Lamentations - Zion's New Age BibleThe Woman in the wilderness

1 How distort lies the woman, once so full of joy!How like a widow is she, who once was great when amongst the nations!She who was ‘queen’ among the peoplebut has now become their slave.2 Bitterly she weeps at night, tears are on her cheeks.Among all her ‘lovers’ clients and friends there is no one to comfort her.All her friends have betrayed her; they have become her enemies.3 After affliction and a harsh Spiritual labour, Israel has gone into exile.She dwells among the nations; But she finds no resting place from which she can feel at homeAll who pursue her have overtaken her in the midst of her distress.4 The roads of transformation from Babylon to Zion lie in mourning, for no one comes to her appointed festivals.All her gateways are desolate,She has no job, friends, home her priests groan with fear of end times prophecies, and they preach lies of fear insanity and delusionsher young women grieve, and she is in bitter anguish as there are none who listen to her.5 Her foes have become her masters;as they look down on her and do not try to help her her enemies are at ease.5a Her time on Earth has brought her grief because of the many sins of others.Her children (children of the world) have gone into exile,5b Waiting for Jesus ‘the messiah of delusion and fantasy’ that will never come,

they have become captive by the lies.6 All the splendour has departed from Daughter Zion.Her people are like deer that find no pasture;there weakness is lack of logic and without this they have fled before the pursuer.7 In the days of her affliction and wandering Babylon remembers all the Joy that were hers before her favorite singers fell into enemy hands, and refused to help her.

Now her enemies looked at her and laughed at her destruction.8 Babylon has taken on a mighty burdenand now must bear the sin of manyAll who honoured her despise her, for they have all seen her weakens but they only worship those with strength and power;8a She herself groans and turns away for she hates the things that her people have become.9 Her life became like a ruin after she awoke to the knowledge that she was the long awaited messiah; she gave her old life up and did not consider her future.9a She did not think she would be neglected for the length that she wasHer fall was astounding; there was none to comfort her.Look on my affliction, Lord, why have you done this to me! for the enemy has triumphed. Is this what you wanted?’10 The enemy has laid hands on all her treasures, all her secrets;she saw the pagan and atheist nations enter her sanctuary and know her truths–those you had forbidden to enter your assembly.11 All her people groan as they search for the bread of life;but they find only lies and deceit.‘Look, LORD, stop hiding me in the shadows, for I am despised and yet i have the truth that can set them free.’12 ‘Is it nothing to you, all this misery that i face, knowing that i hold the answers to religion, to prophecy, and to how humans were formed and yet all who i talk to just look down on me and consider me to be insane. 12a All who say to love christ and claim to be searching for this person and yet when i bring them proof that it is i whom they seek, they then pound me with no stop hatred and insults?12b Look around and see. Is there any suffering like my suffering?a suffering that was inflicted on me by a higher power of which I have no control over. 12c Whose only intent is to cause me none stop neglect, rejection and mockery of on looks who here about me yet refuse to help me!12d This is what the ‘LORD’ brought on me, A Lord which the ‘demons’ of this world love to worship and admir,They have no wisdom or understanding they just love to worship what is evil and they show the victim no sympathy or help?

Persecution of Babylon

13 ‘From on high they sent ‘fire’, sent it down into my bones.

Spread a net for my feet and turned me back.He, the Father, made me desolate, faint all the day long.14 ‘My life have been bound into a yoke; by his hands they were woven together.They have been hung on my neck, and Satan has stripped me of my strength.He has given me into the hands of those I cannot withstand.15 ‘Satan has sent warriors in my midst to come against me;he has summoned an army against me to crush his Israel.In his winepress the Lord has trampled Virgin Daughter of Zion.16 ‘This is why I weep and my eyes overflow with tears.No one is near to comfort me, no one to restore my spirit.My children are destitute because the enemy has prevailed.’17 Zion stretches out her hands, but there is no one to comfort her.The LORD has decreed for Babylon that her neighbours become her foes;She has become an unclean thing among them.18 ‘The LORD is righteous, (...Clearly Not!) yet I rebelled against his command.18a “Rubbish!” I say, “I have free will and i don't have to follow anyones commands!”Listen, all you peoples; look on my suffering, hear the words in this book and stop preaching hatred towards me for no justified reason.18b My young men and young women have gone into exile because they worship lies. 18c Don’t follow after them don't live under fear and chains by an unjust God that demands you to veil yourself or your to look up to insane teaching and traditions, and follow unrighteous commands.19 ‘I called to my allies who claim to God but they betrayed me.My priests and my elders are perishing for none seek truth or think using logic and reasoning.while they searched for answers they find only nonsense and yet they claim to understand it.20 ‘See, LORD, how distressed I am! I am in torment within,and in my heart I am disturbed, for I have been most rebellious.20a But i know that is a good thing, for this world worships what is wrong

