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Ground Zero to Lift Off – The Real Diary of a Real Minister Copyright © Dave Gilpin 2006, 2009 The right of Dave Gilpin to be identified as the author of this work has been asserted by him in accordance with the Copyright, Designs and Patents Act 1998. Distributed by and all correspondence to: Hope City CHurch The Megacentre Bernard Road Sheffield S2 5BQ UK Email: [email protected] Web: www.davegilpin.com Tel 0114 213 2070 Fax 0114 276 9248 All rights reserved: No part of this publication may be reproduced or transmitted in any form without permission in writing from the author. Limited editing has taken place to ensure good readability.

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The Real Diary of a Real Minister

By Dave Gilpin

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INTRODUCTION

Still reeling from a major Church conflict that saw many

leave Hope City Church, this is my actual diary that charts the

course that has led to a time of amazing growth and vitality. From

the 2nd March 1998 to 23rd May 2001, with instalments each

month and regular 2009 updates, this diary will encourage

everyone who, through their courage and determination in God,

decides to confront the issues that inhibit the health and growth

of their Church, even if it means losing people they love and care

for.

At its inception, I audaciously entitled this diary, ʻThe

Diary of the Sheffield Revival.ʼ Even though it concludes prior to

its explosive projection, many of the seeds of both current and

future exponential growth were planted during this three year

duration, with almost every current core leader being planted in

the house during this period. I hope that ʻGround Zero to Lift Offʼ

really helps you also to leave the past, confront the present and

press on towards the promises of God for His twenty first century

Church. More power to you!

Dave Gilpin

Senior Pastor – Hope City Church

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2nd March 1998

On the 19th September 1993 Dave Cartledge, a national

leader of the Australian Assemblies of God, prophesied that we,

as a Church, would go through the gates of iron and brass of our

City that many have confronted before but had never overcome.

He also declared that we would go in the front way and not the

back and the outcome of this would be known across the land.

He declared that the Lord had many people in the City and was

determined to do a great work.

He also declared that there were many adversaries both

outside the Church and within it who would rise up and try to

prevent the work that God wanted to do. This diary begins one

and a half years after the unfolding of this prophesy, with over

one third of our congregation deciding to leave the Church (with

many more bleeding by the roadside and who would never

survive). The battle lines of division were drawn within the

Church. I had confronted what I believed to be a spirit of self

importance, light footed-ness and a spirit of control that had

slowly developed over our first 5 years amongst some key

leaders, and the outcome of this was far more severe than I

could have imagined. I was, though, prepared for war.

Numerically our Church hit the ceiling at 270 people and would

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go no further unless serious issues were addressed. Our

mindset, now, was to run as fast as we could into our future

destiny and leave our past way behind us.

I had found a new confidence in God that gave me the

strength to do what had to be done. My previous lack of

confidence had led to many key decisions being deferred to

others and a power vacuum that was being filled by certain

leaders who had stopped growing in their Christian walk. They

needed to change or step down.

Yesterday in Church, Jenny (my wife) prophesied that

we were now going through the promised gates and starting to

enter our inheritance. There was no applause and no electricity

in the air. The numbers were at their lowest in a long time and no

one got saved. I preached on ʻGod gives grace to the humbleʼ

and declared that thatʼs what I want to be. I had recently spoken

to a group of churches in Lancashire and felt really bad that I had

embellished the ministry write up of myself (including the huge

measurements of our ʻjust signed forʼ Megacentre building)

simply to impress. I vowed never to do that again.

It was strange for my wife to prophesy such a dramatic

event in the midst of such an undramatic service. We usually

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reserved great prophesies for the electric times of which we had

had many but this was to be very different. Itʼs been a tough road

not having seen any numerical increase in years and in actual

fact, witnessing a severe decrease. Deep down though, there is

a confidence – an assurance that our loss of people is more in

the light of the reduction of Gideonʼs army rather than a retraction

of the hand of God. We have great faith for the future. In the spirit

of faith I have chosen to journal a history of events leading up to

the ʻSheffield Revival.ʼ If itʼs true that we have gone through

unseen gates to the City that have thwarted many in the past,

then this must be the beginning of the next significant move of

the Holy Spirit.

Itʼs only recently that I have learned again not to despise

the day of small beginnings. Two recent testimonies have really

encouraged me – a woman called Louise gave up her

engagement because of the call of God upon her life and her

commitment to our Church (her fiancé requested that she

relocated.) Secondly, a guy called Colin gave up a large wage

increase that was offered to him if he would relocate to Leeds

also because of his commitment to the destiny of our Church.

Within weeks, both of these people have seen souls saved as

their reward.

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In last nightʼs Church service we had 3 commitments to

Christ. One was Steve, a manager from Pizza Hut (who was

saved through Louise), and another was a lady who runs a cat

sanctuary.

An amazing thing happened today. We got a letter from

a couple who were major players in the first 5 years in the life of

our Church but had turned sharply on us and sowed vast

quantities of seeds of malice and unrest. They had been hugely

instrumental in the big clearout of the summer of 1996. It was a

battering time of intense persecution and hardship, just as Dave

Cartledge had prophesied back in 1993. Only one person in the

whole congregation linked what had happened with the

prophecy. Today they extended grace towards us to forgive us of

our debt. Also the wife of another former leader (who had also

left with a bang and taken many with him) rang up my wife and

asked for a time of reconciliation. We found it amazing that these

two things happened today. I sent a card to the first couple and

told the Lord that Iʼd be open to allowing them back into our lives

and restoring relationship. Itʼs a scary thought and I feel quite

vulnerable but I realised that God expects more from me than

from others.

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2009 UPDATE Dave and Marie Cartledge were greatly used by God in America and Australia, restoring the Apostolic mandate to churches. Sadly Dave left us this year to be with the Lord where he is now enjoying the eternity he so richly deserves! Louise has become our awesome City Pastor and Colin became our Building and Management Director before moving into Consultancy business for himself and helping Hope City raise up entrepreneurs to facilitate the future vision. Both have become great friends. Steve now runs a successful Building company and married Siobhan who is the Executive Director for the church.

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5th March 1998

My old senior minister in Australia, Chris Peterson, used

to frequently repeat the phrase, ʻdonʼt watch the waves, watch

the tide.ʼ Itʼs a lesson that I often fail in. Last night Jenny and I

were gutted by the absence of two new Christians at our mid

week meeting. A few years ago, I was running past a house near

where we lived and I felt God tell me that great things would

happen in that house. I regularly heard piano playing coming

from it and recently decided to initiate things by asking if my son,

who is 6 years of age, could have lessons. After a short time the

couple had given their hearts to the Lord. We have been really

banking on them being a part of the new life-blood and new

move of the Spirit in our Church. Somethingʼs not right. We feel

like theyʼve become our friends and yet our lifestyle is so intense,

itʼs really hard for us to maintain a close friendship outside of

leadership. Itʼs also hard for others to understand that. Theyʼve

definitely pulled back and weʼre really disappointed. Itʼs made me

aware that behind a lot of my anger and cynicism at times, lays

deep veins of this kind of disappointment. Jen shared her grief

and disappointment with Sophia and she told Jen it was time to

let go and release them from the underlying pressure of our high

expectations. We feel much better. As consolation Iʼve been

encouraged by the powerful help of armour bearers. (For a long

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time now Iʼve kept things to myself and not looked for or been

able to rely on much external support at all). This new show of

strength has been fantastic. Iʼve also been encouraged today

from the book of Zephaniah that records that God is the one who

ʻrestores fortuneʼ, and Heʼs the one who is ʻexalting over me in

happy song.ʼ God is about to do great things.

2009 UPDATE The leadership conflict that led to the church conflict was brought to the surface and exacerbated by the inclusion of two new people, Dave Adams and Glyn Barrett, onto our leadership team. Because of my affiliation with them and a change in the decision making centre of gravity amongst the leadership, the power struggle emerged.

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6th March 1998

This has been such a difficult week. In checking our

Sunday School register, Iʼve noted that so many young families

have abandoned the cause of late and made their final decision

to leave Church. An older man came to me yesterday and said

he was also leaving with his wife. I usually let go easily in the

knowledge that the horse has already bolted, but I fought for him

in conversation in a last ditch effort to get him to see the truth

about his life and his future. It seems now like time wasted. I

heard yesterday that one of our ex musicians who was taken off

our music team because of immorality, was now on a war path

against me claiming, amongst other things, that I was truly a

manipulator (the devil knows I canʼt stand that)!

Our new Christian friends came for dinner last night and

we had a great time because of the lifting of our expectations. I

could tell that they felt much better as well.

Iʼm really attempting in practical ways to put the past

behind and take a hold of the new green shoots of the future. I

had lunch yesterday with a guy who got saved on Sunday and

his fresh testimony about his eyes being opened to see the truth

was real refreshment to my soul. I read 2 Timothy today and was

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really helped by the fact that Paul had been deserted by many

along the way, simply for preaching the truth. I donʼt think Iʼve

ever preached the truth arrogantly or impetuously but there

comes stages, and weʼve just had a big one, where people, after

being continually confronted by the truth, start to protect

themselves with cynicism that eventually leads to a distortion of

the truth and false accusations. It helped me to know that when

Paul wrote to Timothy he told him to take his share of suffering

as ʻa good soldier of Jesus Christʼ, just as Paul had done. We all

have a share to take. He also told Timothy to stay focused (not

get involved in civilian affairs), follow the rules (of love and

integrity) and work hard (not to give up.) He really stressed never

to argue over unimportant things. I love 2 Timothy 2:13 – ʻEven

when we are too weak to have any faith left, He remains faithful

to us and will help us.ʼ Suffering seems to be an unavoidable

inheritance of the godly!

Iʼve just had a great talk with Teresa who runs our prayer

ministry and I feel like Iʼm back in the faith zone. She had a vision

of an army and she expected to see a battle with everyone

arrayed in fighting gear. Instead, they were victoriously running

forward to obtain the spoils of victory. She said she saw

harvesting angels not fighting angels. It hit me – we had gone

through the gates. The war was won over our entry into the gates

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of the City. All that Iʼve been encountering lately has been some

sporadic shooting after the enemyʼs surrender. Itʼs time to rejoice

and expect a great harvest. The enemy is mad because heʼs

defeated. We shall see all that God has promised come to pass.

2009 UPDATE Hope City Church began its first 10 years as ʻThe Hope of Sheffield Christian Church.ʼ In order to be more appealing to those outside of church and to mark a fresh new era, we changed our name in 2001. Teresa and husband Brian continue to be great friends of the church and have now retired to be with family back home in the North East. Glyn and Sophia Barrett served as Associate Pastors at Hope City Church for 11 years. During this time Glyn became the Director of Youth Alive UK and launched the national youth conference Audacious. In April 2007 our Manchester Congregation was released to Glyn and Sophia for them to take on as Senior Pastors and in September 2007 the church became Audacious City Church which has become one of the fastest growing churches in the North of England.

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9th March 1998

Sundayʼs meetings were excellent in spirit and content.

Glyn preached in the morning a brilliant message on ʻThe

seasons of Godʼ and our youth worker preached a promising

message on ʻThe seed and the soilʼ. Without all of the

antagonists around I feel much freer in public and as a reflection

of that we are having a lot more fun in the meetings.

I feel like our Church is a puppy dog with big feet – the

big feet indicating our big potential. Weʼve got more depth and

unity in our core team than ever before – it seems way out of

proportion to the current size of the Church. I have been reading

ʻThe Purpose Driven Churchʼ by Rick Warren and it reminded me

of all the different levels of commitment found in healthy local

churches – the crowd, the congregation, the committed and the

core. Iʼve got a new idea that our Sunday night meetings could

potentially become our largest meetings because theyʼre best

suited to attract the crowd. I can imagine a Sunday night kidsʼ

club running with 100ʼs of kids in it alongside a seeker sensitive

service. Maybe we could make it a front door of the Church, and

not, as we have traditionally done, simply relied upon Sunday

morning. The night would be for the crowd, the morning for the

congregation, our other training times for the committed, and our

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leadersʼ nights for the core. Itʼs given me a fresh lot of food for

thought.

Jenny just told me that she felt that even though the

Church had, in the Spirit, moved from winter into spring, many

didnʼt know how to dress accordingly. Many were acting and

talking like it was still winter, with hatches battened down and

survival mentality on, instead of acting and speaking like it was

spring, with a great summer just around the corner. We needed

to put on a ʻspring mentalityʼ with high anticipation in our

conversations and high seed sowing in our preparations.

2009 UPDATE Our Sunday Night programme has developed and evolved considerably over the years. Sunday Night Live eventually led to developing an 1830s service called the Event. After a season we moved this to a Saturday Night and opened it for all ages. Currently we now run Sunday Night Live back on a Sunday evening again. One thing we have learnt over the years is to keep our programme fresh.

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16th March 1998

Itʼs been a good week. We had a great article in the Star

– the cityʼs newspaper. It said, “Thank goodness for Dave Gilpin

and his congregation!” Well – thatʼs the favour of God. It was all

about our dream for our new facilities called ʻThe Megacentre.ʼ

The article could well have been along the lines of ʻcult moves

into new premises.ʼ Praise God. It sure feels like a new day. Iʼm

still really inspired by ʻThe Purpose Driven Churchʼ and about the

whole operation of a Church from the crowd to the core. I feel a

fresh restructuring coming on for later in the year which I will

present to my two assistants over the coming weeks.

