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KOLLEKTIF LUCENT | SPECTRUM

DIVIDED BY LINES THE BOOK OF IDEAS : 1999 - 2001

CONTENTNS DIVIDED BY LINES IS A COLLECTION OF ROUGH

CONCEPTS, UNFINISHED SKETCHES, AND IDEAS THAT PROVIDE A GLIMPSE INSIDE THE CREATIVE PROCESS.

THE MATERIAL INCLUDED HERE, WERE DRAWN FROM THE WRITINGS THAT OCCURED DURING THE CREATION OF THE

LAST TRANSMISSIONS &THE MIZ.KONSEPCION OF LIFE.

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© 2002 SONNY NATALY/MONSIEUR LE MUR/SUNNAH’FAH GANDHI

divided by lines | the book of ideas 1999 – 2001

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STAY you’re so magnificent. in the light you shine, a palette of colours immaculate. how i want you to paint for me, to stay here a while and brighten the day. i know i’ll be ok, just as long as there is you to add meaning to my day. so let me trace you. let me sketch you. let me paint you, until you come to life in my eyes. forever to be a memory, etched on the walls of my mind. DIRECTION an arrow points over me, in the direction that i’ve come from. it points to a time, when i wandered off, in a direction that no man should go. in a direction filled with ghosts.


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NEVER SEE OF ME I had just walked into the day, when i first saw you. then and there, i felt my soul falling away from me. overthrown emotions raced past my heart. with you i always felt alive, but now you are gone, and i am just a shadow cast. i remember the simplicity of what i had found in you… the night i had come over for tea, listened as you talked about the life you’d lived. so young... yet you were to me so much wiser.. beyond belief, beyond your years. i wrote of you, the beautiful grace fallen upon me. later that evening. you reached into the oven and burned yourself. i sat on your bed and comforted the swell, but now i sit alone. to you, i was just a man hidden in a child, and that was what you could never see passt. never see of me, all that i could have been. never see of me but know this much is true, that no matter what you put me through, that i did and forever will love you. SIGHING THE GLANCE rough to the feel like the first touch of love. a glance from a distance, too short to go unnoticed... but not a sigh, not a sign of life. distant words become whispers to the hidden ear which listens, like it does for tomorrow to turn, like dryness on the tongue. …and with the satellites spying eye, I am but a man on the run.


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YOUR SHORES washed away on unknown shores, without the day to watch for my return. you’ve come to be irrelevantly sure that you are the reason I’m here. drowned under fear, your beliefs are set to sleep like the day, under the emptiness of the sky. come alone to yourself and realize what you have isn't what you want. gone to you is all I had to myself... in a broken mirror, too far to view. in the rear view, outside your sightlines. I’m trying my hardest to feel fine, but this ache consumes me ridiculously. how can you deny me, what’s mine by fate. love don’t you know that I will forever wait, and I will not once hesitate to step aside until you feel that my time for you is right. just as my purity flows away from me… I will be landing upon your pure shores, planning a path to sail, this night into you. waiting on a throne of simplicity for you. AT YOUR DOOR sitting on my own, I’m on top of the world. I’m on top, not gonna listen to the cries. I’m gonna say goodbye. I’m at her door ,,. don’t know if I can cry anymore. I’m sitting around. …I’m listening to the sounds, they are telling me to put on a smile. I’m kinda feeling lost. I’m kinda confused, hoping that you would help me choose. I’m trying to change my views. I’ve been listening to the blues, listening to your views, outside your door.


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BETTER LEAVE TOWN sing a song, sing it aloud… no one has to die, so why, so why, so why? we can’t ask why, just because our loved ones are left to die. don’t ask why, our future is left to pass before their time. no tears for the night. politicians are the soldiers. religion the war field. no borders... no barriers, you’d better leave town. nothing’s ever going to be the same and at the end of this game, everyone will be pointing the finger but no one will be taking the blame. left in disarray, there’s no shelter from this storm. this town has been turned upside down, so you might as well leave town. you better leave town. FAMILY LIES moved across love... like rain. hold still... hang on to the pain. they abused the two of them, and they would have continued. eighteen months of revelations… when “666” used to be a number, now it sympathizes rape and murder. all this from a custody battle. teenagers forced to strip for money, their father thinks, it’s kind of funny. in her circle, sitting around drawing circles, like the world turns around. she’s been looking like that for years. she’s waiting for you to tell her, so what are you waiting for?


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RAG DOLL push me to the ground. lift me up, and toss me around. I’ll be your rag doll, baby, use me all you want. use me ‘til I drown. don’t you know, I’m a toy made for abuse and pleasure. take my heart, and cut it up. I’m just so out of emotion. I’m just a rag doll… keep me close and then throw me out, once you find a new one, to hold onto. I’ll be floating, on the water. I’m just a rag doll baby, twist me and bend me in out of sorts. I don’t have soul or spirit. leave me here, and throw me there. silent like the night I will be, and from my eyes of loneliness, a tear will fall on the world. a tear will fall on the world, ‘cause I am so emotionless to you. ATLANTIS the city in the sea. Peaceful… untouched… a place for me to go, when I feel like being free. away from the touch of god. too deep to see the sky… to see the airplanes and birds fly. too deep to hear the land… to hear the cars, animals roam. Atlantis, you'll fall from the sky. Atlantis, you'll fall to the sea. Atlantis, you'll finally be home.


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HELPless purple eyeliner, running down your face. whiskey bottle, tightly held in a paper bag. what’s that, a corner store in the middle of the road? long night philosophizing, under the stars. half shut eyes, contemplating sleep. awake at four, just hating life. the red light turns into dawn, dawn quicker than the blink of an eye... say goodbye, so long, it’s time to go home... back to your curbside wall. you used to play house in cardboard boxes, now you live in one. a scenic view of concrete trees and jungle paths. this is the stuff, this is the life you’ve run to. meaningless, a world without dreams, and of ambitions, that can’t be reached. can’t you stand it... why did you run? run here tonight, for there’s only one way out, to a place of loneliness. come on now, don’t tell me you’re not strong. i know you’re surviving by yourself, as the rain falls down and cleans away yesterday. the sad part is, today’s almost done. Helpless, unmistaken. Helpless, unforgiven. sincerly yours... forsaken. SCENE like the stars that fade in light. the sooner i’ll see, the further you’ll be. give me a trap and i’ll catch all the fame that you seek like a scene.


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DRIVE she drives and drives, and drives. on the highways and one-ways, only stopping for red lights and gas. calmer than me on the passengers side, and though it seems that there is no room, she somehow manages to perfectly parallel park. reminding me that i still have my final driver’s exam, awaiting me on my return home. LET ME KNOW YOU so here we are, wide awake and blue. can you see... can you believe? …that there’s no one left, except for me and you. let’s take a drink tonight… here’s a toast to the like. that’s right… you and me, for love and life. …for all that’s beautiful. we’re all so beautiful, until you turned the tide and led me to believe, that we were of another race… then you went and changed the pace. now that, that is in the past, let’s live just for you and i. so be yourself, in every word you cast. let me know you, as you are without a mask.


