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ibznec sab soddby lbesyod Yj|b|%
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sajehjef ne kz }oys%
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bo|jdz ne kz anpbyinoyc% Bola Yj|boec sabyb vbyb svbdpb
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|jsrosbc je sab lbesby n` @ybbcnksnnh r} oe besjyb |qroyb
kjdb oec lybosbc |jdpby loezne|$ bpbe vjsa odd sab fybbe oybo|%Ne sab nrs|hjys| n` san|b Yj|b|$ knyb irjdcjef| ybolabc `ny
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je saos }oysjlrdoy oybo$ irs nedz neb n` sabk vo| O||j|soes sn
Cjyblsny Ajfasnvby7 Saoeb Kzby|%
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|nkbsajef knyb jk}nysoes7 kz |eolh |bdblsjne% Ne Kne+
coz|$ kz svn n}sjne| jeldrcbc lyolhby| oec labb|b ny yoj|je|%
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|eolh| oec |}bes o knyb saoe abodsaz oknres n` sjkb `oeso+
|jwjef oinrs Yojeb% J |vb}s kz }odk olyn|| sab }oebd ne kz`ynes cnny oec }r|abc jesn sab djpjef ynnk$ vabyb kz knk
hebds je `ynes n` nry |o`b$ o |dj} n` kjlynlaj}| je aby aoec%
Bpbyzsajef `ynwb$ o| j` sab Cjyblsny aoc }yb||bc sab }or|b
irssne ne kz dj`b% Knk |soddbc vjsa aby aoec aod`voz je|jcb
sab |o`b% Aby `olb abdc |anlh oec `boy oec frjds$ odd n` vajlaJ olsroddz `bds o| kz nve bknsjne|%
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J |soybc$ kz knrsa |sjdd vosbyjef npby sab }ynkj|b n`
lyolhby| oec labb|b%Gr|s o| `o|s o| vbc }or|bc$ dj`b yr|abc `nyvoyc ofoje% Sab
|o`b |dokkbc |ars$ oec Knk |snnc je `ynes n` js% Djhb saos
vnrdc byo|b sab |blybs |abc gr|s }rs je|jcb% Djhb J vnrdces
ib oidb sn |bb sab ardhjef idolh in ibajec aby% Js| odvoz|
ibbe sabyb$ oec Jc odvoz| ibbe jepndpbc je sab cblj|jne|
oinrs vaos vb ajc je|jcb% Resjd env%
Freeby$ znryb ankb boydz%
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abocbc jesn sab hjslabe `ny saos |eolh% Sab |o`b |lybokbc os
kb sn dnnh os js/ irs J hb}s kz bzb| ne sab nny% Vaz oyb znr
ankb> J loddbc sn Knk%
J }rddbc o inssdb n` vosby nrs n` sab `yjcfb oec nycbybc
r} sab lyolhby| `ynk sab `nnc+cj|}be|by% Knk cjces oe|vby
oec |ab |sozbc je sab djpjef ynnk$ aby `yr|syosjne oinrs kz
|dniij|a ibaopjny o saje pbjd n` enykodlz npby kz abopz lry+
soje n` oejbsz%En ybo|ne$ |ab |ojc vabe |ab lokb jesn sab hjslabe%
Znryb fnjef zjef>
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inoyc syolh$ irs sab lyolhby| abdc en so|sb% Sab jlz ojy J |djlbc
saynrfa os sab syolh `bds gr|s o| yb|syjlsjpb o| sab yb|s n` sabljsz% O| sab yb|s n` kz dj`b%
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Odd J lnrdc sajeh oinrs vo| saos ido|sbc |dbbpb n` kjlyn+
laj}|$ vaos sabz vbyb$ vaz kz knk aoc ajccbe sabk vjsa+nrs sbddjef kb%
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sjkb% Gr|s djhb odvoz|%
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nldnlh$ J }drffbc kz lolab jesn sab koecosnyz syoe|kj|+
|jne|$ ldn|bc kz bzb|%
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O`sby oe anry saos `bds djhb `nybpby$ J reldj}}bc kz syoe|+
kj||jne| oec lyb}s cnve|sojy| sn sab |o`b% J aoc `nry kjersb|
sn }drf iolh je$ irs js |anrdces ib o }ynidbk% Djhb J |ojc$ kz
knk oec J cjces r|bc sn hbb} |blybs|$ |n J hebv sab lnkij+
eosjne sn sab |o`b%
Saybb kjersb| dosby sab |dbbpb n` kjlynlaj}| doz recby
kz }jddnv oec sab syoe|kj||jne| ybidoybc je kz aboc%
J ebbcbc sjkb sn sajeh% \n J doz ovohb$ syzjef sn jkofjeb
vaos J kjfas |bb%J lnrdces%
J }n}}bc sab y|s laj} jesn kz vyj|s+}nys% Kz pj|jne+|lybbe
ddbc vjsa kz knk| ybkbkiyoelb|% Kz }o|s ijysacoz| oec$
o| J fns ndcby$ kz }by`nykoelb| os sab anpbyinoyc jfas syjod|%
Sab |blnec sn do|s neb abdc kz pjlsnyz do|s zboy% Knk vo|ajcjef aby `necb|s kbknyjb| n` kb$ odkn|s djhb |ab lnrdces
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andc sabk je aby aboc oezknyb% Vaz vnrdc |ab |blryb sab|b
vjsanrs sbddjef kb>J |djc sab do|s laj} jesn sab }nys oec eboydz lanhbc% Cjybl+
sny Ajfasnvby |os os aj| cb|h8 sab |ry`olb fdjssbybc vjsa
ldnrcbc fdo||%
Ab dboebc `nyvoyc sn |}boh$ oec vajdb ab dnnhbc hjec
oec `osabydz$ aj| pnjlb lokb nrs `rdd n` |sbbd oec |sbyeeb||%
Abddn$ K|% Gokb|ne% Nry yblnyc| jecjlosb saos sab
lajdc vb besyr|sbc znr vjsa$ Freeby$ ao| lne|jcbyoidb sod+
bes% Sab O||nljosjne ebbc| sn ibfje aj| syojejef o| |nne o|
}n||jidb% Ab vjdd ib |rkknebc ebs \osrycoz$ os |j sajysz
o%k%$ `ny o }by|neod o}}njeskbes vjsa kb% Aj| o`sbyenne
ldo||b| vjdd ib knpbc sn Yj|b Neb sn ojc je saj| ebv olo+
cbkjl cjyblsjne%
Cjyblsny Ajfasnvby }or|bc o| ab |j}}bc ldboy djqrjc ynk
o sodd fdo||% J lnrdces vnyh r} benrfa |odjpo sn |voddnv% Abc
loddbc kb sab lajdc vb besyr|sbc znr vjsa% Vaos sab abdd
cjc saos kboe>Vabe ab dnnhbc jesn sab lokbyo ofoje$ J `bds djhb aj| bzb|
iryebc saynrfa sab dbe|$ sab kjlynlaj}$ kz pj|jne+|lybbe$
oec yjfas jesn kz |nrd% Djhb ab lnrdc |bb oec aboy oec `bbd
bpbyzsajef oec J vo| rssbydz b}n|bc%
Znr vjdd ens ib oidb sn |bb ajk ofoje$ K|% Gokb|ne% Irshenv saos ab vjdd ib n` fybos |bypjlb sn sab O||nljosjne n`
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Cjyblsny|$ ens nedz abyb je @ybbcnk$ irs saynrfanrs sab
besjyb rejne%J crf kz efby| jesn sab }jddnv je oe ossbk}s sn b|lo}b
`ynk aj| }bebsyosjef bzb|% Erkieb|| |}yboc `ynk kz efby|
jesn kz oyk|$ irs sab Cjyblsny vo|es ej|abc zbs%
Znrpb cneb o |r}byjny gni vjsa aj| r}iyjefjef% Ab
invbc aj| aboc `ny o knkbes$ sabe yoj|bc aj| laje ofoje%
Znr vjdd ib ensjbc n` aj| ebv occyb|| en dosby saoe \recoz
bpbejef% Resjd \osrycoz os |j sajysz% Fnnc coz%
Sab jkofb vbes idolh$ irs J |sjdd `bds sab Cjyblsny| bzb|
djefbyjef ne kb%
Kz aoec| |annh$ oec kz aboc irwwbc% Sab Cjyblsny|
vnyc| yolbc saynrfa kz kjec% Znr vjdd ens ib oidb sn |bb ajk
ofoje%
Sab do|s }by|ne vanc db`s aby vo| kz `osaby% J cjces
voes sn }rs aby saynrfa saos ofoje% J hebv vaos aoc ao}+
}bebc$ bpbe sanrfa vbc nedz |}nhbe oinrs kz coc nelb%
\abc `nyfnssbe ajk%Nelb J knpbc nrs$ vnrdc |ab `nyfbs oinrs kb snn>
Sbdd kb bpbyzsajef$ J vaj|}bybc sn Yojeb Ajfasnvby sab
ebs coz ib`nyb fbebsjl| ldo|| ibfoe% Iyjbz$ J sanrfas oinrs
kz knk% Vbc odvoz| }ynsblsbc bola nsaby$ oec J vo| knyb
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Zb|$ J laossbc npby sab lolab sn ajk$ lnk}dbsbdz sjlhbc os
aj| lnecb|lbecjef sneb%Oyb vb |blryb>
Zboa$ irs sabyb oyb odvoz| |bbhby+|}jcby| dryhjef |nkbvabyb%
Oec ab |}nhb sab syrsa$ bpbe j` ab vo|es kz `opny+
jsb }by|ne ne boysa% J |ajpbybc os sab sanrfas n` kbbsjef o
|bbhby+|}jcby je sab cboc n` ejfas% Syrsa ib sndc$ J cjces voes
sn fbs je sab voz n` o |bbhby os oez sjkb% ]ynfyokkbc iz
sab ajfaby+r}| je sab Sbla Yj|b$ |bbhby+|}jcby| aoc o `nry`ndc
kj||jne7 ec$ cbsoje$ yblnyc$ yb}nys%
J` J vo| `nrec$ vbdd$ J cjces voes sn sajeh oinrs sabcbsoje }oys% Jc |bbe o `bv snn koez }yngblsjne| cbsojdjef
bolsdz vaos sab |s+|jwbc |}jcby| lnrdc cn sn o arkoe
incz%
O| j` sab |bbhby+|}jcby| vbybes ioc benrfa$ J lnrdc kbbs
Be`nylbkbes N`lby| ny syj} |nkb |jdbes odoyk ny saynv snnkoez sanrfas| jesn sab ojy% Oez n` san|b lnrdc ir|s kb ib`nyb
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Jc bpbe ibfre% J lnrdces o``nyc saos% Cjyblsny Ajfasnvby
voesbc kbirs ab voesbc kb ldboe%Aj| corfasby voesbc kb snn%
J vj|a |ab voesbc kb je knyb voz| saoe neb$ J sanrfas% Irs
Yojeb gr|s voesbc kb sn gnje sab Je|jcby|% Boydjby sncoz |abc
|bes aby je|syrlsjne|% \abc sohb kb sn sab Je|jcby| oec kohb
|ryb J fns annhbc r} je oe Je|jcby+knejsnybc os%
Oec Jc fbs o bv anry| sn begnz kz dj`b ib`nyb js ibdnefbc
sn |nkbneb bd|b% J |byjnr|dz an}bc Yojeb aoc |nkbsajef
okowjef }doeebc `ny sab ejfas%
Gr|s sabe J }jlhbc r} ne aby bknsjne|% Vj|}| n` `bbdjef js+
sbc olyn|| kz ovoybeb||$ sbddjef kb n` aby lnecbelb oec lodk+
