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Celeste
Ramos
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~~~~~~~~ AWaterways Project
Publication
Richard Spiegel
Barbara Fisher
codirectors
Thomas Perry
administrative assistant
Mr. Zacaries RiversTeacher
Bushwick HS
Stephen E. Phillips
Superintendent
Alternative High Schools &Programs
©I997 Ten Penny Players
with funding support from
the NY State Council on the Arts
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In Strange Flesh
I lie here
And Iwatch you breathe.
Icatch your blood
on my tongue
Final drops of life.
Iam exclusively odd.
There's something beautifully
strange
within my voice and my mind.
Ifrighten myself - and Iove it.
Istare at you
in strange flesh.
For these eyes are not mine
nor are the bones
that move me to you.
Isuffer for the time being
in strange flesh.
And as much as Ihate to decline
from your experience ...
I've got to go
Let me goThey need me.
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An Autograph fot;a Friend
In words to my friend
I wish you luck,
Anywhere near me
May you never end up.
"Why Go?" said Eddie --
Because we need to,
We have to move on
Out of frame, out of view.
So I guess here we depart
Homeless but still alive,
We'll all find a place
Where we'll eventually survive.
And though we all wish
To be left alone,
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Sometimes you have to be two
For one is a chilled bone.
And though I hate to admit it
I think I'll miss you,
Despite the number of times
I wanted to kill you.
May everything you wantCome out in the end,
I'll miss you, I love you:
Your most interesting friend.
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Fear &Adrenatfne
A favorite movie played
on a least favorite channel.The soul turned off
the bathtub water.
/
Another tragic love story -
Eased in, clothes drowned
by the water. The soul thought.
the movie would be over
in 20 minutes.
The soul looked up
and smiled at the light
and the razor forced the hand
and raised the blade.
In stare with the wrist
the razor went straight
straight. Deep.
the left skin
began to cry.
5
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In stare with the wrist
the razor went straight
straight. Deep.the right skin
began to cry.
I t fell. The small-tiled floor
dotted with red.
Skin met with waterAnd said their final goodbyes.
Then the soul let it go.
The movie was fmally over.
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IO:OO
two people meant for one another
may be meeting now.
a faithful man to family and job
may be cheating.
someone desperate in society
is committing their first crime.
someone who never thought of it
is dying somewhere.
people are enjoying the raptures of youth
in a nightclub.
someone is having sex for the first timewillfully and vice-versa.
someone is crossing the street
taking that slight chance.
someone is committing murder
and can't decide the fate of the body.
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someone is just being born
already missing their mother.
someone is in pain.
and has no damn aspirin.
someone is sick
while their sibling's just fine.
someone is doing
terrible things for money.
someone is being arrested
for a crime the officer committed.
someone is hungry
with money in their pockets.
someone is watching over
and we can't see who we worship.
someone is swearing
that this would be the last time.
someone is missing youand you don't know who it could be.
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Lost in Black Threading
I t's like being lost in black threading:
being so en tangledin you.
- Being so in love with you.
N ever would I say
That I'd kill myself out oflove.
Because you're just like a dream,Like one of the blackest forms of Heaven
God has ever allowed.
But if it comes to that: my death,
Then I'll finally know
That when I look at you
I'll see the clearest picture of Hell
through my Black Heaven,
And for the first time
Hell would be beautiful.
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, Capital of the World
Fifth Avenue:
Pauper's town.The rich's fame
Are hell's hounds.
The city, the ughts:
And no good show.
No love, no life
And no where to go.
Pity, Respect,
And all the Humanity:
All people can say
is "get away from me!"
A big green park
A wonderful place:
And no one observesDiscolored fabric below the lace.
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At the best restaurants:
The food sickens you
And the revolving eateries
Have lost their view.
The wonderful people:
Tired as time
There are so many laddersAnd floors to climb.
Large bank accounts:
All with broken Bills
The streets have gotten narrower
There's less space to fill.
That political Big Apple
Thank God it was Clinton, not Dole
That poor little Big Apple
Soon to be swallowed whole,
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Throughout
Evil
Spreading down the hall of Timeechoing madly throughout
turning all those who hear it
just as insane
as the rest.
I am an outcastYes, I know.
The more you talk the more this is repeated:
Yes, yes, yes! -
I know.
A pain grows and writhes within me
A savage weed
Entwined around this soul
that is new and borrowed
old and stolen.
But anyway, there's something VlTongwith me:
I look in the mirror
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And it's the face I don't expect.
I forget the way I look sometimes.
And this is a sin, no?If this is a sin,
Then therefore I am evil again,
Evil
rampant throughout.
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Four
It's all the same cycle.
Over once, then repeated again.
Four more left to go.Four more.
I can't do this four more times.
I can't fight her anymore.
The loudest voice in my head
Is subsiding.
I'm scared now for sure.
Am I strong enough?
What do I think I am?
I open my mouth to let the old one pour out
And leave air for the new one
But no one ever hears me scream!
This has gone beyond desperation
As I now calm a little
Then get a little worse
I can't do this another four times
\Vithout getting a little worse.
I need someone
Something
Anybody, please!
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I don't know who I talk to in the mirror
anymore.
Iam loved
And at the same time Ifeel soalone
that my nerves begin to twitch
and program her to keep me company
in her own, vicious way.
And though some may see keeping yourself
company as rather psychoticIdon't care.
Each day, Ibreathe easier with a tighter chest,
Ibreathe deeper
without the muscle for this heavier load.
Ican't keep pulling this off for much longer,
This actress is beginning to forger her linesIcan't keep pulling this off for much longer,
Soon I'll lose my masks and have bones to wear.
Ican't-
Not four more ...
It's just too much for two people in one
to bear.
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Aquarianx
the others laugh.
they have something to laugh at.they think they do.
they really don't.
they're just laughing
to relieve themselves.
they're just laughingto ease themselves.
they know what they are
and can't bear to think about it.
so they laugh.
i've never understood why
iwas born alone.
is my purpose so great
ican't have company?
(they're still laughing.)
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a cold breeze is always inmy hair.
and ihave guitars strings sewn into my sides.
they were a gift.
from someone that got lost in a stormand never came back.
the strings were sewn in tight.
that way, a melody would always be by my side.
do they find that funny?
itry to get rid of myself sometimes.
but they don't make blades like they used to.
you don't know what i'm talking about ...
i'm sorry, let me explain.
(they still laugh.)
you see, Ihave this twin.
and she's out creating future trouble for me.
and i think that that's the joke.
they think that this only happens to the
weird
people.
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they think that i'm an alien, and don't talk to me.
and iknow that if the person who gave me
the gift was here
he'd never allow this. imiss him.
there's something so wrong with me ...the strings
are rusting with blood. no one will help me heal.
and ithink, if you've been paying strict attention,
you know,
the reason why.
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Scent
Gasoline.
Your carpets drink it.The clothes
get a taste of it
as do the stairs
the kitchen the stove
and everything else in
your lovely home.
And ah, the bed
it cursed us both-
gets an ever heavy
sample.The gasoline follows me
out onto the empty blackness
of an early morning hour.
My match finishes it off
formeas a blue and yellow trail
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mindless with a mind of its
own
runs into the house
and your house
is aflame.
Fire.
It looks like
the First House in Hell.
Glorious, Vengeful.
From my car I laugh.
I am rid of your scent
Forever.
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In Search of a SongVolume 323
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