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TIME i feel the eyes of time, looking away from me. looks like i’ll be the next to fall into an empty grave, that’s been dug out for me. YOU TOOK MY HEART in a moment that i would never leave. …in you i found all that i wanted to believe. in a moment that i would never leave. …in you i found all that i wanted to receive. it was love from a distance, in which the coldness grew. now this scared child, doesn't know how to weep. when you stole my soul, you took my heart, and in a little while you will have forgotten me. a careless child much to weak, hushed and betrayed by you, the only one who i’d see. longing for you to return to us, but you'd rather have left me in the dark without a hope. for when you stole my soul, you took my heart.


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LET ME GO you say you love me… but when i’m not there, you turn away; take my ring from its home, and place it in your pocket. who am I to you? a gal that you know, from other places in your life? …yet when we are alone, you make me surrender to your smile and laughter, but not before you make me cry my tears, as they fall quick, from eye to cheek to lip. why is this game you play, full of so much hurt? consequence is your ignorance why does situation decide, who i am? can you not see, can you not say... you no longer want to be with me? why do you play these games with me… with my head? why do you say things to me, that no one has ever said? why are you so cruel to me? what did i say… did i do? fourteen years… fourteen years, i’ve spent with you. every day, every hour... all you do is hold me. you hold me in your mind’s prison. everyday every hour, i try to find… i try to find my sanctuary, in your indiscretions. HALLELUJAH how can you reach through the sky? after everything that we’ve denied. life is what keeps us together. love is what shows us the hidden path. ever after, ever free, to you i turn to rescue me. living these lies has left me scarred within. under skin, as i say my last words of confession. judge me not, rather listen to what i say. as i look at the world, i see peace and calm. heaven is this earth, one... united and free.


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SHE IS EVERYTHING memories are finger plated. your heart and soul feel so jaded. see your love, see your fears… see everything, just disappear. everything feels so right. everything seems the same. closer... i want to be further. i see you and my heart skips a beat, like a short circuit, i surge ahead. floating inside my eyes. i’m trying not to feel so... i’m trying not to look happy, because i’m not and you are so electric. i can’t explain it… you’ve become my everything. you are the everything, and i’m just a pair of eyes, watching your every step. BURN i see your love twisting away. just watching it fade away. it’s the loss that you bear like a cross, as the guilty turn innocent. those who served no cause… shot dead, they lay a loss. everything is important now, nothing more than hatred. no one’s left other than you. that’s when it becomes evident, the problems with small towns is everything’s so big. see the books of history, burn, burn, burn. see the books of stories, burn, burn, burn. it’s time to live again, but don’t forget the past. i know you’ll see, all the reasons, i can’t be me.


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FROM FEAR you leave me scarred… too weak to move away from you. i live in fear, shaken by ghosts from the past. all i know is,. of us and ours, is one. i live through you. in your eyes, i saw my children in laughter… us aging together, and what holds us within, coming together at once. i knew that you, were the one, i was… but you wouldn’t give a chance to your heart. a chance to cast your soul away with mine, over the shallow grave. which was for us alone. playing the hand of fate, you stacked the deck against me… the one you saw, and the one who saw you to be the perfect ending, on the road to eternal bliss. FRIDAY NIGHTS laying in bed, wondering what all this means. it used to be so easy, now there aren’t enough days in an hour. i need your love more than you know. it makes me feel alive… so don’t leave me, don’t leave me.


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YOU KNEW ALL ALONG you’ve been all over this town. you’ve become bored out of your mind. lately, everything seems the same. you don’t know why you’re here… maybe it’s time to get away, start over again… a new life, a new name. lost your life, lost your dreams. lost everything you had, for what you wanted to be, for what you couldn’t see. you wanted to love again, but she’s still on your mind. so you call her up again. …she’s holding it in. you tell her that you love her. …she tells youshe don’t know. …maybe it wasn’t supposed to be. …maybe, it was just another empty dream. through the many faces i’ve seen, yours is the one that’s still around. i can’t get you out of me, you were so much of me. OUTSIDE looking in, i’ve turned off the TV, and turned on my mind. thought of all the pain… could things really change, if we wanted them too? no... yes? wake me up, when it’s all over. better late, than never again.


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WITHOUT A HAND TO HOLD i’m all alone, up in the trees, with the birds singing, the season’s final defeat. fall arrives with a coolness, as daylight breaks on through. open eyes... stare at the prize. love flows from the child who loves the woman, the woman who cannot see him, or his cause in life with her, so she lets go, and holds onto memories of better times, when he wasn’t so serious about life. the child lives life on his own, without her by his side. don’t ask for calmness in a child full of life… he goes on pretending to be fine, but when alone, all he does is cry, for the love they had. …for a woman who has left him behind. she’s living her life with another man, ‘cause he has something the child never had. something this child will never understand, as he goes on and lives his life, without a hand to hold his heart,


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BALCONY (CLOSE YOUR EYES AND WATCH - PART 1) you’ve been watching the midnight feature, sitting next to a creature. it used to get so hot up here. the feature’s getting nowhere, so you walk down to the payphone... take the phone off the hook, hold it ‘til it shakes. dial her number and say hello, it’s me. …she can’t seem to remember, because it’s you... she wants to forget. you don’t know what to say, instead, you just listen to her breathe. These things you could have changed. the creature gets the girl. the creature takes over the world. …she hangs up the phone, and the creature is forgotten. balcony, just you looking out at the sea. the things you could have been. the things you could have had, but you got caught up in a mystery, because you wanted to go down as part of history. the screen goes black, on another night.


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IN MY EYES her face, the sun… a smile that shines through the day, and into the coldest night. from the ground, into the farthest reaches of the sky… she will shine in my eyes until frozen becomes the time and space, in which beats my heart for her. i’ve walked the walk, and i’ve talked the talk, but in front of her, i can’t walk nor talk.. just stare her way. i become so numb, drowning the butterflies left thoughtless and frail, in loves mighty spell. in my eyes, she is forever etched. in my eyes, she is a image of perfection. in my eyes.


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HERE I’LL STAND a defenceless child, born fragile. i see the sorrow of all that falls, but here i stand naked and pure. a fool to you, relentless… i am for you, a dove bleeding. you look at me, bleeding. oh life, too precious to let it pass. life, i am here, waiting to become unglued… to become the elements of life. Love… let’s make life, something beautiful. something true and pure. we could call it a miracle. they’ll say we’re cynical, but here i’ll stand with my life in your hands.


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FLY don’t be shy… fall to the sky, and if you’re that high, i hope the winds carry you across the sky. whispering of like and light, in a day of darkness. for you are my light, flickering in and out, of my life. for reasons i don’t know, answers you don’t have, he slapped you around then you paid his bail. you say you want me, but you don’t want me in your life. you sit around, teary eyed… while he lies, you want to fly away; leave him behind, and you say to me, i’m nothing but more work, yet you stay and bear all that is thrown at you.


