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BACK FOR GOOD a TaeNy Fan Fiction written by Stephan

Back For Good

a TaeNy Fan Fiction written by Stepha

Chapter 1

Please Please stay with me

I I cant. Im sorry She forced her closed eyelids tighter, trying to drown the rays that had managed to peak in between her window blinds. Another morning, another day. Taeyeon shifted and lay on her back, ultimately escaping the sunlight that was once hitting her face. She stared at the ceiling and sighed before turning to her left, reaching her hand towards that empty side of the bed. She felt the coldness of the sheets seep in the skin of her palm and Taeyeon missed the time when it was always warm, when it wasnt empty, when she was genuinely happy. The sound of the alarm ripped her from her melancholy; she always seemed to wake up before it actually rings. Turning off the device, Taeyeon slid off her bed and stretched for a bit, cracking a few bones whenever she moves. Shes getting too old, she thought, old and very much alone. She walked towards the windows and lifted up the blinds. Sunlight flooded her room almost instantly, but Taeyeon didnt feel the warmth at all. She smiled sadly as she gazed out the window before closing her eyes, pretending to feel a pair of arms wrapping around her waist, pulling her close, holding her in place. She let her mind play that soft voice shell never forget, asking her to come back to bed, before being pulled away from the window. Shell let herself be dragged towards and under the sheets, be enclosed in a tight and warm embrace before succumbing to sleep once again. Ring. Taeyeon opened her eyes and the daydream ended. She turned towards the phone and went to pick it up on the nightstand. She checked the caller ID and smiled faintly, this time more genuine, before answering the call. Good morning, Taeng. Hey, Sunny. Just called to remind you of your appointment with Ms. Kwon. Ah, Miss Yuri Kwon, right?

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Yep. Okay, thanks Sunny. Ill see you in a few. Bye. See ya, buddy. With another glance towards the window, Taeyeon gave out a long sigh before heading towards the showers. Wherever you are right now... I hope youre happy. ----- Taeyeon arrived at her studio a little late than usual. She took her time driving to her office, admiring the bustling morning thats unfolding around her as she passed by the busy streets of Seoul. She saw her new potential client walking around in her modest office, looking at the framed photos that covered the walls. I apologize for being late, Ms. Kwon. I was kinda held up for a bit. The short girl shook her new clients hand before circling her desk and plopping down on her chair. She gestured for the tall tanned woman to do the same. Its no problem. Being given the chance to be here in your office is more than enough; I know how busy you are. She gave her an understanding smile. Yes, its been quite a packed month for me and my team. Everyone seems to love getting married on this month. The short girl shook her head and chuckled as she opened her planner. Indeed, almost all the dates for the month had been crossed out and taken by different clients. Anyway, what can I do for you, Ms. Kwon? Please, just call me Yuri. Okay, Yuri-ssi. Hmm, dont tell me youre getting married this month too? Cause I dont think I can still fit Oh God, no. My fiance would definitely kill me if I set the wedding on this month. She loves being unique. Taeyeon gave Yuri a knowing smile. She loves being unique too, she thought.

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The short girl tried to swallow the growing lump in her throat. She hates how everything thats happening to her just brings her back. For Taeyeon, theres no point in moving on, its clearly impossible. She had tried; God knows how much she had tried. She loved her. She loves her. Shell always love her. Always. Ms. Kim? Taeyeon. Just call me Taeyeon. Oh, I understand. Are you okay, Taeyeon-ssi? She lifted her head and couldnt help but smile at Yuris concerned look. Yeah, Im fine. I just remembered something. So anyway, whens the wedding? It will be three months from now, on the 21st. Taeyeon looked at the clear whiteboard to her right and checked the dates. Judging by the overflowing scribbles on it, its not looking good. Err Im sorry Yuri-ssi, I think were fully booked on that month too. She saw Yuris face fell and she couldnt help but feel bad. Taeyeon didnt know why, but she wanted to do it for Yuri. She felt like she had to. Im really sor Taeyeon was interrupted by a knock on the door as Sunny, her business partner slash all around assistant slash best friend, alerted her of a phone call. Taeng, Ms. Park on line 2. The short girl nodded before excusing herself to Yuri. She stood up and went for the phone that was on the other side of the room and picked it up. Hello, Ms. Park. Yes, this is Taeyeon Oh, okay I understand No, no. Dont worry. No need to apologize Yes Uhuh Of course, Ms. Park. That wouldnt be a problem Okay. Ill see you next time then Yes Goodbye, Ms. Park. And good luck Yes, thank you. Bye. Yuri heard the phone being placed back down before hearing a chuckle. Taeyeon came into her peripheral vision, heading towards the clear whiteboard while holding a marker and an eraser. After a few minutes of scribbling, Taeyeon turned towards her with a grin.

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Well, Ms. Yuri Kwon, luck must be on your side today. The short girl walked away from the board and Yuri smiled widely as she saw her name on a space where a Ms. Park had been. ----- Hey. Tired? Nah, my eyes just hurt a bit. I just edited a hundred photos, you know? Taeyeon stretched in her chair and heard a few joints cracked. Sunny flinched and grimaced at her before shaking her head towards her best friend. You must be getting really old for your bones to crack like that. Theyve been like that ever since. I think I have loose joints or something. Taeyeon shrugged as she turned off her laptop and tidied her desk. She was picking up a few folders when her eyes landed on the single frame thats sitting on her desk, and almost instantly, Taeyeons eyes soften at the person in the photograph. Sunny didnt miss the longing in her best friends eyes and she cant help but pity her. They had the right love at the perfect time. But what went wrong? I miss her so much, Sunny. Taeyeon said softly. Taeyeon cradled the frame in her hand and smiled sadly. It was just a simple shot, a silhouette of a girl wearing a white flowing dress facing the sunset, the subtle light of the setting sun backlighting her perfect form while the wind made her skirt and hair dance along with it. She was standing on the shore and the sea had reflected the suns rays perfectly. Yes it was a simple photo of a simple girl, but for Taeyeon, it was the most beautiful photograph she had ever taken in her entire life. I know. I miss her too. Taeyeon looked at Sunny and smiled. Smile. The only thing she can do. Her best friend gave her a soft pat on her cheek before pulling her in a tight embrace.

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She wanted to cry, but the tears never came. They never did, at least, not anymore. Come on, Ill buy you a drink. Lets celebrate the new project and client. Sunny released her from the hug and started to walk as she kept an arm over Taeyeons shoulder, dragging the latter towards the door. -----

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Chapter 2

You You cant make me happy, Taeyeon. Please let me go

How long have you been a wedding photographer, Taeyeon-ssi? Taeyeon glanced up from one of her photo books and took a sip on her coffee before answering. Four years now.

Wow! But, thats actually not that long. I mean, compared to the other photographers that have been in the industry for decades. Taeyeon and Yuri had met up for the second time to discuss about the wedding details. Wanting to change the atmosphere a bit, the shorter girl had opted to meet in a cozy cafe just a few blocks away from her studio. Photography has always been one of my hobbies, but I never thought of making it a profession. Thats interesting. Why do weddings though? Why not fashion photography, or even nature? Taeyeon smiled at Yuri before leaning back on her chair. She took a glance outside the window, towards the passing cars and the people strolling outside. For four years she had forced herself to look at life differently, taking in every single detail for it makes up and completes the bigger picture. She had decided to just let go of everything and start fresh. At least she thought she had, but obviously it wasnt the case. She picked up new hobbies, a new job, a new outlook in life, but as time went by, Taeyeon had realized how everything new had managed to connect them to her. With a sigh, Taeyeon turned towards Yuri and gave out a sad smile. It reminds me of something I can never have. Yuri furrowed her eyebrows and just as she was about to ask, her phone lit up, displaying the name of her fiance. Excuse me Taeyeon-ssi, I need to get this. Taeyeon nodded as Yuri excused herself.

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The shorter girl continued to browse on the photo books while trying to quietly brainstorm on her new clients wedding theme when Yuri got back from her phone call. My fiance is gonna join us in a bit. I can finally introduce you to the most beautiful girl in the world, Yuri beamed like the sun at her own introduction and Taeyeon cant help but chuckle at the cute display of affection.

Do you know that youre the most beautiful girl in the world? Youre so cheesy, Taetae! I love you.

