW PYlwAdyNdw sI, ijvyN auh keI vwr sMvydnSIl hoieAw krdw huMdw sI, auh hYrwnhuMdw ik auh bUtw vI ikvyN Awpxy koml Aqy nukIly pìqAW nwl aus dyichry ƒ plosdw sI[ aus ƒ ieMJ l`gdw, ijvyN Cotw ijhw b`cw AwpxIAWin`kIAW in`kIAW auNglW nwl, aus dIAW g`lHW ƒ plosdw hoieAw, qoqlIAWqoqlIAW g`lW krdw hovy[

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aus ƒ Xwd AwieAw ik ikvyN ie`k vwr aus ny Awpxy Gr dy ipCvwVypwrjwq dw bUtw lgwieAw sI, auh bUtw jd v`fw ho igAw qW aus ƒ bhuqhI suMdr Pu`l l`gdy sn, keI vwr aus ny Awpxy Gr dI C`q au~pr cVHky, aus ƒ kihxw, myry pwrjwq ! mYƒ AwpxI ûSbU dyh, qW aus ny hYrwnhoxw ik hvw BwvyN dUjy pwsy ƒ vgdI huMdI qW vI pwrjwq dI ûSbU ausƒ AwauNdI sI, ijvyN pwrjwq aus dIAW BwvnwvW ƒ smJdw hovy[

ies g`l ny iPr aus ivc iek vwr Awqmw jW rUhW iv`c ivSvws lYAWdw sI[

kuJ dyr bwAd Awpxy kwgzW ƒ sWBdw AMdr v`l ho igAw, AMdr jwkyaus ny Awpxy kmry dIAW kMDW ƒ inhwirAw, swrIAW kMDW ûbsUrq ichirAWnwl BrIAW peIAW sn[ pqw nhIN ikhVIAW BwvnwvW ADIn hI, aus nyAwpxI izMdgI iv`c Awaux vwlIAW swrIAW AOrqW dy portryt bxwey snAqy muV aunHW ƒ &rym krky Awpxy Gr dIAW swrIAW kMDW au~pr lgweyhoey sn[ aus ny mn hI mn ivc soicAw ik pqw nhIN ikDr clIAW geIAWhox ieh husn dIAW mUrqW ?

aus ƒ Swm Flx qoN pihlW hI koiel dI kUk suxweI id`qI qW ausƒ Awpxy pOidAW dw iÂwl AwieAw, koiel Swied aunHW iv`coN ijvyN ausƒ hwkW mwr rhI hovy, aus ny soicAw BwvyN auh eynw pVH ilK igAw hY,aus ny izMdgI dy bhuq swry pihlUAW ƒ jwixAw smiJAw hY pr aus ƒAjy q`k koiel dI hoxI dI smJ nhIN l`gI ik auh kW dI rMn ikvyN hoeI ?socxw iv`cy hI C`f auh bwhr v`l ƒ hoieAw Aqy Awpxy lgwey hoey bUitAWƒ nIJ lw ky vyKx l`gw[ aus ƒ Awpxy Coty ijhy dyvdwr dI Xwd AweI,ijs ƒ aus ny au~cIAW phwVIAw qoN Coty ijhy ƒ ilAw ky lgwieAw sI[jd auh phwVW qoN lY ky Awaux lìgAw qW aus ƒ iksy ny ikhw sI, iehpOdy mYdwnW iv`c nhIN huMdy qW aus ny dwAvy nwl ikhw sI ik mYN ies ƒpwl ky ivKwvWgw Aqy swry rwh auh aus pOdy nwl ieMJ g`lW krdw AwieAwsI, ijvyN auuh koeI ijaUNdI jwgdI cIz hovy, aus ny bVy hI ipAwr nwlaus bUty dIAW kudrqI loVW ƒ iDAwn ivc r`K ky aus ƒ ieho ijhI jgwHlgwieAw sI, ij`QoN auh aus ƒ Gr iv`c qury iPridAW idsdw vI rhy Aqyaus ƒ Du`p vI izAwdw nw pvy[

bwAd ivc aus dy h`Q ie`k ieho ijhI ikqwb l`g geI sI, ijs iv`cpOidAW bwry bhuq hI AjIbo-ZrIb g`lW ilKIAW hoeIAW sn ik ikvyN pOdyvI ipAwr ƒ smJdy hn, ipAwr qoN aunHW ƒ AYnrjI imldI hY[ aus ny auspOdy nwl bhuq swry qjrby krny SurU kIqy qW aus ƒ lìgAw ik s`cmuc

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hI auh pOdw aus dy ieSwirAW dw juAwb ijvyN Awpxy hI qrIky nwl dyNdwhovy[ aus ny vyiKAw ijvyN ik auh pOdw Awpxy ihswb nwloN vDyry v`D-Pùlirhw hovy[

aus ƒ ieMJ mihsUs hox l`g ipAw ik jd vI auhdy kol jWdw qWauh aus dy v`l Juk jWdw hY[ auh aus dy ies vrqwry ƒ bVy hI iDAwnnwl vyKx l`gw ik ieh ikDry aus dy mn dw hI Brm qW nhIN? pr nhINies ivc kuJ Alokwr hY zrUr sI[

auh gursu^n dI qsvIr dy swhmxy igAw qy kuJ dyr aus ƒ dyKdw irhwiPr auh muskrwieAw qy kuJ dyr bwAd au~cI au~cI h`sx l`g ipAw, auheynW hìsAw ik jykr koeI hor aus dy pws huMdw qW zrUr hI aus ƒ pwglsmJx l`g pYNdw[ QoVI dyr bwAd auh ^wmoS ho igAw, aus ƒ lìgAw ikaus ƒ s`cmu`c hI dyrI ho rhI sI[ aus ny vyiKAw ksqUrI lwl Awpxy iDAwnsbzIAW ƒ gofI krI jw irhw sI, aus dy pqly Aqy mwVcU ijhy srIr iv`cjwn pqw nhIN ik~Qy AtkI hoeI sI[ ksqUrI bwry socxw C`f auh AMdrvwrƒ hoieAw, frwieMgrUm dI prlI kMD qy AwBHw dI qsvIr muskrwA rhIsI[ auhdy v`loN byiDAwnw ho ky aus ny AwpxI q`pVI qy cONkI ƒ kmry dIgu`T iv`c rìKAw qy rvI dI ÛbsUrq qsvIr vwly klwk dy fwiel dIAWsUeIAW ƒ vyiKAw qy Awp muhwry hI kih auiTAw, auh! tweIm ho igAw hY[

aus ny Awpxy auh ilKy hoey kwZz ley qy qyzI nwl p`Cm vl fu`bdysUrj mgr dirAw vl ƒ c`l ipAw[ kwhIAW byly lMGidAW A`j aus ƒkuJ vI Eprw nw lìgAw, is`Dw dirAw kMFy phuMc ky aus ny Awpxy ilKyhoey kwZzW dw Q`bw sUrj dy fu`bx nwl hI pwxI iv`c vhwA id`qw[ prA`j Awpxy ilKy ƒ dirAw burd krn lìgAW, aus ƒ k`l vwlI audwsInhIN sI hoeI, iPr vI aus dy mn AMdroN kuJ Ku`sdw Ku`sdw lìgAw[ kuJ dyrcu`pcwp auQy KVy rihx mgroN auh vwips prq AwieAw[ hOlI hOlI quridAWdUr aus ƒ mor boldy suxweI id`qy[

Gr Awx ky aus ny vyiKAw ik ie`k hor AtptI ijhI cIz aus dy Griv`c hY, auh hY qivAW vwly vwjy dI pytI, ijs dw DUqU jMgwilAw hoieAwhY[ auh jd vI aus vwjy ƒ vyKdw qW auhƒ Awpxy aus irSqydwr jrnYlisMG dI Xwd Aw jWdI, ijs dy GroN aus ƒ ieh grwmo&on imilAw sI,hux qW aus ƒ ieh vI Xwd nhIN ik auh Awpxy aus irSqydwr kol phuMcikvyN igAw sI, Swied mW bwp v`loN aus ƒ cwcy cwcI ƒ dy dyx krky swryirSqydwr aus ƒ lwvwirs Aqy vwDU hI smJx l`g pey hox Aqy ijs ƒvI kdI mwVy moty kMm dI loV pYNdI, auho hI kuJ dyr leI, aus ƒ mMg ky

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Awpxy pws lY jWdw sI[ auh irSqydwr vI purwxI iksm dw jgIrdwr sI[cMgIAW cMgIAW GoVIAW qy bldW dw mwlk, Aw^rI aumry aus ny sqvWivAwh krvwieAw sI[ ausy ivAwh krky hI Swied auh Awpxy cwcy, ipEnwl au~Qy igAw sI qy aus irSqydwr ny aus ƒ au~Qy hI r`K ilAw sI[ ausdw cwcw vI aus ƒ nWh nhIN sI kr sikAw[ pqw nhIN auh aus dy ikhVyAihswnW dw mwirAw hoieAw sI[ hux aus ƒ swrI g`l dI smJ l`gdI hYik ikauN aus irSqydwr ny aus ƒ Awpxy pws r`iKAw sI, pihlW qW swrIaumr auh ies ƒ aus irSqydwr dw Awpxy pRqI moh hI smJdw irhw sI[

jdoN auh pihlI vwr aus irSqydwr dy Gr viVAw sI qW auh eyfIv`fI hvylI vyK ky ckrwA hI igAw sI[ jIhdy iv`c b`JIAW hoeIAW sn,v`K v`K iksm dIAW murHw nsl dIAW m`JW, swhIvwl dIAW gweIAW, Abl`^GoVy Aqy QwrobrYf GoVIAW, nOhrI bld, bIkwnyrI aUT qy pwnIAwr, lYbryAqy AlsYSn nslW dy ku`qy[ srdwr jrnYl isMG AwpxI juAwnI vylykihMdw khwauNdw srdwr sI Aqy srdwr dI hvylI v`l kMmIAW dIAW qWkI, kihMdy khwauNdy j`tW dIAW AOrqW vI bwhr jMgl pwxI jwx qoNqRihMdIAW sn[ aus srdwr jrnYl isMG dy h`QW au~pr pqw nhIN ikMny ÙqlWdIAW lkIrW sn[ SrIkW qy duSmxW dI igxqI dw qW AMdwzw hI nhINsI lgwieAw jw skdw pr s`qvIN Gr vwlI qoN pihlIAW Gr vwlIAWdI hoxI ƒ qW swry jwxdy hI sn[ hux vI jdoN auh ^UbsUrq qy juAwn CotIsrdwrnI dI A`K iv`c iksy supny dy nÙS vyKdw qW aus ƒ sMboDn krkyisr& eynw hI kihMdw, ‘l`gdw hY qyrIAW BYxW qYƒ vI aufIk rhIAW nyau~pr !’

qW CotI srdwrnI dIAW A`KW dI cmk J`t buJ jWdI Aqy auh keIkeI idn guMm-suMm fuMn-v`tw bxI iksy bu`q vWg AMdr bwhr GuMmdI rihMdIprMqU, hux aus srdwr dw qp-qyj Gtdw jw irhw sI, dmyN dw mrIz hoxkwrn hOlI hOlI auh AMdry AMdr kmzor hoeI jw irhw sI Aqy swh dIqklI& aus ƒ CotI srdwrnI swhmxy byb`s hox leI mjbUr kr dyNdI sI[

jdoN qoN auh aus dy pws AwieAw sI qW srdwr ƒ ijvyN bhuq swrI rwhqimlI sI[ pihlW qW hr rwq aus ƒ iksy nw iksy nOkr dI loV pYNdI sI,ijhVw aus ƒ dOrw pYx smyN aus dI duAw bUtI krdw qy aus dIAW mOrW ƒGu`tdw sI qy srdwr dw swh sOKw ho jWdw sI[ jrnYl isMG dw suBwA ausdI srdwrI qy aus dy AMdrlI hwaumYN Aqy CotI srdwrnI dw husn aus ƒies g`l leI mjbUr kr dyNdw sI ik auh rwq smyN jldI hI Awpxy nOkrƒ AMdrly GroN bwhr qor dyvy qy ifauVI ƒ AMdroN jMdrw mrvw cwbI Awpxy

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isrhwxy rKvw lvy[jrnYl isMG dIAW pihlIAW pqnIAW iv`coN kyvl kuVIAW hI hoeIAW

sn[ ijhnW ƒ aus ny dweIAW dI shwieqw nwl ausy vyly hI ib`ly lgwid`qw sI, kyvl ie`ko iek kuVI bc skI sI, inMdro[ auh vI Swied isMG-sBIAW dy ipMf iv`c pRBwv vDx krky[ aus ƒ vI jrnYl isMG ny hoS sMBwlxqoN pihlW hI ivAwh C`ifAw sI qy inMdro ny vI AwpxI mW dy mrn qoN bwAdaus Gr ivc muV kdy pYr nhIN sI pwieAw[

kihMdy hn ik srdwr dy Gr ie`k muMfw vI hoieAw sI, ijhVw keI vryHpihlW GroN clw igAw sI qy aus dI A`j q`k koeI auG s`uG nhIN sI l`gI,hux eyfI v`fI hvylI dy vwirs leI, aus ƒ CotI srdwrnI au~pr hI AwsWsn, ijhVIAW Ajy q`k pUrIAW nhIN sn ho rhIAW[

aus dy ies hvylI iv`c Awaux nwl srdwr ijvyN qMdrusqI mihsUskrn l`g ipAw sI[ pihly kuJ idn qW aus ny srdwr dy eysy qivAW vwlyvwjy nwl hI jI prcwieAw sI[ au~prly cubwirAW iv`c ikMnIAW swrIAWAlmwrIAW purwxy irkwrfW nwl BrIAW peIAW sn[ aunHW irkwrfW au~qypqw nhIN kI kuJ iliKAw hoieAw sI[ aus ƒ qW aus ku`qy dI hI mUrq cMgIl`gdI, ijhVw qvy au~pr DUqU v`l mUMh krky bYTw hoieAw huMdw[ auh PMdrƒ cwbI dy ky nvIN sUeI lw ky spIf vwlw lIvr Gumw ky swaUNf bks ƒis`Dw krky sUeI ƒ qvy au~pr r`Kdw qW keI vwr auh sUeI aunHW JrItW rwhINqvy dy A`D iv`ckwr clI jWdI, ijhVIAW ienHW qivAW ƒ bwr bwr lgwauxkrky ienHW au~pr pY geIAW sn[ doNh cONh idnW dw SOk pUrw krn qoN bwAd,aus ƒ srdwr ny Awpxy vwly kmry iv`c suAwauxw Suru kr id`qw sI[ auskmry dI s`B qoN BYVI g`l, aus ƒ dysI Srwb dI bdbU l`gdI sI, Swiediesy leI CotI srdwrnI ny aus kmry iv`c sOxw bMd kr id`qw hoieAw sI[srdwr dI vDdI kmzorI ny hux CotI srdwrnI iv`c vI dlyrI Br id`qIsI[ auh hux aus dI G`t v`D hI prvwh krdI, ijvyN auh Awpxy Gr vwilAWqy aus srdwr qoN koeI bdlw lY rhI hovy, ijhnW ny cMd kOfIAW dy bdlyaus ƒ iehdy nwl nrV id`qw sI[

dysI Srwb dw j`g srdwr dy isrhwxy hr vyly hI ipAw rihMdw sI,ies dw aus ƒ koeI vYl jW SOk nhIN sI[ pr ieh aus dI mjbUrI sI, ijMnIdyr auh glws Br ky pI nw lYNdw, aus dw swh inklxw vI AOKw ho jWdwsI[ iesy leI auh rotI Kwx qoN pihlW AwpxI dysI duAweI Kw lYNdw Aqydo glws Br ky pI lYNdw sI qy nSy dy lor iv`c auh kuJ dyr leI sON vIjWdw sI[ pr A`DI rwq ƒ aus dI jwg Ku`lH jWdI qy aus ƒ KMG dw dOrw

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pY jWdw iPr auh aus ƒ Awvwz mwrdw qy Srwb dw glws Br ky dyx leIkihMdw[ Srwb dw glws pI ky auh aus ƒ bVy ipAwr nwl kihMdw, ‘bIbwpu`q, do GVIAW myrIAW mOrW Gu`t dyh, zrw swh sOKw ho jwvy !’

ieMJ bwkI rihMdI rwq auh srdwr dIAW mOrW Gu`tdw rihMdw, srdwrdIAW do GVIAW vI pUrI rwq ij`fIAW ho jWdIAW qy ies smyN vI srdwrdI keI vwr A`K l`g jWdI qy auh vI kdI kdI aUNGdw aUNGdw do J`pkIAWlY lYNdw[ eynI dyr ƒ ku`kV bWgW dyxIAW SurU krdy qy srdwr ie`k glwshor dwrU pINdw qy itk jWdw[ CotI srdwrnI aus ƒ Awvwz mwr lYNdI, kdIdhIN vwlI cwtI ƒ nyhIN au~pr r`Kx leI, kdI kuV Aqy mDwxI PVwauxleI, kdI nlky qoN pwxI ilAwaux leI kihMdI qW auh su`q aunINdw ijhwhuMglwauNdw ivhVy iv`c Tyfy KWdw quirAw iPrdw rihMdw[ iv`c iv`c srdwrnIaus nwl hmdrdI-BrIAW g`lW vI krdI rihMdI, ‘pqw nhIN qMU ikvNy auskmry iv`c sON lYNdw eyN? mYƒ qW aus kmry iv`coN mry hoey mws dI bo AwauNdIrihMdI hY !’

auh h`sky AwK dyNdw ik au~Qy mYN sONdw hI kdoN hW ?srdwr dy jwgx qy iPr SurU ho jWdw aus dy cwh pwxI qy dwrU drml

dw islislw[ ies swry kuJ dy bwvjUd vI auh ûS sI, auh lvyrIAW coNdwqy cuMGdw, GoVIAW dIAW dOVW lvwauNdw, kùiqAW ƒ nuhwauNdw qy srdwrdI syvw krdw[

srdwr ƒ aus dw vwhvw Awrwm ho igAw sI, aus ƒ pqw hI nw lìgAwik kdoN srdwr ny aus dy ipMf sunyhw G`l id`qw sI ik myrI ishq TIk nhINrihMdI Gr iv`c Awpxw koeI zuMmyvwr nhIN, ies leI muMfy ƒ kuJ dyr horieQy hI rihx idau[ &rk isr& ieh ipAw ik jdoN Gr vwilAW ny ausƒ pVHwaux dI g`l khI qW srdwr ny auhƒ in`ky skUly dwKl vI krvwid`qw sI[

pqw hI nw lìgAw ik ikMny swl lMG gey[ iPr CotI srdwrnI dy vwirspYdw ho igAw[ srdwr du`K qklI&W J`ldw vwihgurU ƒ ipAwrw ho igAw[jdoN aus ny ipMf jwx leI CotI srdwrnI qoN Cu`tI mMgI qW aus ny aus dIsyvw qoN ûS ho ky auh DUqU vwlw vwjw aus dy isr au~qy cukw id`qw sI, jIhƒauh keI swl Awpxy nwl leI iPrdw irhw sI[ ijs au~pr auh keI vwrieh qvw lgw ky bwr bwr suxdw, ‘muJy Apnw Xwr bnw lo iPr dyKo mzwipAwr kw, Ary Awzmw kr dyKo idl kYsw hY, idldwr kw...’

aus dw idl krdw ik kdI gursu^n aus dy kmry ivc Awvy qW auhaus ƒ ies vwjy qoN Awpxy mn BwaNudy gIq suxwvy Aqy aus ƒ AwpxIAW

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bxweIAW hoeIAW qsvIrW ivKwvy[ pr aus dI kdI aus ƒ kmry iv`c AwauxleI AwKx dI ihMmq hI nhIN sI peI ik pqw nhIN auh ies dy kI ArQk`FygI ?

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rwq dyr q`k auh jwgdw irhw, aus ƒ iks dI aufIk sI, auh iksdy bwry socdw sI, aus ƒ kuJ vI smJ nhIN sI Aw rhI, aus ƒ Ajy q`kiksy dI vI smJ nhIN sI AweI, nw Awpxy Awp dI, nw gursu^n dI, nwblvMq dI, nw b`bU dI, nw islkI dI, nw hI AmI dI, nw hI rvI dI, nwAwBHw dI Aqy nw hI pRnIq dI[ iPr aus ny soicAw ik dunIAW qoN auh Awi^rcwhuMdw kIh hY? ibsqry iv`c jwx qoN pihlW aus ny TMfy pwxI dw glwspIqw iPr aus ny ‘sImon d bovwie’ dI ‘sYkMf sYks’ ikqwb k`FI qy ausdy pMny pltx l`g ipAw, kmwl dI ikqwb ilKI hY, ie`k AOrq ny AOrqWbwry, ij~QoN mrzI KolH ky aus ny pVnHw SurU kIqw : ‘lVkI aus iksmq au~privSvws krdI hY jo ibnW kuJ kIiqAW sB kuJ aus ƒ dy dyvy[ auh jIvndy XQwrQ ƒ Bu`l jwxw cwhuMdI hY[ jIvx dy XQwrQ qoN fr ky auh klpnwdy jgq iv`c jIauxw SurU kr dyNdI hY[’

hW ! hW ! iblkul ieMJ hI kIqw sI b`bU, gursu^n, rvI Aqy AwBHw ny, ausny soicAw qy A`gy pVHnW SurU kIqw,‘sMquStI leI ie`k jvwn lVkI ie`kAYsw swQI KojdI hY jo auhdy au~pr s`B kuJ inCwvr kry, hr lVkI dIie`k p`kI shylI huMdI hY, keI vwr auh AwpxI iksy tIcr v`l vI iK`cI

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jWdI hY, ijs ny smwj iv`c mrdW vWg kMm krky nwmxw K`itAw hovy[ iehtIcrW Awm krky SwdI Sudw nhIN huMdIAW, ikauNik auh lVkI nhIN cwhuMdIik aus vloN cwhI jwx vwlI iksy cIz dw mwlk koeI hor vI hovy[’

bhuq gihrIAW g`lW ies AOrq ny AOrqW bwry ilKIAW hn, SwiedAOrq dy mn dIAW gihrweIAW ƒ ie`k AOrq hI jwx skdI hY[ aus ƒ XwdAwieAw sImon qy swrqr dw irSqw, ijnHW ny swrI aumr SwdI nhIN sI kIqIpr pqI pqnI vWg hI rhy sn[ hr iqMn swl bwAd auh ie`k dUjy qoN v`Kho jWdy, swrI dunIAW iv`c GuMmdy iPrdy v`K v`K AnuBv hwisl krdy qyiPr auh AnuBv ie`k dUjy nwl sWJy krdy[ lokW ƒ AMdroN jwnx dw, smJxdw, ieh aunHW dw Awpxw hI qrIkw sI[ iesy jIvn jwc iv`coN hI swrqrny Awpxw Asiqqvvwd dy isDWq dw &ls&w isrijAw sI Aqy sImon dbovwie ny ‘sYkMf sYks’ vrgI ^UbsUrq ikqwb dI isrjnw kIqI sI[

aus dy AMdr pqw nhIN ikho ijhw ivSvwS pYdw hoieAw ik aus nyaus ikqwb dy Agly vrky pltxy SurU kr id`qy :

‘AOrq Awpxy AihM dw au`dwqIkrx cwhuMdI hY, ies leI jdoN auh purSƒ cwhuMdI vI hY qW Awpxy qoN auqm purS ƒ cwhuMdI hY[ jIhdy au~qy auh mwxkr sky, ieQy aus dy AihM ƒ dUjy qoN SkqI imldI hY[ ijMnw SkqISwlImrd hovygw, EnI hI AOrq dI eIgo vI SkqISwlI hovygI, purS dI iesSkqI dy A`gy auh Awpxw sB kuJ smrip`q kr dyxw cwhuMdI hY[ aus qoNbwAd auh, auh nhIN rihMdI, blik ijs ƒ auh ipAwr krdI hY, ausy vrgwhI ho jwxw cwhuMdI hY, keI lVkIAW AslI izMdgI iv`c vI supinAW iv`cjIaUx dI cyStw krdIAW hn[ auh Awpxy jIvn iv`c iek srvsRyStivAkqI, jIhdy kol j`s qy pYsw dovyN hox jW Awpxy pRym nwl aunHW dysmrpx ƒ mwx dyvy, ƒ cwhuMdIAW hn[’

TIk iesy qrWH hI kIqw sI rvI ny, jdoN auh iksy shylI dy ivAwh geIsI, ij`Qy auh aus &OjI A&sr ƒ imlI sI, ijhVw imltrI ieMjMnIAr sI,ijs dI ifaUtI hI AjyhI sI ik aus ƒ v`K v`K dySW iv`c GuMmx iPrndw mOkw imldw sI, pqw nhIN au~Qy aunHW dI kI g`lbwq hoeI sI[ ie`k mhInydy AMdr AMdr hI aus dI auh shylI iv`colx bx ky rvI dy mW bwp qoNaus &OjI A&sr leI aus dw swk mMg ky lY geI sI[ &OjI A&sr suhxwjuAwn, dyS ibdyS iv`c jwx Awaux dy keI mOky ! mW bwp ƒ hor kI cwhIdwsI? rvI qW pihlW hI iqAwr bYTI sI, aus nwl aus dw kI irSqw sIAYm.ey. sweIkwlojI krn qoN bwAd, auh Gr ivhlI bYTI sI, ie`k idnAcwnk stUfIE Aw geI[ kihx l`gI, ‘mYƒ pyNitMg dw bVw SOk hY, mYƒ

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vI pyNitMg krnI isKw idau[’‘qMU vI Aw jwieAw kr[’ aus dw juAwb sI, pUry do swl pyNitMg is`KdI

rhI[ ikMny BrpUr sn auh idn, aunHW idnW iv`c aunHW dIAW PùlW bwry g`lW,bhwrW dIAW g`lW, phwVW dIAW, ipAwrW dIAW g`lW kdI mu`kx iv`c hInw AwauNdIAW Aqy iPr jwx l`gI ny ie`k vwr vI nhIN sI puìCAw[

ieho qW izMdgI hY mnW ! jwx vwly kdoN pu`Cdy hn[ aus dw idl kIqwik auh auT ky ie`k vwr hor pwxI pIvy pr aus ny au~Tx dI ihMmq hI nhINsI kIqI[ iPr pqw nhIN kdoN auh socW dy vihx iv`c vih igAw sI, kIkr irhw sI auh ! Awpxy aus suMdr Gr iv`c ! jIhƒ aus ny bVI klwqmkqwnwl bxwieAw sI, swry Sihr qoN nvyklw sI auh[ aus dw nkSw aus nyAwp hI iqAwr kIqw sI, nvIN iemwrqswzI Aqy purwxI BwrqI iemwrqklw dy sumyl qoN[ aus ny Awpxy Gr iv`c hr AwDuink loV dw ihswb ikqwbrìKAw hoieAw sI, rsoeI, frwieMMg rUm Aqy bY~f rUm ieMJ bxwey sn, ijvyNienHW iv`c v`sx vwly ƒ QoVI ijhI vI qklI& nw hovy[ tI.vI. sY~t ieMJrìKAw hoieAw sI, jo lwbI iv`coN vI, rsoeI iv`coN vI Aqy bY~f rUm iv`coNvI dyiKAw jw sky[ AwpxI swrI aumr dI kmweI lgw ky aus ny ieh GrbxwieAw sI[ hux auh socdw ik Awi^r aus ny ieh swrw kuJ iks leIkIqw? Swied ausdy iksy AMqrIv iv`c ieh Bwvnw kMm kr rhI sI ik ausdw ikvyN nw ikvyN nwm hI rih jwvy[ zwihrw qOr qy qW BwvyN auh gRihsQdy jMjwl ƒ BMfdw sI[ ies pRbMD ƒ mwVw cMgw kihMdw sI pr Dur AMdrAcyq mn iv`c ikDry ieh Bwvnw lukI hoeI sI ik aus dw vI koeI AwpxwhuMdw qW aus dI jVH A`gy qurdI[ ieho kwrn sI ik jdoN aus ny ies GrdIAW nINhW r`KIAW sn qW aunHW iv`c aus ny AwpxIAW rcnwvW, AwpxIAWpyNitMgz dIAW &otoAW qy Awpxy dosqW im`qrW dIAW rcnwvW, aunHW dIAWqsvIrW, aunHW dIAW ikqwbW dy tweItl qy hor bhuq kuJ iek plwsitkdy il&w&y iv`c bMd krky r`Ky sn[ isrP nIhW iv`c hI nhIN, &rSW qy C`qWiv`c vI r`Ky sn qW ky jdoN kdI ieh s`B kuJ qbwh ho jwvy qW AwauxvwlIAW pIVHIAW vyKx ik ikho ijhw bMdw ieQy rihMdw irhw hY, iek`lw ie`kobMdw hI QoVHw rihMdw sI ies Gr iv`c? dunIAW AwauNdI jWdI sI auhdy kol[do GVIAW, do idn jW do h&qy BIV pw ky qur jWdI sI[ ienHW socW iv`cpqw nhIN auh ik`Qy dw ik`Qy phuMc igAw sI ik aus ƒ pRnIq dw iÂwlAwieAw, ijs nwl vI aus dI bhuq gihrI nyVqw ho geI sI pr aus nyies nyVqw ƒ aus qrIky nwl nhIN sI ilAw, ijs qrIky nwl aus ny pihlWkeI vwr ilAw sI[ pRnIq ie`k bhu`q hI Swndwr klwkwr AOrq sI, bhuq

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hI sulJI hoeI, QIeytr dI Awritst Aqy ic`qrkwr[pRnIq nwl aus dy lgwau dw v`fw kwrn pRnIq dw ic`qrkwr hoxw

hI sI [ aus ny vI ie`k ihswb nwl AwpxI pUrI izMdgI klw ƒ sm`ripqkIqI hoeI sI[ auh jd vI pRnIq dy Gr jWdw qW aus ƒ hr vsqU iv`coNklwmeI Jlkwrw pYNdw, auh GMitAW-b`DI aus v`loN bxweIAW pyNitMgz vyKdwrihMdw, ienHW pyNitMgz dy rMg v`KrI BWq dy huMdy, ienHW rMgW ƒ vI pRnIqAwp hI iqAwr krdI sI[ jd auh pRnIq ƒ ienHW rMgW bwry puCdw qW ausdw juAwb huMdw ik quhwfI isrjxw qW auh hoeI ijhVI pRikRqI qoN v`KrIhovygI, jykr qusIN pRikRqI vwly rMg vrq ky hI kuJ bnwauxw hY qW iesiv`c v`Krw kIh hoieAw? pRikRqI ny qW pihlW hI rMgW iv`c kmwl kIqwhoieAw hY[

pRnIq dIAW pyNitMgz dy ivSy vI AwpxI BWq dy sn, auh keI vwraunHW dI klwsIi&kySn krn dI koiSS krdw pr aus dIAW ieh pyNitMgzkdI vI iksy vwd iv`c iP`t nw huMdIAW[ aus dIAW pyNitMgz dw mu`K ivSwBwvyN AOrq nwl sbMiDq sI pr ikDry vI iksy AOrq dw ichrw kdI nzrnhIN sI AwieAw, ieh swry ichry bypCwx hI sn Aqy ieh sn vI iqkoxwiv`c, hr ichrw hI iqkoxw sI[

jd aus ny ie`k vwr pRnIq ƒ ies dw kwrn puiCAw qW aus dw juAwbsI, mrd ny AOrq dI pCwx hI kdoN bxn id`qI hY? bwkI rhI aus dy ichrydw iqkoxw hoxw, ieh smwj dy auh tyFy-myFy irSqy hn, ijnHW iv`c ie`k AOrqƒ ijaUxw pYNdw hY, ijhVy hmyS hI bypCwx Aqy kuAwsy huMdy hn[

pRnIq styj dI vI bVI v`fI klwkwr sI, auh jd vI aus dI AdwkwrIstyj au~pr vyKdw, auh inBwey jw rhy icR`qr nwl ie`k-im`k hoeI huMdI, qWie`k qrIky nwl aus ƒ aus nwl eIrKw hox l`gdI, ^ws qOr qy jd auhiksy dI pqnI jW mihbUbw bx ky koeI BUimkw inBw rhI huMdI, iPr vI auhpRogrwm qoN bwAd aus dI klw dI qwrI& zrUr krdw[

auh Awm qOr qy dUjIAW zubwnW dy nwtkW dw Anuvwd krdy, keI keIGMty iek`Ty bYTy Anuvwd iv`c ru`Jy kO&I dy k`pW dy k`p pINdy rihMdy, keIAWvwkW au~pr h`sdy, ij`ddy Aqy bihsW vI krdy[ pqw nhIN ikauN Aqy kIkwrn sn ik pRnIq nwl aus dw irSqw ies qoN A`gy nhIN sI v`D sikAw[dHlsj wjiV LjdHs dHh lg dw Rph fdhv[ diLdabJ sg Bp,B-F,u a'G cdibjh'dHbj lg m LjdHs hpS h'i sis ldhS sg Rpl dry dh>qa hg Vhk lg idheHg m f+Vga dw>Vg y.eg lg m dw.Vg dfbjig ba[ dw>Vg ldhu!!!ieh socidAWpqw nhIN aus dI kdoN A`K l`g geI[

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Agly idn jdoN auh svyry auiTAw qW aus ƒ ieMJ ligAw, ijvyN huxaus dI izMdgI iv`c ivhl hI ivhl hovy, k`l q`k qW auh bhuq hI ruìJAwhoieAw sI Aqy izMdgI dy nwl pUrI qrHW juiVAw hoieAw vI, iPr Acwnkauh ijvyN ivhlw ho igAw sI ! AwpxI mOq ƒ aus ny ie`k idn leI mulqvIkr id`qw sI[ mrn dw kIh hY? mirAw qW kdoN vI jw skdw hY[ g`l qWquhwfy mOq ƒ cwhux dI hY[ jd aus ny swry sky sMbMDIAW, irSqydwrW, XwrWdosqW aunHW dIAW bIvIAW bwry soicAw qW aus ƒ lìgAw ik jIau qW koeIvI nhIN irhw[ swry mry mry Aqy buJy buJy hI iPr rhy hn[ ie`k dUjy nwliK`Jdy, KihbVdy qy qwhny imhxy dyNdy, sky sMbMDIAW dIAW mOqW au~pr ie`kdUjy nwloN v`D DwhW mwrdy, cIk ichwVw pwauNdy, aunHW dy isivAW dy TMfwhox dw ieMqzwr krdy[

A`j dw idn aus ƒ pihlW nwloN kuJ suhwvxw lìgAw aus ny gulwcIndy bUty ƒ ploisAw Aqy aus dy Pu`lW ƒ qoV ky suMiGAw Aqy bIq cu`kI izMdgIdw ie`k hor pUry dw pUrw AiDAwie aus dy swhmxy KulHw ipAw sI[ gulwcIndw Pu`l hI sI, ijhVw aus ny pihlI vwr b`bU ƒ id`qw sI Aqy iPr keIdyr aus ƒ bwÙwiedw dyNdw irhw sI[

auh iPr AwpxI cOkI lY ky bYT igAw, aus ƒ kuJ vI nhIN sI su`Jirhw sI, aus ƒ gulwcIn dy Pu`lW dI Xwd Aw geI qW Acwnk hI idmwZiv`c b`bU Awx hwzr hoeI[

b`bU nwl mulwÙwq ikvyN Acwnk hoeI iehdy bwry bhuqw qW Xwd nhIN,hW, ie`k vwr aus dy Sihr iv`c ie`k kvI drbwr hoieAw sI, auh vI s`dygey kvIAW iv`c Swiml sI, au~Qy b`bU vI AweI hoeI sI, auh iqMnW BwSwvWiv`c kivqw ilK lYNdI sI, SwierI Aqy sMgIq nwl aus ƒ AQwh ipAwrsI[ bu`bU ƒ vyK ky aus ƒ bhuq swl pihlW dI gursu^n Xwd Aw geI, ausny soicAw ik r`b keI lokW dy nkS nuhwr ikho ijhI jugq nwl ikvyN AqyikauN bxwauNdw hY ik keIAW iv`coN AwpixAW dw BulyKw pYx l`gdw hY ! audoNdI gursu^n iblkul hU-b-hU A`j dI b`bU hI sI[ styj au~pr ivCI ic`tIcwdr au~pr ArD-c`kr iv`c bYiTAW auh iblkul aus dy swhmxy sI, dohWny ie`k dUjyyy v`l vyiKAw qy vyKdy hI rih gey, b`bU A`KW hor pwsy krn dwnwm hI nhIN sI lY rhI, aus ƒ mihsUs hoieAw, ijvyN aus dIAW nzrW iv`coNvI ijvyN koeI ibjlI dIAW qrMgW inkl rhIAW hox, b`bU ny iblkul s&Ydk`pVy pihny hoey sn[ ieMJ auh AwkwS dI Ap`srw l`g rhI sI, lwtUAWdI roSnI iv`c aus dw ichrw, h`Q Aqy pYr hor vI gory inSoh l`g rhy sn,

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ijnHW ƒ vyKidAW hI auh mdhoS ho igAw sI[dohW ny AwpxIAW AwpxIAW kivqwvW suxweIAW[ aus dI kiv`qw pwxI

bwry sI ijs iv`c pwxI dy v`K v`K rUpW qy guxW dw izkr sI, JIlW dirAwvWqy qlwvW qoN lYky hMJUAW dy Kwry pwxIAW q`k dw vKrIAW vKrIAW qSbIhWnwl pwxI dy gux-AOguxW dw izkr sI[ aus qoN bwAd b`bU ny Awpxw hIiliKAw gIq sroiqAW dI &rmwieS qy suxwieAw, auh gIq bVw Bwv-pUrqAqy gihry ArQW vwlw sI[ auh gIq bVw drd BirAw sI, ijs iv`coN iksydI byv&weI dw sdmw Aqy aulWBy dI sur auBr rhI sI[

gIq ^qm hox qy aus ny b`bU ƒ A`KW A`KW rwhIN hI dwd id`qI ijhVIieSwry ieSwry iv`c hI kbUl ho geI[ kvI drbwr ^qm hoieAw qW b`bU nyaus dy kol Awx ky aus ƒ kivqw dI ÛbsUrqI dI vDweI id`qI[ aus nyvI b`bU dy gIq dIAW is&qW dy puL bMnH id`qy Aqy ikhw ik mYN pihlI vwriksy ÛbsurqI ƒ eynW ÛbsUrq gIq gwauNidAW suixAw hY[

‘jwx idau !’ b`bU ny ikhw sI qW aus ny Srwrq nwl ikhw sI, ‘mYfmn`ny nwl ik nwxy nwl’[

‘qusIN bVy SrwrqI l`gdy ho’, kihMidAW auh l`k mtkwauNdI hor kvIAWv`l cly geI qW auh aus dy eyny lMmy vwl vyK ky hI mdhoS ijhw ho igAw[aus ny ieh vI mihsUs kIqw ijvyN koeI hor Aw&q Awaux vwlI hovy prhux aus dy qy kuJ vI v`s nhIN sI rih igAw, aus dy nwl qW hmySw ieMJhI huMdw AwieAw sI[

kvI drbwr dy pRbMDkW ny aunHW leI vDIAw cwh pwxI dw pRbMD kIqwhoieAw sI[ cwh pINidAW BwvyN hor vI keI lok b`bU dI qwrI& kr rhy snpr aus ƒ l`gdw ijvyN b`bU aunHW vl koeI iDAwn hI nhIN sI dy rhI Aqyiv`coN iv`coN kMn-A`KIAw rwhIN, aus vl JwqI mwr ky ieMJ muskrwauNdI ijvyNkih rhI hovy...dyK lau hY nw kmwl !

ie`k vwr iPr aunHW dw Awhmxw swhmxw ho igAw, aus ny sihj Bwvnwl hI b`bU dw QW-itkwxw puiCAw qW b`bU ny byiJjk hI ikhw ik aus dIbdlI vI hux iesy Sihr iv`c ho geI hY Aqy kuJ hI idn pihlW aus nyivìmn hostl iv`c iSPt kIqw hY[ ieh kihMidAW aus ny bVy AMdwz nwlAwpxw pqw d`sidAW aus ƒ ikhw, ‘Awxw kdI iek`Ty cwh pIvWgy, nwlyquhwfIAW kivqwvW suxWgy[’

‘zrUr, zrUr, quhwƒ iml ky bVI ûSI hovygI !’‘ikauN, ûSI ikauN hovygI ?’ b`bU ny SrwrqI AMdwz iv`c ikhw[‘jdoN do klwkwr iml ky bYTdy hn qW ûSI dw hwizr hoxw, ûSI dI

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AwpxI mjbUrI ho jWdI hY, hor aus ny jwxw vI iks pws hY ?’‘qusIN qW mYƒ &lws&r vI l`gdy ho, mYƒ qW &lws&rW qoN bVw fr l`gdw

hY, ieh lok qW bwq dw bqMgV bxw idMdy hn[’ b`bU ny ikhw[‘nhIN eyfw v`fw &lws&r nhIN ik SbdW jW vsqUAW dy ArQ k`Fx

dI bjwey mqlb k`Fx l`g pvW[’‘lE mqlb qW qusIN pihlW hI k`FI jw rhy ho[’ b`bU ny mÔl nwl

ikhw[‘myrw mqlb ieh hrigz nhIN sI[’‘pr mqlb qW mqlb hI hY jnwb[’ ‘clo C`fo ! koeI hor g`l suxwau !’ aus ny ijvyN b`bU qoN KihVw Cufwauxw

cwihAw[ aus ƒ ieMJ lìgAw ijvyN b`bU ny aus ƒ SbdW SbdW iv`c hI GyrilAw hovy[ b`bU A`TKylIAW krdI Aqy pYlW pwauNdI dUr cly geI[

ie`k vwr iPr lokW Aqy kvIAW dI BIV ijhI l`g geI b`bU iksy hornwl g`lIN jw l`gI, auh aus dI ip`T au~pr lmkdy lMmy vwlW dI gu`q ƒinhwrn l`gw[

aus ƒ pqw hI nhIN sI l`g irhw ik hux auh Eho bMdw hY? ijhVwkuJ dyr pihlW kvI drbwr iv`c AwieAw sI? aus ƒ lìgAw ijvyN ie`kvwr muV auh izMdgI nwl juVn dy rwh pY igAw hovy[ AMdr hI AMdr auhfrn l`gw, aus dy swhmxy buhq kuJ bIiqAw i&lm dI rIl vWg GMumxlìgAw[

Acwnk iek idn auh b`bU kol clw hI igAw[ aus idn aunHW ny swihqbwry, SwierI bwry, SwierW bwry, mrdW bwry, AOrqW bwry bhuq swrIAW g`lWkIqIAW[ b`bU dy kmry qoN bwhr Awaux mgroN aus ƒ ieMJ lìgAw ijvyN auhbVw BirAw BirAw qy v`fw v`fw mihsUs krn lìgAw hY, aus ƒ ijvyN koeIijaUx dw Awhr iml igAw hovy[ iPr qW ijvyN b`bU ƒ vI aus dI aufIkrihx l`g peI sI[

jdoN auh iksy kwrn ie`k do idn b`bU kol nw jWdw qW ausy vyly ausƒ b`bU dw &on Aw jWdw Aqy nw Awaux dw kwrn puiCAw jWdw[

auh jdoN vI b`bU dy kmry iv`c jWdw qW dohW dI keI msilAW au~prbihs iCV pYNdI, b`bU hr vwr aus nwl iksy nw iksy ivSy au~pr bihs krdI[keI vwr auh vI AgoN bihs krdw pr jdoN aus ƒ ieh mihsUs huMdw ikj`d vI b`bU bihs iv`c hwr jWdI hY qW auh bhuq hI audws ho jWdI hY,ies leI keI vwr auh TIk hMudw hoieAw vI cùp kr jWdw Aqy b`bU ƒ ij`qjwx dw iehsws krvw dyNdw[ AjyhI hwlq iv`c b`bU bhuq hI ûS huMdI[

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ieMJ auh b`bU dI ûSI iv`c vwDw krdw rihMdw[auh jdoN vI b`bU dy kmry iv`c jWdw qW Acwnk pYrIN pweI ju`qI lwh

dyNdw qy Awpxy ÛbsUrq pYr b`bU dy nvyN ley gol aunwbI rMg dy glIcy au~prr`K dyNdw, b`bU kihMdI : ‘glIcy dw rMg TIk nhIN, bdl dyxw hY[’

auh bihs krdw ik nhIN ieho hI rMg TIk hY, mYƒ cMgw l`gdw hY[b`bU kihMdI, ‘cMgw l`gdw hY?’‘hW !’ auh muskrwA ky juAwb dyNdw[‘mYƒ nhIN cMgw l`gdw, mYƒ qW nIly AsmwnI rMg cMgy l`gdy hn[ ijvyN

ieh dyKo pridAW dy rMg AsmwnI, bY~fSIt dw rMg AsmwnI, klwk dISyf AsmwnI qy hor vI swrw kuJ AsmwnI qy ienHW iv`c ieh lwl ijhwrMg TIk nhIN l`gdw[’

‘ieh qW sgoN kMtrwst bxdw hY nIlw Aqy lwl’, auh kihMdw[‘kMtrwst’ Sbd qoN hI mYƒ fr l`gdw hY[ mYN qW izMdgI ivc irdm

cwhuMdI hW[ sMgIq cwhuMdI hW, sMgIq iv`c lYA hY, sur hY, irdm hY, kMtrwstvwlIAW cIzW mYƒ cMgIAW nhIN l`gdIAW[ ieh Sbd sux ky qW mYN kMbjWdI hW !’