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BACK TO ME you turn away from me, as if i couldn’t have been anything more to you in this life, but a faded face across the distance. a stripped stranger from close, who committed nothing less than treason. …and you arrested me without a reason. did i not understand your needs? ‘cause i did all i could to show my love, yet you left me without any hope. tired and battered, i’ve not moved on. still wishing you would give my love, the time of day and a right of way; instead of letting it fade away from your life. god gave to me, all i wanted in you, you took it away without thought. i weakened with time and now stand lost, waiting for word and praying you’ll learn to love me, as i did you. understand i gave to you mutually, what you took from me thoughtlessly. so i’ll stare at you... my love lost, hoping you will bring yourself back to me.


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A LONELY MAN’S BLUES the sun got taken by the moon. and on a brighter day, i’ve seen mystery come searching for me. i told it to go away, because i didn’t have anytime to say hello. i said “goodbye” to it... the life i had. with a view of only walls, that closed in on me… with all the lives i wished i had lived, but time ticked away against my stolen will, like love… a drug that slowed down with autumn’s chill, and in all this aging, i saw the sun shine through, to burn my skin… reminding me of this designed intelligence.


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WALK AWAY FROM ME you never meant anything to me. it’s been a while since i’ve been here, running away from you... was it you or fear? feeling a lot like yesterday... tomorrow’s not today. now you’re so far away, i used to know you, we used to play... now we run to who? who knows what we are and what we want. too much time has been wasted and words been said, yet you’re half the world away. the sun still shines where you are, and the snow’s falling here. giving up is giving in, would it be a sin? it has been awhile, i’m on my knees. can’t you see how it’s going to be? you walk away from me. you walked out on me. reading what the sign says, “you’re a mile above, where you really are.” there’s no room for you and i. the tears have dried. the nights are short, your love came and went. …this will be, the last time i see you. …this will be, the first time i want you.


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IN DUST ‘round about midnight, the sun started to shine strong… bringing life to the me in you. as the stars came shooting by, i swear i heard your voice in mine saying, “there will be a time when no one will call, but don’t you worry ‘cause i won’t die tonight. …so don’t forget about me, i’ll be here for you. all you have to do, is come home tonight. let me be where you are, i will not sleep as i please. so please let me be incomplete and lost, in all the love you bring.” will i ever be three again? lost in lust… my untrusting love. Trust… be unbounded by love, and stand forever in dust.


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AT YOUR DOOR AGAIN for the one i fear… you for some reason, can’t see through me. …at her, i can only stare. …at your door, again i am, as this night just leads our love to flare up. my hands want to run over you, as they once ran through your hair, but you shiver when i’m near you. just like i shiver, when you’re far away. washed up... washed away, what you want for me, i can’t be. you were something, i could never have. you were someone, who i’d always known, listening to the late night radio, becoming ever so lost, while the radio humned, thinking about all the warnings. holding out hope, that you’d still come, yet you didn’t say a word, didn’t seem to care. i closed my eyes and asked myself why, i could never ask you again.


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IN THE SEA there’s so much i could try to do, but i know it would mean nothing to you. in time you’ll realize, i thought the world of you in this life. if you would have peeled away, and seen that there was nothing more to me, than love for you. i’d give away these words to have you now… so come and see that there’s nothing more to me, than for you and me to be released and free. i’ll be nothing more than a slave of what you searched for in me. open up your eyes and watch me be so positively lost in this world now, without you to call and be with. i’m living without you, ‘cause that’s what you need… for me to be away from your life. madly, i wish i could have crept back in, but respect has left me to lead a life alone, on these unknown seas which i searched for you in. like a fish in the ocean, with nowhere else to be, except waiting for the day that you catch up to me.


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THE SAD SOUL i want to be alone tonight, under the atomic sky. i want to watch your private life, through the satellites. something’s going on around here… my heart’s been misplaced. someone has left a hole in me… my shadow doesn’t follow me. my feet walk in opposite directions. sometimes my sun shines, everywhere but on me. i’ve been wandering… i’ve been here before. something’s wrong with this place , it’s different than the picture i took. like rivers flow… this picture in my mind, becomes one with what i see. there’s a face in the corner, a red-orange glow brightens the room. she’s ready to take on the world, and as island breezes flow… i can smell her lovely scent. share the flame,… a lonely mother, searches for her child. the flame grows into a subtle rage, as calm falls at the mother’s feet. HELL the end is near, the truth is no longer unclear. the truth is finally here. we will once again begin the begin, only to end the end. to return the found, to find the lost. …and in the fury of this perplexed sky, we`ll let float away all the thoughts left denied. for hell has no love, only the will to pass judgment. it’s all yours to discover, just waiting to be uncovered.


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BOURBON ON BROWN like the world i fear, i'm stuck way out here in her magnetic pull… forever as a fool, i've become accustomed to the feeling of your atmosphere. you will hear me whisper, once in a while. Love come back to me, to the one you'd always hold close, never to be let loose into the wild… that's why i’ll stay forever here in your atmosphere, where all you think, is only for me to hear. i see through her grandness. she’s bourbon on brown, she always just makes me frown. she’s bourbon on brown, and someday i’ll wear her crown. she’s bourbon on brown, and her atmosphere has caged me in, like a pet that she takes comfort in. she is the woman, whom i seek to spend the rest of my life with.


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I’VE LOST how long... how long until you see me for who i am? i’ve searched for love in your eyes. your eyes... your eyes shed the light… blinded me like night. i became yours. rescue me... rescue me from yourself, and let me free. free... free to fly the skies over your height. i’ve lost... i’ve lost all feeling in my heart, just a numbness and an unbearable hunger to feel you... to feel you softly by my side. release passionately, these emotions. become one with me... one with us. i want to be, the funk in your thighs, and no longer, just the blues. a stranger, the night. a love unbroken, fragile. i wait for you, for all the time that we lose. you give me all that you are, and vanish these scars, that wound, deep into my heart… deep into the night.


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WAITING i’ve been waiting for a chance, to get through to you. clearer than the darkest lie, i’ve seen you, so many times. looked into the depths of your unending eyes, and found the way to your lost soul. love, you have an unending smile. sometimes it’s a fight, just to tame the light. no matter the hurt, i want to take you, so faraway from here. i want to give you, so much more than i can here. i found you shining in the sky, like a star that heaven couldn’t hide. searching the crying laugh… dying for you to tell me, “it’s alright”. for you to say, “come on through to me”. find a way to tell me, without the awkwardness of the moment. waiting for you, but there’s only light, no sound.


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BE MINE the days are falling short, and the sun sets on you alone. the days are never ending, and the sun has become you only. be mine, with these words… cross the line of divine time, forever until life has ended, ‘cause i know you can. i’m stripped down to necessity, and my only want is you, the one who won’t let this be. captured... never to be free from you. i shall release to you, heart and soul, my body and mind become intertwined with your every move against fate. forever we will breathe… the air that is around you and me. can you hear these words? whispers upon your ears alone. a runaway home, you’ve taken me too far. now i can’t find the door, ‘cause i don’t want to leave your side, in this life.