I love you too. A sad smile had once again graced the shorter girls face. The most beautiful girl in the world, huh? The sound of the cafe door opening and a bell ringing snapped Taeyeon from her reverie. She check her watch and realized that she had been spacing out for a handful of minutes now, but fortunately, her client was too busy ogling at her photo books to notice the lack of attention. Soon enough, a girl not taller than her approached their table. Oh, youre here, Taeyeon saw Yuri smile and stand up at the sight of the newly arrived individual as the latter turned towards her to give her a short peck on the lips. Taeyeon-ssi, this is my fiance, Jessica Jung. Ah, the bride-to-be. Youre right Yuri-ssi, she is indeed a beauty. Taeyeon stood up and offered her hand, which the new guest graciously took before taking a seat beside her fiance. The three had now settled back at their table and continued to discuss the upcoming event. After flipping in and out of some of the photo books that Taeyeon brought as pegs, Jessica had started to initiate small talk. It is indeed rare to have a meeting with the wedding photographer Kim Taeyeon without having to rush or dodge several new clients. Its nice to finally meet you, Miss Kim. Im a fan, Jessica started as she sipped her latte. Thank you. Its nice to meet you too, Miss Jung. Or should I say future Mrs. Kwon? She saw Jessica blush for a bit and it made her chuckle. The couple was acting really cute in front of her and she cant help but be jealous. It has been so long I wonder how it feels like to be in love again To be with someone again

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Im glad that you can accommodate our wedding, Ms. Kim. I was really excited when Yuri here told me the good news. It was a funny story actually. I was about to break the bad news to your fiance here when my client who had previously owned the slot the same date as your wedding withdrew her reservation, Taeyeon explained. The rest of the day had been spent on brainstorming and casual talk between the three and not long after, they had reluctantly separated as they day was nearing its end. Taeyeon admitted that it Yuri and Jessicas company had helped her mind stray from its normal thinking. Somehow, she had enjoyed teasing the new couple, something she rarely did with her clients. She surprisingly felt comfortable with them and she was thankful for it. At least it would ensure a smooth working relationship with them, and she doesnt mind getting new friends too. Taeyeon stood still just outside the caf and looked up at the night sky. The stars were shining brightly tonight, and though the moon was shyly hiding behind the clouds, the stars were enough to illuminate the peaceful dark atmosphere. She breathed in the cold air and started walking towards the direction of her apartment. Tonight, shell come home to a quiet apartment, crawl under the coldness of the sheets on an empty bed and wait until sleep takes over her and dream of that day again like a broken record. -----

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Chapter 3

Do you, Kim Taeyeon, take this lovely woman as your lawfully wedded wife? To love and to

hold, in sickness and in health, for richer and for poorer, til the day you both shall live? I do, and always will.

And you? I IIm sorry, Taeyeon.

Are you sure about this? Taeng? Sunny worriedly furrowed her eyebrows at her best friend when she saw where the Kwon-Jung Nuptial will be held. Of course, Taeyeon said as she zipped her luggage, Its been four years, Sunny. Im quite sure Id be able to do my job properly without sobbing. She chuckled. Want me to go with you? Oh no, buddy. Youre not going to use my tragic past and bail out of YOUR client, no matter how crazy and demanding they are. Taeyeon gave her best friend a warning glare before continuing to check her cameras and equipment. Besides, its just for two weeks. It can also serve as a short vacation for me and I seriously need to unwind anyway. It just so happen that its on that beach. Taeng. Taeyeon heard the softness on Sunnys voice and stopped what she was doing. She approached her best friend and held the latters hands before giving them a reassuring squeeze. Im fine, Sunny. I really am. I know I havent been doing a good job moving on, and I know that it has been years, but I love her, I still do. I meant what I said on that altar, until the day we both shall live, together or not Taeyeon unconsciously reached for the pair of rings on her necklace as she returned to her luggage. Sunny didnt miss the gesture but decided to stay mum. To say that her best friend was hurting was an understatement. Taeyeon is broken and is beyond repair, no matter how good she hides it with her smiles and grins. Okay. Just call me as soon as you arrive there, okay? And call me if anything comes up, and I mean it Taeyeon. Anything. Sunny held her best friend in an embrace, which the latter immediately returned.

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Yes, mom, Taeyeon chuckled. Sunny rolled her eyes as she hit the back of her stubborn friends head. ----- Hey, you made it! Taeyeon saw Yuri sprinting towards her in her flip flops. She reached out her hand to shake the latters but almost fell onto the sand as her client-turned-friend pounced on her with a hug. Seobang, release the poor girl, Yuri immediately released the awkwardly standing Taeyeon at the voice of her fiance and scratched her head shyly. Please forgive her; she doesnt know how to control herself. Hi, you made it. Jessica approached Taeyeon slowly and gave the latter a gentler hug and a pat on the back. Im glad to be here, the shorter girl whispered as she returned the hug. The three had managed to build a more friendly relationship despite starting off as mere clients. They had been meeting weekly for three months that turned to almost every day as they shifted from discussing the wedding to just plainly hanging out. To say that they had passed the hand-shaking stage is a perfect description of where their friendship is now, too bad Taeyeon wasnt given the memo, at least not until Yuri decided to attack at the sight of her. Sorry, Taeyeon. I was just really anxious, I mean, I was worried that your previous client might have decided to push through with her reservation and I really, really, really want to have beautiful wedding photos with my Sica baby and yeah And now Im just babbling, sorry. Taeyeon saw Jessica approached the embarrassed Yuri and gave her a peck on the cheek. She felt a lump on her throat formed as she looked away briefly from the couple. She saw a lot more couples on the beach surrounding them and she couldnt help but shake her head at her current precipice. I think Sunnys right. This project is suicide Hey, are you okay? Yuri saw the uncomfortable look on Taeyeons face as she finally had the will to turn away from her fiance. Yeah, Im fine. Just tired from the long drive, thats all. Taeyeon managed to hide her discomfort with a dorky grin, and fortunately for the couples ignorance on her past, they immediately believed her.

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Well lets go and have you checked in so you could rest Excuse me, Ms. Kwon! The three turned their attention towards what seems to be as the resort manager as the poor guy was running breathlessly towards them. He stopped right in front of them, his hands on his knees as he was trying to catch his breath. I-Im sorry, Ms. Kwon, Ms. Jung, but there seems to be a a slight problem with the rooms you booked. Yuri frowned at the manager. And Taeyeon swore that she heard the managers irregular heart beat from where shes standing at the sight of Jessicas murderous glare. ----- She felt the sand under the soles of her feet as it tickled her. She buried her toes further into the grains, making her let out a long gentle sigh. It has been four years, four long years of acceptance and understanding, and now she had found herself standing on the same shore, looking out on the same horizon that once became witness to her breaking heart. Taeyeon held her camera in front of her face to capture the setting sun. It had made the sky looked like an abstract palette of pinks and blues and purples; it was perfect. Click. It was beautiful. She gently swung her camera strap over her shoulder, her eyes still lingering at the ball of fire slowly sinking into the sea. Miss Kim, she turned towards the voice, were sorry for the inconvenience that happened earlier but the hotel had finally fixed everything and youre room is ready. Now if you please, Ill show you to your suite. Its no problem. Thank you. She smiled at the courteous hotel staff before following the man back to the hotel. Taeyeon saw Yuri at the lobby and the girl immediately approached her.

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I have good news and bad news. What do you want to hear first? Good news. Shoot. Well theyve managed to give you a room, a very nice suite actually, after Jessica threatened to give the resort a very bad review, but Taeyeon shuddered at the thought. Jessica is a well known magazine editor and a simple article about how badly a resort had treated her would spread like wildfire. Im assuming the but is for the bad news? Taeyeon challenged Yuri to continue. But, you have to share it with the maid of honour. The photographer was about to say something when Yuri effectively cut her off. But you dont have to worry about privacy because the suite has two separate bedrooms joined by a living room. Youll have your own bathroom too so please, please, please dont back out Yuri bit her fingernails as she anxiously waited for the girls response. Taeyeon looked at her blankly for a handful of minutes before bursting out in a very unladylike laugh. The smaller girl had to hold herself firm as she almost doubled over from laughing at her new friend. Seriously Yuri, why do you keep on thinking that Id ditch your wedding? I already said yes, didnt I? And youre my friend now, you and Jessica, so Im not gonna bail out on you, okay? And if it makes you feel better, Ive already signed the contract, Taeyeon reassured Yuri as her laughter died down into a chuckle. Thanks, Taeyeon. The taller girl sighed in relief as she gave her a reassuring smile. No problem, Taeyeon awkwardly swung her short arms on Yuris shoulder as she semi-dragged the latter towards the bell boy who was waiting for them beside the elevator. Anyway, I dont believe Ive met the maid of honour yet. They were now in the elevator and as much as Taeyeon dislike the fact that shed be somewhat staying with a stranger, it would be appropriate to at least know who shes gonna spend two weeks with. Oh, shes Sicas best friend from the US. Shed be arriving later tonight, I think. Dont worry; shes really friendly, a little loud, but absolutely friendly. Oh, and she has a kid too but shes really adorable and polite. I hope you dont mind...

Id love to have a kid with you someday. Huh? How are we even gonna

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There are ways, sweetie. We can adopt or maybe do it artificially? Whichever way, I want to build a happy family with you.

Cheesy Taetae. Dont worry, I love kids. And Im used to loudness, Taeyeon chuckled, a sad smile gracing her lips at the thought of her. -----

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Chapter 4

Im sorry, Taeyeon. I I cant marry you.