I am still really disappointed by people who just canʼt get

into the Church life and who continue to isolate themselves in

hard times. Thank God for Steve – the whole of Pizza Hut know

about his conversion and everyone holds a lot of respect for him.

Iʼm sure that God has a great call upon his life – Iʼve already got

plans!

I preached on ʻThe appointed timeʼ from the book of

Habakkuk yesterday. I humorously declared the well worn spiel

that the safest aeroplane to be on was the one that I was on,

which reflected a new found confidence in my God given future. I

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used the analogy that ʻthe Mercedes was already in the garageʼ –

the great plans of God were already in the bag. You can miss it

but you canʼt invent it. A collision with destiny is drawing closer

every second, all culminating at Godʼs appointed time. I declared

that inside I was sleeping in the knowledge that everything was

signed, sealed and delivered but on the outside I was busy doing

good to all. It was a great sermon – now all I need do is to live it.

Thank you Lord for all of your plans. Help me not to lose faith

over what I see today. Help me to love you even though there be

ʻno fruit on the vine.ʼ I will praise you and trust you forever

because you are the Father of heaven!

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30th March 1998

I preached at youth on Friday night and had a fresh

revelation of an old thought – weʼre not here to build a big Church

but to change a big city and a big world. A big Church is too

small a vision.

On Sunday the Church cheered when we heard live over

the telephone that my assistant Dave and our missionsʼ team

had reached the Hungarian/Romanian border. Theyʼd seen 40

decisions for Christ in the past week. Weʼre a part of it. Also on

Sunday, a couple from New Zealand started a new Church in

Doncaster – a town of 100,000 people. They had 65 people

come to their first service. Weʼre a part of it. A couple from Kiev

in the Ukraine called up today to say that each Sunday 20 people

were making decisions for Christ. They said that over 550 people

were attending their home groups. Weʼre a part of it. Itʼs a fresh

revelation!

My Sunday message was on the ʻriverʼ from Ezekiel

focusing on the place where your feet no longer touch the

ground. Youʼre out of control – Heʼs in control. Itʼs the place Iʼm

in. Weʼve done a lot of prayer and fasting and made a lot of

plans. It just seems to be the season of praise and thanksgiving

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and spending time in the river – all else seems to be striving.

Weʼre waiting for the Lord.

Last weekend I ministered in Northern Ireland. I feel a

real bond with the place. I even got a call from a young pastor in

Londonderry when I got back, looking for help. I almost didnʼt go

and almost missed out on this great opportunity.

2009 UPDATE Dave and Anne Adams learnt the language and moved to Hungary for a number of years based in Debrecen, Hungarys second largest city, near the Romanian border. In 2008 they returned to the UK and were released to join Glyn and Sophia at Audacious City Church where they have become part of their pastoral team. The Church in Doncaster didnʼt last and the couple are now back in New Zealand. The Church in Kiev is now the Hillsong Church and continues to grow! The Northern Ireland bond has, so far, not developed at all.

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11th April 1998

Tomorrow is Easter Sunday and marks the end of the 7th

year of the Church. I donʼt think anyone realises it as there is no

one currently in the Church from the first Easter Sunday (except

for Jenny). Itʼs a funny feeling. I feel a little like the woman who

broke open the jar of expensive perfume and poured it over

Jesusʼ feet. I feel like so much of what weʼve done has purely

been worship unto Jesus of some of the best years of our lives. I

can see how weʼve faithfully taken the baton of God and held it

strong on behalf of the core of the Church and all who are a part

of the next generation. I can see that God has created in us deep

wells from heaven that have been produced through trial and

endurance. Much of all that has happened has been foundational

and underground. I have measured success externally for far too

long. Our eyes are now off numerics and onto the deep work that

Godʼs done in our hearts. It still really pains us to see people that

weʼve invested so much time into, not rise up for the challenge

and not enter into the new victories that God had in store for

them.

Glyn has just left on a train to Manchester on his way to

Kiev discouraged at the results heʼs been getting in the youth

ministry after so much work. I can really feel for him. I know that

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Godʼs deepening him and I figured that it takes greater faith to

keep going when you donʼt see breakthrough than it does for

someone who sees an earlier breakthrough. Glyn could go to

Kiev with confidence that he was a man of faith and had

something to say even in a ʻrevivalʼ situation. I shared that with

him and it seemed to make a difference.

I read today that the committee for looking into rising

cults in Europe for the European parliament have decided to

place all denominations not recognised by the World Council of

Churches in the cult category. We are now alongside the Church

of Scientology!

Weʼre now in such a needy situation for our new building

for our Church. We need thousands of pounds to move into the

middle section of the Megacentre alone. Weʼre way overspent in

our main account. Weʼve tried everything to balance the books

and minimise expenditure. If we use up money coming in August

for our training school weʼll have none to help offset our

impending increased loan repayments for the basic shell of the

Megacentre. Weʼre in the zone I preach on often – deep water!

All of our exit doors are closed and we need a miracle. We have

such little time and many people weʼve asked to help us

financially are unable to assist us till a much later date (or so they

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say). We really donʼt want to be foolish by getting work done in

the Megacentre that we canʼt pay for now and yet we donʼt want

the project placed on hold and lose the momentum we have. We

are desperate for God to move. People often say faith is often

spelt RISK and I know why. There is an underlying certainty that

it will all come to pass yet much of the visual looks daunting and

overwhelming. The risk is that you risk everything for the

certainty that God is faithful. I took the scripture ʻbelieve that you

have received it and it shall be yoursʼ to heart the other day and I

really believe that God will break through. All the waiting! I so

want to be an inspirational leader and I so want to see the

peopleʼs faith rewarded. A week ago we received thousands of

pounds worth of good quality office furniture for the centre

courtesy of cast offs from Leeds City Council. That was a great

start.

2009 UPDATE None of the people who said they may help ever ended up helping!

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16th April 1998

Weʼve just returned from a 4 day break in Blackpool. I

love holidays. God supplied our needs right down to the last

pound and I was able to buy some new shoes and a new top.

God has been good to us. Usually when I come back from

breaks I begin to panic about the state of the Church and whatʼs

happened while Iʼve been away. Today was no exception. The

financial constraints that were now upon us hit me hard and the

possibility of putting one of our full time workers on part time as

well as cutting the wages of all the staff was now a serious

possibility. I really need to take it to God. Without a major

breakthrough, there will be major changes. Tonight I asked God

to speak afresh to give new light and faith on our situation. We

need miracles all round. I need to make some major decisions. I

told Glyn that we needed a financial breakthrough and he

suggested that we got all the Church to fast and pray. I told him

that I felt that weʼd done all that we could and it was now in Godʼs

hands. I really believe that the people now needed to see some

miracles for all the sacrifices that theyʼd made.

Itʼs so hard getting a balance between faith and what

looks like sound financial management. Faith never looks logical

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or naturally attainable. We are now in a crucial period with only

10 weeks to come up with huge financial assets.

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5th May 1998

As I was driving home tonight from Church I felt God say

to me, “Youʼre a good man.” My son had actually said the same

thing only a few nights back but only in jest. I felt really touched

that God should affirm me in the middle of my busyness as so

often I feel guilty that my busyness is a cover for a lack of trust

and a substitute for real prayer. I havenʼt had any quality

personal time with God just lately and so it was amazing to hear

Godʼs affirmation of me.

The biggest thing Iʼve done this week is to outline the

new plans and redefine vision of our Church for the near future.

Itʼs been hard going as it means a total paradigm shift in the

workings of the Church as well as a shifting role for Glyn. At

night, after sharing my plans to the core leaders, I turned to

Ezekiel 43 which describes the temple design including a

description of all the entrances and exits. We had talked about

entrances and exits in our meeting. Iʼm amazed again. Often as a

leader you feel like itʼs you alone, with either everyone way

behind you or very against you. God has shown me that Heʼs

right there with me, believing the new plans and giving me

confidence to ʻsell itʼ to my team and through them, convince

everyone else that itʼs the way to go. I am really aware of the

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evolutionary nature of change and have given the next 3 months

to the seepage of the vision. Iʼll then present our new

programme, changes to our personnel, our need for provisions

and lastly our new performance targets to a much wider

audience. I am acutely aware, though, that in everything the

greatest power of a Church lies in its heart and spirit. The buzz

factor is more important than all of the ʻPʼ words Iʼve just listed!

The company that were to take the lease off us for our

existing Church building has pulled out. Weʼve leased the

warehouse for 3 years and have 1 year to go. We are now

paying hefty amounts towards the mortgage repayments of our

Megacentre facility. Weʼre about to move into our 1st stage of

phase one renovations of our new centre and the company

pulling out on the lease is certainly a set back. At times life feels

like one of those computer screens that have mountains that

donʼt gradually grow from the horizon but suddenly come into

view from the left side of the screen. Faith remains the land in

which we live and breathe. Thereʼs no other way we can do this!

In spirit I feel much stronger than a few months ago. I

love to see people grow strong in God. I also love to share Jesus

to people who are open and this has been a great week for it. My

two assistants are really catching the vision and I feel confident

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about our future. I also feel really good about cancelling last

Sunday nightʼs service and sending everyone to Doncaster to

help in the new Church plant. It was a great night.

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15th May 1998

Weʼve just completed our second national ʻAliveʼ

conference that I host with two other ministers and their

churches. It was a great success, but I think the greatest success

is what Godʼs done in my heart. Our Church is the same size this

year as it was last year. Danny Guglielmucci from a highly

successful Church in Adelaide, who came last year and was one

of this yearsʼ conference speakers, must have noticed it. My

awareness of what he was probably thinking, however, didnʼt

affect me deep down in my soul. In fact I felt God tell me that

Heʼs made me of ʻno reputationʼ which was strangely a good

feeling. I think Dannyʼs return trip to our Church was my mirror to

show me how strongly Iʼve developed on the inside in this past

year. Thank God for the security that Heʼs developing within me.

Itʼs a great work that Godʼs doing.

Today I received news that another large charity would

not be supporting us financially in our new venture. I had a

prophecy from some guy who saw a large cheque book open up

for me with the scripture ʻask and ye shall receive.ʼ After he

shared it I began to cry as I caught the revelation that God has

seen our endurance and hard work. Because this guy knew

nothing of our situation it was a real sign that God was with us.

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Iʼve always found it hard to correct leaders around me

and at the same time be encouraging to them. I also find it

especially difficult with older men. I have never had older men

around me while growing up and my relationship with my dad

was always quite distant. I feel great today though, because I

was able to correct an older member of my team about his wrong

attitudes and at the same time create a closer bond with him.

God has definitely granted me a new ability!

2009 Update

The Alive Conference continued to be part of our annual calendar until 2001. After a few years absence we launched a brand new conference in 2005 called Fabulous which has become an exciting weekend each year for our church to gather together in celebration and see God move. Danny Gugglielmucci has remained a strong friend of Hope City Church.

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30th June 1998

Itʼs been a month now since we moved into the

Megacentre. I felt challenged to sow our first Sundayʼs offering

directly to our new local community. I ran it past my oversight

because it would mean that we would be giving away next

weekʼs wages. They all agreed! The offering came to one of the

largest weʼd ever had … and we were giving it away! A week

later we had our opening night and the previous owner of the

building, who is one of the directors of Sheffield United, was

present with his wife. Our last encounter had been a difficult one,

firstly because of recent complications with the payment of VAT

and secondly because we brought him down from a potential 10

year lease on the building of £1.4 million, to purchasing the entire

property for £200,000. I was surprised to see him at the opening.

Everyone knew who he was and the night must have made a big

impression on him. He came into my office at the end of the

service, got his cheque book out, and wrote a cheque for £1000.

That was both a miracle and a return of around half of the money

that we had just sown into our local community.

Weʼre still paying rent on our old building as well as

paying the mortgage on our new building. It continues to be a

stretching time. We have made a decision, however, not to

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reduce any of the staff wages this coming September but to

actually increase them. It can only be accomplished by

supernatural intervention. We have also decided to use £20,000

that we had designated for heating and spend it on the first stage

of our indoor childrenʼs centre. We still have 3 months until the

cold weather is upon us and so weʼve taken a giant leap of faith

believing for money for the heating equipment before the weather

turns.

The whole team has worked so well in this time of great

pressure. Iʼm amazed at the unity, the faith and the respect thatʼs

emerged over the last few months. Personally Iʼm not used to

such great respect and authority. For years, whenever I

corrected someone, mayhem and fall out would always result.

Weʼre in the midst of incredible change which includes our

location, our Church structure and even our style of service, yet

everyone is working so well. I think change has become part of

our value system rather than a thorn in our side.

Today Iʼm flying to Australia with a minister from one of

Sheffieldʼs more established churches to attend the Hillsong

Conference. It feels odd leaving the Church for two weeks at a

crucial time, but I think it may be Godʼs plan to de-stress me. I

get obsessively focused! Iʼve got to allow the ʻseeds of faithʼ to

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grow without getting hung up at the ʻbrown dirtʼ I see every day.

Also, Iʼve got to allow others in leadership to take the reigns on

many of the things that Iʼve initiated.

Two Sundays ago I was wearing one of the 2 suits that I

own. I remember consciously thinking to myself how much I

loved the suit I was in (and how great it looked on me), and

immediately felt the Holy Spirit encourage me to give it away to

Glyn. That happened at the end of the Sunday morning meeting.

