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Transcript of Mortuary Music
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Mortuary Music for Mother Nature
(collected poems, 1969-1993)
by Joleen Ovind
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Harijan Press
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Harijan Press
1703 Montura Lane
Frisco, TX 75034
Copyright © 2009 by Joleen Ovind
All rights reserved, including the right to reproduce this book or
portions thereof in any form whatsoever. For information address
Harijan Press Rights Department
1703 Montura Lane
Frisco, TX 75034
First Harijan Press e-book edition November 2009
Designed by Jacob Bailly
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MORTUARY MUSIC FOR MOTHER NATURE
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ACID RAIN
I'm a forester,
Morris-green arid-zone barrister,
Touting my tortes in the lee
of the scree.
I won't be insipid.It drives up my lipid
And cholesterol levels:
Hurts me, you see.
But what really stings
Is the acid-green wings
Of the creatures who fly
Through the acid-gold sky.
Their feathers are falling
All over the valley.
Their cries are impaling
My heart as it's failing
In sorrow to see
That birds die at my
Far-too-human
Immensity.
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LETTER FROM RABBLE TO ROUSER
If I sat on privatism's broad and urbane couch:
if I were you, sir, the noted mossback wit:
I could take for granted, as my regular theme, almost folksy,
No Me Moleste.
But I alas find myself ever the unrenowned pest,the real recluse despite having entertained before you did
your various opinions on public morality, pedestrianism,
and the worth of ale in a daily schedule.
This particular set of opinions allows you
the most public exposure with the least possibility of
interference.
Oddly enough it's comfort you're offering, from afar,
along with the Compleat Conservative Self
with which many are tempted to identify.
I am irritated, occasionally allured, but never really
damaged by my chaste opinions in your transforming mouth.
They've acquired a lineage, footnotes, and are now
comprehensible only with an effort....
No doubt airing your isolation so utterly is pleasant,
and the sign of a long and lucky upper hand.
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HEIR TO YE ROYAL MARTYR
The right tone is taken from him.
He cannot find it ever.
(Father, hast forsaken me?)
He wears a cross-topped crown of jewels now,
no crown of thorns. No hero's robes.
His hair is long and black and curled:his frontispiece of fearful armor shines.
(He's risen, as he said.)
A thin moustache graces his upper lip while
I
admiring and more, don my tunic,
bare my tonsure,
beat the floor with my fist,
touch down my forehead
(Lord, is it I?) and
remain,
my spine a bent symbol
(Whomsoever I shall kiss)
of what he won't say
(That same is he) --
my body a genuflection,
a broken gesture of betrayal.
(Take him and lead him safely
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FAITH
"Fear not the night!"
The raven called in flight.
"Many have come this way before,
Many have found the moon a door."
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APPARITION
I stepped back,
Filled with fear.
I thought I'd seen a ghost.
But is was just
My face in the mirror,
Stretching its mouth in a noisome boast.
"Begone, foul apparition!"
I shouted to that face
And turned my back,
And sure enough,
It was gone without a trace.
But I couldn't resist the temptation
To take just one more peek.
I whirled around without a sound...
I've been prostrate for more than a week.
The thing had claws and a sharpened beak
And feathers....
It was not at all what I'd come to seek.
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CLARION
He was born
with a high burnished note,
the note of a bugle,
ripe and rife in his voice.
And he cried,when he saw what he saw,
"Rejoice! All hail, sweet
Mary of the mothered uplands:
a rabbit runs on the face of a rock
in the sun of your smile."
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THE SCAPEGOATS IN THEIR MIDST
I saw
only my own flaw:
a significant break in the scheme of things.
The truth is I went down to the sheriff's office and
went mad.
I mean how can I ever forget that I went downtown and
went publically mad:
I never expected that.
Well I had been fasting again eating locusts and honey
sitting on a pole in the desert, good citizens don't
do that; but after all I'd fasted many a time, and
never had the magazines on the racks targeted me:
I never expected that.
I flee, am not free, my flaw pursues me behind the
wall, but the sheriff's office was
good about it all.
In fact, everyone downtown was good about it and when
I returned a week later saying see, the heathen no
longer rage, they were STILL good about it a ll; so
that I almost wonder
I mean if I didn't know better I'd think
they didn't notice.
I suppose they see this kind of thing every day
and have learned to have mercy on those who display
their sores, have learned in fact to be
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grateful for the scapegoats in their midst:
tamed goats, rank domesticated madmen who know the
law so much better than they do themselves.
Who know the law and have forged their own yokes:
citizens, prevent me from singing up the sun till it
explodes in the grandeur of my fiery voice.
Citizens, prevent me from falling into the pit of my
own premonition.
For we go up
and we come down,
run rampant on the free stones and break our bones
on the same scheme
of things.
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PERSIFLAGE
and flummery,
mimesis
and mummery:
all are the antics
of an ape.
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SUMMER'S FEET
Spring's feet are clay feet to urge up flags and daffodils. Fall's
feet are waxen dolls dressed up to charm drear chills. Of winter's
feet we need not speak, they're frozen, after all. But summer's
feet are choice and meet and barely touch the ground.
Summer ground is frayed and fine for any earthworm's crawl. Athousand fronded ferns and things fling off the sandman's thrall.
The sand has shells that show their pearl only to the summer sun.
The sea has fish who only flash their violent scales for summer's
gulls.
Summer can gull anyone, I think 'twas Shakespeare said. He said
it lying on his back, a bird took him for dead. "Alas? Poor
Yorick? You'll get burned if you stay out all day." "O piffle,
bird," replied the Bard, "I'll let you have your say." And,
yawning, William rose right up, to end his summer's day, on horseback, as
it happened, trotting round the bay.
Spring's feet are finely formed, fall's feet in wool are warmed,
winter's feet can mutely speak (but no one wants to listen).
But summer's feet are choice and meet and, touching ground, they
glisten.
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MI SEÑOR CLAVADO: MY LORD NAILED
Last Christmas you sent me the poems
of Neruda to his wife.
I loved them all but one
On the taking up of a gun
To save the general life.
I do not belong to them.
I can't take my eyes off them.
I keep looking up at them.
Only a year has passed,
But your silence is deeper than sin.
--Más tarde que sol bajando.
Later than setting sun.
--Darkness comes fast.
I do not belong to them.
I can't take my eyes off them.
I keep looking up at them.
Ex libris nihil(o) est.
--Is that Latin? Pig latin? Tell me.
From the book of life nothing has risen
To comfort the wedding guest,
Miss Haversham, done with her best.
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I do not belong to them.
I can't take my eyes off them.
I keep looking up at them.
Last Easter you sent me the prose
Of Pontius Pilate who posed
As a just judge in Israel.
I hated each weighted wordBut that one which pinpointed my Lord.
You belong in the heart of them.
Your eyes take no note of them
Nor look down any longer on me....
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SAD LASSITUDE
The Victorians were highly skilled
in writing about lassitude and self-indulgent passion.
They must have spent a good deal of time at the drawing board
on days like today: rain pelting down,
but not hard enough to be at all engaging,
chocolate candy bars snugly in the rotund little belly,a man doing income taxes reluctantly in the next room,
fire sizzling through wet logs,
dog asleep under a table.
Lassitude, lassitude:
hiss of grey water on grey windows,
grey wool sweaters drying here and there,
a grey tin of muffins waiting for the microwave.
Lassitude: and shall I never have the petulance for prose?
Lassitude: menses.
Lassitude: sinuses.
Lassitude: the wisdom tooth operation put off
in favor of a case of poison oak.
Lassitude, the Victorians, and me: a whole age
devoted to the fashioning of knickers
for indecent piano legs.
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INVISIBLE MAN (To Be Continued)
for Ariel Dorfman
The emperor's unclothed,
The scribe is blind,
The poet's batty, to boot.
The clown's profane,
The divine a clown:
Get down, señor, get down.
Bitterly complain
Professors inane
Of the toll inanity takes.
Bitterly cries
The desert rat:
It's thirst for this,
It's thirst for that.
And on greased wheels
The trainman cries,
"I miss," says he, "the
Unsullied skies
That used to be
Before I set forth
On my smoking spree."
"And I the sea
do sadly mourn,"
Complained the sailor
On his horn,
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A performing sax
(An obvious fact).
Invisibility is the bane
Of all below
Who follow Apollo.
It means I see
And am not seen.
A spy am I,Who should be
Queen
Of Medes and of Persians.
Instead I'm condemned
To endless
Excursions.
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BARNEY DEAR, BRING ON THE PAINT!
Please release your lovers.
Tell them to take a walk.
Tell them they've been supplanted.
Tell them I'm lying in shock.
Send them the names of available men.
Assure them you'll never marry.Tell them they've got till the count of ten.
Really they mustn't tarry.
Please oh please release those women.
Temptation's at my door.
If I have to stoop I'll have to fall.
And polygamy's such a bore.
Yes, such a crashing bore.
An awful unending chore.
It turns one into a
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saint.
(Barney, dear, bring on the paint!)
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COYOTE SPELL
Coyotito,
ancient craft
of slyness: trickster,
ease my path.
Place the magicon my tongue.
Coyotito,
make me young
Enough to snare
the Hunter's foot,
enough to know
to tear his boot.
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MORTUARY MUSIC FOR MOTHER NATURE
Nature is a dirge.
All occurs post-valediction:
The centurions, cedars draped to the gills in bad mistletoe;
The pipsqueaks, piñones fresh and hopelessly mating in
Cinder soil;
The others, jays (yep true Pynchon) "stomping around on theRoof" and stealing food from
Productive hens.
The silence of a precedent (predeceased and precious) idea
Is not a dirge
But our poor old Papa, our
God our paper state soliciting
Rebellion.
The two? Too close to disorder to satisfy
Many fan dancers, most editors, all
Of us who hope
That Nature will relent,
Repent
Of that sort of caretaking she
Requires.
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DISARMED
What do we do
With the wild pendant howl
Of the mercy-till-now
Brigade?
(Hear them calling, "Holpen!Holpen! Holpen!"
Hear them calling, "Holpen!")
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A PITY
Humane lawyers bid us have compassion on
emaciated hulks in the drinkers' hotels.
These as often as not do not ask our attention,
being sunk in the glow of decrepitude,
blood satisfaction of blood needs:honest because no vice is beyond them,
warm because it is cold.
And we cannot bear that they should go free.
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POEM MADE UP WHILE DREAMING I WAS DRINKING WHISKEY WITH
A MEN'S CHORUS
Powder is a shrouder,
But diamonds reveal.
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THE JOB
A transparent elixir
whose job is to persevere
falls to the nib of the bottle.
Who said the heavy alcohol
had such a fate?
I
I
I, whose job it is to fall to the nib of
transparency.
(Oh really now, too coy for us to call our own!)
Says who?
I
I
I, the job whose transparency
is bottled by fate,
for perseverance's
sorry sake.
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HABITUATION
When God taught woman to think,
He never thought she'd do it.
But now he don't even blink,
He's got so accustomed to it.
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NEIGHBORS
Interior Monologue's Witty Turn
Was Made Flesh
By a Buzzing
Fly
Whilst the Rude EncumbranceOf Outer Worlds
Was Beat upon Beat
Of Bedtime Stereos;
Speakers on All Sides,
Crushing Last-Ditch Silence,
No Treble
Audible.
And of Resolution between the Two,
The Awaited End to the Poem,
There Was None;
Though the Soothing Burr
Of Neighbors' Pipes
Reminded Me of
Water.
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AND POINTS NORTH
I'm proud of my isolation.
You'd never guess how the wind blows
here in the lap of natural beauty--
how desolate is its universal judgment
and how pristine.
I'm quite alone. There's no one near
save a Mexican cowherd on the horizon. -- Though one never knows
how many sit in suburbia
(off to the west there)
fixing frybread with white flour
and lard.
But a man like you: I'm pretty sure he will have made his peace
by now, will have turned to profit the pride of a peripheral
stance.
They learned to love the scorn in your voice, I'll bet--those
colleagues who almost pushed you out.
They find it charming, now.
I've been reading your books, of course. First I skim to see
If you pass muster politically. If in your youth you had failed
to cast a sympathetic eye upon the reprobate,
I mean if even in your youth you'd been comfortable,
I'd lose the will to read on. Second, I read the juicy parts
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such as they are, closely, to refresh my memory.
It is as I suspected: you've never been touched.
Exultation fills me at a sentence in your preface claiming your
wife did everything in her power to aid in the composition
which except for her might not have been possible.
"Might," cur? Wouldn't! No, never.
I realize I'm a fool to take heart at this sentence. Possibly you
composed it unconsciously. Your wife is my sister, we sharedone caul. I could not ask for a better twin. Still...it's
such a BAD book.
The wind blows the fire out. You will not, I suppose, have
known such desolation. Dear Minister:
My name is Emily. I'm an academic in exile. (Tautology.)
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Being female, I'm called housewife. Gudwyfe. -Old Maid, in
a way. Slavery is a woman's due, you know: and even an academic
in exile, if female, can always serve
and so preserve the flame.
The flame itself, I mean.
When the stripes of my servitude have been scars for long enough,
when the last idol has fallen and every father is dead,
then I'll become a Woman Poet. Do you remember back when I
was an up-and-coming famous philosopher, a radical reformist?
I survived. Do you remember when I was interesting?
Proud now of quietude and girth. You, simmering lotus stews
in the isles of the blest, might still, last face, drive me
--to the Yukon. Yes, for it has a watershed of 333,000 square
miles. It lies silent when the air is seventy below. It
cracks, breaking the sound barrier every spring, stranding caribou
on the murderous melting islands of itself.
I am sorry. I try not to wax lyrical. I have tasted once
too often the pleasure of offending you with the pretense that
what I write could by any stretch be called poetry. A general
rhythm merely.
I am not a talking women with cold blue thighs. Here in the
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Yukon, we're expected to skin out moose without a word, make
it into mooseburgers, convert the thews to strong thread,
for use.
We're expected to forget about salads and chocolate eclairs,
vegetarianism in general. I know my place.
Have you, going so gravely there about your business, ever,
in imagination even,
seen who dies to sew your cloak? My words are to my own earsthe croaking of a frog at best. My throat hurts. A chunk of
Yukon ice is lying on my living breast.
I'm leaving soon, any day now, for the river.
You'd better hurry.
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GIFTED
"Please don't dream of me," he wrote,
"I've seen before where it leads."
Well it wasn't as if I'd invited the dream.
I hadn't thought of him in years. But here he'd come, so like
himself, so clear in the night.
I had to write and tell him.
Don't dream of me.
But vision was exhausted soon enough and a human friendship came
with soon enough the old confusion/stagnation/longing/
barges passing in a moonless void
till
"Things not good," he wrote.
Things not good.
So I went in to dream again, and perhaps this time I invited
his shadow.
I hadn't been waiting at the corner long,
hardly time enough to gather my parcels and umbrella about me,
when he appeared, not late, strolling with a quiet smile.
"You're on time," I said, shocked. He shrugged lightly and
passed on.
So, forgive me. I've dreamed.
Twice.
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But no number is conclusive.
I sat before the fire,
and watched each log run to etched embers and precisely die.
Three words filled my mind, the title of a book I'd never read.
Three words rose and fell in senseless repetition.
The book arrived next Friday, bound and branded by that very
title.
He'd sent it over my protest that I wanted no more books,could educate myself. From eight hundred miles away, he'd
watched the fire
and disobeyed.