WhaTiffany! So youre saying youre not going back to America after the wedding? Yeah, Tiffany stared at the glass in her hand before downing the shot in one go. Theres no reason for me to be there, not anymore. I need to start anew and aside from L.A., this is the only place I consider home. Well theyve always said that home is where the heart is. The two girls sat by the bar as they waited for Yuri and the wedding photographer. She had just arrived a few hours ago complete with jetlag, but as soon as Jessica had seen her step foot on the hotel lobby, the bride-to-be had dragged her immediately towards the bar, all the while calling her a lousy maid of honour for resisting the bride-to-bes requests for a few drinks. And now that theyve settled and have had a few shots, the slight buzz of the alcohol had managed to calm her nerves and loosen up her tired body. Juhyuns really grown now, hasnt she? She has. And thank you for letting me tuck her in before dragging me here. Youre welcome. Oh, have you seen your new roommate? No, she wasnt there when we settled in Hey, ladies. The two girls turned their heads towards the new comer and instantly smiled. Welcome back, Fany. Yuri hugged her briefly before skipping her way towards Jessica to give the latter a hug. Missed me? The tanned girl softly cooed as she felt Jessicas arms hugging her waist. Wow, you lovesick puppies. Tiffany faked gagged at the sight of the coupled and earned herself some glares. She smiled at her friends sweetness and felt a sting in her eyes. She had something like that, once. But then she was too foolish to let it go.

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Tiffany turned her body towards the bar as she rested her elbow on the bar countertop, her chin propped up by her hand. She lazily eyed the different liquor bottles that were displayed before her while she mindlessly swirled the cocktail that was in her glass. She had went back to Seoul, with her daughter in tow, to escape the person, the reason why she had committed the biggest mistake she had ever done in her life. Tiffany silently mourned over her stupidity, though it was rather late. Four years late, to be exact. Seobang, wheres Tae Hi. Tiffany snapped back as she heard the familiar voice. Four years apart from each other did nothing to her memory as she would never forget that voice. Her body froze and her throat went dry at the sight of the one person shes been longing to see ever since she had stepped foot in Korea. She felt the air in her lungs being sucked out as she tried to keep herself sane and composed but with Taeyeon standing right there, a mere two feet away, Tiffany willed herself to stay seated and not throw herself towards the latter. There you are! Taeyeon, meet my best friend slash maid of honour Tiffany. ----- Taeyeon couldnt hide the surprise in her eyes. Tiffany was the last person shed expect to see but there she was, looking all beautiful and perfect, everything Taeyeon had remembered her to be. Time didnt do justice to her as she looked more radiant than before. Taeyeon suddenly remembered why she fell in love with the girl at the first place. H-hi, its nice to see you again, she heard Tiffany whisper as the girl evaded her gaze. Hi. Same. Taeyeon wanted to beat her head with her camera. She can do better than two words. The couple looked at the two with furrowed eyebrows. It had never occurred to them as to how the maid of honour and the wedding photographer would know each other. You guys know each other

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Excuse me Yuri, but Id like to borrow your fiance for a while. Thank you! The short girl took a seat at the bar as she watched Tiffany drag Jessica away from earshot. She ordered two bottles of beer and gave the other one to Yuri. What was that all about? Yuri asked as she took a swig from the bottle. You know Tiffany? The question was inevitable, Taeyeon thought. After the awkward introduction, it would be rather inappropriate NOT to pry. The tension was just too thick to let it pass by. Lets just say we go way back. Taeyeon answered before she let the bitter taste of malt wash her drying throat. She gripped the bottle tightly in her hands, feeling its cold exterior as the droplets of moist travel along her fingers before inevitably falling on the bar countertop. Taeyeon didnt know what to feel. She was thankful, though, that Tiffany had decided to talk to Jessica away from her, because frankly, being in the other girls presence a second longer might be fatal to her sanity and her gradually healing heart. Gulping the last of her beer, Taeyeon paid for the two bottles and turned to Yuri as she bid the bewildered girl goodbye. Her head hurts and she just wanted to get away from everything that is Tiffany and a quiet walk on the beach sounds like a good idea right now. Not waiting for the other two girls to return, Taeyeon exited the bar and headed towards the shore. She also had a call to make. ----- Jessi, where did you find her?! Tiffany tried her best not to shout at her friend as she shook the latter mercilessly by the arm. Oh my God, Tiff, I swear if you dont release me at this instant, Im going to claw your eyes out! Hissed Jessica. And what do you mean where did I find her? Shes a famous wedding photographer! What?! How?! B-but she Shes not Taes not a Four years, Tiffany. Youve been gone for four years. A lot can happen in four years

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What the hells happening to you? Why are you stuttering? Tiffany closed her eyes and let out a shaky breath. She took a glimpse at the shorter girl that was drinking at the bar and couldnt help but sigh. Shes still beautiful, she thought. So? Are you going to tell me or not? Cause if you wont Id like to get back to my fiance please. Jessica had successfully snapped her out from her shameless ogling. She felt ashamed, unworthy, to even look at her, to even breathe the same air as Taeyeon. Jessi, remember when we were at L.A. four years ago? That thing I told you about what happened to me back here in Korea? Well Jessica stared at her blankly, as if waiting for her to get to the point. Tiffany waited for a few minutes to let the information sink in on Jessica, knowing that the latter is a little slow. She then saw a little flicker on her friends eyes before seeing them opening further wide. No way No way in hell Dont tell me? Yes. Shes Taetae? Yes. Taetae is Kim Taeyeon? Yes. THE Kim Taeyeon? YOUR Kim Taeyeon?! The one that got away?! Okay, that was cheesy, but yeah Tiffany turned her attention back to the bar and noticed that Taeyeon wasnt there anymore. The one that got away She held back the tears that were threatening to fall. ----- Sunny, shes here Tiffanys here. -----

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Chapter 5

Theres something about the night that made Taeyeon calm. Its not necessarily the sound of the waves gently caressing the shore, or the sound of the wind softly whispering in her ears, but just the feeling of being engulfed in silence in the dead of the night gave the girl a sense of peace and security, albeit a little lonely. Taeyeon sat on the shore and inhaled deeply as she placed her hand over her chest. It had been a full hour since she left the bar and her heart have never calmed ever since the faithful reunion. And that short phone call with Sunny didnt help at all. Lying down on the sand, Taeyeon started to count the stars one by one.

One, two, three, fouYah! Taetae! Im sorry, Fany. You look so cute I just couldnt resist giving you a kiss!

The stars look so bright tonight. Yeah, they do. And tomorrow night, theyd look even brighter.

Mmm Taeyeon couldnt remember if the stars were indeed brighter that night. To be honest, she didnt care; she didnt give a damn. Her eyes were filled with tears to see clearly anyway. Tiffany, why are you here? ----- Tiffany found herself trudging the short walk from the bar towards her hotel suite and dreaded the inevitable second meeting. After Taeyeon left the bar, the three had decided to order some more beers, even a few hard shots, just to drown the awkwardness left by the photographer. Yet now, as Tiffany neared the door to her hotel room, she felt every drop of alcohol on her bloodstream dissipate to nothingness, leaving nothing but painful sober consciousness. She stood in front of the only thing thats separating her from her past and the future that she couldve gotten and breathed deeply. Tiffany contemplated in knocking then realized, albeit with annoyance, that she had her own room key. You just saw her for a few minutes, exchanged a few words and youre already a mess

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With one final sigh, she slid in her key card and opened the door slowly. Mommy! Tiffany was assaulted by her daughter who playfully latched to her leg as soon as she reached the living room. Hi, baby, Tiffany picked the girl up and kissed her forehead, What are you doing up? Woke up and mommy gone. Her little kid pouted at her. Aaaww, Im sorry baby. Mommy was with Aunt Jessi and Aunt Yuri. Its okay mommy, I play with T-Taey Taetae! Only then that Tiffany had noticed the presence of another person in the living room. She snapped her head towards the soft chuckle and for the second time that day, she got the shock of her life. I was about to sleep when I heard her crying from inside your room. Im sorry for barging in without your permission but I had to go in. I thought something happened to her. Taeyeon smiled, rather sadly, at her before giving her daughter a gentle look. Tiffany felt her eyes sting as she tightened her hold on Juhyun that was nuzzled under her chin, on the verge of falling asleep. T-Thanks, Taeyeon. She stuttered. Silence engulfed them and Tiffany felt suffocated. Being in the same room with Taeyeon isnt helping her, and without Jessica and Yuri to help ease up the mood, shes bound to self destruct. Shes beautiful. H-huh?

Your daughter.

Oh. Thanks. Tiffany smiled as she tucked in a few strands of hair away from her little girls face before giving her a soft peck on the cheek, careful enough not to wake the kid up. Just like her mom. Tiffany turned her attention away from her daughter to bravely look at the person across her. Her heart started beating wildly in her chest and for a while there, she was pretty sure that Juhyun

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would be awaken by the sound of her erratic heartbeats. She didnt know what to make of that statement, and she sure as hell didnt know how to respond. Was she even supposed to hear that, she thought? Nevertheless, it made all her insides churn and her brain to short circuit. As much as Tiffany wanted to turn away from Taeyeons soft yet deep gaze, she found herself drowning in those sad brown orbs even more. And even long after the shorter girl had bid her goodnight, Tiffany was still standing on the same spot holding her daughter, thinking of why she had let go of the best thing that has ever happened to her. ----- Ring. Hello? Im on my way there. No, youre not, Sunny. Yes, I am, and you cant do anything about it. Sun I am meeting you there, and its final, Taeng. A sigh. Fine. Drive carefully. I will, bye. Bye. Taeyeon threw her phone and heard it land somewhere inside her bedroom. The events of today had taken its toll on her small body and she just wants to sink in the sheets and sleep for a week. Heaving a sigh, she dragged her newly showered self towards the bed and plopped face first on her pillow. She wanted to smother herself right then and there, end her life along with every burden shes carrying and just pass away peacefully. But no.