‘iksy isAwxy ny aus ƒ lwl rMg pihnx qoN mnHW kIqw hoieAw sI priPr vI pqw nhIN ikauN auh ies lwl rMg dy glIcy dI vkwlq krI jwirhw sI ?’ aus ny b`bU ƒ dìsAw[

b`bU ny puiCAw, ‘isAwxy ny ikvyN mnHw kIqw sI ?’‘pqw nhIN, kihMdy hn ik bcpn iv`c ie`k vwr mYN gLI ’c Kyf irhw

sI ik koeI sMq AwieAw, mYƒ vyK ky kihx lìgAw kwkw qyrw Gr ikhVwhY ? mYN aus dI auNgl PV ky aus ƒ Awpxy Gr lY AwieAw qW aus ny myryGr vwilAW ƒ ikhw ik ies kwky ƒ lwl k`pVw nhIN pwauxw Aqy nwhI gihry pwxI kol jwx dyxw[ iehdy h`Q au~pr iksy dI jwn lYxI vI ilKIhoeI hY Aqy iehdy au~pr koeI JUTw ielzwm vI l`gxw iliKAw hoieAw hY[’

‘iPr ikMnIAW jwnW leIAW qy ikMny ielzwm l`gy?’‘jwnW dw qW pqw nhI ielzwm bhuq !’‘A`jklH jwn lYx dI koiSS iv`c ho ik ielzwm ?’‘mYN kdI vI kuJ lYx dI koiSS nhIN krdw, Awpxy Awp hI s`B kuJ

myry kol Aw jWdw hY[’‘ies muAwmly iv`c qW ieMJ nhIN l`gdw[’‘qYƒ ikvyN pqw hY ?’‘aus idn jd qusIN myry vl bVI nIJ lw ky dyK rhy sI, bVy SrwrqI

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l`g rhy sI[ quhwfIAW nzrW ieh nhIN sn jo A`j hn[’‘auh nzrW ikho ijhIAw sn?’‘Bu`KIAW BùKIAW qy SrwrqI[’‘ieh Bu~KIAW qW ho skdIAW pr SrwrqI nhI ho skdIAW[’‘hW l`gdw qW hY ik qusIN SrwrqI nhIN[ SrwrqI bMidAW qoN mYƒ hmySw

fr l`gdw hY, A`Cw cwh bxwvW?’b`bU auT ky qurn l`gdI hY, auh aus ƒ inhwrdw rihMdw hY[ gulwbI rMg

dI kuVqI, KulHy vwl Aqy qyV lihMgy vrgw kuJ hor ilbws[ auh socdw ikikMnw kuJ bdl igAw hY swfy pihnx pcrx iv`c? ikMnI sohxI l`gdIhY b`bU ies ilbws iv`c, kuVqI iv`coN aus dy fu`lH fu`lH pYNdy AMg flHkW mwrdynzr AwauNdy hn[ kwlIAW DwrIAW qy bUtIAW vwlw lihMgw jd hvw iv`clihrwauNdw qW l`gdw ijvyN auh aus dy ijsm ƒ cOr kr irhw hovy qW swrIi&zw ÛbsUrq Aqy sugMDIAW BrI nzr Awaux l`gdI hY[

b`bU dUjy kmry iv`c cwh bnwaux clI geI hY qy auh Awpxy socy SbdWbwry socx l`g pYNdw hY[ auh socdw hY ik auh pVH ilK ky vI Ajy q`k jMglIhI irhw hY[ aus ƒ Sbd qyV hI ikauN suiJAw? aus ny Awpxy swry igAwn-ivigAwn dw Awsrw ilAw[

aus ƒ AwpxI iGnwauxI soc au~pr gu`sw AwieAw[ bMdw ijMnw mrzIpVH ilK jwvy aus dy AMdroN pSUpuxw jW jMglIpuxw nhIN jWdw, kI iesƒ jMglIpuxw kihxw jwiez hY !

aus ny soicAw auh hr vwr pu`Tw hI ikauN socdw hY[ qyV dw ArQqW iv`Q huMdw, kMDW iv`c nhIN qRyVW pY jWdIAW[ idlW iv`c jdoN qyRVW pY jwxqW muV nhIN imldy, myry idl iv`c vI bhuq swrIAW qRyVW pY geIAW hn[smyN ny bhuq kuJ Brn dw Xqn kIqw hY pr qRyVW kdI ^qm nhIN huMdIAW[

b`bU bVI sYNtI hY, iemoSnl hY, ÛbsUrq qW hY hI[ iesy leI aus ny ausdw nwm ieMmo r`K ilAw hY[ aus ny ieh kmrw lYx leI vI pUrI izd pugweIsI, kmrw lYx qoN pihlW ie`k vwr aus dy d&qr igAw sI[ aus dy d&qrvwlw kmrw bMd sI pr pUrw bMd nhIN sI drvwzw FuìkAw hoieAw sI, l`gdwsI ik AMdr koeI hY[ jd QoVHw ijhw bUhw Kohl ky AMdr JwqI mwrI qW b`bUmyz au~pr isr sutI peI sI[ jd aus ny vyiKAw qW ieMJ l`gw ijvyN ausdIAW A`KW su`jIAW hoeIAW hox, ijvyN auh huxy hI ro ky htI hovy[ vyK kyaus ny rumwl nwl A`KW pUMJIAW qy muskrwaux dI koiSS kIqI qy A`KW qyÛbsUrq AYnkW lgw leIAW[ aus dI muskrwht iv`c koeI fwhFw hI iglwsI ! ijvyN kih rhI hovy ik sB kuJ vwpr igAw hY, quhwfw kI &wiedw?

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jykr koeI hor jgHw huMdI qW Swied auh aus ƒ bVy ipAwr nwl cu`pkrwauNdw, idlwsw vI dyNdw qy aus dy hMJUAw ƒ Awpxy hoTW nwl sukw dyxdI koiSS krdw, aus dy m`Qy ƒ cuMmdw qy kihMdw, myry b`bUAw ! myrI ieMmo ikauNbycYn huMdI hY? mYN ju hW qyry kol, myry huMidAW dunIAW au~pr qYƒ koeI vIdu`K qklI& nhIN ho skdI pr ieh d&qr sI, auh swrw kuJ soc ky cu`pirhw sI, auh kyvl hìsAw sI qy aus ƒ mÔl hI krdw irhw sI[

aus ƒ hswaux dI koiSS kIqI[ aus ny GMtI mwrI, rumwl nwl A`KWpUMJIAW qy nOkr ƒ pwxI qy cwh ilAwaux dw Awfr dy id`qw, auh nWhkrn dy mUf iv`c huMdy hoieAW vI nWh nw kr sikAw, jd b`bU duKI hovyjW inrwS hovy qW auh cu`p cwp aus dIAW g`lW mMnI jWdw sI, ijvyN auhkoeI robot hovy, nOkr TMfw pwxI ipAw igAw qy aus ny b`bU ƒ pu~iCAw ikhux d`so jnwb A`j eyny auydws ikauN hn?

‘mYN AsqI&w aus dy mUMh qy mwr AweI hW myry pwsoN nhIN ieho ijhIAWhwlqW iv`c jIA huMdw[’

‘nw Awi^r g`l kI hoeI?’‘b`s aus ƒ kih idqw ik myrIAW kuJ lweIikMg qy kuJ ifslwieikMg

ny, myry jIaux dw Awpxw ivhwr hY, TIk hY ik mYN BwvyN Ajy A`nmYrIf hWpr Gr dIAW loVW dw swrw swmwn qW myry pws hY[ myry kol &irj hY, tI.vI. hY, gYs culHw hY, gOfryj dI AlmwrI hY qy myry kol imaUizk dy eynyieMstrUmYNt hn, pyNitMg dw eynw swmwn hY, kI ieh swrw swmwn mYN bwhrsu`t dyvW? jW swrw swmwn ie`k Gurny vrgy kmry iv`c r`K ky Awp sVkqy bih jwvW?’

auh v`fw A&sr kihx l`gw ik mYN byb`s hW, ieh pOilsI mYtr hY, dokmry hn bwQ rUm sWJw hY[ ieh qW do jixAW ƒ hI do kmry imlxgy[

‘mYN ikhw, mYN subhw-Swm irAwz krnw hY, iehdy iv`c mYN vI ifstrbhovWgI qy nwl dy kmry vwlw vI pr auh nhIN mMinAw qy mYN Awpxw AsqI&waus dy h`Q PVw AweI hW, mYN Ajyhy lokW iv`c nhIN rih skdI, ijhVyquhwfIAW BwvnwvW ƒ nhIN smJ skdy[’

aus ny b`bU ƒ hOslw id`qw sI[‘ijs Sihr iv`c mYN pihlW sI, aus kmry dI hr ie`t ie`t nwl mYƒ

ipAwr sI, aus dIAW dIvwrW myrIAW ByqI sn[ auh mYƒ ipAwr krdIAWsn[ aunHW nwl myrI Awqimk sWJ sI[ auh myrI aufIk krdIAW sn[ aunHWswhmxy mYN keI vwr Bu`bIN BùbIN roeI sI[ aunHW ny mYƒ idlwsy vI idqy qymyry hMJUAW ƒ shwry vI idqy sn[ mYN AwpxI muh`bq iv`c ivAwkul hoky aunHW

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nwl isr vI tkrwieAw sI[ myrIAW bhuq swrIAW sWJW, XwdW aus jgwHnwl juVIAW hoeIAW sn pr au~prly A&srW nyy bgYr socy smJy hI AcwnkmyrI bdlI dw hukm clw id`qw[’

aus dy AsqI&y dI g`l sux ky aus dy pYrW hyToN zmIn hI inkl geIaus ny soicAw ik mnW Ajy k`l dI hI qW g`l hY, auh b`bU dy mn iv`cikDry AwpxI QW bnwaux iv`c kuJ s&l hox l`gw sI[ dunIAW iv`c ikMnyku bMdy hn ijnHW nwl quhwfI ijgrI sWJ pYNdI hY? auh vI inrsuAwrQ qypwk piv`qR[ b`bU ƒ imlx qoN pihlW aus ny izMdgI dy ies Bv-swgr iv`cAwpxy Awp ƒ auNJ hI C`f id`qw sI[ lihrW aus ƒ ijDr mrzI lY jwx,kMm kwr qy pVHn ilKx dy muAwmly iv`c vI lwprvwh, auh isr& izMdgIijaUeI jw irhw sI[

ieQoN q`k ilK ky auh au~iTAw, rsoeI iv`c igAw qy ikMnI dyr socdwirhw ik hux auh kI kry? aus ƒ smJ nhIN sI Aw rhI ik aus dw bhuqswrw kuJ ik`Qy igAw? ijs dy shwry auh jIaUx dIAW koiSSW krdw irhwsI? aus ƒ kuJ vI smJ nhIN sI l`g irhw[

kuJ dyr rsoeI iv`c ieDr auDr iPr ky auh bwhr clw igAw, bwhr^UbsUrq nzwrw sI[ dUr phwVW vl koeI koeI b`dlI ie`k dUjy iv`c smwArhI sI ijvyN ie`k im`k ho ky DrqI au~pr hmlw krnw hovy[ ivhVy iv`c iKVygulwbW qy glyfIAsW ny vI aus dw iDAwn iKicAw, aus ƒ bwr bwr b`bUdw ichrw hI Xwd AwauNdw irhw[ auh rwq dI rwxI dy bUty kol vI igAwauh pihlW vWg hI lptW mwr rhI sI[ kI pOdy vI iksy dI aufIk jW Xwdiv`c audws huMdy hoxgy? aus dy mn iv`c ieh suAwl pqw nhIN ikvyN AwigAw Aqy auh ikMnI dyr ie`s suAwl bwry bVI gMBIrqw nwl ivcwr krdwirhw, ijvyN ieh koeI izMdgI dw bVw mh`qvpUrn suAwl jW mslw hovy[

vwps Awx ky auh iPr bYT igAw qy ilKxw SurU kIqw[b`bU nwl aus dI bolW dI sWJ peI hI sI ik auh socx l`g ipAw

sI ik ijvyN hux aus dI izMdgI iv`c vI rvwnI Awaux l`g peI hY, ausdy AMdr pVHn ilKx dy iPr muV mnsUby SurU ho gey sn[ muV kwZz klmiv`c hrkq Aw geI sI[ b`bU dI SwierI dy iSAr aus dI zubwn au~pr Awpmuhwry Awaux l`g pey sn[ izMdgI ijvNy rumkx l`g peI sI[ b`bU hr roznvyN iSAr ilK ky aus ƒ suxwaux leI, aus ƒ aufIkdI rihMdI, auh jWdw,b`bU iSAr suxwauNdI[ auh aunHW iv`c dru`sqI krn dI slwh dyNdw, b`bU nwrwzho jWdI, qusINN kdI iksy cIz ƒ cMgI nhIN khogy[

auh GMitAw b`DI v`K v`K iviSAW qy ivcwr vtWdrw krdy, iv`c iv`c

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auh b`bU ƒ iksy nw iksy g`l qoN icVwauNdw vI Aqy keI vwr dwrSinkWvWg aus ƒ izMdgI dy ArQW ƒ d`sx dI koiSS vI krdw rihMdw, BwvyNAjy q`k aus dy Awpxy h`Q izMdgI dy iksy p`K dI koeI kMnIN vI nhIN sIAweI[ iPr vI auh smJdw ik Gto Gt auh keI p`KW qoN b`bU dI AgvweIkr skdw hY[ jd vI auh b`bU dy kmry iv`c jWdw qW hYrwn huMdw ik ausdI kursI ie`k ^ws QW au~pr r`KI huMdI qy b`bU Awpxy plMG au~pr ie`k ^wsAMdwz iv`c lytI huMdI[ auh vI ie`k isDwey hoey jwnvr vWg kmry iv`cjWdw qy ausy hI kursI au~pr jw bYTdw[ b`bU pihlW aus nwl g`lW krdIpr aus dw kdI pqw nw l`gdw ik ikhVy vyly auh audws ho jWdI jW ikhVyvyly ûS ho jWdI, iesy leI hI keI vwr auh bVI soc smJ ky hI koeI g`lkrdw[ ijvyN ijvyN ausdI b`bU nwl nyVqw vDdI geI, aus ƒ aus dy suBwAdw aus nwloN vI vD pqw l`g igAw[ kuJ dyr g`lW bwqW krn qoN bwAdb`bU auTdI, cwh bnwaux leI dujy kmry iv`c jWdI qy auQoN hI pu`CdI ikcInI ikMnI? auh kursI qoN KVw hoky b`bU dy kmry qy dUjy kmry ijs ƒ ausny bVI izd krky ilAw sI, ijs ƒ auh hux rsoeI vjoN vrq rhI sI, dyA`D-iv`ckwr jw ky KVw ho jWdw ijvyN do dySW dI srh`d qy bMdw no mYNnlYNf au~pr KVw hovy[ auh hYrwn huMdw ik ies vwr iPr auh nMgy pYrIN sIaus ƒ Xwd AwieAw ik aus ny ie`k vwr b`bU ƒ ikhw sI ik pqw nhINikauN mYN qyry kmry iv`c Awx ky ju`qI auqwr dyNdw hW[

qW aus ny hYrwnI nwl puìCAw sI, ‘ieh ikauN ?’auh soc soc ky Awpxw ichn-ivigAwn lgwauNdw, auh g`lW aus dw

b`bU ƒ kihx leI idl nw krdw, ijhVIAW jwgIrdwrI smwj iv`c Awmkrky khIAW jW socIAW jWdIAW hn ik bMdy dI ju`qI qoN ieh pqw l`gjWdw hY ik Gr iv`c bMdy dI ikqnI ku iezq hY jW auh Awp Gr vwlIdI ikMnI ku iezq krdw hY[ jwgIrdwrI smwj iv`c swfI mwnisk bxqrhI AijhI sI qy ichnW dy ArQ vI Aijhy sn[

soc soc ky aus dy igAwn, ivigAwn ny juAwb id`qw, ‘b`bU ieQy Awxky mYƒ ieMJ l`gx l`g pYNdw hY ijvyN bMdw bVy lMmy sPr qoN bwAd aus mMzlqy phuMc igAw hovy ijs dI ik aus ƒ bVI dyr qoN aufIk sI[ auh ju`qIlwh ky insicMq ho jWdw hY ik hux s&r dw AMq Aw igAw hY[’

‘qW qusIN mMzl qy phuMc gey? ieh quhwfw BulyKw hY[ ieh mMzl dw ie`kpVw qW ho skdw hY, mMzl nhIN[’

b`bU aus ƒ mÔl krdI, auh cwh vwlI kyqlI cùk ky k`pW iv`c cwhpw rhI huMdI qy aus dy ieDr auDr hox nwl aus dI lMmI gu`q vI ieDr

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auDr hulwry KweI jWdI[ijs idn pihlI vwr auh b`bU dy kmry iv`c AwieAw sI qW b`bU ny nhw

ky vwl KulHy C`fy hoey sn[qObw ! eyny lMmy, eyny sMGxy qy eyny ipAwry vwl? aus ny mn hI mn soicAw

sI[dosqW imqrW qoN aus ny AOrqW dy vwlW dI ÛbsUrqI bwry suixAw qW

hoieAw sI[ pr aus ƒ kdy vI vwlW dI ÛbsUrqI dw eynw iehsws nhINsI hoieAw[ ijMnW aus idn b`bU dy vwL vyK aus ƒ mihsUs ho irhw sI[ ausny soicAw ik mnu`K dy vwL iksy iksm dIAW qrMgW ny iesy leI b`bU dyihldy vwL vI aus dy AMdr keI iksm dIAw JrnwtW CyV dyNdy hn[

hux aus ƒ Awpxy aus dosq dI bIvI dI Xwd AweI jo AwpxI BYVIijhI Byf dI pUC vrgI guqnI ƒ hr vyly bMnHdI rihMdI qy jdoN vI auhbMnH ky htdI auh ausy vyly hI KulH jWdI sI qy aus ƒ ieh hrkq vyK vyKky kurYihq ijhI AwauNdI rihMdI sI[ aus dw idl krdw ik auh aus dosqdy GroN auT ky ikDry dOV jwvy[

aus idn s`c mu`c hI aus ny soicAw sI ik auh b`bU dy vwlW iv`c Awpxwichrw Cupw lvy, aunHW vwlW dI ûSbU lvy jW aunHW ƒ AwpxI DOx duAwlylpyt ky &wh hI lY lvy[

auh b`bU dy vwlW nwl cohl mohl krky aunHW nwl jwx pCwx krnIcwhuMdw sI pr auh ieh swrw kuJ AMdr hI AMdr soc ky cu`p kr igAw ikAwi^r b`bU kI socygI?

AwpxIAW ^wihSW, BwvnwvW Aqy aumMgW ƒ AMdr hI AMdr dbwA kyAqy aunHW au~pr Awpxy igAwn dIAW qih dr qih prqW ibTw ky auh cu`pcwp iek lyly vWg b`bU dy kmry iv`c bYTw rihMdw jd ik b`bU mn hI mnsoc rhI sI ik ieh bMdw ikho ijhw hY?

aus ƒ l`gdw ijvyN aus dI ifaUtI b`bU ƒ sWBx dI hI l`gI hovy[pr ieh ifautI aus qoN inBweI nhIN sI jw skI jW b`bU ny aus ƒ ies dIiejwzq hI nhIN sI id`qI[ b`bU iksy au~pr Awsrw nhIN sI bxnw cwhuMdIauh nhIN sI cwhuMdI ik koeI aus au~pr qrs Kwvy, qrs krn vwly nwlaus ƒ h`d drjy dI n&rq sI[ b`bU qW cwhuMdI sI ik koeI aus ƒ Dur AMdrq`k smJy, aus dI S^sIAq dI, aus dI SwierI dI Aqy aus dy sMgIq dIÙdr kry, aus dy ipCokV ƒ jwxidAW hoieAW vI aus ƒ ADUrI nw smJysgoN aus ƒ sm`gr smu`cqw iv`c svIkwr kry[

ieh socidAW auh pqw nhIN ikDr dw ikDr inkl igAw[ jd auh

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iPr Awpxy Awp iv`c AwieAw qW aus ƒ Xwd AwieAw, ie`k idn auh b`bUdy kmry iv`c igAw qW aus ny vyiKAw bVw roeI sI, auh qy aus ny Awpd`isAw sI ik aus ƒ smwj ny twrcr vI bVw kIqw sI, bVw du`K idqwsI aus ƒ bMidAW ny[

ieh swrw kuJ suxn qoN bwAd vI auh socdw ik ikDry myrI QoVI bhuqIhmdrdI vI ikqy ZLq nw smJI jwvy[ mYƒ vI ikDry b`bU aunHW bMidAWiv`c nw smJ lvy, ijhVy aus ƒ twrcr krdy rhy hn[ aus ny soicAw ikAOrqW dy du`K vI AjIb huMdy hn[ auh keI vwr ipAwr krn vwilAW bMidAWƒ vI ivroDIAW dI kqwr iv`c KVw kr lYNdIAW ny[

aus dIAW socW ƒ b`bU ny BMg kr id`qw[‘qy qusIN myry kmry iv`c ju`qI lwh ky AwauNdy ho[ ieh g`l hY[’‘b`bU jd mYN ju`qI lwh ky ies &rS qy qurdw hW, qW myry pYrW ƒ ieMJ

mihsUs huMdw hY, ijvyN mYN Awpxy Gr phuMc igAw hovW, hux myrI Btkx,inrwSw, icMqw, du`K drd, s`B dUr rih gey hox[ hux l`gdw hY ik mYN iPrilKWgw, ^Ub ilKWgw Aqy qMU myry leI gIq gwvyNgI[’

‘b`s kro, mYN bhuq gIq gw ley hn[ mYN pihlW hI bhuq lhU-luhwnhoeI peI hW, bhuq koihAw hY myry gIqW ƒ lokW ny ! hux qW cwhuMdI hW cupcwp sON jwvW, sdw sdw leI[ iPr vI pqw nhIN ikauN jd vI ikDry ^wmoSho jwx bwry jW izMdgI coN cu`pcwp qur jwx bwry socdI hW, qW koeI nwkoeI myrw h`Q Awx PVdw hY Aqy mYN vI eynI buzidl hW ik hr iek ƒcMgw qy hmdrd smJ ky bwr bwr DoKy qy DoKw KweI jw rhI hW[ hux mYN pihlWnwloN bhuq hI mzbUq hW[ clo C`fo qy cwh pIey !’

aunHW ny TMfI hoeI cwh pIqI g`lW g`lW iv`c aunHW ƒ pqw hI nhIN sIl`gw ik ikMnI dyr ho geI hY[

‘qy iPr qMU Awi^r dovy kmry Alwt krvw hI ley[’‘nhIN peI Awlwt ik`Qy? izMdgI iv`c quhwfI psMd dw kdI ie`k vI

kmrw Awlwt ho jwey qW bhuq ZnImq hY, pr huMdw ik`Qy hY?’‘iPr kIh hoieAw?’‘&Yslw ieh hoieAw hY ik ies hostl iv`c hor koeI AwauNdw qW hY nhIN,

keI dyr qoN ieh ^wlI hI ipAw hoieAw hY[ mYN ienHW dohW kmirAW iv`c rhIjwvWgI jdoN swry kmry Br jwxgy iPr jykr loV peI qW audoN iksy horƒ ieh kmrw Alwt kr id`qw jwvygw[ mYƒ pqw hY ik ieh Brnw qW hYnhIN[ kuJ kuVIAW AweIAW sn, sqwrW qy ATwrW nMbr kmry iv`c auh vIkuJ idnW bwAd hI ies BUqvwVy iv`coN fr ky B`j geIAW hn[ Ajy q`k

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qy mYN hI ftI hoeI hW, l`gdw hY hor koeI Awaux vI nhIN l`gw[’‘qy AsqI&y dw kI bixAW?’‘AsqI&w v`fy A&sr ny myry hY~f ƒ vwips Byj id`qw hY[’‘kI auh aus dI durvrqoN nhIN krygw?’‘durvrqoN kI ho skdI ey ?’‘XwnI blYk myl[’‘nhIN ! l`gdw nhIN ! auhdIAW vI myry pRqI bVIAW kmzorIAW hn, qusIN

icMqw nw kro qy cwh pIE, im`Tw TIk hY ?’‘qyrI cwh bVI suAwdI hY !’‘clo bxwau nw !’‘s`cmu`c ! mYN cwh ikhw hY cwih`q qW nhIN[’‘mrdW kol AOrqW ƒ kmzor krn leI Sbd bhuq huMdy ny[’‘qy AOrqW kol ?’‘isrP ibaUtI[’‘jo qyry kol hY[’‘ies dw mYƒ vI iehsws hY, qy ib`tU vI ieho hI kihMdw huMdw ey[ pr

myrI ̂ UbsUrqI ny mYƒ brbwd kr id`qw hY[ Ajy b`cI hI sI mYN &rwk hI pwauNdIhovWgI, jd j`gI ny mYƒ Buclw ilAw sI iPr mYƒ pqw hI nw l`igAw ikmYN ikhVy quPwnW iv`c auf geI sW[ vwvroilAW iv`c mYN AsmwnW q`k c`VHgeI, DrqI qoN pYr AYsy auKVy ik jd vwps DrqI au~pr if`gI qW mYN pUrIqrW lhU-luhwn hoeI peI sW, mwnisk qOr qy ijsmwnI qOr ’qy vI AMDyrwhI ho igAw sI myrI swrI dunIAW iv`c !’

‘b`bU qyry nwl l`gdw hY, lOilqw vwlI hI g`l hoeI hY, kI qMU inbwkovdw nwvl ‘lOilqw’ piVHAw hY ?’

‘nhIN ! mYN qW suixAw vI nhIN[ piVHAw mYN bhuq G`t hY[’‘iPr qyry nwl vwpr igAw hY, auh swrw kuJ jo lOilqw nwl vwpirAw

sI[’‘auhdy nwl kI vwpirAw sI ?’‘aus nwvl dw pwqr vI j`gI vWg hI lVkIAW dy skUlW dy swhmxy

c`kr lgwauNdw rihMdw sI, CotIAW CotIAW lVkIAW dIAW &rwkW hyT, aunHWdIAW jMGW ƒ Jwkdw rihMdw sI[ iPr aus ny CotI ijhI lOilqw ƒ BrmwilAw sI, llcw ilAw sI qy iPr aus ƒ v`K v`K SihrW dy hotlW iv`cleI iPrdw irhw, lok smJdy ik ipau DI hI hotl iv`c Tihry hoey hn[lOilqw hr rwq brbwd qy brbwd huMdI rhI[ bwAd iv`c auh ikqwb bYn

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ho geI sI[ ikauNik auh b`cIAW pRqI mrdW dw rvèIAw bdl dyNdI sI[’‘qusIN pVHI hY auh ikqwb?’ b`bU ny aus ƒ puìCAw[‘hW, pVHI hY[’ aus dw juAwb sI[‘quhwfy rvèIey iv`c qbdIlI AweI sI?’‘hW AweI sI QoVHI QoVHI pr mYN jldI hI sMBl igAw sW, ikauNik mYƒ

b`cI dI nhIN sgoN mW dI qlwS sI[ iesy leI Swied mYƒ SwdISudw AOrqWhI cMgIAw l`gdIAW hn[’

‘ieh ikauN Blw?’ ‘mYƒ mW dw ipAwr nhIN imilAw, ieh mnoivigAwnk kwrn vI ho

skdw hY[ auNJ vI mnu`K swrI aumr mW dy grB iv`clI SWqI dI qlwS iv`crihMdw hY, mnoivigAwnI kihMdy hn ijhVy nO mhIny b`cy ny mW dy pyt iv`csu`K SWqI nwl ibqwey huMdy hn, auh muV kdI aus dI aumr iv`c nhIN AwauNdy[ieho kwrn hY ik auh BgqI krn leI vI gu&wvW iv`c jw vVdw hY[ AwpxypUjw sQwnW dy guMbd vI auh mW dy pyt vrgy hI bxwauNdw hY[’

b`bU iek dm bol peI, ‘j`gI ny mYƒ dìsAw sI ik ieh ijhVy mMdrWdy gMubd hn ieh qW AOrq dIAW CwqIAW dI nkl hn[ CwqIAW dI bxqrƒ vyK ky hI guMbd bxwauNdy hn[’

‘ieh vI mMn lYNdy hW pr gMubd hyT kmrw vI qW huMdw hY[ g`l qW SWqIƒ Bwlx dI hI hY, auh BwvyN mW dIAW CwqIAW iv`coN imly jW pyt iv`coN,hW ! CwqIAW b`cy dI ûrwk dw somw hn, aunHW nwl mwnisk lgwv kudrqIhI hY, myrI AwpxI hI iek qrwsdI hY, ies leI izMdgI iv`c mYƒ su`K SWqIik`QoN imlxI sI[’

auh j`gI dI khI hoeI g`l ƒ gMBIrqw nwl socx l`gw, mW dy pytbwry Aqy mW dIAW CwqIAW bwry[ aus ny b`bU dIAW CwqIAW au~pr ingHwg`f id`qI, aus ƒ mn hI mn j`gI nwl eIrKw hox l`gI ik aus ny b`bUdIAW ieh CwqIAW vyK ky hI swrw kuJ ikhw hovygw[ auh j`gI qy b`bU dIaus Av`sQw ƒ ic`qvx l`gw ijs iv`c j`gI ny ieh g`l b`bU ƒ khI hovygI[ieh socidAW auh bhuq dUr inkl igAw[

jd vwps AwieAw qW b`bU kih rhI sI, ‘cl icMqw nw kr, jo bIqigAw, so bIq igAw[ du`K mYN vI qyry nwloN jW lOilqw nwloN G`t nhIN vyKy,c`l cwh pI[’

auh ibskutW vwlI tRy A`gy vl krdI hY[auh Acwnk Awpxy Awp ivc AwauNdw hY Aqy kihMdw hY, ‘qyry du`K

smwijk hn pr myry kudrqI[ smwijk du`K qW smyN dy guzrn nwl Bu`l jWdy

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hn pr kudrqI du`K hmySw Xwd rihMdy hn, jo hr vkq quhwƒ hWt krdyrihMdy hn[ XwnI kudrq vI swrI aumr quhwfy nwl mqRyeI mW vWg ivhwrkrdI rihMdI hY[ ieho du`K hI quhwfI mwniskqw iv`c bYT jWdy hn[ quhwƒAwpxI mihbUbw vI mqRyeI l`gx l`g jWdI hY[ qusIN byivSvwsy ho jWdy ho[ieMJ l`gdw rihMdw hY, ijvyN swry irSqy hI quhwƒ DoKw dyeI jWdy hox jWauh iksy suAwrQ krky hI quhwfy nwl juVy hox, jdoN suAwrQ pUrw ho jWdwhY, auh swry irSqy AjnbI ho jWdy ny[’

eynI g`l kih ky auh is`Dw b`bU dIAW A`KW iv`c vyKdw hY[‘quhwfw pihlw pRBwv vI myry au~pr koeI bhuqw cMgw nhIN sI, qusIN

jd mYƒ sB qoN pihlW AwpxI SwierI dI ikqwb id`qI sI qW mYƒ cMgwnhI sI ligAw[ ieMJ lìgAw ijvyN ieh bMdw mYƒ pRBwivq krnw cwhuMdwhY[ j`gI ny vI s`B qoN pihlW mYƒ AwpxI ikqwb hI Bytw kIqI sI qy mYNaus dIAW kivqwvW pVH ky swrI rwq roNdI rhI sI, qW hI mYN hux q`k quhwfIikqwb pVHI hI nhIN ik ikDry iPr myrw hwl auho ijhw hI nw ho jwvy[’

‘mYƒ pqw hY, qusIN myrI ikqwb nhIN pVHI[’‘quhwƒ swrw kuJ ikvyN pqw hY ? jd mYN pihlI vwr quhwƒ j`gI bwry

dìsAw sI qW vI qusIN kihMdy sI ik mYƒ pqw hY, jdoN mYN ib`tU bwry dìsAwsI qW vI qusIN kihMdy sI ik mYƒ pqw hY Aqy j`d mYN AwpxI qIjI iS&itMgbwry g`l kIqI sI qW vI qusIN ikhw sI ik mYƒ pqw hY[ kI qusIN ieh swrwkuJ jwx bu`J ky krdy ho[’

‘nhIN ! eynI suhxI kuVI dw qwrI^ jugrw&IAw lok J`t l`B lYNdy hn[’‘ieh g`l nhIN ! j`gI ny mYƒ bdnwm krn iv`c vI koeI ksr bwkI

nhIN C`fI[ aus ny ieQoN dy lokW ƒ vI bhuq kuJ byhUdw dìsAw hovygw[’aus ny ikhw, ‘j`gI ƒ mYN kdI vI psMd nhIN kIqw, nw hI mYƒ aus

dI SwierI kdI cMgI l`gI hY, nw hI mYN kdI aus ƒ bhuqw imilAw hI hW[’‘clo C`fo ! auh imlx vwlw hI nhIN, bhuq hI kmInw bMdw hY[’‘qusIN TIk hI kihMdy ho j`gI ny mYƒ auQoN q`k phuMcw id`qw sI ijs qoN

A`gy mOq hI mOq sI[ iPr mYN ijhVI vI nOkrI leI dr^wsq dyNdI, j`gIdy B`dy Aqy bdnwm p`qr auQy pihlW hI phuMcy huMdy[ mYƒ ikDry vI nOkrInhIN sI iml rhI[ mYƒ aus ny kmIngI dI h`d q`k bdnwm kIqw hY[ mYNhr vkq aus dI mOq dI kwmnw krdI rihMdI hW pr pqw nhIN aus kmInybMdy ƒ mOq ikauN nhIN Aw rhI ijs ny myrI izMdgI iv`c eynw zihr Br id`qwhY !’

‘nhIN b`bU ieMJ nhIN socIdw, idl v`fw krnw cwhIdw hY[ bMdy au~pr

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bhuq kuJ vwprdw hY, swrw kuJ dlyrI nwl J`lxw cwhIdw hY[ qYƒ pqwhY, mYN aus kmIny dw nwm nIlw ig`dV rìKAw hoieAw hY?’

‘hYN ! nIlw ig`dV, auh ikvyN rìKAw hY qusIN ?’‘b`s rìKAw igAw, aus dIAW krqUqW qoN[’‘pr auh qW Awpxy Awp ƒ lIE kihMdw hY[’ ‘kihx ƒ kIh hY, jo kuJ mrzI kihMdw rhy pr SyrW dIAW vI AwpxIAW

kmIngIAW huMdIAW hn[’‘ieh sux ky b`bU zor-zor dI h`sx l`gI, SyrW dIAW kmIngIAW hux

ijhVI mYN AglI ikqwb ilKWgI, aus dw nwm r`KWgI, SyrW dIAWkmIngIAW, nwm TIk hY nw ?’