The book is a holy artifact. And a blind man's curse. I must not
read it. I'll send it back. It laughs, it weeps, it
dreams of me.
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THE THROWBACK
And here is a trio of brown boys.
One is the savage.
The others are smart
and gab away
but the savage looks at the white woman,
slyly.No matter that he is young.
He's bold
and throws rocks.
He is a throwback;
in his parents the move
away from the past
toward American
civilization
is marked by assumption of the clean
Protestant
religion.
The woman, long cloyed
with the dark side of decency,
talks with the two
good boys.
Her back is turned to the
savage.
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POEM ABOUT A PAPERWEIGHT
This is a gift
For _______ ____.
His stinger's not been pulled.
And though his ass is under glass,
It's not because he's old.
Oh no, the noble Scorpio
Can sting you high and
Sting you low.
And if you are a trifle gross,
He'll sting you with his Adiós.
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THE SACRIFICE
spirits who love me call up at one thirty to ask why i'm never
um stable steady or secure
and hesitantly inform me people are dancing in the streets tonight.
go to LA, I say.
other spirits who love me hinge debates on my earlobes,
mutual efforts in speechmaking and oh what a thrill.
the typewriter is poison, burn it.
the prescriptive temper reigns we squirm in its grasp and are still.
all this i give up for you.
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TO THE MOUSEY TRANSCENDERS AND PLEASURE CONTENDERS
A peak's a peak--
(A peek's a peek)
(A peke's a peke)
(A peak's a peek)
(A peek's a peak)
(A peke's a peak)(A peek's a peke)
(A pique's a pique)
(A pique's a peak)
(A pique's a peek)
(A peak's a pique)
(A peek's a pique)
(A peke's a pique)
Why squeak?
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SOBRE LA MAR
The anger of the fishermen
Followed me like a hook of darkness
But the poet
Was a bad influence.
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PASSIVE RESISTANCE
A white hawk, poised, with eyes of blue
and a silver beak, peaks in its flight,
and falls, straitly,
to the ground.
The mouse is gray with eyes of gray.It stops stock still, at the very entrance to its hole,
but does not go in.
It looks at the hawk.
Now a mad dog dashes at its prey, fangs swathed in
awful foam. But a hawk is not a mad dog, it has the
noble nature.
With sheathed claws the hawk grasps the mouse.
The mouse quivers, it blinks its gray eyes, it
looks at the hawk.
The hawk drops the mouse and rises straitly
through clouds already gathered, massed light, moist,
moving.
Up toward the sun where it started from flies the hawk,
on its mighty white wings.
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BLIZZARD
The dog looked sad.
Well, dogs are supposed to.
Prescience of death was an old worn habit for the dog,
white of muzzle and dressed in a reddening coat
a long way from the sable sheen of puppyhood.
One elbow was bald: the dog's owner couldn't bear to look too closely
to see if there was still skin on itor if this was the bare bone it appeared to be.
There were benefits to old age, though:
the years of training had come to a perfection which was
on most days
almost sublime.
The dog threatened intruders with a dusky frightening growl.
He walked the miles of forest at heel, except when roving
between rabbit den and coyote's must, prairie dog village and the
last landing place of some jay already squawking high above
in the branches of a yellow pine.
When his owner drove into town in a white International pickup
the dog waited on a hill of dirt, dominating the scene.
Afterwards he greeted her as if absence had broken his heart.
Can dogs act?
One day they went for a walk in what started as a minor snowflurry.
Piñones and pines were dusted for a Christmas-tree effect.
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Little discrete patches of snow failed to cover clumps of
weed. The woman and the dog climbed a cinder hill in snow-laden
joyful horizontal flashes of wind.
The dog sniffed the wind as he ran in his wide circles.
But at the summit of the hill a harder wind hit,
blinded them,
froze their hair,
stuck the woman's jeans to her thighs.
It was suddenly a blizzard.Flight to the south side of the hill, usually a clement dell,
brought no respite.
The woman, back to the wind, descended sideways, tripping, falling
on loose rock gone invisible under snow.
She stumbled to the bottom, the dog sheltered in the lee of her
legs.
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The walk back to the truck was quick and grim.
The dog was loaded in back, and almost immediately they were
on a prairie swept bare.
The sun was shining, here.
Turning back her eyes, the woman thought death by exposure
in that slight overcast patch there on the hill
ridiculously remote.
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HERESY OF JEALOUSY
The hardest thing on earth to see:
Thee, not damned to others,
Damned for me.
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LET JONES DO IT
A prisoner sits handcuffed in the dock
standing trial for his brother's crime.
"Ahem," coughs the lawyer, scratching his hocks,
"you expect me to defend you for a lousy dime?"
"I've a wife and children to support at home
and I dabble on the side in philanthropy.
And no doubt you deserve this just for being his kin--
you yourself are to blame for the shape you're in.
--Let Counselor Jones take the case."
A woman lies bleeding in your backyard,
a victim of misogyny.
And she'll bear her scars till the day she dies--
"Oh please," you exclaim, "don't put it on me!"
"I'm a good-hearted doctor and I give to the poor
and I'm popular too with the girls.
But my specialty is diseases of the eye,
and I won't be casting the swine my pearls.
--Let Dr. Jones see her."
A forest has been felled by a developer's axe--
the corpses cover the ground.
People write to the county with their temperatures up
and the county makes a conciliatory sound:
"We are servants of the people and we see your side,
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but there's plenty of pine trees left.
The guy owned that parcel, so our hands are tied:
to deprive him of his rights would constitute theft.
--Why don't you take your grievance to the Jones Commission?"
In the meantime, back on a dusty lane,
poor Jones sits burning the midnight oil.
The full moon rises and shines through his pane,
and he pauses a moment in his weary toil.
He walks outside just to take a leak,
and he presses his fists into the small of his back:
"My mind must be getting a little weak--
I just thought I heard the firmament crack!
--Well, I suppose I'll just have to patch it up."
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REVENGE
Just howl again, ghost.
Just howl again and I'll remember--
Remember like a shot the turn of loamy river waters waded
By you and me in a summer nightmare.
-By me, that is, wading through mosquitoes with a fancy in myhead
Of naked emperors on empty thrones--
Vowing that the connections I conceived should
Be recognized at last though no one could ever suppose them to
Be true.
Be true, ghost, and howl louder, else you shall fade.
-Shall fade THIS ghost, my father's prouder arm?
Just howl, ghost, just howl up through the oaks and
Headlights piercing the fog where it is usually
Night.
And I seemed to remember how he walked in another
Wood, which I had seen but twice and that by trying.
I seemed however to hear a tone come belling up the glen
And in that tone was the sonorous lament of a king among
Men.
But I could not avenge wrongs I myself had done him.
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I was losing my hearing, upon which I so depended, and I
Begged him to howl, to howl louder, to howl.
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HEAL THYSELF
You are buried in your office under a mound of manners.
Only your eyes stick out.
They look like the bright glued-on eyes of an old-fashioned
doll,
and oh how they gleam in your dark.
You are so scornful
( you probly think this poem is about you )
of the gaps in your own knowledge
manifested as matters other people unaccountably
insist on.
You guess your bigotry is a kind of
bulwark,
a shelter in the time of storm.
Thorn in my side,
bold stumblingblock:
don't abandon me in the morass.
Throw down your prescription pad
for the briefest of moments
and listen to what the sick have to say.
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TO HER COY MASTER, THE OBSERVER
Had we but world enough, and time,
This coyness, sir, would be no crime.
But I'm growing weaker day by day,
For you've got nothing more to say.
I've stolen lines, I'm getting brash,
I'll hit the bottle, have a bash.
For you're so cruel in your timidity,
You've driven me to gross cupidity
And greed. I knock on doors, I pound my Bible.
I write strange letters, am guilty of libel.
I feel your betrayal from miles away,
Oh you've got nothing at all to say.
What is it now? Is it your Wife
Or Mistresses who hold you fast?
Or are you weary of this poor life,
So sad that love can never last?
No doubt that's it. You're mired in guilt
And will not take another bite.
You ascend the scaffold that you built
To save you from a cursed plight.
"Death before dishonor," you write.
The very dogs of the streets can smell
That I'm a thing betrayed.
They circle round, they watch me well;
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They bare their fangs, rejoicing that I'm so afraid.
They strike, I scream, "Call off your dogs!"
The house is silent. Again they strike, they form a gang.
I escape with my life, but that's all, it would seem.
This wouldn't have happened had you just stayed
By my side.
For, all betrayed, I am your bride;
I have my white dress, my pink shoes.
I sit at the line of the turning tideAnd sing those lonesome blues.
I sit with my suitcase and sing,
I sing the livelong day.
For what have I got to lose?
Oh what have I got
to lose.
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CHEERS
as the frogs on the roof sound in unison i
offer you schnapps
and the snap of the re-ordained orison
sounds
redounds
to the glory that was rome,at home.
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TO THE SEVEN MAYORS OF MAMMON
Lay down your silver spears,
Doff your sharp Italian boots,
Forget that stuff on assured security:
All is forgiven.
Open wide your prison doors,Empty your bags of magic tricks.
And please don't use the united news:
It's spring, on earth.
The Huns aren't camped beneath your bed.
Humpty Dumpty's fixed his head.
In the ancient fires they're baking bread:
Take, eat.
You're not wizards with eyes of ice;
You slipped up once and acted nice.
And you'll all die poor: come, shake the dice,
See how they fall.
I say you'll lose one-half your wealth
In the nick of time: a tax on stealth.
And for wishing ill on those who love,
You'll pay, and soon
By seeing your tears from the face of the moon
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Fall, plummeting down like the hunted dove.
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CRITIC'S TIC TALKED OVER
You hit me with a bludgeon,
I sighed and stubbed my toe.
You're such an old curmudgeon!
You cause me so much woe.
You swear I won't succeed.I guess you ought to know.
But I've another creed
That makes the high the low.
Just look into the starry sky:
A boring black and white.
Now, pause and blink your staring eye
(That bleary, teary, wearing eye):
Behold the endless light!
Observe the matchless sight
And lay down your red pencil.
For though you're awfully bright,
You tend to try to stencil
The stars upon the sky by rote.
It can't be done. You miss the note
Of grandeur God intended
To sound unsuperintended
By men who cannot make
Even a reasonable fake
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Or facsimile
Of this infinity.
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TO E.A. UPON HIS REFUSAL TO RESPOND MORE FULLY
I had a dear old auntie
Who sent me gifts each year
On Christmas, birthday, Easter
Till I began to fear
That if she did not stop it,
Beneath that flood I'd drown.
And so I wrote, "Dear Lady, I
Pray thee send no more;
For you mistake a mouse's squeak
For a lion's lusty roar
And besides, in your profusion,
You've grown to be a bore."
Well, that took care of that, I thought,
For feast days came and went
Without a sign from Auntie.
At last I thought I might relent
And drop her just a note
Inquiring on her lot.
"I'm glad you asked," she wrote,
"For I've been saving up some things
I thought you'd need some day.
I'll send them off tomorrow,
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And nephew, by the way:
If something doesn't fit you,
Just pass it down the line;
For probably your neighbor
Will think it fits him fine."
I read her letter with a sigh
And hailed a hobo passing by.
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THE ANCIENT ONES? HE ASKS THE PEOPLE, THEY REPLY
A back-country reticence is getting him.
He knows the Navajos now.
He's riding behind them in his truck
down a long mountain to the high desert,
and he's not saying a thing just looking
at a cinder cone, old volcano up ahead.It's solid, one color, immoveable, untreed,
untried.
He realizes it's awfully elegant in Paris these days, hears
there's a literary scene again and everyone's brilliant
again.
But he's fallen, by a stroke of luck, back into the Old West.
They help each other out sometimes there (it's a tradition)
and sometimes they don't,
but you know they rarely rhapsodize while they're about it.
The bashful buttons on his school shirts have long torn away.
Fate's put him up against broad brown faces.
Anasazi? he asks.
Dineh, they reply.
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HARBINGERS
Crickets,
birds of the night,
bite the too-deep silence
with sharp wings.
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AN ESSAY ON IMPOTENCE
I think,
therefore
I am NOT.
Descartes was underconfident:
dared not state the opposite of his theorem.
Had he,
advice to the insanewould have improved
by leaps and bounds.
But since the insane need advice least of all,
it was fortunate
Descartes stopped
where he did.
The mad head is the one with a large
bump
somewhere.
Freud and his afterword Nobby
teach us how to view
the overdeveloped brain
in the light of Jonathan Swift.
Excess is an extrusion
and our heads are all too big.
However, we will now
be sane.
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We will guide our increasingly spastic movements with an
iron will
and emerge strong,
live long,
and prosper quietly on the sidelines.
Most of the time.
The acceleration of energy which fills those few momentswhen we cannot control
(sink within the capacious brain)
ourselves,
blasts townships from off the face of the earth.
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When in doubt, go do the dishes.
Do them again, three times for good measure.
--Why, ladies are eschewing all over the place,
doing the dishes thrice. Little do they guess
what daddy is doing:this long hunk of helium filling a barn lies coiled
just beyond the kitchen curtains.
Daddy is tired of waiting.
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UNSUBMITTED
I like ducks,
like white flannels,
like my luck
in swimming channels.
But how can Ibear the boredom
of this long
surcease from whoredom?
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SPRING SLAUGHTER
They're cutting up the cow
now.
So what, so what.
I'm tired and beat,
the old man looks up as I pass,
forever expectingmore and more,
worse than a child.
The cow was a cow just hours ago,
then they stuck it and took off the skin.
It hangs from a scaffold, beige in the sun,
smooth under clouds,
tall.
They stand on ladders, the three bold men:
shamed, exalted, doing a job.
They slit its guts and catch them in tubs.
Smoke rises, the clouds gather.
I go out for my constitutional jog,
don't labor for meat,
don't eat it, but I
am the cow myself,
now.
The killers,
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meat-eaters,
take on its flesh,
and I,
the abstainer who came
with a wad of grass once
to feel the rough tongue,
remember.
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MISCEGENATION
A blueblood a
redblood a
blend of purple passion:
why has the adding of
apples and oranges
gone so out of fashion?
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TABBY TRANSACTION
A female feline from Salinas
Was constantly coming between us
Till I in my ire
Found someone to buy 'er
Who pronounced her a veritable Venus.
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B.S.
Threw a rod in Santa Rosa--
Fate has brought us that much closer.
For I'd never deign to call
If I didn't slip in al-
Most all my earthly ventures.
You're a scorpion, I'm a crab.
Both of us equipped to grab.
But the difficulty lies
In this deity which pries
Prizes from our pincers.
I'll journey back across the miles,
Frowns eclipsing sudden smiles....
If as a poet I'm not stunning,
Maybe it's because I'm running
From this barren bastard punning
To the arms of
BURMA SHAVE!
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APPEAL TO THE NAVAJOS
Diné bizaad bóhoosh'aah. (I am learning the Navajo language.)
Shí ká anilyeed. (You help me. LIT: You are running with me.)
SHIKA ANILYEED.
We're both well aware that my ancestors
stole this land from your ancestorsand I don't expect you to sit down and smile about it.
But I beg you not to come riding around my trailer
with your torches:
come riding out of the night in your paint and your feathers
laying waste to my livestock and my women.
Da'nimásáníí sh hóló? (Do you have a grandmother?)
Da'nimásáníí sh bidibé hóló? (Does your grandmother have sheep?)