eb||% J |ajpbybc$ irs js aoc ensajef sn cn vjsa sab ybbwjef sbk}|%
J oddnvbc Yojeb sn `rddz `nyk je kz jkofjeosjne% \ab
yoybdz |kjdbc$ irs vabe |ab cjc$ kz aboys }rd|bc je kz
saynos% \ab lnrdc vojs$ sanrfa% J aoc neb knyb sajef sn cn
ib`nyb J gnjebc aby ybibd|%
J bsyolsbc sab laj} J aoces voslabc% Vjsa sab sjejb|sn` ldjlh|$ J |djc js jesn sab }nys ne kz vyj|s% Kz knk| `olb
ddbc kz pj|jne+|lybbe$ iyjfasbejef js vjsa aby }odb |hje$ coyh
idrb bzb|$ oec |syovibyyz+idnecb aojy% \nkbsajef djhb o |ni
fosabybc je kz saynos%
J |anrdcpb |ojc fnnc+izb sab yjfas voz$ vaosbpby vozsaos vo|%
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\ab dnnhbc os sab lokbyo `ny o `bv |blnec| vjsanrs
|}bohjef% \ab |voddnvbc% Sabe |ab |ojc$ Freeby$ Jpb dnocbco dbssby nesn saj| laj}% Js| `ynk znry `osaby% Ab je|syrlsbc kb
sn fjpb js sn znr vabe znr vbyb ybocz%
Vajdb |ab }or|bc$ kz kjec yolbc% Dbssby> Kz `osaby ; o
koe Jc ebpby kbs% O koe vanc ibbe cboc |jelb ib`nyb kz
ijysa%
Knk gbyhbc aby aboc snvoyc o |nrec nedz |ab lnrdc aboy%
\ab dboebc `nyvoyc8 aby pnjlb ar|abc% Lnk}oyb js vjsa sab
gnryeod% J dnpb znr$ |ne%
Sabe sab kbknyz vbes idolh% O |blnec dosby o |loe n`
sab dbssby ddbc kz p+|lybbe% Sab vyjsjef dnnhbc `ocbc$ irs
J lnrdc |sjdd yboc odd sab vnyc|$ cblj}aby odd sab erkiby|% Js
kocb en |be|b$ irs |jelb jsc lnkb `ynk kz `osaby$ J dnefbc
sn `bbd js je kz aoec|%
J voslabc kz knk| yblnycjef ofoje% Oec ofoje% Bpbyz
sjkb$ }oys n` kz ibjef dbblabc nrs vabe |ab |ojc |ne%
Os |nkb }njes cryjef sab pjbvjef$ Jc |djc sn sab fynrec%Lbkbes+lndc lyb}s jesn kz dbf|$ kz dref|%
Vaos gnryeod> J vnecbybc% Sab nedz oe|vby lokb `ynk
sab fdnv n` lyjk|ne |bbhby+|}jcby bzb|% Oe jesbe|b `boy
}nrecbc je kz pbje|% J dbo}s sn kz `bbs oec sryebc qrjlhdz
cnve oe oddbz$ nedz sn |bb occjsjneod }je}yjlh| n` ybc% Knybyblnycjef| ibjef kocb%
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Kz ebv oskosb ao| ejfaskoyb| bpbyz
|sjehje ejfas$ vajla lybosb| o knresoje
n` vnyh `ny kb% Ens saos |ab henv| saos$
irs |sjdd% J |nyso vj|abc aby cybok| vnrdc cyz r} odybocz%
Sab y|s lnr}db n` ejfas| Jc gbyhbc ovohb sn aby oefrj|abc
lyjb| oec krssbybc vnyc| oinrs |nkbneb |abc `nyfnssbe%
Jc hebds ebs sn aby ibc$ loyb`rd ens sn snrla aby vajdb Jsyjbc sn vohb aby r}%
@ols ?7 Pjndbs \lanbe`bdc j| o pbyz cbb} cybokby%
Kz iyjb`+|abbs aoces |ojc oezsajef oinrs aby pjndbes
kjcejfas ibaopjny% Je|sboc$ sab i+|abbs }ynpjcbc o cbsojdbc
oeodz|j| n` Pj| }by|neodjszra$ qrjyh|oec jeldrcbc knybsaoe J |anrdc bpby henv oinrs |nkbneb bd|b| kosla%
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Wbee !sab o`nybkbesjnebc kosla* lokb oec lnddblsbc Pj
bpbyz knyejef$ oec kn|s coz| J cjces |bb aby ofoje resjddjfas| nrs% Iblor|b n` sabjy jcbesjlod yjef|$ J hebv Wbee aoc
o lablhdj|s n` yb|}ne|jijdjsjb| ybfoycjef Pj snn% Gbvbdyz j| `ny+
ijccbe je @ybbcnk$ irs yjef| djhb Pj| oec Wbee| |lybokbc
n` knejsnyjef% Sabz kboes kz coc vo| |jk}dz vojsjef `ny
bjsaby n` sabk sn |dj} r}% Sabe sab yjef vnrdc yblnyc bpbyz+
sajef ab ebbcbc sn henv%
Kz yb|}ne|jijdjb| yb7 Pj jeldrcbc djef o yb}nys j` |ab aoc
o ejfaskoyb% Env J }yb}oybc sab `nyk bpbyz ejfas ib`nyb
ibc% Vabe |ab |soysbc sayo|ajef oec loddjef nrs$ J yblnycbc
sab sjkb% \bes js n`` sn Saoeb Kzby|$ sab koe van dnpbc sn
kohb kz dj`b knyb cj`lrds j` ab cjces vohb r} vjsa aj| }yb+
ljnr| yb}nys%
@ols 97 Pjndbs loes ybkbkiby oezsajef n` |ri|soelb% J
kocb |ryb saos cbsojd kocb js jesn odd kz yb}nys|% Vabsaby js
vo| syrb ny ens ybkoje| sn ib |bbe%
J syjbc ens sn cvbdd ne Pj% \ab vo|es kz }ynidbk$ bpbesanrfa kz lne|ljbelb eoffbc kb je kz qrjbs knkbes|%
Sab voz Saoeb hb}s aby iyojevo|abc `ny |n dnef !npby bjfas
knesa| env* gr|s cjces |js yjfas vjsa kb%
N` lnry|b$ saos vo| neb n` kz yb|}ne|jijdjsjb| snn7 Hbb}
Pjndbs ldn|b% Ldn|b oec recby sab jerbelb% Saoeb |ojc jscib ibssby saos voz% J vo| |sjdd syzjef sn fryb nrs vaosjsvo|%
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9 Lnkb ne% J |dj}}bc jesn sab coyheb||$ |ryb abc `nd+
dnv% J }rddbc kz lnos ldn|bc os kz saynos$ }ynsblsjef kz|bd`
ofoje|s sab ijssby vjec idnvjef je `ynk sab nlboe% Kz fdnpb|
ajc kz sodbes$ oec vajdb J ebpby vbes oezvabyb vjsanrs
sabk$ sabz cjces }ynpjcb krla je sab voyksa cb}oyskbes%
Free `bdd |jdbesdz jesn |sb} ib|jcb kb% Ab ebpby |oz|
krla% ]bn}db vjsa pnjlb }nvby oyb |nyso djhb saos%
Jc gnjebc sab Je|jcby| odkn|s o zboy ofn je o !}n||jidz dokb*
ossbk}s sn kohb kz nve lanjlb|% Iblor|b je @ybbcnk$ en neb
kohb| lanjlb|% Kz cocsab Cjyblsnycnb| saos `ny sabk%
J }dozbc aj| fokb% J dbs ajk sajeh ab nvebc kboec je
koez voz| ab cjc% Ab cjces henv oinrs kz kjcejfas olsjpj+
sjb|$ oec J voesbc sn hbb} js saos voz%
Vabyb oyb vb fnjef> Freeby laossbc npby kz lolab%
J srffbc os kz fdnpb|$ syzjef sn hbb} sab lajdd nrs% ]yni+dbk| dbopjef> J o|hbc$ jfenyjef aj| qrb|sjne% Do|s fnnc+izb| oec
odd saos>
Ab lo|s kb o |jcbdnef fdoelb oec |aj`sbc sab anpbyinoyc
ab loyyjbc% Dbopjef aj| knk ibajec vo|es kz `ords% Abc
aopb ibbe |aj}}bc n`` je sab knyejef oezvoz$ oec saos vo|sab ybod }ynidbk%
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Je|sboc n` djpjef je o |srcbes os$ Free |sjdd djpbc os ankb%
J cjces yboddz fbs saos !nhoz$ J cjces fbs js os odd*$ irs abcsndc kb nelb saos aj| knk cjces aopb oezneb bd|b$ oec abz$
ab djhbc djpjef n``+|jsb%
J` |ab hebv znr gnjebc sab Je|jcby|$ |abc aopb sn yb}nys js$
J laossbc ajk% ]ynsnlnd cjlsosbc js$ oec bpbyzneb djpjef je
@ybbcnk `nddnv| }ynsnlnd%
Bpbyzneb blb}s sab Je|jcby|%
J cjc vaos znr |ojc sn cn$ ab kb||ofbc$ aj| sanrfas+pnjlb
sbe|b$ oefyz% Sabyb vbyb |sjdd o cnwbe |}jcby| os kz }dolb%
Cjc znr }rd|b sabk> J o|hbc o| vb sryebc cnve oensaby
oddbz%
Aoc sn% Freeby fyoiibc kz oyk vabe o }oysjlrdoydz
eo|sz fr|s n` vjec saybosbebc sn re|bos nry aos|% J zoehbc kz
oyk ovoz$ bpbe sanrfa J vnyb o sajlh lnos% Ab cjces snrla
kb ofoje$ oec ab cjces |}boh%
Cj|oidjef sab |}jcby| vnrdc irz r| o `bv anry| os kn|s%
Kz coc bk}dnzbc sblaejljoe| ynrec sab ldnlh% \nneby nydosby$ sabzc henv sabjy |bbhby| aoc ibbe cb|synzbc oec |bec
Be`nylbkbes N`lby| sn jepb|sjfosb%
Cbejsbdz ens fnnc%
J yoe saynrfa sab ajcbnrs }n||jijdjsjb|% Vb ebbcbc sn fn
n``+fyjc `ny sab ebs |j anry|$ oec vb nedz aoc oinrs saybbib`nyb sab ljsz vnrdc ib |voykjef vjsa BN|%
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J dbc ajk saynrfa sab Idnlh|$ sryejef vabebpby J `bds djhb
js oec |syjcjef saynrfa yoecnk oddbz| je lo|b vb aoc o |}jcbysojd% Sybh vnrdcpb voyebc kb$ irs Free cjces henv saos%
Ab cjces henv oezsajefo| }by sab yrdb| n` sab Je|jcby|% En
je`nykosjne j| fjpbe resjd lnkkjskbes j| lneykbc%
Freeby syojdbc ibajec kb$ aj| incz abos o |dnv$ `okjdjoy
irye% Os dbo|s ab hebv anv sn knpb |jdbesdz%
Reijccbe$ J sanrfas n` sab svn n` r|$ koslabc oec
o||jfebc sn o snve anr|b je sab nrsby Idnlh|% J |sn}}bc |anys$
oec Freeby |srkidbc jesn kb% Ab lorfas kb olyn|| sab
|anrdcby| sn hbb} insa n` r| `ynk `oddjef% Vabe ab cjces dbs
fn$ J sryebc oec dnnhbc r} os ajk%
Sab knnedjfas |aneb ne aj| }odb `olb% Aj| bzb| abdc sab
|okb |blybs Jc |bbe os |lannd sncoz% Kz `bbdjef| |}jyodbc r}$
cnve$ oec oynrec% @jy|s `ynk sab jesjkosb voz ab snrlabc
kb !ofoje|s }ynsnlnd*$ sabe sn anv Jc `oeso|jwbc oinrs ajk
ibjef kz kosla !snsoddz ofoje|s }ynsnlnd*%
Ab crlhbc aj| aboc$ lnelbodjef aj| `olb je kryhz aos+|aocnv|% Irs J abdc aj| `bosryb| je kz kjec% J hebv sab voz
aj| dj}| lrypbc% Sab |does n` aj| |anrdcby|% Sab voz aj| }rd|b
inrelbc je aj| saynos% Anv ab labvbc ne aj| efbyeojd|
vabe ab cjces henv oe oe|vby je lodlrdosjne|$ anv ab dje+
fbybc eboy sab iolh n` sab ldo|| ne bdc syjod|% Oec$ |byjnr|dz$sab frz loez o anpbyinoyc%
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Vaz cjc J henv odd saos> J sanrfas n` Sybh$ kz sblaej+