‘hW bhuq hI TIk !’ auh muskxIAW iv`c hI hìsAw[ auh KuS ho irhwsI ik aus dI ie`ko g`l nwl hI ikvyN b`bU iKV geI sI[ aus idn vI auhb`bU ƒ ûS krky vwips prq AwieAw sI[

pr A`j auh jo vI iliKAw hoieAw, ijhVy vI kwZz qoN pVHdw ausƒ ausy vyly pwV ky su`t dyNdw[ hux ieh kwZz aus dy iks kMm sn? ikMnIAWipAwrIAW ipAwrIAW ilKqW sn ijhnW ƒ auh pwVnw nhIN sI cwhuMdw,nSt nhIN sI krnw cwhuMdw[ pr auh krI jw irhw sI[ ies swry kuJ qoNivhlw ho ky auh au~iTAw qy cwr cu&yry nzr mwrI[ Awsmwn au~pr Cweyb`dlW kwrn kuJ kuJ hnyHrw ho igAw sI[ p`Cm v`loN bhuq hI gihrw b`dlcVH AwieAw sI, ikDry ikDry ibjlI vI ilSkdI sI, dupYhry qW b`dlWdw nwm inSwn vI nhIN sI[ mINh dy fr qoN aus ƒ cIzW iB`jx dw iÂwlAwieAw qW auh cIzW ƒ sWBx l`gw[ jldI jldI cIzW sWBdw auh h&igAw, iPr kuJ soc ky auh ruk igAw qy kuJ cIzW ƒ aus ny auQy hI ausyqrHW hI rihx id`qw[ ikMnw mUrK hY auh, aus ny soicAw ik ijhnW cIzWƒ hux aus ny kdI vrqxw hI nhIN, aunHW ƒ vI sWBx qy zor lgw id`qwsI[ aus ny qW AwpxI ies ikqwb dw Aw^rI AiDAwie ilK ky qur jwxwhY iPr ieh cIzW, vsqW iks kMm ?

aus ƒ smJ nhIN sI Aw rhI ik auh hux kI kry? auh iblkul iek`lwho igAw sI[ aus dI hwlq A`kIN plwhIN h`Q mwrn vwlI ho geI sI[ ieMJl`g irhw sI ijvyN auh A`j qoN hI izMdgI leI byloVw ho igAw hovy[ kuJdyr bwAd auh dirAw vl qur ipAw, Awpxy ilKy hoey ƒ dirAw burd krnleI[

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AiDAwie 7AiDAwie 7AiDAwie 7AiDAwie 7AiDAwie 7AglI svyr iPr aus ny Awpxw swmwn ilAw Aqy AwpxI kQw ilKx

bYT igAw[ aus dI kQw koeI eyfI v`fI vI nhIN sI, aus ƒ qW isrP iehhI pqw sI ik auh iksy dI ku`KoN jnimAw sI Aqy aus ƒ iksy ny A`gy dyid`qw sI, b`s, Aqy aus qoN A`gy aus ny jo izMdgI dIAw TokrW KwDIAW snaus dw koeI vI BweIvwl nhIN sI, aus ƒ jW auh jwxdw sI jW aus dwr`b, ijs iv`c hux aus dw ivsvwS vI G`t igAw sI pr auh ieh jwxdwsI ik jy auh hY jW nhIN hY pr izMdgI dw ie`k AsUl vDIAw hY ik izMdgIƒ Awpxy Awp c`lx idau ies ƒ n`Q pwaux dI koiSS nw kro[ jd vIqusIN izMdgI ƒ n`Q pwaux dI koiSS kIqI qW ieh quhwfy h`QoN inkl hIjwxI hY[ qusIN AwpxI izMdgI dy ryhVy ƒ kudrq dIAW lIhW au~pr hI c`lxidau[

aus ƒ Xwd AwieAw ik ie`k vwr auh b`bU dy kmry iv`c igAw sI[aus dy Awaux nwl hI b`bU Awpxy kmry iv`coN ^wlI plyt c`uk ky nwl vwlykmry iv`c clI jWdI hY, auh nMgy pYrIN aus dy mgr mgr jWdw hY[ auhSISw vyKdI hY, auh kuJ h`t ky aus dy ip`Cy KVw ho jWdw hY[ auh SIsy iv`cmuskrwauNdI hY qy auh A`gy ho ky aus dy ^UbsUrq vwlW ƒ sihlwauNdw hY[

auh qR`bk ky kihMdI hY, ‘clo hto !’ iPr Acwnk auh kihMdI hY, cwhbxweIey ?’

auh hW kihMdw hY, qy auh cwh vwly pqIly iv`c do k`p pwxI r`K dyNdIhY[ auh nwl nwl KVy hn[

auh b`bU ƒ ipAwr krn dw jW h`Q lgwaux dw bhwnw FUMf irhw hYik Awcwnk b`bU dI bWh au~pr kuJ qurdw nzr AwauNdw hY[ auh h`Q nwlaus ƒ JwV dyNdw hY iPr aus dI nzr aus dI K`bI g`lH au~pr pYNdI hY[ auhbVy ipAwr nwl aus au~pr h`Q lgw ky pu`Cdw hY ik ieQy kIh hoieAw hY?bVI lwl hoeI peI hY[ auh Awpxy K`by h`Q nwl g`lH ƒ mldI hoeI SISyiv`c vyKdI hY Aqy kihMdI hY, ‘ho jWdw hY kdI kdI, kuJ lV igAw hoxY[pihlW vI jdoN kdI j`gI s^q h`Q lgw dyNdw sI qW dwZ pY jWdw sI[’

j`gI dw nwm sux ky auh msoisAw jWdw hY[ swrw rumWs ivB`qs iv`cbdl jWdw hY[

‘b`s b`bU ! aus dw nwm nw lY GVI GVI[’‘nwm ikauN nw lvW? pUry pMj swl iS`dq nwl muh`bq kIqI hY mYN aus

nwl[ auh myrI kmzorI sI qW hI qW auh mYƒ hr g`l mnvw lYdw sI[ auhdyleI mYN keI keI vwr roeI hW[ aus ny mYƒ smJ vI ilAw sI, pUrI qrHW,

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myrI hr g`l pUrI krdw sI[ mYƒ bwAd iv`c pqw lìgAw ik mYN ikMnI mUrKsW, auh myrIAW g`lW kyvl Kwx pIx dy muAwmly iv`c hI pUrIAW krdwsI[ bwkI swry v`fy &Ysly qW auh AwpxI mrzI nwl hI krdw sI[ aus nwlmyrI n&rq audoN SurU hoeI jd mYƒ iehsws hoieAw ik auh qW mYƒ vrqirhw hY[ qy s`B qoN v`fI gwlH mYƒ audoN l`gI jd ie`k idn iksy cIz ƒlYky myrI ieh izd ik myrI ie`k PRYNf dw pRymI jd vI bwhr jWdw hY, ausleI hr vwr koeI nw koeI ig&t lY ky AauNdw hY[ ies vwr qusIN vI bwhrc`ly ho, qusIN vI myry leI koeI ipAwrw ijhw ig`&t lYky Awauxw, ies dyjuAwb iv`c pqw aus ny kI ikhw?’

‘kI ikhw, aus ny ?’‘kihx lìgAw iPr qyry qy pwmylw iv`c kI &rk hY?’‘pwmylw auh ijs dw bhuq dyr A^bwrW iv`c nwm Cpdw irhw sI,

dunIAW dI mMnI hoeI vysvw !’‘hW ! ausy idn qoN hI mYN AMdroN tut geI sW, hW ? ieh bMdw eynw GtIAw

vI soc skdw hY ? audoN mYƒ pqw lìgAw ik aus dI kwmukqw Aqy JUTImuh`bq dy iv`ckwr mYN brbwd ho geI sW[ Aijhy msilAW iv`c ienswnƒ jdoN hoS AwaNdI hY qW kuJ vI bwkI nhIN bicAw hMudw[’

l`gdw sI ik b`bU Acwnk hI isAwxIAW g`lW krn l`g peI sI Aqyaus dy AMdr auiTAw jvwlwmuKI ijvyN sihjy sihjy SWq ho igAw hovy[ ijvNyj`gI vwlI swrI n&rq dw ru^ hux aus vl ho igAw hovy, b`bU cwh puxky k`pW iv`c pw rhI sI qy auh iksy mnoivigAwnI dy bol Xwd kr irhwsI, AOrq qy mrd jd rsoeI iv`c iek`Ty kMm krdy hn qW sYks hwrmonzjwg pYNdy hn[ aus dy AMdr vI kuJ ieho ijhw hI iehsws jwg ipAw sI[

cwh dw k`p PV ky auh b`bU dy ichry ƒ ghuu nwl vyKdw hY[ aus dwichrw QoVy ijhy isAwh rMg dw ho jWdw hY Aqy A`KW dy GyirAW hyT kwloNAw jWdI hY, ies dw kwrn auh jwxdw hY pr cu`p rihMdw hY aus ƒ pqwhY ik b`bU nwl auh swrw kuJ vwpr igAw hY jo mnoivigAwnI ny ikhw sIik AOrqW g`lW iv`coN vI rs lY lYNdIAW hn[

b`bU ausdIAW A`KW iv`c A`KW pwauNdI hY, auh aus dIAW nzrW iv`cnzrW g`f lYNdw hY[ auh muskrweI hI jWdI hY[ auh vI muskrwaNdw hY, ijvyNdohW ƒ koeI AgMmI AwnMd Aw irhw hovy[ b`bU dIAW A`KW iv`c cmk hY praus dIAW A`KW pqw nhIN ikauN is`lHIAW ho jWdIAW hn[ ieh aus dI kmzorIhY,ijs ƒ auh vI bVI dyr qoN jwxdw hY[

b`bU pu`CdI hY, ‘quhwfI rwSI ikhVI hY? ikqy iekUeyrIAs qy nhIN? mYƒ

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ies rwSI vwilAW ny bhuq sqwieAw hY[ hux A`gy qoN mYN rwSIAW p`VH kyhI iksy nwl myl imlwp r`Kxw hY[’

‘mYN hmySw hI do rwSIAW pVHdw hW, eyrIz Aqy pweIiss dovyN hI mYƒAwpxIAW l`gdIAW hn pr myrw rwSIAW iv`c ivSvwS kdI vI nhINhoieAw[’

‘myrw qW bhuq hY, mYN lIE hW[’‘A`Cw !’‘ib`tU vI lIE hY[ auh kmwl dw bMdw hY[ hYNfsm qy smJdwr[ mYƒ pqw

hY ik ipCly jnm iv`c auh rwjw huMdw sI[ swfw ipCly jnm dw hI koeIsMbMD hY[’

‘qy j`gI nwl ikhVy jnm dw hY?’‘auh pqw nhIN ikvyN kYNsr dy vwiers vWg myrI izMdgI iv`c AYNtr

kr igAw? sMbMD qW aus nwl vI koeI hovygw hI[ Asl iv`c myry AMdrAYltrw kMplYks hY, ieh mYƒ bwAd iv`c pqw lìgAw[ mYN j`gI iv`coN Awpxybwp ƒ hI qlwS krdI rhI[ s`cI g`l qW ieh hY ik mYƒ bwp dI bVI s^qloV sI, pqw nhIN ikvyN bcpn iv`c hI myry mn iv`c koeI guMJl pY geIsI[ mYƒ Awpxw bwp swrI aumr hI cMgw nhIN lìgAw[ aus ny myrI mW ƒbhuq sqwieAw sI qy iPr pqw nhIN kdoN myrI ie`k cMgy bwp leI Bwl SurUho geI, iehdy bwry mYN nhIN jwxdI[ audoN hI j`gI myrI izMdgI iv`c dw^lho igAw[ auh cwlbwz sI[ aus ny myrI ies kMmzorI ƒ bhuq hI AYksplwietkIqw[ aus smyN mYƒ ieh vI pqw nhIN sI huMdw ik auh jo kuJ myry nwl krirhw hY, auh cMgw sI jW mwVw pr aus smyN mYƒ vI swrw kuJ cMgw cMgwhI l`gdw sI[

‘auh mYƒ skUl iv`coN hI bulw lYNdw sI[ aus ƒ rokx vwlw vI koeInhIN sI[ auh ie`k v`fw srkwrI A&sr sI[ swry aus qoN frdy, aus dwsiqkwr krdy sn[ jd vI auh skUl AwauNdw qW swry aus dIAW h`QIN CwvWkrdy sn[ ipRMsIpl qy AiDAwpk aus ƒ myrw nzdIkI irSqydwr smJdysn[ bVI ûSI nwl auh mYƒ aus dI kwr iv`c ibTw dyNdy[ iPr mYN qy j`gISihr dIAW sVkW au~pr inkl qurdy[ mYN in`kIAW in`kIAW iz`dW krdI ikmYN Ahu lYxw hY, AOh lYxw hY, j`gI ausy vyly hI kwr rok ky ijhVI cIzvI mYN kihMdI, auh lY dyNdw[ mYN ijvyN in`kIAW in`kIAW cIzW, PLW AqyKfOixAW nwl kwr hI Br lYNdI sI[

‘j`gI vDIAw ivHskI dI boql jW keI vwr bIAr dIAW kuJ boqlWlY lYNdw, iPr AsIN phwVW dIAW cotIAW au~pr jw cVHdy[ iksy suhxy ijhy

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bwZ iv`c jW iksy iek`ly ijhy ru`K hyT, auh ie`k ic`tI cwdr ivCw lYNdw[Kwx vwlIAW cIzW AsIN Awpxy A`gy r`K lYNdy qy cuhl-mohl krdy, bVysuAwd nwl KWdy[ auh Awny bhwinAW nwl myry kUly-kUly AMgW ƒ CyVdwrihMdw[

‘iPr j`gI mYƒ ikDry surìKAq QW qy lY jWdw qy myry nwl iksy gùfIvWg KyfW Kyfdw, pihlW pihl qW mYƒ pqw hI nw l`gw ik auh kr kIirhw hY ?’

‘iPr auh Kyf mYƒ vI cMgI cMgI l`gx l`g peI[ mYN vI hr roz j`gIdI aufIk iv`c rihx l`gI, mYƒ vI aus Kyf iv`coN AwnMd Awaux l`g ipAwsI[ ieMJ l`gx l`g ipAw ik dunIAW dw s`B qoN vDIAW bMdw j`gI hI hY[mYƒ aus qoN ibnw hor kuJ sùJdw hI nhIN sI[

‘j`gI v`fw bMdw sI, aus ƒ iksy dw fr fùkr vI nhIN sI, iesy leIAsIN keI dyr ibnw iksy fr BYA dy ieh KyfW Kyfdy rhy[ ijs idn ausny mYƒ pwmylw vwlI g`l khI qW s`c mMinE, myry AMdr A`g l`g geI[ mYNvI aus qoN bdlw lYx dI g`l socI, pr ikvyN ? ies g`l dI mYƒ smJ nhINsI Aw rhI[

‘Acwnk ie`k mih&l iv`c mYƒ ib`tU imilAw, ib`tU iv`coN mYƒ bwp nhINmyrw hwxI ids irhw sI[ ib`tU nwl mYN koeI Kyf nhIN KyfI[ auh myry nwlA&lwqUnI muh`bq krdw sI[ mYN aus ƒ koeI mOkw vI nhIN sI dyxw cwhuMdIikauNik mYN aus nwl SwdI krnw cwhuMdI sI pr ieh ijsm KyfW Kyfx dwAwdI ho igAw sI[ ieh ies dI ûrwk vWg loV bx cu`kI sI[

‘qW hI Swied ieh myrI qIjI iS&itMg hoeI, ieh qIjw bMdw vI vYlnon hY[ bdySW iv`c rihMdw hY, hux qusIN iPr nw kihxw ik mYƒ pqw hY[’

‘nhIN iehdy bwry pUrw pqw nhIN pr ieh zrUr pqw hY ik aus dy qYƒbwhroN &on bhuq AwauNdy ny ?’

‘hwey Eey r`bw ! quhwƒ ieh vI pqw hY ? bVy BYVy ho qusIN, qusIN ikqy,sI.AweI.fI. iv`c qW nhIN ?

‘mYN qW quhwƒ bVw hI Bolw Bwlw smJdI sI[ ^Yr ipAwr iv`c aus nymyrI qs`lI krvw id`qI hY[ aus ƒ jwc hY ipAwr krn dI, irSiqAW dInzwkq ƒ smJdw hY auh[ auh Awritst hY qy jd auh ieMfIAw AwieAwqW mYƒ ie`k sMgIq dy pRogrwm iv`c imilAw, mYƒ pqw hI nw cìlAw ikmYN ikvyN aus dy nyVy ho geI[ iqMn lVkIAW hn, aus dIAW qy do myry qoNv`fIAW[ AsIN kuJ dyr iek`Ty rhy, ie`k idn mYN iksy g`l qoN ru`s ky bYT geI,rotI pwxI C`f id`qw, auh mYƒ mnwaux l`gw qy kihx l`gw, ‘clo ! Awj

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mYN Apny hwQoN sy Awp ko Kwnw iKlwqw hMU[’ aus ny mYƒ Awpxy h`QW nwlKwxw KuAwieAw qy audoN hI mYƒ kuJ ho igAw[ j`gI vI keI vwr ûS ho kymYƒ Apxy h`QW nwl KuAwauNdw huMdw sI[ ib`tU ƒ nhIN cMgw l`gdw ieMJKuAwauxw[ jy aus ƒ kih idE qW iPr KuAw vI dyNdw, pr jy ieMJ kih kykMm krvwieAw b`Do rùDy qW kI hoieAw[ myrI qIjI iS&itMg dw kwrn vIkuJ dyr ib`tU vloN byprvwhI hI sI[ ieMJ l`gdw hY ijvyN ik mYN pl Br vIiek`lI nhIN rih skdI[ mYƒ hr vyly koeI nw koeI cwhIdw hY, ipAwr krnvwlw jW kih lE ik mYƒ sMBwlx vwlw[ jdoN koeI vI nhIN huMdw qW mYƒieMJ l`gdw hY, ijvyN ies swry sMswr iv`c mYN iek`lI hI rih geI hovW[ jdmYN iek`lI huMdI hW, audoN myrw idl krdw hY ik ijhVw vI myry nyVy hovy, ausydy gL iv`c hI bwhW pw lvW[ iesy leI mYN DoKy qy DoKw KweI jw rhI hW[

‘vYsy ib`tU mYƒ bhuq cMgw l`gdw hY[ ie`k idn mYN aus ƒ ikhw ib`tU mYƒqyrw auqwrn pwaux dw bhuq hI SOk hY[ myrw idl krdw hY ik mYN ib`tU dylwhy hoey k`pVy pwky bYTI rhW[ aunHW iv`coN mYƒ ib`tU dI ûSbU AwaudI rihMdIhY pr ib`tU ƒ Ajy ieho ijhy iehswsW dI gihrweI dI eynI smJ nhIN[BwvnwvW dI ies gihrweI q`k auh phuMcdw hI nhIN[ auh jgIrdwribznsmYn hY, hr cIz ƒ vrqoN dI Aqy ivkwaU vsqU hI smJdw hY[ ausdw ivSvwS qW isr& vsqUAW dy lYx dyx iv`c hI hY[ swihq, klw jWsMgIq nwl aus dw dUr dw vwsqw vI nhIN, pr l`gdw hY ik auh mYƒ sMBwllvygw[ mYN aus ƒ kihMdI hW ik ib`tU AwpW hux ie`k ho jweIey[ myry qoN huxbhuqI vyt nhIN ho skdI[ myry AMdr hr vyly kuJ mcldw rihMdw hY[ byVwZrk ho jwvy j`gI dw, aus ny mYƒ iks mukwm qy ilAw ky KVw kr idqwhY ik mrd myrI kmzorI bx ky rih igAw hY[ iesy kmzorI krky hI mYN quhwƒtOlryt krI jw rhI hW[ quhwfy nwl bYT ky, quhwƒ kuJ nw kuJ KuAw ipAwky myrI AwpxI hI ie`k Bu`K l`QdI rihMdI hY[ mYN ieh nhIN cwhuMdI ik qusINmyry nyVy ho jwE qy ieh vI nhIN cwhuMdI ik qusIN myry qoN dUr cly jwau[ iehohI myrw duKWq hY[ mYN du`Bdw iv`c &sI hoeI hW[

‘jykr mYN Aqy ibtU iek`Ty vI ho gey qW vI mYƒ l`gdw hY ik mYƒ iksyqIjy bMdy dI hmySW hI loV rhygI jo myry supinAw dy hwx dw hovy, jo mYƒbwp vWg sWB sky, mYƒ hr vyly khwxIAW suxwauNdw rhy, mYƒ isiKAw dyNdwrhy[ jo mYƒ hr vyly swvDwn krdw rhy[

‘mYN swrw kuJ ib`tU ƒ d`s vI dyvWgI[ ib`tU iv`coN mYƒ bwp nhIN imlirhw pr aus qoN ibnw mYN rih vI nhIN skdI[

‘hux jdoN mYN fw.copVy ƒ vyiKAw hY, bweI gw`f ! myrI jwn inkldI jWdI

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hY ik mYN ikvyN Awpxy idl dI g`l auhdy q`k phuMcwvW ik plIz mYƒ quhwfynwl AtYcimMt ho geI hY[’

auh b`bU dIAW g`lW sux sux ky hYrwn hoeI jw irhw sI[ aus ƒ iehvI smJ nhIN sI l`g rhI ik auh b`bU leI kOx hY? pr b`bU nwl lgwaudI iksm dI aus ƒ koeI jwxkwrI nhIN sI[

b`bU kih rhI sI ik s`c jwixE gryA hyAr myrI kmzorI hY, iksy dygryA hyAr vyK ky ijvyN myrI qW jwn hI inkl jWdI hY[ hux jdoN qoN mYNfw. copVy ƒ vyiKAw hY pqw nhIN mYƒ kIh ho igAw hY[ plIz iksy qrWHqusIN mYƒ aus ƒ imlwaux dw pRbMD kr skdy ho?

‘hW kr idAWgw, ies iv`c ikhVI muSkl ho skdI hY?’ aus ny bVyhI audws lihjy iv`c juAwb idqw sI[

‘plIz, iPr huxy hI aus dy Gr &on kro, jykr auh bolx qW Pon mYƒPVw dyxw mYN Awp hI aunHW nwl g`l kr lvWgI, mYN pihlW vI aus dy Gr&on kIqw sI ie`k do vwr[ hr vwr hI jW aus dI Gr vwlI c`ukdI hY jWaus dI bytI[ iesy leI mYN &on bMd kr dyNdI hW jykr qusIN krogy qW auhcopVw jI ƒ bulw dyxgy iPr qusIN myry nwl g`l krvw dyxI, qusIN nw bolxwb`s jdoN hYlo kihx qW &on mYƒ PVw dyxw A`gy mYN Awp hI swrw kuJ sWBlvWgI[’

‘b`bU, Asl iv`c l`gdw hY ik AsIN swry sMswr dy lok ijvyN iksy pOVIdy fMifAW au~qy, au~pr hyT KVy hoeIey[ hyTlw au~prly dI Jwk iv`c rihMdwhY qy aus qoN au~prlw Awpxy qoN au~prly dI Jwk iv`c[ duv`lI g`l ikDrynhIN c`ldI l`gdI[’

‘quhwfI ieh g`l iksy h`d q`k TIk l`gdI hY[’‘myry Awpxy nwl ieh g`l hr vwr vwprdI rhI hY’, aus ny AwiKAw[‘auh ikvyN?’ b`bU ny aus ƒ bVI auqsukqw nwl pu~iCAw[‘mYN vI hr vwr iksy ƒ iek pwsV ipAwr hI kIqw hY[ myrI iksy ny

prvwh hI nhIN kIqI[ hr vwr hI myry ipAwr ƒ iv`ckwroN hI koeI nw koeIkWtI mwr lYNdw irhw hY[’

‘iPr quhwƒ jW qW ipAwr dy ArQ hI nhIN Awaudy jW aus dw iezhwrkrnw nhIN AwauNdw[’

‘hW SbdW rwhIN iezhwr krnW nhIN AwauNdw[’‘iPr ikvyN AwauNdw hY ?’‘pqw nhIN[’‘pqw qW hr iek ƒ hI hMudw hY[’

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‘qusIN d`so KW Blw[’‘mYN d`sW ?’‘hW !’‘qusIN nzrW rwhIN iezhwr krdy ho, quhwfIAW nzrW aus smyN bVIAW

^qrnwk huMdIAW hn[ ijvyN aunHW iv`coN qrMgW inkl rhIAW hox[’auh kyvl muskrwieAw qy aus dIAW nzrW iv`c ie`k KcrI ijhI Srwrq

Aw geI[‘ies dw mqlb ieh hoieAw ik quhwƒ aus idn myrw sunyhw phuMc igAw

sI[‘pr mYN auh sunyhw rsIv hI nhIN kIqw[’‘ikauN?’‘ikauNik quhwfy iv`coN mYƒ nw bwp hI ids irhw hY qy nw hI hwxI, qusIN

ie`k cMgy dosq ho skdy ho pr Ajy q`k quhwfy au~pr mYƒ ieh vI ivSvwSnhIN[ pihlW mYN quhwfI rwSI pVHWgI, Pyr koeI &Yslw krWgI, vYsy mYƒ pqwl`gw hY ik copVw swihb vI pweIiss hn[’

‘iPr mYƒ vI Gbrwaux dI loV nhIN l`gdI[’‘c`l h`t, mwrWgI[’ b`bU Awpxw pYr DrqI qy mwrky kihMdI hY[‘b`bU ! mYN qYƒ aus idn gulwcIn dy Pùl ilAw ky id`qy sn[’‘hW ! bVI A`CI ûSbU sI aunHW dI, ipAwry Pùl sn, mYN sWB ky r`Ky hn[’‘mYN ie`k Coty ijhy gmly iv`c gulwcIn dw bUtw lgwieAw hoieAw hY

ilAw ky r`KWgw iksy idn ies kmry iv`c[’‘nw beI ! mYN qW ib`tU dy ilAWdy bUty hI r`KWgI, jykr qusIN ie`k vwr

myry kmry iv`c ieh bUty r`K idqy qW iPr myry koloN cu`k nhIN hoxy[ ibtU puCygwqW kI juAwb idAWgI ?’

‘kih dyxw ik mYN Awp hI ilAw ky r`Ky hn[’‘nw beI, mYN ib`tU nwl JUT nhIN bol skdI[ qusI plIz imlw idau,

mYƒ fw. cOpVy nwl[ mYƒ pqw hY ik mYN ie`k do mulwkwqW nwl hI TIk hojwxw hY[ ijMnI dyr mYN aunHW ƒ iekWq iv`c imldI nhIN qy AwpxI g`lkrdI nhIN, myrw burw hwl hoieAw rihxw hY[ jd ie`k do vwr iml ilAwqW mYN nwrml ho jwvWgI[

‘mYN koiSS krWgw[’ auh juAwb dyNdw hY[‘pr hW ! qusIN nw Awauxw iv`c plIz, auh socxgy ik quhwfy nwl vI

myrI koeI sWJ hY, qusIN kuJ nw krnw, plIz ! pr qusIN mYƒ ieh d`so ikmYN iekWq iv`c ie`k do GMty aunHW ƒ ik`Qy iml skdI hW ?’

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‘myrI loV kyvl eynI ku hI hY ik auh idn iv`c ie`k vwr &on krkymyrw hwl pu`C ilAw krn[ jd pihlI vwr imly sn qW mYƒ AwKx l`gyqMU Gr Aw jwieAw kr, Gr mYN jwxw nhIN cwhuMdI[ aus dIAW b`cIAW nwlmYƒ jYlsI ho jwxI hY[ mYƒ pqw hY ik mYN ieh brdwSq nhIN kr skWgIik auh iksy hor dw vI bwp hY[ myrI qIjI iS&itMg vwly nwl vI ieMJ hIhoieAw sI[ mYƒ aus dIAW b`cIAW nwl h`doN vD n&rq ho geI sI, hwlWik mYN swrw kuJ jwxdI sI ik ieMJ hoxw nhIN sI cwhIdw[ aus n&rq dwmYƒ &wiedw vI bhuq hoieAw[ aus dI v`fI lVkI bhuq hI ieMtYlIjYNt sI,aus ny AmrIkw iv`c skwlriSp ilAw hoieAw sI[ aus dI jYlsI krkymYN vI bhuq imhnq kIqI, mYN vI cwhuMdI sW ik myrI pRis`DI vI swry sMswriv`c hovy[ iesy leI mYN imhnq kIqI, GMitAw b`DI irAwz kIqw Aqy ijsidn qusIN svyry svyry Awky mYƒ s`uqI peI ƒ isr au~pr h`Q r`K ky ikhw sI,auTo b`bU ! irAwz kro qW myry AMdr AjIb iksm dw iehsws jwg ipAwsI[ audoN quhwfy iv`coN mYƒ AwpxI AglI iS&itMg nzr Awaux l`gI sI[ies ƒ Zlq nw smJxw plIz ! myry v`s iv`c kuJ vI nhIN rihMdw, myrwidl idmwZ pwrdrSI hY[ mYN swhmxy vwly bMdy ƒ s`B kuJ d`s bYTdI hWqy iPr pCoqwauNdI rihMdI hW Aqy ib`tU ƒ vI mYN s`B kuJ d`s idAWgI[ mYNaus ƒ j`gI bwry vI d`sidAW ikhw sI, dyK lY ib`tU, myrw pwst ieh hY,jykr qYƒ mnzUr hY qW TIk hY[ jykr qMU ivAwh qoN bwAd myry au~pr koeIielzwm lgwieAw qW TIk nhIN, mYƒ pqw hY mYN ivAwh qoN bwAd AwpxyhsbYNf nwl bVI v&wdwrI inBwvWgI pr aus ƒ d`s swrw kuJ dyvWgI[’

‘b`bU qMU hwrfI dw nwvl tY~s piVHAw hY ?’‘nhIN ! mYN nhIN piVHAw[’‘iPr piVHAw kr, qW ik qYƒ dunIAW dw pqw l`gy ik dunIAW iv`c

kI kuJ ho irhw hY[’‘pVHn dw myrw suBw nhIN[ mYN hmySw suxnw cwhuMdI hW ieh Awdq vI

mYƒ j`gI ny hI pweI sI[ auh kivqwvW qy g`lW suxwauNdw rihMdw sI qy mYNsuxdI rihMdI sW[ hux pVHn l`igAW swry pwqr hI rlg`f ho jWdy hn jWieMJ l`gdw hY, ijvyN swirAW pwqrW dI hoxI myrI hI hoxI hovy qy iPr mYƒpwqrW dI pCwx hI nhIN rihMdI[ hW iksy qoN suxI hoeI g`l mYƒ swrI aumrnhIN Bu`ldI[ hux d`so kOx sI tY~s?’

‘hwrfI dw ie`k nwvl hY, ijs dI nwiekw tY~s hY[ ijsdy nwm au~prhI aus nwvl dw nwm hY[’

‘kIh hY auhdy iv`c ?’

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‘b`s tY~s dI khwxI hY[’‘kI khwxI hY ?’‘tY~s CotI ijhI sI[ ie`k vwr auh iek`lI Sihr qoN vwips Awpxy ipMf

Aw rhI sI ik rsqy iv`c kuJ guMfy aus dw ryp kr dyNdy hn Aqy CotI aumriv`c hI aus dy ie`k lVkw pYdw ho jWdw hY[ auh ivcwrI bVI duibDw iv`chY, auh Awpxy lVky ƒ AwpxI mW dy kol C`f ky ie`k fyArI &wrm iv`cnOkrI kr lYNdI hY[ aus dI mW aus ƒ bhuq smJwauNdI hY ik mrdW ƒ AwpxyipCokV bwry kuJ nw d`sIN pr tY~s dw suBwA ieho ijhw nhIN ik auh iksynwl JUT bol sky[ fyArI &wrm auqy aus dI mulwkwq ie`k aus nOjuAwnnwl ho jWdI hY, ijhVw ik aus ƒ h`doN vD ipAwr krdw hY qy kihMdw hYik auh aus dy bZYr rih hI nhIN skdw[ auh tY~s ƒ eynw cwhux l`gdwhY ik g`l ivAwh SwdI q`k phuMc jWdI hY[ tY~s nhIN cwhuMdI ik auh Awpxyhox vwly pqI ƒ hnyry iv`c r`Ky[ bVI soc ivcwr qoN bwAd auh ie`k lMbwp`qr ilKdI hY[ ijs iv`c auh Awpxy ipCokV bwry pUrI dI pUrI khwxIil`K dyNdI hY Aqy auh p`qr auh Awpxy mMgyqr dy kmry iv`c bUhy hyT dIsu`t AwauNdI hY[ SwdI ho jWdI hY[ tY~s ûS hY ik aus dy pqI ny auh p`qrpVH ky vI koeI pRqIkrm zwihr nhIN kIqw, aus ƒ ûSI hY ik aus dy pqIny aus ƒ ieho ijhy ipCokV nwl vI bVI ûSI nwl svIkwr kr ilAw hY[aus ƒ Awpxw ipAwr s`cw sùcw l`gx l`g igAw[ aus ƒ ieho ijhy pqIau~pr mwx qy ivSvws ho jWdw hY[ aus ƒ auh dunIAW dw s`B qoN mhwnmrd l`gx l`g jWdw hY[ prMqU, suhwg vwlI rwq tY~s dw pqI aus ƒ bVIAWSyÎAW mwr mwr ky d`sdw hY ik aus dI izMdgI iv`c ikhVI ikhVI lVkIkdoN qy ikvyN AweI[ hnyrIAW rwqW iv`c kI kuJ vwprdw irhw[ BwvukqwdI hwlq iv`c auh tY~s ƒ aus dy ipCly jIvn bwry pu`Cx dI iz`d krdwhY, tY~s aus ƒ Awpxy ilKy p`qr bwry pu`CdI hY[ auh hYrwn huMdw hY ik ausƒ qW koeI p`qr imilAw hI nhIN[ tY~s aus p`qr ƒ l`Bx dI koiSS krdIhY qW auh ieh vyK ky hYrwn rih jWdI hY ik auh p`qr qW Pu`trYst hyT hIipAw hY[ ijhVw aus dy p`qr ƒ kmry dy iv`c sùtx smyN bUhy A`gy ipAwhoieAw sI[ aus dy pqI ny qW auh p`qr vyiKAw hI nhIN sI[ tY~s aus p`qrƒ l`B ilAwauNdI hY qy auh p`qr Awpxy pqI ƒ pVHn leI dy dyNdI hY[p`qr pVH ky aus dw pqI Awpy qoN bwhr ho jWdw hY Aqy srdIAW dI rwqiv`c aus ƒ bdclx kih ky kmry iv`coN bwhr k`F dyNdw hY Aqy ie`k vwriPr tY~s dI bdiksmqI dy idn SurU ho jWdy hn[’

b`bU bVy iDAwn nwl auh khwxI suxdI hY, aus dy ichry au~pr v`K

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v`K rMg AwauNdy rihMdy hn[ QoVHI dyr bwAd auh hOkw lYNdI hY, iPr auTky nwl vwly kmry iv`c clI jWdI hY[

aus ƒ smJ nhIN l`g rhI ik hux auh kI krygI ? kuJ dyr bwAdjd auh vwips AwauNdI hY qW aus dy h`QW iv`c k`c dy do iglws hn, ijhVyA~D q`k pwxI nwl Bry hoey sn Aqy aunHW au~pr auho homIaupYQI dI duAweIqYr rhI sI, ijhVI aus ny hI b`bU ƒ kdI ieh kih ky ilAw ky id`qI sIik b`bU ieh duAweI pIx nwl qyrw nrvs isstm mzbUq ho jwvygw Aqyieh pIx nwl qyrw pVHn il`Kx iv`c idl vI l`gygw[

b`bU aus ƒ ie`k glws &VwauNdI hY, auh duAweI pI lYNdw hY qy ausƒ puCdw hY[

‘b`bU ies duAweI nwl qYƒ kuJ &rk vI ipAw hY ik nhIN ?’‘hW kuJ l`gdw qW hY &rk, pr bhuqw nhI ipAw[’‘tY~s dI khwxI ny mYƒ audws kr idqw hY[ kI hr AOrq nwl hI ieMJ

huMdw hY ?’‘myry iKAwl iv`c ieMJ hI huMdw hY, ies muAwmly iv`c koeI mrd vI ivSyS

nhIN huMdw[’‘qy AOrqW bwry quhwfw kI ivcwr hY ?’‘hr AOrq nwl myrw irSqw hmySw hI mqRyeI mW vwlw irhw hY, mYƒ koeI

vI AOrq kurbwnI vwlI nhIN l`gI, hr AOrq mYƒ SYliP`S hI l`gdI rihMdIhY[ AOrqW ShId vI G`t hoeIAW ny, auh hox vI ikauN ? jd hr mrd aunHWleI ShId hox leI iqAwr rihMdw hY[

‘BwvyN auqoN auqoN hI !’ zor dI h`s ky b`bU kihMdI hY, g`lW bVIAWbnwauxIAW AwauNdIAW hn quhwƒ !’

‘jykr mYƒ pu`Co qW mYN khWgw ik muh`bq iv`c bMdw kmzor ho jWdw hY[auh swry duinAwvI qy mhwn kwrjW qoN ht ky b`s iksy dI aufIk bx kyhI rih jWdw hY[ kih lau mjƒ ho jWdw hY[

ipClI rwq ie`k bhuq hI hoxhwr qy ^UbsUrq muMfy ny hostl iv`c &whlY ilAw hY[ Awpxy Awp ƒ hYNg krn qoN pihlW aus ny kuJ ic`TIAW ilKIAWsn ik ieh dunIAW bVI ^UbsUrq hY[ mYN Awpxy mW bwp ƒ bhuq hI ipAwrkrdw hW qy hor irSqydwrW ƒ vI[ auh ro ro ky ic`TIAW ilKdw irhw qy iPrauhny Awpxy Awp ƒ ^qm kr ilAw[ hux mYƒ smJ nhIN AwauNdI ik iesƒ mYN kI khW ?

‘g`l isr& mihbUb dI byv&weI dI hI sI[ mYN keI vwr kihMdw hW, g`lv&w jW byv&weI dI hI nhIN huMdI g`l qW vkq dI hI huMdI hY[ ie`k vkq

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huMdw hY jdoN l`gdw hY ik qusIN iksy bMdy qoN bZYr rih hI nhIN skdy priPr vkq AauNdw hY, qusIN ausy hI bMdy dw ichrw vI vyKxw psMd nhIN krdy[’

‘j`gI bwry vI myrw ieho hI AnuBv hY[ kdI l`gdw sI, iehdy qoN bgYrmYN ie`k GVI vI nhIN rih skdI, ies qoN bZYr mYN mr jwvWgI pr huxl`gdw hY, jy auh mYƒ iPr iml ipAw qW mYN sUeysweIf kr lvWgI jW ausƒ mwr dyvWgI[’

‘keI vwr lok mYƒ ipAwr muh`bq bwry pu`Cdy hn qW mYN kihMdw hW, TIkhY, ies ƒ qusIN piv`qR qy s`cw su`cw jzbw kihMdy ho, ieh kudrqI vI hY,ieh do rUhW dw myl vI hY pr ie`k g`l dw iDAwn zrUr r`Ko ik ies sMswriv`c ieh rUhW iek`lIAW hI nhIN, ijhVIAW quhwfy sMprk iv`c AweIAWhn[ XwnI jdoN qusIN kihMdy ho ik myry mn BwauNdI rUh mYƒ iml geI hY qWies dw mqlb hrigz ieh nhIN ik ieho ijhI rUh dunIAW iv`c ieho iek`lIhI hY, hor vI bhuq swrIAW rUhW hn, ijhVIAW Ajy q`k quhwƒ imlIAWhI nhIN, jdoN aunHW nwl quhwfI mulwkwq hoeI qW qusIN pihlIAW rUhW qoNB`jxw SurU kr idaugy[ g`l kI, qusIN aus pihlI rUh dy gL ƒ hI cMbVjWdy ho, ijs ƒ pihlI vwr dyKdy ho, qusIN BulyKw Kw jWdy ho[ ies leIqusIN aus b`cy vWg ho ijhVw iksy myly dy bwhr hI l`gI mwVI ijhIiKfwauixAW dI dukwn qy KVH ky iKfwauxw lYx dI iz`d krn l`g jWdwhY Aqy auQoN hI izd krky koeI mwVw ijhw iKfwauxw lY lYNdw hY, ijs ƒmYN B`dw ijhw kwlw BwlU kihMdw huMdw hW[ iPr jd auh b`cw izMdgI dy Brymyly iv`c pRvyS krdw hY qW aus ƒ ies g`l dw iehsws huMdw hY ik ausdI cox ikMnI bcgwnw sI[ jd ik Bry myly ivc hor ikMnIAW vDIAw vDIAwiKfOixAW dIAW dukwnW hn[’

‘qusIN vI qW iPr AOrq ƒ iKfwauxy nwl hI qulnw idqI hY nw !’‘pr myrw Bwv g`l ƒ smJwaux q`k hI sImq sI, auNJ mYN kihMdw hW

ik AOrqW qy mrdW dIAW vI iksmW huMdIAW hn[ kuJ drSxI huMdy hn qykuJ hMfxswr qy mzbUq[ swƒ izMdgI iv`c hMfxswr qy mzbUq dI hI coxkrnI cwhIdI hY[ ies g`l dw burw nw mnwauxw, lok mMfI iv`c gWeIAWm`JW ^rIdx vwsqy jWdy hn[ auh hr ie`k dI pUrI jwxkwrI lYNdy hn, ausdw rvw pu`Cdy hn, aus dI pUrI nsl dw ihswb ikqwb lgwauNdy hn prbMdy hn ik J`t hI kdI iksy dy do iSArW qy mr imtx dI g`l krdy hn,kdI sohxI cmVI dI, sohxI sUrq dI pr sIrq jW Kwndwn dI g`l koeInhIN krdw, ieh g`l mYN aunHW lokW dy sMbMD iv`c kr irhw hW ijhVy ivMhidAWswr hI kihMdy ny ik mYƒ ipAwr ho igAw hY[’

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‘ieh g`lW qusIN mYƒ lgw ky qW nhIN kih rhy ikqy?’‘nhIN ieh qyrI iek`lI dI g`l nhIN, auh aumr hI ieho ijhI huMdI ik

iksy dy v`s dI g`l hI nhIN huMdI[lok aus aumr iv`c muh`bq Aqy kwm ƒrLg`f kr lYNdy hn, ies leI Zlq qW auh lok huMdy ny ijhVy iksy dIAWBwvnwvW nwl iKlvwV krdy hn qy iPr aunHW ƒ A`D iv`ckwr C`f jWdyny[’

‘myry nwl vI kuJ ieMJ hI hoieAw hY[’‘qyry ie`klI nwl hI nhIN, hor vI bhuq swirAW nwl ieho kuJ vwpirAw

hY[ ikauNik Ajyhy irSqy icrsQweI nhIN huMdy[ nvIAW KojW ny qW is`D vIkr id`qw hY ik ieho ijhy irSqy bhuqI dyr nhIN cldy[’

‘mYN socdI hW ik jd qusIN ie`k vwr irSiqAW bwry kuJ ikhw sI ikirSqy icr-sQweI nhIN huMdy[ aus smyN mYN quhwƒ ikhw sI ik mYN smJdI hW,ijvyN AsIN Gr iv`c PLW sbzIAW Aqy PùlW dI qwzgI ƒ qroqwzw r`KxleI kuJ ivSyS AY&rts krdy hW qW ikauN nw irSiqAW dI qwzgI ƒbrkrwr r`Kx leI kuJ aucycIAW AY&rts kIqIAW jwx? AY&rts qoN bgYrirSqy bu`s jWdy hn[ siVHAWd mwrn l`g jWdy hn qW qusIN juAwb iv`cikhw sI ik auh irSqy hI kI hoey, ijhnW ƒ kwiem r`Kx leI AY&rtskrnIAW pYx[ irSqy qW sihj hI hoxy cwhIdy hn[ koiSS krky bxwey irSqykdI vI nhIN pu`gdy[ bdo bdI bxwey hoey irSqy bhuqI dyr nhIN c`ldy[

‘aus idn mYN bhuq ifstrb hoeI sI, mYƒ lìgAw sI ik mYN qW swrIaumr AY&rts krky hI irSiqAW ƒ qro qwzw r`Kx dy h`k iv`c sI[ ijsƒ vI mYN ieh g`l suxweI, auh sux ky bhuq ûS vI hoieAw qy aus ny myryivcwrW dI qwrI& vI bhuq kIqI sI qy ikhw sI ik izMdgI iv`c ieh bVwvDIAw idRStIkox hY, ijhVw ieMJ soc skdw hY, aus dy hI irSqy qroqwzwrih skdy hn[ prMqU, qusIN pihlI vwr hI myrI g`l ƒ ault id`qw sI[mYN sYNsyitv bhuq hW mYƒ bVw AjIb lìgAw[ mYƒ lìgAw ijvyN qusIN mYƒlwjuAwb kr idqw hovy, ijvyN myrI haumyN hwr geI hovy[ qusIN qW aus idnieh g`l kih ky cly gey sI Aqy qusIN ieh g`l vI bVI sihj Bwv nwlkIqI sI, quhwƒ pqw vI nhIN hoxw ik aus qoN bwAd myry nwl kI bIqI?mYN isrhwxy au~pr isr r`K ky roNdI rhI, roNdI rhI[ mYƒ quhwfy au~pr bhuqgu`sw vI Aw irhw sI qy nhIN vI Aw irhw sI, AwauNdw vI ikvyN quhwfI Ajymyry nwl koeI bhuqI jwx pCwx vI nhIN sI, qusIN hI myry nwl kuJ AtYcmYNt&Il krdy hovogy pr mYN qW nhIN?’