and so to rebel from that makes me the better person, but few see things from my perspective. 20b Most don't care about religion, God or anything of this nature, and the few that do have a religion, are too busy thinking that they are in the right and that I am in the wrong because most religions are backwards.20c Those who live by the sword, will live in constant fear of others.but those who live by these words, shall have eternal life!21 ‘People have heard my groaning, but there is no one to comfort me All my enemies have heard of my distress yet they rejoice at what you have done to me.May you bring the day that they have announced in their songs so that they may become more like me.21a But right now, I hate them! I hate them for not only not caring about what they were doing to me, for rejoicing over my torment. 21b Doing everything that I wanted to do only leaving me excluded and turning my suffering it into their profit! 21c Videos made to deliberately to rejoice over my suffering. 21d Then endless numbers of songs came out with lies, false; love, hope and promises making me believe that something good was about to happen, getting me excited that my life was finally about to get better. 21e But nights rolled on and not one person said anything to me. 21f I was confused, scared, and left to continue to live my life without wealth or luxury or only I know that I was a God, hence not like anyone else. 21g It also became very hard to find out that I was Aaliyah and I had my dream life stolen from me and forced to live a life with parents that I have nothing in common with. 21h They are not capable of believing that their child could be both older than them and an ancient God, never one see me as being special! 21i I’m convinced my mum does not even have real feels as she is to dumb for that! True I don't have respect for her either but respect is earn and I and do not feel that she has earned it from me. 21j With all this in mind I was also then forced to keep having to work as a masseuse and live in a small studio flat. 21k While people insulted me whenever I try to tell them the truth about who Christ is and how to read the Bible. 21l With all this happening to me, the rich singers who life in million pound mansions and who have millions of fans. 21m They get to go out to clubs and enjoy their riches, with me just lying on a bed unable to get up as i was going through a spiritual birthing and felt like I was being magnetized to the bed.

21n No doctor would have believed me if I would have seeked them for help about it. 21o They most likely would have just put me in a mental hospital, like what happen at the beginning when I try to tell them the elet were writing songs about me without telling. 21p I showed them proof that i was a god by showing them the corrections with my name, but they just asked me “why is this important to you” I don't think they even tried to listen to what I was saying. 21q This is the state of this world I showed them evidence that I was telling the truth and yet they ignored me but when religious people talk about their faith with no evidence they are seen as sane when it is in fact them with a form of mental

condition not I.

21r I was trapped because no one around could believe or care to know if I really was a God. Night after night I waited just watching the endless number of people just use my sacrifice as a way profit for themselves. 21s Or as a way of exalting themselves to make them seem more powerful like it was they that was the God not me. 21t The whole time they did this they gave me no recognition or return for any of it, they did not even give me the satisfaction of telling me that they were actually doing things about me behind my back. 21u With the number of people on youtube that called me crazy there were times that i believed it myself. 21v It was like being famous only have none of the rewards, no money, fame, support, wealth, cool parties, holidays around the world, security, attention, fans, only talked about behind my back, used, mocked, lied to all behind close doors. 21w What was worse was that these people who were doing this to me had changed many of the release dates to hide their guilt and make it look like they were all just prophecies from the spirit. 21x Like they were not just lying to me making me feel like something good was about to happen to me when really they knew I was just going to be ignored for years 21y On top of that they made music videos that insulted me, my image, all that I stand for trying to make it seem like I was just a sex addict in many of the videos. 21z Writing song that supposable expose my personal life, and feelings towards my partner like most of the songs written before the wake up. When in reality they have never met me, and therefore do not know anything about me.

21d May you bring the day you have announced so that they may become like me, Depressed and sad!22 ‘Let all their wickedness come down on themselves let them see the wrong that they have done; deal with them as you have dealt with me22a For years I've listen to songs that felt like they were talking to me lying to me leading me on, I pray ‘let them go through the same thing only when they hear song words of love, let them know it’s not my thoughts towards them but only towards Satan! 22b and when they hear song lyrics of hatred and anger, let them know that these are the words that God is aiming at them, God’s feelings towards them for ignoring my pain. 22c Because of all their sins not mine!My groans are many and my heart is faint.’ 21d But they did not care there eyes just glossed over these words as they mindlessly worshipped the torturer.