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LEAVE running from the darkness that makes you shiver. now there aren’t enough days in an hour, and there is no one around to call. leave him, leave it, leave everything behind. get it together on the night train… a way to get to some place soon. silence in a city of noise. travel to places until night meets day. no scenery, no landscape. close your eyes and you will escape, but you, you can’t get him out of you. he was so much of you… you left him wondering, why you called; why you said, “i just have to get away, i just have to get away from here.” leave him, leave it, leave everything behind, “now before i hang up, read the note, it’s from me.” now honey, you better hold you’re own hand, ‘cause that’s the only way you’ll get anywhere. you might survive the lonely nights, but how long will you survive without peace in your mind?


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TO ETERNITY through to the end, we’ll go so slowly. beyond eternity, we’ll be together forever lady. just you and me and all the space in light. so don’t worry, love… you can leave me here on for good, but when the time comes, i’ll see you again, in god’s arms love. in god’s open arms, you’ll come back to the one who your soul escaped to, and your spirit flew away with. i’ll be waiting for you, right next to an empty seat. so sit, relive and be with me, through everything you weren’t a part of. here on earth, we’ll fly. here on earth, we’ll die. here on earth, we’ll be apart, yet together at the same time as you wished of us. here on earth, we’ll be apart. just as you wished of us… until we reach eternity, then we’ll be together.


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HER LATE NIGHTS she’s been out all night, trying to remember the thought that’s in the light. somewhere in the limelight, she’s learning how to fly kites, between the drunks and smokes that surround her. it’s two a.m., and she hasn’t had a bite. she’s learning how to fight, standing up for her rights, just begging for the night , dying to lose the sight. i see her falling, but i don’t know if she can hear me calling. you have the right to fight, fight for your rights. fight with all your might. fight to be all that you can be… join the army. coin the downy. god damn these american doors. you and your see through floors, are more work than the daily chores.


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LIFE there is an easier way to get to the top of all the mountains that we climb, so what about the walk of the lost? in a time within which, time has found survival in the captured and tortured minds… a state of calm. now for everyone who decides they have nothing left but pride, you will find joy in their cry, because the tears that stream from the eyes that have ventured back from the endless demise, show life has so much to give. so just open your eyes and live, or else you will be left to see time... see how time is just a crime and you’ll find yourself passing, so don’t live your life half dead, but wide awake. stay awake from death and don’t fall asleep on life.


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COME TO LOSS come to loss with what you turned your heart away from. purity... humanity... it was an unnatural defeat. failing to win the heart’s race, you found yourself a retreat, and ran there out of pace. come to loss with what you closed your eyes to. …an unwished for act, in which you defied your own blood for greed, so that you could be unseen and let the guilty be freed, with the hate of only your own self pity to pride while your soul cried out, yet you never tried to think. so now you come to loss with yourself. you’re left searching for what you will never find, because you never thought twice. you never thought twice. so come to loss with everything that was and will never be.


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HERE I AM don’t wake up with this morn’s call. stay here in your dream with me. we could live so perfectly, without the world to hound us. only the waves of my love, pushing at your feet. alone with the birds singing under the sun, and the bees humming along. so perfectly in our picket fence home, you and i will be, with no roads leading up onto this cloud. so awake in our space away, alone. we could sail the seven seas, and do whatever else you please. i’ve given you my every thought, there’s no rush to the day, it’s alright. don’t you think indecisively, i know the choices are as wide as the ocean, and as long as the freeway you’ve built for me, but don’t let go, you know this is me. here i am... standing naked, sharing everything, with nothing left to hide. here i am, in my shame.


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DEAR READERS dear readers, the speedmeter broke as i tried to follow her. in movement comes change. like the revelers crossing the surface of needles… take the pain, and let her go. i realize now that there is more left for me. not looking at the haze in which you are set alight by the power lines that carry the heat… can you call me? the only lonely trick... i am too blue, like fluorescent light hanging like a rope, down the lines of connection, to a place of spatial calm and depravation. it’s getting late, i better go. what tomorrow brings... only the good lord knows.


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LOST WITHOUT from mother to daughter, the gap of relevance grows like the sands of time slipping in and out of life. but how is time to know, that she will learn to cry at her own pace… harmonizing the words of life that you yell out to the relevance of time, in this a world aging slowly, though we move so fast. save me from my state of shame… it’s growing and i think i’m going sane. i’m lost without her, now and always, again i’ll shout, until she sees herself looking into the mirror of deception. glittering eyes, stare out like a prizefighter at the colours... rooftop... scenery. she has seen the universe come to me from the you… from the you, and between her and i, the verse replays.


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FROZEN TEARS You’re waking up to go out, so you can melt the snow… but for all you know, the waves just might flow and take you from me. it's alright ‘cause time, ‘cause time cannot strip away the memories and days of you with me, spent so certainly... wisely in the shade of an oak tree, under a raining cloud of summer. love, find a way to hold on to these aging hands of mine, that are so full of dependence and loss. don't slip away like the days, from which we use to wake and laugh away our clumsiness. under all the undying fuss, you created a barrier, that only i broke. one look at you and i turned to stone… frozen from your coldness in love, but i’ll walk on and harden like ice, while you’ll be the rain falling like my frozen tears.


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SO ALIVE this day, this day, this day. so bright!, so alive! i’ve waited for life to come for my own. the life i live, your eyes make a sort of unknowing connection. like the past does to our future. it’s the here and now, that leads us to a better place. it’s the here and now, that keeps this déjà vu happening, like the political deceptions of the day. let’s just live life. let’s just live alive. here and now, is where i am, won’t you join me? i’ll always be waiting for you, right here and now. stand on your feet and walk… there’s so much more, so more outside your world. open your eyes… wake up! out of this dream. come and see it all. let there be no more technicolour schemes.


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BEEN AROUND been around, just wanting to leave this old town. always got what you wanted, until the one you loved took the subway downtown. said she never felt anything. said she never really cared. now your songs are all you’ve got. love’s hard to forget, when it’s the only thing you have… the only thing that puts a smile on your face. coming down the aisle, you’re undoing her laces. she’s what you’ll never be. she’s the only one you see. you’re dropping your future, ‘cause you want to stay close to her. all your friends tell you to tell her. all your friends are a little bit more than what you are, but then again, they’ve been around longer than you have.


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SOMEWHERE, SOMEDAY walk on through, the days of the week. leave me here, just waiting like fear. raised yourself in peace within an angry fire, to fight the wars with words and to find trust in yourself. yet, you come through like an extreme sin, in which emptiness creates improvement, and loneliness creates togetherness across a night of darkness. you’ll find there is no shame from a city faraway. you’ll learn to be alone, and have no shame in looking like an idiot, ‘cause you know you’ll get somewhere, someday. so dream aloud and be proud. someday you’ll be able to say, “some will see that wave reach so high into the sky, that they’ll begin to wonder why is it that they’re still alive.”