At the same time, Glyn and Sophia had felt impressed to give

away the money that theyʼd saved for a suit and place it in the

Sunday morning offering. (They had a serious argument after the

service because theyʼd agreed to give away half the money and

yet Sophia gave away all of the money!) At night I came up to

Glyn and asked him if heʼd like my suit and promptly handed it to

him. It was a great moment. It was one of those great miraculous

moments that Iʼll remember for a long time. Jenny and I also

emptied our bank account and gave all we had away. We really

believe that God wants to increase us financially so we can both

enjoy some special things and become bigger channels of

blessings to others. I really want to bless Jenny for all her

sacrifice by building a deck off the back of our house so she can

lie out in the sun (which she almost worships) in solitude and

comfort. She loves the sun and getting as much of it as possible

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has been an art form for her while living in England. Itʼs been

funny coming from a sunny nation, to find every second car in the

UK with a sun roof. I can understand it now. Life in England has

always been easier for me than Jenny, not only because I donʼt

miss the hot weather, but also because of her almost

overwhelming sense of isolation thatʼs not been helped by her

mum being 10,000 miles away.

2009 UPDATE The playcentre was completed and has since been refurbished to become Megarelax and Megakidz, a combination of a quality coffee house and playcentre allowing parents to relax in comfortable surroundings whilst their kids play.

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26th July 1998

I seem to have found faith in our financial crisis at the

Megacentre. Our needs are great but I have a real peace about

it. Yesterday, a man from the TSB bank phoned saying that heʼd

like to come and look at the centre. I think heʼs going to give us

money. By faith we enter into grace!

The Australian trip was a brilliant trip and the Hillsong

Conference was a magnificent conference. Last time I went I flew

in and flew out within a week and I felt God tell me not to do that

again. I think that at that time I was submitting to a feeling that I

had nothing really to give to the churches in Australia, so there

was no need to stay for a weekendʼs ministry. God so wants me

to believe in me! This time I preached in Sydney and in Brisbane.

I preached great.

Church went great today. Our team from Poland came

back and half of our Australian youth team was back as well.

There seems to be an undercurrent of new people and a great

sense of the presence of God. The one thing which has

saddened us lately is the absence of our two new Christian

friends. They havenʼt been for 3 weekends and we feel like weʼre

losing them. Weʼve tried to disciple them and help them (and

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befriend them) but I donʼt know if theyʼre ready to change their

lifestyle. Iʼm not going to dwell on it. Iʼm going to see it as a

ʻprodigalʼ moment in their Christian walk. The game is only half

over! It must be so hard when teenagers drift away from the Lord

after their parents have spent years bringing them up in the ways

of God.

Iʼm going to make this coming Church year (starting

September) a Sabbath year. I need an easier, less pressured

year just to get rid of an underlying state of exhaustion. I think

Godʼs talking to me about delegating, partnering and

empowering. Iʼve spent so many days and months directing the

ship and giving vision on so many angles. Itʼs time to let the

garden grow and let the team flourish. Itʼs going to be a

challenge to simply assist and build relationship with people and

not just lead them. Iʼve really got to beat the feelings of being

lazy and the pressure of condemnation. Iʼm a bit driven at times

and a lot of it comes from the desire to inspire the staff and

leaders to go faster and further. Iʼd like to get into a new daily

routine that starts with exercise and prayer and then come into

Church during the week at around 10am. Itʼs going to be difficult

to put aside the thought that people may think Iʼm being lazy but I

know that if Iʼm going to rise to new heights, I have to look after

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my body, my relationship with Jen and Ryan, as well as my own

wellbeing. Here goes!

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25th August 1998

Last night I had a terrible sleep. My body was exhausted,

yet my adrenalin was pumping late into the night. I feel

disorientated today and really tired. Iʼve decided to work from

home.

We started our childrenʼs centre (stage 1) 2 days ago

and I think that itʼs affected me. I donʼt think that itʼs the

immediate pressure thatʼs pushed me over, but an accumulation

of pressure thatʼs making me lose energy really quickly. Itʼs a bit

like a soldier whoʼs been on the front line for too long. A holiday

is in order.

Yesterday we depleted all our Church bank account and

borrowed some money internally in a personal arrangement with

a congregation member. Between late yesterday and this

morning we got news of around £8000 being sent to us from

various trusts. We have also had a miracle with a heating

system! We have taken up an offer of a second hand one that

could possibly do our entire building for a really knockdown price!

Itʼs currently in another building and weʼve managed to get all the

radiators out and now need some demolition work to get the two

massive boilers out. Thereʼs only 5 weeks until the cold sets in.

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We still need a lot of money (on top of the personal loan) to get

the heating system all set up.

I donʼt think a day goes past without some kind of

dramatic news. Itʼs as if we are in a prolonged transition time that

never seems to settle back to some kind of normality. Maybe this

is the new ʻnormalʼ.

Iʼm concerned with myself because I get little adrenalin

attacks that then get a little worse when I think that they might be

little panic attacks. Iʼve had some spells when Iʼve just felt distant

– strangely distant. Iʼve stayed home today just to avoid any

undue pressure. Because of the way Iʼm wired, I use up a lot of

energy just talking to people and need a lot of space in between

appointments (which I just donʼt get). I get easily uptight about

such small things. Yesterday I was almost possessed by the

background music we put on in the entrance foyer of the

Megacentre. Iʼve got a fetish for background music and get so

consumed about it being at the right level to create a bright and

buoyant atmosphere. Iʼve got to pull back from details and get

some relief! Glyn just called and said that I need an outside

interest!! Itʼs true – Iʼd love to go and see the Bee Gees at

Wembley Stadium next Saturday night. If I donʼt get some

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miracle tickets real soon, Iʼm going to order some at the box

office!

2009 Update

Glyn was right. In 2007 I started painting under the pseudo-name of Dagarte. It was a great way to release creativity and spend time and I also was able to sell some of the paintings!!

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3rd September 1998

I spent a lot of time on the weekend crying out for a

breakthrough. I had a long time of worship, and really prayed for

a recovery emotionally, physically and spiritually. Now, four days

on, Iʼm amazed. I feel great. The stress has gone and I went to a

prayer meeting and felt really lifted. Thatʼs a story in itself

because for at least 9 months, I have felt a bit repelled by prayer

meetings. I think Iʼve felt exhausted praying for things that I had

prayed for hundreds of times before. I was amazed at how

refreshing it was to again be interceding for the kingdom of God

outside of my own personal times with God. I know God has

done a miracle in me. Iʼm committed to a new lifestyle of

exercise, devotions and getting into Church later to help me stay

sane. I think itʼs working – I feel fresher and friendlier!!

We opened our Megakids and Megabites fun centre

almost 2 weeks ago and itʼs starting to be a real winner. It gives

me great satisfaction to see the Church rising up in a way that it

both blesses the local community as well as equips the saints.

Weʼve organised the Church programme and vision into 5 zones

that help lead people along what weʼve called the ʻjourney of

discoveryʼ. Somebody becomes a part of our community zone

activities, then moves into discovery zone activities, gets saved

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and moves into our foundation zone and then into the

programmes of the growth and equippers zone. I love the

concept. The community centre should only be the tip of the

iceberg of whatʼs really going on in the life of the Church. Iʼm also

excited because the vision unites the community centre with

everything else the Church does, so you donʼt get left with –

community centre and the Church. Itʼs all Church. The Church in

action. For the first time in the history of the Church (7 years) I

can stand back and get a real sense of satisfaction that weʼve got

our direction right and weʼve got a brilliant team (out of 250

people, 23 are working either part time, full time, voluntary or on

an internship) and weʼve got that indispensable and generally

unpreached about quality called ʻmomentumʼ beginning to rise up

creating within us an unstoppable feeling.

2009 Update

Megabites was renamed Megarelax during the latest refurbishments.

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4th September 1998

Somebody has shouted me a ticket to see the Bee Gees

at Wembley Stadium tomorrow night. God is good.

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17th October 1998

Personally, in recent months, Iʼve been secretly

entertaining loads of bad thoughts, and, worse still, it has been

really hard to accompany these thoughts with any sense of anger

and real repentance. I have been really praying for greater

passion for God and that seems to be a key thatʼs started to lift

me back off the plains of compromise and into a new disciplined

regime. God took Abraham away from Lot and led him onto

higher ground. My vision and my values are definitely starting to

sharpen again through prayer. It seems that the only place for

any soldier of God is on the front line – always battling for more

of God, for more souls saved and for more hearts changed.

Davidʼs problem wasnʼt adultery, it was being off the battle front.

God – stir up my passion for you.

Weʼve started up all of our Church programmes but

some of them have very little takers. We desperately need a

greater hunger for the things of God.

God has given me some powerful opportunities lately. I

preached in Kiev to leaders of churches across the Ukraine and

then preached to the up - and - coming Youth Alive leadership in

the UK. Itʼs been quite an amazing opportunity. I have no big

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natural desire to speak around the place and yet God has

opened doors. I really believe that Iʼve got something to say now

– not because Iʼve seen the heavens split open but because Iʼve

simply maintained faith in the midst of the battle. Mike Breen

from St Thomasʼ Church in Sheffield prayed for me in passing the

other week, “Thanks for the lion and the bear – now take him to

slay his Goliath.” Iʼve really taken that to heart, knowing that so

far itʼs been lions and bears, but I was born for Goliaths. It would

be easy to settle for a nice Church and a good programme but

my Goliath awaits, hopefully resulting in an avalanche of souls

saved and lives impacted. Iʼm running again to the battle.

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20th November 1998

Instead of using the popular daily devotional by UCB, Iʼve

been re-reading the ʻDay by Dayʼ devotional by Charles

Spurgeon. It is so good, and his perspective on the Christian life

has helped bring about a fresh revelation within me. I feel like

thereʼs a new well been opened up in my heart. My faith has not

just been focused on events and targets but on a softening of my

heart and a greater love for the people I minister to. Iʼve become

less black and white and now have included some shades of

pastel! Itʼs a new me!! Iʼve been praying again over my obsessive

nature. I find it so hard going into our café because of its high

degree of disorganisation. One thing that really gets to me is the

wobbling tables. Why doesnʼt anyone else see it or care?!! Iʼm

praying for an acceptance of things not being ʻquite rightʼ.

Our two new Christian friends (who were married) have

split up. Jenny has had such a strength through it all and Iʼve

been amazed at a new spirit of endurance and fortitude sheʼs

been showing (I donʼt think Jenʼs been this strong since our

Brisbane days.) Itʼs a real work of God in her spirit.

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A friend has just told me that his Church is on a current

growth curve! Itʼs fantastic. Iʼm on a growth curve (on the inside)

and I thank God for releasing me into thinking this way!

2009 Update

Wobbly tables still annoy me!

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1st December 1998

Itʼs been an amazing week for the City. The leaders of

many of the charismatic churches across the City came together

for a retreat and the entire leadership of the All Saints network

has stepped down to make way for a new move of the Spirit.

Also, for one of the first times in our inter-church gathering, I had

some significant things to say! I find that amazing and incredible.

Our Church really has been recovering numerically since

we moved into the Megacentre. Itʼs slow, but the numbers in

through the front door have been a little more than those going

out through the back door. The Church now has almost as many

people attending as it did at the time leading up to our 1996 crisis

(two and a half years ago.) We lost so many people around that

time – well over 100 people, including many of our young

families. Itʼs a landmark in the life of our Church but Iʼm

convinced that when God restores, He doesnʼt just give back

what the enemy takes away, He gives back in increased

measure and quality so that the glory of the latter temple is

bigger, brighter and greater than ever before. This time the

ceilingʼs removed – the skyʼs the limit.

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We had a whole night of prayer recently and around 40

people stayed right through the night. It was a fantastic time and

really prophetic. Iʼm feeling like God is renewing my battery and

giving me a whole new lease of life. Itʼs incredible because it was

only 3 months or so ago that I felt exhausted on the inside and

entertaining wild thoughts of pulling back for a year. I know itʼs

God – Iʼve a new lease of life on every part of our vision and feel

wide awake to pursue the things of God. Itʼs really surprised me

and I know that it is a rise of faith that hopefully will result in souls

saved and lives changed.

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29th December 1998

I had the best Christmas present on Christmas morning.

Just after our service, a guy called Nick came up to me and said

that he lived locally and got saved 6 weeks ago over the

telephone with a friend from London. He was so hot for God – a

real transformation – it was brilliant. Tony, whoʼs been saved 3

months, said that he was offered a job in another city with a free

house but turned it down, saying that he couldnʼt leave the

Church! After refusing to leave, his boss did a turnabout and

offered him £1000 to get his licence so he could be used further

in his business. That made my Christmas. Recently, a guy whoʼs

a financial advisor talked to me about his own financial crisis. He

said that many times he felt like committing suicide. I gave him

good counsel. Iʼve just found out that heʼs had a massive

personal breakthrough and he has also been given some money

to pay off all his debts! Itʼs one of the best turn arounds Iʼve seen

in ages. Itʼs made for a great Christmas season. Iʼm hoping that

itʼs the beginning of a summer season at the Hope – the early

signs of a Sheffield revival!

Iʼm really pleased that brand new ideas are arising within

me. Iʼve been thinking of launching a new Church in Manchester

soon. I like that idea. In fact, Iʼm really buzzing on the inside

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about it. My assistant Dave and his wife Anne are ablaze for

Europe. Regional church planting is the missing part of the

overall picture. I need to see the Church strengthened more,

though, before we expand, but Iʼm sure that it will happen. I need

to ask Gerard what he thinks. Weʼve had 4 shots at church

planting with only 2 sticking. Weʼve learnt a lot! Instead of pulling

back, we now need to go out again – this time for success. I love

my new attitude.