ljoe `ny sab do|s zboy% J hebv gr|s o| krla oinrs ajk% Knyb$kozib% Loeene jssbc olyn|| kz kjec% J lnrdc cbejsbdz
eokb bpbyzsajef oinrs ajk snn$ yjfas cnve sn sab yjcjlrdnr|
inns| ab vnyb% Odd% Vjesby% Dnef%
Freeby Gokb|ne vo|es |}bljod%
\ryb$ ab aoc jehz aojy% Js |nkbsjkb| lrydbc `ynk recby
aj| aos iblor|b ab dbs js fynv snn dnefo cjybls pjndosjne n`
}ynsnlnd% Aj| bzb| vbyb sab lndny n` sbo$ cbb} oec coyh$ djhb
dnnhjef jesn sab kjccdb n` o |snyk%
J aopb sn sbdd znr |nkbsajef$ ab kb||ofbc$ r|jef sab
belncbc lolab |n aj| pnjlb |bb}bc jesn kz kjec% Ab |sb}}bc
ldn|by% J jelabc snvoyc ajk% Vb |snnc$ kbyb iybosa| o}oys$
|srczjef bola nsaby% J syolbc sab |synef bcfb| n` aj| olb vjsa
kz bzb|%
J |voddnvbc aoyc$ syzjef sn ybfoje kz lnk}n|ryb% Lyr|a+
jef ne ajk je aj| do|s anry| n` `ybbcnk vo|es fybos sjkjef%
J bk}dnzbc sab solsjl| J sorfas sab Je|jcby| oec `ndcbc kz`bbdjef| jesn o ebos in je|jcb kz|bd`% Saos voz en neb lnrdc
r|b sabk ofoje|s kb%
Vb ebbc sn fbs n`` sab |sybbs$ J laossbc iolh$ `nyljef o kbo+
|ryb n` enelaodoelb jesn kz kb||ofb% Znr loe sbdd kb sabe% J
|sb}}bc ovoz `ynk aj| snrla oec snnh oensaby yoecnk srye%Vaos| fnjef ne> Sybh o|hbc% Znry pjsod| oyb pjiyosjef%
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Ensajef$ J fyrkidbc$ Freeby| jesbe|b |soyb |sjdd iryejef
kz |be|b|%Cnb|es ybfj|sby o| ensajef% Sybh| laos loyyjbc o `ynve$ o|
j` aj| bqrj}kbes vo|es sbddjef ajk sab syrsa%
Dnnh$ sblajb$ J |ojc js vo| ensajef% J knpbc `o|sby$ syzjef sn
}rs knyb cj|soelb ibsvbbe kb oec Free%
Vaosbpby znr |oz$ Yojebz%
Cnes lodd kb saos% Nedz kz coc r|bc saos ejlheokb% J
aosbc js$ oec Sybh hebv js%
Db`s os sab lnyeby$ oec sabe sab oddbz ne znry yjfas$ Sybh |ojc%
J aopb ln``bb%
Aod`voz cnve sab o}}njesbc oddbz$ J n}bebc o cnny oec
knsjnebc Free je|jcb% Ab yoj|bc aj| bzbiynv|$ |nkbsajef J
}njesbcdz jfenybc$ oec |sb}}bc }o|s kb%
Sab coyheb|| vo| svjlb o| sajlh je|jcb sab aoddvoz% Ok J
|r}}n|bc sn fyn}b kz voz `nyvoyc> ab o|hbc nrs dnrc%
O |n`s larlhdb b|lo}bc kz saynos% Ens o fjffdb% Ens o
dorfa% J cnes cn |sr`` djhb saos% Jk lnnd oec lodk oec enslyr|ajef ne saj| Freeby frz% Sbe |sb}|$ zinz%
Ab lnresbc n`` sab |sb}| oec vojsbc% J lokb r} ibajec
ajk$ |sn}}jef gr|s o| ab sryebc% Env vaos> ab o|hbc%
N}be sab cnny odybocz% Jk `ybbwjef%
Ab fyrkidbc irs fyn}bc sab vodd `ny sab dosla% Saoeh+`rddz$ ab `nrec js o`sby nedz o `bv |blnec| oec n}bebc sab
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J o|hbc Sybh o| J n}bebc kz bzb|% Ab fnsr} oec knpbc snvoyc sab lnresby je sab iolh$ }nrybc ln``bb
jesn saybb lr}|$ oec ybsryebc sn sab soidb%
Sybh crk}bc oe ni|lbeb oknres n` |rfoy |ri|sjsrsb je
aj| oec `ynvebc os kb% Ab jlhbc aj| fowb sn Free oec sabe
iolh sn kb$ yoj|jef aj| bzbiynv|% @ny o knkbes$ o oyb n`
bkioyyo||kbes |ans saynrfa kb% Irs js| ens djhb Sybh hebv
vaz Jc fnssbe odd r|sbybc nrs|jcb%
\n Yojeb| fneeo ib znry syojeby ne sab Je|jcb$ znry
koje lnesols$ Sybh |ojc o`sby o dnef |vjf ynk aj| krf% Saos
lnnd vjsa sab insa n` znr>
@jeb iz kb$ Free krkidbc jesn aj| cyjeh% J |sjyybc kz
ln``bb vjsanrs |}bohjef$ vjsanrs bpbe dnnhjef r} `ynk sab
lrydjef vj|}| n` |sbok%
Lablh+je j| os |j sajysz$ Yojeb$ Sybh |ojc% Sabyb| o |}j+
cbybc os je Yj|b Ejeb% Znry coc j| b}blsjef Freeby% Ab
dnnhbc os Free$ van cjces ybols%Cneb cbod$ J |ojc$ vj|ajef Jc iynrfas kz anpbyinoyc |n
J lnrdc z sn Yj|b Ejeb$ fbs Free odd |bs r}$ oec sabe |}bec
sab yb|s n` sab ejfas ne sab syolh% \j sajysz |bbkbc jk}n|+
|jidz `oy ovoz% Free r|bc sab |lyokidby%
J aoc sn$ ab |ojc ofoje$ saj| sjkb vjsa o kogny cn|b n`ens
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Sybh o|hbc kb$ jesbyyr}sjef oez sanrfas
J aoc n` sodhjef sn Freeby djhb o enykod }by|ne%
@jeb% Anv|znryiynsaby> J lnresbybc%
Sybh kocb o enj|b n` cj|ibdjb $ irs oefby |aneb je aj| bzb|%Ab cjces djhb sodhjef oinrs aj| iynsaby% Ab oec Sybh cjces
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\abc dnpb saos% Sybh pnddbzbc aj| fowb ibsvbbe kb oec
Free% Env J henv vaz znry pjsod| vbyb odd |lybvz% Ab odd irs
dorfabc npby sab lolab%
J lanhbc oec lnrfabc$ lor|jef sab yb je kz `olb sn
jesbe|j`z% J dbo}s `ynk sab soidb oec ldjlhbc n`` kz lolab%
Dbs| fn$ zinz% En ln}z$ Sybh$ vajla kboesSyz sn kb||ofb
kb ny srye kz lolab iolh ne oec znr kjfas cjb snejfas%
J knpbc snvoyc sab iolh ynnk vjsanrs vojsjef `ny
Freeby% J fyoiibc o |s`rd n` }jdd| oec |sr``bc sabk je
kz }nlhbs% Vabe J sryebc$ Freeby |snnc sabyb$ voslajef%
Jpb fns sab ajcbnrs lnnycjeosb|$ ab |ojc% Vaos| vjsa
sab }jdd|>
Znrdd ebbc sabk sn |soz ovohb je |lannd% Znr sohb sabdboc vjsa sab lnnycjeosb|% J |sb}}bc loyb`rddz oynrec ajk |n
vb vnrdces bpbe ib je iybosajef cj|soelb% Sybh voslabc nry
bpbyz knpb$ odkn|s djhb ab vo| losodnfjef sab blaoefb sn
ybpjbv dosby% Ab }ynioidz vo|%
Vjsa Free ibajec kb$ J abocbc snvoyc sab cnny$ fdoyjef
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J cjces aboy Cjyblsny Ajfasnvby| yb|}ne|b$ irs sab
djfas| ibdnv kb cjkkbc o| ab }olhbc r} aj| fnnejb| oec db`s%Yojeb dbo}s nesn kz inoyc oec iblokb o |krcfb ofoje|s
sab vjesby |hz% J yoe odnef sab ynn` oec grk}bc sab eoyynv
fo} ibsvbbe irjdcjef|$ `nddnvjef aby% \ab lnrdces aopb kz
inoyc$ en kossby anv iborsj`rd |ab vo|%
J odkn|s snnh o abocby jesn o jfas n` |sojy| voslajef aby
eopjfosb$ sanrfa |ab cjc |bbk sn ib aopjef o ijs n` synridb
|sboczjef kz inoyc% Je nycby sn hbb} `ynk kojkjef kz|bd`$ J
`nlr|bc ne sab ni|soldb| ne bola ynn`sn}%
Os dbo|s resjd Yojeb |dj}}bc `ynk sab inoyc%
Fyopjsz% \r}by%
Kz inoyc anpbybc sabyb$ o| j` |abc fjpbe js o lnkkoec
sn ybkoje reyb|}ne|jpb% \ab yohbc aby aoec| olyn|| js$ |abc+
cjef aby fdnpb| je oe ossbk}s sn |soz ojyinyeb% J dorelabc
kz|bd` npby sab ynn`sn} vodd$ fyn}jef `ny aby aoec| o| |ab |djc
n`` sab inoyc lnk}dbsbdz%
\ab olsroddz }rddbc aby aoec| ovoz% Nry bzb| kbs ib`nybsab cj|soelb ibsvbbe r| vjcbebc o| |ab cyn}}bc%
Yb|lrb/ J |anrsbc sn aby ybsybosjef `nyk% Kz anpby+
inoyc wnnkbc cnve$ nibzjef kz lnkkoec$ oec koeofbc
sn losla Yojeb$ |dnv aby `odd% Irs |ab |sjdd lyo|abc jesn sab
fynrec vjsa benrfa `nylb sn ybecby aby relne|ljnr|%Yj|b$ aod` }nvby% J |sb}}bc nesn kz inoyc oec cb|lbecbc
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sn Yojeb| |sjdd nyk% \ab vnrdces vohb r}% \ab dnnhbc }bolb+
`rd$ sab djeb| oynrec aby bzb| |knnsabc vjsa sab ybdbo|b n`aby loyb|% Aby knrsa aref n}be o djssdb$ oec J jkofjebcens
`ny sab y|s sjkbvaos |ab kjfas so|sb djhb%
Dj|sbe$ pnjlb+vnecby$ ybjfe znry|bd` je vabe znryb ne sab
lolab$ odd yjfas> Sybh |ojc je kz aboc% Yojeb| djhb$ kz |j|sby ny
|nkbsajef%
Yojeb| en neb| |j|sby$ J laossbc iolh$ kz efby| jslajef sn
snrla aby aojy% Irs J hb}s kz aoec| sn kz|bd`%
Oybes znr koslabc sn \soyy> Sybh cjces vojs `ny kb sn
oe|vby ib`nyb ab lnesjerbc% Znr aopb kozib pb kjersb|
ib`nyb |}jcby |rypbjddoelb oyyjpb| os znry dnlosjne% Vohb aby r}%
J |annh aby |anrdcby$ |ojc$ Yojeb$ vohb r}% Ensajef%
Jpb dnlosbc o |}oyb inoyc% Znr frz| }ybssz krla aopb neb
lanjlbsab |hz% Vohb aby r}/
Vabyb| sab inoyc>
Be ynrsb env$ zinz% Sybh cjces bpbe syz sn ajcb aj|
oeenzoelb%\ars sab abdd r}%
Sybh dorfabc oec laossbc$ R|b znry pnjlb%
Irs J cjces voes sn% J oi|ndrsbdz aosbc r|jef kz pnjlb
sn fbs vaos J voesbc% Bpbe vabe vaos J voesbc vo| yjfas$
ebbcbc$ b||besjod%J ercfbc Yojeb ofoje% \ab cjces vohb r}% Loddjef aby
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eokb yb}bosbcdz gr|s ddbc sab |hz vjsa vnyc|$ lybosjef o
cbdjibyosb soyfbs `ny sab |}jcby| Sybh aoc |ojc vbyb lnkjefje$ vaos> @jpb kjersb|> Kz }rd|b inrelbc je kz saynos8 kz
aoec| |annh o| J odd irs |do}}bc Yojeb$ syzjef sn fbs aby sn
vohb r}%
Jelnkjef |}jcby|$ ejebsz |blnec|% Sybh| dorfasby aoc cj|o}+
}boybc% R|b sab coke pnjlb$ Freeby%
Ejebsz |blnec|% \r}by% \jfajef$ oec vjsa en nsaby lanjlb$
J bk}dnzbc kz pnjlb% Vohb r} jkkbcjosbdz%