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AND SHE WILL a firefly circles her head forming a halo of light, which disappears as she catches herself in the night. and she will, walk alone away from this heartache. and she will, turn around, away like this town. they don’t hear the sparrows, sighing… but they do hear you sinning. addressing the final goodbye, as i’ll never again cross by your eyes. let me know if it’s true… that you’ve already been through. you know that someday, someday you will fly… but for now, you’ve got no way to get to where you want to be. trust in those who say no. save this, a bittersweet goodbye. i got this my one last try, a final look at the shy man’s blues. I FEEL you watch her from afar. you watch her dance in the rain. tonight... like a snake she moves in. her eyes frozen blue. she leaves her shadow in light. like the desert, she dries you out. like a child, she cries for love. you are left to feel as if the world will never be one, in this life. showed you love, and love showed you the way. like everyone, you walk around in circles all day. we talk about all the things we wanted but could never have in this life. now you’re standing in the spotlight, and the world is at your feet. me? i’m down on my knees.


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MANKIND when i met you, you were swaying to a different tune. like the stars that come shooting past the moon, searching through space to find myself some room. is there nothing left except for the sky above and the ground below, to show for everything that we accomplish? the time within time and in motion frozen. repeating the wrong, and not listening to our souls. we sleep the nights, only to become slaves to the day. it’s time we freed ourselves. gave ourselves unconditional trust. for i am no man alone, but a man in kind only. HANDS OF LOVE see the moon light up the night, like the gold around her neck. i’m watching the lights, as they shimmer off her legs. i’m on my knees, begging please, as the shine of the morning sun brings a new found warmth to her being. she moves like the river… white sands, through my hands. tonight, the night holds us tight. we’re in the middle of nowhere, surrounded by the cry of the wolf. holding you as close as i can. watching her barefeet, walking in circles. running my hands through her hair, always ending up on her back. her arms, hold up the night. her face, holds up my heart, in the night like a star.


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LAST OF THE BLEEDING HEARTS describe the space, in which hidden is the heart? you mean the space of love? it’s a place that is ethereal, surreal. …of seeing the beauty past the ugly in the world. you will find that it will come to you from nowhere, mystically, out of the clearing sky. a window looking in... will reflect what is happening, on the outside, what is happening in true time. i am the last of the bleeding hearts, not a lot of blood left to bleed, but here are the last drops of my known history. this is what i have come to realize… i am not surprised that you have remained clueless. i’ve seen life walk about through this world, like the hours, over the last weeks of every year. understand that you’ve got to show your love. walk away... but don’t walk to stray. give today, give love a chance each day. stop the circus of smiles, there’s no need for hurt. be it a friday afternoon, be it there’s no one left… no one to play hide and seek with, just you and me, and these empty hallways. remember... there’s no point in running. in any case, these legs will not get up and chase. so won’t you sit down, talk the talk a while, for these lips won’t repeat a word. these tears won’t stream.


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AS A PART OF YOU tell me stranger, how long before you, you let me in? that we don’t need to play the game, we can get straight to the chase. can you see me, as a part of you? like no other man, you’ve met before, as a part of you, i will forever breathe, all the life that is you. tell me darling, can i care for you? if it’s alright for me to take you home with me? so i can warm you with my heart. we’ll share sadness, we’ll share happiness, as a part of you. giving you all that i have, just to keep you close. as a part of you, hoping that i’ll be, all the life you seek. tell me lover, could i never be good enough? do you think of me, like i’m thinking of you now. as a part of you, i will live through with the thoughts of only you. i could have been the soul’s search complete. the mind’s peace achieved. the heart’s harmonious beat. the body’s passionate release. AS A PART OF YOU (PART TWO) our souls entwined… keep us with you, as a part of you, we will breathe and be complete. alone in defeat, unified in you… in you.


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STOP LOOKING AT ME an old man once said, “you can’t get there from here, you can’t get her love with fear.” as you look around the room, you notice that they are all looking at you. maybe it will all come your way, maybe you don’t know what to say. hopefully it will all just go away. candy coated, the gun is loaded. dumb and jaded... like a shirt that’s faded. stop looking at me. stop looking at me, i want to be free. stop looking at me, your making it hard for me to think. like the titanic, we’re all done for. so stop looking at me. stop looking at me. man, i just want to be free. i just want some permanent relief, and not just this temporary release.


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FRUSTRATION AND PAIN and today… the longest day. you wake up and you’re on your way. the problems of yesterday, are someone else’s today. you shine a smile that warms the masses… the world is at peace with your soul, and as the sun goes to sleep with the moon, today was just another day. the ride that you were on ended miles ago. and as you push yourself, you still have yesterday in yourself. you find yourself so understandably unknown. the devil’s still growing in your details. you’ll close your eyes and endure the pain. you’ll run for miles... just to feel sane, and you’ll fight it alone… all by yourself. so you run, and run… run back to the places you’ve been. back into the loneliness of the twilight. the piercing cries of the night, which eventually are drowned out by the moans. the howls of the wolves, which are eventually shot down by the hunted.


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JUST GIVE US A CHANCE into your heart, is where i found my light, and it’s calling me to you. i just want to crawl inside… so far inside of your mind, ‘til i make you see what you can’t deny. i just want to fly, fly off with you, so far away... just me and you. we can melt the sun, set fire to the night. we could warm ourselves, in each other’s eyes, but there’s something you... you just don’t want. you say, “i’ve got my something.” you just don’t want to know, just don’t want to know, and i don’t think you should fret. i just want to love you. love you like you should be loved. is there something wrong with that? sweetheart i hope not, ‘cause if there ever was, there’d be no room for love in my heart again. there’d be no room left for you, so just give us a chance and i’ll make it right. just give me a year and i’ll be by your side. just give us a chance and i’ll make it alright. just give me a year... won’t you do that for me dear? …dear?


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LET ME KNOW you will call my number again… but i’ll be out, searching for my soul and piecing my heart together, after you just broke it apart. you gave me no chance, just the time to pass, and a car to crash. where are you now? i thought you’d be here, but you, you left me in fear of myself. what could it be i lacked? was it just time or something more? i tried to see you through. gave to this, my everything, but our time, was short and bittersweet. left to be the untouched, was it that i rushed you… serious much faster than you wanted it to be? just let me know.


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NOTHING WILL STOP US THEN i don’t know where i belong. i had a dream, which i’m still chasing… chasing it with all that i have. now there are roads that i’ve taken., that got me nowhere, except back to the start of my death. now everyday i try to remember, what’s the reason for the path that i took? …and what’s the where with all the trees that i shook? no... nothing can stand in my wake. i got nothing left to live for, and i’d come today if you’d take me. i’d come today so take me. i want out and into another life. i want to lay down, up on your hill. you know money is the god of all evil. it will suck you in and spit you out. now that i‘m sitting up on the hill, playing my guitar and taking your pills. i can’t wait for the day that you join me, then we’ll sing our songs by the sea, and nothing will stop us then. no... no one will stop us then.