Iʼm feeling great going into the new season. The Church

is growing again and Iʼve got some really good friends! Iʼm

relaxed and all the leaders are growing roots and leaves! I thank

God for the turnaround from our ʻbaptism of fire.ʼ Weʼve regained

the ground lost and, just as a broken bone heals stronger, thereʼs

a great sense of strength in the Church. We still have many

challenges in the areas of souls and finance, but thereʼs a hefty

weight of faith that shall see us through.

Iʼve got so much out of my quiet time book by Charles

Spurgeon this year. He never ceases to help me in his depth of

counsel and insight. In fact, itʼs great to get a more ʻsovereignʼ

insight on things because Iʼm such a proactive person. Spurgeon

seems to give me a great sense of relief through a greater sense

of Godʼs providence. ʻItʼs down to youʼ type encouragement is

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great for people who lack motivation, but that is not one of my

primary weaknesses (the opposite is more the truth of it.)

2009 UPDATE Nick is now married to Caroline and they have two beautiful children. They are still great members of our Sheffield congregation. Tony has since left the Church.

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1st February 1999

The health of our Church is so good right now. The

services are filled with life and expectancy and my team is in a

great spirit. Iʼve definitely had a second wind. I feel sharpened

and renewed – as if Godʼs put a fresh river in me thatʼs doing

both me and everyone else a lot of good.

Itʼs amazing some of the changes that have happened

lately. Iʼve been selected to help lead the Ministersʼ Network. We

had our first early morning meeting at the Holiday Inn with around

30 pastors present. It was excellent. I really feel like I have been

anointed to help steer the group into greater faith than ever

before. Iʼm also going to be speaking at a session at the AOG

National Conference this year which again is a great opportunity

to share vision and faith.

I was so disappointed to hear that Gerard wasnʼt going to

speak for us on his Sunday in England. Iʼve also been so sad

about our 18 year olds about to go to university in other cities –

this Sunday I released them publicly to God and to our vision to

take the nations. I felt better after doing that.

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I feel much softer now as a leader than ever before. I feel

like Iʼm more surrounded by faithfulness than ever before. I can

honestly say that I affectionately love the people I serve much

more than ever. For the first time ever, I feel comfortable in

leadership.

I preached at a small Church last night and was so

impressed with my love for the people there. It surely is a work of

God. The Church was badly led and the building was in a state of

dereliction, but I bypassed all of what I saw and simply

ministered to the heart of the people. That is such a

transformation! Iʼm more confident in being me and Iʼm really

enjoying myself. Itʼs as if Iʼve just kept on doing the right things

with the right attitude, and now a new river has been released in

me.

Last week our heating system at home broke down again

and I called the 2 guys again who installed our central heating.

They were both in Church on Sunday morning!!! Amazing!

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2009 UPDATE Gerard Keehan, who pioneered Hillsong Church in London, has become a great friend and ʻfatherʼ to our Church. He is currently Pastor of Sunset Coast Christian Life Centre in Perth, Western Australia seeing incredible growth. Out of the four of us selected to help steer the new flow in the ministries network, two have fallen morally and only one of the two has come back into full recovery. After great thought and discussion we decided in 2008 to leave the Assemblies of God in Great Britain and become independent. I wrote an article on my blog site to explain the reasons behind this.

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1st March 1999

Iʼve had a revelation about Godʼs affection and love for

me that has been awesome. Iʼm really beginning to understand

Godʼs heart for us to succeed and His heart to rid us of sinful

habits. Iʼm starting to understand Godʼs immense affection

towards me and His incredible delight over those who choose to

follow Him. I donʼt want this revelation ever to depart! It really

enables me to love myself so much more and to love others a lot

more as well.

Looking back, it seems that we spent a lot of our time

from halfway through 1996 to halfway through 1998 training and

consolidating all the new, upcoming leadership of our Church.

Many are a lot younger than many of those who left in our

season of crisis. Halfway through last year we planted our new

leadership (our new personnel for the new programme) into the

new fields of ministry. So many are just starting to see buds of

life. I feel so happy leading such a talented and gifted team of

leaders. Behind each leader are some fantastically dedicated

teams. These are good days in the life of the Church. The

Church is growing slowly but surely, and Iʼm continuing to grow in

depth and anointing.

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I was amazed at my renewed heart for this City. I was

reading this morning Zechariahʼs prophesies about the renewal

of Jerusalem – kids playing freely on the streets, the over 70ʼs all

revelling in new found safety… I realised afresh Godʼs plans for

this great city – to release freedom, life and safety and to bring

prosperity both to the soul and to the streets. I feel a new

authority on me to speak into the life of leaders in the city and the

nation. Iʼm staggered as I have always seen myself as a second

in charge when it comes to anything wider than our local Church.

We recently had a financial report completed by Anne,

my financial assistant. For the first time, I think, in the history of

the Church, we hit our monthly target without any exceptional

offerings. Miracles do happen! In fact, with the inclusion of some

extra funding we have received, we have potentially paid off

every bill that is owed (outside our mortgage and the personal

loan.) Iʼm astonished! Especially since itʼs come to pass at the

beginning of the New Year, which is usually a time of tightening

the belt after the Christmas season. We have a huge budget and

have always stretched ourselves beyond our ability. It has

caused many stresses and strains and this all comes as a

welcome break. I am now really challenged to put the wages up

for the staff and raise the bar on our budget forecast!! We need

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to bless our core workers more. Everyone has sacrificed so

much.

Iʼve been keeping this journal of ʻThe Sheffield Revivalʼ

for just over a year now. We still havenʼt seen the ʻRevivalʼ yet

but itʼs in our hearts and itʼs in our speech. Weʼre not over

desperate for it, knowing that great oaks start with small acorns.

We have made a commitment to walk by faith and at the weakest

times weʼve declared our strengths. I remember on the fourth

Sunday at the start of the Church, with only about 12 people

present, declaring ʻHopeʼ to be an Antioch Church influencing

nations. Weʼll continue to do it. Iʼm dedicated to declaration. So

much foundation is in place – so many leaders are in their right

position. Zechariah says that God rejoices to see the ʻplumb line

in the hands of Zerubbabelʼ – in other words – the right

leadership in place at the right time. I declared yesterday to the

congregation that you wonʼt find the Hope at the Megacentre in

10 years time! Youʼll find a community centre and the Church in

the community, but our Sunday meetings will be too big to fit our

new downstairs auditorium. I think theyʼre getting used to big

talking! I refuse to be tempered by past and current failure to

come up with high results. Goals are important, but I know that

our future lies in the spirit of faith rather than the attainment of

current goals. Weʼre still believing for great breakthrough but we

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can smell the fresh breeze that hopefully will lead to a cyclone of

Godʼs power and purposes.

2009 Update

I wasnʼt far wrong about the auditorium being too small in 10 years time. Due to not being in a position to purchase or build a larger auditorium yet we decided to expand our current space at the end of 2008. This meant knocking a huge wall out and creating a 900 seater auditorium where originally we could fit only 700. Plans are slowly coming together for us to build a Megaplex that would seat over 1500 people.

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9th April 1999

Iʼm in the middle of a 9 day fast. God has really spoken

to me regarding a sense that Iʼm moving into a new season with

God. Iʼve just had around 3 months of incredible intimacy and

coming to tears almost every time I spent time with Him. One of

the City ministers said that I need to ʻpioneer a course to a new

watering holeʼ, which got me thinking that maybe my current

season of revelation was coming to an end. I read the story of

Jesus on the Mount of Transfiguration. It said that when they

came to the bottom of the mountain there was a large crowd

waiting for them. God spoke to me and said that you canʼt

continually live on the mountain top. Thereʼs a crowd waiting to

be ministered to and a generation ready to be reached. It gave

me impetus to start to fast again and seek a greater anointing to

impact the harvest. His purpose for me now is to minister

horizontally after a great season of being ministered to vertically!

I cried the other night when I felt His presence was not the same

as it had so strongly been for months. I didnʼt want it to go and

felt really upset. Just to know his immediate affection and

concern for a long period was a real taste of heaven. Itʼs as if

God has purposefully pushed me back out into the harvest field.

Thereʼs a call to take up Godʼs authority in prayer and rise up

and possess the land. Why canʼt God bring revival to Sheffield?

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God is beginning to speak to me about my leadership

style. I have a hand in everything and need to learn to do things

through my leaders and not go behind them. Secondly, I need to

keep things vision based and not job based. I see the ideal and

probably put too much emphasis upon my ideas and my

standards of excellence. I need to give them time to let the

garden grow and not check out the roots so often. Iʼve been in

town today and picked up some picture frames to buy as

presents for people at Church. I then felt to put them down. This

was a job for delegation. Father, help me also to be good at

delegating!

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16th May 1999

After tucking myself away for the past 3 years, Mal

Fletcher of ʻNext Wave Internationalʼ prophesied a re-expansion

of myself into the heart of mission. He said that it was a key to

my Churchʼs strength and future and heʼs invited me to a

leadership summit in Oslo, Norway. Someone prophesied that as

I gave out from the Church, God would give back to it.

Thereʼs a new confidence and a new level of anointing

on me as Iʼve been ministering out from our Church. I used to

hate preaching in other places – I seem, now, to have a mandate

to lift peopleʼs hope and expectancy to new levels and I have a

number of messages that help do that. I have enjoyed ministry

lately!!

On a really personal note, I have found myself wrestling

with temptations, especially with lust of the eyes. Itʼs a growing

concern. I have prayed about it. That same person, who

prophesied over me regarding God blessing our Church as I

ministered, also warned me not to do anything that dissolves or

removes the anointing of Godʼs Spirit. Then they looked at me in

the eyes and said “Do you know what I mean?” Amazing. Itʼs

broken the back of my problem. In fact, I feel clean, free and

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fearful of God. Anything that may feed the flesh, Iʼm running from.

Itʼs as if a stronghold has been broken. I know that God has

rescued me from a slippery path leading to destruction. I thank

my Lord so much for His commitment and care towards my life. I

can really understand how people (and ministers) fall into

immorality - even those with good marriages. I can now really

understand what a dirty and dark world people live in, who are

trapped by the devilʼs temptations. I want to run from the plains of

compromise – I want to be holy for all my living years. God – help

it be so.

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27th July 1999

“The lines have fallen for me in pleasant places.” Iʼve just

come back from taking a team of ministers to Hillsong

Conference in Australia. Iʼve got a new lifestyle with good

exercise and good time with the Lord. Iʼm re-learning to

appreciate the ʻpleasant placesʼ Iʼve inherited. Iʼm also trying to

learn the balance between ʻactivityʼ and ʻsleepingʼ. While the

storm was on Jesus slept in the boat such was His confidence in

arriving at the declared destination. I want to know when to fight

and when to sleep. I felt, as I came back from Australia, that God

said to me ʻkeep sleeping – donʼt be alarmed by what you see –

stay in the faith that Iʼve given to you.ʼ Iʼve learned that itʼs not the

truth that sets you free but the knowledge of the truth. Iʼm trying

to read the word more – get more revelation and therefore more

faith and therefore more freedom in all I am and do.

We had a great Sunday of baptising 14 people. In the

past 3 months, weʼve baptised over 35 people. One lady got

saved through phoning the wrong number. Instead of calling a

helpline she rang one of our girls called Sarah. She got saved

and then her daughter got saved!!! One lady got saved watching

the God Channel. These are exciting days.

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Iʼve had a lot of attacks from a small group of people who

seem to have lost their heart for the mission at hand. I guess itʼs

par for the course. Financially weʼre at rock bottom again both

personally and in the Church. Iʼm aware that our own personal

finance and the Church finances follow an uncannily similar path.

We were gearing up to pioneer a Church in Manchester but were

advised by one of the leaders of Hillsong Church to delay the

expansion until our Church comes into greater strength. Our

submission to his advice has made me feel like a stronger leader

and has been a good example to the leaders around me. It

certainly has challenged any spirit of independence and rebellion

inside me. Manchester does represent, however, a new vibrant

spirit that is no longer once bitten, twice shy. We have failed

twice at Church planting and it represented the spirit that says

weʼre going to put the past behind and claim our God given

inheritance.

Jenny has had an amazing response from women right

across the nation in her desire to establish a new womenʼs

movement. Sheʼs put on some great events, and momentum is

beginning to really kick in. Sheʼs so excited and Iʼm excited by

the enthusiasm and the consistency that sheʼs developed. Sheʼs

beaten a lot of disappointments and now is rising up into a great

new era in her life.

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David and Marie Cartledge from Australia came and

prophesied that we would convert many buildings across the

City. Iʼd never thought of that!!! They prophesied a revolution in

the finances of the centre but said that we had to fight for it.

2009 Update

We did delay the pioneering of our Manchester Congregation and eventually launched in October 2002 when the timing was right. Since then we have launched congregations in Liverpool, Leeds, Newcastle and most recently in Birmingham. Our vision is to have 10 congregations of Hope City by 2012 which includes one in Europe and one in Africa. In 2010 we will move a step closer to this vision when we launch our African congregation in the capital city of Ghana, Accra.

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10th November 1999

The last 3 weeks in Church have been exceptional. A

number of times, weʼve had over 400 people in the building

including around 70 children coming from the local estate. (Itʼs a

sign of things to come.) The whole team have had an excellent

spirit. There have been people from all over the place coming in.