21e There is one thing that you should know about God, which is that although my opinions on situations and on people may change as my memory or mood changes, I can never change. 22f From the age of twelve I liked who I was as a person, I was comfortable and settled in myself and personality and character that I had and so I vowed not to

change regulars to what the ‘demons’ in this world do, say or believe. 22f Likewise you too should ‘find yourself’, but it will take you many life times to do so.

2 How the Lord has covered Daughter Zion with the cloud of her anger!He has hurled down the splendour of Israel from heaven to earth;he has not remembered his footstool in the time of his anger.1a Footstool! The people who worship this book clearly care not for this woman (or ‘the people’ as most think this to be as ‘The Lord’ uses vulgar language towards her, or ‘the people’ and people still love this lord!1b Proving that people care nothing about righteousness or about justice, they solely care about power, and who has the most of it regardless to what they choose to do with that power, and regardless to how much pain this ‘Lord’ chooses to inflict on others:

2 Without pity the Lord has swallowed up all the dwellings of Jacob (Israel);in his wrath he has torn down the strongholds of Daughter Judah (Israel).He has brought her kingdom and its princes down to the ground in dishonour.3 In fierce anger he has cut off every horn of Israel.He has withdrawn his right hand at the approach of the enemy.He has burned in Jacob (Israel) like a flaming fire that consumes everything around it.4 Like an enemy he has strung his bow; his right hand is ready.Like a foe he has slain all who were pleasing to the eye;he has poured out his wrath like fire on the tent of Daughter Zion (Israel).5 The Lord is like an enemy; he has swallowed up Israel.He has swallowed up all her palaces and destroyed her strongholds.He has multiplied mourning and lamentation for Daughter Judah (Israel).6 He has laid waste his dwelling like a garden; he has destroyed his place of meeting.The LORD has made Zion (Israel) forget her appointed festivals and her Sabbaths;in his fierce anger he has spurned

both king and priest.7 The Lord has rejected his altar and abandoned his sanctuary.He has given the walls of her palaces into the hands of the enemy;they have raised a shout in the house of the LORD as on the day of an appointed festival.8 The LORD determined to tear down the wall around Daughter Zion (Israel).He stretched out a measuring line and did not withhold his hand from destroying.He made ramparts and walls lament; together they wasted away.9 Her gates have sunk into the ground; their bars he has broken and destroyed.Her king and her princes are exiled among the nations, the law is no more,and her prophets no longer find visions from the LORD.

9a All people here me, the true word of God, how can you read this book and believe that this vile dictator and tyrant Lord is righteous… 9b You are all fools and you deserve to feel bad for worshiping this false demon! 9c Over the last few years I have heard soo many false prophets claiming to come with a messages from God… 9d But all those that worship this monster then claim to receive a ‘messages’ from him, are not receiving messages from God but are only getting message from your own thoughts and mind. 9e True many of them might be influenced from God in spirit (or God in flesh) but if you put a male over the female, the past over the present or future, then you would most likely be getting or giving an inverted message.

10 The elders of Daughter Zion sit on the ground in silence;they have sprinkled dust on their heads and put on sackcloth.The young women Israel has bowed their heads to the ground.11 My eyes fail from weeping, I am in torment within;my heart is poured out on the ground because my people are destroyed,because children and infants faint from hunger on some streets of the poorer cities .12 They say to their mothers, ‘Why are we so poor?’as their lives ebb away in their mother's’ arms.13 What can I say to them? The rich do not care about you!13a The hundreds of thousands of rich people who live in mansions and would gladly throw away a thousand pounds on a single night in a bar,

just so they can get laid or impress friends that only like them because of the free drinks.13b With what can I compare you,They would spend a thousand pounds on a single night out while others could live of that for a year! Israel, To what can I liken you, that I may comfort you,13c You have worked for years only to receive nothing but grief and insults but others can do very little work that is full of lies and corruption and yet can receive a much greater pay with a lot more respect!13d Even as a masseuse it would take you years to buy a flat to buy a studio flat, what is this imbalance that makes some places to live so expensive and others so cheap. 13e Why is it so easy for some to make huge amounts of money when others who are just as skilled have to struggle as much as they do!