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She chuckled at her current predicament. Taeyeon lay on her back and stared at the ceiling. Her hotel bedroom is quite big, cosy yet extravagant. But right now, she could be sleeping in a palace and she wouldnt care. Heck, she wouldnt even notice. Cause the only thing thats keeping her mind preoccupied right at that moment was the woman who was staying in the room across from hers. She took the chain of her necklace out from under her shirt and stared at the pair of wedding bands attached to it.

Oh my god! I forgot about the rings! Calm down, Fany. Ive taken care of them. I know youre too stressed about the planning

already, but let me handle this one, okay? Okay, Taetae. Thank you.

Taeyeon took out one of them and read the inscription inside before sliding it on her ring finger. The sign of feeling unwanted, sitting right there on her ring finger. You didnt even get to see them, Fany She even designed them herself. -----

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Chapter 6

Tiffany stretched out her arm towards the other side of the bed and found it empty. Sleep hasnt fully left her body as she tried to pat the cushion, hoping to reach for her daughters body that was probably curled up in a cute ball that somehow rolled away from her embrace while they were in slumber. A few more minutes of patting and her search was deemed to be in vain. The realization that her daughter might be missing had struck her, making her bolt out in bed and her blood to rush to her head. Trying to slip in her slippers while trying to shake her head from the sudden head rush, Tiffany hurriedly went out of her bedroom only to find Juhyun happily perched on the small dining table drinking her milk and munching on a toast. And a certain short girl standing in front of the modest kitchen stove that their suite provided. Morning, mommy, she heard her daughter say. Good morning, baby. Tae TaeyTaetae gave me bread, Juhyun said as she struggled to pronounce the name with her furrowed eyebrows. It was adorable. But the familiar nickname made Tiffanys stomach churn. Im sorry, she seems to have a hard time saying your name. Tiffany said as she turned towards the other girl at the stove. Its fine. She heard Taeyeon answer without even looking back at her. With an inaudible sigh, Tiffany focused her attention back to her daughter. Being able to stay in the same room as Taeyeon should already be considered as a blessing for her, because in all honesty, what she did should be considered as a crime already. At least shes talking to you Did you say thank you for the food, baby? Juhyun nodded as Tiffany picked her up, making the little girl sit on her lap as she continued her breakfast. She was already up when I went out of my room so I decided to make breakfast. Good thing the fridge was full so Tiffany saw Taeyeon turned towards her, all the while scratching the back of her head, a sure sign of shyness. She couldnt help but smile.

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Some things never change, huh? She genuinely thought Taeyeon was mad at her. Well, she should be, right? She usually wakes up earlier than me too, this little ahjumma, She said as she fixed her daughters bed hair. Tiffany gulped as she remembered the original little ahjumma in her life. Juhyun not ahjumma, mommy, the little girl pouted before taking a big bite from her toast. Oh, Im sorry. Youre mommys baby right? Right? Tiffany squeezed her daughter tight and was rewarded by a cute giggle. I made eggs and bacon, and theres toast in the oven. I also ordered coffee from room service, it would be here soon. I, uhm, Taeyeon stuttered as she placed the plate on the table in front of Tiffany. I need to, err, go and plan my shots for todays photo shoot. Oh and, uhm, good morning Tiffany. Tiffany saw the short girl scurry away even before she could reply. ----- Taeyeon had to leave before she could spill the tears that were building up in her lids. The mother-daughter interaction she had seen earlier this morning was too much for her to handle, and it reminded her of something she could have had. Not that its her fault, or maybe it is, but still, the image that she had difficultly tried to erase had seemed to etch itself in her mind. I always knew youd be a great mom She was lucky enough that Tiffany was too focused on Juhyun that the latter had missed the longing look she had on the two. It would have looked creepy and it would have embarrassed her more than she already was. Taeyeon was thankful though, that she has had the chance to make breakfast for Tiffany and her daughter, and somehow she had felt a sense of accomplishment by doing so. Thats the closest thing to a family that you can get, she said to herself bitterly. She changed into her casual clothes and took her camera. Taeyeon needs to remind herself that she wasnt in vacation and that work needs to be done despite the paradise shes currently in. With a sigh, Taeyeon exited her bedroom and finally the hotel room. She felt the weight of the camera on her shoulder and for a while, she thought of it as a burden. Yes, she enjoyed taking pictures of couples in the most natural element, love. But every time she snaps a photo, a little part of her dies along with her lost aspirations of ending up with the one she loves.

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She didnt know why she caged herself in a profession where everything she sees reminds her of her heartbreak. Her best friend told her it was suicide but a few months into the business had taught her so many things. That love is still there. Though not for everyone such as herself, it still exists. Kim Taeyeon! The short girl turned around only to find herself being rammed head on by a much shorter girl. Yah! Lee Sunk Are you okay? How are you feeling? Have you guys talked? How is she? Why arent you answering?! Sunny held her cheeks in between both palms and squished her face. She might have looked like a silly goldfish then but her best friends grip tightened even more when she tried to pry the hands off of her. What?! Why arent you talkinYah! Taeyeon had managed to smack Sunny at the back of her head, effectively freeing herself from the hold. How can I even talk when youre not even letting me open my mouth?! She scolded her best friend. Heh, sorry. She saw the shorter girl grin and everything is well again. She knows full well that Sunny was more than worried for her, so she decided to let the childish act go. Besides, no matter how much she didnt want to admit it, she was relieved that Sunny was at least there to pick her up in case something happens. And her instincts are telling her that something is indeed bound to happen, now that shes in the same place as Tiffany. Ill tell you everything over breakfast. Come on. Taeyeon said as she dragged her best friend towards the hotel caf. -----

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Tiffany was in paradise.

Now that I can finally make you mine, officially, I wont settle for anything less, Fany. I could get married in a closet for all I care As long as Im with you.

Ill marry you in paradise. She kept her tears at bay as she faced the horizon, the sky painted with azure and a slight tint of purple. It looked almost the same, that one day four years ago, yet she was puzzled why the regret she felt right now wasnt present then. It could have saved a huge heartache and couldve salvaged a broken trust. Tiffany stood at the shore and let the sea caress her feet in a gentle rush. It was cold to the touch, too cold, almost unforgivable. Like what she had done that broke the only person who loves her more than anything else in the world. Thats right, it was unforgivable. At least now, shes sure of it. Taeyeon loved her like no other. Loved. How could she have ever doubted that in the first place? Taetae Im sorry -----

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Chapter 7

You said well be together forever, Fany Then why are you leaving me now? Why?...

I want a family, Taetae. I We are gonna have one! You and me! And well have kids! Well adopt, well

A real family, Taeyeon My own flesh and blood A-and you cant give me that Youre really stupid, you know that? Wha Quite hopeless too. Soonkyu What? Im just stating facts, Taeng. Dont make me smack you with my camera. Sunny shrugged as she sipped her cold drink while eyeing Tiffany who was playing with her daughter near the shore. Taeyeon followed her best friends line of sight and smiled unconsciously as she saw Tiffany pick Juhyun up and tickle her. They looked so happy. Tiffany looked so happy. Does she know youre here? Taeyeon asked the shorter girl and was answered with a negative. She hasnt seen me yet, if thats what youre asking. Ah Taeyeon heard every sound but nothing was being processed in her brain. It seems like all of her senses had shut down except for her sight, but even that one has been dominated by tunnel vision with only Tiffany and Juhyun visible. She couldve had that happiness, that fairy tale ending. Youre really unfair, Fany How can you ask for something that you know is impossible for me to give?

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----- Tiffany held her daughter close as the little kid latched on to her neck lovingly. Running and playing around the beach had drained them out, but seeing her daughter enjoying herself made every drop of fatigue disappear from her body. She kissed Juhyuns forehead softly before tucking a few loose strands behind her daughters ear. Tiffany stared at her with soft eyes and held her tightly against her body. If theres one thing she didnt regret in her life, then that would be bearing a beautiful daughter. The kid was a product of love, supposedly, before her father had bailed out upon the knowledge of getting Tiffany pregnant. Yes, he was an asshole, but she loved him genuinely, at least until he branded himself of being a jerk when Tiffany woke up one day and found him missing along with all of his belongings. It hurt her, so much, that the moment she cried when she realized that the man had abandoned her and the seed thats inside of her, she was brought to that day when she, too, had broken a persons heart. So this is how it feels like, she thought. Tiffany let out a sigh as she walked back towards the hotel to let her baby rest and sleep in a proper bed. ----- Is thatOh my god, Sunny?! Taeyeon turned towards the rather hushed excited squealing and found Tiffany somewhat rushing towards Sunny and her, with little Juhyun sleeping in the girls arms. She was about to greet her when she heard Sunny let out a squeal of her own. Fany!!! Great Just great Its college all over again. Taeyeon rolled her eyes before stepping aside. What are you doing here? Tiffany half squealed as she shifted Juhyuns body in her arms, careful not to wake the sleeping child. Taeyeon eyed the poor kid and wanted to take the girl in her arms before her mom can squeeze her because of excitement.