Nimá yázhí sha' bidebé hóló? (How about your aunt: does she have sheep?)
NICHEII DOO NAMASANIISH BIDEBE HOLO? (Do your grandfather and
grandmother have sheep?)
Both sides of that old war
are long dead now.
My grandfather died five years ago at eighty-nine.
He knew all there is to know about animals,
about the heat and the cold.
Only, the land he worked wasn't his.
All his life he was tenant farmer to
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another richer white man
who got there first.
He died blind in both eyes,
but his arms were robust.
He looked like your old grandfather, now past ninety:
wise stubborn face, invincible nose and jaw, lean.
He even wore a hat like your grandfather's,
only it was brown not black,and he wore overalls and his hair was short.
I miss him. He taught me how to play the fiddle
by ear: now my son has that fiddle.
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I come from generations of relocated peoples
to this land.
I am quiet, waiting for the day when men again will walk
with respect upon the earth, our home:when men of every race will lie gently as babes at their
mother's breast.
The land is mother to us both. For I am an Indian pulling
corn, and you are a Norwegian out digging
potatoes.
Let us not forget that again so soon.
Diné bizaad bóhoosh'aah.
Shí ká anilyeed.
SHIKA ANILYEED.
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ODD BIRDS
"Misery loves company," the bold bird said
and took to burning papers in her bed.
Old paper men
in divine paper ties
squinted at her tirelesslyin quaint mild surprise.
"Oh, yessirree it do, ma'am," they spoke without a flinch.
"A good glass of ale and a nice spitfire wench."
"Yes, misery loves company," she said with subtle ease.
"Come hither then and test it.
Don't stand there and tease."
Tease
Tease
Tease
On
Ancient
Bended
Knees
Knobs
Of Bony
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Penitence
Monotone
Wheeze
Overbold souls fly sudden from their beds,
Flinging little treasures
On odd birds' heads.
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POEM FOR WALLY
"There is nothing hidden
that shall not be made known."
(My fear,
your grace.)
The face of the councillor,
medium-high councillor,
shone in the cold council room.
Ruddy, black-browed,
a Saxon bass rumbling of
savages at their unimaginable
games of chance: you'd better
not be caught strumming
threnodies on their
thresh-hold, better not be
caught in some poet's stance
hanging around there half in
another world.
Caught, I stared hard
at the face of the councillor,
expecting to be knocked
back on my heels by the shine,
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the shine....
But it was a cold whitefaced bishop preaching
a sermon on loaves and fishes,
a man about town touting
gravity and glut.
(My grace, your fear.)
His brow was hid in a heavy cloud.
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POEM FOR BERND
When we got home
to our garret--
Stumbled through the door--
We heard the squawk of our pet parrot,
Ez, a bachelor.
We must admit he gave us hell,
Not for the wine (though we now forswear it).
Oh no. He said, "On your breaths I smell
The distinctive eau de carrot."
He went into a huff, turned his back,
And since then has said not a word.
Like the needle in the proverbial stack,
It's hard to find a bird
With an adequate sense
Of the absurd.
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HEAVY LIES THE HAND
Heavy lies the hand
upon my honor in a land beyond the pale of
common discourse.
Common day
is dawning o'er the bandof clever men who will
maraud
and lay to waste
in careless haste
the work of God.
For God's a word
to them; the sound of horses' hooves, their
streaming steeds,
drowns out and mocks
all softer sounds,
all lighter deeds.
Hearty sounds the roll
of trumpets. Evening falls.
The spoils of war
are lying on the ground.
In dust and blood my honor lies;
a warhound bays,
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and quiet drops down from the smoke-filled sky,
and then the smoke disperses.
And heavy lies the hand
of victory upon the conquered head,
upon the
dead.
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WINTER ROSE
"Spring has faded from the earth:
you are springtime in my soul."
Are these oversanctimonious tones?
reminiscent of Grandmother's Bible,
scented with remorse and lilac sachet?
Spring has faded from the earth.
Look down at the desert, spare land
shrouded in smog, flecked with
discarded beer cans.
Look up at the thick night stars:
they are moving in man-prodded orbits,
beaming down delicate messages
about military installations.
You are springtime in my soul.
I claim my right to every inch of you:
courtly hands folded on a walking stick,
smooth faintly shimmering head,
the pillow on your bed,
shabby books on your shelf,
daughters of your loins,
enemies, all senile,
paychecks,
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night sweats,
old yellow car.
I claim my right to the depths of your refusal,
and my right to say it as it lays:
haphazard, mysterious, nudged by nothing
but the clumsy and cardinal
out of time
bud.
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SUBSTANCE ABUSE
Smooth sleep of the poppies,
Petal tip touching petal
Tip-toeing the line to heady oblivion.
On the blond right angles of a 1950's
Davenport,Redding California heavy moonlight
Passes through slats, falling
On a striped cat on a jade
Green carpet:
All so very up-to-date and modular,
Arranged for the barretted girl with her
Case of the mumps and her Woolworth's ruby
Bracelet on the thin left wrist.
The liquid sun is about to rise.
Opium extractors are moving
Limpidly up through the rows,
Knowing the petals will fall
Open now.
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DAILY BREAD
"A soft answer turneth away wrath,"
lied the holy prophet,
for a woman roiling in anger in his back room
could not stand his hushed recalcitrance,
his well-contained ire.
"Better fire and brimstone," she thought,but he kept prognosticating.
Clover-fed calves loll in the
mythically green meadow,
their mothers standing loyally
chewing overhead.
Pastoral, we call cows
when we want to make something of it.
The amiable answer the mother gave her cowchild
was heard in every sentient auto passing.
The pure poetry arising from her multiple stomach
found echo in our gaskets and turning wheels.
(Every travel scene should include these animals.)
The prophet busied himself
with the labor he had stolen
from the woman,
who had intended to do it all.
She hulked sullenly
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over what menial tasks he had left her:
the arts and the dishes.
It was not an ideal scheme,
but it did stoke the fiery juices
they used for sauce
on their daily bread.
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LOST FACE
The face was faded fey
With all around grown gross,
But it had had its way--
And doubt it not.
There was no blame nor sin;The face would never boast.
When viewed by varied men,
It doubted not.
The eye looked out and saw
Its own, a pearly shell.
If beauty was its law,
It doubted not.
For heaven far away
The body was a hell:
But mind held singing sway--
It doubted not.
The lips were caught by sleep:
They rode like rising birds.
The ear soon sounded sleep--
It doubted not.
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The face was faded fey,
Most mortal flawed by words,
For it had lost its way--
But doubt it not.
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REGISTER
Where the customer is hiding
And the shopgirl wears a mask,
There's a message more abiding:
We are taken all to task.
I have learned to keep my back turnedTo the world's noise and news.
While I practice how to seem spurned
I have lost the will to choose.
In your pocket's paper treasure
And the ring of my machine
Lies the microscopic measure:
WE could never be so keen.
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IF A MAN ASK FOR BREAD, WILL YOU GIVE HIM A STONE?
The boy stood on the burning deck
When all around had fled.
A sailor sighed and begged a sip;
The boy presented gingerbread.
"Why do you taunt me, I who thirst?"The sailor cried, aflame.
"To strengthen you," replied the boy,
"In God's immortal game!"
Then fell the sailor down to die,
Consumed in seething wind.
"Forgive him, Father," quoth the boy,
"He must, I guess, have sinned."
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P.M.
You wouldn't want to speak in a
whisper, unpuissant,
in the evening light,
would you?
No you wouldn't want to pinyour unchanged hopes on the remnant
of a dream if it really were
evening.
You have more sense even yet.
You cling instead to
what speaks in calm tones
in the lighted rooms.
You remain certain your
mind has a breadth to it which
couldn't let you down.
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SWEET TE DEUM
Sweet te deum: by a particular arrangement of wires and pulleys
the orator is connected
to a regular mob
of isolated technicians.
He admits it freely as it isn't his fault.
And a life of idolatry has turned his subjectsinto Pinocchios all,
so they don't mind.
He speaks, and kingdoms sleep;
crowned heads swoon.
His mother stands weight on one foot
still in the old human style
drying her reddened knuckles in the sunset.
Garbage wafts its ether body on the breeze.
She sighs under a lightbulb
and returns to the unpeeled potato.
Sweet te deum: a phenomenon so familiar by now
that it no longer grates
on the poor raped pate
of his father.
Now are his children required to rinse crumbs from the banquet plates.
They are puling and moaning,
calves who would drink the rich new cream
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saved especially for crumpets.
Their tongues are not precisely golden.
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THE WARLORD
(Being the earliest written poem in this book.)
Paving the way for rapture
Came the warlord to his doom.
Raving always of capture
He return'ed to his womb.
And silent now he wanders,
Swords of song his only guide.
And swiftly now he wanders,
For he has no time to bide.
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SHH SHINY SIR DON'T
Shh shiny sir don't
come creeping up the way between the vines.
I've loosed myself from the temptation of temptation,
a sterile treat,
a warlock's teat.
I'm through with all your howling in the void.
He kept on creeping, hat in hand;
a tear stood on his cheek.
"You've missed my motive altogether, ma'am,"
he said and looked down at the ground, so meek.
"I've grown into a ghost for lack of love
and all my words are winded back upon me
like a shroud. Touch me once, and I shall live...."
I turned and fled. I faced the sun and ran. I ran
into the arms of quite another man.
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THE DIFFERENCE BEING
Kenneth Burke and Marx call for
"socialization of losses," meaning that
I am not the only victim of this
terrible this terrible
but belong to a class.
Someone else likewise respectable
whose name I forget
speaks of the whore par excellence
who has developed a system of parasitism
which gets her through.
I being none of the above
three famous men
say the first way is much the same as the second way:
the way of the politician in burnished tophat
who spreads the burden around
is the way of the slipshod woman
who spreads the burden around:
the only difference being that the first way requires
a state to administer it,
whereas the second way inspires
a mere
weak single
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survival.
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COMMON DAY
I've come round, you see, and lost my luster
To the dust of place, your home: home.
You're right: I really write on bathroom walls,
I scrawl my soul for every caller.
Where is high phi los o phie?And where the highborn scourge I chose
To cloak me from that common day
Which covers o'er the scorned?
Round to a need for cheaper wine--
Yet more! Yet cheaper! Bring it on, I
Only run in secret when you
Hide your eyes, a grace
Bestowed.
But woe, woe, to the final hour--
I would not flower more, no more.
I would not spend my coin to prove
I have no need of money.
"Why listen, lady, didn't you know I've watched you from my tower?"
I felt your eyes, but only eyes: they froze the sullen bower.
The state's fate is my fate: it's Calif. do-or-die.
From his tower he spied my soul and said, "Lady,
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You lie."
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THE PRESERVATIONISTS
Multitudes of suns
still shine in universes we have not destroyed.
Lesser multitudes of swirling worlds
bask in their light,
and I don't want you to forget that;
no, I want you to remember on the darkest night of the yearthat we have pillaged only this one little planet.
And I want you to take a certain consolation.
You and I had no idea in our aboriginal childhood, our primeval
cradle,
that we would grow up to occupy ourselves
with whispering to the deaf
(shaking the dead leaf from a banyan tree).
--Would use our opposable thumbs to fashion
words
while our enlarged brains burned to extinction
through the long evenings of winter.
--Would turn out metaphysical copy for this sole purpose:
to save a single world.
"Here," said de Tocqueville, the traveller, lost in the world
of an American thicket:
"Here man seems to enter life
furtively." De Tocqueville deferred to the woods, for he
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heard what was not there:
the chainsaw,
the bulldozer,
the crash of a hydraulic nozzle blasting gold
from out the bowels,
from out the veins,
of the earth.
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I, too, have gone out to the badlands
of creation,
trod heavyfooted up into the badlandsof my skull,
clasping my mantle about me;
yea, to the murky caverns.
--Have gone there and there found
bones, the ponderous bones of mastodons who slept,
dreamless,
at the feet of descending glaciers.
But I have camouflaged my tracks, for the relics I unearth
are signs and sacred and not
collector's items.
But while I stray, ruminating on remains, you, no doubt,
thrive.
You are blithe, spirit, bird: thou never wert
in flight descried
along the bed of a river
threading down from the laps of these
local
last hills. (Hail.)
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I expect the summer cicadas will be droning soon in your
neck of the woods. Here it is almost always
winter,
and when at last the meadowlark returns,
when he serenades on the wooden post rotting away on a
scant barbless corner of unturned sod,
I recall the keenness of the blizzard,
and I take a private, out-of-season hope from the sleet.
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Oh yes, I like spring
like anyone
but after three or four weeks of it I dust off my
Yukon books. There it is quite often winter:
there the grizzly is theendangered species: the grizzly and the
wolf.
-Here it is the coyote and the hawk,
but not you, bird, who dips and flees now
to the river.
("Dip your finger in the water, come and cool my tongue")
Though I at least am too parched by now to be a
voice crying in the canyonlands,
("for I'm tormented in the flame.")*
banished as I am to dry-farm a low-income lot
with a view.
..........
And the holy prophet, hoary with years, rose up.
And he pulled his robes about him. His mouth was hard,
his eye fixed 'neath a spectral and noble brow.
And he wept not, neither did he reap.
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"First of all, throw your typewriters upon the
pyre," quoth he. "Ye shall use war no more, nor metal,
nor petrol, nor any nonrenewable resource.
Electricity of course shall be the first to go. Sow not
the whirlwind: you get what you
desire. And for pity's sake, ye that have ears, hear me:
don't play with fire."
Are you listening, Lowland Boy? He said to throw thetypewriters on first. He said,
"He that saves his own sphere
will lose any world at all."
..........
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We squint out through the billowing smoke.
We hear the fearful cry rise up from the river
and smell singed flesh.
You be first, soothsayer. You just please be
first.
*Spiritual, arranged by Jester Hairston
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HOP ON THAT
Who but an old Navajo
lady saw me spit on the
Zombie's car?
O it has a tiger in its
tank all right a foldedcertificate on its back
seat a scorpion decal a Dade
County (dreadful Dade County)
plate & it's a
funeral car all right, a car they sing
dirges in all along the Gulf
Coast they're singin
OM old bloodman
OM old dead head burnin rubber 'cause
you ain't got no soul.
Burnt-out peasant crone might've seen me step
on that horseshoe set into the sidewalk in
front of the Bourbon Street Bar, hop on that
horseshoe there you can go over & step on it
yourself only the voodoo luck don't hold so good the
second time around.
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So in essence it's 2 old crones done spit on your
car: one in secret one in the open watch
out Zombie whose name you're takin in
vain I mean Lincoln you might have
shot him once but you won't shoot him twice oh
no. We ladies are speakin for Lincoln he's
no one the likes of you can drive. He said government
of the people by the people for the
people shall not perish from the earth.
You're pretty fancy all right all right but
I'm the one you're after & I say you're not people,
you don't live on earth,
a Zombie was never even
born.
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THE ILLEGAL ALIEN
In the sixty fifth year of my father Manuel's life,
he set forth on foot for the north, for the border and for
the land of opportunity.
Urged to stay at home with his children and grandchildren,
he replied that he could read signs, that to leave was
his only choice.
My father Manuel put a pack upon his back and carried the staff
of wood well-polished by his hands since the day he pulled a
sapling at the age of fourteen. The staff sprouted leaves
the first season after it was cut
but no more.
He set off without looking back. I followed him for a mile.
He must have scented me (my father Manuel has a good nose).