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GOODBYE hiring the blurred. a new voice, from an older time. they say to those down… surrender cheap somber man. tired is the voice that yells in guilt. understand... the cold will be left lost. so cross the light, goodbye... i’ll see you with the stars, which hang over your bed on this night. through the circle of life, i’ll find the will to walk across the tracks. another day of fogged nights… i find you so far from me, on the other side of this lake... an ocean. like the fireflies, discourse is in the rebellious. goodbye... we’ll find each other at another time in our lives. i love you love, so no more pillow talk. i love you love, so history holds no stock. Goodbye. CHASED time to see the night light burn. time to see the flight kite crash, just so you can wake up the night. turn off the satellites, we’ll be together alone watching the world. i’ve got nothing to hold. i can tell you’re losing control. your grip is slipping… didn’t have it in the first place. so you end up being chased all around this town, like a crooked con.


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IN THE MIDDLE when i first saw you, it was late November, and the sun had set. you walked over and talked to your friends. amazed by the glow of your face, your wisdom shining through your eyes. i wanted to ask of you but decided it was best not to, and i never saw your face again. in the middle of january on a cold bright morning, i found myself next to you. my heart raced at the sight. so sure i’d seen you before, didn’t take long for fate to take over, and shine over you. so close to you, i became one with you. thought i’d be with you forever. in the middle of july, on a humid summers’ night, i was struggling to be with you, ‘cause i knew you had let go of me. saw our future disappear from your eyes. felt my heart stop to beat. said goodbye to my soul for the last time. when you told me that we were on a dead end road, and i knew then, that i’d never see your face again.


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NO MORE awaken to the sight of emptiness. i’ve come to realize your heart to be one i’ll never forget in life. don’t want to search anymore, knowing that i had found calmness. in your eyes, i saw my fate fall away. in your smile, i saw my dreams come to life. in your laughter, i saw my mind come to peace, but now as clouds pass overhead, you are no more. you turned your back and walked away from me, as if to be a stranger. to be a criminal of nature. when will it be that you realize what i saw in us? why was it that you had to block yourself from me? i lost my balance and fell too far into you, you’ve left me waiting hanging from a tightrope. don’t go away, come back… give love another chance. lost my hope in fate as you my love, slipped away. now i’m searching for reason, hoping to stumble back into your way without resent and a record of the love, i begged to receive from you. PART-TIME POPSTAR V1 i’m just a part-time popstar… got my 7-11 shades, cigarettes, and southern comfort. yeah, all i’ve ever been is a part-time popstar. town after town, living out of the backseat of my car. singing about myself, some nights to myself. it’s a dirty old job, leaving everything behind, something for those with an unconditioned mind. reciting the lines of my life.


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EVERYTHING i gave to you my everything. you left me with lost control, just waiting to be lifted into another differing state, away from this angered hate. …taken back to joy and happiness, before you had weakened me to my knees in defeat of you. i gave to you my heart and soul. with foolish pride i wanted to be your everything... in breath and beat. but it was you who stepped away, as i tried to reach your soul. no, i didn’t have a reservation, just wanted your conversation, but i lost your personal invitation, like i lost myself in contemplation of your hidden love for me. scared i was, as time slipped away. i’d go to all the places that we’d had come to know, places where we would often go. everything’s lost now. no maps, no memories… just steadfast dreams, shattering like tears, as they hit concrete. DOVE in all of this anarchy, you feel free, you feel what you want to feel. something else, something more. getting high, was no longer good enough, you wanted to be something but you were someone less. watching you in your see-through dress. there she is... looking alive. she doesn’t know how to die tonight. we fight... just so we can make up our love, and in the morning, we’re as quiet as two doves. Dressed, in our sunday best.


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BELIEVE love, i’m losing you, so soon after we met. this love couldn’t last, ‘cause you were moving too fast for me to keep up, and now i’m down alone, broken hearted and numb. lost in the emotions and the tears, which no longer fall. seeking the sun for energy, for someone who will heal me. someone who will show me love and not conceal these things, which you could never show to me. in day, in night, i searched through you, but you hid yourself so well, and though i still believe you knew, you knew that this was meant to be. long after you turned your back, and forever walked away from me. just like how you would talk, and then walk along another path… leaving me to wonder, ‘cause you love, i could never believe.


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HE TO SHE his thoughts of guilt… “give love to the lost, searching for the wrong.” blowing in the wind, away like the peeling of skin. he searches for a way to destroy his heart. ‘cause he cannot love, the same way that he used to. she searches for a way, to show him another way. that love is deeper than skin. she shines warmth, such as that of a child in a playground. turning on the ‘go-round, in every way, you stilled me, as i looked into your light. stood still as you walked by, heard you whisper over the yells, “i’ll take over the you and me, so that someday free, your heart will be.” REACH YOU i want to reach you, for a chance before it’s too late. won’t you let me save you… a chance to take you to another place, beneath the moonlight? you don’t have to start the fight, just hold silence like night. while i bare my soul for the first time to you. don’t want to let this be the last. i’ve got to let you know. is there anything that will make you see? just tell me something… if it’s what you need or even if it’s not. freedom comes and goes, these words are yours alone.


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HERE ARE MY THOUGHTS get a better view. colours caress in a vengeful sky. the short of the tall… i write to you tonight, from a thoughtless unproductive day, as i sit reading passages of old. a thought reoccurs in my head, what if, what if i could live in naiveté… innocence abandoned by independence. and as you wake up tomorrow, you will find another irrelevant day has come upon you, filled with distortion and virginity. and as i ride this bus home, another day of work has gone. i’ll be sleeping, seeing the sun come up in my dreams. faraway on a planet that’s in my eyes, i will look at you… i will smile, i will rejoice, i will be in once again. Alone, one with myself. you must surrender to your desires, to colour your dreams.


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DOWN across the lake, we’ve come apart, yet i’m the one standing in your shadow. never to look twice, so put me down. you cut me down… now i just want to break apart. lost in the haze. lost in the shade. lost in the circle of life that you break. still i know, everything will be alright. say you’ll come and be by my side tonight. i don’t want to lose what we have. i don’t want to lose. i don’t want to lose you, and i don’t want to break away. hold my head up this day. with every last though i pray, for your return to me. SHE WALKS SO FINELY (FREEFORM) she walks so finely, on the grass. her shadow stands still, against the wall. her shadow moves like the waves on the river. she walks so finely, i can always see her. i don’t know why she doesn’t stop to look. i don’t know why she walks on the water. i don’t know why she dances in the rain. she walks so finely, as she searches for all the pain. i don’t know why she can’t look me straight. i don’t know where she’s heading today, but baby if you’re searching for me, i’ll be looking your way. so if you decide to leave, don’t look too far. i’ll be the one singing off the shame. i’ll be the one dancing, dancing like tomorrow never came, because you left feelings on my face. all i wanted was to retreat, right after day. don’t you see, there is nothing left for me. don’t you see, there is nothing left for you. ocean waves coming in and i’m looking out as i try to reach you. tonight, all i was, was left in the shade… the shade brought on by the rain.