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She didnt miss, though, how Sunnys eyes shift swiftly from Tiffany to her kid then back at her. Im here to help Taeng with the Kwon-Jung wedding! How about you?! Its been so long! Oh my God, we need to catch up! Now! Taeyeon continued to stare at the two as if she was watching a silent film. It was funny how the two loud mouths had managed to lower their voices yet simultaneously show giddiness. It was a wonderful feat in her opinion. She furrowed her eyebrows when a pout suddenly grace Tiffanys lips. Im sorry, Sunny. I cant right now, I need to take care of my baby. Oh! This is Juhyun, by the way, my daughter. Sorry, shes quite knocked out from playing. She heard Tiffany say apologetically. Sunny went closer towards her long lost friend to take a good look at the adorable kid. Taeyeon turned away as she saw a familiar look from her best friend. Pity. Aaaww, shes so cute! I bet shes an angel. She is, when shes asleep. Wait until she wakes up and shell flood you with questions. Tiffany chuckled as she gave a light kiss on her daughters chubby cheek. The two kept on talking and Taeyeon felt like she doesnt exist. It has always been like that, she recalled. Whenever Sunny and Tiffany met somewhere, even with her at the side, they tend to dissolve into their own world of gossips and stories and some other stuff Taeyeon was not interested in knowing. But in spite of that, she patiently waits beside Tiffany, secretly yet deliberately gazes at her as she talks animatedly, or smiles widely, or frowns deeply, whatever the topic was about. Shed sometimes reach for the latters hand and cradle it gently in between her own, playing and lacing their fingers, sometimes just staring at the lines on Tiffanys palm as she trace them. Taeyeon would sit there quietly, content in being just in the same space as the owner of her heart, satisfied in just feeling that soft pulse thats beating rhythmically underneath Tiffanys smooth skin. It was a memory long passed, but it was unforgettable nonetheless. Sorry, Sunny. Some other time, okay? I need to tuck Go with her, I Ill watch over your daughter. Taeyeon didnt know what came over her. Her lips moved on their own and the words had slipped off her tongue before she can even prevent them. Her eyes widen as she finally realized

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what she had done. Thankfully, Tiffany missed it. Are you su Yeah. I, uh, Im sure. Now go, go catch up with that shorty. Hey! Who you calling shorty, you midget?! She found herself walking towards Tiffany before carefully extracting the sleeping girl in the latters arms. Taeyeon was so adamant into holding Juhyun properly and comfortably that she missed the shocked look on Tiffanys face or that insult launched by Sunny. Taeyeon held Juhyun securely in her arms and unconsciously smiled. The girl was indeed an angel. But shes not yours, Taeyeon Shell never be She swallowed the lump on her throat as she continued to cradle the motionless girl against her body. Taeyeon, I dont want to trouble you. The softness in Tiffanys voice made her gulp. Its fine, Tiffany. Ill take care of her. Go. Taeyeon smiled at Tiffany, genuinely, and she felt like everythings fine again. Like that tragedy four years ago never happened and that shes holding their own daughter now, the fruit of their love and marriage. But that wasnt the case, much to her dismay. Reality is cruel. Thank you, TaetTaeyeon. She heard the almost slip. Youre welcome. Always -----

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Chapter 8

Fany! Wait! W-where are you going?!

Taeyeon, please Why are you doing this?...

Im sorry Taeyeon, but please please let me go. I missed you, Fany. I missed you too. You dont know how much Ive missed you guys. Especially Taeyeon, she wanted to add. Tiffany had once again found herself in the bar, this time with Sunny, sharing a few drinks after that overly exciting meeting at the hotel corridor. They have been there for a handful of hours now, just drinking the night away, talking about anything and everything under the sun. Including Taeyeon. Sunny Tae Taeyeon How? How was she? Tiffany had been dying to ask ever since theyve started talking about what had happened for the last four years. She saw Sunny shift her eyes to the side before sighing. Its that bad, huh?... I dont know if I should tell you anything, Fany Please, Sunny? I-I want to know Know how much she suffered when you left her? Tiffany flinched at the sudden hostility but she knew she deserved it. She knows how much she had hurt Taeyeon, how much she had practically destroyed her heart. I Im sorry. No, Sunny, dont apologize. Its my fault.

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Silence dawned upon the two as they continued drinking. Gone were the comfortable chatters and Tiffany wanted to beat her head with the bottle. She leaned back and turned to observe the bar instead. It was the same place where she met Taeyeon again. Even after four long years, Taeyeon still had that effect on her. Shed feel her heart stop for a second before gradually increasing beats. Every sound around her gets drowned out in her mind and the only thing her eyes can focus on was Taeyeons. She was about to excuse herself when she heard Sunny speak. She stayed here, even after you left. She spent your supposed honeymoon days alone, doing God knows what. I didnt know, cause she insisted, heck, she pleaded that we all leave her alone to think. So we gave her that time. Tiffany clutched her fist tightly. Theres nobody else to blame but her. Taeyeon came back, after two weeks, looking like a different person. Honestly, I was expecting a very depressed, self loathing Taeyeon but She was all smiles when she got back. And to be honest it hurt us more to see her like that. You know how she is; she likes to bottle everything inside. Tiffany merely nodded. And, a few months after that, she started her wedding photography business. You do know why she chose weddings, right? Sunny softly stared at her and she wanted to cry. Yes, she knows. Another round of silence engulfed the two with only the sound of clinking glasses and bottles can be heard clearly. Tiffany had accustomed herself of the familiar sound that the bar made until Sunny had decided to pull her out of the safe confines of familiarity that she had surrounded herself with. "Now tell me, Fany... What exactly happened?" Tiffany let out a sigh before pouring out everything to the shorter girl. ----- Sunny slumped at her hotel room sofa and heaved a sigh. Drinking was never a problem for her; she knows her alcohol tolerance. But the talk she had with Tiffany had stressed her so much, even more than that pile of work she deliberately left just to be in Taeyeons rescue. What she told Tiffany was true, all of it.

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She just omitted the part where she accidentally walked in on a sleeping Taeyeon one night they had to stay in the studio and learned how the poor girl silently cries in her sleep almost every night while calling out to the love of her life. Tiffany doesnt need to know that. ----- She found herself awkwardly standing in front of her hotel suite again, clutching the doorknob with one hand while holding the key card in the other. Tiffany felt like she was about to open Pandoras box and doom the whole universe because of it, but in reality, she had doomed hers a long time ago. A click of the lock and shes inside. Tiffany went directly to her room and was surprised to see the bed empty. She turned towards the direction of the living room and heard the low sound of the television as she neared the area. Thinking that Taeyeon had left the thing opened, she went directly to the television to turn it off. Just as she was about to head to Taeyeons room to see if her daughter was in there, she saw the two peacefully sleeping on the sofa. Tiffany felt her body shook, and slowly, she approached the sofa and bent down to observe the slumbering duo. She felt a lone tear roll down her cheek as she covered her mouth to stifle a sob as she let her eyes drown in the sight in front of her. Taeyeon had her body stretched on the whole length of the sofa, her head propped up nicely by a throw pillow while Juhyun lay comfortably on her torso. The older girl had both of her arms around the kid, securing her from falling off the sofa. They looked peaceful. Moreover, it was a scene that Tiffany had wanted for Juhyun and her father. He promised her a family, their own family. But the only thing she got was a broken heart and a broken promise. She let the tears flow freely now. The sight in front of her had pulled on her heartstrings and she cant help but cry more. Tiffany had accidentally slipped out a sob and her breathing stopped when her daughter moved. She quickly wiped the tears from her face and composed herself in case one of them, or even both, start to wake up.

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Tiffany breathe a sigh of relief when neither opened their eyes. She continued to watch as Juhyun clutched a fistful of Taeyeons shirt as the little girl snuggled more under the older girls chin, the latter responding by tightening her embrace on the sleeping kid. She didnt have the heart to separate the two, and as much as Tiffany wanted to sleep with her daughter beside her, she just couldnt break the heart warming scene. Finally smiling, Tiffany stood up and made her way towards the closet to fetch a fresh blanket. She draped the clean sheet over the two and bent down to give Juhyun a goodnight kiss on the forehead. She shifted her gaze on the sleeping Taeyeon and was surprised to see the latter shedding silent tears. She was about to wipe them when she heard Taeyeon whisper in her sleep. And there she was, still rooted on the floor, thinking that her heart couldn't break anymore that night. At least, not until she heard Taeyeons silent plea. Please Please stay with me -----

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Chapter 9 [FLASHBACK] It was the perfect day for a perfect wedding. She looked at the horizon and squinted slightly as the sun stung her eyes a bit. The wind was blowing gently in her hair and Taeyeon couldnt help but think that everythings perfect. Just like Tiffany and her smile and her crescent eyes and just, her everything. Today was perfect. Taeyeon heard the soft chattering seize. She stared at the sky for the last time before letting out a smile. She was beyond nervous. Today, she can finally make Tiffany hers. Taking a deep breath, Taeyeon turned around and was met by the most beautiful bride in the world. She felt her heart stop as she felt the back of her neck had started to sweat. She closed her fists tightly just to stop them from shaking. Not making any effort to stop the tears that were building slowly in her lids, she let them fall freely on her cheeks. Saying that she was overwhelmed was an understatement. The universe could end right now and she wouldnt care. Tiffanys longing gaze was enough for her to survive. With every step, a tear falls. Beautiful. Taeyeon said as she held Tiffanys hand tightly, her bride finally reaching her after her entourage. Today was about them, the two of them. Missed were the loving gazes of their friends and families towards them. Right now, its only about Kim Taeyeon and Tiffany Hwang. Are you okay? H-Huh? Oh, yeah. Im fine, Taetae. A small smile. Okay. Are you ready? Y-yes. Taeyeon was still drowning in bliss that she had missed how Tiffany fidgeted beside her. Her mind was too preoccupied by happiness that she didnt sense the other girls anxiousness.