Itʼs an amazing time seeing our middle level auditorium getting

packed out. I really believe that this is a tide and not a wave. The

momentum has increased and the effects are demonstrative. Itʼs

been great to see the student ministry that has had very little

going on for years (and almost killed the leaders) suddenly come

to life. The teenage ministry has also suddenly come to life. Our

local inner city outreach to children is extraordinary. The worship

is coming to life as well – many of our leaders who have been

through hard times are now experiencing fruit. Lord, itʼs fantastic!

Iʼve had 3 incidents lately of manifest opposition. It would

seem that as a Church grows a number of things happen. Firstly,

those who had influence in the smaller gathering are no longer

influential in the larger gathering. Secondly, those with other

agendas (or who want to get noticed) know that there is now no

chance of having their agenda recognised. Thirdly, there is a

manifestation of greater authority around and anyone holding the

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spirit of rebellion is shown up for whom they really are.

Motivations are exposed. There are some women who have

been prophesied a revival amongst inner city children but have

failed to jump on board in response to our cries for help with our

inner city evangelism amongst the kids. They could help, but

within them is a definite spirit of elitism. Their agenda is their own

ministry rather than the setting free of a new generation of

people. I really believe that someoneʼs temperature for

evangelism is the true climate of their heart for God. Iʼm quite

annoyed with them. Many people love ministry, but are not

committed to the people they ought to love. In my conversations

with ministers who have fallen morally, many have expressed

their desire to want to resume ministry again. What they mean by

ministry is often the ministry of preaching. I hear their heart, yet

the opportunity to minister actually never left them. The pulpit

closed but their chance to share, admonish, lift, encourage and

pray never closed.

A senior leader recently said to me that Christian living is

always between crisis and blessing. They both happen

concurrently and great leadership is the ability to live comfortably

between the 2 extremes. I hate the crisis of opposition but I

realise that God raises up the blacksmith (Isaiah 55:16) in order

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to sharpen, refine and give greater godliness to my life so He can

use me more effectively than ever before.

God has been so good to us. It feels like the Church has

grown so much since we moved into the Megacentre only a year

and a half ago. My desire still lies with souls getting saved and

remaining saved – growing stronger in God.

On the horizon, there is a possible opportunity to

partnership with Dixons in the building of our new auditorium

downstairs which should provide the space for up to 700 people.

There is also the possibility of partnering with Sheffield City

Council with the other half of downstairs in creating a ʻMega

Gymʼ for the Sheffield Gymnastics Society. If the 2 come off – it

will be brilliant. We still need money to complete the middle floor

and weʼve given away 2 seed offerings to show the Lord that our

trust is in Him and not in us. Weʼre in faith land and I think that

thatʼs where weʼll stay for the rest of our lives – even after we get

what weʼre believing for!!! Weʼll always go from faith to victory

and straight back to faith again as we continually push the

envelope.

Our new Christian friends have deserted us totally now. It

has come out that their marriage has been torn apart by a secret

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affair that had been going on for some time! Both of them have

let go of God and gone back to the world. Itʼs a relief for Jen in

that she was continually having to carry the whole situation. It

has really disappointed me and there have been some others

weʼve put a lot of time into who have also deserted the cause of

Christ. Itʼs so difficult seeing people come and go so frequently.

We need massive momentum and revelation to change the roots

of our deceptive society. My plumber friend, who started to attend

Church with his mate, has also disappeared after being

challenged with the gospel. I must continue to believe that the

harvest is now, even in the midst of seeing people close to me

turning away from the gospel.

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2nd December 1999

Ryan has weighed so heavily upon my heart this week. The

teachers claim that he has got Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD).

We saw a show on Channel 4 called ʻKid in the Cornerʼ which

highlighted a kid with an extreme attention disorder. It magnified

our concerns as Ryan displays many of the same behavioural

characteristics as the child on TV (only milder.) I expressed my

concerns to a minister in Sheffield whose kids have had physical

problems since birth and asked him to pray for the situation. Ever

since our Church musical Ryan has been a little ʻout thereʼ –

partly unable to control his behaviour. Itʼs not only discipline that

Ryan needs – he needs Godʼs help. It has really been a tough

week – I love my boy so much. I need more patience, more

wisdom and more anointing in it all.

Jenny and I are having a week on our own. Iʼm missing

RYAN ALREADY!! I really need to include Ryan further in my

expectation of Godʼs inheritance for my life. Itʼs Godʼs will that

wholeness and happiness comes into my boysʼ life.

I can feel withdrawals already with regards to two

Sundays absent from Church. I know that God wants to cleanse

me of any striving. A little ʻdeath of a dreamʼ test is going on. We

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had around a 140 children in Church last Sunday morning – God

is blessing our work with kids in a fantastic way. I have an

amazing childrenʼs director and a fantastic team. Our high

schoolsʼ work is starting to take off – teenagers are just

beginning to come to the centre from the nearby school. Our bus

ministry is running at full speed. Weʼre in a great season of going

into the highways and byways! Men are beginning to come from

the YMCA residential centre and many students are starting to

come. Itʼs the beginnings of our dreams coming true.

2009 UPDATE We really prayed about Ryan and saw a dramatic change where he re-directed his non-attention to super attention. His school took note of a great change and we gave glory to God. Ryan is now 18 and has grown into a great young man of God. Heʼs not got ADD, he has ADA: Attention Deficiency Asset. Heʼs using all of his excess energies into loads of positive things. He is now the Creative Arts Director overseeing the worship and arts of all our congregations. He leads worship every week in Sheffield and wrote most of the songs on our debut album Devoted as well as producing two instrumental devotional albums. All three albums were picked up this year by Integrity and published. Ryan even presented Blue Peter on the BBC!

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14th January 2000

Itʼs the 21st century. Iʼm sitting in the Novotel Hotel preparing my

message for Sunday. It takes me so long to get inspired. I go

through so much agony in preaching. Iʼm called to preach but itʼs

not something which comes easy. I find it so hard to churn out

messages (like some do) and really admire those who can just

get up and talk so easily and freely. For me, sermon preparation

is like pulling teeth!

The wave that we recently saw in Church growth has

now retracted again. I really dislike waves. Nevertheless, I have

a renewed fire and passion to kick the year into touch with some

fervent prayer and some regular fasting. Straight when the New

Year turned, I felt a renewed determination to pray and to go

public in declaring Godʼs promise all over again to the

congregation. I want to see many more people come in than go

out; I want to see devotion and dedication like never before. Iʼm

declaring “This is my year.” Iʼm back into battle after having such

a massive revelation in 1998 of Godʼs favour and calling towards

my life.

Because of the turbulent nature of the demand on our

resources, we still have been unable to adequately set up a full

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budget forecast for all of our operations. We spend all we get and

being far out of our depth, a complete budget would be almost

purely academic. We canʼt continue like this. Our underlying

financial situation is constantly in the red (yet we have never

gone under.) We are being sustained by God, but itʼs more

wilderness living than Canaan living. Despite of all of this and in

response to all of this, Dave and the financial panel have decided

to massively increase my wage in line with a prophetic word from

a minister based in America. He told Dave and Glyn that the

Church must honour its leadership in the same way as the Ten

Commandments instruct us to honour our mother and father. He

inferred that the Church will always be in lack unless this tangible

honour is put in place. If the Church honours leadership, God will

honour and bless the Church.

Itʼs been a gutsy step and the strain has increased more

now that the decision has been made. We are however, believing

our Lord and see it as a key to the blessing of God. Our faith has

also increased. Weʼve had two visits from Sheffield City Council

in the last week – one reviewing their partnership in the creation

of a ʻMega Gymʼ and the other to lease floor space. Itʼs slightly

strange how in the midst of our great daily needs we have two

incredible possibilities concerning our long term needs. The

leasing has the potential to stabilise the whole centre and put us

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in a position to borrow finance to complete our 700 seater

auditorium.

In 3 weeks, weʼre aiming to raise £250,000 from our

congregation. Itʼs called our ʻFull Houseʼ offering for our new

auditorium. I really hope it succeeds. We donʼt need a miracle

offering as much as a heart miracle as people get hold of the

vision and put their whole weight behind it. Weʼre looking for

alabaster jar type giving! Iʼve told the Church not to pray too

much about what to give! The woman with the alabaster jar

wasnʼt necessarily prompted by the Holy Spirit but prompted by

an incredible appreciation and devotion to God. She gave out of

being ʻtruly, madly and deeplyʼ in love with Jesus. In asking God

how much to give to God, we run the risk of taking the spirit of

love out of our expression of love towards God. I believe in

listening to the Holy Spirit, but often Heʼs there to tell us when to

stop rather than when to start! I want people to go beyond the

bottom line as well as beyond the normal ʻbusinessʼ agreement

with God of giving in order to get. This is to be all about love.

The amazing thing that Iʼve learnt about an alabaster jar

is that you canʼt unscrew the lid – it can only be smashed off.

You canʼt give in half measure! Already, Iʼve heard of a car being

sold and a wedding being downsized to offer the Lord the

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financial savings. Weʼre really trusting in the Lord. There seems

to be a lot going on in the Spirit realm, rippling into relationships

and the general atmosphere. I believe that the offerings being

made will guarantee us awesome victories.

2009 UPDATE Our bus ministry was not sustainable. A number of the men working on it eventually left the church as they thought that it may have been a leg up into their own powerful evangelistic ministry. Also, the number of community kids we were getting became unsustainable for our childrenʼs team. The ʻMega Gymʼ never got off the ground. We needed the same space for our youth and childrenʼs work and the Council were endlessly delayed by too many focus groups.

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3rd March 2000

We had our ʻFull Houseʼ offering (to be redeemed in the

next 3 months) and it totalled £140,000. We were a little taken

back – we expected more. Iʼve had to realise that over the past

few years the people have given, above normal offerings, and

including this offering, up to £300,000 towards the work.

Our offering was all about what we could do for God.

Weʼre now in the territory of seeing what God can do for us. We

have enough to get started but not enough to finish. Weʼve seen

the architect and weʼve got the ball rolling. We need to receive

£80,000 of the ʻFull Houseʼ offering in the next 7 weeks to get the

place ready in time for Alive 2000 Conference in October. Help

Lord. Then we need another £250,000 to internally equip the

place. Itʼs incredible that weʼve got the possibility of Adrian Plass

coming in November and have even been asked to hire the

auditorium for a week in November by Soul Survivor. The

pressureʼs on! I feel nervous! I feel that our name is at stake as

weʼve publicly stated our intentions that all will be completed in

time. I can think of a few alternative plans but Iʼve refused to talk

about them or entertain them. Iʼm applying faith principles and

trusting in the Lord. I know that today Iʼm a day closer to a

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miracle!!! The Word of God is full of them – outstanding

breakthroughs of God when the people had done all they could.

Thereʼs a good feel at Church at the moment. I feel like

weʼre on the start of a growth curve. Itʼs only a feeling but I think

that itʼs a ʻGod feeling.ʼ Weʼve had some excellent meetings.

Thereʼs good momentum. Youth are getting saved and weʼre

moving towards our goal of 2.1.4.8. – sharing something of the

gospel to 2 people each week, inviting 1 person to a Church

event each month, seeing 4 decisions in our main meeting each

week and baptising 8 people each month. Itʼs a huge goal but

weʼre aiming high.

Jenny put on an excellent national womenʼs event this

week – she began these events with 50 ladies a couple of years

ago and last year it jumped to 80 ladies attending. This week she

had 160 ladies in attendance with a lot of leaders among them.

Itʼs a move of God in our midst. Itʼs exciting. Jen still has

problems with her eating – she finds that red meat and anything

spicy cause her stomach to bloat resulting in great pain. Itʼs been

happening for the past year. She sometimes wakes up at 2 or 3

in the morning with stomach pain that almost causes her to pass

out.

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Iʼve found that reading the Bible at McDonalds really

works for me – even with the radio on, I find that I can still focus

on the Word!! I work well with ʻconsistentʼ distraction rather than

ʻinconsistentʼ distraction! Since last August, Iʼve come to

McDonalds almost every day after a morning run. I then go for a

prayer walk to walk off the McMuffin! Itʼs a great routine – I really

enjoy it and find that it really releases me.

Iʼm at McDonalds right now being reminded that Iʼm

writing the diary of the Sheffield Revival – something that is as

unknown as rain was to Noah. Iʼve only told Jenny about this

diary. Thatʼs why Iʼm alive – for revival – thatʼs why Iʼm here. Iʼve

got to not forget the big picture – itʼs about the gospel impacting

lives and impacting a nation.

I turned 40 a few weeks ago. Itʼs old! No one whoʼs older

believes that, but everyone younger does!!!! Iʼve got to realise

that it really is quite old so I donʼt subconsciously create an

ʻageing congregationʼ. Many forgot to raise up the next

generation because they still think theyʼre young. My mother is

now in her seventies. My wife says that itʼs not old! My mum says

itʼs not old! Itʼs all relative.

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With Dave and Anne becoming part time missionaries,

Iʼm now looking for a pastor to run our pastoral care. I think Iʼve

had a paradigm shift from the necessity to have an older person.

When I was 18, 26 was old! Iʼm open to raising up the next

generation in a big way. I also know that what they may lack in

experience, weʼll gain in teachability and examplehood!

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14th March 2000

I was talking to one of the guys in our band and he said

in a round about kind of way that I needed to thank God much

more for all of the things that Heʼs already done in my life. It was

apt. I have a fixation on the future and rarely glance in the rear

view mirror.