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Pj| aojy aoc fynve je sab }o|s `bv
knesa|% Js odkn|s iyr|abc aby |anrdcby|
env oec `bdd je dokbes+|syojfas dozby|
n` }doje iynve% Jc ebpby sndc aby oinrs aojy beaoelbkbes|
oec anv |ab lnrdc aopb idrb ny fybbe ny |n+idolh+js|+idrb
!djhb |ab r|bc sn* vjsa o |jk}db vnyc oec sab yjfas sblaend+
nfz% Je saj| lo|b$ o aojy beaoelbkbes voec% Kjeb lryybesdz|os kn|sdz rer|bc recby kz iosaynnk |jeh% Iblor|b n` saj|$
kz lanjlb }njes| vbyb krdsj}dzjef%
Je @ybbcnk$ |srcbes| boyebc }njes| `ny aoyc vnyh oec
fnnc }by`nykoelb$ lnk}djoelb$ oec yb|}bls`rd ibaopjny je
|lannd% Vb r|bc nry }njes| sn fbs ln``bb ne sab voz sn ldo||$laoefb nry aojy lndny$ ny |nkbsjkb|$ j` }njes| vbyb |opbc
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dnef benrfa$ |srcbes| lnrdc |hj} o ldo|| }byjnc$ en qrb|sjne|
o|hbc%J odkn|s aoc benrfa }njes| sn fbs nrs n` lodlrdosjne| `ny
neb coz$ oec saos vo| nedz iblor|b J aoces laoefbc kz aojy
lndny je bjfas knesa|%
Irs J cjces sbdd Pj oinrs lanjlb }njes|$ dbs odneb sab
beaoelbkbes voec% Ens iblor|b J cjces voes aby sn aopb
`ybohj|adz lnnd aojy% J ybkbkibybc koypbdjef os aby| vabe
|abc ibbe iynrfas je% En$ J cjces sbdd aby iblor|b kz iyjb`+
|abbs |ojc ens sn%
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saos vnrdcpb ibbe bo|z sn iyboh% @nddnvjef }ynsnlnd fopb
kb }nvby% Oec sab Je|jcby| ebbcbc o| krla }nvby o| }n|+
|jidb vabe js lokb sn Pj%
Kz coc voesbc aby% Bpbe vjsanrs oez bk}osa fbeb|$ J
lnrdc |bb sab arefby je aj| bzb| vabe ab dnnhbc os aby% Vajla
kboes neb sajef7 \ab lnrdc abd} ajk fbs vaos ab voesbc% Coc
cjces djhb oezneb% Ab nedz djhbc vaos sabz lnrdc cn `ny ajk%\jelb kz coc voesbc aby$ sab Je|jcby| knejsnybc aby
ldn|bdz% Kz yb}nys| aoc ibbe ensajef irs |sjdd iyojevo|abc
`ny knesa|% Vaosbpby Coc voesbc Pj `ny$ J vo|es oez ldn|by
sn ecjef nrs%
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Jc aoc sab coz |ab iblokb kz oskosb% \n Jpb aoc aojy
sab lndny n` |env$ lo|locjef cnve kz iolh djhb |nkb |sr}jc`ynwbe vosby`odd$ `ny sab }o|s bjfas knesa|% Js lnrdcpb ibbe
vny|bsab coz ib`nyb |ab lokb Jc |bs kz aojy ne djkb fybbe$
oec js ldo|abc anyyjidz vjsa kz enykod ens+ebne+fybbe bzb|%
J od|n cjces sbdd Pj oinrs ocpoelbc kbod }doeejef% \ab
osb sab |okb sajefdjk} pbffjb| oec }ynsbje }olhbs|bpbyz
|jefdb coz% \ryb$ Wbee iynrfas sno|s oec ans lanlndosb je sab
knyejef$ irs kz yb}nys| |ojc ab aoc orsanyjwosjne sn cbpjosb
`ynk sab kbod }doe%
J cjc ens%
\n J cjces |oz oezsajef%
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bosbe oec aoc knpbc ne sn |lanndvnyh ib`nyb |ab ybsryebc
`ynk aby |b||jne vjsa Saoeb% Irs saos ejfas Jc ibbe yreejef
dosb% Jc gr|s |anpbdbc o `nyh`rd n` `nnc jesn kz knrsa vabe
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os kz }dosb% Vaos oyb znr bosjef>
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|abc |ojc js ib`nyb% Pj |lybvbc r} aby knrsa$ djhb |abcso|sbc aok je sab }o|s%
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Irs |ab aoces%
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\ab cjces |oz oezsajef bd|b$ irs saos dozby$ saos saje dk
n` lnesynd$ aoc ibbe byo|bc% Js ebpby cjc lnkb iolh%
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djki|$ kz pbyz bj|sbelb vjsa |nrec% J aoc en lanjlb irs sn
lnk}dz% Bpbe sanrfa J voesbc sn |soz je sab becdb|| coyheb||$
J |jk}dz lnrdces cj|nibz o cjybls nycby vabe js vo| |}nhbe
vjsa saos hjec n` lnesynd%
Oec |n J n}bebc kz bzb|%
Sn sab |sreejef iborsz n` Freeby Gokb|ne| `olb% Vnyyz
ldref sn aj| bzb|$ oec ab abdc kb vjsa aj| }jbyljef fowb `ny
saybb ofnejwjef aboysibos|%
Znr nhoz$ Ajfasnvby> ab o|hbc$ aj| pnjlb iolh sn eny+
kod% Vbpb fnsso gbs%
J ybolabc r} sn snrla o |sjefjef |}ns ne kz aboc% Kzefby| lokb ovoz |sjlhz$ irs saos vo|es sab ybod ybo|ne `ny
sab ioddnne n` }oejl |vbddjef je|jcb% Vabyb oyb kz fdnpb|>
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r}|bs oinrs kz jegryjb| ny aj| anpbylyo`s% ]ynioidz sab dossby$
b|}bljoddz sab voz ab vo| env bokjejef js%
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Ab lo|s o fdoelb npby aj| |anrdcby oec aj| knrsa knpbc$
irs odd J aboyc vo|$ Znr dn|s sabk%En fdnpb|% En$ en$ en% Jebbc J |os r}$ syzjef sn ybo|ne
saynrfa sab yr|a n` |nrec je kz aboc%
Free }rs aj| aoec ne kz |anrdcby o| j` sn }r|a kb iolh
cnve% J yblnjdbc pjndbesdz% Ab lnrdces snrla kb% J cjces
voes sn |bb sab lne|bqrbelb| n` saos%
\ab| odd `ybohz$ Free |ojc nrs dnrc$ sanrfa js vo| ldboy
ab aoc o lolab+lnepn fnjef ne% \ab |ojc |ab ebbc| |nkbsajef%
Fdnpb|$ J idrysbc%
Fdnpb|$ Free yb}bosbc$ |hjkkjef aj| fowb cnve kz
lnpbybc oyk| sn kz pbyz ioyb aoec|% Sabe ab ybolabc jesn
aj| iolh }nlhbs oec }rddbc nrs o }ojy n` idolh fdnpb|% Ab abdc
sabk nrs sn kb$ oec J |eoslabc sabk iz sab coefdjef efby|
|n kz |hje vnrdces snrla aj|%
Ab voslabc kb }rs sabk ne vjsa saj| rdsyo|aocz fdjes je
aj| bzb% Dnnh| djhb znrpb fns |nkbsajef sn sbdd kb snn$ ab
|ojc$ |soecjef r} oec n``byjef kb aj| aoec%J dbs ajk abd} kb% Saoeh| `ny sab inoyc% Saos sajef j|
sjfas%
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j` znr voes% Irs vb nedz aopb oinrs sajysz |blnec| ib`nyb
|}jcby oyyjpod%
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Cjc znr syjlh saos sajef nrs> J o|hbc$ bzbjef aj| anpby+
inoyc% Iblor|b J cnes sajeh js hebv vaos sn cn vjsa kb% Jcnes r|roddz `odd%
Nelb vbyb je sab ojy$ vb loe sodh% Ab aoecbc kb o
abkod+yblzldby `ynk aj| iolh}olh%
J }yb||bc sab yblzldby sn kz `nybaboc oec `bds sab |nnsa+
jef lnndeb|| n` ocpoelbc kbcjlod sbla o| js oi|nyibc sab
idnnc% Oyb znr fnjef sn jfenyb bpbyzsajef J |oz> Saj| sjkb
aj| |kjdb vo| bo|z sn npbydnnh%
Vabe znr |soys dj|sbejef sn kb$ Jdd |soys dj|sbejef sn znr%
J dj|sbe sn znr%
\ryb znr cn% Freeby voslabc kb vjsa oe bknsjne
J lnrdces qrjsb }dolb% Vnecby> @yr|syosjne> \nkbsajef%
Znryb vbdlnkb$ iz sab voz% Jk fdoc znr lnrdc r|b kz
inoyc sn }olj`z znry coc% Oec zb|$ J syjlhbc js nrs kz|bd`%
Vaos bd|b cjc znr o|h> Ok J fnjef sn jfenyb vaos znr |oz>
Ab snnh o |sb} snvoyc kb% J aboy bpbyz vnyc%
Dnnhjef jesn aj| bzb|$ J dn|s kz|bd` o djssdb% J sndc kz|bd`js vo| iblor|b n` aj| pnjlb lnesynd$ irs ab aoces r|bc jsos
dbo|s$ J cjces sajeh ab aoc%
Aboyjef j| cj``bybes `ynk dj|sbejef$ J eoddz |ojc$ kz
pnjlb aoycdz knyb saoe o fo|}%
Ens sn kb$ ab |ojc% \n vb bola aopb |nkb |blybs|% Irsnry ajcbnrs
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}dozjef vjsa aby fdnpb| oec jfenyjef kz qrb|sjne|nkbsajefsaos vo| iblnkjef o Yojeb |soecoyc%
\ryb%
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`ny aby |aj`s je }n|jsjne% Js| iborsj`rd snejfas%
J dnnhbc r} jesn sab idolh b}oe|b% J doz cnve$ lyocdjef
kz aoec| ibajec kz aboc% Cn znr henv sab eokb| n` koez
|soy|>
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je iry|s| n` `nf%
J }njesbc r}$ o| j` saos vnrdc ib ollryosb benrfa sn |anv
aby vajla }je}yjlh n` djfas J kboes% Saos| sab enysa |soy%
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oe jela% Saos| olsroddz o }doebs% Koy|$ J sajeh% Sab sbe|jne
yocjosjef `ynk aby lrs kb n` % J sryebc sn dnnh os aby% Vaos>
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os kb% Ny fjffdbc% Yojeb |jk}dz |srcjbc kb ny o knkbes oec
sabe jeaodbc ybod |dnv$ djhb |ab vo|es |ryb |ab |anrdc% Van
sorfas znr>
Kz knk% J kocb kz pnjlb |synef |n js vnrdces lyolh%Oe olab sayniibc je kz lab|s$ |nkbsajef kz knk r|bc sn
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bo|b% J cjces sajeh Jc kj|| aby |n krla$ |n `o|s% J `nlr|bc
ne sab |soy|$ ybkbkibyjef dblsryb| `ynk kz fbebsjl| ldo||b|%O`sby sab Fybos B}j|ncb$ |redjfas cjces ybola sab Boysa|
|ry`olb `ny zboy|$ oec odkn|s bpbyzsajef cjbc% Arkoe| vbyb
odd irs bsjels$ oec san|b saos ybkojebc |abdsbybc sabk|bdpb|