13f Earth, your wound is as deep as the sea. Who can heal you?14 The visions of your prophets the christians were false and worthless;they did not expose your sins to ward off your captivity and fix it.14a The prophecies they gave you were false and misleading.For this world has far more faults than the sins that are talked about in the old Bible!15 Israel, many who pass your way Stick up their nose at you;they scoff at those that have no power or wealthShake their heads at the thought of someone like you as being a God at Daughter Zion:15a ‘Is this the woman that was called the perfection of beauty, the joy of the whole earth?’16 All your enemies open their mouths wide against you;they scoff, mock, laugh and say, ‘We have swallowed her up.This is the day we have waited for; we have lived to see it.’17 The LORD has done what he planned; he has fulfilled his word, which he decreed long ago.17a He has overthrown you without pity, he has let the enemy gloat over you, he has exalted the horn of your foes.18 The hearts of the people cry out to the Lord. For they care not for his victim which is you!Walls surround you Daughter Zion, 18a let your tears flow like a river

day and night; give yourself no relief, your eyes no rest.19 Arise, cry out in the night, as the watches of the night begin;19a Let these words fill you with paranoia, let no one care about you, let them not care as it's what the people of this world and the people that love this book do best.19a pour out your heart like water in the presence of the Lord.19b Just know that if a day comes where this same thing happens to you, the reader who loved the old Bible, let it be known that God will have no pity or sympathy for you. 19c Why! because you showed me no sympathy when I was in my time of need! Insead you supported the insanity of this book that says that I should;19c ‘Lift up your hands to him for the lives of your children,who faint from hunger at every street corner.’19d Litting up your hands to someone that only want me to suffer, how is doing this going to help feed my children… It's insanity how anyone can worship this Book! Its evil that they follow after it are evil, insane or ignorant!20 ‘Look, LORD, and consider: whom have you ever treated like this?Should women eat their offspring, the children they have cared for?29a Should priest and prophet be killed in the sanctuary of the Lord?The old testament says yes to this, rape, war… Must I go on! 21 ‘Young and old lie together in the dust of the streets;my young men and women have fallen by the sword.You have slain them in the time of your anger; you have slaughtered them without pity.22 ‘As you summon to a feast day, so you summoned against me terrors on every side.In the time of the LORD’s angerthose I cared for and reared my enemy has destroyed.’22a No one escaped punishment, for all have suffered all have fallen victim to something, if not in your current life then in one of your past lives; Not at the hand of God but at the hand of the people! This there was their God!

3 I am the woman who has seen affliction by the rod of the LORD’s wrath.

2 He and his people have driven me away and made me walk in darkness rather than light;3 indeed, they have turned their works against me again and again, all day long.4 I feel like I’m soo old and worn now and like all me bones have been broken.5 He has besieged me and surrounded me with bitterness and hardship.6 He has made me dwell in darkness like those who are long dead.7 He has walled me in so that I cannot escape; he has weighed me down with chains.8 Even when I call out or cry for help, he shuts out my prayer.9 He has barred my way with songs that mock me; he has made my paths crooked and destroyed be life!10 Like a bear lying in wait, like a lion in hiding,11 he dragged me from the path and mangled me and left me without help.12 He drew his bow and made me the target for his arrows.

12a This section is not always meant in a literary sense but mostly in a emotional senses. It’s is how I felt throughout most of the first year, yet those who I tried to tell, care not! 12b For they don't believe me, as most mortals are not capable of believing that thousands of rich and famous people would be doing things about me, and young girl with not wealth fame or obvious importance, behind my back. They do not believe me when I say that the bible is about me. 12c For there are soo many people in the world that claim to have been told by God that they are the ‘Bride of Christ’ or ‘Christ’ but all are liars. 12d They claim that percussion is upon them, not because it is, but just because they want to believe that Jesus is coming to rescue them… They care not for truth they only seek to gain the desires of their heart and leave this world… 12e As for me on the outside i look unharmed but inside I am anything but okay, my only wish for the last two years has been to die and stay dead for a long time…