Jenny is in Australia at the moment. Sheʼs had a couple

of people come up to her saying how much my ministry has

affected them. I preached at Bradford Abundant Life and I met

the couple that began Virgin Vie beauty shops – they told me I

should be on telly. I dismissed all of it but I felt the Holy Spirit say

“Iʼm attempting to encourage you.” Iʼm amazed at the attempt! I

get focused on my lack and insecurity and God is really trying to

change that. Amazing!

Jenny had a prophesy in Australia that ʻthe money is

coming.ʼ I believe that Godʼs spoken to me that Heʼs going to

surprise me! I heard a song recently from Charlie Peacock which

included the words ʻHeʼs creeping up on meʼ – something like

that. I really feel that the Lord is going to creep up on me – totally

surprise me. The psalmist says that he waits for the Lord. I need

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to wait for Him and not run off a minute early like Saul did while

waiting for the priest Samuel to come.

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3rd May 2000

Itʼs been a really intense time! The last month has been

taken up with re-inventing the Church for the start of the new

Church year in September. Itʼs been a real challenge. Dave and

Anne are off to Hungary and there has been a necessity to really

cut expenses and re-invent the budget. Iʼm releasing my schoolsʼ

worker into youth evangelism across the nation and Iʼm bringing

down the number of people who mill around the Church centre

during the day. Iʼve realised that there is a tipping point when it

comes to the number of people working in the centre and overall

work inefficiency. Most people would think that the more people

working, the more gets done. What tends to happen is that

overall administration becomes inefficient with so many separate

administrative centres being formed; socialising increases with a

need to say hello to so many people; and vision sharpness tends

to decrease with ʻbuzzʼ totally usurping scores on the board.

Without cutting right back, I believe that there is an optimum

functioning level.

Itʼs been a real challenge - taking back the control of

things and changing from delegated leadership back to directive

leadership. With Godʼs amazing help I think Iʼm dealing with it all.

There have been so many undercurrents of emotion. Iʼve had to

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give the Church over to the Lord so many times lately. Iʼve had to

be strong and loving. Itʼs brought back a lot of memories from the

last time I did this. Things werenʼt good and everything hit the

fan. Leaders refused to relinquish their leadership and a number

rebelled. Iʼve had to face it and I know that thatʼs the past, not the

future. Iʼm sure that Godʼs enlarged me since and increased the

size of my heart. I have a personality type, though, that when I

get a new pair of shoes, I never wear the old ones again. My new

shirts totally replace old ones. I will always have to watch my

pragmatic side in the launching of ʻnew things.ʼ Iʼve done that

with people in the past only to provoke feelings of rejection. Iʼve

dismissed the old for the new too quickly. I am now so aware that

this isnʼt just about corporate vision, but a progressive vision for

every individual. With my personality I also find that nothing has

sentimental value. I can also change friendships easily and be

quite rootless! Thereʼs always a voice nudging me to move house

and move city! Iʼm resisting it. I am aware that itʼs also a part of

having moved so often since I was born. As a family we never

developed close relationships and have been quite independent

in all of the locations weʼve lived in. Itʼs taken the Lord a lot of

work to develop a shepherdʼs heart within me that is committed

to the pasture Godʼs given. I can really understand it but I donʼt

really like it when certain leaders say “Iʼm the visionary of the

Church” and distance themselves from the overall shepherding of

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the Church. I really believe that the senior leaderʼs ministry is the

shepherding ministry and being a visionary is actually a part of

being a shepherd.

From last October to last month, weʼve had a 15% drop

in Church attendance. Thatʼs a 15% drop in 7 months. I think that

thatʼs been reflected in the drop in our finances. Itʼs so hard to

explain why weʼve had such a drop. We deal with so many

people who suffer from what I have had to deal with –

rootlessness and restlessness. Itʼs our challenge to create roots

beneath them. This month, however, our attendance is picking

up again. I know that when you begin building projects you can

often lose people because of the increased demand especially

upon their pockets. Where your treasure is, your heart is also!

Right now I really want to increase the sense of family amongst

us and increase an environment that is conducive to establishing

stronger relationships.

Jenny and I went to an ʻall paid forʼ marriage retreat last

week. At night, it turned into a prophesy session! The pastor

prophesied that I needed to lighten up! I realise that thereʼs a

ʻboyʼ side to my personality that many people rarely see. The

pastor also prophesied that I would come into a new style of

preaching – more relaxed and humorous. He declared national

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influence and our opening with the media. Jenny had a great

word about being the Marilyn Hickey of the UK!!! She doesnʼt

really know who Marilyn Hickey is but it sounds powerful!

It was funny to see one of the couples who had done a

lot of damage to our Church and then left to create their own

Church in attendance at the retreat. It was a litmus test for me to

see how much God had done in me since that time. We had a

good chat and I felt free and easy. Praise God!

2009 UPDATE The releasing of our youth worker was the right decision but the transition was not successfully accomplished. He felt called to another church and because we refused to affirm the call, the parting wasnʼt amicable.

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8th June 2000

Itʼs been a month of coming back to directive leadership.

I donʼt like it because I want everyone to be happy! Iʼve taken

back the reigns over so much of what I had previously delegated.

Itʼs been a struggle!! People (including myself) find it so hard to

relinquish control. I so want TEAM, and not just a collection of

different visions. The first step must be to give the clear sounds

of captaincy. I want to streamline the Church – make it leaner

and fitter - for the next move and to take it to the next level.

I have been the recent target of criticism! People donʼt

like change and there have been times lately when peopleʼs bad

agendas and sharp insecurities have risen to the surface. I so

want people to simply love God, become like God and love

people. So many people love it when I focus on them and when I

spend time with them, but the moment my attention goes

elsewhere – they collapse. Lord, give them a revelation of

yourself. Iʼm confident, though, that weʼre designing for the next

level and not just pandering to the present. Weʼll win. I believe

that God has taken Jenny and I to the next level and we are to

take our Church on to that level.

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On a lighter note, I just cycled 330 miles right across

Ireland and across Wales – in 5 days (in fact, if you take out a

day in Dublin, you could say 4 days!) I love cycling. I really need

to buy a bicycle. I went with some guys from Church and had a

brilliant time. On a personal note, my dad is very sick. Heʼs 77

years old and needs a heart operation but heʼs too weak to have

one just yet. Also, my brotherʼs family (in America) have just left

him – too much tension for far too long. I see my dad once a year

in Sydney while attending the Hillsong Conference. We meet,

chat, have lunch and then plan to meet the following year! I

havenʼt seen my brother for 5 years or so. Itʼs quite a difficult

relationship. I enjoy seeing him but heʼs pretty reactive. We are,

what youʼd call, a dysfunctional family! I feel for my mum as her

whole life has been invested into my dad. They divorced many

years ago, but still see each other often and Dad regularly stays

for a week in every month. (He lives in Sydney and mum lives in

Canberra. He spends the rest of the time writing books – mostly

dictionaries!) Theyʼve become more and more dependent over

the years. We need a breakthrough from God.

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15th June 2000

I told my leadership class that the stuff that was in the

room – a sense of family, commitment, vitality, faith, loyalty,

perseverance and diligence – is the stuff of revival. It carries with

it the massive force of heaven that defeats all spiritual powers. I

think it really empowered them.

Jennyʼs first ʻFabulous Youʼ womenʼs conference is

beginning today. There has been an incredible sense of unity

amongst the women in the putting on of the conference. I believe

the unity is as powerful as the ministry itself.

In the light of the re-invention of our Church and the

introduction of some new key players, I have had 2 couples

recently say theyʼre leaving. I could see it coming but hoped that

they would make the changes to stay. Deep down, I know that

theyʼve never really been a part. Theyʼve never really laid down

their agenda (or their ministry franchise.) They feel like they donʼt

belong and have secretly noted that the emergence of a new

breed of leaders arising is the closing of the door to the

possibility of their public emergence in the near future. Itʼs similar

to a time a number of years ago when we had another upsurge of

new leaders. The older ʻwould beʼsʼ (who tended to be in their

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fifties) reacted and many left. Thereʼs a sense of loss in my heart

that they failed to make the change necessary to come with us,

but thereʼs also a relief that theyʼve quit contesting things behind

the scenes! Iʼm concerned, though, over all of the people they

personally influence in the life of the Church. Iʼve got to realise,

however, itʼs God who builds His Church. Iʼm confident that weʼre

entering a season of growth that will surprise all of us. I believe

that weʼre building a Church that will be more incredible with

each year that passes. Our people are committed, have a huge

heart for new people, and are hungry for impact.

2006 UPDATE Fabulous You became She is Fabulous, which now attracts over 600 women and leaders from across the UK and Europe. I believe that Ryan being on Blue Peter was prophetic for our breaking into the media. Since then we have developed Hope City Media which produces our Church News on a Sunday, media items for our Sunday night event, as well as any media needed for our conferences and larger events throughout the year. In 2009 we got our biggest breakthrough when HopeCityTV debuted on UCB TV (Sky Channel 586) appearing 4 times a week including Thursday at 10pm and Sunday at 6pm. The first series ended in November and more episodes are to follow!

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20th June 2000

I remember Andrew Evans, the former leader of the

Australian AoG, once saying that when his leadership was under

attack regarding how ʻanointedʼ he was, he made a conscious

decision not to defend it. In the meantime, a young deaf boy had

his hearing restored through Andrew laying hands on him. God

used that incident to re-instate his leadership to the people and

to dismiss every critic over his lack of ʻanointingʼ. On the

aftermath of a difficult week of people leaving our vision and the

Church family, we had one of our greatest Sundays. The women

also had a brilliant conference. My eyes have been too much on

those with division and not those with the vision. There is such a

move of unity, loyalty and faith amongst us that it has again

highlighted anyone who holds the opposite spirit.

It really is a great time. I really believe that there will be

loads of people who get saved and be instantly unified with the

family and the spirit of the house. I believe that this holiday

season will bring an increase in people being added and united

to us, as well as an increase in offerings (rather than the typical

summer trend of low attendance and low offerings.)

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25th June 2000

My dad passed away at around 1pm today. I know he

was ill but had no idea that he would die a week or so prior to

when I had planned to see him.

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30th June 2000

Today is the day that we said goodbye to Dad and gave

our thanks to all he gave and left as a heritage to us. Itʼs been a

sad day. I donʼt know if itʼs because I wanted the ending to be so

much brighter or simply that my dad of 40 years has now

departed. I felt God say to me that he died at the right time (just

like Jesus had come at just the right time.) That comforted me. I

have felt like Iʼve been at the bottom of a canyon with no way out

as I have reflected on my life with Dad. Itʼs all so sad. He left a

great heritage of industriousness and adventure as well as sheer

guts and determination. He was a man of influence and, though

not known widely, has affected the future of many nations in the

field of the environment. It was great to meet a man called Bill

from the Rotary Club and University of New South Wales who

came down from Sydney for the funeral. He said that Dad was

proud of us kids!!!!! I think that that was what I looked for so

much from Dad and what I have found in Father God – a pride

and an admiration of who I am and all I do. I was amazed when

Bill said he counted Dad as one of his best friends!! He loved

Dadʼs stories and said that Dad was a brilliant speaker –

captivating both the rotary assembly as well as students. He said

that Dad also was asked to speak at some general university

talks and was found to be a speaker of both humour and

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eloquence. I am amazed at how I have entered an arena that

Dad was walking in.

In answer to prayers, it has been incredible to find out

the number of born again Christians surrounding his life. He was

lecturer and tutor of 3 sisters from Hong Kong and Bill says that

they tried to convert him!!!! He was currently tutor to a woman

whose husband is the pastor of a Chinese Church. We also

opened a letter addressed to Dad that he hadnʼt opened yet. The

letter contained a number of scriptures – obviously written by a

committed Christian!

Dad had a chance. I just pray that he gave his life in the

last days to the one who had already died for his sins. Anything

can happen in the last days of someoneʼs life.

Mumʼs friend came over to me and told me not to live

with any regrets. That meant a lot to me. I wish I could have seen

him before he died. I wish I could have told him how proud I was

of him. We were worlds apart.

Lord, I commit my dad into your loving and merciful

arms. Grab him and donʼt let him go. Accept him by your blood. I

hope to see him soon in the grounds of eternity and in the light of

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glory. Thank you for a man who loved me, gave me the meaning

of dedication, the secret of achievement and the spirit of an

adventurer. May I build with all he gave.

I guess that Scott of the Antarctic, Hillary of Everest,

Livingstone of Africa and many other pioneers didnʼt see their

families much either. I guess thatʼs the nature of having a dad

whoʼs a pioneer. He wasnʼt a friend so much as an inspiration.

He taught me through example. He has impacted my life like few

others have.

Before I came to Canberra, someone prayed that this

would not only be a time of release, but also a time of getting

something from God to move further into destiny with. Iʼm

believing for it.

Itʼs so good to be with my brother and sister and her

children. We havenʼt been together like this in around 20 years. I

love family and being with Mum. Itʼs so hard to know the balance

between pursuing goals and vision, and spending time with loved

ones. How and when will I see Stuart again? What about Liz?

How often shall I plan to see Mum? Holy Spirit – youʼll have to

lead me well. My temperament is like Dadsʼ in that it would be

easy for me to continue to be obsessive about the future plans

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for Church and ministry and miss out totally on seeing the family.

I pray Lord for your wisdom in all of this. I really do need to pray

(and fast) for Mum and my brotherʼs salvation - to see God do a

mighty work in their lives. I think that part of my sadness for Dad

is not hearing that affirmation that I will see him in heaven. It

must make so much difference.