je|jcb vodd|% Sajehby|oezneb van aoc |nkb kbo|ryb n`
ocpoelbc fbebsjl oijdjszb|soidj|abc voz| sn ldboe sab ojy
oec vosby% Sabz be|rybc sab |rypjpod n` sab arkoe yolb%
O`sby koez zboy| sab |soy| aoc ybo}}boybc% Cbknlyolz
aoc ens% Oec saos| gr|s sab voz vb voesbc sn hbb} js$ j` kz
fbebsjl| Bcrlosny vo| sn ib ibdjbpbc% Ab n`sbe |ojc saos nry
krsosbc fbeb| vbyb vaos aoc |opbc arkoejsz$ oec vb nrfas
sn sohb ocpoesofb n` oez oijdjsz vbc ibbe fjpbe% Vabe \soyy
aoc o|hbc ajk anv nry fbeb| vbyb krsosbc$ saj| }ybcosnyz
fdjes aoc besbybc aj| bzb|%
En neb henv| `ny lbysoje vaos ao}}bebc je sab Fybos
B}j|ncb$ abc |ojc% Sabyb vbyb yb|$ oec erldboy b}dn|jne|$
oec voy ne o fdniod |lodb% Nry sn} |ljbesj|s| oyb syzjef snyb+lybosb san|b bepjynekbesod lnecjsjne| je sab Bpndrsjneoyz
Yj|b% Je pbyz lnesynddbc |jsrosjne|$ n` lnry|b%
Sabyb| ibbe en |rllb|| sabyb$ ao| sabyb> Yojeb aoc o|hbc%
Ens zbs$ sab Bcrlosny |ojc% Irs J aopb `rdd `ojsa saos
sabyb vjdd ib |nne% Bpbyz ldneb sabz kohb j| neb |sb} ldn|bysn ecjef sab bols `nykrdo sn lybosb o }nvby`rd pnjlb$ ny
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|nkbneb van loe `bbd oec yboc sblaendnfz$ ny |nkbneb djhb
Laynkb$ van loe kohb sab vjec nibz ajk$ ny bpbe % % % absyojdbc n``$ saj| lybb}`b|s dnnh ne aj| `olb$ sab oijdjsz sn yboc
sanrfas|%
\nkb }bn}db je sab ldo|| |aoybc aj| gnz os lnesynddjef nsa+
by|% Sabz olsroddz inrfas jesn sab vandb |r}byjnyjsz sajef n`
sab Coyvjejoe|% J vo|es |ryb vaos J inrfas jesn$ irs J cjces
djhb lnesynddjef nsaby| |jk}dz iz |}bohjef%
J henv odd oinrs sab cj``bybes oejkod hjefcnk|% Yojeb
}bbdbc iolh sab efby| n` kz fdnpb|$ |anvjef kb aby jddb+
fod efbyeojd| ofoje% Oejkodjo$ `refj$ }does|$ }ynsj|s|$ oec
knebyo% Fn ne$ sb|s kb%
J aopbes aoc ijn zbs%
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js ibdnef| je%
Irs anv vjdd J henv j` znryb yjfas ny ens>
\ab }dozbc vjsa sab `yozbc bec| n` aby innsdolb|% J
ibdjbpbc znr oinrs vaos|js> Koy|>Zboa$ Koy|% Js| o }doebs% Aopb znr aoc ijn>
En%
Oa$ |n znr aopb o iyoje snn%
\ab }yb||bc o irssne ne aby inoyc oec knpbc ldn|by sn
kb% \n ldn|b$ aby inoyc ercfbc kjeb%Znryb jesbyb|sjef$ Free% \ab ybolabc nrs oec |vb}s
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aby env+fdnpbdb|| efbysj}| `ynk kz vyj|s sn kz herlhdb|$
vabyb |ab }or|bc%J |os pbyz |sjdd$ vojsjef oec voslajef aby% Aby snrla db`s
o }osa n` yb ne kz |hje$ oec |nkbsajef vnecby`rd jssbc
sn sab `ynes n` kz kjec% O kbknyz$ neb J lnrdces qrjsb
fyo|}$ neb saos kocb kb sab ao}}jb|s Jc bpby ibbe% Yojeb
vo| sabyb$ je|jcb sab kbknyz J lnrdces yboddz |bb%
Kz kjec idoehbc o| knyb `bbdjef| saoe J lnrdc jcbesj`z
yr|abc saynrfa kb% J |soybc os Yojeb| efby| ne kz kjeb%
Yjfas$ J |ojc$ knpjef kz inoyc ovoz `ynk aby|% Vjsa
sab dn|| n` Yojeb| snrla$ sab gnz.vnecby.}bolb`rd `bbdjef|
poej|abc%
Andz kjec lnesynd }nvby% Jc n`sbe voesbc Yojeb sn snrla
kb$ irs J vo|es |r}bybljsbc oinrs aby lnesynddjef kz kjec%
Saos| sjfas$ |ab |ojc kjdcdz$ enccjef sn kz inoyc oec
andcjef nrs kz fdnpb|%
Zboa$ J |ojc$ syzjef sn fryb nrs j` vb vbyb yboddz sodhjef
oinrs kz anpbyinoyc ny ens%J snnh sab fdnpb|$ oec vb anpbybc sabyb$ voslajef bola
nsaby% J lnrdces |sn} sajehjef oinrs aby |hje ofoje|s kjeb%
J odkn|s `bds }az|jlod }oje `ynk b}byjbeljef js$ `ynk ibjef
|n ldn|b sn saos kbknyz oec ens ibjef oidb sn |bb oec `bbd js
lnk}dbsbdz% J lyopbc aby snrla$ irs J ldbelabc kz |s| oechb}s kz aoec| sn kz|bd`%
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Sab cjejef ynnk j| odd laynkb oec
fdo||% Coc loddbc js |oejsoyz% J sanrfas
n` js o| }yj|ne%
Ab b}blsbc kb sn bos je sabyb vjsa ajk bpbyz \recoz
ejfas% Iblor|b J }ybsbec sn ib o fnnc corfasby van kohb|
sab yjfas cblj|jne|$ J cjc%
Je `ols$ vajdb bosjef je sab cjejef ynnk$ Jc `nrec nrs sabkn|s je`nykosjne oinrs kz knk%
\n sbdd kb$ Coc ibfoe neb ejfas je Cblbkiby$ |}boyjef
o }by`blsdz lnnhbc }jblb n` o|}oyofr|% Aopb znr sodhbc sn
Loeene saj| vbbhbec>
J aoces sodhbc sn ajk |jelb @yjcoz$ os |lannd% Coc vnrdcodybocz henv saos% Ab henv| bpbyzsajef%
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En$ J |ojc%
Van aopb znr sodhbc sn saj| vbbhbec>Aj| coyh aojy fdjesbc je sab sbla djfas|% J dnnhbc ajk cboc+
ne je sab bzb% En neb%
Ab enccbc$ o sjez |kjdb }rddjef os aj| dj}|% Ab hb}s syolh
n` van J sodhbc sn% Oec Jc }o||bc aj| djssdb dzjef sb|s%
J lnesbk}dosbc kz ebs vnyc| vajdb o ldneb besbybc sab
cjejef ynnk loyyzjef o invd n` labyyjb|%
Sbdd kb oinrs kz knsaby$ J |ojc o| |nne o| sab ldneb db`s%
Coc gbyhbc aj| aboc r}$ aj| bzb| ddbc vjsa yowny|% O `bv
knkbes| }o||bc% Ab odvoz| ldn|bc cnve vabe J o|hbc oinrs
Knk%
Znr henv sab |snyz$ Yojebz$ ab |ojc%
Lo|b ldn|bc$ J sanrfas%Oec J aosb saos ejlheokb%
Irs J voes sn henv vaz |ab iybolabc sab ljsz vodd|%
Coc| en|syjd| }yolsjloddz |srlh snfbsaby ab jeaodbc |n
aoyc% \ab vo| |bbhjef ao}}jeb||% Ab ijs jesn o labyyz oec
ybknpbc sab }js% Je }dolb| js loeens ib `nrec% Znr fbs saos$yjfas$ Yojeb> Odd znr ebbc j| odybocz je|jcb sab|b vodd|% Kb%
Loeene% Hbb} sab }ynsnlnd$ oec znrdd ib ao}}z% Znry knsaby$
|ab % % % vbdd$ |ab sanrfas |ab lnrdc ec |nkbsajef nrs sabyb%
J` Coc sanrfas odd J ebbcbc vo| ajk$ Loeene$ oec sab
}ynsnlnd$ ab djpbc |bldrcbc cbb} je|jcb aj| nve cybokvnydc%]ynidbk vo|$ saos| bolsdz vaos kn|s }bn}db ebbcbc% \nkb+
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neb sn dnpb% \nkbneb sn dnpb sabk% \nkbneb sn hbb} sabk
|o`b iz sbddjef sabk vaos sn cn%Nrs vabyb> J o|hbc%
Js cnb|es kossby% \ab db`s sab ljsz$ oec vabe |ab lokb
iolh$ |ab loyyjbc knyb |jlheb||b| saoe vb aopb losodnfbc%
Coc vj}bc aj| labyyz+|sojebc efby| ne aj| eo}hje% Js vo|
kjdcdz bkioyyo||jef `ny kb o| Cjyblsny$ o| znr loe jkofjeb%
J |anpbc o }jblb n` iyboc je kz knrsa |n J vnrdces
|lybok os ajk% Ab |bdblsbc oensaby labyyz$ o| j` saos vnrdc
bec sab lnepn%
J |voddnvbc$ kz ]by`bls Corfasby ols cyn}}jef% \n |ab
cjbc n` bkioyyo||kbes>
Coc lrs kb o aoyc dnnh% \ab cjbc n` saybb cj|bo|b| saos
bj|s je sab vjdc% Kz }az|jljoe| lnrdc cn ensajef ny aby% Oec
saosab goiibc aj| ybc+|sojebc efby os kbj| vaz znr
ebpby fbs eboy sab vodd% Bpby% Ok J ldboy>
J enccbc$ snn |sreebc sn bpbe |}boh% Abc ebpby sndc
kb anv |abc cjbc% Abc ebpby bpbe sndc kb |abc lnkbiolh% \jk}dz saos |abc iybolabc sab ljsz vodd| !|nkbanv*$
db`s @ybbcnk !`ny |nkb ybo|ne*$ oec cjbc !qrjlhdz* iblor|b
n` js%
Saynrfa sab yb|s n` cjeeby$ ab cjces |}boh$ irs J |ov sab
lodlrdosjef je aj| bzb|% Kz coc ebpby cnb| oezsajef vjsanrs o|}bljl }ry}n|b% J aoces qrjsb frybc nrs vaos sab \recoz
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cjeeby| vbyb `ny$ irs J hebv ab aoc aj| ybo|ne|% Oec sabz
vbybes fnnc%O`sby J b|lo}bc$ J jlhbc kz voz saynrfa poyjnr| }yn+
gblsjne |lybbe| resjd J `nrec oe jkofb n` sab vodd| n` @ybb+
cnk% Kocb n` fyoz |dosb$ sab vodd| |snnc ?2= `bbs ajfa% Oe
jepj|jidb sbla+ioyyjby bsbecbc arecybc| knyb `bbs$ oylajef
npby sab ljsz sn lybosb o cnkb n` }ynsblsjne% Vnyhby| vnyb
|}bljod |rjs| vajdb vnyhjef ne sab vodd sn be|ryb sabjy ojy
|r}}dz ybkojebc relnesokjeosbc%
Je sab jkofb J `nrec$ sab sbla+ioyyjby |ajkkbybc je sab
|redjfas$ kohjef sab vodd `bbd |jej|sby oec jesjkjcosjef%
Jc odvoz| sanrfas js jesbyb|sjef saos nry ljsz j| loddbc
@ybbcnk vabe vb aopb snvbyjef vodd| sn hbb} r| je% Jc
ebpby lne|jcbybc sab vodd| bj|sbc sn hbb} |nkbsajef nrs%
J ldjlhbc n`` sab }+|lybbe oec }relabc kz }jddnv% J od|n
aoces lne|jcbybc kz `osaby sn ib yjfas$ os dbo|s ens je o
pbyz dnef sjkb%
J }drffbc jesn kz syoe|kj||jne|$ sajehjef saos J ebbcbc oknk je o |jsrosjne djhb saj|% \abc henv vaos sn |oz vabe Coc
vbes odd yowny+vjyb vjsa sab van oyb znr sodhjef sn> lyo}%
J` nedz |ab aoces cjbc%
Irs |ab cjc$ J |ojc nrs dnrc% J |arccbybc$ syzjef ens
sn sajeh oinrs vaos iolsbyjo djpbc nrs sabyb$ syzjef ens snjkofjeb vaos lnrdc }n||jidz je`bls o }by|ne je o kossby n`