‘mYƒ aus idn ieMJ lìgAw ijvyN mYN iksy Epry mrd pwsoN hwr geI

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hovW[ mYƒ pqw hI nhIN sI l`g irhw ik mYN kI krW ?’ieh sux ky auh muskrwauNdw hY[‘h`s ikauN rhy ho? mYƒ icVwauNdy ho? qusIN mYƒ cMgy nhIN l`gdy, quhwfy

vrgy mIsxy mrd Agly ƒ dùKI krky ûS rihMdy hn[’auh iPr h`sdw hY, ‘qyrw myrw qy koeI irSqw hI nhIN[ iPr du`KI hox

dw kI kwrn?’‘jy irSqw hI nhIN qW iPr ie`Qy lYx kI AwauNdy ho?’‘b`s KUbsUrqI ƒ vyKx qy AnuBv krn, ijvyN koeI bwZ iv`c Pu`l dyKx

jWdw hY, jW jMgl iv`c pRikRqI ƒ vyKx jWdw hY jW phwVW qy kudrqInzwirAW ƒ vyKx jWdw hY[ ikauNik ÛbsUrqI iv`c vI ausy qrHW hI AnrjIhuMdI hY, ijvyN pRikrqI ivc, mYN qW ieQy qyry pws AYnrjI lYx AwauNdw hWAqy iPr swrI idhwVI iKiVAw iKiVAw rihMdw hW, ilKdw hW, pVHdw hW,sYrW krdw hW[’

‘qW iPr qusIN ieQy isr& AYnrjI lYx hI AwauNdy ho?’‘hW’‘sYli&`S iksy QW dy ! mYƒ sYli&`S iksm dy mrd psMd nhIN; jd mYN

j`gI qoN vK hoeI qW aus ny myry pYrIN h`Q lgw ky vwsqw pwieAw sI ikmYƒ myrI jIvx khwxI ilKx jogw hI swQ dy dyh ! ieh g`l sux ky mYNhor vI sucyq ho geI ik ieh bMdw kyvl AwpxI jIvx khwxI ilKx leIhI mYƒ vrqxw cwhuMdw hY[ Qu`kdI hW mYN ieho ijhI soc qy Aqy ie`k qusINho jo kihMdy ho ik mYN qyry pws AYnrzI lYx AwauNdw hW, ieQoN AYnrjI lYky qy khwxIAW iksy hor dIAW ilKygy[ TIk hY nw ? jwau cly jwau ieQoN !’

‘auh m`Qy au~pr h`Q r`K ky rox l`gdI hY[auh auTky aus dy nyVy jWdw hY aus dy isr au~pr h`Q r`Kdw hY[ aus

ƒ hlUx ky ûS hox leI kihMdw hY[ auh fùb-fùbweIAW nzrW nwl aus vlvyKdI hY[

aus ƒ ieMJ l`gdw hY ijvyN aus ny ieh g`l kih ky bVw v`fw gunwhkr id`qw hovy[

auh aus dy h`QW ƒ prHW JtkidAW kihMdI hY, ‘mYƒ h`Q nw lgwau plIzmYƒ mrdW dy h`QW iv`c kMfy augy l`gdy hn[

‘mYN fw. copVy ƒ imlWgI, aus ƒ khWgI plIz mYƒ AwpxI bytI bxwlau[ qusIN ikvyN nw ikvyN myrI izMdgI nwl sMbMiDq ho jwE qW ik mYN iksynw iksy irSqy quhwƒ Awpxw kih skW[’

‘b`bU, ieMJ qrilAW nwl irSqy nhIN bx skdy, nw hI bxwey jw skdy

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hn, irSiqAW dIAW vI AwpxIAw loVW huMdIAW hn, Agly ƒ vI quhwfIkoeI loV hovy qW hI irSqw A`gy qurdw hY[ iek`lI ie`k iDr vloN hI iksyƒ pUjI jwxw ieh irSqw ruhwnI jW AiDAwqmk qW ho skdw hY, duinAwvInhIN qy ruhwnI irSqy Awpxy hI Brm jwl iv`c aulJy rihMdy hn[’

‘b`s ho igAw &ls&w SurU, qusIN iksy g`l ƒ vI kMFy nhIN l`gx dyNdy[’‘kMFy qoN qyrw kI Bwv ey ?’‘iksy bMny ik XwnI ie`k pwsy iksy s`c vl jW ik g`l ijDr ƒ jwxI

cwhIdI hY, aus ƒ moV GyV ky Bvswgr iv`c pw dyNdy ho qy bMdw iPr GuMmx-GyrIAW iv`c jw Psdw hY[ mYƒ quhwfI koeI g`l vI smJ nhIN AwauNdI AqyieMJ l`g irhw hY ik quhwƒ myrI vI koeI g`l smJ nhIN Aw rhI[ plIz !cly jwau hux ieQoN, myry koloN, mYƒ iek`lI C`f idau, mYN kuJ dyr ijauxwcwhuMdI hW ! mYƒ qMg nw kro, mYN A`j qweIN quhwfy vrgw bMdw nhIN vyiKAw,ijhVw ieho ijhy hiQAwrW nwl iksy dI rUh ƒ p`Cdw hovy, kuhMdw hovy ! huxjw ikauN nhIN rhy ? ikMnI dyr hor qMg krogy ?’

auh duic`qI iv`c pY jWdw hY ik auh kI kry? auh kuJ dyr hor bYTdwhY, b`bU hMJU vhw rhI hY[ aus ƒ smJ nhIN l`gdI ik auh kI kry, auh cwhuMdwhY ik b`bU dy hMJUAW ƒ Awpxy h`QW nwl pUMJy pr ausy vkq hI aus ƒ b`bUdy khy bol ik mYƒ mrdW dy h`QW iv`c kMfy augy nzr AwauNdy hn, auh h`QWiv`cly kMifAW ƒ Xwd krky iJjk ky hI rih jWdw hY[

audws Aqy fwhfw inrwS hoieAw auh auTdw hY, bZYr kuJ boly drvwzyiv`coN bwhr jwx l`gdw hY qy ieh vI socdw hY ik b`bU jwx lìgAW ausƒ zrUr hI vwps bulw lvygI pr kuJ vI nhIN vwprdw, b`bU dy kmry qoNbwhr hnyrw hI hnyrw hY[ swrw j`g AMDkwr ! aus ƒ pqw nhIN sI l`g irhwik auh ikDr ƒ jwvy? ikho ijhw suBwA hY b`bU dw, ies g`l dI aus ƒsmJ nhIN sI l`g rhI, auh ikhVI g`l qoN gusy ho jWdI hY, ikhVI g`lqoN ûS, iesy bwry hI aus ƒ pqw nhIN sI l`gdw[ bhuq rwq hnyry iv`cBtkdw, pqw nhIN auh iks vkq Gr phuMicAw sI, aus ƒ Xwd hI nhINsI[

iPr auh keI idn b`bU dy kmry iv`c nhIN sI igAw[ aus v`loN qW ijvyNs`B kuJ ^qm hI ho igAw sI, aus ƒ keI vwr b`bU au~pr gùsw vI bhuqAwauNdw, Awi^r ieh Awpxy Awp ƒ smJdI kIh hY ?

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AiDAwie 8AiDAwie 8AiDAwie 8AiDAwie 8AiDAwie 8auh hYrwn sI ik jdoN b`bU aus nwl TIk Twk sI qW aus ƒ b`bU koloN

Awaux qoN bwAd aus dI kdI Xwd hI nhIN sI AweI pr hux ieh hwlqsI ik auh dunIAW dI koeI vI g`l socdw qW hr vwr muV iGV ky g`lb`bU qy hI Aw jWdI, aus dw auTxw bYTxw, aus dw muskrwauxw, g`lWbwqWkrnw qy aus ƒ hr tkor qy mÔl qy ieh kihxw ik mwrUMgI! aus ƒ iksypwsoN pqw l`gw ik b`bU iksy hor Sihr clI geI hY[

ies g`l ƒ keI mhIny lMG gey sn ik Acwnk rwq vyly aus dy &ondI GMtI vjI, koeI bìcAW dI Awvwz iv`c imAwauN ! imAwauN ! kr irhwsI[ aus ny AgoN hYlo hYlo kIqI qW A`goN imAwaUN ! imAwaUN ! dI Avwz hIbwr bwr Aw rhI sI[ auh &on bMd hI krn vwlw sI ik b`bU dy jwxy pihcwxylihjy iv`c hYAlo ! dI Awvwz AweI[

aus ny pu~iCAw ik vwips ikvyN Aw gey ?‘b`s hnyrI AweI sI vwips Aw gy[’aus ƒ Xwd AwieAw ik ausy Swm hI bhuq iBAwnk hnyrI AweI sI[aus ny pu~iCAw, ‘gu~sw TMfw ho igAw hY ik nhIN ?’b`bU ny ikhw, ‘nhIN sgoN hor vI v`D igAw hY[’‘auh ikauN ?’ aus ny iPr pu~iCAw[‘purwxy Sihr iv`c auh hrwmI j`gI iPr iml igAw sI[ kihx lìgAw

mYƒ muAw& kr dy, mYN qyry bZYr rih nhIN skdw[’ b`bU ny aus Sihr bwryhor vI bhuq g`lW kIqIAW[

b`bU ny ikhw, ‘k`l zrUr Awauxw, imlx ƒ bhuq idl krdw hY, keIg`lW hn quhwfy nwl krn vwlIAW[ &on bMd krky auh b`bU bwry socx l`gwik b`bU ƒ koeI AwdmI psMd hI nhIN Aw irhw[ auh BUq iv`c jIau rhIhY, aus ny j`gI nwl idloN bypnwh muh`bq kIqI sI[ aus iv`coN aus ƒ mrddy swry irSqy nzr Awey sn pr j`gI ny aunHW swry irSiqAW qy kwl^ Pyrid`qI sI qy kyvl ijsm dy irSqy q`k hI sImq hoky aus ƒ lutdw irhwsI, aus dIAW BwvnwvW, aus dI suihrdqw dw aus ƒ koeI kdI iKAwlhI nhIN sI AwieAw[

b`bU Swied AlYktrw kMplYks dI iSkwr sI, pqw nhIN aus ƒ AwpxyqoN eynI v`fI aumr dw j`gI hI ikauN psMd AwieAw qy hux vI aus dw Jukwjykr kdI huMdw qW auh v`fI aumr dy bMidAw v`l hI huMdw[ l`gdw sI ijvyNauh v`fI aumr dy bMidAw iv`coN koeI surìKAw dI siQqI BwldI sI[ ausƒ fw. copVw hI ikauN cMgw l`gdw hY ?

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auh Agly hI idn b`bU v`l clw igAw sI[ auh iPr jw ky cu`pcwpausy kursI au~pr jw ky bYT igAw ijQy auh Awm qOr qy jw ky bYTdw sI[Ajy aunHW ny kuJ ku g`lW hI kIqIAW sn; isr& Ajy ie`k dUjy dw hwlcwl hI puiCAw sI ik b`bU ny ieSwrw kIqw ik bwhroN koeI Aw irhw hY[aus ny hostl dy drvwzw vVidAW hI iksy ƒ vyK ky ikhw[ pihlW vI keIvwr auh ieMJ hI d`s dyNdI sI pr aus ƒ kdI vI pqw nhIN sI l`gdw ikkdoN koeI AwauNdw hY pr b`bU ƒ ikvyN J`t hI pqw l`g jWdw hY? ies g`ldw aus ƒ kdI vI ielm nhIN sI hoieAw[ AOrqW dI ies AnoKI sUJ au~praus ƒ hYrwnI vI huMdI hY, ikauNik iek do hor AOrqW vI ieMJ hI J`tp`t jwxjWdIAW sn ik kdoN koeI Awaux vwlw hY[ auh J`t hI TIk Twk ho ky bYTjWdIAW qy nwrml ho jWdIAW sn[ aus ƒ ieh aunHW dw koeI krqwrI guxhI l`gdw sI[

b`bU ƒ aus idn aus ny pùC hI ilAw, ‘b`bU qYƒ eynI jldI ikvyN pqwl`g jWdw hY ik koeI AwauNx vwlw hY kI qYƒ jwdU AwauNdw hY jW ik joiqS?’

b`bU ieh sux ky muskrweI, aus ny Awpxy kwly rMg dy lihMgy ƒ AijhyAMdwz nwl TIk kIqw ik aus dI gorI ipMnI hor vI nMgI ho geI[

iPr aus ny cIcI auNglI nwl qy nwl hI A`K dy ieSwry nwl aus ƒkmry dI gu`T vl vyKx leI ieSwrw kridAW iq`KI muskrwht nwl SrwrqkIqI[

hW ! swhmxy tI.vI. dI skrIn qy boDrwj dw Aks nzr Aw irhw sI[jo hOlI hOlI pYr GsItdw quirAw Aw irhw sI[ boDrwj aus Tykydwr dwibhwrI mzdUr sI ijhVw ik aus sMsQw dIAW iemwrqW bxvw irhw sI, ausƒ keI dyr ho geI sI aus Tykydwr nwl lìgAW[ jdoN b`bU ny Awpxy kmryiv`c tweIlW lgvweIAW sn qW audoN ies BeIey nwl b`bU dI vwk&I hogeI sI qy b`bU aus pwsoN keI vwr bwzwr ivcoN keI cIzW mMgvw lYNdI sIqy auh ieh kMm krdw vI bVw ûS ho ky sI[

kmry iv`c dw^l ho ky boDrwj ny ie`k iQMdw ijhw il&w&w b`bU vlvDwauNidAW ikhw, ‘mym swihb ! m`CI hY[ Tykydwr swihb ny Byjw hY[ kihqhY Kw lIjIey !’

‘lY jwh ! mYN nhIN KwqI kBI m`CI mu`CI’, b`bU ny aus ƒ ipAwrI ijhIiJVk mwrI[

‘b`bU Kw lY, aus ny eyny pRym nwl ByjI hY[’ aus ny b`bU ƒ ikhw[‘nhIN ! mYN nhIN KWdI kdI m`CI[’‘kI g`l psMd nhIN ?’

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‘iblkul nhIN’‘pweIiss vI nhIN[’‘iblkul hI nhIN[’‘clo ieh vI cMgw hI hoieAw, kI qMU Tykydwr dI kuMflI vyKI hY jW Ajy

nhIN ?’‘mYƒ Gto Gt aus dI kuMflI vyKx dI loV nhIN[’b`bU nwrwz ho geI l`gdI sI[ aus ny hwkmwnw lihjy iv`c ikhw,

‘boDrwj auDr bYT kr mClI Kw lY, myry swhmxy, Tykydwr smJygw ik m`CImYN Kw leI hY[’

‘b`bU ! ieh A`CI Kyf nhIN, jykr nhIN KwxI qW vwps Byj dyh[’ ausny igly ijhy nwl ikhw[

‘kuJ nhIN hox l`gw, qMU Kwh boDrwj !’ b`bU ny iPr aus ƒ hukm id`qw[BeIAw pry bYT ky m`CI Kwx l`g ipAw[b`bU ny d`isAw ik jdoN ieh mYƒ pihlI vwr imilAw sI qW mrIAl

ijhw sI, ies dIAW hVbW bwhr inklIAW hoeIAW sn[ mYN ies ƒ keIvwr r`jvIAW Kwx pIx dIAW cIzW dy dyNdI hW[ kuJ hI mhIinAW iv`cies dy ichry qy rOxk Aw geI hY[ hux ieh cusq clwk qy h`s mu`K huMdwjw irhw hY[ ie`k idn mYƒ kihx l`gw, ‘mYfm ! muJy BeIAw m`q ikhw kro,mYN boDrwj hUM, boDrwj ! BeIAw muJy A`Cw nhIN l`gqw[’

jd b`bU ny auhƒ ieh g`l suxweI qW aus ny h`sidAW hoieAW auhƒsucyq kIqw ik auh bc ky rhy !

‘ienHW g`lW bwry mYN pihlW hI bhuq sucyq hW[ quhwfy smJwaux dI loVnhIN[ pihlW pihl jd mYN tI. vI. lgwauxw qW ies ny kmry iv`c Aw kybYT jwxw, keI sIn huMdy hn, ijhVy qusIN dUijAW dy swhmxy vyK hI nhINskdy, nwly myry vrgI iek`lI rihMdI AOrq bwry qW auNJ vI lok hor qrHW socxl`g pYNdy ny[ iPr ie`k idn mYN vyiKAw ik ieh myry bY~f qy iek`lw tI.vI. lgwky bYTw hoieAw, tI.vI. vyK irhw hY[ mYƒ bVw gu`sw AwieAw pr mYN bVy qrIkynwl ies ƒ iehdI QW dw iehsws krvw id`qw[ pihlW mYN jd vI &rUt k`tky Kwx l`gdI qW ienswnIAq dy nwqy ies ƒ vI kuJ dy dyxw, ieh bVIAWBu~KIAW ijhIAW A`KW nwl plyt vl vyKdw rihMdw sI[’

‘dyKdw qW ieh qyry vl vI ieMJ hI hY[’ auh tkor lgwauNdw hY[‘c`l mwrUMgI !’ kih ky b`bU bwhr vl ieSwrw krdI hY[ bwhr bYTw boDrwj

m`CI KweI jw irhw hY qy aus iv`coN kMfy k`F k`F ky bwhr r`KI jw irhw hY[auh aus dIAW hrkqW vyK ky pihlW cu`p rihMdw hY iPr Awpxw &ls&w

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SurU kr dyNdw hY, ‘r`b ny m`CI ivcwrI ƒ hiQAwr vI id`qy hn qW AwpxyhI AMdr ƒ ivMnHx vwly[ d`so Blw ieh ivcwrI AMdr au~gy kMifAW nwlikvyN Awpxw bcw kr skdI hY? ienHW kMifAW dw aus ƒ kI &wiedw? jIaUNdyjIA qW ies ny Awpxy kMifAW nwl AwpxI rìKAw kr nhIN skxI[ ivcwrIpweIiss ! pweIiss lokW dw Awpxw duKWq huMdw hY[ Awpxy kMifAW nwlAwp hI ivMnHdy rihMdy hn Awpxy Awp ƒ[’

‘ieh ikauN nhIN kihMdy ik pweIiss mrn doN bwAd vI Awpxy kMifAWnwl lokW ƒ du`K dyNdy rihMdy hn[’

‘vwh ikMnw vDIAw juAwb qy ivcwr hY[’‘ikauN TIk nhIN ?’‘hY qW TIk hI pr ieh myry au~pr nhIN Fu`kdw[’‘ieh quhwfy ijaUNdy hox krky nhIN Fu`kdw[’‘kI mrn qoN bwAd Fùkygw ?’‘ieh qW auh lok hI d`s skdy hn ijhnW ƒ quhwfy mrn dw dùK hovygw[’‘quhwƒ nhIN hovygw myry mrn nwl dùK ?’‘mYƒ pqw hY ik qusIN eynI jldI mrn vwly nhIN, nwly qusIN qW keIAW

ƒ mwrky hI mrogy[’‘ieh qusIN ikvyN kih skdy ho ?’‘ijhVw bMdw ijauNidAW keIAW ƒ mwr skdw hY, auh mr ky ikauN nw

mwrUgw ?’‘bVIAW isAwxIAW g`lW krn l`g pey qusIN?’‘quhwfI sMgq krky[’‘clo koeI hor g`l kro[’‘qusIN kro ?’‘mYN ikauN[’‘quhwƒ g`lW hI qW AwauNdIAW ny[’‘quhwƒ nhIN AwauNdIAW ?’‘pqw nhIN[’‘AOrqW dw s`B qoN v`fw JUT[’‘mrdW dw s`c kIh hY ?’‘mrd vI kdI s`cy huMdy hn ?’‘hW[’‘kdoN?’‘jd koeI mqlb nw hovy[’

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‘mqlb qoN quhwfw kI Bwv ?’‘mqlb qoN myrw Bwv mqlb[ XwnI bymqlb qoN ault, hux smJ l`gI?’‘kuJ kuJ, izMdgI ƒ vyKx qy mwnx dw Awpxw Awpxw hI idRStIkox

huMdw hY[ smu`cI izMdgI ƒ koeI vI smu`cw nhIN dyK skdw qy nw hI smJskdw hY Aqy nw hI mwx skdw hY[ ieh mnu`K dI kmzorI hY ieho kwrnhY ik vsqUAW aus ƒ DoKw dy jWdIAW hn[’

‘myry iÂwl iv`c vsqUAW mnu`K ƒ DoKw nhIN dyNdIAW, mnu`K dI sochI aus ƒ DoKw dyNdI hY[ DoKw auh dyNdw hY ijs iv`c qyzI nwl bdl skxdI smr`Qw hovy[ mnu`K dy mukwbly vsqUAW iv`c ieh pRqIikRAw bVI slo hY,jd ik mnu`K dI soc bVI hI Pwst hY[ ies leI aus dw DoKw dyxw suBwvkhI hY[’

‘b`bU qMU vI bVIAW gUVH igAwn dIAW g`lW krn l`g peI eyN[’‘quhwfI sMgq dw Asr hY[ mYN pihlW nwloN s`cmu`c hI gro kr rhI hW[

pihlW qW myrw lokW nwl ieMtrAYkSn hI nhIN sI[ j`gI ny myrw swry lokWqoN hI ivSvws auTw idqw sI[ mYN bVw PUk PUk ky pYr pu`tx l`g peI sIik ikDry auh Bwxw iPr nw vwpr jwey[ mYN pVHdI vI bhuq G`t hW mYN qWkyvl sMgIq dI dunIAW iv`c hI rihMdI hW, mYN cwhuMdI hW ik swrI dunIAWie`ko surqwl iv`c ho jwey qy mYN aus iv`c ie`kim`k ho jwvW, mYN hr cIz iv`cirdm cwhuMdI hW,auh cwhy vsqUAW hox jW irSqy[’

‘ieh dunIAW qW pihlW hI surqwl iv`c hY, swƒ hI aus qwl dI smJnhIN AwauNdI, AsIN Awp hI byqwly ho jWdy hW qy swrI aumr byqwly hoeyhI rihMdy hW, AsIN izMdgI dI sur iv`c nhIN jIauNdy AsIN izMdgI ƒ is`DIAWlweInW au~pr clwaux leI aus dIAW vwgW ƒ tWgy vwly GoVy dIAW vwgWsmJ lYNdy hW Aqy duKI EdoN huMdy hW jdoN auh GoVw swfI g`l nw mMn kyAwpxy Awp srp`t dOVnw SurU kr dyNdw hY[ EdoN swƒ l`gdw hY ik AsINlIhoN lih gey hW[ huMdy qW AsIN Awp AYbsrf XwnI aUl-jlUl hW prkihMdy izMdgI ƒ aUl-jlUl hW[ kudrq qW Awid kwl qoN hI surqwl iv`cc`l rhI hY[ AsIN hI aus ƒ sìBAw qy sìBAwcwrk bnwaux dI koiSS iv`ciek qrHW nwl qbwh kr id`qw hY[’

‘b`s bhuq ho igAw BwSn, myrw qW isr drd krn l`g ipAw hY[’auh kyvl muskrwauNdw hY[‘qusIN eynw bol ikvyN lYNdy ho? myry qoN qW do cwr SbdW qoN v`D boilAw

hI nhIN jWdw[’‘qMU eynW gw ikvyN lYNdI hYN, eynw irAwz ikvyN kr lYNdI hY?’

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‘hW Awpxw Awpxw &Ilf hY, hux smJ l`gI[’boDrwj m`CI Kw ky auT KVw hoieAw[ aus ny bwhr vwlI tUtI qoN h`Q

Doqy, iQMdw l&w&w fstibMn iv`c su`itAw[A`Cw clqw hUM kih ky, auh qur igAw[ b`bU mMUh A`gy h`Q r`K ky h`sx

l`g jWdI hY[auh pu`Cdw hY ik kI g`l hoeI?b`bU h`sdI hoeI kihMdI hY, ‘mUrK ƒ ieh vI nhIN pqw ik Syr moeIAW

hoeIAW qy iksy dIAW mwrIAW hoeIAW m`CIAW nhIN KWdy[ auh Awpxy iSkwrAwp mwrdy hn[’

aus ny EQy bYiTAW bYiTAW hI Awpxy AMdr JwqI mwrI, ausƒ ieMJl`igAw ik ijvyN auh vI au~Qy bYiTAW hI bo mwrn l`g igAw hovy[ aus ƒsmJ nhIN AwauNdI ik auh kI kry? ieh vI smJ nhIN sI l`g rhI ik b`bUkI cwhuMdI hY? kI aus ƒ aus vloN iml rhy igAwn dI loV hY? kI auhAwpxy purwxy zKmW ƒ aus nwl sWJw kr kr ky aus dy m`Ty mTy drd iv`coNAwnMd lY rhI hY? kI aus ƒ Awpxy nwl vwprIAW GtnwvW dy duhrwEiv`coN koeI suAwd Aw irhw hY? kI aus ƒ auhdy pwsoN vI iksy srIrk AwnMddI loV dI pUrqI dI Aws hY? kI auh aus ƒ AwpxI SwierI suxw ky qyvwh vwh krvw ky iksy iksm dI sMquStI lY rhI hY?

aus ƒ l`gw ijvyN auh b`bU dI ie`Cw Anuswr hI quirAw jw irhw hovy[aus ƒ l`gdw ik ijvyN koeI vI &Yslw krnw aus dy v`s iv`c nw hovy prauh ies g`l qoN vI sucyq rih irhw sI ik eynI aup-Bwvk, eynI sYNtI, eynIKUbsUrq kuVI nwl iks Drwql au~pr iv`cirAw jwvy?

aus dw jIvn vKrw hY, aus dw &ls&w vKrw hY, ivcwr vKry hn,izMdgI pRqI dohW dy idRStIkox vKry hn[ auh b`bU dy SbdW dy ArQW ƒaus dy pRsMg iv`c r`K ky aus smyN qy sQwn q`k hI sImq kr lYNdw sI[ b`bUdy kmry iv`coN bwhr jWidAW hI auh muV AwpxI dunIAW iv`c phuMc jWdw[ij`Qy ie`k nvIN iksm dI ivr`kqqw huMdI hY[ iek iek`lwpn huMdw hY[ auhb`bU vloN boly SbdW ƒ aus dy kmry iv`c hI C`f AwauNdw sI pr aus ƒieMJ l`gdw sI ijvyN b`bU aunHW boly gey SbdW iv`coN iksy iksm dy AwsryloVdI rihMdI sI[ aus ƒ l`gdw ijvyN b`bU swry SbdW ƒ swry ArQW ƒ swrIAWGtnwvW ƒ sdw Awpxy nwl cu`kI iPrdI hY Aqy iPr vwr vwr aunHW ƒduhrwauNdI rihMdI hY qy aunHW SbdW ƒ do vKry vKry pRsMgW iv`c r`K ky aunHWdy vKry vKry ArQ k`FdI rihMdI hY[ ieMJ kridAW auh icMqwvwn vI huMdIhY Aqy duKI vI pr ies dy bwvjUd auh ies iv`coN iksy iksm dw AwnMd

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vI lYNdI rihMdI hY ?aus ny keI vwr soicAw ik hux q`k b`bU dy do-iqMn b`cy hoxy cwhIdy

sn qW ik auh aunHW iv`c ruJI rhy[ ieMJ iek`ly rihMidAW qW auh soc socky hI pwgl ho jwvygI[

ieh swrw kuJ socidAW auh b`bU qoN dUr clw jWdw qy iPr ihrnW dyisM|I jw cVHdw[ kdI d`KxI idSw mwrUQlW vl qy kdI auqrI phwVI idSwvl[ gL iv`c QYlw, ijs iv`c huMdy aus dy kYmry, zUm, i&lmW dIAW rIlW,kuJ AwpxIAW ikqwbW qy kuJ sMswr pRis`D klwisk[

AwpxIAW sYrW dy dOrwn aus ƒ kdI vI b`bU dI Xwd nw AwauNdI[aus ƒ Xwd AwieAw ik ie`k vwr auh ikMnI dyr bwAd b`bU dy hostl

iv`c aus ƒ imlx igAw sI[ b`bU dI hwlq bhuq mwVI sI, auh mwniskqOr qy bhuq prySwn sI[ l`gdw sI ijvyN auh ib`tU ƒ iml ky AweI hovy,ho skdw hY auh kuJ idn ib`tU dy kol rhI vI hovy[ aus dI hwlq qoN l`gdwsI ijvyN ib`tU dw mn auhdy qoN Br igAw hovy[ aus ƒ iml ky auh bhuqIKuS qW nhIN sI hoeI[ eynw hI ikhw mYƒ myrI hwlq au~pr hI C`f idE plIz...aus ny aus ƒ ûS krn dI bhuq koiSS kIqI pr aus dw mn SWq nwhoieAw, audws Aqy pRySwn hoieAw, vwips prq AwieAw sI, keI mhInylMG gey, ie`k idn auh b`bU dy hostl v`l clw igAw[ aus ƒ pqw l`gwik hux auh b`bU dy kmry iv`c nhIN sI jw skdw, AiDkwrIAW ny hostlƒ bwkwiedw cwlU kr id`qw sI qy hostl iv`c hor vI AOrqW qy lVkIAWAw geIAW sn[ hux aunHW ƒ imlx Awey gYstW dI mulwkwq gYst rUm iv`chI huMdI sI[

A`j jd b`bU AweI qW aus ny pYNt qy kmIz pihnI hoeI sI[ audwsIiv`c vI auh ÛbsUrq l`g rhI sI, aus ny b`bU ƒ hwl pùiCAw qW aus nyikhw, ‘b`s hwl TIk hY, audws hW[’

‘jdoN do audws lok imldy hn qW KuS ho jWdy ny’, aus ny ikhw[‘nhIN ieh g`l nhIN’...jdoN Ajy b`bU ieh g`l kr hI rhI sI ik bwhr

rOlw ijhw pY igAw, kuJ AOrqW qy kuJ krmcwrI bwhr gyt v`l ƒ B`jy,b`bU vI auT ky aunHW v`l geI[ jd vwips AweI qW aus ny puiCAw, kIg`l sI ?

‘kuJ nhIN, ie`k snyk Aw igAw sI, hostl iv`c ieQy snyk bhuqAwauNdy ny[’

‘myry smyq’, aus ny ikhw[‘hW quhwfy smyq[’

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‘beI AOrq dI ûSbU hI ieho ijhI huMdI hY snykW ny qW Awauxw hIhoieAw[’

‘hr g`l iv`coN AOrq k`F lYNdy ho[’‘b`bU qMU auh i&lm vyKI hY ? ijs iv`c ie`k nwign kuVI bx ky aus

muMfy ƒ BogdI hY, ijs ny aus nwign dy swQI ƒ mwr id`qw huMdw hY[’‘nhIN, mYN nhIN vyKI pr Bog Sbd dI vrqoN qusIN ikvyN nw ikvyN krnI

hI huMdI hY, quhwƒ nhIN pqw ik ies hostl dIAW kMDW ƒ vI kMn ny[’‘h`Cw clo A`gy qoN nhIN krdw[’‘kI ?’‘aus Sbd dI vrqoN[’‘kihx nwl kI &rk pYNdw hY ?’‘krn nwl pYNdw hY ?’ieh sux ky b`bU lwl pIlI ho geI pqw nhIN aus ny kI kuJ boilAw[

aus ny qW ieho kuJ hI suixAw, ‘qusIN mrd lok smJdy kI ho Awpxy Awpƒ ?’ ieh kih ky auh auT ky clI geI sI[ aus ƒ pqw hI nw lìgAwik ieh swrw kuJ kI vwpr igAw hY[ Swied auh ib`tU au~pr bhuq hI nrwzsI, pqw nhIN aunHW iv`c kI g`l hoeI hovygI[ auh ib`tU bwry eynI BrI pIqIikauN sI? Swied krn Sbd bolx krky aus ƒ ib`tU dI Xwd Aw geI hovy[

auh vI BirAw pIqw byie`zq ijhw ho kmry iv`coN auT AwieAw qy mniv`c socx l`gw ik A`gy qoN auh aus dy pws kdI vI nhIN Awvygw[ iehAwpxy Awp ƒ smJdI kIh hY, mYN iehdy koloN kI lYxw hY ?

ienHW idnW iv`c jo aus dw burw hwl hoieAw, ies ƒ kyvl auhI jwxdwsI[ eynI smJ, eynI pVHweI-ilKweI qy aus dw Awpxw &ls&w ik izMdgIiv`c iksy dI vI ZulwmI nhIN hoxI cwhIdI nw r`b dI, nw igAwn dI, nwhI muh`bq dI[ pr swry kuJ dy bwvjUd, aus ƒ kuJ huMdw jw irhw sI, iesiv`c aus ƒ s`B qoN v`fw du`K aus dy iv`coN b`bU dy ivSvws dw tu`txw sI,ieMJ l`gdw sI ijvyN auh b`bU dIAW nzrW iv`coN igr igAw hovy, iksy dIAWnzrW iv`coN igr jwxw, aus ƒ s`B qoN v`fw gunwh l`gdw sI[ iPr aus ƒpqw l`gw ik b`bU audws ho ky Awpxy mW bwp kol aunHW dy Sihr clI geIhY[ auh hor vI audws ho igAw[ b`bU dI swrI audwsI dw kwrn auh AwpxyAwp ƒ hI smJ irhw sI[ auh socdw ikMnI muSkl nwl aus ny b`bU ƒ bhuqhI v`fy sMqwp iv`coN kìFAw sI qy Awp hI iPr AwpxI in`kI ijhI ZlqInwl aus ƒ iPr audwsI dIAW Gor qihAW iv`c Dkyl idqw sI[ aus ƒdùK kyvl ies g`l dw hI nhIN sI ik b`bU dI aus nwl nrwzgI ho geI

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hY, aus ƒ qW ie`s g`l dw s`B qoN v`fw du`K sI ik b`bU swry mrdW ƒ j`gIvrgw hI smJygI[

aus ƒ Xwd AwieAw ik ie`k vwr b`bU ny ikhw vI sI ik mrd huMdyvI ie`ko qrWH dy ny[ auh J`t p`t hI AwKrI iCx ƒ pwaux dI kwhl iv`crihMdy ny, auh Awp qW koeI byAwrwmI Bogdy nhIN, qy swrw kuJ AOrqW dym`Qy mVH dyNdy ny[ ieh swrIAW bIqy smyN dIAW g`lW sn prMqU, aus ny swrIAWilK leIAW sn, dirAw burd krn leI [


Agly idn svyryy auh auiTAw qy aus ny vyiKAw, du`D dyx vwlw AwieAwhoieAw hY ijs ny Awpxy Awp hI cwh bxw ky r`KI hoeI sI Aqy aus dyau~Tx dI aufIk kr irhw sI[ aus dy Gr dw isstm hI ieho ijhw sI,iksy ƒ vI kuJ p`uCx-ig`Cx dI zrUrq nhIN sI pYNdI, ijhVw vI pihlWAw jWdw, auho hI rsoeI iv`coN jo jI krdw bxw lYNdw sI[ auho hI vyKdwik ikhVw kMm krn vwlw hY, auho hI krn l`g pYNdw, keI vwr kwLy dyAwaux qoN pihlW hI swrw kuJ inptwieAw igAw huMdw[ kwLw in`ky hox qoNhI aus dy kol rihMdw sI[ auh aus dy pihly Gr ij`Qy ik auh ikrwey qyrihMdw sI, guAWFIAW dw muMfw sI, ijhVw Coty huMidAW auhdy kol pyNitMgAqy &otogRw&I isKx AwauNdw huMdw sI[ iPr hOlI hOlI auh auhdy kol hIrihx l`g ipAw sI[ aus ny aus ƒ bhuq kuJ isKwaux dw Xqn kIqw sIpr auh iek ^ws p`Dr qoN A`gy nhIN sI jw sikAw, ijs dw aus ƒ bhuqiglw sI ik auh aus ƒ bVw v`fw bMdw bnwauxw cwhuMdw sI pr auh ausqoN is`Kx dI ibjwey AYvyN AvwrwgrdI iv`c hI rihMdw[ ies leI aus ƒkwLy au~pr bVI iK`J AwauNdI sI[ auh ieh soc ky ik clo mYƒ kI, AwpxwhI nukswn krdw hY, cu`p ho jWdw[

du`D vwly ny Ajy aus ƒ cwh dw iglws PVwieAw hI sI ik ksqUrI lwlAw igAw[ ksqUrI lwl vI lwvwirs ijhw bMdw sI[ auh KyqIbwVI mihkmyiv`coN irtwier hoieAw sI[ pqw nhIN kdoN auh vI aus Gr ivc Aw igAw sI[pihlW pihl qW auh bUitAW qy Pu`lW dI gofI krdw[ jdoN cwh bxdI cwhpI lYNdw, jdoN rotI bxdI rotI Kw lYNdw qy fUMGI Swm peI vwips clw jWdwsI[ aus qoN bwAd aus ny vI auQy hI sOxw SurU kr idqw sI[ aus ny Gr jwky vI kI krnw hY ? A`jklH aus ny ie`k hor Gr vI l`iBAw hoieAw hY[ kihMdwhY hux auh ie`k &Ojx vl jWdw hY[ auh kihMdI hY ik aus ƒ iek`lI ƒ frl`gdw hY, bwbw qMU myry lwgy sON jwieAw kr, AwpW ƒ kI ? iksy ny AwiKAw

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sI lMifAw qYƒ cor lY jwx ! auh AwKx l`gw XwrW ƒ kI, AwpW qW p`Ty hIKwxy hn[ hux auh &Ojx koloN hI cwh pI ky AwauNdw sI[

Awpxy suBwA Anuswr aus ny AwauNidAW hI SyAro-SwierI SurU kr id`qIsI[ jdoN Pu`lW dI gofI krdw jW bUitAW ƒ pwxI dyNdw qW hr vyly iSArboldw rihMdw[ ksqUrI Awpxy iSAr eynI vwr duhrwauNdw ik ijhVy nvyNlok Awey huMdy, auh qW ûS huMdy qy bwr bwr dwd dyNdy pr auh hux ienHWiSArW qoN qMg Aw cuìkAw sI[

ksqUrI ny jdoN vyiKAw ik doDI bYTw hY, aus ny AwauNidAW hI ikhw :‘jhW topI auClqI hY, ausy lwhOr kihqy hYN[’

‘AsIN Bw jI aus Sihr dI bVI Swno-SOkq vyKI hY[ iklHw gu`jr isMG,mwl rof, mklof rof, icVIAw-Gr qy kI kihMdy Aw iblifMgW dIAW pwLWhI pwLW, Swhdrw qy lwgy dirAw rwvI Aqy nyVy nUrjhW dw mkbrw[

‘bVy v`sdy-r`sdy sW AsIN Bw jI, AYvyN hI pwiksqwn bx igAw[ kIizMdgI sI, mYN quhwƒ d`s nhIN skdw, ivhVw BirAw hMudw sI BrjweIAWnwl[ mYN aunHW ƒ bVy mÔl krny, myrw bVw ie`t-KiVkw rihMdw sI aunHWnwl[ cwr Brw qW AsIN Awp hI sW, bwkI Cy s`q cwicAW, qwieAW dy qymYN Cotw sW swirAW qoN[ mYƒ iSAro SwierI dw mu`F qoN hI bVw SOk sI, mYNmKOl nwl BwbIAW ƒ AwKxw :

‘‘Pu`l Pu`l hox dUxIAW ijhnW BwbIAW dy idaur kuAwry[’’‘aunHW ny A`goN AwKxw, cu`p kr vy qMU qy swfw jyT l`gdw eyN[’mYN kihxw, ‘BwbI qYƒ pqw hY, swl iv`c ie`k mhInw jyT dw vI huMdw

hY ? ijhVI mrzI iksy purwxI bu`FI mweI koloN pu`C leIN !’qW aunHW kihxw : ‘jyT mMjy hyT[’‘aunHW BwbIAW dw kI Brvwsw ijhnW BwbIAW dy idaur kuAwry[’ mYN

moVvW juAwb dyxw[iv`coN hI iksy ny bool pYxw :

‘pOlw fwhFw Bwrw, idaurw vy qyry vIr dw[’‘Bw jI, myrw qW bVw idl l`gdw sI, swrI idhwVI ijvyN Pu`lW nwl

Bry bwZ bgIicAW iv`c iPrdw rihMdw hovW[ zmInW swfIAW vwhvw huMdIAWsn[ m`JW gWvW dy du`D iGau dIAW lihrW-bihrW huMMdIAW sn[ mYƒ hor koeIkMm hI nhIN sI huMdw[ mYN audoN mdr`sy &wrsI pVHn jwxw[ pVHnw-pVHwauxwkIh huMdw sI[ svyry GridAW ny prwauNTy pkw ky p`ly bMnH dyxy[ auh AsINrwh iv`c bih ky Kw lYxy, dupYhry hr roz munSI ny sON jwxw qy AsIN cu`pkrky iKsk jwxw, msW hI gulsqW-bosqW hI pVHI sI[’

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pMfq ksqUrI lwl AwpxIAW g`lW krdw irhw qy auh A`j bVy iDAwnnwl aus dIAW g`lW ƒ suxn l`gw[ pqw nhIN A`j ikauN aus ƒ ksqUrIdIAW g`lW idlcsp l`gxIAW SurU ho geIAw sn[

ksqUrI bolI jw irhw sI, ‘iPr mYƒ nOkrI iml geI KyqI-bwVI dymihkmy iv`c[ ausy mihkmy iv`c iek srdwr AwieAw sI, AmrIkw qoN pVHky, mYN auhdy hyT kMm krdw sI[ vIh vIh Pu`t AsIN kmwd dy gMny pYdw kIqysn, audoN bVI AwkV iv`c rihMdw sI auh srdwr[ jdoN vI auhny lMGxw,mYN hr vwr aus ƒ siq sRI Akwl bulwieAw krnI pr aus ny koeI juAwbhI nw dyxw, sgoN mUMh dUjy bMny kr CifAw krnw[ iPr mYN aus ƒ siq sRIAkwl krnI hI C`f id`qI[

‘iek idn aus ny mYƒ bulwieAw qy AwKx lìgAw : beI, ksqUrI lwl !qMU mYƒ duAw slwm nhIN krdw ?’