12f I have never believed in God because I have always gone through a certain amount of real suffering, suffering that christians know nothing about as their suffering is mostly a self inflicted nasty view on life, but mine is mostly real things. 12g They are not self inflicted like having partners who I share nothing in common with, one who is slightly manic and has a hoarding condition. 12h I also have dyslexia, yet spent most of my childhood feeling like an adult in a child's body, feeling more mature than my mum from a very young age. 12i Going to 6 schools before university, so I always felt like the shy new girl that no one really got to know. Things got much better for my 3rd year of uni, I felt like I had finally got my confidence together. 12j After uni I then was on the dull for three years despite spending hundreds of hours trying to find a Job, and

feeling really useless and stupid when nothing I tried seem to work. 12k I felt like a curse was following me around leading me on giving me false hope only for it to later amount to nothing. 12l On top of all that I just felt like I don't I don't belong here, like their was something very different about me which nobody else could see as my daily problems seemed so much worst than what most other people complained about. 12m People though, are so wrapped up in their own life that they don't usually see the troubles of others, and put things into perspective. 12n I only began to put things fully into perspective after I met this guy only to be rejected, as its not normal to have such a curst life. 12p To meet so many guys at uni, through endless nights out and years as a masseuse, and yet still not have a proper relationship with everyone at 26 years of age despite making many tries…12q And now I find someone who I really likes and believes likes me just as much, only he's refusing to see to, why! Whats wrong with me! Why do most guys remind me of animals when trying to see them as more than friends. and why is this guy so different when I don't even know him… It felt like a spell!

13 He pierced my heart with arrows from his quiver.All love songs seem to be an identical match to how I felt, but the good things and the bad.then people started to make it clear that they knew this to.14 I felt like the laughing-stock of all my people; they mocked me in song all day long.14a They knew I was the woman from this book but I bet few choose to read this book to find out more about me, for if they did they would've known that I was not going to come out of this sacrifice all loving and cheerful.

14b They wrote songs about how depressed I felt; brokenhearted, ignored, alone, scared and rejected, yet they thought I would still like them after being used by them for years, and after having them just try to expose the pain of my personal life and turn it into entertainment for the masses to dance, drink and celebrate over… 14c It was bad enough that the songs I use to dance and enjoy turned out to be just predictions of my life and future sacrifice but they did not know that there was a real person suffering at the expense of this. 14d But now the veil has been removed and they now knew they were mostly inspired by the same person, a person that they could see with their eyes and could see was in a time of extreme distress and anguish. 14e Instead of helping me though, by warning me of the long wait to come. They sang about the promise of my lovers return, only he never returned it was all just lies, getting me excited over nothing. 14f They dressed up as Queens and rulers, posing as me, only singing about words of selfish needs to control and dominate. Posing as if they themself were messiah, and at the same time lying and about what I was actually going to have to endure. 14g Teasing me about how everything was going to be exciting for me soon only that day never came, for years they said nothing to me of what they knew about me! They did not try to get to know me or think about

what it is that I would want…

14h I told many people about what was happening to me but most did not believe and the ones that did were either scared, or just acted like, ‘its not my life, hence it's not my problem’… 14i That was how most of them that semi believed saw it. 14j Almost none of them cared enough to look into what I was saying as knowing the truth about God means nothing to anyone on this planet, it's only about the now pleasures and what can this God offer. 14k Its is for this reason that most would rather pay me for a massage then listen to my thoughts for free. Knowledge and truth means little to people in this world. 14l They don’t want to expect that there is someone in the world that is about the human race. 14m It is for this reason that Martin is the only one who can save this planet for he is from this world and so is more like the people, hence people would more likely listen to him. 14n Also he's male, which is what the people want as people are made in my image and that is what I want, a leader figure, an equal and a companion. 14o I myself am a leader to but I have been rejected by this world because of its awards teachings and lies about me. 14p It is because of this and the deserts that is my life that I no longer care about the people of this world. 14p For their is only so much a person can do to impress but if people still do not want to expect, listen or care about you then you just have to move on to another group of people. 14q In my case though the rejection is so severe that I see moving on can only happen through death and entering into another world or place on the timeline.

14r For years I've had thousands of people do things about me and make it perfectly clear that they know I’m the Christ, Eve, Aaliyah and yet not try to warn me that I had a very long time to wait before they were going to come a talk to me about it… 14s As a God I’ve had to listen to a huge number of crazies speak lies about what God has been saying to them. 14t Spewing; out hatred, fear mongering and nonsense all supposedly in my name whilst insulting, blocking or ignoring me.14u How can i forgive the world for this! I hate them all and I have no desire to meet them or know then… 14v The people of this world are heartless and the happiest day of my life will be the day I die. Hopefully I will not have to live in such a disgusting place ever again…

14w I never believed in God because I believed if there was a God I can't understand why God is not helping lots of people, now I know why that is… 14x Its because too many people in this world are heartless and they don't deserve to be helped as they would not help her if the situation was reversed. 14y If God was the one that need help, few would care, few would try to expose her truth if they met this person before their rise to power and wealth. 14z People do things for money in this world and the destruction of religion and all its lies, is means nothing to most if there's no profit to be made out of it.