But he never looked and I threw myself on the ground under a tree
and hid my eyes in cool fallen leaves.
My father was out of sight when I raised my head and then I turned,
I had to turn back to my mother and brothers.
By the time I arrived it was already as if he had been gone a
year. I went to bed and when I prayed
(Pray for me, St. Jude)
I promised that when I came of age I would follow upon my father's
tracks, until I found him in the north.
I closed my eyes and I dreamed of his journey, that night and
every night: dreamed it until I knew I would find him when my
turn came to set forth.
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I closed my eyes and saw my father Manuel stopping by a field
and holding out dry grasses to a white burro.
Burrito blanco y bello, with long pale lashes and a hard bone
in the nose which my father rubbed.
The animal said neither yes nor no, while my father scratched
its head and looked carefully to the right and to the left.
My father turned and looked behind.
Then he entered the pasture and cut the tether from the burro'sfront feet with his knife. He swung his leg over the burro's
back and grasped it by the mane and the burro walked along the
road, heading north.
I saw this clearly.
Ladrón! I whispered and crossed myself and forgave my father, the
thief Manuel, and awakened to the song of sparrows in the oleander bushes
under my window.
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LIFE IN A BOWL OF LIGHT
Passed over Dead River.
Saw an old Model A Ford
crushed and rusting
in the scrub
by an arroyo
under winter afternoon scudding sun.
If you take this land
you must take the settled melancholy of its afternoons
and its rabbit-hunted
(coyote-haunted)
nights.
You must accept also the resurrection of sunrise.
Life in a bowl of light
has long passed over the happenstance death
of each humble thing hugging its rim.
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RATHER
Rather a pauper in the courtyard of a palace
than a queen on a toadstool.
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OH WHERE ARE ALL THE HANDSOME RUBES
Oh fie, grandeur is listlessly
fading on the lips of an old girl who really should have been
Henry Miller. With the simple cunning of a saint,
how tired she is
withal
of reading them. No, she wants(no shame)
a pearl cast in the mud to rise
and summon her out of sanctimonious immolation.
Perhaps she belongs in Paree after all: for where are all
the wholesome rubes, olde English
stalwart peasants?
Not in this rural lane.
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LATE FOR DINNER
He wants he begs
(only you can't tell what he's saying)
the subtlest utterance of all:
fine line 'twixt truth and falsehood.
"Walk it all your life," he says,
"for me."
Only far far too obvious is the
rigor in his voice,
or call it trembling call it anything
but late for dinner. He was
always late. We rang the bell
twice thrice and he came
ambling up the path through
lilies and Indian paintbrush as the last spoonfuls of
dessert were served, the blueberries with spiced
fresh cream.
The cow cried when he passed, he
stopped and tugged her forelock.
"Let another milk her
for me."
Wants he begs the tone's too much.
You pour the bucket of pondwater
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on his head, he turns his face
aside scourged and rejected
by hyssop dipped in vinegar.
Pour the pondwater o'er his head:
fine grains of mica shining
tadpole
willow leaf
a dun silt of mud:every beauty you can take up
in your pail.
You make a public spectacle,
subtlest thing you can
do.
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A GOOD MAN'S NAME
Don't believe
a thing I say,
no don't you trust the words.
You're bound to take it wrong all wrong,
the things I fling like flying birds....
Like ravens cutting off the sun
(like sound and not like song).
Like kites upon cruel wires caught
(stout wings to span the fire).
And then you'll come with hat in hand
and scare me from my supper.
You're bound to wake me from a nap,
my cat will leap from off my lap,
my dog will lope across the lawn,
the startled birds will soon be gone.
And I'll get mad,
and you'll be sad,
the lit'ry life will seem so bad--so full of mind,
so hard and dire.
But if you're prone to disbelief,
you'll laugh at last with some relief:
"Well bless me but you've got a point!
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Hale home, my friend, we'll drink a pint,
for time's a thief and war's a shame
and words can't ruin a good man's name."
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MORNING BECOMES HER
"I'm not a Hamlet," uttered he,
"my book is not a tragedy.
When I go down to that dark bourne,
they'll smile, and say,
'Here passed a mild
and sunny morn:a smallish soul,
but not forlorn.'"
But on a grassy forest path,
a woman wept in pain and wrath.
"I've taken care through all these years
to turn my eyes from others' fears.
I prune my pleasures like a tree,
this modest elm
which shelters me
and drops its leaves
like sweet stilled hearts
which do not grieve."
She laid her down beneath the sky:
"He loves me not, and I shall die."
He read The Times. He gave a sneeze.
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He said, "Say, waiter, would you please
remove these flowers from my booth?"
The waiter bowed,
obtained a towel,
removed the vase,
and left the room
with seemly haste.
She dried her tears upon the grass,And watched a furtive spider pass.
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IN WHICH THE READER REGRETS THE HEAVY HAUNCHES OF TASTE
I have tried not to address you.
But you will understand if I explain
that I have long suffered as
(I blush to name it)
a Woman of Letters.
As such, I have worked out a code for fans like myself:a canonical affair,
unfortunately besmirched by bats in the cave:
Jonathan Swift's girlfriends,
John Donne's last sermon,
an anorexic Frenchwoman's ignored advice to DeGaulle on the
proper conduct of peace,
immigrants' ditties:
"Ten thousand Swedes ran through the weeds pursued by
one Norwegian."
This code emerges in practice as mercifully vague.
We enlightened readers have a hard lot,
for we cannot help but react.
And yet to react is
in the descendants of Puritans
to destroy.
So I try to read you without reacting,
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sparely,
from my eight-rock tea garden,
in the spirit of Moses refraining from naming the Name
or from gazing on the shrouded top of Mt. Sinai:
Moses sparing Jehovah corrupt human touch.
These are the fancy pervasive rationales of farce.
And taste.
After all, to talk back from one's private typewriter is apolite sort of pity.
And letters deceive, a black and white exchange.
For to answer once is already a gift.
To answer again is a different sort.
Not answering at all is
an untimely end.
MOTHER AND SON READING KIERKEGAARD ALOUD WITH
LESS THAN REVERENCE
"And oh
that no half-learned man
would lay a dialectic hand
upon this work,
but would let it stand
as it now stands,"
concluded Kierkegaard.
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And we repented of the way we'd been reading him.
But maybe,
said my son,
it doesn't count:
for he says, "No half-learned man"
but you're a woman
and I'm a child.
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PENDANT CAN'T MEND HER
"She bodes
to be
a major
writer."
The pedant
meant it.
But the
mendicant
with her
bowl,
earthen bowl,
sat weeping
by the
road.
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HOMAGE TO BOBBY BURNS
Samizdat.
Same as that.
The underground apes the overground, and I,
grown to a woman's estate, prate
on a' that and a' that.
Fear them not therefore:for there is nothing covered,
that shall not be revealed;
and hid,
that shall not be known.
In Russia
there is an artist banned from official rounds
who doesn't mind so much
for he still has his bicycle to paint
pictures of,
and his Victorian house tumbling down in a dozen
different directions,
and his round wooden table with wine bottles
fruit
cat
typewriter
coffee cup
(newspaper in the Cyrillic alphabet
tossed aside).
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I thought they only had tables like that in
Paris.
And the State's electricity poles run into
God's trees
which shed red leaves on his Victorian roof
for a' that:
We dare be poor for a' that!
(Our toils obscure and a' that.)
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In the U.S.A.
there is a singer banned from official rounds
who doesn't mind so much
for all her arrangements are logarhythmic,
though she once flunked math;and she still hears sparrows caroling in Greek,
still hears angel choirs swinging low:
fathomless sound.
(I thought they only had choirs like that in
Heaven.)
Samizdat.
Same as that.
The overground apes the underground, and I,
fallen to the ground,
ground down to the size of a
mouse (wee, sleekit, cow'rin, tim'rous beastie),
creep under a toadstool
to sleep.
What I tell you in darkness,
that speak ye in light:
and what ye hear in the ear,
that preach ye upon the housetops.
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Sam is dat guy over dere in duh fedora, sittin' on a park bench
and feedin' duh pigeons wid duh crumbs from his san'ich. I
useta know him when he wuz jest a kid. He wuzn't good at nuttin'
'cept baseball, den, but he's branched out some since, as you
kin see. Yep, he's on duh ball now, ol' Sam.
Iz dat so?
Dey say so.
Portions are from Robert Burns and the King James Bible.
MASTER'S MNEMONIC
Mene mene tekel,
Lethe and argos:
Ergo, eros.
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DID THE EARTH SHAKE FOR YOU LAST NIGHT, LADY? or
I SURVIVED THE PRETTY BIG ONE
18 Oct. 1989 San Francisco, CA
Never was a quick touch like Dolor Man,
a pain-sanded equipoisist,
a real reeler-in of the fish of the sea:Spanish eyes, full fathom my father
lies.
Don't diddle me, Dolor Man: I'm a true beatnik
drunk,
tried now and trussed in a trunk like a
corpse washed up from the
watery main.
My main man: don't pain me with
wronghearted cussed surefooted
surliheadedness.
It ain't right, ain't true, no one says
it has to be
you.
He twisted me up into an oddity because I was
weak, meek as Magdalene,
unfinished,
a dreg of some daughterless
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mother.
He passed me on the sidewalk without looking at me. He said,
"Did the earth shake for you last night,
Lady?"
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OBSERVING THE SCIENTISTS
I asked one immediately to comment on drunkenness.
He said, "A smell I can't identify,"
and went on discussing slots, wires to lay into.
And the other said,
"Offhand I would thinkinch and a quarter."
Damn. They aren't supposed to SAY, "Offhand,"
especially when coupled with mute sure measurements.
I'd counted on the scientists to be steadier than that.
My love: your resistance is not secure enough,
my love, my love. ("Don't say it," you
say. "You'll only leave me in
Spain.") Yes I will, and my love won't mean a
thing by then.
My love my love: don't you see it's a matter of science bypassed
for me? A matter of science surpassed,
for you.
(My love love liquid love too soon love I'd waited till
way past time.)
Still the scientists are discussing in my livingroom.
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They don't even realize it's my
living room. But you do,
my love.
"Exactly," says one.
"I think what I'll do," says the other, "is reverse the thing
and hit it with this."
"I don't know what complications that would imply," says the other."It's no big deal," they both say, in tandem,
my love.
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ON MEETING SAM SPADE, PRIVATE EYE, DRUNK
IN AN OLD BUILDING IN SAN FRANCISCO
B&B's can put you in a fog
so that you mistake an angel for a dog
and a dog for John Steinbeck, jabbering away
in street Japanese the livelong day.
But you're doing OK for having just got out
from your chains and straitjacket and there's really no doubt
as a wheeler-dealer you're bound to make it.
And it's a nice old building. No false
eye could fake it.
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THE CLOSER I GET TO CALVARY THE MORE
FORE-ORDAINED THESE MEETINGS SEEM
Get this straight.
I can afford easy titles.
I'm awfully difficult.
I jumped down your throat twice
before you even opened the door, glancing out and lookingright back in over your shoulder.
'For God's sake be quiet,' you said on the threshold.
'I've twin infant angels trying to sleep here.
Blond hair and Spanish Catholic skin,
not identical only friends,
like Cain and Abel.'
You didn't say that. Why would I breathe
the curse of history on your seed (Sherwood
Anderson would say seed: the King James ponderous held-back
coal-fire Lucifer of the modern factory would wish godspeed
to that sleeping detail)?
I said that. Why I don't write
for The New Yorker is I won't cut
this for you to Beginning Middle and
America's best fiction's End. Just give it
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one short shot or be lamed and lost
forever at the Ninth Station of the Spanish-Catholic
cross: Jesus Falls the Third Time.
They'll want to know how, after that, he dared
climb the hill of Calvary.
Your house was for sale.
I drove in to look, while touring,
tried to back out over a perilous moat,hung up the right rear tire of my pickup in
thin air, bottomed out the rear end,
my passenger panicked,
you had to call the wrecker who specializes
locally in hoisting things.
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I left without waking the twins. I heeded your advice (it did
sound avuncular) to watch the heavy traffic on the turn.
I will never see you again: will, quite possibly, neversee again, and am free to to
too.
I know that college. I read that poet.
I drop the same
name. I've a castle in Spain (mortgaged).
I seat myself politely on a roiled
bed with raisins and bottle nipples and inform you you look like
Dylan Thomas should've: red disordered hair, bulging blue eyes,
big loose frayed unused energy, face flooded with blood.
'I've been running,' you say as my eyes skim your books:
Jung, Alcoholism. Typewriter in foyer. No toilet paper in bathroom.
(I use my skirt.) (Jesus is a personal poet. Pre-emptive,
unpublished. Leave the stone
in the door of the tomb.)
I.F. Stone was recently crucified, too, like your friend
whom Tess took
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to Europe and tried with some success
to dry out or moisten. (Moisten: the perverse lingo of a child
who makes paper dolls of the apron models in a Sears-Roebuck catalog.
Moisten: inelegant Americanism, as in the Moist Towlettes they
dispense in chain roadhouses.)
Before dying I.F. Stone said 'twas larky
to be a pariah never invited to English Dept. teas, larky
to sit in the bath-tub not needing
any tea. Marx (whose name you dropped) saidrurality is idiotic. Jesus said, 'I come to bring not saints but
the bourgeois to repentance.' I live in the outback and preach
to professors. From the tub....
..........
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It's Sunday evening.
Church is letting out its crop of the yearning,
yawning bourgeois. Your wife arrives home from her job on theward and throws me (in one move) to the ground, gently
places a towel between my teeth, and when I awaken is mopping my brow
with an ice cube.
There remains one more Station of the Cross.
'Father, father: why has thou
forsaken me?' says Jesus from said tree,
still unresisting, not bitter but
sad at his father's lapse, and the father's voice never
never sounds. Only a raven, grappling,
grackling, gawping, gaping at the
symbol pinned there on two pieces of intersecting timber.
'I think,' you get a word in edgewise,
'strangers owe each other a little restraint.' Is that
you, Ole? -- or some adjunct who never got to
Graham Greene, who thinks Sherwood Anderson has
potential and needs instruction. Who has a rage
for order. Who polishes
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pruning shears.
Time to move on. Poems end, even this kind.
You have to re-lay a floor. I have to re-paint the two exterior
walls where ill-matched tint from the eaves
dripped down.
See you around, talk of the town. --Yeah, I like Pound.
Named my parrotEzra.
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STORM
Flailing angry branches
Tear the brittle air.
We hold onto our hats
For fear of our hair.
The children keep close
To our fat winter legs.A homeless hobo sits
In the gutter and begs.
It's winter, my friend, no easy task.
But take heart from this ale:
Don't shiver, don't fail:
Soon summer will come, and we'll all
Bask.
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THE RESERVATION
All of which would be fine
if only the golden sun would relent,
its veil of vain haze suddenly rent,
its face, fair nuclear halo, half-spent,
revealed.
All of which would be fine
if only the molten moon would split
into fat fragments of spendable silver
for the sake of paupers peering from bankrupt eyes
up at lights which drop from day or night skies.
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QUEUE
Men go winding out,
Men come winding in.
And it's clear beyond the slightest doubt
They're here by the hair of their chinny-chin-chin.
Here by the hair of their chin,Yes here by the hair of their chin.
O it's clear beyond the slightest doubt
They're here by the hair of their chinny-chin-chin.