‘mYN AwiKAw : jnwb ! mYN roz krdw sI, qusIN juAwb hI nhIN sI dyNdy,iPr mYN vI bulwauxI C`f id`qI[’

‘auh kihx l`gw : qYƒ AwpxI ifaUtI inBweI jwxI cwhIdI sI[ hrAwdmI dI AwpxI AwpxI ifaUtI huMdI hY[’

‘mYN ikhw : jnwb ! quhwfI vI qW koeI ifaUtI hoxI hY ?’‘myrI g`l sux ky auh h`sx l`g ipAw[ mYN AMdroN fr igAw ik hux

nOkrI geI ik geI pr auh AmrIkw qoN pVH ky AwieAw sI[ mYƒ kihxlìgAw : ksqUrI lwl SwbwS ! hux qMU jwh[

‘mYN ikhw jnwb : myrI AwdwauN kw, burw nw mnwnw[ myrI qo Awdq hY, muskrwny kI[ieh sux ky swihb bVw KuS hoieAw, pu`Cx lìgAw : ‘ikAw Awp iSAro

SwierI BI krqy hYN ?’‘mYN ikhw : jnwb mwr hI leIdw h`Q p`lw QoVw bhuq [ qy nwl hI iSAr

boilAw :XUM hI guzr geI hY, do hwQ mlqy mlqy,Ab Q`k cuky hYN pWE, mMzl py clqy clqy[pwlw Qw ijn ko mYny, Ûny-ijZr sy Apny,kWty juAW ho gey hYN, dwmn myN plqy plqy[

‘eynI dyr ƒ koTI dy AMdroN iJliml iJliml krdI swihb dI mym bwhrAw geI, auhƒ vyK ky mYN ie`k hor iSAr cùikAw :

‘socw Qw idn ktyNgy, AwZoS myN qumwrHI[Qw voh iÂwlI mMzr, rsqw bdl rhw hMU[’

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‘ieh sux ky swihb kuJ JyNp ijhw igAw qy nOkr ƒ Awvwz mwr kykihx lìgAw : ilAw peI, ksqUrI lwl leI kuJ &l &rUt[’

‘nOkr AMdroN ckoDirAW Aqy SriDAW dI tokrI cùk ilAwieAw qyswihb dy A`gy ilAw r`KI, auhdy iv`c kuJ kMDwrI Anwr vI sn[ swihbny mYƒ ieSwrw kIqw : cu`k lY PlW dI tokrI qy A`gy qoN duAw slwm bulwauxInw BùlIN[ qMU Awpxw &rz pUrw krI jweIN, ieh g`l Xwd r`K, izMdgI iv`ciksy ƒ duAw slwm krn dw koeI nukswn nhIN, sgoN nw krn nwl nukswnho skdw hY, bwhrly lok jdoN iek dUjy ƒ imldy hn qW auh hr iek ƒ,hYlo ! hYYlo !! zrUr kihMdy hn[

‘mYN PlW vwlI tokrI cùkI, swihb ƒ slwm kIqI qy quirAw AwauNdwiSAr gux guxw irhw sW :

qU ny v&w ky vwiedy, ikAw Ûb Qy kIey sB[Xy soc soc kr mYN hYrwn ho rhw hMU[

‘ikAw idn sn, auh Bw jI :rwqyN geI i&rwk myN, idn ieMqzwr myN[hm ny aumr Zuzwr dI, XMU hI ipAwr myN[

‘lokW ƒ BwjI Awsrw huMdw, iksy nw iksy g`l dw, iksy dy hL c`ldyny, iksy dw kwr^wnw c`ldw, iksy dI dukwn c`ldI hY[ mYN qW swrI aumrieMJ hI guzwr id`qI, nw DI ivAwhuxI, nw ƒh ilAwauxI, auNJ Bw jI AsINAwm qy ^ws dw iÂwl zrUr r`Kdy hW[’

ksqUrI lwl bwry socidAW aus ƒ iehsws hoieAw ik ikMnw izMdwidlbMdw hY, ikMnw kuJ hMFwieAw sI aus ny, Awpxy qn qy mn au~qy[ AsIN hWik in`kI in`kI g`l ƒ mn nwl lgw lYNdy hW[ ikMnw ̂ uS rihMdw swrI idhwVI,iSAro SwierI krdw rihMdw BwvyN eyfy v`fy pirvwr iv`coN ieho ieko hI bcky AwieAw sI[ auh vI ies kr ky ik ieh aus smyN lwhOr iv`c sI AqydMigAW smyN Awpxy swihb dI g`fI iv`c AV-Ps ky vwhgy dI srh`d pwrkrky ihMdosqwn phuMc igAw sI[ ieDr Awx ky l`K Xqn krn qy vI ausƒ Awpxy pirvwr dw koeI Qhu pqw nhIN sI lìgAw[ auh vK-vK SihrWivc l`gy SrnwrQI kYNpW iv`c aunHW ƒ l`Bdw K`jl-ûAwr hMudw irhw sI,Awny-bhwny auh AwpxI mMgyqr ividAwvMqI dy pirvwr bwry vI pu`CdwrihMdw[

ividAwvMqI aus dy v`fy qoN Coty Brw dI swlI sI[ ijhVI swl iv`ciek A`DI vwr AwpxI BYx kol AwauNdI rihMdI sI[ kdI BYx dy jxypy krky,kdI BYx dI ibmwrI-iSmwrI krky[ ksqUrI ƒ auh fwhFI hI cMgI l`gx

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l`g peI sI[ dovyN hI AMdro AMdr ipAwr dIAW gMFW pw cu`ky sn pr aunHWdy ^wmoS ipAwr dI iksy ƒ Du`K q`k nhIN sI[ aunHW dI muh`bq ie`k dUjy ƒA`KW A`KW rwhIN vyKx q`k hI sI[ aunHW dI muh`bq iv`c eynI kiSS sI ikijvyN aunHW ƒ bolW dI loV hI nw hovy[ mn rwhIN dohW ƒ sunyhy pujdy rihMdy,jd vI aunHW dIAW Awps iv`c nzrW imldIAW qW ijsmW iv`c JrnwhtijhI iPr jWdI Aqy l`KW hI sunyhy ie`k dUjy ƒ phuMMc jWdy[

iPr jdoN ksqUrI ƒ nOkrI iml geI qW v`fI BrjweI ƒ vI ksqUrIlwl kMm dw bMdw l`gx l`g ipAw[ pihlW pihl BwvyN aus dI iSAro SwierIkrky auh aus ƒ snkI qy Awvwrw hI smJdI sI[ iek vwr jdoN auh pykygeI qW mW-bwp ny aus nwl CotI dy irSqy bwry g`l qorI qW aus ny bVyhmyN-dwAvy nwl Awpxy ksqUrI dIAW is&qW dy pul bMnH id`qy[ cwr jmwqWpiVHAw sohxw qy srkwrI nOkrI auqy l`gw, swkW iv`coN swk vyiKAw BwilAw,mW bwp hor kI cwhuMdy sn? aunHW vI ieh slwh mMn leI ik auh ksqUrIdy v`fy Brw nwl g`l krky irSqw nypry cwVH dyvygI[ ividAwvMqI vI corIiCpy ienHW huMdIAW slwhW dIAW kMnsoAW lYNdI, mn hI mn ^uS hoeI jwrhI sI, aus ƒ qW mn-icMidAw vr pwaux vwlw vwk pUrw ho irhw l`gdw sI[

mW bwp ny qW v`fI DI dy kihx au~qy swrw kuJ auhdy au~pr hI C`fid`qw[ v`fI ƒ ieh mwx sI ik ksqUrI kdI vI ies irSqy ƒ nWh nhINkrygw BwvyN AMdr hI AMdr aus dy mn iv`c BY vI sI ik ikDry ksqUrI iesƒ nWh hI nw kr dyvy ikauNik pqw nhIN hux nOkrI qoN bwAd auh vI nwbdl igAw hovy[ Sihr jw ky auh aufwrU qW ho hI igAw hovygw[ auh vIlwhOr Sihr iv`c jIhdIAW lhOrnW rwvI dy pwxIAW ƒ vI A`g lgwdyNdIAW ny, swfw ksqUrI ivcwrw kIhdy pwxIhwr hY[ iPr vI mwipAW ƒhW krky qy ruKIN, ruKIN ividAwvMqI dy vI kMnoN k`F ky auh shury Gr muVIqW ividAwvMqI dy ijvyN pYr hI zmIn au~qy nw l`gx[ hwsw aus dIAW v`KIAWiv`coN dI inkldw Aqy aus dy AMdr ijvyN ku`q-ku`qwVIAW inkldIAW hox[

shury Aw ky ƒh ny s`s shury nwl qW g`l p`kI q`QI kr leI, b`s huxksqUrI dy Cu`tI Awaux dI hI dyr sI[ jd ksqUrI Cu`tI ipMf AwieAw qWBrjweI ny aus nwl swrI g`l kIqI qW ksqUrI ƒ l`igAw ijvyN iC`kw tu`twib`lI dy BwgIN[

pr kI pqw sI kI dIAW kI vwpr jwxIAW sn[ ksqUrI ƒ nw qW AwpxyhI pirvwr dw koeI pqw l`g sikAw Aqy nw hI ividAwvMqI dy pirvwrvwilAW dw hI kuJ Qhu pqw l`gw[

ksqUrI dw qW pqw hI nhIN sI ligAw ik ikvyN auh aus dy sMprk

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iv`c Aw igAw sI, iehdy kol rih ky hI auh inky moty kMm krdw rihMdwsI[ h`sdw hswauNdw qy hr g`l nwl iSAr suxwauNdw Aqy rwq ƒ sùiqAWipAw buVbuVwauNdw rihMdw sI, keI vwr qW ieMJ vI l`gdw ijvyN auh su`qwhoieAw vI iSAr pVHdw rihMdw hovy[

A`j jdoN auh AwpxI cONkI lY ky ilKx bYiTAw qW pqw nhIN ikauNswrw kuJ ksqUrI bwry hI ilK id`qw sI[

swrw kuJ ilKx qoN bwAd hux auh Swm dI aufIk krn lìgAw ikkdoN Swm hoey Aqy auh Awpxw swrw kuJ iliKAw hoieAw dirAw burd krAwvy[ auh ies ilKy hoey ƒ aus vyly dirAw burd krnw cwhuMdw sI[ jdoNsUrj pUrI qrHW dirAw dy A`D iv`ckwr pwxI iv`c A`Dw fuìbAw hovy qy A`Dwbwhr hovy[ kwhly kdmIN qurdw auh A`j Pyr dirAw dy kMFy phuMc igAwsI[ aus ny vyiKAw ik A`j auh vkq qoN pihlW hI dirAw dy kMFy au~prAw igAw sI[ sMGxI kwhI dy bUr inkilAw hoieAw sI[ cwr cuPyrw du`DvWg ic`tw hoieAw ipAw sI[ aus ƒ swrw vwqwvrn cMgw cMgw qy rumWickijhw jwpx l`gw[ aus ƒ Xwd AwieAw ikvyN auh AwpxI aumr dy ipClyvryH rumWckwrI hwdisAW iv`c ibqwey sn, auh hr vyly cutkIAW mwrdwrihMdw qy kuJ nw kuJ guxguxwauNdw rihMdw sI, cwr cu&yry ijvyN ûSIAW dyAMbwr hI l`gy hoey hox, hux ijvyN swrw kuJ hI mr igAw hovy, ies dw kwrnkIh sI? ikDry auh mn dI iksy nu`kry ieh Bwvnw qW nhIN sI dbweI bYTwik auh hI swrIAW bwzIAW hwr igAw hY[ jd ik bwkI lok ies jhwniv`coN bhuq kuJ lu`t ky lY gey hox[

aus ƒ ieMJ lìgAw ik ijvyN ikqy ieh g`l TIk hI hovy pr auh kdIies ƒ mMnx leI iqAwr nhIN sI[ ienHW socW ƒ pry q`j ky auh dirAwdy kMFy tihlx l`g ipAw[ dirAw dIAW GMumx GyrIAW ƒ vyK vyK ky auhAcMBq hox l`gw[ hux aus ƒ l`g irhw sI, ijvyN hux auh Awp hI &rIdswihb dy bol duhrwA irhw hovy, ‘&rIdw dirAwvy kMny b`glw, bYTw kylkry[’

auh socx l`gw, ijvyN auh hI b`glw hovy[ eynw kuJ socidAW sUrjiblkul hI hyTW jw cùikAw sI, sUrj dw Aks pwxI iv`c pY irhw sI, ieMJl`g irhw sI, ijvyN auh pwxI nwl A`TKylIAW kr irhw hovy, pwxI vI ijvyNlhU-luhwn hoieAw ipAw sI, TIk smW vyK ky auh dirAw dy kMFy v`l viDAwAqy sihj-Bwv nwl aus ny Awpxy kwZzW ƒ pwxI iv`c auqwr id`qw iPraus ny dirAw dy pwxI dw bu`k BirAw qy Awpxy au~proN dI ieMJ sùitAw ijvyNauh iksy pivqR srovr dw jl hovy[ sdibj s[ rhj } r[t w[ dH>N v,esj

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dur[G Rpl s[ b>si w'Hg ZPh duhg f{ ihg h'r[ m Rpl sj dsv wisj dw Rphbjf rg bjfS[ dvt[ h'H[ wjQ;J s[ Vjv hg ldhu Fjr Vjv sdibj dryrdh ujr[ m jd sUrj iblkul hI Asq ho igAw qW auh vwips prqAwieAw[

AiDAwie 10AiDAwie 10AiDAwie 10AiDAwie 10AiDAwie 10A`j Swm auh jldI hI Awpxy kmry iv`c clw igAw, kuJ dyr auh

Awpxy ibsqry iv`c lMmW ipAw irhw aus ƒ gursu^n nwl ibqwey Awpxyidn Xwd AwaNudy rhy[ aus ƒ Xwd AwieAw ik ikvyN phwVW iv`c auh phwVWdIAW cotIAW au~pr pyNitMg krn jWdy huMdy sn, ikvyN auh GMitAW b`DI izMdgIbwry, pyNitMgz bwry g`lW krdy rihMdy sn, gursu^n dy nyVy bYTxw aus nwlgu&qgU krnw, aus dI Awvwz dw kMnW iv`c imSrI Golxw, aus ƒ ieMJl`gdw ijvyN izMdgI iv`c auh gursu^n qoN in`KV ky rih hI nhIN skygw[aus ny ieh g`l ie`k vwr aus ƒ vI d`sI sI[

aus smyN qW auh vI AwdrSvwdI sI, auh vI eyfw v`fw dwierw bxwky gursu^n dy duAwly gyVy k`Fdw irhw qy aus pws phuMcx q`k swry irSqyhI bdl gey sn[ aus smyN qW hr vyly ies g`l dw fr rihMdw sI ik swQIikDry Zlq hI nw smJ ley, ikDry auh ieh nw smJ lvy ik auh iksymqlb leI hI aus nwl sWJ pw irhw hY[ A`j dy lok ivhwrk hn, J`tp`t hI Agly plW ƒ mwnx ivc ivSvws r`Kdy hn[ aus ny soicAw ikienHW lokW ƒ ihjr dy im`Ty im`Ty suAwd dw igAwn hI nhIN qy nw hI ivCoVyivclI im`TI im`TI pIV dw hI iehsws hY[ idl iv`c m`Tw-m`Tw drd Aqyhr vyly iksy dy supinAW iv`c fu`by rihxw, hvweI iklyH auswridAW, ausnwl in`GIAW imlxIAW ƒ ic`qvdy rihxw hr kMm SurU krn qoN pihlWaus nwm dy pihly A`Kr nwl hW jW nWh dw ihswb ikqwb lgwauxw ikMnwipAwrw ipAwrw l`gdw sI swrw kuJ, pr A`j-klH kI hY ? Swied lokizAwdw isAwxy ho gey hn[ g`l vI TIk sI[ auh qW hmySw hI qol qolpYr Drdw AwieAw sI[

aus ny soicAw, gursu^n audoN vI aus qoN bhuq A`gy sI, auh ieh vIjwxdw sI, iek pyNfU hox krky aus dw pCVy hoxw suBwvk hI sI[ aus dyAMdr audoN pqw nhIN ikho ijhw drd huMdw, jdoN kdI gursu^n rwjn nwlkO&I hwaus, kO&I pIx clI jWdI jW kdI rwjn dy nwl lYNf-skyp bnwauxleI bwhr clI jWdI, qW aunHW idnW iv`c auh hor vI AMqrmuKI ho jWdw[ieho ijhy idn hI c`l rhy sn ik iek idn Acwnk gursu^n qy rwjn

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iek dupihr aus dy kmry iv`c aus ƒ imlx Aw gey sn[auh aunHW ƒ vyK ky BvMqirAw ijhw igAw, aus ƒ smJ nhIN sI Aw

rhI ik auh aunHW dw ikvyN suAwgq kry[ aus dI qW keI idnW qoN gursu^nnwl bol-cwl hI bMd sI[ pr rwjn aus nwl Ajy vI dosqI dw dm BrdwsI jW dosqI dw dwAvw krdw sI, auNJ vI rwmMU lMby nwl hoeI nwrwzgIqoN bwAd, aus dw rwjn qoN isvwey hor iksy nwl bol cwl hI nhIN sIrih igAw[

‘AsIN ikhw qYƒ imlky AwauNdy hW, A`j-klH qMU kuJ izAwdw hI audwsrihx l`g ipAw hYN[’

aus ny ie`k nzr gursu^n vl su`tI qy rwjn v`l vyK ky qy muskrwky ikhw, ‘mYN qy iblkul TIk Twk hW, hux mYƒ iksy jMmy mry dw ihrK sognhIN[’

‘ieho qW isnkW dw &ls&w hY, auh kihMdy hn, ûSI pRwpqIAW iv`cnhIN huMdI qy nw hI vsqUAW ƒ iek`Ty krn iv`c huMdI hY[ qMU auh khwxIqW suxI hI hovygI ik iek vwr jd sukrwq bwzwr iv`c igAw qW auh dukwnWiv`c BrIAW cIzW ƒ vyK-vyK ky au~cI-au~cI h`sx l`g ipAw[ jd aus dycyly ny puiCAw, ‘ausqwd jI kI g`l h`sI jWdy ho ?’ qW aus ny ikhw, ‘ikMnymUrK hn ieh dukwndwr, ijnHW ny ieh cIzW sjwA-sjwA ky r`KIAW ny,ijnHW ƒ mYN kdI ^rIdxw hI nhIN[’

AYNtIsQMj ny jdoN Awpxy ausqwd dI ieh g`l, ‘v`t ey lot Aw& iQMgzAweI fONt nIf’ suxI qW aus ny isink skUl dI sQwpnw kIqI, ijhVwies g`l au~pr zor dyNdw ik s`cI ûSI bwhrI dunIAW dIAW vsqUAW dIpRwpqI iv`coN nhIN, sgoN AslI ûSI qW mn dI AvsQw iv`c hY[

swfy gurU swihbW ny vI qW ieho hI ikhw hY, ‘hr^ sog qy rhy AqIqw[’gursu^n ijvyN bolx dw bhwnw hI l`B rhI hovy[

aus ny iqrCI nzr nwl gursu^n vl vyiKAw qW aus dIAW glHW qygulwbI ijhI BwA Aw geI[ pr aus dy AMdr iksy iksm dw kMplYks nhINsI[ aus ny soicAw nhIN sI ik auh eynI CyqI aus nwloN tu`t ky rwjn nwljuV jwvygI[ ies au~pr aus ƒ ivSvws hI nhIN sI Aw irhw[ aus ƒ XwdAwieAw, ikvyN aus dI Aqy gursu^n dI dosqI iv`c rwjn Aw igAw sI[

aus ƒ AwpxI ZlqI dw vI iehsws audoN hI hoieAw jdoN swrw kuJvwpr cukw sI[

g`l ieMJ hoeI sI ik ie`k idn jdoN auh gursu^n nwl kMtIn iv`c kO&IpI irhw sI qW Acwnk rwjn vI Aw igAw sI qy nwl vwlI kursI au~pr

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bYT igAw[ bYiTAW bYiTAW auh kihx l`gw, A`j mYƒ bVw hI AjIb supnwAieAw hY[

‘kI supnw sI, zrw AsIN vI suxIeyN[’ gursu^n ny ikhw sI[‘supny iv`c mYN vyiKAw ik mYN ie`k bhuq hI ÛbsUrq ic`ty GoVy au~pr

bYTw hoieAw hW[ mYN iek bhuq hI suMdr bwZ iv`coN dI lMG irhw hW[ AgymYN kI vyKdw hW ik ie`k bhuq hI suMdr kuVI bYTI hoeI sI[ auh sMg-mrmrIbu`q vWg l`g rhI sI, ieMJ l`gdw sI ijvyN auh huxy huxy hI koeI inR`q krkyhtI hoey qy swh lYx leI bYTI hovy[ aus ny mYƒ ijvyN kIl hI ilAw hovy[jdoN mYN aus dy nyVy igAw qW myry koloN iPr aus qoN dUr hI nw hoieAw igAw,mYƒ ieMJ lìgAw ijvyN aus bu`q ny myry v`l bwhW PYlwA id`qIAW hox[ myryiv`c ihMmq hI nhIN sI ik mYN aus bu`q koloN ih`l ky ikDry jw skW, mYN ausbu`q dw kIilAw hoieAw, sihj Bwv nwl aus bùq dI godI iv`c ieMJ bYTigAw ijvyN koeI b`cw AwpxI mW dI godI iv`c bYT jWdw hY[ aus bu`q dIgodI iv`c mYƒ AYnI su`K SWqI Aqy skUn imilAw ik myrw idl kIqw ikmYN swrI aumr hI ausy dI hI godI iv`c bYTw rhW[ aus ƒ rwjn dw iehsupnw vI &Rwf hI lìgAw, aus ƒ Xwd AwieAw ik ieh qW aus ny koeIAMgRyzI dI kivqw pVHI sI, ausy ƒ hI auh supnw bxw ky suxweI jw irhwsI[

gursu^n bVI auqsukqw nwl sux rhI sI, aus ny puìCAw ik A`goN kIhhoieAw?

rwjn dy juAwb dyx qoN pihlW hI auh auT ky bwQ rUm v`l clw igAwsI[

jd auh vwips AwieAw qW aus dy kMnW ny eynw hI suixAw, rwjngursu^n ƒ kih irhw sI, ‘jdoN mYN aus bu`q dy mUMh v`l vyiKAw qW mYN hYrwnhoieAw ik auh qUM hI sI[’

aus dy pYr iQ`Vk gey[gursu^n dw ichrw lwl ho igAw[rwjn aus ƒ vyK ky cu`p ho igAw sI[aus dw sB kuJ brbwd ho cùkw sI[auh kursI iv`c Ds ky bYT igAw[swry vwqwvrx ivc cu`p Cw geI sI[hr koeI Awpxy Awp ƒ AprwDI smJ irhw sI, KwmoSI qoN swry hI fr

rhy sn[ gursu^n ieh kih ky auT KVI hoeI ik aus ny jldI Gr phuMcxwhY[

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rwjn ny ikhw, ‘mYN vI c`ldw hW[’auh kwaUNtr qy ib`l dyx clw igAw[ jd auh vwips AwieAw qW aus

ny vyiKAw, auh dovyN iek`Ty jw rhy sn[ auh jwxbu`J ky ip`Cy rih igAwsI[ iPr ijMnI dyr auh kwlj iv`c rhy, dovyN ie`k dUjy dy nwl nwl hI rhy[gursu^n BwvyN pUrI qrHW rwjn nwl jw juVI sI[ prMqU, aus dI gursu^nv`l iK`c sdw hI brkrwr rhI sI[ hr vkq aus ƒ gursu^n dI Xwd AwauNdIrihMdI[ aus ƒ l`gdw rihMdw ik ie`k nw ie`k idn gursu^n aus dy pwsvwips prq AwvygI pr auh idn kdI vI nw AwieAw ! fi Rph epilp?Vsg Ijs } wsg rg bjfS[ qV dr,Dy'G w,T Vj ldwbj m

AiDAwie 11AiDAwie 11AiDAwie 11AiDAwie 11AiDAwie 11aus dI aufIk aus dI hoxI bx geI sI[ aus ny hux kI Awauxw hY

hux qW auh mrn jw irhw sI[ auh iPr mOq bwry socx l`gw, aus ƒ XwdAwieAw, nIlkMq ny ikhw sI, nw AsmwnW iv`c, nw hI swgrW dIAWfUMiGAweIAW iv`c Aqy nw hI phwVW dIAW gu&wvW iv`c, ies sMswr iv`cikDry vI koeI AjyhI QW nhIN, ij`Qy rih ky jIv sur`iKAq hox jW SWqic`q ho ky rih skx, jW mOq qoN bc skx[

aus ny qW ieh vI ikhw sI ik AsIN Awpxy Awp iv`c kuJ vI nhINhW, AsIN Awp vI Awpxy nhIN hW[ swfw Awpxw kuJ vI nhIN hY[ ies leIcMgw iehI hY ik AsIN Awpxy Awp ƒ, Awpxy Awpy ƒ Bul jweIey, AsINaunHW vsqUAW ƒ vI Bul jweIey, ijnHW ƒ AwpxIAW smJdy hW[ AsIN ijsdy hW swrw kuJ aus au~pr hI C`f dyeIey[

aus ƒ nIlkMq dy hor kQn vI Xwd Awey[ aus ny ikhw sI, mOq aunHWvwsqy mukqI hY, ijnHW ƒ AwzwdI vI irhw nhIN krvw skdI[ aunHW vwsqyvYd hY ijMnW ƒ duAweI vI rwzI nhI kr skdI, aunHW vwsqy Awrwm hY,ijMnW ƒ vkq vI Drvws nhIN dyNdw[ ies leI mOq Aqy muh`bq do KMB hn,ijhVy cMgy bMidAW ƒ bihSq v`l iljWdy hn[

aus ny Awpxy mn iv`c JwqI mwrI, aus dw qW hmySw hI ie`ko hI KMBirhw hY, muh`bq vwlw KMB ikDr igAw? Aqy hux vI aus ƒ ie`ko hI KMBnwl aufxw pYxw hY[ nIlkMq ny ikhw sI, mOq AijhI cwbI hY, ijhVIAnMqqw dy mihl dw drvwzw KoHldI hY[ ies leI ho skdw hY ik AwmivSvws vWg auh vI aunHW AwpixAW iv`c jw rly ijhVy aus qoN pihlWEQy jw cu`ky hn[ ijvyN kihMdy hn ik kuJ dysW iv`c iksy dy mrn qoN bwAdlok kihMdy hn, quhwfw p`uqr jW bwp AwpixAW kol, aunHW dy dys phuMc

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igAw hY, aunHW ƒ aus dI bVI BwrI loV sI[aus ƒ muV nIlkMq dy Sbd Xwd Awey, ‘ieh g`l mwieny nhIN r`KdI

ik mnu~K mirAw ikvyN? mwieny qW ieh g`l r`KdI hY, jIivAw ikvyN? iesleI mOq bwry ûS hovo ikauNik ieh ie`k scweI hY, koeI burweI mOq qoN pihlWAqy ies qoN bwAd cMgy mnu`K nwl nhIN vwpr skdI[’

ieh socW socidAW, auh auiTAw qy ie`k AlmwrI dy swhmxy jw KVwhoieAw aus ny kuJ dyr AlmwrI v`l vyiKAw qy iPr iek purwxI ijhI fwierIk`FI qy vwk lYx vWg A`D iv`ckwroN Kohl ky pVHn l`g ipAw[

‘bMdy ƒ bulMd rihxw cwhIdw hY[’‘hYN ! ieh aus ny kdoN iliKAw sI ? Swied A`j qoN kuJ swl pihlW[’aus ny auh fwierI leI Aqy Awrwm kursI au~pr bYT ky pVHn l`g ipAw[

nIlkMq dy Sbd sn, kuJ lok swrI aumr hI dùKI rihMdy hn[ aunHW ƒ dunIAWdu`KW dw Gr l`gdI hY, jykr ieh dunIAW dùKW dw Gr hI hY qW auh iesƒ iqAwg ikauN nhIN dyNdy? auh ies nwl cMbVy hoey ikauN ny? auh ies ƒiqAwgdy vI nhIN, ikauNik auh ies ƒ iqAwgx qoN frdy hn[

jd mnu`K ies qRws qoN mukq ho jWdw hY qW auh Awpxy puMnW pwpW, du`KWsùKW dI rwKI Awp kr skdw hY[ jykr swƒ du`K mihsUs huMdy hn qW iehvI swfy Awpxy smwj dI hI pYdwvwr hn, ikauNik du`K Aqy pwp smwijkivroDqweIAW Aqy swmwijk irSiqAW dy moh dI pYdwvwr hn[ jy smwj bMdyƒ surìKAw dyNdw hY qW auh aus ƒ nwl dI nwl bMDnW iv`c vI bMHn ky r`KdwhY[ iPr jd mnu`K ieh bMDn qoVn dI koiSS krdw hY qW aus ƒ szw imldIhY, srIrk szw du`KW dI mW hY, ijhl mnu`K ƒ smwj nwloN qoV ky dùK dyNdIhY[ ijhl iv`c ijsm hI nhIN sgoN Awqmw vI kYd ho jWdI hY[ Awqmw dIkYd s`B qoN v`D du`KdweI huMdI hY[

nIlkMq ny ikhw sI, ‘kbIly Aqy smwj dy iesy bMDn iv`coN hI bwAdiv`c ie`k zwlm hukmrwn dw jnm hoieAw[ zwlm hukmrwn ny kdI vIivA`kqI dI hoNd ƒ jnm nhIN lYx idqw, iesy Bwvnw ny hI keI bhuqswrIAW SKsIAqW ƒ kqL kIqw, jyhlW iv`c fìkAw jW ivrwgmeI bxwky jMglW phwVW v`l qoirAw jW pwZlKwinAW iv`c bMd krvw id`qw[sMvydnSIl Aqy Awzwd bMdy dw ies smwj iv`c koeI QW nhIN hY, smwjAwzwd ivA`kqI dI hoNd ƒ brdwSq nhIN kr skdw, auh hr vyly iesg`l bwry sucyq rihMdw hY ik iksy iv`c vI nvIN soc dI krUMbl nw Pùt pvy,jd vI iksy AMdr nvIN soc dI koeI krUMbl Pu`tx l`gdI hY qW smwj dwswm, dwm, dMf dw hiQAwr AwpxIAW nSqrW qyz kr lYNdw hY[’

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aus ƒ fwierI pVHidAW ieMJ lìgAw, ijvyN auh vI smwj iv`coN BgOVwho igAw hovy[ BwvyN auh jMgl iv`c nhIN sI igAw sgoN bMidAw dy iesjMgl iv`c vI iek`lw hY, aus ƒ vI ijvyN ieQy kYd kr id`qw igAw hY[ieMJ l`g irhw hY, ijvyN aus dI mwniskqw ƒ koeI hor clw irhw hovy[

iesy leI auh hux ieQoN jwxw cwhuMdw hY[ pr Awpxy Awp jwxw qWAwqm-hìqAw hY[ Awqm-hìqAw ƒ smwj dy kwiedy kwƒn Anuswrkwierqw mMinAw igAw hY, BwvyN drSn Aqy kivqw nwl ies ƒ sjwAky nYiqkqw dy v`Kry ArQ dy id`qy gey hn, ies ƒ jIvn dy aucy AwdrSWnwl joV id`qw igAw hY, ieQy ieh mnu`K dI iezq mwx Aqy hauN dw kwrjinBwauNdI hY[ aus ny fwierI dw Aglw vrkw auQìlAw qW A`gy nIlkMqdw kQn iliKAw sI, ‘Awpxy a~ucy ArQW iv`c Awqm hìqAw iek horAwdrS dI vI zwmnI BrdI hY[ keI vwr jd mhwn lyKk dI isrjxwqimkSkqI ^qm ho jWdI hY jW aunHW iv`c KVoq Aw jWdI hY qW auh Awpxy Awpƒ izMdgI iv`c byloVy mihsUs krn l`g jWdy hn qW aunHW dI mwniskqwinrijMd mihsUs krn l`gdI hY[ jd aunHW dI Awqmk rvwnI dw inkwsbMd ho jWdw hY qW aunHW dy A`gy Biv`K dI PzUlIAq qoN ibnW kuJ vI nhINrih jWdw qW aunHW leI ie`ko ie`k rwh Awqm-hìqAw dw hI bcdw hY[ iehpVHidAW aus ƒ mhwn lyKk hYimMgvy dI Xwd AweI, ijs ny bu`Fw qy smuMdr,vrgI mhwn rcnw sMswr ƒ id`qI sI ijs dw &ls&w hr hwlq iv`c izMdgInwl jUJx dw sI pr jdoN Awp ies sMswr qoN inrwS hoieAw qW Awqm-hìqAw kr leI[ kI ies dw ArQ ieh hoieAw ik lyKk jo &ls&w lokWƒ dy rhy hn, auh Awp aus au~pr Aml nhIN krdy jykr krdy huMdy qWhYimMgvy Awp Awqm-hìqAw nw krdw[ sgoN aus bu`Fy vWg izMdgI nwljUJdw ijs dI aus ny Awp ie`k pwqr dy qOr qy bu`Fy Aqy smuMdr iv`c auswrIkIqI sI[’

pr auh hYNimMgvy, vwngwg jW vrjInIAW vul& vI qW nhIN sI[ auhqW bhuq hI swDwrn pirvwr dw AxgOilAw ijhw bMdw, bhuq swry lokWqoN Awsry Bwldw in`kIAW in`kIAW AwsW aumIdW au~pr ijaUNdw, PV PVwky guzwrw krdw, hoxIAW dy AMg sMg ijauNdw AwieAw sI[ aus dI mOq ƒaunHW mhwn ivA`kqIAW nwl ikvyN joiVAw jw skdw hY? auh qW b`s iekidn A`j jW k`l cup cwp qur jwvygw ! hux b`s ieko hI kMm bwkI rihigAw hY, mn mrzI dI mOq cuxn vwlw !

pVHdw pVHdw auh auiTAw bwhr pMCI cihk rhy sn[ aus ny vyiKAw,aus dy Gr dI burjI nwl cVHI hoeI ieSk pycy dI vyl iv`c ie`k Gu`gIAW

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dw joVw Ajy vI sihimAw bYTw sI[ aunHW iv`coN ie`k GùgI Awpxy AWifAWau~pr bYTI hoeI sI Aqy aus dw swQI jW swQx nwl dI twhxI au~pr aUNGirhw/rhI sI, aus ƒ ieh vyK ky izMdgI bwry bhuq kuJ Xwd AwieAw, iehpMCI vI kwhdy leI AWfy idMdy hn? Awpxy bìcAW ƒ kwhdy leI cogwcugwauNdy hn? jd ik KMB inklidAW hI aunHW ny ies Awhlxy iv`coN aufjwxw hY[ iPr ho skdw hY ienHW bìcAw ƒ ieh mW bwp Xwd hI nhIN rihxy,ikauN ieh Awpxy AWifAW ^wqr qy Awpxy bìcAw ^wqr dUjy jwnvrW nwllVdy lhU luhwn huMdy rihMdy hn[

ieho ijhIAW socW socdw auh AwpxI bZIcI iv`c A`gy inkl igAw,swhmxy ie`k bhuq hI ÛbsUrq Pu`l dI klI Pu`t rhI sI, sUrj dIAW ikrnWauhdy au~pr pYx hI vwlIAW sn, rwq dI qRyl Ajy vI &ùlW Aqy p`qIAWau~pr fLHkW mwr rhI sI[ aus ny soicAw ik ies klI au~pr huxy hI sUrjdIAW ikrnW pYxgIAW Aqy ieh Acwnk muskrwA pvygI, A`KW KolyHgI AqykuJ GMitAW leI ies dunIAW ƒ vyKygI Aqy iPr ieQoN cu`pcwp qur jwvygI,pr AsIN hW ik eyfy v`fy v`fy dwAvy krky bYT jWdy hW[ aus ƒ porSIAwdw kQn muV Xwd AwieAw, ‘ieh jo Pu`l quhwfy h`Q iv`c hY k`lH hI jnimAWsI A`j quhwfy hwx dw hY[’

aus ny pwxI vwlI tUtI ƒ nwLI lgweI Aqy PùlW ƒ pwxI dyx l`gipAw, jdoN auh aus pOdy ƒ pwxI dy irhw sI, ijs dy bwry aus ƒ mwlI nydìsAw sI ik ieh pOdw swl iv`c kuJ ieMc hI vDdw hY, qW auh ieh socky hYrwn hoieAw ik aus ny ieh pOdw Awpxy hI Gr iv`c ikauN lgwieAwhY[ ijs ny myrI izMdgI iv`c kuJ ieMc hI vDxw sI ? aus ny vyiKAw ikie`k hor pOdw ijs dw nwm nwgPxI sI, aus v`l PMnH PlweI vyKI jw irhwsI[

aus ny aus pOdy ƒ pwxI dyxw bMd kr id`qw, nwLI prHW vgwh mwrIAqy Gr dy ipCvwVy v`l clw igAw[

Gr dy ipCvwVy ie`k v`fw swrw AxGVq ijhw tybl ipAw hoieAwsI, ijs au~pr hor bhuq swry swmwn dy nwl hiQAwrW dI ie`k sMdUkVI ijhIpeI sI[ aus ny auh sMdUkVI Kohl leI,aus iv`c bhuq swry sMd pey hoeysn[ Acwnk aus dw iDAwn ie`k ktr au~pr ipAw[

aus ny ktr dI Dwr au~pr auNgl Pyr ky vyiKAw, Dwr bhuq hI qyzsI[ aus ny AwpxI klmy vwlI auNgl ktr dy mUMh iv`c dy id`qI[ iPr ausdw id`l kIqw ik auh pUry zor nwl k`tr ƒ n`p dyvy Aqy auNglI ƒ k`tdyvy Aqy iPr vwrI vwrI swrIAW auNglW nwl ieMJ hI kry Aqy iPr Awpxw

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KUn nwl ilbiVAw tuMf sUrj dy swhmxy krky khy, hux d`s ? qYQoN ie`kbotI vI nw BuMnI geI[ pr auh ieMJ nw kr sikAw, aus ƒ mihsUs hoieAwik auh Sms nhIN[ Sms qbryz dI hoxI bwry Xwd kridAW aus ƒ iÂwlAwieAw ik ikhVy sn auh lok? ijhVy ieho ijhy phuMcy Aqy mhwn bMidAWƒ kql krky, aunHW dI K`l luhw ky AwpxI soc dy hwx dw krn dI koiSSkrdy sn[ aunHW dI c`mVI luhw ky Sihr dy lokW ƒ p`Qr mwrn dw hukmdyNdy sn[ p`QrW dI qW koeI pIV hI nhIN sI, pIV qW aus Pu`l dI hI hoeIsI[ ijhVw aus dy ijgrI Xwr ny rwjy dy hukm nwl mwirAw sI, Sms dwksUr qW eynw hI sI ik aus ny ‘Anh`l h`k’ dw nwArw mwirAw sI, XwnIr`b myry AMdr hI hY[ iPr kI ieh swrw kuJ r`b dy hukm nwl hI huMdw mMnIeyN?