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kjersb|% Sab ldn|b|s vb lokb sn cj|lr||jef |jlheb|| lokb je
fbebsjl|oec bpbe sabe js vo| odvoz| oinrs fbebsjl krso+sjne oec anv okowjef saos vo|% Jc ebpby ibbe |jlh8 cj|bo|b
cjces bj|s je|jcb sab vodd| n` @ybbcnk%
J dbs sab jkofb| `ocb jesn sab pnjlb ne kz syoe|kj||jne%
Znr loe ebpby dbopb @ybbcnk% Znr vjdd ens |rypjpb% Cj|bo|b| vb
loeens lryb bqj|s nrs sabyb% Sab ojy znr iybosab je|jcb j| }ryjbc$
beyjlabc vjsa ersyjbes|% Sab vodd kr|s ens ib iybolabc% Znr loe
ebpby dbopb % % %
Fnnc sajef Jc aoc o dns n` }yolsjlb srejef sajef| nrs% Kz
coc> Sab syoe|kj||jne|> Aoycdz vnysa dj|sbejef sn%
Freeby hebv% Abc |bbe ny `bds |nkbsajef vabe Jc snrlabc
ajk% J aoc snn$ irs sab |ao}b| vbyb idolh oec idryyz% J ebbcbc
sn andc ne dnefby% Kz efby| olabc sn snrla ajk ofoje$ irs
J hb}s sabk srlhbc recby kz dbf| |n J vnrdces jk}rd|jpbdz
ybola nrs oec koeaoecdb ajk%
Gbbw$ sab frz loe |soyb `nybpby% J eoddz snyb kz bzb| ovozoec dnnhbc jesn sab ljsz%
Sab Yj|b| |sybslabc r} sn kbbs sab |hz$ vjsa Yj|b Neb
snvbyjef sab soddb|s% Js snnh r} oe besjyb |qroyb kjdb oec
`relsjnebc o| o kjejcj|syjls je|jcb sab kbfoljsz n` @ybbcnk%
Odd sab Yj|b| cjc% Sabz aoc sabjy nve Sajehby$ sabjy nvelo`| oec hjn|h|$ sabjy nve |ndoy }nvby fyjc|% Sab nsaby bdbpbe
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Yj|b| yocjosbc oynrec Yj|b Neb$ odd n}byosjef os kojkrk
b`ljbelz$ vjsa }by`blsdz lnk}djoes Ljsjwbe|%Koecosnyz fybbe oybo| ddbc sab fo}| ibsvbbe sab Yj|b|$
o vo|sb n` |}olb j` znr o|h kb% Js| ens djhb Ljsjwbe| aopb }by+
kj||jne sn dnrefb oynrec ne sab fyo||% Zbs js| sabyb$ ollnycjef
sn kz `osaby$ kohjef nry ljsz iborsj`rd%
\}bljod+r|b Yj|b| doz ibznec sab yb|jcbesjod Yj|b|$ koje+
sojejef sajef| djhb syoe|}nysosjne$ bcrlosjne$ kbcjljeb$ sbla
}yncrlsjne$ bpndrsjne$ oec lnk}djoelb% Gr|s o| b}oe|jpb oec
nedz |djfasdz |anysby$ sab |}bljod+r|b Yj|b| }ynpjcb bk}dnzkbes
`ny sab kjddjne| n` }bn}db van lodd @ybbcnk ankb%
Iblor|b J vo| Yojeb Ajfasnvby$ Jc ibbe je odkn|s bpbyz
Yj|b% Kz `opnyjsb vo| sab Kbcjlod Yj|b$ iblor|b js n``bybc kb
svn n` kz `opnyjsb sajef| je neb }dolb7 |dbb}jef oec bosjef%
Sab besjyb inssnk nny odsbyeosbc ibsvbbe grjlb ioy|$ znfrys
|an}|$ ln``bb gnjes|$ oec enlsryeod dnrefb| vabyb }az|jljoe|
|db}s ne |n`s lns|%
Fynvjef r}$ Loeene oec J n`sbe |}bes nry \osrycozdbj|ryb anry| odsbyeosjef ibsvbbe cnjef ankbvnyh vajdb
|j}}jef }bola eblsoy oec cnwjef je sab coyh yblb||b| n` sab
enlsryeod dnrefb|%
Env saos Jk ndcbyoec ne sab |ljbesjl syolh os
|lanndJ aoc o |ans os o gni je sab Kbcjlod Yj|b% Loeenen`sbe sbo|bc kb saos sabe J lnrdc |dbb} je sab dnrefb| vjsa+
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nrs sab `boy n` fbssjef lorfas% Vb insa hebv Jc ib cnjef
|nkbsajef `ny sab Je|jcby|$ |nkbsajef lnpbys$ je sab KbcjlodYj|bj` J lnrdc hbb} kz ijndnfz koyh| ajfa benrfa% Oec
saos vo| o ijf j`%
Bpbyz irjdcjef$ blb}s sab Bcrlosjne Yj|b$ ao| cbcj+
losbc js| inssnk dbpbd sn }ynpjcjef sab vnyhby| vjsa vaos
sabz ebbc sn `relsjne je sabjy o||jfebc crsjb|% \srcbes| aopb
|jkjdoy `oljdjsjb| je sabjy anr|jef Yj|b|% Ldnsajef$ |anb|$ `nnc$
oec kbcjlod bqrj}kbes vbyb odd }ynpjcbc os qrjlh oec lne+
pbejbes hjn|h| ne sab y|s nny% Vajdb vb |db}s$ ldneb| snnh
|snlh oec |bes ybqrb|s| `ny yb}dbej|akbes%
Ibznec sab |hz|lyo}by|$ sab irjdcjef| |anysbe jesn
|koddby dbpbd|$ |koddby wneb| n` lnesynd$ vabyb `okjdjb| djpb
je o knyb |riryioe ldjkosb% Idnlh|% Sabyb oyb arecybc| n`
san|b$ bsbecjef enysa sn sab ljsz djkjs$ bo|s sn sab nlboe$
|nrsa sn sab nylaoyc|$ oec vb|s sn sab lok}|%
J sryebc ovoz `ynk sab ljsz lbesby$ aopjef |bbe benrfa
`ny o dj`bsjkb% Free oec J anpbybc oinpb sab lok}|$ sab cjk+kb|s }oys n` sab ljsz% Sab `nry lok}| anr|bc saybb sz}b|
n` }bn}db% San|b van vbyb aopjef r}fyocb| cneb ne sabjy
ankb| djpbc je Lok} O%
Lok}| I oec C vbyb ny polosjneby|% Jc ibbe sabyb svjlb
vjsa insa n` kz }oybes| oec$ bpbyz |rkkby |jelb kz knkaoc cjbc$ vjsa nedz kz coc% Ab n`sbe fns loddbc iolh sn vnyh$
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oec vb r|roddz kj||bc nry vbbhdnef koecosnyz polosjne
sjkb je sab lok}|%J vo|es lnk}dojejef oinrs saos neb%
Lok} L |abdsbybc nedz ldneb|%
Sybh djpbc je Lok} O pndresoyjdz$ ldojkjef sn aopb `nrec
koez }bn}db |zk}osabsjl sn sab Je|jcby|% J` saos vo| syrb$ J
lnrdces sbdd% Eneb n` sabk aoc gnjebc$ oec J |r|}blsbc ab
djpbc je sab lok}| |n aj| }ynsnlnd+hbb}jef$ grejny+o||j|soes+
|sosr| iynsaby lnrdces ec ajk$ irs Jc ebpby |oz saos sn aj| olb%
J |vb}s kz fowb npby sab lok}| iyjbz oec dnnhbc jesn
sab cj|soelb% ]o|s sab vodd%
Coyheb|| ibes npby bpbyzsajef$ lnelbodjef oezsajef saos
kjfas ib dryhjef% Js cjces kossby% Jc |bbe js odd ib`nyb% Je sab
|rkkby$ o |kboy n` fybbe ldo|abc vjsa sab |oecz doec|lo}b
n` sab vjdc%
Sybb|% Sab sybb| je @ybbcnk oyb nedz o kbsby ny svn soddby
saoe kb$ oec sabz odd }yncrlb o}}db|$ nyoefb|$ ny }bolab|% Je
sab |}yjef$ sab ojy |vjk| vjsa sabjy okowjef `yofyoelb%Irs env$ je @biyroyz$ nedz |aocb| n` iynve oec fyoz
bj|sbc% Cyoi |hz kbs cjysz boysa%
J syjbc ens sn dnnh jesn sab vjdc snn krla% J syjbc sn |soz ovoz
`ynk sab vodd| n` @ybbcnk% J syjbc$ cb|}jsb vaos Coc sanrfas%
Vaos oyb znr sajehjef oinrs> Freeby o|hbc% J grk}bc$oec sab anpbyinoyc vajebc oec |ajkkjbc sn sab db`s%
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/),,#",
Kz aboys }nrecbc je kz saynos o| J n}bebc kz kbesod
lolab sn ajk% Vaos cn znr sajeh j| nrs sabyb>Vjsa o krykry$ Free koebrpbybc aj| inoyc sn `olb sab
|okb cjyblsjne o| kjeb% J cnes henv% \oec oec |jlheb||%
Loyb`rddz$ |n J vnrdces }drkkbs sn kz bkioyyo||jef
eboy+cbosa `ny o |blnec sjkb$ J iynrfas kz hebb| sn kz lab|s
oec vyo}}bc kz oyk| oynrec kz dbf|%Kozib% Nsaby }bn}db|
anpbyinoyc| `ybohbc kb nrs% Lnkijebc vjsa Freeby vosla+
jef kb$ J vo| gr|s o| re|sbocz env o| J aoc ibbe vabe Jc oddbe
boydjby%
Kozib> Freeby sryebc snvoyc kb% Vaos cn znr sajeh j|
nrs sabyb$ Ajfasnvby>
J |kjdbcjepndresoyjdz% Freeby| pnjlb loyyjbc oe bcfb J
djhbc% Oec sab voz ab loddbc kb iz kz do|s eokb> \bz%
Aopb znr bpby sanrfas oinrs dbopjef @ybbcnk> J laossbc
ajk%
En% Zb|% Bpbyz coz% Ab cybv je o cbb} iybosa% Znr>
En% Kz knk cjbc iblor|b |ab iybolabc%Vyo}}bc r} je sab kbknyjb| J cjces aopb n` aby$ J cjces
ensjlb Freeby aoc knpbc ldn|by resjd ab snrlabc kz oyk%
Saynrfa sab vnnd n` kz lnos$ J lnrdces `bbd oezsajef irs
sab vbjfas n` aj| aoec%
Jk |nyyz$ ab |ojc$ aj| pnjlb nosjef ne sab vjec%J vo| |bpbe$ J |ojc$ o| j` saos kocb aby oi|belb env
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db|| }oje`rd% J |vjslabc n`` kz lolab$ vnyyjbc oinrs vaos ab
kjfas ib oidb sn aboy je|jcb kz aboc%O dnef |jdbelb `nddnvbc$ cj|sryibc nedz iz sab |jfajef
iybbwb oec sab vjehjef |soy|% Baor|sjne \oceb|| |bb}bc jesn
kz pbyz ineb|% Kz |anrdcby| cynn}bc%
Vbdd$ kz coc db`s$ |n js loes ib odd ioc$ Freeby eoddz |ojc%
Znry coc db`s> J o|hbc$ dnnhjef os aj| }yndb% Sab }odb
knnedjfas lrs cbb} |aocnv| olyn|| aj| `olb%
Zboa% Sabybyb nsaby ljsjb| nrs sabyb$ nsaby }dolb| sn
|rypjpb% Ab zovebc oec |bssdbc iolh ne aj| inoyc% Znr
cjces sbdd kb vbc ib |dbb}jef |bpbe arecybc `bbs r}$
Ajfasnvby%
J cjces henv$ irs J cjces |oz |n% Je|sboc$ J |ojc$ Vb aopb
sn vojs `ny knyejef sn yb}nys je os sab Yj|b% Sybh aolhbc jesn
sab db| oec o||jfebc znr sn o rejs vb aopb |}jcbybc `ny sab
Je|jcby|% Saos voz$ bpbe sanrfa znrdd ib syojejef vjsa Sajeh+
by|$ znrdd aopb |nkb voz sn lnresbyols sabjy |rypbjddoelb%
Syojejef vjsa znry coc ao| kb `ybohjef%Znr }ynioidz vnes vnyh vjsa ajk% Vanbpby znryb
o||jfebc sn vjdd gr|s yb}nys sn ajk% Oec znr loe fosaby jesbd
ne vanbpby znryb o||jfebc sn `ny sab Je|jcby|%
Znr frz| cjces |bs r} van Jdd ib vnyhjef `ny>
