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Ichizo Hayashi (February 6, 1922 – April 12, 1945 (5 months before Japans

surrender))

February 23, 1945

t loo!s li!e our life "ill last only about three months# ha$e dreaded death so mu%h,

and yet it is already de%ided for us### &y en$iroment in the past "as beautiful# 'o,

feel %an die dreamin# ut h"en thin! of my mother %annot help but %ry# *hen

thin! of my mother strulin o$er t"eity years, relyin on me "ho "as her hope,

and "hen thin! ho" %apable and talented she is and ho" beautiful she is, %lin to

my life# +o" "ish that "e spent happy days toether# am sure people "ill try to

%onsole her after die# ut !no" there is no "ay to ease her pain### here is some

pleasure in re%ei$in praise from people# here must be some %onsolation in dyin

besid +is &a-esty# ut, for my mother, my death is .nal# %ry as thin! fo her#

+o" fortunate am that belie$e in /od, "ho my mother belie$es in# &y mind is at

ease "hen thin! that /od ta!es %are of e$erythin# /od "ould not ma!e mymother or myself sad# am sure /od "ill besto" happiness upon us# 0$en thouh

"ill die, dream of our li$es toether# !no" my %ountry is beautiful### &y earnest

hope is that our %ountry "ill o$er%ome ths %risis and prosper# %ant bear the

thouht of our nation bein stampeded by the dirty enemy# must a$ene it "ith

my o"n life#

 o be honest, %annot say that the "ish to die for the emperor is enuine, %omin

from my heart# +o"e$er, it is de%ided for me that die for the emperor###

shall not be afraid of that moment# ut am afraid of ho" the fear of death "ill

perturb my life# am afraid for mother#