Iʼll really miss the thought of not sending him cards from

all the places I go to and putting a smile on his face.

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14th July 2000

Last week we went to Dadsʼ flat in Sydney to organise

his belongings. It was the first time I had been to his flat. I felt a

little guilty going through his drawers and belongings, but felt that

I got to know more of the man in those few hours in the flat than

the many times in his company. I was deeply impressed by Dadʼs

integrity by finding no ʻskeletons in the closet.ʼ We only found

meticulously put together photo albums, masses of letters from

both publishers and past students who fondly called him ʻDaddyʼ,

books and more books, and stacks of Meccano. I tried on his

suits and found that they both didnʼt fit and didnʼt suit. I took

some memories like his Egyptian beetle and his money wallet

and a full size photo of Dad. I feel proud of my dad. He struggled

with all of us in the family over the years and it has become

obvious that he had adopted another family of students from

Hong Kong whom he wrote to and befriended. I like the idea that

his world was not just his own but that he still had capacity to

reach out and touch others.

In a funny way, my dad has become more alive and

more animated now that heʼs passed away than when he was

alive.

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Iʼve just been to Hillsong 2000. Iʼve had a great time with

Jenny and Ryan and we feel like royalty every time we go to

Hills. Itʼs been so good to meet up with old friends and to catch

the spirit of Hillsong and the heart of Brian Houston. Itʼs a place

where sermons are preached in power and excellence and heart

is shared in openness and freshness. Itʼs been a brilliant time.

We talked to one of Brianʼs team at Hills and asked him about

our idea of having a board of advisors. He offered to be one of

those advisors and to help in the oversight of the Church

throughout the year. I feel great about it. It makes me vulnerable

to a group of men who have the opportunity to look over every

aspect of Church life. Itʼs a little scary but I know that it will

provide great strength and power. In a way, it will give to me a

greater power to make right decisions and greater authority to

build a significant Church.

2009 UPDATE The board of advisors never really took root. The idea of oversight outside of our church has taken root and Gerard, who was one of the three board members, is a part of our extended team. We have a couple of great fathers of the faith who impart big time into our Church and weʼre looking to foster these relationships further.

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21st July 2000

I feel like Iʼm under immense pressure. Financially, weʼre

still out in the deepest of water. Our main account is constantly

being rescued by other monies outside of our tithes and

offerings. Our building fund is nothing like it should be. We need

some miracles. Thereʼs no further interest in people leasing part

of our property and a ʻmillionaireʼ lead has only retrieved a token

offering. Lord – help!! Weʼve had around 10 earners leave the

Church, affecting our financial ability. Besides all this, the

Megacentre needs cleaning and all our interns have finished for

the year! I also feel that I canʼt muster up the energy to put on

any more events or to have any guests visit us.

I have, however, enjoyed being with friends. Iʼve got a

new theme – enjoy the journey. Iʼm pretty exhausted by forced

relationships. I know that the placing of some of my friends in

leadership positions has been the straw thatʼs caused a number

of people to leave – but I canʼt keep on pursuing relationships

that never seem to actually click together. In actual fact, I feel like

thereʼs a new unity surrounding me – people that care for me and

love me! Someone said that I need people other than ʻyesʼ men

around me. I feel really pressured by that comment. What I

really, really need are friends that are really concerned for me

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and people that I can have a good laugh with! I need opinions but

opinions that build rather than jar. To many people, my new

leadership structure looks thin, but thatʼs because a lot of the

guys have only recently ʻcome of ageʼ. I think that itʼs a great

team and will prove itself to be so the more weʼre together.

We had 8 people from Kosovo in Church on Sunday – all

asylum seekers! Also a lady got saved on Sunday who came to

the Church when we began 9 years ago! Amazing. I guess I can

conclude that God can move on any heart and bring them to

salvation. Itʼs God who can bring people to Church. Itʼs God who

can build His Church. I think weʼre like a space rocket that has

now lost the section that used to contain the fuel used in take off

– the section that helped create momentum but now lies

redundant to the rest of the mission. Weʼve been streamlined in

order to get to our destination – souls and more souls.

Iʼm pretty weary with people transferring in from other

churches. Many have been ʻdivorcedʼ from 2 or 3 previous

churches. They carry a lot of baggage. I want souls – I need to

design the Church to catch as many souls as possible. I think itʼs

the key that really makes a great Church. There are a lot of

people who have so much knowledge, yet their lives are so

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fruitless. They no longer live for the lost. God – give me good

people.

On Monday I did a leadersʼ retreat at Milton Keynes

Christian Centre. What a fantastic day it was. Good preaching,

good relationship and powerful altars. The best!

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27th July 2000

Two things have happened this week. We got our

quotation for the work on our 700 seater auditorium. It was

massive!! More than anticipated. I think weʼll be doing it

ourselves. We wonʼt be ready for our big conference. Secondly,

one of our current tenants leasing a part of the top floor of the

Megacentre is pulling out. I canʼt believe that so many churches

work on a financial surplus. How do they do it? Iʼm pretty

exhausted with it all.

How long Lord and how much further? Weʼre desperate

for some miracles. I know that John, our Australian builder, who

came over to help us, is a miracle from God. I know that our

enthusiasm is a miracle. Lord, we need more, much more!

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8th August 2000

Weʼve had a fantastic last 3 weeks in Church. The

energy has increased, the numbers have been buoyant and the

preaching excellent! With certain people with particular agendas

having left, it seems like a cork has been taken out of the bottle.

Itʼs August and the numbers should be down. The enthusiasm

should be waning. I know that God is in on it. I declared in July

that this is what I believed would happen. People are getting

saved too!!!

I do feel like my preaching is on a higher level. Iʼm being

myself more - Iʼm more relaxed, Iʼm more personable and more

flowing!! It seems that Iʼve emerged in a new confidence. Thank

you Jesus.

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22nd August 2000

All is still going great. I feel like a rocket speeding

towards its destiny. God uses some people to help you get lift-off

but unless the used booster departs, it becomes a burden –

everything slows and everything encumbers.

With the last evacuation of all our super spiritual people, I

feel relief and joy. The Church has experienced a dramatic

increase in the attendance since their departure. Thereʼs

movement at the station.

On a personal note, we decided to move to a bigger

house – our house has been on the market for 5 days – weʼve

had 12 couples look and 4-5 offers. Thereʼs a price war on for the

house. It must be the blessing of God. Three years ago we

sowed part of our previous house into our building project and

moved down market. Now the blessing of God has come to

shower us with love and favour. God has shown me how he can

turn situations around in power!

Even with the Churchʼs spring clean Iʼve been concerned

lately by a fresh couple who appeared to me to be quietly

building their own kingdom. I confronted them, under wisdom

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from my new Church advisors, and received a pretty negative

reaction (at least the cards were on the table.) Within 3 days,

after some great guest ministry, we had a turn around - a

complete change. My greatest pressure of last week has now

been solved by God. I know that God can change hearts if

people are willing. Iʼve had a rough time – but now the blessing is

coming. Iʼve surrounded myself with friends – faithful people who

carry my DNA. I feel stronger and more empowered.

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26th September 2000

Our new mortgage offer for our house came through

today and weʼre moving this Thursday. God has been so good to

Jenny and I. Financially, itʼs a harvest time for us – Iʼm amazed.

Iʼve tried to buy a flat for Chris and Louise to rent cheap for a few

years but it hasnʼt worked out. Iʼve tried to give money to others

but I have a suspicion that the Lord is wanting me to relax in his

blessing and to note seasons to give and note this season to

receive.

Some people have become acutely aware that the

average age of the leadership team has severely dropped (to an

average age of between 30 and 35). Iʼve tried to redress the

balance, especially by inviting 2 older couples onto the team, but

have had no success. It must be God. It must also be a testing of

the hearts of those who are worried by this. It seems that even

after our recent departures, there is some new unrest starting to

surface. Sometimes I wish I was more pastoral - more a ʻbig

shepherdingʼ type. Some would say that Iʼm an evangelist and I

lose people because of the narrowness of the gifting. Iʼm not

sure. I know that this is all a part of a ʻdeath of the dreamʼ test to

purify my intentions and to bring my heart closer to Godʼs heart.

It seems the hardest test of all (and the one many fail in), but itʼs

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the one that will set me up for resurrection power. God just needs

a good funeral!

Iʼm believing that out of my letting go of and dying to my

efforts to involve the over 50ʼs, that God will give us a

resurrection of that age group. Iʼm believing that God will also

give me incredibly gifted and submitted leaders that can minister

to that age range.

Beside me is an incredible team. Naomi has just come

from Australia and is a gift from God. Glyn is doing great and my

pastoral team is so good. Weʼre all leading with the same heart in

the same direction. It should produce a blessing. Sometimes

youʼve got to lose a few to gain a multitude.

A second minister has fallen in immorality in the past

month in our city leadersʼ fellowship. He was part of the city

leadership team that Iʼm on. I know that heʼs been off the cutting

edge for some time. Iʼm mindful that I must keep seeking the

Lord and avoid the cooling down at all costs.

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31st October 2000

Weʼve just finished Alive 2000 – it was a tremendous

success. We had it in the Roxy Nightclub with around 500

attending each day (including 70 kids) and over 1000 each night.

It was brilliant.

Life is spinning fast at the moment. Next year I donʼt

think Iʼll have any routine at all. Iʼll be in Hungary, Ukraine,

Seattle, Australia twice and who knows where else!!!! Jenny has

just come back from Seattle – she stayed with Kevin and Sheila

Gerald who run a powerful Church. She came back with 2 books

on Attention Deficit Disorder in adults that describe me to a tee

(so she says!) It even explains how ADD people donʼt like to be

touched or stroked – thatʼs me. It says that the cause of this

hypersensitivity is that all 5 senses are on overload all the time. It

even explains why I study better in a hotel foyer rather than at

home or at the office. It explains my hyper focusing and inability

to concentrate unless highly stimulated. It has been a revelation

to me!! Sometimes when people speak to me, my mind flits away

– not out of disrespect but out of a lack of stimulation. I need

them to get to the point! Iʼm very highly strung and find it hard to

be spontaneous. When I am, I tend to go way over the top and

really eccentric. If I havenʼt a hyper focus or a preoccupation, Iʼll

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search for one, either latching onto another project or a worry or

a phobia. I donʼt think I could have married anyone else beside

Jenny. I donʼt think anyone else could handle my over sensitivity,

my insensitivity, my slight mental-ness, my erratic nature …..

sheʼs a special kind of person. I think that her slight

independence works for me. Her uncomplicatedness really helps

and her ability to drop issues quickly is a great advantage!!!

Maybe thatʼs where my brotherʼs marriage has suffered. Heʼs

definitely got similar issues to me.

Itʼs been 4 months since my dad passed away and I feel

a bit funny that I havenʼt missed him. In fact, I have only had one

twinge of emotion since he died. I think that my world has always

been so distant from what his was and where he was. I also think

that thatʼs where my ADD comes in. I have an ability to change

paradigm so easily and to detach myself from different situations.

One of the books calls it an ability to ʻnot be bound by

boundaries.ʼ I seem to have one set of boundaries for a while

with its own paradigm of thought and action, and then, within a

moment, change to a completely new way of thinking with a

whole new set of boundaries. It certainly makes it hard for people

to follow me. It keeps them on their toes!

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Iʼve also found it a real effort simply to be with people. I

have to really concentrate to just ʻbe there.ʼ I actually really like

sleeping alone and get a feeling of being totally relaxed in my

own world. I donʼt think that itʼs too healthy for me to do that and I

hope Jen doesnʼt take it as rejection! I also really love driving

alone at night with ambient music playing loud through the

speakers. I donʼt know if many people would ever understand the

constant effort I put in to ʻbe social.ʼ Iʼm like a loner pushed into

the public domain. Thatʼs why being down at McDonalds or in a

hotel foyer works for me. Iʼm all alone, have regular interruptions

(not irregular interruptions) and a nicely defined environment,

away from little obsessions about things to do at home and the

crazy world of Church life.

2009 UPDATE After studying up on autism and completing a test for autism, I have discovered that many of my characteristics are actually autistically based and not just tied to ADD. Ryan shares a number of these characteristics but is a little more normal than me and both my brother and sister show attributes that have an autistic origin. If youʼre reading this, sorry about that!

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29th November 2000

Church is starting to build again. All of the programmes

are going so well and my ʻhome grownʼ team is such a strength.

Itʼs taken almost 10 years to get a team that is either saved

through the Church or totally grafted into the Church. I feel so

much more relaxed knowing that there is loyalty on every side

and nobody sees themselves as the braking system. I think that

Iʼm starting to enjoy the ministry more now than ever before. The

Church is getting stronger and Iʼm striving much less in my

relationship with God.

Iʼd still love to plant churches in Manchester, Leeds,

Barnsley and right across the north of England. Iʼm starting to

think that Glyn and Sophia, my assistants, may one day take on

a city and Iʼve spotted some really talented couples that will one

day impact the nation. Itʼs slower going, but I am committed to

building with ʻhome grownʼ people than people brought in to be

sent out. Weʼve learnt by experience.

2009 Update

Barnsley?? I guess that never happened...

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31st December 2000

This has been an awesome month. I hired a limousine

and took Jenny, Colin and Dawn out for the night. We went to

celebrate our 15th wedding anniversary and Dawnʼs 30th birthday.