15 The World has filled me with bitter herbs and given me gall to drink.

15a In this world so many singers have been helped they've been helped to fame and they've got lots of success but even when they found out who helped them, few of them tried to help me. 15b People often Love the destination but care nothing for the person that helped take them there. 15c I feel like a mule, used and mistreated by everyone around and yet unable to benefit anything for myself. 15d It’s me just me though, this something that many animals have experience, and so to use and not care about the life of others has been embedded into people's subconscious. 15e For this to change however people need to believe in reincarnation, but people here are too arrogant that people would not switch relion just because a young girl tells them to. 15f No! these people worship power dominance authority. 15g It would take an army beyond number to crash down christianity expose the lies and idolse a new God. 15h A God with strength, glory, power, love, fame, money… but what has been done to me has left me weak and hating everyone. 15i So like a hunter I must set a trap, bait that all people of this world will love so that they might excpt listen and believe in all that they say. 15jI will establish the new religion using my bait people, the singers that were happy to come against me and ignore me during my time of sacrifice. 15k then when the world has expect me and the people that have caused me both joy and mourning, I will support what is Good from what is bad.

15l My goal will be accomplished but I will be left destroyed, to punish those who longed for Babylon to be destroyed!... Proving that you should be careful for what you wish for;

16 The world has broken me; It feels as though they have trampled me in the dust.17 I have been deprived of peace; I have forgotten what prosperity is.18 So I say, ‘My splendour is gone and all that I had hoped from the LORD has amounted to nothing’19 I remember my affliction and my wandering, the bitterness and the Doubt.20 I well remember them, and my soul is downcast within me.

21 Yet this I call to mind;

Zechariah 9:9; Rejoice greatly, Daughter Zion! Shout, Daughter Jerusalem! See, your king comes to you, righteous and victorious, lowly and riding on a donkey.

and therefore I have hope:

22 ‘Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail.’I just did not realise that that donkey was me!23 They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.24 I say to myself, ‘The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.’25 The LORD is good to the one whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him;26 it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the LORD.27 It is horrible for a woman who bears the yoke while she is young.28 Let her sit alone in silence, for the LORD has laid it on Her.29 Let her bury her face in the dust – so that here may yet be hope for others.30 Let her offer her cheek to ones who would strike her, and let them be filled with disgrace for doing so.Let them see the error of their way so that they can change31 For no one is cast off by the Lord forever.32 Israel, though he brings grief, he will show compassion, so great is his unfailing love.33 For he does not willingly: bring affliction or grief to you.34 To crush underfoot the prisoner in the land,35 to deny people their rights to be the Most High,36 to deprive her of justice – is not what the Lords would let see happen!37 They can speak and have it happen because the Lord in spirit has decreed it?38 Is it not from the mouth of the Most High that both calamities and good things come?No! All living things have free willits is they not the lord that created both Good and bad things.39 Why should the living complain when punished for their sins?They did not mind hearing about Babylon or Zion calamitiesSo why should God mind hearing about yours!40 Let them examine our ways and test them, and let them return to the true LORD.41 Let them lift up their hearts and their minds to God in heaven, and say:42 ‘We have sinned and rebelled and you have not forgiven.43 ‘You have covered yourself with anger and pursued us; the people of this world have slain without pity.44 You have covered yourself with a cloud