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Everything is perfect, she thought. But reality had to be cruel. Do you, Kim Taeyeon, take this lovely woman as your lawfully wedded wife? To love and to hold, in sickness and in health, for richer and for poorer, til the day you both shall live? I do, and always will. Taeyeon said with the widest smile she can make. And you? The wedding official turned to Tiffany. The shorter girl looked at her soon-to-be-wife lovingly as she waited for the latter to answer. She cant wait to call her Mrs. Kim. Tiffany opened her mouth but no words came out. Taeyeon started to think that something was wrong. Hey, Fany, are you oka I IIm sorry, Taeyeon. Tiffany broke from her grip. I I cant marry you. WhaTiffany! Everything happened so fast that even Taeyeon didnt get the chance to blink. One second Tiffany was standing right next to her, but now she found herself running after her bride who was having a hard time with her gown. Fany! Wait! W-where are you going?! Taeyeon caught up to her and hugged her from the back, effectively seizing Tiffanys movements and running. Taeyeon, please She heard Tiffany whisper. Why are you doing this?... Im sorry Taeyeon, but please please let me go. Why? Taeyeon didnt realize she was crying until she felt the dampness on her cheek that was resting against Tiffanys bare shoulder. This isnt real, she tried to tell herself. I-I dont love you a-anymore.

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This isnt happening. Youre lying! She gripped Tiffanys waist tighter. Youre lying It came out as a sob. Tiffany wasnt struggling but Taeyeon felt her slipping away; she was losing her. She didnt know what happened; they were fine a few moments ago. But this Why? You said well be together forever, Fany Then why are you leaving me now? Why?... I want a family, Taetae. I We are gonna have one! You and me! And well have kids! Well adopt, well A real family, Taeyeon My own flesh and blood A-and you cant give me that Taeyeon kept quiet. They stood there, with Taeyeon holding on to Tiffany like there was no tomorrow. The sun had started to set and the wind blew harsher. It felt cold. Like Taeyeons heart. It felt cold. Please Please stay with me I I cant. Im sorry Please I Ill do whatever you want. I-Ill stop doing those stuff that you hated. Im gonna be better! Ill return the cap on the toothpaste! Ill stop talking in my sleep! I-Ill go shopping with you more! Taeyeon cried even harder. Ill never tease you anymore! Ill paint our apartment pink I Ill You You cant make me happy, Taeyeon The shorter girl stopped talking. Please let me go ----- She tried to keep herself from crying as she heard Taeyeons pleas.

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And now that the shorter girl who was tightly clutching her waist stopped talking, Tiffany wasnt sure if she liked the shouting more than the silence. Tiffany felt like she had done the right thing. She couldnt marry Taeyeon, not when her feelings were wavering. It wasnt fair for her, nor was it for Taeyeon. She didnt asked for another love, but it came, and she fell in love with him. Tiffany hated herself for letting it get this far. She could have saved both of them from heartaches if she only broke the engagement earlier. It was her fault. She knew how petty her excuse was, but its the only thing she thought of to have Taeyeon let go of her. Mentioning the other girls lack of ability to give her something she wanted was easier and a lot less painful than telling her that she fell out of love for her. Tiffany was about to ask again when she felt the arms around her waist loosen bit by bit. She turned her body to look at Taeyeon only to see the latters head down and her shoulders shaking because of the crying. She wanted to hug her, to tell her shes sorry, but she felt her arms go numb. Taetae No response. I-Im sorry She whispered to the crying girl. Tiffany! She turned her head towards the voice and found him panting while catching his breath. He came for her. Tiffany turned back and kissed Taeyeons head before running towards him. ----- Taeyeon lifted her head and saw Tiffany running away from her through her tear-clouded eyes. She felt numb; she felt cold. She saw how Tiffany leaped towards him with arms wide opened, her eye smiles on full blast. They looked happy. Tiffany looked happy. And it wasnt with her. I love you.

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Taeyeon said to no one. ----- Taeyeon blinked her eyes when she felt the suns rays hitting her face. She tried to shift her body, only to find out that she was pinned to the sofa by a smaller one. Furrowing her eyebrows while opening her eyes completely, she saw Juhyuns sleeping face and automatically smiled. It was the first time she woke up from the same dream feeling lighter. The day felt different, a good different. Taeyeon gently swept the few rogue strands that were covering the kids face and tucked them behind her ear. She smiled before wrapping her arms tighter around the girl as she felt herself succumb to sleep again.

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Chapter 10 Taeng, wake up. Groan. Get up, now. Whyyy? You have a photo shoot to do, you lazy bum! Taeyeon bolted out of the sofa upon hearing her neglected work and immediately clutched her chest, thinking that Juhyun was still lying on her torso. WhaWheres Juhyun?! She screamed when she realized that the girl wasnt with her anymore. Calm down, Taeng. Shes with her mom. Oh. Sunny pulled her up from the sofa and pushed her towards the direction of the bathroom. Now go take a shower so we could have breakfast and finally start on that photo shoot. Yes, mom. ----- You take really good pictures. I mean, look at these Taeyeon watched Yuri as the latter fawn over the sample prints of todays dry run photo shoot. She watched the eager girl thumb over the prints with a smile. She had always found Yuris personality to be rather amusing. The shorter girl leaned back and lazily scanned over her camera to look for shots that she might have forgotten to print out. Amidst her rigorous button-pressing, Taeyeon didnt miss Yuris small glances at her. Is there something on my face? She said as she looked at Yuri inquisitively. Taeyeon saw uneasiness in Yuris eyes and she cant quite understand why the girl was acting

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like that. It was rare for the tanned girl to be serious, and to be honest, Taeyeon havent seen her be actually serious before. Serious Yuri is like a myth to her. What? N-nothing. Seriously, what? She looked at her curiously before going back to what she was doing, Fine. I I know what happened. Hmm? Taeyeon looked up from her camera. To you and Tiffany. I know. It was inevitable, Taeyeon thought. Yuri is Tiffanys friend after all. Its not like its taboo for someone else to mention it, but she still cant seem to get used to people talking about it, not when the issue had been evaded for the longest time. She let out a sigh before safely placing her camera on the table. ----- If you could go back in time, in that specific hour, would you still do what you did? I mean, would you still let her go? The sun had started to set and only then that Taeyeon realized that theyve been in the caf for hours now. Not that she minded Yuris company, but she was surprised at how time can pass by with just a blink of an eye. Sunsets all look the same to me now, Taeyeon thought as she stared at the horizon. She kept her eyes on the huge glowing ball until they stung. Yes, she answered sincerely before looking directly at Yuris curious eyes. Yuri looked at her intently, gauging if the tears she saw in Taeyeons eyes were because of the rays or something else. She kept the thought to herself. What? You really? Wouldnt you regret it? The tanned girl looked at her like she was from out of this world. Taeyeon sank in her chair and crossed her arms comfortably on her chest. She felt her heart

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thumping gently and in an instant, she was brought back to that day, when that recovering muscle inside her was mercilessly torn into shreds. But, amidst the massive heartache "If you've seen the smile on her face, Taeyeon began, Or how she glowed when she leapt into his arms, you'd do the same. She sighed before letting out a small smile. That smile wasn't there when she was beside me in front of the altar. How could I ever deprive her of that happiness?" I know you, Yuri. I know how much you love Jessica. And if you were in my position, I know youd do the same for her. Yuri looked at her and for the first time in a long time, a person looked at her without pity but with so much awe and respect. ----- She had never thought talking would take so much of her energy until she had found herself trudging along the hallways towards her hotel suite. Though deep inside, Taeyeon knew that it wasnt the talk, but the reason. The petite girl, for the longest time, had evaded the topic and as much as her friends had wanted to forcefully squeeze the depression out of her, they had been courteous enough to leave the grieving girl alone. But after the talk with Yuri, Taeyeon had suddenly found light after being in the dark for so long. She didnt want to admit it, to her friends and especially to herself, that she was too broken to move on. She hid behind fake smiles and laughs, all the while making herself believe that shes fine. But no, she was never fine. Not when the person youve considered to be your everything suddenly walks out on you on your wedding day. With a sigh, Taeyeon entered the room quietly, not wanting to disturb the two other occupants. Silence greeted her as she stepped foot in the shared living room and she cant help but feel relieved that she wouldnt have to deal with Tiffany. She just cant handle the awkwardness. After a much deserved shower, she headed for the suites modest balcony.