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QUIEN SUSPIRA INSPIRA
Poema Triste y Verí dico
Perdóneme si sean mis palabras incorrectas.
He olvidado mucho.
Soy solamente poeta:
persona sin fundamento,
mujer sin básis.
Pero
no quiero viajar
sin objeto,
aunque esto
cambie con cada momento
que pasa.
")Qué pasa, artista? (quien cambia)."
Poquito. Ships passing en la noche;
estoy muriendo anoche sin inspiración.
-No no, no estoy muriendo, porque has llegado.
")Qué quiere decir? )Adónde llego yo?"
A un desierto terrible, un lugar de serpientes
y árboles secos y piedras duras:
a un lugar que no es lugar. Si exista, es como
falta.
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SUNLIGHT FALLING ON THE STREETSINGERS IS AS YELLOW AS THAT IN
THE
BANKER'S IMPRESSIONIST PAINTING
Tinsel choirs of street dipsomaniacs
Have their pastel delicacies, too.
So lately fallen, some singers: so light.
So lately freed.
Take this one: Henry, a bass, a drudge,
Retired-with-gold-watch from the
Department of Innocence. Has a dockworker's
Cap, neatly knit, of that same incongruous yellow
As the insular class's ecstatic
Easters.
Or take Theodore, tenor (he interprets the dirge): his
Holy socks are baby blue, anemone eyes has Ted, and a tie of
Cerulean hue. It all meshes. Theodore was a tailor
In life; they're called fashion designers these days.
He threw away his money, all of it, on
Francine, who is fattish but quaint and wry,
Won't shy away from those who shy
Away from her tin soprano's cup:
A coloratura's ploy.
"Out of Work, Out of the Way," says the
Cardboard sign pining plainly on her
Curb.
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And last, ah the alto, Alta, halt and lame, unrelated.
She came to her voice, so lambent, so fine,
The hard way. O stay awhile and
Attend: pale fires; rose, orange, streaked
Aquamarine, run and range down her scales.
A leprous too-varied luster startles the mind's
Eye observing Alta. Turpitude turns
Tail in this voice. Street throngs gather, turnstile-
Graspers pause; it's a big big choir under Alta's
Tutelage. It's the poor, their tinsellated gaudy
Famine, their world-girding street, their sunlit
Limping song: the decorous do-gooder's excuse to
Exult.
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NG
Oh China:
Blackshoed clothfoot
Fool of a balanced soul.
Give me back what you took:
The open unenclosed eye,Square chopped hipbones of a
Bovine (you don't drink milk)
Woman.
Incongruous New England nose on a cheekboned
Eggface:
Erase the memory of my white unbalanced
Skin. Oh China, I never thought an Eastern sensibility would
Rise in my bed.
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THE IMPORTANT TUNING OF MAGDALENE
You said, ground of my being... I forget.
I'm not a hapless juvenile with a bad plan.
Every dastardly day I lie here trying to succeed
because you caught me (fisher of men) on your hook and forgot
to dine;
because I know you're fine, finest, fearless.
So, "diamond in the middle of a field full of stones"*
I rest in importunate self, never letting go
of your feet, importuning with my rough hair
into which I pour such cheap
perfume.
*Hank Williams, Jr.
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THE OTHER MARTYR OF CHOLAME PASS
I live in a clean land,
Chastise with a clean hand.
My Puritan pranks have joined the ranks
Of the Honorable James Dean, man.
I went out in a crash at Cholame PassAnd proceeded to Heaven to have a bash.
I'm lost.
I cost.
I die in the dust
Because I must.
(And what salvation is there
In such a sorry tale?
Just this: I can't succeed
Until you make me fail.)
The car was hot.
I chose my lot.
Died young,
Not unsung.
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THIRD TIME'S A CHARM
Soul sits on death row and plays its radio,
twisting the dials, this channel, that,
up volume, down.
Soul looks out the window and sighs.
"Bars obscure my view," it says.
Bird in hand spots two in the bush.
"Run for cover," it warns.
But the bush resounds. The man with the snare and the
knotted hair and beard comes up to the birds
unheard.
Swimmer lifts iron arms and plies the waves,
land falls behind, gulls dive, shriek,
sea lions sport.
Sun rushes up to the heavens and beams.
Swimmer rides
the tide to shore.
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TO J.N.
If you've grown weary of answering letters
from your worsers and your betters,
don't answer this. (It's an abyss.)
But I'll tell you why I "only skimmed" your collected works
of fiction:I crave a measured and pompous
diction,
and shy away from the friable
friction
of the more or less true-to-life
depiction.
(I'm a monolith,
and must have myth.)
Still, I know it was rude to goad you by mail:
"I'm not not a fan," and so on.
It's only that at this altitude,
I have to develop an attitude
to delude
the mere dude
with his visage
wan.
But I thought I'd be safer with _________________.
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I forked out the dough and brought it home.
And I'm happy to say there's a slower pace, a
curb on the word's old compulsion to roam.
The clerk in the bookstore assured me you'd changed--
that's all right with me, I'm at home on the range
with its spitting seasons and arching light--
and I know what it means to fight to write.
(Or rather, vice versa, if verse is a vice.)
Now I've read every line and there's nothing I owe
except just to tell you that I'm not your foe
but a parallel case of evolution:
a problem which finds its own solution.
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NOT YET SUBJECT
Emerson on compensation
is quite convincing.
As a man,
it is true,
he might be missing out on the more poetic aspects
of compensation.He is linear in his speech,
martialing his arguments
in orderly pairs.
The unfortunate woman has to martial something less specific
than arguments and theorems.
She must martial moods:
those bodies not yet subject to the tyranny
of grammatical structure.
She is apt to be misunderstood
by the likes of Emerson.
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TRACE
Snowflakes under a night light
Look like gnats in the noon-day sun,
But something is missing.
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Song, for accordion and guitar with voice
REVIVAL
Holy savior, Hallelu--
Jesus comes tonight.
From shore to shore the wide waves roll
The earth's all over bright.The earth's all over bright.
Two men in the fields a'tilling
One is taken, one is left.
Two maids by the river milling
One ascends and one's bereft.
Two souls on the rooftop watching
One is blind and one can see
Jesus walking on the waters
Calling out, "Peace be to thee."
Calling out, "Peace be to thee."
Holy savior, Hallelu--
When morning sun doth rise,
The kingdom's come and we're made one:
The foolish with the wise.
The foolish with the wise.
So raise your hands to heaven,
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Send praise up to the throne.
Lift up your hearts till woe departs
And each one claim his own.
Let each one claim his own.
Holy savior, Hallelu--
Jesus comes tonight.
From shore to shore the wide waves roll
The earth's all over bright.The earth's all over bright.
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THE POET
I die in your eye
but I live
out of it.
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UPWARD MOBILITY
Santa Cruz has its graces,
Flagstaff has its sights.
But till you've been banned in Boston,
You haven't touched the heights.
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AAH, STOW IT
"I'm not much of a social person,"
Said the poet to his parrot.
"Me neither," said the bird,
But no one heard,
Except the poetAnd he,
As usual,
Didn't know it.
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FIFTY-FIRST WAY TO LOSE YOUR LOVER
You're a mouse in a hare's hole.
Better turn tail.
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FABLE
"Let's talk," said the circling rabbit
To the fox who breathed in her ear.
"It makes more sense,
And the recompense
Is fairer by far, I hear."
"Your syntax, ma'am, I deem a shame,"
Said the fox, without a slip.
"I don't talk to my dinner
And YOU'RE the sinner:
Get hip, ol' hopper, get hip.
"For my coat is red and my teeth are sharp
And I intend to laugh last.
So pull in your ears
And keep dodging: I'll cheer,
Then I'll pin your pelt
To the top of my mast."
Well, the rabbit quailed: she shook in her boots.
She lay down on the ground and played dead.
And the fox ate her--it's sad but true.
(You wanted a happier ending, didn't you?)
And the fox, replete, went home to bed.
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And forty years passed: sun up, sun down.
The animal kingdom lay in deep thrall.
The race of foxes proliferated;
The rabbits' luck had long abated.
(Do pardon the doggerel.)
But then one morning the bugles blew
And the rabbits thronged to the call.
From east to west the rabbity bestHopped down to their meeting hall.
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Now the foxes, engorged in their cozy dens
Heard the clarion bugle note too.
"Fool music!" they growled,
And padded and prowled,
Doin' the same old soft shoe.
Meanwhile, the rabbits were through with talk
And were doing what rabbits are s'posed to do.
A week or two passed, and the morning sun rose
On a very well-stocked cuniculus zoo.
Then over its walls one day there leaped
The finest and fittest of hares.
She landed, full stop
On the back of a fox
Who sat sunning away his cares.
And that's all it took:
I won't write a book,
I've got my chores to do.
But I noticed last week up at Rabbittown Ranchos
They had foxes in harness, pulling the plows,
Cheered on by the pigs and the chickens and cows.
--They were GOOD at it too, those well-tamed
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Honchos.
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APPEAL FROM BIKE # 4072, more or less
Please don't be scared,
I'm just a poet
paying back a debt:
the labor on a tube.
("You only THINK you had no puncture?"
I'm certain of NOTHING at this juncture.)For I'm a HUMBLE rube,
and haven't dared
to place a winning bet.
Yet. (Now, didn't you know it?)
I do prefer old Ravi Shankar
to the City's slickest banker.
But must I also then rejoice
to hear a high and raucous voice
emerge from out in back?
You've got a knack,
I'll grant you that,
of squeaking like a cornered bat.
I've gone too far. Dear me!
I'm picking on a stranger.
You'd think by now I'd see
that that's a fearsome danger.
For you're a comic soul
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and I'm more like a mole:
blind.
But if you're also kind,
just send me back a note
explaining why you think I wrote
and telling if my debt's repaid
and if you are afraid
you really must evadethis sudden ambuscade,
this awful escapade,
this biker's big
crusade.
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SIR SOPHOMORE
Liking comes only
vis-à-vis,
said a chap in a personals ad.
But his point was so subtle
I forgot my rebuttal
and things went from worse to bad.
For liking's weak tea,
and this vis-à-vis
isn't nearly so apt
as aft to fore.
And this chap's chat is propped
on illusion. I'll opt
for the proper retort:
Sir Sophomore!
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LOVE LETTER FROM A SCHOLAR TO A NOBLE SAVAGE
When weariness shows in the eyes of my friends,
then I think of you who wearies not neither do you
lie down in the heat of the day,
but work.
When in times of stress and trouble I remember you and speak incadences:
Yes remember you with the general pitiful willing helplessness
of the great unmet:
Remember you from the comfort of my corner....
And when the vampires rage, the preying manti of
(om)
souls....
Yes when the storms and winds of my soul bluster through dry corridors
of doubt....
Yes in the fraying grayed edges of maladroit doom....
Yes in the game in all the games of acidic preoccupation of the
freighted will, of the
Schopenhauer is the harness of several
lessons and it doesn't take long to find out 'n' I found out
(find out 'n' I found out)....
Yes when the furies rage I remember you in the pastures of the
woods where you used to roam
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(Flush berried lips and the
lookalike cattle of your dreams)....
Used to roam cave or corner unnoticed in the fields that were a
sort of home
to you.
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NOT TO THE MEMORY TREE, THAT'S FOR SURE
I.
We were fairly silly.
We began, while living, to feel sure that wonders would
Never cease.
We had intimate goals that came with the spring & surprised
Us no end into talk of rebirth.Shock of awakening became a topic of conversation in parlors,
Over tea.
II.
I played violin this evening and harmonica. The wind is
Restless, someone hangs from a wide oak tree, and sweet is the
Sound of amazing grace keeping the neighbors,
All six thousand of them,
From studying.
What's wrong with me that I can't crave iambs, or lengths of
Poesy from the days of Greece when Eros by God was Eros?
III.
Oh yes I remember now.
Someone in an appropriate red shirt cuts wood and, let's say, sings.
The tones are belling through the conifers, rills: water
Ever water, but not close. We might as WELL consider our
Minds united, our deaf and desperate were I more of a
Liar I would say utterly nonexistent
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Minds.
Surely with a little imagination we can cook up a quick
Consummation over the miles.
Damn cheap wine
And
Avoid literary ladies:
They talk.
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IV.
I don't care. It's either this or the street.
Its eyes remind the scrupulous observer that everyone has toGet down get out and walk through the carcasses
Of cattle and hogs being moved out of trucks in sawdust.
Ladies on platform heels admire this fact.
There are sold carnations and spitting cripples.
What?
I said, I don't care I'd rather do this now OK than have to get
Out and walk myself.
Where?
Not to the memory tree that's for sure.
But I thought you?
No dummy that was you.
No way. What I said was.
V.
All right.
Then several seemed to breathe.
They preferred the birds sweeping through fogs who swoop for insects.
They preferred horses and their smell in brown brush.
They claimed to prefer sunsets. It hurt. They did.
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They preferred red tail-lights down the hill. Rhmmm rhmmm breahhh
Off into the tiny lamps of town.
(There will always be cars with warm engines beside your sleep.)
VI.
I did not mourn. I pulled back my white curtains.
I did not mourn, not morbid motley forms of myriad sinking sorrow,
Did not brag in free verse.
Did not did not mourn.
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HOUSEWORK
A woman lived here with her mind,
A poet like any other.
And oh so carefully every day
She picked the specks of paper and clay
From floors, just like her motherBefore her: many a glorious find!
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SIDING WITH AN ANGLO-SAXON
do you care
that the creature lies trapped
in an outgrown incubator
awaiting the ax?
are you indeeda vegetarian at heart,
do you really empathize
with the short gorged life
of a meat animal?
or is the thought of the gravy
paramount?
this is a poem of pretentious latinate words:
empathize
paramount
latinate--
about anglo-saxon
inflammation.
what i want to talk about is this enemy of mine,
hardly worth the name:
nearly a lover only lax
and hiding behind his mama's skirts.
his mama is an ax,
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his mama is a doctor of law.
he's scared words will break his bones.
'hel-pelp!' he cries, piteously, in the night,
and when his mama looks in he pretends his
bones are broken, he says i've broken them.
but they're not. i didn't.
what i want to talk about is this friend of mine,
hardly worth the name:nearly a lover only lax,
and hiding behind his mama's skirts.
he does not soothe my sudden aches with simple words
the way a strong soul would:
no, i'm stuck with decency pululations loyalty imitations
ire.
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other women have genghis khan for an enemy and
albert schweitzer for a friend. this is unfair.
my plight is very like that of a chicken awaiting the
top spot on an empty table. i mean i think thepain in my mind is that of a bird conscious
(if they are)
of the impending platter: a blue one, with tiny white
flowers.
ill-used. its life did not go gently in infancy, its blaze
did not show bright in youth:
therefore it spends its middle age on
tenterhooks.
i think i am going to side with an anglo-saxon
again.
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PAN CONCEALED AS A DEALER IN SECONDHAND GOODS
One imagines this particular gentleman in front of a gilt
mirror looking at himself,
critically as is befitting,
but with a touch of private pride.
This is the one who hoots and makes loudcomments in the movies, while up front in quieter
opposition ladies mutter. This man is not a feminist,
he thinks women ruin the Democratic party. He is
willing to argue with his customers in a voice
that carries.
Sometimes he just glares, does not deign to vociferate
in their faces, stares from under a neolythic brow.
One would say something but he might not take it
wrong.
He adds on a paper not with a calculator, is a wit and a
throwback, exactly as alarming as he
looks. Bet he doesn't like literature. Bet he can't
read.