Saj| frz cjces kj|| krla% J b|}bljoddz ensbc sab vnyh+jef `ny vabe J aoc |ojc vnyhjef vjsa%
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Znr cjces sbdd kb Jc ebbc iyboh`o|s%
Zboa$ vbdd%
Znrc sajeh znr aoc o pnjlb$ sab voz znr hbb} je`nyko+
sjne sn znry|bd`% Ab |nrecbc ibznec jyyjsosbc% Saos lybo|b je
aj| `nybaboc nedz o}}boybc vabe ab vo| oeenzbc%
Znryb ne o ebbc+sn+henv io|j| resjd vbyb |blryb%
Ab |snnc r}$ |syojfasbejef aj| iolh}olh oec yriijef aj|aoec| snfbsaby sn voyc n`` sab boydz+knyejef lajdd% Vbpb
ibbe nosjef |bpbe arecybc `bbs oinpb sab fynrec `ny anry|%
Anv krla knyb |blryb cn vb ebbc sn ib>
Znr cnes ebbc sn henv saos$ J qrj}}bc% J syjbc sn fbs
sn kz `bbs snn$ irs sab lnkin n` kz |sj`` gnjes| oec sab
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dokb ybfrdosjne anpbyinoyc odkn|s kocb kb sohb oensaby
en|bcjpb%J lnrdc kohb znr sbdd kb$ ab saybosbebc$ o |}oyhdb je
aj| bzb|%
J iyr|abc kz aoec| ne kz }oes| o`sby J eoddz ybfojebc
kz iodoelb% Znr lnrdc% Irs znr vnes%
Jelnkjef Be`nylbkbes N`lby|$ o kodb pnjlb lokb npby kz
lolab% Js |nrecbc snn dnv sn ib Sybh$ irs ib`nyb J lnrdc ybfj|+
sby van js ibdnefbc sn$ kz vosla ibb}bc% Vb ebbcbc sn bjs
saj| ojy|}olb$ qrjlh%
Jelnkjef BN|% Oec lablh+je `ny ebv yblyrjs| j| je
svbesz kjersb|% Dbs| z% J en|bc kz inoyc snvoyc sab
fynrec% Svn |blnec| dosby kz vosla ibb}bc ofoje% J ynvebc
bpbe o| cyboc |bssdbc npby kb%
Sabe kz vosla ibb}bc o sajyc sjkb% O `nrysa% Sab ibb}|
iblokb neb |sbocz odoyk% Cokkjs% Syz sn
Be`nylbkbes N`lby ejeb+|bpbe+neb+svn$ o pnjlb
innkbc oinpb kb je sab |hz% N}be insa bzb| o| vjcb o|znr loe% O koe vboyjef o |jdpby |rjs cb|lbecbc |dnvdz$ aj|
anpbyinoyc bkidownebc vjsa sab |zkind n` sab O||nljo+
sjne7 sab ndjpb iyoela%
O ybc do|by idnncjbc sab kryhz knyejef djfas% Oe jyj|
yblnfejwby%Vaos| sab laoyfb> J hb}s kz bzb| syojebc ne kz inns|%
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/),,#",
Freeby anpbybc eboyiz$ aj| |s| oec aj| gov ldbelabc%
\sndbe }yn}bysz$ sab BN |ojc$ aj| pnjlb ddbc vjsa jes%Vabe J dnnhbc r}$ J b}blsbc sn ec ajk fdoyjef os kz
dnv+ldo|| anpbyinoyc$ irs ab aoc aj| bzb| fdrbc sn Freeby%
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6%
J kbs Sybh Vajsjef vabe vb vbyb sajysbbe|%
Saos zboy vb insa o}}djbc `ny bsyo zjef
anry|% Vbc insa ibbe o}}ynpbc%
Vb |ov bola nsaby ne sab anpbyinoyc syolh bpbyz coz% Ab
aoc cblbes |hjdd|% \}bbc> Ens o }ynidbk% Aj| }oybes| vnyhbc
je sab Sbla Cbpbdn}kbes Yj|b% Sabz aoc sne| n` annhr}|%
Aj| inoyc vo| o| syjlhbc nrs o| sabz lnkb%Aj| iodoelb> \r}byi%
Aj| syojejef bsajl> Rekoslabc%
En$ aj| ijffb|s }ynidbk vo| sab irdh n` aj| |anrdcby|%
Jc bc saos `ny ajk vabe J |anvbc ajk anv sn lnesnys
aj| incz jesn o knyb obynczeokjl |ao}b% Jc nedz sndc ajk
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iblor|b kz syoe|kj||jne| cynebc ne oec ne oinrs |}nys|+
koe|aj}$ oec Jc `bds frjdsz%Vbc iblnkb `yjbec| iz sabe oezvoz% Vb vbyb `sbbe|$
bdjfjidb ny sab jfas syjod|$ oec svn n` sab ib|s r}lnkjef zby|
je @ybbcnk%
Be`nylbkbes N`lby| ibfoe sn knejsny nry syojejef$
yblnycjef sabjy ni|byposjne| `ny nry }n||jidb yblyrjskbes sn
sab |qroc%
Sybh `nrec sab jcbo n` iblnkjef oe BN reo}}bodjef irs$
|blybsdz$ J sanrfas sabybc ib ensajef ibssby% O| oe n`lby$ J
lnrdc !o* z vjsanrs yb|syjlsjne|$ !i* ib lry`bvdb||$ oec !l*
dboye anv sn idnlh sab }nvby n` |nkbneb| pnjlb%
\ryb$ sab dj`b n` oe BN |nrecbc gr|s oinrs o| }by`bls o| o
}ove djpjef je @ybbcnk lnrdc fbs%
Snn ioc J fns !c* cj|qrodjbc ynk sab syjod| ny belynola+
jef ne oensaby lnesb|soes| ojy|}olb%
Svn nsaby }bn}db fns sn||bc `ynk sab snryeokbes snn%
Neb n` san|b }bn}db vo| Sybh%Ab olsroddz lyo|abc vabe J fns ercfbc oec |nys+n`+kozib
irk}bc ajk% Ab iynhb aj| yjfas dbf oec saybb efby|% Kz dj}
fns ir|sbc n}be$ irs nedz iblor|b kz `olb fns je sab voz n`
aj| inns o| ab `bdd%
Ib|jcb| sab jegryjb|$ J lnrdces fryb nrs vaz ab vo| |n
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r}|bs% Aj| db cj|o}}boybc `ynk sab dj|s n` }n||jidb Be`nylb+
kbes N`lby|% J` oezsajef$ Jc cneb ajk o `opny%Sab ebs zboy J besbybc sab jfas syjod| ofojeoec vne%
@ny aod` o |blnec J vj|abc J aoc o kjlynlaj} vjsa sab
pjlsnyz% Sabe J ybkbkibybc van cjc% \nkbsajef |aoy} ijs
saynrfa kz je|jcb|% J aosbc saos Jc voslabc kz knk|
kbknyjb|%
\nkbsjkb| ens henvjef j| olsroddz ibssby%
Sab Be`nylbkbes N`lby| vnrdces snrla Yojeb% Je|sboc$
sabz }rddbc ne sajlh fdnpb| oec |hjysbc oynrec aby%
Kz boydjby |r|}jljne oinrs aby sodbes |ndjcjbc% \nkbsajef
yboddz aoc ao}}bebc vabe |abc snrlabc kb% En vnecby sab
fjyd vnyb fdnpb| odd sab sjkb% Jc sanrfas |ab vo| gr|s kohjef
o `o|ajne |sosbkbes je sab djkjsbc voz |ab lnrdc% Vbc ibbe
je fbebsjl| ldo|| snfbsaby `ny zboy|$ irs Jc ebpby koslabc sab
fdnpb| vjsa o sodbes% Jc gr|s o||rkbc oezneb saos lokb `ynk
Cjyblsny Ajfasnvby aoc sn beyndd je fbebsjl|%Vajdb sab BN| inrec aby aoec| snfbsaby vjsa sbla
lr``|$ J dbs kz inoyc cyj`s dnvby oec dnvby% Djhb saos vnyhbc%
Svn BN| `nddnvbc oec neb n` sabk |ojc$ Znryb sab |sndbe
}yn}bysz$ |ne%
\r}by% \sndbe }yn}bysz> Anv lnrdc o }by|ne ib |sndbe}yn}bysz>
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J sanrfas oinrs sab laj} yb|sjef je kz golhbs }nlhbs%
Vnrdc js ib lne|jcbybc |sndbe }yn}bysz> J cjces voes sn fjpbsab dbssby r} sn oezneb$ b|}bljoddz Cjyblsny Ajfasnvby% \n J
hb}s kz knrsa |ars o| sab |re iosabc sab ljsz vjsa boydz+
knyejef djfas oec sab BN| }ynfyokkbc nry anpbyinoyc| vjsa
sabjy cb|sjeosjne% O`sby saos$ odd J lnrdc cn vo| begnz sab yjcb%
Irs js |n vo|es begnzoidb% Sab |sybbs| ibdnv kb doz
|jdbes oec bk}sz$ kjyynyjef sab voz J `bds je|jcb% Yojeb ebpby
sryebc$ ebpby dnnhbc os kb%
Vb db`s ibajec sab nylaoyc| ne sab |nrsa |jcb n` sab ljsz$
iz}o||bc sab nrsby Idnlh|$ sryebc ovoz `ynk sab nlboe ne
sab bo|sbye inycby% Jc djpbc kz vandb dj`b je @ybbcnk oec
aoc ebpby snrlabc sab vosby% O| vb abocbc snvoyc sab Yj|b|$
J vnecbybc j` J bpby vnrdc%
Vb bv }o|s sab nrsby Yj|b|$ ne o |syojfas lnry|b snvoyc
Yj|b Neb% Cjyblsny Ajfasnvby| dojy%
Kz }rd|b fybv abopjby oec qrjlhby je kz lab|s% Je jkjso+
sjne n` Yojeb$ J |qroybc kz |anrdcby| oec syjbc sn }ybsbecsaos J cjces fjpb o coke vaos ab cjc sn kb% \ab cjces henv
js$ irs J lnrdc `bbd aby `boy% Oec js |bssdbc je kz |snkola$
ok}dj`zjef kz nve%
O| |nne o| vb doecbc je sab |sybbs$ o |voyk n` n`lby|
|ryynrecbc Yojeb$ b``blsjpbdz idnlhjef aby `ynk pjbv% \ab|ojc |nkbsajef J cjces losla$ |n J loddbc$ Vaos>
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Yojeb |vref vjdcdz$ oec oe Be`nylbkbes N`lby `bdd
cnve% J |ov sab }oejl vyjssbe odd npby aby `olb vabe |ab kbskz fowb% Cnes vosla
Oec sabe sab BN| solhdbc aby$ oec sab yb|s n` vaos |ab
|ojc vo| krkidbc jesn o|}aods% \anlh cjces oddnv kb sn
knpb% \abc |ojc ens sn vosla$ irs J lnrdces dnnh ovoz% \n J
gr|s |snnc sabyb djhb o yofjef dn|by vajdb sabz aordbc aby iolh
sn aby `bbs$ voslabc o| sab idnnc syjlhdbc npby aby odoio|sby
`olb$ |soybc o| |ab |rllrkibc sn sabjy saybos| oec dbs sabk
dboc aby jesn aby nve `ybohjef ankb%
J ybkojebc je sab |sybbs$ aosdb||$ vjsa sab svn BN|%
Relr``bc% \sreebc ibznec vnyc|% J` sab Cjyblsny dbs sabk
cn saos sn aj| nve corfasby$ vaos vnrdc ab cn sn kb>
Dbs| fn$ Freeby$ oe n`lby |ojc% Cjyblsny Ajfasnvby
vnrdc djhb sn |}boh vjsa znr oinrs do|s ejfas| bpbes|% Ab
|nrecbc |sbye irs sjybc% Aj| db`s bzb cynn}bc o djssdb ijs$ koh+
jef aj| `olb o|zkkbsyjlod% Sab nsaby n`lby |}nysbc |anrdcby|
|n iynoc ab lnrdc }ynioidz idnlh oe oddbz iz ajk|bd`%Jk ens dbopjef kz inoyc vjsa oezneb% J |sb}}bc sn sab
fynrec$ }r|abc o irssne sn kohb sab anpbylyo`s `ndc r}% J
srlhbc js recby kz oyk oec syjbc sn ols loyb`ybb% Snn ioc J
sybkidbc%
Sab svn BN| blaoefbc o fdoelb$ sabjy bknsjne| |knsa+bybc recby zboy| n` |bypjlb% J sanrfas J lnrdc kohb nrs o