Pu`lW bwry Xwd AwauNidAw hI auh Gr vwlI bZIcI iv`c Aw igAwsI, ZulwcIn dw bUtw bZYr pìqAW qoN ruMf muMf hoieAw ipAw sI[ ieMJ l`girhw sI ijvyN aus dIAW twhxIAW au~pr au~Ty mnu`KI h`Q hox jo iksy pwsoNkoeI pnwh mMg rhy hox[ ieho gulwcIn dw bUtw hI sI ijs dy Pu`l auh b`bUleI lY ky jWdw irhw sI[ pqw nhIN ikauN aus ƒ b`bU dy nwl nwl iesgulwcIn dy bUty au~pr vI bhuq swrw gu`sw Aw igAw sI[ aus ny gulwcIndI ie`k twhxI ƒ ktr dy mUMh iv`c dy id`qw, QoVHI dyr kuJ soicAw Aqyzor dI ktr ƒ n`p id`qw, gulwcIn dI twhxI kV`k krky DrqI au~pr Awxif`gI sI, aus ƒ mxW mUMhIN skUn hoieAw qy iPr ie`k hor twhxI qy iPrie`k hor, dUroN hI ksqUrI lwl B`jw Aw irhw sI[ ‘swihb jI ! ieh kI krIjw rhy ho ? ies iv`cwry dw kI ksUr hY ?’ aus ny gùsy nwl ksqUrI ƒ iJVkid`qw sI, ksqUrI hYrwn hoieAw aus v`l vyKdw irhw[ aus ƒ ieMJ mihsUshoieAw, ijvyN aus ny bhuq hI v`fw mwhrkw mwr ilAw sI, aus ƒ bhuqswrw mwnisk Awrwm AwieAw ijvyN aus ny A`j izMdgI nwloN swry nwqy qoVley hox, ijvyN jwx leI aus dy swry rwh sw& ho gey hox, ijvyN hux ausƒ rokx vwlw koeI vI nw rih igAw hovy, nw koeI Xwr, nw koeI Awpxw,nw koeI vsqU ijs nwl aus dI koeI Xwd juVI sI[ bVy Awrwm nwl auhvwps Awpxy kmry iv`c prq AwieAw sI, aus ny Awpxw auh purwxw ijhwtrMk cuìkAw Aqy Awpxy bY~f au~pr ilAw rìKAw, iPr auh aus dI PRolwPRwlI krn l`gw, pqw nhIN aus ny kI soicAw sI ik aus trMk iv`coN kIinkl Awvygw? pr aus iv`coN inkilAw kuJ vI nWh[

auh AYvyN hI aus jMgwl KwDy trMk iv`c h`Q mwrdw irhw[ pqw nhINauh kI l`B irhw sI[

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AiDAwie 12AiDAwie 12AiDAwie 12AiDAwie 12AiDAwie 12Agly idn aus ƒ swrw kuJ sohxw sohxw l`igAw, gvWFIAW dw Bolw

ijhw b`cw auTidAW hI iklkwrIAW mwrn l`gw, aus dy qoqly bol iksyƒ sMboiDq sn[ ijvyN swrI izMdgI huxy hI sON ky au~TI hovy qy iPr aus sUrjFlidAW hI muV nINd dI cwdr hyT sON jwxw hovy, aus ny soicAw ik izMdgIqW idn cVHn qy rwq pYx q`k hI sImq hY, nw hI idn dy cVHn dw koeIArQ hY qy nw hI rwq dy pYx dw, b`s ienHW dohW iv`clw vk&w hI hY swrIizMdgI idn dw cVHnw, XwnI b`cy dw jMmxw Aqy iPr rwq dw pYxw, XwnImOq dI bu`kl iv`c sON jwxw, ies leI jnm qy mOq kuJ vI nhIN b`s dokudrqI vrqwry hn ! izMdgI qW jnm Aqy mOq dy iv`ckwr KVI hY !

Ajy auh ieh s`B kuJ soc hI irhw sI ik rwjn dI kwr aus dy bUhydy swhmxy Awx KVI hoeI, rwjn ƒ pCwxidAW hI aus dy mn AMdr gu`dgudIijhI pYdw ho geI[ rwjn aus dw bcpn dw swQI Aqy jmwqI sI ijs nwlgursu^n aus ƒ C`f ky clI geI sI[ iPr auh pqw nhIN ikDr dI ikDrdunIAW GuMm AwieAw sI, auh izMdgI ƒ mwnx iv`c ivSvws r`Kdw sI[bcpn iv`c vI auh hr qrHW dIAW KyfW Kyfdw irhw sI[ aus ƒ audoN vIl`gdw ik rwjn izMdgI dy hr inXm qoN Awzwd hY, aus dy Gr vwly vIaus ƒ koeI vDIAw muMfw nhIN sn smJdy[ aunHW dy ivcwr iv`c auh iekivgiVAw hoieAw muMfw sI, pr rwjn aunHW nwl bihs krdw ik izMdgIiv`c nw kuJ glq hY Aqy nw hI TIk, nw koeI ivgiVAw hY qy nw koeIsuDirAw[ swrw kuJ qW glq Aqy TIk dy iv`ckwr hI hY[ XwnI ivgwVAqy suDwr dy iv`ckwr hI iv`crdI hY izMdgI[ bcpn iv`c hI aus dw ivhwrAqy dlIlW bVIAW AjIb huMdIAW sn[ auh Awrts kwlj iv`c iek`TyhI pVyH sn, dohW iv`c bVI gUVHI dosqI sI[ iPr dohW dy iv`ckwr gursu^nAwx KVI hoeI sI[

Ajy auh ienHW socW iv`c hI sI ik rwjn ny aus ƒ Awx j`Pw mwirAw,auh aus ƒ DUMhdw Gr dy AMdr lY igAw sI[ rwjn aus dy Gr ƒ vyK kyhYrwn hoieAw, swrw kuJ auvyN dw auvyN hI sI, Gr dy AMdr qy bwhr kuJvI nhIN sI bdilAw, ausy qrHW l`kVIAW qy p`QrW dy auh Awkwr ijhVypwxI, hvw qy hor kudrqI ToHkrW Kw Kw ky klwmeI bxy hoey sn, ausy qrWHQW pur QW pey hoey sn, k`CU dw auh Awkwr ijs ƒ aus ny ie`k P`tI au~pri&`t kIqw hoieAw sI, ijs dI ip`T au~pr do KMB ijhy inkly hoey sn, l`gdwsI ik auh KMB k`CU dI r&qwr dI AvwzwrI qoN aukqweI hoeI prvwz dIsMBwvnw dw hI sMkyq sn[ aus qoN A`gy GoVy Aqy hwQI dw rlvW ijhw Awkwr

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sI, ijs ƒ vyKx qy ieh pRBwv pYNdw sI ijvyN bWdrI ny Awpxy mry hoey b`cyƒ gL nwl lgwieAw hoieAw hovy[ pUrw Gr p`Qr qy l`kVI dy kudrqI bu`qWdw Ajwieb Gr bixAw ipAw sI[

ie`k kursI auNJ hI ausy QW peI hoeI sI, ijs ƒ aus ny jwx qoN pihlWauQy peI ƒ vyiKAw sI, ijs au~pr ie`k vwr aus dy nwl Awx ky b`bU bYTIsI, A`j q`k nw aus ny aus ƒ ihlwieAw jwpdw sI, Aqy nw hI aus nykdI iksy ƒ aus au~pr bYTx idqw l`gdw sI[ ik`lI au~pr kwlI kmIzvI ausy qrHW tMgI hoeI sI, ijhVI aus ny aus ƒ imlx vyly pweI hoeI sI[rwjn ny ie`ko nzr nwl hI ijvyN swry Gr dw AYksry lY ilAw sI[ hW pyNitMgvwlI gYlrI iv`c kuJ purwxy ’qy kuJ nvyN ic`qr zrUr l`gy hoey sn, ie`kADUrI pyNitMg vI eIzl au~pr tMgI hoeI sI[

QoVHI dyr rwjn lwbI iv`c bYT ky bwQ rUm iv`c nhwaux clw igAwqy aus dI soc dI lVI iPr rwjn dy bcpn nwl jw juVI, rwjn ausy hIipMf dw sI, ij`Qy auh bcpn iv`c jgIrdwr kol rih ky pilAw sI AqypiVHAw sI, rwjn aus dw guAWFI vI sI Aqy auh iek`Ty hI skUl jWdysn[ rwjn dw ipau hWg kWg dI pulIs iv`c sI Aqy AwzwdI qoN kuJ dyrpihlW, auh AwpxI Gr vwlI ƒ vI auDr hI lY igAw sI[ jdoN dyS AwzwdhoieAw qW ikvyN nw ikvyN, auh pirvwr pMjwb phuMc igAw sI, kuJ mhInybwAd hI rwjn dw jnm hoieAw, gorw inSoh rMg, sunihrI vwL Aqyib`lIAW A`KW nwl auh AMgRyz hox dw BulyKw pwauNdw sI[ ijauN ijauN auhv`fw hoieAw qW b`cy aus ƒ AMgRyz-b`cw kih ky icVwauNdy sn[ aus dy nwlrwjn dI bcpn iv`c hI gihrI dosqI pY geI sI[

auh dovyN iek`Ty pVHdy qy iek`Ty hI iemiqhwn dI iqAwrI krdy, jdoNdsvIN dy pyprW iv`coN rwjn bwkI swry pricAW iv`coN cMgy nMbr lYky pwsho igAw[ pr pMjwbI iv`coN hI &yl ho igAw qW auh rwjn ƒ icVwauNdw ikclo AMgRyzW ƒ ikhVI pMjwbI AwauNdI hY[ aus dy bwkI BYx BrwvW dw rMgrUp qy muhWdrw rwjn qoN iblkul hI v`Krw sI[ jd ik bwkI swry dysI l`gdysn pr rwjn hI vlYqI jwpdw sI, auh Awzwd qbIA`q dw muMfw sI, swieMsAqy hor tYknIkl kMmW iv`c aus dI idlcspI sI[ aus ƒ iSkwr Kyfxdw vI bVw SOk sI[ auh dysI kqUirAW dy gL iv`c r`sIAW bMnH ky ipMf dIAWJwVIAW iv`c hI iSkwr krn clw jWdw sI[ iSkwr vyly jy koeI ig`dVjW sihAw inkl pYNdw qW dysI kuqy hI aunHW dy mgr taUN-taUN krdy dOVdypr iSkwr ivhMidAW ivhMidAW hI A`KW qoN auhly ho jWdw Aqy dysI k`uqypUCW ihlwauNdy aunHW kol Aw jWdy[ aunHW dy iSSkwrn qy iPr Aglw iSkwr

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l`Bx l`g jWdy[A`j vI rwjn dw nhwauxw kwPI lMbw ho igAw sI, ieho socW socdy

ny auT ky cwh bxweI[ jdoN rwjn nhw ky bwQ rUm iv`coN bwhr AwieAwqW ksqUrI lwl vI Aw igAw[ aus ny rwjn ƒ vyKidAW hI iSAr ikhw :

‘voh kOn sw mukwmy muh`bq hY ? AY bhwr !vuh Aw gey hYN, iPr BI hmyN ieMqzwr hY[’

iSAr kihx qoN bwAd ksqUrI kihx lìgAw, ‘ikQoN Awey ny BweIswihb jI ?’

‘AmrIkw qoN’, aus ny juAwb id`qw[ ‘quhwfy ikvyN vwik& ny ? mYN vIsoicAw sI kdI ho eI AwvW AmrIkw qoN pr ivhl hI nhIN lìgAw[ myrwswihb qW kihMdw sI, c`l myry nwl ieMglYNf, auhdI mym vI bVw zor lwvypr mYN eI nhIN mMinAW, hux qusIN ienHW ƒ AwK ky myrw kwrf bxvw idau[’ksqUrI ie`ko swhy hI keI g`lW kr igAw[

‘Awh lY cwh pI qy jwh’, aus ny ksqUrI ƒ cu`p krwauNidAW ikhw[ksqUrI C`q v`l vyKdw cu`p ho igAw qy cwh pI ky rMbI PV bUitAW

ƒ gofI krn clw igAw[QoVHI dyr auh ieDr auDr dIAW g`lW mwrdy rhy, aus ny rwjn ƒ gursu^n

bwry pu`Cxw cwihAw pr pqw nhIN kI kuJ soc ky auh cu`p hI irhw, ausny pùiCAw ik auh kdoN Aqy ikvyN bwhr igAw sI?

qYƒ pqw hI ey, jdoN ieMglYNf dy vrk prim`t Ku`lHy sn, mYN vI AplweIkr idqw sI[ aunHW ny Swied myrIAW ib`lIAW A`KW krky hI myrw prim`tmnzUr kr ilAw qy AwpW jw ieMglYNf phuMcy[ ijs kmry iv`c AsIN iqMncwr pMjwbI rihMdy sI[ aus dy au~prly ih`sy iv`c bwrbrw rihMdI sI[ bwrbrwpihlI nzry hI mYƒ cMgI cMgI l`gx l`g peI sI[

AsIN jdoN vI prwauNTy pkwauNdy qW bwrbrw dw n`k Prkx l`g jWdwsI[ auh Awpxy Coty ijhy kqUry nwl swfy v`l AwauNdI Aqy prwauNTy KwxdI izd krdI, iSMdw qy bldyv ijhVy myry qoN pihlW dy auQy rih rhy snqy aus ƒ cMgI qrHW jwxdy sn, aus nwl mwVIAW motIAW CyVKwnIAW krdyrihMdy sn pr auh vI A`goN bVy TokvyN juAwb dyNdI[

bldyv keI vwr kihMdw ik bVI CMfwr jnwnI hY, pYrW qy pwxI nhINpYx dyNdI, swfy coN iksy dy kwbU nhIN AwauNdI, Aw ky prwauNTy Kw jWdI hY[AsIN jdoN vI mIt Drdy hW, ieh aus dI ûSbU suMG ky hI Aw jWdI hY[ swfwbixAW mIt Kw ky swlI auNglW c`txoN hI nhIN h`tdI[ keI vwr kihMdIhY, ‘myrI ie`k shylI hY, mYN aus ƒ dìsAw hoieAw hY ik qusIN mIt bVw tystI

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bxwauNdy ho, auh kihx l`gI, mYƒ vI aunHW kol lY ky jwh, mYN aus ƒ quhwfwbxwieAw mIt KuAwaux dw vwiedw kIqw hoieAw hY[’ iSMdw kihx lìgAwik pihlW swƒ auhƒ imlw iPr mIt KuAwvWgy[

kihx l`gI, ‘imlw dyvWgI[’iSMdw kihx lìgAw, ‘eydW nhIN EdW !’ qW swlI BVk hI peI, ‘no

no SI iez mYrIf !’‘qYƒ pqw jdoN ieh swlIAW gorIAW iksy nwl ivAwh krvw lYNdIAW

ny iPr nhIN hor iksy mrd v`l vyKdIAW[ pihlW BwvyN auh ijMny mrzI hMFwcu`kIAW hox[’

bwAd iv`c pqw lìgAw ik bwrbrw dw vI Awpxy Gr vwly nwl qlwksMbMDI muk`dmw c`ldw hY[

iPr jdoN mYƒ ie`k kwr^wny iv`c jwb iml geI qW bwrbrw ny vI myryiv`c idlcspI lYxI SurU kr id`qI[

ijs kwr^wny iv`c mYƒ jw`b imlI, auhdy iv`c skUl jwx vwly bìcAWdy Kwxy iljwx vwly it&n bxdy sn[

aunHW ny mYƒ ie`k mSIn dy id`qI, ie`k pwisauN auh f`by bx bx ky Awrhy sn[ dUjy pwisauN aunHW dy F`kx bx ky swfy kol jmHW hoeI jWdy sn[swfw kMm aunHW fìbAW dy mUMh au~pr F`kx i&`t krn dw sI[ fìbAW dy mUMhqy F`kxW dy mUMh ie`k brwbr huMdy sn, ies leI F`kx bVI muSkl nwlhI i&`t huMdy[ jykr F`kx zor lgw ky i&`t krIey qW f`by dy mUMh au~pr v`tpY jWdy sn[ Acwnk mYƒ ie`k qrkIb su`JI ik jy F`kx dy mMUh ƒ QoVHw ijhwgrm kr leIey qW F`kx f`by au~pr bVw sOKw hI cVH skdw hY[ pr grmkrn vwlw kMm sOKw nhIN sI[ prHW ie`k mSIn iv`coN hI ie`k pwisauN grmpwxI inkldw sI, mYN auQoN ie`k bwltI grm pwxI dI Br ilAwieAw AqykuJ F`kx grm pwxI iv`c r`K ley, kuJ dyr bwAd mYN auh grm grm F`kxfìbAW qy i&`t kIqy qW mYN hYrwn hoieAw, ie`k qW auh F`kx bVI CyqI fìbAWau~pr cVH gey qy dUjw aunHW fìbAW dy mUMhW qy v`t vI nw pey[ myry vwlImSIn qy AwauNdy fìbAW dw kMm mYN jldI hI mukwA ilAw Aqy ivhlwho igAw, mYƒ aus mSIn qy kMm krn dy ijMny pONf imldy sn, mYN soicAwik jy mYN ie`k mSIn hor lY lvW qW pONf dùgxy imlxgy[ mYN jw ky vrkmYnyjr ƒ bynqI kIqI ik mYƒ ie`k mSIn hor id`qI jwvy, ikauNik mYN pihlImSIn qy Awpxw kMm jldI kr lYNdw hW[ mYnyjr ieh sux ky bVw ̂ uS hoieAwpr nwl hI aus ny dUjI mSIn dy kMm dy pONf G`t dyx dI AwpxI mjbUrId`sI[ myrw kIh sI, mYN qW aus vkq ivhlw hI huMdw sI, nwly AwpW pMjwbIAW

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ƒ f`ibAW qy F`kx cVHwauxw ikMnw ku AOKw hY? pOfW dI AwpW ƒ loV sI[mYN hW kr id`qI, hux mYN dohW mSInW qy kMm SurU kr id`qw, F`kx grm

pwxI iv`c hor r`Kxy SurU kr id`qy, auh hor vI CyqI cVHn l`g pey[aunHW dIAW g`lW c`l hI rhIAW sn ik sUrj Fl igAw Aqy bwhr

QoVHw QoVHw hnyrw psr igAw, aus ny ksqUrI ƒ Awvwz mwrI qy aus ƒ slwdvZYrw, k`tx leI ikhw[ ksqUrI ny rMbI prW BvW ky mwrI qy nwl hI ikhw,lau jI ! golI ikhdI qy gihxy kIhdy? ikauN srdwr jI !’

ksqUrI slwd k`tx l`g ipAw qy rwjn ny Awpxw iviKAwn iPr jwrIkr id`qw [

‘kuJ idnW bwAd mYN iPr swihb kol igAw qy ie`k hor mSIn leI bynqIkIqI qW swihb ny bVIAW S`kI nzrW nwl mYƒ vyiKAw pr eynw hI ikhw :‘E.ky. isMG, AweI iv`l AryNj AYnAdr mcIn Pwr XU[’

aus ny mYƒ qIjI mSIn vI dy id`qI[ hux mYN PurqI nwl iqMny mSInWsMBwldw[ bwkI swry vrkr myry qy hYrwn sn ik mYN ikvyN eynI jldI jldIf`ibAW dy F`kx i&`t krI jWdw sW[

ieMJ myry vwhvw pONf bxn l`g pey[ myry pONfW dI ckwcOND ny ijQy bldyvqy iSMdy ƒ hYrwn kIqw, auQy bwrbrw qW cuMiDAw hI geI[ AsIN SwmW iek`Tyibqwaux l`gy qy Cu`tI vwly idn kdI cInI, kdI pMjwbIAW dy hotlW iv`cifnr krn l`gy[ pqI nwloN aus dw hux qlwk ho cu`kw sI qy auh ie`k qrHWnwl ivhlI ho geI sI, ieDr mYƒ hirAw p`qw cwhIdw sI, mYN auhdy qyhor ^rcw krn l`g ipAw Aqy hOlI hOlI aus dy nyVy huMdw igAw[

ksqUrI ny slwd vZYrw k`t ky qy glws Aqy sofw vI r`K id`qw[‘hux d`s ikhVI pIxI AW ?’ aus ny rwjn ƒ puiCAw[‘pIx bwry qW qUM hI d`s, mYN qyry leI ie`k m`Gw lY ky hI AwieAw hW’,

eynw kih auh auiTAw qy AtYcI iv`coN hYNfl vwlI ie`k v`fI boql k`FilAwieAw[

dohW ny QoVHI QoVHI pweI pr nwl hI aus ny ikhw : Xwr qMU AwpxI rwmkhwxI jwrI r`K[’

mYƒ iqMn mSInW qy kMm kridAW Ajy kuJ idn hI hoey sn ik iekidn vrk mYnyjr myry kMm kridAW dy isr au~pr hI Awx Kloqw qy bVyiDAwn nwl mYƒ kMm kridAW vyKx l`gw[ mYN soicAw ik im`qrw A`j qWmwry gey, myrI jw`b qW geI ik geI, ho skdw hY, iksy ny myrI iSkwieqkr id`qI hovy ik mYN ie`k kwlw ieMfIAn ie`ko vyly iqMn mSInW clw irhwhW jdik bwkI kwly gory ie`ko mSIn nwl hI GuLdy rihMdy sn[ auh msW

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hI pihly f`by mukwauNdy ik au~proN hor Aw jWdy, jdoN ik mYN iqMnW mSInW dyf`by vI i&`t krky ivhlw ho jWdw sW[

swihb kuJ dyr auQy Kloqw irhw qy aus ny mYƒ kuJ nw AwiKAw AqyAwpxy d&qr v`l clw igAw[

QoVHI dyr bwAd ie`k gorw mYƒ Awx ky kihx lìgAw, ‘swihb ny qYƒd&qr iv`c bulwieAw hY[’

myrI KwinauN hI geI, mYN soicAw ik hux jw`b geI, mYN frdw mwrw ausdy d&qr v`l igAw[ jd mYN AMdr igAw qW swihb ny KVy hoky myry nwlh`Q imlwieAw qy ûS ho ky mYƒ kursI qy bYTx dw ieSwrw kIqw[

jdoN mYN kursI qy bYT igAw qW swihb mYƒ nIJ lw ky vyKx l`gw, ijvyNauh koeI Ajyhw Byd pu`Cxw cwhuMdw hoey ijhVw, mYN d`sx leI iqAwr nwhovW[

auh Acwnk auqsukqw dy lihjy iv`c puCx l`gw, ‘imstr isMG fUXU ifMRk ?’

mYN hYrwn hoky juAwb id`qw, ‘no sr, vYrI ryAr[’AsIN BwvyN hr roz SwmW rMgIn krdy sW, pr aus idn mYN swihb dy

suAwlW qoN fr irhw sW ik jy koeI gVbV ho geI qW iehny mYƒ &wierkr dyxw hY[

pr aus ny skw`c dw ie`k pY~g Awpxy leI bxwieAw qy dUjw myry leI[pY~g mYƒ PVwauNidAW aus ny myry nwl cIArz kIqw qy Awpxy pY~g ƒ is`pkIqw[

ie`k ie`k pY~g pIx qoN bwAd aus ny iPr ie`k ie`k pY~g hor bxwieAwqy aus ny kihxw SurU kIqw, ‘imstr isMG mYN qyry qy bhuq KuS hW, qYƒ pqwhY ikauN ?’

mYN ikhw, ‘nhIN sr, mYƒ nhIN pqw ik qusIN myry qy ikauN ûS ho[’‘dyKo jo it`&n qusIN i&`t kIqy hn, bwzwr iv`c aunHW dI kuAwiltI ey-vMn

pweI geI hY[ swfw bwkI dw swrw mwl hI bI klws dw hY[ F`kx i&`t krnlìgAW swfy fìbAW dy mUMh qy vL pY jWdw sI pr qyry v`loN i&`t kIqy fìbAWiv`c ieh nuks nhIN sI, kI qusIN swƒ ieh d`s skdy ho ik ieh swrw kuJikvyN hoieAw ?’

‘ieh sux ky mYƒ hYrwnI vI hoeI qy ûSI vI, pr auh rwz d`sx dy ie`vziv`c mYN vI kuJ lYxw cwhuMdw sI !’

mYN ikhw : ‘swihb, jy ieh rwz mYN quhwƒ d`s dyvW qW mYƒ kI ienwmimlygw ?’

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aus ny imlwaux leI h`Q myry v`l vDwieAw qy ikhw : ‘jo Awp cwhyNpr mYN A`j qoN quhwƒ swrIAW hI mSInW dw suprvweIzr bxwauNdw hW[ quhwƒkoeI vI kMm krn dI loV nhIN, qn^wh vI quhwfI A`j qoN du`gxI[ b`squsIN swƒ auh rwz d`s idau[’ swihb dI g`l sux ky mYN g`dg`d ho igAw[

mYN ikhw, ‘TIk hY sr, hux mYN quhwƒ auh rwz d`s hI dyNdw hW ik F`kxi&`t krn vyly kI krnw cwhIdw hY[’

aus ny ikhw, ‘d`so[’mYN ikhw, ‘sr quhwƒ pqw hI hY ik grmI nwl cIzW PYldIAW hn[’auh kihx l`igAw, ‘TIk hY ieh qW swieMs dw AsUl hI hY[’mYN ikhw, ‘ies leI jy qusIN F`kx ƒ QoVHw ijhw grm krky f`by dy mUMh

au~pr cwVHo qW aunHW ƒ v`t nhIN pYxgy[’auh ieh sux ky bhuq hI ^uS hoieAw, aus ny auT ky mYƒ j`PI pweI

qy mYƒ mSInW v`l iljw ky swirAW dy swhmxy myrI suprvweIzrI dw AYlwnkr id`qw[

jdoN ieh g`l mYN Aw ky bwrbrw ƒ d`sI qW auh mYƒ, ‘E mweI fwrilMg !’kihMdI hoeI cMbV hI geI[ iPr AsIN pqI pqnI vWg hI bwrbrw dyApwrtmYNt iv`c rihx l`g pey[ iSMdw qy bldyv mYƒ guJIAW cotW krn,‘swilAw, kI mMqr mwirAw eI, swƒ do-do swl ho gey hn, tRweI mwridAWswlI iksy qx p`qx hI nhIN AweI[’

mYN Aqy bwrbrw kuJ dyr auQy rhy[ vwhvw pYsy kmwey qy iPr AcwnkmyrI qy bwrbrw dI iksy g`loN Axbx ho geI, Asl iv`c gorIAW iehcwhuMdIAW ny ik jo kmweIey ausy idn hI Kw pI ky ivhly hoeIey[ kuJ idnqW mYN ieMJ krdw irhw, iPr mYN soicAw : mnw myrw qW nhIN guzwrw hoxw,ieh qW swlI auNJ hI mYƒ c`t jwaU, nwly ijvyN ik qYƒ pqw hI hY mYN irSiqAWdy bhuqy Bwvuk c`kr iv`c nhIN pYNdw, bhuqI dyr mYN iksy irSqy ƒ inBw vInhIN skdw[ qYƒ Xwd hovygw ik gursu^n nwl vI mYN bhuqI dyr nhIN sIrih sikAw[ AsIN kuJ idn mOj mylw kIqw Aqy iPr qUM kOx qy mYN kOx[auNJ vI qYƒ pqY ik mYN irSiqAW iv`c bhuqI dyr b`Jx dw AwdI nhIN[

aus dw idl kIqw ik auh aus ƒ pu`Cy, aus qoN bwAd gursu^n dw kIbixAw? iPr auh kuJ soc ky cu`p hI irhw[ mnw ijs ipMf nhIN jwxw, ausdw rwh kI pu`Cxw[ pr iPr vI aus ƒ gursu^n nwl Awpxw lgwau XwdAw igAw Aqy auh pqw nhIN ikhVIAW ikhVIAW vwdIAW iv`c jwphuMicAw[

jd auh hoS iv`c AwieAw qW rwjn bol irhw sI, ‘mYN Awpxy ie`k dosq

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nwl AmrIkw ivc g`l kIqI, auhny hwmI BrI qy mYN AmrIkw ƒ aufwrImwr igAw, pihlW pihl qW AmrIkw iv`c myrw idl hI nw l`gy[ auQy vIdysI bMdy bVw SrIkw krdy ny, swly bhuqy qW AnpVH hI gey hn auQy, iPrjw ky swry AnpVH Gr vwly bulw ley hn[ aunHW ƒ kuJ pqw nhIN ieMfIAwjW pMjwb dIAW prMprwvW bwry jW ies dy gOrvmeI ieiqhws bwry[ RpV%J} w[rv cjvi hg ds,ls[ hV m diLa[ Vja[@ dfbji@ qph,Wa Rpo[ cjviJ h[nV,Df[ uJs[ hV m aP. q[ij hg hjv r[t v{!!!

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qW pqw hI nhIN l`gdw kI kuJ ilKI jWdI hW, kdI mUf iks qrWH dw huMdwhY qy kdI iks qrWH dw, l`gdw hY ik ienswn kdI vI mYicaur nhIN huMdw[iPr socdI hW ik mYicaur ho ky lYxw vI kI hY?

‘AYvyN sIrIAsnY~s Aw jWdI hY, hux qW mYƒ ieMJ l`gdw hY ik swry irSqyhI Bu`l gey hn, qusIN eynW kuJ ilK ilK ky myry au~pr jwdU kr id`qw hY[quhwfw pY~n hI mYN iksy idn Koh lYxw hY, iPr mYN vI aus pY~n nwl quhwƒilK ky vyKWgI, hux q`k ijMnIAW vI lYtrz qusIN mYƒ ilKIAW hn, aunHWiv`c s`B qoN cMgI g`l mYƒ ieh l`gI hY ik qusIN mYƒ qMU ilKdy ho, koeI horqMU, mYƒ ieho ijhI qMU nhIN sI l`gI pr ieh qMU isDI myry idl iv`c jw kyv`jdI hY Aqy aus dI Cwp imtwieAW vI kdI nhIN imtdI[ ijvyN koeIApx`q nwl CwqI nwl hI lgw irhw hovy[ ipClI vwr jdoN mYN quhwfy SihrAweI sW qW mYN soicAw ik quhwfy nwl kuJ g`lW krWgI, ieh vI soicAwiksy pwsy vl iek`ly qur pvWgy qy rsqy iv`c mYN Awpxy idl dI g`l quhwfynwl krWgI[ pr iJjkdy qusIN vI bhuq ho ! iPr mYN soicAw ik qur qW pYxgypr qurngy ieMJ ijvyN pihly idn b`cw skUl jWdw hY[ auh qurdw ivcwrwA`gy ƒ hY pr mn aus ƒ ipCWh iK`cI r`Kdw hY[

‘hux qW ieMJ l`gdw hY ik BwvyN mYN huxy hI mr jwvW, mYƒ koeI ZmnhIN hovygw, hux mYN izMdgI qoN pUrI qrWH sMquSt hW, jykr koeI Zm bwkIrih igAw hY qW kyvl ieh ik Ajy q`k mYN quhwƒ BrpUrqw nwl iml nhINskI[ ies dw kwrn kyvl ieh hI ho skdw hY ik mYN quhwfy koloN eynI dUrbYTI hW ik sUrj vI ivcwrw eynW s&r qih krky dovW QwvW qy cwnx nhINkr skdw[ idloN mYN quhwfy eynW nyVy hW ik ies iv`c dUrIAW kuJ vI nhINkr skdIAW[

‘quhwfw eynw v`fw iliKAw pVH rhI hW qy nwl dI nwl hYrwn vI hoeIjw rhIN hW ik ikQoN ilAwauNdy ho qusIN eynW kuJ ilKx leI ! SbdW dy ijvyNdirAw vih pey hox[ myry mn dI ie`k in`kI ijhI hI ^wihS sI ik qusINmyrI ic`TI dy juAwb iv`c qW ic`TI ilK hI dyNdy ho ! pr kwS kdI ie`k A`DIic`TI vwDU hI ilK dyvo, in`kI jyhI hI ! myrI ieh KwihS sI[ pr ieh swrwsunyhw quhƒ ikvyN phuMc igAw? hYrwn hW, hux qusIN myrI soc dI iK`c dwAMdwzw lgw hI ilAw hovygw ik mYN ikvyN qy ikMnI iS`dq nwl quhwfy bwryhr vkq socdI rihMdI hW, pr ies v`fI swrI fwierI qoN ieh vI pqw l`gigAw hY ik quhwfy rsIvr vI bVy pwvrPu`l hn[ ijhnW ny myrI aus Bwvnwƒ, aus kwmnw ƒ, aus Bwvkqw ƒ, aus ipAwr ƒ, aus muh`bq ƒ, pkVwky quhwfy qoN eyfw v`fw kuJ ilKvw id`qw ik s`cmu`c ieh qW ie`k pUrw nwvl

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hI bx igAw hY[ pihlW qW ieh ^wihS sI ik qusIN mYƒ hor bhuq swrwilKo pr ies ƒ p`VH ky qW ieMJ l`g irhw hY, ijvyN mYƒ ie`k sO Cy ifgrIdw bu^wr c`VH igAw hovy Aqy nwl hI ijvyN swry h`Q pYr TMfy ho gey hox[kI mrn mwrn dw ierwdw qW nhIN ikqy !’

aus ny Ajy auh ic`TI A`DI vI nhIN sI pVHI ik aus dy qurn dw vylwho igAw[ auh Awpxy aus bMfl iv`coN hor vI bhuq kuJ pVHnw cwhuMdw sIpr aus ƒ mihsUs hoieAw, ijvyN auh bhuq hI lyt ho igAw hovy[ A`D-mryijhy mn nwl auh au~iTAw, aus ƒ ieMJ lìgAw ijvyN aus dw rox hI inklxvwlw hovy[ aus ny soicAw ik aus dI izMdgI dw kI dw kI bx igAw sI;aus ny qW soicAw sI ijvyN ieh swrw kuJ ieMJ hI c`ldw rihxw hovy prsmW aus ƒ ieMJ DoKw dy igAw sI, ijvyN h`QW iv`coN pwxI dI koeI Dwr inklgeI hovy[ bhuq kuJ Xwd AwieAw sI aus ƒ qy auh socx lìgAw ik auhhornW lokW vrgw ikauN nhIN sI, ijhVy izMdgI Agy kohlU dy bYl vWgc`ldy rihMdy hn[ auh ikauN nhIN sI bx sikAw, izMdgI dw pwlqU ijhwkoeI jIv ! ikauN aus ny izMdgI ƒ Awpxy ihswb nwl clwaux dI koiSSkIqI sI, kI c`l skI sI aus dI izMdgI aus dy ihswb nwl ! Awpxy kolAweIAW im`TIAW im`TIAW ndIAW iv`coN auh iek ƒ vI Awpxy kol KilHAwrnhIN sI sikAw[ auh qur geIAW sn, pqw nhIN ikhVy ikhVy dirAwvWjW mwrUQlW v`l qy auh ijvyN hux vI iksy b`dlI dI aufIk bixAw hoieAwsI[

auh socx lìgAw ik ikQy hovygI auh hux? jo eynIAW ipAwrIAWipAwrIAW ic`TIAW il`KdI sI, jo swrI aumr nwl swQ inBwaux dy vwAdykrdI sI ? kI ieho hI XQwrQ hY? kI ies ƒ hI iksmq kihMdy hn jWieh auho hI swrw kuJ hY, ijs ƒ sMswr kihMdy hn jW ieho hI izMdgI hY?ijs iv`c iksmq Swiml hY[ auh vI idn sn jdoN aunHW ƒ l`gdw sI ikauh ie`k dUjy leI hI bxy hn qy iPr swrw kuJ bdl ikvyN igAw? ausƒ kuJ vI smJ nhIN sI Aw rhI[ aus ƒ ievyN AnuBv hoieAw, ijvyN swryienswn ie`ko ijhy hI hox qy &rk kyvl aunHW nwl quhwfy imlwp iv`clykox dw jW idRStIkox dw hI hovy[

auh roNdU ijhy mn nwl au~iTAw qy Awpxy ilKy hoey ƒ sMBwldw hoieAwdirAw vl ƒ qur ipAw qW ik sUrj iCpx qoN pihlW pihlW aus ƒ dirAwburd kr dyvy, jo aus ny iliKAw sI[ hW, A`j aus ny pihlI vwr auh pVHIAWhoeIAW ic`TIAW vI nwl lY leIAw sn, ijhVIAW aus ny pqw nhIN ikhVIAws iv`c hux q`k sWB ky r`KIAW hoeIAW sn[ dirAw vl jWidAW A`j

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aus dy mn ƒ ijvyN hOl ijhy pY rhy sn ,A`j aus dy mn ƒ l`g irhw sI,ijvyN auh Awpxy iksy bhuq hI ipAwry ƒ dirAw burd krn c`ilAw hovy !AxmMny mn nwl aus ny swrw kuJ dirAw dy hvwly kr id`qw[ aus dIAWA`KW nMm ho geIAW Aqy auh Bwry Bwry kdm pu`tdw fUMGI rwq geI ƒ vwipsprq AwieAw[

AiDAwie 14AiDAwie 14AiDAwie 14AiDAwie 14AiDAwie 14ksqUrI Awpxy mMjy au~pr GUk su`qw ipAw sI[ auh bZYr koeI hor hrkq

kIiqAW, cu`pcwp Awpxy mMjy au~pr jw ky lyt igAw pr aus ƒ cYn nhINsI Aw irhw, aus dw id`l pIV nwl t`s t`s krdw sI[ idmwZ ijvyN P`txqy Aw igAw hovy !

aus ny kuJ soicAw Aqy auh iPr auT KVw hoieAw[ mnw! aus dI koeIhor ic`TI nw k`F ky pVHW? k`l dw idn qW bhuq hI dUr l`g irhw hY[ ausdIAW ic`TIAW pVHidAW ieMJ l`gdw hY, ijvyN auh aus dy nwl nwl hI ivcrrhI hovy[ A`j dI rwq qW aus dy nwl guzwr hI lvW, ieh soc ky auh ie`khor icTI k`F ky pVHn l`g ipAw[

AglI ic`TI iv`c aus ny iliKAw sI : ‘hux qW sMboDn krn ƒ l&zvI nhIN l`B rhy[ ijhVy hn aunHW qoN fr vI bVw l`g irhw hY, ikDry koeIhor hI nw pVH lvy[ qusIN ijhVI pRym khwxI jW nwvl bwry myry iv`cwr pu`Cyhn, auhdy bwry ieh hY ik pihlI g`l qW ieh hY ik auh khwxI ilKxvwly dy Awpxy jIvn nwl hI ieh khwxI sMbMiDq l`gdI hY ies qoN ibnweynw vDIAw iliKAw hI nhIN jw skdw, dUsrw kuVI ny khwxI iv`c ikvyNd`isAw ik auh khwxI pVH ky ienI pRBwiv`q hoeI ik lgwqwr iqMn idnqy iqMn rwqW sON hI nw skI[ auh ikvyN kihMdI hY ik myry mn dw myry qndw koeI ih`sw aus vloN AxCoihAw nhIN bicAw, ilKx vwLw jy ilKxdy bdly AwpxI mMg d`sy qW aus kuVI dy au~pr ie`k v`fw Aihswn hovygw[

‘auh kuVI ikvyN d`sdI hY ik auh swrI aumr jW swrI izMdgI ikvyN JUTylokW qoN bcI rhI? ieh ijvyN Awm AwdmI dI izMdgI iv`c vI s`B nwlvwprdw hY, jdoN vI iksy ny aus dy kol jwx dI koiSS kIqI qW aus ƒkoeI s`cw ilKx vwlw hI nhIN l`Bw? Blw aus ƒ koeI s`cw ipAwr krnvwlw cwhIdw sI jW ik s`cw ilKx vwlw[ ies g`l dI smJ mYƒ iblkulhI nhIN AweI[ aus kuVI ny aus ƒ ipAwr krnw sI ik aus dIAW rcnwvWdw vpwr krnw sI ?