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THE NOSE KNOWS
"The golden rule,"
Says Santa's fool,
A woman dressed in red,
"Dissolves the sense
In recompence,
Crowns justice in its stead."
"Why Mrs. Claus,
Cruel Nature's laws
An eye for an eye demand!
For red in tooth
And claw, forsooth,
She takes her final stand."
"Ah well, mein herr,
This red reindeer
Goes clinking through the skies.
Believe in THAT--
In seconds flat,
You too begin to rise."
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COWARD
If you're a little yellow fellow,
you're not gonna care
if you don't dare.
You'll have a ready
excuse on your tonguefor every time you bung
it up.
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AFTER THE IDES OF MARCH
The beauty of your absence,
Like the beauty of a star,
Expands my soul with gladness
As three kings come from afar
Bearing gifts of incense,
Come marching single fileTo an infant in a manger
Just to see him smile.
Your smile was worth the waiting
And worth your silence now--
Worth all the sad debating
Of a mind which cannot bow
To its humble, distant station--
Not a station of the cross,
But a sombre celebration
Of the meaning behind loss.
But your kiss was worth the most to me
And if I nevermore you see
Or never hear a word,
I'll bear it bravely through the years
And not obscure it with my tears:
A softly nesting bird.
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The beauty of your absence,
Like the beauty of the moon,
Plays on my heartstrings music
Which nothing can untune.
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THE POINT
The point is not that I managed to make it through
more weighty tomes than most before succumbing to the inevitable
toils of womanhood, too numerous to mention herein:
Nor is it the point that it will no doubt take me the rest of
my life to finish The History of Civilization by Will and Ariel(And Ariel, and Ariel) Durant:
Nor is it the point that I resemble Sylvia Plath somewhat:
though after the fifties none of us can ever be innocent, inedibly innocent
like that again, and I was only five in
nineteen fifty four, too young to be innocent
like that.
Nor is it the point that I well remember when Roger tried to
give me his piano in a fit of schizophrenia, I refusing at the
behest of Wendell who persuaded me Roger would want
it back later:
that I well remember when they stuck Roger away for a
while because he tried to drive his car into the deep blue
sea and also because he thought his treatise on mathematics
musically-rendered was a work of genius
(I grow increasingly certain with each passing year that it
WAS a work of genius).
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Nor is it the point that those around me have utterly
outgrown the need for genius:
how it pules and whines! how it makes them bow rage
and worship in its vicinity! how they forget it three minutes
later for
'tas fallen, fallen far....
Nor is it the point that birds wild and tame know me, try to
get my attention, sit posed with wind fluffing up their tailfeathers, haloes round the behind:
that I sit in the highland winds watching grasses sere and sullen:
that hinds and hares round the bend ingratiate themselves:
that Russian olives respire just though the glass:
that Robert Penn Warren hoary and hale has not cast his mantle
round the white shoulders of a woman.
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It is not the point that one bleeds by the moon. That one
is considered barely capable of holding the most menial jobs,
maid's jobs (though one can always write a letter to the bossthat even the boss has to admit...).
It is not the point that I myself went mad and considered certain
stock scapegoats to be executioners.
(They've changed, they're wielding scimitars.)
Here are the birds again there they go again it is not the point
that one of the few critics who bothers
has only one eye open,
which is better than none but still
thinks I'll be good some day when I learn to see
the point. (With one eye open.)
It is not the point that the men of my generation
(best minds gone mad)
have all studied zen and are making a living at it whereas when I
found out about pointlessness I fell into a hole--
I mean I really fell didn't I but you were
born blind, borne blandly on the breeze of your own
most holy and public afflatus and if you had said that:
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I mean I think you must have, somewhere:
if YOU had said that whole armies of the just would have arisen
before water could move through the fine sands of the arroyo
to fill your footprints:
would have arisen and gone out to tear down the dam.
'Tis not the point that a girl named Burden married last
Sunday: I saw it in the paper and then my husband turned to
me and said why'd you stop putting out yourlittle magazine and I replied:
Someone told me I was holy,
Someone said You Look So High,
Someone turned his dog upon me,
Blotted out the sky.
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"But none of this is quite the point. It's not what we
had hoped you'd do." But how should I interpret this: a neighbor
in a Jeep passed through, just now and saw me
peering out, and WAVED. Is thisthe point? Time's out of joint,
my ass is grass.
I'm not a lady,
nor a lass.
I'm nice.
(The cow next door is also
nice
as from its pen it moos.)
And I've given my only child my thirty-two dollar
running shoes.
(I hardly wore them.)
Take THIS, take THAT, Mr. Hemingway, do:
this ditty of dignity in dearth, of
marlins lashing out in the air
against your hook of unnatural
spite, as it slices their salty seaworn
mouths.
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Serves 'em right for trying to
bite.
For try as they might, they won't get the
point.
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LAST ONE TO KNOW
for Arlo Guthrie
Has it
happened then the
holy Transformation?
The Thing that takes thetwinkling of an
Eye?
From west to east the Raped
earth was riven?
And all the Saints were sure of
it but I?
Has it
come to us the
final Dispensation:
the one called Grace,
the one the angels
Envied?
It's the thing bright Lucifer
Fell for
What Tarsus sang in his
Cell for
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What Daniel died to the
Lions for
Why Joshua rang down the
Walls.
It's the color of Joseph's colorful coat
The ring in the door of a Tomb.
It's the word in the mouth of The innocent babe
Who leaps from a virgin's womb.
But there's someone I Know who said it better,
The son of a Singer man.
When he came to my town in the Bloom of renown,
ARLO called it Waking Up Dead!
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GARGOYLE
I was playing--said Evelyn Waugh--
Dominoes with the poor.
As I sucked up my drink through a straw,
There came a knock at the door.
--Why, the good Bill Buckley!--I gasped.--Sir, what brings you this way
(On such an otherwise wintry day)?--
Said Bill--It's not that I'm ill,
Or wish any way to intrude, or be rude.
It's only that, on my way up the lane,
I spotted a mutual friend.
And I fear he was near his end
(God forfend).
He was shuffling, he smelled like a wolf;
Had a gangrenous growth by his eye.
--If this isn't good enough, sire, for you,
I've given it quite The College Try!
I am old, Father William-- the gargoyle said.
--And all that I want is to find my bed.--
Waugh roared like a lion, through open mouth.
--You've come to my door to say that?
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The fellow was doubtlessly wearing a hat.
I know whom you mean. He sits and begs
By the curb down on Broadway. Just throw a coin in
And give him a speech on grace & sin, and pass by....
Or say! Just to cheer him, also say Hi.
Where was I?--
You were playing, dear Evelyn Waugh,
Dominoes with the poor.You have sucked all your drink through the straw....
There's a bed behind that door. You ever have with you, friend,
The poor.
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CAESAR'S LIEGE
The Queen opened her mean
eyes and looked at her Perpe-
trator.
"O fearsome Lord 'tis you
again," she said to the alli-gator.
"I've been sailing this lissome
Nile awhile (it's thirst for this it's
thirst for that)
but a lizard as long as you I've never
seen,
as yet.
"Your scales are a silly shade of Army
green, I'll bet
you scrub them down by night with
Brillo pads? Your children three all thrive on
lily pads? Nyet?
Would you like to brush your teeth and be my
pet?"
She dangled her hand in the water,
thick with its foreign mud.
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Her hue was olive, her eyes aslant, she
turned her skin to the sun:
her face that was made for profile,
her orbs that were made for fun.
The amethyst jewel in her pyramid nose
flashed in the glare of the muted sun.
"The hardest part is practically done," she hymned to that
stony, sullen sun, then
glanced at the alligator(glanced down at the crocodile,
glanced at the armored floating shape
submerged to its snout in the silty
Nile).
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The Queen opened her mean
eyes and looked at her Perpe-
trator.
"I wonder, Lizard, can you evenswim?" she said just a little
later; and plucked the gem from her
nose (a nose just made for profile),
and tossed it (under a muted sun)
into the ooze of the tossing
Nile
And watched it sink quite out of sight,
and pinched herself: "I've got it right!
He'll have to dive, go to the bottom,
and while he's down there, by Caesar, I've got 'im!"
So saying she took up her spear.
He perceived her with something like fear,
and something like appetite. And sank to his
sockets, and one went under. The other gazed green
like hazardous thunder, like desert
ice, it wasn't nice to observe. Then he
sank like a stone out of sight.
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And was down a day and a night and a day.
O by the way:
The Queen had Eunuchs who bent to her will.
The Queen was cousin to Jezebel.
The Queen had pillows
up in the prow, 'pon which she reclined
(then as now)
to practice reciting her Wedding Vow.
.............
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Up from the slime, with weeds on his
pate,
the alligator rose.
He rose slow-motion, in increments.
His snout was wounded, a thousand dentsflowed red from that gash of a fang-filled
gate.
Up from foraging came King of the Nile
with a jewel for his Queen. He couldn't
quite give her the crocodile smile, but he
spit out the stone at her feet, and was seen
by the host of her vassals, some
million last counted, half-fused by the
heat.
The First Lady of Egypt
will henceforth evermore hear
this spent and saturnine
hiss
he emits at the flowering thud of her spear,
her scale-piercing sharpened spear,
as he sheds that infamous crocodile
tear. And the awful throngs convulse in a
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cheer. --Are you listening, Dear?
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AFTER DAVE PALMER (FOUNDER OF CHIROPRACTIC)
The skeletal lord is a big one, Dave thinks the biggest.
He gaze is steady. His back is in the nature of things straight.
He has less soul than he used to (calcium attrition, or, to us lay,
a hunger for milk).
He'll get to die in bed, now. Later.
Take up thy bed and walk! said the healer after one quick jerk of my
nodding head on its stalk and I was afraid my
art was gone when I saw I could walk, six whole blocks with nary a
dizzy step, directly afterwards.
Doctors should heal the body, Dave, and you've my life
long gratitude. But let the soul-dealer, stripped of only the
littlest modicum of it, heal yours with the bit
iteration (I mean a rhythm) that the blood lord, the heart
lord, is even bigger than the bone lord.
Which is why I can say Thanks, Dave.
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MISOGYNIST AND FANS
His women are ghosts
Or at the most
Inveterate eaters of fish.
He watches them walk
Beside the dry dockAdoring the supper dish.
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FEE FI FO FUM
We lumpen, wee willie winkle's
kin, prefer the people
but the people aren't too sure about us.
We're a class apart, in America a class devoted
to the remembrance of that ratty tattered
edge of the social quilt.Our social guilt's an awful term,
the term of ants constrained to success.
A mess, success, a malformation
in a world where dogs sleep
through the afternoon and crows
calmly feed in the garbage pile.
We lumpen lovers, the giant in the beanstalk's
Englishmen, give to our life an aching
back, and talk
back, and sway
the straight back of our dictator:
pointillist greed, needy sad
sack of money.
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DIVINE COLD SHOULDER
I intend to go back to the
nematode stage
of is it the brachiopod?
For the trouble is, pain
has invaded my game
or is it just age?Ask God
who won't let me regress
to the place I belong,
won't let me go back home:
"Your pain is acceptable in My sight
but I do not like your poem."
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ABRAHAM STAYS HIS HAND
If you're going to refuse me the flash and dash
of your dramatic personal life,
then to keep my attention you're going to have to become
impersonality incarnate, the old gem,
eh?
That, I suppose, was a POETIC sentence
requiring the elucidation that destroys?
Fear not. I usually DO destroy my firstborns these days
and never remember afterward that there was anything in them
to stay my hand.
Come now: courage!
Don't come boasting to me of your guts in quitting
after the first year of writing.
-Your gentle and acrid irony,
your tenderized heart...
and that's all, folks?
Take Mira, now, Gandhi's disciple.
Poor Mira, worse off than me.
Her thousand and one letters
never
shook his assurance. I wonder if she ever grew up,
found herself mourning a lost fanaticism.
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Or heroism.
So now if you're going to be
this way,
I won't show you my stories. They're not tailored to you,
not personalized... will I place the weapon
in your slack hand?
Ha, not me.
Anyhow they're not that good. Just antinuclear sermons.
Pity the poor antinuclear sermon: could if ever be efficacious?
And it dare not be stylish.
(Efficacy and style, old concerns: guilty sins for
liberal and conservative theologians, respectively.)
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If what I say is confession, and if I have shame, or have
learned how to use
shame:
then I confess to a genuine anonymity,to the masses,
or to a friend bought sold and implicated
in similar sin.
There you stand in the neither/nor position, promising
but not granting
deliverance.
You have a talent for longevity.
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A WRITER DRIVEN TO POLITICAL DESPAIR NONETHELESS RESUMES
I read in the paper that Evil is real
And that scars on the psyche seldom do heal--
Than an Empire of Evil threatens us all,
And that Eve with an Apple brought on Man's Fall.
I stayed up all Night 'neath the Dark of the Moon
Fighting the Demons that crept round the room.
I dared not get sleepy for fear Mr. Hyde
Would heckle the Jekyll who deep in me cried.
Yea, it was dreadful. I gave up all hope
Of singing with Angels or meeting the Pope--
For Earth was an outcast and I most of all,
Thrown out of the Garden, roamed round the Wall.
And did I meet Evil in that dank thorny Waste?
Will I swear that I know now its rank musty Taste?
Or is Evil no more than the absence of Good,
As Death is the vacuum which Life once withstood--
And will once again if I lay down the news
And take up my Pen. I have Nothing to lose.
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IN MEMORY OF W.
I weep again at night.
It is not that I'm now only mortal: all is safe
and grave as usual in that victory.
But my father no longer walks in the forest.
The forest is burning.
Mary's brown babe did not rise for his mother,and words have I spilled: they are tears to a wind
which carries them short of your window.
The wine is half gone. I sink to provisional glories,
discontent.
Still, fragile night like a knife is tender
to the flying soul it strips,
and the heart dips its wings as in love.
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A LITTLE REPLY TO PAVLOV AND SKINNER
"I don't believe in negative reinforcement," said the
trainer rather smugly.
The parrot sat there.
"He used to be nervous all the time, but then I began to
reward him for good behavior. He soon learned to associate
it with food."The parrot sat there.
A child shrieked and stiffened his knees because Mother
would not let him pet the parrot.
The mother whacked the child
on the rear.
The parrot sat there.
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HAD YOU LIVED
The chased bird pants faster, he tires, he will fall.
The campfire burns and consumes the wood of the hunter,
an eager boy.
I look at the author's likeness on a book jacket--wry, self-assured
worn, the frown gone deep, eyes unafraid:the face of a survivor but not of a savior.
This is what you'd have looked like by now had you lived,
I tell the boy, for all traces of him are erased from the
author's likeness on the book jacket.
The man's a success. The chased bird pants faster, he tires,
he will fall.
The campfire burns and consumes the wood of the hunter,
an eager boy.
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BY AND LARGE IT'S A CLEAN COUNTRY
America is a clean country.
If you get worms in your gut here it's your
own damned fault.
But my soul how my soul longs for India
With its gods and its fevers, with its poor who
refuse meat and protect the sacred cow, hey rama rama.
But my soul how my soul longs for Africa
where the high sun hits bones tied round the ankle of a
soft-voiced headman who runs through the grasses and doesn't
talk about war or about
peace.
But my soul how my soul longs for the Caribbean
all tainted so I'm told
with Marxism and witch-worship, where boys with joints in the
corners of their mouths sing syncopated things
and where the beaches I suppose are really
white.