as a test to see who’s side people are really on the side of the innocent victim or the side of the powerful monster.45 But you have chosen the wrong side they have made us scum and refused to help the nations.46 ‘All our enemies have opened their mouths wide against us calling use whores and liars47 We have suffered terror and pitfalls, ruin and destruction.’ but you refuse to care about us48 Streams of tears flow from my eyes because my people are destroyed.Dead, heartless, selfish, shallow and vain49 My eyes will flow unceasingly, without relief,50 until the LORD looks down from heaven and sees.51 What I see brings grief to my soul because of all the people of my world.52 Those who were my enemies without cause hunted me like a bird.53 They tried to end my life in a pit and threw stones at me;54 the waters closed over my head, and I thought I was about to perish.55 I called on your name, LORD, from the depths of the pit.56 You heard my plea: ‘Do not close your ears to my cry for relief.’57 But you did not came near when I called you, and you said, ‘Leave me alone.’ but then after came back to me!58 You, Lord, took up my case; you redeemed my life, after spending years putting me through hell!59 LORD, you have seen the wrong done to me. ...of which you are partly responsible for! Uphold my cause!60 You have seen the depth of their vengeance, all their plots against me.61 LORD, in heaven you have heard their insults, all their plots against me –62 what my enemies whisper and mutter against me all day long.63 Look at them! Sitting or standing, they mock me in their songs.64 Pay them back what they deserve, LORD, for what their hands have done.65 Put a veil over their hearts, and may your curse be on them now!66 Pursue them in anger and destroy them Like they have done to me!

from under the heavens of the LORD.

4 How the gold has lost its lustre, the fine gold become dull!The sacred gems are scattered at every street corner.2 How the precious children of Zion, once worth their weight in gold,are now considered as pots of clay, the work of a potter’s hands!3 my people have become heartless like a hungry hunter in the desert.4 The children beg for meaning in life, but no one gives it to them.5 Those who once ate delicacies are destitute in mind now.Those brought up in wealth now lie on ash heaps as richesses passfrom one life to the next.6 The punishment of my people is greater than that of Sodom,which was overthrown in a moment without a hand turned to help her.7 Their princes were might be wealthy in one life,their bodies might be strong and muscular.8 But with reincarnation, different are they now; they are not recognised in the streets from life to life.Their skin shrivelled over time;9 Those killed by the sword are better off than those who die slowly of famine and extreme poverty;racked with hunger, they waste away for lack of food from the field.10 For thousands of years my people were destroyed.11 The LORD has given full vent of his wrath on me; he has poured out his fierce anger.He kindled a fire of ‘love without a lover’ in Zion that consumed her foundations.12 The kings of the earth did not believe in God the mother, nor did any of the peoples of the world,and so enemies and foes entered the Land.13 it happened because of the sins of her prophets and the iniquities of her priests,who shed within her the blood of the righteous.14 Now they grope through the streets as if they were blind completely unwear of all the evidence that points to the mother God as being the real LordThey are so defiled with hate and envy

16 They have been scattered; The Lord no longer watches over them.The priests are shown no honour, the elders no favour.17 Moreover, our eyes failed, looking in vain for help;from our towers we watched for a nation that could not save us.18 People stalked us at every step, so we could not walk in our streets.Our end was near, our days were numbered, for our end had come.19 Our pursuers were swifter than eagles in the sky;they chased us over the mountains and lay in wait for us in the desert.20 The LORD’s anointed, Mother and Fatherour very life breath, was caught in their traps.We thought that under his shadow we would live among the nations.21 Rejoice and be glad, Israel, you who live in the land of ZionBut to you also the cup will be passed; you will be drunk and stripped of pride.22 Your punishment will end, Daughter Zion; he will not prolong your exile.But he will punish you for your sin against Zion, and he will show wickedness towards you.

5 Remember, LORD, what has happened to us; look, and see our disgrace.2 Our inheritance has been turned over to strangers, our homes to foreigners.3 We have become an orphan, our mother a widow.4 We must pay to help this world!; our world can be had only at a price.5 Those who pursue us are at our heels; we are weary and find no rest.6 I submitted to massage to get enough money to eat and pay rent.7 Our ancestors sinned, but we bear their punishment.8 The insane rule over us, and there is no one to free us from their hands.9 We suffer so to get this word in the ‘desert’.11 Women have been violated throughout history.12 Princes have been hung up by their hands; elders are shown no respect.13 Young men mess around at work;

boys stagger home drunk at night.14 The people are cut off from logic; the producers have stopped creating their music about me.15 Joy is gone from our hearts; our dancing has turned to mourning.16 The crown has fallen from my head. Woe to us, for we do not deserve this!17 Because of this my heart is faint; because of these things our eyes grow dim18 for Mount Zion, which lies desolate, with fools prowling over it.

19 But you, LORD, reign forever; your throne endures from generation to generation.20 Why do you always forget me? Why do you push me away for so long?21 Restore me to yourself, LORD, that we may return; renew our days as of old… 22 unless you have utterly rejected me or maybe i'm just insane!Maybe the cruelty of those that say i'm insane is just truth’ either way i am angry beyond measure.