‘pihlI ic`TI qW mYN ieh quhwfw iliKAw nwvl XwnI fwierI pVHdI

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ny hI hlkU hlkU iv`c A`D suqI qy A`D jwgdI ny hI ilK id`qI qy postvI kr id`qI pr hux l`gdw hY, quhwfI auh fwierI pVH ky swrw swihqhI smJ Aw igAw hY ik swihq kyvl SbdW dw jwdU hI nhIN sgoN iehqW mihsUs krn dw jzbw hY[

‘aus kuVI ƒ sUrj bxw ky auh Awp pqw nhIN ikDr clw igAw hY?ilKxw nhIN AwauNdw, jo bwr bwr auh kihMdI rihMdI hY, auh aus g`l ƒsmJdw ikauN nhIN ? dUijAW ƒ ikMnW kuJ smJw dyNdw hY pr Awp eynWAnjwx ikauN bxdw hY? auh Awps iv`c ilKx dI g`l nhIN sI krdI,ikqwbW ilKx dI g`l nhIN sI krdI[ SISy swhmxy KVw krdI hW, swrwidn iPr BwvyN kuJ p`ly pvy[ auh aus ƒ isr& suhxw suhxw ilKxw cwhuMdI hY[

‘hux qW kdI fwierI dw Asr kdI imhnq dw Asr, b`s Asr hIAsr jy koeI ksr pihlW rih geI hovygI qy auh vI pUrI ho geI[ jwdUgrIhovy qy Asr nw hovy ieh ikvyN ho skdw hY ?

‘aus ny iliKAw hY ik hux auh jIauNdy jI ikqy jw nhIN skdw[ iehvI TIk hI hY, auh AwpxI cIz ƒ sMBwlxw cMgI qrHW jwxdI hY[

‘aus dI ^UbsUrqI qy h`QW pYrW dIAW qwrI&W qW lok vI krdy sn, jykrhux qusIN vI kihMdy ho qW mMn lYNdy hW pr hY hux ieh quhwfI hI Amwnq,BwvyN cMgy, BwvyN mwVy ! aus fwierI ny qW ijvyN mYƒ pwgl hI kr id`qw hY[jdoN dI auh imlI hY, l`gdw hY ik aus ny mYƒ ies dunIAW iv`c hI nhINrihx id`qw[ pqw hI nhIN l`g irhw ik ikhVI dunIAW iv`c qurI iPr rhIhW? hux l`gdw hY ik klwkwr bVy ^rwb huMdy hn cMgy Bly ienswn ƒ aujwVky r`K dyNdy hn[

‘myry mn iv`c ilKx dI tylYNt dI kdr qW bcpn qoN hI sI[ b`s qusINAwpxI ies tylYNt nwl myrIAW BwvnwvW ƒ ijauNidAW kr id`qw hY[ swrIaumr dI quhwfI ieh imhnq ie`k bhwnw hI bxI, hor koeI eyfw v`fw bhwnwikQoN lY ky AwauNdw ?’

ic`TI ƒ A`D pVHI hI C`f ky auh iPr ie`k vwr mMjy au~pr Awx lyitAwqy socx l`igAw ik aus dIAW ic`TIAW dI bhuqwq ny ij`Qy aus dy AMdrlyipAwr dy jzby ƒ aujwgr kIqw; auQy aus ƒ ies g`l dw iehsws vI hoieAwik auh Awpxy ipAwr dy s&r iv`c eynw hOlI hOlI ikauN qurdw irhw sI?auh aus ƒ guMm suMm ipAwr hI ikauN kr irhw sI[ jd ik aus dI hr ic`TIiv`c ieho hI g`l bwr bwr huMdI sI ik Aw^r auh Awpxy idl dI g`l Kohlky ikauN nhIN krdw, pr auh hr vwr socdw rihMdw ik auh ikhVI SkqIsI jo aus ƒ Awpxy ipAwr dw iezhwr krn qoN rokdI sI? ies bwry ivcwr

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krn qoN bwAd auh keI iksm dy nqIijAW qy phuMicAw sI, s`B qoN v`fIg`l qW ieh sI, auh nhIN sI cwhMudw ik lok aunHW ƒ iekìTAW iPrdy vyKlYx qy iPr aunHW dy nwvW au~pr ielzwm Drn[ dUjI g`l ieh sI ik jdoNauh iek`Ty sn qW aus smyN Ajy eynI nyVqw vI nhIN sI Aw skI ik swrwkuJ qih krky imlx dw pRogrwm Aijhw bxwieAw jw sky ik auh EQy imlxij~Qy aunHW ƒ koeI vI nw vyK sky[ auh qW aus ƒ bVI iS`dq nwl muh`bqkrdw sI[ eynI muh`bq ik l`gdw sI ik ies iv`coN srIr qW mn&I hI hogey hn[

auh hr vwr hI muh`bq iv`coN srIr ƒ mn&I ikauN kr dyNdw sI[ auhsocdw ik ieh nhIN peI koeI quhwfy kol ivSvws nwl AwieAw hY qy qusINqoV idE aus dy ivSvws ƒ qy kho ik Awh vyKo loko myrI mrdwngI[ ausdy ies ivcwr ƒ AglI iDr vI smJdI hY jW nhIN, iehdy bwry kI ikhwjw skdw hY?

aus ny ie`k hor ic`TI k`FI, ieh vI ausy Bwvnw nwl hI il`KI hoeIsI ‘mYN Ajy q`k auh fwierI pUrI nhIN pVH skI, ikauNik A`Dw ku pVH kymYN iemoSnl ho jWdI hW qy bhuq kuJ socx l`g pYNdI hW[ myrw idl krdwhY ik hux mYN aus fwierI dy ipCly pMny ijhVy ik ^wlI hn, auh swry Brky ilK ByjW[

‘myrI nINd qW s`cmu`c hI aufpuf geI hY[ fwktr kol geI sI, auhkihMdw sI, sOx qoN pihlW ie`k golI zrUr Kw ilAw kro, nhIN qW nrv`sis`stm bRyk fwaUn ho jwvygw pr aus ƒ kI pqw ik auh qW pihlW hI hoieAwipAw hY[ aus ƒ kI pqw ik mYƒ jwgxw ikauN cMgw l`gdw hY[ jwg ky mYNhr vyly quhwfy bwry socdI rihMdI hW, quhwƒ imlx dIAW qrkIbW bxwauNdIrihMdI hW, aunHW swry QWvW auqy GuMmdI rihMdI hW, ij`Qy ij`Qy jwx bwry qusINAwpxI ies fwierI iv`c iliKAw hoieAw hY[ ipCly idnW iv`c jwgdI rhIhW qW mYN dyiKAw ik ikvyN hr GMty bwAd kdI iqMny eyky Aw jWdy hn qykdI iqMny hI dUey qy iPr iqMn qIey[ ieh vkq mYƒ dunIAW dw s`B qoN sohxwvkq lìgAw sI, jdoN swry hmiÂwl jW ieko ijhIAW kImqW vwly AMkiek`Ty ho gey hox[ bwkI qW swry byjoV hI l`gdy hn[’

aus ny vI Acwnk ies g`l qoN pRBwivq ho ky Awpxy vwl klwk vlnzr mwrI qW auh vyK ky hYrwn ho igAw ies vkq pUry iqMn pWjy iek`Tyhoey pey sn XwnI pMj v`j ky pcvMjw imMt[ auh iPr auiTAw qy tihlxl`g ipAw[ ieh socdw ik keI vwr Awi^r ienswn ƒ ho kI jWdw hY?

auh ieh soc ky vI hYrwn hoieAw ik A`j qW nOvyN mhIny dI nON qrIk

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hY ieMJ A`j vI ies sdI dy cwr nweyN iek`Ty hoey pey sn[ ikMnW ieq&wksI ieh ik A`j jdoN auh keI swlW bwAd ieh ic`TI pVH irhw sI qW A`jvI ies sdI dw bVw mh`qv pUrn idn sI, XwnI au~nI sO niVnvyN dy nOvyNmhIny dI nON qrIk pr aus ƒ qW swrI aumr hI ieko ijhIAW kImqW vwlyirSqy nhIN sn imly kuJ aus qoN bhuq kImqI sn qy kuJ aus qoN bhuq hIsv`ly[ auh socx lìgAw ik kI aus ny ieh ic`TI dubwrw A`j hI pVHnIsI qy auh vI Aw^rI vwr?

bhuq kuJ huMdw hY jo ienswn dI izMdgI iv`c ieq&wkn vwpr jWdwhY[ ieh mOkw-myl hI huMdy hn, ijhVy bMdy leI bVy mh`qvpUrn huMdy hn[

aus ny aus bMfl iv`c iPr h`Q mwirAw, bhuq swrIAW ic`TIAW ausny iek`TIAW hI k`F leIAW, ijs iv`c aus dI ausqq iv`c ilKy auh p`qrvI sn, ijhVy aunHW sMsQwvW v`loN ilKy gey sn, ij`Qy ij`Qy aus ny swihqjW klw bwry BwSn id`qy sn[

aus ny Awpxw ie`k purwxw ijhw rijstr kìFAw, ijs dy pihly pMnyau~pr iliKAw sI, bMdw QwvW nwl nhIN, iksy dI aufIk iv`c hI b`Jw bYTwrihMdw hY[

aus ny Aglw pMnw kìFAw qW auh pVH ky hYrwn hoieAw, auh vI swrIaumr ikho ijhIAW bcgwnW g`lW krdw irhw sI, ie`k vwr auh XUnIvristIdI lwiebRyrI iv`c ieh soc ky igAw sI ik EQy bYT ky kuJ vDIAw iliKAwjw sky pr auh EQy vI iekwgr nhIN sI ho sikAw[ Awpxy kwZz pwsyr`K ky auh ieDr auDr vyKx l`gw ik Acwnk aus ny aus myz au~pr JwqImwrI ijs au~pr auh bYTw hoieAw sI, aus au~pr bhuq kuJ iliKAw hoieAwsI, ijhVw aus ƒ bVw idlcsp l`gw, ividAwrQIAW ny Awpxy AwpxykumYNt ilKy hoey sn[ aus ny auh kuJ kumYNt not kr ley :

ie`k QW iliKAw sI, vyitMg Pwr XU, E mweI svIt hwrt !hm Awp ky hYN kOx ? hyTW iliKAw hoieAw sI !BweI swihb !sImw + syKoN + ipMkI + ig`nI AweI lv XU[ aus dy hyT iksy ny ilK id`qw

sI[iksy hor leI vI rihx dy ie`k A`DI[ bwjvwiksy ny A`gy bwjvw + bwjvw krky = gMdw ilK idqw sI[ A`gy hor

kuJ iliKAw hoieAw sI[ aus qoN A`gy hrdIp AweI lv XU[ iksy ny ausdy A`gy kOx? ilK ky? suAwlIAw inSwn pw idqw sI iPr A`gy nIqU mYN qYƒipAwr krdw hW[ hyT iksy ilK idqw sI, pwgl !

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ie`k hor QW bljIq vY~fj birMdr iliKAw hoieAw sI[ hyTW iksy nyilK id`qw sI, mYN srbwlw bxWgw !

lvlI! hwey AsIN hux kI krIey? A`gy iksy ny ilK id`qw sI :iemiqhwn dI iqAwrI kro !idl quJy dIAw Qw r`Kny ky lIeyqMU ny idl ko jlw kr r`K dIAw[hyT iliKAw sI, AxgihlI ho geI[auh ienHW swrIAW g`lW ƒ not krdw irhw sI[ iPr aus ny soicAw ik

auh kI krI jw irhw hY, ieh soc ky aus ny ieh swrw kuJ bMd kr idqwsI[

auh pqw nhIN iks iÂwl nwl auiTAw qy Awpxy ipCly kmry iv`cclw igAw auh ikMnI dyr Awpxy kmry dI Polw-&wlI krdw irhw iPr ausny ÛbsUrq kwZzW dw ie`k d`Qw ilAw Aqy AwpxI ilKx vwlI cOkI Aqyq`pVI, ijs au~pr bYT ky auh ilKdw huMdw sI, lY ky Gwh au~pr jw bYTw,A`j auh AwpxI izMdgI dw auh AiDAwie ilK jwxw cwhuMdw sI, ijs dIXwd aus dy mn AMdr hr vyly bxI rihMdI sI[

jd auh q`pVI ivCw ky bYT igAw qW aus ny vyiKAw ik ksqUrI sbzIAWƒ vwhodwhI gofI krI jw irhw sI[ ieh bMdw ikMnw DrqI nwl juiVAw hoieAwhY[ ies ƒ hor iksy cIz dI prvwh hI nhIN[ ikMnw suKI hY ieh[ bMdy ƒbhuqw pqw hoxw vI aus dy dùKW ƒ vDwauNdw hY[ ksqUrI lwl msq sI AqyAwpxy iSAr guxguxw irhw sI[ aus ny aus ƒ cyqwvnI dyNidAW ikhw,‘pMfqw ! ieh gofI krky jw ky bwzwr iv`coN ie`k cuMJ PV ilAwvIN, mYN kMmkrn l`gW myry nyVy bhuqw rOLw nhIN pwauxw, cuMJ qoN aus dw Bwv murZwsI, aus ny bhuq swrIAW cIzW dy Awpxy hI ieho ijhy nwm r`Ky hoey sn[

aus dI g`l sux ky, pMfq ny dUroN hI iSAr ikhw :‘nwzk ibAwnIAW myrI, qoVy AzU kw idl,mYN voh blw hUM, SIsy sy p`Qr ko qoV dUM[cMgw swihb jI ijvyN quhwfw hukm ku`kV ikMnw ku v`fw ilAwvW? Aqy

dukwndwr ƒ auh g`l vI kihxI hY, ijhVI qusIN kihMdy huMdy ho, ‘dyh peIkoeI mrnwau ijhw murZw ijhVw pihlW hI mrn vwlw hovy, qw ik bhuqwpwp vI nw l`gy [’

‘mYN qYƒ cu`p rihx leI ikhw hY qy qUM g`l ƒ hor eI vDweI jWdw hYN[’aus ny pMfq ƒ cu`p krwauNidAw ikhw[

ksqUrI dy jwx qoN bwAd aus ny AMqr iDAwn ho ky ilKxw SurU kIqw[

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swrI idhwVI auh ilKdw irhw[

AiDAwie 15AiDAwie 15AiDAwie 15AiDAwie 15AiDAwie 15ksqUrI ƒ aus ny kuJ idn pihlW iJVk id`qw sI[ auh keI idn

AwieAw vI nw pr aus qoN rih vI nhIN sI huMdw, auh jwvy qy ikDr jwvy ?auh aus ƒ iJVkxw vI nhIN sI cwhuMdw pr aus ny mihsUs kIqw ik ksqUrIhux loV qoN v`D bolx l`g ipAw hY[ hux pqw nhIN ikauN auh loV qoN v`Dboldw sI jo aus ƒ BYVw l`gdw sI[ hux auh v`D qoN v`D gMBIr hoxw cwhuMdwsI[

Ajy eydW soc hI irhw sI ik ksqUrI Aw igAw[ ksqUrI ƒ vyKidAWhI aus ƒ gùsw cVH igAw, pqw nhIN aus dw gu`sw ieh sI ik ieh ikvyNAw igAY ? jW auh eyny idn AwieAw ikauN nhIN ? ikauNik ksqUrI jdoNvI AwauNdw, aus ƒ ieMJ l`gdw, ijvyN auh iPr izMdgI nwl juV igAY hY[auh hux izMdgI nwl juVnw nhIN sI cwhuMdw[

ksqUrI ny aus ƒ pùiCAw, ‘A`j rwq ƒ kI Kwaugy swihb jI! kI qoVky ilAwvW, iBMfIAW XwnI ik lyfI i&Mgr jW kuJ hor pr swihb jI, iBMfIAWdw nwm ijhny lyfI i&Mgr rìKAw hovygw hoxw qW bVw idmwgI bMdw hY !AKy lyfI i&Mgr[ sr jI, so&I hwlq iv`c qW ienHW ƒ Kwx dw ic`q vInhIN krdw hoxw ?’

auh boilAw nhIN, kyvl ksqUrI lwl v`l vyKdw hI irhw, ksqUrI lwlGbrwA igAw, aus ƒ smJ nhIN sI l`g rhI ik auh hux kI khy, ausny Awpxy suBw Anuswr hI iSAr ikhw:

khwxI myrI, rUh drdy jhW mwlUm hoqI hY,jo sunqw hY, aus kI hI dwsqwn mwlUm hoqI hY[muh`bq myN qyrI rwqoN myN Aksr AwhyN Brqw hMUmgr myrI muh`bq rwie nwmwlUm hoqI hY[‘ksqUrI bhuqw bolx dI loV nhIN qy hW A`j rwq ƒ jo mrzI hY bxw

lvIN, mYN jldI hI vwps Aw jwvWgw[’‘sr jI, qusIN hr roz ies vyly ikDr ƒ inkl jWdy ho? kdI swƒ vI

d`s Cfo jW swƒ nwl hI leI jwau ijDr qusIN jWdy ho? AsIN bwhr jwkyiksy ƒ kih skIey :

quJ sy imlI nzr qo, mihsUs Xyh hUAw,ApnI AwrzU sy, mulwkwq ho geI[

auNj Bw jI bhuqw &rk nhIN jy huMdw iesy leI kihMdy hn :

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‘nzr myN jo smw jwey,qbIAq ijs py Aw jwey,vohI A`Cy sy A`Cw hoqw hY,vohI ibhqr sy ibhqr hoqw hY[’

QoVHI dyr cu`p rih ky ksqUrI kihx l`igAw, ‘iek idn mYN iek pwrkiv`c clw igAw[ swihb jI! auQy bVIAW sohxIAW sohxIAW kuVIAW qy muMfybYTy hoey sn[ mYN ie`k kuVI qy muMfy kol igAw[ mYN aunHW ƒ AwiKAw : swihbjI ! ‘qusIN hr roz ieQy AwauNdy ho, jy kho qW mYN vI Aw jwieAw krW ?’

auh kihMdy, ‘bwbw qYƒ ikMnHy roikAw hY ?’mYN AwiKAw, ‘swihb jI ! roikAw qy iksy ny nhIN mYN bu`Fw bMdw hW[ quhwfI

joVI mYƒ bVI cMgI l`gdI hY, jy do GVIAW qusIN mYƒ vyK lYx idAw kroqW bVI imhrbwnI hovygI quhwfI[ auh myrI ieh g`l sux ky bVy h`sy, swihbjI! jy mYN ieQy quhwfy kol nw AwvW qW vI myrw bcwA nhIN huMdw[ s`cI g`lieh jy ik auh kuVI s`cmu`c hI mYƒ pwrbqI vrgI l`gdI hY, mYN auhƒ vyKky ie`k vwr iPr ijaUNidAW iv`c ho jWdw hW Aqy dUjI g`l ieh jy quhwfykoloN mYƒ ies dunIAW bwry, ieQoN dy DoiKAW DMidAW bwry, ies dI nwSvwnqwbwry bVw pqw l`gdw jy !

‘kI ikhw, swihb jI ! ieh TIk nhIN ? qusIN qW mYƒ phuMcy hoey bMdy l`gdyho, ies dunIAW qoN v`Kry[

‘jwnw Qw khW[ phuMcy hYN khW?Apny Btky kdmoN ko mMzl kw pqw nhIN[’

‘pr swihb jI AwSkW dIAw nON inSwnIAw huMdIAW ny Aqy Awpxy Awpivc vI, AKy pIlw rMg, TMfIAW AwhW, is`lHIAW A`KW, Bu`K mr jwxI, G`tbolxw qy nINd nw AwauxI[ ikauN jI ?’ ieh sux ky myrw kyvl muskrwieAwsI[ ksqUrI dw hOslw vD igAw qy boilAw[

‘AY ipsr rMg zrd,Awh srdw, cSm qr,km ^urdnI, kmgu&qnI, nINdy shr,ieMqzwrI, bykrwrI, drdy sr[

ieh inSwnIAW qW mYƒ quhwfy ivc nzr AwauNdIAW ny[‘&kIrW dIAW vI cwr iksmW huMdIAW jy :

ie`k &kIrI lyK dI,ie`k &kIrI ByK dI,

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ie`k ip`Cy BON BON vyKdIie`k g`doN vWgU lytdI[’

‘qUM hux Awpxw igAwn bMd vI kryNgw ik nhIN ?’ aus ny Awpxy mUfAnuswr ksqUrI ƒ ikhw[ ‘jykr qMU myry kol Awauxw hMudw qW cu`p krky bYiTAwkr jW bUitAW ƒ pwxI pwieAw kr jW sbzIAW ƒ gofI kirAw kr !suixAW ! nhIN qy mYN qyrw ieQy Awauxw hI bMd kr dyxw hY[’

ksqUrI h`Q joV ky kihx l`gw, ‘cMgw swihb jI, mYN Awpxy id`l dIAWg`lW iks ƒ suxwvW? hW swihb jI! qusIN A`j vot pwaux nhIN jwxw? swrwmulK votW pwaux l`gw hoieAw ey[ kùl bu`FI muMfw jwx fhy hoey ny votW pwaux,XnI ik ijvyN kihMdy huMdy Aw hIr eI kmlI hoeI iPrdI Aw[’

‘nhIN beI ksqUrI mYƒ hux iksy vI cIz au~pr ivSvws nhIN irhw,nw ies dyS au~pr, nw ies dyS dy lIfrW au~pr qy nw hI ies dyS dy bMidAWau~pr nw ies dyS dIAw AOrqW au~pr[’

‘hYN jI ! AOrqW au~pr vI nhIN? mYƒ qW Ajy vI pwrbqI au~pr ivSvwshY jI[’

‘ivSvws vSvUS kuJ nhIN huMdw pMfqw ! s`B mn dy Brm hI ny[’‘iPr qy qusIN ho gey v`fy i&lws&r, swihb jI :

Zm kI AMDyrI rwq my,idl ko nw bykrwr kr,subhw zrUr AweygIsubhw kw ieMqzwr kr[

ksqUrI ny A`goN Awpxy iSAr ƒ Fwl bxwieAw[ ‘ksqUrI jy qMU huxmyry kol AwieAw qW mYN qyrw sdw leI ieQy Awauxw bMd kr idAWgw[’

‘cMgw swihb jI ! kihMidAw ksqUrI ny rMbI PVI qy ikAwrIAW vl clwigAw qy auh iPr socW iv`c vih igAw[ bcpn qoN hI hoS sMBwlx qoN bwAdaus ny mihsUs kIqw sI ik aus ƒ lokW dI BIV, joV myly Aqy hor iqauhwrbhuq hI psMd sn[ myilAW Aqy lokW dI BIV iv`c aus ƒ bhuq hI ûSImihsUs huMdI sI, aus ƒ ieMJ l`gdw ijvyN BIV iv`c auh Awpxy Awp ƒbVw surìKAq mihsUs krdw sI[ auh jd vI iek`lw ho jWdw, aus ƒ smJnw l`gdI ik auh kI kry ? aus ƒ ie`k qrHW nwl BY ijhw Awauxw SurU hojWdw sI[ iek`lw qW auh hr vyly firAw firAw Aqy BYBIq ijhw hI rihMdwsI[ iPr auh dOVdw, dosqW im`qrW dIAW mih&lW iv`c[ bhuq dyr auh BIViv`c rilAw rihMdw, aus ny kdI vI Awpxy Awp dy snmu`K hox dI koiSSnhIN sI kIqI, nw hI aus ny kdI Awpxy Awp dI Koj krn dI koiSS hI

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kIqI sI[ auh kIh hY ? aus ƒ kuJ pqw nhIN sI, auh qW Awpxy Awp ƒauho kuJ hI smJx l`g igAw sI jo kuJ lok aus ƒ smJdy sn jW lokWny jo kuJ aus ƒ bxw id`qw sI[ gursu^n dI Cuh nwl auh Awpxy Awp iv`cAwauxw SurU ho igAw sI, aus ny mihsUs kIqw ik ieh auh qW nhIN, jo kuJlok aus ƒ smJ rhy hn[ auh vI Awpxy Awp dI Koj kr skdw hY, AwpxyAwp ƒ pCwx skdw hY[ AwpxI hoNd Aqy hoxI ƒ jwx skdw hY[ loV kyvllokW dI BIV qoN v`K hox dI hY[ ieMJ jd aus ny Awpxy Awp iv`c AwauxwSurU kIqw qW aus ny mihsUs kIqw ik aus dy swhmxy qW pUrw ie`k sMswrKuilHAw ipAw hY Aqy aus dy AMdr vI ie`k pUrw bihRmMf vìsAw ipAw hY[auh vI Awpxy mn dIAW tIsIAW au~pr bYT ky ies sMswr dIAW rMgInIAWƒ inhwr skdw hY[ auh vI Awpxy mn dIAW ndIAW dy kMFy bYT ky ÛbsUrqgIitAW nwl Kyf skdw hY jW Awpxy Awp iv`c guMm-guAwc skdw hY jWAwpxy Awp ƒ Awpxy Awp iv`coN Bwl skdw hY[ iesy krky hI auh ienHWdosqW dIAW BIVW Aqy myilAW qoN iblkul hI Awzwd ho igAw sI[ huxauh Awpxy Awp iv`c eynw guMm guAwc igAw sI ik hux aus ƒ ksqUrIvI AwpxI izMdgI iv`c byloVw mihsUs hox l`g ipAw sI[ aus ƒ l`gdwik ksqUrI keI vwr aus dI izMdgI iv`c ̂ ll pwaux l`g ipAw hY[ ikauNikaus ƒ l`gdw ik auh jd vI AnMq dIAW isKrW kol phuMcx vwlw huMdwhY jW jd vI auh Aw^rI pVwA q`k phuMcx vwlw huMdw hY qW ksqUrI Awxky koeI AYsw iSAr bol ky aus ƒ muV DrqI au~pr ilAw sutdw hY[

jd auh AgMmI ûSI dy swgrW iv`c qwrIAW lgwaux dIAW iqAwrIAWiv`c huMdw hY qW ksqUrI rMbI PVI Awx hwizr huMdw hY[ jd izMdgI ausƒ ieh kihx vwlI huMdI hY ik cMnw ! mYN qyrI ho geI hW, qW ksqUrI lyfIi&Mgr dI Awx g`l CyVdw hY[

aus ƒ ksqUrI au~pr gùsw vI AwauNdw Aqy qrs vI, iPr aus ny mihsUskIqw ik jykr ksqUrI vI nw hovy qW aus ƒ DrqI nwl kOx joVy?

bVIAW qrs-BrIAW nzrW nwl aus ny ksqUrI v`l vyiKAw, ijs nyswry ivhVy iv`coN k`Kkwn iek`Ty kr ky aus ƒ A`g lgweI hoeI sI, ijhVIswry kUVy krkt ƒ Awpxy Awp iv`c smweI jw rhI sI[ aus ƒ ieMJ mihsUshoieAw ijvyN ksqUrI ny ie`k vwr iPr swry Gr ƒ pwk piv`qr kr idqwhovy[ aus ny ksqUrI ƒ Awvwz mwrI, ‘pMfq jI! cwh qW bxwE ! cwhpIvIey !’

ksqUrI h`sdw hoieAw rMbI sù`t ky Awpxy J`gy nwl h`Q sw& krdw auhdyv`l AwieAw Aqy nwl hI iSAr boilAw :

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‘Ab qo GbrwA kr kihqy hYN ik mr jweyNgymr kr BI cYn nw pwieAw qo ikDr jweyNgy ?’

‘swihb jI ! ieh Swier vI bVI cIz huMdy hn[’‘ikauN ?’ aus ny ksqUrI dI g`l v`l iDAwn nw dyNidAW hI puìCAw[‘swihb jI, ieh bMdy ƒ aultIAW isDIAW g`lW nwl aulJw dyNdy ny[

bMdw jy ienHW dI ie`k g`l mMn ley qW A`goN hor eI pu`TI g`l auhdy A`gyilAw r`Kxgy[ lY mYN kihMdw hW ik bMdw qW pihlW hI KjUr au~pr tMigAwhuMdw hY, hor qUM Blw iehƒ ikDr Byjxw hY ?’

auh cwh dI Gùt Br ky nIJ lw ky ksqUrI v`l vyKdw hY pr boldwkuJ nhIN[

bhuq dyr dohW pwisAW qoN cu`p CweI rihMdI hY[ksqUrI ies cu`p qoN kuJ GbrwA jWdw hY[ aus ƒ smJ nhIN l`gdI

ik auh kI g`l kry? cwh pI ky auh dovyN k`p cukdw hY Aqy rsoeI iv`cjw ky aunHW ƒ Do ky r`K dyNdw hY Aqy muV aus dy kol Awx KloNdw hY[ dohWh`QW ƒ mLdw auh Awpxw mUMh Kohldw hY, ijs iv`coN aus dw boVw dMd bwhrJwqIAW mwrn l`gdw hY[ iPr auh muskrwauNdw hoieAw kihMdw hY, ‘auNJ sihbjI! Awh Coty Coty pOdy vI in`ky in`ky bìcAW vWg huMdy ny[ mYN jd vI ienHWdI gofI krn l`gdw hW qW mYƒ hr vyly fr hI lìgAw rihMdw hY ik ikDryienHW iv`coN iksy ƒ myrI rMbI hI nw v`j jwvy? swfw ijhVw swihb AmrIkwiv`coN AwieAw sI auh d`sdw huMdw sI ik pOidAW iv`c vI jwn huMdI hY[’

ksqUrI ieh g`l kih ky cu`p ho igAw, auh AwpxI g`l dw aus au~prhoieAw Asr vyKxw cwhuMdw sI !

QoVHI dyr bwAd aus ny ksqUrI qoN puiCAw, ‘ksqUrI auh ijhVw Awpxwdyvdwr dw ru`K huMdw sI, auh ikvyN sùk igAw sI ?’

‘swihb jI ! auh phwVI bUtw sI ieh bUty ieDr nhIN huMdy[’‘pr jy aus ny nw hoxw huMdw qW auh pihlW hI nw huMdw[ auh qW ikMnw

hI v`fw ho igAw sI[’‘hux mYN smJdw hW ik aus ny quhwfw ihr^ kIqw hoxw[’‘ihr^ aus ny kdoN kIqw sI ?’‘ijQoN q`k mYƒ Xwd hY jdoN qusIN bwhr phwVW v`l koeI kors krn gey

sI, ieh audoN hI su`kxw SurU hoieAw sI qusIN bwhr lw vI qW keI dyr AweysI[ mYƒ Xwd hY qusIN pqw nhIN ikMny mhIny lw ky Awey sI[ mYN aus dI bVIdyK Bwl kIqI sI pr auh bc nw sikAw[’

ksqUrI AwpxI rMbI PV prHW ƒ cilAw igAw Aqy auh vI Awpxw

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iFlikAw ijhw XQwrQ leI auiTAw Aqy AMdr v`l ƒ clw igAw[ ikauNikauh jwxdw sI ik auh bUtw ikauN suìkAw sI[ ies bwry auh fUMGI ivcwrkrnw cwhuMdw sI[

AiDAwie 16AiDAwie 16AiDAwie 16AiDAwie 16AiDAwie 16A`j auh jldI hI auT KVw hoieAw Bwvy AYqvwr dw idn hox kwrn

s`B kuJ AlswieAw jWdw hY[ aus dy jldI au~Tx dw kwrn Swied iehsI ik aus ny AwpxI iqAwrI dy Ajy bhuq swry kMm krny sn[ aus ny AjyAwpxw Aw^rI cYptr vI ilKxw sI auh qW ies cYptr ilKx qoN bZYrhI qur jwxw cwhuMdw sI pr auh cwhuMdw sI ik auh swrw kuJ ilK jwvy ijsƒ aus ny Awpxy ipMfy au~pr hMfwieAw sI, jo kuJ aus ny AwpxI izMdgIiv`coN izMdgI bwry smiJAw sI, aus dw lyKw joKw kr jwvy[

aus ny soicAw A`j pqw nhIN ksqUrI eynI dyr qk ikauN su`qw ipAwhY? aus ny pihlW qW aus v`l koeI iDAwn hI nhIN sI id`qw, iPr aus ƒiÂwl AwieAw ik jykr ksqUrI aus ƒ cwh dw k`p bxw dyvy qW auh Awrwmnwl kw&I dyr ilK skdw hY[ ieh socidAW auh ikAwrIAW v`l ho igAwsI, suBHw svyry aus ƒ Awpxy Pu`lW dy rMg bVy So^ Aqy husIn l`g rhy sn[auh Pu`lW dIAW ikAwrIAW iv`c tihldw hoieAw socx l`gw, Blw ies DrqIau~pr aus dw ikMnW ku ihsw Awpxw hY? ies suAwl ny aus ƒ aulJx iv`cpw id`qw sI[ aus ƒ ksqUrI dI imhnq dw vI iÂwl AwieAw, ijhVwhr vyly ies DrqI nwl juiVAw rihMdw sI[ ie`k Pu`l dy nyVy jw ky auhKVw ho igAw Aqy bhuq hI gihr gMBIr ho ky aus ƒ vyKx lìgAw[

bhuq kuJ socdw hoieAw auh ksqUrI dy mMjy v`l muV AwieAw, aus nyA`j bVy ipAwr nwl aus ƒ Awvwz mwrI, ‘pMfq jI ! jwgo ! vyKo ikMnI svyrho geI jy[’

auh aus nwl hor vI mKOl vwlIAw g`lW krky h`sdw irhw[ A`j auhbVy cMgy rON iv`c sI, ies leI auh A`j ksqUrI dy swry igly iSkvy dUrkr dyxw cwhuMdw sI[ iesy leI auh Awpmuhwry hI bolI jw irhw sI[ ausƒ ksqUrI au~pr bVw ipAwr AwieAw[

jd bhuq swrIAW AwvwzW mwrn qoN bwAd vI ksqUrI nhIN auiTAwqW aus ƒ hYrwnI Aqy Gbrwht ho geI, auh Ajy ksqUrI dy mMjy v`l jwhI irhw sI ik kwLw Aw igAw[

aus ny kwLy ƒ ikhw, ‘auTweIN zrw pMfq ƒ[’kwLy ny jd ksqUrI au~proN cwdr cukI qW auh hYrwn ho igAw, ksqUrI

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sdw leI ivdwA lY cukw sI[auh ksqUrI dI mOq au~pr hYrwn sI, auh soc irhw sI ik auh qW Ajy

mrn dIAW iqAwrIAW hI kr irhw sI pr ksqUrI ikvyN sihj Bwv nwlhI izMdgI iv`coN qur igAw hY[

aus ƒ Awpxy ie`k purwxy dosq dw gIq Xwd AwieAw:pr prwr koeI sUrmw, Es SrINh dy kol,h`Q moFy Dr qur igAw, ibn hMJU ibn bol[..aus ƒ l`igAw ieh jo hux cwdr hyT ipAw hY, ieh vI koeI sUrmw sI,

ijs ny izMdgI nwl sMGrS kridAW ij`q hwisl kIqI sI, ijhVw iksydI Xwd Aqy qlwS bixAw DrqI iv`coN kuJ nw kuJ pYdw krn dy Awhriv`c rihMdw sI[

aus ny soicAw A`j dw swrw idn hI ksqUrI dy lyKy l`g jwvygw, iPraus ƒ AwpxI soc au~pr gu`sw vI AwieAw, ijs ny aumr dy bhuq swry swlaus dy lyKy lw id`qy sn[ auh aus leI ie`k idn lgwauxoN vI kqrwA irhwsI, aus ƒ smJ nhIN sI l`g rhI ik auh ksqUrI dw ikRAw-kR`m ikvyN kry?ksqUrI hY qW ie`k swDwrn ienswn hI sI pr ie`k bRhmx hox dy nwqy,aus dy kuJ v`Kry Dwrim`k sMskwr ho skdy sn, ijs bwry aus ny aus nwlkdI koeI g`l hI nhIN sI kIqI[ BwvyN auh Awpxy sMskwrW qoN qW mukqho cu`kw sI pr iPr vI auh ksqUrI dIAw swrIAW Dwrimk rsmW inBwauxwcwhuMdw sI[

aus dw idl kIqw ik auh swry Sihr ƒ iek`Tw kry, ksqUrI dw ib`bwxsjwvy, Sihr dIAW swrIAW sVkW au~pr auh aus dw jnwzw lY ky jwvy AqylokW ƒ khy, ‘vyKo ! Awh ! jw irhw hY, ie`k sUrmw ijs ny izMdgI dI jMgij`qI hY[’

ksqUrI bwry socidAW aus ny mihsUs kIqw ijvyN auh swrI kwienwq,Pu`lW, pOidAW, pMCIAW Aqy DrqI dI hr SYA nwl juiVAw hoieAw sI[ auhaunHW dI sMgq iv`c ie`kim`k, ie`ksur sI, ijvyN auh swry jIv jMqU vI ksqUrInwl ie`k-jwn sn, auh ksqUrI dI BwSw smJdy sn Aqy ksqUrI aunHW dIBwSw smJdw sI[ ksqUrI ijvyN AwpxI AMS dy Awpxy q`q dy nwl nwlijaU irhw sI[

Ajy auh ieh kuJ soc hI irhw sI ik ie`k Gu`gI AwpxI cuMJ iv`c ie`kqIlw PVI aus ru`K dI twhxI au~pr Awx bYTI, ijs hyT ksqUrI dI lwSpeI sI[ aus ny Awpxy Aqy Gu`gI dy Gr bwry soicAw, Swied Gu`gI AwpxwGr bnwaux dw Xqn kr rhI sI[

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Ajy auh ienHW ivcwrW iv`c hI sI ik Gu`gI dy mUMh iv`clI twhxI ksqUrIdI Aih`l lwS au~pr Awx if`gI[ aus ƒ l`gw ijvyN ies Gu`gI ƒ vI ksqUrIdy jwx dw iehsws ho igAw hovy Aqy auh vI aus dy AMqm sMskwr iv`cAwpxw Xogdwn pw rhI hovy[

aus ny kwLy ƒ ikhw ik auh iksy pMfq ƒ bulw ky ilAwvy Aqy nwlygLI muh`ly dy lokW ƒ ksqUrI dy cly jwx bwry d`s Awvy[ kwLy dy jwxqoN bwAd auh ksqUrI dy nyVy hI bYT igAw[

aus ƒ Awpxy rwq vwly supny dI Xwd AweI, kI sI auh supnw? ijvyNauh iksy v`fy swry BWfy iv`coN kuJ ihlweI jw irhw sI, auh cIz aus ƒ kdIrMg-brMgIAW sbzIAW vrgI l`gdI sI Aqy kdI ^UbsUrq Pu`lW vrgI[ ausdy vwho dwhI ihlwaux dy bwvzUd vI ijvyN auh cIz ^rwb huMdI jw rhIhovy[

ies dy nwl nwl hI aus dy kMnW iv`c Awvwz AweI jw rhI sI, ‘qyryvwsqy rotr ByijAw hY, rotr ByijAw hY[’

supny ivc hI Awvwz sux ky auh Awpxw kMm iv`cy C`f bwhr v`l ƒhoieAw, swhmxy aus dy isrnwvyN vwlw ie`k l&w&w ipAw hoieAw sI[ nyVyjw ky vyiKAw qW auh iksy pwrsl vrgw sI[ bwAd iv`c aus dI SkllMgVy AMb vrgy lohy dy ipMjry vrgI ho geI, ijs dI fMfI bVI lMmI sI[

lokW dI BIV aus ƒ kih rhI sI, ieh ausy dy nwm hI hY[ iPr auhlok aus qwrW dy ipMjry ƒ KolHx l`gy, aus ƒ mihsUs hoieAw ijvyN aus ipMjryiv`c Coty Coty jIv hox ijhVy aus dI AxgihlI krky keI idnW qoN Bu`Kyiqhwey ivlk rhy hox[ kuJ lokW ny auh qwrW vwlw ipMjrw KohilAw Aqyaus iv`coN Coty Coty gmly bwhr k`Fy aus ny vyiKAw ik gmilAW iv`c CotyCoty bot AwpxIAW cuMJW KohlI ic`lwA rhy hn[

Ajy auh hYrwn hoieAw vyK hI irhw sI ik aus ƒ mihsUs hoieAw iehkoeI bot qW nhIN ieh qW in`ky in`ky pOdy hn[ prySwnI iv`c auh ivhVy iv`cieDr auDr GuMmx l`igAw, jd auh vwps AwieAw qW gmilAW vwly pOdygmilAW iv`coN inkl ky ivhVy iv`c au~g Awey sn[ ijnHW ƒ in`kIAWin`kIAW hrIAW p`qIAW l`gIAW hoeIAW sn[ aus ƒ ieh pqw nhIN sI l`girhw ik ieh pOdy hOlI hOlI mr rhy hn jW ienHW iv`coN muV hrIAW p`qIAwinkl ky jIx jw rhy hn[

GbrwA ky auh nId iv`coN auT pYNdw hY[ aus dy idmwZ iv`c Ajy vIieh Avwz gUMj rhI sI ik qyry vwsqy rotr ByijAw hY[ aus ƒ smJ nhINsI Aw rhI ik ieh rotr kI hoieAw, ijhVw hr vkq Awpxw rUp bdl

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irhw hY[aus ny kmry dI lweIt jgweI Aqy ifkSnrI lY ky rotr dy ArQ l`Bx

lìgAw[ pihlW aus ny Awr E tI rot bwry vyiKAw, ijs dw ArQ sI kudrqIqOr qy ^qm ho jwxw, nwS ho jwxw, gL sV jwxw[ aus qoN bwAd aus nyrotr Sbd vyiKAw qW aus dw ArQ sI, ‘ey prsn hU bIhyv bYflI tuvrfAdr pIpl[’

dovyN ArQ vyK ky auh ienHW ArQW ƒ ksqUrI dI mOq nwl joV ky vyKxlìgAw[ ksqUrI kudrqI qOr qy ^qm ho igAw sI[ dUjy ArQW Anuswr ausny mihsUs kIqw ik aus ny kdI vI ksqUrI nwl koeI cMgw ivhwr nhINsI kIqw[ hOlI holI aus dy swhmxy supny dy swry ArQ swkwr hox l`gy in`kyin`ky pOdy, Pùl Aqy bUty, ijvyN swry ksqUrI dy jwx bwry icMqq ho gey hoxAqy nwl auh ieh soc ky audws ho igAw ik aus ny ikauN nw ksqUrI nwlcMgw ivhwr kIqw ?