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INTO THE SUN here we are driving again. looking around my place, this is what i see… now mother nature, she’s lost control. she’s moving underground, without reasons to stop. she’s searching for her man and their children in the rain., who are pretending to fly like airplanes. a man walking old, watches and says to himself, “these long nights turn to morn’, quick as the blink of an eye… yet, all i find is myself aging to my death.” so to every man walking old, there is a child talking gold for a dollar, she reads to me, her life as a wallflower, from across the school. and as i looked up to the colour of nothing, it became something in light. wishing i could just creep into the sun, into the sun, all is gold, as i head, into the sun. THE LOVE WE RESIST love... love. her love carries me to another world. ties me up. pulls me apart. this sweet alchemy of our silent resistance. it tears me up, when we’re apart. so take me back, take me back, i promise i’ll always be there. love is more than what they say. i’ll show you there’s more than what they say. i’ll show you there’s more i’m derailed in the station. Waiting. waiting for you, to join me in bliss. eternally forever, this sweet alchemy of our perfect existence.


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I LOVE YOU (COME HOME) time will slow and that’ll be when you come home. come home to be with me. though i’ll be aching, you’ll never come to know. i’ll wait through until time falls to my feet, when you come to realize… i’m alone, just hoping you’ll find your way and come on back home, to what i found in this misery. when you left, you left yourself here with me, now i’m hoping, praying that you will come to see, i tried to bring you everything. love is so much more than you, so why did you try and control all the things that you shouldn’t have? just let love be the one who rules. let your feelings show, don’t lock them up and away. just be hushed and listen to me, i love you more than life. i love you more than i should. so come home. come home. come home.


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IN YOUR EYES you’re so lovely… you think i haven’t noticed, but i’ve been watching you in every possible way. soft and tender, your walk of surrender leaves me crying until i see you again. with every whisper, falls the snow of december. you’re so close, standing in the doorway of another moonlit night. love, you know how to warm the soul, and bring bursts of life to the mind, while you slowly perfect your flaws. at the right time. at a quarter after three, as you’re screaming at the stars, in your eyes. in your eyes.


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RAISE YOUR HANDS watch my brothers yeah, raise their hands. watch my brothers yeah, watch them sing and dance, let the rhythm put you in a trance… sing and dance, raise their hands now to the sky, they’re showing you the way. don’t you know now, you have to use your minds. use your minds, freedom will come now. brothers and sisters, you have to come together… come together, the day will come then, when we are together yeah, raise your hands. you have to raise your hands. the rain is falling on our heads. raise your hands. sing and dance. sing and dance. they say the arts are a narratives to change. arts have the capability to bring people together, no matter race, colour, religion. where so much of what we do is based on division, the arts act as an escape, a voice of reason, healer… making difference irrelevant, that’s why we raise our hands. LOVE AND FAITH look and see, what you could have had. listen and hear, what you could not believe. the cross hangs and the drums bang. sitting in the garden like an angel. there’s a black bag ticking... ticking. waiting to feel alive, you try to cry. you’re trying to smile in grace, while your life’s ticking… ticking away. you talk to yourself, about something you couldn’t say. you won’t have to see this anymore. your time is running out... running fast. you are gone, no time left, you are gone… with the fallen angels, who creep through the ground.


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SAY YOU’RE A WOMAN say you’re a woman… so woman, don’t you know, that true love grows with time and loneliness. did you think that when, when you left me out here, out here in the cold, that i’d catch a cold and forget all about you? well if you did, don’t be kidding yourself, ‘cause what i felt for you, has gotten stronger than my bones. say you’re a woman… so woman, don’t you know, that true love waits, withstands time and age. did you hope that when you turned your back, turned your back and walked away from me, that i’d just leave to be and cheat my feelings in defeat? don’t be blinding yourself, ‘cause what i gave to you was me being naked to the soul. say you’re a woman, so woman, don’t you know, what it means to be a man?


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BE STILL (MOVE ON) so you don’t know why is it that i just can’t move on. changed my number, but yours i still remember. this love for you, i will never move on from. saw you fly away from me with such grace and beauty. forever you will be an eternal part of me, and i just can’t move on, move away from you. just wish you’d have waited, given me the time of day… just waited for this love to bloom. to have risen from the dust and hurt to overtake your soul with warmth, but you moved on before there was anything to move from. now know i still believe, this love of mine to be complete, only in you.


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SARAH came for you… am i invisible? right to bleed, left to live. are we one with thee? one with you and one with me, i am different than you, but indifferent to you. wake up... turn on your TV, wake up and watch history. history, history coming. turn away, have you been outside lately? the stars are burning. the world is crumbling. the sun is flickering, and your love is blinding. love is lasting. forever, you say you’re a part of me sarah. sarah, come into being… in your mind, in your soul. didn’t you see what you missed? when your eyes were closed, the world we sold out, turned inside out.


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FIGURE IT OUT FOR YOURSELF woke up in a dream, found out life wasn’t what it seems… do you know what i mean? did you come to see where i’ve been? well it’s too late for me, to go back to sleep. i started a fire, to burn my thoughts, but here’s something for your reason. “the clocks tell time, as the days go by. when things change, that’s when you realize, something was wrong all along.” today is here, tomorrow will come and go. the sun still shines, when i open up my eyes. the places i’ve been and the faces i’ve seen, looking for a place, where i could fit in. i’ll be gone, i’ll be back before dawn. no... no i won’t, not this time. an old man once said, “you can’t get there from here, you can’t get her love with fear.” left thinking who you are, isn’t who you thought you were, but you are, who they said you were. and at this age, you do what’s best? you’ve been running from the world you see, because it’s telling you what to be. SUMMER DEATH you’re as sharp as a knife, you cut through my skin. raise my soul, like you raise the dead. break down my heart… you’re still holding on to what you never had. you’re still holding on to all the chambers of a palace, where you never slept… until after a summer death, evaporated tears and gave to you, new found breath. You are unchained by what once caged you.


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FIGURE IT OUT FOR YOURSELF (CONTINUED) watching your thoughts escape into the sky, you’re singing a song that’s about my life. you want to see the world that’s around you, but don’t ask me what life’s about… figure it out for yourself. the big of the small. the tall of the short. the distance between life and death… the love, the hurt. figure out yourself. the right, the wrong. the narrow and the wide, and the short of the long. figure it out for yourself. their’s a hole in the sky, mo god… why? figure it out for yourself. LONE reaching through the city streets, you look for the people who faded. it’s a kind of love that’s bittersweet. it’s the passionate man, who’s found alone… left like dust on a saturday. soon summer will come and i’ll be swept away, contrasting art and science like night and day. you’re walking the fine line that is both right and wrong. rebellious are the thoughts, peacefully you whisper.