Well I have enough at last though I've gone into debt for
life to get it: to relations who whip me about the flanks with
(o please no more)
Christmas presents.
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Yes for a few years here I've had plenty to eat,
for a few minutes each day the men's missiles move over
my head,
and I've just bathed.
By and large it's a clean
clean country.
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POETS BANNED FROM THE REPUBLIC
Plato has excised the image
because metaphor
is pure confusion
to the mind.
Something is always like something, eh?Bah,
metaphor makes you split-brained
so you never see
the thing in itself
and wander around all day
in dire pain.
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THE MASTER SENT INTO EXILE
I wonder if the newly enfranchised students of the zendo
might be unaware
that there exists an unbridgeable difference between
master and student.
For their master's abdication was all but deliberate.
And his exploitation of his servitors awarded themtheir martyrdom, their fine ascetic
faces.
I suspect he knew he was losing nothing by losing
position,
but rather gaining in what might as well be called
might.
His students are still frozen at the old
proto-puritan stage:
they consider what we used to call
free love (so long ago)
expendable not in general but in
particular.
They should all calm down
and realize that a man who displayed such
blatant exercises in desire
had passed the point where desire is
binding
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and that therefore he,
like all aging potentates,
has something to
teach them.
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HONING
Let this cup be taken from me, Lord.
There's still all of Time to avoid it.
Let me lie down in green pasture intoning
Songs of the seabirds, the nightbirds
Honing
Knives of their wings on the flint of the storm.
Lord, Lord: take it from me.
But he answered only
Always
Till I felt him turn my
Face to the wind
Which blew around and
Around again.
A cycle, a circle, and Lord I am
Born
Anew to the sound of it blowing
The seagull, the raven. My master is torn
By the tear in the eye of the cattle
Lowing
As belly deep in the river they
Sweep
Through the fields of the dream of a
Child.
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And blow me down mild, I cried to the sky
But it was too high. And the cup was held up to my lips,
Flush berried lips and I supped and was filled
With something quite other than what I had willed
In the days before I came round to know
To put away childish things.
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ON HIS EMBARKING FOR ENGLAND
You're the chipper type,
the shipper type,
the chipper clipper ship skipper type.
But that's not what I wanted to say,
traveler.
I wanted to say there's too much remembering and
too much forgetting:
the former characterized by an elemental tat tvam asi,
a purple flower only just now opening in clear morning
light:
and the latter by an ineffable But,
a blandness,
the sad standard raised in a cancer ward.
Your mistake is you assume I don't exist.
But that's not at all what I wanted to say, traveler,
but rather that it's neither remembering nor forgetting,
neither here nor there,
and that words would erase it
if they could.
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I AM AN ANCHORITE
Cast in the pocky mask of a decayed imagination,
Herculio
sat wildly in the thigh of a mothlike den--raucous,
inconsolable,
slave to a manner like a tanner-and-dyer born.
With a handicap like that he was bound to be fairly ironicand indeed sat wildly in the castlike din of a million snorting
jailbirds.
The neighbors were monsters, they lived on in the
dawn of species demise--I mean scars on their faces,
heads shaved,
grim mouths casting imprecations
and shoulders scrawnily drawing in on themselves in the backseats
of busses.
In other words, a fair number were already numb to the appeal
of horror
in which they lived like unshelled peas.
Not a pod to kiss in,
like not a pit to hiss in.
Language a soporific one of the best. I languish. I pull
and pinch with deathbed jitters at the wool of a social blanket.
Pick, pick: I can no longer say what I can no longer distinguish
in the grey and greyer fog.
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But rhythm downpulls fasting cells in the hut of bones.
And had I ever asked to float on the skin of the sea like a bark
of victory?
Did I ask to be corn punned and puckered in the refuse of midwestern
suns?
I wanted to stay under, a mermaid by birthright.
(Go down, Herculio, way down in Egypt land.)
I wanted to be the eldest son slain for lack of blood on thelintel.
But no.
I was spared for lesser things.
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STANDING ON HIS HEAD
He came to me again in this town
Upside down
Upside down.
And never been fed, the doctor said.
But I doubted.
Ponderous, heavy, built like a bear.
Shaking his head from side to side.
Shattered his vision, battered his brow.
He's only a thief,
now.
Barred from the stores, now.
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WANE
Every time the moon is full I think of you.
Sometimes I think, Well this moon no longer
offends.
Sometimes I swim in a silver sea or lie
in a car on the beach with my head thrown back in the sheer
light.Usually I am a harsh mistress angry that man ever looked
on my pocked face only to leave, uttering,
"One giant step for mankind!" as if there were any
such a thing.
The moon's not full at the moment.
I no longer count on its ever being so again.
It's too late you've made me wait
too long.
So long, Song
of Solomon (that wiseacre who simply wanted to be known
as fair to all concerned).
Stern side of the moon: if I vowed anything to you I vowed
to keep blackness behind me, to show only
the tracks you left on my white shining
mind.
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THE JAY
As I climb the cinder hill,
everything weary but my knees,
I hear a jay foray into the silence
with one raucous question.
I whistle back: pucker my lips and try to make a sound
comprehensible to him. But I know I am humanand suppose that only by softening my voice
can I persuade him to listen to something so strange.
It doesn't work, exactly. He does not shriek again, but a
deeper silence from his direction overlays the overall silence.
A silence rests on the silence, and it is only by faith
that I manage to differentiate the two.
But what is my climb to you? Are you not a man unutterably
bored with first person tales? and second person too, be honest,
and even third? You've taken refuge in the idea
that no one is climbing a high hill,
hacking it to bits with a
harsh heel.
You've taken refuge in the city dweller's delusion that wilderness
is barren and that the voices of birds
are not brothers' voices,
but scratched records put on expressly to irritate you.
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You've told me in the most dread hour that the trees whispering
in your joyful voice are liars: you've told me that the trees
are liars evermore, and that you won't listen
to their dead songs.
But up on the hill the jay is ignoring me now completely,
and his cry is answered--immediately!--by the cry of another jay
in another tree,
and the wind is beginning to moveand the sun is going down
and I won't be home till after dark
today.
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TO MS. DICKINSON
Emily, I'm losing my sliding scale,
for Higginson's a prig
to whom I--pray.
I'm not like you, a sprig
of springtime's long and surerelease.
I cease to matter
when my master
waits a day.
No, Emily, you are a breath
that blows half-noticed on his brow.
But I'm a winter-hearted suitor
mourning the loss of
the here and now.
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MILKMAID'S LAMENT
Poets are writers
Who hate to write.
They have better things
To do with the night.
Don't argue with me:It makes me weep.
Poets prefer
To wake and to sleep.
The matters of which
You can talk about
Don't carry with me
So very much clout.
Get some dirt
Underneath your nails
And torment me not
With critical tales.
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LET WITCHES LOVE OLD MEN
Let the gypsies hold up lanterns as the clouds roll in.
Let termagants tipsy in their garrets bow:
"Praise to the Lamb.
All praise to the Lamb!"
Let twist-toed scarecrows rouse in every graveyard on the earth,
Let the fools give birth.O lordy, let the fools all give birth!
I saw a sinking phantom rise a moment in the western sky,
Heard the drinking bantam crow and bats saw fly
High to the vision of my old love's laugh.
High to the vision of his unrepenting sigh:
"Praise n praise n let the fools give birth.
Praise n praise n let the Lamb now reign on earth."
...Reign.
I'll love you in your mousetrap/rat-trap/stone soul's lair.
Love you for a moment or a long long year:
Winter as the owls cry,
Summer as the days slip by:
Praise n praise.
Let witches love old men.
Couldn't find the bats or bantams in the raw cold night.
Couldn't find my soul: where was the Lamb, and the light?
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Couldn't find my cloak or broom or see my face anymore.
Couldn't hear a mouse's squeak or a lion's fading roar.
Gave it to the gypsy to the wild wind's sound.
Gave it to the ground.
And to termagants tipsy as the moon sank low.
Stowed it in a garret or a rat's round room,
Blowed it to the phantom for his ashen gloom.
(So let the witches laugh,
Only witches love,
Let all the witches praise
The old old men.)
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ON CALVARY
I. Crucifixion
Bones of the feet creaking 'cross the floor,
Creaking cross: what for?
For piercing the soil
of Calvary.
Carry me 'cross the floor.
Take up your tree and
follow me
for my feet are split by spikes
of importunity.
But five toes,
a pentatonic scale.
Oriental bones: not a cross but
curved and mobile
to escape on.
Cape on to turn aside the wind.
Capon: price paid. Take, eat.
As oft as you do,
remember me.
II. Resurrection
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Salvator Mundi
and Mater Dolorosa
met alongside
a felled ponderosa.
"This is my cross,"
claimed God the Son.
"No. Only firewood.Your race is run."
Man condemned to do,
Woman to love what he has done.
Praise the Mother
and forgive the
Son.
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DELILAH
He called me lucid: I turned in fright.
Better the night--any old night.
He assured me he certainly DID understand.
Draw back thy hand from my precious quicksand!
He showed me connectives objective and pure.He tried to persuade me we both could be sure
Of rational structure that's clear and so simple.
But I cut off a lock and down came the temple!
Yes I cut off his hair as he hollered Unfair!
And bald-pated surfaces shown like the sun.
And I WAS having fun
In this flesh-tinted sun:
With the temple's debris
I made myself free.
But God too was cunning He spied me in shadow
Hunted me down Hiding in shadow
Now He had won,
He said, "Let there be light!"
Overwhelmed me with sight...
Spoiled my night.
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LAUGHING JESUS
"'Twasn't any different in the Age of Faith,"
Quoth the flying horseman, pursued by every wraith,
By every passing whirlwind that scours the desert floor--
But the minute that he said it, he became a crashing bore.
"I'd rather slop the hogs," said he, "or split the stubborn woodThan tread the streets of shining gold or be forever good.
I'd rather soap my saddle or sit and watch a hawk--
If I HAD to go to Heaven, I'd only stand and gawk."
Then Jesus wept.
Darkness crept
Across the burning sky.
"Now God like man's forsaken me;
Upon this cross I die."
Three days in the tomb he lay,
A stone stopt up the door.
An angel pushed the stone aside,
It scraped the desert floor.
(Ye always have the poor.)
(But death shall be no more.)
'Tis very, very different in the Age of Faith!
He walks on water, walks through walls,
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Spies every sparrow as it falls,
And when the flying horseman passes,
He lies and laughs in the desert grasses.
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INFLUENCE SOUP
Sir:
In honor of doctrine which is only an accretion
and only incidentally applicable to the discipline of your subject,
I must say that it is always a shame to have to acquaint the lecturer with
the moral imperative.
Picking like a hen on philosophy,
you proceed to establish a pecking order for lyric poets
and then to embellish this triumph
with facts.
But we the mass at your elbow,
we the proletarian audience,
continue to suffer terribly. You have no right to turn James
Joyce into a disciple of Aquinas.
I am surprised that you let his utter innocence of
his damned influences
(influence soup)
escape your attention.
If Joyce was blind he was simply blind: deaf: dumb.
Finnegan's Wake is sufficient proof that something was the matter
with his memory. It was all he could manage to ignore the
legacy of the past which various parties kept dumping in his
lap. However, he did manage.
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Of this the class should be left fully aware.
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MIGRAINE AURA
Latticework inflection,
Infection's on the wane.
Watch the window-washer
Wash off the windowpane.
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DON'T COUNT YOUR GOLDEN EGGS
BEFORE THEY HATCH
"Climb to my rooftop--Dance your dumb contradanse. The house
will stand, and on will play the band." From "The Little Geese,"
Italian Folktales, compiled by Italo Calvino.
The goose went into the barnto lay her golden egg.
The fox thought he'd better warn
her not to break a leg.
"And why are you pestering me, buccaneer?"
said the goose to her russet swain.
"I've been laying here now for many a year,
and no one but you has deigned
to hassle and jostle in coldhearted jeer.
Buzz off!"
The fox went out to the field
to check his line of traps.
His lips he kept close-sealed
till he stopped for a quick game of craps.
"So how have you been, mein herr?"
said his pals to the russet swain.
"Sniff any fat geese on the air?"
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Well, the fox, he made it all plain,
and the fox he took their dare:
"Go for it!"
The goose stepped out of the barn
on both her fine webbed feet:
"Oh golly gee & oh darn!
Where can I go in this heat?"
She took herself down to the stream,
But there stood the russet swain.
He was wrapt in a vulpine dream
and never noticed the rain
which fell on his intricate scheme--
which, hitting his head, turned to steam:
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Alex the farmer clomped out to the barn
to gather his golden eggs:
"Aye, and ah'm faelin' sa sad and faerlarn,
sainkin' sa low on useless old pegs."
He sat himself down on a stump
and noticed his goose was gone.
He picked him a little clump
of violets, down by the john.
He saw something red give a jump,
then subside to the grass--and 'twas gone.
The fox has been stung by a bee!
"Tee hee," said the goose. "Oh tee hee."
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IMPERSONATORS OF MORNING
Impersonators of morning under a calm gold sky:
--the housewife hanging up her clothes, stomach pendulous from
six successful births
--the horse hanging his head over a barbed wire fence, waiting
for the cyclist in cap and sweatpants to say a word in passing
--the dog charging out to fend off the cyclist with a terrorof brash barking
--the other dog looking up with one eye, then turning his old
head stiffly aside so as not to give offense, and laying it
back on grizzled paws
--the jay breaking the silence, the crow outdoing the jay, the
sparrows on the fence speaking a language of careless comfort
--the men from the electric company, from the telephone company
and from the roads division, sitting around, standing around,
making work, feeling too guilty to quite enjoy their freedom
--the lovers lately risen driving lazily to the store for more
wine, then reconsidering the trip back when the freshness of
the world at last strikes them.
Morning itself grows slowly in splendor, nothing can remain
noisy for long underneath its canopy--grows steadily in brightness
until every object stands outlined.
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THIS IS BILLIE HOLIDAY, BREATHING
I sit here sipping nectar
on the occasion of having desecrated
your grave.
I splash oil ochres on the canvas of my desire
because I hear your released feet running
across the square milesof my beautiful painted deserts.
I drink to bad poets. There are
hundreds of thousands
and all of them excellent lovers.
Run,
ol' Jack Rabbit,
and circle back.
I have not stopped playing Cripple Clarence Lofton.
I will never stop.
You can count on a room with me sitting stirring
homemade mocha pudding
and drinking California chablis
and listening to the walking blues talking
about that streamlined
train.
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NO DAMAGE
Heartless heart of a darkened mind: you call yourself will.
If not for you, gall and wormwood would long have had their
way.
I need not thank you. Sterile mimic, you resemble those who
once gave
not this patient thing superior to the great grotesque sensualitiesbut only bodies,
reluctantly,
under cover.
What my nemesis hints is my own business,
perennially.
It is not bad, business: desire transmuted grown ravelled
under the ropes
is delicate still: a matter of hands,
implicit dogma,
and precedent demands.
Two million years is not a long wait (the voice of will cracks
in the telling).
Rhapsody comes suddenly to the obedient servant of spirit:
the one already gifted with the word yes.
What is it then that breaks in a creature whose heart has been
considered unnecessary for some years now:
is it the will?