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[Soundtrack#1] Taeyeon closed her eyes and breathed in the salty air. She can hear the waves crashing on the shore and the whistling wind subtly whispering to her. After what seemed to be an eternity, she opened her eyes and looked towards the sky. The stars are out tonight, she thought. Hey. Hey, Taeyeon answered back without looking. The skys pretty clear tonight. She heard footsteps getting nearer. Yeah, it is. She felt her insides tremble as Tiffanys scent filled her senses. Taeyeon knew that the other girl was close. Heck, even if shes blind, shed still know. She doesnt need to see. Her heart will always know whenever Tiffanys near. Cant sleep? She saw Tiffany mirror her stance as the latter leaned her elbows on the railing just a few feet beside her. Taeyeon breathed in the silence of the night as she closed her eyes. If things didnt go the way they did, Tiffany would be locked in her arms right now. Shed whisper sweet nothings into her ear while they sway with the wind and shed be able to gaze at the reflection of the stars on Tiffanys soft eyes without repercussions. Taeyeon Tiffany almost whispered. Yeah? She opened her eyes and finally looked at the woman beside her. I Im sor I know, she cut her. Im sorry too. Taeyeon smiled at the other girls questioning look. Tiffany had just woken up from a nap, her face bare and the shirt shes wearing was barely hanging on her slim shoulders. And yet Taeyeon thought that shes still the most beautiful girl in the world. She saw Tiffany furrow her eyebrows.

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Im sorry for not being enough, Taeyeon began as she focused her gaze at the dark horizon. She gripped the railing tightly until her knuckles turned white and she thought, after four long years, that her much needed closure is now just at her fingertips. I know Ive told you that as long as youre with me, theres nothing else that youll need more That Ill give everything and anything. I she continued. Taeyeon was baring her healing heart once again and she had never felt so brave in her entire life. Im sorry that I broke that promise. Heavy silence had once again engulfed them but Taeyeon felt liberated. She had said the words shed been wanting to say to her for the longest time but was sadly never given the opportunity to do so. Taeyeon heard a sniff. She immediately turned towards Tiffany. ----- Tiffany felt tears trickling down her cheeks. She didnt know when she had started crying but she is, and the tears are now flowing uncontrollably. She saw Taeyeon look at her when she sniffed. W-why? Wha Why are you a-apologizing when, Tiffany sniffed, her shirt now drenched with her tears. When Im the one who left you?! She didnt mean to scream but she was frustrated. Taeyeon was frustrating her with her kindness and her soft gaze and the warmth shes emitting, and the only thing she wanted to do right now was to drown in the latters arms and cry. And so she did. Tiffany knew that she had startled the other girl with her sudden attack but she couldnt care less. The latter was giving her so many emotions and the guilt that she had been carrying for so long had finally broken free. She took a fistful of Taeyeons shirt while her cries began to intensify. Im really sorry, T-Taeyeon. I Im s-sorry. She can feel her tears wetting the shirt shes clutching on. And when she felt a pair of arms encircling her waist gently, Tiffany finally lost it.

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She held on for dear life while Taeyeon began to rub soothing circles on her back, all the while whispering soft words into her ears. Sssh. Its okay. Im okay, Taeyeon whispered. No, its not! I left you! Tiffany pounded on the other girls chest while sobbing. She watched her take all the blows until she had lost all energy to move. She buried her head at the crook of Taeyeons neck and continued to cry silently. I left you on our wedding day I I left you Tiffany sank in the older girls arms more and she had never felt safer. You always make me feel safe, she thought. But she started to panic when she felt Taeyeon pull away from her slowly. Instinctively she clutched the fabric in her hands tighter but the soft pair of lips that pressed against her forehead made her relax. And not to mention, utterly confused. Its not your fault, Fany. More tears fell when she heard the familiar name. She heard Taeyeon sigh before bringing her lips back to her forehead. You found love, just like everybody else. She caught the slight tremble in Taeyeons voice. Its just unfortunate that you had to leave me for you to obtain it. Tiffany closed her eyes gently and let her tears fall freely as she felt Taeyeons mixing with her own. -----

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Chapter 11 Tiffany opened her eyes only to be greeted by the suns rays, stinging them a bit. She was about to turn to escape the sunlight when a sheet was draped over her head, effectively saving her from the bothersome streak. She cant help but smile when she felt a pair of arms snaking around her waist, pulling her closer. She turned towards the warm body and rewarded the owner with a soft peck on the lips. Thank you. Tiffany felt Taeyeon smile through the kiss. Good morning, she heard her whisper. Morning, Taetae. Mommy! Tiffany caught her daughter as the little one leapt into her arms the moment she entered the shared living room. Good morning, baby! She said as she nuzzled her daughters neck, all the while showering the latter with sniff kisses. A chuckle pulled her out of their mother-daughter moment. Im sorry, I didnt mean to disrupt your, uhm moment. No, its fine. Uhm, Awkwardness crept in between them and Tiffany almost grimaced. Good morning, Taeyeon. Good morning, she heard Taeyeon say as the latter smiled at her. ----- Uhm. Do you have to take pictures today? The three are now seated at the modest dining table and had resumed their breakfast. Taeyeon sat still on her chair as she ate her food rather slowly, all the while stealing glances at the two in front of her. Shell never get tired of it, watching Tiffany interacting with Juhyun, the cute little kid that had successfully won her heart at first sight.

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No. Its kinda my rest day today, Taeyeon answered as she scooped up some rice before putting it in her mouth. Yah Taetae! You are such a baby! Hmm? Taeyeon looked at Tiffany who was laughing silently in her seat, her eyes turning into crescents and her pearly whites all shiny. Their apartment was instantly filled with the sound of rapid clapping and Taeyeon cant help but chuckle along with her fiance. She swallowed her food first before talking. Whats so funny? Taeyeon frowned. Tiffany looked like she was never gonna recover from her laughing fit. Yah, Fany She brought her chopsticks down and pouted. I-Im so-sorry Letlet me just b-breathe Just when Tiffany was about to talk, another set of giggles came out from her mouth and Taeyeon found the love of her life in a laughing fit once again. She was about to voice out her annoyance when she saw Tiffany pointing at her chin. Huh? Taeyeon furrowed her eyebrows. Your c-chin Rice Tiffany said, her finger still pointing at something on her face. She touched her chin and felt a few grains stuck just below her lips. Seriously, Fany? Youre laughing because of this? Taeyeon pluck the rice from her chin one by one while giving her fiance a glare. Whos the baby now? You are so shallow. She muttered to herself, a little annoyed by how Tiffany was acting. Taeyeon didnt want to but sometimes it just irks her whenever the other girl was making fun of her. Tiffany had always told her that shes too uptight but she didnt want to believe it. Taeyeon was too busy grumbling while poking the eggs on her plate that she didnt notice Tiffanys loving gaze towards her. Taetae, you missed a spot. She reached for her chin again but felt nothing.

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Here, let me get it. Before she can protest, Tiffany had already leaned and reached for her above the dining table. Right here. A kiss landed softly on her lips. Taeyeon smiled at the memory. Everything Tiffany did never failed to make her feel disoriented, but in a good way. Taeyeon had spent a great amount of time thinking of how it can be possible for someone to be so great. Tiffany completed her and made up for all of her shortcomings. She knows shes not perfect, but Tiffany just brings out the best in her all the time. That was before though, way before. Taeyeon gripped her chopsticks tightly before placing them properly on her finished plate. Last nights events left her at a standstill. She wanted to beat herself up for not planning beyond the confrontation because in reality, she never thought that it would actually happen. After the heavily emotional talk, theyve both decided to start over as friends. All wounds have started to heal and both Taeyeon and Tiffany have deemed the plan to rebuild their friendship as the best path. Besides, they were best friends turned to lovers. I was wondering if you, uhm, if you wanted to join me and Juhyun at the beach later Taeyeon snapped back from her reverie and stared at Tiffany who seemed to have been hiding her face behind her coffee mug. Her lips tugged upwards a little as she saw the latters cheeks donning a slight pink hue. Cute, Taeyeon thought. Its okay if you dont want to, I mean, you might be busy and all and Sunny might want to hang out with you too or maybe Yuri and Jessica might call you on an impromptu photo shoot. You know how those two can be random so Tiffany, hey. The younger girl immediately stopped talking before lowering her head. Sorry, I was babbling. Taeyeon cant help but chuckle. No, its fine. And yes, Id love to join you two at the beach.