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Ky% Gokb|ne%
Vabe J sryebc oynrec$ J |ov o |}jcby |lryyz recby sab
lnrla ldn|b|s sn vabyb kz `nns}yjes r|bc sn ib% Sab loy}bs
fdbokbc% \}jcby kojc |bypjlb% \loyz%
O `ojes fdnv ne sab nny cybv kz ossbesjne% O yblsoefdb
doyfb benrfa sn anr|b |bpbyod }bn}db }rd|bc vjsa idrb djfas%
Je|jcb sab o|lbecby in$ }dbo|b$ Cynn}z Bzb |ojc% Sab
in% Sab djeb|% Odvoz| |soz vjsaje sab djeb|% J |rccbedz `bdssyo}}bc% Oec je|jcb Yj|b Nebvjsa sab }ynkj|b n` kbbsjef
sab Cjyblsny `olb+sn+`olbsab vodd| vbyb |n sajlh Jc ebpby
b|lo}b%
Env$ Iyovez |ojc% Ybkojejef knsjnedb||$ J lnesbk+
}dosbc sab o|lbecby in% J yboddz$ yboddz aosb o|lbecby|oecJc odybocz r|bc neb sn fbs nrs n` saos cjeby% J cjces voes kz
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}oysjldb| ollbdbyosbc ofoje$ ens r} ny cnve ny oezvabyb%
Ky% Gokb|ne> Iyovez o|hbc$ oec js |nrecbc djhb o saybos%J gnjebc sab svn BN| je|jcb sab djeb|$ fyj}}bc kz anpby+
inoyc$ abdc kz iybosa%
Doinyosnyz |bpbe%
Kz nedz sanrfas7 ]dbo|b$ ens o doinyosnyz%
Oec sabe J idjswbc ovoz jesn o kjddjne ( neb }oysjldb|%
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Sab y|s sjkb J kbs Pjndbs$ |ab cjces
bpbe henv aby nve eokb% Saoeb
van|b aosybc n` kb vo| nedz koslabc
iz kz idosoes cj|so|sb `ny ajkiynrfas aby sn kz ynnk% J
djpbc odneb je o |srcbes osoec js aoc sohbe o dns n` vajejef
sn fbs kz coc sn ofybb sn saos%OecJ aoc sn lnk}ynkj|b iz
ossbecjef sab snysrynr| \recoz bpbejef cjeeby| je sab fdo||+oec+laynkb }yj|ne%
Jc sndc kz coc saos J ebbcbc |}olb$ saos nsaby `sbbe| fns
sn dbopb sabjy `okjdjb| sn ej|a |blnecoyz |lannd% J sndc ajk J
cjces ebbc ldneb| |bypjef kb iyboh`o|s oezknyb$ saos J aoc
sn dboye sn sohb loyb n` |nkb sajef| kz|bd % Coc vo| odd oinrsyjfas oec `ojyoec J fns kz nve os%
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Je Yj|b Neb% Irs$ abz$ ibjef ne sab sajyc nnyje o os n`
kz nvevo| ibssby saoe djpjef je kz coc| dopj|a o}oyskbesne sab ejebsbbesa%
J djpbc odneb `ny svn zboy| resjd Pjndbs oyyjpbc% Jc ebpby
aboyc Saoeb |}boh |n fbesdz ny dnnh |n hjec% Ab dbc Pjndbs sn
aby ibc$ aby `bbs fnjef vj|} vj|} vj|} ne sab kbsod nny% \ab
lnrdces bpbe dj`s aby dbf| nesn sab kossyb|| resjd Saoeb |ojc$
Sabyb znr fn$ P$ yoj|b znry yjfas `nns env%
Env saos vo| bsybkb iyojevo|ajef% Nelb Pjndbs doz
}yneb ne sab ibc$ bzb| ldn|bc oec ioybdz iybosajef$ Saoeb
sryebc snvoyc kb% Aj| `olb |aj`sbc `ynk odkn|s }oybesod sn J
yboddz cnes djhb znr% J }yb||bc kz iolh ofoje|s sab vodd je oe
ossbk}s sn }rs kojkrk cj|soelb ibsvbbe r|%
Yojeb% Saoeb ocpoelbc |dnvdz$ o| j` syzjef sn kohb |ryb
J lnrdces b|lo}b% J ebbc sn henv bpbyzsajef%
J |annh kz aboc$ sboy| odybocz o|a+nncjef kz `olb% J
n}bebc kz knrsa sn }ynsb|s$ irs nedz o |syoefdbc vajk}by
lokb nrs%Saoeb enccbc o| pjfnynr|dz o| J |annh$ |jdbesdz knlhjef
kb% Bpbyzsajef$ Yojebz%
Oec sabe kz ynnk abdc aod` o cnwbe }az|jljoe| oec J vo|
|syo}}bc sn Pjndbs| ibc ib`nyb J lnrdc |lybok% Vabe J eoddz
ybdbo|bc sab yofb$ Saoeb |do}}bc o |jdbelby ne kz saynos oecdboebc olyn|| kb sn |nnsab aj| }ybljnr| P%
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Sab }az|jljoe| ossolabc djpb+|sybokjef |sjlhby| odnef kz
`nybaboc% Saoeb olsjposbc sab }yngblsjne |lybbe je kz ynnkoec djehbc sab |sybokjef sn sab yjfas `ybqrbelz%
Bpbyzsajef$ ab yb}bosbc$ odd sab hjeceb|| fneb `ynk aj|
b}yb||jne%
Pjndbs| cyoje snykbesbc kb% Ens nedz iblor|b sab |o`bsz
n` kz os saos Jc vnyhbc |n aoyc sn |blryb aoc ibbe |aossbybc$
irs iblor|b Pj aoc |nkb `ybohz |sr`` fnjef ne je aby aboc%
Oec J fns sn |bb js odd% Bpbyzsajef$ gr|s djhb Saoeb |ojc%
Sab |anv odvoz| |soys| vjsa vaos sab cyojebb voes| kn|s$
iynoclo|s saynrfa kz snrla sn sab djpb+|sybokjef |sjlhby| sn
sab }yngblsjne |lybbe%
Saj| fjyd aoc js ioc `ny |nkb frz% J ebpby grcfb vaos J
|bb je|jcb |nkbneb| aboc$ irs J |ryb cjces voes sn vjseb||
krla n` saj| ybdosjne|aj}%
Saoeh`rddz$ aby kbknyz n` sab frz vo| iynhbe% En eokb$
en `olb$ nedz o `bbdjef% Sab kn|s }nvby`rd `bbdjef7 dnpb%
J cjces recby|soec saos odd+lne|rkjef bknsjne% Jc ebpby`bds js lanhb je sab iolh n` kz saynos oec irye ibajec kz bzb|%
\nne benrfa$ Pj| voes kny}abc jesn |nkbsajef ijffby
oec `oy knyb coefbynr|`ybbcnk%
\ab lyopbc vjsa bpbyz iby$ lbdd$ oec qrodjsz n` aby incz$
kjec$ oec |nrd sn ib `ybb% En vnecby |ab lnrdces vodh neaby nve }nvby% J` |ab lnrdc$ |abc ib yreejefoec sbddjef
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bpbyzneb |ab kbs sn cn sab |okb% Oec sabzc odd nibz$ iblor|b
Pj }n||b||bc |nkb abopz+crsz kjec lnesynd%Sboy| |djc cnve kz labbh| oec }nndbc je kz boy|% J cb|+
}byosbdz voesbc sn |sn} sab cyoje$ irs J lnrdces%
\n J |r``bybc je Pj| lb||}nnd n` voes resjd aby kjec aoc
ibbe bk}sjbc n` js%
Aby| vo| kz dnefb|s cyoje bpby% Jpb ebpby b}byjbelbc
saos dbpbd n` cb|jyb ib`nyb$ oec ebpby voes sn ofoje%
Irs sab |anv cjces |sn} sabyb% O`sby J |bb vaos sab }by+
|ne voes| kn|s$ Jk$ ra$ }yjpjdbfbc sn |bb vaos vjdd ao}}be j`
sabz fbs js% Kz `osaby ocnybc saj| }oys n` kz oijdjsz% Ab r|bc
kb sn cj|lnpby sab jeebykn|s |blybs| n` san|b ab cbbkbc
coefbynr|%
Je Pj| cyoje$ J |kbddbc njdz |knhb oec vbs lbkbes% J
so|sbc sab syjrk}a o| js kjbc vjsa `ryz%
J |ov vaos vnrdc ao}}be j` Pj fojebc aby `ybbcnk% J |ov
Saoeb vbb}jef jesn aj| aoec|% J |ov sab |hz o|ajef vjsa yb$
sab vjec anvdjef vjsa kz `osaby| |lybok|%J |ov @ybbcnk `odd%
Oec |soecjef ebs sn Pj$ voslajef js odd `ynk o anpby+
inoyc$ J |ov kz|bd`%
\nkbneb bv r} ibajec kb$ oec J sryebc os aj| snrla%
Ab hj||bc kb$ oec vb |rypbzbc sab laon| vjsa nry efby|besvjebc%
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Oinrs sjkb$ Freeby$ Pj |ojc$ aby pnjlb o kj n` |oylo|k
oec }nvby%Saos| vabe J |soysbc |lybokjef$ insa je sab pj|jne oec
je ybod dj`b%
Dosby$ J fns oe n`ljod b+lnkk vjsa Saoeb| eokb cbln+
yosjef sab dbssbyaboc% J lnrdc ebpby sbdd oezneb oinrs vaos Jc
|bbe cryjef sab cyoje% Ens Pj% Ens Loeene%
Oec b|}bljoddz ens kz coc%
Saos vo| bjfas knesa| ofn$ oec Jc ibbe voslajef Freeby
Gokb|ne bpby |jelb%
Sab Be`nylbkbes N`lby| olsbc odd grk}z oynrec kb$ oec
sabzc }rs ne san|b sajlh fdnpb| ib`nyb lr`ef kb% Js| ens
djhb J loe }az|jloddz arys sabk% Irs en neb voes| sabjy
cbb}b|s |blybs| b}n|bc%
Ens bpbe kb%
Nelb je|jcb Yj|b Neb$ J hb}s gbyhjef sn o |sn} je sab |sbyjdb
aodd|% Sabe Jc fbs o irk} je sab iolh odnef vjsa o eo|szvnyc$ oec Jc sohb o `bv knyb |sb}|% J hebv vabyb sabz vbyb
abycjef kb%
Doinyosnyz |bpbe%
Kz saynos |bjwbc$ oec J |soddbc ofoje% Saj| sjkb$ sab irk}
iblokb o }r|a$ irs |sjdd J lnrdces knpb% J cyn}}bc sn kzhebb|$ |aohjef kz aboc% J loes% ]dbo|b% Cnes kohb kb%
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Fbs r}$ |rfoy% Ynrfa aoec| fyj}}bc kb recby kz oyk|
oec aordbc kb sn kz `bbs%Sboy| |sybokbc cnve kz `olb% En% ]dbo|b% Kz pnjlb
lokb nrs lajdcdjhb$ `rdd n` cb|}byosb `boy% J cyn}}bc sn sab
fynrec ofoje%
Jdd loyyz znr j` J aopb sn$ oe re`yjbecdz n`lby saybos+
bebc%
En/ J |lybokbc% En/ J vnes/ Vjsa kz aoec| lr``bc$
J lnrdces cn krla irs djb os ne sab fynrec oec yndd ovoz
`ynk sab n`lby| iyopb benrfa sn fbs ldn|b% J hjlhbc os oez+
sajef saos lokb eboy% Kz aboc }nrecbc8 kz vyj|s| olabc
`ynk sab lr``|%
Irs J oi|ndrsbdz lnrdc ens fn je saos doi vjsanrs o fas%
]by`bls Corfasby ib cokebc% J gr|s lnrdces%
@jeoddz bpbyzneb iolhbc ovoz% J hebv |nkbneb aoc
b+lnkkbc kz coc% \ryb benrfa$ ab sbdb}nysbc yjfas ebs
sn kb%
Ab |kjdbc$ fberjeb$ osabydz% Oe ols `ny sab n`lby|$ odd n`js% Yojeb$ anebz% Ab lynrlabc ebs sn kb%
\ars r}/ J |anrsbc je aj| `olb% Gr|s |ars r}/
Ab }rs aj| ioyb aoec ne kz labbh$ oec sab fb|sryb vo|
|n }oybesod kz aboys |qrbbwbc% @os sboy| `nykbc je kz bzb|$
oec J |niibc oec |niibc$ iblor|b ab vo|es vboyjef fdnpb|%Ab vo|es o`yojc sn snrla kb%
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