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EL PEDESTAL
On a post in the desert I sit
Deciding what's fatuous, what fit
To be bound by the tie that binds,
To be found by the guy that finds:
Great God. Nor do I blaspheme in my intrepid vigil:I have not heard, out here, quite yet, where they've interred
Virgil.
For all I know he wanders still, one step ahead of Dante.
I am tied to one spot
Beneath the black sun
And it's not, I assure you,
A question of fun
But of waiting, outwaiting
An uplifted sire
Who's consigned me to wait
In his stead for the fire
To finally fall from the sky.
Why Escalante, with his expedition,
Once passed quite close to me! He didn't pause,
But raised his arm
In the Spaniard's brusque salute.
"Adelante!" Onward! was what he said.
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But a henchman of his held back and gave bread,
And moistened my lips with a drop of
El vino
De la vida
Que pasa
Como sueño
De sueños.
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THE SPILL
Granny landed
on her fanny.
"It's feast or famine,"
said she,
and picked herself up
with the aid of a stick,and sat down to sup,
and finished up quick,
and passed down a scrap
to the cat on her knee.
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PROFESSION
The moon was a caracol shell of silver,
But my gliding eye fell on cretins and saints,
Cretins and saints
Carved like lines on the face of the light.
My every ode was to some poor sageLost in his nook
Picking his brains for a book I could love.
And I did,
I did love the brainwhorls of myriads.
It was my profession.
I made no other.
I followed my brother the moon with lowered eyes
Till I died in my room,
Reading,
Blind at the last,
Ablaze.
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CHECKMATE
Said the Amazon to the Neo-phyte:
It's been a long time since the
spark
of our mute neat crossing
rose
in its inexplicable poseto breast the blank tides of the
dark.
And I never did catch your name,
I only just noticed (re)birth was your game.
But game to me is an antelope,
a flash of sharp heels on the windward
slope,
a print in the cinders, and
scat, a sure thing
for my singleshot prowess,
a bird on the wing
in the face of the sun.
..............
Said the Neo-phyte to the Amazon:
It's over, my dear, but very
well done.
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(Ambition, perdition, rye whiskey and woe:
quick as we come, more quickly we
go.)
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I LIVE ON COLD MOUNTAIN
On a weary day of prose,
fallen too far into the common discourse,
I remembered Han Shan, the mountain poet:
remembered him in spite of the fact that the
gendarmes of the Cultural Revolution have scrubbed his poems off
the cliffs....
"I live on Cold Mountain and no map leads to my home,"
said Han Shan.
"I don't speak more than I have to.
I don't give lessons.
High clouds rebound from the face of the heights.
I sit without shoes and watch.
Bird cries fall from the empty sky,
there rests only one seed on the glassy ice:
who will feed the fliers?"
On a weary, sultry day on the edge of a city,
flung too far from the broken boulders,
I called out to Han Shan, the mountain poet.
And no one answered.
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A DIVINE COMEDY
I was a scion of the humble soil,
a creature bent and braced by chance,
not daring or
not caring to take up
the higher toil of those who would escape
the coils of circumstance.
Ah God. Dear God. It snows.
Ah precious lover, hear the wind!
The blizzard off the mountain falls
on our tin roof. Its
icy warp and woof, its
careless weather-weaving
takes our hapless life
to task
and makes us pay the common price of strife:
Inferno. I never noticed till too late
the elements of hell.
One came to tell me all my love was vain.
"You are unguided, lost,
untamed. Come follow me
lest darkness cleave your pate."
I laughed, but then he spat upon my plate.
"You call that food?" he hissed
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and wrapped me with his cloak.
And darkness fell,
a midnight which did not abate.
I knew no more
Till in a trice hard starlight called me back:
hard harsh those singing spheres,
a canticle divine, no doubt:
but how my mortal eyes were burnedand singed my earthly ears!
"Arise," he said, "and follow me. My name is Virgil;
Purgatory is my realm.
Its nether lake will purify desire,
and I its virgin potentate
will turn your dross to gold
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if only you
will follow me."
I held a calloused hand above my eyes,
and felt my sweaty brow
as if in other days I followed at the plowand saw the loamy furrows roll along the heavy blade,
and wept a little at the cry of some sweet bird
whose eggs I'd buried there.
"But still, I will, I will believe!" I swore,
and stumbled in my master's wake.
A vision flaring from the shade,
a tide of azure swept upon the shore
of Purgatory's deep and reed-encircled lake.
The mettle of my poor benighted mind was tested then.
He would not let me rest among the pliant weeds.
He would not slake my thirst or offer meat.
He was no more a guide than Beatrice
had been a lover to that man who too attended Virgil
through a dim unearthly light,
a night of shattered promises and shards of broken hope.
The blue and burning vision
which whispered like a tide,
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which rushed the reedy shore, almost in anger,
bore
within its bruiséd heart the countless souls
of those who likewise came before.
And these were wailing, hailing me and pleading:
now this,
now that.
Full well I knew that without aid I never could determine
what they asked.
I wandered on, and "Master!" shouted I,
for in my dream I'd lost him.
I only heard the echo of my aching voice
which drove upon the cliffs
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which all around with blind eyes watched.
I dropped my head upon my breast and wept
and wished I'd never left
the verdant meadows of my homely past.
And someone wiped my tear away,
and someone smiled.
"Why child, don't you know
that this has all along been Paradise enough
for you and yours,
for bird and beast and tame and wild?
My child?"
I traced the outlines of his smile;
I knew it well, this face:
but was it, then, my master Virgil
or the quiet soul beside me
in a bed I'd never left,
while snowdrifts rose outside the rough-hewn door?
I really couldn't tell.
Ah God. Dear God. It snows.
Ah precious lover, hear the wind!
The blizzard off the mountain falls
on our tin roof. Its
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icy warp and woof, its
careless weather-weaving
takes our hapless life
to task
and makes us pay
the common price
of strife.
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THE EVENT
Ev
o
lu
tion is slow,
rock rising from a dead sea
to ring itself with coral,sprout palms,
apes,
parrots
and an odd fish,
man.
Genius is unseen,
blinds the beholder
to itself,
binds the foot to a
secret ledge
from which it could not fall
if it would.
Evolution choked
when it tried to swallow genius.
The smooth patter of eon upon eon, past upon past,
was rudely interrupted when mutant man
ran in,
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inventing
a future.
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SUBJECT CRITERION
Thou Wendell Berry woodman
in a dream
that Wendell Berry would be
what I deem:
a heavyhanded hewer,
maker and a doer,worker not a player,
not a naysayer:
is what I seem.
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THE WOMAN'S MOVEMENT FORGIVES EDWARD ABBEY
Most of all you wanted out
of clichés like the bit
of being an environmentalist or bitter
backwoods salvator
mundi.
Monday you stopped by the bar all balled
up in a rage of humor and human risk;
it wasn't risque when you spoke
of love, the common sense: not bad really all those
tales of heart-shaped ends.
Your end I'm certain was heart-shaped, the
obit said you died of a circulatory ailment,
and doesn't everyone lucky enough?
Don't get me wrong, I for one (and one for all)
remember the fearsome foe you'd have been had I been
born a little earlier, had you been
crowned a little later.
Most of all you were a philosopher,
such a good one that I,
who can't but believe,
announce in good time that you
are a philosopher, hobo-king, and doctor by now
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of divinity.
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ALL FOR LOVE
Oh teacher, teacher, marry me.
You'll see how happy we can be.
Of all my acts, this is the corker:
I'm published now in the New Yorker!
But the poetry editor gives a sniff.
"We never take stuff that has a whiff
Of the bareheaded backwoods brat about it.
It runs in the face of all we've touted:
The lavender nun and the flower unflouted
By louts and your lewder roustabouts.
"Better luck elsewhere.
'Fair-fair is fair-fair,'
To be faintly third-world in our first-world diction.
Why don't you turn to humorous fiction?
Why not submit that wit to forms
A little bit closer to big-city norms?
You remind us of course of Dorothy Parker
And Vachel Lindsay and Ogden Nash
And Gertrude Stein, the way you clash
With the light fantastic, though somehow starker
And more perverse
And dunderheaded
And not quite terse
Enough."
So I fold my hands and resign myself
To remaining ever on the shelf
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Up here with the cans of tomato paste
And tuna fish. It's a life of waste.
It's a wallflower's life (a flower, at least).
It's the beggar unheeded at the feast
Of the rich feastgiver who doesn't need
The blooming wish, the burgeoning risk,
The florid calling
Of a female Johnny Appleseed falling
Off the rails, into the mouth
Of the beast. -Like the leastOf you, my brethren.
Oh teacher, teacher, marry me.
We'll sail away across the sea
To make our home in the British Isles
And wake each other with daybreak
Smiles.
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DUST
You think I'm coming to tear you off the tree
and devour you seed and all.
You think I'm traversing the deserts deliberately
to give you scope for your revenge
to make a spectacle of myself
to out-martyr youto put off goodbye.
But,
It's just a slowness you give me and
measureless depths:
Murky backwaters iridescent on the
surface, rainbowed, empurpled, flyspecked.
The layers of fern and frond in a rainforest
on in a flawed emerald.
In short, eternal things smiled upon by
reigning immortals with round bellies and red
beards and gold back behind the
irises of their eyes.
We won't catch it this time, either.
Expect nothing but my tireless patient
pursuit, you gray mouse in the sights of a
white hawk in a whirlwind of deathless
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dust.
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DUST (II)
Street boys, survivors.
Sleet days, piledrivers.
A simmering onion stew.
Graybeards are dozing,
Gentlemen bulldozingA corridor back to you.
Mists and miasmas,
Ma's razzmatazz at
Venerable Bede's old bust.
Sort it all out, sweet,
Pull on the sugar-teat.
Do now or die as you must.
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LIGHT FADES FROM THE RED AND WHITE
INNOCENT STRIPES
Am I the less for taking my half-tutored idiom to the back trails,
where the only prize is peace on the face of a literate nun?
Where the only publication is a confusion of passion in an aging
aesthete?
Hie Vachel Lindsay and remember America,
land of unsought buffalo suns, blinding anyway
through a growing pall of smog as the light fades
from the red and white innocent stripes,
as the bright stars dim in our cobalt sky.
Fat black bucks are strung up by their heels now from strands of
barbed wire,
necks broken, bellies fetid for the flies, furred antlers a waste
in the dust. Fish and Game drags them away.
Wine barrel rooms are awash in sulfites... But I can't go on about
environmental decorum, for the usual Raven Scavenger has stolen
my drunken tongue, and an urban ogre my pastures and primitive
sleep.
Is the Statue of Liberty, fine idol she, any the less for
Oklahoma roots?
Will her crown of thorns fit the homeless head
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here pillowed guileless in streaming gutter?
Hie Vachel Lindsay and pray for this babe, beat drums for this
Redskin babe, black as a prune dying one day old
of his mother's AIDS.
Bury your children in reservation sands on a day of drought.
DRINK! Barrel house kings have dignity now and a brand
new name: Native American.
Their uranium streams are picturesque shrines.Their electric power plants run the blenders of nice white folks.
But their feet, Vachel Lindsay,
are still
unstable.
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TURNING WEST WHILE TALKING TO HIS WIFE
He was turning west while talking to his life
About the death she had vouchsafed him and
About a castle built on shifting sand.
I coughed to let them know I'd noticed but
They blinked and went on (on and on and on).I quite gave up, I lay upon the beach
Where every itinerant comes down at last to teach:
Cruel as crows' eyes, keen as hens' teeth, often out of reach
With hands entwined like hippies, bowing from the strand
To where the margin is, the end of things, where
Hangs a city plague-blest.
The septic sun itself was falling red and fast.
His wife sat back and said, "My dear, I'll take a rest."
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POR AMOR PARAMOUNT
Bad boy, street boy,
Took away my tongue.
Sweet man, 'at's reet, mon,
Sleek and low slung.
Queer bird, greybeard,Arms around his lass.
Tailor-take-a-tuck in his suit of tails--
He's a damn fine old jackass.
But she was the mute cat,
He was the meat rat.
It wasn't easy to tell
The smooth-faced infidel
That he'd better beware of Jezebel.
Jezebel wears a girdle.
It's got emeralds and pounded brass.
Jezebel ties her hair into tails
In front of the looking glass.
The mute cat keeps eunuchs
Who bend to her will--
They once caught the meat rat
With his hand in the till.
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(But it all faded. Nothing much
Happened. It fizzled.
The covetous cleaving and bizarre bereaving
Took a tittle and jot of a toll.
Then they both went on the dole
And ended the rigmarole.)
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DOWSER
Seed of cold water,
if it's pure, pearl-like and
engendered,
will fall like a sentiment, a wonder,
like yon Yule bauble,like sands in the hourglass
to this spot.
Baked unyielding snow-spliced tarn bottom,
real peasant ground and I'll take the
low road.
Rode lo these many years in highwayman's
red garb Eureka he's risen forked
stick flies up like an adder's tongue.
'Way, Willy, outta the way Willy.
That spot's filling up.
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LONGEVITY: AN UNFINISHED POEM
The fraught sea cannot scar the stone
It runs upon like blood on bone
Unless it run for countless years
Bereft of human ties and tears.
The sea's not human in its ways,Its waves won't cry out to the gods,
But gales and storms draw out its days
Like gamblers beating down the odds....
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YOUR CAPTAIN SPEAKING
O Peter Pan: 'tis Captain Hook,
Here in all my finery.
I'm not a scarecrow, nor a spook,
Nor bounced out from some winery.
From Tinkerbell I come to thee.She folds her wings, drops to one knee,
And says her piece: "Now set me free.
"I never wished to fly so high.
Fairy dust just makes me sneeze.
And anyhow it's all a trick, done with
Strings, so Peter, please,
Just cut the cord and let me die."
You hear that, Pan?--ill-named at that!
If you're a forester, I'm a cat.
But just reach out and feel the lace and
Furbelows upon my hat: harrumph!
I'm a PIRATE, Pete; I sail the seas
And steal my supper
And don't pay fees
Or taxes, Peter. And my praxis,
Parsed in Paris, by an heiress
With a broadsword (privateer's sword)
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Finds your blackboard by a
Fluke! You say you're still bored,
Flyboy, lukewarm? Taking time? Oy! I'd
Rebuke you,
Sir...
If you'd once wake up and rub the chalkdust from your
Beautiful eyes....
On my galleon I've seen smoke.
War at sea is not a joke, not a
Game for children, Pan:
Comprehend me if you can.
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FINALE
That's all for tonight, boys,
and that's a natural fact.
If I've shook yr. equipoise,
get yr. press unpacked:
steal this for a literary supplement,
just leave it all intact.
But if you still are queasy,
it's no more than I expect.
Let your minds rest easy--
you've been so circumspect.
And console yourselves with the observation
that it's the lowest chicken who most gets pecked.
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LAST CHANCE
And me you leave, through my thousand houseless words,
Mute, as vividly deep-dyed mute
As the manufacturing marrow,
For which, ripely considered, strange
Is too tame and usual a word.
For all that you ever gave
Me, off with my barrow of rags for the street,
My tatters of things for carbuncled feet,
Was the common old edge of the Scythemaster's scythe:
A hint, intimation, seduction, a sigh
Which cut deep. Much too deep
For a baglady's day.
So good night, all my life,
Nostalgia was ever your word. 'Twas the word
For failure to tip the felt hat to a bum
Soliciting sweets from the curb
Or a crumb
From Chance's rich table, fabled afar:
Last chance to feed Lazarus
Caviar.