It was fantastic!! Weʼve been on holiday for 2 weeks in Grand

Canaria, off Africa, and came back to our Christmas celebrations

and more holiday!!! We got an offer in from the City Council to

hire our top floor of the Megacentre which could be the miracle

that weʼve been looking for. I told Glyn to call them back and try

to increase the offer!!! Iʼm certain that on the basis of this leasing,

we can raise a massive loan and complete our plans.

We had 9 people for Christmas and it took us 4 ½ hours

to unwrap all the presents!! Our tradition has become to unwrap

all of the presents one at a time and this year, we had more than

ever before – including a DVD player from the staff. We had a

brilliant day.

Itʼs almost New Year and Iʼm amazed at how fast the

past year has gone! I feel refreshed and Iʼd love some new

revelation from God to launch me ahead. Iʼm far more

comfortable than ever before though, in not having fresh

revelation and not driving myself out of that state of contentment.

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It goes against my nature not to be constantly pushing the

boundaries but Iʼm learning to both trust God and to enjoy the

view. Iʼm thanking God for all that Heʼs done and reminding

myself that Heʼs the same God today as He always has been. Iʼm

expecting miracles, souls and finance as well as incredible

influence. Itʼs been a good year. God has been gracious. Jenny

and I have helped the Church of the nation move forward. Thank

you Lord.

2009 UPDATE The deal was never followed through for the top floor. In hindsight, it would have taken up all our parking spaces for all of our other activities. We have now converted all of the space into a conferencing centre and lecture rooms for our Leadership Academy.

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7th February 2001

The past year – my 40th year – has passed so quickly. I have

hardly had time to adjust to the number 40 and 41 stands just

outside the door! Iʼm not hung up about it, but I wish that I was

30. A part of me feels like Iʼm 10 years late in my development

and fruitfulness. Iʼm no longer young and no longer seen as a

ʻknight in shining armourʼ or even a ʻyoung rebel.ʼ I feel like I can

relate much better to the ʻover 40ʼ generations and Iʼm definitely

much more confident in the business world. In public, Iʼm

conscious of every young executive and every young 30

something minister. I canʼt go back and donʼt want to – but I

would like to be younger!!!

Church is currently at one of those calm, almost boring

zones between one wave and the next. Itʼs full steam ahead yet

the buzz of New Year is gone. The visa bills from the Christmas

shopping have come through the post and a subdued

atmosphere pervades!

I moved away from my normal well crafted and guarded

sermons last week and let the raw side come out just to stir

everyone up! It was a little certainly rough edged but Iʼm

desperate to lift up the people to new heights in God and get rid

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of the lingering atmosphere. I really dislike it when things settle

and when we move back from the edge or hit some kind of

ceiling.

Iʼve been reading and studying much more than ever

before. Our new house (with more rooms) is much more

conducive to me working from home. Iʼve also been enjoying

books full of facts and snippets of history. Iʼm starting to feel quite

knowledgeable!!!

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23rd March 2001

Another month has gone by and all is quiet on the

western front. Some relationships are a bit edgy and itʼs really

difficult trying to iron things out. The hard part of being a senior

minister is that you want to be best friends with those on your

team but at the same time, you want to disciple them into

champions. It makes it tense at times knowing that some issues

will cause temporary division. I want to address issues but also I

want everyone to see a fatherʼs heart at the same time. Jenny is

in Australia right now and Ryan and I have been holding the fort.

Men love ʻcave timeʼ and Iʼm no exception. I donʼt know if itʼs all

that good for me to have too much. I find that I can get too

melancholic for my own good if left to dwell for too long. In fact, I

find it hard to construct proper sentences and talk easily after a

day alone!!!

This is the second month running with no baptisms. Iʼm

disappointed and pretty stressed about it but I do believe,

however, that every Church is on the same team and if someone

else is baptising 100 people, then itʼs good news for all of us. To

further relieve me of my stress, Iʼve had a revelation that my goal

– my ultimate goal - isnʼt to bring in the harvest but to simply

please God. For me, that is at least attainable. I need to achieve

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and that is an attainable achievement. Reinhardt Bonnke is

simply pleasing God and the result is the outworking of his

destiny. I canʼt save souls and I canʼt multiply finances. What I

can do is put a smile on Godʼs face and give Him great pleasure.

I was reading Hebrews 11 and it appears that that was the

testimony of the heroes of faith – they pleased God.

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15th April 2001

Well, itʼs our 10 year anniversary of the Church. Itʼs Easter

Sunday and we had a good service this morning. Gerard came

last weekend and said that there was heaps of energy in the

Church but everyone seemed a bit lazy. I know what he meant.

The cutting edge of evangelism has been pushed into the

background. The comment has really affected me and I have

driven myself back again into stirring up a passion for souls. I

reminded the congregation this morning that the boat weʼre on

isnʼt a Caribbean cruise ship but a battleship thatʼs running a

mission for souls. I can feel that in our ʻoverfriendlinessʼ we have

slipped out of the cutting edge of our mission. Weʼve lost our

black and whiteness.

We thanked God for the first 10 years and dedicated the

next 10 years to the cause of Christ – to seek and save people

who are lost. We need to see the Zacchaeusʼs in the trees and

zero in on people with a persuasiveness that causes people to

come out of indecision and into making a positive decision for

Christ.

For the last 2 days Iʼve been speaking at a Church

leadership conference in a town in Lincolnshire. A man with

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schizophrenia came up to me and said that when he gets better

he wants to be a prophet. I was alarmed and said that setting up

chairs and helping in the kitchen would be better and he could

start now! On the second day of the conference I drove into the

meeting and told Jenny that I needed a new jacket because my

favourite one was starting to fall apart. At the end of the service

this man came to me and gave me a cheque for £50 for a new

jacket. He knew nothing about my conversation with Jen. It was a

rebuke from the Lord in the nicest possible way.

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3rd May 2001

Iʼm sitting at Copenhagen Airport after completing my first book. I

donʼt know whether to call it ʻNonsenseʼ, ʻCounting Chickensʼ or

ʻGoing Overboard!ʼ Iʼve got a long way to go though because itʼs

the first draft. Iʼve also just been to Mal Fletcherʼs Strategic

Leadership Conference for Europe. There were around 80

people in attendance and most of them led large churches and

networks. Steve Penny was there and I spent a night asking him

his thoughts. I feel like the conference (and the getting away from

it all) has refocused me and re-invented my thinking. Steve was

saying that multi-congregations under one Church was the way

forward. It made me think that our heart for Manchester and

Leeds could be fulfilled by incorporating them under one Church.

We could run a congregation in both cities and set them up just

like weʼre set up in Sheffield. Theyʼre so close that we could

provide preaching ministry each Sunday and put in place a

congregational pastor. We could have a morning service in

Sheffield, an afternoon service in Leeds and a night service in

Manchester. We could also expand into a Saturday night service

at some stage either in Sheffield or in another town. My mind is

racing and my heart is totally engaged! It feels like weʼve been in

cruise mode. I think that our difficulty has been that we are

apostolic but thereʼs been no one around to stir up the gift. We

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donʼt fit amongst the general mould of churches. Weʼve lived in

the shadow of larger world churches and weʼve been waiting for

our turn to see large quantities of people saved. In the meantime,

I have almost let the apostolic thing cool right down. We put a

stop to our reaching out to Manchester a few years ago under

respect for the thoughts of one of the leadership from Hillsong

Church but I feel like weʼre ready to go now. Iʼm not a pastor or

an inner city community man. Iʼm a Church builder. Itʼs in the

blood and I know that Iʼm starting to rise up again to do

something thatʼs very entrepreneurial …..

2009 UPDATE Through Steve Pennyʼs input and inspiration, we have created a multi congregational church and are enjoying the great benefits of it. We now have congregations in Sheffield, Manchester, Liverpool, Leeds and Birmingham. We have placed Congregation Pastors in each location with additional ministry being supplied from the wider team in Sheffield who travel every couple of weeks. Steve leads a great multi congregational Church on the sunshine coast in Queensland and heads up the S4 Network.

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STILL LIFTING OFF (original update from 2006)

13th December 2006

The last 5 years have been good years in the life of Hope

City Church. All of my leaders have grown stronger and wiser

and we have now become a multi congregational Church with

congregations in Sheffield, Manchester, Liverpool and Leeds.

Our eyes are now on places like Newcastle to grow even further.

Our overall Sunday attendance is around 1100 people and our

goal, on the back of prophetic words in the life of the church, is to

double over the next couple of years.

Glyn is seeing great fruit with Audacious – a national

youth conference as well as travelling internationally to speak.

Jenny had a great season running ʻFabulous Youʼ womenʼs

conference and network and then this year we evolved ʻFabulous

Youʼ into the ʻFabulousʼ Conference, giving space for men and

women to be impacted and releasing Jenny to speak

prophetically to the whole church.

I still get affected greatly by people who leave the Church

and especially those who gave no signs that their departure was

looming. I suspect that thereʼs so much going on in peopleʼs lives

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that I know nothing about because of their inability to open up

and really share whatʼs going on.

God has really helped us financially and we have

continued to push the boat out with each fresh gust of faith.

There have been times when we were right on the wire

but after bringing it to the leadership and partners we have been

able to stand in faith for Godʼs provision – and He has never let

us down.

In May 2005 we stepped out in faith to begin raising

finance for a 2000 seater Megaplex. The project will take millions

and we wanted to raise the first million through a three year

pledge by members of the church who would raise finance

though entrepreneurial means. We built up to this over a period

of 18 months and then on a Sunday in May we took the pledges.

It was a nerve racking few minutes as we counted live and

watched the total going up on screen – but the final total actually

hit £1.1million. A year later, once the dust had settled and people

had got to work the pledge still stood at over £900,000 which we

see as a more realistic total of what is actually going to come in.

All in all – God has been amazing through the whole venture and

there are countless testimonies of the way God has blessed

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people in stepping out into business and other ways of raising

finance.

Our Liverpool congregation came about through the

adoption of a small congregation that had at one stage been a

much larger influence in the city. It wasnʼt an easy change over

but after a couple of years it is now a thriving expression of Hope

City Church in Liverpool. Our Manchester and Leeds

congregations began just with myself and a great team from

Sheffield travelling over for a Sunday night meeting. Both now

meet on a Sunday morning and have built their own teams. Itʼs

our heart to keep it all one Church and the advantages of this

corporative-ness are completely evident in every area of our

Church life. Each congregation has their own congregation

pastors who are doing an incredible job seeing them grow. All

three congregations now regularly get over 100 each Sunday.

Well, hereʼs to the future! Itʼs in Godʼs hands already and

my ʻconfidenceʼ scripture is from Psalm 138, ʻGod will fulfil His

purposes for me.ʼ God will do it. Itʼs His purposes and not mine.

Itʼs in the bag.

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2009 Update

Newcastle and Birmingham were eventually launched in the same way as Manchester and Leeds. As mentioned before we released the Manchester congregation under the leadership of Glyn and Sophia and it has gone on to become the successful Audacious City Church. In October 2007, Liverpool acquired its own Megacentre when they took over the running of a Sports Centre complete with Gym, 5-a-side football pitches and even a bowling green. Then the following year we purchased a building in Leeds, a similar size to the one in Sheffield, and launched the Leeds Megacentre. Currently we now see over 1200 people meeting in our 5 congregations each week but as always weʼre believing for more!

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h 0Arc ives 1A page from my journal from July 1990. Where will the church be planted, Birmingham or Manchester? It ended up being launched in Sheffield.

We changed the name from 'The Hope of Sheffield' to 'Hope City Church' in 2001 to give us broader appeal.

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Spying out the landDec.1990

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Dave & Jen meet Glyn Barrett for the first time in Manchester when

he preaches for his dad, Bryn Barrett, at Endeavour Christian

Fellowship - Dec. 1990

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The first home of 'The Hope of Sheffield' - The John Barnett Youth Centre...much to the anger of the church down the road.

Ryan Gilpin is born. Aug 1991

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After a year the church moves intothe city and hires the "polytechnic"(The man in the middle is Colin Davies- our Operations Manager)Oct. 1992

Jenny Gilpin and Dawn Davies (then, Bough)Oct. 1992

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Our First Financial Accounts April '91 to March '92

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The church moves to its new location in the Winter of '92- Ponds Forge International Sports Centre

Midweek meetings are heldat the City Assemblies of GodChurch on Copper Street

The Original Band1993-1994

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The first 4 years

h 0Arc ives 7The church moves again to the Sheffield College...

...then againto the Novotel

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h 0Arc ives 8Our very first full time training school (later to become National Internships)May 1993

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h 0Arc ives 9A vision flyer from Easter 93 with

our goals for the future. 60 churches planted by the year 2000

- we never lacked in enthusiasm!!

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After shifting from location to location, we moved into a city centre warehouse in 1993 on an aptly named street - Matilda Street.

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h 1Arc ives 1An early poster advertising

the church at it's new premises - Matilda Street

July 1994

Birthday Celebration at the Octagon Centre in Sheffield

Easter 1994

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The Hope's first major outreach / production. The church hired City

Hall to put on Dream Alive and saw 1400 people attend.

May 1996

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The First 6 Years

Looking for a New Building - 1997

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The local STAR newspaper - March 1998In the process of developing the first stage of the 'Megacentre'.

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The First 13 Years

The STAR newspaper - 2003Ryan makes a name for himself after winning a Blue Peter competition.

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Where we are today!A panorama of the current concert hall used for Church services in the Megacentre

The MegacentreNow a fully functioning conference venue as well as hosting a Childrens Playcentre.

Live WorshipFrom the days of just Dave on the guitar to a full music band and choir full of home grown talent!

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