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She saw Tiffanys head lifting and she felt her world spin when the latter smiled that beautiful smile of that she loves. Theres nothing she doesnt love when it comes to Tiffany. Taeyeon clenched her fists under the table as she returned the gesture, albeit with a small one. 'Shes not yours anymore, Taeyeon.' ----- Mommy! Look, shell! Tiffany happily approached her daughter who was sitting at the sand trying to build a sand castle. After that surprisingly comfortable breakfast, at least she thought it was, the three headed out to the shore to spend the day basking under the warm sun. She knew Taeyeon hated being under the scorching sun and so Tiffany was so thankful that the clouds had decided to aid her in making her spontaneous outing a lot more bearable. The sun had comfortably situated itself behind the fluffy masses but illuminated the sky bright enough to spend a beautiful day outside. One step towards full reconciliation, she thought. Be careful with the rocks, okay baby? She kissed the top of Juhyuns head as she left the little girl to play quietly by herself. Taking a few steps away, Tiffany sat on the sand beside Taeyeon who was busy taking pictures of anything and everything. She stared at her, silently, and she was mesmerized by the way Taeyeon held her camera professionally yet still with a hint of gentleness. Click. She watched as Taeyeon took the camera away from her face to look at her shots and that soft smile that graces the latters lips every time she gets a good photo never fails to make her do the same. ----- Shes really beautiful.

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She came from me after all, a smug reply. Taeyeon observed Juhyun through her camera lens and she didnt realize that she had vocalized the supposedly discreet compliment. She chuckled at the girl sitting beside her by the sand and Tiffanys ever present confidence amused her so much that she had to lean backwards a bit just to accommodate her laughing. Right, right, she teasingly retorted after recovering from her giggle fit. Not that she disagrees though, because Tiffany was indeed the epitome of beauty, but she just felt the need to tease the latter. The little girl was indeed beautiful, angelic. She was perfect in Taeyeons eyes. Just like Tiffany. What? You dont think so? Taeyeon looked at the woman beside her who was now donning a pout. She kept her hands glued to her camera, fearing that she might do something stupid like caress the latters cheeks or hold her hand or even kiss her. 'Friendship, Taeyeon, youre building your friendship. Only your friendship' I do, she breathed unsteadily. I think youre both beautiful. They had just mutually decided to try and build their friendship back, because either two would admit that the bond they had shared even before they were lovers was unbreakable. She let herself say those words to Tiffany, even though she felt like she had gone too far. She was just stating the obvious, she thought. 'Theres nothing wrong in complimenting, right? Her daughter is indeed beautiful, and she brought her into this world after all' The thought shook her. Tiffany wasnt the only one who had brought her into existence. Taeyeon almost smacked herself when she had remembered an important detail that seemed to have evaded her mind until now. How can she have forgotten about Juhyuns father? Tiffanys husband?

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Chapter 12 It turned out to be a surprisingly enjoyable day to say the least, and it meant the world to Tiffany. For the last four years she had been constantly living under the impression that Taeyeon hated the whole of her being, and at some point, she was right. But hate doesnt exist in the heart of those who love truly and wholly, not for too long at least. Tiffany took a fistful of sand and let it drop on to the ground like an hour glass. She felt being neglected, she were, really, cause right now shes staring at Taeyeon carrying Juhyun by the sea side and she knew she shouldnt have, but somehow she felt jealous. She pouted like a little kid being deprived of its wants but at the same time, she cant help but let out a small smile at the interaction shes seeing. Tiffany knew how Taeyeon loved kids and how kids favour her but she never got the chance to actually witness it. 'If only you married her' Tiffany bitterly chuckled as she lay down on the mat. The sun was about to set and yet the two are still enjoying themselves like they just got there. She closed her eyes for a bit, used her arm to cover them and sighed as she listened to everything around her. Fany-ah, dont fall asleep. The suns rising soon. She heard Taeyeons soft voice right in her ears and she unconsciously smiled. She liked it, no, she loved it, whenever Taeyeon spoke softly to her, the usual richness of her voice toned down just for her to hear. She loved how Taeyeons breath tickled her lobes as she utter each word, words she keep in her heart no matter how insignificant and plain. Tiffany felt Taeyeons nimble fingers as they stroke her hair, softly, like her voice and her gaze and everything was enough for her. She snuggled further into Taeyeons lap and felt like the world was fine, like it completed her. But Im sleepy, Taetae, she whined. It wont be long, Fany, I promise. And then we can go back to sleep right after. Tiffany shifted and looked up to see Taeyeon smiling sweetly at her, the latters face laced with obvious drowsiness. She looked at her, right in the eyes, and she saw nothing but love and contentment. Tiffany unconsciously smiled back. Why do you look so happy? Tiffany asked, rather whispered, as she reached out to hold Taeyeons cheek gently.

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I do? She felt Taeyeon lean into her touch. You do. I can see it in your eyes. Taeyeon looked at her intensely and she fidgeted under her gaze. She saw her face come closer and Tiffany closed her eyes slowly when she felt a pair of lips press on her forehead. When she opened them, she saw the same pair looking at her, this time softer. Look into my eyes again and youll know why. Tiffany smiled, widely, because she saw nothing in Taeyeons eyes but her reflection. Tiffany felt a presence beside her followed by a soft nudge. Hmm? She opened her eyes slowly, blinked them a couple of times before focusing on the blurry image in front of her. Hi, she heard Taeyeon whisper. Tiffany saw Taeyeon and her daughter safely tucked in the latters arm. The shorter girl was squatting beside her while Juhyun was peacefully napping on her shoulder. She smiled unconsciously. Im sorry, did I fell asleep? Tiffany asked. Yeah, I think you did. I came back because the sun was about to set and I thought youd want to watch it but youre sleeping and I dont really have the heart to wake you up so Yeah, we missed the sunset. She saw Taeyeons mouth moving but she cant seem to hear anything. Its like her ears were suddenly closed and all she can focus on is the latters face, her lips, her eyes. Taeyeons eyes. Tiffany? Are you okay? She snapped from her reverie and saw Taeyeon furrow her eyebrows. Tiffany didnt realize how hard she was staring at the older girl until she saw Taeyeon fidget nervously under her gaze. Yeah I, uh, Im fine.

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Tiffany was about to stand when Taeyeon shifted Juhyun and offered her a free hand. Thanks, Tiffany smiled, still holding Taeyeons hand. No problem. Taeyeon looked at her, softly, like how she used to. And Tiffany swore she saw herself in those eyes. She was about to release the older girls hand until she felt something cold against her palm. It was a ring. 'Taeyeons married?' ----- Taeyeon shifted Juhyun in her arms and held her properly as she walked side by side with Tiffany. The sun had already set and the sky was splashed with hues of blue and purple, covering the peaceful beach with cool colours. She smiled as she saw her surroundings coloured in her favourite color but she frowned as she took a glance at Tiffany only to find her pouting and rather annoyed. You okay there? She cant help but ask. Yeah. She was a little taken aback by the cold answer but she accepted it nonetheless. Tiffany can be a real handful when shes moody, and Taeyeon didnt want to be in the middle of that. Okay. The atmosphere turned a little awkward and Taeyeon was thankful that she was holding the little girl in her arms. At least Juhyun kept her mind a little preoccupied; even if it just meant thinking of how to hold the girl properly without waking her up. It was getting cold outside and as much as the two wanted to savour the cool breeze, theyve decided to retreat to their hotel suite and tuck the little girl in her for a proper sleep. They had missed dinner but were thankful that they had managed to grab something before Juhyun could doze off. Reaching the front door of their suite, Taeyeon was about to reach for her key when Tiffany stopped her. Let me get it. A small smile.

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Awkward, Taeyeon thought, but she was relieved to see the smile, no matter how small. Thanks. They were about to go in when a familiar voice halted their steps. Hey Tiff, wanna goOh hi Taeyeon! ----- Sssh! Tiffany saw Taeyeon shush Jessica and she wanted to laugh. She knows how protective the older girl can get but she didnt imagine that it will happen with her daughter. She gulped. Woops, sorry. She barely heard Jessica say. Tiffany kept her eyes at Taeyeon as the latter started to rock on her feet a bit, swaying Juhyun while a humming a soft tune just against the little girls ear. The sight made her throat burn and she can feel her eyes sting. Anyway, Tiff, wanna go have dinner? I got hungry and I really dont want to eat alone. And Yuris already sleeping after she had managed to tire herself out at the gym. Everything Jessica said was falling on deaf ears but the normally unperceptive girl managed to catch the look her best friend is giving her wedding photographer. The bride-to-be switched glances from Tiffany then to Taeyeon then back. It was painful for her to observe. ----- You should be thankful that Ive dragged you out of there. If she saw you looking at her like that I dont know because if it were me, Id book a separate room right away. Tiffany chuckled with Jessica but she knew that her best friend was right. She was grateful that the latter had managed to prevent her from looking like a total creeper idiot and she seriously doesnt want to be labelled like that right now. Not when theres something she had to know.

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Care to explain whats happening? She heard Jessica ask. What do you mean? She drank from her wine glass and turned towards the farthest side of the restaurant. Oh please, Tiff, you know that tactic wont work on me. Just tell me why the three of you looked like a happy family who had just went to an amazing outing? And not to mention that look you gave her. I seriously wont get over that anytime soon. Jessicas bluntness is amusing, most of the time, but there are also instances, like now, that it hurts because reality hurts and Tiffany was tired of getting hurt because of the truth. Because the truth is she can never have her complete family. Tiffany sighed and Jessica bit her tongue. She knew she had crossed the line. Im sorry, Tiff, I was just I know, Jessi, I understand, she said as

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