Swm q`k auh Sihr dy hor bhuq swry lokW nwl ksqUrI dy sMskwrW ƒinBwaux iv`c l`gw irhw[

AiDAwie 17AiDAwie 17AiDAwie 17AiDAwie 17AiDAwie 17b`bU muV ib`tU kol clI geI sI, ib`tU dy ieh kihx 'qy ik mYƒ qyrw

iksy kol nOkrI krnw cMgw nhIN l`gdw, Awpxy kol iks cIz dI GwthY ! b`bU ny nOkrI qoN AsqI&w dy idqw sI[ ib`tU kol v`K v`K SihrW iv`cAwpxIAW koTIAW sn[ ieQoN q`k ik phwVW ivc vI aus dI AwpxI ie`kkoTI sI[ ij`Qy Awm qOr qy auh aus smyN hI jWdw, jd aus ny XwrW dosqWnwl mOj mylw hI krnw huMdw sI[ b`bU ƒ aus dI ies ckwcOND vwlI izMdgIny bhuq hI pRBwiv`q kIqw, ies leI auh sMgIq klw Aqy SwierI dI dunIAWiv`coN inkl ÛbsUrq Aqy husIn izMdgI iv`c pRvyS kr geI[ ie`k vwr muVaus dy pYr DrqI qoN au~KV gey[ auh ib`tU dy prW nwl AsmwnI aufwrIAWmwrn l`gI Aqy phwVW dIAW au~cIAW tIsIAW ƒ Cuhx l`gI[ auh izMdgIdy XQwrQ ƒ Bu`l geI sI[ ib`tU dy jwdU ny aus ƒ Awpxy nwl aufwA ilAwsI[

ib`tU nwl jwx qoN pihlW aus ny aus ƒ kyvl eynw hI ikhw sI, ‘plIzhux mYN nvIN izMdgI ijaUx jw rhI hW, ies leI cMgw ieho hI hovygw ikAwpW ipClw swrw kuJ Bu`l jweIey[ auNJ vI quhwfI hoNd ny mYƒ kdI vIpRBwiv`q nhIN sI kIqw[ ies iv`c nw qW quhwfw koeI ksUr hY Aqy nw hImyrw[ ies ƒ sMXog hI kihxw cwhIdw hY[ ies leI AwE AwpW ieh swrw

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kuJ iksmq au~pr C`f dyeIey[ qusIN hux ies g`l ƒ Bu`l jwE ik AwpWkdI imly vI sW[ mYN nhIN cwhuMdI ik myrI izMdgI iv`c quhwfw koeI prCwvWpvy[ Bwvy mYN ib`tU koloN koeI vI auhlw nhIN r`Kxw cwhuMdI, mYƒ pUrw XkInhY ik ib`tU myry au~pr pUrw ivSvwS krdw hY Aqy myry kuJ vI d`sx nwl ausdI muh`bq iv`c koeI vI &rk nhIN pYx l`gw[’

aus ny b`bU dIAW g`lW ƒ bVy Awqm-ivSvws Aqy DIrj nwl suixAwsI[ aus ƒ smJ nhIN sI Aw rhI ik auh b`bU dIAW ienHW g`lW dw kI juAwbdyvy[ auh b`bU ƒ ie`kt`k inhwrdw irhw sI, aus v`l nIJ lw ky vyKdw irhwsI[ aus ƒ mihsUs hoieAw ik b`bU dy jwx qoN bwAd ijvyN aus dI izMdgIiv`c ie`kdm hnyrw ho jwx vwlw hovy; pr aus dw b`bU nwl sMbMD vI kIsI ? ik aus ƒ koeI Gwt mihsUs huMdI[ Awpxy Awp iv`c AwauNidAW ausny AwpxI smJ sUJ ƒ itkwxy lY AWdw, aus dy AMdr bhuq swry auh ichryGuMmx l`gy, ijhVy kdI aus dI izMdgI iv`coN Alop ho gey sn[

aus iv`c kI Gwt hY ? ikhVIAW g`lW sn ijhVIAW ienHW irSiqAWƒ aus kol rokx qoN vrjdIAW rhIAW sn? aus ny Awpw cInx dI koiSSkIqI pr izMdgI dy s`c dI koeI vI kMnI aus dy h`Q nw AweI[ aus dwidl kIqw ik auh ie`k vwr muV nIlkMq dI Srn iv`c jwvy Aqy aus ƒpu`Cy ik eydW aus nwl bwr bwr ikauN ho irhw hY ? ikauN swry irSqy hOlIhOlI aus v`loN mUMh moV lYNdy hn kI myrw izMdgI ƒ vyKx dw idRStIkox dUijAWqoN v`Krw hY ? jo ik iksy ƒ vI TIk nhIN l`gdw[ myry kol Sbd hn, ivcwrhn, moh muh`bq vwlw koml ic`q hY, izMdgI ƒ smJx dw slIkw hY[ iPriks cIz dI Gwt hY ? ijs krky mYN irSiqAW ƒ Awpxy kol nhIN r`K skdw?mYN ikauN hr vwr hI p`CV jWdw hW[ aus ƒ ie`k vwr muV b`bU dI irSiqAWƒ qroqwzw r`Kx vwlI i&lws&I Xwd AweI, aus ƒ ieMJ l`gw ijvyN b`bUTIk hI kihMdI sI[ myrI i&lws&I krky swrI izMdgI koeI vI irSqw myrwnhIN bx sikAw, iek ksqUrI hI sI ijs ƒ auh swrI aumr durkwrdw irhwsI[ aus ny qW kdI ksqUrI dI hoNd vI svIkwr nhIN sI kIqI, auh ausƒ kIVy mkOiVAW vWg hI smJdw irhw sI[ hux jd ksqUrI aus dI izMdgIiv`coN sihj Bwv nwl hI clw igAw sI, aus ƒ ieMJ l`gw ijvyN aus dIizMdgI iv`c bhuq v`fw i^lwA pYdw ho igAw hovy[ hux aus i^lwA ƒ Brniv`c muSkl pyS Aw rhI sI, BwvyN auh zwihrw qOr qy ies ƒ mMnx leIiqAwr nhIN sI[

aus ƒ Sbd vrqxy ikauN nhIN AwauNdy ? aus ny mihsUs kIqw, ijvyNnIlkMq kih irhw hovy ik Sbd qW qyry pws bhuq hn pr qyry iv`c ieh

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Gwt hY ik auh Sbd vrqxy iks smNy Aqy sQwn qy hn, ies g`l dI qYƒsmJ nhIN AweI swrI aumr, qUM bu~DI nwloN v`D Bwvnw qoN kMm lYNdw hYN, qyrIBwvnw lokW dI loV Aqy izMdgI dy XQwrQ nwl myl nhIN KWdI[ SbdWƒ qUM smyN dI nzwkq Anuswr nhIN vrqdw, sgoN GtnwvW dy pRqIkrm ƒiDAwn iv`c r`Kky, aus Biv`KmuKI s`c ƒ ibAwn kr bYTdw hYN, jo ik AglIiDr ny ikAwisAw vI nhIN huMdw, aus ny qW Biv`K leI suMdr supny sMjoeyhuMdy hn[ pr qUM aus dy swhmxy izMdgI dw auh XQwrQ pyS kr dyNdw hYN,ijs dw ichrw krUp Aqy iBAMkr huMdw hY[ aus ƒ nIlkMq dI g`l TIkhI l`gI[

b`bU koloN qur Awaux qoN pihlW vI aus ny ieMJ hI kIqw sI[ aus nyb`bU ƒ ikhw sI ik b`bU qYƒ ib`tU dy mgr A`KW mIt ky hI nhIN qur jwxwcwhIdw[ izMdgI bhuq hI zwilm hY, ieh bMdy ƒ sbz bwZ ivKw kyivrwnIAW iv`c roL dyNdI hY, ies leI qUM iek vwr iPr Awpxy &Ysly au~prmuV ivcwr kr[

‘ieh g`l quhwfI sYli&SnY~S iv`coN in`klI lgdI hY[ qusIN nhIN cwhuMdyik mYN ikDry izMdgI iv`c Awrwm nwl sY~t ho ky izMdgI ibqw skW[ AwpxwÛbsUrq Gr vsw skW, quhwfI AwpxI soc Aqy kbzy dI Bwvnw myry rwhWiv`c Awx KVI huMdI hY[ quhwƒ myry su`K nwl swVw hY, qusIN mYƒ dùKI vyKky ûS huMdy ho[ quhwfI AMdrlI soc dw mYƒ pqw hY[ qusIN cwhuMdy ho ik ibtUmYƒ C`f jwvy Aqy mYN hmySw leI quhwfy pws Tihrn leI mjbUr ho jwvW,jd ik mYN keI vwr quhwƒ kih cukI hW ik quhwfy iv`coN mYƒ kdI vI koeIirSqw nzr nhIN AwieAw[ qW iPr qusIN kwhdy leI myry nwl cMbVy hoeyho? imstr ! izMdgI irSiqAW dw nwm hY, irSiqAW iv`clIAW loVW dw nwmhY ! quhwfI AwpxI izMdgI hY, myrI AwpxI[ myrIAW AwpxIAW kuJ ^wihSW,aumMgW hn[ quhwfw Awpxy &ls&y Aqy izMdgI pRqI v`Krw rvèIAw hY[ ienHWdw Awps iv`c ikDry vI myl nhIN[ qusIN myry pws AwauNdy rhy, AwpW cMgIAWg`lW krdy rhy, h`sdy rhy, iek dUjy ƒ smJx dw Xqn vI krdy rhy, ijsiv`c mYƒ lgdw hY, AwpW kwmXwb nhIN hoey Aqy hux jd mYƒ myrw mnBwauNdwswQI iml irhw hY qW qusIN mYƒ izMdgI dw XQwrQ smJwaux bYT gey ho ?’

ieh swrw kuJ sux ky auh ^wmoS ho igAw sI[b`bU bolI jw rhI sI, ‘ikhVI AOrq hY, ijs iv`coN qusIN Awpxw swQI

Kojx dI koiSS nhIN sI kIqI ? hY iksy ny quhwfy iv`coN ieho ijhw ienswnpCwixAw, ijhVw aunHW dIAW koml BwvnwvW ƒ smJ sky? ijhVw aunHWdw du`K su`K iv`c Awsrw bx ky ctwn vWg aunHW dy nwl KVw hovy ! Blw

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bxy qusIN eynIAW iv`coN vI iksy dy mn dy hwx dy? ieQy Awx ky hI quhwfwauh &ls&w &ylH hoieAw jo qusIN keI vwr ikhw krdy sI ik irSiqAW ƒqro-qwzw r`Kx dI koeI loV hI nhIN huMdI[ qusIN aus idn mYƒ ies g`lnwl hrwieAw sI[ pr A`j mYN mihsUs krdI hW ik quhwfw ieh &ls&wiblkul hI Zlq sI[ hux qusIN myrI ij`q au~pr JUr rhy ho, au~proN BwvyNqusIN zwihr nhIN hox dy rhy[ myrw ib`tU nwl ieh irSqw kdI vI nhIN tu`tygwikauNik mYN ies ƒ ipAwr muh`bq dIAW BwvnwvW nwl pwilAw hY, ies ƒqro-qwzw riKAw hY[ qusIN ikhw sI irSqy AwpxIAW loVW dI mjbUrI huMdyhn[ prMqU, A`j quhwƒ smJ AwauxI cwhIdI hY ik loVW qoN au~pr vI bhuqkuJ hY jo irSiqAW ƒ joVI rKdw hY[ ieho hI Awqmk irSqw hY, jo myrwAqy ib`tU dw hY[’

b`bU dw BwSx cldw irhw sI Aqy auh byv`s swrw kuJ suxI jw irhwsI[

muh`bq dI kImq dw aus smyN pqw l`gdw hY, jd auh Ku`sx lgdIhY, iPr AsIN Awpxy ipAwirAW ƒ Gu`t ky PVn dI koiSS krdy hW, Gu`tky PVn dy Xqn iv`c auh swfy pwsoN hor dUr dUr huMdy jWdy hn[ ieho ijhwhwl hI auh b`bU dy jwx qoN bwAd mihsUs krn l`gw[

b`bU cly geI sI[ aus leI ijvyN swrw sMswr hI suMnw ho igAw sI[ prauh eynw kdI kmzor qW nhIN sI hoieAw ik swrI aumr Awsry hI Bwldwrhy[ aus ny qW Awpxy Awp ƒ bhuq bulMd smiJAw sI[ A`j pqw l`gw ikaus dI ieh bulMdI ikMnI KoKlI sI[

aus ƒ nIlkMq dw ikhw Xwd AwieAw[ ‘sB kuJ bdlxhwr hY, iesbdlwE ƒ smJ! Aqy ies dy nwl nwl bdl, qW ik ies bdlwA dIr&qwr qYƒ z^mI nw kr sky, iksy gqISIl vsqU dy nwl KVw ho kyivcryNgw qW lhU lUhwn ho jwvyNgw[ ies leI bcwA iesy iv`c hY ik smyNdI qor dy nwl nwl cl Aqy gqISIl rih[’

aus ƒ i^Awl AwieAw ik izMdw rihx leI gqISIl hoxw ikMnw zrUrIhY[ zrUrI nhIN ik ieh gqISIlqw b`bU dI idSw iv`c hI hovy[ gqISIlqwqW iksy vI idSw iv`c ho skdI hY[ jykr b`bU pUrb vl jWdI hY qW myrws&r p`Cm v`l hoxw cwhIdw hY[

ieh soc ky auh muskrwieAw[ jykr iek bMdw pUrb v`l c`ly Aqy dUjwp`Cm v`l qW Awi^r iv`c ies DrqI au~pr iek ibMdU AYsw Aweygw ik auhmuV aus ibMdU au~pr iek`Ty ho jwxgy, ijQoN auh iv`CV ky cly sn[ iehpRwik`Rqk inXm hY[ ies leI A`j qoN bwAd pRwikR`qk inXmW iv`c hI ivhwr

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krnw cwhIdw hY[iPr aus ny Awpxw s&r SurU kr id`qw sI[ausy idn qoN hI aus ny mOq leI iqAwrI SurU kr id`qI sI[ ies kwrj

ƒ AwrMB krky auh ikMnw sihj Aqy ikMnw AwnMdmeI ho igAw sI[auh Awpxy Gr iv`c sihj suBwA iv`crdw, pyNitMgz krdw, keI vwr

ausƒ SwierI auqrdI[mMd mMd muskwauNdw auh sihj iv`c hI koeI nw koeI ikqwb pVHdw,

sYrW krdw, sMgIq suxdw, hux auh bdldI pRwik`rqI nwl sihj BwA nwlbdl irhw sI[ ieMJ lgdw ijvyN hux ausƒ koeI vI icMqw, rog jW du`K nwhovy[ auh Awpxy Awp iv`c Aw ky sihj ho igAw sI[ aus ƒ swrI dunIAWhI Bu`l geI sI[ auh kwienwq nwl ieksur ho igAw sI[ kd idn cVHdwhY Aqy kd rwq pYNdI hY, aus ƒ kdI ies g`l dw Aihsws hI nhIN sIhoieAw[ ies gol GuMmdI Drq au~pr aus dw s&r jwrI sI[

b`bU dw kI bixAw, aus ƒ kuJ ^br nhIN sI[ nw hI aus ny kdI iesg`l dI pRvwh hI kIqI sI[

auh sB kuJ qoN Awzwd ho igAw sI[ aus ƒ mihsUs hoieAw, ieho kuJhI qW auh swrI aumr aus ny AwpxI AMqr-Awqmw iv`coN cwihAw sI[ ausny Awpxy jIvn ƒ s`cI suqMqrqw leI KulHw C`f id`qw[ aus ƒ ieMJ mihsUshoieAw ijvyN izMdgI dy QpyiVAW ny aus dI GwVq iv`c inKwr lY AWdwhovy, ijvyN bwhrly swry AwfMbr ƒ JwV ky ienHW TokrW ny aus dy s`c ƒpRjv`ilq kr id`qw hovy, aus dy AMdrlI swrI cMigAweI au~pr l`gy swrykwly D`ibAW ƒ Do id`qw hovy Aqy ausdw mUMh lokW AMdr CupIAW cMigAweIAWƒ l`Bx v`l kr id`qw hovy[ auh izMdgI dy s`c, mOq dy s`c Aqy ieQoN qkik hr ivAkqI dy AMdr Cupy s`c ƒ vyKx Aqy smJx dy Xog ho igAwhovy[ hux ijvyN izMdgI dy s&r iv`c AwauNdIAW AOkVW aus ƒ pRq`K nzrAwaux l`g peIAW hox[ ieho kwrx sI ik auh sihj Bwv nwl aunHW AOkVWqoN pwsy ho ky lMG jWdw sI[

hux ausny DrqI dIAW vsqW ƒ Gu`t Gu`t ky nhIN sI PiVAw hoieAwsgoN aunHW ƒ iblkul KulHw C`f id`qw sI[ pihlW ijhVIAW cIzW ƒ auhGu`t Gu`t ky PVn dw Xqn krdw sI, auh aus pwsoN dUr dOVdIAW sn, huxKulHIAW C`fIAW vsqW ijvyN ausdI Srn Awauxw locdIAW sn, hux ausny ijvyN aunHW qoN pwsw vt ky lMGx dI Xugq is`K leI hovy[ aus ny vsqUAWdy gvwc jwx dI pIVw dw AnuBv kr ilAw sI, iesy leI aus ƒ iespIVw qoN bcx dw v`l Aw igAw sI[ hux auh Awpxy AWqirk sMswr nwl

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iekimk ho igAw sI[ bwhrI sMswr dI aus ƒ koeI loV hI nhIN sI rihgeI[ Rph RpKdnbj ba[ dHw r,cj dv`j`j yp,w dvbjdHbj@ dul } Rpl V[WCg s[i a'G lJF idtbj lg ba[ dul drKy'G Rpl V[@ dfAv[ dsVk wpN dy,ngbJfC%gbJ lV m Rph dHV%J } bj?ig rji fC%Vj yjhp.sj lg m

aus ny aus il&w&y iv`coN iek ic`TI k`FI qy iDAwn nwl aus vl vyKxl`gw, aus ƒ Xwd nhIN sI Aw irhw ik ieh ic`TI iks dI hY? mu`dqW hogeIAw sn, ienHW ic`TIAw ƒ sWiBAW qy iPr aus qoN bwAd muV vyiKAW[

auh iDAwn nwl auh ic`TI pVHn l`igAw, ‘A`j rwq dyr q`k jwgdIrhI, idl ƒ Koh ijhI pY rhI sI, s`c-mu`c ijvyN koeI Gwt ijhI mihsUsho rhI hovy drAsl bVy idnW qoN hI bycYn ijhI mihsUs kr rhI sW, bhuqvwrI cwihAw ik sMboDn krW pr ihMmq nw hoeI, pqw nhIN mYƒ smyN ƒ bMnHlYx dw hunr ikauN nhIN AwieAw? smW ivSvwS bx ky, cwhq aumId bxky myry swhmixE AxvyiKAw, AxCoihAw guzr igAw qy mYN ru`K dy p`qy vWgkMbdI hI rih geI, ieho hI nUr huMdw hY Swied jo bdiksmq lokW dI mu`TIiv`c nhIN smw skdw[ mYN vI ieho ijhI hW, quhwfI nrwzgI, mYN cwhI vInhI sI qy sihx vI nhIN huMdI, Swied myrw pihlw p`qr hI auh ik`l sIjo ies imTy ijhy iehsws dy sIny iv`c T`uk igAw[

‘cwhq kI koeI gixq dw &wrmUlw huMdI hY? jo do jmHW do cwr dI qrWHswfy idmwZ iv`c sQwn bxw lYNdI hY? snyh jzbwq kI idmwg nwlqwAluk r`Kdy hn ? jy Aijhw huMdw qW mYN Awpxy zmIr swhvyN sur^rU nwho skdI[ ieh zzbwq Swied zrUrq ijhI mihsUs huMdy hn, ijvyN AwpxysmyN dy isrk`F qusIN qy mYN AYvyN Ajy nvIN nvIN h`Q pYr mwrn vwlI, supinAWdI kihkSW A`KW iv`c sjwA ky quhwfI izMdgI iv`c prvyS krdI qW zrUrquhwƒ iksy smyN gumwn hoxw sI ik ieh soicAw smiJAw &wrmUlw hY, ijvyNik AOrq p`qRI smwj dw nzrIAw huMdw hY, auh iksy dy suihrd iehsws ƒAwpxI pOVI dI qrHW qy nhIN vrq rhI ? pqw nhIN qusIN ieMJ socdy jWnhIN pr XkIn r`Kxw myry mn iv`c ieh SMkw Aw geI sI ik hovy nw ikmYN AjyhI SRyxI iv`c nhIN Awauxw[ jo iksy dy jzbwq iesqymwl krky iksydy moiFAW qy pYr Dr ky Asmwn CUhx dw hunr r`Kdy hn, Awpxy swryiehswsW dw dmn mYƒ mnzUr sI pr &wrmUly vrqx vwlI khwauxw mnzUrnhIN sI, iesy leI hI mYN dmn kIqw[ mYƒ nhIN pqw ik qusIN ikMnw ku mihsUskIqw hovygw jW ieh g`lW quhwfy leI ikMnIAW ku mwAny r`KdIAW ny? prmYN AwpxI khW, ik mYƒ bhuq tu`t B`j dw swhmxw krnw ipAw, mwnisk-dvMd iv`coN guzrnw mYƒ jwpdw hY ik s`B qoN v`fw Azwb huMdw hY, kuJ plW

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leI quhwƒ iml ky hI mYN jwx ilAw sI ik ijMnw ku s`c qusIN bwhrmuKIho ky ijaUNdy ho aus qoN vD s`c qusIN AMdrmuKI ho ky ijaUNdy ho[ bwhr-muKIs`c ieqnI hI AihmIAq r`Kdy hn ik aunHW ƒ pRgtwieAw jwxw sMBv huMdwhY, pr AMdrmuKI s`c ƒ pRgtwA skxw sMBv nhIN huMdw[

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‘nIlw phwV ikDr hY? ikDr hY’...ie`k prqvIN Awvwz ausy qrHW hI AweI[ ‘nIlw phwV ikDr hY ?’aus ny vyiKAw pMc-ruKI dy rùKW dy isirAW iv`coN SuAwvW inkl rhIAW

sn, ijnHW dy rMg v`Kry v`Kry sn[ prMqU, ie`k ru`K ijhVw swirAW dw vfyrw

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l`gdw sI, aus dI roSnI v`KrI hI sI Aqy auh hY vI sI AjIb BWq dI[aus ƒ ieMJ lìgAw ijvyN aus dIAW SuAwvW aus dy srIr ƒ pRBwivq krrhIAW hn[

ijvyN aus dy AMdr bhuq swrI aUrjw BrI jw rhI hovy[ aus ƒ AwpxwsrIr QrQrwauNdw hoieAw l`gw, ijvyN aus ƒ kMbxIAW Aw rhIAW hox[ ausƒ lìgAw ijvyN aus dw srIr AwnMd nwl Br igAw hovy[ prMqU, kuJ dyrbwAd hI aus ƒ lìgAw ijvyN pMc-ruKI dy ruK l`t l`t bL rhy hox, aunHWswirAW ny ie`k BrpUr roSnI dw rUp Dwr ilAw hovy[ aus ƒ Awpxw AwpwBùl igAw hovy, aus ny AwpxIAW bwhW pUrIAW PYlwA idqIAW[ aus qoNbwAd aus ƒ koeI vI sùD-bu~D hI nw rhI ik auh ik`Qy hY Aqy aus nwlkI vwpr irhw hY[ aus ƒ qW ieMJ hI lìgAw ijvyN auh pUry zor nwlAwpxIAW bwhW nwl roSnI ƒ Awpxy klwvy iv`c Brn dI koiSS kr irhwhovy[

kuJ dyr bwAd aus ny mihsUs kIqw ijvyN aus ƒ swhmxIAW vsqUAWidsxoN h`tdIAW jWdIAW hox, iPr ieMJ lìgAw ijvyN pMc-ruKI dy ru`K vIAlop ho gey hox[ auh ieho ijhI Av`sQw iv`c ikMnI dyr irhw, aus ƒ koeIvI igAwn nhIN sI[ aus ƒ qW kyvl eynw hI Xwd sI ik au~cIAW SuAwvWvwlw Aqy ADBùq rMgW vwlI roSnI vwlw s`B qoN au~cw rùK aus ƒ sMboDnkrky kih irhw hovy : ‘AwpxI cyqnw bMd r`K Aqy sux : Xwd kr bwby dybcn, Arbd nrbd DMudUkwrw, ieh auh smyN sn jd AwpW nIlswgr qoNiek`Ty qury sW[ mYN dyiKAw sI qyry suBwA iv`c mu`F qoN hI qyjIAW sn, qyryiv`c kwhl bhuq sI, qUM hmySw AgWh hI AgWh vDx iv`c XkIn kIqw sI[

‘mYN qYƒ bhuq smJwieAw sI ik swƒ ies DrqI dy pRdUSx dI koeI loVnhIN[ qUM hmySw hI ies dy cmqkwrI guxW qoN pRBwivq ho ies dy moh iv`cpYNdw irhw sI[

‘qUM Awpxy bzurg nIlswgr ƒ Bu`ldw A`gy hI A`gy, DrqI v`l vDdwigAw[ swgr dw jl Aqy piv`qr pOx dI mwqrw GtdI geI pr qMU Awpxws&r jwrI rìKAw[ bVI dyr mYN qyrw swQ inBwieAw sI pr qUM Agn-pUjwkol phMuc ky bVw ûS hoieAw sI[ qyrw mn vI aunHW iv`c rL jwx ƒ kIqwsI[ mYN qYƒ bVI muSkl nwl mwn srovr JIl dy pwxIAW dw lwlc Aqyvwsqy pw aunHW dI sMgq iv`coN vwips lY AwieAw sI Aqy AwpW muV Awpxws&r AwrMB kIqw sI[ qUM pùiCAw sI cwr-cSm ikQy hY? mYN qYƒ dìsAw ikAOh swhmxIAW au~cIAW cotIAW ijhVIAW Asmwn nwl ie`k-im`k hoeIAWnzr Aw rhIAW hn aunHW dy prly pwr[ AsIN auqSwh nwl qurdy gey, qurdy

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gey, pihlW in`kIAW in`kIAW ndIAW, phwVIAW Aqy dyvdwr dy rùK Awey,iPr au~cy phwV Aqy Cl Cl krdIAW qyz ndIAW AweIAW[ kYNcI p`g-fMfIAW rwhIN qurdy au~cy phwVW au~pr c`VHn l`gy[ DrqI dI pRdUSq hvwnwl swfy swh Pu`lx l`gy; iPr AwsmwnI br& SurU ho geI, AsIN AwpxwsPr jwrI rìKAw[

‘cwr cSm au~cIAW phwVIAW iv`c iGirAw ipAw sI[ aus dy kol phuMcswfw mn AnMd nwl Br igAw sI, auh mYƒ Awpxy mUl q`q nIlswgrdw Cotw rUp hI lìgAw sI[ aus ny swƒ Awaux dw kwrn vI puiCAw sI[mYN aus ƒ juAwb dyx qoN pihlW kuJ dyr ^wmoS ho igAw sI, kwrn ieh sI,mYN aus ƒ swrw kuJ d`sx qoN pihlW swry vrqwry ƒ jwnxw cwhuMdw sI, smJxwcwhuMdw sI[ prMqU qyry kwhly suBw ny swrw Byd Kohl id`qw[

‘qUM aus ƒ d`s idqw ik AsIN cyqnqw dI Bwl iv`c c`ly hW[‘qyrw juAwb sux ky auh hìsAw sI, aus ny pùiCAw, ie`k Avcyqn,

cyqnw ƒ ikvyN pw skdw hY? qUM qrlw mwirAw, mYƒ cyqMn kr[‘aus ny ikhw, ies leI qYƒ s`B qoN pihlW AMqridRStI pYdw krnI

cwhIdI hY[‘qUM puiCAw sI, auh ikvyN Aw skdI hY?‘aus ikhw DrqI dy q`q pCwx[‘auh ikvyN? qyrw suAwl sI[‘idRStI XMqr eIjwd kr[ auh XMqr ijs iv`c jl, pvn, AgnI, DrqI

Aqy AwkwS ƒ pCwnx dI Xogqw hovy[‘qUM ikhw sI : mYN Xqn krWgw, mYN pwvWgw, mYN AsMBv ƒ sMBv bxwvWgw[

aus ny qYƒ smJwaux dI, qYƒ rokx dI bhuq koiSS kIqI sI pr qUM mMinAwnhIN sI[

‘aus ny ikhw sI, jykr qUM zrUr hI jwxw hY qW Awpxy Asly dy q`qƒ Xwd r`KIN Aqy ausy dI hvw iv`c hI swh lvIN Aqy AwpxI AMS AqyAwpxy q`q qoN judw nw hoeIN ! pRdUSq hvw ƒ Awpxw Awhwr nw bxweIN !ijMnI dyr nIlswgr dw q`q qyry nwl rhygw, qyrI hoNd ƒ koeI Kqrw nhIN[

‘qUM cyqnw ƒ pwaux dI iz`d kr irhw sI, aus ny muV ikhw ! mYN qYƒie`k Byd dI g`l d`sdw hW[ cyqnW du`K Aqy pIVw dI jnmdwqI hY, cyqnwƒ pwaux qoN bwAd qMU hmyS hmyS leI pIVw nwl prnwieAw jwvyNgw[ iPrprdUSq pOx qyrw Awhwr hovygI[ ijs qoN du`K Aqy audwsI jnm lYxgy[prdUiSq hvw dIAW GuMmx-GyrIAW iv`c iGirAw iPr qUM p`Coqwvy dI SrnmMgyNgw[ muV Avcyqn hox leI Awpxy ieSt iDAwvyNgw, jMglW Aqy phwVW

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dIAW gu&wvW dI Srn lvyNgw[ prMqU, mOq vWg cyqnw ienHW gu&wvW iv`cvI qyrw ip`Cw nhIN C`fygI[ Clwvy vWg rUp bdl bdl ky qYƒ vwr vwrBrmwauNdI rhygI[ cyqnw ƒ mwrn dy qUM bhuq au~prwly kryNgw[ jVI bUtIAWdy rs Aqy q`q BwlyNgw[ hr rwq cyqnw ƒ mwr ky sOx dI koiSS kryNgwpr cyqnw hr subHw qyrI CwqI au~pr Awx suAwr hovygI, BtkweygI, iqRSnwdy v`s pweygI, dUr dy sv`pn ivKweygI Aqy audwsIAW dy jMgl iv`cBtkweygI[

‘qYƒ nhIN Xwd hoxw, qYƒ cwr-cSm dIAW g`lW kOVIAW l`gIAW sn[iesy leI qUM mYƒ ieQy C`f ky qur igAw sI[ rygsqwnI mYdwnW v`l Aqy mYNies cwr-cSm dI Srn iv`c Tihr igAw sI[ mYN Awpxy Awp ƒ aus dyhvwly kr id`qw sI[ aus ny ikhw : pu`qr ! qUM swfI j`d iv`coN hYN[ mYN qyrybcw leI ieho kuJ hI kr skdw hW ik qUM myry pwxIAW iv`c isr dy BwrKVw ho jw Aqy Avcyqnqw dI Srn iv`c Awpxy q`q nwl juVn dI koiSSkr, qyrIAW qMdW jykr aus q`k pUrIAW nw vI phuMcx qW vI auh qyry ijaUxleI Awpxy Awp dw vwSpIkrx kr, qyry kol hwizr rhygw[ cwr-cSm dIis`iKAW ƒ sdIAW bIq geIAW hn, iPr DrqI ny pwsw plitAw phwVWiv`c lrzS hoeI, ctwnW ih`lIAW, cwr-cSm dy hyT pwV pY igAw Aqy auhAwpxy AMS nwl imlx leI phwV ivc dI vih quirAw, iek dirAw dyrUp ivc, pr eynI dyr ƒ mYN Awpxy Awp Awpxy isr Bwr KVw hox Xogho igAw sI[

‘myry nwl aus ny vwiedw kIqw hY ik auh sdw hI v`K v`K rUpW iv`cmyry nwl rhygw, hux jd vI b`dl AwauNdy hn cwr-cSm myry kol huMdw hY,myrw hwl cwl pu`Cdw, myry pirvwr ƒ hrw Brw krdw[ prdUiSq hvw ƒ sw&krdw[ mYN Avcyqn huMdw hoieAw vI s`B kuJ smJdw hW[

‘aus qoN bwAd qUM A`j AwieAw hYN[ hux jd cwr-cSm Awpxy q`q nwljw juiVAw hY, mYN Awpxy pirvwr smyq hW Aqy qUM DrqI dy vwqwvrx ƒpCwnx leI ieMdrIAW dw ivkws kr ilAw hY[ hux qyrI idRStI iv`c pvnvI hY, jl vI, AgnI vI, AwkwS Aqy Drq vI, qyrI idRStI iv`clI pvnDrqI dI pvn ƒ pCwx rhI hY, AgnI, AgnI ƒ[ jl, DrqI ivcly jlƒ[ AwkwS, AkwS ƒ, Aqy Drq, Drq ƒ, pr qYƒ Awpxy AMS nIlswgrdI pCwx hI Bu`l geI, iesy leI hI qUM Btkdw iPirAw Aqy hux AwpxIAMS dI Bwl ivc quirAw hYN[ qYƒ Xwd hovygw l`KW swl pihlW vI qUM iekvwr myry pws AwieAw sI, aus smyN vI mYN qYƒ Awpxy q`q nwl ie`ksur hoxleI ikhw sI[ fi.aP@ aP. bjfSg drwdla l'y sg e,v wgag_aP. W+dhq>cg

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riajdibJ } r,l wiV ba[ lqNS sg e,v wgag_aP. q[ij bjtj Vj q>DdVbj m‘pihlW qYƒ iehsws hoieAw ik qUM qW hYN ikauNik qUM socdw hYN, qYƒ

qyrI hoNd qyry socx iv`c hI l`gI[ qYƒ hMkwr hoieAw ik qUM auho kuJ hI hYN,jo kuJ qUM socdw hYN, qUM smiJAw ik qUM auho kuJ hI bixAw hYN, jo kuJ qUMsoicAw sI[ jykr ieho g`l hI huMdI qW iPr qyrw ieh smwj ikDr igAw?jy qyry socx kwrn hI ieh sMswr hY qW iPr pRikrqI dy inXm ikDr gey?ijs kwrn qyrI hoNd sMBv hoeI !

‘qMU ikhw sI isDWq Aqy inXm myry Sbd iv`c hn, ijs ƒ mYN pYdw kIqw[mYN hI SbdW iv`c ArQ Bry sn[ myrI bu`DI hI hY jo boldI hY[ ieho hI Sbdƒ roSnI dyNdI hY, ieho roSnI hI myry Sbd hn[

‘hux qUM Awp mMinAw hY ik Sbd roSnI hY, jykr ieh roSnI hn qW iesdw mqlb ieh hoieAw ik ieh qrMgW hn[ pr qYƒ pqw hoxw cwhIdw hYik ieQy bhuq kuJ auh hY jo qrMgW nhIN[ hux d`s aunHW dw kI bixAW?

‘qUM ikhw sI, mYN jwxdw hW ik ivigAwnI auh hY jo s`c dI Bwl iv`chY Aqy igAwnI auh hY ijs ƒ pqw qW bhuq kuJ hY pr aus dy AMdr s`cleI jusqjU nhIN huMdI[ ies leI mYN ivigAwnI dI Srn iv`c jwvWgw[

‘iPr qUM igAwnI Aqy ivigAwnI doNhW dI Srn iv`c igAw[‘igAwnI ny ikhw : AsIN r`b qoN AgnI curweI sI ijs dI swfy v`f

v`fyirAW ƒ bVI BwrI kImq cukwauxI peI, r`b dy hukm nwl &irSiqAWny aus nwiek ƒ au~cy phwV au~pr ie`k v`fy p`Qr nwl bMnH id`qw, swrw idnigrJW aus dw mws nocdIAW rihMdIAW[ rwq Br aus dy srIr dw mwsAwauNdw rihMdw subhw huMidAW hI igrJW muV aus dw mws nocx Aw jWdIAW,sdIAW q`k aus dI ieh szw c`ldI rhI[

‘ivigAwnI ny ikhw : AgnI qW pihlW hI pwxI vWg Drq au~pr sImnu`K ny AwpxI bu~DI dw ivkws krky ies ƒ v`s iv`c kr ilAw sI[ivigAwnI ny ieh vI d`isAw ik jl Aqy AgnI v`Kry q`q nhIN, ikauNikienHW dI bxqr sWJy q`qW qoN bxI hY[ b`s ienHW dI bxqr iv`c hI &rkhY[

‘mYN qYƒ ikhw sI, qyrw ivigAwnI TIk kihMdw hY pr qyrw igAwnIAtkl p`cU hI lgwauNdw hY[ auh AwpxI bu`DI ƒ pRwikRqk vrqwirAW au~prTosx dI koiSS krdw hY Aqy mnGVq khwxIAW GVdw hY[ ieh aus dwies dunIAW ƒ smJx dw Awpxw ivigAwn hY[ pRwikRqk vrqwirAW ƒ jykrauh AwpxI sMgq iv`c Swml nw kry qW aus dw srdw nhIN, ies ibnWaus dw guzwrw hI nhIN[ ijMnI dyr auh ies vrqwry ƒ AwpxI b`uDI nwl

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Awpxy iv`c nhIN smw lYNdw auh ies qoN frdw rihMdw hY[ aus AMdr qRwspYdw ho jWdw hY Aqy qYƒ pqw hY ik qRws ivc bMdw bhuqI dyr jIA nhINskdw[

‘qUM mYƒ puiCAw sI, quhwƒ ienHW swrIAW g`lW dw ikvyN pqw l`gdw hY?mYN qYƒ ikhw sI ik mYN igAwn, ivigAwn Aqy iDAwn dw sumyl hW[ mYNsiQr hW, ies leI bdldy vrqwirAW ƒ pihcwx skdw hW[ jo Awpbdlxhwr hY, auh dUjy bdldy ƒ pihcwx nhIN skdw[ qyrI pRikRqI vIbdlxhwr hY, iesy leI qUM kdy igAwnI v`l B`jdw hYN, kdI ivigAwnIv`l, jd ik nW qyrw igAwnI Aqy nw hI ivigAwnI Awpxy q`q ƒ pCwxirhw hY[ ie`k imQ v`l ruicq hY Aqy dUjw ivSlySx v`l ! igAwnI imQisrjdw hY Aqy ivigAwnI nrIKx krdw hY, dovyN rwh Zlq hn[ igAwnIny AwpxI jugq nwl cMd Aqy sUrj Brw Brw bxw ley dohW dy grm AqyTMfy hox dI imQ isrjI[ vwh auey igAwnIAW ! ivigAwnI kihMdw hY, smuMdrivc juAwr Bwtw cMdrmW dI iK`c krky AwauNdw hY, dUjy pwsy kihMdw hY ikcMdrmw ivc kiSS hI hY nhIN[ DrqI sUrj qoN v`K hoeI hY, A`goN cMd DrqIqoN v`K hoieAw, iPr kihMdw hY sUrj hIlIAm Aqy brIlIAm gYsW krkyhI hY jykr ieh gYsW dw hI smUh hY qW iPr DrqI vrgw mwdw ik`QoN AwieAw?gYsW qoN DrqI vrgw pdwrQ ikvyN hoNd iv`c Aw skdw hY? vwh aueyivigAwnIAw !

‘ieh s`B kuJ qyry igAwnIAW, ivigAwnIAW dI smJ qoN bwhr dIAWg`lW hn[

‘hor ijhVIAW g`lW qyry DrmI purS krdy hn, pRwxW bwry, auhdy bwryvI sux lY, auh hor koeI nhI ieh pRwx mYN hI qYƒ dyNdw hW, XwnI myrI C`fIhoeI hvw hI qyrw Awhwr hY[ IjVg dul } aP> bjwlguV sj Vjq s[Gsj h{G m

‘Aqy ijhnW KulHIAW Aqy SuD hvwvW bwry, ijs qro qwzw AwksIjnbwry soc ky qUM ^uS huMdw hYN, auh qyry AMdr jw ky kI kI kwrnwmy krdI hY?aus dw qYƒ igAwn hI nhIN, ieh qyry AMdr auh iBAMkr cIzW pYdw krdIhY ijhVIAW qYƒ mOq v`l DkyldIAW hn[

‘AwksIjn qW Awp Bu`KI hY ies ny qYƒ kI rjwauxw hY ! ieh qW Awpxynwl dy swQI mwlIikaul ƒ vI Kwx q`k jWdI hY[ ieh v`KrI g`l hY ikies dw Aglw swQI Awp vI Bu`Kw hY, ies leI ieh dovyN Awps iv`c imlky hI ijaUNdy rihMdy hn[

‘qUM ieh sux ky hYrwn hovyNgw ik ijhVy jIv qyz swh lYNdy hn aunHWdI aumr G`t huMdI hY[

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