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GFM my god, where are you? have you closed yourself? have you walked away? it’s a doomy gloomy day, but hey, keep your eyes on me. see me shine in the sky, like the northern star shooting through your galaxy. so raise an eye. keep me in mind, ‘cause i’ll come knocking at the foot of your door. you’ll get up from your chair… my god, finally you’ve awaken from a sleep so long. can you shed a few tears in the deserts dry? …make us shiver, wake us from this life into something more than flesh? let our spirits come alive like the unused minds; so bright and so unchained. my god, it’s time you put down your crown… become humbled, by your creations disintegration. i’m just a gfm, searching for comprehension. fade away… release my soul. pinch my vein and let it flow. with precision aim... a bullet, shooting to my head. the burning pain, warms me up until i fade away.


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MOVE ON now you think that i’ve moved on, just ‘cause i got rid of my phone. don’t you know that when you left, you took all that i had to give. now, you may never come back, so my soul’s search, you should know this much… that true love will never fade, just keeps on getting stronger everyday. hoping that you’ll step back, and think of all i tried to show to you. baby, you know i tried to take care of you, in every possible way that this child knew of. …and respect i gave all day to you. we all have our faults, i more than others, but that’s when i wished you would have understood what it was i had found so deep inside you. these days are filled with nothing but tears, and the times i saw you... my soul weakened with fear. don’t you know, i tried to give you love, but you just laughed and told me i wasn’t a man. don’t you know i tried to give you all i could, but you tossed your hair and said that i... i wasn’t old enough for you. so you turned your back and walked away from me. left me to self-destruct without giving me a chance… a chance to fail you. FEEL listening to your melodic pain. humming to your rhythmic rage, as you sleep with the rising sun like the embers from a fire. your anger flickers and fades, awaiting unsuspectingly for you to wake, from your retire.


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HUSH all alone in the night, staring out at the sea. searching for my ship to come and rescue me. to take me away from you, and into a life without hurt. but you lock yourself up, and so, left are the waves to play your role, as they crawl up and soothe my soul. the air hushes me and melts my thoughts. a caring warmth fills me as i sleep. but you lock yourself up, and walk away from me… hoping that i’d just be, another man passing on his way. won’t you listen to me and try to understand, you’re the one love. i need search for and believe, like the sun and the warmth it brings. i’ll be here, like the moon at night, guiding you to an unending trance in which from far away, you’ll see me, love fading... forgiven. RIP rest, rest in peace… for the vision that you carved, will be seen, as your words, lead us to learn rest, rest in peace… for in your loss, we are shown the path, to a life, past the light at the edge of this darkness. rest, rest in peace… for we will be your voice, spreading your words of salvation and peace. Rejoice.


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PEOPLE people will follow, if they are led. together, we are the greatest power known to exist. become part of humankind, stand hand in hand, show the naysayers, a way to lift them up with hope. freedom is a battle won, but not through death. we all seek redemption, no matter the colour of our skin. come on people, let’s get it right, let’s make it alright. it’s time to take a stand, for the fallen man. it’s time to take a stand, for the fallen women. it’s time to take a stand. for the fallen child. don’t matter who you are. don’t matter where you are. stand up and embrace the world around you. salvation is bestowed on all who need it in their lives. independence is given to those who search for themselves. rescue all those who seek rescue, in their time of need. distant are the ones who stay silenced, that won’t stop the cries for help. desire to live, to be a nation together, like a rainbow of humanity. PULSE some say forget the past. others undo what’s been done. she showed us a path, and taught us that peace can last. she was royalty, more like you and me. looking over the forgotten, shining light on those left to live in darkness. she shed away the layers of policies, and became one, with the pulse of humanity.


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PEOPLE show confidence in the words of god. show confidence in peace. stay confidant through the hate. there’s a better way… it’ll drive hatred away, ‘cause hate cannot stand passion in its eyes. peaceful leaders will be the last standing. don’t trust in those who lead you with the military. you will live under a blue sky, free from every end of the world. love is the only feeling that you need to get you through to a better day. hope, throw your weapons to the ground, and shout “free i am”. hope, she comes with compassion. let her lead, let her teach… surrender to love, surrender to be one. come on, there’s no fighting this. be guided by your fate, calmness in your soul… let god take control. care for those around you, care for the world. it’s time to get it right people. it’s time to make it alright. one by one, under the golden light of the sun. LADY BLUE met her in the lounge. waiting for my flight to come. she wore blue from her trench, to her big bright eyes that i zoomed in on… as i zoomed everything else out. i was lost in her, i was in love with blue. my flight came as i crawled, from my seat to her feet. my flight left, as i boarded her plane next to her... window seat. a silence unknown, i knew she was not mine, but i was too transfixed to fix my mistake. when i realized where i was, it was blue, and my love of it. mystically exotic was the blackness, of her blue.


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LIFELESS SOUL they say money is drawn thick, like the blood flowing through us. so where have you gone? i’m living one year on, you know, i put my soul up for sale. all i’ve left is this hole to fill. my heart’s up on the wall, in a hallway no one passes through. ghostly hauntings of creaky floors… for you, i would once open these doors. for now, i am just a lifeless soul, like a zombie going through the notions, without an ounce of emotion. WILMETTE calm as the wind, whispers to the willows. a little southern charm, in a central town. veterans of the age, silently walk in the shade. across the path, is a view of only shades of blue. from heaven to the lake. white sails drift, as she waits to be lifted by the waves. just another village hidden, chalked full of heart and soul. …beauty in the eyes of who know, what she holds. like a child in the clouds, i stare in wonder of her golden grace, as it leaves me so touched. mystified by her stillness, she made me feel like i was at peace with nature’s love.


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OPEN GATE i don’t have anywhere to go. these pearly gates aren’t opening for me. she does’t know my name. she don’t even care. she’s got her head in the air, on the carousel at the county fair. she looked up at her son. she didn’t know why, he wasn’t having fun. now her eyes keep streaming at the thought of all the children dying, there’s an open gate. white picket fence. there’s no one there, and suspicion drowns clear, the atmosphere. MOVEMENT into the eyes of mystery, i travel as she travels with me. i’ve become blind to her every movement, knowing them, like i know my own. in control of nothing, yet in search of all that she is.


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FAMILIAR EYES his eyes so deep and recognizable. he walks unrecognized in broad daylight. his gray-tinged shades hide his child like look, but to the knowing few, his eyes bring tears… so famous yet still so unknown. as he stands miles away from where he lives, in an old t-shirt and jeans, he looks like he’s at home. his two older friends, now brothers… walk with him as he takes pictures of buildings... people... faces. a vocal genius with an eye of stillness, shooting pictures of his gray-tinged world. i sing a song in my head… as he admires the art that he sees. i stand and admire his eyes, listening to a radio advertisement, it’s talking about star sixty-nine. we exchange greetings, smiles, and head nods… and soon after, we part ways.

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